#and ik im evil with my open endings

[chilling-seavey]

next love thy neighbor part when🙏🙏

💕never💕

[gothic-thoughts]

OFC I Don't Mind

Toji Fushiguro x Black Fem Reader Smut

MDNI, Roommate!AU, Friends2lovers, Drabble

CW: sending nudes to the wrong person (nightmare fuel), Toji has a job (😭), Toji intimidating you, some smashing at the end

Not proofread

Toji was still at work, typing on his computer when he was slightly startled by someone blowing up his phone, the ringtone repeating over and over in the quiet room. He rolls his eyes and stops typing, initially giving his fingers a break as he picks up his phone to see his lock screen now covered with messages from you, his roommates. They were all photos.

"The fuck…" Toji squints, typing in his password, "I swear to god if it's a bunch of memes…"

He opened the messages and his heart nearly stopped when he saw multiple mirror selfies of you in lingerie, then braless. His eyes were wide, unable to take his eyes off the screen, the only part of him moving was his thumb when his phone dimmed from lack of activity.

You: SHIT! You: FUSHIGURO DON'T LOOK AT THE LAST MESSGE You: *MESSAGE

He snaps out of his trance for a second to read the new message only for his eyes to roam back to the cluster of pictures in his inbox. His eyes look over every intricate design in the blue lace in the first pictures then to the dark brown areolas and smooth-looking skin of your tits in the next ones. A smirk slowly creeps across his face.

You: Im sorry they were meant for my fwb You: Ik ur mad his name is right next to yours on my phone and I clicked too fast. I'm so sorry You: Istg I didn't mean it Toji: Bullshit. You: Im being deadass,im sorry You: Just delete them

He takes a few seconds to read before a smirk creeps across his face.

Toji: I'll be there in 20. You: What, wait don’t hurt me! You: I said I was sorry. I swear it was an accident Toji: I said I’ll be back in 20 minutes. You: Bro relax! You: Just delete them and I swear it’ll never happen again Toji: Apologize in person. I will be there in twenty minutes.

Exactly 20 minutes later you hear the front door unlock and open from your bedroom upstairs, causing you to freeze in fear. His heavy footsteps climb the stairs. His footsteps sounded like thunder as they got louder and louder with him approaching your room. Finally, you heard him stop and knock on your bedroom door. You hold your breath. He waits outside the room for a few seconds and then you hear him knock again. You can hear his evil chuckle echoing throughout the hall. You take a breath and step closer to the locked door. “....Yeah?” "Open the door." “I feel like you gonna swing on me when I do so--” "Just. Open. The door." “Not if you gonna hurt me.” There's an angry sigh and he knocks on the door again. "You have ten seconds before I kick this fucking door in." “Toji, I told you it was an accident! You're doing a lot right now!” There was a short pause, as it became eerily quiet outside the door.

"Nine." “Wha- stop!” "Eight." “Fushiguro, you don't think this is an overreaction!?” "Seven." “Nigga!” "Six." “Alright, alright, fine!” You say unlocking the door before running back to the opposite side of your room. “It's open…” You hear his footsteps on the other side of the door as he walks in. He rolled up his sleeves as he made his way across the room, tossing his jacket onto your bed before he finally reached you with an exhausted sigh.

He sighs and reaches to hold your chin but instead, his thumb traces down your jawline and he tilts your head up to look into his eyes. His expression was no longer angry as he looked you up and down. You let out a shaky breath, finally breathing at the feeling of his surprisingly light touch. A few seconds pass as he stares at you, his thumb continuing to trace around the edge of your lips before finally he speaks. "I enjoyed ‘em a lot. Only thing pissin' me off is the fact they weren't for me." “Oh… oh…” "If you want to take away my anger, I have an idea of how you could do that." “You… you serious?”

He picks you up and tosses you onto your bed, the swiftness knocking the wind out of you before he even mounts you. You look up at him with wide eyes and lick your lips as he grips your wrists, pinning them about your head.

"You ask too many fuckin' questions. Now, lemme see those tits again."

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Half an hour later, you were both sweaty as ragged grunts filled your room. One hand had your fingers hooked into the messy bedsheets while the other held his shoulder as if he'd go somewhere. His hands were firmly planted into the mattress as he continued moving with jealously-driven fervor. Your phone suddenly rings, showing your fuck buddy's number on the screen.

Toji freezes at first, the movement stopping when hearing the phone. He stares down at you for a few seconds as he tries to process all of this as you hear your phone ring again and again. "Answer it." “What?” "Answer. It." You slowly pick up the phone. “H-ello?” Toji is still staring intently at you as he hears your friend on the phone. He lifts both of your legs to his shoulders and begins to move again, uncaring what your friend could hear. The friend laughs over the phone. “You with someone right now?” “Wh-what? N-no, I'm fine, just… in the shower.” “Oh yeah?” The friend chuckles, “That shower must be packing then." “F-uck you.” Toji smirks when he hears your friend laughing in the background before you hang up the phone. “Sh-shut up, you're… acting like you didn't decide to go as deep as possible, you bastard.” He laughs and lifts your body off the bed, holding you in his arms as he pushes you against the nearest wall. "That a complaint?" “No”

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(a/n): sorry if it felt rushed i literally noticed its been a week since I last posted 😅😅😅

[bubbless-s]

I love love LOVE your page. Your Harry Potter fics are my favsss. Your Kyle and Kenny headcanons were LITERALLY SCRUMPTIOUS, I WILL KEEP EATING IT UP.

But if I could, may I request the main 3 SP boys x reader please? Separately of course. Maybe they’re dating and having a sleepover together. Just hc’s on what they’d do at a sleepover with a partner.

If you could, fem reader would be preferred, gender neutral is okay though.

˚₊· ͟͟͞͞➳❥ Pillow Fights and Stolen Hearts₊ ⊹ ᶻ !! ␥

- ʚɞ genre: fluffy! (as always no gender implied.)

- ʚɞ warnings: none (devider)

→Masterlist

Kyle Broflovski

ೀ⋆ He definitely begged his mom for this.

ೀ⋆ His mom allowed with the rule of the door being open.

ೀ⋆ You suggested the sleepover firstly and got him hooked.

ೀ⋆ “What will we do on the sleepover? Play truth or dare?” after Stan showed him the powers of truth or dare he is willing to try it out with you. A little tho! He isn’t awaiting it with heart eyes!!

ೀ⋆ Our lovesick fool made a little list of things just incase if you guys runout of things to do.

ೀ⋆ “Do you have games on your phone?” -Ike

ೀ⋆ Kyle got you a rose too! He gave it to you when you arrived at his house.

ೀ⋆ Imagine the surprise on your face when you open the door to Kyles house only to get a rose shoved to your face. A very well decorated rose at that.

ೀ⋆ The fun part is when night came.

ೀ⋆ Kyle being Kyle couldn’t sleep at all.

ೀ⋆ Why you may ask. 1. He has the worst bed hair ever! 2.What if he kicks you in his sleep?! 3. Can’t stop staring at your sleeping face

ೀ⋆ It was the most anxious sleepover to him BUT you know after rain rainbow comes.

Stan Marsh

✧ Stan had this planned out for months.

✧ He carefully planned each step like the “master mind” he is. He totally sucks at it but eh

✧ First he will impress you with his guitar skills then ask you to come over to his place for a sleepover.

✧ It was a solid plan until he almost puked out of nervousness.

✧ But things did work out in Stans favour nonetheless!

✧ This loverboy was over the moon that you agreed and went out to buy all the snacks in the world with his pocket money.

✧ Not to mention he brushed his teeth 12 times because you guys w-will..will kiss..such a blasphemy..!

✧ Stan also made a very romantic questionable playlist.

✧ “You deserve better.” - Shelley

✧ When night fell Stan and you found yourself under the covers.

✧ Sleepy but still talking. Too invested in the conversation but too sleepy to continue..

✧ The problems solution was a sweet kiss and a even sweeter goodnight bidding.

Kenny Mccormick

৻ꪆ Kenny was thrilled to have a sleepover with you.

