#and i've lost my mom

[wanderingmind867]

The Magnus Chase books are decently fun, but like… I think I find that I have hangups with rick riordan's portrayal of Norse mythology. I had hangups with his portrayal of every mythological sphere besides Egypt, though. So I guess this really tracks for me.

In any case, there's so much about these books that feels unfair. Magnus being dead but still not getting to see his (also dead) mother. Ragnarok being an inevitability, to the point where I can't bring myself to care if Loki leads his army of the damned to kill Odin. Hotel Valhalla being one of the apparently "good and righteous" afterlives, but it also being a place where you die on loop over and over. Nothing about these books quite sits with me the right way. That's sometimes i've noticed more and more as i've aged.

I keep reading only for the good moments I know are sparsed in between the really horrible moments. Like Loki's scenes. Or the out of place references to old music and culture. Or the scenes with Blitzen and Hearthstone. These are some of the only good things I remember about the books. But they're enough to make me want to try and persevere. Even though I hate Valhalla and kind of want Loki to win. I don't lie when I say that Frey and Odin and Thor aren't too likeable. I'd take Hela and Loki any day of the week.

Also, I that Rick Riordan wants to make a point about letting go of grief. But after losing my mom to cancer back in 2022, my stance on death is irrevocably changed. I've faced a death, and it was so painful that anyone writing about it makes me want to scream. If I die, I better be able to see my parents. If I can't, I would fight any number of gods. Rick Riordan always presents the most unfair freaking afterlives, and I hate it.

If not for the Valhalla scenes and the inevitabilily of Ragnarok, I would probably love these books. But those two elements are my hangups. The banes of my existence. I would like to think this is all understandable, but sometimes I worry people will think i'm being needlessly critical. But I can't help it. It's just who I am. sigh…

[hychlorions]

a what-if i've been thinking about for forever... trucy knowing the truth before anyone could tell her

[epickiya722]

I lay awake at night and think about the visuals of 265 and one part I can't get over is how when Yuji talks about when he was little he dropped some slime, it got dirty and he tried washing it off but it went down the drain and he cried about it. And while, I know, it's funny and it foreshadows Sukuna's end, I'm like feeling something seeing how clever this scene is drawn.

While Yuji is reminiscing about slime he lost, Sukuna is standing what looks to be a cage. That's open! When you think about this relationship and what Yuji says here it's like a "ooooooh" moment.

Sukuna is reduced to, well, slime as he rejects Yuji's offer to live among him (possessing his body) again. To Sukuna, Yuji was his cage.

And when he was reduced to that blob, Sukuna rejects being caged again and Yuji is seen upset as Sukuna fades into nothing.

But the thing is, that was the better outcome for both of them. In Yuji's case, he didn't have to a cage anymore to Sukuna and Sukuna, in the afterlife, accepts his defeat and chooses to go a different path. At the end, both of them got to choose what they wanted for themselves.

[hollis-art]

drove by myself for the first time ever today and it was terrifying but shoutout to the "I'm scared to do it" "Then do it scared" mentality because without it, I probably wouldn't have gotten the nerve to try it out

yes, my first time driving by myself was just me shaking and sweating like the most nervous little dog ever, while repeating the Soft Kitty Warm Kitty song over and over and over again like a broken record, but i still did it.

bravery is not the ability to do something without fear. it's the will to do it in spite of fear. or whatever, i dont remember the full quote or who said it but i think about it a lot

[catsoftheclans]

frostpaw

[hembob]

[uhhhhmanda]

Uhhhhmanda’s Infamous Nine-fingered Pumpkin Pie (rev. 11/27/19)

You’ll need a deep-dish pie pan for this. 9” wide and 2” deep.

Ingredients

Filling: 1-1/4 cups packed light brown sugar 1 tablespoon cornstarch 1/2 teaspoon salt 1-1/2 teaspoons ground cinnamon 1/2 teaspoon ground ginger 1/2 teaspoon grated nutmeg 1/8 teaspoon ground cloves 2 cups pumpkin puree (canned or from a pumpkin -- directions for that are below) 3 eggs 12 fl oz evaporated milk (not sweetened condensed and not fat free)

Crust: 1 stick (8 tablespoons) butter, straight from the fridge 1-1/4 cups all-purpose unbleached flour 1/2 teaspoon salt 1/2 teaspoon sugar Icewater or chilled vodka

Whipped cream: 1 cup heavy whipping cream 2 tablespoons sugar 1/2 teaspoon vanilla extract

Directions

If you’re starting with a pumpkin, cut it in half horizontally and scoop out the guts. CAREFULLY stab steam holes through the halves from the outside in. DON’T DO THIS WHILE HOLDING THE PUMPKIN. SET THE PUMPKIN ON A FIRM, LEVEL SURFACE AND USE A REALLY SHARP KNIFE AND TAKE YOUR FUCKING TIME. DON’T BE COCKY. *clears throat* Place halves cut side-down on a parchment-covered rimmed baking sheet and roast at 400 degrees F for 50 minutes. When cool, collect softened pumpkin flesh, mash with a potato masher or blend with a stick blender or food processor.

