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isdalinarhot · 3 months
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bank transfer times you are my worst fucking enemy
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talksosweet · 2 months
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DAILY RECAP TIME!!!!!
okay so first of all i had the most TERRIFYING dream last night like i woke up so scared 😭😭😭 i don't remember much but basically what i do remember is (u don't have to read this para btw it's just gonna be me yapping abt my dream) i was at limerick junction (which is a train station in ireland) w my two friends and we got on a hovercraft (like WHAT 😭) instead of a train and on the side of the platform there was a massive wall that had a massive screen on it which was showing a festival which was going on somewhere (the way they show glastonbury and stuff on telly yk?) and chappell roan was on stage singing hot to go and one of my friends was like omg i love this dance we need to do it when it gets to the part!!! and my other friend and i were like yeah!!! so when it's abt to get to that part my phone connects to the screen and it's just my lockscreen showing on the screen no chappell and everyone is roaring at me and giving out abt the fact they're missing the best part and i'm tryna disconnect my phone but idk how and i start crying and they're all screaming at me and yeah that's not the scary part tho that was just rlly random and weird the scary part was like later on in the dream when me and idk who else it might've been my friends and my parents and my brother were in like a hunger games arena style forest and the president snow of my dream was like a blonde woman idk who tho i can't remember but she ordered them to send robot lawnmowers to kill us and the grass was like taller than us and we were tryna run away from them and i was abt to get mowed down and then i woke up and yeah! i can't remember loads of it that's all i remember but that was such a weird dream but tbh all my dreams r super random and sooo long like there's so much lore it's crazy 😭😭 anyways this was rlly random and youse are definitely concerned as to what is going on in my head (same x) but idk it was all rlly random
ANYWAYS YAP SESSION OVER I'LL TELL U ABT MY DAY NOW!!!! so i got up at like 10am and chilled until lunch and then after lunch i tanned outside for a while bc the uv was 7 (everyone cheer) and after a few hours of tanning i went and did the food shop w mam and then when we came back she made me wash, peel and chop the potatoes up to prep for dinner 🫤🫤 then i just chilled some more and then i had dinner (steak, chips and veg) and then i watched episode 3 of agggtm w my mam and now i'm just on my phone 😋 might go watch the new sabrina hot ones interview now??? I LOVE THOSE KINDS OF INTERVIEWS THEY'RE THE BEST chicken shop date and hot ones are the best interviews 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 i'm acc so happy bc this week billie is going on chicken shop on fri, obvs the new brina hot ones ep just dropped and billie did hot ones w finneas a few days ago 😚😚😚
ALSO i made another blog today 🤭 i was inspired by cyn so u guys can go and try to find it if u want 😚😚 it will not be that hard i fear but still it'll be fun soooo yea
LOVE U ALL SM HOPE UR HAVING A GOOD MORNING/AFTERNOON/EVENING/NIGHT AND I HOPE UR DOING WELL MWAH 💓💓💓💓💓💓
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swiftieblyth · 7 months
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Y/N Wheeler:
The Weirdo on Maple Street
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Warnings- King!Steve, Soft!King!Steve, fluff, angst, Stranger Things, Tommy H, Carol, That one scene w/ Steve and Nancy at his house but w/ Y/N and tonned down
I think thats all! Let me know if there's more!
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The next morning at breakfast Nancy and I watched in disgust as Mike gulped down his breakfast. “Slow down, Mike.” Nancy let out.
“That’s disgusting.” I added.
Mike looked up past Nancy at me. “Do a lot of studying last night?”
“Yeah, actually, I did.”
“What was your test on again? Human anatomy?” 
Nancy and I both stopped eating and looked at eachother, then to Mike. Nancy kicked him for me, but he kicked her back, getting mom’s attention. “Hey, what’s going on?”
“Nothing.” We all three called.
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“When alpha particles go through gold foil, they become…” Barb said, reading my flashcards, as me, her, and Nance walked through the hallway.
“Unoccupied space.”
“A molecule that can—“ Barb was cut off by Steve snatching the cards out of her hand. 
“Hey!” I let out, walking to Steve.
“I don’t know. I think you studied enough, Y/N.”
“Steve—“
“I’m telling you, you know, you got this. Don’t worry. Now, on to more important matters. My dad has left town on a conference and my mom’s gone with him, ‘cause, you know, she doesn’t trust him.”
“Good call.” Tommy H. cut it. Gosh he’s so annoying, I hate him so much.
“So are you in?” Steve asked. I looked at Steve with a look on my face. I know he wants me to go to a party, but it’s a school night, and even without the house arrest my mom would never let me go.
“In for what?” Nancy asked, behind me.
“No parents? Big house?” Coral explained. 
“A party?” Nancy asked. Gosh, why did I drag her into this whole thing? She was so normal and innocent. Why did I have to get her in the popularity world? 
“Ding, ding, ding.” Coral explained, making Tommy laugh.
“It’s Tuesday.”
“It’s Tuesday!” Tommy mocked. I gave him the death glare, and I think Steve must’ve seen it, because he looked at him too. “Oh my gosh.” 
“Come on.” Steve ordered, cutting him off.
“Y/N, you’re not actually gonna go? Mom would never let you.”
“Mom, doesn’t have to know.”
“It’ll be low key.” Steve explained. “It’ll just be us. What do you say? Are you in or are you out?”
“Who’s bringing the drinks?” I smirked, giving them their answer.
“Oh, gosh. Look.” Carol stated, looking at Jonathan Byers. Will’s older brother. 
“Oh, gosh, that’s depressing.” Steve let out. The six of us stood there and watched as Jonathan put up a missing poster. 
“Should we say something?” Nancy asked.
“I don’t think he speaks.” Carol replied.
“Shut up, Carol.” I snarled.
“How much you want to bet he killed him?” Tommy added. I turned my glare to him, I could feel my face heat up with anger. Sure, I don’t know Jonathan that well, but I know he would never do that. 
“Shut up.” Steve ordered, hitting Tommy’s chest with his arm. I felt a hand on my closed fist. I looked down and saw Steve’s hand on mine. I looked up as Nancy walked over to him.
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“Nance,” I begged, laying on her bed that evening. “Please.”
“Why do you want me to go so bad if you’re such a party girl?”
“Because I don’t want to go by myself.”
“Why?”
“Because I've never actually been to a small party. So could you just go, and call Barb to come to please?”
“Girls, dinner.”
“Coming!” We both yelled, as she called Barb real quick.
Nancy and I went down for dinner and saw that Lucas and Dustin were also eating with us. The three boys didn't eat, they just played with their food. “Something wrong with the meatloaf?” Mom asked, looking at them. 
“Oh, no, I had two bologna sandwiches for lunch.” Dustin explained. I could tell that he was lying, but I was about to do the same so I wasn’t going to rat him out. “I don’t know why.”
“Me, too.” Lucas chuckled. 
“It’s delicious, Mom.” Nancy let out.
“I agree with Nance. This is great.” I put out.
“Thank you, sweeties.” 
“So, there’s this… special assembly thing tonight…” I started. “For Will at the school field.”
“Barb’s driving,” Nancy added.
“Why am I just hearing about this?” Mom asked, looking at us.
“I thought you knew.” Nancy responded, thinking we were going to get caught. Gosh she’s so new to this. 
“I told you two, I don’t want you out after dark until Will is found.”
“We know, we know.” I cut in. “But it’d be super weird if we’re not there. I mean, everyone’s going.”
Mom sighed and looked at me. “Just… be back by 10. Why don’t you take the boys, too?”
“No!” Mike yelled.
“Mmm-mmm.” Dustin added. These boys were definitely up to something, but busting them is going to have to wait. 
“Don’t you think you guys should be there?” Mom asked. “For Will?”
Mike looked past Mom and spit out his milk. We all turned our heads but Dustin banged his hands down in the table making us look at him. “Sorry.” He called. “Spasm.”
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“Barbara, pull over.” I ordered.
“What?” She asked.
“Pull over!” I ordered. Barb pulled over and parked the car. Nancy and Barb turned their heads to look back at me. 
“What are we doing here?” Barb asked.
“His house is three blocks away.” Nancy added.
“We can’t park in the driveway.”
“Are you serious!” Barb asked.
“Yeah, the neighbors might see.”
“This is so stupid. I’m just gonna drop you two off.”
“Calm down, Barb.” Nance ordered. “Come on. You promised that you’d go. You’re coming. For me and Y/N.”
“Yeah. We’re all three gonna have a great time.” I explained.
“He just wants to get in your pants.” Barb let out.
“No, he doesn’t.” I chuckled, knowing that he probably does want to though. 
“Y/N… seriously.” Barb called. “He invited you to his house.”
“Yeah, for a party. I go to parties all the time. It’s fine.”
“His parents aren't home.”
“That’s the best time for a party.”
“Come on, you are not this stupid. Nance, are you seriously going to let your sister do this?”
“Tommy H. and Carol are gonna be there.” Nance cut in. Either trying to defend me or herself for letting me go. As if she could stop me.
“Tommy and Carol have been having sex since, like, seventh grade.” Barb explained. I mean she’s not wrong but come on. “It’ll probably just be, like, a big-“
“Okay, Barb.” I say cutting her off, taking off my shirt.
“Gross.” Nance let out.
“I’m serious!”
“Y/NN? Maybe this isn’t a good idea.”
“All right, well…” I let out, not wanting to go home. “You two can be, like, my guardians. All right? Make sure I don’t get drunk and do anything stupid.”
Nance and Barb sighed. “Is that a new bra?” Nance asked.
“No.” I lied.
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We got to the house and I rang the doorbell. Barb clearly did not want to be here, but Nance kept forcing her to stay. “Barb, chill.” Nancy called. 
“I’m chill.”
I surged as looked back at the door as Steve opened it. “Hello ladies.”
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Carol screamed a loud, obnoxious scream as Tommy got ready to toss her in the pool. “One! Two! Three!”
“Stop it, Tommy, no! Don’t!” Carol yelled. Tommy laughed as he put her down. “You’re such an …hole, Tommy.” I rolled my eyes, and turned my head to see Steve shotgunning a beer.
“Is that supposed to impress me?” I asked, as he sat down and got a cigarette.
“You’re not?” He asked lighting it.
“You are a cliché, you do realize that?”
“You are a cleché. What with your… your grades and your band practice.” Steve joked, knowing fully well that I’m not in band.
“I am so not in band.” I laughed. 
“Okay, party girl. Why don’t you just, uh, show us how it’s done, then?” Steve asked, handing me a beer and the knife. 
“Okay.” I smiled getting up. “You know this isn’t my first time right? I’ve been to lots of parties before.”
“Oh, okay. You gotta make a little hole right in—“
“I got it.” I cut him off. “I’m the most popular girl at school, remember?”
“Yeah, she’s smart, you ……” Tommy laughed, smashing a can on his head.
I opened the can and started chugging it. “Chug, chug, chug.” Steve started, then everyone except Barb joined in. “Chug. Chug. Chug.”
After two seconds I finished it a dropped the beer, making everyone cheer. I sat down and took one of Steve’s cigarettes. “Nance, you wanna try?”
“Uh, sure.” Nance opened the can, and we all started chanting. Nancy finished and dropped the can, bowing as we cheered. “Barb, you wanna try?”
“What? No. No, I don’t want to. Thanks.” Barb explained, but Nance got her a beer and the knife. I hate that she's forcing Barb into doing things.
“Come on.”
“Yeah…” Steve started. I looked at him and he stopped talking. 
“Nance, I don’t want to.”
“It’s fun! Just give it a—“
“Nance…”
“Nancy, don’t force her. She doesn’t want to.” I cut in. 
“Just..” Nancy ignored me. “Just give it a shot.”
“Okay.” Barb stood up and started to open it. “So you just…” Barb lost her grip on the bottle and sliced her thumb. Tommy started laughing, making me want to punch him.
“Gnarly.” He let out.”
“Are you okay!” Nance asked. 
“Yeah.”
“Barb, you’re bleeding.” I cut in. 
“I’m fine.” Barb ordered, looking over at Steve. “Where’s your bathroom?”
“Oh, it’s…” Steve explained, getting up. “It’s, uh, down past the kitchen, to the left.”
“Okay. Thanks.” Babe said, walking in.
Tommy pushed Carol in the pool, making her scream. “Oh my gosh! What the hell, Tommy?” She asked, when she resurfaced.” Tommy took out his cigarette and dived in. “No!”
“Whoo!” Steve let out, pushing Nancy in, then going over to me.
“No, don’t!” I laughed, as Steve tried to push me in. “Steve don’t!” Steve pushed me in and jumped in after me.
I laughed as Steve dunked me back in under the water. 
Tommy and Coral started making out, and Steve splashed water at them. I laughed, as Nancy floated around, watching us with a smile on her face. Steve got my shoe and started swimming around the pool with it.
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“I’m freezing.” Carol complained as we walk we’re wrapped up in towels in Steve’s living room.
“Hmm… we’ll, I hear his mom’s room has a fireplace.” Tommy explained, making me roll my eyes.
“Are you kidding?” Steve asked.
“Oh, yeah?” Carol asked, following Tommy up the stairs.
“Okay, we’ll, you know, you are cleaning the sheets.” Steve called after them, walking up to me and Nance, putting his hand on my shoulder. “You all right?”
“Yeah.” I breathed. 
“Yeah? Come on, let’s get you some dry clothes. Nance, you too.” Steve said, going up the stairs.
We followed Steve up the stairs, when we heard Barb. “Nance. Nancy.” Barb called, making us look at her. “Where are you two going?”
“Nowhere.” Nancy let out. “Just… upstairs.”
“We’re just going to go get some dry clothes.” I explained.
“We fell in the pool.” Nancy chuckled. “Why don’t you go ahead and go home. I’m sure Macy can give me a ride home.”
“I don’t have my car remember?” I asked, trying to get her to also leave. “It’s in the shop. I’ll leave you two alone.” I said, walking away.
I was in Steve’s room looking out the window. I don’t know what happened with the two best friends after I left, but I think they got into a fight. I felt a hand on my back and I turned to see Steve, with some dry clothes in his hand. “Thanks.” I smiled, taking them. We both stared at each other, not leaving. “Um…” I breathed. “Some privacy, maybe?”
“Oh… Yeah right. Sorry.” Steve laughed, turning around and walking away.
“Steve…” I called, making him turn back around. I don’t even know why I did what I did. I think we all know so I’m not going to say it.
“Dang.” He let out, looking at my torso.” 
“Shut up.” I chuckled a little. 
Steve walked up to me and put his hands around me. I put mine on his chest as we started to kiss. We started to longingly make out and walked to his bed, not pulling apart. We sat down and grabbed each other.
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Since I've decided not to watch anymore seasons of Grey's. I want to take this time to talk about stuff I probably have no business talking about because I didn't watch the actual episodes. 😅
This is gonna be very out of order.
☆: As much as I like Bailey, Alex should have the board chair. Cristina left it for him and Richard shouldn't even be allowed to Nominate anyone. He's not even on the board.
☆: Maggie and Jackson dating each other is gross. People keep saying it fine cause they didn't grow up together. I don't care. Them being attracted to each other while their parents are dating/married is disgusting. Like that's literally your legal sibling.
☆: if I watched season 14, Casey Parker would have been a favorite character. I’ve only seen clips on him and top tier, him and Cristina and maybe Alex would have been so powerfully unhinged. Lol
☆: Idk the relationship with Maggie and Meredith but I think Maggie expecting Meredith to tell her everything about her life is a bit much, like it’s so much and she just met you. So obviously she’s not gonna be like here’s my life story. Idk what’s going on with Alex but you can’t fault Meredith for trusting him over Maggie she’s known the dude for like ten years…
☆: Maggie 100 percent should waited to be on better terms with Meredith before dropping the “we share a mom” bomb.
☆: I'm so confused on the Maggie and Jackson getting married thing. Because how would that have worked. Husband and wife while also being step-siblings. 🤮
☆: People keep bringing up Lexie whenever they see Maggie and calling her a lexie replacement. Listen one, Chyler Leigh wanted to be killed off the show, she and Maggie could have been friends or whatever. Stop trying to compare the them. Two, greys anatomy had Maggie planned since day one, albeit more so as a brother.
☆: I would have lowkey loved if Maggie was a brother instead of a sister. I just think would have been interesting. Probably something like
Meredith:"I've never had a brother before"
Derek or someone "what are you talking about? Isn't Alex kind of like having a brother?"
Then a cute scene of Alex and Meredith being like siblings. Idk
☆: the Nathan drama of season 13 is wild, after all that drama that happened when Meredith first met Derek. I can't even imagine her seeing someone know her sister Maggie liked and was actively going on dates with. [Tbh i have no idea if there were dates but the clip made it sound like that.] Nathan is trash for not telling Maggie he liked Meredith.
☆: I just saw Meredith and Jackson goodbye, and I actually like them. I remember when izzie came back to work after the merge and Alex, Cristina, Meredith and Jackson were all eating lunch together, and he said something and one of them was like "who invited you here?" And Meredith was all like "I did." That shit was cute. I wish season 10 and lower had more scenes of them being friends.
☆: I don't like Maggie and Jackson, but emotional cheating is still cheating.. it's exactly like what april was doing to Matthew..
☆: not Stephanie trying to blame the harassment complaints on Leah, like she wasn't one of the reasons Leah did it in the first place. Don't crap where you eat? (This is from the episode where Leah returns, I saw a clip on youtube.)
□: While writing this I'm low-key thinking about going back to binge the show for Alex, but he's goodbye is so bad, and I hate him and Izzie so much. I refuse 😤 also I heard Callie character development suffers a lot 😭
☆: Why would they have Callie keep dating the woman who killed her friend? Hate that (I watched the dinner scene on YouTube)
If I see anymore scenes that I'm like oof to, I'll make a part two
Even though I have zero business complaining 😆
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katsushika-division · 2 years
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“Love is hard to find, hard to keep, and hard to forget.”
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(TW: Mentions of underage sexual abuse, forced body modifications, and child p*rnography)
Timeline
Age 0:
Is born to Fumiya Kisaragi and Mika Igarashi
Age 6:
Is abandoned at an orphanage by his parents 
Age 7: 
Is adopted by Kazuko Shimizu 
Is forced to star in child p*rnography videos becoming well known throughout the dark web under the name “Momo-chan”
Is pulled out of school under the guise of being “homeschooled”
Is kept chained in a room inside the basement
Age 9:
Is forcibly castrated by Kazuko as a way to prevent him from going through puberty
Is forced by Kazuko to undergo sex change surgery
Age 10:
Is brought one day to a underworld doctor where he is forced under a experimental surgery where █ █ █ █ █ █ █ █
The surgery is a success and is now able to █ █ █ █ █ █ █ █
Age 12:
Murders Kazuko by carving her heart out of her chest 
Runs away and ends up on the streets 
Meets Haruka Souma, who takes him under her wing 
Age 13:
Haruka dies trying to protect Touya during an altercation with an older man 
Suffers a psychotic breakdown his mind breaking after years of trauma 
Begins moving around the country never staying in one place 
Gains the alias the “Sweetheart Killer” who is known for carving his victims’ hearts out with a knife 
Age 16:
Meets famous model and actor Lyall Shiba while in Niigata under the name “Momoka”
Begins a sexual relationship with him
Gets █ █ █ █ █ █ █ █
Approaches Lyall to tell him but learns that he is leaving him
Does not handle the news well and attempts to kill Lyall, even trying to carve his heart out
Is unable to finish as he █ █ █ █ █ █ █ █
Runs away from the scene leaving Lyall to die
Flees Niigata
Age 21:
Is brought to a police station for prostitution
His DNA is run through the system connecting him to his crimes as the Sweetheart Killer 
Is arrested  
Is found guilty of his crimes and sentenced to death 
Is sent to the Katsushika Maximum Correctional Facility 
Meets Akihisa Mashiro and Rintaro Himura 
Age 22:
Present.
