#and im also sorry if this comes off insensitive or ''i have it SO hard'' i dont mean to be like that

[medicasino]

ive just accepted im just never going to fit cleanly into any label or community ever

[santanasaintmendes]

g’day mate how are ya?

Part7! to The Cosmic Girl Records!

summary: new year, new you, plus your new job! and the australian gp which also comes with a few difficulties when you have a big insta following and no pr training ollie bearman x reader & platonic!grid x reader

fc!: just some random photos off pinterest, all credits go to the rightful owners of the images used below

warnings: swearing, insensitive jokes, mention of being held at gunpoint, if any of these are triggering please scroll away!!

a/n: finally got the motivation to make the 7th part to the cosmic girl records also reader is 2 days younger than Ollie! Also if u get tagged by accident IM SO SORRY i swear it’s not on purpose. Also Lewis is driving for mercedes with kimi in this universe, i should probably make a post about the grid for this universe, anyways enjoy!

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unfortunatelyy/n: new year, new me AANNND NEW JOB 

tagged olliebearman 

olliebearman: but NOT a new man, just to be clear 

 unfortunatelyy/n: hey there mr jealous wanna get off my insta page maybe 

 olliebearman: ☹️

landonorris: i feel like you say new year new me too often and nothing changes 

 unfortunatelyy/n: u know just how ruin everything 😔

 landonorris: that is true but you don’t have to point it out‼️

 user1: bro’s just accepting it at this point 😭

user2: SHE’S BACKKKK AND BETTERR THIS TIME 

liked by unfortunatelyy/n

mercedesamgf1: can’t wait to see you in the garage this season 💪

 unfortunatelyy/n: 💪💪

georgerussell64: Love? EWWWWWW

 unfortunatelyy/n: such an anti romantic. i’m telling carmen 

 georgerussell64: no wait 

 unfortunatelyy/n: poor mr russell. screenshotted or you may know it - screen grabbing 

 unfortunatelyy/n: or at least that’s what old people call it 

 georgerussell64: you dare? you dare call ME OLD?

 georgerussell64: HAVE U SEEN ALONSO (no offence mate)

 fernandoalo_oficial: um offence taken? 

 unfortunatelyy/n: WOAH u cannot be going around roasting rookies like that george 

 user2: SHE KNOWS 

 user3: of course she knows, she’s probably the only on there that even knows how to properly use instagram 

 user4: the sad truth. sad but true.

liked by unfortunatelyy/n

 unfortunatelyy/n: very true indeed 

user5: i fear that y/n is the only one who’s chronically online 😔

 unfortunatelyy/n: i am, it’s such a hard life when the others don’t get it the memes i show them 😔

 unfortunatelyy/n: they’re just too old

 olliebearman: it’s such a struggle fr 

 unfortunatelyy/n: you’re old too so shush 

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 olliebearman: I’M 19??? 19 AND LITERALLY 2 DAYS OLDER THAN U

 unfortunatelyy/n: poor ollie, when i was learning subtraction and addition you were already doing multiplication and division 

 olliebearman: i am so confused right now 

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unfortunatelyy/n: IT’S RACE WEEK + my boyfriend with his boyfriend 

tagged olliebearman and kimi.antonelli 

User1: uh y/n? i don’t think you can be saying stuff like that anymore 

User5: i fear y/n will never be the same anymore, she is employed now 😔

user2: no filter y/n we love to see it 

olliebearman: seriously?

 unfortunatelyy/n: i’m such a comedian (i know ur giggling n shit) 🤭

 olliebearman: I AM NOT 

 unfortunatelyy/n: woah so defensive and for what 

mercedesamgf1: usually we only do pr training for our drivers but . . .  

 unfortunatelyy/n: good thing i’m not a driver then 😮‍💨

 user3: SHE DID NOTTTT 

kimi.antonelli: i’m gonna get you fired (can you send me the photo i want it printed out and on my dashboard for when i drive🙏) 

 unfortunatelyy/n: try me antonelli (yes ofc check ur dms) 

 olliebearman: NOW HANG ON JUST A MINUTE 

 unfortunatelyy/n: yes my love?

 kimi.antonelli: yes my little sugarplum with caramel sauce?

 olliebearman: 🤨

 kimi.antonelli: 🫦

 olliebearman: I HAVE A GIRLFRIEND 

kimi.antonelli: and now a boyfriend 

 user4: i’m on kimi’s side. it’s not gay if it’s with the homies 🤷 

 olliebearman: @unfortunatelyy/n send for help 🙏

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unfortunatelyy/n: hanging out with my fav cutie patootie - oh hey ollie’s here too 

tagged olliebearman and kimi.antonelli

 landonorris: OOOOOHHHH 🔥🔥🔥🔥

 unfortunatelyy/n: get out of here 

 landonorris: ok 😔

 user1: wow she really has him at gunpoint

liked by unfortunatelyy/n

kimi.antonelli: you are also my favourite cutie patootie 🤗

liked by unfortunatelyy/n

 olliebearman: just break up with me already😔

 unfortunatelyy/n: well who would i annoy then 

 olliebearman: kimi 😒

 unfortunatelyy/n: IT WAS A JOKE PLS COME HOME WITH THE ITALIAN FOOD 

 olliebearman: NO 

 unfortunatelyy/n: i’m calling the police 

 charles_leclerc: i would appreciate it if you would stop bullying my son 

 charles_leclerc: and calling the police on him 

 unfortunatelyy/n: not unless he brings the food back 

 olliebearman: fine. but only because i love you 😒

 kimi.antonelli: and me too 

 olliebearman: STOP TRYING TO RUIN MY RELATIONSHIP 

 kimi.antonelli: no.

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unfortunatelyy/n: just a little reminder that the aussie waves are ALWAYS OUT FOR BLOOD

user1: my anxiety looking at that second pic: 📈📈📈📈

 user2: my girl’s been traumatised by the aussie waves 😭 

 unfortunatelyy/n: she has indeed 😔 

 olliebearman: HAHAHAHAHHAHA 

 unfortunatelyy/n: i hope both sides of your pillow are warm tonight 

 olliebearman: GASP. how terrifyingly hilarious, still won’t beat you nearly drowning though 

 unfortunatelyy/n: I WAS NOT DROWNING 

 olliebearman: so you were just randomly yelling for help in the water while freaking out 

 unfortunatelyy/n: . . . i was testing your boyfriend reflexes 

 olliebearman: mhm sure 

 unfortunatelyy/n: okay the sass was unnecessary 

 olliebearman: 🙄💅

user5: they’re such couple goals i just feel single whenever i see their posts 😔

 user6: kimi’s probably plotting his next sabotage 

 kimi.antonelli: 🤫

 lilymhe: @unfortunatelyy/n ur so hot 😍 

 unfortunatelyy/n: you’re hotter 😍😍😍

 alex_albon: not this again 

 alex_albon: i thought we moved on from this phase 

 unfortunatelyy/n: it’s not a phase honey, it’s a lifestyle 

 alex_albon: your lifestyle is stealing my girlfriend?

 unfortunatelyy/n: yes 😄

 alex_albon: *sigh 

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unfortunatelyy/n: FIRST DAY ON THE JOB  WE GOT THIS💪💪

tagged lewishamilton and kimi.antonelli 

user1: did lewis dirty 😭

 user2: what is going on with ollie’s hair in the bg of the third pic 😭

 unfortunatelyy/n: unfortunately it’s always like that��

 olliebearman: HEY 

 lewishamilton: DELETE THIS 

 unfortunatelyy/n: erm no 

 lewishamilton: i’m gonna fire you 

 unfortunatelyy/n: actually u can’t do that 

 lewishamilton: erm actually 🤓☝️

 user3: WOAH i did not know lewis was chill like that 😭😭

 unfortunatelyy/n: OKAY I’M TELLING TOTO 

 lewishamilton: DO IT I DARE YOU 

 unfortunatelyy/n: done. in less than 24 hours you will be an unemployed man 

 mercedesamgf1: y/n . . . we can’t fire our 7 world champion 😓

 unfortunatelyy/n: DANG IT 

 mercedesamgf1: so about that pr training. . . 

 unfortunatelyy/n: GOTTA GO 🏃‍♀️💨

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unfortunatelyy/n: i know we’re enemies now but maybe i can be happy for u just this once 🫶

tagged olliebearman 

olliebearman: ❤️

liked by unfortunatelyy/n

 landonorris: yuckyyyyyy 

 unfortunatelyy/n: ur yuckier 

 landonorris: no you are 

 unfortunatelyy/n: nuh uh 

 landonorris: yuh huh 

 unfortunatelyy/n: SHUT UP

 landonorris: NO

 unfortunatelyy/n: i’m calling ur mom 

 landonorris: now hang on just a second 

user1: y/n’s living that wattpadd engineer x driver life 

liked by unfortunatelyy/n

 user2: HELP SHE LIKED THE COMMENT 

 oscarpiastri: congrats mate 

 unfortunatelyy/n: are you happy being back in your natural habitat 

 oscarpiastri: what.

a/n: thanks for reading! stay safe and have a good day!!

