#and i'm just that ben affleck meme

[pynkhues]

why is bottomstat so important to you people. why are headcanons (bc it’s NEVER confirmed louis tops lestat) and centering lestat’s pleasure more important than confronting your own biases. spend a second with black loustat fans (particularly black louis-centric loustat fans) and you’ll see why bottomstat isn’t popular with us. https://x.com/perllama/status/1897485762792194143?s=46 just look at this conversation that was happening yesterday. it means a lot that he’s a rare black gay man in fiction that subverts racist stereotypes and assumptions, but white/lestat fans dgaf and would rather fulfil antiblack dom top louis fantasies while othering and demonizing black louis fans. idec if you think louis tops occasionally but it gets to a point where it’s ooc and so obviously not what their relationship is/was.

I mean, I could tell you why I like writing bottom!Lestat, because it does go beyond me just thinking that it's hot, but - and I hope you appreciate this at this point - I don't really trust you to engage with me in good faith in that regard, y'know? But anyway, let's do this quickly:

why are headcanons (bc it’s NEVER confirmed louis tops lestat)

By this logic, it's never confirmed Lestat tops Louis either. This show is very rarely explicit about sexual positions, everything is implied, so everything we take from scenes is inferred. The only time a sexual position is explicitly stated is Louis topping Armand ("Face down, ass up in the coffin, you can read it to me while I fuck you.")

Hell, even in the first episode Louis and Lestat's sex scene could be read as non-penetrative if you want to read it that way. For what it's worth, I don't think it is, I do think it's heavily implied Lestat topped then, but similarly, I think it's heavily implied Louis topped in Antoinette's house. I personally read the show to be telling us that they switch, you can disagree with that. I'm not stopping you. Enjoy!

...and centering lestat’s pleasure more important than confronting your own biases.

So....you haven't ever read my fics, I'm taking from this, because I'd say centring Louis' pleasure is a pretty big part of what I write.

Spend a second with black loustat fans (particularly black louis-centric loustat fans) and you’ll see why bottomstat isn’t popular with us. 

I do spend time with Black Loustat fans! And I am reminded over and over again that 'Black Loustat fans' are not a monolith, and to act like you are, and to try and speak for everyone like this is rude at best, and disrespectful, strawmanning and silencing at worst.

https://x.com/perllama/status/1897485762792194143?s=46 just look at this conversation that was happening yesterday.

I don't doubt that there are corners of this fandom that draw and write Louis in ways that are racist, but I think there is a large conflation happening that relies on heteronormative, and frankly homophobic stereotypes too. Someone topping doesn't make them a hypermasculine brute, just as someone bottoming doesn't make them a femme househusband. Writing Louis as a Dom - something he explicitly, canonically is for 77 years - doesn't negate his softer, gentler qualities, and the desire to curb any exploration of his sexuality where he's not bottoming by deciding that it's anti-Black is inherently bad faith, and usually results in strawman arguments, which is what a lot of the comments in that thread are given nobody is pointing to actual posts but rather an idea of a type of post.

it means a lot that he’s a rare black gay man in fiction that subverts racist stereotypes and assumptions.

I agree!

but white/lestat fans dgaf and would rather fulfil antiblack dom top louis fantasies while othering and demonizing black louis fans.

....and you've lost me again, anon. I mean, for one, I do care a lot about Louis. I spend a lot of time engaging and exploring his character. All my fics so far are from his POV, and sex is usually only a small part of that. I try to explore his humanity and his connection both to himself and the world around him, and sure, it involves a bit of kink, but we're talking about fanfiction, a lot of it does. Also you do realise that your bottom!Louis fantasies are fantasies too, right? You do realise that engaging in fanworks is fantasy fulfilment? You're bringing your own Stuff to all of this just like everyone else is.

And I'm not demonising Black Louis fans. I'm sorry that you feel I'm a part of a subset of this fandom that is doing that, it's certainly not something I want to be a part of. I've tried to be very clear in every, single post I've made about this topic that I am 'live and let live' when it comes to this topic. We read characters differently because we bring different contexts to them, and I think that should be something that's exciting, but when it's not, it should be okay to say 'good for you, not for me.'

If you don't like bottom!Lestat, that's okay! Don't read it. Nobody is forcing you to engage with things you don't want to.

idec if you think louis tops occasionally but it gets to a point where it’s ooc and so obviously not what their relationship is/was.

I mean, anon, you obviously do care. A lot. And in a way that kind of baffles me too honestly, because 75% of what's created in this fandom is for you. Bottom!Louis is far and away the most popular iteration of his character in fanart and fanfic, and the fact that you won't allow space for the 25% that isn't directly catering to your interpretation says a lot about you. I'm not out there putting myself in other people's inboxes or attaching myself to other people's posts. I rarely stray from my blog, and when I do, it's usually to post something on ao3. You're the one who's pushing into my space by sending asks like this - and on anon no less, where you can eschew both responsibility and accountability - and if you don't want to see posts about bottom!Lestat, you're more than welcome to block me.

