#and i was able to actually apply the strong pressure they want from a good kneady massage

[treely-ruly]

I finally relented to my recurring thought of using a rolling pin on my muscles, and now I wonder why I didn't before! It is a little harder to be precise, especially on someone else when you can't feel the muscles under your hands. Also I usually use my lovely wooden pin for gingerbread at Christmas, and I'm unsure if it would be polite to give it dual purpose.

Anyway the ergonomics are great for my hypermobile hands (it's a single piece of soft, smooth wood that tapers to a gentle point at each end, so you have a wide grip), as I can use the force of both arms on a single area and never have to use my fingers or thumbs for applying pressure and thus don't stress my joints!! Also my hands get a little rolly massage too.

Now I've been kneaded and rolled out I'm just going to get nice and warm in bed and hopefully rise all lovely and soft and shapely shape in the morning

[dravidious]

You're more amazing than three drafts

Rebalanced my auto-battle cards, because it turns out my decks are way too weak to compete with them, and they don't really need to be strong anyway. Also made a MAJOR nerf to how lands work for the deck. Also reposting the other conspiracies (rules) because it's been a while and they're helpful as context

[lyvhie]

hi requesting a jeno x reader where jeno is so strong compared to reader and he gets turned on by that and it results in him manhandling reader -🦋

boyfriend!jeno × fem!reader (18+ mdni)

summary: had a bad day? don't worry, he'll make it better.

a/n: so, FIRSTLY, i actually didn't understand the concept of manhandling in a sexual situation, but i tried my best after doing some research, i'm sorry if that's not what you wanted 🥺 i can try another one if you don't like it!

cw: smut, pwp, unprotected penetrative sex, petname.

jeno wasn't sure when exactly he started to feel this way, but whatever it was that drove him crazy and made him feel so intensely was all your fault.

you were tiny, small, delicate—so much that he couldn't help but want to... break you. he knew he was stronger and bigger than you, and he couldn't help but feel the desire to exert that strength over you. it wasn't in a bad way, of course, but at first he was hesitant about that, like, what if you actually broke?!

however, you weren't quite so naive either. you had noticed his subtle glances at your neck, the certain intent in his gaze suggesting he wanted to wrap his hands around it as soon as he could.

and you were partly to blame; for example, you had toyed with him by squeezing his bicep or wrapping his arm around your neck in a side hug, all small, innocent actions that seemed purposely designed to provoke him further.

and then you gave him the chance to fulfill his desires. first, it started with just restricting your movements, like pinning your hands above your head with just one hand while the other held your waist to keep you in place as he was too busy burying his cock inside you.

then, it became him wrapping his hand around your neck, just light squeezes that were already making him thril inside, seeking for more, and you were more than happy to submit yourself to it.

he enjoyed seeing you helpless under him, and that's why, after a seemingly harmless discussion about "how was your day," you ended up bent over the kitchen counter. his hand pushed your face down against the cool surface—a small hint of dominance and control that leaves you feeling vulnerable and exposed.

the skirt of your dress was lifted until he had a nice view of your ass. your panties draped around your ankles as he thrusts into you from behind. the wet sound of his cock sliding through your slick folds was all you could hear, besides your loud moans, of course. “y-you should see yourself right now,” he said hoarsely, “all dumb because of my cock. does it feel good, huh?” he leans over you to lightly bite your shoulder, not really getting an answer from you.

feeling you body respond positively, jeno slides his hand around your neck and applies just enough pressure to make you gasp. he leans in close, his lips brushing against your ear as he says, "is this what you wanted? to be completely at my mercy?" not able speak, you nod frantically, your pants turning into whimpers. he squeezes tighter, controlling your air flow carefully as he continues to pound into you, each thrust sends waves of pleasure coursing through your body, making it difficult for you to breathe properly.

he groans when he feels your walls clenching around him, indicating that you were close, "let go, baby," he encourages hoarsely, his teeth grazing your earlobe and quickens his pace, his hips slamming into yours. he feels his own release building up, his muscles tensing with anticipation. he releases your hands and grabs onto your waist instead, pulling you back into him as he thrusts even harder.

your hands were holding the edge of the counter as you try to hold on, your body shaking from the intensity. jeno's finds its way to your clit, rubbing slow circles as he continues to choke you. seeing you like this drives him wild, knowing he's the one making you feel so good. "come for me, baby" he murmurs huskily, increasing the pressure on your sensitive bud. your orgasm hit you like a tidal wave, your whole body convulsing as you cry out out his name. he follows shortly after, emptying himself inside you with a final grunt.

you stay like that for a moment, both trying to catch your breaths before jeno slowly removes his hand from your neck and pulls out of you, his seed dripping down your thighs. “wow, that was… wow,” you said still panting, making him chuckle and spins you around to face him, catching you when your legs buckle slightly. “are you good?” he asks softly, cupping your face and caressing your cheeks. “yeah, i think i'll always tell you that my day was terrible if that's your way of comforting me.”

[furiousgoldfish]

Abuse seemed normal and justifiable to me, the entire time I was living in it as a kid. I didn't question it, the justifications and defenses would appear in my head before I would even start to get upset about it. 'They didn't mean that, they did it to make me stronger, to teach me how hard life is. They only did it out of anger, they wouldn't have done it if I didn't make them angry. It happened because I did x. They're my parents, they're doing what's best for me. I just don't understand yet because I'm not old enough but eventually I'll get why they're acting this way.'

It feels like that when you've never had a life away from abuse; it is the only normal way of life you've ever known, and implication that it might not be normal are too scary to explore, but also completely unbelievable. Because you would have to believe that you yourself are in a special situation where normal rules no longer apply. Rules like 'your parents love you and do everything for your own good', 'you need to listen to your parents, they know what they're talking about', and 'Your parents are just trying their best'. And you feel like you're nothing special, nothing that happens to you is special, nothing is out of the ordinary, you're feeling even less than normal, you feel like something is deeply wrong with you, rather than the situation you're in. Of course your parents are normal, and mean well, it's you who needs to get their shit together and stop being, whatever you are, it's unclear.

It can seem from an outside perspective, that a child would recognize at least some of the abuse for what it was, even if subjected to the rules of 'parents love you, they know best, you need to obey them', if the abuse is extreme, but no, they wouldn't. Looking back at my experience I was able to justify not only the physical violence, neglect, insults and humiliation, but even the constant, very detailed death threats that would constantly come out of the abusers. I listened to them describe to me how they would kill me, often implying they should have killed me already, and all I thought was 'they are just saying that, they're not actually going to kill me, they're saying it because they're angry, I shouldn't take this personally'. When I think about that now, I am appalled, you would think anyone subjected to constant detailed death threats would know for sure that this is wrong. But I was also hearing about how they 'sacrificed everything for me' and 'nobody else would ever love me like this', and how could I have known, as a kid, which one of these are lies, and which are the truth? I was heavily pressured to believe that they loved me. How would I have known that my parents had reasons to convince me that their murderous intentions were fake, but the love they had for me was real?

Without a clear reference to how parental love looks like, there's no way to tell. And if you ever do see a depiction of a loving family, your abusive family will be very quick to tell you that they're "doing it wrong", "spoiling that child", and "created a selfish brat". And how would you know that this isn't true? You don't yet know that they have reasons to lie to you. You've been told they're your parents and they only want the best for you, like all parents do. They just don't want you to grow up a selfish brat, so that's why they don't do all of the listening, hugging, caring, paying attention, conversing, and advocating for you. To make sure you're strong and responsible as a human being. It makes sense when you're a kid. When you're an adult, you understand that it never made any sense, that shaming good parents only served the purpose of making you feel like you're having a normal experience, and that your parents were right to abuse you, even superior for it.

It's possible to endure any amount of abuse and to be convinced that it's normal. I've talked to adults who've been sexually abused and trafficked by their parents and still believed the parents loved them. There's no limit to what you can convince a child is normal. Any abuse can be hidden by a guise of normalcy.

