#and i just have to say it's pretty ironic that the 'specialist' was the one who had the most unsatisfying response

[quelsentiment]

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[jams-sims]

Last night was a fucking fever dream. I laughed so hard until I cried and I woke up with a massive headache.

But I'm finally able to talk about what the problem is and people have already picked it out. Mainly when it comes to the red team.

They took a group of rper and forced them to play RUST, if you don't know what Rust is. Your YouTube algorithm isn't fucked like mine. It basically a game where no one wins. The whole point is that you build a base you farm materials for your base and you raid other people for their materials. That it's there is no end goal, but people sweat at that game.

An that's what Purgatory is, instead of each team going off to build multi bases, they have one home base. Instead of setting spawn points they only get one spawn point. An when they die their stuff stays on their body for anyone to take just like RUST.

The problem is they want player conflict, and for it to be something different and new unlike the leisurely life they led on quesadilla Island. They want that conflict that beautiful fitmc, where he turns back into the hardcore 2bt2 player and now that just everyone's problem.

I'm specifically going to look at the red team because they decide to put all the Lore heavy people together and they stuck survivalists with non players/builder. Charlie, Jaiden, Baghera are all pretty casual players. An Carre is never coming back after yesterday, if he does hell has frozen over.

Now I can take or leave whether the red team is cursed or not. I'm sitting directly in the middle of yeah it would be too obvious that red is cursed. Cause they legit have admin fucking with Philza. To it would be ironically funny if it was just the red team. Philza being the one to make the team curse cause the narrative has been beating his ass.

Anyway- the first thing that would have to be changed is the system of which people gain point. They want conflict, fighting is the best way to do that. Make it so killing people is gives you more points. But in turn you have to turn up the specialist factor so people don't just go on manhunts. You have to make it so if you are gonna go out into the world to kill. The world has to be beating your ass to make it fair.

This is the only way you can allow survivalist characters such as Philza and Cellbit to survive is by forcing them to make homes and equipment to survive natural disasters and other players. An you gain more by adventuring around as well. Movement should be awarded.

It's no longer race to the top of a volcano to turn in quest. It's now, race to the top of a volcano while it's erupting, to turn in quest to get equipment.

This allows players like Baghera, Jaiden and Charlie to focus on more homestead task. Building, food supply, and mining material. To make it so that if you can't turn in a quest you aren't fucked. I'm assuming the admins want NO working together with other teams. They want them to suffer thus we gotta rearrange with that suffering means.

For instants: If you build a base whether that be underground or not. You can be subject to raids, which means you actually gotta plan and hide your shit. If they find it oh well.

Your base can be destroyed but hard to craft items such as let's say enchanting table and villagers are a no go you can not take them or destroy them. Anything that would destroy a player morale shit like that is a no. We want it to be something you can work back towards and think about how do we make this thing better.

Natural disasters are more common than the minor problems, the your inventory moving on it own is less, and your controls swapped are less. We change that too, every 2 to 3 hours the weather changes. And it stays that way for the next 2 to 3 hours. In game or out would be up to the admins.

Task still exist, global still exist, but now it's a race to the top. The only time you can turn anything in is during a Natural disaster. Once a player picks something up. From their turn-in they become immune to damage certain amount of time. Then it's a free for all but that gives the turn in team time to run.

An once they enter their base they are considered safe. You have earned supplies for your team, immunity from raids and a shit ton of points. That's for the team who turns it in first.

Player can still turn in task and earn suppliers. That supplies is limited but even if your last you still get something.

How do you stop people from camping someone base or Gobal.

Easy, immunity for the team to do turn in first last the whole day until the next day. Where it loses its effect, that gives the team time to move their shit if they so wish or be ready to defend.

Global is even more easy global is locked until it is time and 2 if an admin catches you camping any where near it. You get one tapped don't be a camper.

How to stop people from camping others bases. (I think that just falls under don't be an asshole. An maybe making a shield around the spawn point with an area of effect could also help.)

I didn't want to complain and not give like legit fixs for the problems they have. Cause it's one thing to scream and say stuff is broke and it's another to actually come up with ideas to fix it.

[the-obnoxious-sibling]

brilliant minds locked-in syndrome guy episode let’s gooo

it may be fandom-brained of me to think it, but the first roman flashback had me thinking “are these guys about to fight or kiss?”

i was wondering how they were gonna get this patient’s consent to be involved in the study, given the givens—gotta say, i’m impressed with how close to my real-world experience of the consenting process it went!

another bit of real-world accuracy: the hospital administrator more excited about the study bringing attention & funding to the institution than what it’ll do for the patient 🙃

really enjoyed the palliative decision-making discussion. some investor may see it as a waste of a surgery, but ericka was absolutely right that the patient’s autonomy a) was the point of the surgery b) needs to be respected. ignoring his wishes would make the surgery a waste.

oh shit, my first thought was right? 🥺 on one hand, tragic foreign gay can feel overplayed—yes, we know, it’s not safe to be queer in many places—but this is a kind, queer show, i want to believe they can do this earnestly and sympathetically.

wolf with tears in his eyes seeing them reunite??? 🥺🥹🥺 i love him

aw, wolf. you gotta respect his wishes, man!

“you saw me when no one else did. which is ironic, because they tell me you can’t see faces. and because it seems like you don’t see me at all anymore.” he’s seeing the gay happy ending, he’s seeing love and hope, and—forgetting that there are other considerations.

carol and nichols reemphasizing the point ericka made earlier makes me pretty sure i know how this episode ends. wolf be professional! you can cry in private about it later!

(show interrupted by an ad for an aldis hodge-led crime show? also starring isaiah mustafa?? a shame it’s based on patterson novels, i don’t really enjoy his style.)

augh, dying with dignity, dying at home—i get it, but wolf deciding to make this happen at his home is very… wolf of him.

jacob! you can’t just ask a man whether he’s ever let anyone into his heart! that’s rude!!

ROMAN SHIPS WOLFNICHOLS??? W H A T

(also: “carol’s not actually that tall she’s just obsessed with high heels” lmao wolf, stop being so funny so fast, i almost missed this one)

not the star map on the ceiling because alex and roman bonded over astronomy 😭😭😭

“my favorites, vega and altair” oh my god, wolf is an unbelievable hopeless romantic

not wolf literally telling the tanabata story, I Cannot

(well, the chinese version, idk that one’s name. google says qixi?)

not higher love!!! i’m gonna c r y

ugh okay, researcher not being informed that their patient is dead is shitty and against protocol (that’s a reportable event even when it’s unrelated to the study device) but this guy having zero concern for the patient in the face of ~proving the value of the work to his investors~ is shittier.

like, have alex say something to the investors if you need good pr. how he spent months in nyc with no idea where roman was or what happened to him, and within a week of getting the chip the team was able to find him, and let them say goodbye. there’s a sob story that’ll make them feel good about how they spent their money!

likewise i see where his mom’s coming from but she cannot keep combining talking to wolf as her employee and talking to him as her son. it’s unprofessional, yeah, and it also makes things so messy. she can’t be surprised that he brings up his father as a gotcha when she does that.

the “privilege” to prioritize the patient in front of him—ugh, shut up forever, he’s a neurologist, not a public health specialist or an er doc doing triage. he’s supposed to prioritize the patient in front of him, it’s not a symptom of his childhood trauma

cringing at the van-ericka scene. felt totally unrelated to the rest of the episode—i went and rewatched the ceiling stars scene on a hunch, turned out i looked away during a ten second shot of ericka looking at jacob and van looking at her. (imo it should have been a longer shot if it was gonna be end-of-episode important.) making the empathic white boy suffer for suffering’s sake… sigh. i am just not interested in this love triangle.

but, talking of love stories i am interested in… we’re really ending the episode immediately after the kiss, huh? okay. OKAY.

[starflungwaddledee]

hii!! i just wanna say your comic and starspeak lore are SO cool omg!! the way you incorporate the essence of the starfolk culture into their language is incredibly creative and very fitting auauagahsahdbsnsnn <3

i'm pretty interested in all the grammar of the language!! i think you mentioned that there's a question particle that kind of works like mandarin chinese, do other final particles exist? little tone indicators in the language seems like it would help mutual understanding between a bunch of mystical star-beings :0

also, if it's been developed yet, how do verbs work in this? granted, i don't know a lot about greek/latin languages or if you're basing the grammar off of them too, but does it lean more towards romance language's crazy conjugations, or a simpler "subject verb noun" structure?

sorry if this is a lot haha i know the language is still a wip, but it's such a cool concept! i think languages are really interesting and the way you incorporate it into kirby is so mmbdbbrnzmxfh✨✨

alright, this one took me a very long time to get to (because i knew it would be long and i've been working on it on and off for a while) and i'm so sorry! thank you so much for your patience veve! and it's been a little while since we've had a starspeak post so let's go!

