#and if others can do it i can do it too

[mynnthia]

was talking with a friend about how some of dunmeshi fаndom misunderstands kabru's initial feelings towards laios.

to sum up kabru's situation via a self-contained modernized metaphor:

kabru is like a guy who lost his entire family in a highly traumatic car accident. years later he joins a discord server and takes note of laios, another server member who seems interesting, so they start chatting. then laios reveals his special interest and favorite movie of all time is David Cronenberg's Crash (1996), and invites kabru to go watch a demolition derby with him

[withered-rose-unbreakable-lotus]

If nth wrong comes up again while trying, I might be able to actually make gaming videos with Reverse: 1999. I would love to do that, my pc can't handle recording Genshin while also playing, but Reverse is doable cause it's mostly 2d and a click-playing game.

If I manage this, I won't be doing what most r1999 youtubers do, I haven't been playing long enough to have my own strategy or advice in battles, I play those I want (i pay attention to some stats but that's about it), I want to focus on the story and chars more, since this is more of my thing as a writer, too. I will be talking about battles too, just not as in depth as others do. If editing those videos takes less than movie reactions do, then I will probably be able to do the patch recaps I wanted, to include Genshin in my activities, otherwise I dunno.

I just can't go on with movie reactions, as much as I enjoy watching movies and being silly, editing for 3 weeks non stop is draining me. I didn't get on youtube to work 8-10 hours every day and not only not get paid back until I have followers, but also not have a life. I literally wake up at noon, have lunch, shower and edit from 4 or 5 to 9pm, have dinner, then edit 1 or 2 hours more then edit my book till 5 or 6 am. I don't have time to study anymore, nor work out as advised by my doctor after my stomach started acting up last autumn and had to take all kinds of pills to calm down. If I wanted to work like a dog I'd go get a job somewhere outside and at least get some income (if i also had skills for that that'd be nice), but even then I would drop it cause I can't deal with this kind of life for long. It's a privilege I know (if living under a roof of frequent strife and mental abuse is considered so cause others pay for you anyway), but since I have it, I might as well find sth I can do that gives me time to keep myself healthy too and also allow me finish learning another language. Also it'd be nice if it indeed takes less time cause if I ever manage to live alone, i will have to be taking care of more than just one room, and i want to be able to do that. I want to have time to clean my house, cook by myself, do my laundry. Living only to work, is not sth I want in my life.

[inkskinned]

probably time for this story i guess but when i was a kid there was a summer that my brother was really into making smoothies and milkshakes. part of this was that we didn't have AC and couldn't afford to run fans all day so it was kind of important to get good at making Cool Down Concoctions.

we also had a patch of mint, and he had two impressionable little sisters who had the attitude of "fuck it, might as well."

at one point, for fun, this 16 year old boy with a dream in his eye and scientific fervor in heart just wanted to see how far one could push the idea of "vanilla mint smoothie". how much vanilla extract and how much mint can go into a blender before it truly is inedible.

the answer is 3 cups of vanilla extract, 1/2 cup milk alternative, and about 50 sprigs (not leaves, whole spring) of mint. add ice and the courage of a child. idk, it was summer and we were bored.

the word i would use to describe the feeling of drinking it would maybe be "violent" or perhaps, like. "triangular." my nose felt pristine. inhaling following the first sip was like trying to sculpt a new face. i was ensconced in a mesh of horror. it was something beyond taste. for years after, i assumed those commercials that said "this is how it feels to chew five gum" were referencing the exact experience of this singular viscous smoothie.

what's worse is that we knew our mother would hate that we wasted so much vanilla extract. so we had to make it worth it. we had to actually finish the drink. it wasn't "wasting" it if we actually drank it, right? we huddled around outside in the blistering sun, gagging and passing around a single green potion, shivering with disgust. each sip was transcendent, but in a sort of non-euclidean way. i think this is where i lost my binary gender. it eroded certain parts of me in an acidic gut ecology collapse.

here's the thing about love and trust: the next day my brother made a different shake, and i drank it without complaint. it's been like 15 years. he's now a genuinely skilled cook. sometimes one of the three of us will fuck up in the kitchen or find something horrible or make a terrible smoothie mistake and then we pass it to each other, single potion bottle, and we say try it it's delicious. it always smells disgusting. and then, cerimonious, we drink it together. because that's what family does.

[freeshephoun]

i just need everyone to know that ive created something beautiful

he is only 1 slab tall

[brainrotcharacters]

the easy grip on the knife. the leg over the seat. the hand over the other seat. the sassy "come get it" move. you know the bitch is smiling behind that mask even as he said the line.

[egophiliac]

(looks at upcoming card releases)

I'm in danger :)

[akanemnon]

We didn't even get an answer, and we never will (at least it's not determination)

FIRST - PREVIOUS - NEXT

MASTERPOST (for the full series / FAQ / reference sheets)

[verflares]

(click for higher quality!) draconified link concept ive been chipping away at this past week ..... here's my funny little compendium concept for him:

"A heroic spirit has taken the form of this bestial dragon. Unlike it's kin, this creature exhibits an extremely aggressive disposition. It appears highly territorial, and will relentlessly chase down those who disturb its skywide patrols - of which it seems to be endlessly searching for either a long-time vassal or foe. Unfortunately, it seems the spirit within has long since forgotten exactly who it was looking for…"

[puppyeared]

thanks @chipper-smol for getting me ISAT i will be so irresponsible with the looping

[nova-rpv]

a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

[ancient-reverie]

a moment of silence for all us disabled ones who had to watch each of their friends move on with their lives without you and get jobs, go to school, have partners come and go, get engaged and move house etc.

shout out to my fellow struggling people who are still sitting in the same bedroom they grew up in. the ones who can't get a job, can't make new friends, can't find a partner or partners, can't move house and can't go to school.

I hope one day we can all find someone to at least sit with us in our rooms. I see you and I understand... and I'm sorry we can't be that person for each other

[inkedberries]

expanding on the thought of kudou getting the call sign 'hero' and afo getting irked by it for some reason

[originalartblog]

Apparently much-needed reminder that reposting artists' art (by saving the images or screenshotting them and reuploading them yourself) on other platforms without the artists' expressed permission and without credit is theft and an insult to their passion and craft. You are profiting (in views, in attention, in feedback) from someone else's work and ideas, who do not get that feedback for sharing their creation.

If you are an art reposter, you are a thief and I have no respect for you.

[feelo-fick]

um ok cool thanks for letting me know .... why are you telling me this

[transannabeth]

btw if you borrow dvds or cds from library you can rip them onto your own blanks or onto your hard drive or whatever. librarians don’t care and they won’t know if you do it or not

[heartorbit]

the narcissist fools himself