#and i never know what to het him for anniversaries

[canichangemyblogname]

Mmmm. Yeah, many queer fans have been upset enough to stop watching the show altogether.

Buck's boyfriend broke up with him because he--Tommy, the boyfriend--wouldn't be Buck's--this bisexual character-- "last," whatever the fuck that's supposed to mean, but it came with the implication that Buck should date or sleep around to figure out that he wants what he "really wants." Specifically, it came with the implication he should "experiment" with other men because he's only been with women in the past, and I guess-- according to the show-- that means he's not actually experienced enough to be sure of what he wants.

In the context of the rest of the episode, this scene came across either as a way to remind the viewer the bisexual character is still into women or as a "test" of Buck's commitment to or seriousness with being with a man and this being knowable to the public. And with the end message that his boyfriend could never be "Buck's last," the whole episode seemed to carry the narrative that Buck 1.) isn't actually sure of his sexuality (ugh-oh! Is he or het or homo ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ I dunno, Janet, maybe it's a secret third option: bisexuality. Maybe it isn't a choice of men or women, maybe it's men AND women. ¿Por qué no los dos?); 2.) he's just "trying things out," experimenting, if you will, and isn't actually sure of his attraction to men; and 3.) unless he gets with other men, this one man is just an "experiment" or "fluke," and Buck's sexuality-- his gut instinct attraction--is ultimately for women (and women alone).

(And we know this "ugh-oh, what does he want: men or women" was an intention of the writing given the next episode Buck tells his sister, "I don't know what pond to jump back into" when discussing dating again after his breakup)

But, to make matters worse, not only did this woman flirt with Buck and ask him for his number while he was on his 6-month anniversary date, Buck's boyfriend, Tommy, essentially said, "Nah, it's not weird she flirted with you at our anniversary dinner, and you awkwardly had to refuse her advances in front of me, all while you kept looking to me for assistance getting out of this situation and I just sat here. You're hot, she's hot. It's okay to look." The implication of his "It's okay to look" being that Buck spent his 6-month anniversary dinner with his boyfriend checking out hot chicks (he actually had not). AND THEN Buck said to his boyfriend, "I noticed you didn't look?" (In a way confirming that he was actively checking out women while on a date with his boyfriend, which… is sure a choice. Are they going go full “bisexual cheater” trope next? Oh, wait. They have. The queer characters on this show have disproportionately been characterized as unfaithful.) He mentioned this like he was taken aback that a man wouldn't notice or be interested in the fact that a group of hot women was flirting and sitting diagonally from them (because homosexuality doesn’t exist—oh, his boyfriend, slightly affronted, tells Buck “I’m a Kinsey 6”). Diagonally, but still across the room from them. She had to bypass several (het) couples having dinner to ask Buck for his number. Because two men having dinner-- just them-- are obviously available, unlike the other m/f pairings, who are clearly on dates.

Because yeah, yeah. Two men at their 6-mo anniversary dinner go to gawk at hot women, I guess. That's totally what queer men do on dates with each other. M/F pairings are on dates while the two men are just "hanging out with their boy(s)."

Okay. Poll time. And you can only vote if you have NEVER EVER watched ABC’s 911.

You and the girls are having a girl’s night at a nice Italian restaurant in LA in the year 2024. Diagonal from you are two men at a table for two looking at each other like this:

…as they have a quiet conversation and finish up their dinner.

[kiwikoopa]

Why is every men's gift guide just whiskey and beard shavers?

[just-here-for-the-moment]

Tell me about Reader who’s only dated assholes (arrogant tech bros, flaky politicians, unfaithful artists, ghosting athletes, etc…) from different walks of life until she meets Frankie 👀 maybe pure FILTH ensues after a while, maybe… 👀 like. Pure fucking nasty filth. Also, beaches. 😊 maybe not at the same time tho sounds painful tbh

Ok this may have ended up softer than "filthy" but not by much!! Hope you enjoy Frankie and his magic hands, dude. Those Hands

Word count: 1200+

Rating: explicit, 18+ only

Outline: Frankie Morales x “You” (cis/het female reader, “blank canvas”/no physical description/no name/no use of “Y/N”)

Warnings: coffee shop meet-cute; beach vacation; oral sex/F receiving; vaginal fingering; P/V sex; shower scene; mentions of food and alcohol

It was the hands you noticed first. Work-worn and calloused, but somehow also soft-looking. Big hands, nice hands, they held the door of the coffee shop open for you to enter as he left, and you almost tripped over the threshold with how distracted you were. You didn’t know you could be attracted to hands until you saw his, but somehow they were different from the soft, manicured hands of all the men you had dated before. Guys who only worked at keyboards in nice offices, who played golf or maybe drew sketches for upscale galleries, guys who didn’t mow their own lawns. Guys who got bored and left you after five days or seven weeks or four months. You hoped you would see him again.

And a week later you did, and then a few days after that, and then again the next day. And then one day you timed it just right, or he did, and you actually ended up in line together. And when you both picked up your orders, you ended up sort of fighting to give the other person the last open seats, a little two-top table, until you both just laughed and decided to sit with a stranger. Well, a nice stranger anyway. And there’s no way to sit at a tiny 2-person table like that without talking, and so it was very nice to find out that the pair of nice hands belonged to a nice man who finally gave you his name, and by the end of the conversation, his number. And so that’s how you ended up with ‘Frankie Morales’ listed in your phone and a date for the following Saturday.

And oh, wow, what those hands could do. Over the next few weeks you found out how warm they felt holding your hand, how well they fit around the side of your hip as you walked, how good they felt cupping your jaw for a kiss, and how thick they were when he slid them inside of you while he worked magic with his talented tongue.

Weeks turned into months turned into a year, and then suddenly there was an anniversary weekend to plan and a beach vacation to arrange, and you found yourself laying on a white sand beach holding one of those big hands in yours as you napped under an umbrella. You were just drifting off when Frankie’s big hand gave yours a squeeze. You cracked your eyes to watch him walk away, because you never got tired of that particular view, the broad shoulders and the golden skin and the easy confidence he carried himself with. Your Frankie.

And then he came back and offered you a cold drink and you sat up and brushed his fingers with yours as you took the cup and smiled at him over your sunglasses. And when he smiled back little stars burst behind your navel, better than butterflies because the starbursts were backed up by 365 days of knowing what those hands and lips and body could do, to you and with you and for you.

And the afternoon passed in lazy naps on the beach blanket interspersed with squealing moments in the water, Frankie splashing you or carrying you piggyback into the waves. And one big wave knocking your sunglasses loose into the water, lost forever until Frankie gives you his to wear, and tells you how cute you look with his big aviators on. And then the sun sets and it’s time to go wash up, have a romantic dinner, take a bottle of wine back to your beach view room. And when it’s dark you turn off all the lights and let the moon stream in through your open balcony door.

Frankie takes his time with you that first night, working you open with his lovely soft lips and tongue, licking and swirling you up into knots of desire until his fingers push you over the edge and you burst into pieces, moaning wordless sounds into the salt-scented night air that’s rolling through the room. And then he does it again, one more time just to feel you squeeze his fingers hard before he strokes himself and slides into you with hardly any friction at all. You cling to him with your arms and legs wrapped as tight as you can until he chases his own high and pins it down inside of you, thrusting into you and releasing his own deep groans, then making you sigh with contentment as he tucks you under his big arm to sleep.