[tired-biscuit]

curious, does kiba have a prey drive? like when you're playing fighting with him or simply playing hide-and-seek?

yes, definitely!

i imagine he thinks of it as a game, despite the fact that he takes it quite seriously without even realising it.

he just knows that he likes it because it makes him feel good and more like himself. it stimulates the predatory part of his brain and sends his blood coursing faster through his veins and thus heightens every last one of his senses. it’s like he’s finally fully awake.

it’s the reason why play fighting with him nearly always ends with you suddenly pinned down on the bed even though you thought you were going to win for real this time, and why hide-and-seek makes every hair on your body stand to attention whenever he comes close to finding you and there’s this heavy anticipation buzzing in the air during it. it’s like a flick of a switch in his head; he’s awake, he’s here — he’s present. his predatory instinct gets so strong that it somehow succeeds in awakening your prey one just from the way he acts.

i also think he gets aroused by it. there’s just something about you squirming underneath him and trying to push him off even if you’re laughing while you’re fighting against him that really, i mean really gets him going. he loves you more than anything, but he also loves seeing you struggle to break free from his grip for some reason; especially because he knows you wouldn’t be able to if he applied real pressure to it.

it’s the “i could do this, i have the power to do it, but i won’t because i care about you” way of thinking. he likes being in control, it’s in his nature — at least whenever it comes to getting physical — while giving you a false sense of belief that you’re the one who’s running the entire thing. it allows him to play and mess around with you. it means that you’ll challenge him and everyone knows that he’s always been a sucker for a good challenge.

it’s kind of scary, i think. you’re giving it your all, and then all of a sudden, in a blink of an eye, he’s on you; forcing you into submission without even putting any real effort into it. to him, taking over is as simple as breathing, while you have to fight tooth and nail for it. and he doesn’t even notice it most of the time, it’s just how his brain is wired.

you forget how stronger and bigger he actually is than you because some inner part of him unconsciously wants you to forget so that he can take you by surprise. you forget how easy it is for him to take control over the entire situation and manhandle you into whatever position he wants and do with you as he pleases until he’s doing exactly that. he plays nice most of the time, he lets you have your say and he tricks you with it.

he’ll listen to your “no”, of course he will, but it’s just… the fact that it’s his choice to do so is what’s kind of uncomfortable. because if he ever does end up choosing otherwise, you won’t be able to do anything about it. after all, you’re just prey.

but he won’t, trust! he loves you.

[generalkenobee]

Oh hell yeah smutty as sh*t

What you do to me

Warnings: SHORT, smut, degrading, inappropriate use of the force, riding, soft dom! Kylo, FEM! Reader, I think this might actually be the worst thing I've ever written so, Kylo kinda gets overstimed at one point buttt yk, let me know if I missed anything:)

Summary: basically just smutty inappropriate use of the force💀

"you know what you want and so do I." Kylo's voice was low as he looked down at you. Your body was pressed between him and a wall, hidden away in his quarters.

You weren't able to say anything it was too embarrassing, no matter how many times you had done this with him you never got used to his size or how shy you got when he was this close.

"I can see what you want. Nonetheless, hearing your pretty voice say it- oh maker" his lips pressed against yours. Kylo tried to be big and bad but sometimes he had to let his defenses down. "I love you, so much" your boyfriend whispered into the kiss

You felt a sensation, it's sort of indescribable. Cold and warm, soft but rock hard. It was around your whole body kind of cupping you and keeping you away from everything else.

Kylo uses the force on you all the time, not just during sex either. He uses it to tease you, brush against your clothes like a wind or pulling your chair closer to his during dinner.

"I know. It's strong isn't it? Can you feel me? "

You were pushed on to the bed but not by Kylo, it was something so much bigger. Kylo's bed was bigger than yours by a lot and his sheets were always freshly cleaned and smelled amazing, you felt so small every time you were in his quarters.

Kylo got on the bed and pulled you on to him, pulling you down he whispered in your ear "I want you to ride me tonight, can you do that for me? Please?" You only nodded your head in response while your shirt was coming up over your head. You didn't wear a bra, you never did when you went to him...

You felt it surround your breasts and squeeze at your nipples and it was just like Kylo was doing it

"you know what to do baby"

And you did. You took him out of his pants letting your saliva drip down his length "that feels amazing (Y/N), just a little longer" and so you took your time pumping him, making sure he was perfectly erect and ready for you.

"please baby I can't take it any longer"

You slowly sunk down onto his cock throwing your head back and curling your toes.

"just- just wait-" You loved when he was like this, he was just as needy as you and a stuttering mess. Not in the way of him being submissive, but in the way that he was just in love with you and how your body made him feel

You started slowly moving your hips in circles causing you both to let out a long sigh. " S'big.. " Kylo loved that your body never got quite used to his size "I know baby, but you can take it"

"Kylo" your voice was quiet and almost scared "It's really good but can I touch my cl-"

"fuck no you can't. It's my job to make you feel good." He was so against when men let their girlfriend/wife's play with their clit when getting fucked. Kylo could make you feel good. You shouldn't have to do it yourself.

The pressure applied to your clit by the force made you fold. You couldn't take much more. "Kylo please.."

"me too"

You both let out a loud groan while you tugged on his hair speeding up your pace. "Baby- please s' too much. Yo-you gotta stop-" but you didn't so he stopped you himself. "Shit!"

The mixture of cum was leaking from your hole onto his pubic bone "there's s-so much..fuck"

[whumpbug]

HI [WAVES]

i am once again here for your boys. your dudes. your guys.

now hear me out. just a thought. it's a little bit more on the gore/violence part, so if it's not your thing I totally understand but: you know that thing where someone gets pinned to a table by a knife through their hand? i think that should happen to archie in the middle of a battle or a Situation.

(also because Simon gingerly bandaging Archie's wounded hand is an Image I Want To See.)

i hope it's an alright prompt to send in? if it's not your thing I totally understand!

-@whump-kia (with glee!)

HI KIA!!!

okay so. this was definitely not too gory of an ask or anything and i actually was very Very excited about this prompt, so it's pretty short only because i didn't want to think too hard about the context and situation (-｡-;) i just kind of jumped in to the action because i couldn't think of a good backstory so i hope thats ok!!

hope you enjoy!!

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Archie never considered himself a squeamish person.

Sure, blood and gore didn’t make him particularly happy, but he and Simon both had pretty strong stomachs due to their lines of work.

So he can’t quite place why the sight of the blade currently buried in his palm was making his stomach lurch so dangerously.

Maybe it’s the overpowering smell of metal assaulting Archie’s enhanced olfaction, or maybe it’s the way he can quite literally feel his nerves shift whenever his finger so much as twitches.

It didn’t matter. He just wants it out.

The man he had been fighting was strategic. He knew how to get his enemy into the position he wanted them in while still giving them the impression that they were in control.

And that was how he managed to get Archie. Archie tended to fight with his legs. When the man pushed him to the table, he assumed he’d be able to throw a quick kick to end the entire conflict then and there, and.. well, he did manage to knock the guy out, but not before a knife was pinning him to the table.

Archie sighs and looks away from the hand before his lunch decides to make a reappearance.

He really only has one option for what to do. He silently hopes Simon is home.

He manages to scoot on the table enough to sit up and get a better angle at the wound. He takes his free hand and wraps it around the handle of the blade, intaking a sharp breath and gritting his teeth before slowly, carefully pulling it through the table, then his flesh, and then out. He feels the skin being moved as the metal slides against it, and it's enough to make him retch.

Unsurprisingly, blood begins to pour from the wound immediately. Every nerve is alight with pain, but also discomfort. His hand feels weak. He tries to make a fist, but finds that the pain flares instantaneously, and abandons the idea.

Alright. Think. What would Simon tell you to do.

Vague lectures of the dangers of opens wounds and blood loss come to his mind. He looks around for something to use to apply pressure to the wound, and eventually settles on ripping a piece of his (unconscious) assailant's shirt off.

He hesitantly brings his gaze back to the wound and grimaces. God, it looks so gross. He shudders.

After wrapping his hand in the fabric, he begins his journey to find the one person he knows can fix this.

••••

Simon had been sleeping deeply when he heard the knock at the window.

He’s still half asleep when he gets up to see how Archie managed to injure himself this time. His hair is mussed and his eyes are drowsy, but as soon as he sees the blood dripping through Archie's hastily-wrapped palm, he wakes right up.

“Fuck Archie, get in here..” He murmurs, voice still hoarse.

Archie climbs in, surprisingly calm for how much he is bleeding. “I’m sorry, were you sleeping?”

Simon stifles an eye-roll as he ushers Archie to sit on the couch.

“I was. It’s fine. You’re cleary in an.. urgent situation,” He huffs, gently taking Archie’s hand and methodically unwrapping the fabric. "How did this even happen?"

Archie instantly pales.

“Archie?”

“C-Can’t look at it. Gonna puke.”

Simon smirks.

“You’ve quite literally been impaled before and didn't bat an eye. You’re telling me this is the thing that finally gets you?”

“Less talking, more wound dressing please,” Archie means to sound demanding, but it comes out as more of a whiny plea.

Simon laughs softly as he begins to tend to the wound. His hands move quickly, but exceedingly gently. He cleans and sutures the wound, and by now, Archie is able to look at it without going white as a ghost.

While Simon is swathing his hand with proper dressings, he stifles a yawn. That interrupted nap was his first time sleeping in 2 days, after all. Archie picks up on it rather easily.

“Could we watch a movie or something? I need to get that image out of my head,” He half-lies, motioning to his now carefully wrapped hand.

Simon nods, but his eyelids are already drooping. They settle on the couch and put on a random Disney movie Archie's seen hundreds of times.

