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Reactions to The Worst's Chapter 394
Brief summary: Cale talks to GoD. Cale receives his rewards for completing the subquest. Cale feels ominous at what Clopeh had done.
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I couldn't help but laugh at and feel sorry for GoD at the same time. 😂😂😂
Cale: Are you busy? GoD: Very busy. Cale: How's the GoC these days? GoD: …What did you do? Cale: Haven't you heard from CJS? GoD: They don't tell me anything anymore. Shameless bastards. Don't they even know that they're living so freely because of me? Cale: Okay, I'll send those two to Earth 3 while we're in the game. Also, I'll briefly explained what happened, so listen carefully. GoD: Oh yes! I'm looking forward to it! Cale: Ha. It's not something that will have a big impact on your side of the god realm. But I thought it would be good for you to know. It's nothing much, but just know. Cale: *tells the chaos he did* Alberu and Rosalyn: (Nothing much?) *looks in disbelief* Cale: …And that's what happened. GoD's mirror: *vibrates intensely* GoD: T-T-This crazy bastard! Y-You are really the best! Hahahahaha! I was a genius for choosing you! Hahahahaha! Cale: Are you crazy? *contemplates on breaking the mirror* GoD: Ahem. Cale: Anyway, since I've set up the board, the gods should fight each other according to that. GoD: Ah. Even without that, there's currently a standoff without any progress. There are gods who are increasingly siding with GoC. Because of that, GoB is going crazy and running wild. Also, there is also talk of her stepping down from the position of representative because GoB is not doing her job properly. In addition, since the title of ancient god is not very useful, there's talk of creating a system by appointing new leader-level gods other than the ancient gods throughout the god realm. Btw, I'm one of them- Cale: Stop. The affairs of the god realm are none of my business. I only care about the hunters and the absolute gods. The rest is up to you, the god and demon realms. GoD: You really think so? Cale: What? GoD: Heh. Cale: *feels annoyed and turns off the screen* GoD: Sorry, I won't tease you! Tell me more!
GoD seems to know that every time Cale denies involvement with the gods, he continues to set up flags in becoming involved with them. 😂😂😂
That lore drop about ancient gods though. I thought "ancient god" was just some adjective to call the old gods, but it was actually a title and had some significance. The appointment of new leader-level gods was also a surprise, and the fact that our GoD was included as a candidate... 🤣🤣🤣
After a few months, CJS and Sui were mentioned again. Cale planned to leave the Earth 3 matters to them while he plays the game. And King Zed was mentioned too!
Apparently, when a person was nearing their death, their name would appear on GoD's Death List six months before their death. Included were also details related to their death, such as the time and location of death.
However, Zed's place of death kept changing, so GoD couldn't tell much to Cale. There was also restrictions around it, so GoD said he would have to prepare for it before he could tell Cale the info.
Moving on, Cale got to talk to the System AI upon completing the subquest. He achieved his quest so splendidly that the system rated it as SSS+. He got a potion that he needed to pour on Count Lupe's forehead to restore Lupe's memories.
The System AI was so happy that Cale hit the Transparent Bloods, the Demon Realm, and the God of Chaos all at the same time. So the extra reward Cale got for achieving SSS+ in his quest was just too OP!
Red Hand (Rank: God) -When using the skill, you can make a "judgement" through a "trial with the System" and activate "Red Hand" when you are "permitted". -If you understand that the absolute god of the New World already exists, it will be easier to receive "permission" in the "judgement".
Red Hand was the game's response to game errors, and if you recall, it once tried to kill Cale when he first entered the game. But now, Cale had it as a skill? Since the "absolute god" of New World was the System AI, and it was that very System AI who gave the Red Hand skill to Cale, it meant that Cale could freely get "permission" in using the skill. Cale is becoming god-like even inside the game! 😂😂😂
As Cale smiled, another quest window popped into view. And he froze. [Recovery Rate 99.31% (Time remaining: 23:19)] [Nativity Progress 159%] [Reward Tier Undetermined] “Huh?” Why is the nativity progress over 100%? How is that possible? “Damn.” Clopeh Sekka, what the hell did you do? Cale's heart raced. It was the moment he realized something was coming that he couldn't handle.