The second day passes in a blur of laughter and a boat trip, sightseeing and catching a few precious glimpses of dolphins, and then more beach time and dinner. And another long night of lovemaking in your room, but this time with Frankie taking you on your hands and knees, feeling him pound deep inside of you, hitting that ticklish spot over and over as you gaze out the balcony door over the moonlit ocean. And then again at 1:00 a.m. when you wake up and feel Frankie’s cock hard against you as you snuggle, and you shift your hips back into him, and bump him playfully until he wakes up. And then you straddle him and he cups your breasts with those big hands as you grind against him and make him moan in the near dark.

And you wake up the next morning and he’s absent from the bed, but you hear him in the shower and you sneak in to join him. And Frankie puts those hands to good use one more time, scrubbing your back and rubbing suds all over you, tip to toe, and then rinsing you off before he makes you come on his fingers. He wraps you tight with your back to his broad chest, one big hand under your ribs and the other rubbing tight circles into your clit and dipping up inside of you by turns until you collapse and shatter for him and then come back to yourself. And then you kiss him and tell him you love him and he says it back, and you know he means it.

And you wonder how you did this before, without Frankie. How you put up with the arrogance and the dullness of the disinterested men that you dated. How you ever believed that they were worth your time. Because now you see it, the way that Frankie uses his hands and his whole heart to love you. How he listens to you and sees you, how you won’t ever be alone as long as he’s there.

And you dress and go down to breakfast and intertwine your fingers with his beside your orange juice, and you lift his hand to yours and kiss his magic fingers one by one. And he just looks at you, glowing at you like you’re the sweetest thing he’ll ever see. And then he tells you how soft your lips are, and how much he’s looking forward to tonight. And you tuck into your breakfast and you swear nothing has ever tasted this good in your life, because you’re finally with the right person, and that makes all the difference in the world.

--- Frankie "Catfish" Morales character masterlist Just-here-for-the-moment’s main masterlist

The only tag list I have for fics: @quica-quica-quica @anaaaispunk @justanotherblonde23 @gracie7209 @nicolethered @honestly-shite @driedgreentomatoes @dihra-vesa @1800-fight-me @the-queen-of-fools @juletheghoul @kesskirata @honeymandos @silverwolf319 @mourningbirds1 @greeneyedblondie44 @spacedilf @maxwell–lord @anxiousandboujee @cevvie @sherala007 @writeforfandoms @libellule2001 @deadhumourist @mandoalorian @javierpinme @eri16 @mandocrasis @pilothusband @bastillealmighty @eri16 @jitterbugs927 @babiiface95 because Frankie!!

[alexturne]

1, 14, 30, 41, and 18 (for 'sit next to me before I go') for the fic asks? 🥰🥰

1. What fic of yours would you recommend to someone who had never read any of your work? (In other words, what do you think is the best introduction to your fics?)

I've already answered that here 😊

14. Are there any tropes you would only read if written by a trusted friend or writer?

Also answered that here 😘

18. If you wrote a sequel to [insert fic], what would it involve?

Hmm, I don't know about a full sequel, but I was contemplating writing an epilogue to under these lights you look beautiful which would feature us returning to the bar one year later. And it would be Miles up on the stage this time singing a song for Alex, on their anniversary of finding each other, him being the one to proclaim his love in public with a super sappy love song, and it would just be the fluffiest romantic mess you can imagine.

I've still got the draft lying around for it somewhere, but I don't think it'll ever see light of day. It ended up too soft and sappy, even for me 😂😘

IM DUMB! I only just realized you had specified which fic this was regarding, so apologies for just picking one 😂

If I was writing a sequel to sit next to me before i go I'd probably include something about how they deal with moving from friends to lovers on a daily basis, how they incorporate each other in their life on tour, maybe both of them following the other on theirs and them trying to figure out how to see each other as often as possible whilst still getting to do their thing. I'd also try to maybe make Alex be the one being sick and Miles having to look after him 😂 And I'd definitely have something about them looking to find a new place, something that's theirs where they have space for all the dumb shit they've accumulated over the years 😘

30. Have you ever written something that was out of your comfort zone? If so, what was it, and how did it affect your approach to writing fic thereafter?

Hmm, I think maybe you just ain't the one for me is the most unlike my other works in terms of pov and general content. It's an "outsider's" perspective and it's not often I write a het pairing even if it is brief. I practiced how to write from the pov of someone I'm not super familiar with and who isn't part of the pairing. And it was such a different character to what I'm used to, and it opened me up to allow myself to write a bit more freely. Helped my allow my characters to be more flawed, fleshed out and essentially a little more selfish. It broadened my horizon of what can make a character act a certain way and helped me see new opportunities. Very enjoyable actually.

That fic also helped me be less perfectionist about my work, and to have more fun with it. Just to go with it if I had an idea and be less critical. And not care as much if people didn't like it 😘

41. Link a fic that made you think, “Wow, I want to write like that.”

Oh, SO MANY! I'm inspired and impressed by so many writers, and we as a fandom are very blessed with the quality of work we got from amazingly talented writers. Luckily everyone has their different strengths, and I feel like my style fits me rather well. But I'd love to still improve and get better at it, as I see myself as a rather noob writer still 😂

Examples that come to mind are:

The Book Club by @girlinthepictureframe - especially chapter 15, which features a bit of the most delicious tension ever. That moment haunts me and I love it, and I hope to one day be able to capture something as good as that! Their stories are some of my all time faves and their writing is just immaculate in every way.

An evening in London by @richiebrook is also one that I admire a lot, the writing is the most beautiful, the way it captures atmospheres and feelings weaved into one. Beautiful and poignant, an example of how to say more with less, and how to do melancholy in the most beautiful fashion.

No one belongs here more than you by @stereobone is also an example of something so gorgeously poignant, so few words that say so much. There's an amazing naturalness and ease to this one that I really enjoy! It took my breath away!

Also everything written by both @yellowloid and @elorianna inspires me to no end. They're just incredibly talented writers in all ways and I adore their work so so so so so so much!!

Thank you so much for these lovely questions!! ❤️❤️❤️

[bihansthot]

I had rough times and deleted everything on my phone to feel a bit better. Just downloaded tumblr few mins ago and instantly I got the notification of your post. Damn I missed out what happened lately… first of all I know your bday is passed but still HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Second: CONGRATULATIONS!! That’s a big thing actually but people have different opinions and reactions to stuff so I don’t wanna be all negative about what just happened and your HUSBAND? When did that happened, I feel like I’m in the movie interstellar. Love you and I hope you feel better soon! 🤍🤍

You know I’ve been awful at responding lately when I missed two bday wishes and my bday was over two weeks ago. I’m so sorry it took me so long to get back to you as you probably know my life has just been medical chaos lately.

We sat down and had a good talk about it and it turns out I had totally misconstrued what they meant and I got upset for no reason. My partner (I’m trying to be better about using this term instead of husband now because they are nonbinary) explained that they very much wanted to celebrate my transplant anniversary with me and that I deserved that and reassured me that they were just in a bad head space at the time because they had been so worried about me lately with all the medical problems and hospital visits. I had no idea they had been so worried and stressed out about me because my partner has high functioning autism and adhd so they have a hard time expressing or showing emotion, so we agreed to try and be better about letting one another know when we were worried or anxious.

