#and i miss yapping with u guys :’)

[mblue-art]

I want to see more your selfship arts 🥹

🥺 hey, u, anon. thank u, i appreciate u and this ask lots very much <3

here's crumbs of me and red ft. that ok-lala meme/trend 🥺

extra under the cut <3

"It is so silly, I can't believe- hey, are you still listening?" "yeah,"

[cowboyweevil]

hrmmm

[sabh0]

Meursault skk come back please.... i miss the sillies sm...... also why do we just move on from everything they do there like,, asagiri what were those two gay ahh speeches about. Destined to what. Show me Chuuya bandaging Dazai's wounds after Fyodor left. Also did Dazai know from the beginning or did he randomly realize when he didn't die in the elevator. Can dazai finally take the antidote and be fine, it makes me so anxious please. Also aughhh skk just being stupid why would these two just throw sigma to the floor 15 times before going hmmm that aint gonna work. Also dazai rolling on the floor and chuuya being like oh boy not this again. Asagiri. Please.

[lynn-tged-posting]

so i've been working through the tged webnovel (really, really slowly) (but im getting there!) (it's been REALLY fun i love their banter so so much i wish there was more of it in the webtoon)

and i keep thinking back to chapter 43, where lloyd is surveying the wetlands and arcos comes with him

i don't really have much new insight, i just think about their interaction in this chapter a lot, especially since it's one that doesn't show up in the webtoon adaptation

arcos going out of his way to spend time with his son, and making him a lunch that he knows his son loved, all as an unspoken apology

because "how could he", right? how could a father hate his son and only start to love him again when success has been found? that's so haunting to realize; that someone you loved so much, someone you raised and nurtured, someone you knew the favorite foods of and why, could become someone you hate. and then, the son you once raised, the son who became a stranger, went and grew up without you.

did i give up too soon? did i abandon my own son? ... what kind of father does that? ... right?

and so he does what he can to offer repentance. he takes time out of his day to engage with what his son is doing. he shows that he still remembers his son, the boy who would rather eat boiled eggs and tomatoes over any other dish. he offers it all in a basket, carrying the love he feels he should've given to lloyd a long, long time ago.

... and it's not even the original lloyd frontera who receives it.

we don't get to know what suho is thinking in this moment, but i think his silence speaks volumes.

... because "how could he", right? how could this fraud in another man's body accept this silent apology that isn't truly owed to him? this man, this baron, this father, is asking for forgiveness when he had every right to be angry with the original owner of this body. and he doesn't even realize, because how would he possibly know his original fate? only you do.

this wasn't meant for me ... right?

but suho doesn't reject him, either. he doesn't interrupt arcos, he doesn't leave. they sit together and eat boiled eggs with honeyed tomatoes in silence.

it makes me wonder what suho is thinking about, what he's feeling, what he's remembering...

because (and call me crazy, call me speculative) heaven knows the love language of an asian parent.

here's some cut fruit. here's your favorite snack. here's dinner. i've brought it here to you.

you're working so, so hard. i'll support you, i'll be here. don't worry about anything else, just keep growing.

i love you, i love you, i love you, attached to every plate.

"this was your favorite food when you were young. ... i should have given you as many boiled eggs and tomatoes as you wanted."

and again, it's a little bit of speculation from me, but i think that's why suho doesn't say no, why he lets arcos make this apology. it's a piece of what he misses most.

and so they both leave a little bit healed. "the basket was lighter on the way home. and albeit very slightly, their steps became lighter as well." it might not have been between the right souls, but it's a weight lifted nonetheless.

... all this to say that i am absolutely MOURNING that this didn't make it into the adaptation!!!

i understand that with comic adaptations, there are going to be some cuts to ensure pacing and workload stays reasonable, but this would've been absolutely devastatingly emotional (/pos) to witness visually,

because what would lloyd's (suho's) face look like? what expression would he make, can we visually see how he feels? and arcos, what does he see when he looks at his son? fatherly love and solemn regret, painted all over his face, what does that look like to the adapter? to the artist? to us?

and in general too, we lost the characterization and relationship of arcos to suho; i really, really wish it made it in :(

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[ping-ski]

not enough people talk about "dont turn the lights off" ngl. this song + the daycare theme song have been ON LOOP for me. on loop while i draw. on loop while i do chores and cook. on loop while i work. on loop if i need to concentrate on something- no ANYTHING. it's such a comfort to me. this song has a DEATH GRIP on me. WHIMSY UNMATCHED. you don't understand how much this song fuels me to keep creating DCA content for myself ohhh my god.

"lights on" doesn't even compare for me (WHICH OFC i like the song + with the recent release of "best friend" im still giddy)

which, i feel the need to add, this song is pivotal for my motivation to write EBY (wip dca fic im working on rn). like idk i feel invincible when this song plays ig lmao.