It's here! Cale's reaction to Clopeh Sekka's actions! 🤣🤣🤣 Yeah, what the heck did Clopeh do that the birth/nativity progress surpassed 100%? 😂😂😂
Ending Remarks So much happened today. Next chapter would be our poor Cale learning what Clopeh had done (and learning about Sheritt's "betrayal"). 😂 We would probably hear about what happened to Count Lupe too once he wakes up. So Eden's birth should be next week?
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I finally started playing Baldur's Gate 3. I know I'm slow. Many people told me I wouldn't like it. The reasons why were varied - turn based combat, unvoiced protagonist, characters not as in depth as they are in Dragon Age. And I listened.
What changed? Frustration with Veilguard.
And I liked BG3. A lot. Enough to hyperfixate on it? No, but it is a game I want to play again. Something I don't want to do with Veilguard. I got the ending I wanted but it was kind of a slog to get there and I don't want to do it again.
Which brings me to why I created this post. BG3 reminds me of what I loved about the previous three DA games and what I found lacking in Veilguard. To start I will just say that Veilguard was not for me and that is fine. It works for others and I am happy for them.
BG3 has characters that feel like real people. They have likes and dislikes. They get along with other party members or they don't. They don't really like or trust your character at first. You have to get to know them but they also have to get to know and trust you. They don't always agree with you. They make their own decisions based on how you have helped change them. For example. I can tell Shadowheart what she should do about the Nightsong, but ultimately it is up to her. I can try to persuade her but its a pretty high check if she doesn't really like me.
You get to decide what kind of person your Tav/Durge is. And there are consequences for the kind of person you choose to be. The world reacts to your character and not always pleasantly. So I felt a sense of accomplishment when a character became friendly or made a choice based on what my character did.
DA games used to do that to one extent or another. Even in DAI some of your characters could leave you. Others just hated you. It was realistic.
The story was cohesive. It had themes and those themes were dealt with well.
I understand that DATV was a result of its development cycle and that we got a game at all, much less one that was polished and had a mostly satisfying ending is great so I'm not overly critical. It is what it is but it isn't for me.
So this Solavellan blog will be looking a little different going forward. There will be more posts about other games. I need to step away from DA for a bit.
I suspect it will still lean heavily toward Solas and Solavellan. That is my hyperfixation after all, but I want to post pictures of my other games and don't feel like creating another blog dedicated to those other games (yes, I'm lazy).
So everyone that follows me for Solavellan content be warned.
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Intimidating A Guest - Devil Maxim AU
Also inspired by discord messages! I think I directly stole a line from a message
VR-LA leaned back in his armchair, smiling at Cassimir's attempt at keeping a level expression despite how he was eyeing Maxim, who was standing behind VR-LA's chair. Papers were scattered across VR-LA's coffee table, next to a plate of sweets and their cups of tea.
VR-LA was quite pleased with how this was going. Cassimir had never avoided bragging so much as he had today, shutting himself up with sips of tea whenever Maxim moved. This was definitely mean, but VR-LA was also very entertained. Maxim had started leaning over the chair slightly, face perfectly in reach of VR-LA.
Cassimir awkwardly cleared his throat, picking up one of his papers, passing it over to VR-LA. "As you'll find, this is quite important to my latest research into magically created artificial life, it contains all the information I found on..." Cassimir kept talking as VR-LA looked down at the paper, reading it over while only half listening. Cassimir's attempts to sell him on becoming a research partner had gotten annoying a while ago, given how VR-LA was busy with his own projects. Not to say it wasn't fascinating, VR-LA would've happily joined if it was at a different time. "...as such, I need something from you. I'm not here to ask you to join me again, I'm just offering to purchase some materials." Cassimir said as VR-LA tuned back in.
"What are you looking for and what are you offering?" VR-LA asked, casually reaching up to play with Maxim's hair a bit, watching how it made Cassimir tense. "Money doesn't exactly have much use with the trades I do these days."
Cassimir took his last sip of tea, emptying his cup to compose himself and setting it down. "I found a root that I know you've been looking for."
"Found or have?"
"...found." Cassimir replied. "But, I could get you the informa-" He stopped as Maxim was suddenly moving forward, taking the cup before just leaving with it. VR-LA tried not to laugh at the timing. "I can get it for you." Cassimir corrected himself immediately.
"Oh, that sounds perfect." VR-LA replied. "What can I get you then?"
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VR-LA walked Cassimir out, Maxim staying back in the living room where they had been chatting. Cassimir took his coat off the hook by the door, putting it back on as he started to speak. "I noticed the ring." He commented. "So, you sold your body to a demon?" He questioned, not even sounding judgmental, although the question still embarrassed and pissed VR-LA off.
