#and if you want to skim thru it it should be possible to just read the bolded stuff to give u an overview

[meyhew]

seed i need you to know i have stored in my head any info i came across about your novel and whatever you want to share abt it (even just a lil detail you wrote lately) pleeeease share it i am so curious —lyde

LYDE 🥹 well firstly here are my beloveds (zahra & connor in the foreground, musa with his angel wings in the back)

the details are still very much coming to me at odd times but i can tell u that it follows zahra & connor (and musa) thru their late teens and 20s. i dont wanna spoil the plot but it's basically wrong person, wrong time then right person, tragedy strikes then right person, right time.

u can have a little bit of connor's backstory as a treat he's a rich white boy who means a lot to me <3

Athena was the first person Connor confided in when he applied to Boston University. He knew he couldn’t go directly to his parents. His mother might have understood, but there would have been no reasoning with his father. It was a fight he didn’t want to have then and there was no reason to have it; it would only be real if the university accepted Connor. 

Of course, there was no real possibility of them rejecting him. His academic record was stellar, his extracurriculars were exemplary, and his family pedigree spoke for itself. Even the essay he’d written had gotten a stamp of approval from several adults at school.

“Dad won’t be happy,” Athena had told him, though she needn’t have. Connor already knew that. 

“He never is,” he’d said. 

There was little he could do that would make Wallace Carter happy. 

But he had been living by their rules his entire life. He had gone to the schools they picked for him and practiced the sports they wanted him to and learned the instruments they thought he should play. Every aspect of his life up until now had been carefully curated by them, with little to no effort or real involvement. They thrusted all the responsibility onto Cadence.

Connor would be eighteen soon. He would move out of this house and live on his own, regardless of where he went. He wanted that decision to be his. 

So he sat his parents down in the living room and presented them with his acceptance letters—from Duke, Stanford, and five Ivy’s. All the places he had applied to, bar his safety option.  

His father read each letter thoroughly, while his mother skimmed them all. She smiled warmly as she glanced at the letterheads and then got up to hug Connor. It was an awkward maneuver because Athena sat on the arm of the chair Connor was in, but he didn’t mind.  

“I’m so proud of you,” Marion said. 

He wanted to believe her, so he did. 

Then she went back and sat on the couch. They made a nice picture of success, the four of them: husband and wife side by side, their dutiful children across the room barely an arm’s length away from one another. It was a picture of success, if success were defined as a nuclear family in wealthy New England suburbs going through the youngest’s latest accomplishments. 

“Well done, son,” said Wallace. He regarded Connor with the same satisfaction one might hold for a dog that’s finally mastered a new trick. “You’ve nearly outdone your sister.” 

Nearly. Because Connor would always fall short of besting Athena. 

Athena had applied to and been accepted to all eight Ivy Leagues. She hadn’t entertained the notion that she might not get in. She hadn’t had a safety net. Then she went on to study neuroscience at Brown. 

Connor wasn’t upset about it. It wasn’t his goal to outdo his sister. He knew she was the smarter sibling and he didn’t see why he should bend over backwards trying to prove himself when he was already secure in his intelligence. 

That didn’t stop the backhanded compliments from cutting just deep enough.

“Have you given any thought to where you might go?” Wallace asked. “Dartmouth isn’t too far and they always loved your grandfather. There’s a legacy there.” 

Yes, the legacy. Connor grew up hearing about the legions of Carter men and women who attended Dartmouth College. He’d seen countless grayscale and sepia photographs of family members past in gowns and graduation caps. 

He didn’t want his own face to be added to the pile. 

“Actually,” he started. 

Stopped. 

The weight of his father’s stare was too expectant and the words clogged his throat. 

Then his sister’s foot pressed against his shin. He realized he’d been bouncing his leg alarmingly fast. 

“They won’t be able to stop you,” Athena had said to him a week ago. “They’ll give you a hard time and bitch about it for a while, but ultimately it’s up to you. They won’t make you not go to college.” 

Athena wasn’t the kind of person who said bitch about it very often. Connor had found it strangely, immensely comforting to hear. 

He squared his shoulders. “I was actually thinking about the Boston area.” 

“Well, sure, that’s just as good. Harvard has a stellar reputation, though, of course—” 

“Not Harvard, Dad. Boston as in Boston University.” 

Wallace Carter wasn’t taken aback by much, so it was a great feat that he was rendered utterly speechless. He looked back and forth between his children, like he expected them to start laughing and say Oh, we got you good! Then he looked at his wife, who simply blinked back at him. 

Finally his dark eyes settled firmly on his son. 

“Carters lead by example,” he said. “We invest in our education, and do so by entrusting the most prestigious institutions with it. Why on earth would you possibly want to attend a mediocre school when you can enjoy all the privileges and benefits that come with a place like Dartmouth?” 

This was a precarious line he stood on. Teeter too much one way or the other and he would fall over. 

“I’ve been to places like Dartmouth,” he said carefully. “All my life, the schools I’ve been to have been miniature Dartmouths and Harvards. I want to explore something new. I want to know how other people are living their lives.” 

Some muscle ticked in Wallace’s jaw. “You are not other people. You are a Carter and you will behave as such. We have invested too much in you.” 

“Invested? You mean you’ve given us the basic necessities all parents are to provide their children with?” 

“Son, you know we have done damn well more than that.” 

Athena’s voice cut in quietly, firmly. “Dad, don’t do that. Don’t make this about you.” 

“And who else should it be about? We pay for your education but we can’t express an opinion? We can’t guide you when we see you making erroneous decisions?” 

“He got in. He’s still good enough for your prestigious institutions. Why can’t he choose the one that makes him happy.” 

“It’s not about getting in. It’s about making a commitment to what is right,” Wallace explained as though he were speaking to a child and not his grown daughter. 

To Connor he said, “The son we raised would not disappoint us like this.” 

Connor slipped. Toppled over the tightrope.

“Because I’m not the son you raised. You didn’t raise me. Candace did.” 

There it was. The thing they never talked about. The thing none of them ever wanted to talk about. The thing that was so normal for them it had always been a nonissue, except for the times kids at schools asked why they never saw Connor’s parents.

[spellnbone]

Dell [41] - Traveller [Magi Colegio, Mexico] Rigby [31] - Editor for Lore&Lore, Hogwarts Textbook Publishing Company     -- (currently on a pre-paternity break) [Hufflepuff] Edgar [28] - Columnist for the Daily Prophet [Ravenclaw] Amelia [28] - Barrista at the Wizengamot [Hufflepuff] Colter [25] - Dragon Researcher and Reserve Ranger, Russia [Hufflepuff]

Growing up in the roaring twenties and raising herself to be a firework of a woman in the thirties, Laura Bones never wanted children. Had there been day-cares in the south of Wizarding England, perhaps she would’ve considered it, but as it was, children were but something she thought would tie her down. She wanted to travel and explore as many cultures as possible, so when a new friend, Jorge Centello, invited her to come explore the Wizarding Americas with him, she had no doubts.

Gone they were, for two entire years, and eventually friendship changed into passion and by her 19th birthday the young Witch had to declare to her parents that she was pregnant. An accident, perhaps, but she was too proud of a person to say it was anything less than on purpose, and to prove it, she married Jorge -- under the condition he took her maiden name because “do you know who the Bones are?! You’d honestly want me to take that away from me?!” He didn’t want to, and, in fact, took her name. A promise that, well, perhaps the child was an accident, but he was committed. Wild as she was, he had long given up on denying how he felt about her, and firmly believed that if he could spend the rest of his life with her, it would be a happy life.

Jorge was fiery himself, but more like a steadily burning camp fire than whatever explosion Laura appeared to be. Brave and unwavering as he was, he didn’t fear the judgement of the much stricter Wizarding Society of England, telling her again and again, even in his unbreakable vows at their wedding, that as long as they were together, no amount of rain could dowse his flame.

So, Dell was born. The young family remained unstationary as they had before, travelling the Americas until it was time for Dell’s magical schooling (age 13-19), for which they returned to Jorge’s hometown in Mexico. With his grandparents there, it didn’t matter that Laura kept travelling for months on end, returning mostly for birthdays and holidays like a child at boarding school. But she was not a neglectful mother. She taught her son all she thought important about the world, taught him about his family in England and the high sense of justice they fostered. And, being so far away from them, Dell took great pride in them. A pride akin to a niche interest, the way one is interested in certain periods of history, or dinosaurs.

Dignified like his grandparents -- who didn’t have much, but who carried the kind honour the way only humble people know how -- he put a lot of emphasis on making his family proud. Aware of his precious, bicultural heritage, he was open-minded in situations where others would be more tight-lipped, always hoping to do his name justice. He wanted to be an exemplary Bones, succeeding easily. He was well-loved at school and studied hard, which earned him a traineeship position at Gringotts in London after his graduation. Why England despite speaking English as brokenly as his father? Well, partly because he finally wanted to see all the things his mother always told him about for himself, and partly because he wanted to show off in England what admirable off-spring the Bones had produced.

The reason why Laura agreed to follow a year later? Well. Ten years ago, another such accident as Dell had happened... By the time Dell was off to England, little Rigby was almost old enough for his letter from Hogwarts, and Jorge thought perhaps it was his time to struggle with helping with his son’s homeworks, instead of his wife. Laura agreed, though her reasoning was simpler. Less pragmatic. Less humorous. The truth was, when she looked into her little boy’s eyes for the first time, those big blue orbs like her mother’s which no other Bones-Centello has, she was overcome by the strongest, deepest and most earnest feeling a person can have, a feeling which Jorge had already felt many years prior when he had first seen Laura and which had only grown with every day he had given Dell a big, long hug: loyalty. Loyalty to family. Loyalty to a need of togetherness. Loyalty to a creation of ‘home’.

It made her miss her own parents, made her miss seeing the same people every day, made her miss looking at a pile of bricks and think “this is my house, this is not just where I sleep, this is where I live.” A big, happy family, all gathered in one place, this was what she wanted. So off they went.

Rigby, who had seen Dell go through his school-career with stellar grades, wanted nothing more than to be like him. He adored his big brother. Worshipped him, really. Always followed him everywhere. All the “why?” questions typical for children his age were directed at Dell, not his parents or grandparents. Everything Dell had, he wanted to have, too. Everything Dell was, he wanted to be, too. There was a joke going around the Centellos, that his eyes were only so big so they could see all of Dell at all times, and only so blue because Dell’s school uniform was blue, like the sky and ocean sharing each other’s light and colour. In his private schooling he was studious -- because of Dell. In social situations he was attentive and friendly -- because of Dell. His clothes were always neat and clean -- because of Dell. So naturally he was devastated when Dell moved away. He tried to hide himself in his suitcase! And in return how happy he was when his mother finally agreed that they’d all move to England!

But oh dear. The shock that awaited him there... Dell met them at the Port Key and they found that their good little boy had turned into, well, into a hippie. Long hair, no shoes, and strong convictions on his lips. Whatever he had expected England to be, it had bitterly disappointed him. He had been horrified by the strict structures of the Wizarding Society there, the conservatism, the purebloodism, the way half-breeds and magical creatures were treated, everything! He had promptly quitted his job and joined a few travelling magi, and by the time his family had followed him, he had turned into the Dell we know today. And the first thing he told them as they arrived in the old House of Bones he had always dreamed to live in once, was: “I reject the heritage, by the way. I don’t want to own money that has been used to oppress the unfortunate.” In fact, he declared that all money was bad and that he’d be travelling some more now, dismantling all of society’s norms until everyone had accepted Diogenes’ teachings as their one truth.

Needless to say that his mother was incredibly proud of him and had Jorge pack a lunch for him. He’s always welcome to come back home, and whenever he does, for birthdays and the holidays, just like Laura used to do it, he explains how he denies social norms to have an effect on him through personal actions, such as helping others for no rewards, rejecting monogamous relationship structures or negative opinions on ‘bad habits’, and wearing dresses and wearing lipstick beneath his bushy beard. Every year for Yule, he comes back with more strange concepts, and every year his family gathers around and listens attentively, though never entirely capable of distinguishing his jokes from his serious suggestions.

But before all the family could adjust and grow fond of the Bones gene showing itself once again, Rigby’s little heart had to break. Seeing his brother like this, so ... different from how he remembered him? It upset him terribly. Perhaps the first time a Bones has ever disapproved of another family member’s weirdness. But you see, it wasn’t logical. It was something deep within Rigby that was shaken and, in a way, awoken. Until now, his personality had been this idea he had had of his brother. But if his brother wasn’t Dell anymore (no calculated smile left, no gender left, no shoes left), then who was Rigby?