The current plan is we’re going to go to Las Vegas the weekend of the 25th of Aug and my actual transplant anniversary is the 25th. So it works out nicely for time off purposes for them that it’s on a Friday, I really want to go to the Bacchanal Buffet and Din Tai Fung and stay at the Luxor but everything else is kind of up in the air. I’m really proud of myself for making enough mental progress over these last few years to finally enjoy and celebrate this huge milestone, I may still hate the fact I had to have a heart transplant in the first place but it’s the reason I’m still here and dammit I’m going to eat some amazing food, get drunk and play slot machines because I’ve been through a shit load and deserve a celebration. I also want to honor and celebrate my donor though because without them I wouldn’t still be here and they are no longer with us, so I’ve decided to stop being a sad miserable, depressed, pitiful creature and live life for both of us. It took me a long ass time to get out of the self loathing, wanting to end everything pit but I finally am happy with life and happy with living so I’m going to make sure they get to experience that too in whatever philosophical way you want to interpret that.

So, for clarification sake I’ve been married to my then husband now partner for over 10 years now, we started dating 17 years ago and have been together ever since. I just don’t talk about them or being polyamorous too much because I see a lot of hate towards nonbinary people and polyamorous people, to clarify I’m AFAB personally gender fluid though I lean female and use female pronouns, I’m also pansexual if anyone was wondering but prefer men. My partner is AMAB, bisexual, nonbinary and uses they/them pronouns and I’m super proud of them for discovering who they are, because it hasn’t been easy for them. My boyfriend on the other hand is AMAB uses he/him pronouns and is very heterosexual but isn’t a cis het douche he’s all for trans rights and a good guy all around. So to summarize I’m polyamorous and have a partner of 17 years and a boyfriend of almost 9 months now. Both relationships are going very well and my mental health has never been better.

I hope your doing better my love I know you mentioned you went through a rough patch and I hope that’s all over now. I’m sending all the love.

[alltheselights]

I find that thread about Harry and his “day collar” interesting specifically because it got so many likes and the majority of larries are praising and calling out people who find it weird, i just think it’s interesting that they are saying that the thread isn’t speculative but informative and that the kink isn’t speculating about his sex life ( how that makes sense I’ll never know) i know for a fact that this would not be accepted another way around and it would be especially called out of a het Harry made a thread about how Harry is in regards to kinks. It truly is astounding to see but I am not surprised to see all the big larries supporting in in the quotes and seeing nothing wrong with it.

the double standard in this fandom is truly wild to watch! these people flip out if a het harrie calls harry sexy or say anything sexual about him whatsoever, but this is the type of thing that they’re doing.....and most of them are WAYYYY older than harry and openly speculating based on CLOTHING and ACCESSORIES. and when they claim it’s just informative - oh, okay, so do you also speculate about your friends and family members? your friend who wears scarves and is in a relationship, do you say that’s a day collar? your mom who every day wears the same necklace your father gave her on their 10th anniversary, is that a day collar? no, it’s not, and you would never dream of saying it was even though you actually know those people personally. but for harry it’s okay because that’s what matches their sexual fantasies about him.

oh, and forget about just het harries. if someone did the same exact thread but applied it to louis, they’d also be furious and screaming about sexualization, fetishization, and whatever other word of the day they choose.

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

Does anyone think the United States will exist as it does today in 2026?

That's the semiquincentennial, our 250th anniversary, and I honestly do not know if the country will make it there in one piece. 2024 is going to be a DISASTROUS presidential election, with multiple state governments already promising to interfere with any results they don't like, and I just KNOW the military is gonna tie itself up in some new overseas bullshit we don't belong in because America doesn't "do" the whole peacetime thing. Our economy is built on war, half the population base their entire political identity on war, so the absence of war will leave those nutjobs itching for a fix, like addicts in withdrawal. Things have only gotten worse in the last year, when everyone was expecting it to magically get better once Trump was gone, and no matter how dee we plunge I just don't see rock bottom coming anytime soon.

The judiciary has shown itself to no longer be independent and impartial. We knew this was coming, but the fact that the Republican Party now openly runs on a platform of packing the courts to het favorable rulings is despicable. And they PROJECT, every single horrible thing they do or plan on doing, they project it onto their opponents. They will admonish the Democrats for something they don't plan on doing, then turn around and do exactly that thing; they call all their shots, they're an open book, they have no poker face and yet we're powerless to stop them. It's an ego thing, they get off on being cruel and rubbing our noses in it. I WISH the Democrats were as radical as the Republicans claim they are. If the Democrats did half the things they were accused of, the Republicans would never win another election.

I'm surprised there haven't been more assassination attempts from either side. Tensions are so high, politicians are so divisive, our culture is so polarized, I'm amazed we don't hear of crazed gunmen going after senators and judges every day. It's a powder keg waiting to go off; once one gets taken out, all hell will break loose as both sides race to take out the other before the powers that be can step in to stop it. If someone killed a right wing politician, do you honestly believe there would be no retaliation? I could see a left winger getting shot and no one giving a shit, but a right winger getting shot would lead to all out war, I'm sure of it. Double standard. Establishment Democrats would trust the justice system to work it out through long protracted legal channels, while Republicans would take matters into their own hands and start picking off opponents one at a time. Tit for tat.

I wouldn't doubt it if 2026 saw a rise in right wing extremism. All the nationalists would be empowered by the anniversary, especially if they took back power in 2024 and appointed a couple extra Supreme Court justices (let's be honest; Breyer is gonna end up being Ginsburg 2.0, retiring or dying with a Republican in office. Thomas claims to be in for life, he's got a good 15 or 20 more years left in him, but I have a feeling he'll retire like Kennedy once the Republicans get back in power, replaced by some rising Nazi starlet who is even more conservative and less impartial than he is).

We need judicial term limits. Not mandatory retirement ages, actual set term limits, because if you require justices to retire at age 70, all you're gonna end up doing is incentivize the parties to start nominating younger and younger justices. If they HAVE to retire at 70, why would you ever nominate someone over the age of 60? We'd start seeing justices in their 40s, maybe even their 30s, newly barred lawyers who've never heard a case but promise to vote however the party wants them to for help rest of their lives. No, what we need is to stagger the seats so that one retires every two or three years, ensuring that there's always fresh blood being injected into the justice system, new voices who know they can't just sit pretty forever.

We need Congressional term limits too; maybe 2 or 3 for senators, and like 5 or 6 for the house.

We need a whole slew of new amendments. Hell, at this point I'd say we need a Constitutional Convention to rewrite the whole document from the ground up. Fresh start. The old way isn't working. Other countries change their constitutions all the time, so why do Americans fetishize theirs as though it's somehow special? It's built on the will of the people, and people's wills change over the centuries. 27 updates in 250 years is far too few.

[werenewromantics]

where is the het explanation for this???

“I would fall from grace just to touch your face / trip of my life / daisy” 

the daisy doodle matching exactly karlie’s ig pic of the road trip

“where should i take my wife for our anniversary?” “you should take her to big sur”

“call it what you want to” 

"your lover in the foyer doesn't even know you"

“wear you like a necklace” “lipstick on your face”

“our secret moments in a crowded room”

wearing the bi flag on her head

the entirety of: this is what you came for, betty, seven, how you get the girl

[to brendon] “everything that makes me, me: [...] gay pride, country boots, riding a unicorn etc”

 “pining and desperately waiting [...] i don’t want you like a best friend” “only bought this dress so you could take it off” (her female lover is taking off the dress taylor bought for her)

dress live being dedicated to Loie Fuller

kiss gate

wearing a bracelet that says ‘proud’ with the bi flag colours on them

toe timeline never matching up with the het song narratives 

ALWAYS wearing rainbows in mvs/live performances

“cross your heart, won’t tell no other” “so you won’t have to cry or hide in the closet and just like a folk song, our love will be passed on”

“we’re a crooked love in a straight line down”

“too in love to think straight”

