#and im not that invested to the story to dedicate my time and make a shonen comic outta it

[mc-survivalist-steven]

I've been thinking and thinking. Call me a researcher or just a stranger. And something's been gnawing on my mind.

I didn't know Herobrines could reproduce let alone be female. There's an overabundance in males and females are a rarity from my observation. That is such an odd thing. Not to mention that Herobrines don't really- reproduce. Of course with exceptions, but the cases I know do it rather traditionally.

Your mother- (likely a brine all the same - as you describe yourself one too) Your mother produced children by spreading spores of some kind. Some parts of herself I guess. A power to mend into the elements and create another living being in such a way is baffling.

To get to the point and my actual question.

I've been pondering- spreading Herobrine offspring on such a wide scale (as you mentioned you had plenty of siblings) and seemingly not weakening herself if she could do that en mass. Maybe it's less of making more Brines from herself but something more akin to Brine-Spawns. (like vampire-spawns- a weaker kind of vampire sprung from a true one)

With that odd thought- you are the child of a Herobrine, but not a full brine yourself? Do you think that is kinda true?

Brines are such a rarity, your mother releasing tousands of offspring into the world and them being true Brines seems a little unreasonable.

Of course I may be mistaken as every elusive indivitual of a brine works different than the next. Maybe you and your "species" aren't actual brines by many a definition from each their own flaws.

Ah..... I've been talking a lot. What do you think about this whole- thing? Maybe you know more than I do. Probably.

[sorikkung]

people interacting w wgoin in my notes... this would be a rly bad time to say all my writing will probably be on hiatus for the indefinite future huh

[orcelito]

Somehow Sentido has reached 500 kudos. In less than a month.

It took months and months of work on discacc to reach 500 kudos. This is honestly kinda crazy to me

[sunsetkerr]

SAMMY'S GIRL (ii) | s.kerr

summary: MORE headcanons on your relationship with sam, read part one here.

pairing: fem!reader x sam kerr

notes: getting out lots of little headcanons because they're just so much fun to do. sammy's girl is my favourite of all my girls (completely bias, sorry) but if you want to see what other 'wags' are in my lil universes, check out my masterlists!! each 'wag' is also going to get their own tag, so check those out for little file facts, or ask questions/send thoughts so we can add to them all!! lots of love

as previously established, you’ve grown up with sam right

you’ve known her through every little phase and every weird obsession she’s ever had

you know her deepest secrets and she knows yours

its honestly quite jarring because you both know each other better than you know yourselves

you’re not at sporty as sam, only relaly dabbling in school netball for carnivals and stuff when they needed extra girls

but sam would try and include you as much as she could in all aspects of her career

if she was having a solo gym day, or just going on a walk

guess whos coming with!?!!!

its you!!!!!!

if she wants a swim at the beach for recovery

she is making sure that you tag along

(not just to see you in your bathers, its for recovery, have some professionalism please)

sam has spent half of her life without you and having to settle for seeing you through a screen

so once you’re in london with her permanently, she is making the most of that

she needs to shower? you’re passing her body wash

she’s hungry? shes making two servings and you’re eating with her

she wants a coffee? youre heading to your favourite spot

you are always around

and sam isn’t having it if you’re not

when she does have to go away?

youre getting texts from guro, erin and millie complaining about her

‘omg she wont shut up about you’

‘if sam doesn’t stop talking im gonna clock her y/n, i won’t be held responsible for my actions’

‘she’s at a new level of pathetic, please come get your girl’

but they understand, they love you too

the entirety of the chelsea squad know you’re at every game

they have a dedicated seat for you in the family and friends section

everyone is away that it’s your seat

millie’s fiancée wards people away from it

he once had to face the consequences of sitting in your seat

he wouldn’t wish an angry emma hayes or sam kerr upon anyone

but its not all about sam

she is just your biggest cheerleader

you were able to finish your degree online and were lucky enough that your credentials in australia carried over to the uk 

so you started working there

im picturing sports journalism???????? you were forced to be around sport your entire life that it kinda just became a natural thing

you were so well-informed on so many different sports it was crazy

sam loved plugging anything you were writing

you posted a new article? she’s sharing that shit on her instagram story

you won an award for a piece? she’s at the ceremony

you’re working overtime to get a project finished? she’s ordering you dinner to the office

as much as sam is a professional and very famous athlete

she’s still just sammy to you

and she’s never forgotten that

but to her, you are the best thing to ever happen to planet earth

and she makes sure that everyone knows

living with sam is lots of fun

you relish in all of the time you get to spend together

call it making up lost time

sure, she leaves her stuff everywhere

but you’re guilty of that too

you still hold each other accountable

‘sam you didn’t do the dishes’

‘okay and you didn’t hang out the laundry’

‘… fair enough’

making dinner together is just chaotic 

sam can only cook breakfast, she excels at smashed avocado

so she really lets you take the reins on dinners 

she succumbs to the sou-chef life

you force her to watch movies with you

she argues and says that tv shows are better

(even though you know she’s completely invested in whatever film you’ve chosen)

you have a little brother who just idolises sam

and he has since the day he was born

he was a classic accident child, a real surprise for your parents

but watching him grow up was just the best

hes the biggest women’s soccer fan you know

he’s up-to-date on all of the woso drama

definitely can tell you the entire timeline and drama of the mcfoord relationship 

so when he’s old enough

sam flies him over to the uk all the time

he just loves sam so much

he wears her jersey to every game, saying he doesn’t want anyone elses

(maybe maccas, but that’s a different story)

and sam is estatic to have him there

definitely walks out with him as her mascot on multiple occasions

sam isn’t super touchy feely in front of others

but when shes drunk, she can’t help it

she just wants to hold you and she doesn’t care who’s around to see it

sam really loves watching men at bars or in clubs try to hit on you

just to go and ruin their fun

it’s her favourite pastime really

sam’s extra sappy and clingy when tired

after a big night or a tiring game, she wants to curl up next to you and have you hold her until she falls asleep

sometimes it’s a foreign feeling for you

sam is almost always the big spoon

so you really drink in the feeling whenever she feels vulnerable enough to let you hold her for a change

sam is also extra attentive when you’re not feeling well

she’s so doting and always checking in on you

if shes around, you’re being waited on hand and foot

‘are you okay? do you have a temp?’

‘let me get you some water’

‘i don’t like the sound of that cough, y/n’

if she’s away for a game, your phone does not stop ringing

she’s always texting when she has a spare minute 

and if she has more than ten minutes to spare, she’s calling you to see how you are

sam just adores you

the fans adore you even more

the amount of tiktok edits of you and sam are crazy

the one of you in the stands after her goal against england in the world cup went viral

the way you jumped out of your seat and almost threw yourself over the barrier was on the news the next day

the clip continuing as sam ran over to your section, as you both shouted in celebration to each other

or the clips in the matildas doco series of the two of you

the lesbians went feral for that shit

everyone wants what you have

everyone wants you

you are that bitch

sam knows it too

and she’s not afraid to let people know just who you are

because you’re hers 

forever and always

[ganondoodle]

so guess what they released more interviews and i think given what a writing shitshow totk was and what they have been saying in all these interviews is actually painting a really bad picture; i dont have the time, nor the energy to go over every detail

but they were commenting on people wanting the more linear format back and aonuma himself basically said that he thinks people who feel like that do so only bc of nostalgia and "Why do you want to go back to a type of game where you're more limited or more restricted in the types of things or ways you can play?"