৻ꪆ Finally he was going to see what your room looks like!

৻ꪆ Asking him to come over wasn’t hard at all, you just asked as someone would do normally and Kenny cut you off saying yes. If it was a comic it would definitely have big “!!!” marks at the end.

৻ꪆ When he did arrive at your place y’all did the casual things. Watching TV together, snuggling under the covers, Kenny chasing you to tickle your sensitive spots—

৻ꪆ Yea you heard me ladies, gentlemen and non-binary sillies, Kenny chased you till you were breathless only to trap you underneath him.

৻ꪆ For some tickles. You had to cry and beg for release!

৻ꪆ When night began its reign Kenny became more quirky.

৻ꪆ He would always steal kisses or his hands would wande—ahem Kenny Im trying to keep this family friendly.

৻ꪆ Anyway! Kenny is the best cuddle buddy out there if you are cold he will pull you closer to himself, if you are hot he will loosen his arms.

৻ꪆ If Kenny happened to be awake later on his thought could begin to wander to more evil places.

৻ꪆ But he wouldn’t do that to his darling..

৻ꪆ Until you woke up funny shapes drawn all over your face.

[wasawattpadkid]

hello!! i hope ur having an amazing day :)) i just wanted to say that i absolutely LOVE housewife. & the way you write is amazing! i turned on your notifications so ik when u update. anyways im not sure if your requests are open or not but if they are could you possibly write a fluff with billy x reader? i was thinking something where billy takes the reader to an amusement park or fair, comforts them when theyre scared of the rides or rollercoasters and wins them prizes and stuff? maybe even have one of those cute cliche endings on a ferris wheel. thank you so much!! <3

I had fun writing this! I hope you like it 💕

Scaredy Cat

Paring: Billy Loomis x fem!reader

Warnings: cursing

"What do you want to do now?" Billy asked as he swug your hand in his. "Ooh you want to ride the teacups?" You pointed to the ride littered with children. He couldn't help but laugh. "That's the ride you can spin however fast you want right?" You nodded looking up at him. "I will make it my goal to make you sick." You went ahead and marked that ride off the list. The bag of cotton candy you had moments ago did not like his plan. "You really are the fun police." He looked at the ground with a laugh.

With the dark sky you could easily pick out the carousel spinning in the distance. Like a dog seeing a squirrel you pulled on his arm taking off. "Jesus!" He shouted trying to keep up. "Come on babe!" You laughed. Once you made it to the ride he smacked your ass for the senseless running you made him do. "Watch it Loomis there's children around. You'll get us kicked out." You teased. "I'm not getting on that." He pointed towards the spinning horses. With a pout you tried to convince him. "Please."

With a straight face he stared at you obviously unamused. "Fine. You ride this with me I'll ride whatever you want me to." Now that was a compromise. "We're going on that next." He turned you towards the biggest rollercoaster you'd ever seen. Suddenly you regretted your previous words. "We don't have to ride the carousel." He smiled pulling you to the short queue. "Nice try."

The ride attendant checked your wristband before letting you on the ride. She looked displeased at you both. "We're the oldest people on here." Billy said seeing the parents watch their kids from the sides of the ride. "But we're young at heart." He wanted to gag at the cheesy line. "Help me up." You ordered as you tried to throw your leg over the tall horse. "Really?" He shook his head picking you up. Once you were seated you responded. "Yes really. Now get on." He gazed at the vacant horse beside yours and shook his head. "Not happening."

"I'm not riding that rollercoaster unless you get on that horse. Plus I think cowboys are kinda hot." You shrugged trying to get him to let loose for once. He threw his leg over the horse right before the ride started. You giggled at the display. "I hope you piss yourself on that rollercoaster." He spat as he looked around the spinning scenery. "I love you too shit head." You blew the boy a kiss before closing your eyes. The overused carnival music was nostalgic putting a fond sense of security in your head.

Billy watched as you smiled. It'd been awhile since he'd seen you so genuinely happy. You laughed like a child on Christmas. He would ride the carousel a million times over if you looked this beautiful each time it started. You opened your eyes catching your boyfriend staring. "What?" You asked over the loud music. "Nothing." He said with a smile. The ride was short lived as it slowly came to a halt letting everyone off.

"You ready?" Billy asked an evil grin on his face. You held onto his arm as you both walked. "No." The closer you got to the ride the more intimating it became. You could hear the screams from riders a mile away. "You're seriously scared aren't you?" He laughed. You didn't understand how he could be so calm about a ride that could easily kill you both. "I don't see how you aren't." He shrugged as you slowly made your way to the front of the line.

"Make sure your legs and arms stay in the cart at all times. Any lost items will not be retrieved so if you think it'll fall leave it out now." The ride attendant spoke as he checked all the seat belts. Your hand squeezed Billy's knowing you couldn't back out now. He leaned over pressing a kiss to your temple. "We're not going to die. If we do atleast you died wearing something cute." You shot him a look. "You always know just what to say." Sarcasm dripped from your words. "Have fun." The operator said letting the ride slowly begin.

"Why'd we have to sit up front?" You asked him as people behind you cheered. "What do you mean? These are the best seats." Billy loved seeing you scared because you always ran to him for comfort. It was one of the best feelings in the world to him. The cart climbed the hill at such a slowly rate that by the time you reached the top you were ready to get off. "You ready?" He asked just seconds before the drop. "Fuck you!" You shouted as the cart plummeted. Billy laughed quickly being shut up by the speed of the ride. After a minute you started to really enjoy it. You held up your hands with the rest of the people noticing your boyfriend gripping the bar across your lap.

"Raise your hands!" You yelled hoping he could hear you. "Shut the fuck up!" He responded as you realized he was terrified. You laughed so hard you thought you were going to die and to Billy's displeasure you didn't stop even though the ride did. "You should have seen your face!" You held your stomach as tears fell from your eyes. "It's not even funny my back is killing me." He complained trying to blame his reaction on something else. "We should go again." You said laughing even harder at his expression. A coughing fit began making Billy smile. "Karma's a bitch."

"And so are you." You said through several coughs. Once you calmed down both of you headed towards the carnival games. "You going to win me something?" You asked as he looked the place over. "Which one do you want?" You pointed towards the little frog stuffed animal. Billy was surprised you didn't pick the biggest thing they had. "Okay here's some money I want you to walk up and start playing I'll be back." You furrowed your eyebrows in confusion. "Where are you going?" He waved you off disappearing in the crowd. You walked up the worker playing a game by yourself as you were told.

After a game or two you realized how rigged the game was. As you tossed another ring you saw Billy steal that little stuffed animal behind the carnival worker. "Tough break." The man said as you lost yet again. Billy held the toy behind his back as if you didn't catch him. You walked over to him a smile big on his face. "One frog for the beautiful lady." You took it from him trying to figure out if you should scold him. "You could've got caught." He kissed your lips before taking your hand in his. "But I didn't." He was right about that. "Well what are we doing next, and don't say the rollercoaster."

You clicked your tounge. "Damn there goes my plans." He shook his head before he saw the ferris wheel. "How about we ride the ferris wheel and then we'll head home?" Considering the stink he raised over the carousel you didn't think he'd want to ride that. "Really? You want to ride the ferris wheel?" His free hand found it's way into his pocket. "You can't go to an amusement park and not ride the ferris wheel." That was partially true but Billy knew the real reason he wanted to go. "Well lets go. Try not to get too scared on this one okay?" You teased as he rolled his eyes.

Billy held your hand helping you into the cart. "Thank you." You said as he shuffled in after you. His arm laid on the metal behind you letting you lay your head on his shoulder. "I really have had fun today." He chewed on his lip trying to play down the sense of pride he felt. "I'm glad." You looked out at the lights pointing at different things. "Tell me that doesn't look like a penis!" You pointed towards one of the rides as Billy laughed. "Your ability to ruin a sweet moment never fails to amuse me." The cart stopped at the top letting you get a view of everything around you. "Sweet moment?" You asked before Billy cupped your jaw pulling you into a kiss.