They're only sitting for a few minutes when Simon begins to nod off. Eventually, his head finds a place nestled on Archie's shoulder and Archie doesn't dare move an inch.

He's gonna let Simon rest if it's the last thing he does.

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[captainseamech]

//OK SO... something that I wanted to talk about in-depth is High Tide’s chest (not that way) and how his submarine altmode actually helps with protecting his spark. This is quite a long read so you better be prepared.

For the non-TF mutuals, a quick explanation: Cybertronians, like humans, does have a heart and ribcage to protect it, called spark and spark chamber respectively. Their sparks are their core, meaning that they can live with only their head if it’s still connected to the spark with energon supply (or not even that most of the time, it depends of the type of spark but I didn’t study enough to cover this topic and it’s a bit complicated to non-TF mutuals to understand, so I’ll keep it at that.) As you may have guessed, the spark is quite fragile as it’s their energy core, therefore they have hefty plating on the chest area to protect their core as best as they can. This is the basics of what a spark is, so let’s proceed to my next point.

As you may know, opposed to many Cybertronians that chose an airborne or a roadlike vehicle for their altmode, High Tide is a submarine. And like I rambled long ago, his spark is very fragile nowadays. You may be wondering why the choice of a submarine may be a good thing, considering he can’t transform on land to flee from a fight and he’s generally slower out of water. The secret lies on understanding how a submarine is designed.

Unlike cars and planes, most submarines are designed with two hulls: the outer hull and the pressure hull. The outer hull (also called casing or light hull) is responsible for the hydrodynamic shape of a submarine and distributes equal power necessary to drive such a thing. Even though, in theory, it’s non-pressure resistent out of water, it can prevent any stress caused to the pressure hull if the submarine gets damaged. The pressure hull, residing inside the outer hull, is responsible for all the main components of the submarine, and the most precious part of the vessel that should not be damaged when submerged. Between the outer hull and the pressure hull, there’s a space in between responsible to store other stuff and to be filled with water to make the submarine able to dive. It’s a bit more complex than that, but that’s the basics that I wanted to cover for this study.

Now that I yapped about how a real submarine works, let me translate that information to High Tide’s frame.

He’s a double hulled submarine type, meaning that he has an armor and something else in his chest area that works in the definition I said above to protect the spark. The outer hull would be his armor, relatively ‘weak’ like I said above but not quite easy to be torn through. Since Cybertronian metal is more resistent than normal metal, basically his armor is as strong as the pressure hull of a submarine. Since there’s something to be protected underneath that blue frame, if you were to take a strong hit on the chestplate — not the glass part, the metal part — you could hear that there was, indeed, some space in there. While the glass in his chest can be breakable, the metal plate is not easy to be removed as the pipes on his shoulders applies enough pressure for it to not disconnect entirely from his frame.

So let’s say you, somehow, managed to take it off. What’s underneath it? His pressure hull, a.k.a his body. Like I mentioned a few times before, High Tide does have a body underneath that blue plating and that’s one of the reasons why aside from self indulgence. It’s as strong as a normal pressure hull if not stronger due to the metal difference between species, revealing that this bot can still pack a punch even though his chest was revealed. Among many scars that are present on his torso (hint hint), one is more visible than others, right between his ‘pecs’. Under that scar, there’s a compartment that he’d never open to anyone unless he has a deep connection with them: his spark chamber, which lies his fragile spark within when opened.

For better understanding, I took my 3ds and drew the 3 layers mentioned above; the outer shell / armor, the pressure hull / body and his spark chamber containing his spark respectively:

Don’t look at me I’m no artist leave me aloneeeee idk how to draw torsos so it’s pretty bad shush

TL;DR: Unlike most Cybertronians that have two layers to protect their sparks, High Tide has three, which can a huge advantage in battle.

Thank you for coming to my Ted talk *drops mic*

[xxxesnesnonxxx]

I so badly want to give him a handjob in a nice, hot bubble bath.

Our big jet tub is filled with piping hot water, steam rising. I'm sitting with my back against the wall of the tub, legs spread so he can sit between them. He leans against me, feeling my breasts against his back, the scent of my vanilla body wash lingering on my skin. His arms drape across my silky smooth, freshly shaved legs. The jets have churned up so many bubbles it's impossible to see what's going on beneath the surface of the water.

I start by slowly kissing along his neck, massaging his shoulders before I wrap my arms around him. My hands gently pinch his nipples before wandering lower down his belly along his happy trail. I know he wants me to touch his cock but I'm mean...I go for his thighs instead. I continue kissing his neck, rubbing his inner thighs for what seems like an eternity. I murmur in his ear what a good boy he is, how hard I want him to get for me, how I want to make him feel good.

I finally trail my hands over to his cock. I'm surprised by how hard he's gotten, but he's always been a fan of dirty talk and moving slow. I take a firm hold around his thick shaft and start making long, slow strokes. My other hand gently fondles his balls. With each stroke I pause to give the head of his cock extra attention, rubbing my thumb over the tip, applying pressure to his sensitive frenulum.

There's something a little thrilling about not actually being able to see his cock and my hands under all the bubbles. I speed up my strokes a bit, making him squirm between my legs. His breathing gets quicker, I can tell he's getting close to cumming but I don't want him to yet, and I tell him so. I release his cock and balls from my grasp, focusing again on his thighs. I run my fingernails up and down his thighs, gently scratching them with each pull upward.

When his breathing slows a little I go back to his cock, this time using both hands to grip his length. I keep firm pressure with the hand closer to the base, using the other hand to stroke the end of his shaft and the head. I rub my palm over the tip in a circular motion over and over. Every once and a while I make a ring with my finger and thumb to apply more pressure just below the head, moving in a twisting motion. Even though my hands are underwater I can feel slightly sticky precum leaking from him as his breathing gets more rapid again. He squirms more, gripping my thighs with his strong hands. Soft moans escape his lips...he's ready for release but I'm not.

I cruelly let go of his cock again, making him whine with frustration. I trail my hands up his belly to his chest, playing with his nipples again. All the while I'm kissing his shoulders, neck, jaw, ears...anything my lips can easily reach. I remind him what a good boy he's being and tell him he'll get to cum soon.

Once his breathing slows a bit I go back to working his cock. I can feel how veiny it is, how hard he is, how badly he wants to cum. I go for the finish, firmly gripping his shaft with one hand as I rapidly stroke the length of his beautiful cock. My other hand travels up to his throat, lightly choking him. I feel my hand vibrate with his moans as he gets closer. He tightens his grip on my soft thighs, digging his nails into them as he starts thrusting up into my hand, fucking it in time with my strokes. Finally I feel his cock throbbing. I tighten my hold around his throat as he releases deep, guttural grunts while shooting his load into the bath water.

I keep a hold of his cock until he stops throbbing, then I gently massage his thighs while he is coming down. I whisper in his ear how good he was, cumming so hard for me. Our session ends with me hugging him from behind, us sinking down further in the hot water to relax before we drain the tub and get out.

[sakarrie-creates]

It’s that time of year! Here’s my 2023 art summary! After two years of having to include non-colored pieces, I finally did enough ‘full’ pieces to fill my art summary template! I did have to get a bit creative with the months since I was able to draw a LOT more during the summer, but I’ll take it! Sorry it's a bit blurry. I'm not sure if that's just for the preview or not, but it was a smaller file than normal and since these reflections are 99% for my own interest, I decided it wasn't worth trying to change.

As usual, I got rambly so reflection questions are answered under the cut. The template I used is available here in case anyone else wants to make their own! My fic summary will be coming in a week or so, so stay tuned for the stats and round-up there. :)

What events did you participate in (with art)? Player Appreciation Week, Fandom Trumps Hate, Dear Fellow Traveler (Animatic), Weird People (Editing), SPN Comfortably Queer Zine (dropped), and lots of zine applications for page artist, merch artist, comic artist, and spot artist roles!

What was your biggest challenge this year? While time, like last year, was still a challenge, I think my biggest challenge was a mix of low motivation and an intense perfectionistic mindset. At the start of the year, I got super into TOH and was super hyped about all the zines with apps opening. I really REALLY wanted to get into them and figured I should apply for art too just cause it would increase my overall chances of getting in. After the finale, I did a screenshot redraw that ended up being absolutely fantastic for where my skill level is. I went deeper into rendering than ever before, and somehow it worked for me. 

That probably was the start of my unreasonably high expectations, and I got it into my head that maybe if I could make a whole portfolio of artwork at that quality level, I actually stood a chance at getting into a zine as an artist. From then on, I was hardcore crash-coursing perspective, rendering techniques, and generally trying to improve without allowing room for mistakes. While I do think it helped me grow a lot, it burnt me out so I struggled to work on stuff past summary (when all the zine apps were) and even dropped from the SPN Comfortably Queer Zine cause my imposter syndrome was so strong. (Though that was also partially because it was a ‘sign-up and you’re in’ zine, so they never saw my art during the application process and had no way of knowing if I was good enough.