Is given a deal by Chuohku to form a team and enter the Division Rap Battles and he can get off death row 
Accepts the deal 
Chuohku implants a micro-bomb in his neck in order to insure obedience
Is given temporary freedom by Chuohku
Joins the Katsushika Division rap battle team, Death Row Block, alongside Akihisa Mashiro and Rintaro Himura 
Schedule
12:00 a.m. - 7:00 a.m.: Asleep
7:00 a.m. - 7:30 a.m.: Awakens and gets ready for the day
7:30 a.m. - 8:00 a.m.: Eats breakfast with everyone 
8:00 a.m. - 9:00 a.m.: Watches cartoons
9:00 a.m. - 11:00 a.m.: Appointment with psychiatrist alongside Akihisa and Rintaro  
11:00 a.m. - 12:00 p.m.: Visits parole officer alongside Akihisa and Rintaro 
12:00 p.m. - 1:00 p.m.: Lunch 
1:00 p.m. - 3:00 p.m.: Online G.E.D Classes
4:00 p.m. - 6:00 p.m.: Watches cartoons 
6:00 p.m. - 7:00 p.m.: Dinner with everyone 
7:00 p.m. - 9:00 p.m.: Spends time with everyone 
9:00 p.m. - 10:00 p.m.: Showers and gets ready for bed
10:00 p.m.  - 12:00 a.m.: Asleep
Regular Hashtags
#Finally Have A Family 
#Doll Collection
#Sweet As Sugar
Trauma Hashtags
#Dirty and Broken 
#STOP TOUCHING ME
#Unloved 
Other Info
Hobby: Gymnastics/Acrobatics 
Weakness: Extremely Unstable 
Trauma: “Mama did so many horrible things to me.”
Twitter: @DarlingTouya 
Drinks: Yes
Smokes: No 
Special Skill: “I can bend my body into weird angles.”
Intro Quote: “Hi~! I'm Touya~! Hm? Why do you look so afraid?”
Trauma Quote: “MAMA! PLEASE! I’LL BE GOOD! DON'T MAKE ME DO IT-!”
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milkywaygg · 2 years
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Time’s Passing Ch 6
Despite the awkwardness between them, there was no doubt that crashing at Linnie’s had it perks alongside its tension. For the last 10,000, Darren had to stress out over whether or not he was even going to be able to eat the slop slapped down on his tray, or if he was gonna have to give it up to his neighbor next to him, who was usually twice as big and strong as he was. Now, he had a delicious, warm meal placed in front of him every breakfast, lunch, and dinner, made with actual food instead of garage the kitchen staff fished up. Darren also took great satisfaction in sleeping in the full-sized bed Linnie had set up in the guest room, feeling as if he was slept on a cloud despite the mattress being a cheaper brand, but whatever. It beat sleeping on a cardboard fold just barely off the ground.
Daren rubbed his eyes as he left his cloud of a bed and made his way into the living room, pouring himself some cereal and milk before deciding to turn on the TV, making sure he was awake before he got a crack on the job searching. After he had found the milk and closed the refrigerator door however, there was a lime-green sticky note with cursive handwriting on it.
“Darren-
I’ve gone to work and had decided to go meet up with a new friend for dinner, so will be an hour or two late getting home. I’ve bought you some frozen meals in the last grocery bill in case you get hungry. Please don’t forget to pick up the groceries. Should be ready around 1 or 2.
Have a good day! I love you so so much. Please call if you need anything.
-Papa”
Darren groaned slightly as he finished reading the note; he really REALLY didn’t feel like going anywhere today, but it didn’t seem like he had much of a choice. After all, how would they eat? Darren checked the time to see that it was 11:30, giving him time to finish his breakfast and take a shower, getting ready to poof himself to the grocery store, giving that he was sure his car had been confiscated by a towing company.
After he had gotten ready, Darren took his wand and teleported himself to the supermarket, flying up to the customer service desk, towards a rather bored looking employee.
“Hey, I’ve got an order for a Linnie Cosma? Should be ready now.”, Darren said. The worker didn’t respond, but looked at the screen of order names lazily and then flew towards the back, grabbing several bags and throwing them on the counter, handing them to Darren. “Uhh thanks.”
As Darren left the line and parked himself at the corner to re-adjust his arms, he noticed that the environment has gotten colder, and his back seemed to be leaning on something. Turning around, he spotted a 6 pack of Blue Moon Beer, making Darren’s mouth drool and almost immediately grab a pack, shoveling it between all the grocery bags Linnie was having him carry.
Wait….Linnie would kill him if he ever saw that Darren was keeping beer in the house. He knew how much Linnie disapproved of alcoholic beverages ever since they had all lived with Nora. But then again, Darren was going to use his own money….he did what Linnie had asked him to do…and Darren was no fool. He could just stick the beer behind the rest of the groceries, or drink them all before Linnie had gotten home. It wasn’t like Linnie could see much without his glasses anyways so…ah, what the hell? Darren took the case of beer and paid for it with cash, finally poofing himself back home and loaded the groceries in their proper places, making sure the beer was well-hidden behind the two cartons of Milk and the pitcher of Ice Tea.
  “Oh Starla was such a sweetheart today! We had such a good time, didn’t we love? Didn’t we? Yes we did!”, Linnie cooed, pinching the toddler’s cheeks as she giggled, making Linnie’s heart brighten as he looked at the proud parents, “Oh, she was no trouble. They’re never any trouble. Just taking care of these little ones..why, I just think they’re my reason for getting out of bed. Not to be dramatic haha.”
“Well, aren’t you sweet? We’re so lucky to have you as her daycare teacher.”, Starla’s mother had said, smiling alongside her husband, who took their daughter from Linnie, “I’m guessing you have a lot of experience from your own children, Mr Linnie?”
“Oh yes, I’ve raised three children up to adulthood. All 3 of them are my pride and joy.”
“Oh really? Have you thought about another one? You still look so young, and I’m sure that little boy or girl would be so lucky to have you as a father.”
“Yes well..haha..”, Linnie stuttered, blushing a little bit, though he couldn’t help but smile brightly, “As much as I’d love to, I just haven’t had the chance. I’ve just been so busy with other things that I haven’t even considered having a fourth.”
“Haha well, we’re headed off. It’s our dinner date this evening and we’re trying to make it a family night.”, the father said, kissing little Starla on the cheek before the couple left, making Linnie’s heart melt. With all the kids gone, Linnie began shut down, picking up all the toys and putting them where they go, making sure all the children had been signed out with the correct date and time, making sure all equipment was sanitized, and turning out all the light before leaving the building for the day, poofing himself towards the sports grill where Delia said she wanted to meet up. Smiling, he took a seat across from her and Dani, who smiled cheerfully back at her.
“Mr Linnie, this place has really good chips.”, Dani cheered, snaking on the chips in front of her. Linnie laughed as he took a seat, blushing slightly at Delia.
“How are you, Delia?”
“Fine. Just got out of a long day at work before picking this one up from school.”, Delia said, ruffling the 5 year old’s hair, “How was your day?”
“Good. Was pretty much like every other day haha. Working.”
“Oh really. What do you do for a living, Linnie? I don’t remember if I asked you that already or..”
“No no it’s ok. I don’t mind. I’m a nursery teacher at the Fairy World Academy.”, Linnie said, rather proudly, “I’ve got both my Bachelors and Masters in child development and education, and I’m hoping to work on my doctorate someday.”
“Really? What made you quit?”
“I uhm…I ended up getting pregnant after I met this woman uhm…I don’t really want to talk about her if that’s alright.”
“Yea yea sure. I totally get it.”, Delia said, sipping on her soda, “I’m a chemist for a company that manufactures toothpaste.”
“Wow that’s impressive. I don’t think I understand a lick of math or science to really appreciate chemistry personally, haha, but it seems like a really interesting job.”
“Oh, it is when you blow up the lab and turn your own head into a frog.”, Delia laughed, bursted out laughing, making Linnie slightly confused. Delia smiled at Linnie, “I accidentally used way too much magic powder when mixing the chemicals. That spell wouldn’t ware off for a week.”
“Yeah! Aunty Delia wouldn’t stop ribbiting! Ribbit! Ribbit!”, Dani ribbited, making Delia blush in embarrassment and Linnie chuckle slightly.
“Well, I gotta say, your niece is absolutely adorable. I just love kids. Does she live with you or..”
“Oh no. She’s just visiting while her mommy and daddy are out on a work trip.”, Delia said, “Didn’t you say you had a son?”
“Yes well, technically I have two sons and one daughter, but they’re all my pride and joy.”, Linnie smiled, before reminding himself of what that couple at the school had told him. A fourth child? Was he ready? But even if he was, it wasn’t like Linnie could just pull a baby out of thin air. It was way too early to ask Delia to “accidentally” forget to use protection, and it wasn’t like he knew anyone else like that, but maybe he could adopt? But how would Darren feel about that, and where would he even start? What about baby stuff? Maybe he could use his older children’s stuff-
“Linnie, are you there?”, Delia asked, snapping her fingers in front of him, earning his attention and a small squeak from the male.
“O-oh dear, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to doze off.”
“Linnie, it’s fine, don’t worry about it. Oh look, our foods here!”
 Around 9 that evening, Linnie had finally came home, trying to keep himself awake from his night out. He looked around; Darren was no where to be found in the living room or kitchen, and his bedroom light was turned off. Linnie shrugged, assuming that his son had gone off to bed early that evening. Ready to hit the way himself, Linnie took off his velvet, green coat and hung it up in the closet, before floating towards the kitchen, grabbing a glass and setting it on the counter next to the refrigerator. Opening it, Linnie grabbed one of the milk cartons resting on the top shelf and unscrewed the lid, pouring some into the glass before reaching to put the milk back, pausing suddenly.
Right in front of his face was a half-drunk 6 pack of Blue Moon beer staring right at Linnie’s fact mockingly. Linnie felt his body shake as he set the milk carton down and tried to gather his feelings, trying to keep himself from making a scene. All his memories of his previous relationship seemed to flow back in and stab Linnie in the heart multiple times, replaying all the crashes and stains numerous alcohol bottles had caused to the walls, and all the times he was threatened if he didn’t go to the liquor store for his wife. Unable to steady himself, Linnie took a seat at the kitchen table, ignoring his glass of milk melting near the refrigerator. Where did that beer come from? He didn’t buy it. He never bought it for himself. Wait…
“Darren Cosma, get in here right now!”, Linnie said, raising his voice for once in his life.
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Chapter 9
Chapter Nine – Jasper
I so cannot wait to read several pages of him wangsting about not being able to be with Vail, while simultaneously calling her a slut. /prediction
“Don’t like that, do you? Well, you have a choice, Alpha. Push for the trackers, and I offer her the claiming mark. Let it go, and I’ll do the same.” 
I knew my eyes must have been burning like the fucking sun, because my wolf was half-ready to push a shift and tear that smirk off his face. But I swallowed back his howl and shook my head. “She hates you almost as much as she hates me. She won’t go for it.”
My favourite part about this is how they’re having this discussion in a room full of omegas. Like they are literally right there. There’s no way that they can’t hear all of this. 
Edit from the future: Vail claimed that she had no idea what had happened at the start of the next chapter. But she also continues to shove her head in the sand in regards towards literally everything, so I’m not quite sure that I trust her narration. 
“Get your shit under control, Alpha. A pack is only as strong as its weakest link.”
Chapter 9 summary: Well, the chapter did start off with Jasper moping about Vail. But this is quickly overtaken by the other alphas getting angry and implying that Jasper wants to tag all of the omegas, like dogs. 
However, it’s Reed who points out that none of the other omegas are actually at risk; this is 100% about Vail. That this is simply a measure to control all of the pack.
Here, Jasper pauses briefly to tell the readers about the inter-pack politics he’s been dealing with the past week, since he killed his dad. 3 different wolves challenged him, but then backed down when they realised that they would follow Jasper’s dad into an early grave. He banished 2, and sent one to do paperwork in the arctic. (IDK why this is relevant, but sure.) Also, the lab was shut down, pending investigation. If they would have tortured Vail, who knows what other bullshit is going on in there. 
Reed then says that if Jasper wants to put the tracker into Vail, then he can. But Reed will also put a claiming mark on Vail, so that HE can know where she is at all times, too. This pisses Jasper off enough, and he realises that he can’t win this one. He tells all of the omegas to leave. 
Chapter 10
“Anything you want to discuss, you come to one of us and we’ll help. But you’ll probably get the best feel for it all tomorrow, at the dinner dance.”
 I blinked at her. “Excuse me?”
 “The annual Alpha and Omega Dinner Dance is tomorrow.”
JFC, it’s barely been a week since the last dance!
Tomorrow I’ll be a good Marshall omega. But tonight, I’m just going to bury my head under a pillow and pretend I’m Vail Chance, and a million miles away from Hunter Moon Academy.
Chapter 10 summary: As the omegas leave the auditorium, Reed finds Vail and says that Penny told him that some of the other alphas were basically saying rude things about Vail’s bio parents. That he wants to make a statement by having Vail sit with him at dinner. Vail thinks about how the alphas all sit up at a fancy high table, and she’s like “No thanks.” However, Reed accepts her excuse of wanting to fit in with the other omegas, and lets it slide… for now. 
The girls go back to Jasmine’s dorm, where Vail finally asks about Mr. Wentworth. They tell her that he went back across the pond. Vail is hurt by this, and thought that he was on her side. 
They then start talking about Jasper’s new role. However, Vail is a bit out of the loop, and they have to spell out for her that Jasper killed his father. Because she straight-up doesn’t understand. But hearing what Jasper needed to do in order to try and keep Vail safe makes her feel physically ill, and she leaves to go lie down for a bit. 
She sleeps through lunch and the start of afternoon classes before she mopes around for a while. Eventually, she decides that the best course of action is to 100% avoid Jasper from here on out, and to strengthen her ties to the Marshall clan. She finds Penny on her way to dinner, and asks for help in learning what it means to be an omega. Penny gives her a huge binder, and tells her that it’s always an adjustment. But that being part of a clan is more instinct than anything. Vail says she doesn’t feel well, so she skips out on dinner. 
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Marriage. 69
Chapter 69: Know you
As we watched Gohan answer the door, I noticed my parents had very big smiles. I couldn’t help smile, too, especially knowing who’s at the door. Videl has an angry face when Gohan opens the door. But I don’t think she’s actually angry. From all the times I’ve seen her, I stop thinking that was her angry face. They were, for some reason, talking boring school project. Points to Trunks for calling Gohan a nerd. I was starting to get disappointed that Gohan wouldn’t talk about anything else. Well, till dad shouted out. “Videl would you like to stay for dinner?” The look on their faces were priceless. They actually were the matching redness. Trunks is gonna like this.
Videl finally said that she would love to, just that she has to let her dad know. Well, since now he knows she’s seeing a boy. Mom said she could use our phone, but Videl tried to decline. Saying something about, it’ll be better she went home, so she can change. For a brief moment Gohan looked sad. “Nonsense, you look fine.” Ha ha. Videl is trapped. There’s no way she can say no to mom. Even if she tried, mom was already on the move, to pull her inside. Gohan looked speechless. My parents are geniuses.
I can’t believe this! My parents are trying to kill me. They’re absolutely evil. This is the second day dad’s alive, and already he’s making it hell. Know what. Thank you. This actually feels good. It was taking me a lot to actually ask her myself, so, I’m glad dad did it. Not in the best way, but still. And now mom has Videl trapped on the couch. She looks like she needs help. I do! CRAP! How the hell? I have to ask Veg… Wait! I can ask dad, since he’s back. But does dad know why this is happening? I looked over to dad, and he’s smiling at me. You do know! Tell me! He just points at Videl and mom. Crap! They’re staring at me. What am I going to do?
You do know! Tell me! I just point to the girls. My poor Gohan is freaking out. I can’t help but smile. Just then I felt a small tug of my pants. I looked down, and it seems Goten was trying to get my attention. “What is it, little guy?” He was doing that thing Gohan did when he wanted to be carried. I felt honored to do just that. “So, what’s the matter?”
“You said we’ll go hunting, for today’s lunch. Can we go now?” Looked over at Chichi, and she was smiling at us. I told her that we were going hunting now, and will be back soon. She nodded and continued talking with Videl. Gohan tried to ask to come with us, but. “Oh, no you don’t! You always go! Not this time.” He then held tight to my neck. “It’s my turn! And only dad gets to come.” Gohan looked ready to say something when Chichi caught his attention. He gave one final glare at Goten and sat on the couch, next to Videl.
Once we were outside, something told me I need to find out exactly what he knew about hunting. “Since you never hunted before, what do you think it is?” Turns out he thought that Gohan found already died animals, and just cut them us. Or at least, that what Chichi told him. Oh, this is either going to very bad or it’ll be ok. “When we hunt animals for food, we’re the ones that kill them.” He gave me a shock look, and then started crying.
“So, it’s possible Gohan probably killed Mr. Tiger, without me know?” Oh boy.
“Maybe he didn’t, since he knew him. Gohan never kills a friend. He probably killed different tigers, and left Mr. Tiger alone.” That seemed to cheer him up, for now. As I was teaching him how to hunt, boar of all things, I was feeling a wave of familiar joy. It almost feels like when I was teaching Gohan. Only difference was Gohan was much order, and he had some practice, when he lived on his own. I even taught Goten about different plants. He was very happy. Along the way, he did stop a lot to look at all the different bugs. He even talked about some of them. That made me happy.
When we was on our way home, with our game, Goten seemed to be very quiet. From the little I spent with him, this seemed to be off. I tried asking if he was ok, and just said he was fine. Did I do something wrong? Just before we got to the house, he asked me, if it’s possible, I could teach him more stuff. “Sure thing, little guy. Is there anything you want me to teach you?” I seemed to fidget with his fingers, before he looked up at me. He wants me to teach him everything I taught Gohan. “I don’t think your mom would allow me right now, but I’ll definitely teach you. Just a little at a time. Ok, buddy?” He nodded, and we finally made it to the front yard. I wonder if the tools are still into the same place. Not like I need them anyway. I looked down to tool Goten. “Does Gohan use tools when he cuts the meat?” He shook his head. “Have you seen him do it?” Another no. “Good. I get to show you.” He looked so excited.
When the boys got back, they were covered in blood. That much blood usually meant they got boar. I was going to argue with them, about dirtying my floors, but Goten looks so happy. You only get this one pass. You sure? I just nod, and my Goku smiles at me. I asked Videl if she wanted to help me, and I was very pleased she said yes. As we worked in the kitchen, I couldn’t help feel motherly pride. I wonder if this is what it feels like to have a daughter.
It was clear she never worked in a kitchen, and I was very happy to show her around. It felt so wonderful to teach someone what I knew. It also felt nice to have another girl around. When lunch was ready, I saw she had a look of impressed. “You should be impressed with yourself. You did a great job.” Aw, she was blushing. When we sat down for lunch, I couldn’t help admire my Goku. It’s been so long since he’s been home. Yesterday felt like a dream, and this morning it became reality. What surprised me, and everyone else, was the fact he had a spoon up to my face. He hadn’t feed me in years. I took the bite and was so happy. I was feeling somewhat special. Goten looked shock, and then looked over to Gohan. Gohan started blushing. I could only get what Goten told him. Now even Videl was blushing. Oh my, can it really be? This is really is a special day.
