#and im just like. stop listening to joe rogan

[gaia-is-here-now]

I love it when my dad starts a conversation with me, a closeted queer person (he doesn't know) with "so how's pride month going at school so far? I'd assume it's a rainbow shit show" and then goes on about how he has no problem with gay people and trans people individually but (and I'm paraphrasing here) he doesn't like the "agenda" and how you can lose your job for refusing to gender people correctly/refusing to "cooperate" (as he said) and he had this whole moral to take out of the conversation but the only thing I learned is that I Absolutely Cannot Come Out To Him

so how are y'alls pride month going?

[plural-culture-is]

Im questioning wether i should even ask, im so hesitant about this.

Every time i go into a depressive period, i question in im really trans, if im really plural, ocd kicks in and worries about ways i might be awful.

So bear with me, if you dont answer this or the answer is painfully obvious or whatever i wouldn’t hold it against you.

As a young child i was severely abused by my father, and when we got away there was a period i don’t remember where i was in “psychosis” (quotes bc uncertainty), where i became an ape and was lost. I have only one memory from that time, where i came out of that to my mother calling my name and holding me. I only know of this time period because my mom told me about it.

Much later, when i was lonely i started to have imaginary friends, and i told my mom about them and she actually introduced the very beginning concept of tulpas to me and idfk why but she said that if they become aware and i stop being their friend they may get angry, and that sentient imaginary friends are called a tulpa. I worried about this, and idk if it was just my paranoia or something else but i did start to actualy get a vibe from my main imaginary friend like awareness, i could almost feel thoughts happening that were just sorta beyond a barrier. I stopped before anything else could happen, and i cried to my mom i was worried that my imaginary friend would hate me and become malevolent. She said that i’ll be alright, and that my imaginary friend probably still loves me.

(This is where things get confusing)

Few years gap, i am still very lonely but probably more, i start having the beginning signs of depression i think.

My mom started getting into new age stuff and psychic things, and i asked for a pendulum of my own to talk to spirits, one of which i formed a relationship with and even a “psychic link” (talking to eachother with our minds) and at some point after intrusive thoughts, some unhappiness and this other voice that would pretend to be that one, i stopped for fear of getting posessed.

Around this time, watched and listened to a lot more conspiracy theories in my house than we did before, stuff like you’d find on Gaia TV or Joe Rogan and others to give well-known examples. I would hear about people contacting or being contacted psychically by aliens, notably these ones colloquially called the Blue Avians. There was also a videogame i played at the time with alien bird people too. In anycase, i was lonely (and tbh kinda grieving no longer talking to the spirit one?) got the idea to deliberately try and make a psychic link out in the universe and i made one, i managed to talk to a blue avian and started what i thought a romantic relationship looked like with them. I talked to and interacted with them every day, very often. I eventually met another two “aliens” through them and now i was talking to 2-3 beings mentally for a while, while they told me about life in their world.

I went through a lot of denial and that i was crazy or it was in my head, which i mean yeah. I later remembered what my mom told me about years ago: tulpas. That sounds about right. And with my new internet access i looked into it, i found i was already doing what those people were or atleast i was pretty sure. But some things werent adding up, many of them said a tulpa was more a mental construct and that they 1, couldnt be mean to you for example, 2, couldnt talk besides when you wanted them to and so on, mine were too autonomous i guess. In anycase, i continued but acted both as if they were real alien beings elsewhere and a mental construction for a while. At some point then i found out about DID and saw eery similarities, that was my second theory about what was going on. At around this time i broke away from the conspiracy aliens thing, and started thinking more about spirits, and would talk to random and re-occuring ones often. At around this point but maybe well before i started to fall into psychosis and a lot of intrusive thoughts and even hallucinations. At this point i was going through a lot and all these conflicting and inconsistent worldviews were starting to get to me, aswell as me starting to realize but not knowing outright that i was queer. I learned more things that werent conspiracy theories or new age stuff, and i finally broke. I describe it as litterally there was countless pieces of my mind fighting eachother, as verbally and not and everything was clashing. I am not using metaphore here. I felt separated from my body and in a haze, much like when im co-conscious and not in “the driver’s seat”. I fell further into psychosis too. Eventually something was said that made my different conflicting worldviews a little more compatible on paper, and i survived. Then was recovery, still talking to “spirits” and stuff and even aliens. Up to and before this point my family was obsessed with “shadow work”, aka forcing yourself to look at trauma unessecarily. I was partly doing this bc i worried that me being queer was somehow from my father abusing me as a child. This is part of what contributed to that shattering.