Whisk together dry ingredients for crust and cut in chilled butter using your preferred method. I use a food processor. Add icewater or chilled vodka as necessary (about a tablespoon at a time) until the dough comes together. Knead as little as possible so that your hands don’t melt the butter. Roll crust out into a circle approximately 10” in diameter and place it in the pie pan. Gently press in place. If you have the skills, go ahead and decorate the edges.

Whisk together all wet ingredients for filling. Whisk together dry ingredients for filling. Then add dry to wet and combine thoroughly. Pour filling into crust.

Cover entire pie with aluminum foil, loosely. You may wish to grease the underside of the foil or spray it with cooking spray. You don’t want it touching the filling or it will adhere and pull away bits of the cooked filling. Bake at 375 degrees F for 60-65 minutes or until the center is set. You can check this with a toothpick, but anything you insert in the filling with create crevices, so I prefer to shake the pan and see if the center of the filling jiggles. When it’s set it won’t jiggle. Let cool at least 2 hours before serving.

Add sugar and vanilla to whipping cream and beat until stiff peaks form.

[crosswordgf]

my grandma is in like the early early stage of some kind of dementia type thing which i just cannot handle:( my mom told me yesterday she couldn't remember where her own gym was or how to get there but today she drove there no problem so its very up and down. btw it's insane her kids are still letting her drive very scary. also when everyone found out she got some kinda diagnosis no one thought to tell me about it cause i live far away so i've just had to piece it together from context clues cause it makes me too sad to ask... im just listening to ctrl now and crying when sza's grandma comes in ughh :(

[safety-pin-punk]

yall Im so fucking tired. This month has been exhausting. I promise Im alive, just barely functional atm.

[jaggedteeth]

hey google how do i google 'how to stop feeling violently ashamed of my body post-weight gain' without being fed a bunch of fatphobic ableist bullshit

[cicadidae-tm9899]

been playing clangen almost constantly, so i made solid designs for some of my favorite cats from NectarClan

the base is by reevees on DeviantArt, and the pixelated designs are from the clangen game

[pvremichigan]

:)c

[pisshandkerchief]

truly having the worst couple months of my life rn. going through the horrors for real for real

[naomiknight-17]

I have a pair of track pants that I stopped wearing because they kept sliding down my ass and falling off

I wore them to physio today. No problem at all. Never slipped or slid once. They were too tight before and I couldn't pull them high enough over my hips for them to stay up. Now they're fine

Which is great because my other workout pants are getting so baggy they come up almost to my bra band when I pull them up now

[blackbutler-readerinsertsandjunk]

tomorrow is my first day back to work and I'm a lil nervous

I haven't been able to get anything written for here bc I've been trying to get a couple other things written (updating my Bill Cipher redemption fic and starting a Gyutaro x reader x Daki because I make poor life choices)

but I'm on light duty for a month, basically just sitting at the register checking people out, unable to do any stocking or anything bc I'm not allowed to lift anything over 15 pounds so I can't lift totes, bend much, or reach much, so I'm allowed to bring something to do in between customers... maybe I'll get some writing done? I feel as if I'll be slacking off bc that's how my brain works

but you know what, I kill myself for that store normally, I don't work full time simply because I can't afford medical insurance if I did, but even working only part time I give my all while I'm there, I'm not someone who slacks off. so if I'm healthfully and approvedly permitted to slack off and take it easy for a month, I guess I'll take it (... plus, I mean, I'll still be working, just light duty, it's not like I'll show up and get paid to do ABSOLUTELY NOTHING, I'm still gonna be ringing out customers)

ANYWAY MY POINT IS-

get those last requests in! after I get home from work tomorrow, I'll be closing the askbox and won't open it back up till this batch is finished and I swear I mean that this time 😂

[radmista]

Sowing seeds of discontent and disharmony by hanging up on my parents birthday phone call the second my mom asked if I gained weight. Hope that sits badly on their minds while they think about how that's the first call I've engaged with them in 2 months and it was for the dogs birthday. Dad scrambling to text me for my mom that she didn't mean it. Like fuck I told her I've been having a rough month and day. She couldn't keep it to herself that badly. Fucks sake