As I cleaned, the house, for our soon guess, I couldn’t help to hum a happy tone. I just finished cleaning the living room, when I spotted all four of them looking at me. Is there something wrong with me. “Why are you all staring?” It was Goten that reply, saying how he never heard me hum this tune before. Videl just say how she was memorized by my speed, and strength. Gohan was also surprised by the tune. Goku just smiled, and didn’t say anything. For some reason I felt I was placed in the spotlight, and was getting special attention. I didn’t like it. So, I kicked them all out, so I can finish cleaning.
Mom really kicked us out. But it’s not our fault she was being so amazing. Dad is looking back at the house smiling. Gohan and Videl looks like they’re trying to make a break for it. Why’s that? I looked back to dad, and he’s already standing up. Haha! Dad caught Gohan before he went too far. Dad is telling them not to stay out too long, since we’re having guess soon. I then follow dad to a tree nearby, and he’s just sitting down. Gohan did say that dad was super relaxed. So, I sat down next to him. I was feeling bored. Just doing nothing is boring. I want to play. Maybe dad would play with me. But what would he play? Maybe I could ask him, but I don’t know.
That’s when it really started to sink in that I truly didn’t know him. I also don’t know what I’m supposed to do with a dad. Even thou I know he’s my dad. He’s really nice, and comforting. But what can we possible do together? Whenever I see Trunks with his dad, his dad is always going about training. Sometimes they play video games, but most of the time, uncle Vegeta keeps to himself. Is my dad like that? Gohan tells me how he’s always training, but same time, every chance he got, daddy would spend time with him. Gohan said how dad loved it when Gohan told him stuff he learned and did, when he was away. Gohan says dad is always telling him how proud he is. But what I am going to do? I’m not Gohan. I don’t know dad like Gohan or mom does. I don’t know what to do.
That’s when I felt tears sliding down my face. Oh great. I’m crying. I didn’t want him to see me cry. But I just don’t know what to do. That’s when I felt I was being picked up. When I looked, dad was carrying me. I then just couldn’t stop crying, and I ended up crying in his chest. I felt him hold me, and rub my back, just like mom does. It just made me cry more. Why am I crying? “It’s ok, Goten. Just take it one day at a time.” I then looked up to him, and he was smiling. “You got all the time in the world now. So, don’t you worry.” He then rubbed the tears away. “I’m here now. So, don’t you worry. Daddy isn’t going anywhere. That means we get to learn about each other every day.” For some reason that made me feel all warm inside, and I hugged him. He kept rubbing my back and holding me. So far, he’s the best daddy ever.
I’m not Gohan. I don’t know dad like Gohan or mom does. I don’t know what to do.
Goten sounds so distressed. I looked to the little guy and I see him crying. Oh no. None of that. My sons aren’t allowed to cry, and it’s my job to make sure of that. I go and pick up Goten. He takes a quick look at me, before hugs me and starts to sob into my chest. My poor little guy. I try to calm him down, but it just makes him cry more. What I am going to do? It’s been years since I’ve calm one of my sons. How am I going to calm him down? Uh? That’s right. We don’t really know each other. Maybe that’s why he’s like this. Poor kiddo. “It’s ok, Goten. Just take it one day at a time.” I rubbed his tears away. I never thought I would be being doing that again. “I’m here now. So, don’t you worry. Daddy isn’t going anywhere. That means we get to learn about each other every day.” That seemed to make him smile. He then hugged me tighter, and I couldn’t help hold even closer.
As the guess were arriving, Chichi was nowhere to be seen. It was up to me, the boys, and Videl to greet everyone. I left the boys in charge, as I went in search of Chichi. When I found her, she was in our room trying to pick out an outfit. “Just stay with what you have on. You look fine.” She argued how she was cleaning in those clothes. “But this is your home, you should be allowed to wear whatever you like.” She didn’t seem to like that answer. “Please.” She still didn’t seem to like the idea, but she did at least put the clothes down, and walked over to me. “Don’t pout at me.” I kissed her nose. “But if you are, can it wait when everyone leaves.” I kissed her lips, and then walked out our room.
I can’t believe the boys actually broke it! Now we have to buy a new one. On top of that, the boys were naked in front of our guess. They have no shame what so ever. And poor, innocent, Videl witness that. So, improper. The boys finally unfused, and were clothed. Also, a certain husband was properly clothed. After everyone left, I tried cleaning up all the mess. But the boys were trying to stop me, and clean themselves. No way! I tried stopping them, but they keep at it. I am so angry. I dragged all three out, and closed the door. “If you step inside you get no breakfast!” There was a loud groan, but none had entered. Good!
Once the cleaning was done, and I had calm down, somewhat, I finally let the boys in. Goten hugged me and cried for my forgiveness. I told it was ok, and that I forgave him. He then asked if I forgave Goku. “I’ll think about it.” With that I sent the boys to bed. Once in our room, my anger was slowly coming back. The minute the door was closed, I turned to him. “How could you do that?” I tried to keep my screaming to a whisper. “You were very indecent in front of our guess, and even Videl! Poor Videl. She didn’t have to witness her future father-in-law naked body. So, improper.” I then turned away from him. “Nobody is supposed to see you like that. that was embarrassing.” I then felt his strong arms around me, and a kissed to my neck. I tried to get out of his hold, but he only hugged tighter. “Oh, no Goku.” I then felt him lick my neck. I was trying to fight back how good that felt. He did it one more time, and then nipped my earlobe. I found myself breathless. I was trying really hard to fight it. Then he just let me go.
When I turned to him, he was smiling. How dare he! “Sorry. You know how I get when you’re all like this.” He then backed away, and held out his hands. “I’ll stop. Unless?” He had that one grin that always got my heart beating, to where it feels it’ll burst. He’s not being fair. He’s being super mean to me. I just turn away. If I can’t see him, then he can’t affect me. I felt him rubbing my shoulders. “That hurt, you know. But I’ll let it slide.” He then purrs into my ear. “This once.” My husband is pure evil. I then felt him pull away. “Fine, I’ll behave. It’s just that miss you so much.” With that, we went to bed, and he wasn’t allowed to touch me.
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purplesurveys · 2 years
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Who was the last person you recall dreaming about? I don’t remember that, actually; I’m horrible at recalling dreams unless they’re a) a nightmare, or b) super weird. Anyway, I could be completely wrong but I can very vaguely remember seeing a co-worker or two in my most recent dream.
I see. And do your dreams ever have random people in them? No, not really. Most of the time it’s people I regularly see/interact with. What was the last spicy food you ate? Do you eat a lot of spicy food? The food itself wasn’t spicy, but I had fried dumplings the other night; and while they were good, it felt like it needed a kick so I added sriracha to the side to dip it in. My judgment wasn’t wrong because it turned out good, hahaha. And yes, I eat a lot of spicy food. I always prefer the spicier version of something if offered.
When was the last time you admired some flowers? What kind/colour were they? Idk I never do that with trees and flowers and such.
What were you doing when 4PM last came around? I was at Starbucks, just killing time.
Do you own anything that is sparkly or has glitter on it? Yes. My most recent phone case was super glittery.
Which streaming services do you use? How long have you been using them for? I have Netflix, which we’ve had for around four years, I want to say? and Spotify, which I’ve had for the past eight years. We’re also about to finally have Disney+ in the country this month and we’re in the process of setting up a family account for that as well.
Are you in the process of watching or re-watching a series at the moment? No I’m not, I’m terrible with series. I want to finish Our Beloved Summer before the year ends, though, considering I had stopped continuing it back all the way in like March.
If so, how many seasons does it have? And what season are you currently on? It just has one season, as most Korean dramas do.
To whom did you last send an email? Do you check your emails daily? Idk, it had to have been a client. I check my work Gmail from Monday to Friday since emails are part and parcel of the job; but I have it completely on ignore on weekends because fuuuuuuuuuuuck that shit.
What was the last item of yours that you misplaced? Did you find it? My earphones. I have a ridiculous story behind this too – so I went to Starbucks yesterday with no particular agenda in mind and really just to get some fresh air. I take out my earphone case to start enjoying whatever video I feel like watching, and lo and behold my earphones aren’t inside. At that point I had already ordered my drink and pastry but I didn’t want to spend the next 2-3 hours without listening to anything...so I just said fuck it, ordered a new pair, and had it delivered there. LOL
Anyway when I got home my misplaced earphones was in some spot in my room, so all’s good. In any case, I’ve been wanting an extra pair anyway because I lose stuff easily; so I didn’t mind my reckless idea of getting a new pair on the spot.
What was the last thing you ate, that you considered a treat/luxury? The five-course dinner we had last Saturday in celebration of my sister’s graduation. 
I see. How often do you typically eat such things? We usually save hotel lunches/dinners for special occasions, so just a few times in a year.
Do you have any idea what you're going to have for dinner tomorrow evening? Not sure. If my dad’s cooking it’s always a pleasant surprise though!
What type of cake did you have for your last birthday, if any? Oooh I had a handful of cakes for my birthday last year. So the cake I bought for my family was marshmallow frosted chocolate fudge topped with a dozen macarons; my parents got me this adorable chocolate cake shaped just like a Starbucks frappe – they also improvised by adding cake toppers of Jin’s face; and Kata got me coffee cake.
Bonus entry but not really a cake – Angela got me doughnuts that were each molded out to spell Borahae :) Super fun and memorable birthday – I was a three-week old BTS fan back then so everybody had a lot of fun sprinkling in BTS references here and there in their surprises haha.
When was the last time you asked for someone's advice or opinion? It was around Thursday when Andi and I got into a conversation about law school.
Has anyone you know got a new pet recently? Hmm, not that I know of.
^If so, what kind? And what name did they choose? Nobody I know has had any new pets.
Who was the last person you knew that had a baby? How long ago was that? A family friend; she gave birth a week ago.
And is anyone you know expecting a baby anytime soon? Yes, a classmate from high school.
What was the last fundraising event that you took part in? It was a donation drive for the victims of the recent typhoon. A local Army chapter was hosting it and I wanted to donate whatever extra I had; we ended up raising around P80k! :)
How old were you 10 years ago? Who were your closest friends at that point? I was 14 at the time and my best friends were Angela and my now-ex.
^Do you still speak to any of them? I’m still very close with Angela!
Okay, I'll finish with something positive. Is there anything that you're looking forward to, in the near future? Finally resigning and finding a job that can serve as even just a little bit of a breather.
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We’re Only Human - Jake ‘Hangman’ Seresin
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Summary: Jake Seresin is many things, but above all else he just wants to be loved.
Warnings: swearing, sad!jake, insecurity
Note: 1.8k - ITS SAD BOI HOURS OVER HERE BESTIES!! I haven’t posted in the longest time and I finally finished one of my many (many) wips during my lunch break - best I post it now before I just, don’t.
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Jake Seresin was many things.
He was a respected, decorated naval aviator who had truly found his life’s calling up in the skies, high above the clouds. When you had first met him, you’d found how much he loved his career endearing and even refreshing. He had described to you the feeling of adrenaline that hit from taking off the runway when you’re the one at the controls, you could do nothing but smile at how animated he was as he talked.
He was an early bird. You put it down to the Navy in him if you had to guess. He was always awake before you, sometimes at downright ungodly hours. He’d leave you with a soft kiss to your shoulder when he rose from the bed as quietly as he could, smiling fondly at you as you cozied further into the warm duvet.
He was protective. That was probably the one trait about the pilot that hadn’t surprised you when you started seeing each other. Someone throws you off balance while making your way through a packed bar? Jake’s there to keep you on your feet while shooting daggers at the perpetrator. Being talked over while you’re trying to politely place your order? Don’t even worry, Jake’ll soon sort them out.
He was a momma’s boy who would do anything for his mother in a heartbeat. The first time Jake had taken you home to meet his parents you were amazed at how quickly this big, macho Lieutenant transformed into a sweet, southern gentleman for his mom. It became an inside joke between yourself and his father.
He was an amazing cook. Date number three was when Jake had invited you back to his place and wowed you with an array of tapas style dishes, making a game out of it and asking you to score every one out of ten. His usually confident smile had turned surprisingly shy when you raved about each one and rated well above ten.
But was a hater of dips. ‘I have a perfectly fine room-temperature potato chip,’ he would argue, ‘why would I go and ruin that with a cold dip that’s gonna kill the flavour completely of said room-temperature potato chip?’
Jake Seresin was many things… but quiet wasn’t one of them.
Which is why you were confused when he didn’t laugh at the gag on ‘That 70’s Show’, which happened to be one of his favourite sitcoms. Instead he stared at the wall behind the TV, fork resting in his bowl of pasta from when he had gone to take another mouthful… and then hadn’t.
“Jake?” Your voice seemed to snap him out of his daze as his head shot to face you, instantly planting a smile on his face when his eyes met yours.
“Hm?”
“You okay?” An emotion that didn’t fit with the smile he was currently sporting flew through his eyes at your question.
“Better than okay, baby.” With that he turned back to face the TV and resumed his eating, ignoring your look of concern as you kept your eyes on him for a moment longer before finally following suit.
He didn’t speak for the rest of the episode, and remained quiet into the next.
So, no, it wasn’t like Jake talked twenty-four seven. But this type of quiet… this was different. It was the vacant look in his eyes that had you wondering.
As much as you wanted to question him further, you knew he would talk to you when he was ready.
And maybe he was.
You made a move to reach over the coffee table to grab the two now abandoned dinner plates and begin the clean up. When you stood and turned away from the couch his voice stopped you from moving any further.
“Do you think I’m an asshole?”
When you turned back to face him he was staring once again at the wall behind the TV.
“What?”
He sighed and leant his forehead against his fist before finally turning his head to you and repeating his question, quieter this time, “Am I an asshole?”
You stood frozen in your spot, eyes narrowing at his question, “No… you’re not an asshole. What makes you ask that?”
Jake bit at his lip and turned away from you, pulling yourself out of your trance. You placed the plates back on the coffee table and returned to your seat next to him, sitting criss-cross on the sofa.
He stayed facing away from you and nodded to himself, “I’m an asshole.”
“What’s going on, Jake?” You reached out to lightly pull at his forearm, enticing him to turn to you.
When his eyes met yours your concern only grew. His eyes were usually full of life and happiness, now, they seemed to hold hurt.
“Please tell me what’s going on.”
“Phoenix has always thought I was. And now the whole group does. Thought that from the first time they met me. Two weeks ago,” he was rambling a bit, as he did when he was a bit worked up but you let him continue, trying to pick up on what the issue was, “I don’t even know what I did that night but everyone made up their minds apparently. And Bradshaw didn’t help the cause.”
You knew his history with Lieutenant Bradshaw was rocky. And you knew a lot of it stemmed from insecurity, mostly on Jake’s part.
He took a deep breath before continuing, “I said something dumb today.”
His eyes darted from yours to all over the room, “Something fuckin’ dumb. In front of everyone. That I shouldn’t have said and I knew I shouldn’t have said, but I did. And now everyone hates me, well… more. Even fuckin’ Javy told me off. Can you believe that? Javy, of all people.”
As long as you’d known Jake, you’d known Javy. And he had always had Jake’s back. So that revelation was actually a little surprising.
A beat of silence passed between the two of you before you decided to speak up softly, “What did you say?”
This time when he met your eyes you saw remorse and guilt, “Bradshaw… his parents are, you know,” dead, “And I found out that his old man was Maverick’s WSO, and was flying with him when his dad… you know.”
“Okay…?” You trailed off, not really knowing where this was going.
He rubbed harshly at his eyes as if he was trying rub away the memory, “And I… Jesus fucking Christ. I told everyone. Right in the middle of training. Just… laid it all out there. Like it was my story to tell.”
Oh shit.
“He launched at me, he was ready to kill me. Fair enough too. And I, I kept going. Kept poking the fuckin’ bear.” He took a deep breath, “Everyone jumped in, pulled us apart. Mav dismissed us. But God if looks could kill.”
So that’s why he was home before you today.
“Why’d you say it?” You asked after a moment. Jake closed his eyes at your question and shook his head.
“Because I’m an asshole? I don’t know. I don’t know why I said it.”
You had a pretty good idea as to why he said it, “I think you do know why you said it, Jake.”
He looked helpless and downright embarrassed at your words.
Jake was the best of the best. That wasn’t an exaggeration nor a secret. He worked tirelessly to get his skill level to where it was today. And that had meant accidentally burning some bridges along the way, resulting in not too many friendships.
Rooster on the other hand, while also an incredibly skilled pilot, had a habit of being loved everywhere he went. He was a very popular man. And that irked Jake something terrible.
Jake was jealous.
And the thought of his skill set potentially being overlooked because of some weird form of aviator nepotism? That didn’t sit well with him at all.
“I’m such an asshole.”
“You need to apologise to Rooster.” You offered gently, resting your hand on his shoulder.
He nodded, “I know. Fuck I know. But how do you apologise for something like that?”
His eyebrows scrunched together when he looked at you.
“You just… do. You need to mean it, and I know you do. Leave it tonight, but tomorrow. You need to talk to him.”
“Bet you think I’m a shitty person now, huh?”
There it was again, the insecurity.
You shook your head at his statement and took his hand, rubbing your thumb across the back of it, “Jake I know you. Better than anyone in that group. You’re not an asshole, I wouldn’t be here if you were. But you do need to work on letting people in, and acknowledging other people’s skills.”
He made a move to cut you off but you got in first, “Have you told Phoenix how in awe of her flying you are?”
His mouth snapped shut at that.
He’d raved about her skills years ago when they were deployed together, and again since they’d been training together over the past few weeks.
“It wouldn’t hurt to start acting like you care.”
“I do care!”
“I know that. I know you care too much. But Jake, you don’t always have to be this big macho man. No one’s going to think any less of you.”
He laced his fingers with yours and squeezed tightly, head tilted back as he took in what you were saying.
“God, you could do so much better than me.”
You smiled softly at the side of his face before leaning in to kiss his cheek, “I don’t want anyone else but you.”
The light red that dusted his cheeks made you grin. You wrapped both your arms around one of his and snuggled in closer, resting your head on his shoulder, revelling in the kiss he pressed to your hair.
It was a while before Jake spoke up again, “What if he won’t talk to me? What if he, what if everyone, actually hates me now?”
You felt your heart break for your partner. Nevermind the awards he got. Nevermind the records he set. Jake Seresin just wanted companionship. He’d found that with you and Javy, and he wanted that with his squad. He wanted what they already had with each other.
“You can only try, Jake. He’ll probably be pissed, rightfully so. But you have to try.”
You felt his head nod against his, “I will.”
Turning your head slightly you kissed his clothed shoulder, “I love you, Jake Seresin.”
“I love you too. So much.”
Jake Seresin was many things.
Above all else he was simply human.
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Okay so this was my request: would some acolytes of your choice react to a creator who treats everyone like they’re their children? For example, Xiao going "I need to slay monsters" and the creator is just like "Be careful and have fun, dinner will be ready at 7. Don’t be late <3" the thought is just so funny to me because everyone is trying to get attention from the reader and they’re just… so much like a parental figure despite being probably younger than most characters haha
Sorry this took me a bit to finish but Anon– your mind!!?
The way I'll baby some of these characters… oof. Everyone's got either a few years or a few centuries on me but idc. once they come home they've been adopted.
Characters: gn!reader, Xiao, Venti, and Childe
Warnings: honestly none besides a few mentioned injuries. Cult shenanigans have been toned down a bit because fluff brain took over.