"No!" VR-LA squawked. "Only my hand, and it certainly wasn't-" VR-LA cut himself off, keeping himself from saying he was tricked.
"Not a deal?" Cassimir filled in. "Well, not my place to judge, anything for our research, hm?"
VR-LA hated being lumped in with Cassimir with that. "You should be on your way."
So, the discord has a devil Maxim au (au made by @caliburn-not-calculator )
So I decided to make a short thing! Set in that au. Basic lore is just devil Maxim and human (?) wizard VR-LA in a modern (?) world where VR-LA keeps summoning Maxim to study Maxim and Maxim falls hard
This specific lil thing is based on this message from the discord, also from Caliburn! (And others after!) The entire questioning is based on this message from Fleet! @afleetingdownpour
"This is the first contract in quite some time." Maxim commented idly, watching as VR-LA read it over with quite some satisfaction. "You've been relying on older contracts."
VR-LA squinted at Maxim through the barrier for a moment before shifting to sit more comfortably on the floor, continuing to read without comment. He made it to the last page before smiling. "I'm sure you wouldn't mind me striking out a few things as usual?"
"Depends on what those things are." Maxim leaned forward slightly, interested in what VR-LA had caught this time. He normally got everything, but Maxim had a little idea for this game this time. "Guide me through it."
There were a few minutes of discussion, Maxim giving in without protest and enjoying the smug expression that got out of VR-LA. VR-LA signed it, then Maxim signed it as it was passed back to him. VR-LA's expression quickly dropped when he noticed Maxim's own, frowning intensely. No despair, no worry yet.
Maxim went to one of the middle pages, towards a paragraph about payment where VR-LA had already scratched something out. "I believe the wording contained on lines 2, 4, and 7 within this paragraph entitle me to a small favor of my choice. One I already have in mind."
VR-LA tensed. "Which is?"
"Could you give me your hand?"
"Give as in for you to remove from my body or otherwise take?"
"No." Maxim said. "Or for any other physical harm."
"Mental harm?"
"None intended."
VR-LA thought it over. "And you're not referring to giving help or some other metaphor?"
"It is not a metaphor." Maxim answered. "What other metaphor could it be?"" Maxim knew, he was teasing.
"...bastard." VR-LA mumbled, not answering that. After another moment of hesitation, he put his hand through the barrier.
Maxim gently took it with his clawed hand, leaning over to press a kiss to VR-LA's hand before releasing him. "Favor completed."
VR-LA retracted his hand, looking as confused as he was flustered. "That's all you wanted?"
"If you want to give more, I would be happy to take more."
"Not what I meant!" VR-LA squawking, wiping his hand off on his scarf in an exaggerated manner. "Let's just- let's complete the rest of the deal."
"Of course."
#rolling with difficulty#rwd#my writing#rwd maxim#rwd VR-LA#rwd cassimir#i changed how Emi will come to be in this au! the discord had her just as cass' daughter but consider#artifical life made with magic
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Hi friends 👋🏼
It's no secret that things have been really tough for me recently.
But I just wanted to say, today I feel a little bit of hope (which admittedly feels a little scary). I just wanted to say thank you to those of you that have stuck with me. My little group of Tumblr friends are more important to me than you guys will ever know. So thank you. And I love each and every one of you. 😘
#kinda personal kinda far cry#you guys are the best! 🖤#and i'm looking forward to creating again#so so much!#thank you thank you thank youuuu! 🥰
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With the end of season two comes a second redraw!
[Nov 2022] [June 2023] [June 2024]
#better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#I was really looking forwards to this redraw - though the jump in skill isn't as dramatic as the last one I still am proud of my progress!#It's really incredible to look back on this last year and how much has happened since then.#Both in my personal life and this blog.#I started the second season while I was going through some pretty rough times and it truly kept my sanity afloat.#I challenged myself a lot more this year! And while it didn't always turn out the way I hoped-#-being messy and earnestly trying to do something different has been my favourite part of art.#There will always be a lot of room to grow - I don't think art and creativity has a ceiling.#I went from doubting that I was even an artist to joining a gamedev team as the lead artist! That's character growth!#Thank you all once again for joining me on this journey B*)#Thank you for all the messages and support you have sent my way these last 18 months.#I'm so happy to have been given the chance to create something for this community. You've given me so much and I am so grateful.#I'll take a little break to post some personal project stuff this week and resume season three after that!#Onwards to another season of silly (and sometimes serious) comics!