[ashuzu44]

my ex gf posted a pic of me on tiktok to make fun of me since I looked horrible in that picture to the point that if someone saw it they would ask how I'm still alive with this face, and that tiktok went viral and got over 40k views..also people in the comment section mocked me and made fun of the way I look.. :/ she knows I'm insecure that's why she has done that and now I literally don't even want to go out cause I think all the things the ppl have said about my look is right..I can't even use loa atp I can't get out of this, a lot of people have already seen me and made fun of me. I've been trying to manifest my df for 4 years but nothing has changed. I just need help

Hi, sending love firstly and also im extremely sorry to hear that people have actually have the audacity to ask and say such things ˙ ✩°˖🫐 ⋆｡˚꩜

I'll try to help my best I can, so if the way I put things come off as insensitive please note that that isn't my intention.

"I think all the things the ppl have said about my look is right." - Do you want them to be right? My assumption is of course you don't want them to be right. Why would you?

"I've been trying to manifest my df for 4 years but nothing has changed." - How have you been trying? Let me say something, if nothing has changed in the past 4 years then its time to dig a little deeper. No more surface level "ill affirm". It's time to go into yourself, your beliefs and what do you think about yourself. Do you think you don't look good? We need to start attack that first and change that cause no way in heck are we taking that belief and say bye- bye.

"she knows I'm insecure that's why she has done that"- People can be assholes, absolute dickheads. Insecurity is what we need to touch on. I won't say stop being insecure, of course but how? Well firstly, lets try and understand why. Why are you insecure and then change that reasoning.

I know its going to be hard and painful, but changing deep rooted beliefs is the first step. Don't worry about the time, forget that doesn't exist. Take a deep breath, take a step back and break the way you're going to tackle this step by step. Loa works, it has no choice but to because it runs throughout our lives till we die. It has just been given terminology when it is a concept. It will work. Trust me and more importantly have the grit and determination that YOU HAVE your df. You have it, tell that to yourself NO MATTER WHAT ANYONE IN THIS WORLD SAYS. Because you are the operant power and no one else knows you and can control your decisions.

Hope I could help! Take care <3

xoxo, karina

[thegodsaremyhome]

I’ve been doing research about Apollo and people say that if you get a lot of videos about a certain god that means he or she is trying to reach out to you. I was raised Christian and with some bad stuff that happened to me I stopped believing. I’m a very skeptical person and maybe I just need to find my own path and believe in whatever resonates with me. But how do you know if they’re real exactly? Or is there not really a way to find out if they are real. With all the stuff that people are saying how Gods/Goddesses reach out to you, I have been experiencing it. But somehow I feel guilty- possibly because of the religion I grew up with.

Im sorry if this sounds mean or insensitive, I’m just actually curious if there’s anyway to know if they are real or know more on ways they can reach out to you.

Don't worry, none of this sounds insensitive at all! I completely understand, especially for you to have grown up Christian. I never was, but i've heard from other pagans who were raised Christian how hard it can be to brake out of all of that. Like you said, just listen to your own heart, follow whatever resonates with you.

I think a lot of it just comes down to trust and faith, and maybe that's not what you want to hear. But the Gods aren't going to just appear in front of you and talk about how real they are. I wish they would, but they don't. And because you can't see them with your eyes, it can be all too easy to brush things off as a coincidence. You can ask for signs all day long, but if that sign actually appears and you're not commited to being more open-minded about spirituality(which it seems you are, since you're asking questions in the first place) then you'll say its nothing and move on.

So instead you have to trust, but I promise our Gods are interactive if you are open to them. Many many years ago, I was once in your place. I was dabbling in research and very intersted and open, but still unsure. I wasn't raised Christian, so i didn't have those barriers to overcome, but i was still on the fence. It was a very difficult time in my life, I won't lie. I was very sad. One day I was sitting outside, singing a song to myself. It's a very sad song where the singer begs to be freed from her sadness and pain. It was a very very cloudy day this day, but as I stopped singing the clouds parted just enough for the sun to shine through. And somehow in that moment, i just knew it was Apollo reaching out, telling me everything was going to be okay. I think I cried then. I still tear up thinking about it. Apollo has been with me ever since, and that song is still very very important to me. Because of it, I also sing to him as a devotional act.

A lot of it comes down to feelings. Learning how to open up your heart and trust your intuition, which can be hard. But if you try, then soon you'll get these feelings. You can feel their energy around you when you give an offering. They may tell you things in the form of random signs, like the sky parting for the sun to shine through on your worst day. And then you'll start to understand.

I know it sounds a little strange an esoteric. But that's okay. It kind of is. But if you really feel like a deity might be reaching out to you then it may just be true, because feelings are the most important part of creating a relationship with a god. Try to reach out and ask for a sign. I don't think you really have to pray or do anything special. Just ask. See if he responds. I think you'll know it when you see it.

[qingxintea]

the stars intertwine *ੈ✩‧₊˚

genshin impact

headcanons — aether, xiao, scaramouche

when you tell them you feel alone

AETHER ˏˋ°•*⁀➷

immediately, aether seemed to pick up on your mood. usually he wasn’t very exposed to you feeling down as you kept onto an upbeat show even if it didnt correspond to how you were truly feeling.

deeming the fact that you let it show this time to a point where he could genuinely pick it up, he determined it must’ve reached a bad point. he asked you about it.

“y/n? im sorry if this sounds weird— i just think that you seem a little down today. are you okay?”

he looked at you with the utmost concern and it almost pushed you into crying more. kinda like trying to not cry at school but someone asks “are you okay?” and u cry fr

“yeah— sorry,” you immediately apologize, feeling bad that you made him worry.

“nono, please don’t apologize; just tell me what’s wrong if thats okay,” he smiles gently and takes your hands

you stare intently for some seconds and then take a deep breath. “i just feel a little lonely.”

silence sits for a second but you could feel his hands tense a bit around yours.

finally, he speaks (:

“i’m sorry if i failed you accompany you today,” he blurts out in a rush, feeling responsible for your mood. “d-“

“what? no, aether,” you shake your head, “this is not your fault at all. its just one of those days. thats all.” you smile in reassurance.

he sighs gladly knowing that he was not involved in the issue. he knows about days where you simply just felt down— he had them all the time when he was finding his sister ):

he caresses your face and comes to a conclusion.

“then lets be alone together.”

skips his commissions and takes sick leave and spends the rest of the day never leaving your side

you tell him all about your week!

“work at liyue qixing is very busy this week, we had a lot of broken architect and paranormal cases as of lately. ganyu and keqing always work so hard so i took these extra cases for them.”