Xiao:
He's not used to affection like this give him time 💖
Any time he comes back from his usual duties, you downright insist to make sure he's not hurt.
You can’t directly pair him up with a shield and healer anymore; it's the least you can do, you're worried.
All of your fussing over him makes him a little embarrassed.
I mean, you're the creator, and you're concerned about the likes of him?
Somehow you've procured very colorful pastel bandaids.
…You can see where this is going.
Any little scrape, scratch, or knick gets a mint green or aqua blue bandaid and a smooch.
After a mini internal meltdown, he's fine. Maybe. Don’t pay attention to the blush on his cheeks.
Xiao wears every bandaid with a sense of pride though.
He'd probably get a bit sad if one came off during a fight (though maybe a bit too happy if he got hurt again knowing you'd give him new ones)
He will never miss dinner. Ever.
Every night. On the dot. He won’t miss it.
Venti:
He's absolutely open to your parental affections.
More attention from you = happy Venti.
His diet of apples and wine worried you, so you make him lunches.
He might've argued against it, but he quickly realized that denying it would only make you worry more.
"Please don't forget to eat Venti."
You pack his bags, give him a lil kith on the cheek, and send him on his way.
He's elated and 5 seconds away from writing 50 songs about how wonderful you are.
He's also been ordered invited to dinner with you and Xiao.
No one is going hungry on your watch. No one.
"I don't care if you're legally Immortal, it's no excuse to skip out on a home cooked meal."
Childe:
Tbh he probably accidentally crashed a dinner once and then got adopted.
You saw him with cuts n bruises and the parental instinct just snapped.
Was he a bit shocked to casually see an Adepti and the Anemo archon just chatting over dinner with the creator?
Yes. Yes he was.
And then it was made all the worse (better?) When you had led him to a couch and started looking him over.
The guilt of not being able to protect them starts to set in again.
"Um, your excellency?" "You're hurt, why aren't you at a healer, you're hurt."
Xiao kinda gives him a look like "you get used to it." And walks away to do his thing.
After the initial shock however, Childe was 110% down with the treatment.
He wears every bandaid with pride.
Definitely tries to get a lil banged up on purpose every once in awhile just to have you dote on him some more. He can't help it, he's a menace.
Probably ends up in a semi-sibling rivalry with Venti.
"They love me more" "no, their grace loves me more"
Weapons at the ready constantly.
They try and fail to hide this rivalry from you.
You end up scolding them for it.
"I love you both equally, now please stop before you end up killing each other."
Overall happy family. 11/10 recommend.
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liptonsbabe · 3 years
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My dear [S.U]
Sam Uley x Fem! reader!
Summary: “Did you have a hard day? You can complain to me. Did something make you almost cry? It’s alright, look at me. Starting from now, think of three really good things: the warm air, the dazzling weather, and me outside your window.  I told you, you can see brightness only when it gets dark”
Word count: 2.5k
Warnings: Mentions of abuse, death, heart dissease and such. English not my mother language so pls let me know if something’s wrong
gif’s not mine
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"Sorry to bother you, Chief," you said following the man's moves through your house. Charlie Swan was carrying a reclining chair with ease leaving it in the middle of the living room while you stood at the bottom of the stairs with your little four year old daughter in your arms. Cassie was exhausted. It had been a long plane ride and a bit more road travel, which knocked your little girl out as soon as you set foot in your new home in Forks. It was a long time since you had seen that place but of course you remembered Charlie Swan as kind as he had always been. Even when you were just starting to think about moving back to Forks he was the first to help you get a safe home for you and your daughter. You remembered looking up for Charlie's old phone number hoping it was still the same and when you dialed and heard the man's voice behind the phone you sighed in relief. At last life seemed to be smiling on you after a long time and Charlie was quick to offer to help you if you decided to return to town.
He told you about a house for sale next to his. The owner was elderly and preferred to live with one of her children and earn income from the house near the forest that could be bought by curious tourists so Charlie convinced her to sell you the house and at a lower price than she was originally asking because the house needed some repairs that he could do. So you thought no more about it and packed your things to return to Forks after the horrible years you had lived in Brownsville.
Charlie picked you up at the airport in his police cruiser and avoided turning on the siren cause Cassie was already half asleep in your arms when you got off the plane and he didn't want to disturb her, but Cassie had the strength to stay awake long enough to make him promise that next time he would turn on the siren as they drove around town.
The truth was that Charlie Swan was an angel. He arranged everything so you would have a quick return and even now he was bothering to get all your stuff out of the moving truck so you wouldn't have the worry of doing it later.
"Nonsense, I'm happy to do it. Besides, it's my day off."
"And that's why you shouldn't be doing all this. I know vacations for police officers are non-recurring."
"I'm the chief, I have certain privileges."
"Still."
"Well, I wasn't going to let you do this on your own" he replied, carrying the boxes with your and Cassie's clothes. He set them down on the kitchen island and leaned back against them to rest. You walked over and settling Cassie better in your arms you sat down in one of the chairs Charlie had given you "Billy and Jacob will be here in a little while to get all this settled so you can have your first night here without any problems."
"I still think it's too much. Stop spoiling me like this, Charlie, you even gave me part of your dining room!"
"Ah, it was nothing. Bella and I recently bought a new one and we didn't want to take it to the dump cause it still has some use. The table is made out of good wood and the chairs are freshly upholstered. Look at it, it suits perfectly!"
"That's not the point" you said, glancing sideways at the newly arranged dining room near the kitchen "The point is that you're doing a lot for me and it's not fair."
"Your father would have done the same for Bella if it had been about me" he replied reaching for a bottle of water from the installed cooler. A sudden tension appeared in the room as you both remembered what your father's life was like in Forks "Jackson was my best friend for a long time and when he died...I promised him that I would seek you out and support you as if you were my own and that is precisely what I am doing."
"You wouldn't have if I hadn't left and hadn't abandoned him. He died because of me"
"That's not true."
"He was left alone when I left. He died of grief"
"He died from the heart valve disease he had. Your father suffered it from a young age and even so, you had a right to look for your mother"
"I wish I hadn't" you murmured, cooing to Cassie who was beginning to get annoyed by the noise of your voices "I abandoned my father and didn't find anything worthwhile"
"Well, that doesn't matter anymore, stop tormenting yourself and thinking you killed your father. I was with him. He loved you and he died peacefully, remember him as the good man he was, child."
You sighed. Cassie went back to sleep peacefully
"You're right. I'm sorry."
"Don't worry, sweetheart. I know it's not the same, but you have me now and I'd rather die than let you leave again, do you hear me?"
"Easy, I have no intention of doing that" you half smiled "I'm running away from the tracks I left in Brownsville, I have no desire to go back under any circumstances. What I'm worried about is that the tracks won't rub off and show the way to the one I'm hiding from"
Charlie clicked his tongue.
"That should be the least of your problems. I have a gun and I know how to use it. He'll have to deal with that first before he gets to you."
"Thanks, Charlie."
"Although, if Chief Swan is as good at shooting as he is at fishing then you'll have to learn how to handle a gun yourself, honey" a voice appeared from the doorway followed by a young man's laughter.  You looked up meeting the unmistakable face of Billy Black next to his son Jacob. Billy entered your house being pushed by Jacob leaving him next to Charlie as he rolled his eyes "Be a little more modest, buddy."
"There's nothing wrong with bragging once in a while."
"Yeah, but you do it all the time."
"Shut up."
"Make me"
Charlie got up from his spot lunging towards Billy who ina swift movement spun the wheels of his chair avoiding Charlie's attack thus beginning a chase through the house dodging the obstacles of boxes on the floor. Jacob laughed taking Charlie's place in front of you.
"I thought we were coming to help with the move, not to watch them play like preschoolers?"
"Me too. I think Cassie will get along with them."
"Your little girl will beat them up right away"
"Probably."
You giggled quietly avoiding waking Cassie as Charlie and Billy finished their game to go back to the truck and get the last boxes, then you could finally get everything settled at home. Jacob smiled, looking at you
"I'm Jacob. You may not remember me but..."
"Are you kidding? I used to give you the bottle."
"No you didn't."
"Of course i did! My dad used to visit your parents a lot and he used to take me with him. You were a newborn baby and I used to volunteer to help Sarah feed you. You were the worst baby ever. You cried too loudly and squeezed the bottle with your swollen gums. Then you'd throw the milk back and you used to get really messy. Your poop was the smelliest I could remember."
"Don't say that!" he replied, embarrassed "I see you do remember me."
"And Quill and Embry. Tell me, are they still the same old fools?"
"They haven't changed at all."
You laughed.
"Perfect."
"Ok, these are the last boxes" announced Charlie walking into the house carrying with him a small box with Cassie's toys. Billy came in behind with some boxes on his lap "I think now we can get everything organized and finishing in time for you to get some rest."
"I'll clean up the little girl's room" offered Jacob standing up "then I'll fill the closet and set up the bed so you can lay her down, you must be tired from carrying her around for so long. is that okay with you?" he asked you. You nodded
"Yes, thank you Jacob."
"You're welcome. Give me that" The boy took the boxes off his father's legs and picked up Charlie's, all with one arm and with the other he carried the folding base of the bed. You opened your eyes wide 
"Easy, big guy, when did you get so strong?"
"I don't know. It just... showed up" he replied disappearing up the stairs
"It showed up" said Charlie "Ah, I hope shows up something like that to me"
"Don’t hold your breath as that happens" Billy joked.
"I should do something for lunch" you said trying to stand up. You were going to put Cassie down on one of the couches and put some cushions around her, but Charlie won't let you. Billy agreed 
"None of that. We'll order something."
"But..."
"Nothing" interrupted Billy "We'll buy pizza"
"You guys really need to stop doing this" you reproached. Billy picked up his phone
"Ah, sorry, you had to say that earlier, I'm already on the call."
"You guys are unbelievable"
Charlie smiled
"We know. oh I'll get Bella, she hasn't said hello yet" Charlie walked out before you could say anything else and closed the door dismissing the moving truck. Billy smiled complicitly, placed the order, gave the address and left the cell phone on the kitchen bar
"Dinner is served."
"Thank you."
"They had children's menu, so I ordered it for Cassie. I hear their brownies are delicious. Maybe I'll steal it for myself."
"I'll keep it as a secret"
Billy nodded with a smile and as the food arrived you chatted animatedly about what had happened in your absence, he also told you things about your father and all the times they went fishing together before his death. You were enjoying Billy's stories when time began to pass and Charlie didn’t return with Bella as he promised. Jacob was finishing Cassie's room and when the pizza arrived he came downstairs immediately, asking about Charlie's whereabouts.
"He went to get Bella, but he hasn't come back yet."
"That's strange, his house is right next door."
"Maybe something came up for him at the station" Billy shrugged.
You  decided to wait for the Swans to eat, but seeing that they didn't show up Jacob offered to investigate what was going on when suddenly the door opened and a very worried Charlie Swan walked in wiping the sweat from his brow
"Bella’s missing."
"What?"
Jacob suddenly became alert and Billy remained static in his place. You felt a knot in your stomach. While riding in the police cruiser that morning, you had heard something about tourist disappearances and wild creatures killing people in the woods and you feared Bella might be in that kind of danger. You were never close, but you knew her and occasionally went out together to talk or share a movie night. You still hadn't seen her after the years you were away and the least you wanted was for something bad to happen to her.
"Did you talk to any of her friends?"
"She was with them during classes, but they lost track of her on her way here. I'll call the Cullens, maybe..."
"You didn't know?" asked Billy "The Cullens left Forks, Charlie."
"Where did they go?"
"We'll find her" encouraged Jacob "But we have to go out and look for her before dark."
"I'll go with you" you said "I'll take Cassie to her room and..."
"No, no, stay" Charlie asked you "I left a note for Bella at home in case she comes back she’ll know that she has to come here and wait for me. If she does, call me right away, please" you nodded
"I'll call Harry and ask him to join along with the boys" Billy said and wheeled away down the hallway holding the phone to his ear. Charlie and Jacob left and you decided to take Cassie to the room, go down to the kitchen and make some coffee for the Brigadiers and Bella. If she was alone in the woods and the night was catching up with her then she was going to need something hot to get her strength back. 
You hoped with all your heart that she was all right. For her, for Charlie.
.
.
.
Hours passed one after another with no sign of Bella. Your driveway was carpeted with people and police cruisers specially brought by Charlie to search for Bella. The entire town was scoured by officers from the early hours of the night, yet there was no trace of the chief's daughter. You decided to join the search taking the opportunity that Sue Clearwater was playing with Cassie - who was awakened by the ruckus of the patrol cars - asking if it was a good idea to search for her in the woods, but Harry refused.
"It's too dangerous, we don't know what might be among the trees. We can't risk losing any more people."
You were about to object his words when Jacob came up to you putting a hand on your shoulder telling you that he was right and that the forest was something not to be taken lightly. So you gave up, deciding to go back inside and refill the coffee pot when Jacob alerted Charlie that someone had found Bella.
A tall man walked in a straight line toward the Brigadiers where Billy and Harry watched him with restrained relief. He had a stocky frame and Bella unconscious in his arms seemed to weigh no more than a feather. His cropped black hair was messy and his lack of a shirt told you that the icy cold of the city didn't affect him at all
You knew him. His face was very familiar yet strange at the same time. You were back in Forks after a few years, but you knew that no one could change that much in that period of time.
Sam Uley was holding Bella and Charlie took her in his arms as he came out of the stupor and relief of having found his daughter. The Brigadiers sighed in unison and Billy thanked them all. You wanted to do something, to approach Charlie, to ask him if he needed help with Bella, but your eyes were caught in Sam’s. 
They were dark, wild, like the forest behind him. You remembered him perfectly. 
Before you left Forks you two were close friends and came to like each other as something more, but your leaving ended that and what you might have been up to that point.
You tried to look away, but then Sam's huge body began to shake, his knees buckled and he fell to the ground resting his hands on the dirt. Harry Clearwater reacted and approached him asking if he was okay.
"Tired" you heard him whisper causing you to shudder. Harry helped him up, whispered something in his ear and after taking one last look at you he disappeared into the woods. Harry walked back towards you.
"I thought the forest was dangerous"
"For us."
"What do you mean?"
Harry looked at you. Then he looked at his wife with Cassie in her arms standing at the doorway . He smiled.
"You'll find out soon, child"
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teuanjo · 3 years
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Yandere Nanami.
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!TW¡ Obsession, ooc Nanami, yandere Nanami, kidnapping, harassment (?)
!711 Words¡ !Gn!Reader¡
N/a:I wrote this in a time when I felt useless, unloved and overwhelmed, so it's pretty self-indulgent.
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Nanami was fine, his life was fine, fine financially, apparently mentally as well. But still, something was missing.
After a few years of being a damned salaryman, Nanami can finally retire. Earlier, the way he always dreamed, his expenses weren't something to really worry about, he didn't have any problems...maybe one, what's the point of being a homeowner with no one to care?
It was a sunny day at the beach, the kids playing bothered him.
-Why can't be my son running happy?"
Oh yes, that was the problem. Nanami thought, thought a lot about adopting a child, but get his side, that wouldn't be enough. So he saw you, you didn't look like the most radiant person on that beach, but the small smile you gave while talking to a friend was enough to attract Nanami. The bikini wrapped your chubby body in a magnificent way, it looked like one of those scenes in a movie where the hot girl comes out of the water, but it was just you, sitting and looking like you weren't even in that reality.
He tried to approach you, ask you out, but apparently you weren't interested, afraid to love or something, he didn't really pay attention to what you said after the rejection, he just bowed and left with a low request to apologies.
See, Nanami is a tired man, he doesn't have time for the conquest part really, especially if you're the only person who piques his interest in a long time. If he wouldn't know you for good, he would know for bad.
He no longer regrets the dinners he was forced by the company to go to, where he was forced to form alliances, get contacts. Even more so now that one of these contacts has made it even easier to find out about you.
Full name, age, birth, country of origin, height, weight. Nanami knew everything he needed about you, he also knew where you worked, it was only a matter of time before he showed up at his work.
A small bakery, could you be more perfect? He ordered a coffee initially, sat at the counter so he could try to continue a conversation with you, it doesn't work initially but after the fifth time he shows up at your work it looks like you've gotten used to him.
Finally he asked for your number.
-Nanami, you're nice and all but I'm not really looking for a relationship. I'm sorry."
Oh, okay, it would have to be bad.
Skipping a few pages, all you knew was that you were now stuck with this man you thought was crazy.
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-Darling what would you like for lunch hm? Could I make your favorite food if you'd answer me, or would you prefer to continue eating spam?"
It was like that two months ago, at least you thought, I've been in that house for so long that you didn't have any sense of time anymore, and between us, your memory was never good.
-You could stop being naughty and answer me, don't you think? It wouldn't kill you."
His voice was spinning in your head, you were no longer understanding anything, your vision wavered and out of nowhere it seemed like you had ceased to exist. It was nice to be like this for a while maybe, out of trouble, away from the man who kidnapped you. But of course, it never lasts long.
-Maybe we should look for some way to take care of your dissociation. Oh, you're back, are you alright dear?"
Please stop pretending it's okay, please stop treating me right, I at least deserve this, please let me go back to my mediocre life, you kidnapped me, I don't wanna love you.
-wa...water, please?"
Nanami's heart could burst with joy, you spoke to him! It wasn't much, but it was something. That was the plan, approach you, make you think you finally deserved love. He knew you, he knew your mental health, he knew you were an unloved person, that you grew up without the affection of parents or lovers, he just needed to shower you with love, you would surrender soon, it was only a matter of time, soon you would be his perfect love.
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sunwoo-hoo · 3 years
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↣ the boyz reaction to s/o feeling stressed
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↳ a/n: hello my lovelies! we are back with another tbz reaction! side note, with every reaction i get it’s going to be canon with my ‘as your boyfriend series’ so keep that in mind when requesting. this is for the lovely anon who requested this. i hope you enjoy it. ☻ 18+ due to language
↳ genre: fluff? slight angst? i don’t even know someone tell me
↳ requested? yes
↳ send me your requests here!
↳ word count: 3.4k
↳ the boyz x fem reader
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「 Lee Sangyeon  」
you normally weren’t one to get stressed out often but when your job decided to give you a promotion you weren’t expecting the extra workload it would bring
you got assigned to one of the major projects your company was working on and slowly but surely you felt your energy draining with each day passing by
even though sangyeon was extremely busy as well he was worried about you  
after coming home from a long day of practice sangyeon noticed when you weren’t in the front foyer to give him his welcome home kiss like you usually did
as he walked to your bedroom he saw you sitting by the desk typing away at your computer
as he made his way towards you he squatted down slightly to give you a warm cheek kiss
“hey baby, how about you take a break huh? you’ve been working so hard, let me cook something for you” he insisted
“hmm? oh.. okay, i’m sorry sangyeon, work has been driving me up the wall lately i didn’t mean to shut you out” you mumbled
he gave you a small smile as he stroked your cheek before replying “don’t worry about it baby i just don’t want you to overwork yourself” he said
during your break sangyeon is cooking you dinner, listening to all your troubles and even trying his best to help you with your project. by the end of the night expect a lot of cuddles and kisses.