What was something you were surprised by? I’m pretty sure I discovered the perspective tool is CSP this year! CSP has so many tools I’m not aware of (despite watching tons of tutorials and guides), so it wasn’t super surprising but it was nice. I have to say, they’re a serious hassle to work with and require a higher understanding of vanishing points and such than I currently have, but I could see it being very useful for future scene art pieces.

Did you try anything new this year?

Yes! This year I kicked down the door to the merch world and have been collecting and designing throughout the year. Though the designs have mostly just been for zine app portfolio’s, everything has worked out really well for me and I hope to produce charms for my collection as I improve my skills. Where do you think you most improved? Definitely my confidence in rendering! And probably my rendering itself too. I did a ton more pieces with it this year and it’s definitely a favorite part of the art process for me. I think I’ll have a lot more fun with it this year too, since I’m trying to keep it lower pressure, so I can experiment more to find out what brushes and styles I like most. What are you most proud of? I think I’m most proud of how ambitious I was with my zine apps. Though I didn’t get into any for art and it burned me out a fair bit, I did a lot of hard work and made pieces I can be mostly happy with. As for specific pieces, I’m very proud of my animatic clip for the Dear Fellow Traveler MAP (which is what the Belos art from the summary is from). My portion was about 5 seconds with 24 fully colored and shaded frames. A few of those were moving frames too, so the end result is the closest thing to actual animation I’ve done. I also really like the rendering on the Huntlow Epilogue art and generally how the Steve&Matt hug turned out.

How’d this year compare to your 2023 goals? I honestly couldn’t remember what my goals were, but all things considered, I didn’t do too bad! Thankfully past-Sakarrie was wise and made it a bullet list so I can just check things off. Met: -Player Appreciation Week -Add to zine portfolio -Apply to at least one zine as an artist (fine if don’t get accepted) -Keep experimenting with backgrounds and shading -Pull out some old WIPs -Build more consistency of style

The checked off ones I definitely met, so good for me! This was a very zine-focused year, so I way exceeded those goals. The last two I did do, but they’re a bit subjective. Specifically, I think the ‘WIPs’ I was referring to were old sketches, but most of the old WIPs I revisited were already colored and I was either adding rendered or cleaning them up for zine usage. As for style, I’m REALLY bad at telling haha. That said, my characters seem reasonably similar when I draw them, so I’m going to tentatively count it. Kinda: -One fully colored piece per month

I’m gonna give myself a half check on this one. I didn’t have a fully colored piece every month, but I did have over 12 fully rendered pieces in the end, several of which had backgrounds. So while I didn’t meet the letter of the goal, I feel like I met the spirit of it.

Did Not Meet: -Finish Huntlow comic -30 minutes animatic digitalize rough draft -Maybe make some fanart of my favorite fics

These don’t shock me. They’re all personal projects and this was a very external-goal-driven year for me. The Huntlow comic is a big love of mine but it’s definitely ambitious for where my skill is. I’ve got the whole thing messy-sketched and most of it has been clean sketched, but the jump from that to lineart is gonna be hard, and I have no idea what I’d be doing with color since the panels don’t have a background. That said, I do feel like it’s some solid work and I adore the angst vibe of it, so maybe I’ll get it done one day. I could also see myself posting it as a messy lineart comic so that others could enjoy the concept being executed in case it never gets finished.

As for the 30 Minutes animatic, I still 100% intend to complete it eventually. I love the way it fits to the music and I’m so proud of the thumbnails. Even if it never becomes a full animatic, I want to digitize the frames and line it up with music so I can share the concept I see in my mind with others. My brain was somewhat overtaken suddenly by TOH this year, so now that that’s settled and I’m hoping to follow my muse more this year, maybe this will be something I can get excited about again.

The fanart for favorite fics is no surprise since it’s kinda the tack on. With low motivation and projects with deadlines that needed my focus, personal art like this was buried way below other priorities. It’s a nice though for sure though.

Alrighty then, now it’s time for 2024 goals!! Oh goodness, I really don’t know what to expect of myself. I definitely am going to try to allow for more personal projects with lower pressure, but I do still have some goals. Hopefully most can be accomplished without applying big pressure though.

2024 Goals:

-Number One Priority: Create for my and don’t put myself in a place to get crazy burnt out and still have requirements. If I meet this goal, then it’s okay if I don’t meet any of the others. (It would be sad.... But I would still count it as meeting overall goals.) -Participate in Summergen and PAW Week (Art or Fic) -Design Handplates charm as anniversary gift (November) -Design CS Charm -Have a fully usable Zine Portfolio (Currently need more merch samples and rendered pieces with backgrounds) -Apply to new TOH Zines or other loved fandom zines. If I end up getting into any, I can pull back, but since that doesn’t seem likely, I want to get into the habit of always being ready to apply with what I have. -Make an ongoing project list to pin to my tumblr. This applies mostly for fics, but that way people coming to my page can see what fandoms I’m actively creating for and what they can look forward to (as well as have an opening to ask questions if they’re interested). -Post more (at least 10 times throughout the year) and add my best pieces to instagram (8+ pieces by end of year). -Do ONE of the following:     1. 30 minutes digitized so it can be shared with music      2. Open Up Your Eyes fully thumbnail      3. Fanworks for other people’s fics      4. Participate in an extra bang or exchange with art      5. Design and manufacture a pin -Play with different brushes and rendering styles -Draw something from scratch every month, no matter how small -Not exactly art, but I want to have a finalized long-term merch display plan for all my items Overall, how’d the year go? I think I did well! I didn’t meet all my goals and I pushed myself too far, but I learned and improved a LOT this year. All things considered, I made pieces that last year me would be blown away by, so I think that’s an automatic win. I’m pretty uncertain on how this next year will go (even more so than last year, which is surprising since I was changing schools last year), but I’m hoping to enjoy what I do and create art semi-regularly. Here’s to 2024!

[smallestapplin]

Shiny Anon:

How about a badly injured!reader and concerned-and-afraid Emmet (and Ingo). I’m sure the twins have first aid training, but it’s not meant for this sort of thing. Not the best way to end a date…

Have a bit of a prompt for it:

“Hey, don’t close your eyes!” The blood is soaking through Emmet’s coat, staining the white fabric a terrifying red. You try to obey, you really do, but everything is going fuzzy and dark at the edges. A whimper of pain escapes you as Emmet presses down harder.

“Stay awake, stay with me!”

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What happened, the cause, the consequences, everything else is up to you.

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P.S. sorry if this got asked before, tumblr seems to like sending my messages before I’m ready to send them. That said, this is the actual ask.

I’m not very good with long prompts so I hope this is to your liking!

CW! Blood and injury!

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You always knew your lovers were decently popular, so you aren’t caught off guard when on dates you three get stopped.

It doesn’t happen often, thankfully.

Ingo and Emmet are usually very good at keeping interactions brief.

But you know how much they love to battle, you can tell when they haven’t had a battle, or a good one in a while.

They love the thrill and the on spot strategies, they just find it so fun! They are truly in their element.

You three decided to take all your Pokémon to a park, to hopefully get out some energy.

But you knew they wanted a battle.

You offered, but a double would be better, yet there are only three of you.

But a fan of theirs happened to over hear your problem, such a sweet young man offered to help.

Emmet was so giddy, you alone are a strong trainer! So a battle buddy for you? This will be exciting!

Ingo perked up at the promise of a battle, Chandelure humming happily with her trainer.

And thus the battle went underway.

You can feel your blood pumping, as you stand in front of Emmet, and your companion in front of Ingo. Though a stranger, your battle buddy was kind and easy to work with.

Both of you communicating easily to land effective attacks.

Both sides are on the ropes, each person down to their last Pokémon, one last round to determine the victors.

Ingo’s Haxorus and Emmet’s Archeops, are all they have left.

You should be able to win this, if you two plan this right.

The area around the battle field is cloudy, the dust being almost thick, you can hardly see.

Ingo’s shout brings you back from your thoughts.

“Haxours! Use dragon claw!”

A loud roar echoes from the dragon, before thundering footsteps rapidly approach.

Your body moves on autopilot.

Haxorus had missed her opponent, in full charge the large Pokémon tries stopping, momentum keeping her going.

Noticing too late she missed.

The man barely on time to move.

Luckily you noticed before he did. You slam your shoulder into him, knocking him out of the way and onto the ground.

You gasp, feeling the attack hit you. Your body doesn’t touch the ground as the dragon type holds you. Your blood quickly dripping from the new gashes across stomach.

The dust slowly settling, with a pained cry from Haxours

The twins are terrified once they can see again.

Eyes widening at the sight of blood covering their beloved pokemon.

The man sparring with you quickly pulling out his phone, frantically dialing and calling help.