His first two years at Hogwarts he tried his best to uphold who he thought he’d been. Perhaps to prove himself that one couldn’t just be so wrong about one’s identity. But the more aggressively he studied, the more care he took in what others thought of him, the less ... happy he was. And when his younger siblings, the twins, joined him at school, he became more and more aggravated by the day to see them taking ‘who they were’ so easily. Amelia just bursting with ideas and love to give, and Edgar floating through the halls as though he thought himself a ghost, untouchable by others anyway. Between who he was and who he wanted to be grew a chasm. A chasm only one person could allow him to cross and help him to explore: Dell.

For Rigby’s thirteenth birthday, Dell took his brother aside. The talk lasted all night. It went from the Bones’ family history and values, over fears and love and imagination, to how no one could and should tell you what is ‘right’ but the unfilled cavities of your own heart. Rigby cried a lot that night. It’s not always easy to quite detect where the thorn sits, but with a bit of luck, patience and acceptance, water washes out the wound.

Rigby never became as wild as any of his siblings. He might’ve given up to put such weight on scholastic achievements but he never quit caring for proper attires or quoting particularly charming passages from his favourite books at the prettiest boys he could find. His sense of justice, different than Dell’s, is a private one. It’s not the world he wishes to flip off, just all the factors that could influence who he is. Dell doesn’t care what anyone thinks about him, but Rigby very much does. He needs people to understand who he is, to accept him fully and to not ask him to cut himself down. Not society needs to strip itself off all judgement, but every person needs to see what is truly within them, and accept it. That is what he wants.

Naturally, his family agrees, and when he finally introduced them the -- by then (in)famous long-term -- boyfriend (and his former boss at work) he had always carefully shielded from the weirdness of his family, saying that they’d not only exchange vows next Summer but also planned on adopting a child, everyone was more than elated. Until they realised that this meant by the terms of the tradition, the heritage would therefore not be able to go to him either. He could’ve gotten a wife and have a child with her for good measure, even left her afterwards, but Rigby refused to because of his integrity to who he was. And because no one wanted to fight with him about it, all eyes went to Amelia, fifteen at that time. With a gasp she pointed at Edgar: “He’s five minutes older!” who had long realised what was going to happen and was intently hiding behind his book.

Amelia and Edgar had never any doubts about who they were. Perhaps because right from the very beginning, they always knew that they were each other’s other half. One right-handed, the other left-handed, they were able to do most anything while keeping their fingers locked, not mirroring each other -- never mirroring each other! -- they were more all the assembled parts that the other didn’t have. What one was brilliant at, the other failed, what scared one, intrigued the other, and yet their laugh had the same melody, chiming in unison as though a well-rehearsed song. At the age of eight, after leaving Mexico, where they had shared a small room, their parents could finally offer them each their own bedroom, but Amelia’s was barely ever used. Yes, they were tucked into their own beds every night, with both parents telling them a story each to make sure they’d actually fall asleep, but before the clock would strike midnight, Amelia would be hiding under Edgar’s blanket.

Thus it came, that after their first night at Hogwarts -- which both had anticipated greatly! -- they stomped into Professor Dumbledore’s office demanding another try with the Sorting Hat. By the time Rigby renounced the heritage, they had almost peaked in their independence. Like Dumbledore told them that night: them being apart had not washed soft all the perfect little puzzle-locks that had made them fit beforehand -- like glass in the ocean -- but actually created more of those edges which only the other could fit in. Returning to each other over the holidays was never difficult, but they no longer required each other to feel like a full person. The first year at Hogwarts, Edgar had tickled the pears every night, meeting Amelia on the couch in the Hufflepuff Common Room to find sleep in her arms there, the second it had been mostly every day except the few ones where they were too tired and slept through the night, the third it was mostly when they didn’t have to wake up early the next day, the fourth mostly on weekends and special occasions, and by their fifth year, it happened so rarely that Edgar had to explicitly tell the resident Hufflepuffs who he was when he entered the Common Room because they were no longer used to seeing him there.

During their sixth and seventh year of Hogwarts, Amelia stood in constant correspondence with Rigby. She had always been very close with him, trying to comfort him when Dell had left Mexico, trying to lose him up in his dark times before he turned thirteen, and trying to cheer him up when his OWLs had turned out even worse than expected. They clashed, too, being no less impulsive than the other, but when it came to it, when it was important, she was always there for him. Feeling no less awful than him whenever he struggled, crying with him whenever he worked through a heart-break, and staying up many long nights with him in the Common Room just talking about this and that. Both of them demanded to be their true selves, to not be disciplined or caged in for their needs and wishes, and this brought them closer. As Rigby grew more and more confident in who he was, Amelia grew proud of him, defending him whenever someone even dared mumbling something bad about him.

On the other hand, Edgar’s Eurasian Eagle-Owl Maxwell fluttered in at least weekly with a new letter from Dell. Knowing Dell, one could easily imagine that Edgar was heavily influenced by his principles and philosophies, but the truth was that Dell’s convictions were rooted in the factual problems one could pin point with a finger. He’s the kind of person to raise his voice when he gets heated about a topic he cares about, to accuse those who don’t live by their words with harsh insults, to actually goes through with what he preaches. Edgar on the other hand had always been soft-spoken and more passively curious about the world. When he speaks of what he’s learnt, he doesn’t offer advice, he doesn’t have unchangeable opinions or ever thinks himself more right than the kind person before him. But learning of Dell’s adventures was learning of the world out there, and that was why they wrote so many letters. And Dell? Well, Dell did patiently answer all of his brother’s questions and lectured gently through the parchment, but in truth, he too learnt from his brother open-minded way to view the universe, always surprised by what he found in those letters in the end.

Perhaps Amelia and Edgar would’ve gone on to live fairly separate lives, unwavered by what the other was doing whatsoever, forever. At first it seemed to work. Amelia went to study and do her traineeship at the Ministry, while Edgar went to travel around with Dell for a few months, then alone. They barely saw each other during that time. Loving each other still, yes, but no longer needing each other as desperately. Sometimes they joked about it. That they were grown up now. That they had done as Dumbledore had told them they would: become their own, full person. And then came the war. The Order. The first deaths. The intrusive thoughts, whispering doubt into this head that had always seemed sure of itself all these years. And Edgar found himself in Amelia’s arms again. She too saw the world changing, knowing of her twin’s secret only a few nights after the Order had sworn him in already, and she knew that whatever had happened -- they never spoke of the Order -- it had hurt him terribly. Therefore it hurt her too. By the age of twenty, they were as co-dependent as they had been with eleven. Child-like, clinging to each other, seeking each other’s warmth, feeling incomplete without the other there.

At age fifteen, when the heritage was rewritten in Edgar’s name, to be received after his marriage upon his first child’s birth, it mostly seemed like an awkward topic to talk about for him. But now? Now, at age twenty-eight with multiple failed, long-term relationships and death following his every step? While he does long for a peaceful family life, he doubts it’ll come soon. He is too anxious, he’d be distant, he’d not be able to commit to love someone he could so easily lose. Who could lose him even more easily. So his gaze goes to Amelia again, the same way it did when they were fifteen. But now his gaze goes to her because in theory she’s the one who lives the secure life, the one who could be a safety-bringing mother to her child. And his gaze goes to her because -- and no, he’d never admit it -- the idea of Amelia finding someone more important than him, makes him sick to his stomach...

Amelia wants Edgar to find someone to love that way, and she’s certain that it’ll happen for him eventually. But as unspoken as he is about it, they know they feel the same about it all. The idea he might love someone more than her terrifies her. She had a few relationships as well but the love never felt as deep, as palpable, as important as Edgar’s love, and sooner or later she’d sabotage it -- consciously as well as subconsciously --, make the other break up with her so she didn’t have to break their heart. So if he were to leave her, she’s certain she’d have no one left.

They could reject the Bones’ heritage as well. The family book into which the traditional vows are carved into and only ever need the names changed out, would probably sigh at their nonsense, but it wouldn’t refuse. These are the Bones we’re talking about, after all! When has a generation ever been easy? And as long as at least Laura Bones is alive, there’s no rush in inscribing the name into the vows just yet anyway. And who would receive the heritage then?

Colter. The youngest. The wildest. The most dangerous, courageous roaring lion that has ever lived. Being his father’s precious little treasure, he comes after him. When the Centello grandparents came to visit once, they said that Colter resembled Jorge so terribly, it was as though someone had turned the time thirty years back. And with every year he was surrounded by Gryffindors (he was a Hufflepuff but chose himself mostly Gryffindor friends), he became wilder and wilder. Amelia’s bratty influence certainly didn’t help. “Hey you go do this and see what mom says because you're the youngest and you can get away with it,” was her way to go about it, rather than acting like an older sibling. No sorrows seemed to weigh on Colter ever, no fears would ever affect his muscles, no injustice would ever pass his mind. He was the youngest and had it the easiest, never worrying about the future whatsoever. And so, when Edgar took him to the side one day and asked him how he’d feel about getting the heritage, he almost choked on a horrible laughing fit. Here he’d been, thinking to be left alone with all that traditional baggage, only to find his oldest brother a Cynic, his older brother queer as a 2/5th Knut and the twins too stupidly intense about each other to find another spouse.

He never said no, so that’s currently every Bones’ hope, but he did buy a one-way ticket as he left to tame dragons in northern Russia, so...

[my-bated-breath]

On an Immensely Popular Post

Disclaimer: What I’m writing here may not be completely accurate -- like most works of art, literature, and even STEM tend to be -- and as a new fan of ATLA, a few of the metas I publish may be obsolete or unintentionally insensitive. That being said, I like to believe that I can contribute something valuable to this fandom. In all my (real) metas, I wish to be as objective as possible and not rely on my biases, fanon, or common “knowledge” that may just be misconceptions. If anyone reading this finds something to be false or contrived, I am always welcome to constructive criticism. What I am not welcome to is senseless hate or bashing.

My first experiences with the ATLA fandom begun a long, long time ago, but the most recent and powerful revival of my love for ATLA started with me actually watching the show and soon after, with me falling into the endless abyss of ATLA metas on Tumblr. Sifting through the well-written analyses and the emotion-based rants had taught me a lot about critical thinking and the power of influence, so now I’d like to present a meta that critiques an extremely popular post with over 60,000 notes. And since it’s so popular, this is the part where I must make yet another disclaimer.

Disclaimer: I hold nothing against lesbians4sokka (whose name has now been changed to comradekatara). They have the right to share what they want, but since this particular post has become so influential that it’s still being reblogged regularly to this day, I believe it is within my right to criticize it - emphasis on “criticize,” which is different from “hate.”

Now that that’s out of the way, let us begin:

Lesbians4sokka/comradekatara covers 3 main subjects in their post, which I will quote/summarize below:

(1) Ma/iko: “...the entire foundation of mai and zuko’s relationship was built on how miserable they were together, and how they would just sit there and hate the world together— letting their misery fester as they enabled each other’s depression— and I think that’s really unfortunate because they would work so well as friends if they weren’t trying to make their dumpster fire of a relationship work.”

(2) Zutara: “similarly, what makes zuko and katara’s dynamic so compelling is that they share the same flaws, only as opposed to mai’s apathy and misery, it’s katara’s rage and guilt that zuko identifies with. they both share trauma over having lost their mothers, and both in a similar way (sacrificing themselves for them) and they both cope with their grief through rage, often misplaced… katara and zuko have a deep & profound friendship, but if they were to be in a relationship, they would only bring out the absolute worst in each other thru enabling each other’s rage and emotion-driven decision making.”

(3) Z/uk/ka: this pairing makes for a healthy and wholesome relationship because throughout the boiling rock, we see that “sokka and zuko make an excellent team, as they balance each other perfectly. sokka thinks big picture, and plans ahead, but zuko will charge into situations.” They inspire each other, they trust each other unconditionally, they become more open and supportive of each other, they share a lot of common interests and narrative parallels, and in general, just make each other happy (which could work both platonically and romantically).

As for my response: I’m sure many of you are expecting me to start to save the “best for last.” That assumption would be incorrect because I actually have the least to say about point 3.

I agree that Z/uk/ka can be a good relationship. Their dynamic is funny, playful, supportive, etc. etc. (there are so many positive adjectives I could use to describe their dynamic, the list could go on forever). And they could make a great couple.

…

What, did you expect more from me? That’s it, I’m done.