「 Jacob Bae  」
stress was something you’ve always experienced, especially being a university student finishing your final year
jacob was super supportive of your dreams always helping you study in any way he can
sometimes even distracting you to get your mind off it so that you wouldn’t burn out
but as final exams were just around the corner you were so stressed to the point that you cried and threw your book across the table in frustration
jacob turned his head and quickly took notice since he was only a couple of feet away reading a book which he swiftly set down and rushed to your side
“oh babe, don’t cry please, i promise it’s going to be okay” he whispered as he wiped your tears away  
you completely broke down sobbing uncontrollably onto jacob’s sleeve as he held you close giving you hushed praise
“how about we go and rest for a little? a nap would be good for you” he softly asked as you simply nodded
jacob helped you up as you made your way to your bedroom where he made it relaxing as possible turning on the air humidifier and lighting a lavender candle. he also made sure that the curtains were closed so that the room was dark enough to fall asleep to
soon enough your drifting into a calming sleep in jacob’s arms.
「 Kim Younghoon  」
it had been 3 months since you’ve started dating kim younghoon, your relationship was everything you could’ve dreamed of. it was absolutely perfect with no flaws what so ever.  
with all that in mind you started to wonder why you both hadn’t exchange i love you’s. you knew younghoon felt strongly for you, always making sure you were taken care of, constantly hugging and kissing you.
the whole situation started to stress you out and make you second guess everything
you loved younghoon but you had to admit you were a bit apprehensive on saying it first, since you didn’t know what younghoon’s response would be.
he could’ve said it back, or worse, not say anything at all.
one evening when younghoon was sleeping over your place you decided then and there that you were going to muster up your courage and finally say the three words you’ve been stressing over.
as you both were watching t.v his arms draped over your shoulders you looked up over at younghoon who was fixated on the drama that was playing. you cleared your throat
“younghoon.. i have to tell you something… something i’ve been wanting to tell you for awhile now” you announced hesitantly
as he looked over at you he adjusted his body to fully look at you face on
“really? i actually have something to say as well” he replied
your ears perked as you continued “how about we say it at the same?”
he nodded smiling before counting down “3…2…1..”
“i love you” you said “i’m in love with you” he whispered
you breathed the biggest sigh of relief before sliding in his lap giving him the softest kiss as you felt younghoon’s arms around your waist
「 Lee Hyunjae 」
your relationship with hyunjae was many things, exciting, passionate, intense. never in a million years would you think it would be stressful, or let me rephrase: you never thought it would be this stressful  
you received a text message from hyunjae one afternoon saying that he needed to talk to you and that it was important
at that moment your mind was going through so many options on what it could be, your thoughts becoming worse and worse.
oh god is this it? he wants to beak up with me
did he cheat on me? i’ll fucking kill him if he did
oh my god what if he’s not in love with me anymore?
as your mind was going a mile a minute you finally broke out of your daze when your friend who you were out to lunch with told you that it probably wasn’t all that bad and that you should trust hyunjae.
when the evening finally  rolled around you went to visit hyunjae just right when he got home from practice.
“hey baby” he smiled giving you a peck on the lips, giving him a small you replied “hey” back as you two sat on the sofa
“so what’s going on?” you asked as you were rubbing your palms against your knees trying to get rid of the sweat
hyunjae instantly noticed your anxious aura and grabbed your hands holding them tightly giving them a kiss
“well, we’ve been dating for almost a year now and i think it’s time.. for you to meet my parents” he said proudly
you blinked a couple of times as your brain still hadn’t registered the information he just said
“i want them to meet the girl i’m madly in love with” he continued
when you finally heard his words your first instinct was to hit hyunjae’s arm
“ah! hey! what was that for?” he shouted rubbing his arm
“jesus christ hyunjae i thought you were breaking up with me!” you shouted back
he laughed grabbing your waist pulling you close on his lap putting his head in the crook of your neck “i could never” he whispered giving your neck a light kiss
「 Lee Juyeon 」
to say that you were having a bad week was the understatement of the year.
it all started when you caught the flu, you felt horrible. it was constant sneezing, throwing up, runny nose, all of it.
you started to feel stressed when juyeon risked his safety getting sick to take care of you. you especially didn’t want him getting sick when the boyz comeback was nearly a month away.
you told him that you could take care of yourself, but juyeon didn’t take no for an answer.
you had to admit even though you were sick you couldn’t deny that you loved having juyeon with you 24/7 he was being the perfect boyfriend getting you tea, wet cloths for your forehead, and making sure you took your medicine every night.
“open your mouth, good girl” he praised putting the spoonful of medicine in your mouth
“you know if i wasn’t sick you would be saying those exact words another way” you teased coughing slightly
juyeon smirked and kissed your forehead in response
slowly but surely after a week you were starting to feel better but then your sickness hit juyeon as predicted delaying the comeback for nearly two weeks.
「 Kevin Moon 」
it was a hard month for kevin, the boyz comeback had just started and he was stressing over all the performances and interviews wanting to make sure that each one was up to his standards
it was so bad that all his stress levels were slowing creeping up on you making you become stressed yourself
it was starting to effect your relationship and you knew you had to do something quick before you and kevin would get into a fight you were not mentally prepared for
the comeback was closing in on it’s last week and you had decided to make one evening extremely special pampering kevin.
you decided to make his favorite meal, wearing your sexy yet tasteful red dress, with your black lacy bra and matching panties for later activities.
as kevin walked into your apartment he noticed you immediately smiling at your attire
“hey babe, what’s all this?” he asked pointing to all the candles and dim lighting
“what do you mean? can’t i do something special for the man i love?” you replied innocently walking up to him giving him a soft kiss on the lips
as kevin deepened the kiss your back found it’s way to the cold wall behind you as kevin started to trail kisses along the side of your jaw making his way down to your neck
you were excited it wasn’t often that kevin was a dom but you had pressing matters to attend to first
“k-kevin wait… i want to talk first” you whimpered as he finally reached your sweet spot
kevin stopped immediately to your words and gave you a quick peck on lips before nodding
you grabbed his hand and made your way to the dining table where the food was most likely cold by now and sat down on the chair
“kev, i just wanted to talk about how you’ve been so stressed with this comeback and everything it’s.. it’s starting to effect our relationship” you mumbled
he sighed and agreed “i know it has, and i’m so sorry for that babe” he said grabbing your hand as he continued “i’ll promise to be better about it, you know that i don’t want to ruin what we have. i love you”
you smiled feeling 100 times better about the situation giving kevin a kiss on the cheek  
you lightly laughed as you pulled apart “the dinner is totally cold now by the way”
“let’s just order a pizza, it probably wasn’t that good anyway” he teased before you shoved him playfully in response
「 Choi Chanhee 」
what was suppose to be a relaxing day off spending it with your boyfriend choi chanhee it drastically changed into a nightmare
you both decided to spend the day shopping for some new clothes together
at first you thought it was a cute idea, thinking you would get matching couple outfits so that you can coordinate for the upcoming summer season
but it quickly turned into a stressful day when chanhee wanted you to try on every shirt, every dress, and pants, you were starting to regret this little outing until you finally snapped at him
“love, you would look so cute in this why don’t you-”
“no!” you yelled quickly covering your mouth at your sudden outburst in public
chanhee gave you a puzzled look not expecting your sudden change in mood
you quickly apologized not wanting to start a fight in public, pulling him to the side of the store where it was secluded from prying eyes
“chanhee… i’m sorry it’s just i’m tired i thought this would be fun but it’s stressing me out, it’s all too much” you sighed looking down at your shoes
chanhee pushed a strand of your hair behind your ear and lifted your head up with his index finger
“oh love, don’t apologize i should be the one apologizing i’m sorry for being excited, i just wanted to have a fun day with you, let’s go home okay?” he reassured kissing your temple
「 Ji Changmin/Q 」
you had it all planned out, you were going to introduce your friends to your wonderful boyfriend ji changmin
you ultimately thought that they should finally meet him after dating for nearly 4 months
at first you had no idea why you decided to wait this long, considering you already met all the members and were close to each of them
you were extremely nervous and stressed for their first interaction you just wanted everything to be perfect with smooth sailing
changmin was going to meet two of your closest friends who were also a couple themselves
it was a chilly fall day when you all decided to meet up at a nearby cafe changmin’s hand in yours trying to warm it up blowing on it while pressing kisses
“don’t worry babe, it’s all going to work out fine” he smiled easing your nervousness
when you finally made it to the cafe your friends were already waiting and quickly made introductions  
they easily took noticed when changmin ordered your drink he knew you loved and paid for everything with his card as your friends gave you hushed whispers
“wow, he’s such a gentlemen” she gushed “yeah, and he even knew your order by heart” he replied giving you a thumbs up
you smiled when changmin returned with both of your orders giving you a cheek kiss when he sat down
to your surprise the conversation between the four of you went smoothly changmin easily wooing them with his charms and cheerful aura
your friends especially had a million questions when it came to his idol life out of general curiosity
changmin didn’t mind at all answering every single one with ease even laughing at the humorous ones
your heart melted at the interaction when you realized in the end you had nothing to worry about
「 Juhaknyeon 」
you knew juhaknyeon always loved your home cooking as he was always excited whenever he came home from practice knowing he would have a hot meal ready for him
but this time was different, you weren’t just cooking for him but cooking for his parents who so happen to be visiting you two
you met juhaknyeon’s parents before who were very down to earth and humble people always making you feel welcomed
but you had to admit you were a bit stressed trying to live up to the expectations
it was less than a couple of hours away before they would be arriving and you were running around the supermarket with juhaknyeon on your tail
“babe, slow down your gonna run out of energy” he grunted breathing heavily
“juhak you don’t understand your parents opinion mean the world to me, i want them to love my cooking” you said looking down at your hands trying to decide between the beef or pork belly
juhaknyeon gave you a side hug pulling you close “they are going to love whatever you make, because i love it too” he promised kissing the top of your head
when you finally made it back to the dorms and cooked up a storm that would’ve fed all 11 members juhakyeon’s parents finally made an appearance
after the quick greetings and the light scolding from juhak’s mother telling him to keep his room neater she finally took in your food spread
“wow! it all looks amazing [name] i’m sure it taste wonderful too” she smiled warmly pinching your cheek lightly
when you all finally sat down to eat you anxiously waited for juhakyeon’s parents comments
after a couple of bites juhak’s mother proudly exclaimed “it’s delicious [name] really! everything taste amazing, i’m so happy our son found someone who can feed him like this” she praised
you bowed your head thanking her for her positive comments as haknyeon grabbed your hand under the table squeezing it giving you a wink
「 Kim Sunwoo 」
you loved your mother dearly, but she was starting to text and call you nearly everyday about when you and sunwoo were finally going to get married
even though you loved sunwoo and were dating for a year and half you told her that it wasn’t a good time yet. sunwoo had major responsibilities when it came to his idol life
not to mention that you and sunwoo were still very young and just wanted to enjoy being together before you had to tackle even more responsibilities like marriage
you were laying in bed when you got off the phone with your mother after another hour long call
you sighed staring at ceiling fan feeling pressured and stressed when sunwoo walked in the bedroom
“hey babe, have you seen my adidas hoodie?” he wondered as he saw you looking emotionless at the ceiling
he hovered over you waving his hands across your face trying to get your attention
“hm? oh sorry it’s behind the door in the bathroom” you mumbled
sunwoo swiftly climbed on top of you resting his chin on your chest “what’s wrong babe? who was on the phone?” he asked
you hesistantly replied “it’s just my mother, she keeps wondering when.. well.. she keeps asking when we’re getting married” you laughed lightly
sunwoo smirked “oh really? close your eyes” he instructed
confused you did as you were told as you felt sunwoo get off you hearing the sound of the dresser opening
“okay now open” he said as you saw sunwoo with your own two eyes on his knee with a black velvet box in his hands
“sunwoo oh my god, don’t do this to me i-i’m” you stammered as you felt your hands begin to shake
he smiled and open the box where you saw a gorgeous sterling silver infinity ring with a small diamond in the middle
“[name] this isn’t an engagement ring, it’s a promise. a promise to always love you and cherish you, and to always respect you. i am going to marry you one day, when we’re both ready. i’ve never loved anyone as much as i love you” he vowed putting the ring on your finger
you then felt the tears flow grabbing his face with both your hands giving him a longing kiss falling back on the bed with him on top of you
as sunwoo began to take off his shirt that’s when you saw his necklace with the same infinity symbol as your ring
you smiled as you grabbed his necklace pulling him back down for another kiss
「 Eric Sohn 」
it was official you wanted to kill eric, he knew you were afraid of heights. yet he manage to persuade you on getting on an airplane to go to okinawa for a weekend getaway trip
you loved that he put so much thought into your weekend, making sure to pick the nicest hotel with a view by lots of restaurants and attractions
but you were beyond stressed, the only time you’ve been on an airplane is when you were little and moved to seoul from america, you barely remember the experience sleeping the entire trip
your body was shaking as you walked up the ramp finally boarding the airplane going to your seats
eric put away your luggage above the overhead bin and took the window seat hoping you would feel more comfortable being in the middle
as you took your seats your heart started to beat extremely fast and you started to breath heavily
eric took your hands in his “babe i promise it’s going to be okay flying is one of the safest ways to travel” he promised rubbing the side of your arm trying to calm you down
you nodded “no yeah your right i need to face my fears sometime” you bravely said
when the flight finally took off your nerves managed to subdued until you hit mild turbulence which freaked you out all over again
eric quickly grabbed his sleeping mask putting it over your eyes and large headphones with loud music trying to mask your senses which worked wonders as you lay your head on his shoulder
he held your hand tightly when you finally landed getting off the 2 hour flight
as you made your way to the hotel you were in awe of okinawa absorbing all the buildings and the mass of people walking by
you looked at eric “thank you eric this is amazing, i don’t think there’s anyone else i would trust to help me face my fears” you said bashfully
he leaned over and kissed your jaw “anytime babe” he murmured
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Dulcis (Part I)
This is my formal submission to The Pit™️ (so much filth)
This is going to be a two part series! It doesn't end here
(I know this might not be everyone's cup of tea since it is about infidelity. Reader is engaged and David is married. Please feel free to skip this if that doesn't interest you!)
Dave (Murder Daddy) York x F!Reader
Pairing: David York x F!Reader
Word Count: 12K (are we even surprised at this point)
Warnings: **TRIGGER WARNING** NSFW 18+ INFIDELITY! (reader is engaged, David is married) language, Smut, PIV sex (wrap it up), dirty talk, **daddy kink** oral (m receiving / mentions of female receiving) vaginal fingering (in a public space), praise & aftercare, guilt?- let me know if I missed any!
Masterlist Part 2
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“Alright who’s up first?” They all looked away from you, they always do this when they have to present their projects. It’s understandable, you could remember doing it when you were in school.
“If no one volunteers I’ll have to pick someone.” You smiled sympathetically. You saw a couple of your braver students raise their hands. Once the first student went the others saw that like always- it wasn’t so bad.
You managed to get through all of them before lunch which, as a second grade teacher, was a miracle.
They were a little rowdy during the lunch hour but that was to be expected. You used the much needed break to gather your things for the math work that had to be done after recess.
You felt your phone vibrating in your pocket and you checked your messages- there were two from your fiancé Charlie.
Can’t we just elope?
Hi by the way
You could have killed him, you sighed, smiling as you quickly responded to him.
No, hi! Don’t make me say I told you so while I’m at work, I take it your hunt for the tux isn’t going so well?
You had suggested eloping right when he’d proposed, a big wedding wasn’t something you needed. A trip to the courthouse and a nice dinner after would have been just fine with you.
It’s bullshit, lol I fucking hate shopping - I’ll figure it out, have a great day at work, love you xo
You quickly put your phone away at the commotion in class.
Two of the kids were arguing, it was getting intense and you had no idea what caused it.
“Okay you two settle down, finish your lunch - recess-“
One of the students suddenly punched the other square in the face. It was a practised, precise thing and it shocked you.
“Alice! We do not hit.” You didn’t yell it but you used a tone that silenced all the children. You quickly made your way over to them, Jacob was bleeding from the nose and you called the school nurse to come get him. Calling the principal after to let her know what happened.
“Alice, you’re staying inside during recess with me, that was unacceptable. I’m going to have to call your parents. You know we don’t fix things by fighting.” You spoke to her in a neutral tone, trying to keep the anger out.
“But he-“ you cut her off.
“No, none of that. We’ll discuss this with your parents.” You didn’t want to hear it, you looked through your desk for the contact sheet to call while the kids played outside. She sat at her desk quietly, watching you through sad eyes.
“Hi, I’m looking for David York? I’m Alice York’s teacher and I need to speak to him please.” The receptionist sounded wary, she asked for your name and the name of the school and you provided the information. You waited for him to pick up but the receptionist came back and informed you that Mr. York was currently away from his desk but that she would leave a message. Hopefully Mrs York would pick him.
“Hi is this Carol York? Hello Mrs York, yes I’m calling about Alice? Yes that’s right, no she’s fine there’s no emergency but I do have to ask you and your husband to come in for a meeting with me tonight. Well there’s been an incident…” You explained what happened and she was very apologetic, agreeing to come to see you right after work.
You quickly texted Charlie to let him know you’d be late.
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Alice didn’t give you any more trouble for the rest of the day, Jacob had a bit of a bloody nose but overall he was okay.
The day went smoothly and as all of the children went home you had Alice sit and colour while you both waited for her parents. You didn’t have to wait long.
Your head lifted at the soft knock at your door, you saw an apologetic looking woman and her very bored looking husband.
“Hello, we’re so sorry! I’m Carol and this is my husband David, Alice come here and explain yourself.” She walked over to your desk to shake your hand. David followed reluctantly.
“What happened kiddo?” He asked her as she approached.
“Jacob took my notebook and wouldn’t give it back.” She looked at her mother ashamed.
“We don’t hit you know that! I’m so sorry about this - we’ll have a talk with her when we get home.” She sat at the chairs you gestured to - you noticed David’s face as Alice spoke. A sly smile, quickly wiped away to look stern. Was he proud of her?
You agreed with the need to stick up for yourself but taking a notebook was hardly a reason for two second graders to resort to a brawl. He saw you looking at him and he nodded sagely.
“We’re very sorry about this.” He wasn’t sorry.
You took him in as Carol spoke to Alice in hushed tones on her lap, he was an imposing man, tall and broad. He wore a suit and for all the world looked like a professional but there was something about him that made you blush. You had the vague sense that he was undressing you with his eyes and it made your heart race. He was very handsome, but in a sinister way.
“Never again right Alice?” You spoke to her before turning your attention to her parents. “She’ll have detention for the next two days, no recess, but I won’t keep her after school.” You spoke as neutrally as you could with Mr York's eyes boring into you. You could almost feel them burning you.
“Yes of course, that’s not a problem. We will talk about this when we get home, young lady.” Carol spoke half to you and half to her daughter. David continued to stare.
You were thankful this would be it and were just getting ready to guide them to the door when he spoke.
“How are her grades otherwise? Is she doing well?” He said it in a low tone.
You could learn to crave that voice.
Get a fucking grip
“They’re good, she’s a great student otherwise, got an A on her book report today. Just have to remember to keep our hands to ourselves right?” You smiled warmly at her, doing your best to not look him in the eye.
“That’s great to hear, thank you so much for reaching out - please feel free to contact me for anything.” Carol started gathering Alice’s things.
David continued to stare at you, you saw him boldly look you up and down as you walked around your desk to see them out. Carol was too busy getting Alice into her jacket to see him.
He looked at you like she wasn’t even there.
He smirked as he swiped his thumb across his bottom lip, his gaze focused on the length of your dress. Your eyes widened at the nerve of him, absolutely no regard for his wife or his daughter.
He was devouring you with his eyes and you did absolutely nothing to stop him. You flushed - whether from disgust or excitement you’d never know but it did not deter him. He clapped his hands together and thanked you for your time.