(i will preface by saying again that the language is still very much a wip which i could change at any time, and that i'm no trained specialist; i'm just doing this for fun and there's a high chance i fully have no clue what i'm talking about 😅)

❓ i'll start with the easiest one of these and go for the question particle!

i think that Celestials are not often doubtful or questioning things, but when they do the particle is an opener rather than a sentence-final (such as ma (嗎/吗) in mandarin chinese). it otherwise works extremely similarly in that it is tagged on to turn a sentence into a question.

so the most common starspeak question particle is tc, almost a mouth sound than a word. the letters are a combination not often used elsewhere in their speech patterns, which i like to think also wraps back around to them being fairly certain of most things they open their mouths to say.

tc is predominantly used when seeking clarification about someone else's experiences, which is probably one of the more frequent times they wouldn't know something in (self-presumed) absolution.

combining it with some other things we've learned; épios (see) and eu (you) we can ask someone what they're seeing presently, where the target of the speaker (eu) is in active possession of the seeing action and vl is an active tense:

"tc vlépios eu?" // "(what's) seen (by) you?" // "what do you see?"

unfortunately in the conlangs current state, moving things around even a little bit throws out the meaning of sentences a lot, which is something i could probably iron out more with significantly more time 😅 "tc eu vlépios?" for example would be closer to "you're seen?" and "tc vlépios-eu?" would probably be like.. "what sight possesses you?", which is... still kind of the same i suppose but it's just an unnecessarily intense way to say it 😂

🥰 okay! question particle done and it was not actually the easiest but anyway; onto the personaliser! "ki".

i'm not 100% sure if this sort of thing exists in other languages or what it might be called to begin researching, but it's ostensibly a way to turn an external item or concept into something internal or individualised

asté (star/s) for instance is a very overused word in their language, understandably. you can use it to refer to gaseous bodies, other Celestials, other non-Celestial beings, or even a specific individual rank within a relationship system. ei asté applies an amount of ownership over the star/s, but still does not make them an individual in their own right. you would most likely use this if you happened to be carting around an actual giant flaming ball of gas

ei astéki however immediately makes the star something more personal, a little soul-deep. maybe it's a warm light inside you, or maybe it's the beating heart of another living being. dropping the 'ei' you could use this as a nickname, though it'd be kind of like calling someone 'person'.

"ei astéki skotei koris eu" // "my stars dimmed lacking you" // functionally just a really big ham "i missed you"

🤏 alright rolling on, last one: a diminutive. this one's easier i think; maybe i ought have started here. oh well!

like it says on the tin, this is to make things small and/or cute! the particle is ró and it is usually tacked on at or towards the end of a word. much like in english i think this is usually done affectionately. though it could be done a little pettily or rudely, being small in size is significantly less of a negatively-judged-concept by Celestials than being low in brightness.

here's some examples, probably the easiest way to go about this one! all of these are actively affectionate, not unlike a pet name?

moiydísró - (small) cheeky one astéróki - small star (personaliser; makes this a clear nickname) ei Vaýtitaró - my little gravity

💬 and then to wrap up, this last part about verbs and conjugations!

answering this one with complete confidence would require that i were a bit better at this and had it more fixed and figured out, but i'll do my best!! i'm not really basing the grammar off any one language in particular (I only use translations to form a rough sound/word and go from there), just kind of what feels like the right sort of vibe.

because i was just doing this for myself and for fun i didn't start out with any rules, just rolled with what i enjoyed! if you were doing conlang more seriously i think it would help to set those rules up at the outset 😅

in its present state, my starspeak seems to me to be a topic prominent language with less individual conjugations and more modifiers; including significant reliance on sentence order and word placement

so instead of having many different words for see (seen, saw, to see) it's more about the placement, word combinations, and other modifiers;

ei épios - me see (a request, often used in place of 'wake up') vlépios ei - seeing by me (active tense added by vl but it's not strictly necessary) eu épios - you see (the speaker sees the target) épios-koris eu - without seeing by you (sight possesses a term for "lack", so the sight itself is lacking. "you don't see clearly", ostensibly.) épios ei prioto - seeing by me before (i saw it earlier)

this is sort of a necessity because right now the overall variety of words is limited; both by the earliness of its development and also because i think that this is a species that might not have needed a lot of words.

maybe they moved the same few hundred words around and minced them up in new ways rather than making lots of new ones. maybe they might have communicated through body language as much as with words (despite how much galacta knight clearly loves the sound of his own voice) or maybe i'll change my mind and they'll be a talkative bunch and we'll have dozens of new words soon 😂

anyway, i hope this is a ~fun and cool answer~ that you will enjoy despite its incredible lateness and sprawling length!! thank you so so much for asking me about the language; as you can tell i dearly love to talk about it despite its nebulousness, and i'm sorry it took me so long to get this out!

[chubsonthemoon]

GUESS WHOSE BOOK ARRIVED TODAYYYYYY SO NOW I GET TO POST PICS!!!!

This is To Hell and Back Again, by dear dear @perexcri. Cover design by @byierficrecs (thank you SO much for letting me use your design!). Binding by me!

I'm not in ST fandom, but I had the pleasure of skimming this fic while I was typesetting, and can I just say? I'm rooting for these kids SO hard. I'd go to hell and back again for them--[GUNSHOT]

But in all seriousness, Leah's writing is whip-smart, sincere, and funny as hell. I cannot recommend it enough to anyone who is a fan of these crazy kids. Her ao3 is a veritable treasure trove of excellent byler stories, which you should absolutely check out right now go do it!!!

As usual, process chatter and more pics, under the cut! <3

WORD COUNT: 144k

FONTS:

Title: Hellprint

Heading/Chapter Headings/Spine Titling: Norwester

C4 Summary: Roboto Condensed

Main Body Text: Garamond

COVER MATERIAL: Epson Premium Presentation Paper Matte, printed on my Epson Ecotank (more on that later baha)

HEADBANDS: Trebizond silk thread in the colors Garnet and Black

EDGE PAINTING: Acrylic paint in Crimson and Black

TITLING: Red iron-on foil for the text and white HTV for my maker's mark. Cut by Charlotte, my Cricut!

BINDING:

This was my first go at a German Bradel binding! I've seen lots of Renegade folks use this method and am so psyched I got around to trying it myself. I modified DAS's approach a bit and tipped on endpapers instead of sewing them in (there were a lot of new things to learn so I decided to shelve sewn endpapers for the next binding XD). I also only had 2.0 mm bookboard instead of 1.0 mm, so instead of layering two of the same boards like DAS did, I instead used one 2.0 mm board and one very thin piece of cardboard to create the groove for the hinge. The original article that DAS bases his video on actually uses boards of two different sizes too--a "thick" board and a "thin" board--but I still want to experiment with DAS's way of doing it, especially since I think it'll be easier to do cutouts on thinner board.

As far as matching the groove with the hinge, I think I did pretty okay for my first try! One board is definitely better fitting than the other though baha. There's always room for improvement, but hey that's where half the fun is anyway (and also you can't tell after the case-in whew), so I'm not stressed about it :D

COLOR SCHEME:

Nearly all of my design decisions for the color scheme were based off of @byierficrecs's gorgeous cover design! They were so generous in letting me use their cover and answering my questions about fonts, for which I can't thank them enough. And with so many wonderful elements to work with, it was so much fun to tease out the elements I loved from their work!

I decided to keep with the theme of red/black, which I also thought was fitting for a ST fic set largely in the Upside Down. Thus, black painted edges with red vines, as a kind of inverted, "upside down" continuation of the cover:

Even the thread I used to sew the signatures is red/black! :3 (please also ignore how the picture of the textblock is not focused on the actual textblock ajsldkfjs it was very late when I took that photo)

COVER PRINTING:

This was my first time printing a cover on my new printer (!!!), and BOY oh boy was it an adventure. Figuring out the dimensions took a second, but not as long as it took me to figure out what settings produced something I was happy with. Behold, all my test prints:

Very long story short, let's just say now I understand why being a prepress color specialist is literally a career you can have in publishing LOL.

