#and i'm so tired
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i made this in. under ten minutes. enjoy
#i've been so busy#and i'm so tired#yeah that's it#malevolent#malevolent podcast#malevolent fanart#arthur lester#john doe#john doe malevolent#jarthur#private eyes#mossiistars
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Five episodes is the end of my patience with constant/repetitive 'Oh but I think they're so good as platonic/Not everything has to be romantic' and considering there are still several of these posts after every episode in Sam's tags from people who literally never talk or post about Sam except for in relation to Evan anyway, I'm just going to start blocking people on first offense.
And again...this show is finished filming! Some people shipping SamxEvan while they watch the show now has absolutely no bearing on what happens in canon. So what is the point of all these posts? Go write an email to Dropout if you're so concerned about the sanctity of platonic relationships in this show.
Sincerely,
A black ace woman
#Again this is not my otp but I'm done giving white people the benefit of the doubt!#I am not asking you to ship this or explain to me why you don't#I am asking you to go to any of the dozens of other posts from people who feel the same way as you and have this convo there#sam black#sam britain#I can't emphasize to you enough that regardless of your personal motives or intentions#This is part of a pattern in the way white fandoms respond to ships that include black women#And I'm so tired
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After unknowingly becoming the leader of every freaking group I've had to work in (and let me tell you, my major is all about group work) I've concluded that being told what to do must be x100 times easier than doing your own part + being in charge of telling other's what to do (since this entails being fair and analyzing each team mates capabilities)
#in conclusion#I would like it if my only and one responsibility was doing what I was told#fun fact: I was about to start this post with#“not to sound like a sub but please tell me what to do”#but I retracted out of... shame probably (?#but really#please please please#despite me always being appointed as a leader by unanimous votes#I don't think that decision is made based on my skills#it's probably made based on the lack of skill of others#and I'm so tired#I deserve better than to having to constantly babysit my classmate#something something that theory about how your brain energy can be wasted on taking a million of tiny decions to the point where you are#left without energy to take big decisions??#very very true#I love my career but sometimes I don't
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My brain is still stuck on Modern Leto this morning, thanks to @reallyrallyauthor's series that I finished last night. Not a bad way to start a Saturday!
#oscar isaac#feeling better than yesterday by far#but still wishing i could just go back to bed right now#saturdays are so busy#and i'm so tired
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oh my god I forgot how much getting vaxxed sucked T-T
Like, do it absolutely if you are medically capable, but it always hits me like a truck and now I'm dyiiiiing. I'm not but I am.
anyway, get your flu shots y'all and then get yourself a treat afterwards, you'll deserve it
#I am sore EVERYWHERE#WHY#and I'm so tired#get vaccinated#get vaxxed#and I had to get two at once which is So Much Worse#I'm such a baby about it#why do we age out of post vax lollypops#I want a lollypop and I was not offered one
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*repeating under my breath* it's just the luteal phase, it's just the luteal phase
#everything feels so bad all of a sudden 😭#i want to d*e and i think my partner is gonna leave me and everything is so boring#and I'm so tired#pmdd#tw sui ideation#rocd
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Once it's winter break when I'll have no classes to stress about and actual honest to god time and energy to write it's over for you bitches
Every day I stare longingly at the Jegulus fic I have in the works and my Wolfstar one shot I've got started </3
#i want to write so badly#but it's the final stretch of the semester#and i'm SO tired#free me#marauders era#jegulus#wolfstar#regulus black#james potter#remus lupin#sirius black#marauders#harry potter#writing#ao3 writer#dziban's rambles
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Algorithm.
