#and i truly felt like i was dying

[dogboots]

to be honest with everybody I don't think I'm supposed to be here. I think I'm supposed to be somewhere else

[riddlerosehearts]

i feel like a lot of people seem to forget that during idia's overblot flashback scene he says his life has been set in stone since he was born, and that it hurt how other kids would get asked what they want to be when they grow up but nobody would ever ask him that. and he says he always just wanted to be a normal kid, he just wanted to be a hero and go on adventures, he essentially just wanted to be free to be like everyone else. his trauma doesn't only come from ortho's death, it also comes from feeling completely and utterly trapped by STYX and the expectations his family's curse has placed on him for all of his life. from feeling like the things that he enjoys, the things he dreams of for his future, do not matter and never have. like he's all but completely alone in the world and the fictional media he loves is his only escape from it all. he literally wanted to go with the original ortho, to die, and his response upon being told that he loves the world too much to give up on it was along the lines of "who would ever love this rotten world?". ortho had to tell him that he still had a future ahead of him, because a very significant part of his issue is that he feels like he doesn't, or at least like he doesn't have the freedom to choose a future that he'll enjoy. with or without ortho, he's spent his whole life just feeling hopeless.

[itscherryterry-again]

yea

[sunmisbf]

slayed

[ikjun]

survived my 9 hour shift from hell and got a jinyoung pc in the mail … the lord may taketh away but also giveth !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[aleclightofmylifewoodbane]

Do you know what the absolute worst thing about Jem Will and Tessa is? They really only had a few months of all three of them being together in the grand scheme of things. They all lived long lives, Jem and Tessa especially, but they only really had all three of them as themselves together for a few scant months, and those months were fraught with danger and miscommunication. They were never able to love each other fully and openly as three full people together and that is the worst thing that has ever been taken from us I think.

[rmorde]

It may sound weird but I like how short yet impactful Riko's role is in the story.

Objectively, we only spent a very short time with her. So, did Gojo and Geto.

Riko only has barebones of a characterization with no proper arc to speak of.

We know she's only a fourteen year old orphan lovingly raised by her maid. She felt isolated by her specialness and had long convinced herself that she was okay to be assimilated into Tengen.

We know that she loved her friends. She loved Kuroi. She loved having fun at the beach - that one special carefree day at Okinawa stripped her of her own lies about being alright with dying.

We know she was a girl who chose to live at the last second before the end.

Those are the only things we know about her. Too little of a glimpse to truly know and judge her but they were no less meaningful.

Riko Amanai is a fourteen year old girl. She loves her sole family and friends. She wanted to live. That was all the reason Gojo and Geto needed to lay their own lives to protect her. No more. No less.

Riko Amanai was a fourteen year old girl in a story about sorcery. Her role is pitifully short and her background is at best murky. However, we understand, without question, that she deserved more - could have offered more. She wanted to live just as we wanted her to live. No more. No less.

[derpinette]

i have a weird relationship with weight because i hated eating more than anything the moment i was ready for solids ( i hate chewing with my entire life always have & will ) which made me underweight for most of my life ( to this day ) & during late primary-middle school this made me actively suicidal because i felt like something was wrong with my sex because i just was not developing whatsoever prompting me to have a years long phase of trying to gain weight in any way i could ( #EPICFAIL by the way ) & i was already insecure but i felt seriously so unforgivably ugly after bullying not just at school but by adults of my entourage. but then i did in my late 15s which prompted the pendulum to swing in the other direction & suddenly i FREAKED OUT & thought well being skinny is pretty much all i have & know myself to be & clearly it is not going to last forever so i Better preserve it i was delusional about how skinny i thought i was actually i look stumpy & weird i have to prove myself. But now i am normal again kind of

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Me: I haven't had a period in over a year, I wonder what that could be

Mom and Sibling: Probably PCOS

Me: What's that?

Mom: Extra testosterone in your body, so your uterus thinks you don't need a period

Me: *whispers* Free HRT

[pessimisticprincess]

would love to have a day i don’t wake up completely miserable

[eebydeebytosuperhell]

i need someone to explain platonic love to me like im a robot

what does it feel like to love? what does it feel like to be loved?

[inkykeiji]

Touya apologizing to Shoto? Touya-nii would never.

All jokes aside I’m running back to the Touya-nii universe after this ending because I am… not a fan of it. 🙃 I thought I had prepared myself mentally for whatever Hori had in store but now that I’m seeing it for myself I just feel even more angry for Touya. It doesn’t feel like justice for him.

HAHAHA literally exactly what i said too, yes!!!!! he’s shouting weaaaaak! at canon touya, and while his voice is strong and harsh and stone cold, his eyes are glazed with the thinnest layer of tears—so thin you can only see them when the light catches on his eyes juuust right.

no i completely agree. i talked about it a little bit here but yeah, i’m really upset with the way everything is being handled. it just feels so insanely disrespectful. i could write you a whole essay on how upset i am and why i’m so upset but i am just so tired of talking about it LMAO ugh ._. well, at least we got shaggy-haired touya :( who looks exactly like my touya-nii does :( if nothing else, that’s one positive from this chapter!!

[4ce160-art]

I completely forgot what I was actually going to write, and I debated putting it on my personal blog, but I figured it's a drawing I put (some) effort into so it should probably go on the art blog. Either way, I realized a bit ago that I"ve actually drawn myself properly before.

I'm not going to go too much into details, but I'm finally going on t in two days (ish) if everything goes well after actively trying to achieve that for a couple of years at this point, and I wanted to actually try to draw myself for once before then. I've never really been able to draw myself in the first place for the longest time, mostly because of gender dysphoria etc. but also because I suck at drawing humans lmao

I tried to stay as accurate to my appearance as possible but it still ended up being a bit more cartoony than I'd like because I seriously need to practice drawing humans/poses, but the outfit and expression are fairly accurate

[gregmarriage]

will always have to begrudgingly remember (and hate the fact) that one must find joy in the small things in life, and live in the present

[hecksupremechips]

Posts about bpd need to stop being so damn relatable to me 🤨

[crepusculum-rattus]

spent most of today laying on the porch in the sun while trying to identify birds. and i think that was a good choice