“all the rumours are true”, “most times, but this time it was true”, “the rumours are terrible and cruel but honey most of them are true”

bridges where she would use female pronouns "she is the best thing that’s ever been mine”, “marry me, juliet” 

THE THIRD POLAROID 

I know places

saying in an interview that breathe was a “really sad break up song” (x) (0:36) and then later saying it was about a “friend”

the riptide cover which she said she changed to be from a female perspective

2016 glaad award to ruby “She tells the world that no one can judge us and no one can stop us”

“that she never loved me” video with clear proof “i want her midnights”

jack antanoff saying he prefers to work with gay women when being asked if he’s going to have a conversation with taylor about the dude’s shes been with over the weekend (x)

“you’re so gorgeous / i’m so curious” “i have a boyfriend, he’s older than us, I haven’t seen him in a couple of months” “if you’ve got a girlfriend, i’m jealous of her” / “there’s nothing i hate more than what i can’t have” 

“we are alone with our changing minds” “curious minds” / “switch sides like a record changer” “jet set bonnie & clyde til i switched to the other side”

OG Love story lyrics “this love is different, but it’s real”

garden gate pictures with karlie 

saying that ‘The Man’ is about her life as it is now but how it would be depicted if she was a man and then proceeding to have the lyrics “getting bitches and models” 

“i loved you in spite of deep fears that the world would divide us”

“your love is a secret I’m hoping, dreaming, dying to keep“

“you showed me colours you know i can’t see with anyone else”

“the rest of the world was black and white, but we were in screaming colour”

“I loved you in secret, first sight, yeah we love without reason”

“Put your lips close to mine as long as they don’t touch”

ANYWAYYYY. I’ll wait.

[freakygirlie]

also on the topic of sus: jared said this year was the first time he spent ja's bday without him...okay then what happened to your aNnIvErSaRy TrIp every year, since that and ja's bday are so close to each other? + that whole thing was so poorly conducted 🤦🏻‍♀️ if that was a genuine j/g trip he wouldn't have gone literally for one day to a whole another state (coincidentally the state JA was in lol)? they randomly do trips that last weeks but then out of nowhere this one 👰🏻‍♀️ lasted 1 day?

First off what I want to know is that if Jared and Gen had an anniversary trip, where are the pictures??? We know that they(being Gen, PR) would never pass an opportunity to promote the het image and they’ve never failed to make an anniversary picture before. This year’s post was a picture taken long back.

You’re right about the one day part. Most Jared/Gen trips last longer, but Jared went for like 2 days and came back......also around the time of Jensen’s birthday??? Not to mention that slip up in the virtual con, which so clearly just says that Jared was with Jensen. Again, I’m saying that Jared could have gone alone, but Gen went with him so it wouldn’t look sus and anyone seeing them would think that they were here for their anniversary rather than Jensen’s birthday(funny how the trip was to the same state Jensen was in too...:)

The whole thing is highly sus anon <3

[zafirosreverie]

Hey, I hope this is cool Zaf but I wanted to talk about my Lesbian coming out/experience if anyone was interested. You can totally ignore me if you want though, no judgment! I've been out for 2 years now (my coming out "anniversary" is officially this Tuesday).

There were actually a lot of signs that I was a Lesbian growing up that no one picked up on, including myself, like lying about liking boys/male characters (prime example: Tarzan when I was smitten with Jane), and I always "crushed" on the most popular boy in my grade. I actually didn't know that girls could be gay till I was about 11 (I had gay family friends who I refer to as my uncles, so my parents just kinda thought since I understood that men could be gay, I would pick up on the fact that women could also be gay. I didn't).

I first started questioning my sexuality in middle school and identified as bi because I told myself that it was "ok to like girls as long as I still liked boys" (comp het). I also thought that my crush on Bill Weasley from Harry Potter and a few other male fictional characters were valid reasons that I was bi/pan instead of a lesbian. All of that was rooted in my own comp het. (liking unattainable men can mean you are a lesbian)

I'd also like to add that my parents are fortunately very progressive and never made me feel like I had to be with a man. However, whenever I imagined my life married to a man, even if he was a good guy who loved me, I just feel trapped, scared, and generally terrible, which is something my parents would never want for me. This idea that I still had to like boys if I wanted to like girls was made all on my own and it only applied to me, and I now realize it was serious comp het.

My dad was actually the first person to tell me "Hey, I think you might be gay." I was identifying as pan at the time and somehow got on the topic of dating a boy while we were in the car one day. I told him that I would date a boy, but I don't think I would want to kiss or do anything else with him. Just hold hands and cuddle. At that point, he explained that he thought I was gay and I kind of figured it out from there.

Now, two years later, I understand my relationship with my sexuality and choice in a possible partner way better, and I know what would theoretically work for me in both romantic and sexual relationships. If you still feel stuck, I would also recommend reading the lesbian master doc, which I linked. I know it sounds cliche, but I read it after coming out and it really helped me to understand my relationship with men, myself, and male validation. (also note, you can be a lesbian and still want validation from men. We live in a society that teaches young girls and afab people that we should want male validation, so wanting that validation is totally natural)

That's all I have to say off the top of my head, but if anyone has other questions, my ask's are always open. It's important to me that people understand themselves and embrace who they are since I know what it's like to be confused about all this 💜

This is wonderful dear! Thank you so much for sharing it with us, I'm sure this will help a lot 💖💖💖💖

Also, do we have a party this Tuesday or what?

[enchanted--roses]

New OC

So this is one of my Plot Bunny that actually became an OC. I stop watching Arrow around the end of the second season but decide to get back to it after the last season (i relly wanted to know the end) By doing this i got the idea of Natalee stuck in my head until i put her in word... Hope you like her!

Natalee Ariel Queen -> Jenna Coleman (Arrowverse OC) -> born May 16,1985 -> Paragon of Loyalty

(I know Jenna is younger than Stephen, but since they gave Oliver a birthday in May 1985 and Jenna was born in April 1986, I’m making them twin 😀 )(Some of the story will be a little bit against Laurel, i don’t hate her like some Olicity shipper seems to do, but since i never really like the actress my problem with the character came from that and how some of the stories portray her. So for some part of this story she will be more “bitchy” than the show, only for a small time) (Tommy will also be different, more mature)

Natalee Ariel Queen, second child of the Queen family, born mere second after her twin brother. Those two will always stay close, never completely moving away from each other. Despite the fact that they were very different from each other. Oliver always acted like a spoiled child and made a lot of problems for his parents, while Natalee never acted like that and could have been seen as the perfect child. At seven she will meet and befriends Tommy and later Laurel and just like it happen for her brother those two will become her lifelong best friends well at least with Tommy it will be. At one point she will meet Sara Lance and despite the fact that Sara was younger, they will become best friends, like another sister. They will always tell each other everything, the only time Sara will hide something to Nat will be the fact she was sleeping with her brother. When Oliver disappears, she will feel her world crashing around her, in one breath she will lose her brother, father and her best friend, it will be Tommy whom will help her go through everything, having himself lost Oliver he will understand what she’s going through. Laurel will separate herself from Natalee thinking that her friend knew about Sara and Oliver, even if the young woman tells her time and time that this was the only thing she never knew. As the years go by, she will finally decide to tell her mother about her plan of not working for the company and het choice to become a journalist. Moira will not understand but seeing that her daughter needs to have her independence and will leave even without her accord, she will give her part of the company which Robert had put in an account that he made sure only Natalee will be able to touch knowing his daughter better than his wife. The young woman will then buy a loft in town, leaving Moira and Thea in the manor. She will also pass more time with Tommy and will fall in love with him, even though he will sleep with Laurel, Tommy understanding quickly the mistake he made and seeing that he had falling in love with Natalee will make his move two years and a half before Oliver will be found on the island. They will begin their relation in the biggest secret not wanting bad tongues and journalists to get involved in their relationship.  Despite the fact that they are trying to hide the nature of their relationship, they will not accept any offer to go out with other people, surprising many who saw Tommy as a womanizer. This relationship will change the way of life of the young man who saw what being independent and having their own job can do to a person by looking at Natalee, who seemed more confident and happier. He will find himself a job in management and will work in different nightclub and restaurant to bring them on top, knowing how rich people think. Natalee will be extremely proud of the way he was changing his life around, seeing the man she always knew he could be. To get people out of their space Tommy will be acting around people as the “trustafarian” he was before, using the trust fund his father got from him to pay every excess and the apartment, but having in secret another bank account in his name. In September 2012 as they hear the news that Oliver is found, they will decide to hide their relationship from him, Tommy not wanting his best friends against him, since he slept with Laurel, before beginning a relation with Nat and her cause she will not want him to think Tommy took advantage of her during his absence. 