what .. the fuck, more freedom DOESNT automatically mean better??? like ... restriction can be a GOOD thing just as tooo much freedom can be BAD?? like in totk??? are you fukcing shitting me- what the hell are games even for then, has he had an awakening to the fact that he actually just loves sandbox games without realizing it???? im not playing fucking zelda for a sandbox, especially not when its advertised as a somethign else

its pretty clear that they want to keep this format going with everything they say there, ... maybe it really is over huh

also i hate how they kept talking around answering anything about story/lore; they go asked how ganondorf even connects to ganon since theres nothign about it in game, and all they got out was welllll we dont wanna say anything bc its up to the player; about every question you got the answer of "make somethign up yourself" which is just ... its really clear they dont actually care but dont want to say everything is meaningless actually, so they try to be vague about it and with doing that really just confirm they didnt think about it and they dont care- so no lore actually matters, nothing thats been said or established has any meaning bc they will get rid of it the second it crosses paths with their new -more freedom equals better- philosophy, they say its bc they want you to be "free" to think up anything but apparently dont realize that when there are no rules, no consistent lore or anything that it ROBS it, it stops having meaning, its fun to connect dots only when there are rules you need to work with and dots to connect in the first place, when you have an established world with its restrictions it drives you to think more creatively about things- but when there are no rules?? its fucking boring!! thats what it is!!

when you discard all rules i wont care to get invested into anything bc i know it will not be considered again, be done away with without any reason and wont have influence on coming or previous games ... bc there are no rules, anything is possible and everything can be changed any second, so nothing matters

(they also talked about the many viral videos of those very few dedicated people that make godzilla mechs in totk and how happy they are about that- i get that to some extent, but the way they kept talkign about it really just felt like it confirmed my suspicion that that whole mechanic was mainly implemented to let people do that since that gets shared around en masse making it seem like that is why people enjoy it while neither the game nor the narrative are build around it in any way ..)

it just makes all the time i spend thinking, feeling and theorizing about zelda like a true waste of time, bc nothing matters and there are no rules-

i am someone who greatly enjoys working with and around established lore/rules, its fun to me to recontextulize things by being smart or creative with it all without breaking anything or as little as possible of the established things!

if i wanted to do just do anything i want I COULD HAVE ALREADY DONE THAT bc theres nothing actually stopping anyone to just make up what they want! i DONT need canon to lose all rules for that??!!

maybe ill have to make myself believe the franchise ended with botw on a good note ... ono

[nomsfaultau]

thank you so much for writing mandatory family reunion. i just reread it for the eighth time. i think im going to dedicate my life to life to reading your other sbi fics until you update again. also; do you have any tips for committing to fics and not leaving them half-finished?

ahhhh that’s so sweet glad you enjoyed! As for writing fics, having it be your special interest really helps. But for more general advice on finishing:

-Don’t stick to just one story. Which seems counter intuitive! But inevitably you’re going to hit a snag in one story. So instead of stopping writing at all, switch projects. Writing involves a whole bunch of thinking, and stuff needs time to percolate in the back of your head. But having a small project to work on in the mean time keeps you engaged in the writing process, gives you practice, makes you feel like you’re making progress, and allows time to work out the other story. I personally have 1-2 main projects, Fault and MFR, and then rotate a couple back burner stories that I work on whenever I get inspiration and fully expect to have very slow progress and possibly never finish. Short stories, one shots, hell even just writing little one off scenes that don’t go anywhere. It’s a way to keep writing fun and thus you’re more likely to continue working on the stuff you’re trying to complete. Don’t feel bad if there’s breaks between working on your main project. Writing involves a lot of thinking and it takes time to do that.

-Devoting time to do that thinking also significantly helps. When you’re falling asleep can be a good time to rotate stories in your head. Could also be if you’re walking from place to place, or brushing your teeth, or other little gaps in the day. Even if you’re not physically writing, it’s still part of the process and can make it easier when you actually sit down to write because you know what scene you’re most excited to work on. Also, talking over your story idea with a friend is a great way to stay motivated if you can get over the mortifying ordeal of being known. You can bounce ideas off them, and other people’s investment in a project can be a great motivator to finish. Like legit a single ao3 comment once stopped me from my plan to abandon a fic. Reminding yourself why you (and other people) like the story makes it easier to want to continue.

-Keeping a rough outline of what you envision for the story can give you a road map to how close to done you are and where to go next. Just like you can hop between projects, I find jumping around the plot time line to write what scene I’m most interested in atm keeps me going instead of writing everything in order. Though, all writers have different degrees of plot planning, so that depends on your style.

-Art! I’m an artist, and while writing definitely fuels what I draw, I find doodling cool scenes I want to write really inspires me to keep going. This sorta falls under the same category of continuing to think about the story and motivating you to finish. -I found keeping a writing journal has improved how I view my writing. Basically, I’ll jot down a bullet point list of scenes worked on that week/month. Writing is a very slow process, so seeing a timeline of actual progression on a story makes it feel like I’m actually getting more out of my head and onto paper. I also jot down what ideas for scenes I came up with since that’s also part of writing, and might include a chill no stakes writing goal for that period, like work on X or Y project, or a particular scene. Sometimes my goal is just ‘write at least one sentence’. I give it lots of leeway, and accept that the muse may just be somewhere else that week. And if the goal isn’t met, no sweat! Life can get busy at times and it’s more important that you aren’t beating yourself up if it’s been awhile since you last touched a project. Forcing yourself to write a scene that isn’t ready won’t result in a good scene or an happy writer. Switch projects, give yourself time to think about it, take care of yourself, etc.

And, legitimately, don’t be afraid to abandon a piece. Maybe you’ll come back to it, maybe you won’t. It can feel disheartening to feel like you can’t seem to finish a project, but unfinished pieces also do a lot for you: they hone your craft, allow you a creative outlet, give you scenes that could potentially be reworked for later pieces, and most importantly were hopefully fun to write! Story crafting is a hobby that should bring you joy, not frustration and shame.

Like, I have stories that will never see the light of day and are just so I can have fun and poke it with a stick occasionally. I’m 100% confident in saying that every author will have tenfold the number of unfinished wips compared to complete works. That’s just part of the creative process: exploring different worlds to find the one you want to write.

Perhaps a fic might never get finished, but in the wise words of Technoblade: “if you enjoy it, it’s not time wasted, no?”

(Now, I think he was talking about murdering people, but the point still stands.)

[lokissweater]

omggg i hope this isn’t, like, looking too far forward or seem ungrateful for the hard, precious works you are feeding us… but every time you post i open tumblr hoping its nfl yuta NDXHAHEB. i’m so sorry i’ve never commented anonymously or anything, but i just wanted to let you know that i very much appreciate your time and dedication to writing and each time creating a story so engaging and written so beautifully! you are one in a million and i can’t wait to see what you come up with next! i was introduced to you via mlb!megumi pt. 2 (dw, i made sure to read pt. 1 first when i found it) and it absolutely floored me and actually made me feel really invested and excited for something! anyways, i will be quiet now! thank you so much for everything that you do and everything that you are, there will be so many wonderful things lying ahead for you 🤍

- 🪻(if it isn’t taken)

OMGGG YOU CUTIE PATOOTIE DO NOOOTTT APOLOGIZEEEEE !!! PLS I AM LITERALLY THE SAME i’m ITCHING and EAGER for nfl!yuta AND HES COMING !!! VEERRYYYY SOOOONNN MY LOVEEEE !!! ;))) <33333

AND YOU ARE SOOOOO FUCKING SWEET MAN THANK YOU SOOO MUUUCHHHH !!!! 🥹🥹🥹💕💕💕💕💕 IM SO SO HAPPY YOU DECIDED TO COME VISIT ME BABY OMFGGGG ??? AND IM EVEN HAPPIER THAT YOU FOUND ME AND LOVE MY WORRRKKSSSS all i ever want to do is make you happy and i hope i keep doing so !!!! 🥹🥹💕💕💕💕

AHHHH that anon emoji is taken but PLS get back to me with a different one my honey and i will keep track of youuuu !!! ❤️❤️❤️

I LOVE YOU DEARLY !!!! PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF OKAY <333333

MWAAAAHHHHH !!! 💕💕💕

[moth--moss]

Finally watching Grians video so I'm gonna summarize my thoughts for the hermits as it goes! This is gonna be a long one so all the summaries and thoughts below the cut :]

Ren: Absolutely love what he's doing with the Gigacorp stuff and the like, poisoned terrain and all??? Always a fan of ppl making stories and worldbuilding so we love to see it! I'm not watching Ren's pov but I've seen bits and pieces from other povs so its not completely new to me :] Ren's honestly just such a delightful person, love to see him stoppin by other ppls episodes!