He could feel the big smile on your face as you kissed him back. It was cliche but he knew you'd appreciate the gesture. "I love you." He said looking into your eyes. It was the kinda stuff that was in movies. "And you're right that does look like a penis." You gasped at his words. "I told you!" You both laughed at each other. It was a great day even though Billy found out he was scared of rollercoasters. He was just happy he got to spend the day with you.

[boardboxes]

okay im going to compile my thoughts abt rise of red below bc I do in fact have a bit!!!

so I feel like everybody agrees on one thing… it was too short and things feel incomplete. and I agree. these are just a few things I wish they developed more

Bridget and Ella’s relationship. We are shown that they are really close and QoH says that Ella was off with Charming when she was pranked… but I wish we still saw more especially at the end of the movie.

I wish we saw more of the prank and how that actually played out. Or even Red and Chloe staying for Castlecoming , I think it would have been sweet to have them get ready with their moms and spending a night with them. And since we know that Ella went off with her Prince and that Bridget didn’t have many friends, it would’ve been nice for Bridget to have other people to spend time with that night.

I wanted more time with Bridget and Red. We got a nice song with Ella and Chloe but I wish Bridget and Red had more time together

I honestly wish we just had more of Bridget in general. They gave us a good two hefty scenes with her to cement the fact that she was super different in the past and then she kind of just disappeared

I understand why they didn’t change the queen of hearts so much at the end like they wanted us to be held in suspension with Red and Chloe… but if Bridget was the same girl I don’t think she would look like the evil queen of hearts just with some white on the front and a lighter lip shade… but the design choices are a whole nother can of worms

why did no one question the fact that Chloe and Red were not next to their moms?? especially their moms?? like this is the welcome to Auradon prep speech and you are not wondering where your kid is??

so does Bridget never becoming evil mean wonderland wasn’t cut off and is a part of Auradon. i blanked at the final scene honestly I was tired and uninterested at that point, I’m just gonna assume that the queen of hearts was there bc it was time for red to go to school anyway

Can someone explain the cookbook to me bc ?? why did Uliana and the other VKs freeze when she opened it if in the non altered time line she was able to make the cupcakes for Bridget

ik that version is a Disney character but what the hell is Hades doing at a merlins academy I’m dead

I hate the Beast and that has nothing to do with this movie honestly just every new piece of media we get I hate him a lil bit more. Merlin’s Academy from what I saw looks way more fun sorrryyy

the last thing is that I wish that Chloe and Red went back in time to before the moment at Auradon Prep, honestly just to see how different things are in Wonderland, more development on how different QoH actually is, etc etc etc. But I understand why they went back to that moment in the plot.

[on-leatheredwings]

How I feel before the fic - 6/10, 😐🙃🫠🙍🏻‍♀️

Right off the bat, can feel how frustrated darling is with the way dami asks things!!! Can practically see the fuckin eye roll as he asking where and with who!! (As if he probably doesn't have a tracker on half the shit darling owns)

Pls the way Damian is questioning darling like it's an interrogation! And then is almost like okay and? When darling answers him!!! Like sir!!

Firmly believe that yes Dami is much better than when he first arrived at the manor, he still has those moments where the teachings fucking seep into his frontal lobe like something awakening. Hence the 'owning' darling part and the fact that he gets why it's not socially acceptable but.....neither is half of the other things he does so it's kinda catch 22 with that one for him at times.

AND RHEN SAYING HE WOULD HAVE STOPPED HAD HE KNOWN DARLING FELT THAT WAY WHEN IK FOR A FACT HE WOULD SIMPLY NOT BE SO OPEN ABOUT IT!!! HE WOULD KEEP THEM AS INSIDE THOUGHTS !

Damian the manipulative king ngl

Man's probably thinks manipulation is much more extreme than what he's doing, probably considers what he does is just expressing himself :/

Damian really thinking he can talk darling down until being "threatened" with darling actually leaving!

My baby boy, yr father's relationships are ALSO UNHEALTHY! FIGHTING ESPECIALLY IN SUCH CAPACITY ISNT WHAT IT MEANS TO BE IN LOVE?!??!

him on his knees as a way to show you his devotion, willingly kneeling before only you and ever only you is something that means the highest level of love and devotion. And then the please, and the kissing? It's him trying to show you the fact that you're his deity and only wishes to keep you safe from the grime that is humanity! AND THEN ASKING TO CORRWCT HIS BEHAVIOR? ESSENTIALLY BEGGING TO ATONE FOR HIS SINS AT THE FEET OF HIS DIETY????

He just wants his soul to mingle with yours<3 your life lines intertwined in such a way that it'll extend past this life time<3 you'll be each other's in any and all times.

Damian is dastardly good at reminding darling why it's him. The way his body was born into this world to be with you and give you pleasure, as you were to him. You've belonged to each other since your first breaths and you will continue to be so until your last. At least, that's what he thinks.

The way you write Damian is so good, I really just adore it because it's so him but also just.....I can't see him falling in love normally. It always ends up like this, it's damn near hereditary. It's so good. Loved this fic and all the other Dami fics you post<3

Me after reading this - 9/10🫡🙂‍↕️🤤😲🥴🤭

Also no cookies yet, forgot I needed to soften the butter so been waiting on that while reading.

Much love Damian anon

Pls the way Damian is questioning darling like it's an interrogation! And then is almost like okay and? When darling answers him!!! Like sir!!

tell me why i got pissed off and i wrote it KJGHJSLDJFAHISD . while damian worships darling he also is. Damian. also at that point he just thought 'oh we're fighting right now. whatever. lovers fight (bruce x talia/selina) its always fine in the end,' not 'oh i'm about to lose your ass' KGHDSIOJHISDGI so he course-corrected real fast

Man's probably thinks manipulation is much more extreme than what he's doing, probably considers what he does is just expressing himself :/

EXACTLT YY EXACTLY YOU'RE IN MY BRAIN . YOURE IN MY BRAIN!!!! LIKE ITS JUST HILARIOUS THINKING ABOUT YAN DAMIAN B/C HE REALLY JUST THINKS HE'S EXPRESSING HIMSELF. he thinks "i'm just being forthcoming this can't be manipulation." HE'S SOOOO MISGUIDED AND EVIL BUT DOESNT EVEN KNOW IT. ITS SO SAD I LOVE IT . he thinks mistreating you would be like physical abuse or yelling at you.

IM GLAD YOU LIKE HOW I WRITE HIM... i'm still trying to nail all the parts of him <3 the beautiful, devoted parts <3 the bitter, spiteful parts <3 the dark, broken parts <3 he's such a conundrum what will i do with him

AND THEN ASKING TO CORRWCT HIS BEHAVIOR? ESSENTIALLY BEGGING TO ATONE FOR HIS SINS AT THE FEET OF HIS DIETY????

damian and his reverence for his darling is just peak idk what to say . 🚬 he doesnt just love you he genuinely worships you. also redemption is a huge part of his arc in canon (redeeming himself from being an assassin even though he literally was raised and groomed into it help), he finally believes he can change. you've changed him! he can change, just give him a chance.

THANKY OU FOR THE LONG REVIEW TEEHEE MADE MY DAY... i like can't look at my fics once theyre posted but i also just love to talk about them or really, just the characterization in them...

and rats! no cookies now.... BUT COOKIES SOON!!!