When her brother came back and decides to become the Arrow to fulfill their father’s wish to clean the city, she will decide to become a vigilante herself and help her brother, having discovered his secret fairly quickly, it was fairly easy to figure out since the Hood appears right as Oliver came back. Being an expert swordswoman, she will become Gladius fighting with swords instead of arrows like her brother, surprising Oliver who didn’t know his twin was able to fight with swords. She will hide for a little bit the fact that she was fighting with the hood from Tommy, before going clean not wanting to put their relation at risk, he will be against it a first but will understand she needs to do it, even if he doesn’t know the whole story. As the sibling crusade advance, they will meet Felicity Smoak, Natalee will adore her, finding her way to be amusing and a breath of fresh air and will laugh seeing her brother surprise by the blonde personality. She and Tommy will finally tell everyone of their relationship when Laurel tries to mess with all of them to get a reaction from Oliver and Tommy wanting both men in her life. Oliver seeing his sister with their best friend will be angry at them for not telling him and more at Tommy for sleeping with Laurel before moving on his sister, he will be a little less angry at his twin not able to live without talking to her. This reaction from him will make Tommy separate himself from his brother of heart sooner than when he found out about him being the Hood in canon. Finding out about Oliver will make Tommy understand why Natalee helped the Hood (yes, he will find out sooner than canon). When they found out that Malcolm cut Tommy from the trust fund and took back everything from him, they will decide that now they were living their relationship in front of everyone it was time to move in together staying in the apartment of Natalee, living together will force Tommy and Oliver to see each other since Oliver could never stay angry at his twin. Having no choice to talk to each other for the sake of Natalee, they will mend their broken relationship and they will decide not to talk about the vigilante life, still not in agreement about what they were going. Oliver will ask Tommy to take care of Verdant having heard about the job he was doing in the shadow. The couple will stay together proving wrong to everyone that was giving them not long, especially Laurel who was still trying to have Tommy seeing him in a new light. They will celebrate their three-year anniversary not long before he dies trying to save Laurel, to help Nat and Oliver, who even thought were angry at the young women will never want her in peril, he will call them and left them running to stop the undertaking. After seeing him die in her arm, she will lose herself falling into depression for months reliving what she had experienced when the Queen Gambit drown. 

Her brother as he comes back from Lian Yu, with the help of Felicity and John will do everything to show her she is not alone and help her, she will come back gradually to herself, but angry at Laurel putting the blame on her for being in danger in the first place. Knowing full well that the young woman had nothing to do with Tommy’s death and she was just at the wrong place at the wrong time. She will try to help Oliver take care of the company and Thea now that their mother was in prison. As the Hood reappears she’ll be asked to do a story on him, she will refuse and ask to do one on the apparition of the new vigilante The Canary. As she tries to find information on the new vigilante, she will discover things about her that will make her question what her brother told her about the island. She will find before her brother who is under the mask of the Canary. As she sees her late best friend, she will be upset having believed like everyone else that her best friend die when the Gambit drown. She will also be angry for a small time against her brother finding out that he knew she survived the Gambit, but will forgive him finding out he thought her dead too since he saw her falling from another boat. The two girls will try to mend their relation and come back to being friends but after everything that happens Natalee was not sure they can come back to being best friends. She will quickly realize that Laurel is drinking too much and that she is taking a lot of anti-depressants, she will try to help her by making her face her demons, Laurel still angry at her for being in a relation with Tommy, will tell her that she was just a replacement in Tommy’s mind for her cause he could not have her and he never love her. Natalee will tell Laurel that nothing she says will ever make her doubt’s the feeling Tommy had for her and when she’s ready to believe in their friendship again she will be there. She will tell Sara that she should try to help her sister and rebuild the relationship she had with her family. Meeting Barry, she will rapidly think of him as a friend and someone she can trust. Those two will stay in contact even after he left Starling City to go back in Central, he will be one of the few to tell her to do an article in other cities than her, telling her she needs to travel and stop being stuck in one place. In December 2013 as she is visiting Barry and searching information for an article in Central City, she is too struck by the wave of dark matter of the S.T.A.R. Labs particle accelerator explosion. They will call her brother since she was not in contact with her mother anymore, he will fly to Central City to bring her back to Starling City. She will be one of the lucky ones that will awake really fast, that accident will make Laurel realize that she could lose her friend without ever saying how sorry she was. This will push Laurel to go and see Nat who will forgive her easily knowing that this day will happen. They will at this moment try to mend the friendship they lost when the Gambit drown.

As she gets back to live normally and go back to being a vigilante, Natalee will soon find out that she is not normal anymore and is now able to manipulate water, not wanting to be a burden for her brother she will try to get control of her power with Barry and the rest of team flash help. She will decide to change her codename to Aquae, finding that Gladius was not her anymore. When Slade decide to hurt Oliver and will kill their mother in front of them, she will decide to go against the men herself, but her brother will stop her not wanting to lose her, having lost too many people. Together they will fight Slade and his men and will emerge from the battle triumphant and will decide to have a normal life. Well, as normal it can be when you are vigilantes. When her brother tries to have a relationship with Felicity, she will try to finally date herself, thinking that Tommy will want her to be happy. She will finally accept a date from one of her coworkers and friends Ethan Nash (Ben Barnes). After that first date, she will decide to try and have a relationship which will last until a couple of months before Crisis. Meeting Ray Palmer for an interview after him buying what was left of her family company; she will find him intelligent and friendly but will keep everything professional and decide to give the rest of the story to Ethan.  As they found out about Sara second death, Natalee will lose it and try to find out who did the murder and why. When they found out that their sister Thea did it, Natalee will be angry for her who will always remember what she did, and be angry against herself. When Ra decides to give an ultimatum to her brother and seems to kill him in a battle, she will find solace with Ethan and the rest of the team. When she sees Laurel try to take up the mantle of the Canary and became the Black canary, she will be proud of what her friend was becoming against Diggle and Ray wishes. She will also be happy to see Felicity letting herself go and accept for a little bit Ray advance. As they win against Ra’s al Ghul, she will see her brother finally be happy by leaving with Felicity. Felicity being her best friends after all this time together will tell her that maybe she should think about herself for once and not the city. After that talk she will leave the vigilante scene telling Diggle and Laurel that for once since they began all this, she can have her own happiness, and move in with Ethan.