Tango: One of my main povs this season, a surprise to nobody, absolutely love all the steampunk and his factory and everything he's got going on. Unsurprisingly he's found a new hole to live out of but who didn't see that one coming lmao. Tango rightfully has a place in my three-way tie for favourite hermit.

Cleo: this is my first time seeing their base this season! And damn what a shame its been this long cause I'm already really invested in the little story shes cookin up. The wizard tower is just,,,,, so cool??? I love the block palette for it! Not to mention all the armour stand work its so so cool, definitely gonna have to set aside time to watch their pov after this cause I desperately want to get the full story now! All of the spaces have character and feel very real with all the armour stand work and everything, definitely a master of her craft o7

Scar: So ive only seen Scars latest episodes and streams, i didnt watch anything before them, so it's like kiiiinda new? But also ive watched all of Grian's so ive seen most of this like, out the corner of my eye the whole time. Scar's builds always have so much story and character you love to see it, there's just so much soul and care behind his builds??? Ajcjdjacjs I got so scared seeing the creeper test tube thing empty I'm used to there bein a lil guy in there. The train is SO cool and scar is just So good at glass work??? The swaggon hat o7 emotionally i never left season 8. Scars one of my favourite hermits so i had a lot to say

Joe: another hermit i dont watch yet love dearly, hes just so much fun. Joe is just insane (/pos) and just so creative and imaginative in such a unique way, holy shit. I really need to watch more of his stuff cause the vibes are truly immaculate. Also as an aside this finally answers to me where Cubs labryinth is cause i had no idea until now lmao. That thing is MASSIVE btw. Joe Hills,,, just the whole scale of this whole thing is totally insane he deserves so much credit for this. I envy his dedication wowww.

Bdubs: Another hermit i dont watch but would love to, and who i see a lot of through other povs. Bdubs is like beyond any other builder in this game, hes like,,, a true artist, yhe way he uses blocks and everything is just ajdnfjwkdkw true art. Hes like painting, not building. Always absolutely blown away by everything he does in this silly block game. He wants to make ppl feel feelings and it DEFINITELY comes through. THERES WAS EVEN NYLIUM ON THE GROUND WHO DOES THAT! OHH and the FRAMING of it all?? The way this man thinks is just art on its own. I could look at bdubs builds forever i swear. Its phenominal. Note: keralis spotted in the storage cave <3 thats my guyyyyy. THE SILOS??? so so pretty. The way he uses thw bottom edge of the polished diorite to make those solid lines through it??? Aghhh its so cool. Blown away with how he makes depth on flat surfaces, its just insane. AND THE GRASS IS HAND PLACED? THE WATERFALLS??? Always lovely to see bdubs builds.

Cub: i know almost nothing abt what Cubs been up to except for the rockets, always lovely to see him showing up in other povs. Lovely to see him messing with sculk again, hes gone feral for it LMAO. All the sculk stuff is so interesting im probably gonna have to check out his videos also cause i am DESPERATE to know wth is going on with this because hes being so so cryptic with it. The rocket factory is just so cool? I love how much ppl can do now with the crafters.crqzy that he pulled the fireworks permit and decided to make it like a main part of his season. Just ALL IN with it. Respectable.

Etho: etho!!! Another of my main povs this season actually, which is new for me cause last time i tried to watch his season he made the shulker storage thing and it broke my brain and i couldnt understand anything. (This time it made sense though). I really love ethos base this season, even if his roof was still unfinished at this point in time lmao. I love his little pond and garden and balcony and all that. Also its not here yet in the tour but i LOVE the lighting work he did around the mailbox its SO good. Also obligqtory frogger is awesome. When the server download goes up at the end of the season there are gonna be SO many games to play o7

Impulse: impy!! We love him so much. Dont watch his episodes but love to see him around :] did not know his city was gonna be a game?? Thats so cool?? The citys already so cool and im so excited to see it finished cause its already looking lovely and i can tell its gonna be really cool all together :] love the lore and all around the city too!

Zedaph: a hermit i watched quite a bit of last season but nothing yet this one, lovely guy always a fun time :] no surprise at all to see hes doing something else fun and silly this season. This really is a season of minigames! This guy is absolutely wild and just so much fun

Pearl: another i havent been watching, to my own sadness as pearl is one of my personal favourite builders on the server! Her whole solarpunk aesthetic this season is just DELIGHTFUL. Another hermit ive been meaning to watch for a while now cause i just love how she does like,,,, everything? I love Pearl builds just so so much. Absolutely love the sunflowers in the floor of her storage (my favourite flower) and all the yellows just in general its just such a bright build and so so lovely. Theres so much character and all the build flows together so so nicely. Also her dye qnd flower shop??? SO nice with all the layering qnd the glass roofs and just how open and fresh it all feelsand qjdjfjsjdsj i just love how pearl builds so much she is KILLING IT this season

Doc: so im currently watching through docs pov and i kiiiinda dont want to be spoiled on any big projects and crazy farms hes planning, so im actually skipping his segment of the tour. Though i will still say doc is absolutely insane and i love all the crazy game breaking stuff he does, i just want to see it all as it happens :] if i do catch up eventually i may circle back to the tour episode later but for now no spoilers!

Skizz: what a delight! Havent seen his episodes but we love skizz so much, such a big heart on that guy and so glad hes here. Love him and all his gift hoarding and hes just so iconic. His big pyramid is all a big psychology metaphor and stuff and thats,, very very cool i didn't know that! Truly a season of minigames i love it!

Mumbo: ive watched some of the early stuff for his season but i had a solid like 6 months where i wasnt really into anything like at all, so i stopped watching after some of the early stuff, though i do plan to get back to his videos sometime because i love what hes doing this season! (Oh noo some of the stuff id written got deleted so i gotta try to rephrase) mumbos been getting so good at building lately and it really does show with his work this season! I absolutely love all his work with the concept art and everything, its my favourite kind of excessive and "unnecessary" worldbuilding that makes a project feel that much more alive.

Joel: I've seen joels first few episodes but dont really watch him much. Hes absolutely incredible in just how much detail he shoves into every little space. His whole base this season just feels so real and its all so intentional and well planned and thought out. His build feels almost like its just been torn out of a real city and dropped straight into minecraft, theres just so much characters and attention to his builds. Just a place i would love to visit and explore. One thing: i mean this in the best way, but his little songs give me the WORST second hand embarrassment its so hard to listen to LMAO thats most of why i have a hard time watching his videos. Hes so cringe and i absolutely LOVE it. Never change, joel

Keralis: remember what i said about my three way tie of favourite hermit?? Keralis firmly holds a place right up there <3 another of my favourite builders and always holding just the most DELIGHTFUL vibes and just the sweetest face on the whole server. Embarrassingly i am... not fully caught up on his episodes, ive only seen up to episode 10. In my defence i only came back to hermitcraft in the last few months so i have a lot to catch up on! Though unlike with doc i have no qualms about spoiling myself because its not like lovely builds from keralis are anything other than my expectations :] Ive only just started his part of the tour but i know im gonna be smiling the whole way through <3 absolutely beautiful base i want to go here for vacation asap and never leave, beautiful trees and booshes and all the little huts, i love it all so so much. Also i would absolutely love a tour where keralis shows every single tree individually you dont even understand i would happily sit there and watch the entire thing <3 keralis why are you so hard to come up with a good design for i swear ill find one eventually hes just such a bug to me. I just want to sit along the side of one of the paths with a nice tropical drink its just so so lovely. If yall let me talk about keralis i will NOT be shutting up any time soon, if this mini essay is anything to go by. While on the topic id like to also talk about his season 9 base becau[character count exceeded, the following 10,319 characters have been archived and removed from this post (/j)] jokes aside, absolutely love everything keralis does, will never not be obsessed with everything he does <3