I’m not here to attack Z/uk/ka as a ship, because while I can never actively ship it (I’m a sad, narrow-minded exclusive shipper, always had been and always will be) I can objectively appreciate them as one. It’s points 1 and 2 I’m more concerned about.

Now, since we’ve already begun working backward, I’ll begin my critiques on point 2: I could write extensively about the parallels between Zuko and Katara, including but not limited to shared pain and a few shared flaws - and just a few, because their weaknesses diverge in many important places. However, since I’m trying to write as objectively as possible and since Zuko-Katara parallels have already been discussed to death, my analysis will focus elsewhere.

However, something from comradekatara’s post that I would first like to address is this-

[Zuko and Katara] both cope with their grief through rage, often misplaced. in the southern raiders, they both act deeply insensitively towards sokka by acting as if his grief over his mother’s death is somehow less valid simply because he is a lot quieter in his coping mechanisms and doesn’t project his rage & guilt onto everyone else.

- or rather, the idea that Zuko and Katara’s shared pain causes them to act insensitively towards Sokka (and though the post does not mention it, Aang as well).

(Note: these points have already been covered by countless metas before mine, so you can skip/skim this section to read a newer argument in the next section.)

Even ignoring the fact that the Southern Raiders had many out of character moments, Katara’s insensitivity towards Sokka is first and foremost a reaction against his insensitivity towards her.

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Dialogue from Season 3, Episode 16 “The Southern Raiders”:

Aang: Um ... and what exactly do you think this will accomplish?

Katara: [Shakes her head in dismay.] Ugh, I knew you wouldn't understand. [Begins to walk away.]

Aang: Wait! Stop! I do understand. You're feeling unbelievable pain and rage. How do you think I felt about the sandbenders when they stole Appa? How do you think I felt about the Fire Nation when I found out what happened to my people?

Zuko: She needs this, Aang. This is about getting closure and justice.

Aang: I don't think so. I think it's about getting revenge.

Katara: [Angrily.] Fine, maybe it is! Maybe that's what I need! Maybe that's what he deserves!

Aang: Katara, you sound like Jet.

Katara: It's not the same! Jet attacked the innocent. This man, he's a monster.

Sokka: Katara, she was my mother, too, but I think Aang might be right.

Katara: Then you didn't love her the way I did!

Sokka: [Hurt] Katara!

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While I believe that Aang’s principles of forgiveness are morally sound, the way he pushes his beliefs onto Katara undermines much of her grief. At first, Aang tries to relate to Katara’s experiences by comparing them to his own, but there is a forceful connotation to his dialogue that suggests that Aang considers himself to be the moral authority compared to Katara. Hence, Aang judges Katara (“I think it’s about getting revenge”) without trying to reach out and understand her, forgoing the empathetic common ground in favor of taking on the moral high ground.

Thus, when Sokka tells Katara, “she was my mother, too, but I think Aang might be right,” Sokka is not only saying that Katara should choose forgiveness, he is implying that Aang is the ultimate moral authority on this matter and that Katara should accept that. Moreover, similarly to Aang, Sokka’s opening line, “she was my mother, too,” had the potential to establish common ground between himself and Katara, but the added “but…” places Sokka on the moral high ground against her instead. Of course, when we remember that just two lines ago Aang equates Katara to Jet, Sokka agreeing with Aang seems even more thoughtless and unsympathetic.

So when Katara lashes out against Sokka, ostensibly “acting as if his grief over his mother’s death is somehow less valid simply because he is a lot quieter in his coping mechanisms and doesn’t project his rage & guilt onto everyone else,” it is important to note that Sokka undermines Katara’s louder, more visible way of grieving as well (though that discounts that for most of the show, Katara only uses her grief over her mother’s death to sympathize with others).

Moreover, Katara’s line, “then you didn't love her the way I did!” is hurtful, yes, but it is not necessarily equivalent to “you didn’t love her as much as I did.” Katara’s love for her mother is different from Sokka’s because her pain over her death is different -- after Kya’s passing, Katara had to carry the emotional burden of becoming a pseudo-mother to Sokka (see Sokka and Toph’s conversation in “The Runaway”), a burden that did not cease after she joined the GAang (see the entirety of “The Desert”). To Katara, Kya was not only her mother, but the representation of the childhood she lost and the sacrifice made to protect her life. Sokka simply does not have that same relationship with Kya.

I do not mean to say that Sokka and Aang unfairly taking on the moral authority in this situation means that this authority instead belongs to Katara (and Zuko) - “The Southern Raiders” is filled with questionable moments from all parties involved. However, TSR is an episode that delves into Katara (and Zuko)’s relationship with a mother’s sacrifice, so how Zuko and Katara respond to this specific trauma from their past does not dictate how they respond to painful circumstances in the present/future. Let’s see how this is true.

Sozin’s Comet, Part 1: The Phoenix King

No doubt Zuko and Katara felt some form of frustration upon Aang’s disappearance, so let’s see how they “[enabled] each other’s rage and emotion-driven decision making”:

Here, Katara and Zuko make a decision together that turns out to be calm, rational, and not at all emotionally-driven despite their mutual frustration and worry towards Aang.

Sozin’s Comet, Part 2: The Old Masters

Zuko holds immense pain and self-loathing over betraying Iroh, yet Zuko and Katara’s conversation does not enable/exacerbate negativity from any party involved (since Zuko often translates his grief into anger, and Katara was evidently angry at Zuko’s betrayal). Instead, their conversation is open, encouraging, and constructive.

(Note: this is where the review of points made by previous metas ends.)

Hence, to say that “[Zuko and Katara] would only bring out the absolute worst in each other [through] enabling each other’s rage and emotion-driven decision making” -  when we are given in-canon examples of the opposite being true - would be a sweeping and inaccurate generalization.

But for the sake of argument let’s say that, hypothetically, Zuko and Katara’s relationship would fail because they only bring out the worst in each other. And here’s where the argument falls apart for me - Is the argument here that Zuko and Katara have an incredibly meaningful friendship yet somehow this “friendship” causes them to enable each other, thus encouraging each other’s worst flaws and regressing each other’s growth? Is a healthy friendship - much less a “deep and profound” one - not one where two individuals can learn from each other in positive ways and balance each other’s shortcomings?

Or is it something different we’re saying here? Are we saying that two individuals can have a “deep and profound” friendship and yet the moment their relationship shifts from platonic to romantic, they are terrible for each other?

While many significant platonic bonds are stunted when they become romantic, I still believe it to be common sense that some of the best romantic relationships stem from a platonic foundation. But since much of “common sense” on the internet sees that “sense” is nonsensical and “common” is a nicer way to refer to mob mentality, I have done my research to show how Zuko and Katara could have been an excellent case of a friends-to-lovers relationship.

An excerpt from my meta, “Research Shows that Zutara Would Have Been the Ideal Friends to Lovers Dynamic.” (give it a read if you want to see references to relationship-research and an overanalysis on diction/tone)

The reason why Zutara is framed as a “toxic and unhealthy” relationship is that their romance would be a classic example of the enemies-to-lovers trope, a trope which modern media has not been particularly kind to. However, when executed correctly, enemies-to-lovers can produce a healthy and loving relationship, frequently relying on friendship as an intermediate between the “enemy” and “lover” stages in the most well-executed versions of this trope. Meanwhile, the trope of friends-to-lovers is just as popular as enemies-to-lovers, though the specific dynamic required between two individuals to achieve this transition is not well-known. Recognizing this, Laura K. Guerrero and Paul A. Mongeau, both of whom are involved in relationship-related research as professors at Arizona State University, wrote a research paper on how friendships may transition into romantic relationships…

According to Guerrero and Mongeau, “...scholars have argued that intimacy is located in different types of interactions, ranging from sexual activity and physical contact to warm, cozy interactions that can occur between friends, family members, and lovers…” Guerrero and Mongeau then reference a relationship model where the initial stages (i.e. perceiving similarities, achieving rapport, and inducing self-disclosure) reflect platonic/romantic intimacy through communication while the latter stages (i.e. role-taking, achieving interpersonal role fit, and achieving dyadic crystallization) often see both individuals as achieving a higher level of intimacy that involves more self-awareness.

In the rest of my research-based meta I demonstrate how Zuko and Katara’s platonic interactions in the show fit into the stages of communicative intimacy (i.e. perceiving similarities, achieving rapport, and inducing self-disclosure) that Guerrero and Mongeau describe as being mutual between friendships and romances. As such, crossing the line between friends and more-than-friends most likely would not cause a dramatic shift in the Zutara dynamic since much of Zuko and Katara’s platonic intimacy easily translates into romantic intimacy. I’ll end off with another excerpt from my meta.

Excerpt from “Research Shows that Zutara Would Have Been the Ideal Friends to Lovers Dynamic.”

“...it would be remiss to simply dismiss the Zutara dynamic as one that would instantly become toxic should they pursue a romantic relationship.”

With that little thought in mind, let’s move onto point 3: an exploration of friendship, romance, and why toxicity is not exclusive to the latter.

Let’s start with what I agree with:

“The entire foundation of mai and zuko’s relationship was built on how miserable they were together, and how they would just sit there and hate the world together— letting their misery fester as they enabled each other’s depression...”

I’m not sure how necessary it is for me to elaborate on this point given that it’s already been accepted by comradekatara and perhaps 60,000+ other users on Tumblr (a gross exaggeration but this remains unimportant), but in her essay, “Zuko, Mai, and the Nature of True Intimacy,” Araeph contributes more nuance to the concept of Ma/iko and mutual misery, stating that,

Unfortunately for [Zuko and Mai’s] relationship, Mai is and will always be a pessimist—a character trait, not a character flaw, in her. The key difference lies in how Mai and Zuko use their negative feelings. When Zuko sinks into negativity, he gives up on any actions that will materially change his world for the better; Mai, on the other hand, can remain negative even at the height of her character development, and it does not impede her ability to act.

So while Mai enables Zuko’s depression, Zuko does not necessarily do the same for Mai. Nonetheless, throughout their relationship for the first half of season 3, neither of them communicate constructively or push each other to grow as people.

This may be the third disclaimer I’m making, but I first want to say I have nothing against Mai. However, I do have something against the idea that “[Mai and Zuko] would work so well as friends if they weren’t trying to make their dumpster fire of a relationship work.”

Their relationship is a dumpster fire, yes, but will the flames cease simply if the amount of intimacy in the relationship changes?

comradekatara state themselves that their entire romantic relationship is quite depressing - they are only able to connect through empty physical intimacy and mutual hatred of the world. Without that, there is little left for them to bond over. Once Zuko overcomes his conflicting morality and inaction from the first half of season 3, he becomes someone who is strongly guided by his principles and beliefs. However, for the entirety of the series, Mai is characterized by her moral apathy. To cite from Araeph again,

It is moral intimacy that is the last and worst omission for Mai and Zuko… Zuko’s struggle to find and follow his principles is the most central aspect of his character, yet it is a struggle Mai neither understands nor respects…

Lack of moral intimacy (not sharing the same core beliefs) is something that applies to both platonic and romantic bonds. Thus, just as transitioning from a meaningful friendship to a romance does not inherently create toxicity in a relationship, switching from a romance that exacerbates one (or both, depending on how you interpret it) party’s misery does not necessarily erase the preexisting negativity in a relationship - perhaps some of it may subside, sure, but as long both parties continue to fail at communicating and understanding each other, even their friendship seems bleak at best. In this case, Mai and Zuko may work well as conditional friends, or in other words, friends who are only friends when they have something to mutually be miserable over. And this tiptoes the line of speculation, but they could be a formidable political team. But unless the Ma/iko dynamic shifts drastically in the lovers-to-friends transition, I’m not sure if there’s much potential in a friendship between them.

In conclusion, there is a lot I don’t agree with from comradekatara’s post, but if there’s one takeaway I want to impart onto everyone who’s read this far, it’s this: crossing and uncrossing the line between platonic and romantic bonds is not always a transformative experience for the relationship, and the nature of human relationships is a complex spectrum -- not a light switch that can only be set between healthy and unhealthy.

Thank you all for reading!

[everybodyscupoftea]

this is the life

ole miss rafe x reader

you and your boyfriend deal with your ~futures~

literally no one asked for this lol, i’m sorry

(warnings: cursing)

Your animal and dairy sciences seminar had a report due that you’d stayed up very late making last minute edits to because you were stressed it was really bad. The next morning was brutal. Not only was in an 8 a.m. lecture, but your coffee machine was out and you overslept, barely giving yourself enough time to get to class before the professor checked attendance.