As Ethan and Natalee get used to living together and being a full-fledged couple, they learn that Laurel and Thea have gone to get Oliver. Natalee will wonder whether or not she too should start her vigilante life again, Ethan knowing that the woman he loves would do everything for her brother tells her to go help him. With her boyfriend being OK with her fighting, she will tell the team Arrow that she is back. When she found out that Thea and Laurel brought back Sara with the Lazarus pit, she will be angry that they did something so stupid. But wanting to believe her friends can really come back she will try to help them. As Damien Darhk begins to attack her brother, she will stick by Oliver. She will try to send Ethan away not wanting him to be hurt, but he will just look at her and tell her that he will never leave her. As she finds out about her nephew William, she will ask many times that Oliver tells Felicity the truth but he will always say no, she will decide to stay by his decision having faith in him and not wanting to lose him like she lost Tommy. But she will tell him that whatever happens between him and Felicity she will never take sides, but some of their decision will upset her. As her relation improves and she begins to become friends again with her, Laurel is killed by Damien Darkh in front of the rest of the team. Not wanting to be in Star City for a time she leaves with Ethan accepting to write a story in Paris, coming back when she learns from Felicity that her brother was alone to fight for the city. 

She comes back to Star city to help Oliver, Ethan will join the team as a new recruit, he never told Natalee that he was a martial art pro and that he would be useful to them. They will work together with the new team and do everything for the city. She will be promoted to the redactor in chief when hers leaves to stay with his family. As the time advance, she will not be really close with the newcomer of the team especially Rene with whom she will always clash. When the Dominator attack, she is sent just like her brother in a false reality where she is married to Tommy and she is on vacation in Star City for her brother’s wedding. She remembers part of her real life when she meets the Ethan of this reality whom since they never meet was at the reception as a journalist. Remembering her life will make her understand that even though Tommy was the love of her life and the man she will always love; Ethan was the person send to her to make her love again and will not leave without him. As they come back, she will tell Ethan that she loves him and was sorry that she never told him enough. As their fight against Prometheus becomes more and more intense, they will have a point of happiness in their life as Ethan and Natalee get married. But their happiness will be short-lived when they discover that Prometheus knows everything about their lives. Natalee will also discover that Felicity works with Helix and will tell her that if she does not stop, she will force her to do so to protect their family who do not trust this group at all. When Adrian Chase kidnaps the majority of the team and their close friend, the Queen twins will take desperate measures by recruiting Slade, Nyssa, and Merlyn. Unfortunately, despite the fact that they will win the confrontation, William will lose his mother and Thea will lose her father. 

After the events on the island, Natalee and Ethan will decide to stay away from the vigilante world for a while, preferring to live their lives normally. They will take back their costume during what they will call Crisis on Earth-X to help their family. This new cooperation will make Natalee and Kara become good friends. She will also get closer than she was already to Barry and the rest of the Flash team but she will regret not having too much time to know all of them well, still having a crisis to manage. After the crisis they see that there are some tensions in the team, Natalee and Ethan will then decide to stay to reform the Arrow team. Taking up the place that Curtis, Dinah and Rene will give them by forming their own team. Natalee will be the first with Quentin and Ethan to believe that the Laurel of Earth 2 has changed and really wants to stop Diaz. As they tried to stop him once and for all, Oliver promises to get himself to be arrested if they can let him continue the battle, sadly that day they will suffer a loss that will upset them all, they will lose Quentin who will die of the same style of injury as his daughter before. Natalee will then promise her brother that she will look over Felicity and William. She will even force her sister-in-law to tell her where they are in hiding. As her brother is in prison, she will continue the vendetta against Diaz with Ethan’s help. She will want to have nothing to do with the person who was supposed to be on their team and will stick close to Felicity and strangely Laurel with whom she will form a strange friendship, both having to forget the other version of the woman before them. When Oliver was sent back home after five months in jail, she will welcome him with open arms and said that she missed him more than she could imagine that not having her twin with her was too weird, putting a smile in Oliver’s face. As the events of Elseworlds unfold in front of them, Natalee will know that her brother and Barry are in the other body just because of the way they act. As they find out about Emiko, she will begin to think that all her life was a big lie and everything she knew was not real. And that maybe everyone was right the Queens was responsible for a lot of problems for the city. Unless her brother she will want nothing to do with their new sister and will make it clear she doesn’t trust her, but she will stay close to her brother. She will also keep working with the team from time to time but will take more time to work at the journal. When her brother and Felicity leave the city for a small cabin to live there, she will make them promise to keep her in their life. In the flash-forward, we can see that Felicity keep her promise and keep contact with her, Natalee will actually be the only link Mia will have to Oliver during her childhood. She will be able to tell her story of the Queen family and how close they were before he disappears. When Mia will go to Star City and meet her brother and the rest of the team, she will appear before them to help since she will call her. Mia and Natalee are so close that Nat will decide to stay in Star City for a time to help her godchildren with their mission. 

Back to the present Natalee will be with John to find Oliver and take him back to their universe. As she sees the version of Tommy from earth-2, she will see how much a small change in history can actually change their life. When they run to try to escape the antimatter she will be tempted to take Tommy with them, but won’t do it. At they come back to their time, she will announce to Oliver that Ethan died a couple of weeks after he left with the monitor, they were working on a new mission with the team when he was shot, and die from his injuries. Oliver will be sorry for not being there for her and will promise that if he can he will be there for her in times of need. When the kids from the future arrive, she will be the first person to whom Mia will open up seeing that even in the past her godmother is the same and will understand her. They will actually be so close that they will train together, making Natalee use swords again after years without using them, relying on her power more than she should. When they found out that Lyla is working for the monitor, she will be angry but will say that Lyla probably have a reason to do this. As the Crisis advance, we found out that she is the 8th Paragon, the one of Loyalty, making her laugh thinking that she was becoming one cause her brother died and they need a Queen in the Paragon. At the Vanishing point, she will try to help Barry and be there for him feeling as lost than him. Proving the reason why she was chosen at the Paragon of Loyalty, cause even though everyone was miles away from their Paragon characteristics she will stick by her and be loyal to her friend. As they got into the speed force, she is thrown away to the time of Tommy dead, Barry will find her and makes her remember that she is need and to come with him. On Maltus she will fight the demon and help the other Paragon before seeing her brother die and create a new universe. She woke in the new world with a big headache lost about everything; she will try to understand was happening since all was destroyed and will decide to find the team. As she leaves she catches a picture of her and Tommy at what looks like their wedding. She will look at the picture a moment before leaving for the Arrow cave, where she will understand her brother didn’t come back like them. After their battle with Beebo, she will tell Sara that she was still seeing her as who she was before and will continue for as long as she lives. When they finally win against the anti-monitor, she will decide that she was leaving for real the life of vigilantes/heroes, and will try to live her life. That night as she comes back home, she will be nervous about what was waiting for her home. At she opened the door, she will see Tommy waiting for her in the living room. Seeing him alive and not a fragment of her imagination will make her run to his arms. The young man knowing what happens to everyone will just keep her close to him, and will tell her everything that happens between them since he was alive. In the new universe they stayed together through everything, and while she did meet Ethan they became best friends the three of them. Some of the things stayed the same about how she became Aquae and how Ethan died, but a lot have changed, like her mother being alive and them having a good relation. But she knew that she will need more than one night to learn everything. She will be happy to see Mia again, but knowing how the young woman got her memories back she will be angry at the responsible. When Felicity will reappears and they will do one last mission together, she will see that she missed her best friends more than she could imagine. At Oliver’s funeral, she and Tommy will be seen sticking together and the young man will support his wife as much she will do the same for him. In the flash we see Natalee and Tommy leaving their apartment for a bigger house and Nat look pregnant. 