Xb: you know i gotta love him, just such a sweetheart. I dont watch him but you tend to see a lot of him if you watch a lot of keralis like i do. Absolutely delightful guy and such a sweet face :] love his little modern starter house too. Ive never actually seen his monument base thing but its so impressive. I, too, love prismarine so so much, and the oranges too its all so lovely, one of my favourite minecraft mobs <3 absolutely love his storage too with the guardian aquariums?? Amazing

Grian: another of my main povs! Love how open concept it is this season, how loose hes playing the game and how freely he's been playing it out this season, its been a really fun watch! Absolutely love the vibes of the chamber of sea critters its so atmospheric. Always love a grian build :]

Gem: another hermit whos building style i love yet dont watch sadly. First of all i just love how gem does the bright coloured roofs? Theyre very bright and i love the gradients she used with the moss and bamboo its so pretty. I didnt know her base was based on Dredge! Thats a game ive been meaning to check out and now im just more interested lmao. Gems another hermit who does just so much story with her builds and its all so interesting, definitely another high up on the list of hermits i really want to watch. Also i LOVE her little starter boat, its so cute and simple and so well executed. As well as the lighthouse! Honestly just seeing the collectors house now its gotta be one of my favourites, the colours and shapes and forms just look so nice? Nothing but praise for Gem tbh her builds this season are just lovely o7

Xisuma: we finally get to the 3rd and final hermit in the tie for my favourite! Despite the fact that... i havent watched like any of his episodes this season... i do tend to watch X more from his streams though in my defence, and hes the watchthrough im planning after i finish catching up with doc tbh. Not skipping his though cause ive already seen a lot of his base so theres not much that feels all that much of a spoiler. Plus i cant miss out on any Xisuma content <3 also to mention, i would love to be able to draw X one day but,,, i cant draw armour. One day o7 back to the topic of the tour though! I love the vibes and palette and everything hes going for this season! Its so structural and i just love the aztec inspiration! Its very natural and overgrown and its just amazing and impressive. X is just always just so delightful :] i honestly love his storage too with the walls of shulkers and all the colours and everything, and all the sorting and stuff its so cool. X does just so much impressive, i envy his organization especially. Honestly such a delightful person and i always love tuning into his streams and videos alike, and hopefully i finish my doc binge so i can watch xisumas season 10 episodes finally cause im really looking forwards to them in particular! He definitely doesnt give himself enough credit as a builder (a common theme among some hermits sadly). I love all the farms and stuff! I really want to get more into farming and stuff in general personally cause i love automation in any way i can, ive just yet to learn it for minecraft. The Golia copper machine is so cool?? I remember the big aging machine from i think last season, where it spread all the stuff out and brought them together when it was aged or something? Idk i love copper farms even if they are a little less useful now... x is just so cool and delightful :]

Wels: Tbh i know very little about welsknight, hes a pov i dont watch and one that doesnt really interact with my main povs, but hes a very pleasant individual! i really like his build and can appreciate a man with a distinct aesthetic! the silhouette and shapes of the castle is really nice! its just a very solid base :]

Beef: i dont watch beef personally but i did see quite a bit of him at the start of the season through... a certain unnamed perspective that i watched when the server first started, and also because he does show up through some other povs i watch too! He's a really nice guy and its always lovely when he stops by other povs :] i really do like how hes done his base this season with the big open farm, hes done it well!

Hypno: Another hermit i really dont know well, for similar reasons to welsknight, since he didnt really do a tour theres not as much i can say because i really dont know much of anything about him, to be honest. his base is really cozy though! ive only ever seen his exteriors as people fly past/over his base, but its really cozy and warm! ive always been a fan of pink and brown together in general :]

False: another hermit i dont know all that much, admittedly, but another lovely member of the server, i also dont really know what shes been up to this season, but i really like it! The colours, texturing, and shapes are all really interesting! I love the industrial underbelly, its so interesting and cool! False is actually another hermit i really would like to check out at some point! I love the vibes :] I also love the little hints of lore! the trees and terrain is also very nice! id like to see more of what shes been working on! if any false fans see this feel free to hit me up id love to know more abt her and all that!

Jevin: another hermit i dont know very well but i do see him on some other hermits streams sometimes and he is also a very good vibe when hes around! ive never seen his base before but i really love the enchanted forest! never get enough of those. plus the ambience and sounds are so unsettling and its just so cool. i love the palette and its very interesting! I love how dark and moody it all is, theres a really nice atmosphere to everything hes done so far!

And obviously finally the shopping district, what a lovely mishmash of all the hermits and their building styles and its all so lovely. Absolutely loved this video even though it took me like two whole days to get through. im so excited to watch more of these povs that ive gotten new interest in, not to mention the reminder that im only caught up on one of my three favourite hermits, im really overdue a few proper binges, huh?

If anyone actually did read all of these little blurbs thanks so so much for bearing with me, I know I definitely gave some hermits a little more time to talk about than others, and i feel bad for the first few because i may not have gone in depth about how i felt about them as i may have if theyd been later on, but i dont want to worry about revising all my thoughts on everything, this has already been a massive little project for me to basically journal these thoughts as i watched and i dont have the time to do it all over again lmao.

I love each and every hermit so so much for all they do, and im so glad grian did this mid-season tour so we could get a full look of the server all in one place! its lovely to get to see all the work everyone is putting in and how everything is coming together, i know theres always so much from the seasons before this i watched that i still know next to nothing about, so its really cool to get to look at it all!

Thanks for joinin me for this essay of thoughts and ramblings if you took the time, again i really do appreciate it! lmk what yall thought too im so curious to learn so much more that i may have missed in my watchthrough :]

o/

[seonghwacore]

if you don't mind me sliding in about the kq / releases / frequency things because... i agree. while it is understandable that with a growing audience there is higher demand for 'something new' than before, there is a difficult balance that needs to be struck between 'fast music' and 'depth of musical releases'. in my personal view, work and generally golden hour part 1 did not have enough time to marinate properly before i sooort of started to forget about it/devalue it in terms of personal impact. it is literally the beginning of a new era, the movement of lore ateez away from universe z... but it feels?? not important?? at all? maybe it is just me but a lot of things are feeling either exhausted and depleted, or are racing on ahead so quickly that it is making me experience some odd version of burnout.

similarly i have some opinions about kq's strategy when it comes to marketing, presence and investment into different regions... but i would not want to spam your ask box.

genuinely, idk, but thank you for sharing your thoughts and i hope mine are okay too and i would love to hear any and all of yours!

hello! so you decided to dedicate your energy and time for my yapping 🤣

i appreciate you for sharing your thoughts really. it's always nice to be able to discuss. i did talk about this to other atinys who have been in the fandom for way longer and from them, i learned that quick comebacks had been a common practice in kq. however, i saw a lot more variety shows and various types of schedule during 2019-2021 and i thought, what's stopping them from doing these again in the latest era and just releases music?

esp they often incorporated their lore in those variety shows. AND I WAS LIKE, KQ. YOU COULDVE DONE BETTER NOW THO??? because the world is such an intense series, even with the spin-off halazia. if i was kim kyuwook i would sell my car and come to work riding a bike to fund the production for the world's lore. plus they need to return don't stop mv back to youtube or who do i need to bazooka time, kq, just say the name. but they're just closed like that and then 4 months later, it's golden hour.

i feel a huge loss with the world ep 2 and fin: will's VERY QUICK descend [from the mainstream] because the entire outlaw album is otherworldly, never done before. i hope they could release something that supports their music (then outlaw being performed only once??? and none for dune???) i regret that honestly. there are albums that imo couldve been the "great attractor" where fans can theorize, even grow the story and lore, give more inputs and so on for a longer time.

but also 80 people to maintain 2 global stars asjdals i yeah... i won't complain no more 😂 im not sure with their strategy atp but feel free to share your thoughts again in my ask box, no pressure at all. anytime you want hahaha.