You slid into your seat, out of breath, just as started scanning the seating chart for attendance. The boy who sits next to you turned to ask, “Library was backed up this morning?”

“What?” you asked, halfway paying attention, still scrambling to get your notebook out.

“Since you’re running late, I’m assuming it’s because the library was busy when you went to print your report.”

Your stomach dropped and you swore, “Fuck. I forgot to print it. Fucking fuck. I submitted it online but I forgot we needed to hand him a physical copy too. Oh god I can’t afford to fail this class.” You were getting worked up and the boy was starting to look more and more like he regretted talking to you in the first place.

“I mean he’s pretty chill, so I’m sure if you explain he’ll let you bring it by his office later.”

The boy had a point, but you were already too far gone. For the rest of the class, you were unfocused, and if someone asked you what he lectured on, you’d have no clue, so preoccupied with rehearsing how you were going to beg him for an extension. You only had one other class, and you’d definitely be able to print it out and run it to him between them, but that was depending on if he let you.

Just as class was ending, your phone vibrated in your hoodie pocket, and you checked it, immediately calmed at seeing a text from your boyfriend. Rafe sent Can’t wait to see you this weekend and whatever had a grip on your chest loosened enough for you to take a full breath for the first time since waking up.

After speaking to your professor and his reassurance that you didn’t really need to worry much about the written report, that it was just to ensure everyone had it turned in prior to class, you left, much happier, but the exhaustion hitting you straight in the gut.

Thankfully, all you had left that day was a communication elective and then to drive to Rafe’s apartment in Oxford. He’d convinced you to make the trip because he wanted to show you around the place he’d called home for four years after leaving behind his “hometown trauma.” His words.

Your class flew by, people were giving speeches and you’d given yours Wednesday, so you sat there mindlessly, half asleep, until she dismissed the class for the weekend. Stopping back by your apartment to pick up your overnight bag, you decided to last minute check your PO Box, it had been a while. To your shock, you actually had mail, and when you saw the return address, the sick feeling returned to your stomach.

There was about a two-hour drive to Rafe’s apartment from Starkville, and you had the option of opening the letter containing either the best news or the worst news of your life before the drive or at Rafe’s apartment. Part of you wanted to know then, but a stronger part of you wanted to be with Rafe so he could comfort you if necessary.

Instead of making a decision, you felt your tired brain could not, you called Rafe. He answered before the second ring and you couldn’t help yourself.

“I see that receptionist job taught you some useful skills.”

“What?” he asked, sounding confused.

“Answering my calls fast, that’s good because my time is money.”

Rafe sighed, “Can I help you?”

“Someone’s mad. But, yes, should I open the letter from the vet school now or wait until I get to Oxford.”

You heard some shuffling around before he answered, “You think you can wait? I actually have something to tell you too.”

“Yeah, um, sure,” you were a little worried, “Is everything okay?”

“I think so. We just need to talk.”

“Right, talk, are you sure everything’s good?”

“Yeah, stop worrying. Just drive on over.”

You had been excited to go visit, but after that phone call you wanted to go back to bed. With a deep sigh, you rubbed your eyes with the heels of your hands and slumped backward. Blinking away the spots, you buckled up, pit in your stomach, and drove to your favorite coffee shop in Starkville. If shit was going to go down in Oxford you were going to have your comfort drink.

StrangeBrew’s drive-thru was packed and you tapped your fingers anxiously on the steering wheel as you waited to order your blueberry cobbler cold brew with soy milk. Right as the barista handed you the to-go cup, your phone vibrated and Rafe had sent drive safe!! <3. The fuck did that mean in the context of your earlier phone conversation?!

The drive to Oxford was boring as hell. You’d made it before, a band you liked had played there one night, and you and some friends had made the reluctant trip to see them. Turning on your podcast, you focused on nothing but the drive, pushing aside relationship doubts and the growing anxiety about the letter sitting in your passenger seat.

You called Rafe when you got close, and he was waiting outside his building when you finally found a visitor’s spot. He jogged over to grab your overnight bag and bent down to give you a quick kiss, before greeting you with, “Hey, baby, how was the drive?”

“Boring as fuck, nothing new.”

“Went smoothly?”

“About as smooth as possible. I’ve had to pee for the last like 40 minutes though, so it’d be great if I could do that now.”

He laughed and turned to walk to his building, motioning for you to follow him. You did, scampering a little to keep up with his long strides, and he unlocked a door on the first floor, holding it open for you, “Bathroom’s down the hall to the left.”

Rafe was sitting on the couch when you made it back out to the living room, and you finally took a good look at him. His laptop was on the coffee table and he was wearing a pair of Ole Miss sweats, a worn-out t-shirt, and a pair of glasses you were unaware he needed.

“Take a picture,” he interrupted your train of thought and you rolled your eyes.

“Shut up, Cameron. Now, tell me what you want to talk about so I can open my letter.”

“No, open your letter first and then we’ll talk.”

You weren’t sure why he was so insistent or why your heart rate tripled, but you were pretty sure it wasn’t the coffee. With shaking hands, you held up the letter from the MSU Vet School. All of your undergrad work came down to that letter, whether you’d have to take a gap year and try to find work to apply again or whether you could move forward in your career path.

Rafe watched on eagerly as you carefully tore it open and started reading. Eyes jumping across the page, unable to focus, you barely made out, Congratulations and We welcome you and We look forward to seeing you next fall.

With a gasp, you launched yourself at an unprepared Rafe and latched on, arms wrapped around his neck. He ran his hand up and down your back soothingly and asked, gently, “Good news?”

“I’m going to Vet School,” you whispered, voice cracking in the middle of your sentence.

“Fucking right you are, my little Rockstar.”

Your face heated up and you buried it in the crook of his neck, feeling a weight lift off your shoulders. Only to come crashing back down a few seconds later as you remembered Rafe wanted to talk. Pulling back slowly, you asked, “So, what was it you wanted to talk about?”

His face lit up and he leaned forward, hanging on to you so he didn’t accidentally dump you onto the floor, and grabbed his laptop. Clicking to his email, he showed you the message he had pulled up from Mississippi State University Department of History Admissions.

“So, you know I’ve been interested in teaching,” he started, “and I’m debating whether I’d like to teach college or not.”

“Yeah, last we talked, you were leaning toward college professor, right?”

“Right. Well, I applied to a few schools that had a PhD program I was interested in, and I heard back from my top choice.”

Your mind was racing, still not connecting the dots, until he motioned at his laptop. Looking back down, you skimmed the email, telling him that he’d been accepted into MSU’s PhD in European History program and gasped, turning back to him in excitement, “No way?!”

“Way,” he told you, wide grin on his face.

Jaw dropped, your mind raced to put together a coherent thought, “How long have you been planning this?”

“The program is good, this isn’t a new thought, but MSU obviously jumped up my preference list to the top after we got together.”

“Fuckin whipped,” you teased and he tilted your chin down to kiss you.

Pulling away he brushed some of your hair back, “Only for you.”

As he leaned in again, you were the one to pull back, “Wait, we have to celebrate!”

Rafe groaned, “No, let me kiss you.”

“No! I want food, I spent the entire ride thinking I was going to get dumped when I got here.”

He furrowed his eyebrows, “What?”

“We need to talk,” you quoted, “that’s one scary fucking sentence, Cameron.”

He smiled sheepishly, “Sorry, sweetheart, I just wanted to keep it a surprise.”

“Well you did.”

Rafe leaned in to kiss you again and pulled back to add, “You really think I’d make you drive all the way here, just to break up with you. I’m wounded you think that lowly of me.”

“You are an asshole.”

Rolling his eyes, he pinched your cheek gently, “Be nice to me, I’m sacrificing my dignity and lowering myself to Mississippi State’s standards.”

Blinking a few times in surprise at his sudden switch, you told him back, “Fuck off, I’m sure you were last choice as soon as they saw where you got your undergrad degree.”

Without saying anything else, he kissed you again, gripping behind your knees and shifting so your back was on the couch. As he lowered himself down on top of you, you decided that food could wait. You had your future to celebrate.

[gowns]

a few more resources for dealing with sexual violence within the framework of abolition

i don’t have all the answers (far from it!!); and again, for something so big and huge and complicated, something with systemic roots that ends up occurring person-to-person, and usually within framework of a trusted relationship... i don’t know if there are any tangible, easily summarizable, easily prescribed solutions to the problem of sexual violence while building towards an abolitionist future.

however, if you are interested in reading more about figuring out the nitty gritty process of transformative justice (which is, after all, still in its early stages), i would recommend these two PDFs, which i’m still just skimming thru:

What About the Rapists? Anarchist Approaches to Crime and Justice (zine)

Beyond Survival: Strategies and Stories from the Transformative Justice Movement (ebook avail from AK Press for $2)

and this article which points to APi Chaya in seattle as a successful transformative justice org + mariame kaba’s #freebresha movement: 

https://www.calcasa.org/2017/04/what-does-transformative-justice-look-like-survivor-focused-trauma-informed-community-accountability-to-ending-sexual-violence/

if you’re looking to combat sexual violence and the effects of it through an abolitionist lens, one step of a plan towards a better possible world is: we should be working to free the many many imprisoned women who have been (and are currently) victims of abuse and sexual violence ! that is a tangible thing that you can work on, if you are looking for “actionable steps” that you can undertake. 

https://survivedandpunished.org/

and beyond that, we can work to free all women who are imprisoned. if that’s what you want to focus on, go ahead! like, you can bug representatives to free these elderly women:

https://gowns.tumblr.com/post/621748895643500544/a-womans-fight-to-get-her-terminally-ill-sister

[faithambr]

House That Built Me

(Author’s Note: Based loosely on the song and my childhood memories of my grandparents’ house.) 

Here is the link to the song! 

Memories.

Those were the things that she had cherished over the years. The memories of her loved ones with such love in their eyes and laughter in their hearts. The memories of her cousins playing in the yard while the other relatives were too busy chatting up a storm on the front porch. The memories of her parents giving them all of the love and attention there. 

However those were only just a memory. A memory that would be in her heart forever.

“C’mon Anna,” a voice had interrupted her thoughts, causing the redhead to snap back into the present, “Grandma doesn’t want to let the cold in.”

“Coming Elsa.” she answers as she made her way through the garage.

Has it already been three years since she was the house? Three long years since her parents had died. Three years of feeling nothing but emptiness and heartache. Three years of feeling alone and abandoned by her sister.

But that had all changed with in this past summer. A rekindling relationship with her older sister, Elsa, and a new beau named Kristoff.

“Anna,” her elderly grandmother scolds her as she stood at the kitchen door, “get inside, before you catch yourself a cold.”

“Yes Grandma.” she lets out with a smile as she entered into the house.

Oh wow. she thought with her heart filled up with love and memories. I miss home. 

“Anna,” her grandmother had whispered into her ear, “I know that this maybe hard for you, but we need to figure out some things here.” 

“Right.”

But what do they need to figure out? Where do things need to go? Who’s going to take what? How are they going to go thru everything?

We’ll just have to take it step by step then. she thought as she was looking throughout the kitchen. That’s what Dad would say.

Her heart was pounding at the memories of her parents creating masterpieces in the kitchen. From the her father stirring the already delicious marinara sauce to her mother decorating the little snowflakes with bright colors and edible crystals.

“Hey sister.” a voice had interrupted her thoughts, causing Anna to snap back into reality.

“Oh hi, Elsa.” Anna smiles back at her older sister. “What are you holding there?”

“Mother’s shawl.” she answers while Anna was softly touching the purple pattern.

“I love it.”

“Me too.” Elsa continues. “I found it in her closet earlier this week.”

“Oh.” Anna had mouthed.” May I try it on? Just for old times.”

“Sure.” 

“Oh wow.” Anna’s eyes went wide with such memories. “Fits like a glove.”

“Except it’s not a glove.” her sister jokes causing Anna to giggle.

“I know.”

“I think Mother would want you to have it.” Elsa lets out with a smirk on her face.

“Really?” Anna’s eyes went wide as saucers as she held the shawl close to her heart.

“Yeah.” her sister nods. “I do remember you wanting to wear it every time Mother would bring it out.”

“And I remember her telling us stories about trolls and magical spirits.” Anna lets out with a smile as she continued into the formal living room.

“Right.” her sister nods just before she went upstairs to help their elderly grandmother. “Grandma and I are going to be upstairs for a bit. She needs me to go through some old files.” 

“Okay.” Anna replies back just before her older sister had made it up the stairs.