Your heart hammering even after they’d left.
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The music was blaring when you walked through the door to your little apartment. You could hear Charlie singing along as he pulled something that smelled absolutely divine out of the oven.
“Hey babe! I made dinner, I got home a bit early.” He kissed you hello as he put the lasagne on the table.
“Oh god that smells good.” You smiled as you all but dropped everything to sit and eat with him.
You both discussed how your respective days had gone, about what you both had to do and like almost every conversation you’d had during the past seven months- it ended up on the wedding. If you were honest the whole thing was starting to grate on your nerves.
You’d always known the two of you were going to get married. From the first time you saw him, he was so handsome and sweet and he seemed to live his life in order to make you happy. The wedding however, it seemed all wrong. The both of you were simple, you were the kind of people who didn’t make a big fuss.
This wedding was a big fuss.
“My mom says she’s paying for the flowers, I insisted that it wasn’t necessary, that it didn’t matter but she pushed- and you know my sister wants to help with something.” Charlie was notoriously easy going so you took his ‘insisting’ with a grain of salt.
“Your family would pay for the whole wedding if we let them.” You prodded gently, his family seemed to want this wedding more than you did. It was overwhelming.
“They just want grandchildren, they think the faster we get married the faster I’ll get you pregnant.” He laughed, you’d talked about children before and you both wanted them but you’d decided to wait a little bit. You both wanted to enjoy married life.
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While showering after having cleaned up, your mind curiously wanders to a place you didn’t expect.
You were thinking about Mr York. You didn’t even really know why - yes he was handsome but it was more than that. He was intriguing, he seemed dangerous somehow.
That was surprising, why should he be dangerous? Charlie pulled back the curtain pulling you sharply out of your reverie, and scaring you half to death.
“Sorry!” He laughed as he got in with you. You felt guilty, like you’d been caught but he mistook your guilty look for fear.
“You scared the fuck out of me!” You tried to keep your heart from bursting out of your chest as you stepped into the water, rinsing the shampoo out of your hair.
You felt Charlie’s hands circle your waist as he laughed.
“Sorry babe, I didn’t mean to.” He kissed your shoulder as he joined you under the hot spray, his hands roaming over the soft skin of your belly. They slipped over your soapy skin, up towards your breasts. You closed your eyes, enjoying the feeling of his fingers as they pinched and plucked at your nipples the way he knew you liked.
He continued with his exploration, running one hand down under it, spreading your folds and honing in on your clit. Gliding over it over and over until you were panting, the other hand still on your breast. You closed your eyes as you leaned your head back onto his shoulder - your hands finding themselves in his hair.
“Faster- please” You were almost there, it was so good and the thought came to you out of nowhere. You imagine for a split second that it was Mr York in the shower with you instead of your fiancé. His fingers between your legs, his cock rubbing up against your ass and you came harder than you had any right to. Your fingers clutching at Charlie’s hair almost painfully tight.
He kissed your shoulder and turned you around to kiss you on the mouth to take it further but the guilt wouldn’t let you. You needed a few minutes to get your shit together.
“Babe, let’s wait until we’re in bed- I’m not really feeling shower sex right now.” You kissed him softly and pulled away.
“Okay honey.” He smiled at you, complacent even though his dick was hard and leaking precum, weirdly this annoyed you.
Charlie was a sexual guy, he enjoyed it. That you knew, and you couldn’t exactly complain about your sex life. He was attentive and he did his best to make you cum, he took direction well and you had no complaints about his size.
The problem was, Charlie was vanilla.
Sex was three positions if that and he barely talked at all. You had tried to get him to be a little more open and adventurous but he always reverted to his regular routine. Most of the time it was fine, you both got off and you loved him.
Sometimes however, you wanted more. You wanted excitement, you wanted passion. You wanted filth.
Charlie was sweet. You could live with sweet.
He was snoring beside you peacefully, he’d coaxed another orgasm out of you once you both got into bed. The guilt kept you awake though, because you’d imagined Mr York the whole time.
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“I need all of the information you can find on this woman.” David gave your name to his contact, he had to know.
He asked Alice a few probing questions but didn’t want to push it. He didn’t need her telling her mother offhandedly that he’d been curious about you.
He had your name and place of employment, for his line of work - that was more than enough. You were a pretty thing and he was intrigued. He knew you’d seen him, he’d made sure of it. He’d also noticed you looking at him, as much as you tried not to. Saw the gorgeous flush creep it’s way up your neck when he stared at your legs.
He had to get close to you, see if his instincts were right.
He had a full report on you within the hour, he saw that you’d been teaching for about five years. That you were a few years younger than him, engaged, parents on the other side of the country, decent credit score.
All he had to figure out now was how to make his move.
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“Remember to show your parents your agendas! We have a trip coming up and I need everyone’s parents or guardians to sign the forms I put in them. Please do not forget. Have a great day and I’ll see you tomorrow.” The kids were frantically packing away their things as the bell wrung, you still watched them as you packed up your things. You had to remember to ask for volunteers in their agendas tomorrow- maybe you could call a few of the more friendlier parents.
A knock at the door made you jump what felt like a foot off the ground. Turning around and seeing who was there did absolutely nothing to calm you down.
“Mr York, what can I do for you?” You tried to speak as calmly as possible. Willing yourself to sound natural and nonchalant.
He walked over to you and it vaguely felt like you were being hunted. His quiet made you uneasy and your anxiety pushed you to fill the empty air with conversation.
“Everything okay with Mrs York? I hope Alice isn’t still in trouble?” He was in your personal space and it was difficult to breathe. He was so big, so tall, his eyes impossibly bright with what looked like mischief.
Never in all your time together has Charlie ever looked at you with this kind of intensity.
Annoyingly, it made you wet.
“They’re fine.” He licked his lips as he stared down at you, the bottom one was full and you had the wild urge to bite it.
What the hell is wrong with me?
You kept backing away from him slowly and he kept pressing forward, you didn’t know what to do or what he wanted but he was overwhelming you.
“I know you saw me looking at you.” He watched your mouth as he spoke and you felt like you couldn’t get your thoughts in order.
“I - I’m engaged…” You blurted it out but either he didn’t register or he didn’t care.
“And I’m married.” He got a little closer, there was a crackling of electricity between the two of you and the tingle of it seemed to be focused on your nipples and your clit. He brought his hand up and traced his thumb over your bottom lip boldly and the act shocked you into complacency, it grounded you on the spot. He saw the shock and excitement in your eyes and he probed a bit to see how far you would go.
“I thought about you. When I fucked her.”
You short circuited, your brain was a puddle and your cunt clenched. You involuntarily let out a gasp at his confession and it brought to mind the thoughts you’d had while with Charlie. You were dripping into your panties.
He pushed his thumb into your mouth a fraction and it was like a damn broke, without even knowing why or stopping to consider the consequences you took his thumb into your mouth and sucked. Hollowing out your cheeks prettily.
He groaned, bringing his thumb back out and spreading your saliva onto your lips.
He came close and you prepared yourself for a kiss but he licked your top lip, so fast you would have missed it. You gasped and he let go. Walking out the door as you caught your breath.
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The shame followed you like a shadow, it surrounded you as you drove home in silence.
Charlie’s face haunting you as you felt your arousal soaking your panties. You tried to justify the unjustifiable as you pulled into the parking garage of your building, telling yourself that it was a weird hallucination. You hadn’t actually sucked this man's thumb at the school like a whore. No.
Charlie was sitting on the couch going over the seating arrangement when you walked in. You dropped all of your things and walked over to him, you needed to rewrite your excitement somehow. Transfer it onto Charlie.
“Hey babe-“ you cut him off by plopping down onto his lap, and kissing him silent. He was momentarily stunned but he dropped everything and held onto you.
“You okay?” He asked smiling as he pulled away, you didn’t answer, you hastily pulled up his shirt - trying to get him to join you in your urgency.
“I want you, I’ve been thinking about you fucking me and I want to ride your cock, right here on the couch.” You lied into his ear, poisoned honey dripping from your mouth. You heard him gasp and felt him hardening beneath you.
“Jesus Christ…” Charlie wasn’t much of a dirty talk kind of guy, you wanted him to be but he always said it felt awkward. You usually didn’t push it but today Mr York’s words were branded into your brain.
“My pussy is so wet for you baby.” Another lie, but never mind that.
He groaned but didn’t say anything and it was frustrating, you needed the release however and you let it pass. You imagined Mr York saying some truly filthy things in your ear and it made you feel guilty but you couldn’t help yourself.
He let you work out your excitement and after you both hit your peak you got up and headed for the bedroom. You saw him sitting on the couch, half naked and blissed out as you walked away.
You prodded him gently when you were curled up in bed.
“Charlie, did you like what we did today? On the couch?” You wanted to ease into it.
“Yes, we’ve had sex on the couch before, I always enjoy it with you.” He kissed your forehead.
“Did you like the things I said?” You drew little patterns on his chest as you laid in the dark.
“They were pretty intense, I didn’t not like them?” You could almost feel him blushing, you tried hard not to sigh. You were going to spend the rest of your lives together there was no need to be shy.
“Why don’t you ever talk to me like that when we fuck?” You could feel him trying to retreat but you didn’t want to let him. “There’s no need to be shy around me, we’re going to get married, we should be open.” He wasn’t having any of it.
“I don’t know honey you know I get awkward, just not something I’m comfortable with I guess.”
“Maybe we could get some books or take a class or something? So many different things we could try and I want to try them with you.” You were trying to open him up, you didn’t want to imagine a life of predictable repetitive sex - no matter how much you loved him.
“Maybe, let’s revisit it again at some point. Goodnight honey.” He kissed your forehead again and turned so you were spooning him. You tried to be understanding, you tried to think about respecting his boundaries but all you came up with was Mr York’s thumb in your mouth.
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“David- David!” His head snapped back to the sound. Carol was standing in front of him with an exasperated look on her face.
“David what is going on? I’ve been calling you for the last ten minutes.” He was thinking of you.
“Sorry honey, my head is still at work. What's going on?” He gave her his most convincing smile and she shook her head, amused.
“Dinners ready, the girls want to tell you about their day. Come on, I made your favourite.” She smiled sweetly as she left his home office. The smile disappeared as fast as it’d been conjured.
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“How was school today girls?” He couldn’t ask about you outright, had to dance around it.
“It was good, learning about the solar system.” His eldest, Molly. He smiled and asked her how she liked it, she talked about it excitedly and he enjoyed her enthusiasm.
“What about you Alice, how was school today?” His youngest was shy, but he could see his personality in her. A little more intense, a little more reserved.
“Good, we have a field trip next week.” There it is.
“That sounds nice, where are you going?” A field trip - this could do nicely.
“Museum, I have the form in my bag. I need you to sign it.” So many shadowy corners in a museum.
“Go get the form sweetheart, I don’t want to forget.” Carol prompted her.
She came back with it a few minutes later and David held it in his hands. He saw a little note on the form that made him smile despite himself.
Chaperones are always needed - please call to volunteer.
“What do you think about me volunteering for this? I could take a day and it would be nice to take some interest.” He took her hand in his and smiled warmly, looking for all the world to be a devoted father.
“Honey, that's a great idea. I’ll call tomorrow and let them know.” She was happy, and David was happy.
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The night before a school trip always made you nervous. So many variables - it was hard enough to control a class full of seven and eight year olds in a classroom let alone in a museum. At least a couple of parents had volunteered, you saw Mrs York on the form and it made your heart skip. You imagined she’d be able to see every thought you’d had about her husband on your face.
You fell asleep thinking about him.
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“Okay kids, let’s settle down. The bus will be here soon and I need to make sure everyone has their buddies. What’s the rule?” You asked over the excited din.
“Stay with your buddy!” They all said it in unison.
“Exactly! Now we will be there all day, we have a lot to see, you can leave your backpacks here. We’re going to have lunch there and we’ll be back in time for those of you who take the bus home. You can have a little free time while we wait for the buses.” They instantly grouped together to chat excitedly while you made sure you had everything in order. There were a couple of parents and you gave them wristbands to put on the children.
“Sorry I’m a few minutes late.” Mr York was walking into your classroom in casual clothes. What the hell was he doing here?
“Hello Mr York, you’re right on time. Where’s Mrs York? I thought she had volunteered?” You tried to ask the question neutrally but he could see the panic in your eyes.
“It was always me, whoever took her phone call must have made a mistake.” He spoke gently but it did something to you. You felt his eyes roaming your body and you flushed.
Great, this is going to be just great.
You did your best to centre your breathing while you led the children down the hall and to the buses. You could feel his eyes on you as you made your way down the hall. You did your best to ignore it.
The students lined up in front of the bus in pairs and you quickly went over the rules again - making sure to look at the three parents who were going with you. You noticed David talking to Alice, telling her to behave today and that he’d be helping you take care of the class.
Two of the parents got in first to sit at the back, Mr York waited until you got on, you were trying to focus but you couldn’t. You could feel him standing close to you and you were beginning to sweat.
You meant to sit alone but he followed closely behind you and pushed his way to the same seat as you. He took up so much space and you didn’t want to make a big fuss in front of the kids.
The bus driver closed the door and you were on your way. It would be about forty-five minutes to an hour until you got there and it hit you then how absolutely fucked you were.
The kids were excited and chatty and the din of them talking and laughing drowned out everything. You decided to focus your attention on the window and the scenery. You did not want to focus on Mr York. He was having none of it though.
“I like your dress.” He spoke into your ear and you shivered.
“Look Mr York-“
“Call me David.” He looked down at your slight cleavage and you sighed angrily.
“Look David, I don’t know what it is you think is going on but I am engaged. I am engaged to be married and you are the married father of one of my students. I would appreciate it if you could keep your interactions with me strictly professional.” You whispered angrily, trying to sound serious. He smiled pleasantly at you as if you were old friends catching up.
“Is that what you would call sucking my thumb? Professional? It seemed like you wished it was something else you’d been sucking.” His words went directly to your cunt. You saw it then, him sitting with that amused look on his face as you kneeled in front of him, with his cock in your mouth like a good girl.
Charlie.
You were in love with and about to marry Charlie.
He saw the look on your face and he smiled-
“What’s your fiancé’s name?” How dare he?
“His name is Charlie and I love him.” Why did you feel the need to explain this to him?
“That may be true, but I get the feeling that Charlie doesn’t quite know how to fuck you. Or you wouldn’t be licking your lips at the thought of my cock in your mouth. Is that it baby? You haven’t been fucked properly? I can fix that.” His words had you dripping. Charlie had never spoken to you like this and it made you so angry to compare them right now.
You closed your eyes and let the words pass over you, you had to focus. You couldn’t let this admittedly handsome, intimidating man come into your life and lay waste. He took your silence as a sign that he was right.
You felt his fingers ghost over your thigh and you felt like you’d been struck by lightning. Your eyes shot to his hand and to your shame, you hoped for something forbidden. He watched you closely.
“I think about you all the time and something tells me that you think about me too. Think about what I could do or say to get you wet enough for me to glide right in. Have you ride my cock, have your tits bouncing in my face.” His hand gripped your thigh and you whimpered slightly, involuntarily angling your body towards him.
“He doesn’t know what you need.” He hand travelled up up up ghosting along your seam, just enough to drive you insane through your panties and you put your head onto his shoulder. He stopped then and took his hand away and you came back to reality.
The guilt hit you like a tsunami and you squeezed yourself closer to the window, trying for all the world to make yourself smaller, and in turn the distance between you bigger.
He smiled and sat quietly for the rest of the ride to the museum.
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The relief you felt when the bus pulled in was astonishing and you had to hold yourself back from barreling over David to get away. You felt him chuckling as you struggled to get away and you held back the urge to slap him across the face by the grace of god.
“Okay class, let’s get together with our buddies and head over to our first exhibit. If you have any questions please feel free to ask our helpers or myself. What’s the rule?”
“Stick with your buddy!” They yelled it out again.
“Exactly, that means even if you have to use the restroom you go with your buddies. Please ask one of the parents or me before you go.” You were back in your element now and it felt better. You were back in teacher mode and you told yourself that you could do this.
The morning went by relatively smoothly, you had all of the children wrangled and you made your way through the exhibits without issue. You were thankful that David kept his distance from you, he helped the children and you saw him doting on his daughter.
You had decided to block out what happened on the bus. It never happened.
By noon the kids were getting feral, you guided everyone up to the cafeteria and had them sit so the adults could grab everyone their food in shifts. All in all it went pretty smoothly and you had managed to put the whole incident out of your mind.
You let one of the parents know that you were going to sneak away to use the bathroom while the kids were all in one place and she told you to take your time.
You can do this, you told yourself as you stared at your reflection in the mirror.
You were blindsided when you came out of the bathroom, a hand covering your mouth and pulling you away into a closed off exhibit. The panic shot through you like lightning and you tried to fight your attacker off - visions of Charlie flashed through your mind, of the wedding, of your family; your students. His voice didn’t calm you.
“Stop fighting, it’s just me.” His tone suggested that this should have calmed you. It did not.
It pissed you off and once you regained your composure and stopped squirming, he loosened his grip. It gave you the opening you needed and you slapped him across the face - or you would have, but his hand shot up cat-quick and grabbed your wrist before your hand could meet its target.
“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” You were seething, the audacity of this man to put his hands on you. You were trying to hold the anger close- bringing it to the forefront of your mind so as to eclipse the excitement. That had no place here... right?
Why are you so fucking excited?
Why does it feel like you’ve never known this kind of excitement until now?
Get it the fuck together, think of Charlie.
“I am going to make you cum.” Those words were thrown out into the air like they meant nothing. Like it was simply a chore to be completed off a list.
He was getting closer. His movements brought to mind the wildlife documentaries that Charlie liked to watch, you could see the big jungle cat slowly stalking towards the gazelle. If you were home and watching this scene unfold on the screen, you would be yelling at yourself to run.
You couldn’t make your legs move, worse still - you didn’t really want to.
Instead you stood there, silent and unmoving. Waiting for the jungle cat to pounce on you, waiting for him to crush your neck with strong jaws and long claws.
Why were you so wet?
“I’m going to pull that short little dress up, and I’m going to make you cum with my fingers. Would you like that baby? You want me to make that little pussy cum?” He was in your space now, towering over you and you couldn’t look away. Your breath was coming hard at the filth pouring out of his mouth.
Charlie never spoke to you this way.
You felt the wall and you realised he’d been herding you, exactly where he wanted you. You looked up at him through your lashes- god he’s so tall, so broad - and his arms came up to rest on either side of your head, essentially caging you in. The heat was rolling off him, was it heat? Or was it your own excitement? You’d never be able to tell, all you knew for certain is that you were dripping. You were feral and you couldn’t stop looking at his mouth. He smiled as he leaned in close, his breath ghosting over your neck as he spoke right into your ear.
“Do you want me to? Do you want me to make you cum baby?” the low tone, the proximity, the wrongness of it. You would never admit it after but you nodded, almost imperceptibly. His smile for you then was genuine.
It felt like his hands were charged with electricity, those wands that they had at science centers that made your skin tingle. You felt it, as his fingers softly skimmed your thigh as they travelled up to your soaked center. He touched the damp spot on your panties and chuckled, then moved them aside swiftly to part your folds. You gasped when he glided his finger over your clit, over and over and over, the pressure far too light.
Your own hands found their way up to clutch at his shirt, you didn’t want to admit that you were holding him close to you. That you didn’t want him to pull away.