[nmzuka]

So like, what is Arms about anyway?

I know it's a game, and I think I always assumed it was like Smash Bros or something, but it sounds like there's a storyline? Lore? Plot??

Also please talk about the two characters you always draw. I wanna know about them individually+as a couple (even if it's not a canon thing, I still wanna hear about why you ship em, what their dynamics are, what makes the relationship interesting etc)

Oh boy this is gonna be a long reply lol but appreciate the ask! Im gonna put this under a read more cause it got really long even tho I feel like there is a lot more I could say ^^;;

So yeah ARMS is a fighting game but I would kinda compare it more to Punch Out! then Smash? your pov is behind the character and you’re more or less boxing but the gimmick is that the characters have extendable arms so it’s not like as close quarters as boxing haha You’d think with how invested I seem to be in it that there would be some deep and engaging plot but there isn’t really? There is a “story mode” where you just play thru the Grand Prix to win the ARMS League Championship You do get snippets of character lore from this in the form of dialogue from the announcer Biff (who like… might be a god or something from one of the Fighters cultures??) but it’s all just kinda random fun facts  As for like game universe lore it’s all very vague The ARMS gene has been around for a looong time (where it came from we don’t know) but it causes people’s arms to become spring like This usually manifests in teen years (tho it can happen at any time), usually the person wakes up with their arms changed, and it’s typically something the person was around a lot that their ARMS takes on the material of (sometimes it affects people’s hair as well) ARMS can be hard to control and will randomly uncoil at times and that’s why people wear the masks as control of the ARMS are connected to the eyes (people with ARMS also have spiral irises)  There’s very few like concrete things… there was suppose to be a comic that would expand on the lore and explain things (like the fact that Spring Man is technically the 3rd “Spring Man” as its a title passed on) but sadly they quietly canceled the comic after making us wait like for years with no update about it :////

I could go into more details about things but that’s like the broad strokes of the world at least

I do think the vagueness of it and the bare bones of the Fighters tho is kinda why it still has some very dedicated fans? Everyone is more or less able to take it and make it their own by filling in the blanks of the characters and the lore so we’ve all just kind of made it our own (why I’ve thought many times to just take the characters and make them ocs because at this point they really feel like it haha)

As for the two I’m always drawings…Ribbon Girl is a famous pop idol singer and Kid Cobra is a streamer/video maker and snakeboarder (an in universe sport like skateboarding) he’s also one of the rare people born with ARMS and he keeps his identity secret They are only canon in my heart as I just think they are perfect together haha they fill my love of the “bad boy/good girl” troupe (shipping them at all started out as a joke but damn if it didn’t progress quickly) This will start going more into my own hcs for the characters but I think how well they fit together. They’re very opposite but also similar and bring out better parts of each other Ribbon is very much a people pleaser and has been fairly sheltered, unable to do much of her own things because of breaking into the idol role at a young age (and also a bit because of her mother directly…) KC is very much the opposite haha he does what he wants But they’re both living under a public persona and part of the dynamic I enjoy is them breaking thru each other’s persona in a way I don’t see them able to with anyone else KC helping Ribbon learn to do things for herself, that she doesn’t need to be what others want her to be and should be living her life how she wants Ribbon helping KC open up, to know he doesn’t have to hide who he is from others They’d help each other become better versions of themselves and I just love that for them hhhh Their relationship would be a tender and hesitant one (their personas again get in the way) Ribbon as an idol isn’t supposed to date and KC worries his reputation (as a streetsmart skater punk) will be bad for her reputation. Ribbon worries about the attention she’ll bring to KC (he obviously wants a certain amount of attention but also tries to be very secret) Just a lot of uncertainty from both of them about trying to date but damn the feelings are there and can’t be ignored! They’ll figure that shit out as they go and if it all falls apart in the end well at least the highs were good while it lasted (not that it does they’re gonna be together forever!)

I also enjoy thinking of the dynamic of them being playful and silly together hhgghg KC loves to joke around and shit which does make Ribbon laugh a lot but also makes her be like “omg why are you like this??” Aaaa this reply is truly a ramble and so long even tho I feel like I’ve hardly gotten into any details. I’m not great at explaining things with words that’s why I try to draw Ribbon and KC as much as possible to show people what I see in their relationship I think they are perfect and really just can’t picture them with anyone else hhhh

[noxiatoxia]

even as a small kid i felt like i didnt belong in this world. not in qn edgy way either but genuinely in a "i was born in the wrong lifetime" sort of thing. and then as i got older i got obsessed with the idea of stories and characters and people that were fixated on suicide from the moment they were born or people who never felt like they should have been brought into society or be human. i got obsessed with stories about unconventional means of happiness and love and living. ways of living life or being happy that most people would be perplexed at, i found comfort in those sort of stories, because i felt it was the closest id ever get to feeling like i belonged.

noww not to say i DONT like living. in fact i do. i have fun & despite all the bullshit in my life i do not want to end it all or w/e. i can have fun and be happy but that does not change the fact it all feels like a lie to others. hanging out with friends and talking to family feels like an eternal game im playing, never actually connecting with anyone or anything. and thats fine, bc its still fun and i still have fun, but living life day to day feels as real and sincere as a video game. i could play games for hours, get immersed and invested in them, fall in love with those pixels on the screen and cry at the story, but theyre still made up lives inside a digital world at the end of the day. thats what my life feels like. a very very fun video game! but its all shallow anyways. idk if that really bothers me exactly. i do often times find myself yerning for that place i belong that ive dreamt of before i could even read. as an abstract concept, one with the earth, or somewhere in the atmosphere, in space, dunno. i know ill never find it in this lifetime, and thats fine, as long as i can have fun and adventurw right now. and then when i die, i hope i can find where i truly fit in, and what my soul truly was meant to be.

i could go on abt how its likely this is a big reason i project myself through media and rely on it heavily to express myself, since im not really myself in real life, dont really have a being in real life, so i can pour my base desires and wishes into a fictional world where it all makes senae to me. and i could also acknowledge that i might be a bit mentally unwell, but if i have felt this way my whole life, perhaps this is just who i am. as ive always felt, some people simply are not destined to be human or to be alive. what some people want or how thwy feel cannot be changed through reprogramming or drugs. they are "lost causes", those who want nothing more than to dedicate their lives to killing, to killing themselves, to drugs, to living in the woods, to living with wolves. their happiness and desires are unconventional and perhaps can never be changed. maybe theyre "broken", but theres a lot of them out there, and i feel a connection with them. we get one life, lets live it how we want, theres so much more outside of this constructed society. normal is weird and weird is normal. for me, ill just wait.

[hyunjinspark]

JADE I love how this chapter is a full on 180 degree turn from the last chapter. The past few chapters were so full of angst and the whole situationship was so hopeless that reading this one made me feel I'm reading something situated in a parallel universe.

Hyun had the biggest character development in a way. All this time he pushed away y/n knowingly or unknowingly and now he's just desperate to be with her, help her in her lowest.

