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saiabolical · 2 years ago

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Griffin passed peacefully in her bed at the vet today.

I still can't believe I'm never going to feel you lay on my chest again. Thank you for being my best little friend for nearly 15 years. Thank you for 15 years of unconditional love, and laughs so hard they hurt. Thank you for being the sassiest, noisiest creature I've ever had the fortune to meet. Thank you for being there for me at times when I felt so alone, and lost, and scared. Thank you for sharing a birthday with me every year, and I'm so sad you won't be here for our next one.

Thank you for this heartache, because it's proof of all of that love.

You weren't "just a cat." You were the center of my whole universe, since the moment we met. I'd say you were more special to me than you could ever know, but you knew. I made sure that you did.

#giffy doodle dandy #this is the last time i'll ever get to use your tag too...#i love you. i love you so so much #and i'll never forget this love #tw pet death #tw animal sickness #tw animal death #sorry for not putting this in a readmore but its important to me

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barghest-land · 9 months ago

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drawings from paleo expedition to dagestan, done right on the trip. sometimes messy when it was cold and rainy, but i won't correct it. i think it's cool to leave it just the way it was done, and not retouch it after. there will be more drawings later, but those will be done from home

#i need to draw for 2 museums at least to then send it to them as a gift cuz people there were so nice???? AAAA #and yeah im definitely doing back #maybe in autumn... who knows #barghestland #art #artists on tumblr #and #paleoart #???#in a way it is i guess #also i usually don't share things from my sketchbook. but these drawings hold so many nice memories #of clouds that hide top of the mountains #of sitting on a rock #drawing and seeing a scorpion vibing next to u (tiny friend!)#of leaning on a big cow and almost falling asleep on a field with her after the rain #of... forgetting the pain too #of not wanting to even talk about the wonderful time i've had. because it was only for me to remember #so much happened up in the mountains that i'll never forget #thank u big rocks and soil and grass and apricot trees i love you #...#paleoland #fieldbook_barghest_land

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royalarchivist · 27 days ago

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Bad: I don’t think people understand the effect QSMP had on some of the streamers in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. [...] Imagine that you were given a friend to play Minecraft with — like your best friend — BUT if this person dies, if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Can you imagine what that’s like?

Bad: If you did not live through the QSMP, if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience the Eggs were. They were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with.

Bad: I’m not saying I regret it. To this day, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again. [...] I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, it was just that fun.

Earlier today during his stream, Bad shared his experience and thoughts about the Eggs and the significant emotional (and traumatic) impact they had on him and his fellow QSMP members.

This clip a very edited-down version since his commentary was ~13 minutes long, so I highly recommend checking out Bad's VOD if you have the time. (Timestamp: 47:36 - 1:00:14)

[ Full Transcript ↓ ]

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Bad: To be fair Chat, I really think the QSMP... I don't think anyone really can relate to it, Chat. It's something that's so... I've told people this before, like– but it's hard to understand. Right? Like...

Where was I? Sorry Chat, I'm losing my train of thought. Look, let me explain Chat– here's the dealio, ok? Here's the dealio, and this is what I mean when I say like, it's important to keep this in mind, Chat. Ok? It's important to keep this in mind:

I don’t think people understand the effect that the QSMP had on like, some of the streamers, in terms of like… The real raw mental impact, so I’m gonna set the stage for you. This is the analogy I’ve given to every person who I’ve like, shared this with. Imagine you meet somebody– [He hears a strange noise] What the fudge was that? Did you hear that?

Anyway– Chip! The story I was just relaying to Chat, Chip, was this: I was sharing this story with them, I said– I was giving them an analogy.

Imagine Chat, for example, imagine that you were… playing Minecraft, with like– you were given a friend to play Minecraft with, Chat, like your best friend, and [unintelligible] were like, “Hey, you get to play Minecraft with this person, right? BUT if this person dies – they’re currently your best friend, Chip – but if they die in the game, you never get to talk to them again. Ever again.” Can you imagine what that’s like, Chip?