The brothers quickly rush over, trying to get Haxorus to let you go.

“Darling! Darling answer me!”

Emmet shouts, while Ingo talks the Pokémon into laying you down.

The both had first aid training, but not for anything like this.

You can’t respond, you feel so tired, your eye lids feel like lead.

You whimper.

It’s the only thing they hear from you.

Emmet holds you close, while Ingo yanks off his coat.

“Hey, don’t close your eyes!” The blood is soaking through Emmet’s coat, staining the once white fabric a deep red.

Ingo balls up parts of his coat, applying pressure to the gashes.

You try to stay away, you try to talk to them, to keep your eyes open, but everything is going fuzzy and dark at the edges.

Looking up, all you see at the scared expressions of your beloveds, tears streaming down their cheeks.

A whimper of pain escapes you as Emmet holds you tighter, and Ingo presses down harder.

“Dear, please! Stay awake, stay with us!”

You can’t.

You’ve never felt more exhausted.

You hope they can forgive you.

The last thing you hear are their panicked screeches.

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You wake up to an awful bright light shining through the curtains.

You lazily open your eyes, groaning in agony.

It feels like you were hit by a bus.

You body feels so stiff and sore.

You try to move your arms at least, but find they feel heavy.

Looking down, you see on either side of you, Ingo on your right, and Emmet on your left.

Both twins holding and laying their heads on your arms, holding onto you like your disappear.

You don’t want to bug them, they look so tired, like they could use some extra sleep. Though you doubt these positions are comfortable.

You shift, trying to get comfortable in the hospital bed. You didn’t mean to wake them up.

Emmet shoots up at the movement, his eyes unfocused, but he’s trying.

Ingo jolts, before slowly rising, rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.

“Darling you’re awake!”

“Careful Emmet! Be mindful of their injury!”

Emmet slows his roll, he looked like he was going to lunge at you before being scolded.

His arms are still quick to wrap around you, as best he can.

Before smothering your face with tear filled kisses.

Ingo is not far behind, slowly kissing up your arms to your neck, waiting for Emmet to move so he can kiss you too.

“How do you feel, dear? Do you need anything?”

You groan a bit before laying your head completely back.

“Some water, please? I feel like I’m dying.”

“I’ll be right back!” You don’t think Emmet has moved so fast.

Which leaves you and Ingo.

He holds your hand, kissing the back of it before moving up to kiss you. His lips press against yours gently, as if you’d break.

“I’m so sorry, we were so worried that…I….I’m just so happy you’re okay.”

A few stray tears fall down, he leans his forehead against yours, taking in and basking in your presence.

“I know, but I’m okay! I love you.”

Ingo breaks, lowering his head to your shoulder and sobs.

His shoulders shaking with each cry he lets out.

It was his Pokémon that harmed you, it’s all his fault, had he and Emmet not wanted a battle you wouldn’t be in a hospital.

Had he just said no, and waited for a challenger on his line.

He’s sorry.

“I thought, I thought I’d never hear you say that again!”

You leans your head against his, still feeling so tired.

But you’re relived.

Emmet comes back, tears of his own brimming his eyes.

“Water for darling!”

You go to move, but he’s quick to help you, letting you lay back while he holds the cup for you.

You greedily drink the ice cold water, it feels so refreshing after Arceus knows how long.

“Thank you.”

Emmet quickly settles in next to you. His smile quivering.

“Anything for you, love.”

You don’t know what’ll happen after this, but you’re glad to know you’re going to be well taken care of.

[magicalgirlfia]

Some Dome Octarian Society Headcanons

Honestly we only see the military side of the dome dwelling Octarians and it really makes me wonder what their society must be like.

We really don’t see much about what life is like outside of just stuff about the army and I wanted to base this off the fact that nobody is in the wrong and that “everyone is just doing their own thing”.

The most valued occupations are STEM careers, especially those who work in engineering and technology.

Militants and medical professionals are a close second followed by musicians, composers, and artists, most of whom receive support from the government to create music and art for them (ex; Turquoise October making Octotronica and the propaganda we see in the sunken scrolls)

Most octarians are pushed to and do chose their careers from a very young age. After or during their equivalent to middle/secondary school octarians usually do internship style programs instead of a traditional schooling, thus why there are so many child soldiers.

All schools are funded by the government and so they are where a lot of propaganda and nationalism are instilled in people.

Marina is a special case and was able to skip most/all of the required schooling and go straight to an internship program due to her intelligence.

Many of the octarians who live in the domes as of around ME2022 have chosen to be there for one reason or another. For example, while some octarians are still conditioned to be loyal to the army, some have genuine loyalties to Octavio, some are pressured by tradition or a feeling of obligation, and some people just don’t want to leave because they have lives there. Nevertheless, post ME2018 the Octarian domes have many fewer inhabitants than usual.

Lots of their infrastructure is built off of the skeletons of the formerly flooded old human dome cities which have been built upon almost beyond recognition.

Octarian anthologists know a lot more about about human society due to this and they became so advanced due to the fact that they could somewhat build off already existing technology. This is why the Sunken Scrolls contain so much information about the Splatoon universe pre mollusk era- they’re written by the octarians.

Biological family is not something with a big focus, especially when many of the members of society have been created through asexual reproduction. They raise kids with a “it takes a village to raise a child” mindset.

Although there are special cases where children will be raised by one specific person or multiple people, they aren’t necessarily the kids biological parent(s)

Later on in life this applies to the group that someone chooses to work with, as they usually have to live and work in close proximity to each other and form strong familial friendships with one another.

Blackouts are a regular occurrence and most of the population keeps a lot of candles at hand for emergencies. It’s very difficult to create renewable energy due to the fact that things like sun, wind, and weather have to be artificially created.

This is due to the amount of electricity that is presumably used on Octavio’s weapons. And also raves. Like chill out dude.

But I digress. Due to that, power eggs are some of the only sustainable and reliable energy sources which is why keeping good relations with the Salomonids is absolutely essential.

Due to their close relation, a good chunk of the population knows the salmonid language or have at least heard terms in it before. It’s not the majority of course but it’s more than you’d expect, especially considering that not many will actually ever interact with them.

I think that styles based off of poppy/preppy ME2017 inkling fashion are very popular with rebellious teenagers.

That’s all I have right now. Maybe I’ll come up with more in the future and also maybe I won’t.

[yukidragon]

Sunny Day Jack Headcanons - Alice and Ian's Breakup

I wound up going on a bit of a ramble in a thread over on twitter yesterday about the breakup between Ian and Alice. My friend @sai-of-the-7-stars suggested that I put it in a tumblr too, so here we go, with some extra thoughts and commentary. After all, once you get me going on a ramble it's hard to stop me, hahahaha.

Before I begin, I'll quickly link to some previous theories that relate to this discussion, such as why Ian cheated, a few spicy details about Alice and Ian's sex life, reasons why Alice can't bring herself to hurt Ian, her family's reactions to his cheating, and other assorted headcanons relating to the two of them and their breakup here, here, here, and here. I'm probably missing some links to relevant prior discussions, but there are so many headcanons at this point that even a search engine isn't enough to sort through them all, haha.

Disclaimer: these headcanons apply to my personal fan made continuity known as Sunshine in Hell and don't necessarily reflect the game. No doubt the actual relationship between MC and Ian is going to have a different set of nuances to it than I'm exploring in my writing. Not to mention each MC is unique and the branching paths of the game will lead to different outcomes between these two.

Also, content warning: this post will discuss a relationship turned toxic, unhealthy levels of emotional dependency, codependency, emotional manipulation, self-loathing, past traumas, religious guilt, and just unhealthy relationship dynamics in general. This is an Adults Only game and touches on mature topics after all.

With that out of the way, let's discuss how Alice tried to end her relationship with Ian before the start of Sunshine in Hell... which, as we can see in chapter 6, was less than successful.

As I've mentioned in previous posts, Ian really needs therapy. Thanks to a lifetime of abuse at the hands of his toxic mother, not to mention the bullying and isolation he received from his peers while growing up, he has a lot of issues. Really, I'd argue he probably needs therapy more than he needs a relationship right now.

Alice isn't ignorant of that fact. Her coming to the realization that a lot of their relationship revolved around her trying to help fix his issues for him was pretty much the key that led her to choosing to end things for good. As much as she wants to help Ian, as much as she loves him... she can't fix him. No one should be expected to fix anyone else's issues... especially if they've given up on the idea that they can get better.

Ian's self-confidence is... pretty miserable, to be frank. We've seen plenty of examples of it in the demo and in teasers. He depends on his partner to be the strong one. He doesn't see himself being able to handle going on without them... He sees MC as the strong one, and he pretty much is so used to being torn down that he tears himself down preemptively, constantly feeling the need to apologize.