Also, for some reason I could only sometimes get the bleed to work? Basically what I ended up doing was painting over the parts where the design didn't quite extend over the turn-ins, using with the same black acrylic paint I used for the edges. You can see this more clearly in the photos I took of the groove, and the endpapers covered the messy bits when I cased in:

THE MAIN INGREDIENT: LOVE

Finally!! The most important part of the process!!! HI LEAH ILY!!!! This fic is special for a lot of personal reasons, but chief among them is LOVE!!!! Your A/N's made me tear up when I first read it, because AH! You read my words of love!!! And went and wrote hundreds of thousands of your own words of love!!! And now I hope I've given that love back once again :3 And on and on we go, ad infinitum, until we are relieved of the curse of literacy and greet whatever comes after all this, thanks be to Todd. But until then, I'm so glad I get to shoot holes out of bagels and scream about radioactive tumblr posts and cry over fake people with you, friend :] Truly, peace and love on FUCKING Planet Earth. We are making it and we will all go together when we--[ANOTHER GUNSHOT]

I'm so excited to see where we're going, and what other stories we have to tell. But for now: EEEEEEEE YOU WROTE A BOOK!!!!!!!

<33333!!!

[animentality]

I'm planning out an Honour mode run(which will also be origin Astarion run) and I was wondering if you have any tips for it? All my characters will be multiclassers and I'm planning which weapons and armor to use, but I'm just curious what someone with probably one thousand hours in the game thinks could help

Ironically, I just this week beat the Honor Mode with a friend of mine, hee hee.

Alright, so here goes!

My Personal Team Comp

Paladin/Fighter (My buddy)

Paladin/Fighter (Astarion at first, Minthara later)

Storm Sorcerer (Karlach for me but it could be anyone, really, I was just trying to get the dating achievement- Karlach is actually a terrible Sorcerer because her race gives her smite spells...which she can't use effectively, as a staff user...)

Ranger/ Rogue/ Fighter (Me)

Reasoning:

Two frontliners is always good, to keep the aggro off of the squishier half of the party. Plus, the melee classes get to hit multiple times, which is just, insanely good, and lets you destroy targets. Paladin is obviously the most broken class, but a Paladin Fighter is a great multi class for Action Surge and Battle Maneuvers! Make sure to grab Disarming Attack and prioritize stealing weapons so enemies can't hit you very hard anymore!

You might want to have some kind of Rogue, for sneak attack, and disengage potential as well! Good for long range picks, and quick killing of high priority targets. Plus, two frontliners make it so you always have advantage.

And you of course need an AOE spellcaster of some kind. I think the Warlock is pretty powerful, mostly because of Eldritch Blast and Hunger of Hadar cheese, but the Sorcerer is the strongest magic caster with all their excellent Metamagic passives. They can also regain a lot of spell slots and have a ridiculous DPS output. But Hunger of Hadar is an excellent spell; it is without question the BEST AOE spell in the game.

The key to beating BG3 in any mode is to make distance.

Force your enemies through tight choke points stuffed with magical obstacles and just pick them off as they try to get through.

Hunger of Hadar is broken because not only are they blind, but they're also SLOWED and you get ADVANTAGE on them when they're in it, AND it does damage, AND as I mentioned before, you can throw them back INTO it when they try to get out with Eldritch Blast, which is also just excellent for throwing enemies away from you.

So Sorcerer or Warlock are excellent choices, but I personally have more of an affinity for Sorcerer.

Now.

Why Storm Sorceror specifically?

Because they get the best passives. People say Draco Sorcerers are the best, but their passive is only helpful early on. The Storm Sorcerer passive lets you cast FLY as a bonus action every time you use a level 1 or higher spell! The disengage potential is critical for Honor Mode, plus it's great for just repositioning whenever you want. Plus you get excellent passives like Heart of the Storm, AND you get immunity to multiple damage types, instead of just one!

Why the Ranger/Rogue/Fighter?

Check out this guy's comp, which I used. It is insanely powerful.

You can dual wield two one handed crossbows, and just SHRED everything you come across.

I was literally playing with two paladins and I WAS HITTING HARDER THAN THEM.

Ranger gives you dread ambusher, then you can hit TWICE as a melee class, which the Rogue doesn't get, and then you can get Action Surge, and do it all over again, PLUS as a thief subclass, you have two bonus actions, for your offhand attacks!

It's honestly broken as fuck, and it's perfect for the long range, disengage potential.

Now you have my suggested comp. Keep in mind that you can have just about anything you want, but remember, two frontliners, at least one magic caster with dps potential, and then the fourth should ideally be a long range specialist.

Now then...

I recommend you pick the Dark Urge.

Why?

For a million reasons.

It is MUCH easier to 1v1 Orin in the end rather than kill the whole Temple and deal with her bullshit Unstoppable nonsense.

You want the deathstalker mantle, which is insanely good for rogues, and everything in general

You WANT To kill Isobel so you can have the Slayer Form, which will get you out of tight spots, plus it makes Orin even easier to deal with.

You also want access to Bhaalist armor for accepting Bhaal as your master.

Also, you want to accept Bhaal so you can get Power Word Kill, a very useful one time use ability, which can uh, hint hint, be used on the Netherbrain to end the game very quickly

You also want to have the Bhaalist buff, which helps you crit more during the final battle.

But this now segues into...

Equipment

Now, if you're the Dark Urge...do not kill Alfira.

Knock her out every day in Act 1 until Quil Grootslang takes her place!

You want the robe Alfira will give you in Act 2 for saving the tieflings from Moonrise! It's called the Potent Robe and it's GREAT for sorcerers! But you can have both it AND the Deathstalker mantle so long as you're vigilant and knock her out every day!

Just be careful, because Arron will kill you if he catches you! So try to knock her out in one hit, if you can. Put the game in turn based mode, if you must! Or use sneak attack.

Other equipment:

Spellsparkler! Insanely broken for Sorcerers and magic missile users. You can use it till the end of the game.

Make sure to get the staff Lorroakan is hoarding inside Sorcerous Sundries! It gives you Kereshka's Favor, which is excellent for Storm Sorcerers.

Also make sure your final feat as a Sorcerer is Dual Wielding, because if you dual wield that staff AND Cazador's staff, you get the abilities of both staffs! You can also use something other than Cazador's staff, and use Arcane Battery twice! So you can cast something ridiculous like, say, Disintegrate, more times than should be allowed! Also, there are like, two amulets and one staff that will allow you to regain spell slots! Make sure to gather as many as you can. Sorry I can't name them off the top of my head... I know one is a pearl necklace that you can buy from Omeluum, one is Caitlin's staff, and the other one you can get from the Warden in Moonrise...make sure to grab them so you can restore spell slots. Oh, also, if you do the House of Hope...you can grab the staff that's in his secret treasure room! Which is also great.

Make sure to buy the Risky Ring from Araj! It gives you advantage on EVERY attack, it just also gives you disadvantage on all saving throws...but if you give it to a rogue, and they have the deathstalker mantle, then they don't have to worrry about being hit ever, lol, plus they have sneak attack ALWAYS. no allies next to enemies required!!! it's a broken item, so definitely grab it from Araj in Act 2!

If you have two heavy armor wearers, use the mold from the Grymforge Heavy Scale mail twice. Make sure to then replace one of them with Ketheric armor later on.

You also want the aformentioned Bhaalist equipment. The Bhaalist amulet is great, as is the Bhaalist armor you can buy from the dragon seller in Sarevok's chamber.

Speaking of Sarevok, kill his ass! You want his excellent sword and helmet.

If you're feeling brave, kill Ansur too, because his helmet is awesome, as is his sword, but be careful! That lightning bitch is an honor mode run killer! I've almost lost two runs to him.

Even though he's hard, I do recommend killing Raphael! The Constitution amulet, the gauntlets of hill giant strength, and the staff in his treasure room are really worth it.

And uh.

Yeah!

Good luck!

Let me know if you have any more specific questions, and trust me.

I know...way too much about this game.

But this is just my starting guide!!

I had a blast in Honor Mode, I bet you will too!

Oh.

And don't kill Gortash. Not because he's my boyfriend or anything, but because, he's not really worth fighting, especially not for the loot he gives you!

If you must kill him, do it at the Morphic Pool instead of Wyrm's Rock!!!

[nozoroomie]

my ps4 controller has shat the bed. While I don't really play any games on my ps4 anymore, it's still great for watching movies.

But finding a new controller or even a refurbished controller for this thing has been so difficult. I try not to shop on Amazon unless I have to (c'mon, we all know why) but even the small gaming shops in my city don't really have anything.

Maybe it's just cheaper for me to buy a bluray and dvd player??

Anyway, more fun life updates under the cut!

We'll start with my health. It's been a while since I've posted about it. In that post I made in April, I made a joke about "probably have to wait until 200 days of bleeding until I actually see a specialist."