AND I cant describe how much I'm in love with y/n this chapter. It feels like she radiates a whole different aura now. More confident and vocal, which we hadn’t seen for quite a few chapters. It's as if hyun has that effect on y/n not in a "I can change you" way but more like a "I can make you be a better version of yourself" and I just so love it. Even though it goes both ways.

ALSO THE WHOLE PARTY WAS A VIBE. It reminded me of daejon gang(imissthempleasebringthembacksoon) and jisung is such a sweetheart. And the last paragraph was just so SWEET.

Nevertheless, not gonna lie I am skeptical if they are in a relationship or not. Are they, Jade? Or will we find out? 🤭

And i wanted to say this has to be one of your best chapters ever written. The plot gets so different just in one chapter and it feels like it’s time to start a new era. A new arc.

Jade you are one hell of a talented writer. At some point I feel like I am invested in this story as a dedicated fan of slwy than as a stay. Can't wait for the next chapters!!!

I love you sm and take care of yourself too.

~From the anon who starts off with calling you JADE in all caps~

hello ! it definitely has a different vibe, and things will be shifting in the next few chapters which i am very excited about, but not fully letting go of that angst yet…what can i say, i love my angst 😔

im so glad you love yn ! she’s definitely owning up to herself and who she is more so ☺️

thank you so much. your words are so sweet. im so happy you love it !

[lotus-lamps]

im bored so im gonna post my ao3 works here lmao (yes i AM just going to copy the format)

(ao3 link if you prefer to read it there)

Illusion by Day, Reality by Night

word count: 3.3k | date of creation: 12/28/2023 | status: incomplete, probably wont be updated in a while | fandom: Bungo Stray Dogs |relationships: Ranpo & Nikolai centric, + Fyodor, Fukuzawa, & Fukuchi. Minor one-sided Fyodor/Nikolai.

synopsis: Decay of Angels Ranpo au. Ranpo doesn't follow Fukuzawa's path with creating the agency, and is instead invited by Fyodor to join V, or the Decay of Angels. (angst-centric but idk how to write it lmao)

tw: minor violence, strong religious themes and trauma.

I. in which Ranpo meets an angel.

The living world is a dream, the nocturnal dream is reality.

It was a play he watched once, performed by the ever so dedicated actor Murakami Tokio, and a cast of supporting roles that were highly irrelevant.

When he finished, he found that nothing made sense to him.

Not the play, of course. The play itself was far too predictable and boring, but that was precisely why it made no sense. He was 14 at the time, and he was able to solve a mystery that was meant to be slowly revealed in a span of two hours in two minutes instead. 

Sure, he understood that the story was meant to be simple and obvious. Clearly, it was created with the purpose of shutting your brain down and simply indulging in the theatrics of the actors rather than a difficult mystery to spend your full concentration on solving. Why else would it have been so effortless for Ranpo to figure out? He knew that adults knew better than him. He was just a dumb little kid, and they were all experienced and intelligent grown ups. It wasn't possible for a naive child like himself to be the smart one here. 

What he really couldn’t fathom was the reason why so many people would watch it. It was one thing to allow yourself to enjoy mindless content now and then, but it was another to pay to watch a dull and uninteresting play. People spent 4000 yen to see this play. A LOT of people, too. Ranpo supposed that Murakami was a popular actor, especially among young women, but EVERY seat in the theater was filled. Not only that, they seemed genuinely invested in the play, as if they truly weren’t able to instantly solve the mystery. 

He was going to say something about it during the play. He desperately wanted to. He wanted to know why people sat through this as if they didn’t already know the answers, why everyone was hiding things from him and why nobody would explain anything to him. But he didn’t. He kept quiet, even though he had wanted to scream and tear his hair out because he was terrified, because he was all alone in a world full of monsters. Monsters, because he didn't understand anyone and no one would ever understand him again. But he didn’t. He didn’t say anything, because he was afraid his father would have been disappointed in him if he made a scene out of it, no matter how dead his dad was now. He still remembered the words his father spoke to him, in a gentle and understanding voice:

"Remain modest and stay silent. Don't get carried away, just watch, be quiet, and make sure not to hurt anyone with the things that you realize."

Ranpo didn't really understand what his father meant when he said that, but he listened. He clenched his fist and kept his head down, and stayed silent for all of the intermission and the rest of the play as well. Fukuzawa had stared at him strangely, since he had been constantly rambling previously, but even then Ranpo didn’t speak a word. It wasn’t anything worth bringing up, anyway.

And so when the case ended, Fukuzawa and Ranpo parted ways. Ranpo often wondered why Fukuzawa had left him behind. He knew that the bodyguard was scared of people, in a way that he wanted to stay a lone wolf for the rest of his career, but Ranpo couldn’t stop feeling like he did something wrong. That Ranpo had messed up in some way, because he had this strange feeling that, perhaps, in a distant world, they would have been close, like father and son. The two had certainly worked well together as a team, so why couldn’t it have stayed that way? What changed? Ranpo supposed that he might have been expecting too much from Fukuzawa. After all, he wasn’t obliged to rescue a random boy who just happened to stumble into a job. But now, he was alone, and he came to realize that he might always be alone. He wondered if he would ever come to terms with this fact. 

He had been tuning out for the entire play, but he still distantly registered the plot of the story. It was a tale about angels. Angels, who lost their wings and fell from the skies because of their forbidden admiration of human beings. Angels, who sought out forgiveness and a sense of understanding. 

When he walked away from the play, he had one simple and distinct thought.

Angels aren’t real.  

And yet, today, Edogawa Ranpo met an angel.

Well, “met” would be too generous of a term. Perhaps “caught a glimpse of” would be more fitting. 

Ranpo saw him from afar, legs dangling from the edge of a rooftop and holding an eager and indistinguishable conversation with a stark white dove that perched gently on his fingers. 

It wasn’t noticeable, the fact that the boy he was looking at was an angel. He had no wings, only a long, pure white cape that draped from his shoulders, and so, the wingless bird could not fly. Ranpo wondered if the boy missed the feeling of freedom, or if he longed for the free will that he had never been granted? Then perhaps, a fallen angel would be more befitting of the stranger. 

“The Decay of Angels,” Fyodor absently monologues, as Ranpo turns to look at the companion standing by his side. 

Fyodor glances in Ranpo’s direction and lets out a faint chuckle, with an empty smile that holds no sign of warmth, but his eyes are dark and almost look remorseful. 

“is the name of the organization,” He continues distantly. 

The stranger turns his head towards Fyodor and Ranpo as well, beaming at the former and waving enthusiastically, startling the bird resting on his hand moments ago. The boy has shiny eyes, but an almost empty gaze. Liar’s eyes, is what Ranpo had always called them. He wonders what secrets the boy hides within those lonely eyes. 

“And that,” he says calmly, pointing at the white haired boy and smiling with the grin of a Cheshire cat. “Is our angel.”

II. In which Nikolai Gogol finds a friend who understands his dream.

free will 

/ˌfrē ˈwil/

noun

the power of acting without the constraint of necessity or fate; the ability to act at one's own discretion.

Nikolai Gogol did not always have this dream.

He did however, always love birds. He had always thought they were fantastical, whimsical, and even other-worldly. To fly is a beautiful ability. To have strong, feathered wings, to be able to take flight into the sky and soar through the air at any time they pleased. Doves in particular fascinated him. A symbol of purity and freedom. Winged creatures, angels, were the only ones with true free will.

However, to him, the most intriguing thing about doves was the fact that they were simply just pigeons. How curious, that species with no scientific difference would be rendered so different to human perspective. While doves were regarded as graceful, elegant, and lovely animals, pigeons were seen as disgusting, foul, and dirty creatures. It reminded him of fallen angels, almost, or at the very least a faux disguise of something holy. An ordinary human being, just as normal and sinful as anyone else, hidden and dressed as a divine being. They may pretend to be an angel, but they are just as average as anyone else. The one who recognized that they were a sinner and was seen as one by most, and the one who pretended as if they were a sacred being, lying to themselves. The ordinary and the extraordinary. In the end, they were exactly the same. 