Her mother’s shawl was the only form of comfort to her as she sat down on the white chair. She knew that the formal living room was part of her home; yet it felt rather informal to her. It felt almost unnatural for her to be in there, no thanks to some of the rules that could have been established just for that room alone.

Growing up, her mother had kept the room as the oriental room. “As a room where I could keep my China set intact.” her mother would commonly say to their family and friends. Of course her mother would then go on and talk about how the China set was a gift from some royal ancestor in Norway. And yet we weren’t even allowed to touch them. Anna thought as she placed her hand delicately on the flowery, yet antique plate on the formal dining table. 

She smiled at the thought of her mother taking out the set for any formal gatherings at their home. She knew that all of the formal events were mostly for their family’s business, but yet they were definitely memorable. Maybe if things were different. she thought while she was examining the framed crocuses on the wall above the fireplace. Then we wouldn’t have to sell.

Her heart was beating at the thought of selling their home. She knew that both her and her sister wouldn’t be able to keep it. “But as long as I can keep my memories,” she whispered as she looked up at the family portrait, “then we should be fine.”

And she was right. As long as the memories are with her, the house should be fine without them.

At least it has good bones. she thought as she made her way on out of the formal living room. Good bones mean good structure.

She smiled at the thought of some family buying themselves this home, as she slowly made her way downstairs. She loved the fact that the home was built just for her and her family. It was her own father’s idea to add a second living space right next to her and her sister’s room. “So we can have our family and friends over for any event.” her father had always said before. Well he was right about that. she thought as she was making herself comfortable on the old tan leather lounge chair.

She marveled at the times where she would be watching the big game on TV with her father. She remembered all of those claims of bad calls coming from her father, while she was too busy tallying up the points on a spreadsheet along with Elsa. At least we had a great time. she thought as she leaned back into the chair. Ouch, what is that? 

“Chicken Noodle Soup for the...” she had read aloud while she was examining the book.

Her smile grew by the second as she continued on skimming and flipping through each page. She knew this book by heart and she loved every inch of it. This got me through the rough summer days. she thought with a warm smile on her face.

She knew that the books did keep her busy during the rough summer days, yet there were other things and people that did keep her occupied. She smirked at the thought of seeing all of their cousins come together for the annual family reunions during the summer. She loved the idea of having over after spending the day at the lake. Those were the nights. Anna thought as she was reliving the countless nights where she and their cousins would stay up and do whatever they wanted. From building blanket forts and watching VeggieTales to playing card games and telling dirty jokes. “And some of them were sure dirty.” she smirks as she got up from the large chair. “Even at a young age, Cousin Tom sure knew how to crack a dirty one.”

She continued on making her way through to the downstairs, until she stopped at the stairs to the basement. I wonder if it has already been cleared out. Anna thought while she was holding the shawl again for warmth and comfort. She knew that the basement probably hasn’t been cleared out in over ten years, no thanks to her family having the space to store anything and everything. Pretty much everything we have is probably in boxes. she thought as she slowly walked on down the wooden steps. Possibly from the business, too.

Her heart stopped at the basement door. She knew that anything could be possibly behind that door. It’s just a door. Anna had thought as she slowly pulled the basement door away. 

“Whoa.” she whispers aloud, seeing all of the vast emptiness before her. “It’s been cleaned out.”

She was right. The entire basement had been thoroughly cleaned out. The only remnants of the basement was their great grandmother’s big organ, her mother’s built-in sewing machine, and her father’s old office desk. Maybe Elsa’s planning on keeping them. she thought while she was inspecting the organ. Knowing her, she probably would.

“Hmmm,” Anna had continued on wondering aloud while she was looking around the basement, “I wonder if the hidey-ho is still around.”

As a young child, the hidey-ho was a place where her and Elsa would play in. From dressing up as princesses to creating some fake plastic food in the kitchen. Heck even the cousins were obsessed with playing in the hidey-ho. Oh how I wish that we could go back in time, just to enjoy those moments in there. Anna had thought as placed her hand against the wooden door. Even though she was only a young child, she will always remember being in there playing as a princesses in dress up with her cousins.

But I remember getting older, she thought as she left the treasured memory behind, and wishing just to come back down here.

But they couldn’t go back down there. The basement had grown over the years, even after their parents’ death. The basement became more of the clutter and stuff environment, rather than the extra space for more additions to the house. Maybe somebody could make it work again. she thought while she was making her way through the basement. Just like how Dad would’ve wanted it. 

Originally the basement was to be a space for storage, but then it was created as an office space/ family den area. A place where her parents were able to conduct business while keeping an eye on both Anna and her sister playing down in the hidey-ho. But it’s time to move on. she thought as she drew near the basement door. Time to move forward.

Her heart was aching  at the thought of leaving the basement behind, yet she knew that it was time to move on.

___________________________

She stood at the steps of the back porch, not knowing what else to expect. Maybe I should go down there. Anna thought as she adjusted her mother’s shawl on her slim shoulders. Just to see everything. She knew the backyard would always be the same, yet her heart was yearning for something more. More memories. she thought with a smile on her freckled face. 

She giggled at the thought of playing their own version of baseball, as she was strolling on down through the temporary makeshift baseball field.

“Play ball!” she could hear one of her uncles call out while she was walking on past the pitcher’s mound.

“Hey Batter, batter!” her father would chant as he stood nearby. “Swing!”  

The sound of bat and ball making contact made her laugh as she was standing at the edge of the field.

“I’ve got it!” she could hear her much younger self say followed by a crash into the bushes. “Ouch!”

“Ooooh yeah.” Anna had mouthed while she watched her much younger self slowly get up from the raspberry bushes. “That day was no fun.”

Of course after that she had somehow got into some poison ivy. “At least Mom knew what to do.” she whispered while she was walking on down the path. “Calamine lotion and special baths for a week.”

“Hmm,” Anna whispers as she stopped to take a look at an old car, “now this does look more familiar to me.”

She knew what it was, yet she couldn’t remember how it got there. Maybe Grandpa gave it to him as a trade. she thought with a curious look on her face. But for what exactly?

Then again it was more obvious to her than before.

“Oh wait duh,” Anna smirks, “it’s the old snow plow!”

How could she forget about the snow plow? Her father and grandfather were the ones in charge of plowing the snow off the roads in town. The snow plow was always my favorite. she thought while she was examining the plow. Only during the winter time. 

She remembered the early mornings of hearing her father pour his cup of coffee just for those long winters. Daddy loved those mornings. she thought as she continued on walking past the snow plow. But this was his little piece of heaven. 

And oh what a piece of heaven it was. From the old blue Vega sitting along the  rustic side of the pull barn to the scattered shrapnel of truck tossed to the opposite side of the path. The gravel on the path had made it more homely for her at the barn than at her own home.

Dad’s garage. she thought as she placed her hand on the door to the pull barn. His safe haven. 

Anna remembered all of the afternoons where she would be running down to the garage, telling her father that it was lunch time.

“Daddy, Daddy!” a faint voice of a child echoes through her mind as she pulled the metal door wide open. “Mommy say it’s lunch time!”

“Oh alright, freckles.” a huff voice had answered followed by a thunk. “Ouch!”

“Oh Daddy,” a little figure giggles making Anna smile, “what is Mommy going to do with you?”

At least Dad loved this place. she thought as she watched the memory of her father hug her all those years ago.

“Anna!” a voice called out, causing her to snap back into reality. “Where are you?”

“I’m in here!” she calls back not knowing whoever it was.

“Oh good.” her sister replies back as she stood at the door.

“You needed me?” Anna asks.

“Oh no,” Elsa smirks, making Anna feel right at home, “Grandma was worried about you. So she told me to go out and look for you.”

“Oh.”

“Well I’d figured that you would be here.” Elsa smiles at her sister.

“How so?” Anna gave her sister a confused look.

“Well,” Elsa began as she makes her way around Anna, “to say that this was Dad’s place is an understatement.” 

“Oh.”

“Yes Dad would stay in here and work on the cars,” Elsa continues as she sat herself down on a dusty stool, “but you would be here, talking his ear off about school and such.”

“Oh.” 

“So I think that this was your place, too.”

“You’re right Elsa.” Anna smiles warmly while she was glancing around the garage. “Hey look at this!”

“What” Elsa gave her sister a curious look, while Anna was pointing at something nearby.

“This.” Anna answers as she made her way to the shelving unit near her sister. “Remember this? Daddy used to wear these all the time.”

“Oh right,” her older sister smiled, “Mom hated it when he would wear this into the house.”

“Yeah well these were his favorite pair of coveralls.” Anna lets out with a giggle as she held up the dirty coveralls.

“And they sure do smell like him.” Elsa jokes.

“Yeah well,” Anna began as she folds the coveralls in her arms, “I miss him.”

“So do I.” Elsa whispers as she held her younger sister close. “He’d be so proud of you today.”

“What for?” Anna whispers.

“Well for one,” Elsa began, “ you came back from Hans, and two we are here because of you.”

“Oh.” 

“Plus,” Elsa continues  with tears in her eyes, “he would’ve loved to have Kristoff around more.”

“But he knew Kristoff.” Anna rolls her eyes at her sister.

“Yeah well,” Elsa shrugs her shoulders, “Dad and I had a placed a bet on you tow.”

“Oh really?” Anna cocks an eyebrow. “What was the wager?”

“Bragging rights.” Elsa had simply answered, making Anna smile.

“Well then who won?”

“Well who do you think?”

“I think,” Anna lets out with a smirk, “that you both have won.”

“You’re right.” Elsa giggles as she held her sister close. “Mom would’ve said ‘I told you so’.”

“Right.” Anna laughs while they were making their way on out of the pull barn. “Say does Grandma have the coffee going?”

“I thought that you didn’t like coffee? Elsa quirks an eyebrow at her younger sister.

“Yeah well,” Anna sighs dramatically, “I wouldn’t mind just enjoying our grandmother’s company.”

“Oh.” Elsa lets out with a smile.

“Now race ya back home!” Anna shouts in laughter as she ran on up the path.

“Oh Anna.” Elsa laughs as she was following her sister from behind.

“C’mon slowpoke!” Anna had shouted while she was keeping her eye on the prize.

“I’m coming!” a faint child-like voice had appeared, causing Anna to tear up.

“Hurry up!” a very much younger Anna had appeared right in front of her eyes. “Mom’s making some lemonade!” 

“Anna! Elsa!” their mother would have called out from the kitchen.

“Coming Mommy!” young Anna had replied as she disappeared into the abyss.

Memories. Anna had thought with her tears flowing freely.

“Anna,” her older sister gave Anna a concerned look as she stood at the edge of the driveway, “you okay?”

“Yeah,” Anna sniffs while she was wiping away her tears, “I’m okay.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah,” she answers, “I’ll be inside in a minute.”

“Okay.”

“Well,” Anna began as she looked down at the path, “Dad and Mom thank you for all of the memories here.”

“You’re welcome, my darling.” she could hear her mother say as she turned around and went inside. 

From then on, Anna would continue to treasure all of the memories there. For it was the house that had built her. 

[gretehart]

Important Updates: Patreon, Commissions, Etc

Heyo my dudes!!

The holidays are upon us, which means New Years is steadily waiting around the corner to ambush us & steal our lunch money  ᕕ(ᐛ)ᕗ With 2019 readying its bat, I've got a lot of plans upcoming, and want to share them with everyone!

These updates are pretty important, so I recommend reading them (or at the very least skimming LOL)

Patreon: $100 goal reached (Again!)

So thanks to Patrons, I've reached back up to my $100/month goal, Which, fortunately for all of you guys, means I will be back on streaming every friday night! This weekly stream will begin starting in the new year, due to the holidays (I wouldnt be able to start before then even if I wanted to) Weekly freebie streams will begin on January 4th (unless something comes up), so stay tuned!!!

And a reminder; if I make it to $250 (the next goal), Patrons can start sending me their requests for freebie stream without having to be present for the stream itself!

Holiday Freebie Stream When?

I know I normally do a christmas/holiday stream just like for Halloween, but I dont have any info on when I will start said stream! The reason being is because Im still waiting to hear from my job what days we may (or may not) have off the week of Christmas and the week of New Year

My idea is to (hopefully) have the stream on the 22nd of December, so it can be all day and not exactly during the holidays (so people have a chance to make it to the stream)

This isnt official yet, but I will let you all know as soon as I can!!

Commissions: Refunds & Break!

(Please read this if I owe you a commission!!)