“i spent more energy than usual and spent less time talking to people i love, talking to you. everytime i return from work, i just sort of collapse.”

aether chimes in, “y/n, you’re so sweet to everyone. from now on i will rest with you when you return.”

and he does! aether always keeps his word to you— you really are thankful for him.

he even goes out of his way to solve cases and fix things for you while you’re sleeping and you never notice him sneaking out. he talks to little ming and asks her if she knows anything behind the cases, fixes broken stairs and elevators, and ultimately asking keqing and ganyu to look out of you as you’ve been passing out lately.

he even crocheted you a little aether plushie to hold whenever he’s not around! so you’ll always have a piece of him with you (:

on the weekly, he gets you flowers. this week he got you a bouquet of cecilias so you don’t suspect he’s been working in liyue for you

the next week, when you tell him that your workload in liyue has been elevated, he is extremely glad that his work paid off. of course, he never tells you anything though

cutie fr

XIAO ·˚ ༘₊· ͟͟͞͞꒰➳

xiao cant really verbally address feelings well and you know this. so initially you avoid telling him in general.

but he’s not oblivious to it— even though you don’t tell him, he can sense it. like that one time you made an extremely outrageous deal with a witch to take on his karmic debt and almost died LOL crazy

you also don’t tell him bc yk he’s lived for so many years longer than u that he’s lost so many people, probably more lonely than u

he can sense it through some of your usual offerings too! your cooking is corresponding to your mood and the almond tofu recently has been a bit bitter compared to your previous. its not that it tastes bad, it aroused concern.

he is scared to address it because he thinks he will be extremely awkward or insensitive. instead, he comforts you through acts of service and gift giving.

he picks up qingxin flowers for you and ties it with a vibrant red silk ribbon and leaves it on your doorstep. also gets u a green good luck amulet

now u have it on your nightstand and it helps u sleep better, the good luck amulet is always warn next to your vision YAY

he notices an improvement in your mood but it’s not to its original state.

eventually, he appears the next time you offer something and the two of you sit in comfortable silence until you break it.

“i’m sorry my offerings have been of lower quality recently. i am not feeling well and it shows through my work,” you apologize profusely. you think that him staying with you is a sign that he’s waiting for you to say something about recent troubles bc u always overthink LMAO

“don’t say sorry for something so minuscule,” he immediately responds but has no idea what to say after that.

but there is no need to add on because you know him so well. you know that when he says that it means he is more concerned about your well being than what you produce.

you nod slightly and the conversation ends there. he probably already realizes that you’ve been feeling lonely because you’ve been lacking in social energy this whole week due to your excessive work.

he stays with you for awhile and never gets up to get milk from the fridge or anything which is great

lowkey threatens your coworkers to keep an eye on you LMAOO so silly

SCARAMOUCHE ༄ؘ ۪۪۫۫ ▹▫◃ ۪۪۫۫ ༄ؘ

mention of medications and more sweating LMFAO

lowkey u just expect this guy to not care at all bc he’s emotionally constipated

BUT HE DOES HE JUST DOESNT SHOW IT BC HES SCARED HIS COWORKERS MIGHT MAKE FUN OF HIM FOR SHOWING EMOTION

so when he addresses it he makes sure ur in a completely ISOLATED SPACE so NO ONE FUCKING SPIES !!

“oookay, what the fuck is wrong with you y/n, have you not been taking your meds for the past month??”

LMAO he says it downright with no sugarcoat because he wants to get straight to the point

you get taken aback a bit bc it’s such a funny question

“no bitch i just feel like SHIT TODAY because im LONELY AND SINGLE 😭😭😭😭” you counter

“hoe, you are NOT SINGLE WE R LITERALLY DATING STUPID ASS”

“oh i forgot”

“r u fr.”

he brings u ur meds in like 2 pound crates and ur like “wtf”

he says it’s to compromise for your lack of meds the past month

“DUDE IVE BEEN TAKING THEM TODAYS JUST A CRAPPY DAY LMAO AND THATNIS NOT HOW IT WORKS????”

“??,??!!” he is so done HAHAHA “anyway why r u lonely wtf did tartar sauce say something mean to you AGAIN”

you laugh “ACTUALLY YEAH LOL HE WAS LIKE ‘at least i have a little brother’ AS A JOKE CUZ HE DOESNT KNOW THAT MINE WENT KABOOM 😵😵”

“BITCH U GOTTA TELL HIM SOON”

“SHUT UP”

the two of u end up playing super smash bros and u keep spamming villager rocket bc that’s ur favorite move and eventually u k.o. him with it even though he saw it coming, he forgot how to jump LMAO

he claims that he did that on purpose to make you feel better but u think he’s bs-ing because he’s a sore loser and embarrassed he lost by not dodging a whole ROCKET

“UNFAIR”

“LOSER”

eventually becomes a very heated roasting session because u two are the most toxic couple in all of teyvat that ur literally perfect for each other LMAO

“how does it feel to look 12 and 57 at the same time??? I BET U GET ID CHECKED AT 7LEAVES LMAO”

“PEOPLE ONLY NOTICE U WHEN U BECOME A PROBLEM”

“U LOOK LIKE A PURPLE BLOOD CLOT”

“COVID SWIPED LEFT ON YOU. FUCKING COVID”

“THE ONLY REASON YOU HAVENT DIED YET IS BC THE ARCHONS SAID ‘FUCK NO LEAVE HIM BACK ON TEYVAT OH MY GOD’”

no lonely anymore bc ur evil !

later when u don’t know he beats up childe for what he said LMAO “ARE U STUPID DONT BRING Y/N’S CRAPPY CRUMBLED FAMILY INTO ANYTHING” and childe never does it again

happy ending !

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

QINGXINTEA ONE YEAR RESSURECTION SO REAL

LIVE LAUGH AETHER

[redheadbigshoes]

do you think it’s wrong to question your friend sexuality? i know only she can define herself and in no means will i ever question that to her face, but im sceptical of it. she says shes bi (which totally valid and real), but idk i just don’t see it? it’s really hard to explain as there is no literal proof as to why i feel how i feel, she just gives off straight girl kissing girls at parties vibe, not bi vibe, she never really talked about any women or women in general in that way and started shitting on men recently cause she got rejected the third time by some guy who she barely knew and it’s been really affecting her self esteem. it just looks like she’s turning to women cause she hasn’t had any luck with men.

i am a lesbian, currently crushing on a girl and i just idk i also get this idc, annoyed vibe from her when i talk about my girl crush, which im the anon who once asked about advice cause i was getting weird vibe from my friends and i was afraid they’re not okay with me liking a girl. my two other friends are very supportive and invested tbh, they talk to me about it and when i talk about it they actually care imo, the other friend i just feel like she couldn’t care less and i don’t get it, like if we play on the same team why aren’t you happy/supportive for me? idk i could be overreacting as we are in a rough patch lately and we’re not on speaking terms since like yesterday, because she is really shitty to me lately and hasn’t been respectful to me.

idk i just feel like when the girl i liked rejected me i also got no support from her? it happened last week on Monday and this week on monday i brought it up and she was like “i thought we were over that.” she even confessed she didn’t get over the guy that rejected her in the summer, but i was supposed to be over my first real crush in a week? idk my other friend said she doesn’t think she said it with an ill intention, but honestly i have no idea, it was just such an insensitive comment imo.

but whatever this is so messy and so long and im sorry, but happy halloween 🎃

I think it’s okay to question someone else’s sexuality when you don’t do this directly to them and when you have minimal proof, a reason for questioning it, which tbh it seems like it’s the case of your friend’s from what you said.

It must be very frustrating seeing someone who was supposed to accept your identity and support it, either being negative about it or not caring at all. If she hasn’t been treating you well, is she really your friend? Have you tried talking to her about what you feel when it comes to opening up about anything related to your attraction to women? Maybe she’s acting like this for internal reasons, perhaps she’s insecure about her sexuality, or she’s struggling with internalized biphobia/homophobia… Obviously regardless of the reason it’s not an excuse treating you like that, and I am sorry you’re having to deal with someone like her.

Happy Halloween!