I don’t think a lot of people understand like, what that does, right? I’m not gonna say that like, it creates this situation, Chip, that like, messes with your head, but it– Chip – but it totally, totally does, Chip. It messes with your head! It literally puts you in a position where you’re second-guessing and thinking about everything, Chip! You’re thinking about EVERYTHING Chip! Ok? And that’s the problem, Chip– is you turn into a paranoid monster because of it, Chip! Like, you don’t understand Chip– I was- I was so afraid of every dirt block, I used to carry a shovel with me Chip, and I would specifically right-click dirt blocks that looked suspicious because mines, Chip– mines could not be shoveled! Like, I was crazy, Chip! But here’s the problem, Chip: that craziness is still there. I’m genuinely like–

I remember thinking Chip, that I would one day– I was like, “I’m going to move past–” here, let’s go up here, Chip. I remember thinking one day Chip, I was like, “I’m gonna move past the underground base, one of these days. You know, one of these days, I feel like I’ll be able to grow and achieve the desire to build a base that doesn’t have to be underground.” But I don’t think it’s possible now Chip, because I think… I just don’t know. I feel like the paranoia– there’s still like, residual leftover trauma from that situation, Chip.

But here’s the problem Chip: I don’t think I don’t think– I don’t think people understand it. Like, I just really don’t. But I also don’t blame them Chip, ‘cuz I don’t think it’s possible to fully understand it if you haven’t lived through it. Like, if you did not live through the QSMP… I’m talking about the QSMP, I don’t- I don’t know if that was obvious– if you did not live through that, it almost sounds like, crazy. But I don’t think people realize how much of a joyous experience like, the Eggs were. Right? I don’t think people realize it. Like, they were SO awesome! They were literally so awesome to just hang out with and spend time with, Chip. So, it’s just one of those things that–

[He’s interrupted by a loud rumble of thunder above them]

Did lightning just strike here? Is it thunderstorming out…? But anyway, Chip. That’s the food for thought.

But that’s the problem– Like, every time it rains in Minecraft, I have to like, look at the sky, and I get this weird, like, second--hand vibe because of the trauma. The trauma, Chip! The trauma is real! But that’s the point– I’m not saying I regret it. I, to this day Chip, I loved the experience. I’d do it all over again in a heartbeat. Even knowing how everything went, I would still do it all over again.

[He falls down] Dangit, don’t come over here Chip, ‘cuz I’m coming back up! Ok.

I would still do it all over again, because — even knowing like, all the trauma and suffering and stuff like that — because it was just… It was just that fun, Chip, it was just that fun. I really wi– I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible, Chip, to give people that same energy, like that same experience. You know what I mean, Chip? I don’t think it’s ever gonna be possible again. Like, EVER.

Because… because like, one: I will say on one level Chip, I will say on one level, like– it’s sort of emotionally like… It’s emotionally devastating, and I think to actually go through that– and this is where like, if I ever do end up going to a– see a therapist, if I ever do end up going to see a therapist at any point, I’ll talk it over with them and be like, “Hey, what do you think about this?” Because I genuinely think on one level, like– it’s created this fear of forming attachments because of like, how things can go. You know what I mean? Like, the fear of getting attached to something and then potentially losing it. Like, it’s- it’s a genuine thing. I think people forget about that.

Like, at the end of the day, everything was RP, right? On the server. You know what I mean? Like, everything was RP, Chip. BUT at the same point, even though it was RP Chip, it was still like– there the reality of you were still playing like, with another person, and you were still getting that experience, and it felt like you were genuinely attached to someone and you didn’t want anything bad to happen to them. It was GENUINELY stressful, Chip.

But at the same point, I don’t regret it, and I don’t think it was a bad experience. I’m–

Sometimes in life Chip, you go through stuff, and maybe you have a certain amount of like, things that like, can happen, that you’re like, “You know what, maybe this wasn’t a good thing that this happened,” but at the same point, you still aren’t necessarily upset about it, because… it’s like growing as a person, right? Here’s the thing Chip; even bad situations, Chip, can lead to an overall good outcome. Like–

Even if you’re going through something bad Chip, just because a bad thing happens doesn’t mean that only bad things have to come from that. That’s one of the things I tell people all the time, Chip, is that if you go through a bad situation, you can learn from it, and you can use your experience to help others. And you can be that– you can be, at the worst-case scenario, you can be someone for other people who are going through that same experience to lean on when they go through that.I think there’s a certain amount of comfort that comes from that; from knowing no matter how bad your situation is, you’re not the only person who’s experienced it. You know what I mean?