Alice did try to help Ian with his confidence. Since the first day they met, she has been there for him, supported him, cared for him deeply... and eventually loved him more than anyone else. She defended him from bullies, held him whenever he cried, reassured him that he's better than what everyone else has said, listened to him vent, and accepted every apology he's given her regardless if he actually made a mistake or not.

She accepted his apologies even if he didn't actually understand what he did wrong.

There were good moments between them, but Ian kept needing Alice's support. He couldn't handle standing on his own. He depended on her to the point that it was crushing. Things would have been more balanced between them if he shouldered some of the weight of her problems as well, but he couldn't handle them. He was convinced he couldn't. He wasn't strong like her.

Ian was supportive, but it was a far more fragile support, one that crumbled so very easily as the pressure overwhelmed him.

Alice is the oldest child in a large and loving family. She's been the responsible child, helping with all the younger siblings. She coped with being sick with something incurable, and never let the bullies see her cry. She stood up to Ian's mother directly for his sake, something that he could never bring himself to do. She always seemed so much larger than life to him even though they were the same age. She always seemed better than him, at least in his eyes.

Ian couldn't understand why Alice struggled with self-confidence issues. Maybe it was his fault? If it was, he's sorry. He thinks she's beautiful and other people are weird. He doesn't like them like he likes her. If she's feeling bad, then it must be his fault, and he's so sorry...

Essentially, Ian was so ready to take the blame for everything... including his partner's own problems. This left Alice needing to reassure him on top of handle her own issues.

So it was just easier for Alice not to talk about issues with Ian. She just dismissed her problems as something she could handle. She can deal with it. She's oldest in her house. She's mature. She's smart. Heck, she was gifted in school. Gifted kid burnout what's that?

Ian doesn't have support like Alice does. His family doesn't love him. His only family abuses him. He needs her. He needs her understanding. He doesn't mean to hurt her. Heck, he's feeling bad because she's feeling bad. How can that be toxic behavior?

That's why it took Alice so long to accept that what she and Ian had wasn't a healthy relationship. She was supporting the emotional weight for both of them, and Ian thought that supporting her financially would balance that scale... though he didn't think he could make it on his own.

The signs were there even before Ian left for his prestigious school. The long distance relationship made their problems worse, since Ian didn't have Alice to support him in the way he was used to. There were scheduling problems and suddenly he had all these friends that were demanding his time. He had connections he needed to forge, a chance at actually making it in the future... and he got a taste of popularity for the first time. He got to see that other people weren't as weird or off-putting as he convinced himself they were...

Supporting Ian over phone calls and messaging aps was harder for Alice to do than in person. She couldn't hold him while he cried. She struggled for words sometimes, as verbal conversations are her weak point. Texting was easier in that regard, but that was so impersonal to Ian. He needed to hear her voice and see her face.

Whenever Ian had a problem, he brought it to Alice, asking her what he should do. Over time he leaned on her advice more as they grew. He depended on her when they were living together and even after moving he needed her help... though there were things he would keep secret from her for fear that she wouldn't understand. After all, he felt so much shame towards himself and his desires...

The cheating was the breaking point for the two of them, but even then that wasn't the end right away. Despite Alice being hospitalized for alcohol poisoning and accidentally injuring herself after finding out... she wanted to forgive Ian. He was sorry. She knew that was sorry. She knew him better than anyone. She believed his story that it just happened... that he just got swept up by the other person's charms and lost control of himself.

After all, Ian had a history of losing control of himself when it came to sex.

There were couples that did come back from cheating. It wasn't impossible, and Alice didn't want the relationship to be over. She wanted so badly to believe that it was just another mistake made by Ian. Poor, clumsy, apologetic Ian... the only one who could ever love or desire her...

But this wasn't healthy. Their relationship after this while trying to repair things was so much worse. Alice couldn't even handle kissing Ian, and the guilt struck him each time she asked for more time before she could handle physical intimacy with him again. Before, she could power through even being choked or rough sex despite hating it, but now...

It felt wrong. His "I love you" and all those promises that she was the only one for him felt like lies. Ian still spent time with those friends of his who crossed boundaries, not even completely cutting off the person he cheated with. He couldn't due to the connections he was forming to further his career. He was just starting out, and those connections would make or break everything. He had to smile for the camera and socialize. He had to become successful.

It was the only way to make his cheating worth it at that point. It was the only way Ian could see repairing what he had broken.

It was hellish for both of them. Alice eventually was forced to realize that this wasn't what a relationship was supposed to look like - romantic or otherwise. With the help of her friends like Shaun and some of her family, she was able to accept that there really was no coming back from this.

Their relationship had been sick for a long time, and the cheating was the final blow that killed it. Nothing good would come from trying to force its corpse to keep moving even as it continued to rot.

Really, what helped Alice manage the strength to end things was knowing that this was damaging Ian as well. She was so used to just accepting her own pain for his sake that it really was what was needed to make her see that this self-sacrifice wasn't good for either of them.

Alice realized that she wasn't Ian's support like she always thought she was - she was his enabler. She let him use her in order to feel better, more like a bandage over his issues than a person. She had become more like a narcotic he depended on to hobble through the day rather than taking real steps to get better.

So, when Alice decided that it had to end, she wrote down everything she wanted to say. It was the only way she would be able to force him to see the truth like she did. She wanted Ian to get help, go to therapy, explore what he really wanted out of life... without her. Without considering her at all in the future. He had to be independent of her... and she needed to be independent of him.

The relationship was too toxic. The trust was gone. It was best for both of them if they went their separate ways.

Love isn't supposed to hurt this badly.

Ian, of course, couldn't accept this. Alice couldn't even read out the entire speech she wrote down before he was on his knees in tears, begging her not to give up on him, on them... to not throw him away like everyone else. He made mistakes, but he'll do better. He's so sorry! He loves her!

Ian always had a way of knowing how to make Alice want to protect him.

It's hard ending things with someone you love, even if you know it's what's best for the both of you.

Try as she might, Alice couldn't be harsh on Ian. She couldn't yell and scream or smash things... she felt so bad for him. She still loved him so, so much... wanted the world for him... and that love was stifling his growth... and slowly killing her.

The best Alice could do was a compromise. A break. They would be broken up "for now." They needed to give each other space if there was any hope of them reconciling in the future.

It was the biggest lie Alice ever told Ian, and he was desperate enough to believe it.

To Alice there is no chance. It hurts too much. That's why she left their shared apartment, left behind anything she could afford to that had too many memories attached to Ian. Anything she couldn't, she has to try and work through her own issues with in her new place.

She didn't tell him where she moved.

To Ian, this is just a break. That's all it is. This is just like if one of them went off to camp for a week before they got cell phones and couldn't make contact. They'll get back together. He just has to fix things. He has to make what he did worth it. He has to get them the house they always dreamed off in the place they always wanted to raise kids in... plenty of money to take care of them both where Alice never has to worry about anything ever again, not even him cheating...

But Ian knows they're on the brink. Alice doesn't call him or send him messages, and that's terrifying. He did give her some time at first. Maybe a week or two... but she wasn't posting on her social medias. He didn't know what she was up to. Was she eating or taking care of herself? She skipped meals sometimes. She overworked herself so much. She hurt herself badly before without him. What if she was in the hospital again? Who would tell him?

So Ian stalks Alice on her socials. He contacts anyone who knows her and is still willing to try and mediate things between them, like Coraline and a couple mutual friends. He sends her voice mails and messages so she won't forget him, making sure she knows he's sorry and that he'll fix things.

Ian is willing to apologize every day for the rest of his life if it'll fix things.

Alice never answers him, and that only makes him more desperate to hear from her. It's what leads him to leaving so many voice mails. He's not blocked, and he knows she didn't change her number since he still hears her sweet voice asking callers to leave a message... but she never gets back to him.

Ian makes posts about stuff she would like on his socials, hoping to spark conversations, trying to provoke a response, but they don't. Sometimes he tags her with things he knows she likes. He knows he's not blocked so she must see them. He tagged them properly!

They know each other better than anyone, right? Ian knows more about Alice than even her family knows. Even when things ended, he knew she loves him, even if he couldn't understand why she would insist on taking a break despite them loving each other...

They'll get over this. They have to. They've come back from other rough patches. They still love each other. It's just a break. Alice said so herself. Eventually... as long as Ian just tries harder to fix things... things will be okay between them in the end... right?

Every message from Ian is hell to Alice. Every tear he sheds because of her is like acid on her skin. She wants to scream at him to just stop since it hurts so much... but she can't because she knows he's hurting too.

Alice ended things. She had to be strong for both of them. She always had to be the strong one. The only way things would get better is if she stays strong and never says a word to Ian again. Eventually... he'll figure out that he doesn't need her... that he shouldn't need her like he convinced himself does.