[9w1ft]

I'm so upset. I need to pull back. It probably shouldn't be a big deal but I went through so many emotions getting this ticket. I thought I was never going to see her in concert. But honestly. At this point. If he ends up with there at mine, I think I would leave. It would ruin the whole thing. The music is what's real, Taylor. I'm coming to support that. To support YOU. And it honestly feels like a betrayal for the masquerade to extend to that. I wish you'd have known on the ticket. I wouldn't have put my savings in it.

maybe commiserating is the correct response and i am sorry that im taking it in a different direction because i get that sometimes that’s not what someone needs but if i can impart an idea, i think that if your heart is telling you to step back then by all means honor your heart and do so—and—if you find yourself returning or wanting to return, i think there might be a way of engaging with taylor that can work for you. i think it’s important to recognize that this has been a not ideal situation for sometime but to also recognize there are still good parts in here, and by good i mean that there are ways you can personally benefit from taylor’s work that will make your life better. and if you can recognize that there are parts that won’t ever work for you, and instead capture and focus in on the good parts that do, you can still become a better version of yourself through her work.

i used the word might because i recognize that the way we engage with public figures these days is a little bit different than in the past, i think, and by that i just mean that, i think more than ever we look to the public figures that we support as if they are extensions of our own conscience. in forming our identities growing up, i think more than ever people need an intense moral alignment with every last thing we decide to say that we enjoy, and there’s so much pressure, i think, to continuously curate and express what we enjoy to an infinite audience of people, in perpetuity.

i think it’s very hard to maintain this sort of consistency in one’s consumption and it’s so much work for very little benefit, and it can all be taken away from anyone in an instant. i just don’t think it’s any way to live, especially when i think it’s possible to just… let go of some things and allow yourself to pick and choose a little bit more.

i don’t say these things to invalidate your feelings and once again i’m sorry if it comes off insensitive.. i’ve been where you are. and i just hope that maybe, with a little tinkering of the way you utilize your time with taylor, there’s a way to make it work.

also on a more practical note.. i’m not sure if you’re there tonight or an upcoming night but, save for travis walking on stage, or you having a seat directly beside VIP, you’re really not going to notice or even think about who’s there at all. i just say this because, im about as crack of a detective as it gets when it comes to this meta narrative but even i get entirely swept up in the moment and forget to take pictures or check access points or look out for celebs or check twitter. it’s a concert and you’ll have the opportunity to scream and shout to 18 years of music that mean something to you, and i think you’ll get some good stuff out of it so, if you’re on the fence i’d say go anyway. i think it’ll be worth it.

[weenwrites]

yay for attempting this crossover!! im really glad you're giving this a try, tho if you end up not liking it i understand, im just happy you're hearing me out!!!

this character is from my current favorite game: guild wars 2. he's called Trahearne, and he's a sylvari, aka sentient plant-like people! he's also a necromancer, which i think would be startling to Cybertronians when they hear he studies magic that raises the dead into his personal minions. Trahearne is a good guy tho, not evil, and he has a hard and troubling destiny ahead of him, a fate given to him since he awoke in his world.

if he were in the tfp world, trying to get back w the help of team prime, what do you suppose their opinions of him would be???

no pressure if you're not into this, but if you are, have fun!! don't worry about not knowing this fandom or game, thank youuuu

✎ A/N: Just to clarify to people OTHER than the requester, I still don't do crossovers and I don't think I ever will after this one because it was difficult for me to write. The only reason I'm making an exception for this crossover is because I decided to say "yes" to it because I wanted to give it a shot. Also anon I'm sorry it took so long for me to respond, but I tried my best with what you gave me to work with, and I hope you see it and enjoy it.

[ Please do not repost, plagiarize, or use my writing for AI! Translating my work with proper credit is acceptable, but please ask first! ]

Optimus

Despite Trahearne's disposition, Optimus wouldn't be the type of person to judge him because of it. So long as Trahearne is someone who wishes to do good, then he's willing to extend his hand to help him however he can.

He can somewhat relate with having a troubling destiny, as he is the bearer of the matrix and the leader of the autobots. The fate of two worlds are balanced upon his shoulders, and his every move may risk toppling them both. He tries to offer what bits of wisdom and knowledge he can in hopes that it will one day be of use to him.

Ratchet

He believes that the team already has enough to worry about with humans to protect and the decepticons scouring the earth, they needn't anything more to take care of on their plate. Unless Trahearne's willing to extend a hand to help Ratchet with his duties, then it's most likely that the two will have little room to interact.

But speaking of magic, Ratchet initially thinks that it's ridiculous. Magic doesn't exist, and he doesn't believe that studying it is even possible. If Trahearne's the kind of person to prove Ratchet wrong and show off his skills, then the look on Ratchet's face is something that no one will be forgetting any time soon.

Ultra Magnus

Like Ratchet, Ultra Magnus believes that effort and resources should be poured into the war effort as opposed to aiding a stranger, or at the very least form a partnership so that both sides get something out of it. Yet if he is ordered to help return Trahearne back to his world, then he'll comply without another complaint.

Smokescreen

He initially thinks that it's super cool that he has some predetermined destiny waiting for him—so long as that destiny is to do good in the world. He may come off as a little insensitive at first (especially if Trahearne's destiny is something he has complicated feelings about) but he's quick to realize any mistakes and apologize if he said something he shouldn't have.

He'd think the whole "doing magic" thing is real cool, and he'd ask all sorts of questions about it, like what can he do with magic? How does he do it? Smokescreen would even want to try learning, and if he was given the opportunity he would legitimately pour in the time and effort to do magic.

Bulkhead

Wait so if he raises the dead to do his bidding, were these undead servants people he killed or people that were already dead? And would it work on cybertronians? To Bulkhead, if he thinks long enough about zombies brought from the dead to do someone's bidding, it grows more and more disturbing. But zombies aside, if Trahearne's a good guy, then there's a chance the two of them could get along just fine.

[persephoneflouwers]

Hi Angie, i hope it is alright that im calling you Angie, this is C.

Sorry for not replying earlier, I hope you are doing good. I’m also sorry to see that you lost someone so important to you, hope you are feeling better now.

I kinda screenshotted your answer to get back to you at a more suitable time (I see that I have the best timing now that the circus is back in town like talk about that wasted time eh Harry, anyway..)

I’m sorry that the fandom evolved into a place where you (and me and I’m sure many others) are feeling bad for voicing opinions that are essentially the fundamentals of being a larrie. The way this has been happening is particularly disheartening when people accuse us of apparently not respecting their closet or blaming them for their closets, like that is some level of gaslighting and guilt tripping.

I guess the fandom became this way now because louder voices are more occupied with following the biggest popstar (their words definitely not mine) of recent years than two closeted musicians that they can see past all the bs H and his team pull to the point where them voicing all the praise and how this fuck-boy persona is a must to make it big are drowning out the reasonable judgments of many levelheaded fans that can still manage to be here.

It really makes me wonder how it would be now with H and L if the fandom could have been more open with our criticism towards their recent way of handling fame, business etc, like im not trying to attribute more importance than we deserve to us as a fandom in their lives or saying we know better than them but we experienced firsthand how they were attuned to the chatter of larry fandom, maybe some tough love is what they need to hear instead of all the coddling (especially H) they are oddly receiving mostly from this part of fandom.

Also, im not trying to sound insensitive but it feels like they are missing Jay-like figure in their lives who im firmly believing was the voice of reason for them (I dont wanna get into this too much out of respect for Jay)

I have so much respect for you (and other blogs like you) bc you guys refuse to give into pressure of following whats come to be “the truth” and still speak your truths, there is nothing off putting about that believe me, it is admirable.

Im sorry if this ask feels incoherent, if it is so, you are gonna understand why in my following ask which would be just for you.

Hello, C 🦋 it’s so comforting to read your messages every now and then. I hope life is treating you well.

I know I made myself a reputation of an hater, but I’m not. I’m just constantly pushing back whatever stupid move they make. I don’t care if it’s good for their business, it’s not worthy on a human level and I fear the day people will start prioritising job and money and commercial success.

I also understand ignoring whatever thing you don’t like is a way to cope and go through this and curate your experience, but still it won’t make it go away. It’s hard at times, especially here - I’m not particularly close to anyone here so it feels like my experience is just me speaking into the void, you know? - and in this isolation sometimes I feel like the evil character but I don’t think I am. I’m a fan like everyone else, except I am very opinionated and more often than not I don’t agree with what I see/read here and there.