#Badboyhalo #BBH #Bad #QSMP #January 8 2025 #Edited #I know folks are going to add their two cents on this subject in the tags / comments / replies (and as always you're welcome to do that)#But for the sake of my sanity please don't be an asshole to any of the CCs / ex-admins / fellow fans / anyone else. Thanks #Most folks here don't need a ''Don't be a dumbass'' reminder but I had to block someone for that earlier and it was a bit disappointing #This is going to be a Tumblr exclusive clip because I don't trust Twitter to have common sense or common decency about this topic #Tumblr exclusive #Anyways business aside – that black line on the side is just part of Bad's stream btw. He just Has That #Took too long for this to render otherwise I'd edit it out because it's annoying #I'm just realizing this screenshot doesn't even have Dapper OTL but it's the best one I have so I gotta work with what I got #Honestly; I still miss QSMP dearly... I love the core intent of the project and the multicultural exchange #I love all the language barriers that were broken and I loved all the stories that were told and watching beautiful friendships bloom #But I am still so angry and disappointed about how things ended and all the poor communication and the admin situation as a whole #It's a complicated feeling #I agree with pretty much everything Bad says here #It's ironic that he uses that analogy because I've said almost the exact same thing when explaining why losing any Egg was so devastating #We weren't just mourning for the characters. We were mourning for the admins too #I'll never forget that last stream with Tazercraft and Richas; and Pac ending stream in tears #I wish they'd done away with the Egg life system. I wish they'd done a lot of things differently #If the project ever does come back in some shape or form I hope they are more transparent about things and have better communication #I dunno how I'd feel personally. They would have to do a lot of work regaining people's trust #And frankly I don't think they'll ever regain that trust from a large portion of the community #I remember near the start of QSMP I saw a comment from a fan that simply said ''QSMP; please don't leave me feeling bitter''#I think about that comment a lot

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oddthesungod · 9 months ago

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Jewel of Byroden, Champion of the Spider Queen 🕷️💎

#critical role #critical role fanart #exu opal #cr opal #tw: arachnophobia #tw: spiders #critical doodles #OPAL I LOVE U BABYYYY I'LL NEVER FORGET U BABYYYY #(even as you forget yourself 😭)

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emarli-the-doodler · 12 days ago

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I miss you Freddy Fabbear

#fnaf security breach #glamrock freddy #artists on tumblr #digital art #my art #fnaf #fnaf sb #I will never forget my fandom roots ily security breach no matter how cracked up the game was i'll always love youu

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painfully-unoriginal · 2 months ago

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So I drew these under the assumption that diane used to be part of kitty's crew and realized after that i don't actually know if that's tru or not so uuuuuhhhh probably should've just waited for the movie to come out to start drawing shit but 👍

#my art #doodles #the bad guys #diane foxington #tbg kitty kat #the bad guys 2 #IF thats the case tho i have so many thoughts about it already #its juicy. u kno #not to compare them to fluffyvenom but i feel like there ARE parallels IF THIS IS THE CASE.#like imagine being so close with this girl for who knows how long #you understand each other. you support each other. you're there for each other.#you her and ur other friends are like a genuine family #its you against the world #and then one day she decides to say fuck all that and leave #and you dont understand why. you feel betrayed #she did what was best for her but what was WORST for YOU #as the audience we know diane did the right thing for herself. but imagine being kitty & her crew #imagine the resentment that would fester on BOTH sides #(and obv did based on the fight snippets we got)#but the love will always still be there. the betrayal wouldn't hurt otherwise #anyway if all of that turns out to not be relevant just forget i sad anything !!!!!#ok love u bye #I'll never abandon crimsonwebs in my heart btw but. come on

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ksturf · 1 year ago

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a tribute to the one and only david keith mccallum [19.09.1933-25.09.2023 ∞]

#david mccallum #illya kuryakin #the man from uncle #ducky mallard #ncis #other roles #i'll love u forever <3 #never forget the joy you have brought into my life and my bestie's as well #i hope you are with robert now and your other family members who have passed #there is so many other roles he has done and so many movies and tv shows and gifs i have made over the years #but here are my favourite #enjoy :).