“Open up for me baby.” he bit at your ear as he lifted your leg to wrap around his hip, you were spread open for him while he wrapped his arm around your waist to grab at your ass. He was doing this to you during a school trip. This was a low you never thought you’d sink to.
“Just as I thought, look how wet you are - and how tight-” He slid two fingers into you and you moaned, they were thick and you were so turned on it hurt. “Don’t worry baby I’m going to take care of you, make you cum, fuck this tight pussy with my fingers - have to cum fast for me okay? We have to get back. Can you do that? Can you cum for me?” He was kissing your neck and licking your pulse point.
“Answer me, or I'll stop, be a good girl for me.” His fingers pulled out and you whimpered - grabbing at his forearm to pull it back because you needed to cum. He brought his fingers up to your mouth and you looked into his eyes as he rubbed your arousal onto your lips. Your knees almost gave out at the depravity of it, in public. While your students and the other parents waited for you. He was expecting an answer.
“Yes.” Your face was beet red and flushed and the word sealed your fate. He kissed you, rough and fast and it took your breath right out of your lungs. His tongue licked your slick off your lips and plundered your mouth while he fulfilled his promise. His fingers diving back into you, this time with the addition of his thumb on your clit.
You could vaguely hear the wet squelch of your cunt as he sped up. It was so good, it was everything and all you needed was a little push to finally leap into the abyss.
“Come on baby, you’re so fucking wet for me. I think you can take another finger.” The noises were obscene and the stretch was so good - he curled his fingers and touched something white hot and it made you cry out a little louder than you should have. His hand came up and clamped over your mouth and the filth came again. “There it is- that’s what you like right baby? Come on, cum for daddy.” You fell apart then. It was disgusting and you’d never cum this hard in your life.
You were vaguely aware of him fixing your clothes, of him licking every drop of your slick from his fingers.
You were blissed out as you walked back to the table on shaky legs, the guilt creeped in though as you slowly drifted back down to reality, you’d been gone for longer than you thought.
“Sorry about that - we got completely turned around, this place is a maze huh?” Dave spoke, quelling the annoyed looks from the other parents and smoothing it out with practised charm.
You couldn’t bring yourself to look anyone in the eye.
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It was hard to focus for the remainder of the trip. You could feel his eyes on you as you wound your way around the different exhibits.
The turmoil between your brain and your body threatened to drive you into madness - you could still feel him inside you and it caused your heart to race, to excite you. Your brain was scolding you. How could you let him do that to you?
Oh Charlie
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The bus ride back to the school was a bit better, one of the other parents sat beside you and it was as if you could almost pretend that everything was normal. Or you would have been able to - had you not been able to feel David's eyes boring into the back of your head. It was a long ride home.
The school busses were waiting when you pulled into the school and you had to hurry to get your kids to your classroom to get their things. After you made sure they were okay and on the bus you went about getting ready to go home. There was a text from an unknown number in your phone - you didn’t have to guess who it was from.
Be a good girl, and free up a couple of hours for me this Sunday. I will come and get you.
You answered before you could even contemplate what it meant.
Okay.
You didn’t even bother wondering how he would know where to go.
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You sat in your car, in one of the parking spaces you and Charlie had. You could see his car next to yours and you had no idea how the hell you were going to walk in there and pretend nothing had happened. How could you have done this, moreover how could you have agreed to see David again?
I’ll tell him it has to stop. Whatever it was that we did it was a horrible mistake.
Your heart was racing as you got off the elevator, every step down the hallway was another lump of stone settling in the pit of your stomach. Charlie was in the shower when you got home - you could hear the water running and all you could think of was how you were sure he’d be able to see what you did written on your face. Another stone.
“Hey babe, how was the trip?” he was all smiles and the accusatory pointed finger in your face never came. Instead he walked over to you and hugged you tightly, little beads of water dripping from his hair onto your shoulder.
“It was good, how was your day?” His voice lulled you, made you want to forget everything you’d done and it was easier trying to put the whole thing out of your mind than think about it in front of Charlie. It was a stupid mistake and it wasn’t even worth remembering. On Sunday it would be fixed. You were going to tell David to fuck off and then everything would go back to normal.
“It was good - I was thinking we could go out for dinner tonight. What do you think?” He was all smiles, all sweetness.
“Sure babe.” You tried to be happy. You tried to focus, but you could still feel the stretch of David’s fingers when you moved.
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I’ll be there in an hour, wear something pretty for me.
The text came in and your heart started racing. You had told Charlie that you were going to the school to prepare some work for tomorrow and he had just smiled and nodded. Told you to take your time - that he loved you.
You were determined to tell David that this was not going to become a thing. It was not going to escalate. You conveniently ignored the fact that you wore your cutest sundress, your sheer panties, the matching bra. It was a confidence thing. Nothing to do with David.
I’m here.
You practically ran out the door. It was to end things, you were in a hurry to end things. There was a big SUV waiting in the visitors parking lot and you saw him sitting, looking at his phone. He smiled when he saw you and you felt the butterflies in your stomach as you got into the front seat. He gave you a once over, the shortness of your dress, the fact that your hair was done - and smiled as he drove away from your building; from your life.
Tell him, tell him to turn around and to take you back home. To leave you alone forever.
“Where are we going?” Was what came out when you opened your mouth.
“Somewhere we can be alone.” Was all he said, his hand moved and rested on your thigh as he drove. You stared at it and to your shame and excitement, you didn’t move it away. He gripped your thigh possessively, stroking the inside of it and it made you ache.
Do it - move his hand away, tell him - go on.
You put your hand on his, but you couldn’t move it away. The heat from his big palm was seeping into your skin and instead you just pressed his hand with yours.
Pathetic.
You were in an abandoned parking garage a little while later and he parked in a far corner. Your blood was pumping and you were nervous. He unbuckled his seatbelt and moved his seat all the way back, so he was far away from the steering wheel.
“David, I don’t think-” You started speaking but he cut you off.
“Come over here.” He tapped his lap and your stomach dropped, you wanted to crawl over there so bad. You stared at him and he raised his eyebrows. “Are you going to be a brat? Come over here, if I have to ask again you’re going to be punished.” You felt the wave of arousal wash over you. What could he possibly mean? You didn’t want to find out - not yet anyway.
You crawled over the console awkwardly and sat in his lap, straddling him. He smiled at you and settled his hands on your thighs.
“Such a good girl for me, did you think about me?” He lifted your dress slightly and grabbed handfuls of your ass. You couldn’t help but groan, you could feel him hardening underneath you and you didn’t even register your hands coming up to wrap around his neck. They seemed to play with the hair at the nape of his neck on their own. How could he excite you so much? “Answer me baby, when I ask you a question you need to answer me.” He was kissing your neck, and slowly undoing the buttons of your sundress.
“Yes.” You breathed as he exposed your bra, the lace so fine it was completely transparent. He smiled as he studied you. Face flushed, dress bunched up around your thighs, lips parted.
“What did you think about?” He runs the pads of his fingers across the tops of your breasts as he speaks and you can’t even begin to rationalise why you’re doing this.
“I thought about you…” you tried to be coy but you knew he wouldn’t leave it there.
“What about me, did you think about me touching you? Tell me.” He separates his body from yours, you can see that he wants you to answer before he continues. You can feel your face getting flushed.
“I thought about what we did at the museum, your hands…” you unconsciously tried to get closer to him and he smiled. He smelled so good, you could feel his cock and it made you ache.
“You thought about my hands? Be specific, baby. Tell me what you thought about.” He started kissing the tops of your breasts, slowly making his way down, kissing every inch he could reach through the fabric. You could feel the slick pooling at your entrance, you knew what he wanted. Your mind briefly went back to Charlie, to how he was intimidated by dirty talk.
“I thought about how I could still feel your fingers in my pussy when I got home. They stretched me so good.” Your face was beet red and your skin was on fire. This was what he wanted. He rewarded you by pulling your bra down, exposing your breasts. Your nipples were hard and begging for his mouth and he obliged; pulling you close so he could wrap his lips around one. His mouth was hot and you could feel his teeth just a little. Just enough to make you moan.
“Such a good girl for me, now you get a reward for being so good for daddy.” He bit your nipple a little harder than you thought and there was a bit of pain but it felt so good you let out a breathy moan. You felt him sucking and in the back of your mind, you knew this would leave a mark. Warning bells were going off, he couldn’t leave a mark. Charlie couldn’t see this.
He let go of one nipple to give the same attention to the other - it was so good you had to clutch at the back of his head, you wanted him closer. All thoughts of the marks forgotten when his tongue felt so good.
“Does it feel good? How wet are you right now baby?” He honed in on your nipple again, holding your breasts in his big hands and alternating between the two.
“Yes, god yes - it feels so good. I’m so wet for you…” All you could do was watch, watch as he licked and licked and licked until you were dizzy from the pleasure. Until you thought you might faint, until your nipples were overly sensitive and you could see the hickeys and the little bite marks.
“Show me how wet you are.” He pulled off and let you scoot back a little, you pulled your dress up and he saw the wet patch on your underwear. It was so bad it had soaked through onto his lap. The bulge in his jeans- a little darker. He groaned and skimmed his knuckle against the damp spot at your core and you shuddered. You were so keyed up from the attention he’d given your breasts that it wouldn’t take much at this point.
He undid his jeans and pulled himself out - his cock was so thick, your eyes widened - momentarily nervous. This whole thing just became real. Touching and words could be justified as a temporary madness, you didn’t know what you were doing. Sex, letting him fuck you - that would be the final line to cross. He saw the hesitation in your eyes.
You watched his hand grasp his cock and slowly start to stroke it between your legs, a pearly bead of precum on the head before his thumb swiped through it. Using it to make the strokes more fluid. He let you watch - saw your tongue lick your lips and he let you make the choice.
He waited for you to make the choice, but he didn’t make it easy.
“You see baby? You see how hard you make daddy's cock? I think about you, about how pretty you would look with it in your mouth, in your throat. About you bouncing on it - fucking you deep. Fucking my cum into you until you’re full of me.” He was working himself up, you could hear the slick strokes and you clenched, you needed him inside you.
Wordlessly, you pulled your panties to the side and scooted closer.
“Tell me. Tell me what you want.” He didn’t stop stroking and you felt yourself getting desperate. You were about to let this married man fuck you in his car, in the middle of a parking garage in broad daylight. You couldn’t remember ever being this excited in your life.
“I want your cock, I want you to fuck me - please.” You were not above begging right now.
He was merciful - he pulled you closer and rubbed his cock through your folds once - then he slid inside. The stretch made you gasp. It hurt a little bit, even with how wet you were.
“Look how well you’re taking me baby, I know it’s a lot - so tight, god you feel so good.” He rested his head on your chest while he let you get accustomed. “Need to get you a little wetter, wet enough to take my big cock.” He focused on your nipples again, making you cry out. You were so full and your nipples were so sensitive you didn’t think you could take any more.
“Please - please move, please make me cum.” You were so overwhelmed you were on the verge of tears. He bucked up once and you gasped - he was pressed up against the spongy spot inside of you that made you see stars and you were moaning, you rolled your hips and as he bucked up into you and you knew the coil was about to snap. He snaked his hand down - pressing his thumb to your clit. Your slick was drenching his lap and you told him i’m gonna cum and he gripped your ass to really buck up and when you came he bit at your breast again.
“God you’re pussy gets so fucking wet when you cum, fuck - squeezing me so fucking tight, I’m going to think about this cunt later.” He came with a groan - open mouthed kisses on your breasts. You could feel his cum dripping out of you and you gave a silent prayer that you were on birth control.
You were not a virgin. You’d had sex before - you’d had good sex before. This wasn’t good sex. This was great sex -this was otherworldly and it scared you with how good you felt. Even with the bites and hickeys on your tits. How were you supposed to hide this? It was hard to feel the guilt when he was rubbing your back like this, when he was kissing your neck and loving you like this.
“You did so good baby - such a good girl for me.” He pulled you down to him by the back of your neck and he kissed you - his tongue running along the seam of your mouth. You granted him entrance and it was consuming, your hands gripped his hair and you clenched around him. He rewarded you with a groan into your mouth. Even with the guilt you couldn’t get close enough. His praise was like a tonic - you needed it and his kisses. You whimpered into his mouth and he knew. He knew what you needed. “My best girl, my beautiful girl. Took me so well, made me cum with that pretty pussy.” He kissed your neck and rubbed your back lovingly and you felt like a cat in a bright patch of sun under his praise. Cuddly and satiated as you burrowed into the crook of his neck.
“A few more minutes and then we have to go home.” He spoke into your hair as he let you take your comfort.
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“You okay babe?” Charlie's voice startled you when you walked into the apartment, your tote bag full of school things, untouched on your shoulder.
“Yes - why?” You answered too quickly - you expected him to see everything written on your face. You could still feel David's cock inside you, his cum currently pooled in your panties. Could feel your breasts were a little sore from his attention and that excited you more than it had any right to.
“Nothing just looks like you’ve seen a ghost - did you get a lot done? I made dinner by the way - your favourite.” He smiled from the couch, he was playing video games which was good. Would mean he wouldn’t intrude on you in the bathroom. The guilt was hot and heavy in your gut but you plastered a smile on your face.
“Yeah, lots of activities planned for the kids tomorrow. Thanks babe- i’m going to shower quickly.” You smiled and came over to kiss him on the forehead quickly. Making sure not to linger too quickly. You had no idea if you smelled like David. If he noticed, he didn’t say anything.
“Okay honey, I’ll wait for you to eat.” He went back to his game.
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This was not good.
You were staring at yourself in the mirror naked, your breasts were full of hickeys, little bruises. Your nipples were puffy from David’s mouth and the soreness between your legs was insistent. The tell tale heart only it was under your clothes instead of your floorboards.
How the fuck am I going to hide this?
The lips of your sex were sensitive when you washed, you kept replaying the whole thing over in your mind and you still couldn’t believe you’d done this. Not only had you done it, you’d enjoyed it immensely. His words, god his words.
You knew it was wrong, but you couldn’t help but compare them, Charlie and David. Polar opposites, especially in how they made you feel.
Charlie was dependable, he was home - pure comfort and love.
David was excitement, sex and filth and he made you so wet you couldn’t stand it. When he called you his good girl something inside you luxuriated, something was fulfilled that you didn't even realize needed fulfilling. You knew though, you knew this had to be a one time thing.
It couldn’t continue - you ignored that thing inside you that slithered, whispered that you couldn’t stop now - it was too good. You were really good at ignoring things it seemed.
It could have been considered cruel that Charlie’s blind acceptance of your excuse as to why you didn’t want to have sex annoyed you. You ignored that too.
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David smiled at the wet spot on his jeans when pulled into his driveway.
You had been so responsive, so open to his touch. So receptive of his words and his actions.
The look on your face when he had your tits in his mouth had made him so painfully hard, he was rougher than he meant to be. His original plan had been to ease you into it - soft touches and soft words until he knew you were ready but that little dress, the sheer bra. You were going to be trouble and he couldn’t wait.
It was clear that whoever the jackass was you were engaged to - he wasn’t doing you justice. He wasn’t wringing pleasure out of you like he should be. He could see how much you had enjoyed his attention - even the roughness, the bites and the marking. Thinking about those marks and hickeys on your nipples excited him even now.
He was glad he was home alone - he could put his clothes to wash.
He had so many plans.
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You managed to put David out of your mind when you went back to work. Your kids took up so much of your energy and it was nice to feel normal, you went so far as to delete his messages on your phone. Not before you saved his name as D, but nevermind that.
After a few days with no contact, you could almost pretend that you had hallucinated the whole thing. Until you saw the -thankfully- fading hickeys on your chest. You had told Charlie that you weren't feeling your best, that you wanted to keep your shirt on during your coupling and as always he agreed happily.
Seemed he could sense your inner peace, a message had come through late in the week while you were on your lunch break.
Free up Saturday night, be ready by 8
Your heart was racing, you could feel it in your clit. You didn’t answer, you wanted to make sure you could actually get away before responding but he didn’t like that. Another text came through.
I expect an answer.
Okay.
You texted back quickly.
Okay what…?
Oh god - you knew what he wanted you to write and it felt so wrong, so dirty but it excited you so much.
Okay daddy.
You blushed and covered your face, almost embarrassed, needing to see his reply but not wanting to face it at the same time.
That’s my good girl. Saturday at 8.
His praise was everything, it made your heart sing, made you feel light and giddy. You like being his good girl don’t you? That slithering thing again - you ignored it. It shamed you that the only thing you could do for the rest of the day, was try to think of a way to get rid of Charlie for the weekend.
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Charlie seemed pleasantly surprised, you had -very sneakily- messaged his best friend Jack that he should plan a boys weekend. That you thought he needed to have some fun. To stop thinking about the wedding. Oh god the wedding.
Jack had told you that Charlie was lucky you were so cool and that he’d plan something.
“Are you sure babe? I don’t have to go- it’s just a weekend at Jack’s cottage but I’m sure it’ll be fine if you came or if I stayed here.” You could see he wanted you to be happy, you stomped away the guilt.
“No you go ahead, Jack will be happy to have the boys there without the girlfriends or fiancé’s.” You gave him your most convincing smile. He smiled, promising that if you needed anything he would come back at the drop of a hat.
Not likely. You stomped the slithering thing down too.
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Charlie left on Thursday night, Jack insisted they stay there until Monday morning and you talked Charlie into going. You relished the idea of being alone, pretending at least in some fucked up part of your brain that you were single. That David was single - just two single adults without families, without any responsibilities or commitments.
When Saturday finally came you were on edge, you had started getting ready a couple of hours before in your excitement. You didn’t want to delve too deep into what that meant but nevertheless.
You focused your energy on making sure your hair looked good, moisturizing your skin - meaningless things that took up your time and helped you conveniently ignore that you were prepping for sex with a married man while your fiance was with his friends.
I’m here.
Your heart leapt, you spritzed your best perfume and made your way out. You couldn’t help but smile as you made your way down.
He was serious when you got into the car and for a moment you were afraid you’d displeased him somehow, it should have worried you how much you craved his approval - his praise.
“Hi.” You said shyly - hoping he’d notice your dress but he didn’t. He drove without a word. What had happened? You thought back to how he had comforted you - held you close and rubbed your back. You wanted that, you wanted a little tenderness before the filth came. It seemed as though he sensed your panic and he placed his hand on your thigh- it calmed you more than it should have.
“Hi baby.” he gave you a little smile and the slithering thing stretched and luxuriated. Everything was okay.
“Where are we going?” You asked him - even though you knew he probably wouldn’t tell you but he surprised you.
“To my house - I’m going to fuck you in my bed.” He spoke casually, completely unphased. His eyes focused on the road, on the streetlights and signs. He couldn’t see how your heart leapt, how the heat spread from your face to your ears, leaving splotches of pink on your chest.
“But - what about?” You couldn’t bring yourself to say the words, your wife.
“She took the girls to their grandparents - I have the house to myself for the weekend. So i’m going to take advantage. Going to take you home - spread you out on my bed and I’m going to do all of the things I’ve been thinking about this whole week.” He spoke as he turned onto a neat little street, full of spaced out homes. Houses that screamed soccer moms and wall-street dads. White picket fences and minivans.
The house both matched him and it didn’t. It made sense that he’d be able to afford this - your thoughts went back to the designer bag Mrs. York brought to your meeting. The SUV you were sitting in had leather seats, it was probably brand new, Carol probably drove a Mercedes. They obviously had money.
You noticed that the lights outside the house were off - didn’t want his neighbours to see him bringing a woman who was definitely not his wife home on a Saturday night. He guided you to the house wordlessly and the guilt reared its ugly head at the sight of two bikes, casually tossed onto the porch. This man was married; had a family and here you were - wet and itching to get underneath him.