Ethan Nash -> Ben Barnes(Arrowverse OC) -> born June 22, 1982

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Ahh shit I have a giant feeling that Shinkane will end in tragedy with one of them dying (Kougami), Akane holding him while tears fall and she screams. Or both will die and I hate this. God why do the writers hate fluff and het ships ;A;

Hi, anon. First up, where is this negativity coming from, dude? No one hates fluff or het ships, my friend. What the writers and the fandom are interested in is a well-written character moving through the story. And we have two of those with Shinkane. So put that aside and enjoy the ride (nice, that rhymed) and see where it goes!

Now, I don’t know if either of them will die. I have a feeling that if the original writer were in charge, Akane would probably die and Kogami would have The Sads and live like a monk for the rest of his life. To extrapolate on that:

Akane, in her last act of rebellion, does something to reveal the system to Japan / the world, and Sibyl, likely not knowing she’s being recorded or whatever, kills her. But the Truth is Revealed and everyone suddenly has to deal with the consequences. Except for Shinya, who after Akane dies builds a book fort and never comes out again, except for when Gino comes knocking on the anniversary of her death. Just to dig it in further.

Or, Shinya dies. Akane, now with the Truth Revealed and free, subsumes herself in her career and visits his grave weekly. She and his mom become closer friends and talk about their memories of him, maybe with Gino, over tea. 

Neither live. Both die in an Awful Blaze of Glory which does at least Reveal the Truth to Japan. Only Gino remains to tell the tale. Jeez, no problem carrying that weight, right, Gino? He visits their graves while he hunts for Dime, who is also MIA.

Both live! They get married and live in a house in the countryside and maybe have lots of babies, now that the system is gone. Everyone comes over for lunch, including Uncles Gino and Sugo, making this one of the most well-defended spots in Japan during that time.

So, it can go lots of ways, anon! Sit back and see where the writers take us. And if they do both get killed off, at least we have wonderful fanfic and lovely fanart and excellent fangifs to ease the pain.

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is it too late to do reputation discourse??? im doing reputation discourse.

...ready for it? says the subject is a "killer" and she "wonders how many girls he had loved and left haunted", despite toe never having a serious girlfriend before 👻

end game says the subject has a "big reputation" and she has "heard about you" despite toe being very, very unknown upon their meeting (and that anonymity is allegedly why taylor wanted to date him, so...which is it?); later a post that noted she was wearing a nude lip despite the lyrics saying "here's the truth from my red lips" so she was lying, and taylor liked it 💋

i did something bad says the subject a "playboy" despite allegedly being super in love with her last two beaus; she also says she "let them think they saved me" so the listener must assume taylor is describing herself as not being invested in these relationships ✈

don't blame me says taylor was "toyin' with them older guys/ just to play things for me to use" despite allegedly being super in love with her last two beaus; she says she "would fall from grace" which according to the het narrative implies she'd be willing to be a cheater to be with toe 😇

delicate says "do the girls back home touch you like i do?" despite toe never having a serious girlfriend before; she then pretends "you're mine, all the damn time" which is contradicted by the aforementioned lack of his previous romantic ties, or that taylor couldnt be with him right away because it was too soon after her previous relationship which means in the brief one month gap between dumping tom and dating toe she began at least sleeping with him which means she did not care about tom enough to need time to recover (despite later saying she has made up her mind she's better off being alone) (and despite liking tom enough to date him instead of toe even though she allegedly wrote a whole song about being taken with toe immediately), OR that taylor cannot be with him all the time because she is with someone else - making her a cheater 🦋

look what you made me do is excluded for obvious reasons

so it goes... says "all eyes on you, my magician/ all eyes on us" despite keeping their relationship secret until after reputation was done (since papa swift said reputation's release was put on hold because of the trial) so how could she have written those lyrics before they were true; "gold cage, hostage to my feelings" the only imagery used by taylor about a gold cage has a negative connotation as she is a prisoner of one in lwymmd 🐦

gorgeous says taylor was still dating cowpatty "and i got a boyfriend, he's older than us/ he's in the club doing, i don't know what" when she met toe and wrote this song about how enchanted she was with him despite dating tom immediately after cowpatty; why would taylor date someone else if she felt that "you've ruined my life, by not being mine" and "there's nothing i hate more than what i can't have", implying she was emotionally cheating on tom basically the whole relationship, and then immediately hooking up with him after that relationship ended so she did have him and that contradicts the latter lyrics; why should toe "think about the consequence/ of you touching my hand in a darkened room", since no one will see anyway if it's dark, and it would only be bad if she was dating someone else and was cheating; why would taylor think "if you've got a girlfriend, i'm jealous of her" but then say "but if you're single that's honestly worse" because why would him being available be a problem especially if him having a girlfriend made her jealous, and then also she...went and dated someone else 🥃

getaway car says taylor "didn't mean it" and "i wanted to leave him/ i needed a reason", meaning not only did she actually not like tom but was using him to leave cowpatty; she frames the end of the relationship as "i was cryin' in a getaway car/ i was dyin' in a getaway car" implying it was very hard for her to do so despite the contradiction in aforementioned songs implying she either didn't care about the relationship, was emotionally cheating, or only using him to get away from her old boyfriend 🚘

king of my heart says "i'm perfectly fine, i live on my own/ i made up on my mind, i'm better off bein' alone", despite dating both tom and toe immediately after the previous relationships; "we met a few weeks ago" if about toe the met gala was months ago at that point, unless she wrote the song during her relationship with tom, again making her an emotional cheater 👑

dancing with our hands tied says "i, i loved you in secret/ first sight, yeah, we love without reason" but then proceeded to date someone else and implying she harbored secret feelings for him through another relationship; the entire story of the song also doesn't even really make sense when taylor has said it was written and recorded in january 2017, long before the relationship went public, but if the song is saying the fame ruined their relationship there is no public incident between october 2016 and the song's completion so what is even being talked about here, why would she not be able to dance with him again💃🏼🕺

dress says "i don’t want you like a best friend" but after allegedly being close with taylor since may toe did not know what greys anatomy was in november 2016; she says multiple times throughout the album their relationship is a secret, even in the first verse of this song singing "they've got no idea about me and you", which completely contradicts the line "everyone thinks that they know us", and the song was completed before the relationship went public 👗

this is why we can't have nice things do is excluded for obvious reasons

call it what you want says "so call it what you want, yeah, call it what you want to" which doesn't super make sense because why would anyone want to call it anything other than a romantic relationship 🔥

new year's day is implied to take place on said holiday, meaning it was conceived on january 1st 2017, so taylor made the decision "you and me forevermore" about two months after they began dating 🍾

bonus: in taylor's cover of september, she changes the song's original date to "the 28th night of september", placing an important time stamp on that date for toe, however if that date was in 2016 and is their allegedly anniversary as many have assumed, that would mean they officially began dating within the same month of her breakup with tom, which would also make the king of my heart lyrics of taylor deciding to be alone absolutely impossible, and also brings into question the subject of multiple other songs that our allegedly about toe when the timeline of the evidence of when their recordings took place and the relationship beginning are not possible 🎼

[blackberrysmol]

"I'll need that soul, you know"

I don’t really write a lot, haha- I just really wanted to write a small story because it’s Orion’s 3-year anniversary tomorrow 

Summary: Orion and Phantom's first meeting, just because.

Total word count: 393 words

Credits: Phantom by @missmorena707 // Orion, and story by me.