But thank you for coming back. I will not post the other part II because I like that little secret between us 😌 you’ll find me here when you decide to share more of your thoughts of course <3

[jujurose222]

Tumblr is for the know it all’s. I don’t want to be a know it all, but I am, and I try my hardest not to be so annoying. But like it just happens and i dont know how. I’m tired of like shaming myself though, I’m just sharing knowledge I know, without considering feelings and that’s where the problems come in. I have been trying really hard not to be so insensitive. So apologies to anyone who I’ve been a know it all too, I’m sorry for spilling my nerd juice all over you, it was inconsiderate. Most of the time I just overwhelm people with a butt fuck of information in one sitting, I try to speak as fast as my mind is moving and watch their faces fall so quickly. I’ve only met one person who could keep up more than anyone I know. Even so, I’m still in another world talking about some buffoonery nobody is even aware of. Also when I’m with him I can control this more, it’s so strange, it’s like something is being communicated silently. Versus anybody else, everything sort of clashes, does not blend. Information just bounces off their brains back to me. With him, information I give is going somewhere, i dont know where, and being sent back to me, but not always through voice. Something silent. He sends me information that i dont even know what im doing with, but im doing something without thinking about it. It’s like looking at a symbol or artwork, it produces something inside you, an energy meant to propel you somewhere. Our energy exchange propels me like looking at paintings of gods and goddesses. Stories of our Psyches that come from the stars. Looking in his eyes is like looking in these paintings that are like looking in the stars. I say “in” not “at” very specifically, because I do not mean superficially. I mean consciously realizing the act of admiring and indulging in these pieces of art is doing something to me energetically. It’s so much more than body, but the body is the entrance to this. His body is my entrance to the heavens. Like the snake is the entrance to the world. I see the cosmos inside of him, inside, inside, inside. Subterranean realms below my earth, the subterranean realms inside him are fascinating. They are dark and gloomy, and I want to see them, so I can climb up to his paradise. But now that I think of it, I’ve been inside his subterranean realms for a while. Help me get out of the hive mind? I pray and pray but my faith is blind here. But I asked for this, I did. I swear I did. I knew what I signed the day I opened my eyes. I knew what I was beginning the day I heard my coworker talk about him. I knew what I wanted, there was no stopping what came over me. Because I signed a more important contract before I came to earth. Like an old cartoon where the characters eyes bulge out of their head, I felt that way when I saw him. I had never been a girl to admire in such a way, not in such a deep way. I was able to see so far into his eyes, endless surprise like the stars in my night sky. Nobody’s eyes have been so enticing, “oh I met him before.” Maybe, but that’s not even what I mean, it’s so much more than that. His eyes fuel a fire inside me, one of love and passion for creation. Creation of art, words, timelines, dreams, doorways. Holds out his hand, insinuating, after you, but he still manages to take lead even from behind me.

I love him so much. So much to the point it endlessly terrifies and excites me, just like every amazing opportunity in my life. Except this one is more severe than anything I’ve ever known. I love him so bad, I cannot contain myself. I love him so bad, it physically pains my soul to think of him being cold. I would like to show him warmth. But my therapist said, “you shouldnt help someone unless they ask for help.” She said this before I did what I did. Before I left him to enjoy the cold, because he never asked for my warmth. I did what she said, and we still hurt. But it is not the end. I know it, you’re a fool. The fool is ruled by Aries. Don’t think I don’t know the part well, I’ve played it endlessly, even as a know it all. They just consider my information, tomfoolery. Despite the truth resounding in their bones. I love him. I love you. I love the feeling I get beside you. I love life because I met you, it’s true good things happen on earth, thank you proving that to me.

[teddypoi-qd]

hope you don't mind if i add on -- this was tags but then it got out of hand;;

i sent kim away for body disposal on like, day 4? 5? whatever day it was, i had access to the cabin. and it was a full day, I sent my mans off at like 7am.

so i had this whole day to myself and i sort of sat down with harry's thoughts and decided this was gonna be his day to Get His Shit Together and solve the case. he's had this win with the bullet early on, he's gonna ride that high 'til the end of the day. i send him upstairs for a bath (but make sure not to dunk the face. he cares about the cryptozoologists). i get him to stop making The Expression. it feels a bit harder after that to keep going with that high of serotonin. when he's not leering out at you, it's harder to pretend like he's happy. but he's made his decision, he'll clear things off his plate so he can focus on the case.

he goes on a walk through the area. checks the insulindian phasmid traps more out of obligation, rather than genuine curiosity. nothing. head to the cabin for a midday rest before hitting the town to make some progress with the Hardies. and hey, there's the stuff to shave. the muttonchops are a little much. there. he looks so much more respectable now (right?) (he looks sad). but it's fine, he's doing so well.

we head back up to the whirling, find out about klaasje (we'll save that for when kim comes back), talk to the hardies and finally establish some authority with titus (if we had to wear the boots kim doesnt know we have to do that... well, what he doesn't know won't hurt our relationship with him). we examine the bullet, figure some things out that we should really tell kim about.

all in all a very successful day. sober. and to bring it all to a close, harry stops obsessing about his sexuality and turns in for the night, so proud of all he's done. and he sleeps.

when kim came back the next day i could imagine harry being so fucking excited. "look kim i havent touched a drink in days, look kim i shaved, i bathed, im not leering at people anymore, i made breakthroughs, look kim please im trying so fucking hard to be good, i'm sorry"

and kim's like 'you look Bad', and FUCK.

i love kim dearly and i dont think this was said out of intent to hurt, but i DO think that it was very insensitive in a way that like, people who don't give their own emotions and thoughts space to breathe, will also inevitably shit on other's.

"yes, detective, you shaved. you're still a mess. you've damaged yourself irrevocably" is what harry hears, and that day of progress, to him, meant nothing, because the one person that's given him patience and obliged his eccentricities can't see past The Damage.

thinks about the shaving scene and becomes so sad I cry in real life

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[leviathans-watching]

if it isn't too much to request, could we get a more gender neutral thing with the MC being on their period? i'm on mine right now and it's been hard to find comfort writing that isn't for female readers which ESPECIALLY sucks because im. well. Not A Girl dhwhs

AH but of course you don't have to if you feel like it's too repetitive!!!

mc on their period

includes: the bothers x/& gn!reader (no pronouns mentioned)

wc: .6k | rated g | m.list

a/n: i'm sorry you're feeling this way!! i know it's a little late but i hope it helps next time it rolls around or just in general haha. thank you for requesting and i hope you enjoy!! my inbox is open to chat, req, or leave feedback so come say hello <33

warnings: vague and brief mentions of dysphoria

please like and reblog hehe

burying your face in your arms you groan, slumping down.

“what ever is the matter?” lucifer asks, and you lift up your head a little to look at him. he’s got his finger marking where he left off reading and his gaze is steady on you.

“i’m just not having a super great time right now,” you reply, semi-honestly. “life sucks.”

opposite you, belphie nods. asmo smacks him on the shoulder.

“i’m sorry you feel that way,” asmo says, a pout forming. “is it something in particular? you don’t have to talk about it if you don’t want to.”

“yeah,” satan agrees. “and if there’s anything we can do for you, please let us know. we’d be happy to help.”

you smile a little, touched. “thanks, guys. it’s just, you know, that time of the month so i’m extra moody.”

everyone softens slightly at that, familiar now with your feelings about your period and all of the complicated feelings that usually arise along with it.

“that sucks,” mammon says, normally brash tone quieter. “i know in the past chocolate and stuff has helped, do ya want any of that?”

“theoretically, yes,” you sigh. “but i’m not even close to hungry. sometimes my appetite gets screwed up.”

“so that’s why you didn’t eat much for lunch,” beel says, and mammon snorts.

“of course that’s what you’d notice.”

cutting off the potential squabble, lucifer speaks once more. “i’m very sorry you’re feeling like this. i know you don’t feel your best during menstruation but we’re all willing to do whatever you need. and if you want us to just drop the subject and not bring it up again right now, we’re more than willing to do that too.”

looking around at all of their stupidly sincere and kind expressions makes you know that what lucifer’s saying is the truth. the boys rarely agree on anything, but when it comes to you and your wellbeing, you’ve found their thinking aligns more often than not. you bury your face in your arms once more and bite your cheek.