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templetv · 6 months ago

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the way I crave a parent who, not only loves me, but likes me, and notices me is so so embarrassing

#my heart aches when i think of the few good childhood memories i have with my parents #i want the mum who played snowman with me after a bath when i was covered in talcum powder #i want the mum who would hold me and not get mad at me when i cried #i want the dad who. actually i dont think i have a good memory of just me and my dad #im sick of the parents who cancel on me and forget about me and refuse to listen when i speak #im sick of being scared and alone and needing parents I'll never see again- parents ive never actually had #im homesick for a love i never really had #bpd #actually bpd #bpd safe #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #bpd blog #bpd splitting #bpd diary #actually borderline #borderline thoughts #borderline blog #borderline personality disorder #borderline vent #eupd #actually eupd #emotionally unstable personality disorder #mother issues #father issues #parent issues #family issues

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fist-of-vengeance · 5 months ago

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so what do we think fiddleford saw when he looked into the gremloblin's eyes? dude was so traumatised that stanford "oblivious to my assistant's emotional turmoil" pines took notice. it's what motivated him to INVENT THE MEMORY GUN IN THE FIRST PLACE. I'm honestly surprised i haven't seen more speculation about this

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deoidesign · 8 months ago

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Portrait of a vampire

Photo of a werewolf (who doesn't trust cameras)

As a treat I like to paint my characters realistically from time to time... so I can see them...

Webcomic

#to be clear I do NOT think my art is like photorealistic #it's just extremely funny to read his expression as like. apprehension towards the camera #please imagine with me. play in this space with me #I know canonically he has been on camera but we're playing pretend...#anyways they are both extremely good looking I love them both so dearly........#time and time again #ttawebcomic #adam and steve #adam #steve #portrait #illustration #digital illustration #I figured out what was bothering me about adam's portrait #so now that I fixed it I'll go ahead and post them together #I NEVER KNOW WHAT TO SAY in my captions sorry #I also dont know what to tag things as...#but I DO know how to talk about all kinds of shit in the tags!!!#so I do that!#wahoo yippee #also it is SO hard to make them match in more detailed styles #cause steve comes with way more detail (scars hair rougher skin more angles) than adam does...#so he always looks more detailed. ANNOYING!!!!!!#oh I just remembered something else I want to draw. I will write it down now so I dont forget

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beanbeanbee · 7 months ago

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Breaking free from the splatband brainrot for 0.1 seconds because I realized I forgot how to draw Shiver hi,,,

#my art #splatoon #splatoon 3 #deepcut #shiver hohojiro #Give it a day and I'll forget that I gave her gill tattoos cuz I stay inconsistent always </3 #Let's not talk about the shading of the clothing in the second pic okkk I know it's probs inaccurate but my brain's fried #Drew shivs as a goober she's like 12 or so. I'm super behind on some of the lore but she started training at a young age right???#Never thought I'd admit to being behind on lore....when did I get so busy?! *head in hands* /nsrs #I love shiver's expressions so much she's so goofy yet so cool

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silusvesuius · 8 months ago

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stuff heavily referenced from clive hicks-jenkins' art cus i've been rly into it lately 🥰

cute idea scribblings for the last drawing..lol

#tes #skyrim #talvas fathryon #neloth #my art #stylized small pupils look good on neloff #and kinda off topic but he would really benefit from wearing robes that aren't tied around the waist LOL it would give him more of a -#- powerful look .. mmrp #i'll never be able 2 do wat clive can do but i think i came pretty close #using the materials dat i have #i like all of these though :) pencil makes me happy #whenever i draw traditionally i always have something smart to say abt art in my head but then i forget everything i wanted to say #i wanted to add text to the last one as well but i'm not well versed in how clive would use text in his artworks yet && tbh it looks -#- better w/o it #if i did add text .... it'd say: “first love” :)#how cute :)#and the last btw #😂#i'm really not sorry for drawing nothign but nelvas rn but i will come back to other stuff once i'm not as packed w/ work #when i'm in stress i just like to draw the things i'm used to for now #these drawings r so big my tumblr is gonna kms over them get over it bitch

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leavemeslowly · 8 months ago

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I want to love and forget you at the same time, you are the only thing stitching me together and tearing me apart, there is nothing between the two. Maybe it is not you, maybe it is only me, as I was before I met you. I can’t decide. Having a choice seems like an illusion.