[exocynraku]

now that its the 4th i can finally talk about shadow!! yahoo!!! SHADOW SPOILERS BELOW . ASC SHADOW . IF U DON'T WANT SPOILERS DON'T OPEN THE CUT!!!! SPOILERS BELOW!! LIKE. SO MANY SPOILERS. FOR THE WHOLE ENTIRE BOOK. PLEASE BEWARE

ok so that book was surprisingly? not that bad. the BIGGEST thing that happened was BRAMBLESTAR RETIRED!!! SQUILF IS GOING TO BECOME LEADER!!!! (unless something bad happens) and i am SO PUMPED FOR IT!!! FINALLY STUPID IDIOT BRAMBLESTAR IS GONNEEE i still skimmed over nightheart chapter this arc and tbh? he didnt really do that much. talked to sunbeam. talked to berryheart. talked to bramblestar and sparkpelt. did some tasks. FAILED HIS TASKS ON PURPOSE TO LEAVE SUNBEAM BEHIND AND GO BACK TO THUNDERCLAN WHAAAT??? honestly i dont think they shouldve let him back in but whatever AND NOW SUNBEAMS GOING TO THUNDERCLAN TO BE WITH HIM. babygirl just leave him please

sunbeam also didnt do a crazy amount of things it was mostly just interacting with nightheart but there was one thing i wanted to talk about! in one of the chapter (I dont remember which one) she had a dream about nightheart WITH ANOTHER CHICK?? she was described as a silver tabby with blue eyes and i tried to see if that was a cat but the only ones that are even CLOSE are flowerstem from shadowclan and shimmerpelt from riverclan, who are both described as silver mollies. IK it was proooobably just a dream but . what if its more of a vision. what if that actually ends up happening. very interesting....

berryheart still kinda sucked BUT ALSO. she is schemeing with RIVERCLAN to get tigerstar out!!! whaaat!!! specifically splashtail! WHO'S CLOSE TO FROSTPAW!!! i was actually pretty shocked lol! duskfur and mallownose (i think thats their name?) were also there

on the topic of riverclan reedwhiskers death was CONFIRMED. to be a murder. BY SOMEONE HE WAS PROBABLY CLOSE TO. WHAAAT??? I was so shocked! And intrigued! I'm SO excited to figure out who that was. he also said to frostpaw 'there is a darkness in riverclan' which is VERY interesting. also frostpaw has a crush on splashtail and its literally killing me babygirl thats your cousin. ough. also i think splashtail might be evil. i hope hes evil. that would be very interesting

ok time to talk abotu FROSTPAW!!!!!! little. tiny. i love her. she was so interesting this book. BIGGEST thing about her is SHE'S NOT A HEALER ANYMORE! she decided to become a warrior apprentice again because of her (supposedly) fake visions! splashtails been trying to convince her to become a healer again but it is NOt working LOL. though the odd thing is, now she's having REAK visions! she had the vision about reedwhisker where she was in the attackers body who attacked him and then threw him over the ravine. BUT!! cuz she's not a med cat anymore, she only told this to splashtail and.,... and.... she's going to tell whistlepaw too!!!! that means... WINDCLAN CONTENT!!!!!!!! im so excited! BUT. she didn't get to windclan! before she could make it, someone ATTACKED HER! it wasn't shown who it was or if it was riverclan or windclan or someone else but EEK!!! please be okay frostpaw. please. aaaaanyway, i thought this book was pretty good, surprisingly! frostpaw is still my number one fav :3 also i love owlnose & splashtail. i love alot of riverclan. icewing, shimmerpelt.... such cool characters!!! also lightleap and blazefire are cute

[niningtori]

OFC i have ur notifs on….why wouldn’t i 👁️ anyway Update.. so i agree with u about teeth having character like i do like the look of it sometimes but my jaw is bothering me and apparently i need my wisdom teeth taken out 😭😭😭😭 so it’s all affecting my teeth and jaw and bite. the nice orthodontist lady told me she felt bad bc i had already had treatment but if i wanted to go thru with it then let’s!!! she was very specific on what she would do and how my initial ortho left my teeth kinda crazy PLS! she said most of the time they just worry about the teeth looking straight n the cosmetics r not that important…makes sense. also the way i had checked out four library books at the beginning of the summer and only finished one n im halfway thru little women and have not opened the others like ok! ive run out of renewals.. im gonna go ask if they will renew it for me again.. cuz i already went in n asked for more time JDNDSJJS also back on the dating apps… quite literally SICK! i need attention 😟🐰 how r u hehehe

omg that's awful your previous ortho needs to PAY for what they've done but i'm glad your new one seems nice!! hopefully she'll be able to fix everything 😭 i'm sure she will tho since she has a plan. i hate my ortho real bad which is partially why i don't wanna go back like i cannot even tell u how many times he's spit in my mouth on accident like EW??? also the library book thing is so real BEBSJJWKSKSKS that's why i like audiobooks these days bc i can multitask when i read em. i read little women when i was younger but i literally never touched it again bc i was pissed that jo and laurie didnt end up together IDGAFFFF. what other books did u check out? and i get it i prob wouldnt ask for a renewal cuz im shy but i feel like u should do it!! not u back on dating apps tho... good luck soldier 🫡

i'm doing ok i've been beefing w my close friend's soon to be ex husband and his gf like crazy like ik y'all think i'm nice and i generally am but i get real evil when i get mad so i cussed him and the girl he cheated w out on social media 😭 he's still msging my other friends talking crazy but ig he's too scared to msg me bc i dragged him and his new girl to HELL and now i'm blocked on everything 🤕 also working on an iron man so i will prob post that rlly soon 😽

[craw-dacious]

Thats the art of getting by, by sarewolf

Again, new to marauders. This fic 3 that I’ve read. Feel free to shoot me recs, currently looking for ~100,000 word fic with a good angst balance and no major character death.

Summary: Overall this story was INCREDIBLE. I loved the writing style, such a good amount of angst, and an easy to follow narrative. It raised Harry like exactly how I wanted and was so cutey and sweetly and UGH

SPOILERS BELOW BEWARE

Chapter one

I already like the opening quote. Can tell the writing is going to be good.

God the angst is already great

He’s only 24 wild

I kind of forgot just how much he lost that night, like all of his closest friends were dead. Even in canon, with no world star this probably sucks the worst for Lupin.

Okay I’m actually crying already

I’ve been wanting a babyfic since the first one I read

This is such a hard thing to do, parenting is hard without the trauma and sob storying

Chapter two

I wonder how they are going to reincorporate Sirius

And I’m concerned about Harry’s quietness, I feel like that’s not consistent with who he grows up to be

Hoping for some baby Ron and harry content eventually 

I never give Kudos until the end of the fic, this is incredible and I absolutely adore it already

Literally crying from how sad Remus is Jesus

Chapter three

YES love old lady gossip

Neris is so cute delicious

Plus Harry is opening up a lot, so far very happy chapter!

So gay bruh

HARRY BEING SAD TOO IS KILLING ME JUST A BABY FR

This is actually fucking INFURIATING him being like “Sirius never loved us” like BRO I know you’re being LIED TO but I CANNOT HANDLE IT TOO SAD

Chapter four

Now I need to be a depressed widow with a three year old son who loves me

Like I think just having a child would patch my soul

This is actually the cutest thing ever love love love

I think me and remus lupin are the same person

Like gay traumatized werewolf = teenaged girl

“Oh the memories, oh the love” SO ME

YES RON AND HARRY BEST FRIENDS IM GONNA SOB

Damn he’s in love with Sirius fr fr

Can tell this is a shift, so gonna do a small recap

Wonderful characterization

Remus kind of being forced to push forward is great narratively, a little concerned about how it will work with pacing

They write Harry very well, not annoying as children can often be in fic

Chapter five

This is what I wanted, you see James and Lily in harry and remus is just thoughtful and reflective enough to show the audience the importance of this its just MWAH

Oh my god

Baby trauma. He’s so cute and being such a little bitch

Literally so sad, like remus is such a better parent than the Dursleys could ever be but him knowing what harry had makes it sad

If I have to read “angry fucks” again im gonna lose it, say sex please, at least sometimes

YES HE’S FREEEE

Chapter six

God this sucks, like I know they aren’t truly in danger but the emotional turmoil goes crazy

3 chapters till we get Sirius saying it now

Cannot understate how much remus’s pining and distraught connects to me

Like I can tell they were in love but SO TOXIC which, again, is teenage girl core

Not to diminish the relationship, I think the way teenage girls evaluate breakups and romance is like peak human condition and is incredibly poignant amidst the issues of war and death and loss.