It literally did take that long. I was bleeding from late January (around the 19th-22nd area,I'd have to go check my calendar but im typing this in bed and lazy.) until August 9th. There were two very brief breaks of nothing in April and June, but the grand total of days I bled and bled heavily was roughly 180 days. Crazy right? and I met MANY people with uterus' in this time who have had it worse.

I got to go to a specialist on August 6th and then when they tried to do an examination, they couldn't. There's a number of reasons why what happened happened but to put a long story short- my hormones are insane and likely not distributed evenly around my junk, so insertion causes immense pain and they just couldn't do a thing without putting me under anesthesia. Which they did! on August 9th I had a procedure to give me a biopsy, a polypectomy, and then there was one other thing they did -I believe it may have been called a DNC but honestly, they told me everything that happened while I was still under the affects of anesthetic so I have no idea the exact term or how the process goes- but since August 9th, I haven't had heavy bleeding. There's been some minute bleeding that all my recovery paperwork says its normal, but god. The menstrual cramps. The polyps forming and bursting. It's been painful.

The exact diagnosis of my biopsy and examination happens next Wednesday, and there's a few ways it could go over all, but the thing is I KNOW they're going to push the IUD or some other form of Birth control on me because that's what they did the first time I met and had a consultation with them. and with the way my uterus is and the horror stories I've heard about the pain of them and how they're -at most- 5 years of period relief... I'm saying nope. If I have to do birth control temporarily, I'm going towards the arm implant if it's going to be as effective as an IUD. If not? I'm going down the partial hysterectomy route and I'll try to get referred to an OBGYN that will respect that. But things I also had to do for my health while I was just slowly bleeding out and becoming more anemic by the day:

two iron infusions. On the second one they had to send me to the hospital to get an IV put in and then I had to travel across the city to the clinic I got my iron infusions don't at. Most stressful 2 days I've had to be quite honest. They poked me with different needles 11 times until someone finally got the iv in properly.

One of my ribs shifted just slightly out of place and I had to go to a chiropractor. Now I take stretching way more seriously. Folks. if you're not active, still make sure you stretch and you're hydrated. It's fucked.

Chronic fatigue and uterus cramping. if I wasn't at work or doing necessary chores (litter box, walking the dog, showering, laundry, etc.) I was laying down and doing my best not to take too any pain killers.

24/7 bloating. full disclosure- I 'm Fat. before all of this, I was comfortably between 175 to 185 pounds (and I didn't mind! I was born fat, I've grown up fat, it's not something I've ever cared about.) Carry most of it in my stomach and chest. At 5"1 ish, it makes me look pretty chunky. Imagine blowing up around 20 pounds more. at my worst, I was around 215 pounds. My body HURT. I felt like I was a bubble that could pop. I bought work shorts that fit me perfectly at around 185 pounds and the bloating got so bad, the button for the shorts just popped off while I was at work. It was so embarrassing.

Anddd that's the mega long health update.Right now I'm still recovering from my procedure. I have about a week and a half until I get have a bubble bath again and I do see the OBGYN on Sept 4th to find out just what my options are. Some other misc things to tie the post up into a more positive update:

Blue's reactivity is getting better! We haven't met many new dogs but he's getting so much better at ignoring every dog we pass. We do still have to cross the street, but he's more inclined to look to me than to stare down the other dog so that's always great.

Menma turned 12 and she's still on that vet prescribed diet. It's great for her kidneys but bad for hairballs. We're working on trying to get her interested in some hairball relief stuff but the old lady is picky with her food and sometimes she'll touch it, most days she'll turn her nose to it. And work is. Work. But you know how that all is. Capitalism is a shitty thing and I hope we see something better sooner rather than later.

That's about it! Thanks for reading if you got this far. It's storming and I gotta get Blue out to at least try to pee but knowing him, he's gunna protest so we'll see how it works out.

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An Interview with Luce Balton (Verum)

[Part 1] [Part 2] [Part 3] [Part 4] [Part 5] [Part 6] [Part 7]

Year: 2093 (The Robotic Era)

Work, Education and Hobbies + Favourites

Work, Education and Hobbies

What is their current job?

I'm a scientist, Engineer and bringer of freedom… assassin… nice killer… outlaw? I don't know what to call my “nightime job”.

What do they think about their current job?

It's pretty much fun…usually. And often disturbing.

What are some of their past jobs?

I had a farm once. I helped Dethra and Bluctro here and there. But my main purpose was to sell our goods. Still did science besides that.

What are their hobbies?

Training, I guess. We also like to play video games when we have time. I like to read too. Preferably non-fiction.

Educational background?

After I was finished being homeschooled, I basically became my father's apprentice. That's where I learned computer science, AI development, coding and robotics.

Intelligence level?

Considering what I do… I must be on the more intelligent side. Never did an IQ test though.

Do they have any specialist training?

I don't have any diplomas or titles, technically. I had teachers in my life that you could have never found at any school.

Do they have a natural talent for something?

Yeah, science, I guess.

Do they play a sport? Are they any good?

I train a lot and I have quite a bit of experience in extreme sports.

What is their socioeconomic status?

Mine is very high. You could say it's a junkie… I know, that was a bad joke.

Favourites

What is their favourite animal?

Kangaroos, they're big, muscular assholes. Penguins are also pretty neat. Did you know that some of them are tall as fuck?

Which animal do they dislike the most?

Parasites that spread diseases.

What place would they most like to visit?

I would like to see the home I grew up in once again, including the basement.

What is the most beautiful thing they’ve ever seen?

That one time when I was almost bleeding out, back in 2045, when I saw Dethra for the first time. The bloodloss for sure played some part in it, but he looked absolutely majestic, standing tall with the trees behind him, sunlight shining through the trees, but never reflecting off of his body. Probably could have died in peace during that moment, knowing that such an ethereal being as him exists.

What is their favourite song?

Hellraiser by Ozzy Osbourne

Music, art, reading preferred?

I really like bands like Metallica, ACDC and Iron maiden. You know, heavy metal and hard rock.

I like many kinds of art. But my favorite one must be slightly abstract depictions of humans and robots.

I like non-fiction books. The ones that talk about scientific topics.

What is their favourite colour?

Probably grey and black

What is their password?

Why would you want to know that? Don't you know that you should never share your passwords with anyone? Especially not with your interviewer.

Favourite food

I love to enjoy a salad before a warm meal. That includes a piece of meat and something like spaghetti besides it.

What is their favourite work of art?

Do robots count as a work of art?

Who is their favourite artist?

Fucking Slayeeeer! Just kidding, it's Iron Maiden.

What is their favourite day of the week?

Don't care.

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We're here again, that means another OC, this one was made for roleplay, but, I kinda loved the design so I gave her lore in my fav sector (Sector Z, gotta post the tons of drawing I have of them later) and that's it, let's go!. (This might be shorter than Heather's, also, yes, every character of mine will be Chilean cause I'm Chilean)

(2/2)

[⚠️ There might be some grammar mistakes, not just because it's not my first language but also because it's 4 AM and I still can't get myself to go to sleep without publishing thing.]

Luz Montero

Luz Montero Wigglestaine is a tall 16 year old female with long curly dyed hair, tan skin, baby blue eyes and round nose.

She's the grade's secretary, though she isn't involved in planning against the KND, she thinks it's immature and nonsense, still she will turn on the alerts and go with the plans they want her to follow.

Ironically, is kind of friends/allies with Cree Lincoln, Luz is the one who cleans up the mess at the teenage ninjas' parties and they collect a dollar from whoever wants to pay (if Cree doesn't say it's for the soda) and that's her salary.

Has fought some KND agents but usually she just immobilizes them and leaves, she gets paid a lot but not enough to fight children just because the others had plans.

At high school she's rather intimidating, her voice is calm but she's usually with a serious or mad expression, since all the work gets thrown to her because the grade president prefers to go to party's than do school job.

She's actually pretty shy, she is passionate about books and if she has a free moment she will lock herself up to read, not as mean with kids, she's not aggressive until someone hits first.

Luz was also known as Numbuh 0.11, occasional member of Sector Z, mostly because they got used to overwhelming themselves with missions and other stuff and weren't taking their health very seriously, also because Luz was bilingual and available to be removed from the medical barracks and placed in a formal sector, since (Headcanon) they were all orphans without legal guardians or an appropriate institution, they lived in their tree house.

She was the medic and specialist in paint weaponry, using her own paint guns to attack the enemy.

When Sector Z disappeared she was sick, so she didn't go on the mission and stayed in her own house, from then on till she was 13 she was super paranoid about what could happen to any others if she was sick, becoming a workaholic in the medical area until she was decommissioned.