He found that free will was also a strange and interesting concept. Essentially, free will was the ability to act according to one's own decision, without any outside influence or interference. But with this very definition, he found that it simply sounded impossible to achieve. How could one know if it was really their own true mind, their own true thoughts? If you had free will, your choices would not be tempered by your surroundings or fate itself. Yet, time is inevitable. And who is to say that your thoughts are truly your own?

Human action is bound by primal instinct, raw emotion and a deceiving sense of morality. Nikolai wants to know what it means to be a free human being. It doesn’t matter what he has to do. He knows it makes him a terrible person, but that’s the best part of it, isn’t it? To act with a complete conscious awareness that your choices are morally incorrect and harmful to other human beings, and even better, to feel guilt over it, to some degree. He understands that it’s a sign of expectations, a sign of morality, but he finds that it’s a necessary component. If you feel no remorse over your actions that you understood were inherently cruel, how are you any different from a wild beast, an emotionless monster? He wishes not to act as a primal animal, but a real human being, simply a human being who rebels against God. It’s beautiful, exhilarating to be completely free of the chains society imposes onto the human brain, to fully understand what should be done and instead doing the exact opposite.

In the end, he wishes to lose himself. He dreams to let go of his life, for the freedom of his soul. Happiness no longer means anything to him. He only wants to prove his free will. He wishes to be a real human being. A free human being. One that does not fit into the puppetry that society demands. He wishes never to experience the mundane, miserable lives of people the world deems normal. They are slaves to society, mind controlled marionettes who do as told and live an empty, and unfulfilling life with no true desires. 

No one has been able to understand his dream. It’s pitiful, the lives they lead, but in a way, he is almost jealous. A bird born in a birdcage will never know what it’s like to be free. It will grow lonely and miserable, and in time it will forget how to fly. Some will live their entire, pathetic lives inside that cage. Those have no desire to escape, no desire to experience the exhilaration of freedom, the lazy, apathetic ones. The most idiotic and naive of them do not even recognize how trapped and suffocating their existence is. They believe they are in full control, that their lives are inspiring and original. The thought that they were imprisoned for their entire life never even occurs to them. He pities them. He cares little of empathy, but knows much of remorse, of misery. 

Nikolai is aware that he is not free. He may never be. He knows of his fragile and frail mortality, and his life could easily be over before he ever has the chance to break through his prison. Nonetheless, he yearns for the short lived freedom he can gain, no matter how transient those moments are, and he would gladly eradicate society in the process. 

No one has been able to understand his dream, until now. 

A boy his age, with blood stained on his hands, and an empty smile on his face. He too, is willing to destroy worthless human lives if it means he can achieve his dream. Nikolai found it admirable, how dedicated the stranger was to his goal. The boy had explained that he wished to remove society from sin, to create a perfect world free of imperfection. A part of the plan was to wipe out ability users, as the stranger saw it to be a cause for nothing but violence, bloodshed, and suffering. Nikolai found it to be partially true. He was an ability user as well, and his existence had caused the death of many in his village, and many more if he decided to join the boy in his holy mission. 

The stranger killed a person in front of Nikolai’s very own eyes. It was a gentle, silent, and merciful death. The boy had simply placed his bare hand onto the forehead of the man, and Nikolai watched closely as blood suddenly burst out of the man's head as the body fell to the floor, lifeless. The stranger had closed his eyes and mouthed a prayer while blood pooled around his feet. The boy ended with a particular line that stood out to Nikolai:

“May you be freed from the shackles of your crimes, your soul salvaged.”

It was a beautiful and raw line, and it let Nikolai feel an unexplainable sort of elation. Freedom to the soul. Perhaps he would ask for the boy to kill him. The thought of freedom even in death greatly excited him. Nikolai would only allow it on his very own terms though, as he refused to accept any end to his life that wasn’t his own decision. 

The boy turned around and faced Nikolai with a heartless smile on his face. The stranger offered his hand to Nikolai, the one freshly stained with the blood of the corpse on the ground. “Fyodor Dosteovsky,” He states calmly. 

Nikolai feels his blood pumping with exhilaration, mouth slightly agape and eyes lighting up in anticipation. Fyodor must see it too, because the corners of his mouth curl up a little higher. Nikolai seals the handshake with eagerness. “Nikolai Gogol,” He replies with enthusiasm.

Fyodor’s grin widens, baring sharp white teeth and murky eyes. 

“Welcome to the Decay of Angels, little dove.”

III. In which Fyodor Dosteovsky encounters a man with the same ideals.

“Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil.”

Russian Orthodox prayer

Fyodor Dosteovsky gingerly slips his fingers back into his black gloves. The fabric clings to the still damp blood on his skin, but he pays it no mind. He has eradicated another town's worth of ability users. He finds that it is almost too easy. Evidently, there are many whose abilities far outclass his, but he finds that the ones he has encountered are not particularly bright. Or at the very least, not sharp enough to evade a thoughtfully crafted assassination. 

It is to create a more beautiful world. He dreams of an ideal society, in a distant future. Creation can only exist with destruction. If he wishes to perfect his dream, he must eliminate any and all factors that may serve as an obstacle to his holy mission. 

I am crime.

Fyodor has an ability that kills. It is a sinful skill, a power that takes lives at a mere touch. He knows that there will be abilities far more demonic and destructive than his. With such evil in this world, he has no choice but to remove the dangers to this flawed society. Fyodor must ensure a perfect world. He is a demon, born to murder and born to destroy. He is an angel, sent from the heavens above and instructed by God himself to cleanse the world of impurity. 

He does not remember when his ability manifested, but he knows he did not always have this power. His blood is a poison, his skin venom. He is King Midas, condemned to forever silence whoever lies in his path. He is the reaper, taker of lives and embodiment of death. He is the ferryman, a guide for the dead on their journey to the underworld. 

I am punishment. 

It is not a curse, but a gift. God himself bestowed Fyodor the ability to kill. He kills for mercy, he kills for redemption. He is a saint, who grants a peaceful, calm end to the hellish suffering that is life. He is the messiah that delivers salvation to the lonely and miserable. Existence is flawed. Society is imperfect. He was born to create a beautiful world, and he must rid the planet of the filthy sinners and heartless criminals that stain this tainted society. 

Some may consider it cruel, and some may deem it immoral. He has yet to meet someone that understands his holy vision. Perhaps he was always meant to be alone on his sacred journey, purpose destined for Fyodor and Fyodor alone. Perhaps he would forever be shunned and scorned, as it had always been. He was not always a ruthless killer. He was a good person once, a long time ago. A lonely and empathetic boy that no one could understand. A kind and intelligent boy, who paid great attention to the feelings and necessities of the people around him. 

He wonders if he still is. He must be. It is a divine mission, laid out by God himself. He should not need to question the rightfulness of the holy. 

It seems as if he will not always be alone, however.

Today, he met a man who understands him. Fukuchi Ouchi, a war veteran who has grown to despise war and yearns for a peaceful world. He, too, must have grown sick of the suffocating and corrupted structure of society. He sees that warfare is pointless and destructive, a pathetic excuse for massacre and bloodshed. They must have the same ideals. The death of an individual for the lives of a thousand. To Fyodor, the death of a thousand for the eternal bliss of a million. Perhaps the life of that one singular person was just as meaningful as every one of those thousand. But they cannot afford to care about one distinct individual. 

Fyodor smiles to himself. To create is to destroy. 