YES FUCK YES HELL YEAH INNOCENT INNOCENT INNOCENTTTTTT FUCK PETER HATE THAT SON OF A BITCH

Chapter seven

UGH I know I said fuck Peter but this still sucks ass

When do I get to see Sirius. Ik I said 3 chapters but I didn’t mean it

Damn Petes evil as fuck

The justice in him being DECLARED innocent is so beautiful. I wish that could’ve happened in the books, he died being known as a shitty, terrible human being

Chapter eight

Ok skip this shit and jump to the gay sex I do not want a flashback rn I need TEARS

Jk obviously its important and builds suspense, well written two with good symbolism

Fuck fuck fuck fuck just kiss please I need them to kiss please

Like I actually cannot watch them be fucking roommates ill vomit

Sobbing sobbing sobbing “I hope not” Jesus fucking christ let me suck the authors dick I love this sm

Chapter nine

Just taking in the idea that both Sirius and Harry see each other as a replacement for James in the books, that is such a beautiful like concept with such horrible influences on how they treat each other and I really want to see how its reconciled here, if its relevant at all

Harry with his two dads that barely speak to each other

I do need reconciliation but making sure the weight of tragedy is like there also seems important

But also, please, just fuck already

Chapter ten

Ok remus time to put your big boy pants on and apologize

Like actually nothing will fix itself until you say sorry man

“He’s pack” BRUH harry

Pls having to tell everyone you’re living with this famous not-criminal is so funny I actually am losing it

Pls just be nice to each other for once bruh

Yay!! Nice!!

They’re so like fucked up its messy brother

Chapter eleven

THIS IS SO CUTE IM GONNA KMS

The dog plushie, the memory album, literally everything god I love Christmas

Omfg. Sweater. Sobbing.

AND HITTING ME WITH ANGST AT THE END. This is such a good joy-depression balance

Like its SO SO SAD like irrevocably depressing and filled with grief but also like LIFE and CHILDHOOD and JOY and bruuuhh

Chapter twelve

evil

Chapter fourteen

Basically skipped twelve and thirteen

Jesus Christ

That was gay sex fs

The dementors kiss scene was fucking heart breaking, like devastatingly sad but obviously Peter deserved it

Actually idk, soullessness is so horrific

Then THE KISS and the SEX and everything it was so raw and good and Jesus fucking christ

I want to have sex with eric again bruh

Just so sad, and so happy at the end with the talk of learning to live with it and just UGH amazing I love it

Literally cannot think of a critique atm, im sure ill have some at the end though

FULL RECAP

Yes I know I skipped 16 and 17 and I'm sorry.

Overall this story was INCREDIBLE. I loved the writing style, such a good amount of angst, and an easy to follow narrative. It raised Harry like exactly how I wanted and was so cutey and sweetly and UGH. I will say I wish there was more to the plot than “everyone is sad and trying to not be anymore”While that is a completely reasonable story, it does make it a little boring. But because this fic is fairly short it works out alright. My only true criticism is going to be on the pacing. I am not sure at all when Harry and Remus were introduced to each other, or how far after that Sirius came into their lives. I also think Harry and Sirius’ connection, while amazing, was a bit unrealistic at the beginning. For a child with this much past to IMMEDIATELY latch onto someone like this is kinda wild, but it works for the story so no big deal honestly. I think characterizations were good, not great. However, this is a situation we haven’t seen marauders in and I’m not super familiar with how marauders are usually characterized outside of reading the books and watching movies, so I’d reevaluate characterization stuff once im more engrossed in the fandom.

This is something I just thought about while adding tags, having moody in this fic was nice. He's a character I'd like to see more out of what I've read so far in marauders

9/10, truly loved this one

[nightsky-edits]

GODSPEED on work, I work in a restaurant and I was only supposed to work opening shift today but it was so god-awfully busy (another restaurant in the area that was supposed to be open wasn't able to open so we got a fair chunk of their traffic) that I ended up closing too and even with that we *barely* made it through. the holidays are evil I think

The thing is we arent even busy like i work at a gas station (i truely love this job ngl) and like weve gotten no customers but like the annoyance of having to stand at work for 8 hours straight basically for no reason cause like five to ten people come in is hell truely. What i wouldnt do for like atleast one break day to recuperate. My manager is so nice and ik this is cause im the only person who can do second shift right now cause were so short staffed but like five straight days of this is like insane.

[1shimaru]

Im not sleeping well, I had a nightmare and ik it sounds like "this too is yuri" at the end but I was scareddd😭😭

In the dream there was this guy who wanted a magic book that I was protecting, and at some point he got his eldest son to help him steal it away from me. I crawled into my bed bc it was like a "safe zone" from them, but this woman with long black hair and nails approached instead. "Why do you want to protect yourself from them?" She tilts her head all curious and starts to circle me, "I'm just as dangerous 😈"

and Im like "Your bad? Are you going to use this book for evil too?"

and she goes "no… but I will eat you 😈" and she lunges at me (safety zone doesnt apply to her) and pins me down w her weight and Im scared her long nails are gonna puncture my neck with the way she grabs at it. She opens her jaw and I see her pointy teeth and I try to move or wake myself up before she can take a whole ass bite of my neck, but shes really fast. I try to WILL my brain to pls pls pls wake up soon so I dont feel anything, but it doesnt, and she gets me.

I didnt feel a bite, it felt like she kissed me with lips made out of smoke, but she's still got this evil look in her eye and shes opening her mouth again and Im still scared the next bite will hurt for real. ik it sounds like I just got kissed by a goth demon girl but I was so scared, this girl was gonna EAT MEEEE 😭😭😭 I was scared Id feel her rip and tear off my skin and my neck is so sensitive like pls dont go there, I was shakinggg 😭😭

And then I woke up confused about where I was again bc I didnt recognize my room so I got scared again 😭😭😭

[m1ckeyb3rry]

Omg megumi and Yuta are my favs after Inumaki LMAO (I’m Lowk salty that we did not get ANY lore exploration of Inumaki but maybe it’s better that way so he stays alive atp)

No the hating mainstream things to be “unique” is so eugh honestly like just because somethings mainstream doesn’t mean it’s basic…but exactly I’ve definitely lost the spark with jjk I think it just got too confusing? And I was losing the essence of the story and idk I know geges said before that that they’ve wanted to end jjk earlier but something about the editor saying no…? I feel like sometimes the lack of motivation kinda peeks through with how the story was done….which I get because writers block/art block and just burn out in general is so real I just wish circumstances were different lmao…

Also yeah the “jjk has the best female characters” ideation…hmm..it’s def better than the blatantly sexualized ones but at this point it kinda feels like a bare minimum/low standard thing that they ARENT sexualized like in most shounen content that makes people say this (i agree like wtf happened with yuki we barely saw her honestly?? Don’t get me started on tsumiki i was expecting them to take a route where maybe she’d actually wake up and play a more conscious role but what the hell was that)

NO LITERALLY im all for analysis and leaving some things open ended but idk in jjk it was just excessive that it turned into confusion like…the constant guessing and insane analysis that needed to be done to clarify things or try to parse things together is not my favorite…agreed that the story should not have to rely on deep level analysis to be understood!