This is a pretty big change for me, but lately i've been absolutely swamped with work, both in and outside of artwork. Commissions, Patreon Rewards, Trades, and other things have been stacking up and I think its time to take a break.

From now through the rest of the month & thru  January, I will finish what little I can on my list, start refunding people their money, and closing Commissions for the time being. Larger commissions will be refunded while smaller, easier commissions will either be finished or refunded as well!

Once those are taken care of in one manner or the other, I will be closing commissions temporarily. I want to start the new year focusing on Patreon stuff & more personal projects. I doubt commissions will be closed permanently, and I may just take a commission every so often during said break, but for the most part they will be closed/on hold!

Of course I will let you guys know when commissions are open, but until then \o/ expect more personal stuff (hopefully!)

Art Trades: Closing/ Close friends only!

This is mostly for artists that agreed to do an art trade with me, and I greatly apologize in advance

I wont be able to finish the art trades with whats all on my plate, and even after clearing out the commissions there will still be a lot to do and I cant handle taking on trades from others. I will be closing trades and leaving them to close friends only ! This may change in the future, and I will let you guys know if thats the case!

Instagram: Made!

So finally after forever of saying I'd make one, I have my official Instagram account up and running!

https://www.instagram.com/gretelynk/

I of course have next to nothing on it, but will work on it more and more through the days and hopefully have a fully functional page going on for those who want to follow me on there! I dont know much about Insta but Ill learn as I go ♥

Patreon/Twitch Discord: Coming in 2019!

Yes indeedy! I will have a Discord server set up for Patrons and Twitch subscribers coming the new year!

I asked a little while ago on Patreon if I should make a server, and a lot of people said yes, so its gonna be a thing! I'm already working out the kinks with the server (with the help of some close friends) With the Discord server, itll be easier to communicate with Patrons & Subbers about new content, streams, and many other stuff!

The server won't be public unfortunately, BUT that may change in the future! We shall see!!

In the meantime, Patrons keep an eye out for the invite link in the new year ♥

More projects coming soon

Honestly I've got a lot planned for 2019 and I really hope to actually flesh them out this time around.

One main thing I want to work on are keychains and charms! Nox and I got materials, a new printer, and even a laminator to make keychains, charms, and other things too! Its something I've wanted to do for a while now, and I think the new year is a good time to finally start!

I'd also like to (possibly) make more cork board designs, since those were a lot of fun to do ~ But thats only a possibility of a project; nothing set in stone.

Another thing I really wanna dive into are my own personal characters & stories. Now i doubt I will have any sort of story/series out, but just to be able to draw my own characters in my spare time would be nice. And who knows, I may have some ideas to flesh out in the near future!

There are some other projects I have in mind but nothing that I can really reveal at this time But stay tuned regardless!!

That should be it as far as updates and important info goes!

I'll be reaching out to Commissioners about their refunds & requests soon

Patrons be sure to keep an eye out for other exclusive updates coming up and to everyone else; you are all amazing and I couldn't have gotten this far as an artist without all of you ♥♥♥

Thank you all so so much

[nancyraeganfanclub]

the kid

normal fucking rockwell

man child

giving too much improtance to insignficant things

you asked for ten sentences, but i don't think i could do it in ten, even the most deft of writers couldn't do it in ten. you know im studying psych and english in college? its my one consolation because try as i might, i could never fully understand the my mind, much less that of others, and becasue try as I might I’ll never be a skilled enough writer to verbalize feelings, ill never truly put words to the thoughts. im digressing.

to understand and be understood. i say that sometimes, and i say it because it is the one thing i’ve looked for in all my relationships, and why i seldom keep them.

you puzzle me because quite frankly you are and act like a boy, which makes me skeptical about the depth and validity of your declarations. as i see it, they’re words in the wind. You stun me with your audacity to make promises, how little you value words, how carelessly you claim love when, forgive me for presuming, you haven’t truly felt it before. You puzzle me because if I truly were to hold as much importance as you say I do, why would you neglect to foresight how saying such things, insignificant as they were, would affect whatever it is that we have. Why wouldn’t you keep a lid on it for me. (And I apologize for bringing it up again if I already forgave you, but i swear it is for the sake of illustrating this as clear as possible) Your inability to understand me at my most basic puzzles me, but then again I don’t even behind to comprehend myself so you’re off the hook there, I know that its an impossible thing to ask for. You asked me for ten sentences and here it is at its most stripped. Maybe its more than what you asked for, maybe I used too many words, but that’s all i have, I have only words to play with. 

Alright, I wrote this at the risk of sentimentality and of giving to much importance to what I’ve read between the lines. I’ve always been too sentimental and idealistic for my own good, with a horrible tendency to internalize the wrongs of other people and with habit of trying (and failing) to verbalize something as intangible as human emotions. Sorry if I’m too presumptuous and condescending, believe me it was unconsciously done. Sorry for using “big” words too, I swear I’m not trying to be pretentious but i couldn't disrespect you  by using ten cent adjectives, you deserve more than that. Its ok if you skim it, i’m doing this to give myself peace of mind. So i can sleep knowing that I’ve said what i wanted to say, even if in the end it costs me more than what i’d bargained for. In my defense I want to say that I’m just a girl, retarded :v 

Don’t answer to my "tirade” if you don’t know how, you don’t owe anything to me. Instead let’s put this stupid shit behind us. Way I see it we got two options: forgetting this incident, if anything for the sake of what we had at the beginning and what we could be, and other option being letting each other be for good. That way can’t say that I didn’t offer you the escape route more than once...

As of late you make me more sick than happy, which is no fault of yours, i should be in control of my emotions, but still leaves me wondering why I’m still betting on this.

 you know ppl forget words but they dont forget how you made them feel. and thru it all ive rmebered how you mad eme feel at camp, seen. shoudlnt put too much stock on some relationship i formed a month ago, becuase we dont owe anything to each other,  for you i was willing to travel to another state for, maybe not such a grand gesture in the grand scheme of things but for me it was monumental. even asi craft this little paragraph i know that youve skimmed it. ill never be percieved by you as i would like to be percieved. i alwasy bet on loosing dogs.

I WROTE THIS IN A HURRY, OVERLOOK MY ERRORS.

[suredahlia-arc]

hello hello ! i’m daisy ( 19 // est // she/her ) and my mind has been tricked by florence into thinking it’s 7am when it’s actually,, 4:30pm. i’m in the mountains so we shouldn’t be having it as hard as other places, but everyone is still worried abt falling trees and such ! all my suitemates decided to go be storm-chasers ( every single one of them ? ), so i could be living my best life rn, but i’d rather be writing up an intro for a character i have tried to play over four times then the rp died after,, like,, a day. bless. more below !!

♪ { MARINA DIAMANDIS. FEMALE. MARINA (AND THE DIAMONDS). }Oh shit. Is that BUY THE STARS by DAHLIA ANGELIS on the radio right now?! I stan, omg. SHE’S that INDIE-POP solo artist who’s TWENTY-SEVEN years old. They’ve been in the game for EIGHT YEARS and have THREE ALBUMS out right now. I think they’re very VERSATILE and INTUITIVE, but for some reason they come off as OBSESSIVE and CYNICAL in the tabloids. You mind if I turn this up? daisy. 19. est. she/her.

first, i feel inclined to say why i put “and the diamonds” in parentheses bc without context i either look super uninformed or like a total douchebag?? basically she’s going by just “marina” now but i didn’t know how wide-spread that knowledge was yet and technically all of her work still has “and the diamonds” so i was like “hm. parentheses.” and there’s ur explanation ! onto the intro:

BACKSTORY

TRIGGERS: extreme misogyny, brief mention of gaslighting/emotional abuse, briefly implied physical abuse

so i have been waiting to play a bitch inspired by the stepford wives for forever. if i ever actually finished books that weren’t assigned, wbk i’d read that bitch. but we settle for the 1975 movie. there’s ur preface.

i often get way too caught up in the story of the parents and wind up making just intros like,,, a novella, so i’m gonna do my best to skim over them and go more in-depth when i write the bio later on!!

so dahlia’s mom is inspired by neely “i’m a BIG STAR!” o’hara from ‘the valley of the dolls’ and her dad is, ofc, inspired by walter “no fun quotes or super extra™ monologues” everhart from, you guessed it, ‘the stepford wives (1975)’

just as a very brief explanation as to why “i’m a BIG STAR” wound up in the neighborhood she would, typical fall from glory, first manager whisked her away, “fell in love”, moved to a neighborhood where 95% of the women only found joy in cooking and cleaning

maybe if you HAD a fucking business...

i’ve made this joke so many times i’ve memorized this entire scene.

only one person irl has ever genuinely laughed.

it was my mom.

through a series of gaslighting, emotional manipulation, and groupthink, dahlia’s father gradually got her mother to buy into all of it and have strong opinions on the best laundry detergent.

so this was a strange place to raise a child, amirite ? i mean, you got women discussing tide vs. bounty while baking cake, you got men being treated like kings – we over here in the stereotypical 1950s. 

they stanned super small neighborhoods in wales, but should they have ?

so she had a very skewed idea of what was acceptable and what wasn’t. the boys were treated extremely “boys will be boys!” like – like... more than they are when we talk abt the problem with that sentence – and the girls were all wives in training.

it was acceptable for boys and men alike to do whatever they wanted without asking the other. it was acceptable for boys and men alike to complain over anything they wanted. it was acceptable for boys and men to do all of these things that, if we heard about them today, we’d be like “jail??” or, at the very least “leave.”

it was all good and well though!! but one of the four (4) duties dahlia’s mother had was taking care of the child (the other three were cooking, cleaning, and pleasing)

you see, she was used to dahlia’s father blowing things out of proportion when it came to herself – it was normal and healthy!! but she was not used to him blowing things out of proportion on their child, aka dahlia (you see, this is what happens when i start talking about the parents too much)

the first time just warranted a brief “hey, maybe don’t.” the second time warranted a conversation that ended poorly. third warranted an empty threat of leaving that ended poorly. fourth warranted an actual threat that ended poorly. fifth and a bitch was like “ok where r we and how do we get out!!”

after finding her way out, she settled with dahlia in a rly crummy motel, but what else are u gonna do when u only have the few dollars u managed to steal from ur guy??

y’all see i’m already talking in perspective of the parents i hate myself

so dahlia’s mom phoned so many old friends and relatives. unfortunately, as a previous neely “the whole WORLD loves me!!” o’hara who just seemed to drop off the face of the earth, almost everyone was like “bitch tf no you ain’t stayin here”

the last person she phoned was her mom, aka dahlia’s grandmother, down in athens. reluctantly, a bitch was like “fine.”

so dahlia was ~13 by now. her mom found work as a maid bc she was rly good at cleaning and also had no clue how she would ever get a good acting career back (although, mind you, you know a bitch went out for some community theater plays). her grandmother was able to live off the inheritance her late husband, dahlia’s grandfather, left behind – however, she also had a work ethic that drove her to just... do whatever she deemed the right thing to do at the time. 

an old woman doing some odd jobs?? you know it!!

dahlia learned how to speak greek which is great bc you know what?? i duolingo’d that bitch and that owl is a jerk who wouldn’t let me get past “ο άντρας” even tho i spelled it!! right!! i had so many ppl compare what i spelled and what the answer was and i’m still bitter!! 

anyway.

so like,, wbk a bitch has some unresolved problems. when you grow up in the equivalent of stepford (copyright 1972, ira levin), you gonna have some things to work thru!!

but she was also basically trained by that community to keep everything inward??

this is a musician rp so you know what she did??

SHE TAUGHT HERSELF TO PLAY PIANO AND WROTE SONGS!!

was a myspace queen tbh. technically speaking, she has more work out there than the three listed albums (i mean, we got mermaid v. sailor, the crown jewels, etc., etc., bUT)

decided “bitch i’m gonna make smth of this” and,,, did. so when she was 19 ‘the family jewels’ was released and,, like,, she decided “wow time to go be an american!!! i love bald eagles!!!”

so i figure the rest is kind of history?? i think i’ll be going in chronological order with the albums (in that a few years after that ‘electra heart’ was released, then ‘froot’, then a hiatus which we do NOT stan, then coming back with a leak ksksksks. BUT i may switch up electra and froot i’m not quite sure yet??)

ya! 