There was a story once, a story about angels. They could easily be compared to special ability users. The angel was sought out because they could grant forgiveness, the sole person that could offer mercy for the crimes of humanity. Yet it was an angel that killed off the flock of clueless humans one by one. Murder by an angel. A special ability user seeked for their gift to forgive, yet just as many that could just as easily kill. How beautiful and sickening, he thought. There is no true forgiveness in this world, only revenge. Human nature is so predictable and miserably flawed. Human beings are stupid and fall into the same cycles of bloodlust and suffering over and over again, crawling out of their hellish chasms only to jump back in again. He finished the game before his victims had even begun to play. Fyodor would eliminate the angels one by one if he had to. Perhaps he would take his own head once he finished. 

I am crime. I am punishment. I am an angel, blessed and cursed with the ability to kill. People will seek me for redemption, and I will deliver his promised salvation with a touch of merciful silence. They will dream eternally, brought to the skies of heaven to fly until the end of time. The human beings that infest the planet will forever live blissfully and peacefully.

His grin grows wider, sharp teeth vaguely cutting into his lip. The metallic taste of blood seeps into his tongue. He knows he must look insane to the outsider. Perhaps he truly is. 

He would form an organization. An organization of special ability users, with as much distaste for the sins of mankind as Fyodor. V , A group of five people, born to unleash rot onto society in order to make the world a better place. It is a beautiful mission, a holy vision. A flock of angels, created by God’s hand to murder each other. 

Fyodor shakes hands with the man who understands his dream, sealing a deal. They would cooperate to create an organization born for a better world, and in the end, they would kill each other. A resentment with a bond so powerful it ties together enemies bound to betray one another.

The Decay of Angels.

that's it for now, thank you for reading :)

fic last updated on 1/15/2024. im not as active in the bsd fandom anymore, so i probably wont be updating this in a while, sorry :'D.

i dont really like writing on tumblr because its format isnt ideal for me (and no funny authors notes), but ima post it anyway cause its fun lol

[dreamweaved]

// tbh i have only recently found out about your existence because of your art being reblogged due to you opening commissions - so i decided to check you out and GOOD GRIEF (pos) .

your dedication to sticking to lore while coming up with something fresh and new and revitalizing for someone who (admittedly) was getting annoyed at struggling thru the penacony storyline due to bad management of time on my part... but regardless. your dedication is refreshing! it's lively and friendly and full of pizazz and love for your hobby!

i can tell how much you love briar already and how much you want to see briar go through so much development as well as how he might struggle through the penacony thought process "where everything is fair, because it's all a dream".

if i keep typing, i will be going on this rant forever, but.. i hope we can interact sometime in the future, but if not, that's alright too! i will enjoy observing from afar, because i'm now Invested in briar and his story.

oh goodness, , , covering my head with my jacket fr. thank you so much! i

usually don't make ocs for media unless i really like the world i'm putting them in. and the idea of molding an oc around pre existing concepts is so fun. i've been making ocs for very very long time! i enjoy a challenge! and if i don't enjoy the content i'm making them for i just wont make them for it! i'm also incredibly paranoid about the realism of my ocs fitting into a given universe too. i don't want them to be a loosely fitted piece in a puzzle. i need them to fit into the picture, as if they were there to begin with. or i will never enjoy their concept... it's kind of a flaw of mind, im a bit obsessive about it sometimes... briar in particular has become such a deeply important oc to me. i always project of them hgkjshdfg always. without fail.

i'm seriously so flattered too that it was my ART of all things that brought you to my blog. i am aware i have talent when it comes to design and art in general- but even i get a bit self conscious at times( a lot, it happens a lot ).

HONK HONK- HOW'S MY PORTRAYAL?

[seyaryminamoto]

hey hopefully these aren’t too many questions but im asking mostly because I forgot if you had said so, how is our favourite couple currently where you’re writing & how far ahead are you compared to where the readers are at? and finally how many parts will Gladiator be? I’m sure you have said it already but Im sure I have forgotten!!

Well, they're a fair amount of questions, haha, but that's fine :D

I'm still around 50 chapters ahead, but I've had to invest most of my time into art exclusively over the past weeks, it's why I haven't been able to write as much as I usually do. I was at a 60~ish chapter advantage, I'm not doing double updates atm so that the gap won't get too big to be manageable anymore. I'm pretty sure we all want to keep the update rate steady and constant all across Part 3... so the more chapters I write in advance, the better.

And Part 3 is the final part of the story, worth mentioning. The way I structure Gladiator, each part has its own particular identity as the status quo shifts in some way (Part 1: will-they-won't-they, Part 2: when will they get caught?, Part 3: all hell breaks loose), and each of them have certain storytelling climaxes that basically mark the conclusion of each part, so to speak. For Part 1, the climax was also very literal as it's when Azula and Sokka finally go all the way :'D for Part 2, the climax is the Combustion Man fight, and for Part 3... can't tell you that but I'm expecting you can guess at it pretty easily, haha. After each of these climaxes, we've had some more story to cover before switching to the next bit... Part 3 will feature the longest post-climax chunk of story since we have a lot of loose ends to tie and I would hate myself if I finished everything too quickly. Hopefully all that I just said makes sense? :'D

Also, not sure if you wanted to know this exactly but as things stand, I've posted 7 out of 33 arcs for Part 3... and I'm due to start writing arc 20 :'D Part 3 has a LOT of arcs but they're generally shorter than they were before, I feel? Definitely shorter than in Part 1, where they were the longest in the story altogether, I believe.

As for your other, spoilery question...

Currently, Sokka and Azula are in complicated territory. Which I'm sure comes as no surprise considering what's been happening in the story as of late...

Azula's position is extremely precarious even in what stability she has found, and she has far too many complicated motivations pulling at her from all sides, too many people to protect, all of which comes into conflict with the position she's stuck in for the time being. Sokka continues his full dedication to waging war, but while he's doing well at it, the enemy's upping the challenge in what's coming, and as much as he's trying not to be rash and to make his decisions carefully, he has nooo idea how uphill things are going to get for his push in the near future.

It's worth noting that Sokka and Azula have been able to communicate through their spiritual bond a few more times, as well as having multiple chances of noticing something's wrong (or occasionally, right) with the other, even at a distance. Their communication hasn't always been effective in informing them about what the other is doing... but they're learning about each other's movements through other sources now, too. As expected from our chaotic and beloved pair... neither one is to happy about the other's position atm. Which makes it really interesting to me that in all their frustrations about what's going on, the faith they have in each other really doesn't waver.

I don't think I should say much more than that, but I will say I'm looming closer and closer to their fateful reunion, it will still take some time but not a lot, all in all. I only have two big battles left to write before we get to what we're all waiting for... so I really, REALLY want to finish all the art so I can get to that ASAP XD

[shadethechangingman]

Fourth World ask: 8 and 27?

8. Have you made any fanart or written any fanfiction?

[Image ID: Three zoomed out screenshots of my art blog "Fourth World" tag.]

SELF PROMO TIME

i invite everyone to look at my FOURTH WORLD ART TAG!!! (chrono link) i hope to draw more forever people and mister miracle next year lol AND FASTBAK

[Image ID: A pic of Orion leaping in the air against a light brown backgrund. He's saying, "Reblogs help!"]

i do write fanfic but i have a REALLY hard time sharing it... like 3 ppl on earth have seen snippets of it

27. Favorite relationship, platonic, romantic or familial?

ORION AND LIGHTRAY... OUGH... i am deeply deeply invested in their canon platonic relationship but i find it quite romantic...... only twice in my life have i ever truly and really thought my ship being canon would make for a good story and orion & ligthray is one of them. though my timeline for them is waaaaaay longer than anything dc would bother with. but honestly i would take just a comic addressing their friendship in a meaningful way and not just like. lightray teasing orion or lightray being like uwaaaugh orion im dying or like whatever trash tommy k wrote with the "hes my saviour" bullshit. id like to see LR's undying dedication (NOT subservience) to orion and orions um well whatever he brings to the table here for LR (joke)