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Scholarly peak is catching up on recent literature
#bingqiu#shen qingqiu#luo binghe#svsss#sqq#lbh#my art#which is honestly just to say that i've finished the other two print books i was reading#and am now prepared to leap feet first into svsss bk4#i succeeded in holding off for an entire two weeks. i have the conviction of a wet paper towel.#lets see bk4 was described as - what? - an ''angst and smut pile''??#i am very much looking forward to this#i was promised a story with my snake boy#because i am very much not over zhuzhi-lang's fate so this had better be A REALLY NICE HAPPY ONE FOLKS#anyway have sqq and lbh cuddling and reading as i project on them#i like to assume that as time goes on sqq is able to relax his persona a bit more around lbh#i think he should get to cuddle and bitch about shitty novels#but man sqh is really the ONLY source of any books that have an even slightly modern cadence/style i have a feeling sqq would be very keen#though if i'm being honest i really wonder if sqh could ever bring himself to write fiction again#if you're A Writer it tends to be hard to RESIST you just get an itch to tell a story#but also like... the fear that all of this could happen again... or that the characters you're creating might be REAL and SUFFERING...#yeah... i honestly suspect he can't write anymore and that it honestly probably sucks a lot... but for the sake of this joke he is :P
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✨ 2024 in gifs ✨
rules: post your favourite and most popular post from each month this year (it’s okay to skip months)
Tagged by @evan-buck, thank you so much Lauren!! An absolute delight looking over all your incredible work and taking some time to reflect on my own gifs too 💖
January: •fav: Tied between Loki saying Mobius' name and an inspired Lokius set to test out new effects for the new year 🎇 •most popular: Lokius in S2 February: •fav: Only man in the world Mobius M. Mobius appreciation •most popular: Staged // BAFTAs March: •fav: Still waiting for that drink 😔 •most popular: DT as everyone's favorite chaotic car salesman April: •fav: Lokius x Fall Out Boy and TenSimm always being famous •most popular: A little suit appreciation for David's birthday May: •fav: A rather flawless entry back into the Lokius incorrect quote series if I do say so myself 🤣💕 •most popular: Owen and Tom discussing Loki (pleased to say my most popular set of the entire year!) June: •fav: Mobius falling for Loki in S1 •most popular: Loki yearning for Mobius in S2 July: •fav: Mobius + comfort and Dan Craig x Loewe the gift that keeps on giving •most popular: Loki S01E01 // PaleyFest August: •fav: History repeating itself with Midnight in Paris // Loki •most popular: Some Ten appreciation for the bestie 🎈🎉 September: •fav: This Lokius "Falling in love with a God" blended set, very possibly the best thing I've ever made 🥰 •most popular: Logan Howlett my beloved October: •fav: My Lokius in S1 summary came together perfectly and Queer (2024) had such stunning shots •most popular: David in Rivals S01E01 November: •fav: Tied between tearing myself apart over the Loki S2 finale anniversary and the range of Owen's birthday set •most popular: Loki S02E05 anniversary (shoutout to the romcom of all time 😘) December: •fav and most popular: Closing out the year the only way I know how, same as it started with Lokius down as bad as two people can get ✌️🙏
Tagging @too-funky, @dilfmobius, @lokimobius, @safedistancefrombeingsmart, @crowleybrekkers, @meep-meep-richie, and @crowlixcx as well as anyone else who wants to join!! So here to celebrate all the incredible creations throughout the year 💖💖
#ty again for the tag lovely this is SUCH an wonderful thing to do#2024 took me out at just about every turn so i'm not only shocked to have been able to gif every month#but also create so many sets i genuinely love#what a year it was!!#looking forward to the next and hope you have a wonderful one in store! all the love your way as always 😊💖#tagged
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something something foils moving in opposite directions Goku's always happy to seek and fight stronger opponents because he spent most of his life being the strongest guy in the room and Vegeta wants to be the strongest/is always exhausted to find stronger opponents because he spent most of his life having to navigate his survival around the whims of the strongest guy in the universe room and so Goku has a foundation of safety and stability and so spends his time craving challenge and adventure and Vegeta has a foundation of challenge and adventure and spends his time craving safety and stability and the overlaid section of their venn diagram is that the only way they know how acquire and maintain those things is through battle