PERSONALITY

VERSATILE: ok so she never really does things quite the same ? alexa, play ‘can’t pin me down’ by marina (and the diamonds) dahlia angelis. musically speaking, she really loves experimenting with different sounds. overall, she is still considered indie-pop, but we had some good new-wave pop in ‘the family jewels’, we had some good electropop in ‘electra heart’, we had some good general versatility in ‘froot’ (compare the song ‘froot’ to ‘immortal’ like we were boppin then we were havin an existential crisis). does not like keeping things the same in her music. does not like being compared to other artists bc?? everyone!! is different!! generally speaking, she’s just a very?? open person?? not as in emotionally open, open book – all that, as in willing to try pretty much anything?? as long as it’s not her actual routine, if a wrench is thrown in her plans, a bitch don’t care as long as the wrench ain’t smth dumb. here for a good time, not a long time.

INTUITIVE: ok so she got really into trying to read people and tbh psychoanalyze them ( alexa, play ‘savages’ by marina (and the diamonds) dahlia angelis ) after leaving that. town. with a name she doesn’t even recall?? wbk a bitch would speak up abt it if she could so that all of the women could be fckin saved but she j doesn’t remember anything abt it!! other than the environment in general!! what’s the name?? besides somewhere in wales, what’s the location?? she doesn’t know!! mainly bc i don’t!! and also for the sake of her not actually saying anything abt it willingly!! anyway!! she really does her best to read people and situations in order to analyze like?? the safety aspect, the other person’s stance, etc. doesn’t always work, but she tries. is pretty good at it, but no pro.

OBSESSIVE: ok so y’all see up there me talking abt routines?? there are two (2) ways in which girly is obsessive. first, a literal manner. routines that need to be done so the world doesn’t fall apart. i mean, we stan obscured brain chemistry, but we also stan horrible environments that just exacerbate it, even into adulthood, in the end ( alexa, play ‘obsessions’ by marina (and the diamonds) dahlia angelis. ) (also, i feel i should clear the possible iffy-ness this would have by saying that i’ve got ocd and will, therefore, be portraying it in a manner similar to mine so that it doesn’t come across as offensive to anyone else who may have a different form?? but most of the ‘routines’ won’t be very prominent in interactions). second, music!! when she gets started on a new project, -the mask vc- try ta’ stop [her]! -end vc- . will live in the studio until everything is complete and perfect. will spend her free time writing lyrics she knows she’ll never use bc?? why not?? gotta get that practice in!! can also apply to any other project types, but ofc the main ones would be music related so??

CYNICAL: ok. who’s gonna have a positive worldview after growing up where she did?? ( alexa, play ‘hermit the frog’ by marina (and the diamonds) dahlia angelis ) who’s gonna stan that?? that said, there is not a single genuinely good person in this world ( alexa, play ‘savages’ by marina (and the diamonds) dahlia angelis again ) if u ask her like?? not only did she already have that view after coming to her senses but?? now she knows about terrorists, about people from the usa who are SUPPOSED to be the good guys killing innocent ppl from ‘enemy territories’ for fun, ppl assaulting and killing minorities just bc they’re not like them, etc., etc., etc. convinced no one is inherently good. rly has a love/hate relationship with life ksksksks

HEADCANONS

a lot of these kind of tie into personality tbh?? 

literally knows everything about every cleaning product ever. ask her about the pros and cons of any and she will tell you. she’ll also tell you when it was manufactured, the ceo of the company that created it at the time, what went in it to make it, etc., etc., etc. knows so much.

kind of going off of that, actually really good at cooking and baking?? she rarely does it willingly, but will make a hell of a chocolate soufflé.

TRIGGER: IMPLIED SEXUAL ASSAULT -  i don’t want to go too far into this bc it’s very triggering content to many ppl (and even to ppl who it isn’t, it’s j?? not good.), but.... i mean.... the boys in her formative environment were literally encouraged to do whatever they wanted and they didn’t need permission?? END TRIGGER.

i have a whole-ass routine already figured out. there are a lot of facets obviously, so i’ll just mention a few?? but count them all as one headcanon to be fair. 

sets an alarm to get into bed at 1:11am bc it’s a good number but 11:11 is usually too early. sets an alarm for 11:11am to wake her up. will chill in bed if she’s awake before then but it has yet to go off. only exceptions are when she’s working on something she deems urgent.

that said, good numbers are 1, 3, 4, 5, 6, 8, 10, 11, 12, 14, 16, 17, 18, 21, etc. no rhythm to it, but i wasn’t gonna go?? up until?? infinity??

if there are two doors that are both available to be opened and closed (aka not one of those “enter through this one, exit through this one”), will always enter through the right and exit through the left. 

we don’t stan sidewalk cracks!!

a lot of superstition plays into these. but?? loves black cats. they’re chill.

i have a stats page coming that has more so!!

during the eh era, be it the last one or the one before that, decided to method act while she was still writing the songs ksksksks. that’s going to go into some of her more specific connections.

a bitch will both fight and not fight. got ‘the family jewels’ attitude back and we stan!!

was obviously able to write the ‘housewife’ archetype songs from her own personal experience ksksksks. didn’t rly have to dive into the stereotype. j knew it already.

more?? later??

CONNECTION IDEAS

so i have a few specific ones that are attached to a different blog (u kno one of the ones that died) that i’ll be moving over here, but here are some of the ones that stuck out more than others – also, all are open to any gender!:

UPDATE: wc page is here!

during the eh era while she was ‘method acting’ (we hate.), she knew this muse was in a relationship but was still like?? “hey let’s go have a meaningless ons” bc we stan "homewrecker”! (can have a number of muses!!)

a relationship that really didn’t work out in the end. the other kept trying to make things better so they would stay together. inspired by “buy the stars” (one muse)

the first celebrity whose discography or filmography she got really into before moving to america. would’ve had to have been around for longer than eight years. slightly inspired by “hollywood” (one muse)

ok this one. makes me laugh. literally just someone who always gets her mistaken for someone else – it doesn’t even have to look like her. 100% inspired by “hollywood” ( oh my god! you look just like shakira! no, no – you’re catherine zeta! ) (open to two muses)

she’s not known for a good reputation, but she’s also not known for a bad one. this muse wants to turn her to the dark side and make her become everything she never wanted to be?? so very similar to ‘the bad influence’ connection, j w/ a slightly different connotation on dahlia’s end. inspired by “oh no!” (open to two muses)

these bitches were either friends or love interests once, but things fell apart (either mutually or on the other’s side like?? i don’t want to godmod but for the song’s sake). dahlia is,, bad abt forgiveness,, but there have been enough apologies. inspired by “forget” (open to one muse)

dahlia has a very keen interest in this person. whether it’s infatuation or literally just interest, god only knows! obviously goes deeper than that but i’m horrible at explanations. suffice it to say, inspired by “immortal”

ok!! so now j some general ones!!

best friend

ride or die

drinking buddy

fwb

ons

exes

enemies for whatever reason

frenemies

collab partner

muse for any of her songs?

etc., etc., etc. !

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Just people who are at 18 years old or over 18 can utilize this enhancement.

Pregnant ladies are not permitted to utilize this item.

In the event that anybody has any infection, first counsel your specialist at that point use it after remedy of any pro. Else, it can hurt your body and wellbeing.

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Take two pills every day with a glass of water. Try not to assume control dose to get the snappy outcomes. It can cause the difficult issue.

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Purefit Keto Dragons Dens contains the BHB fixing that particularly prompts the ketosis state. In this state, what process will proceed and how it functions… all these are referenced previously. As it is created with regular fixings, there is no any symptom. Be that as it may, in the event that anybody has some genuine infection, read the total terms and conditions before purchasing or utilizing it.

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 Begin Exercising – To get the breathtaking and sound body, recurrence and force, both are imperative in picking up your objective. You should practice day by day with the goal that you can get wanted outcomes.

Data about Ketosis – Before utilizing these pills, you should think about ketosis. It will assist you with burning fats rapidly and effectively and fell into the ketosis state. In any case, it might likewise make chance. In this way, ensure you have looked out about ketosis diet legitimately. Furthermore, counsel your experts to ensure either this item is ok for you or not.

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1. Truebill cash making app

Have you ever ever signed up for a provider — an internet mag or an obscure video streaming provider, perhaps — and then forgot you subscribed?

Well, that service’s billing department gained’t be so forgetful. It’ll maintain charging you, month after month. If it’s a small enough rate, you could no longer note it for some months.

Truebill would really like to note for you. Down load the loose Truebill app, connect your major bank account or money owed, and permit the app get to paintings.

The app will analyze your spending conduct and discover habitual prices which you can need to cast off. In case you need to keep paying a bill, that’s best. If you don’t, Truebill can cancel the subscription for you.

And there’s greater to this app. Truebill can negotiate with service vendors for your behalf to decrease your month-to-month prices. The carrier also can screen your utilities which include cable to report outages and are seeking for refunds.

Truebill has a loose version, but here’s the catch: Truebill will keep forty percent of what it saves you. If the service saves you $500 a year, it’ll declare $2 hundred of these financial savings.

Nevertheless, in this situation, you’d be saving $300 a yr with out doing the paintings.

To get the maximum out of Truebill you’d should subscribe. (Ironic, right?) It’s about $five a month (or $36 paid up the front for a year).

2. Money App – market research app

The money App (to be had for iOS and Android) is a market research app that earns you rewards for completing obligations, which encompass offering critiques, gambling video games, checking save shows, mystery shopping, checking out offerings and collaborating in loose trials. You open an account at the money App and start finishing responsibilities to build up rewards, which you may, in turn, redeem for coins using a PayPal account. The splendor of this app is that you may get paid within  to 3 operating days of redeeming rewards — that's uncommon inside the global of marketplace studies apps that normally pay once a month or don’t provide cash rewards in any respect.

What’s greater, the app rankings exceptionally (4.8 out of five) on both Google Play and iTunes. One reviewer wrote: “I got my first 10 bucks within five days. That’s quite right for not getting up off the sofa.” couch potatoes, rejoice; you now have options.

3. Foap- selling photographs

Foap is a best money making apps (available for iOS and Android) that allows both expert and novice photographers to make more money promoting photographs taken on a phone. It’s pretty genius. Basically, it’s a crowd sourcing platform for brands and marketing and marketing companies to discover and purchase photos from Foap’s registry of greater than 2.Five million photographers round the world.

You check in an account, add your remarkable images with clear tags, and the pix get rated by means of the registered community — the higher the rating, the better the image’s visibility. For every sale, you earn $five, and you can earn as much as $one hundred in keeping with sale. There are also “missions,” wherein brands and groups will make specific requests for images. And currently, the ones missions have elevated to encompass videos.

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4. Acorns- money making app

Acorns is another quality money making apps places your cash to paintings by using making an investment it.

The app routinely rounds up your spare exchange from credit score card purchases and deposits it into an funding account. For example, let’s say you spent $nine.50 at lunch. Acorns rounds it up to $10 and invests $0.50.

It’s a extremely good possibility for those of you who want to start making an investment however don’t have massive sums of money to accomplish that. Simply answer a few questions about your danger tolerance, and Acorns will advocate a portfolio that fits your desires.

The app fees $1, $2, or $three in keeping with month depending at the pricing tier you select.

5. OfferUp – photos app

The OfferUp is some other best money making apps which is ideal for selling your used stuff to human beings on your region. Think of this app as a hybrid between Craigslist and eBay.

Clearly add some photographs, an outline, and set your rate. The whole lot from appliances to apparel and cars is to be had on OfferUp.

If you need your list to get more perspectives, you could pay to promote it.

Traditionally, you needed to meet up with buyers in-character to complete the transaction. However OfferUp currently delivered a shipping function that helps sales national.

You could also use OfferUp to shop for gadgets for reasonably-priced and then flip them to show a earnings.

6. Bookscouter – selling books

Bookscouter is any other best money making apps “terrific manner of getting rid of books,” wrote one user of the Bookscouter app (available for iOS and Android). “I got $one hundred seventy from selling four books. The very best purchaser is routinely put on the top so you can get the most on your books. I'm able to without a doubt use once more.”

The Bookscouter app permits you to earn money by means of promoting your new and antique books. After you download the app, it’s easy to sign in (the use of your e-mail cope with or via fb or other social networks). Then, begin scanning book barcodes (using your phone’s digital camera) and spot an aggregation of buyback expenses from ebook-consumers, with the very best buyer at the pinnacle. Delivery is free.

Reviewers have given Bookscouter their endorsements on iTunes (three.3 out of five) and Google Play (three.Nine out of five). But, maintain in mind, not all of the books scanned will produce rate codes and some of the offers to buy your books disappear when you comply with up. But, as one reviewer said, “Getting paid even $15 for books i used to be going to give away appears really worth it to me! Clean litter AND get some coins.”