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Very noticeable, she is indeed Father's biological daughter, when Benedict was young he started to have one-night stands with several women, including Agustina Montero, a Chilean girl his age who was on her vacations visiting England and things happen, she got pregnant, but she didn't have his number, nothing more than name and looks, her parents supported her until she could go to United States with a 7 year old Luz, she decided to give the kid Benedict's last name, Why? No one knows.

Luz was raised without a father and that was fine, she didn't mind, it hurt to spend father's day without a "real" father, but she had her grandpa, she didn't care.

Trivia!

She dyes all her hair, eliminating its bluish undertone and adding blonde strands.

For some reason she feels her appearance isn't good, she knows she's her bio father's almost whole copy, but senses something bad about him so she erases what could be similar.

I'm actually used to roleplay with her kid version instead of the teen one, just because, no real reason.

She's bilingual.

You could say she hates The Steve because of how loud and annoying he is for her.

She never speaks up, she just speaks when spoken to and not much more.

If you're friends however it's like buying a bird, she will never shut up.

If she got to meet Nigel, she would probably flood him with candy, toys and Yipper cards, don't ask her how she got those last ones.

If she got to know DCFDTL condition while decommissioned, she would actually not care much, however, if she was recommissioned, she would break down.

(I have to refine her lore, there are things that might not match and I'm not getting, but, for now, that's all, Thanks! Have a good day/night! 💜)

[voicestm]

❛ they die for love, you kill for it. ❜ / chris & josh

I'm too sick to look up the meme - Still Always Accepting Tho - @muutos

How ironic to hear those words coming from Chris's mouth. How pointed it was to watch his best friend shy away from his bedside and keep his focus anywhere but on him. Did he realize what he said? Really? The depths those words have and the spell they cast over Josh? Or is he flippant when he says them? Just pretty words to call him a murderer? He laughs after taking a moment to rearrange his thoughts. He's sore, it hurts when the sound rumbles from his mouth and yet he doesn't stop it. It's a bitter, hateful sound.

"I killed because they died for it."

Except he hadn't killed anyone. No one was accepting that at face value. He had played the game far too well and when people started dying.. He had motive and there were all those mad notes and plans that seemed to scream his guilt. He didn't know if the others were talking about the monsters in the woods and mines. He didn't know if any of them knew one of them was.. But that didn't matter. His parents didn't believe him and he's positive the cops didn't either. Even though he had came back with a hitchhiker riding his body and a specialist had to be called in.

Joshua Washington possessed.

Another laugh. "It was an excellent day for an exorcism."

[system-of-a-feather]

(Rambling on our System Dynamics)

It's kind of funny to say, but our system literally isn't doing any targetted system / DID work in therapy and havent since like, November 2022. Having hit functional multiplicity and having established an incredibly self reliant and internally strong dynamic with one another, we really have no need to specifically work ON our DID and rather just need to work WITHIN our DID. Our current (and technically old) therapist is trained in dissociation, but compared to our previous therapist who was a dedicated specialist, he is far more generalized and better for helping us in life and so that is what we've been doing for the past eight months.

Beyond context of the side fact that we live "as multiple people" and have a unique way of having to navigate our mental health and life as being many parts, we really don't think, talk or work specifically on DID and its really not something we really actively consider with how much of it just "is" part of our life.

We still do have PTSD and all, but a lot of the shit we've been through has been satiated or honestly healed over that we don't regularly have large scale symptoms unless we specifically sit on it. We are much more concerned with our day to day life, gender shit, adjusting to full-fledged full-time adulthood and figuring out what we want to do with our fully fledged and finally free wingspan that all of the DID stuff is feels a lot like talking about living as a brunette or some shit.

Honestly a lot of it stems to just kind of going back to square one with DID and going back to really just.... not fixating so much on the details of it and learning to be comfortable focusing on day to day life as your various selves and leave the internal shit to whatever goes on there, cause honestly - you lived and survived not knowing of it or not being overtly / constantly aware of it before figuring it out, and while it is important to approach it in the right way because often back then there were issues that could be addressed, you can go back to just living life and letting the DID exist in and around it - it just takes a lot of learning to self trust

Like I'm pretty sure its apparent from this blog, but all of us just kind of exist and do our own thing and while its undeniable that we have DID (I mean look at Riku and I) and that is obvious and overt in this blog, we aren't really frequently too hung up on the "Oh wow" and "Oh no"s of DID.

Like yeah we probably have a butt fuck ton of trauma holders and fragments we aren't aware of, yeah we have a whole side system probably that we don't know of, but they are both 1) dormant and 2) something our system can very easily handle and deal with regardless of how bad it is because the parts that keep an eye on those parts are chill and we have a way of doing things and experience of doing things that just work.

We also have basically thrown out most role labels save for Host, Gatekeeper, and Trauma Holder unless its for communications sake cause those are the only real big information defining terms really. Riku and I play roles as large caretakers and protectors as do almost every part because thats kinda just how we've fostered trust and care with one another.

It's not really a "role" anymore to be a caretaker or a protector cause its not a job or anything anyone is assigned to do or anything. We don't protect or care for eachother as an internalized job or function or anything, we do it cause we can and someone we care about needs it.

The labels really just don't make sense for us at this point anymore and honestly, in hindsight, I think they pushed a sense of learned helplessness for Riku and other "protected" parts and pushed burnout for the parts doing the protecting (also Riku ironically)

Riku doesn't need protecting anymore than anyone else on a day to day and when they do need protecting, they don't need it in any unique manner than anyone else in a hard time. I don't need someone coddling my emotions and telling me what I feel and comforting me on a day to day more than the average person, and when I do need some emotional support - it again isn't anymore than any other person who needs help in a hard time.

Likewise Lucille isn't someone who doesn't need someone to watch his back and protect him sometimes cause he isn't this special diety that can fix everything, he's a guy and thus why he has Ray covering his back. Ray is our FBI agent Omnipotent God Gatekeeper and he likes to look like he can fix everything but its a fucking meme in the system how the dude is always like one precise poke away from being a mess which is why Lucille has to cover his back.

Like everyone in this system is Just A Guy even if they aren't Just A Guy cause we are all fucking stupid and amazing in extreme and astounding ways. All of us are stupid on our own and need care and protecting from time to time in unique ways and the COOL thing is that we are all stupid in different ways so theres always someone to cover for the other.

We long long long since threw out primary protector, that hierarchy was stupid and led to conflicts with Aderis and Lucille. Then we just threw out caretaker and protector cause everyone is one.

Like honestly, I feel a lot of those roles add social status and class to a system which - if you know me - I fucking hate that shit and I think we should all just give what we can and take what we need as we need it. Assigning anything but the bare necessities that serve to describe unique responsibilities FOR the whole is just a lot of excess and extra shit.

Host - A leading part that fronts regularly and is responsible for guiding the system to a life that is good for the whole

Important due to the fact that his takes up a lot of energy and time and limits the amount of internal attention can be put to the system + lack of "RAM" to actually juggling the deep intricacies of DID; Designated Leading Role

Gatekeeper - A part responsible for Information TM

Important because they Do Things and Manage Things and are the Things tying the system together to keep shit stable

Trauma Holder - Not actually a role but a notation label to notate a part that needs particular consideration when being interacted with - similar to a "disability" label

Important because this label distinguishes parts that need special accommodation beyond the reflexive base line and would benefit from having a mentor to go to when trying to learn to reintegrate back into life and develop themselves beyond their trauma

And for the record - since someone might look at our definition for trauma holder and compare it to us saying that no part has unique need to be cared for or protected in our system - "trauma holder" does not inherently mean "need to be protected and cared for" - I'm a trauma holder and that's not a label I've outgrown despite also being a 'mentor' (anyone who hangs around a trauma holder in a dynamic where they might be a mentor - this is not a permanent role) role for other trauma holders. It means that other parts need to make accommodations for me to help enable me to do my best job and work in the system which those accommodations primarily are minding my triggers. Same thing applies for Aderis who is an "Elder" (I guess that's a "role" we use, but its more so a nickname for the parts that have a lot of experience as old-in-day protectors that have been around for a while).

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PT2: MOON SUFFERS IN SILENCE:

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Thank whatever god exists out there he's not allowed to leave the hospital, because if he was, he'd have no excuse not to go to the funeral. At least, not in his eyes.

The family was in pieces over it. They cried over his body for hours and had to be forced to leave by security. The father couldn't believe his ears. He thought it was fine. The night before he had just talked over the phone with his son and his doctors.  His heart seemed stable. He was in good condition. What happened? Why hadn't he been informed of any complications?