So skipping a bunch of tedium, i started operating as if i was plural after a while of debunking stuff , i figured out that yes i definitely am queer and that its not a bad thing, but i still had doubts.

I still talk to my presumed alters often, but there is some funny business:

After setting up some walls or rooms in headspace, they don’t intrude as much and i dont hear them unless i wanna and vice versa

Im struggling to tell if its my internal echolalia or if its me saying everything they say, and sometimes the line is blurrier

They can say things on their own even things that surprise me, but so can i sorta

im almost certain we can’t full switch, or if we can im not sure if i will have any experience while the other is fronting, does this make us monoconscious?

We can go co-conscious pretty much on demand whenever we feel like it, and we can do a partial switch too i just have to relax and allow it

Im pretty much always fronting fully or partially, and always watching when another is fronting

I cant mentally hear them when i talk too, i either have to go quiet or pause for them, and when i do talk it either is too much chatter i cant process or i automaticaly somehow mute my minds ears to them. But, due to autism, talking even to ppl outside my head is like this where i either speak or listen no inbetween

I want to hopefully finally solve this and get on with my life. Thanks for reading/answering if you do

sorry, this ask has been our inbox too long and we haven't been able to come up with a response, so we're handing it off to the public to answer

[star-firework]

if twit is gone, i will have to use a blog like a real blog.

so anyway,

im a warehouse manager now and i got an employee who i feel like im in an abusive relationship with

he out of nowhere said "so some fat, ugly Samoan man won a miss america pagent and he identifies as a woman and you KNOW no one believes that shit!" and that caught my ear and made me stop and ask him why he brought that up cuz there was just no relation to what we were doing

he got defensive and when i asked him to not talk about things like that (cuz we just hired a new guy we dont know his opinions and also its not allowed int he work place!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) the moterhfucker yelled at me and told me that IM "the problem and silencing" his opinions

i asked him to not use combative language and then he said "YOURE using combative language!!!" like a toddler yelling at his mom

i felt like i was on fox news or something, dude listened to so much joe rogan, he just melted in front of my eyes?

i was especially 'triggered' because my recently viral-on-reddit-infamous-homeless-attacking-ex-boss deany boy used to go on long, endless, anti trans rants when i was the only one working with him and i waslike what the fuck!!!!!!!!!! the fuck you care so cuking much about trans people in everything, shut up you old bastard dean

your donuts made my stomach hurt and you keep cream cheese in the fridge so long it turns green and when i went to throw it out, you told me to wipe off the green mold and put it back. you also keep the raw bacon on the top of the fridge of everything definitely not raw. you reuse gravy for days on end to the point i think theres weeks old gravy still being eaten. your wife broke 3 crock pots out of anger for some mundane thing and acted like a high school mean girl when she was in charge and made us remop a floor up to like 4 times because she didnt like how there was a "sheen" on the floor.

anyway

my employee just fucuking blew up at me and then he walked out and didnt return for 3 hours, i was at the point of thinking "well ok, guess he actually just quit?"

He returned and didnt talk to me and left without a word. The next day he called out and only said: "Sick. Out. Indefinitely."

What the hell does indefinitely mean after a blow up?

Poor choice of words or a bad way to vaguely quit?

i told HR and made them call him after he didnt text or show up the next day

i was ready to move on and already got an interview set up to fill in when we are already in crisis mode at work lol

then the bastard texts me at 5 when im about to go home and he is furious that HR was calling him. he said "if you have a problem you say it to my face, im coming in tomorrow sick or not"

i felt threatened and scared because when he gets mad, he gets mad and testosterone fueled rage and i dont know if he would get physical

he also was like "am i supposed to be looking for another job!?"

i was so scared of his reaction i was thankfully able to call hr and have her walk me thru how to text this maniac back

i really dont want to work with him ESPECIALLY now

but somehow the company wont fire anyone so this behavior is still cool and no one has balls, i dont have balls and guess i have to continue workingand managing a manchild who is going to be set off at anything

i also have to somehow figure out how to get a meeting with him, me and HR without it sounding liek an interogation because he is so easily defensive

we were cool and i have even been to his house and met his wife and had beers with him and another manager and then it felt like in one instance it just got all washed away because he wanted to rant about trans people?????????

i am so confused!

i also have thrown up soooooooo much this past year from stress, jfc. im finally losing weight but from a very very bad reason and very very unhealthy way that is painful aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

still dont know whats gonna happen since this dude is planning on coming back tomorrow and i have an interview w someone we meant to replace him after he was MIA

[ithisatanytime]