“uh, mc?” levi says after a moment, and you hear a soft thud, followed by a quiet ‘ow’. asmo could probably reach him too.

“i’m okay,” you say. “just trying to get a handle on these stupid emotions i suddenly have. thank you, lucifer. i really appreciate it. and i’m okay with talking about it, but it was kind of you to check my boundaries.”

“of course,” lucifer replies, and a soft touch lands on your shoulder. beel, probably, since he was on that side of you. “kindness has nothing to do with it, though. it’s just basic decency.”

“that’s true.” you huff out a laugh, sitting up fully once more. beel’s hand- you’d assumed correctly -shifts but doesn't fall. you lean into the touch slightly. “but still, thank you.”

“think nothing of it,” satan cuts in. “i also wanted to add that if we ever do or say anything, not only about this, that is invalidating or insensitive to please let us know. i know i, and probably everyone here just wants to respect and love you in the way you deserve.”

“you’re all doing a great job of that, so don’t worry,” you say. “i’d say something if you weren’t, but again, thank you.”

stupid respectful boys who make your heart feel like it’s going to burst.

getting your period really sucks but at least you have them.

leviathans-watching's work - please do not copy, repost, or claim as your own

[idiashrub]

Is it insensitive for me to say? - Idia Shroud

Idia fails to keep his promise to his little brother and is now feeling like the biggest disappointment there ever is; (Y/n) is there to be the 'somebody' he refuses to admit that he needs.

important note(s): This takes place after the events in Idia's robe personal story! // contains very subtle implications of ch6 (nothing detailed or specific) // (Y/n) is Yuu —she/her— is also implied to have been transported to Twisted Wonderland a year earlier, so she's the same year as the second years.

a/n: This has been sitting in my drafts for a while now, so why not post it here? May this be my official debut in the twst writing community here on tumblr! Hope you'll like it! <3

word count: 2.6k

Her fist gently came in contact with the door, emitting gentle knocks that echoed through the empty hallways of Ignihyde.

"Idia? It's quite late but I was hoping to see you," she called a little loudly, waiting for a response.

Minutes passed but silence was the only thing that addressed her presence. No sounds of buttons being smashed together, no raged muttering and heavy sighs of frustration to indicate loss, nor were there yelps of victory. It was complete and still silence.

Maybe he wasn't in his room? Rarely does Idia ever leave his room, but that didn't mean it didn't happen. So (Y/n) turned to look at the hallway, hoping to catch a glimpse of his familiar long flaming hair, presumably returning from a late-night stroll — a silly thought now that she thinks about it.

Ding!

The phone that rested on her pocket vibrated.

im fine

you can leave now

im better off alone <message deleted>

She pursed her lips, thinking of what to say.

"Well, sorry to say this but I'm not leaving. Come on, Idia, it's been a while since we've last properly spoken or seen each other!" her hand mindlessly tapped on the door, following a random rhythm, "I was given a short break from having to attend to everyone's needs, so might as well spend it with you!"

"…"

Nothing was going to be accomplished if things remained like this until the next couple of hours. She didn't even want to pry answers out of him, she really just wanted to see him and talk about whatever. They weren't really able to contact each other as much during break because of the part-time job (Y/n) took at this village nearby. And even as the students returned, the weeks leading up to the ceremony had been quite hectic; having to help the others, she had to cancel numerous plans she had with Idia — their supposed weekend movie nights, game tournaments, and whatnot.

She just needed to see her beloved's familiar yellow eyes. She missed joking about how the bright color contrasted his gloomy personality…

A click echoed through the silent hallway when she gently pushed the door, much to her surprise. She didn’t expect the door to be left unlocked, especially if Idia was inside, most likely feeling down.

When she continued to push it more open, the familiar interior of the dorm leader’s room came into view. There she saw the dorm leader of Ignihyde, Idia Shroud. He was lying on his bed, looking somewhat jagged and sullen with his headphones on. She wondered how he managed to hear her calls if he was wearing those headphones.

Was he even listening to anything or was it to serve to mislead those who stumble upon him looking like he was now?

From what she can see of him from the doorway, he looked even duller than usual; the small glint behind his eyes not becoming visible to her no matter how hard and long she stared. He looked saddened, disheartened…disappointed.

…Is it of himself?

Another thing she noticed was how he’s in his ceremonial robes.

So he was planning on personally attending the entrance ceremony…

“Hey,” she greeted, hoping that he wouldn’t be in an even fouler mood after she decided to proceed in his room without his permission. (Y/n) took a quick scan of the room to see if anything really changed, to distract herself as she waited for a response from him. It's pretty much the same — with his belongings scattered here and there, candy wrappers tucked within the pages of some books and as well as some laid on the floor, and prints of paperworks lazily placed on the desk and chair.

“I hope you don't mind me intruding. I was hoping we'd spend the night together, you know? Catch up, watch something, or play games…! Didn't the game you mentioned release a new update a few hours ago?"

Getting Idia to talk at this state was next to impossible.

'I won't be checking the update until a few days from now, I'm gonna wait for others to test it first to ensure there won't be any bugs. So you don't have a reason to stay, ' the sound of Idia's voice reached her ears.

When her eyes landed on his figure again, she was surprised to see him holding his tablet, his position no longer laying on the bed but instead sitting cross-legged on it.

(Y/n) didn’t even notice where he grabbed his tablet from until she heard the sound of his voice (perhaps he got it from the shelf on his bedside?). But she didn't let that fact distract her from his words.

He looked as if he's experiencing one of his darkest nights, and (Y/n) didn't want him to be alone if so.

With all her confidence, she stalked towards the direction of where he sat, taking the spot beside him. The weight of the mattress shifted as she plopped down.

There wasn't really anywhere else for her to stay, but she'll be staying anyway.

At her action, Idia's eyes widened for a millisecond before reverting to normal after taking an intake of breath silently; (Y/n) acted nonchalant with their proximity as she suggested an idea on what else they could do.

"Hm, then maybe we can watch something? Cater-senpai recommended a movie. It's about a time-traveler chasing another time-traveler who stole his family’s time machine..." She paused, eyeing Idia's sunken eyes before continuing, "or maybe we can just talk."

"T-talk? On second thought, w-we can test the new update!"

Ding!

Her phone went off the same time he finished his sentence — It was a message from the headmaster.

(Y/n) sighed at the sight of it, contemplating whether or not to respond.

Didn't he promise to let me be for the time being?

Idia watched as her lips formed a thin line. He watched as her eyes shifted from her phone to his room then to her phone again — this meant that she's debating what to do next. And as he continued to watch her and be with her, maybe spending the night with someone isn't really so bad right now?

(Y/n) had already stood up and was about to proceed back to her dormitory, where the headmaster apparently needed her, but paused when she felt a smooth, cold hand enclose hers, wrapping it with a firm but gentle grip.

He squeezed her hand gently.

"Wait! P-please stay!" I miss ranting. I miss our late-night conversations. I miss beating a game with you. I miss raging with you. I miss celebrating with you. I miss...you! This was everything he originally wanted to say, but he decided against it, "we can talk…”

After hearing his silent plea, the frown on (Y/n)'s lips shifted into a smile as she squeezed his hand back, her gaze at their hands clasped together.

And while she felt more fondness with the blue-haired introvert engulf her, Idia felt warmth trickling up to his neck. He could feel and see the tips of his long flaming blue hair turn a light shade of red. He hoped (Y/n) wouldn't notice this.

She did. But she remained silent about it, deciding to not make a big deal out of this despite wanting to tease him a bit. She didn't want for him to be too flustered, after all, else he wouldn't be able to function properly.

"So…" they both said at the same time. Their eyes quickly met each other's as their minds raced. (Y/n) found this amusing; Idia wanted to face-palm at his idiocy.

