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how do you have the time to write all this stuff /and/ play video games etc etc at the same time? Is it just that you write insanely fast after all these years? I have a lot of hobbies, writing being one of them, and i have such a hard time juggling them lol.
Hi anon,
So, real talk -> The reality is I don't have the time to write and play video games at the same time most of the time.
I haven't written anything since the 17th. I haven't started the next Palmarosa chapter. I'm on day 8 of not having opened a new document and writing anything.
I've edited a whole two chapters (which I suspect I have to go over again) and I've responded to some comments and asks, and that's it. No writing, no growing wordcount, I've been stagnating / not doing anything due to burnout since the 17th (I know the date because I have a giant whiteboard of completed chapters next to me).
Honestly, most of the time I don't actually have the time to read, play video games, watch television, or movies. I am too busy writing/editing/sleeping. With Toby in the mix, the small amount of media I was consuming has vanished.
Sometimes I can play certain video games while writing - these are usually low stakes video games I can endlessly put on pause and then play for five minutes at a time, like Dorfromantik and Garden Galaxy. Any kind of idler video game, like Havendock is also good for this.
Anon, you can't have a lot of hobbies and actually keep up with them and write the way I do, and therapist/s wouldn't recommend you drop all of your hobbies to write the way I do anyway. Trust me.
I had two things I wanted to start learning this year, and I haven't started learning them yet. I don't have the capacity. I had a therapist gently point out to me that if I was always at 100 in terms of output, how can I have any energy leftover for self-work and processing? The answer is: I don't. (That's actually why I've spent a week playing video games, and if anything it's just reminded me that my capacity is still at 100 and this is going to take a bit of concerted decompression).
Most of the time it's not normally quite this overwhelming. Toby has just maxed me out because he's a high energy dog who is also a puppy with Separation Anxiety, and there's no quick or easy fix for that. But most of the time it's still very intense. The list of shows I really want to watch, and books I really want to read, is very long. But I often don't have time to indulge in those things because I'm too busy writing.
A lot of the time I don't actually have the time to reread my own fics anymore, outside of editing.
This year was meant to kind of tackle that more decisively but you know then we got a puppy so... not so much.
But yeah anon, there is no 'how do you do this and do this' - you don't do one of those things, or you do it very haphazardly, in small amounts.
I do write very fast (my wordcount is 120-150wpm), but I don't edit fast (I'd tender that editing fast for most people is a bit of an oxymoron), I don't answer asks fast (some of the longer ones take me an hour to compose), etc. And even then, writing fast is not the same as the time it takes to think out the chapter, to figure out what's happening, letting it percolate etc. A lot of my life is also just resting. I lose about 2-5 hours of every afternoon to sleep or rest for example, where nothing productive happens. And I think one of the reasons I read so many manwha atm is that they're so easy to read comparatively, and so quick, and that's the only way I can really consume stories these days.
#asks and answers#what folks think they're seeing on the surface is often not is what is actually happening#those who track my wordcount on discord (where i update it)#will notice it's not been updated since the 17th#will i write anymore chapters between here and the end of the month?#i don't know#and if i don't#i will have to work even harder next month dsalkfjasfas#anyway yeah no most of your hard working creatives around you#cannot actually find the life-work balance that allows them to enjoy their lives and leisure time and their hobbies#even if they're writing about characters who are learning how to do those things#part of it is capitalism - it's hard to take a break when your antidepressants went up in price#(which is a broader ironic analogy to life in general)
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A preview of something that's on my WIP back burner. I'll get to it when I get to it. I got a couple of other things percolating right now that have my attention. This idea, however, is one I've been wanting to do for a long time.
I figure, I'm working on a fic with pre-immortal Booker in it, I may as well give Nile the same pre-immortal treatment.