#thank you this has been the laziest media analysis post of my career#dbtag#media analysis#something something a game to goku is a threat to vegeta etc#there's a pinned thought here about how Vegeta also didn't learn about the dragon balls until he was ?? 30?? and so all loss is permanent#and goku has been familiar since he was ~12 and hasn't faced a permanent consequence since he was 10 years old and even then he got closure#sometimes I think about how Vegeta saw Trunks die and how Krillin was mad at him for reacting since they could fix it with the dragon balls#but Vegeta has very limited experience with the dragon so to him in that moment that was permanent and Trunks was Dead. Forever.#And we talked before in a 2am post about Vegeta having never experienced grief born of love and I stand by it because his feelings then wer#still very new and very odd and not something he'd accepted until that moment so it was raw power but not as powerful as it could've been#all this to say in my heart of hearts I think Vegeta deserves to retire at the end of super (if super continues) -- not as a warrior#but as an infantryman. he's a prince and now he's got his domain and his family and his planet to look after and I think he deserves#to go home and stay home and help piccolo bully gohan into training more often when goku inevitably leaves to hop the multiverse#geets wanted to take a sabbatical when Bulla was born but didn't get the chance because Freeza coming back freaked him out too much#but whether freeza gets a redemption arc or gets defeated -- Granolah's arc seemed to shift his perspective on being the strongest#and I just grips fist I just think it would be a really nice full circle for Vegeta to inherit his throne in a way he never expected and#finally get his kingdom to look after and protect in the way that he was looking forward to being king of his own planet all those years ag#Goku's got Broly and Jiren and Hit and all the others to keep him busy and happy now -- and if Freeza gets a redemption arc he'll probably#continue playing slap-ass with Goku for the rest of his life -- and Vegeta's got Gohan and Piccolo and Goten and Trunks#I just think them getting a nice bittersweet 'This is where we part ways' would be really nice for both of them because !!#They couldn't have done this without each other. They couldn't have known this kind of life was possible without each other.#So they swap lots and live happier than they ever imagined they could be#especially since Vegeta has proved to himself that he can close any gap Goku creates in progress that's not a concern anymore#And obvs the door's always open!! There's no point closing it Vegeta's tried the locks they don't work on Goku#anyway here's me putting the whole essay in the tags again#this isn't an essay as much as it is stream of consciousness tag blogging#anyway i'm too lazy to write fic or draw comics so we get ramblings instead
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"What's your name?" Darius asks offhandedly while reading the newspaper, as Allison is setting the table.
"My... my name? Well, you usually call me Allison." Allison stops moving as they ponder the question, clearly surprised.
"I know I do, pet, but is that your real name? Do you even remember what it was?" Darius seems pretty amused, peering at them expectantly above their newspaper.
"I..." Allison trails off, looking somewhat panicked now. "Am... am I supposed to? I-I mean even if I try, I just... can't..." they laugh nervously as they finish setting the table.
"No... I suppose you're not, your old name is unimportant by now anyways, as it's not like you need to listen to it anymore" Darius seems even more amused, smirking, and he pats the top of their head, leaving Allison to their thoughts and the panicked realization that they don't seem to remember anything from their life before meeting him.
#conditioning whump#conditioned whumpee#may or may not be a debut of two OCs I'm in the process of making#I was thinking of making a series#and decided that I might create some sort of story arc in the future as my energy and inspiration lets me#i haven't fleshed out their dynamic yet of course#but i'm looking forward to maybe writing my own long whump story that has lots of parts#i'll create a masterlist for my writings once i upload more of them :3#it's pretty late but i finally could write something again so yay
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babe wake up new oc dropped
meet jet (any)! she has a quite rough lore. she and her partner are named after a color and their shade or tone! in this case jet's name is shortened from jet black.
didn't reveal the whole body yet because i'll be making a reference sheet for them teehee
#thelivingsin#oc artwork#oc art#original character#also it's been years since i created my first oc and i'm feeling so good i did it again#and you know what makes it better? i did it the first time DIGITALLY#I'm so happy tbh#please look forward to her partner <3
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is anyone else interested in joining my server? not quite ready to invite people yet but should be soon. just gauging interest right now. “like” or reply to this post and when i’m ready i’ll send you an invite.
server will probably be dual purpose.
