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funky wedding things
#apparently#i just open discord to a lore event#and its just#the wedding of the century#✨️sherb and rakai marriage ✨️#and i honest to god fucking cant#/pos#they are#so many things#and this is either going to be really serious#or like#fucking crack lore#or a mix#i cant decide which is better-#honestly#its#its funky#also#c!haley death anniversary in cannon soon??#maybe??#i dunno#im acting like i know#fable smp#fsmp#a tag to help find my own posts
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Day 24: Other side
Previous/Next
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#my honest reaction when i pull my own fucked up self reflection from a puddle (the ocean): 😨#ive named them Nyx and the crows/ravens are Selene (the one with the beak horns) and Mene#lambert: oh my god i have to bring this to narinder like ASAP#nyx; internally; while passively reading their mind: cat. cat alive ????? hmm. :))))#gang i cant wait to draw story for them grrrr grrr#this au has nothing to do with greek mythology i just like how the name feels and its meaning#cotl#my art#cotl lamb#two (2!!) of them#cotl fanart#cotltober#drawtober#cotl drawtober#cult of the lamb#faithless reflection au
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bro are you gently holding me on your arms as I slowly die?? hey that's kinda fucking gay bro
#i honest to fucking god dont remember exactly how rolan dies SO#this was an excuse to actually draw them#god i fucking miss these fags#i was gonna draw them actually like kissing but tbh i cant bring myself to do it#it feels right to draw them just fucking almost getting it and Almost understanding#but being too afraid#any way <3#sketching shit#bitb#rolan deep#timothy rand#jrwi: bitb
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nobody fucking touch me rn i went to see tf one in the cinema and im shaking. they actually made a good transformers movie. what the fuck
#time to go home and read the entirety of jro's mtmte and lost light again ig#what the FUCK i was not expecting it to be actually fucking stunning. that's MY loser dumpster fire of a children's toy franchise how did t#ey actually make it . good#really good#five out of five stars. when elita said “you dont have the touch or the power” i fucking choked#obviously it is only going to mire the canon more because of the changes to megatron's backstory (no gladiators 😔) & lack of allspark plot#but i dont even fucking care. dont even touch me rn i cant ever get over this#broken friendships & corruption arcs are THE SHIT and they did this one better than i was expecting#when pax fell like a falling star... primus itself opened to him...#ratchet cameo! arcee cameo! jazz cameo! not to mention ALPHA TRION#i can see the war in this . i can see this . millions of years in the future they will still b fighting. orion mightve been a “pacifist” by#megatron's standards but he knows how to fight. he fights more than he should. and bee.... bee... THATS MY FUCKING NAMESAKE GUYS DONT EVEN#TOUCH ME RN. IM SHAKING. HOLY SHIT#bumblebee you are SUCH a dork. what the FUCK.#and the quintessons!!!!! i am LIVING for the art direction and the organic/inorganic imagery#those quintesson energon-hoover things reminded me of energon eaters too. & in that first shot of them entering the cave w the primes i#originally thought scraplets before i came back to myself. there's something to be said here tho.#they did a good job with the worldbuilding. suitably alien-like. exceeded expectations. that ginormous quintesson ship? i'm going insane#you can SEE the birth of the myth in this stupid fucking movie you can SEE how op becomes who he becomes. the way he grew. the way they bot#grew until they were the only person that could hold the other back . the way he is going to be irreversibly changed. d16's eyes...#that scene w starscream has a chokehold on me. i cant breathe. the way they all looked at megatron when his blaster emerged#the fight scenes#ELITA ONE !!!#AIRACHNID !!!!#honest to god though i must confess that the first coherent thought i had about this movie was “oh they made him so cunty” . abt pax. i#am so sorry#but okay okay okay i . they were amica endura at the beginning. at the least. i'm. AKHRERJGH#tf one#me when megatron ascended out of iacon & he was the only land vehicle amid a swarm of planes. me when the SYMBOLISM#🐝
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i actually can’t do anything anymore and i’m still at least a year off from being able to do anything about this myself.