It was worse when you got in the house, his wife very much present in all things. Her shoes at the door, her sweater draped over a tasteful sectional. Little avatars of his children were scattered here too - dolls clothes, the evidence of a school project you had assigned. Graded work and colourful pictures drawn by little hands held up by souvenir magnets on the fridge. Visible even from outside the kitchen. Evidence of his life which shouldn’t have had any space for you.
Tell him to take you home right this minute your brain berated you. Your conscience was begging you to take back your life- this could only end badly. You thought of your upcoming wedding, of your sweet fiance who doted on you. On the boring unfulfilling sex the slithering thing added.
You thought all these things and more, but your legs carried you wherever he led. Your pussy dripped for him, your mouth stayed shut. Instead you followed him dutifully up the stairs - passed rooms with colourful block letters, rooms his daughters slept in. The cream coloured carpet under your feet was plush and it cushioned the sound of your steps - steps that took you passed a home office. You could see him there, sitting and working while his daughters played. While his wife cooked dinner.
You had no business here and yet, you kept walking.
The bedroom was tasteful, it was decorated with soft colours, taupes and beiges. The bed was neatly made - piled high with pillows and cushions. You could see them on this bed, David and Carol here, fucking in this bed. It was a curious feeling, you weren’t jealous; you had no reason to be. You had Charlie and he had Carol, was he looking for the same thing in you that you had found in him? He didn’t seem like the kind of man to settle.
You were looking around; so lost in your thoughts you barely heard him approach you and before you knew it he was wrapped around you and the thoughts melted away. His hands burned a path across your skin wherever they touched you.
“I fuck my wife in this bed. I fuck her and think of you. I think about how wet you got when I got your tits out. How wet you get when you cum.” he spoke into your ear and you had to take a deep breath, the ease with which he spoke to you like this was astounding. He walked you toward the bed until you had no choice but to sit.
“You look so pretty when you blush baby.” he ran his hand through your hair, gripping it a little tight, pulling it back so your neck was craned up to him - it pulled a gasp out of your mouth.
“I keep thinking about you like this - looking up at me.” He was taking in everything about you - his gaze travelling the length of your body. “I don’t want to have to ask you things twice tonight. I know you’re going to be a good girl. Are you excited?”
“Yes, very excited.” You answered quickly and he smiled.
“Open your mouth for me baby, show daddy how excited you are.” He started undoing his pants and you unconsciously scooted closer to him. Everything about him lit a fire within you and the thought of his cock in your mouth was making you drool.
He was already hard, you looked up at him through your lashes; tongue out and ready.
“My pretty girl - look at you, so gorgeous like this. Mouth open ready for my cock.” He held himself in one hand while the other held your chin. You licked the bead of precum from the tip and almost moaned. “Tongue out.” He thrust into your mouth slowly- letting you get accustomed to his size, pushing a little deeper each time. You made to raise your hands but he pulled away.
“No baby, not yet, let me fuck your mouth, be good for me - get your tits out for me.” You moaned as you pulled your shirt and bra down. He groaned at the faint marks on your nipples from the last time you were together and continued.
You were so wet, you could feel your panties sticking to you. You sat there as still as you could while he repeatedly slid his cock into your mouth. He would push until he hit your throat and wait until you gagged and then pull out, until you felt the tears sliding down your cheeks. You felt depraved with his precum and your spit dripping onto your chest but the sounds he was making were worth it.
“Look at you, so fucking pretty like this baby, you’re being so good, such a good girl for me. I could cum just like this.” You moaned at his words, at his praise, at the taste of him. He switched your positions so you were standing between his spread legs on the bed. He slowly took your clothes off, kissing your stomach as he went.
“Look at that- look how wet this pretty pussy is. Is all this from having my cock in your mouth baby?” He ran his fingers along your lower lips, all pretty and glossy for him. He kept his touch feather light while he waited for a response.
“Yes, yes you make me this wet, your hands, your mouth, your cock - you.” You brought your hands up to touch his hair and he let you, his hand keeping that slow rhythm - driving you mad with want. He licked at your nipples again while you stood there, steadily gripping his hair tighter and tighter. He pulled away momentarily to take the rest of his clothes off, and when he was done you walked over to him again but before you could mount him he got up and walked around to the side of the bed facing a full length mirror.
You made to straddle him but he stopped you, turning you so you faced away from him; he wanted you to see yourself.
“Look at you, look at how pretty you look. You’re going to watch as Daddy fucks you. We’re both going to watch you bounce on my cock.” He kissed your hip, and bit at your asscheek playfully. You swallowed hard, thinking back to Charlie and knew he never would have thought of this.
He pulled you down and guided himself into your soaked center- the stretch of him making you groan and flutter around him. He spread your legs with his knees, you could see where you were joined in the mirror and the vision of you like that was dizzying. You could hardly recognize yourself like this, your skin was flushed, lips parted, hair dishevelled. You could still see your spit on your chest - you gasped when he bucked up.
“Look how well you take me? Look how well you're taking my cock, does it feel good? Do you like watching?” He moved his hands from their steady grip at your hips, up to grab your tits.
“Yes - god yes Daddy, it feels so good.” You were unhinged. Feeling his cock splitting you open was one thing, seeing it disappear into your body brought the whole thing to another level.
“My best girl, this is my pussy. Mine.” His movements were getting frantic and you couldn’t help but moan, your slick soaking his lap at his words. “Say it, tell me it’s mine.” He brought one hand down to rub perfect little circles at your clit and your climax raced up to hit you. You came with a god yes and he stilled his movements. Your cunt squeezing him so tightly he could barely move. He stood up quickly and put your hands up against the mirror without pulling out.
“Hold still for me, I want you to watch yourself get fucked.” You moaned, you were so wet the sounds were obscene, a wet slap against your ass. It was so dirty, the way he grabbed at you. The way he held your shoulder so he could fuck you harder than you’d ever been fucked and it was too much. You felt on the verge of tears at the intensity but he kept going, until you felt him cum inside you. Felt him dripping out of you and onto that lush carpet.
You couldn’t remember how many times he’d made you cum. All you knew was you were tired, your body spent, your cunt was sore, your tits were sore - your muscles. Everything - but still he wanted more.
He pulled you into the shower to wash your combined pleasure off, but he coaxed more pleasure out of you with his fingers as the water soothed you slightly.
You laid in his bed, maybe even in Carol’s spot with his head between your thighs. He told you how good your pussy tasted, how he owned it; and he did.
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•Worth It• Duff Mckagan
Pairing: Velvet Revolver era! Duff Mckagan x Younger! Reader
Requested? Nope!
Theme: Little bit of everything/???
Warnings: Language, panic attacks, anxiety references, drug references
Word Count: 3k
A/N: Fic 2 of 2! This is the longest fic yet! Took a different approach to writing this one, hopefully it payed off. Let me know if you guys liked it or if I wasted my time with this one lol.
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     You had met Duff in a coffee shop in LA. It was crowded and you were lucky enough to snag a chair before the lunch rush. Duff wasn't, and asked you if he could sit at your table.
     You grew up with Guns n Roses, bought his solo album the day it came out when you were just 15, and now listened to Velvet Revolver faithfully. To see your idol, your celebrity crush stand right in front of you holding a cup of coffee and a scone sent you for a loop.
     "Of course," you had said, starry eyed. You were only hoping he was as kind as the interviews made him out to be. Maybe have a conversation with you and be polite for a while before leaving and never seeing each you again. That would be good enough.
     It didn't end with a coffee, it had just begun. He asked for your number, and you stared at him for a moment thinking you had imagined it. That was until he tilted his head a little and looked at you with a nervous expression. He backtracked and you immediately stopped him.
     "No! I mean— yes! Yes, you can absolutely have my number." You scrambled for a pen and paper and ended up scratching your number on a receipt from the record store. You shook so hard you could barely get the numbers down.
     Out of all the record store receipts you've stuffed into your bag, the one you gave Duff Mckagan had to be the one for when you bought Velvet Revolver's 'Contraband.' He didn't say anything, just smiled and promised to call.
     You honestly didn't think he would've. You played it off as just him trying to be nice. It didn't stop you from answering every call you got for the next three days, however, even if you recognized the number as the tax collector you'd normally never answer.
     But then he called.
     "I tried calling sooner, but I kept calling the wrong number. You don't have the most eligible handwriting," he had told you. You laughed but really, you were in shock.
     You set up a date at the fancy restaurant downtown that always intimidated you. You didn't say anything though, even though you knew you wouldn't want any of the overpriced food and you'd end up eating something you couldn't pronounce and was two portions too small. Maybe even hit up a fast food joint afterwards.
     When the day finally came, you couldn't even figure out what to wear. You couldn't tell if you looked underdressed or like you were trying too hard. Did the clothes even fit the right way? What would Duff think? Would he even care?
     All questions were answered when you left your house. Duff was leaning against his slick car parked in your driveway, a button up that was barely buttoned and dress pants with boots. He stared at you and you wanted a hole in the ground to shallow you up until he smiles.
     "You look gorgeous," he said. You blushed and grinned, thanking him before saying that he looked great too. He drove you to the restaurant and on the way, you talked about music.
     You shared some of your favorites, he adored how well rounded you were. You liked pretty much everything from punk rock to the mellowest of mellow. Duff mentioned some of his favorites, some you made sure to remember the names of so you can check them out.
     When the ride was over and you finally got to the restaurant, your previous fears came back. Duff reassured you looked better than 90% of the people there and you knew it wasn't true but it made you feel better anyway.
     Your eyes widened to the size of saucers when you saw the prices of the food. You knew it'd be pricey but you thought there'd be more options that stayed within two digit numbers.
     Duff saw your panicked expression and said not to worry, he'd pay. It didn't settle your nerves enough and when the waiter came, you ordered the cheapest and simplest thing you could find.
     "Chicken noodle soup?" He teased. You shyly looked down and shrugged. "This isn't your scene, is it?"
     "Not exactly, no."
     "Want me to be completely honest with you?" You nodded. "It's not mine either."
     That's all it took for you and Duff to scramble sheepishly out of the restaurant. You both shared a laugh in the car and went to Burger King. It was much more your speed and, as you'd find out that night, Duff's too. You suppose all the money he's had since such a young age didn't completely change his ways. He was like a kid trapped in a 40 year old man's body.
     You'd thought at first the age gap would feel strange, after all, you were 15 years younger than him. But after that night, it was barely noticeable. Funny looks from strangers every once in a while was nothing.
     By the second date, Duff was already aware fancy spots weren't your forte. He told you it was a surprise and to wear something cozy, as LA nights got chilly.
     He packed a picnic basket and drove you out to the most beautiful flower field you had ever seen at sunset. It was secluded and high up, giving a perfect view of the city skyline. After gawking and taking in the sights for a few moments, you regained your ability to speak.
     "It's gorgeous. Pretty far from the city, did you take me here to kill me?" You joked. He laughed and rolled his eyes. His lighthearted laugh sent sparks straight to your heart, and you decided that it was your favorite sound.
     You unfolded the blanket Duff brought and you both sat down. You ate the sandwiches and sliced fruit Duff packed and talked. You talked about everything, from your family to fears and insecurities.
You told him how you suffer from nightmares. Flashbacks from your broken childhood coming back to bite you in your sleep. Duff shared how he's suffered from panic attacks since he was a teenager. You felt you knew each other for years.
Neither of you felt weird for sharing and neither made the other insecure. You were completely open and honest with each other. It was strange, you've never connected to quickly and effortlessly with someone before. Sure, you've had men in your life, but never had you clicked with someone so fast, never had you fit with someone so perfectly.
Hours passed and it felt like minutes. Only did you realize how late and how exhausted you were when you saw most of the city buildings light have gone off for the night. The city that didn't sleep was dark.
"I should get you home," Duff said to you.
"Will you stay the night?" You felt a little silly for asking. Were things going too fast? Would he even want to stay over?
He agreed, and that's how your first night together went. You both stayed up even later and had more lighthearted conversations, unlike the ones that partook at the field. Like how one of Duff's first jobs was at a bakery and could bake a mean cake and how you can't cook to save your life.
You ended up waking up without remembering falling asleep. You're head was placed comfortably on Duff's lap while his head was lolled back against the couch cushion. He looked so serene and peaceful you couldn't help but smile at the sight.
You made toast and somewhat successfully cooked some eggs and bacon. It might have been the first breakfast in years that didn't end with the smoke alarm going off.
Duff eventually wandered into the kitchen and you both ate. By the time he left, another date was already set up. He was like a drug an you were already hooked.
Months later and the addiction still wasn't kicked. You didn't want to, and Duff didn't seem to want you to quit either. You both soaked each other up like the sun on a warm day.
You had almost weekly dates and you stayed over each other's houses almost every other day. Duff did have his kids some days, though, so some days dates were cut short or Grace and Mae slept over his house and you wouldn't see each other.
You were always understanding, his kids came first and you'd never blame or get upset about it. It's something Duff admires about you, your never ending understanding and empathy for him.
One of those days where Duff stayed over at your house started normal. He cooked dinner and you washed the dishes, and then you put on an old Ramones concert you had on DVD.
You were laying on his chest, his fingers running through your hair when all of a sudden, he tensed up. He quickly stood and excused himself to the bathroom. You frowned but before you could think much of it, you heard a loud bang and something clatter to the ground.
You jumped up and rushed to the bathroom. You swung open the door because you were perfectly aware the lock hasn't worked since you moved in.
Duff was sitting on the floor, a pill bottle laying on its side not far from him. You quickly spot the name of the medication and identified it as your anti-anxiety pills. You shoved them aside and sat next to Duff.
He was sweating bullets and his skin felt cold and clammy, his breaths were labored and heartbeat was loud and pounding erratically. You coax him gently to take deep breaths, holding onto his hand tightly and talking quietly.
"I'm sorry, they come on randomly sometimes," he apologized after he'd called down, but you quickly shushed him. You reminded him of just how many nightmares he'd comforted you for and he stops feeling so bad about it.
     It was always a true partnership with Duff. Never had you felt you gave or took too much, it was always equal. Always a two way street, with everything.
That wasn't the last panic attack you had to help him come down from. Later down the line you've gotten better at calming him down and learning his triggers, even though sometimes they really do come on suddenly without reason.
A year into the relationship was when you met Grace and Mae. They were young and didn't completely understand why their parents weren't together anymore, so it took them a while to warm up to you. Luckily, they eventually came around.
Duff and Susan met up regularly to discuss their kids and co-parent properly. And while you had all the reason to be jealous of your boyfriend with his ex wife, you never did. You had complete confidence in him, he was honest and loyal and you doubted he'd ever hurt you purposely.
That's why it destroyed you when he left you. Tears were shed from both parties as he gave his reasons for breaking up with you. His insecurities he tried his best to bury had come to light and nothing could change his mind.
You thought you were completely honest with each other, but you suppose his doubt in his relationship with you was the one thing he kept secret. He had somehow convinced himself you'd be better without him, between the constant touring and the baggage that came with him and his kids, he finally buckled under the weight and stress.
You had tried to convince him that he was worth it, but if Duff is one thing it's stubborn. The best relationship you'd ever have and the best year of your life went down the drain within the matter of one conversation.
You were down in the dumps for days. You barely left your bed and didn't ever leave your house. You were in a depression and couldn't get out. A few of your friends eventually found out what had happened and broke into your house and shoved you into the shower before taking you to your favorite Chinese restaurant.
You felt like a disaster. Your hair was ratted despite the shower and you refused to put real clothes on, instead wearing sweatpants and a shirt Duff had left behind. You were a mess.
The hole in the wall restaurant was never busy but always had the best food. You were almost happy your friends dragged you out of your home until you saw Duff sitting at a table, eating egg rolls and lo mein.
You've came here together all the time. The high sodium in the food always made him sick to his stomach and you'd always end up giving him nausea remedies and tea. He never changed his order though.
You locked eyes with him for a while. Dark bags were under his eyes and he looked more pale than usual. He looked as terrible as you felt. You weren't sure if you were spitefully glad he felt awful or if the despair on his face just made your heart break further.
When you couldn't take his intense jade stare anymore, you looked up at the menu. The next time you looked back he was gone, you weren't sure if he was really there at all or if you were finally losing your mind for good.
     Another week crawled by. You got better enough to continue working. You had to pick up extra time for calling out for a few days after the breakup. You wouldn't say things were going well, but you weren't crying in bed every day all day anymore.
     You had constant dreams about him. Some were nice, ones where he didn't leave and you were together, holding each other tightly. Most were nightmares, flashbacks of when he left. You didn't have him to comfort you anymore when you woke up soaked in sweat and tears, and that might've been the worst.
     Another week went by, and you were starting to get back into the swing of things. You still thought about him, even silly little things reminded you of him. Like when you would catch a sniff of freshly baked sweets like he'd bake you or certain songs playing on the radio. It also didn't help that you ran into people wearing Guns n Roses shirts on the daily.
     You also refused to get rid of anything he'd left behind. Tee shirts, guitar picks he left from when he'd play for you, or CDs from bands he introduced you to. Reminders of what you lost were scattered around your home but you couldn't bring yourself to do anything about it.
     Suddenly, it's been a month. You weren't over him, but you had a feeling you'd never be completely. He was something special, you can't forget things as special as your relationship with Duff.
     His items still weren't thrown out or returned, instead all packed in a box sitting in your closet. But you'd be lying if you said you would never reach into the box to grab a shirt to sleep in or a CD to listen to when you needed a reminder of the good times. You were making progress though.
     You decided to leave your house one evening. You were feeling especially terrible and wanted to take a walk to clear your head. You went to the coffee shop you had first met Duff in. Maybe it was a mistake to go and get a flood of memories but you couldn't stop yourself.
     You sat in a seat near the window and people watched, taking occasional sips of your drink. It was quiet except from the talk of the workers and the hum of the overhead speakers.
     There was a sudden squeak of a chair of hardwood floors and it broke you out of your daze. You snapped your gaze up to meet the very familiar green eyes you've been trying to forget.
     "Can we talk?" He asked, and you couldn't say 'no.' Duff sat across from you and started off by apologizing.
     He said he wanted to talk to you sooner, but was too afraid you wouldn't want anything to do with him. You rolled your eyes at that, if only he knew just how much you missed him.
     He then started from the beginning and explained why he made the decision to leave you. As it turns out, it was mostly because of stress. His bandmate Scott was having problems with drugs and the flashbacks from his GnR days frightened him. He was worried he would end up relapsing and he didn't want to drag you down with him.
     Combine that with all the troubles that came with dating a single father, and he couldn't take it anymore. He felt too guilty.
     It all seemed like ridiculous reasons to you. Even if he had made the mistake of falling off the wagon, you still would've stuck with him. And you didn't mind his kids at all, after nearly a year of knowing them and you were very close to them.
     "I love you, Duff. I wouldn't have left you over that, I'd help you through anything. And I love Grace and Mae, too," you told him.
     "I know, but I didn't want you to have to deal with all that baggage." You frowned at that. You reached your hand across the table and grasped his, squeezing it tenderly.
     "You're worth it."
     After that day, you and Duff started seeing each other again. It wasn't the same as before, but maybe even better.
     You were more transparent with each other. If one had a worry or problem, you'd go to the other. You talked everything through with him and he did the same. Even if it seemed insignificant, talking everything through never failed to make it better.
    You were happier and healthier than ever before. Sure, there were a roadblock or two, but they only made the relationship even stronger, and you wouldn't have changed a thing about it.
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