It was a normal morning, really. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary at first. The voices in his head did not want to quiet down. This connection with the dead was a chore all on its own, they would always plead, it would be loud, but he had grown accustomed to the usual prayers. 

Please, please bring me back to life. You have the power. You have the power, right? Het me a new body, a new soul. Please, I want to live, I want to feel, this is torture.

But then... It stopped. 

This confused Orion, after all, it never stopped. The voices had never gone completely quiet, there had to be a reason. So naturally, Orion went on to search. It couldn’t be far, could it? It shouldn’t be. 

Peeking around a tree, he saw... Him.

He was a skeleton, tall and lean with your typical alabaster white bone, but with the most peculiar eyes. Silver, yes, almost white in coloration, with what looked to be a cat’s sharp pupils, he seemed to have the most piercing gaze, as if he was searching for one’s weakness. A small crystal hung around his neck, blinking invitingly to Orion in the low light, a stark contrast to those piercing eyes of his.

Though the thing that was most notable to Orion was the mask, black like his own skin, sporting a silver plate, shaped much akin to an eye. 4 small, tooth-like silver decorations dotted the bottom of the mask as well. And though the mask was beautiful, what interested Orion most was what could be hiding beneath it. A scar like his own, perhaps? Or maybe it was just a choice of fashion, but the thought still had him curious.

The scene in front of him, however, was less than pleasant to look at. A human lay motionless on the ground, chest carved open wide and still-fresh blood splattering their clothes. Judging by the way the skin folded outwards, they must have been stabbed from behind with... A rather large blade, actually. Confusingly enough, though, the murder weapon was nowhere in sight.

Orion then turned his eyes to the skeleton, who was crouched, looming over the body with the soul in hand. He let out a quiet sigh, deciding it was about time he spoke up.

“I’ll need that soul, you know” 

[jstcz]

Returning with Twilight recs

It’s been 9 months since the last time I posted any recs and I’m coming back with a Twilight post. Ah well. This is my personal recs blog, so it kind of stands to reason that I’m only catering to my own whims.

Last week I noticed that Twilight was trending on Tumblr, and after my brain sort of rebooted, I figured out it was the 10 year anniversary since the release of the first movie. It led me down a bit of a rabbit hole of consideration and fic hunting.

My relationship with Twilight is a bit like my relationship with junk food. It’s not good for me, but I’m gonna eat what I like and no one’s going to tell me otherwise. There’s something a bit self-indulgent in wallowing in the whole thing. I can’t bring myself to re-read the books, but I’ll still pull out the movies when I want a good veg-fest.

What follows are some my favourite fics from that flash in the pan moment in my fan-ish history. Not a single canon ship in the bunch, all either het or femslash. Mostly wolf-pack related. Bella was my Twilight fandom bicycle. Quality is pretty subjective, please refer back to my junk food analogy.

Sublimation by sfiddy - Jacob/Bella

Jacob and Bella fall in love, delaying the phase, but the pack has to fight the danger lurking in shadow. Bella finds the strength to grow, and mends the damage done to her relationship with Charlie. Wolf-centric, Cullen friendly. Rated for a reason.

Better Now by orphan_account - Jacob/Bella

Charlie got Bella the professional help she needed when Edward took off. Now Edward's back - and she's different. AU New Moon - after Volterra - and Eclipse. Mostly in-character, Edward's not villainized.

The Movement of the Earth by audreyii_fic - Jacob Bella

Jacob imprints on Bella. It changes things. A re-write of New Moon, beginning on page 242 in Chapter 10: "The Meadow."

The Two Hundred and Seven Days After by monroeslittle - Jacob/Bella

Jacob imprints. This is the aftermath.

Moonshadow by chef diamond heart - Jacob/Bella

One of the very first Jacob-Bella fics! What if Edward kept his promise and Bella never heard from the Cullens again? Jacob was more than willing to console her, would she have the sense to let him? Just a nice love story - with monsters. Rated at 108 degrees. Initial story in The Moonshadow Continuum, where the love continues ...

Boys with Girlfriends by audreyii_fic - Jacob/Bella

A boy gets dumped by a vampire and a wolfgirl tries to cheer him up. A genderswap rewrite of New Moon and Eclipse.

Through The Window by lifelesslyndsey - Sam/Bella

If I imprinting was less about finding that perfect some one, and more about finding that some one who makes you perfect, you never know where you might find it. Love might bring out the best in us, but first it brings out the worst. 

Hurt by Mrstrentreznor - Sam/Bella

MA AU. What if Sam's wolf didn't like Emily? What if the wolf had attacked her, just after they imprinted, in an attempt to make her go away? What if an imprint abused the imprint bonds and ordered the wolf around? What if the man was forced to go along with it all?

Holding Sam by orphan_account - Sam/Bella

Sam saves Bella when she gets lost in the woods. She returns the favor in more ways than one. A romance set in AU New Moon.

Never On My Mind by lifelesslyndsey - Paul/Bella WIP (probably abandoned)

'Forget about it Paul.'The order took hold. It wasn't instant; Paul's natural inclination to fight all orders wouldn't allow it to take hold in a snap. It crept over him instead, stripping away what choice he had as slow as honey. One minute life was all about her. The next, it wasn't. This is a story of how Paul imprinted. Again. Again. And again.

Be Liked Water by taoist elf - Paul/Bella

Starting with the slap in the movie and spinning a twisting, intense, and psychologically-driven tale. Imprinting, but not the usual way: it's complicated.

Miror Quaenam Sis Tam Bella by orphan_account - Paul/Bella

Paul stops Bella before she can jump off that cliff and ruin her life. Complications ensue.

A Murmur of Fire in the Vein by ElleCC - Jasper/Bella

One stormy Seattle night, the last person Bella expects to see appears without warning at her door. How will history—hers and his—impact their unexpected and growing friendship? AH, Bella/Jasper. Winner 2010 Bellie Award for "Edward Who?" category.

Bonds of Blood by someryn - Jasper/Bella

Jasper's control slips when Bella bleeds on her birthday, but he's not the only one. In the distraction, he gets to Bella, but he pulls back in time for her to become a vampire sooner than anyone had planned. What no one ever told either of them, though, is that sometimes a link forms between newborn and sire, and it can break all other bonds…

Torn by MrsBiteMe - Quil/Bella

"A friend is one who comes in when the whole world has gone out." - Grace Pulpit. When Jacob ignores Bella in New Moon she develops a friendship with Quil. They become close, and then he, too, makes the change into werewolf.

My Perfect Match by blueboardchick - Jared/Bella

Jared never complained about becoming a wolf. He accepted his changed fate, but he felt as if something was missing. Jared sees Bella upset in the woods through Sam's mind, now Jared can't seem to stop thinking of the girl the vampires left behind.

humans are just like that by alligatorblood - Rosalie/Bella

Rosalie takes one look at Bella Swan and goes "hmm I like that."

Simple Kind of Life by jenasys - Leah

Leah Clearwater never liked Bella Swan. So when she goes to the bonfire on First Beach and imprints on her-Bella, Edward, Leah and Jacob get thrown head first into a world of drama.

Flying and Flocking by peskiwhistpaw - Rosalie/Leah

How two lonely, broken, wild things of the woods connect with each other and rediscover their humanity.

all the lambs grow fangs and hunt down the lions by SearchingforSerendipity - Gen

The first time Dr. Rodriguez uses the words emotional abuse and manipulation andcontrolling boyfriend, Bella freezes. The second time she runs away.

The third time she stays, and breathes, and listens.

Bella Swan, embracing humanity one year at a time for a decade.