His mother was worse for wear as far as Moon's heard. Refuses to leave the house, only gets out of bed to go to the bathroom, eat, and sometimes go to Markis's room and just lay in his bed for hours on end.

His sisters were pretty much taking care of themselves and each other while their parents, moreso their dad, made funeral arrangements. The middle schooler had to walk across the street from her school to his so she could collect certain documents and other items. She cried when the school administration gave her her brother's notebooks he left in his locker.

It was a bright, sunny day when they actually buried him. How ironic. Such perfect weather to bury your child in.

Despite being his murderer, Moon couldn't help but wish he could've said goodbye to his best friend one last time. After, that night, he quickly replugged the machine and left the room to inform the doctors of Markis succumbing to his disease. The doctors and nurses rushed to the scene. They demanded to know what happened. He explained to them that Markis knew he was dying quickly, and ordered him to hold his hand and stay with him while it happened, so that's why he couldn't inform the doctors. And you know the most messed up part? They believed him, just like that. If he's ordered to do something, he has to do it. He can't control that. He's just a machine. He can only do as he's told. It's not his fault the kid died. And he lets them say these things right in front of him, perhaps either out of comfort of not having to take responsibility for his actions, or out of fear of being outed as a liar, because Moon isn't stupid.

If anyone ever found out the truth, he would have to be decommissioned.

A caretaker killing a child?! And it expects us to believe he made it do it?! Straight to the scrapyard for Moon! And he'll be replaced with something new, something that they will put through even more tests than him so they can deem it "less dangerous" for humans. He didn't want that to happen. So he won't say a thing about it.

No one must ever know.

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"Hey, you think that his death was a little, I don't know, unexpected?"

He catches his breath.

Two doctors, Dr. Marshal and Dr. Okiyati, walking down the hallway. Are partnered often. Probably are partners. He's seen them before, neurologists. Working away at brains and why they seem to fail you at the worst of times.

It was Dr. Okiyati who spoke first.

"Well, yea" replies Dr. Marshal, "most deaths that take place here are unexpected, aren't they? Poor souls don't even get to see their parents before they go."

"Well, I mean, yea, but, don't you think he went rather, erm, quickly?"

Now Dr. Marshal stops to look at his partner confusedly. "Dude, what are you talking about? The cardiologists said that he was expected to go anytime now. Is it really that shocking?"

Yes, thought Moon in his head, it shouldn't ever be this easy to discuss something like that.

He was in an office tending to some work in his headpsace by filing some of Markis's data in the archives. He wasn't moving, and his head was down, so anyone could assume he was just powered off to conserve energy for today. Not that it mattered much if he powered down or not, they said whatever they felt around him.

"Look," says Dr. Okiyati, " you might not think anything of it, but the vascular specialist told me that there was evidence of suspension of breath. You know what that means, right?"

Moon thinks he's gonna be sick.

"Okay, so the kid tried to kill himself, but it obviously didn't work thanks to life support."

"Exactly, so what went wrong this time?"

Moon panics. He knew someone would think it was suspicious, but he didn't think he'd be caught this quickly.

"...dude what the hell are you on? The kid's heart failed him, that's that. Nothin we can do about it now. So come on, we gotta take care of the patients we still have."

"Alright, alright."

And so they end the conversation there and move on. Completely ignorant to the emotional turmoil Moon is having right now.

He swears up and down he was relieved, at least, he thinks that he should be relieved. He didn't get caught. He wasn't going to be decommissioned. Yet.

...so why was he not happy?

Why does he feel this way? Like things just aren't right?

...because they aren't. Because after last night, nothing will ever be the same for him.

Because he realizes that he wants to get caught. He wants someone to take him away and decommission him for what he did. He knows he deserves it. So why won't he tell them the truth? Why won't he just get it over with?

...

...

...

Because then where would Sun be? Without him?

Where would all the other children, the ones he's supposed to make better, be without him?

Would they be better off? The hospital could always just order another robot caretaker to be built upon hearing of what really took place that horrible night. Sun probably wouldn't be able to look at him anymore.

...

But he didn't want Sun to hate him. He didn't want to leave him behind. He didn't want to leave the kids - his kids - behind.

So that's that. He's a selfish liar. That's just who he is now. Before that day, he could look his little friends in the eyes knowing he was a kind guardian to them, a gentle soul who would help them through long recoveries. Now he can barely meet them knowing how easy it would be to bring about their demise. But he can live with it. He can live with the guilt. As long as he can live this sweet dream for just a little while longer, he'll be okay. If someone discovers the truth, than that'll be it. He won't deny it. For now though he won't say a thing. Just to keep his happy life here normal.

He doesn't have to tell anybody anything until they finally suspect him.

No one. Has. To know.

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TADA!! THE BOIS MOST SADDEST MOMENTS, FINALLY RELEASED OUT INTO THE WORLD! Now i actually gotta start making a storyline for this au lol

[themculibrary]

Fics With Titles That Start With K Masterlist 2

part one

kandake (ao3) - HerenorThereNearnorFar nakia/t’challa G, 11k

Summary: Ramonda helps Nakia prepare for queendom, in a very Wakandan way. There are traditions for Black Panthers, and there are traditions for those who marry them, and they both get pretty wild.

Alternate Title: Bachlorette Party In A Graveyard, Talking About Your Dead Ancestors, Getting Wild, and Fighting Your Goddess.

kate’s return to college (ao3) - KurosakiIchigoat yelena/kate E, 29k

Summary: Kate returns to College and enters a spring archery tournament. With more than just a medal waiting for her at the end.

keeper (ao3) - HepG2 steve/tony E, 81k

Summary: “Uh, I’m… very new to the whole thing,” Tony swallows visibly. He uncrosses his legs and grabs his cup again. “I looked at pictures. Research. They look graphic.”

Tony Stark is a journalist hanging onto the last of his life lines. He needs new writing materials. Something that sells. Then the whole town is talking about a BDSM play gone wrong, and there it is. His story. Steve chuckles again. Tony notices he hasn’t touched his drink. “No worries. It’s very unlikely for us to take it up to that level.

It takes two to tango.

keeping me keeping you keeping me warm (ao3) - ghoultown wanda/vision T, 6k

Summary: The Vision wakes up in a field, someplace. His skin is white. He knows what he’s meant to do.

It is hard to warm up your wife when you seem to be made of ice.

keep on breathing (ao3) - Andrea1717 steve/bucky T, 847

Summary: Steve is sick and Bucky cares for him.

keep your enemies closer (ao3) - drifloon steve/tony T, 18k

Summary: Tony, fed up with the corruption in the superhero business, becomes a supervillain. SHIELD calls in Steve Rogers to fight him, which would be fine - if they didn’t also ask Tony Stark to help as an engineering specialist.

keep you warm (ao3) - ineachplace steve/bucky E, 7k

Summary: “You ever gonna stop fussin’ over me and get yourself a girl?”

Bucky’s face goes soft for a minute. It’s why Steve says it. To see the lines in his forehead smooth out. Sometimes he feels a strange urge to kiss him. Like he’s just so full of affection for him that it’s the only way to show it.

Steve knows it’s ridiculous. Knows it doesn’t mean what it sounds like it means. But sometimes, he wants it anyway. Regardless.

kidnapped! (ao3) - Sartapaw92 kate/yelena T, 11k

Summary: Kate Bishop takes a break from her superhero duties for a while as she relaxes in her Apartment. Yelena Belova remains active in working for the ill-repute as she likes to be paid. At times, Yelena likes to mess with Kate, mainly over the phone. And at times Yelena likes to bring Kate to assist her with whatever task that Yelena has been given by her Mob Boss. The next job will be no exception.

kill the lights and kiss my eyes (ao3) - puchuupoet bucky/clint M, 5k

Summary: Clint’s broken and stuck inside for awhile, which means he’s perfectly trapped for babysitting duties. The silver lining: no diapers involved. The downside, he’s still ridiculously out of his element.

kinda magical (ao3) - Em_Jaye darcy/steve G, 29k

Summary: Darcy loves her bakery. She loves way the right treat and a cup of coffee can turn someone’s day around, she loves her employees, and she really loves when Charlotte Rogers comes to try the macarons, dragging her handsome, single father behind her.

kindred souls (ao3) - ElisaPhoenix scott/peter M, 7k

Summary: Scott is tired of not having a soulmate. Quill doesn’t even know what that is. Of course, the universe has decided this is a perfect match.