Yeah I’ve definitely lost my emotional ties with jjk its just like well I got this far i might as well see how it ends

LMAO WIGGLY that made me think of a worm on a string but I see what you mean! One track soccer mind doesn’t give much room to explore lolll but it was executed very well hehe

LMAOO it’s the pipeline of shitting on side characters to loving them but I can’t with his hair cut…also don’t think he’s ugly like I guess he’s objectively relatively good looking? But yeah I never fully saw the appeal (it’s funny because I know a good amount of people who prefer him to Rin when I’m the opposite lol) and the Gojo aura LOL

THE ACCURACY IS INSANE the way I would have never known if you didn’t mention it (I don’t think I would’ve even noticed if I wrote it) the fact checking goes crazy LMAO but I love it honestly the research def gives the story more depth and feel to it rather than just a one shot/story that kinda just floats in the void of the universe or something…gives it ties to reality and an actual grounding in the world! (This was worded so badly lmao)

It’s always Karasu….I think it’s partially also because some manga scenes of him are a little goofy because they give him that smile that almost cuts across his entire face to give him that kinda evil looking smirk….and the anime style kinda striking that awkward balance of maintaining those features but not putting enough detail to go full asshole def makes it a little goofy LOL (but in art they put more effort into like the S2 trailer/teaser visual he looks great with all the shading)

And LMAOO IKR!!! I always think back to that I’m like KURONA WAS 4??? Bro wasn’t even on the field in the u20 match so I was Lowk a bit shocked haha, iirc Kiyora was also 5?? Like the discrepancy makes me laugh ik people probably developed during the second selection but the drastic change always gets me

Your tag with the arrow has me feeling idk why I found that so funny LOL

Also SHSHS drowsy allergy medicine is the worst…I hope you weren’t having a severe reaction or anything and also that you feel better soon!!!

-Karasu anon

there’s def a lot of areas where there could be more lore (rika’s character page is so odd??) just because of how many characters there are i think!! but i do feel like the story is wrapping up so some things might just be left as questions. or not, who knows!!

yeah there’s def a cycle of like thing gets popular -> everyone loves it -> it becomes so over saturated that people start hating on it to be different -> it becomes overhated -> in a few years everyone realizes it wasn’t that bad. the biggest problem w the “hating as a trend” is that it takes away from legitimate criticisms of the work, as fans will lump it into general hating for no reason.

besides just analyses being so important for even basic comprehension of the plot, i’ve noticed a lot of the storyline is dependent on random interviews gege has done. like nobara’s death only being confirmed because of an interview years after it was written is RIDICULOUS to me (even though i already thought she was dead tbh but there was enough speculation in the fandom that it obviously wasn’t clear enough in-story). things like interviews and character pages should give you fun additional information that can help you expand on a character (oh rin likes horror games!! karasu is scared of the water!! etc etc) but it shouldn’t be the MAIN source of KEY info on a character. idk i think a lot of people love what jjk could be at this point and not necessarily what it is.

YESS i honestly was not super pleased by the female characters in jjk!! they are cool, and they COULD be well written, but they aren’t. i think in terms of its contemporaries, demon slayer does female characters better than jjk (again, not saying they’re perfect because they aren’t, but, say, shinobu is a stronger character to me than even maki).

jjk is a sunk cost fallacy for me HAHA i’ve been into it for over 2.5 years now so i have to see how it ends but i don’t really care atp what happens 😭 i’m like an unbiased outsider…idk it’s sad i wish i could’ve stayed invested but i only even know leaks are dropping because my social media blows up whenever they do.

OMG i also think rin is better looking than sae but i find sae easier to write for some reason?? idk why 😫 like sae is canonically only interested in soccer at least rin likes horror stuff but honestly between the two of them it feels easier to separate sae from soccer than rin?? if only marginally so hahaha. sae occasionally expresses regret at only knowing abt soccer so i feel like he’d be more willing to open himself to new experiences if sufficiently prodded whereas rin is SO invested in soccer (because soccer = his relationship w his brother) that he doesn’t even seem like he could have a proper friendship w someone let alone an actual relationship 😔

it really is always karasu…i do think manga can get away w exaggerating certain features (ex karasu’s smirk) that anime can’t so they have to figure out a way to balance it — maybe it’s the static nature of manga vs the motion of anime?? although karasu hasn’t been smirking much in pxg vs bm 😕 give my boy his swag otoya back!! HAHA but i also think he was such a background character in that one scene of season one that they just didn’t gaf abt him. he’s looked really good in all of the s2 promotional material so i have faith he will be done well!!

KURONA AND KIYORA MY RANDOM AHH KINGS 🙏🏻 they came outta nowhere but they’re slaying atm…ig the hundred goal thing only tested a very specific aspect of playing soccer?? like shooting without anyone on you which doesn’t really translate to an actual game 🤔 like in bllk vs u20 they needed defenders and midfielders who wouldn’t necessarily score but were integral to the game 👆🏻 plus they didn’t all go in at the same time so better players like tabieitaken and shidou were ranked lower than randoms like tokimitsu probably just because they entered later 🤷🏻‍♀️

it wasn’t that bad!! i just got like overwhelmingly sleepy because i haven’t taken any in forever so i just crashed instead of staying up longer like i usually so haha. but i’m hoping to get the one shot out soon!! it’s pretty dumb but more karasu content is more karasu content 🤩

[rippedapart]

i dreamt a whole movie near of old crush putting me in a saw trap the plot twist the romance the betrayal the action crazy af and i wasn’t even surprised at him conniving just it was insane I’ve never had a nightmare type of him that’s so sad actually it’s always sweet cute dreams now he planning my execution wtfff but ik why so it started me him and group of people on bus happy going to this remote place in the woods we get to a big building we were supposed to see a concert I forgot what artist lol but first he said we had to get something before the show started and the group of people also followed like i think he was also the guide so we all go into a large common waiting room and he guides us to a door in the corner and we all go in. this door open into just a skinny hallway that isn’t very long but no door or anything in other side the door we came thru locked and the floor was a conveyer belt we heard mechanical sounds shit and it started moving all of stayed together towards one end and then in the middle a laser went from the ceiling to the floor to make a wall kinda separating the conveyor belt into sections i heard some guy say it’s gonna split us up then kill one side! lmao so everyone and me freaking out but when i looked at my crush he had evil smile staring at me😱 none of us were killed then the door unlocked and we went back to waiting room but everyone crying and scared and he just disappeared for whatever was next i guess then when he came back he was on other side of door and I could see through the clear glass window him watching me and all of us i was hugging two other girls to comfort them but i didn’t want him to think i was scared im so serious. the last thing i did was smile with the girls and look at him and yell YOLOOO .

[forlix]

I promise I don't stalk, it's just that I open Tumblr and you were on some of the first posts (I don't follow that many people tho). either way HIHI! I wish I could send you the picture I have of minlix of Minho hugging Lix bc thats ME PROTECTING YOU FROM ALL EVIL IN THIS WORLD! about the rambling and essay answers, we are a match, bc I do love them (sending and receiving).

01. I'm not cool, I promise! I'm just a person with a lot of time to spend on my hand and with a curious mind! haha about the NGOs it would be incredible for your curriculum if you manage to do an internship at the UN, they have massive openings from time to time and it varies from a month to six months, and they usually take undergrads or recently graduated students, it will look INCREDIBLE in your curriculum and they have a MAJOR line of choice, ik this one girl that was an undergrad with me and she manage to work at ACNUR in a refugee camp, then she got called as an intern for six months in Washington working on the Assembly, it was surreal! the best way to get into them is go to their site and dig deep so you find ways to work with them, some pay an amount or give you a place to stay, but what they put there is what you get. you'll work a lot, but the experience will be insane.

02. SAME FOR ME! I always loved how the conflicts happened and the resolution of them, but mostly how they happened and developed (which is one of the reasons why my view on some conflicts are so different than most people around me, I lost count how many times I got into arguments with people over the Russia-Ukraine and Israel-Palestine situation). my ultimate favorite classes were more towards the end of the curriculum, they were the ones that changed me for good, like the puzzle of it all it fits after those? it was like I was seeing everything from a magnifying glass or something. don't get me started with my beef with the US and how they handle everything since the second war 😓

03. i had three options of thesis, which looking now is insane, was China was one of them! it was China (but I don't remember how I was gonna portrait it), Korean War (before ik about kpop) and the one I did which was about the rise and fall of Yugoslavia from the premise of the multicultural state. my first counselor wanted me to do focusing on my country, but I wanted the conflict not the portrait of a multicultural state, then I found a new counselor and she helped me so much! with that my thesis is not in English (the full one), but I sure can send you the abstract of it! (let's see if you know who I am and send me a message asking for the abstract 👀 jkjk) and don't apologize for allowing your IR nerd side to come out, that means you are enjoying the course and its helping you get better as a person and view the world in a way to help it get better (at least thats how i justify mine and some of my friends moments when this happen haha).