Why couldn't he start a conversation without making anything awkward? Great, now he's certain that (Y/n)'s questioning why she's even in his room with him; why she decided to be with him; why she's still holding his hand.

…holding hands?

Idia gasps, his hand immediately letting go of hers as the tips of his hair shifted to an even darker shade of red.

"S-sorry!" She's probably realizing how she doesn't even like me now! "Um…"

Why is she even with you? (Y/n) is literally a high-ranking person in terms of everything (excluding magic), plus her stats are either already maxed or nearing…

Constitution? Vil, and especially Rook, personally guide her with her routines. And on afternoon weekends, she's often seen with Rook at the sports ground.

Intellect? She's top ranking in classes despite being unfamiliar with this dimension and not possessing any type of magic!

Personality and Appearance? Everything about her never fails to leave anyone in awe.

Charisma? Anyone who comes in contact with her never forgets about her. She ends up lingering far longer than normal, and she never fails to hold anyone's interests no matter how their interests fail to meet.

Willpower? Her mental capability to handle immense pressure and stress is top-notch. The fact that she originates from another dimension only adds more to her stat…

...but she does come short in terms of luck, considering her current predicament…

But regardless, you're making a fool of yourself by being with her. You who's hopeless and a good for nothing otaku; also anti-social, socially anxious, generally awkward, cursed, gloomy, an outsider, an outcast...a liar…secretive…

You're most likely just going to stain her wonderful attributes.

Bringing nothing but disappointment…

Plus, you failed to execute the promise you made to Ortho!

Her relationship level with Ortho is at its max — the probability of a limit break is at ~99.9% — so she's most likely going to feel a wave of disappointment when she learns that you failed to keep your word to your little brother.

And Ortho…

The disappointment he must have felt…

But you did so for yours and his sake, right? Ortho wouldn't want to see his older brother embarrassing himself.

But, again, he was so excited…

The sound of fingers snapping cut his train of thought. When his eyes settled on her figure, he noticed how she now sat on the floor, leaning onto his bed as her eyes stared up at him.

"Why are you apologizing? There's nothing to be sorry for," she smiled, placing her hand on top of his as she said this, "and I told you already, nothing you do will drive me away. I'm not going to be your future history."

You wouldn't be saying that if…if you knew…

Her hand appeared smaller as it rested on top of his hand, barely covering his. Thin fingers wrapped around his, forming a grip that he can easily shake off — something he doesn't do — as his skin felt the traces of her long unsharp nails.

Her grip was calloused, but he didn't complain. He felt as if she wanted to tighten their hold, but decided against it. So he did what she didn’t.

"I didn't say anything such…" he muttered under his breath, his eyes remaining on their hands as he evading her observing eyes.

"You're right, you didn't. But I can see it in your eyes. You're beating yourself up for something you're not even doing, or for something you failed to do. It's like destroying yourself by firing off missiles of hateful words."

Every word she uttered was like a punch in the gut. Idia feels as though he was slapped by reality, her reality — the very reality he's always [wrongfully] assuming.

But how can she say that? Why does she believe such?

'There's a reason as to why she holds your intrigue; why she calls you hers and her yours!' The more rational and less anxious part of his mind tried to pinpoint.

But despite this, the cloud of anxiety and insecurity still overcame him.

She's pointing out his flaws! She's going to think of more and further push the idea of giving up every connection she shares with you. She's probably going to get fed up with you now and just end everything.

Here comes the— the ‘I’m sorry, but I don’t think being with someone like you’s good for me’ or something.

"You're speculating why I'm with you when it should be me thinking that."

...Huh?

"You know, with every negative connotation you have of yourself, whether it's something directly about you or because of your choices, it breaks me; it saddens me as much as it saddens you."

She let go of his hand for a second before taking ahold of it again, this time both of it. She held them together, her thumbs tracing circles on his pale skin.

"Idia, you’re so, so much more to me than what you think. Your fears? Struggles? Anxiety? And everything else you label as your mental baggage? I'm here to carry it with you; I'm here to listen; I'm here to help you with them; I'm here. I'm always going to try and be here. For you and for Ortho," she said, the tone of her voice lacing with nothing but complete and honest sincerity.

She's only saying that because of how pathetic you must seem...

His eyes finally met hers.

But her eyes are shining with veracity…

"You say that now but once you get to know more of me…" he trailed off, his eyes attempting to avoid hers, but they didn't.

She smiled a gentle smile, "But that's the beauty of it, isn't it? The mysteries to be uncovered! We have all the time we need to know and understand. We don't have to rush anything! And…this might sound cliché but I accept who you are and who you're going to be as we continue on! So long as you're not a serial killer or anything," she joked, chuckling at her final statement. But everything else she said was pure honesty.

She was still holding his gaze as she held his, and he genuinely didn't know what to say. The tips of his hair were now a prominent crimson and his mouth opened and closed to try and form words; he tried to respond but he kept failing.

Because normally, her words would have been something he deemed as naïve, but…it brought him some sense of comfort.

She stood from her position and took the spot next to him. Now sitting beside Idia and turning her body to face him, she let go of his hand as her right palm held his cheek, tenderly caressing it.

"Now, I don't mean to be insensitive but get your act together, alright? So I can love you without the unwanted torments of your own mind," she advised before her lips came in contact with his for a kiss— a kiss that lasted far too quickly for their liking.

Her eyes fluttered open as she pulled away, watching Idia as he did the same. They stayed like that for a few more moments, foreheads leaning onto one another as they simply stared into each other's eyes, relaying the messages of 'thank yous' and 'I love yous' with only their gazes.

But for now, it was enough. They felt comfort and fondness with each other. And the act only solidified what they're already feeling — maybe even adding more into it. They're more than looking forward to knowing about the other whilst following the steady pacing of their still blooming relationship.

It's exciting how, despite being thrown and stuck to a completely unfamiliar world, she still managed to find someone that is able to bring her comfort…

And how he also finally found the someone who he once thought was nonexistent — the someone that's willing to wait and listen then understand…

"Let me call Ortho so we can have that movie night promised."

This is a simplified version! The full version of this fic can be read on AO3 - 09/16/21

[multi-maker]

hi hi! so i just recently just found out about your blog and i LOVE your writings! may i request an albedo x reader angst to fluff about the reader thinking he likes sucrose even though he’s just asking her on how to confess to the reader? aaa im so sorry for making a complicated request 🥺💔

:000 i loved writing this so much omg aaa it broke my heart but it also mended it ?? sorry for writing this very late !! admin dawn has had a bit of a problem trying to get albedo’s personality right hehe-

also, don’t be sorry for making it very detailed! like what anemo and i put in the rules, the more detailed the request, the better!! <33

your wish is my command~!

“ i always know that you make me smile “ | a.

albedo was a strange person. he knew lots of things about the world, figuring out the unknowns and unlocking mystery after mystery. he was intelligent and polite, and can be quite excited when talking about something that interested him. he was always talking about alchemy, the secrets of the world, and things he wanted to create.

to you, albedo was someone who became constant. not only was he polite and intelligent, albedo was nice to you; he was gentle and understanding towards you. 

it wasn’t a surprise that you fell for the genius alchemist of mondstadt.

his looks added to that factor too; silky and soft pale blonde hair and eyes that glimmered beautifully. albedo was also known to be quite a looker himself; some even placing him in the pedestal of the winery master himself.

you noticed that you fell for him when you realized you felt quite empty when he didn’t show up for three days, too into his experiments. when seeing him already brought a smile to your face, when watching him talk about the things he loved made you feel warm. when you see him take time off just to play with klee.

but of course, the genius alchemist already had someone in mind.

his student, sucrose. sucrose wasn’t that younger than the both of you, merely a year or two younger. she was painfully shy but she was kind and gentle. like albedo, her intelligence also shone brightly. she was very giving and worked hard to prove herself to her teacher.

it pained you to admit that albedo may be in love with her, only seeing you as a friend and nothing more.