#i love my parents. they do so much. why is this not something they’re ever going to do anything about#i can’t be honest about how bad it’s gotten because i know it will become a discussion about how much it upsets my mom to hear#and god knows i am not talking about it with my dad#im just going to be unable to do fucking anything because my brain is fucking broken and i cant fix it without outside help im never gettin
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why is the agere community so so toxic jesus christ just let people be themselves
#'oooohhh u cant use parental terms for ur cg bc thats a cgl thing and its unsafe for minors!!!' have you not read anything before ever#have you never been outside#were you born 45 minutes ago#how can people have just. honest to god zero reading comprehension#and also jump to the most malicious conclusions without wondering if they even make sense like logically#and this post is not just about the whole 'calling ur cg mom/dad' thing its just all the discourse and the drama that fills agere spaces#thats the sole reason why i dont interact with regressors anymore cus its so. fucking. hard. to find a person thats minimally reasonable
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hi sorry I'm stupid but are you rooting for the oilers or not in your last two posts I legit cannot tell (they're my hometown team and I'm not into hockey but I am into your writing and honestly I'm just wondering)
hi omg no sweat and ur not stupid, the fault’s entirely mine bc my hockey lb is extremely confusing! i am rooting for the oilers yea!! im first and foremost a canucks fan (theyre my hometown team) but i kept watching the playoffs and began to like the oilers seriously (its just. davo is so endearing. its kinda difficult to dislike a guy whose love for the sport is just so honest). that said, ive also been watching the eastern conference games so my awe for the panthers is tremendous bc theyre legit beasts
i rambled again but tl;dr is yea im rooting for the oilers 😭
take care my love and smooches <33
#anon#ask#suns net#only ever rooted for canucks tbh LMAO but davo kept popping up in my feed#(davo as in mcdavid)#and so i began to look into the guy (bc i can gen feel my dislike bloating and i didnt wanna entertain it bc i just wanna enjoy the game yk)#and jesus davo is. wow. i cant even begin to get into how fucking astounded ive become#my heartstrings were tugged the moment i found out two pivotal facts about davo’s start in the nhl:#1) he was drafted into the oilers bc they for REAL wanted him to save the struggling team. hockey is a team sport yea but davo was honest#to god some metaphor for a messiah and so until now hes been carrying these old-age expectations and pressure#2) he is the youngest permanent nhl captain in history - he was 19 years old at the time#and something about those made davo so much more.. human (?) to me#like cmon dude as a canucks fan? all we ever see was the overt favouritism to davo bc hes a living legend! it was exhausting! but then i saw#what that title really entailed and i felt bad for even disliking him sm when poor guy’s just tryna make his team win 😭#…this is so not me oikawa-fying davo
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I know it's a popular hc I know it is but THAT FUCKING ANGEL
IS NOT AN "EZRA"
#good omens#let.me.dream.with.goodomens#aziraphale#/hj blaming slow show#i believe its a good fic#but i honest to god cant read it#cause of that fucking name#(and cause of the rpf au of it all)
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Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die
#i cant even shes just so dangerously stupid#she thinks energy drinks with natural caffeine are safe to give people who have been told by doctor doing take caffeine with thia meds#ahe thinks of a child is CHOCKING to lie them face down n rub their back#she has the evangelical woman voice worse then women I've met n that cult ahe giggles constantly and behaves like the stereotype lil german#boy just got a lollipop over.... everyone and everything whe acts likw an 11 year old I just got the first boyfriend and all they could talk#is how perfect their boyfriend is and they're so pretty good for that I pulled a boyfriend is and it's like a God thing that they met how#SOOOOOOOOOO in love while constantly nonstop touching ahe has to be touching him her hand on his thigh her atm linked with his her heaf on#his chest she has to be in her lap they make out all over the place IT'S DISGUSTING AND EMBARRASSING STOP SWAPPING SPIT#she started a i. hwr words 'love diary of their love journey' they hadn't been dateing 2 months her kids are spoiled fake Instagram bitches#with such shitty views on politics SHE'S A TRUMP FAN GIRL SHENLOVES TRUMP MY DAD BROUGHT IN A TRUMPIE#there's so much i cant even say because even admitting it on tumblr is too embarrassing i wanted.to.likw her i liked her the first day but#THE MORE I GET TO KNOW GET THE MORE N MORE N MISS RED FKAGS#she threw away all my siblings clothes school books toys uniforms for sports their in toys i bought them that week make up jewelry#in the disguise of helping clean house#while i was at the hospital the kids call me in tears i call her beg her to wait and nope.ahe didn't i found the bags by the curb i brought#my dad sided with hwr because 'she didn't mean any harm she didn't know sje was throwing them away'#my mom hasn't bsen dead a year he started dating right after ahe died#hes talking about marrying this woman this woman who has never had an honest educated thought once in her life#WHO ASLO SPEMDA MONEY LIKE A DRUNKEN SAILOR AHE CAME FROM A WITCH FAMILY HER LAST TWO HUSBANDA WERE TOUCH SHE HAS NO KNOWLEDGE OF THE COMMON#SHE SPENDS LIKE SHE STILL HAS MONEY WHEN SHE DOSE NOT AND IT'S LIKE YOU DID NOT JUST SPEND OVER 180 DOLLARS N PASTRIES GOD#SHES SO FUCKIN STUPID AND EVERY HOLIDAY SINCE MY MOM DIED WVERY FAMILY GWT TOGETHER BECAUSE WE DON'T TALK OR.DO ANYTHING WITH MOM'S SIDE#OF THE FAMILY ANYMORE SHE'S THERE EVERY WINGLE MOTHER FUCKIN WEEKEND SHES HERE I'M EXHAUSTED SHES PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINING TO BE ARO#OUND SHES LIKE IF SOMEONE TOOK A GOLDEN RETRIEVER ON A DIET OF JUST FUCKIN COCAINE LITTLE GERMAN BOY WITH LOLLY AND CRUELLA DEVILLE AND FUSE#THEN TOOK A STRAW AND DRANK ALL THE SMARTS OUT OF THAT BEING#UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGH MY DADS GOIN TO NARRY RHIA BITCH SHES GOIN TO TRY TO BE A MOTHER TO ME AND MY SIBLINGS AND THEY'RE GOIN TO#be so fucked up because her kids are not ok SHE FUCKED THEM OVER BAD SHE HAS FOUR KIDS ALL ADULTS THEY'RE JUST WOW#I HATE MY LIFE I HATE WHAY FUTURE MY FAMILY IS GOIN TO BE THE GOOD THINGS IS I WON'T HAVE TO STAY I CAN GO N MAKE A NEW ONE WITH MY WIFE#FOR ME BUT MY SIBLINGS ARE FUCKED AND ANYTIME I WANT TO VISIT MY FAMILY YANDERE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BITCH WILL BE THERE WORMING HWR WAY IN#SHES CONSTANTLY CALLING N TEXTING MY DAD NONSTOP OF SHE'S NOT NEXT TO HIM AND IF HE CAN'T RESPOND INSTANT SHE FREAKS OUT N BUGS ME