04. last time I talked and helped someone with something regarding IR was a friend from Congo, he was having trouble with so much, but it all worked out fine and I was so glad with that. I just hope you get to do all the things you want with this course and see that everything is gray in the world, but that should not be used as justification for some things like idk cof cof GENOCIDE cof cof, sorry had something on my throat. either way, be prepare to have people going on saying shit to you when u point out things that make sense (bc you fucking studied, you didn't dig it out of your fucking ass), just bc they saw something on tv and don't want to leave their pretty perfect pink bubbly world (I'm sorry I'm being mean, had a recent disagreement and it's still lingering).

05. I also saw the anon asking about a sequel to subtext and IM SO HAPPY! that was the second story of yours that I read and god it's so perfect! i love it! the first one was the Paris one, reader and Lix scrolling through paris (the prequel to the last one u wrote). idk I just love your stories they are so simple and cute and I love it so much! you are seriously my favorite Lix writer by a mile!

06. if you remember me from that I will be happy ngl haha although my Tumblr does not have any skz stories (just recs that I should update btw and including yours THAT I FINALLY FOUND IT AGAIN), I'll come off anon at some point I promise! and when I do I'll send like five minlix pics to represent me protecting you (THE SUNSHINE) from the evil of this world. I'm not scared of throwing fists, I hate fighting but once I'm in it, it takes a lot to get me out.

I'm so happy that you are happy! I love to see people that are so incredible and kinda receive the same amount or more from the universe in return! I'll try to keep my asks short next time, promise I'll try! have a good day/night, and keep being your incredible self and enchanting everyone that's crosses your path 💞

-🐼

hi angel, i'm so sorry about the late response TT i've had a very tiring couple of weeks but i'm all better now, thank you so much for your patience 🤍 essay under the cut!!

noted about the internship with the un! sounds like an amazing opportunity and i would love to give it a try someday. i'm planning to attend grad school because joining the work force in any capacity is a terrifying premise in my current state, but i'm hoping to dedicate my time in grad school to east asian studies and i'll see where the wind takes me next. thank you for the information! and you ARE the coolest, don't u dare say otherwise >:(

and me as well!! i think it's fascinating how the wars come to be and all the sociocultural and historical factors that lead to their culmination; i really enjoy studying the why and how as opposed to just the what, if that makes sense. also i would recommend against referring to the genocide in gaza as the "israel-palestine conflict" because 1) it isn't a conflict but a genocide and 2) the placement of "israel" before "palestine" is an intentional tactic the media has been employing to enforce the narrative of israeli colonialism. i was made aware of this in a twitter article and i hope it's okay that i gave u the same heads-up!

and your thesis sounds AMAZING omg, yes i would love the abstract if you can get a hold of it!! and yessss i think ur spot on, i feel like i've finally found the field i was meant to study and it's been a wonderful, fulfilling feeling :') i'm hoping to write my dissertation about japan and china.

thank u for the advice love. i agree that studying ir inevitably comes with studying multiple perspectives and recognizing just how immoral and unforgiving the international system is, but that doesn't mean that i'll ever compromise my morals or fail to recognize wrong from right, and genocide is objectively the former. no need to apologize, i don't think you're being mean; i just recently had a big fallout with somebody for similar reasons and the hurt and annoyance has yet to dissipate completely. i'm sorry u went through that 😞

also I'M SO GLAD UR EXCITED FOR IT HEHE. i've already done some brainstorming/drafting and i'm feeling excited for it too. ppl loved that fic, far more than i expected, so i hope u will love the full length story just as much and more 🤍 and thank you for enjoying how i write lix, that makes me happier than i can say, he's my entire heart

no pressure at all to come off anon!! pls pls do whatever is most comfortable for you; i want my blog to feel like a safe space to those who inhabit it with me :) and you are so SO SWEET. every time u send me an ask i find myself wondering all over again if ur real bc you always find things to say to me that go straight to my heart. i appreciate u and ur kindness more than words can say, my love, my panda anon! i hope you're taking care as well!

[itsjaywalkers]

hello laurie!! <3 insane commute nonnie here (again) omg i read oby yesterday omw to class (ended up staying at my friend's again bc his roommate was still out. sadly he's back) and i should not have done that bc OMG?? BABE I WAS LITERALLY THINKING ABT THEM THE WHOLE TIME UT GOT SO BAD I SAW MY PROFESSOR (he doesn't even look like james. he's just fit in a 'Hear me out guys...' way)N BLUSHED I WAS ACTUALLY GIGGLING AT RANDOM TIMES THINKING ABT THEM also like. sirius n regulus in this😭😭 regulus cursing sirius out for being a good brother is so real to me as someone with 12 year older brother bc he spent my entire childhood terrorizing me n now he's the sweetest person Ever. not even in an evil way he's just genuinely nice to me so if i ever complain abt him everyone goes ??? YOUR brother??? its so annoying (i love him). just reg veing grumpy<3 he's my fav little purse man and ok oh god never thought i'd say this. i have NEVER gotten the whole daddy thing but now im just🧍‍♂️bc i need to call james potter daddy while he fucks me what who said that also like. extreme apologies for how extremely inappropriate this might've gotten i was up all night studying for a quiz we have today (cannot catch a break w these ppl istg) n i swear my brain refuses to function and i have no idea!!! (please pray for me) also i hope you're doing great<3 sadly i do know work and adult things but im glad to know that nothing bad's going on!! you deserve the best<33 also i Absolutely get being funnier in your mother tongue sometimes i have these sudden thoughts n they're soo funny but i have to translate them which is like. okay but the vibes change istg!! i usually end texting my siblings abt it bc someone deserves to know how absolutely funny i am!! (all i do is make dad jokes) and (im actually so sorry bc ik you prob dont mind the book-long asks but its still!! so embarrassing!! like girl why are you yapping sm!!) i haven't read the 2nd part yet (i read the first part n just stared ahead blankly for like an hour after i read the 1st part. it did things to me) but im gonna read it after my quiz as a little treat<3 thank you for writing them sm!!!<3

HI BABE <333 sorry it took me so long to get back to u, life has been soooo hectic istg

AND OMG IM STILL SO SHY ABOUT U READING OBY but i'm so glad u enjoyed it and that it had the desired effect, it's definitely not the type of story u should read in class or just like . in front of ppl . i don't blame u for getting all flustered around ur professor even if he doesn't look anything like james. it's just the vibe yk??? you're literally so real for that

sirius and reg in oby are !! so important to me !! i feel like they have the best relationship in all of my fics, bc they're on good terms on nothing happens too but they argue . a lot . and they're gonna have some issues down the line. and they're also very close in the boxer au but there's still gonna be a lot of angst regarding their relationship. in oby, tho, they're just brothers <3 they love each other so much <3 and i'm so glad i'm portraying their dynamic accurately bc a lot of their convos are based on stuff me and my sisters have talked/fought about lmao

LISTENNNN I ALSO WASN'T INTO THE WHOLE DADDY THING like i didn't mind it and i read it occassionally but i didn't seek it out. but now that i'm actively writing it . well . i guess i kinda get the appeal (girl who doesn't even have a daddy kink) SO I GET U I REALLY DO

u don't have to apologiseeee i'm always happy to open horny hours especially if it's for james potter <3 and also i know it's been a few days but i hope the quiz went well and that u never do that again bc u need to rest!! i mean it!!

i'm doing quite well actually!! work's been a nightmare but apart from that i'm great!! i recently moved into a new flat with two friends and the place is soooo nice i'm in love with it i can't believe it's ours <333 AND SAMEEEE i always complain about it to my sisters or my spanish friends bc it annoys me to no end like . i'm literally soooo funny and it pains me that you'll never realise bc it's only when i speak in my first language ugh

I REALLY DON'T MIND THEM BABE IN FACT I LOVE THEM NEVER STOP and don't apologise again i'll kick ur ass!!! and god you're so very sweet to me, i hope u enjoyed/enjoy it and i'm sending u the biggest hug + forehead kissie in the world MWAH <3

[p-taryn-dactyl]

Just Another Name (2)

a/n: hi!! i am so sorry for how long this took me to post, tbh i was a little hesitant to even write it bc the first part got so popular and i don’t want the second part to flop lol. anyways, here’s what happened next! word count: 1.4k taglist: @coolbeans32 @mierloi @thesteellolo @yoursuckerbaby @theamchannel @marvelouslovely-barnes @dreamerglassesgirl (if i did not tag you and you requested to be tagged, plz message me so i can add you! also if i tagged you and either you no longer want to be tagged or your url didn’t work plz message me as well!! <3 warning(s): angsty at the beginning; i rushed at the end im sorry; ik we aren’t really supposed to add personal things to Y/N but in this fic, Y/N’s favorite flowers are dahlias bc they’re my favorite flower; time skip…hehe ik I’m evil; also, this isn’t as good as the first part

It had been a month since you opened the journal. Since you read those dreaded pages. A month filled with looking over your shoulder, tear-stained pillows, and staring at your phone, watching as the screen lit up with each call, each message, each voice mail.