“y/n.” albedo’s silky voice snapped you out of your rather depressing thoughts, causing you to look where he was. he stood a few feet away from you, sketchbook in hand alongside his pen. “albedo! good morning.” you greeted him, and you hated how you already felt happy and energized just seeing the genius alchemist.

albedo gives you a soft smile, walking towards you. “i know this is quite sudden, but i wanted to ask you for a favor.” he says, stopping in front of you. you hum, locking your hands behind your back. “depends what kind of favor it is. the last favor you made me do almost made me fall in the middle of a large hilichurl camp.” you grumbled teasingly, lips quirking. albedo chuckles sheepishly, tilting his head. “well, i would have saved you if that happened.” he suggested, making you blink in surprise. warmth flooded you, making your cheeks tint pink.

you clear your throat, smiling brightly. “well? what favor is it, then?” you ask him. he gestures you to follow him which you gladly did. “i am...not familiar with the world of romance...so i decided to ask you, my most trusted friend.” he speaks slowly, looking away from you as he takes in mondstadt scenery.

unknown to him, your heart shattered into tiny pieces.

“a-ah! what is it?” you ask him, looking down on your feet. you didn’t know why you were doing this to yourself; breaking your heart by telling albedo advice. “i have liked this person for quite some time now...and i think it is time for me to confess.” albedo answers you, looking at you in the corner of his eye.

you swallow the upcoming bile in your throat, your tummy doing flips which made you nauseous. you could practically feel and hear your heart shatter at his words, your hands turning clammy. you could feel your eyes turning misty but you push the tears back.

maybe you were too selfless, but you were a friend to albedo. he trusted you so much to come to you for this type of advice. deep down, you didn’t want to give him advice. you wanted to scream at him, tell him you love him.

but...maybe this is better.

so you force a smile, and the words tumbled out from your mouth.

“well, it depends on the person! if the person you like is quite shy and doesn’t like attention, then maybe you should confess to them when you’re alone. public proposals are a bit too much if the person is shy and quite reclusive. it’ll only pressure them, and that’s not a good thing!” you tell him, wagging your finger. “i suggest drawing them? since you’re a really good artist, then maybe making a portrait of them will touch them!” you added on, smiling.

he stops in his tracks, eyes turning to you.

“y/n...why are you crying?”

you freeze, eyes widening at his words. slowly, your fingertips touched your cheeks and true to his words, there were indeed tears streaming down from your eyes.

curse your emotional self.

waving your hands around, you let out a nervous and high pitched laugh. “it’s nothing, it’s nothing! dust probably came in my eyes hehe...” you replied to him, your smile shaky. 

albedo tilted his head, his eyes seemingly analyzing you. you were frozen when he steps near, hands coming up to touch your cheeks. “did i hurt you?” he mutters, his eyes staring into yours. “e-eh...?” you stumble, swallowing. “w-why would you hurt me? you did nothing wrong, albedo! like i said, dust probably came in my eyes...” you trail off when albedo shuts his eyes, sighing softly.

“i asked kaeya on how to confess too. he told me that i should fool around with the person i like, asking them how to confess and such, then drop my question when the moment felt right.” albedo says softly, opening his eyes.

“but i didn’t expect you to cry and think that i was referring to sucrose.”

your cheeks burned at his words and at his accusatory eyes, making you gulp. “w-well! who else could you refer to! acting grandmaster jean? if so, then maybe confessing to her under the big tree in windrise will make her think about you more! or is it lisa? you can give her a sealed scroll! oh, is it amber? then-”

“i was referring to you.”

you went still as a rock at his honest words, eyes meeting his serious ones. you open your mouth to speak, but no words escaped. you were left gaping at him, eyes wide and cheeks bright. “i do not like sucrose that way. she is my student and only that. acting grandmaster jean is only my superior and i merely respect lisa for her intelligence and prowess. amber is only someone i am curious about and that is that. i do not like any of them,” he pauses, collecting his words.

“i like you, y/n.”

your cheeks turned hotter at his words and you couldn’t form a single sentence. the corner of his lips quirked at your reaction, his eyes gentle and amused. he opens his sketchbook, stopping at a particular page.

it was a drawing of you when you and him were out on an adventure. it was a sketch of you asleep against a tree, face peaceful and relaxed. “you are the person i like. i am sorry if i hurt you because of how insensitive i came off towards your own feelings, kaeya told me that this will make you find out about how i feel towards you and...” albedo trails off when you tackled him, a bright and relieved laughter escaping your lips. his arms instinctively rose to hug you around the waist as he looks at you, eyes misty but bright and happy. your lips were pulled into a bright smile, expression soft and gentle. no matter how much he practice, he could never replicate your emotions. it was too pure and bright to even be copied and it always turned lousy, something undeserving of someone like you.

“i like you too, albedo. i really do.”

relief crossed in his face, his hands coming up to cup your face.

“i’m glad, y/n. i really am.”

[alittlesimp]

Ranpo, Gin and Akutagawa with an s/o who is very attached to them

request: Helloo can you do ranpo,gin and akutagawa with a reader who has attachment issues and they are very attched to them?? İf you do. thank you!

a/n: i have to admit, while i love writing about these three i'm not the best at them :') i tried my best but im sorry if it sucks lmaoo

warnings: none

· I see him as someone who is very hot-and-cold in relationships

· Like one minute he is the clingiest person ever and the next he will forget to reply to your texts

· Not because he’s playing a game with your feelings (he does genuinely care about you) or because he needs space (which would be perfectly valid btw), he’s just like that LMAO

· While that might be hard to deal with, he will make it up to you later

· Doesn’t mind if you’re clingy as long as you don’t get extremely upset with him

· In fact, he lowkey adores it. Apparently he’s so amazing he got you to love him this much? Truly the greatest detective and boyfriend.

· Initially he might find it challenging to empathize with your feelings when you do get upset

· He’ll say something very insensitive, but after taking some time to cool off and thinking it through he’ll realize he shouldn’t have reacted like that

· His more serious side will come out

· Will reassure you that he cares a lot about you and ask you to explain your thought process so he can understand you better

· After which he’ll pretend this whole thing never happened, though internally he’s trying to be more considerate :)

· She’s away a lot because of her job so in-person quality time is rare

· Her phone is also off or left at home (except for that fucking FLIP PHONE everyone uses) so it can be hard to reach her when she’s on the job

· That doesn’t mean she doesn’t think of you though :)

· When she’s done for the day she always makes sure to call you, no matter how tired she definitely is

· And she tries to bring back souvenirs if she has the time

· She’ll always let you know exactly when she’s away, even if she has to leave in a hurry

· She doesn’t want you to worry about her, but she does understand you

· She has a dangerous job so it’s not like your concerns are ungrounded!

· When she’s home she tries to make up for lost time (she’s missed you too)

· While she does need some her-time sometimes, she enjoys being around you and very frequently takes the initiative on planning quality time together

· Gin definitely won’t make you feel unwanted, even if she can’t be with you all the time

· Oh man. He will be so annoyed with you, especially if you feel attached to him before you’re in a relationship, when he’s still trying to figure out who you are and what he thinks of you

· Doesn’t understand why you act the way you do and will lash out. A lot.

· This guy can’t handle weakness and because of how you act towards him he probably doesn’t think very highly of you at the beginning

· Will be offended if you worry about him, assumes it’s because you think he’s incapable of doing his job correctly (but then… you give him compliments as well? It doesn’t add up in his head)

· When he sees how different you are around others, and most importantly when you show him you’re not weak, his opinion of you slowly changes

· He’ll still be annoyed but his confusion will slowly take over

· You’re clearly a capable person, so why do you act like this?

· One day he’ll very bluntly ask you why you’re so clingy and no matter how much you may try to dance around it, he will get an answer… Which’ll make his brain explode

· Akutagawa.exe has stopped

· Will have to get used to the idea of a relationship, but once you’re together he’ll slowly but surely get more affectionate (in his own way)

· Because he Understands Why now, he won’t get mad at you for being clingy or worrying about him anymore (maybe a bit annoyed sometimes, but never ready-to-kill-mad LMAO)

· He needs alone time sometimes, but he wouldn’t mind if you want to spend more quality time together than he personally needs

please comment/reblog if you enjoyed! i'd love to hear what y'all think <3