Kisses Through the Decades (ao3) - aparticularbandit agatha/wanda, wanda/vision M, 38k

Summary: The world is full of various shades of grey – charcoal, smoke, silver, ash, pewter, steel, iron, and so on. For all the black and white, there is relatively little of that. Agnes’s hair trends as dark a grey as the world allows, but even it isn’t a pure black. The closest to that is the ribbon tied tight around her waist, accenting the narrowness of it, the hourglass shape of her. Wanda’s hands have found that waist far many times to count at this point, if only to usher her out of the kitchen when she’s stayed – not past her welcome, because that sounds rude, but…well, past her welcome.

Problem being, of course, that the more Wanda guides her by the waist out of the kitchen and through the back door, the more her hands find a proper place there.

kissin’ dynamite (ao3) - crime_fighting_spiderling G, 27k

Summary: “Maybe I shouldn’t go.” Peter spoke. MJ shoved a permission slip into his hand at his comment.

“You’re going.” She simply stated.

Where Peter and his class go on a field trip to Stark Tower.

kiss me once again (ao3) - KaminaDuck peggy/steve G, 5k

Summary: Steve stood in front of the house, flowers in hand, and he took a deep breath as he stared at the steps leading up to the porch. This was the proverbial “it”. There was no going back now.

All he had to do was walk up the stairs, knock on the door, and when it opened, he would find her. Peggy. The one that he had loved through all time and space.

So why was it so hard to put one foot in front of the other?

kiss me once and i’ll keep you forever (ao3) - Kajmere E, 3k

Summary: “It’s not a gala event, Steve,” Sam warns, “it’s a little more— interactive than mingling with celebrities and collecting money.”

“Just tell me what you need me to do, and I’ll do it.”

kiss me thru the phone (ao3) - 27dragons, tisfan bucky/tony E, 7k

Summary: Trolling Steve seems like a good idea, right up until Bucky’s really, really into the pretend phone sex…

But… seems like maybe Tony’s into it, too…

kiss the cook (ao3) - mambo steve/bucky, peggy/angie, maria/sam T, 28k

Summary: Former Top Chef contestant Steve Rogers opens a restaurant with his best friend, Sam Wilson.

And everything is great, except for Steve’s giant crush on their new bartender.

knit and purl (ao3) - Six2VII sam/bucky G, 5k

Summary: Bucky has recently retired and joined a knitting circle.

knowing him (ao3) - Anonymous sam/bucky G, 909

Summary: Sam and Bucky miss Steve on his birthday and so they talk about him.

know my way around your heart (ao3) - silentinfluence steve/bucky N/R, 6k

Summary: Steve shuffles over to one side of the bed to make some space, and yawns briefly before saying, “We should cuddle. Like, right now,” and even fluffs up the pillow on his side to make the offer more inviting.

His eyes are wide and hopeful, and he’s still got that dazed look on his face and a lopsided grin and flushed cheeks. He’s everything Bucky wants, and he has to physically force out the soft, “I don’t think that’s a good idea, Stevie,” that doesn’t want to leave his mouth.

[A Harry Potter AU in which Steve and Bucky finally get it right in their last year of Hogwarts.] Featuring Steve as Gryffindor Captain, Bucky as a Slytherin/Honorary Gryffindor, and a kiss in the Hospital Wing.

[rk-ocs]

The starks

World building is one of the best parts. Heres what happened when I mixed Comics canon with OC'S Time travel world building

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Red became a Carbonelle (and sort of adopted into it) family hired help (sort of) when she helped one of his ancestors through a world changing vision. Well, his world, and yeah she knows how to deal with those very well, she's a trained calculator assistant. She was trained by another family, because the heir also could calculate, so she's like family inheritance sort of.

Surprisingly she's pretty cool with that. It means money, food, medicine, all for the cost of doing a job she usually likes. Especially if the principal is a friend (which patrons go out of their way to make happen. Undying loyalty is up for grabs here, and a well trained specialist)

Tony gives her a lot of freedoms that she wouldn't have without him.

Maria Carbonell was into biology and genetics. She figured out how to make surrogates viable, and looked a lot into DNA, wanting to get the healthiest baby between her and Howard. Because they were older, there was a greater chance of something happening (which is probably why they had so much trouble with Arno in cannon) , so she changed the Odds.

She also asked her younger friend and lab partner carry the child for her. Amanda Armstrong agreed, and they debated baby names. They eventually decided on Anthony.

Two years after having Tony, Amanda Armstrong had a natural child , who through the power of other worlds changing the DNA makeup, was a girl, she named Maria Armstrong.

Unfortunately she lost her fight to her Hydra boyfriend Jude (she's a shield Agent, and thought he was too) and they got captured.

Tony stark was four years old at this point, and had made his first circuit board, and they wanted a genius child of their own. They have stolen some of Maria's research, and the unused eggs, and Amanda has another of her boss-friends child, Arno Stark.

So Arno and Maria grow up with a shield mom captured, and a Hydra dad. Arno is intelligent, but also kind of going crazy because he doesn't know how to deal with Calculations. Maria A is kind of learning on the job through trial and error. It's not enough to help Arno from going into the crazy, but she learns some coping strategies for him.

Amanda has the mixed bag of raising her friends child alongside her own, she's just pretty upset that her friend and Tony aren't in her life.

Now I need to do some math to figure out when Tony inherited the weapons company, cannon says his parents died at age 21,  or that he inherited at age 21. He would probably be in college at a much younger age and graduated from Massachusetts Institute of Technology with honors at the age of 17, and has three doctorates according to the comics. It also says he became iron man at age 23.

So there's some timeline issues to work out .

Still after the winter soldier killed the elder Starks (and stole a lot of research) they used Arnos sperm cells on eggs they had from the black widow, and in true mad scientist style, had Maria C be the surrogate. Much to their discomfort, it's like having your brother's child.

They picked a girl, feeling it would stabilize better, and reduce the chance of an unfortunate recessive gene showing up.

The child Eleanor Amanda Stark, did have Calculations , but Aunt Maria had learned how to assist from Arno, and as a result, she was a lot more stable.

[the-firebird69]

We have a few things to say to them get the f*** away from him you're in trouble oh Tommy f sees you they also eat them up so have a nice day

Abomination and She Abomination

We have a lot of businesses that we're signing off on today and to ourselves and a lot of people are getting laid off and fired and a lot more than anticipated they just simply don't want to work. And they see it too they have to go after one of these actual class A ships and to attach the stone and make it interstellar. And it's going to ruin them but we need it we need to actually stop them from bringing things and we need a lot of troops and we need a lot of people to sign on right now this is the push and I put it out there this morning this is a big push and I tried it a graph on the Manning chart I sent it to our people they said this is the time when we need the most and they start to get people together they showed where we were. We also have companies to lay them off from and there are several of them that were laying them out from today huge companies and yeah this town is full of nutcases they don't seem to care.

*Kaiser Permanente and that meeting is today was not yesterday it was a preamble meeting and the final meeting is today made a lot of stuff to iron out it's a huge firm 50% of the world's hospitals and medical Care outpatient and emergency outpatient facilities emergency rooms that are standalone specialists and so on are from this company and we are taking it over a Lock stock and barrel. There's tons and tons of people needed and we're hiring like madness it's global and we have about 50% of it in and we need the rest and we do have a meeting at 2:30 p.m. Eastern standard Time but it is earlier 11:30 a.m. in Los Angeles California that's where it's best

*healthcare systems also is very huge and it didn't did not go off yesterday but it's going off today and it's going off per our requirements to lay off all of John remillard's people and bja and those types completely from every position there is and they're already evacuating and leaving but they're sticking to the hospitals and they will be forced out but they refuse to leave they're going to the morgue because of what they're doing. And most of them acts are going to leave too and they said it we have no reason to stay here if you're going to handle it and we do our own anyways so a lot of people who are miscellaneous will keep society going and appearances and we need that pretty badly too and it will work and it is going to head and that's how it's going to look because it is going ahead. This is an international firm and we have half of it in and the rest of it is going to come in today and it is tremendous it's a giant company it's huge in the effort is enormous it was sick of these idiots walking by and flipping us off saying we're doing the job for them they show up there and they're rude and their assholes and they sell sorts of stuff and a criminals and the ones who speak up and say things like this a****** just sat down we take away and we arrest him and he goes to prison and doesn't come out it's happened tons of times to them today. So gigantic company our son has had many brushes with them and several hospitals once we take those hospitals over we're going to take the money from the people that did it all of it and pay him and we're going to make them know that it's a hospital doing it and now we have a game he says and it is the game it's a good one because it will clear the rest of the idiots out of there the max will end up fighting them.