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somegrumpynerd · 5 months ago

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PLEASE DRAW COLOR PLEASE IM BEGGING YOU PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

(Not forced)

Sometimes I get the impression people wanna see me draw things, no idea where must just be cause I'm such an empath-

Pfff yes chef one lil firey boy right away! o7

And of course the greatest honour I can bestow upon a character: cuddling

#UTDR #Ask #Sandeewithtwoe #Color Sans #These are such tiny quick doodles cause I have to sleep for work soon sorry!#But I know if I don't do them now I'll forget and never will >.<#So quick and done it is!! I hope these are okay!#He's a fun little dude I love seeing him and Killer chilling so much lately #I have some ideas but they'll have to wait until I'm not working full time hours again -A-#Gently sets Color in the queue for my attention span

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team7-headquarter · 4 months ago

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Whenever someone tries to make a point about something the Konoha kunoichis, I need to make a pause and remind them how out of character they were in some of those moments.

Kishimoto pretty much abandoned Sakura and Ino's friendship and then tried to bring it back during the War arc. Ino lost her sensei and then her dad, and when was Sakura? You mean to tell me she wouldn't care? About any of it? Or when Sasuke was declared to be killed, do you mean to tell me that Ino wouldn't have run to find Sakura?

The way Hinata was written on Shippuden???? Naruto aside, people forget that Hinata refused to give up during the Chunning Exams and forced Neji to almost kill her if he wanted the victory. She was stubborn, she was prideful too, she had more going on than simply a crush on Naruto. She was told by her father she was a failure and yet she didn't give up on becoming a kunoichi, did she?

Then why is that Shippuden wrote her like her sole ambition was Naruto, hm?

And Tenten? She was MEAN when she wanted to be because she was highly competitive. We know that she wanted to train under Tsunade, so where did the death of that dream take her? She's such a powerful kunoichi and yet we know so little about her personality, her life...

We got "Ino and Hinata know some medic min techniques" in the most random way possible... We know Sakura would walk around with Hinata even, so what about their girl bonding moments during the genin to Shippuden years?

It made me so angry whenever the girls treated each other like strangers in Shippuden. So many stupid situations made to highly their teammates even if I meant to write the girls out of character...

#Hinata was ambitious back then!!! Yes she was inspired by Naruto by the fight was her own #she didn't fight for him she fight for herself #the whole point of their connection is that they were both losers rooting for each other to succeed #out of the Team 7 members Sakura was the one who spend more time with the rookie 9 #I'm not saying they should like her better than Naruto but they shouldn't definitely know her better!!#and you mean to tell me they didn't care about her mental state when they were told that Sasuke was to be killed?#none of them?#I love Sai but Kishimoto took the character who knew less about it to give Sakura a lecture and no one else showed up? at any moment?#I'm convinced Kishimoto only did that to force the Sakura confession to Naruto and feed the love triangle agenda #it sucks to be the female love interest in a story focus on the male parts of the love triangle #I'm actually glad Kishimoto didn't write Tenten so ooc but it's still a shame we got so little Team Gai on Shippuden #they were mostly filler after being one of the strongest genin teams in Konoha #bless Temari and Tsunade for being the best written female characters of Naruto #because I'll never forget Kushina wanted to be Hokage and they gave it to her husband #anyway #naruto #sakura haruno #ino yamanaka #hinata hyuuga #tenten naruto #kunoichi #kunoichis #naruto female characters #naruto shippuden #konoha kunoichis

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djevelbl · 2 months ago

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The end to the story. whatever happens, I guess it happened — I have hopes, idk where they're placed or what they mean, but I have them.

Whatever happens, I know Evbo is going out with a bang.

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