I don't think it's OOC though, and I don't think it's 'so obviously not what their relationship is/was', which I've talked about plenty on this blog. It's fine that you don't agree, I don't mind, honestly. Again, go have fun with people who do - there's plenty of them! You just linked me to a twitter thread full of them. Enjoy your space, and let others enjoy theirs.

[doomed-era]

no but like it is stupid that people who want a consistent "historical" way of looking at Zelda lore insist that Hylia has to be in every game like she just is not. if this was anything like a real religion there would be evolution in how she's worshiped which ways she's worshiped etc etc but most people just lift shit from skyward sword or breath of the wild and assume it's valid for all parts of the "timeline" thats not how religions work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[nekrosmos]

Tonight is a "being envious of everyone's artstyle" kind of night and UUUUUUUUUUGH

[r2y9s]

[Disco Elysium]

Debriefing

[yansurnummu]

where'd all these giant orbs come from

[twelverriver]

me when i wake up at 5:40 on a monday to be on time for a 8 am class and i still manage to be late thanks to the trains

[elodieunderglass]

a friend sent me this and I laughed my whole way through, it feels like something you would write if you were in candy marketing

eater(.)com/24408067/hormbles-chormbles-chocolate-rxbar-name

eater.com/24408067/hormbles-chormbles-chocolate-rxbar-name

Well, thank you very much! I don't know if you have me down as the person writing the ad campaign for Hormbles Chormbles or the distraught blogger forced to cover it or both (in my head I'm both) but thank you so much!

It just goes to show that I've lived in the UK for too long, because this name doesn't hurt me as much as it hurts this poor food writer. It honestly sounds like a UK sweet. like, something that people in a country that has things like "Cozzie Livs" (cost of living crisis) "Chrimbo Limbo" (the weird period of limbo between Christmas and New Years) and snacks like the "Curly Wurly", "Cheesy Wotsits," "squirty cream," and "pickled onion monster munch" might as well have "hormbles chormbles" too.

In fact, there's a brand called Monty Bojangles that does a line called Choccy Scoffy - reading "Monty Bojangles Choccy Scoffy" does feel a bit like a hate crime - BUT!! just as you begin to arm yourselves! I point out to you that they often sell them in unique cat-shaped tins, and therefore, it makes a great present for people you don't know well. fuck it. what the fuck ever. monty bojangles choccy scoffy well moreish over chrimbo limbo, I GUESS.

given this context, i am just tired ben affleck meme about Hormbles Chormbles. Half the reason they stayed up chormblin that hormble WAS to make you talk about it.

maybe I should be paid to write stuff like this, though.

[gardening--tools]

couples who experience The Horrors together, stay together. or something.

i couldn't decide who fit the ben affleck meme the best, so i just did both of them. also, if i see a single settlement joke made, i'm blocking u <3 don't play w me i'm so tired <3

[vaguely-concerned]

some excellently good and wonderful to me personally ingellvar moments from the first jaunt into blackthorn manor with emmrich! I love the little touches included to really make it feel like mourn watch mage rook is also a necromancer, and that they and emmrich are colleagues. the 'ma'am, I'm going to have to ask you to please put that death lantern full of murdered souls down and step back before someone gets hurt' energy... I must reiterate my point that ingellvar carries themselves like something between a cosmic janitor or plumber and a first responder arriving at the apocalypse.

+ as is tradition around these parts: some bonus emotional support lucanis coming along on mourn watch business and having the weirdest time of it that anyone has ever had. the sheer ben affleck smoking meme energy he manages to exude just. Standing there in the second johanna confrontation... he is everything to me you see. the things a man does for love. at least he gets to have the competency kink tingles whenever rye breaks out his Watcher Voice, that can get a person through a lot. a newly discovered realm of and after all this im still horny. the human spirit is unbreakable etc. to help him weather the horrors

[spoiledblogif]

15. What habits does your character have? Include Carter too

I'll do one good habit and one bad habit, just to balance things.

For R, I think their vanity might be at the root of a few good habits, like eating well and taking care of themself. But I can also see R oscillating between that and then the absolute opposite---where they get too wrapped up in their work and too obsessed and they start ignoring basic things like food and sleep.

I see Z's like being very regimented. A certain wake up time, x amount of time dedicated to exercise, x amount dedicated to eating, etc. You'd never have to worry about them being late to something. But, like R, I think that also becomes their bad habit. They can be inflexible and they see the world as too black and white.

The Kestrel and their bad habits be like:

As for Carter, I would say that smoking is definitely his bad habit of choice. He'd try not to do it around MC and he has probably tried a thousand times to quit since adopting them, but addictions are hard to break. Besides, I'm sure it was probably also the MC's fault that Carter couldn't break the habit (you got a kid that gives you anxiety and you'll also look like Ben Affleck in that one meme). As for a good habit, I can see Carter being the type to usually withhold judgement until he knows everything.