there will be (1) a semi-public side oriented toward general discussion (topics like politics, books, history, philosophy, religion, media, science, tech, etc) and community building (nothing is set in stone yet but i am imagining activities like book club, movie watching, playing games, contests and giveaways, etc). and there will be (2) a private side dedicated to more focused discussions and internal cult matters.
the server won’t be a “safe space” -- i’m fine with a bit of edge (within ToS. not trying to get terminated.) -- but i do want this server (at least the semi-public side) to be /relatively/ welcoming and civil. so if you’re egregiously toxic or vulgar or prone to shitflinging or sperging out you won’t be welcome here. neither will you be welcome if you’re overly sensitive.
otherwise, as long as you follow the rules, you will be fine. though i always reserve the right to executively veto your presence for any reason.
#discord server round 2#i'll probably be reblogging this periodically for a bit#lurkers are probably okay#but i really want people who will be active and contribute to discussions#again in a mostly civil manner#but yeah i have a few people who have already said they want to join#but i just want to gauge interest#there's a minimum number of people i'm looking for in order to move forward with this#also while almost anyone is welcome#this server will probably lean toward the right#but part of the idea is that i want unorthodox and radical thinkers#from across the political spectrum#want there to be healthy debates and exchanges of ideas#also would be really cool if anyone who has experiences moderating would join and help me out with this#along with this i'm also trying to set up a wordpress and/or substack#i'm not sure how any of this works btw#i'm figuring it out as i go#but i want to try to create a writing project#potentially a collaborative group writing project#where members can submit poems and essays and short stories and whatever#in accordance with the spirit of the overall project#i'm not sure which is better for something like this#wordpress or substack#so yeah if you have any experience with this sort of stuff would really appreciate if you messaged me directly
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I snapped today at work, and by snapped I mean I politely commented on a help desk ticket by summing up an mess of an (type of) issue that's come up for at least the fourth time in the 2+ months I've been managing user accounts, and asked the person responsible to fix it (himself for once) because last time I fixed his mess-up it took me two whole days to work out the details with at least four other colleagues from different departments and I really don't want to do it again. there's other shit that needs doing, I've been working 10+ hour days for most of this week already, so I need to cut down not add on more.
(good thing tho - at least we managed to fix the issue where the dataset of a newer employee got mixed up with another one of the same name and therefore wasn't able to apply for any of the access/accounts she needed. technically not entirely my area but it does impact us not being allowed to create an account for her so I figured I might as well track that issue down. took three days and at least three other people, but hey - it should all work out now. yay for that)
#been feeling anxious af ever since bc it's the first time I've been this firm in a reply and idk how they'll take it#there's underlying issues in inter-departmental communication that need fixing that cause these issues to happen again and again#but my boss is on parental leave and his substitute is sick not that she cares or is up for doing her job where communication is concerned#so there's no real sense in addressing that rn esp by me who's only been there since June. but it does frustrate me a lot#anyway. I'm sure I'll get over this too. but yeah.. ppl not thinking things through for the two mins it takes to create an account#or the twenty seconds it takes to check if one already exists before creating a new one#or the minute it takes to check if folks still have an active contract past their time working in your department before deleting an accoun#just jfc. put in a smidge of effort and five mins total and save the rest of us from spending half a day to fix your mistake#oh well. if I get a pissy response I'll just blame it on being new as an intern and being too motivated and idealistic I guess#god forbid I expect people to do their jobs thoroughly or with at least a singular thought..#anyway. I feel like I'm allowed to be grumpy abt this since we are the folks who end up having to fix this shit#and by we I mean pretty much mostly me at this point bc one colleague is sick atm. my boss barely has time for this and is on leave#and my other colleague only works half time so I'm the one who's been handling most of these over the past month or so#which.. is still insane considering how I'm a goddamn intern who shouldn't even have admin rights tbh#but without them I couldn't do anything at all lol so here I am. nice that they trust and believe in me I suppose#that's why I try to do my best. (who am I kidding that's always the case anyway)#but yeah. definitely a 50% staff support job and only 50% of the other important things that need doing rn it's more like 90/10#and it's funny how I still dread my two hours of hotline. but every time the line is too busy I still jump in#we are also only 6 people atm out of 10 and three of us are still in training. and one of the trained folks had to come back in mid time of#next week we'll likely be 4#depending on if our substitute boss lady is back.. not that I'd look forward to it. she's a mess and she's been horrible to deal with latel#sure. she's stressed. but she's either snapping at me when I ask abt shit I can't know yet or she's ignoring me. great basis for team work.#so honestly I'd rather she not return on Monday. esp not if she's gonna spread her germs everywhere#but now sleep. sorry for the rant. it's certainly been quite the month since I returned from my own wisdom tooth rated sick leave..#gotta be up again in 6.5 hrs so I can be at work at 6 to let the electrician in. I'm gonna sleep so hard over the weekend I stg#a day in the life of..