#thankfully not tumblr#but twitter sucks ass#i wish i could just not know#about fucking interactions with my posts#but i literally need to#drive up engagement to survive?#they're coming to monetize the furthest corner of your soul#and i'm so tired
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Good morning, I've still not processed that I actually witnessed all of THAT yet
#joker out#käärijä#and I'm so tired#but let's go again tonight???#honestly 100% get why the boys have been sneaking out after all the gigs this week#and are not hanging around#it's a lot
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Tumblr discourse is great because you can make a post and someone will read like one sentence they disagree with from it and turn the entire argument into something you weren't even talking about in the beginning LOL
#fandom and system discourse both#I usually have more patience and try to be nicer but I have 0 patience atm#too much chronic pain and dissociation#and I'm so tired#I'm going to be bitchy instead#also people talking to me like I'm not part of the group of people they claim to be talking about lmao#sorry you don't want to accept that people in the same group can disagree with you. sucks for you
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one term down, one more to go. and then another 3 years after that alskalsk
#we did cheerdance for finals#and i'm so tired#but gosh i'm free finally#for the next 3 weeks ish#well enrollment starts next month#and i'm kinda nervous about that#i'm planning on taking out a student loan but gosh#i really hope it works out#ramblings
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Guys idt the lights are gonna be the only things hanging on the trees this Christmas 💞🙈💞
#am I being srs who knows#im just so stressed w exams#i dont even want to see the results#i just want to finish it then be skinny then fucking die#i feel like it would be pathetic if i kms b4 even getting the results of my exams#but like i'm so done#and i'm so tired#and i'm obv not gonna do it anytime soon but it's never been so tempting#dont worry though#im fine
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I figured out in 2018 that I was transgender . I was 13 years old . I begged my mother if I could cut my hair ' like my brothers ' and I did in later that year , it was the best feeling in the world , not having long hair . And I never told anyone in my family until 2021 , I finally told my mom and she went ' I know ' ... and then I never talked about it ever again . I only ever told my parents not to call me by my deadname because it genuinely makes me nauseous . I'm such a coward and I still haven't come out or fully transitioned . I thought I'd have more time , I live in Oklahoma where there is certainly no healthcare or place for me here . I had 5 therapists quit on me and not understand me . I'm turning 20 soon and I'm terrified . I've hidden myself and my identity for as long as I can remember . I was 7 years old calling myself boy names and ' playing ' as a boy . I was 10 years old not understanding why I was having this huge crush on a boy and that it didn't feel normal , it felt queer . At that point I definitely knew I was queer I just didn't know in what way . I was 12 when I first heard and understood the word transgender and it felt right , it felt like I finally unlocked this piece . But I also knew I couldn't tell anyone ever in my real life , my family would never ever get it . I was 14 when I got my first binder and I heavily binded and ruined my ribs . I was 15 when I dropped out of high school , I couldn't take it anymore . I can't go into public without the huge fear of being perceived wrongly . I'm incredibly anti social and have been known to be reclusive . I've been trying to legally get my name changed for years now and my mother won't help me . Nobody can help me and I feel so stuck and sick in the head . I feel like I've been suffocating and yelling into a muffled void ever since I figured out that I'm a transgender gay man . Nobody hears me . Nobody will ever hear me ... I've had my moments of crying for help but it's not loud enough , I have no friends and never had a loving family , never had a support system and I'm so fucking scared that I will never get it at this point . I'll be 20 , still being that 13 year old who knew I was fucked when I realized . But I'm still who I am despite me repressing and not talking about it , I can't ever forget who I am , I just have to scream louder . We all have to scream louder and be prouder now . I know I'm not alone in this but I really am , I've locked myself in my room this entire week and I haven't talked to another person in months . I need help and I won't get it , especially now , I'm so hopeless and lonely . We've all got our experiences and this one is me , a tale of a boy who's locked himself in a tower and there'll be no one to find me . I love being gay and being proud about it within but there still is a part of me who fucking hates it and desperately wish it's just easier to be alive . I feel like a fraud .
#transgender#transgender experience#lgbtqia#gay#I cope horribly#With sh and repression 🧡#and silly Tv shows#I just need a friend . The only friend I've got is my cat .#I'm just spouting my experience so at least it's out there and won't be forgotten#Not that anyones gonna read it but lol#I genuinely believe my mom has forgotten .#and I'm so tired
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What's so depressing about this situation is, is that I DO have gentleman callers. I actually have a few (annoying) ones. But I still chase the unattainable ones. The ones who don't exist. Or are gay.
#and even if I'd turn to the ladies#the one I like the most is running herself#she's like the most beautifuls woman ever#but fucked up beyond belief#so yeah#more gravelling it is for me#and I'm so tired#I know I'll never procreate#I'm too old and to depressed for it#nothing to lighten the mood there
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I haven't slept properly in days, and my legs hurt so much 😩
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