#the old guard#my writing#im feeling angry and bitter looking at the TOG tag these days#we need more#nile freeman#she exists#stop erasing her#ill get to this#and if i don't#please poke me
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#I hate telling people what they might already know#but I also hate realising much later they actually didn't know.#If I speak#I'm a 'mansplainer'#and if I don't#I 'don't care enough'.#and if I get stuck in the middle#suddenly i am indecisive#so which is it?#braining is hard#sorry#needed to vent#work has been getting to me a little#i am fine
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in this year of 2024 i WILL give wren custom tattoos
#i have been so so lazy about it#like i've had the ideas since.......idek when#but we're gonna do it#and if i don't#feel free to call me out#hold me accountable
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I'm gonna sleep so good tonight
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that being said, maybe i’ll put a wip up on the sideblog in a few :>
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Hehe
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no i don't want to use your ai assistant. no i don't want your ai search results. no i don't want your ai summary of reviews. no i don't want your ai feature in my social media search bar (???). no i don't want ai to do my work for me in adobe. no i don't want ai to write my paper. no i don't want ai to make my art. no i don't want ai to edit my pictures. no i don't want ai to learn my shopping habits. no i don't want ai to analyze my data. i don't want it i don't want it i don't want it i don't fucking want it i am going to go feral and eat my own teeth stop itttt
#i don't want it!!!!#ai#artificial intelligence#there are so many positive uses for ai#and instead we get ai google search results that make me instantly rage#diz says stuff
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doodling a bunny vs doodling a hare
#art#critters#bnuuy#doodle#digital art#repost from.. sometime i don't remember#but i saw bunny vs hare stuff recently and thought about this again
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he’d forgotten how much he missed that smile.
#I physically cannot stop drawing fanart send help#gravity falls#stanley pines#stanford pines#mabel pines#Art Of The Sun Chip#the book of bill#grunkle stan#ford pines#gravity falls fanart#artists on tumblr#art#drawing#stan pines#fanart#my art#doodle#illustration#procreate#comic#please don't repost my artwork onto other sites thank you!
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the honda odyssey, huh?
#poolverine has taken over my every waking thought#they're the defintion of matching each others freak#you can tell my brainrot is bad by the fact that I willing drew a car#and don't get me started on this pose it took me ages to figure out#anything for peak old men yaoi#hope you enjoy the freaky little details I added in here#poolverine#deadclaw#poolverine fanart#deadpool#deadpool fanart#deadpool and wolverine#wolverine#fanart#my art#digital art
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staff: our april fools joke this year is a silly feature that doesn't really do anything but give you a button to boop other users! they have to opt-in first though :)
me:
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Vulcan teen on Vulcan [tiktok] saying "I have just lost track of my father in the grocery store." The camera turns to show the viewers the grocery store in which almost every single older middle-aged man has a bowlcut and long robes. Camera turns back to show the teen's face which is expressionless and yet communicates all it needs to.
#vulcans#I don't think all Vulcans dress the same and headcanon that there's a buunch of different styles on Vulcan#BUT I DO think that older middle aged men flock together regardless of species#and that it's funny that Vulcan has like The Vulcan Hair[tm] - why'd they do that to themselves HEHEHE you're lucky your dad's telepathic#I really wanna see fashion subcultures for other plaaaanets in star trek#I wanna see Klingon Goth#I wanna see fashion styles specific to that species because of that species' culture#like how we have niche niche fashion trends#the other day I thought about it being Vulcan counterculture to do your makeup as if you've been crying#popular with teens but adults do NOT like it
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collection of useful things tumblr has taught me:
even if you can't fall asleep, laying down with your eyes closed will still rest your body
you don't have to brush your teeth standing up
you don't have to do any chore standing up, from dishes to showering
you don't have to shower with the lights on
if you can't brush your teeth, flossing and a tongue scraper gets rid of plaque and bad breath
if you can't do that, mouthwash kills a lot of bacteria
eating "unhealthy" food is better than eating no food
you can make the same meal everyday for however long you still want it
some pills come in syrups or chewables if you can't swallow them
kids nutritional shakes can be a quick way to get fuel if you can't eat/don't have time
if walking hurts/exhausts you on a regular basis, canes and rollers are for you, no matter how young you are
we have free will—if doing something "out of the ordinary" makes life easier for you, do it
if you have even a dollar to spare, please consider donating to Alaikum's family.
they're a large family at only 10% of their goal to evacuate, and could use any help you can give!!
#these are just things I personally didn't consciously realize but are really helpful#or stuff that I don't think think we hear enough#disability#mental health#mental illness#encounter: demon
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