Sometimes you allowed yourself to listen to the messages, allowed your heart to swell at the sound of your boyfr- ex’s voice. Allowed your heart to shatter once you came back to reality. Today was one of those days. You sighed, poking at your microwave dinner as you maneuvered through the tiny apartment you were renting under a fake name. Being in love with an Avenger ex-con had it perks. You picked up your phone as you collapsed on the saggy couch, tapping it against your thigh as you tried to talk yourself out of listening to the voice mail. You couldn’t. Biting your lip, you unlocked your phone and opened the message. It started out silent, with slight sounds of someone trying not to cry in the background. Then, his voice spoke, sending unwanted warmth through your bones. His words made you pause, fork halfway to your mouth.

“….I started sleeping on the floor again. It’s so hard to sleep without you next to me bab- Y/N. Oh, god I miss you so much. Please call me back, I’m sorry, you mean so much to me. Nothing about us was ever a lie, you were the only- you are the only true thing in my life. Please answer me doll, I can’t-” He choked on a sob, sending cracks through your heart, ”I can’t do anything without knowing where you are, if you’re okay, if you’re even getting these. Please baby, I’m sorr-”

Quickly, you ended the message, hesitating as your finger hovered over the delete icon. Your hands began to shake as sobs built up. With a loud cry, you threw your phone at the wall, watching as it bounced onto the carpet, unharmed. You pulled your knees up to your chest, tossing your sorry excuse for a dinner to the floor, rocking back and forth as tears fell down your cheeks, staining your sweatshirt with pain. In the month you had been away, you had come to understand Bucky’s point of view but insecurity chipped away at your consciousness.

You knew Bucky loved you, you knew you weren’t something he used to get rid of guilt but you also knew he only approached you because your brothers name was on his list. Your relationship was born of Bucky’s guilt but it only survived because you two were in love.

But what if you went back to Bucky and he realized you weren’t special? That he made a mistake. That you were just another name.

Your head, heavy from crying and overthinking, lolled to the side, resting on your elbow as you were dragged into a dark and dreamless sleep.

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Bucky stood outside your door, a bouquet of dahlias in his hand. He hesitated when he went to knock, nerves sparking panic across his mind.

What if you had moved on? Found someone who wouldn’t break your heart and lie to you?

His heart broke at the thought but he calmed his mind, gently setting the array of flowers in front of your door, a letter with his handwriting scribbled across it delicately balancing on the petals. He took a deep breath, bringing his hand up to quickly rap his knuckles on the peeling paint of your door. After a few seconds, Bucky walked away, almost down the hall when he heard your door unlock. He practically jumped out of his skin as he hurried to the end of the hall, where he hid behind the corner.

“What the…?” Your voice, soft from sleep, resonated through the air, like a warm hug coming to a stiff and cold end. He heard the flowers being picked up, he could’ve sworn he heard your laugh. But when your door closed, Bucky sighed, leaning his head back against the wall.

His plan was going to work, he told himself.

It had too.

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You brushed your fingers lightly across the petals, the dark hue feeling like fine cloth. You tried your best to ignore the note, his handwriting practically calling out to you. Emotions bubbled up in you, causing you to be confused, ecstatic, and fearful all at once. Not less than two hours ago you were crying over a voicemail and now you were giggling over a bouquet. Slowly, you grabbed the note, reading it, each word sending butterflies ablaze in your stomach.

Hi Doll, I was thinking (I know, shocker)

You laughed, nights of teasing Bucky after a dumb decision flashing through your mind.

Maybe we could start over? I’ll be at that little cafe/bookstore across the road from 7–9.

I can’t live without you, Y/N, but I understand if I already broke my chance

You bit your lip, holding the card close to your chest as you twirled around.

A redo.

That could work. A relationship founded on candlelight memories and laughter instead of guilt. You checked the time, your heart beating rapidly as the clock said 5:45. You had enough time to make yourself look presentable.

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After an hour of rushing around the apartment, trying outfits on left and right, yelling when one you had perfectly crafted in your mind didn’t work out, you finally were ready. You looked in the mirror, brushing your hands down your dress, admiring how you looked. When you checked the clock and saw it said 6:45, you realized you could leave now and be at the cafe in fifteen minutes. But as your hand hit the handle, about to open your door, a thought struck you. Showing up right at 7 would make you look desperate, which you were, but Bucky didn’t have to know that. So, in an attempt to still show up on time while waiting for a bit, you sat back on your couch.

Thirty minutes passed and you had determined that there were at least over forty bricks in your wall. The clock strikes 7:15 and you bolted off your couch, practically bursting your door down in your excitement. You dashed through the apartment building, your heart racing. Mostly because you were running but also because of the excitement coursing through your veins. You slowed down once you saw the cafe, the giant windows revealing Bucky, who was anxiously rearranging the placement at the table, shaking his leg, and looking at the clock. You felt love spring from your heart, practically floating until you reached the cafe door. After taking a deep breath, you pushed the door open. Bucky stood up, his whole face lighting up when he saw you. You made your way to the table, watching as his happy expression morphed into an apologetic one. But before he could start apologizing for past sins and shattering the golden atmosphere they had created, you spoke first.

“Excuse me, is this seat taken?”

Bucky smiled, gesturing towards the chair. You took a seat, butterflies practically going wild in your stomach. Bucky sat across from you, the golden rays of last sunlight casting a glow over him. For a few minutes, there was silence.

“So…”

“So…”

You both spoke at the same time, causing an eruption of giggles from the two of you. Bucky nodded, giving you the air to speak.

“A redo, huh? No hidden meanings in our relationship this time?”

Bucky swallowed, his eyes apologizing while he smiled, hoping you would agree. Just because you showed up for him didn’t mean you would leave his again.

“A redo.”

You nodded, pursing your lips together as you looked down at your lap. Bucky felt his chest go tight and his breath quicken. But when you looked up, all he could see was the love shining brightly.

You held out a hand.

“Well then. Hi, I’m Y/N.”

Bucky let out a sigh of relief as a giant smile painted his face. He clasped your hand gently, his thumb rubbing circles into your skin.

“I’m Bucky, nice to meet you Y/N. Now tell me, what’s a beautiful place like this doing with a girl like you?”

Silence.

“Wait no-”

The rest of the night was filed with laughter, tears, but most importantly, hope.

Bucky made a promise to himself that night, as he sat on the edge of the bed, watching your chest rise and fall in peaceful slumber.

You would never feel insignificant again by his actions and as he fiddled with the little box in his hands, he was certain he would make sure that never again would you think of being just another name.

a/n: ahhh ok there it is. i rewrote this like twenty times but i hope you guys still enjoyed it! If you are interested in little drabbles set in this “universe” feel free to request them! I’m sorry if this is a let down for some of you but tbh i don’t think i ever truly planned on writing a pt2 until people started asking for it! I love you guys, stay safe and drink lots of water <3