7. Userfeel – fine cash making apps

The Userfeel best money making apps (to be had for iOS and Android) permits you to take part in usability checks, meaning you get paid to visit and explore new websites, perform diverse simple responsibilities on the web site and offer recorded comments and reviews. (there is a useful video on the internet site that gives a clear illustration of what's predicted.)

Every take a look at lasts 10 to 20 mins, and also you’re paid $10 a test in cash through PayPal or Payoneer.

One of the standout features of this app is which you take an preliminary “qualifications take a look at,” which facts your voice and your display as you stroll through given obligations. This is a model of what you’ll be doing, but it’s unpaid and supposed to no longer best take a look at whether or not the app is running, however additionally to give you a rating by using the UserFeel group. The better your rating, the extra checks so one can be assigned to you.

8. Mobee – consumer app

Mobee is a secret shopper app. It rewards you with factors for completing “missions” at various stores.

Right here’s the way it works. Actually down load the app and skim for a undertaking for your area.

It is able to be some thing from Macy’s to Domino’s. Each challenge has a set of duties for you to finish. You’ll be rewarded for things like answering survey questions and taking photos inner the shop.

Mobee helps you to redeem the ones factors for gift cards, together with present cards to Amazon. It takes up to forty eight hours to redeem your rewards.

9. Uber – driving app

There’s a very good risk you’ve used the app to hail a experience. However you could use that identical app to receives a commission for driving people around.

Make your own hours and use your very own automobile. Just activate the Uber app every time you need to start running.

Relying on your vicinity, Uber normally has guaranteed earnings promotions for brand spanking new drivers. You may additionally be rewarded with bonuses for working certain hours and get tipped by customers as nicely.

If you want to make cash with Uber however don’t need strangers in your car, do not forget turning into a meals shipping driving force for UberEats.

10. Lyft – trip sharing app

Like Uber, Lyft is another famous trip sharing app. It also a best money making apps.

In maximum instances, the pay and process description is pretty comparable to Uber. I realize lots of folks that sign up for each and switch between the 2 on a ordinary foundation.

Depending in your town, you might research that Lyft is extra famous for riders within the vicinity.

In case you don’t have a car, Lyft permit you to get one thru considered one of their specific power companions. The auto payment comes with insurance, unlimited miles, and maintenance covered.

Use Lyft as a side hustle to earn extra money on nights or weekends. Or power full time. The choice is yours.

11. Perk Pop Quiz

With this app, you can take a laugh pop quizzes on the whole lot from album covers to film fees to anatomy. You’ll earn points for every quiz, which you could coins in in your Perk Plastik find out Card or to buy gift playing cards. Each quiz additionally enters you right into a day by day coins prize drawing for $50.

12. Surveys at the pass

That is some other survey app that lets you set up your profile and then take surveys for which you get paid. It lets you price purchasing reviews and products or maybe evaluation movies or tv indicates. You’ll get your first dollar right away when you download the app.

13. Mercari – marketplace app

Mercari is a best money making apps market app for promoting goods. It’s similar to OfferUp, however there’s no choice for in-individual meetups.

You could begin list gadgets inside minutes of downloading the app. Just upload photographs, add an outline, and set your personal fees.

Mercari presents you with printable transport labels via e-mail.

Famous merchandise offered on Mercari include headphones, pills, speakers, purses, and garb.

There's no price for the usage of Mercari. The app takes a ten% commission on all finished income. So just keep that during thoughts when you’re placing prices.

14. Toluna – marketplace research app

As a market studies best money making apps , Toluna (available for iOS and Android) stands proud inside the crowd, due to the fact customers can receives a commission in coins the use of PayPal, and additionally the app gives rewards for extra than simply taking surveys — you can additionally create your personal surveys (e.G. Based on cutting-edge occasions, shampoo conduct or opinion on state-of-the-art tech machine) which could earn you bonus factors.

Registration is simple, and to get a feel for how you may make the maximum out of Toluna, you can watch a webinar on approaches you may milk the app. (look for the following webinar to your notifications, at the higher-proper-hand facet of display screen, which tells you approximately new surveys available.)

The app is rated 3.8 out of five stars on iTunes and 3.3 out of 5 stars on Google Play.

“Be affected person and persevere! I’ve been here simply a piece over a 12 months and it’s been wonderful. While you get sufficient points, visit the rewards center and select what you want! In case you go for cash, I like the PayPal advantage over waiting on a paper check,” wrote one person at the Toluna community weblog.

15. Musely – on line network app

Musely the best money making apps (to be had for iOS and Android) is an internet community and market app for eco-friendly beauty and home merchandise, as well as a social platform for girls to share and get hold of healthful lifestyle advice and pointers ranging from parenting to skincare to fitness. On Musely, you may save for natural, up-and-coming manufacturers and green merchandise, together with toxin-free nail polish or all-herbal lipstick.

The way to earn cash on the app is to grow to be a “Muse” (essentially an influencer) at the site and create your very own keep to earn a 20 percent fee at the sales of the products you endorse. Musely routinely can pay out the first and the fifteenth of every month.

The app is rated noticeably on each iTunes (four.7 out of 5) and Google Play (four.2 stars out of five). One reviewer wrote, “hundreds of DIY recommendations! It’s a remarkable app for fitness, beauty, crafts and lots lots greater! I’m obsessed!”

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Computer Science Passion Led Professor to Academy Award

Prof. Steve Marschner ’ninety-eight, PC technological know-how, begged his mother and father for an Apple II in fourth grade so he ought to write applications on the eight-bit laptop, but possibly never idea his ardor would cause reputation from the Academy Awards.

Marschner is famed for his work with physics-based total animation, which includes difficult obligations which include animating material, hair, water “and things that behave consistently with physics instead of in keeping with their own intention.”

The professor and his colleagues are chargeable for writing the code that becomes used to make Gollum, the animated person in the Lord of the Earrings films, look greater realistic with the aid of making his skin appear extra translucent.

That painting ended in Marschner, as part of a team, triumphing a technical Oscar from the Academy Awards.

“While we did that painting, we have been inquisitive about translucency simply as a few arbitrary physical impact that turned into interesting to try to simulate,” Marschner stated. “And we didn’t actually recognize until once we made the version and had been doing little tests with it that it changed into without a doubt fairly useful for rendering pores and skin.”

“We evolved the math and physics for rendering translucent skin, and lots of [Hollywood] studios followed this and applied this,” he added.

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Marschner majored in PC science and math at Brown University before incomes a Ph.D. From Cornell, in which he worked with Don Greenberg inside the Branch of computer Portraits and entered the Ph.D. program largely due to the fact he becomes able to land a job in Greenberg’s lab.101 cool science experiments

Before returning to the Ithaca campus, Marschner labored for Hewlett-Packard, Microsoft, and Stanford. When Cornell supplied him a position as professor, he stated he could not flip down the opportunity to return to his alma mater.

Marschner stated he enjoys the opportunities and freedom that academia permits.

“The factor that honestly attracts most faculty — at the least at a college like Cornell — to the process is the capability to do studies and to find your own issues and be your very own boss,” Marschner stated.

“In a few ways, doing studies isn’t that distinctive in an engineering area like pic science from doing advanced product development … in some enterprise, however, a massive distinction is which you get to pick the issues.”

Whilst the freedom to pursue studies questions of his selecting is “one large pleasure” for Marschner, he also enjoys operating with students.

“Each undergrad and Ph.D.

Years are an actually exciting time of lifestyles and it’s a laugh to paintings with college students and sees how far they develop,” he stated.

Marschner, who enjoys cooking, trekking and kayaking outdoor the study room, teaches advanced and undergraduate guides in computer Photos in addition to Intro laptop technological know-how every few years.

His college students are presently working on research tasks involving 3-D printing, sensible rendering, and simulation of the way textiles function.

“A few humans won’t suppose [CS 1110] is thrilling because it’s such fundamental stuff to a PC scientist, however, on the other hand, I just like the idea of showing someone the niftiness of the way smart it’s miles the manner loops paintings in a programming language,” Marschner stated, “and once you can try this component once you could do it 1,000,000 times, and isn’t that cool?”

The Importance of Computer Education For Teachers

The arena of these days is administered with the aid of computers and it is a time that teachers understand this. The concept of going to a library and reading a book isn’t ideal for the students of these days. College students could as an alternative go browsing and examine a topic on a web page rather than go and must study an entire e-book or should skim for the component they’re searching out. So, in case your a trainer what are you to do? Laptop schooling for teachers is what each faculty needs to do.dell desktop computers.

Teachers, and for that count all school districts, want to start to combine generation into all school rooms and this text will tell you how.

Computer schooling for instructors have to now not be that big of a deal due to the fact all teachers who’ve simply commenced likely already know the way to integrate generation into the classrooms

So you must handiest must educate the ones who’ve been coaching for awhile.

How do you integrate era into your lecture rooms although? This is the question all instructors are asking and right here is the solution. Research is the primary thing College students use the net for. Many school libraries and even some public libraries do not provide Students with the data they want on certain topics but the net will almost always have the statistics they want. The simplest hassle with this is pleasant of the facts however instructors are able to test on that via searching at the footnotes of the article to see in which the statistics came from.top rated computers

Many colleges at the moment are having College students take tests on a sheet referred to as a Scantron or other varieties of it. A Scantron is a sheet wherein you have got 50 questions about every aspect, a complete of a hundred questions, and are given multiple desire questions A-E. The teacher will hand you a Scantron that’s where you answer the questions and a test sheet, the Scantron is only a sheet in which you bubble in either A-E. The trainer then places the answers in a Pc and a special device reads the Scantron and automatically grades the test off of the solutions the teacher placed into the Pc.

Besides Research and take a look at taking there are numerous different approaches to integrating computers into your teaching. There are actually projection displays that can help you write on them turning them essentially right into a whiteboard. You’re able to observe movies on the white board, forestall the film, and draw over the movie. that is very useful for History teachers as it allows them to educate the battles and so on.

What Is Dental Science?

A smile speaks 1000 phrases. Your smile is something which speaks about your well being and propensities. It’s far vital to deal with your enamel to appearance lovable and sound. Dental well-being is a vital part of your general prosperity. Dental facilities provide dental care thru willpower and remedy of oral well-being situations alongside avoidance of dental sicknesses. Dental facilities sincerely assume a critical element in everybody’s lifestyles:

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Well timed action to be taken for the reason of dental implants if required by way of any character as well as the proper care of the teeth of the man or woman.

It is commonly prescribed to have preferred dental visits in dental centers for retaining your gum and tooth sound. An individual ought to go to the dental center for an everyday exam in any occasion interior at regular intervals. These steady visits have sections: take a look at up and cleaning. Amid exam, a dental expert will take a look at your oral wellness for issues, easy and evacuate any plaque and tartar develops, trailed with the aid of cleansing of your enamel.

The dental implants have some of the maximum brilliant benefits as compared to every other technique or remedy. a number of them are said under:

Playing The Game With The Right Passion

The world of sport has changed into a gigantic area. Commercialization has made it very lots difficult for athletes to cope up with recurring health and overall performance obligations and at the identical time paintings on their contractual and sponsorship activities. They’re on their ft all the time while it comes to fulfill the lovers’ expectations by means of performing up to the predicted degrees, live on a pinnacle of their commercial and sports enterprise activities and report such things as taxations and other similar responsibilities within the proper passion.

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This is in which one may match under wonderful pressure and this as an end result may additionally have an effect on one’s performance badly. There are numerous sports activities and recreational sports and activities that can want their attention however they fail because of loss of time. This also outcomes indenting their industrial domain and sponsors keep away from them because they sense it’d be kind of sinking funding due to the fact their desired superstar might not have the ability to show up for business shoots or different contractual activities.

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One may additionally consequently sit returned and think about the first-rate feasible approaches with a view to addressing these uncapped areas which can severely dent one’s standing as a sports determine badly. sports activities enterprise management isn’t an easy area and one can also want professional support to address the regions which are related to this subject. This lets in one to forget about-about the activities and documentations and recognition absolutely on performance and attaining new rewards and milestones.

As stated earlier, The world of sports is not anymore inside the identical static zones. The dynamic nature and the influx of technological trends have shaped it and driven it towards the maximum advanced zones. Many industries now rely without delay or in a roundabout way on this enterprise because of the heavy funding and celebrities’ involvement on this domain. Such a roaring situations call for special consideration and professional procedures.examples of passion statements.