Bladee - BBY (music video)

 i love sam but i wish he would stop giving out life advice, i know his fans are asking him for it, but he needs to just come out and tell people that despite his early videos where he was living with his mom in a small apartment, he was never one of us in that regard he comes from a well to do family and would have been absolutely fine regardless of what he did with his life. not trying to shit on him but its a fact and its a fact he needs to be more open about because his fans are coming to him with these questions specifically because they feel hes an intelligent guy who “gets it” and got out of the situation they are currently in, thats just not the case. sam is funnier than both nick and charles, and ive always said charles was a bit of a psued, but hes the only one of the three you should take life advice from. this is a mistake people make, because both sam and nick are doing better in life than charles, but they started closer to the front of you want to think of it like a race. im not saying they dont have incite worth listening too, but they didnt accomplish what you are trying to accomplish youd be better off asking charles.

 Mike row, sam hyde, Joe rogan and all boomers have the same advice and it boils down to “get a high paying job” well no shit

[phantomrapier]

Im imagining this with the animated series from the 90s.

Martian Manhunter, remember, is a telepath. He probes the edges of everyone's consciousness every day. Its a Martian thing. They tend to not notice, and he doesn't invade their privacy. He usually just catches the gist of a thought, not the whole thing with all the pristine details.

Everyone at the table gives off great vibes. Flash is usually cheery, but now his speedster brain is fucking wild with ecstatic energy. Diana actually seems to relax for the first time. Supes isn't wary of his alien, superhuman allies, even going do far as to stop using his xray vision to watch their hearts to see if they're lying.

But the Bat is in a bad way.

Psychically speaking, he's radiating anger, embarrassment, and a deep loneliness. All they say is "for the money" and the like. The isolation seeping out around Batman is almost palpable for J'onn J'onzz sitting across from him. "Bruce Wayne" is just such a distant, foreign concept, not really a person. A trophy for bragging rights. He's a rich playboy-- its not like he really does anything with his life.

And he's just sitting there. Stoic and stalk-still. The rest of them are laughing and practically moaning with delight, but he's listening silent as the grave.

"What about you, Jonboy?"

The Martian looks over to Wally definitely-not-the-Flash West and gives a faint grin.

"I'm not so sure what this fuck means, but Bruce Wayne seems a worthy candidate."

Yet to the said playboy across the table from him, he sends this quick and secret follow up:

"But it would be better to simply befriend him, before all else."

And gods above, the Bat actually smirks beneath that cowl.

"So," Bruce growls, "that means you'd kill Joe Rogan and marry Bill Clinton?"

"Absolutely."

We don’t appreciate the fact that Bruce Wayne is a Kardasian level celebrity enough. Everyone knows him. I want more one shots and crack fic moments where the League (Pre identity reveals) just openly talk about Bruce Wayne in front of Batman.

Just imagine them playing fuck, marry, kill with famous actors and such and throwing Bruce into the mix. And Batman just sits there, silently suffering as he listens to the reasons why Flash and Lantern would marry, fuck, or kill him. He prays they choose kill. They don’t.

[automatismoateo]

I became an atheist 10 years ago thanks to this sub! A few thoughts: via /r/atheism

I became an atheist 10 years ago thanks to this sub! A few thoughts:

So I noticed my account turned 10 years old this week, which got me thinking about this why I made my Reddit account in the first place. This sub specifically is what drew me to Reddit and was the only sub I paid attention to initially. I was 17 at the time and just beggining to question my faith. I went to private christian schools, worked for my church, did church camps in the summer, my entire social circle was christian, so this was the first community I had ever experienced that was critical of religion and boy oh boy was it an eye-opener. I was already starting to struggle with the mounting inconsistencies and contradictions of the faith, and the hypocritical application of the faith by the faithful, but this was the first place where I had those doubts validated. Yes, for those of you who have been here that long, this was back in the day when this sub was almost entirely shitpost memes rather than real discussion but hey, it worked for teenage me. It was not an easy road at first. There were some pretty extreme tensions within the family, I had to find entirely new social circles, and I had a number of years of feeling lost and purposeless. Rebuilding a healthy, sustainable ideoligical framework was not easy and took time, but it did happen. Looking back, comparing to who I am to who I was then, its hard to believe the progress made. The fears, opnions and attitudes that dictated my behavior now feel so foriegn, it is though I have the memories of a total stranger in my head. That realization filled me with so much joy, I felt compelled to make this post.