The sad thing is that Ian is aware that Alice still cares. If she didn't, she would have blocked him. She wouldn't let his messages get through. He doesn't know if she's listening to his messages, but he still sends them with the hope that she is, that something he says somehow makes things right.

Ian, unfortunately, isn't self-aware of how manipulative he's being. It hasn't really clicked that this is far beyond Alice being hurt by him cheating or upset by him "not measuring up as a partner" as he believes it to be. He's not seeing his toxic traits and wasn't really listening when Alice tried to tell him what the real problems were in that final speech when they broke up.

Ian knows he's a crappy partner. He knows he's all these awful things people said he was that Alice used to reassure him that he wasn't. This just proves it. He just has to make everything worth it in the end, give her things she needs that can make her feel proud of having a successful partner like him, someone actually worthy of being partners with someone so kind and giving...

This is why Ian needs therapy so badly. He's focusing on the wrong issues without really understanding what he's really doing to Alice that's so damaging. He is the pitiful victim, substandard and pathetic, needing someone stronger than him to love him despite his flaws.

Ian was focusing so much on what's wrong with him and what he thinks he needs to improve that he doesn't realize how much he's taking from Alice... and he doesn't really listen to what he needed to give in return in order for them to be equal as partners.

All relationships are about give and take from both sides. Unfortunately, Alice kept giving and Ian kept taking.

Apologies aren't enough when a person keeps making the same mistakes over and over again. Eventually even, "I'm sorry," can be repeated until the words become utterly meaningless.

@channydraws @earthgirlaesthetic @sai-of-the-7-stars @cheriihoney @illary-kore @okamiliqueur

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how did you do the shading like that with a mouse? i draw digital with a mouse as well but its so hard to do literally anything or good lineart :/

I don't really know wht other description or advice to give you beyond Anyone who says brushes dont mattr is a fiend and a liar . Especially when drawing with a mouse because you can't get pen pressure like people can with drawing tablets you basically need to find brushes that make it easy for you to be able to Imitate the look of using pen pressure as much as you can.

In the last drawing specifically I used the marker brush and kinda erased for shape then did some parts wtih the same marker brush but with Pressure on opacity turned on (which even if it can't recognize any pressure input will at least kind of shittily apply a variation in opacity) and some light airbrushing in places for an attempt at "volume" (I Don't recommend shading entirely in airbrush you can do whatever you want but irl when something is lit up the shadows hauve both hard and soft edges .)

It might also be better to erase things using your brush as an eraser instead of the actual eraser tool because it might create a clash and if there's a clash you're not getting the shape that you want when you use erasing for shaping lines/brush strokes

Idk if it looks the same way on every app but if you have anything like this basically click on the transparent part and you get an eraser in the texture and look of your brush. Basically play around with this on your drawing and see what brushes you like as erasers if the default one isnt working for the look you want to create

Also you need to choose actual good colors to shade with (I think a lot of people in general are too scared to use strong values/contrast and saturation in their shading, myself included from time to time)

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Lotr/The Hobbit Pokémon AU

We havin’ fun here

Y’all knew this was coming, because I told you it was

A few years ago, I actually made a Pokémon AU for the Bardlings, and I will be using the same teams now, just with a few additions.

Not every character will be included, because there’s just so much I can do, but if you have any ideas for teams of a character who wasn’t included here, then feel free to share! Same goes if you have any other suggestions for the teams I made

They’re all grouped into the people they travel with, because the idea of them all traveling alone makes me sad. The gym leaders will be at the end of the post, and they will all have full teams but like they’d be changed around depending on what order they actually are in.

Also, I do not know who the champion is. Maybe it’s Manwë, maybe it’s Lobelia Sackville-Baggins.

Frodo Baggins, Traveler - Umbreon, Joltik, Kecleon, Sableye, Honedge, Bagon

The nephew/adopted son of the gym leader of Shire City, the Step-Nephew(?) of the gym leader of Erebor City, and the brother/cousin of the gym leaders of Dale City, Frodo lives under constant pressure. Growing up in Shire City, there was a certain expectation that he would one day become a gym leader himself like the rest of his family, or at least a great battler. Frodo is not. He’s too soft to be a battler, he doesn’t like to see his Pokémon hurt, he’s forgetful of moves, he’s just not that good at it. The reason he’s traveling is less because he has a goal, and more because he wants to avoid people (He’s like his uncle in many ways).

Samwise Gamgee, Cook in training - Espeon, Mudsdale, Lycanroc Dusk Form, Floette, Greedent, Diglett

Born and raised in Shire city, has been the best friend with Frodo since they were three, and has been in love with Frodo since they were four. He understands Frodo’s plight with his family, and he does anything to help and support him in any way he can. Travels both to help his bro, but also to see the world and learn about new and exotic plants. He’s very curious about both botany and cuisine, so he takes in as much as he can.

Merry Brandybuck, Pokémon Coordinator - Gogoat, Pancham, Thievul, Bibarel, Galarian Zigzagoon, Minun

A boy of Shire city, Merry is a clever but very stupid lad. Thing is, Merry likes battling. He’s not bad either. But he also just really fucking likes showing off, and cool move effects and big explosions. Contests give you all of that. Man’s a brilliant battler, with a lot of good strategies and ways to combine his Pokémon’s moves to make for some beautiful creations, but the place he falls is just that he has no fucking idea on what is good against what. It’s not just the type charts, but also simple stuff like stats. He usually helps his mate Pippin in any way he can with his battling, as he would never be able to make it in an actual battle.

Pippin Took, Pokémon trainer - Breloom, Spinda, Sudowoodo, Swinub, Zigzagoon, Plusle

This Shire City boy may be dumb af, but by god he is trying alright? He’s attempting to be a trainer, but he can be a bit “uncreative” when it comes to strategies. The angel/devil on his shoulder Merry is the only reason he’s getting anywhere. At least he’s very caring about his lil guys.

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Aragorn Eveningstar, Pokémon ranger in training - Empoleon, Aegislash, Sceptile, Scizor, Marowak, Galarian Farfetch’d

The adopted son of the Rivendell City gym leader. Fricking stacked trainer, honestly, with a strong and relatively balanced team. He’s always been more interested in Pokémon rangers though, with their goal to preserve nature and protect rare Pokémon. He’s had a few (rather strange) run ins with legendary and mythical Pokémon before as well. He’s still a bit away from applying to be a ranger though, mostly because he still has a lot he wants to see and do. Rather cliche, but he wants to find himself.

Legolas Greenleaf, aspiring gym leader - Decidueye, Leafeon, Hisuian Lilligant, Formantis, Serperior, Abomasnow

Guess three times what his favorite typing is. The Mirkwood city gym has been in his family for many generations, and he’s determined to be the next one in line. He enjoys the free spirited nature and wildness of grass types, the way they can survive in any climate through adaptation. He’s absolutely smitten with Aragorn, partly just because he wants to protect nature and partly because, have you fricking seen Aragorn

Gimli Gloinson, Pokémon trainer - Tinkaton, Kleavor, Golett, Alolan Golem, Emboar, Froslass

Gimli is a trainer from Erebor city, but he has family all over the fricking region. Wherever they travel, he will have a relative there, even in this remote ass village in the woods, or this strange house atop a mountain. He's a big fan of Pokémon who look really bulky and tough, even though they sometimes aren't. Froslass was an accident, he meant to evolve her into a Glalie, but she accidentally came in contact with a dawn stone, but she's his baby. He may not look it, but he spoils his Pokemon absolutely rotten.

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Boromir Minas-Tirith, Pokémon trainer - Bisharp, Aegislash, Samurott, Litwick, Luxray, Weavile

The older brother of the Gondor city gym leader, though he was set to inherit the gym after his father. He'd wanted to be a traveling pokémon trainer since he was young though, so he entrusted it to the person he trusts the most. He traveled alone for a long time, occasionally meeting and battling his friendly rival Aragorn, but then a short but hot headed girl started following him around, so you know there's that. He travels home a lot to watch his little brother battle and cheer him on more often than not.

Tilda Dragon, Pokémon Trainer - Sawsbuck, Flareon, Braixen, Shiny Dartrix, Phantump, Druddigon

A girl from Dale City, Tilda is less traveling and battling in an attempt to actually take on the champion, Lobelia Sackville-Baggins, and more to just get out there. Sometimes just skips the middle man when battling Pokémon, and just starts punching them herself. She’s a hazard to people and Pokémon alike, but mostly she’s a hazard to herself. A weird friendship with Boromir, but they make it work somewhat.

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Bain Dragon, Pokémon Trainer - Mudsdale, Vaporeon, Shiny Liepard, Lycanroc, Sobble, Crobat

Bain is from Dale City, and he lost his eyes to a Sableye when he was young. Having always dreamt of becoming a Pokémon trainer, Bain’s dreams were crushed as without his eyesight, he could no longer see the battling before him. At least that’s what you’d think. But Bain learnt to fight without his eyes, going off his other senses instead, mainly hearing and feeling. He’s known throughout the Middle Earth region, and is an inspiration to many young trainers with disabilities.