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I live in an unheated basement.
I eat once a day, most days, and not at all on the others.
My food benefits were cut because my landlord doesn't believe in paperwork.
I apply to dozens of jobs a week. I have been for years.
I am unemployed anyway.
I'm out of money, out of energy, out of time.
What is the actual fucking point of me being alive now?
Do I exist solely to suffer?
Is that why I was born? To fucking suffer an endless onslaught of violence and indignity?
Do you know when was the last time I got to have so much as a fucking sandwich without breaking my own back trying to find scrap money for bread was?
I need maybe 10k to get out of debt, but no one will even hire me. I have to beg for money from strangers and hope I sound pathetic instead of disgusting when I lay out the reality of my daily horrors.
What. Is. The. Point.
#i'm never going to be able to create things again#my body will only further degrade under stress and untreated injury#all I have to look forward to is more slow starvation and ever mounting agony#i want to die#i never wanted to feel like this again
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why was i putting off breaking the seal on reading yyh fanfic again? i don't remember, and whatever the reason was it was stupid cause this is the most fun i've had reading fic in AGES.
AND my creativity and will to write has returned. for an unrelated fandom no less! Apparently sometimes you just gotta get back to your roots and YYH fanfic is how I got started so this makes sense on some level. but also WOW
(speaking of WOW: since blizzard employees have unionized it's less out of the question for me to consider playing WoW again, and if i combine my access to monsters and weed with my teen years obsessions i think I might just quantum leap through time to give younger me a better chance at life. worth a shot anyway)
#this is jokes i am joking i do not believe i can travel through time by combining things i enjoy with each other#i think it'd still be weirdly healing though#jury's still out though WoW's expensive to play (or was when i last played) so we shall see#i'd have to start ALL the way over too cause i no longer have access to the email i was using for blizzard#which like isn't a hugemajor problem because i have altitis like a motherfucker and will create a new character just cause the vibes#but yeah anyway i'm real stoked that i've unlocked the part of my brain that Does The Thing again in a way that hasn't felt fully open#in a HOT minute. sat under that cook lamp for TOO long.#and i look forward to where the wave takes me but mostly i'm just happy to be here
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Sometimes you have to be yourself on purpose. What I mean by this is that sometimes we lose touch with ourselves and start coasting and just going through the motions. Which is fine for a while because we get tired and/or depressed and that's fine. Happens to everyone. But eventually it starts to feel bad and you get a specific kind of brainweird that's hard to describe but means that you've lost sight of who you are, what your values are, and what you love.
Leaning really hard into something that makes you go "this is the most me thing ever" helps that specific type of brainweird quite a bit! But maybe you don't know what the most you thing ever is. You are not alone! I get depressed and forget every interest I have. 100% understand that.
When this happens, it helps to remind yourself what you like and enjoy. So what do you do? Well for me, it helps to think about 1. Things I used to enjoy and 2. Things my friends Know Me For.
Like I've been feeling not myself lately and I haven't really knit or created much this month at all. But I'm the Makes Things Guy. I like making things and many of my friends not only know me as someone who makes things but a lot of my friendships specifically come from communities of People Who Make Things.
So I forced myself to pick up an old project, and that helped a bit. But what really helped was coming up with a project that combined my interests (leather jackets, art, and teapots) for me to look forward to and get really into planning for! The most ME I've felt in weeks has been the last hour I've spent planning on painting a famous fine China design on the back of my leather trenchcoat. Because not ONLY am I the Makes Things Guy, I am also The Teapot Guy. I finally feel like myself again.
I wish I had more concrete advice in regards to how you remember your own interests when you get disconnected from them, but a solid place to start is things you used to like and things your friends know you like. If you struggle consider asking a friend what things they know you like. Sometimes friends can see us better than we can see ourselves and it helps to use them as a mirror to see yourself through.