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❤️🔥 KING KENDRICK ❤️🔥
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After 15 hours of painting I finally finished my portrait of @kendricklamar !! I really love doing celebrity portraits lately that I put a creative twist on with the reference I used- Especially since this year music has been my actual SAVIOR omg 😭 Music has always meant a ton to me both creatively and personally but this year in particular I've listened to way more new music that I would have normally in a year or two 😂 But I am pretty happy with this one (ESPECIALLY THE CROWN AHH THERE'S SO MUCH SYMBOLISM IN IT) ❤️🔥❤️🔥❤️🔥
#I honest to god never realized how cute he looks until I watched him in interviews bcjsbsgga#I love him fr though hes so fucking talented!#I cant wait to listen to more of his music ✨✨#my art#art#artist#illustration#artists on tumblr#illustrators on tumblr#female illustrators#illustrator#artists#fanart#kendrick lamar#k dot#good kid maad city#to pimp a butterfly#damn.#mr morale and the big steppers#section 80#portrait#celebrity portraits#rapper#hip hop#semi realism#rap#rappers#portraiture#digital portrait
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ngl i think i kind of was a genius for being like 'yeah this character is a scary killyou cannibal scary killer who scary kills you' and then realizing that the way my worldbuilding works out is that there's a nonzero chance that if you leave literally any body parts over they can just come back, depending on what they believe in their heart of hearts can kill them. Of course she'd start eating her kills. She probably tried normal stuff first and then realized it didn't work and she had to try harder if she wanted to actually keep them dead.
#red rambles#im working on a character who i made up years and years ago and wasnt even happy with then because he didnt seem to have enough like#interior thoughts he was just like a guy who killed people when he was stressed and his life was constantly stressful and then he killed on#person too many and they were like 'this is fucking untenable and he has to die' and then they killed him#which is soooooooooo absolutely nothing honestly. Like it works as a barebones summary but i want to stress there was actually straight up#nothing else there. the entire rest of his whole whatnot was just being entangled with Haven who is a different character who at the time#ALSO felt unsatisfyingly lacking in interiority but at lesat he had really complex motivations and action flowcharts. that werent just 'i#get grumpy and i just go kill some random person with no regard for what the consequences will be and then i am so mean and i kill you'#now theres a lot more happening. i really didnt. like.#okay so i had a Backstory worked out but it was vague because i didnt know what the fuck he WANTEDDDDDDD right like. i had no motivations a#literally all except 'oohhh i kill people ooohhh i like killing people ooohhh im erratic i kill people' and the background i HAD was like.#Upper class scion of some rich family whose family honest to god just did not like him very much and also [gestures vaguely] i guess he#maybe kicked dogs or something and then he ??nebulous timeline meets haven and then kills his sister or kills his sister and very quickly#thereafter meets haven but i usually lean toward the former because haven LOVES convincing people to kill their whole families its like#cathartic for him because he would love to kill his entire family but physically cannot do it. but like kind of the implications of this#as far as i was concerned given this is set in the mid 1800s was like. ehhh he's getting away with this because he's rich white and male an#it pays to turn a blind eye to his indiscretions or w/e. a genderswap means that she'd be subject to a lot more scrutiny on basis of like#misogyny. LOL. and i already had the preexisting 'hates half sibling' (i genderswapped the sister into a brother because why not) and 'hate#parents' and 'parents strongly dislike her' and 'unsettling' and it worked nicely to start giving me actual fucking. Literally anything to#work with there. because it means that by going off with Haven she walks out of one situation where she has like 0 agency into another one#and like to be clear i respect anyone who is sitting around in haven's general vicinity for snapping and just starting to kill people. me t#but this works. SOOOOOOOOOO much better for real#im still working the kinks out but like also this means that she wins. she wins like multiple times actually. she comes closer to killing#haven than anyone since he learned what fucking species he was and causes him more trouble in the interest of getting the FUCK out of there#than anyone else has and then she fucking gets what she was going for against literally every effort haven could've made over ~five decades#get owned loser.#every time i draw her i cant help it i write some shit like PLEASE JUST GET DIVORCED on it even though i wrote the fucking narrative i know#it will never fucking happen and thats why she does all this shit instead#in another world she'd be like the wildly capable owner of Raytheon 2 or some other shit like that. like she'd never be a nice or good#person but she wouldn't be dead. god she could be in charge of a country or some shit. Alas. Please get divorced.