[mason-ajar]

(crawling up from the earth) HEY BEYTUMBLR. idk why i have completely ignored posting here despite havjbg been super back into beyburst this last couple of months ? no beyburst post on here since (checks calendar) APRIL LAST YEAR ?? insane… ive seriously lost my edge 😖😖 i have been posting sm more on twt idk why 😭 anyways dump of whatever i could find while scrolling through my camera roll LOL

free my girl. i missed drawing her MUAH (also a vauge redraw of this post) (fun fact, both were made in 30 minutes !)

shuvalts ? if u giv a damn ?? (they are vaguely holding hands) (if u can tell) (drawn with platonic intention but can u romantic i suppose) (if u so wish)

hey so. (grinning maniacally) do you remember my daina & the sword flames au. guys im cooking up something SWEARRR depending on my motivation and availability this comic will get done soon

when u see MY shu kurenai. just know he is a nic addict. a fiend !!! that boy loves his pink lemonade vape, please dont seperate ! (idk when this hc started but i think its hilarious and its one of my favorites)

and just. various doodles from church LOL (all shu ofc damn 😖😖😖)

[screampied]

BOOP MEEEEE

[tetzoro]

how it feels when everyone is busy but i wanna yap

[aezuria]

i miss my mutuals

[sainns]

blondgyu is Life like hello he's so mine. anyways announcement please read if u care about Me 🤗

okay so hi. since it's one day past when i said i was coming back i wanted to come and say why i will NOT be back.

"why aren't you coming back omg wdym" "anna why are you dead hello" "i thought it was sainns active era" "why isn't anna answering her fucking messages i've been on delivered for 2 weeks already this stupid ass hoe"

well good questions. turns out i hate high school and being a senior is going to be the absolute end of me 😥 either that or school lunches. anyways i am very busy (unemployed) and tired— i go to school, go to senior activities cos i'm milking the fact that i'm Alpha at my school, go home and nap, take a shower, do my homework, then sleep.

i am chronically online guys. my daily average on my phone is 1hr and 20mins. this is absolutely insane for me. I'M CRASHING OUT!

so yes i have NOT answered anyone which sorry for that guys... i only answer my mommy's texts now... plus i'm drained from socializing so much at school cos i am not used to talking to anyone other than my three friends Erm

hence why i will be STAYING on hiatus for a fat minute, i may (HEAVY on the may) drop a secret project (smau) i'm working on so look forward to that as soon as i finish all the chapters (if i ever have time)

but yes very sorry for dying and staying dead :P this is anna from the afterlife and i love you all and i appreciate you guys waiting for me (don't unfollow i'll cry)!!!!!!!!!! okay another sorry to the mutuals i talk to in dms for not answering i'm sick in the head i will answer you as soon as i feel Free again.

tags (people i have ignored plus others idk).

@hyeinism @jlheon @junislqve @fleurre

@jjunae @isoobie @dioll @boyfhee

@zhounauts @en-gelic @nishibons @bywons

[talkshowboyluvr]

hyperfixations ending and a new one coming in is crazy why'd i go from treech to michael james way Like That

[sandwhitches]

this is out of context on sight yn in the latest chapter

[repcnt]

Hey fellas…. Who wants to hear about my mem of doc and his ex wife? No one? It’s whatever cus yer gunna hear it anyway.

Before i get any questions, yes doc, MY DOC to be specific, had an ex wife. How’d i remember her of all people? Funny story actually,,

So I was in his office, botherin him as usual. Sittin on his desk while he was doin some paperwork and whatever. There was a like a pic of him and a woman framed on his desk. Asked em who the lady was, said it was his ex wife. I remember gigglin when he said that cause golly i could not see that man with a woman. But he looked a bit sad, cause he was starin at me for a while,, i obviously stated it out sayin sum like “hey doc,, yer starin again.” Thats when he responded with sayin you remind me of her. I just remember feelin a bit off, and sick from that a bit. I don’t know why though.

Drawings of what i could at least make it from it:

[verdemint]

Anyway after listening to the podcast i can really say most of u were not there in 2015 esp valencia 2015 coz how could u take marc side after that day?

Anyway, vale u can do no wrong bestie, keep going, keep yapping u do deserve it 🥰 delulu? So what?

[togament]

little bibi update!!!

I’m on a trip atm and i might not be able to respond as quickly to DMs or make longer fics ;; i so very tired. hhrhrkgktr i miss interacting with you guys already!!!!!! As always, thank you for the little tags and comments you leave on my stuff. I read through them and hope my virtual smoocheroonies would be felt through the screen. I’ll respond to them once i get my brain juices replenished.

BUT!!!!! If you wanna yap about stuff or suggest any headcanons (omg I’m itching for new “how would he _____” prompts!!!!) drop them in my ask and I’ll get to them eventually :3

Ily babycakes.

[bywons]

me when a gc dies