*Aetna health it is a giant company yes it's 10% of the world and the sun is in it it's taking over most of it and we're using it and the other day we fixed something of our sons I'm going to fix more of it because they keep screwing around with it and yeah they were screwing around with the records so adding that credited it because they found out that the employees of their own were doing it and the max approved that yeah and they wanted it and it went forwards and the idiots started attacking Max and whoever looked like Max and they got hit very badly and they're getting hit today and the woman who signed them on is protected by the max she did a good job and they see it and he said it's a risk but we have to do it and he helped to do it and they were amazed that he's going against these people all the time he says they don't seem to have any idea about society even if you want to leave and stuff and you don't know that it's explosive and they started to say it's actually true and some of them have some really weird comments to make, there are three hospitals that incarcerated our son against his will that this firm was running St Elizabeth was one and the small one in Los Angeles and the the one you know downtown Los Angeles actually that's a small and then teeny one in the low desert and those were hell and lady who signed on our son wants to put it back in there and she's going to hell but she has to fight everybody off and the max who did it who were there not being commended no it's ridiculous behavior and doesn't do anything for them but he says is if I get an opportunity to hit you and self-defense you ain't coming back to her and that's the name of the game who else most of these women are very sick and see now and she is sick

*Blue Cross Blue shield once again had a son in several hospitals and a bunch of them pretty much Marlboro hospital I Worcester UMass hospital, and the westboro state was the state of Massachusetts who were suing them for a ton of money and the federal government is coming down on them as they should and the place is practically gone and Worcester State is part of that organization and we're going to take the building and we're going to fire everybody they're doing that soon within the next few days then we're going to put them all into a mental hospital and stop feeding them and stuff I don't think they'll just sit there and ride it out he'll get their plans and information they'll have meetings and tell them we're taking it they'll have fights and all sorts of nice stuff that they plan to do to our son. Once we own the facilities we're going to pay our son and take the money from these people who are assholes make sure they know it. And we're going to make them pay them pay him and we're going to show that it's them and they're going to have to defend themselves you're doing that with a bunch of them and there's a big push to try and get them to Utah and tonight is the bridge no it's tomorrow night and we have the paving in and it still start flying the stuff in by the time we fly it all in and hook it all up so we just decided to lift it in and you have an accident you just fix the payment and I was going to do it anyways I said I was going to do it but he says sometimes say sit on it or I wasn't sitting on it we're going ahead with it but he didn't know so good so pushing everything in there I said be open Friday not stuff going in and so he gets it now can I get a little messed up these people enforce it. You know when the brain stuff today when they when they really thinking clearly they properly identify boats before our son has a chance to look at it so they can say it like little kids is damned annoying these people are massively annoying and they pay through the nose for it. He says I'm building a coast guard vessels or not it depends on whether you want to survive or not I can stop the monsters out there by eating them and becoming huge and pulling your s*** out.

This company is responsible for most of the hospitalizations they are doing them in Worcester and Boston and several of them okay Marlboro and Worcester and St Elizabeth in Boston and there were a couple more and they were responsible and we are suing them for it and we will own this firm we are scheduled to sign off on it tomorrow and we will take over and start to take the money and take them down in order to get them the money and all the idiots who are flipping the bird will have to pay the price even if they have an excuse. Apparently they're unaware of what an incinerator is. This is a big company okay it's another 10%. Oh really it's about 20% and they lost tons of shares and people use the hospital treatment as the excuse and they are going and they're doing themselves they beat each other up and Kaiser Permanente was sitting alone they started beating them up recently and that's about 80%, now there's two more did a pretty big and one put him in the hospital recently in Sarasota and we're going after them and it's the hospital group that's mentioned in Florida all the time

*Bayside regional health and actually the names when you go into order mean something in their plan and what we say is well you know your plan is exposed and you're getting ruined they don't get it now we're going after this company seriously and the other companies are going after them for starting to go after the others and they say it's your lawyers and stuff like that but they know it's a ride so they're choosing to ride and then they get they're getting written back now finally Bayside regional is coming apart they don't have much to it because they're all very very stupid and they're weak and they Mumble and they walk around and they're senile and it's not going to take very long. This is one of the two here in Florida and it's getting beaten up pretty good because he moved next to a different the other one which is a different name and his mom went to that hospital and they've been threatening our son with it the whole time

Thor Freya

It is the end of the line and it ends with mac and he's getting the s*** kicked out of him for doing it and he kind of knows the name is going to look it up because they're blocking it

[rrasado]

how do u think the savanaclaw boys would react to the reader cooking some traditional/comfort filipino foods for them while they're sick or smth?? stuff like sinigang or tinola or arrozcaldo yk??

• Tastes from the far East •

My utmost apologies for getting to this late it's graduation season and I'm a tad busy dealing with papers and school transferring TwT. This req definitely helped me unwind before the big day ;D. Even had to ask my brother for help because his favorite Food is sinigang.

Serving them something from home:

There's a very faint feeling in my chest that he'd like our tomato sauce dishes. Afritada, Caldareta, Menudo, Mechado etc. He's someone who doesn't like vegetables but I feel like the sauce/broth used in the aforementioned dishes would somehow overpower any other veggie present that and- Savory meat 🤤.

In the case that you do serve one of the above while he's sick, I'm partially certain you can sneak the carrots into his system but that's just me most likely hidbdkf

Leona would most likely be against eating them in the first place, especially with how they look. It's not that he looks down on the dish/es it's probably because he's more used to another sort of mix from the afterglow savanah. Even then you'd have to shove the spoon into his mouth in order for him to eat said food (don't worry you didn't forget the rice)

Ever since then he had a very distint memory of the taste, remembering how foreign your recipe was yet it wasn't so otherworldly to the point of alienating. On the contrary it was an ironic nostalgia he can't pin point but suffice it to say he's mood isn't too bad as it was the first time.

"What? You honestly think that's enough to get me full? What do you take me for, Herbivore?

Be careful of feeding him other ulam tho TwT. Tinola, Sinigang and Bulalo are clear enough for him to turn away from the complimentary greens. Perhaps tomatoes aren't a bad part to his diet tho...

Undoubtedly the most appreciative, at first glance he comes off as just grateful that he doesn't need to spend any money or effort for his meal (sick or not). I'm pretty sure Ruggie himself is a hidden specialist in concocting delicious food from the most simplest of ingredients. So it's easy to picture him being somewhat astonished by Tinola and how tasty it is despite the few ingredients you used.

You could've been a bit fancier to be honest, but you had to purposely leave out a few ingredients due to the short notice. Then again you'd be caught dead if you dare remove the malunggay leaves. Regardless— Ruggie doesn't seem to mind, to him it was a good meal and the way the broth complimented the subtle flavor of the chicken and greens *chef's kiss*

He's cheeky enough to joke about cooking that food again for him next time. In the case you do entertain his lighthearted request he doesn't turn down the serving. And now that you've had time to actually prepare for it the dish is finally complete in its contents.

He definitely spits out the peppercorn, tried biting it the first time thinking it'd taste a bit differently with your foreign dish but no it's just the same annoying piece of dried crop he's accidentally chewed as a kid in the market.

"Oi it tasted fine without it the first time!- maybe leave it out next time? Eh? Well yeah there's a next time-"

Worry not about the tedious preparation, the more times you do it the more willing he becomes in assisting with the gathering process. If you're both dedicated enough, you'll reach a point where Sam has your order of ingredients memorized and prepackaged.

I'm gonna take my chances with Jack. You feed him Paksiw na Isda and he's opened a whole new alley of culinary pallete. Before even getting him to eat the dish he's turning his nose away from the smell of fish and..vinegar? Yes he's questioning it-

He's sick, but his sense of smell is painfully hyphened and the aroma of vinegar isn't exactly helping his nasal health- the look on your face was the only thing that got him to open his mouth when you spoon fed him a portion of the salmon within the dish.

His ears would twitch in different directions but eventually he opens his mouth for another bite without any other word whatsoever. You'll have to take this as your sign that he did indeed agree with the odd combination (as odd as it is to him.)

Then you serve him Sinigang the next day, he's slightly taken aback by how different two sour dishes can be despite both being, well, sour. Yet he somehow prefers the latter soley because he cam bare the scent a bit more.

"Look you really didn't have to... it's a nice change though and well- I think you're holding back."

He was partially right- you did held back after his first reaction to your paksiw dish but you started a routine of experimenting other ulams for yhe first year. By the end of the month he's likely made a verdict of what's his favorite but he'd keep it to himself. After all you looked quite happy cooking your native dishes.

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