More than anything I'd like to say thank you. Thanks to this community for being here. Thanks for your righteous anger and your patient understanding. Thanks to those who thoughtfully answer the same questions asked by new converts over and over again. Thanks to the people with enough energy to correct and educate the endless stream of trolls who arent even here to argue in good faith. And a massive thanks to anyone who has come here and participated, in any way, to our collective attempt to understand/realize/create our purpose here on earth without religion.

To anyone who is questioning their faith, as I was a decade ago, a couple pieces of advice. 1. Dont get caught up in purity games when it comes to looking for new role models. Most of the folks I started listening to immediately after leaving the church are people that I now consider to be far too conservative for my liking. Folks like Joe Rogan or Sam Harris come to mind. 2. Even the most well spoken theorists and "free-thinkers" are still human, and have flaws. Dont replace one god with another, question all theories and theorists. And 3. Yes, this does get easier in time. A shift in ideologies requires real effort, but your new way of thinking will become second nature in time and will eventually stop needing conscious adjustmenting.

Hope this helps at least one person who might be feeling lost or hopeless! Im happy to try and answer any questions to the best of my ability!

Submitted May 18, 2022 at 09:00PM by Waitinhere (From Reddit https://ift.tt/48LGQBm)

[bloojayoolie]

Cars, Definitely, and Easter: 1) The Post I replied to: 2) My Response t -lJimjersy2 4 points 58 minutes ago last edited 49 minules ago) The many self proclaimed "Neutral" icons who are actually just covert alt-right influencers: re Literally none of these people are alt-right. Pewdiepie is just a leftist who makes edgy jokes ironically Ben is conservative. South Park is neutral since it makes fun of both the right and left equally Elon musk literally is barely even involved in politics. He's a fucking philanthropist who is trying to normalize electric cars, revolutionize space travel, and reduce traffick via 3d road systems. What the fuck makes him alt-right? ordan Peterson is against identity politics, but doesn't focus on any real issues. He's a hack for sure, ill give you that, but not alt-right. There is a legit argument to be made that Joe Rogan is alt-right, considering that his show has almost become a think tank for a lot of real alt-right figures like Alex Jones and Milo. Considering that he's friends with them, im willing to wager that he is alt-right to an extent, but not to the extent you are making. If you listen to his show he mostly just agrees with whatever his guest says, even Andrew Yang who is a democrat that was on his show Sorry, but im gonna have to downvote you here, as will most people I hope NPC Submitted an hour ag 8 comments (1 new) share save hide give award report crosspost hide all child comments Totally "neutral" and definitely not alt-right starter pack SOUTEH PARK 3 points 36 minutes ago For some reason the alt-right loves to advertise on Pewdiepie, and Prager U puts ads up at his place to attract very young viewers who haven't been introduced to political concepts yet. Also he has done literally nothing to distance himself from the far-right supporters who keep making references to him. The guy has 91 million subscribers. I think he won't lose much by saying 'Nazis go away. I hate every one of you' and actually stop saying the n-word. Hard to believe as it may, celebrities DO have a responsibility to their audience. Imagine if Oprah started giving out less than subtle hints that some people need to die and actual murders happened as a result. I am willing to bet you won't be nearly as forgiving on her as you would with Pewdiepie. permalinik source embed save S-RES parent give award ide child comments tdevavrata17-PMs off. Pings off Fuck off. M-1 point 7 minutes ago Report before you retort. Law of the land here where reichskultists are concerned. See Rule 1 permaink roe embed save saveRES parent gve award 3) Mods Response You have been muted from r/Fuckthealtright subreddit message via /r/Fuckthealtright [M] sent 10 minutes ago moderators of r/Fuckthealtright You have been temporarily muted] from r/Fuckthealtright, You will not be able to message the moderators of r/Fuckthealtright3] for 72 hours. permalink source delete report block subreddit mark unread CucumberGod(46951) Literally A Shill (115474) devavrata17 (10112) mollymollykelkel O (6901) Pipewrecker(13231) shakypears(7220) Aedeus(77215) awkwardtheturtle (1891339) Saferbot (47) Mynameis

[sleeptight-grimrite]

you know what, im starting to think maybe milo yiannopoulos has, like, psychological issues or sth? he actually comes off quite damaged. im not making excuses for his stankin ass, but i will say if you really listen to what he's saying, he seems quite insincere a lot of the time and like joe rogan said, he's aware he's eliciting a reaction. he likes the attention. i dont think he's a white supremacist or a nazi. i DO think he's a racist, impish, instigatin' ass troll who intentionally crosses the line and enjoys hurting people cuz he's a sick bastard and he knows it pisses us off and honestly i think he will die if liberals just stop taking the bait.