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you know the weekend is gonna be hell when your mom is asking you to play the messenger between her and your dad because they blocked each other's numbers again 💖
#like im on the bus but . i honest to god wish i could just turn around and go back to my place#why why why why do i have to deal with this every single weekend#and i cant even stay at my place because then mom starts blackmailing me#like oh you're not coming home? guess ill just kill myself and take the pets with me like thanks girl 👍🏻#and people wonder why i cant physically exist without my stupid fucking sedatives#im so angry at them. just get a fucking divorce already#rambling
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they should make light pollution illegal i need to see the stars
#i looked out my window and saw one and remembered how many r there that i cant see bcz of the FUCJING STREET LIGJTS#honest to god i need to look at the stars it is actually painful not being able to#its not a want its a primal need#ryan shut the fuck up
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i finally forced myself to watch 9-1-1 and im going crazy
i got hooked cause of buddie edits and stuff and first of all they really dont do justice to how crazy they both are about eachother
secondly i got to the tommy part and its kind of like watching a car crash but also so on point for buck and eddie's relationship
#just found this in my drafts cause i was probably scared to post this because of how honestly toxic the shipping part of the 911 fandom is#but screw that bro i still month later think this is so on point#i could literally sing praise to the writing of buck and eddies relationship forever#like the edits and all make it seem like it all really in your face and like it kind of is but also not at all#so much of what makes their relationship so deep is portrait just through the acting or just the subtle ways they interact#and like dont even get me started about the fucking couch thing because that honest to god makes me want to scream#also before someone comes for me which like come i guess i will just block and ignore but i actually think tommy and bucks relationship#is just another perfect piece of the puzzle that is buck and eddies relationship#like im kind of scared saying this all not knowing what the actual showrunners that i dont know if i should have any trust in because we al#know how these ships sometimes turn out but if they are not complete idiots they will see this relationship to completion and it will be so#fricking perfect and if they dont im just gonna write it myself and it will be so easy because the set up is there#anyways if you cant tell i have a lot of feelings about this show#911 abc#lol this is the only relevant tag im putting again the shipping part of this fandom scares me
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someone should hire me to be their loser stay at home boyfriend. skills include cooking, gardening, bad art, being a general layabout, cuddling, errands, basic carpentry and plumbing, jerking off while you're at work, finding weird movies to watch, spiraling into crisis, chronic fatigue......cooking again
#you notice cleaning is not on the list 😔#ignore that#ive been underemployed for a bit and its not sustainable but god its been nice#jokes aside my last job was killing me and im trying to figure what i can do within my limitations and its hard#i mean really i just need a job where i dont have to interact with people for a large chunk of the day#ive been doing a lot of physically demanding odd jobs which i enjoy especially when i can just put earbuds in and work without interruption#but unfortunately my body is fucked so i cant really work the hours needed or that i feel like an actual employer would expect of me#without regular breaks#edited the sex bit to be funnier and more honest ✌️😔
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why is it that every time my life goes to shit my first impulse is to mod a zine. My brain goes "Wow things are bad and stressful and awful in every way. Wanna add something even more stressful and less fun than the things you are failing to keep up with already?"
#hello NTBD writing group. i am haunted by the vote form i still need to make. as soon as i have my fucking lapped. top. it will be made#i should be finally getting it back tomorrow or the next day. but ive been being told i will get it back 'soon' for. almost a month now#yes this is the least effective possible way to communicate this information. but consider this: i cant 9penbthat server without having a#honest to god panic attack bc of this. Yes this is a brain goblin issue. Yes i am trying so hard to strangle them vut they are winning#anyways uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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