(Also he travels with his partners Vivian and Kamarind (OCs), but I’m not bothering with giving both of them full teams. Kami does have a lot of water Pokémon tho, and Vivi has a Smeargle)

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Sigrid Dragon, traveling nurse - Jolteon, Stoutland, Blissey, Noctowl, Milotic, Alcreime

Sigrid is the oldest of the ‘dragon children’, and has always been a very maternal to her siblings since the death of their mother. Because of Tilda’s habit of straight up fist fighting Pokémon, and Bain’s wounded eyes, she had to pick up the healers skill that is mostly reserved for the Joy family. She studied under Dale City’s Nurse Joy so she could help her siblings, but once they both left on their journeys, she became kinda lost. Until she realized, that while most people know a lot about how to heal a Pokémon (and even if not, there’s a Pokémon center in every city, town, and village), human healing is a less honed craft. So she travels across the region, helping out and educating as many people as she can. She knows absolutely nothing about how to heal Pokémon though, her Blissey is better at that.

(Sigrid also travels with Tauriel, but her team hasn’t been made yet. I will gladly take suggestions tho)

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Gandalf Gray, the disturber of peace - Shiny Delphox, Hisuian Braviary, Hatterene, Rabsca, Galarian Rapidash, Cosmog

No one knows what’s going on with this dude. He’s incredibly powerful, yet he almost never battles (apart from with his ex husband that is). He just sorta wanders around, giving unhelpful advice to people, and encourages people to go on a journey. Also, a lot of the older generation knew him when they themself were kids, and he looks he exact same, so he might just be immortal

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And here comes the gym leaders. They are in no particular order, and they all have full teams what can be switched around and changed depending on what order you yourself choose to start in.

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Thorin Oakenshield, Steel types - Perrserker, Skarmory, Aggron, Bronzong, Archaludon, Kingambit

The gym leader of Erebor city, who looks very intimidating and majestic, but is a huge family man. Erebor City gym has always had a…reputation, mainly cause his grandfather went mad running it, overtraining his Pokémon and refusing to give out badges to people who beat him, and it was abandoned by his father and taken over by a fire trainer named Smaug for man years, but Thorin is adamant in that he can run it. He struggles with holding back when people come to his gym first, so it’s usually recommended that his is one of the later ones, but he’s gotten better at it. Happily married to the Shire City gym leader, and sometimes his gym is closed for a few weeks just cause he wants to visit his husband. Never during league season though.

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Bilbo Baggins, Normal types - Kangaskhan, Snorlax, Ursaring, Buneary, Cinccino, Furfrou

The gym leader of Shire city, who looks very sweet and kind, but is about as stubborn as they come. His mother was a very famous traveler and explorer, and while he did do some travel in his youth (it’s how he met his husband), but he never quite had his mother’s spirit. He likes normal types for the simplicity of them, sure sometimes more fantastical Pokémon can be nice and cool, but you know what to expect with a normal type. During off league season, he run a small bakery, mostly for the fun of it. Also his Buneary hates his guts and refuses to evolve.

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Elrond Eveningstar, Water types - Milotic, Quaquaval, Starmie, Lapras, Kingdra, Lanturn

Elrond is not just the gym leader of Rivendell City, but also the ‘lord’ of it, unofficial title. Rivendell has always been seen as a very welcoming and comforting city, especially to travelers, and no one embodies this better than Elrond. Despite being a strong trainer, Elrond tends to go a little too easy on new trainers. If you’re an experienced one he will not go easy on you though. His twin sons work in the gym as gym trainers, and they’re both pretty good at putting up a challenge for newer trainers, so it evens out for the most part.

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Galadriel Galadrhim, Flying types - Altaria, Masquerain, Togekiss, Swanna, Sensu Oricorio, Mandibuzz

Every single forum discussing the gym challenge has agreed on one thing about the Lothlórien City gym leader, DO NOT TAKE HER ON FIRST. Galadriel is fully capable to becoming the champion, defeating even the legendary Lobelia Sackville-Baggins, but has too much passion for her city and gym. But she is stupidly strong, never dare underestimate.

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Thranduil Greenleaf, Fairy types - Grimmsnarl, Shiinotic, Florges, Mawile, Sylveon, Alolan Ninetails

Mirkwood city gym isthe oldest still standing gym in all the region, and it’s been in the same family for that entire time. Thranduil has a lot of pride for his heritage, which can make him a bit of an intimidating person. He seems to be this regal, opposing figure, but in reality he’s just a very sassy drama queen. He has a throne in his gym that he sprawls out on between battles, dressing dramatically to match with his Pokémon, man wears a crown for Arceus sake. Absolutely adores his scraggy ass husband as well.

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Faramir Minas-Tirith, Fighting types - Bewear, Falinks, Primape, Tauros blaze breed, Medicham, Scrafty

The extremely surprising gym leader of Gondor, as it was believed that his older brother would take over the gym. He struggles a lot with being the unexpected choice and the newest gym leader, and while his brother supports him as much as he can he is gone for the most part, out on a journey. He likes fighting types because they’re strong and resilient, despite all the hardships they face. All of his team are softies for him (Even Primape and Tauros, two naturally aggressive Pokémon), and Falinks especially has taken him in as their seventh member.

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Sauroman White, Ghost types - Mismagius, Dusknoir Hisuian Zoroark, Sinistcha, Spiritomb, Gourgeist

Isengard city’s gym leader is known for two things. One, he is incredibly old fashioned in his battling style, refusing to ever change up his tactics and strategies. He frowns upon the new “Tera Types”, and “dynamax forms”, and all that. Back in the day, your Pokémon remained normal sized and normal typed, and we liked it! Two, he managed to fumble the region’s most iconic and famous person. Big L.

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Fíli and Kíli Oakenshield, Duo trainers - Amped Toxtricity, Shiny Flapple, Armarouge (Fíli) Low Key Toxtricity, Shiny Appletun, Ceruledge (Kíli)

After former Dale city gym leader, Bard Dragon, retired, the two nephews of the neighboring city’s gym leader took over. Fíli and Kíli are two peas in a pod, fully inseparable. Their battling is so in sync it’s almost scary to witness, and many people struggle when facing them because of it. Outside of battle they are very boyish and loud, finding jokes in anything then witness. They enjoy teasing their brother/cousin, but when it comes down to it they’d protect him with their heart and soul.

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Like I said, I don’t have many ideas for most other characters, but I know I want Éowyn to have a Glastier and Éomer to have a Spectrier.

[science-lings]

femlink headcanons??

Only if you want

Well, my fem!Link isn't too different from her canon counterpart, other than how she's viewed by other people and how that affects her, so a lot of these can be applied to botw/totk Link in general lol.

-Loves Gerudo Town, Urbosa has practically adopted her, they went on molduga hunts pre-calamity, she passes on the legacy to Riju and becomes her white older sister. They go sand seal surfing a lot, Link even has her own sand seal that she leaves in the city when she's not there. She is well known among the Gerudo as the short hylian who carries around monster guts and is always willing to babysit.

-has primary custody of the goddess harp (yk bc of that one concept art of link playing it), and while she can't do any magic with it, she likes to play it when the world is too quiet or she's away from Zelda and is thinking of her.

-Mipha still has a crush on her but with her being both hylian and a woman it's extra forbidden. The Zora are a little more chill about her being a holy prophesized warrior, but not when it comes to marrying into royal families. They just aren't biologically compatible in any way so if they had anything going on it was brief and when they were both young.

-She almost killed Bozai, not like, she held herself back from slicing him in half, but like she beat him within an inch of his life in front of the Gerudo guards. He deserves it.

-Link takes every opportunity presented to her to carry Zelda around, If she falls asleep at her desk or needs help getting on her horse, or if she tripped on a rock, Link will not hesitate to scoop her up in her arms. She kinda loves demonstrating that she is in fact, very strong.

-Aside from the master sword, Link prefers claymores and lynel clubs over spears and shorter swords. While she does look strong, she doesn't look like she's supposed to be able to carry around a weapon and swing it around like she does, I mean, she's still short. No Link can escape that fate.

-Still suffers from the hero-typical mutism, she only really talks to people she really trusts or when she is absolutely pissed. While it's not originating from the pressures of everyone's expectations, it's still bad enough that it affects her everyday life. And because it isn't from everyone putting all their faith in her, it's still extremely prevalent after she wakes from the shrine.

-can pet dogs

-Is actually really good friends with the great fairies, had to have a few conversations about boundaries but they're generally very nice and their actions are more motivated by ignorance to the average hylian experience rather than malice. Sometimes she falls asleep by their flowers because of the calming aura of the spring. It also helps that their magic repels monsters.

that's all for now lol but I would love to come up with more!