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Sevika is now a council member, why not make it smut 🤷🏾♀️
- I honestly don’t know how I feel abt this or even the ending of arcane but fuck it btw I have another sev fic i should finish soon. ���🏾
Send request if you have any 🤍
“We shouldn’t be doing this here,” You pants, holding Sevika's shoulders as she fervently kisses your neck, pressing you against the table, her breath hot against your skin. "You have a meeting soon, what if someone walks in?"
Sevika pulls back to you, her eyes dark with desire as a mischievous smile plays on her lips. "I don't care, let them," Sevika smirks, lifting you easily onto the table and wrapping your arms around her neck before saying, "You know why? Cause I'm a fucking councillor now, I make the rules, baby.
You giggle at her boldness, unable to push aside the ache growing between your thighs at the possibility of the rest of the council walking in on you. "Please just be quick, Sev," you plead, playing with her hair as she leans in closer, her lips brushing against your jaw.
"I can't promise that, babe," she chuckles, kissing along your jaw as her hands slips under your shirt, pulling you closer.
You can't help but moan softly as she nips and sucks at your neck, moving your head to give her better access as you give in to her touch. Sevika's hands move with urgency, making quick work of your shirt and bra, tossing them to the floor before standing back to get a good look at you.
"Fuck, baby" she breathes, trailing her eyes over your exposed chest with hunger in her gaze. "Take those off for me," she demands, her eyes locked on your every move as you eagerly comply, stripping yourself of your jeans, leaving you in just your underwear. You blush at her staring, shying away slightly before meeting her eyes with a shy smile.
"Stop being shy, c'mere," she murmurs, stepping forward, her hands tracing your waist before settling on your hips. "You’re so fucking hot," she says against your lips making you giggle before pulling you into a passionate kiss, her lips moving hungrily against yours.
Sevika guides you to her designated chair around the table, pulling you onto her lap as she deepens the kiss, her hands resting on the curve of your ass. You wrap your arms around her neck, subtly grinding against her thigh as she kneads your ass, giving you a playful spank. You tuck your head into the crook of her neck, hiding the whimper that escapes your lips as she rubs over the now sensitive skin.
"Don't hide from me, baby," Sevika demands, spanking your ass again, making you gasp. You face flushes as you meet her intense gaze, feeling a surge of arousal at her hands slowly guiding you to grind against her thick thigh. Your clothed clit rubs against your panties, the damp fabric creating a delicious friction that makes you twitch in her lap.
"Oh fuck, Sev," you moan, bunching Sevika's shirt in your fists as you grind harder against her. The feeling of her strong thigh against your throbbing clit fogs your brain, forgetting about the meeting starting soon, only able to think about how badly you want to cum.
"Does it feel good, baby?" Sevika coos, brushing back your hair and holding your face in her hand. You nod, unable to form words, the only sounds escaping your lips being desperate whimpers and cries. "Yeah, you wanna cum for me?"
"Yes, please," you manage to gasp out, your hips faltering when Sevika flexes her thigh against you, increasing the pressure on your throbbing clit. Sevika's hand leaves your face, trailing her fingers down your neck to your tits, teasingly circling your hardened nipples.
You twitch as she pinches the sensitive buds, chuckling softly at your reaction. She leans back in her chair to watch you squirm in her lap, a wicked smile playing on her lips as she taunts, "My meeting starts soon and I would hate to leave you like this." You whimper in frustration, feeling the heat pooling between your legs as Sevika's finger trails even lower.
"No, please, I'm so close," you cry, humping against her thigh desperately. Sevika's grin widens as she pulls your panties up against your dripping core, reveling in the way you writhe and moan under her touch. As your orgasm builds, Sevika guides your hips to move faster, feeling you drip onto her thigh.
"Can I cum, Sevika, please? " you beg, your voice shaky with need as your head drops against her chest, feeling the tension building in your belly.
Sevika chuckles, stroking your hair gently as she whispers, "Of course, baby." With her encouragement, you finally reach the edge, tucking your head in her neck to muffle the cries of pleasure as your body trembles.
As you come down from your high, you face Sevika again, a shy smile on your lips as you give her a quick kiss before getting off her lap with shaky legs. "You need help?" Sevika jokes, watching you stumble slightly before getting up to help.
"I'm good, just need a minute," you pant using the table to steady yourself.
"Let me help," Sevika insists, picking up your clothes and carefully dressing you.
"Thank you," you whisper, once she's done, leaning up to kiss her once more before heading towards the door, "Have a good meeting,” you wink as you exit, running into another council member as you speed down the hall
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