[rxdscarf]

i want all the buddie/gay eddie theories to be true so badly but rn I'm just the tired, smoking ben affleck meme tbh

[cryptid-jack]

Someone on a server I'm in made a joke about Kaidan as the tired ben affleck meme and I just had to make it happen XD It's hard work being the level-headed one on the team X'D

[13eyond13]

Hi. If you don't mind me asking, how exactly did you get hacked? And how did you realize it happened? It's just that it's something of an anxiety of mine, and I feel that by learning from other people it happened to, I can learn to avoid it. No worries if you don't feel like talking about it, though.

I don't honestly know for sure, but I THINK it was because my desktop computer is pretty old and has been running on a very outdated version of Windows for quite a while now. I don't normally do things like click on suspicious links or answer suspicious emails or calls or messages from bots, but I'm quite lazy about things like updating my hardware and software when the older stuff is still working fine for me. Unfortunately this eventually makes you more vulnerable to being hacked remotely, because you can't get stuff like the current security updates and support on your computer's programs and all after a bit. Over the past couple of weeks I've had someone using my Facebook account to post fake ads for cars and motorcycles on Marketplace, someone using my Steam account to list all my trading cards for sale, somebody flooding my email address to receive literally hundreds of spam emails (like signing me up for random newsletters and junk mail and so on), and somebody using my credit card to attempt to buy a big purchase for themselves on Amazon. Basically since I don't know exactly how it started and the fact that it seems to be happening on multiple of my accounts I just had to go cancel my credit card and report the fraud to my bank, change every password on every personal account I could think of and add more 2 factor authentication steps to everything, and then wipe my computer of as much personal info as possible and lock it up a bit better too. I undid all the settings like the automatically saved passwords on my browser, and I'm not leaving it connected to the internet or leaving any of my personal accounts logged in when I'm not using them anymore. The security breaches seem to have stopped with me changing these passwords and everything else, but it's definitely a very violating and annoying experience to say the least. I should probably be more freaked out about it than I actually am, which is kinda just feeling a bit like the exasperated Ben Affleck smoking meme instead hahaha

[jadequarze]

Hard agree on the “WHY WOULD YOU STOP THERE!?”

But also, I see a shit storm coming from the fandom and I’m [insert Ben Affleck smoking meme]. Like, someone is gonna be like “how dare Matt take away the choice of saving Imogens mom from Laura” and all I gotta say is there’s either Shenanigans afoot (as in all isn’t as it seems) OR (the more likely) he and Laura freaking talked about this and so we have no right to criticize their game.

(Feel free to delete this if you want, I just needed to rant for a sec)

I just personally dont like the hard cut.. I wouldnt have minded if we immediately go to M9 perspective then. It's just annoying because it'll lose the momentum after a while and the emotional whiplash just dissipate..

As for Liliana dying, I'm fine with it. As a tragedy enjoyer, Im thriving and I genuinely do think those rolls that Laura made was actually Liliana being deceptive/persuading Ludinus. At the end of the day, it's the roll of the dices. C3 is thrive for tragedy and what kind of tragedy it entails, well, that's one of them

[risingphoenix761]

Ok listen. I made the playlist. I decided exactly what to put on it. I had a specific fic (that is determined to be written against my will) in mind when I added every single song. I did this months ago, and I'm only just now doing the Ben Affleck cigarette meme about it.

Why no, officer, there's no angst or pining in here... *visibly straining to keep door the angst and pining are hiding behind shut*

[tatzelwyrm]

Godless is slow moving in parts so I can totally understand not wanting to finish it, but if action and cool shots are your thing, the last episode when it all comes to a head was pretty good from memory.

The show is visually stunning. The cinematography is outstanding. I definitely want to see more of that and I'm definitely into western shoot outs. I need to take it in small doses tho.

My problems with this show so far are that the town's women aren't in it as much as I hoped they would be and that I can't bring myself to care about Magic Horse Boy and Sheriff Sad Man, who appear to be the designated protagonists, instead of, say, Alice or Maggie. This seems to be a common complaint now that I've read up on the show a bit? At least I'm not the only one who was enticed into watching this show by the description on netflix that suggests the show is about a town run by women and pics of women in beautiful western clothes toting guns (and I would have been so up for these ladies fighting over mining shares), only to find that it's actually mainly about the 3 least interesting and joyless guys you can imagine.

But the worst part for me personally is that I despise unhinged villains in gritty media. I can't stand this type of constant over-the-top cruelty, especially when it's paired with dehumanisation of women and sexual violence in particular. I'm so tired of this kind of character. In the first episode of the show I was impressed by how they managed to make Frank and the gang appear intimidating even before we learn anything about what they've done. But by episode 2 already most scenes he's in made me feel like that Ben Affleck smoking meme. I'm just so tired. I passed right over shock and horror and went straight to apathy. Just be normal for 5 minutes, man.

This isn't a problem unique to Godless tho. I'm also unlikely to continue the show I watched before this (if they ever make a second season), simply because it looks like they're keeping the shitty villain.