#and i had all the other recent tumblr updates so i was hella confused

[armenelols]

I've just learnt tumblr live actually exists and y'all haven't been experiencing mass hallucinations for months. Wild. Couldn't be me.

[thespianhauler]

So I saw a Homestuck item for sale recently that might actually be a problem[?]

Not 100% sure on whether it is a problem but I’ma post all the info I have here and let y’all decide.

So it has to do with a pack of Homestuck Midnight Crew playing cards being available for purchase from several different Ebay sellers as well as a few third party online sellers of novelty trading cards [the only reason I saw it is because I collect novelty playing cards].

I did go ahead and grab a pack so that I could compare it to the authentic Midnight Crew Playing cards.

I’m gonna come back to The Felt Playing cards a little later for a different point, but first I just wanna show the box art for them.

The authentic deck box has the suits on it, nice ribbon, all 4 weapons from the crew against a bloody spade backdrop, very nice.

This is one side of the deck box art of the “new” Midnight Crew playing cards. I ain’t saying anything about the art, the art is really nice, this isn’t a complaint about the art, this is me being unsure of how legit these cards are.

This is the art on the other side of the deck box. Also my second point of confusion, if I wasn’t clear my first and main point is the legitimacy of this item, my second point is why is Snow on the box of a midnight crew deck?? She’s not party of the crew, she absolutely does not belong on this box my dudes.

Decks are the same size [2.45 inches by 3.5 inches], an average playing card deck, so nothing majorly changed there

Now admittedly this has messed me up since I got the cards, cause the backing of the authentic cards does not match the deck box art. And on one hand I can understand why, the deck box art is usually symmetrical, that allows for the plays to shuffle the cards as much as they want and always have them remain right side up cause the cards, if split through the middle horizontally remain mirror images of each other.

The deck box art is asymmetrical, and buddy you’d look real dumb holding your cards upside down. But I still feel they could have made the design asymmetrical with some adjustments, but that’s a complaint for a different day. The authentic midnight crew playing cards have the same backing design as the felt playing cards.

For the “new” deck the Snowman design is actually the backing. not only is it asymmetrical and the back of your hand is gunna make you look silly, but again it should have at least been the Slick art cause that makes SENSE

This part made me really feel like the new deck was just milled from a printing company that is open to taking any orders for a deck of cards. It made me feel pretty sure that the deck was a bootleg/knock off.

The left most card is the only bonus card that comes in the authentic deck, giving credit to the artists involved in creating the deck, by name and tumblr blog.

The middle and right most cards come from the new deck, they’re the sort of cards that you sometimes get in regular old playing card decks, poker hands and a how to play x or y game.

Left is the authentic, right is the new. Now this far from the card the camera doesn’t really pick up any differences.

The art from the authentic deck, the colors might look a little washed out I had to brighten my camera to get a clearer picture.

The new deck, between the 2 decks there’s no real difference in art used for the cards. And the colors are identical, the no adjustment in brightness or hue between the 2 sets [any differences seen in the images are probably due to my camera].

This is as close as I could get to a card from the new set, without it going blurry on me, and you can see the little crossing lines on it. That’s the biggest noticeable difference; material quality

The authentic deck is made of card stock with a smooth finish

New deck is card stock with a linen finish [linen while a nice tactile feeling also can make the edges of an image a little blurry; I’ve noticed this the most on the cards that have clocks on them].

The new deck has a very strong plastic smell, but I blame that on the thin plastic the cards were in [but man is it STRONG]

Authentic deck smells of card stock, which I’m hoping this deck smells like when it airs out

They feel about the same thickness

The boxes on the other hand; authentic box feels thicker, sturdier, the print job is sealed, more likely to last

I’ve only just opened the new deck and the box feels much flimsier, there is no sealing on the colors on the deck; which is evidenced by the fact that I’ve managed to scuff it just by opening it

The last thing that bothers me is the copyright information on the box [I don’t know what else to call it]

Now this leaves me confused, The Felt playing cards have the Homestuck and Whatpumpkin logo on the bottom copyright Andrew Hussie bla bla bla you know the rest. But the Midnight Crew cards don’t have that anywhere on the box [and I know damn well they’re authentic]

Yet the new deck has it on the bottom, except it’s being created under the For Fans by Fans, copyright 2019

Which just leaves me confused as fuck all. I, may not be the biggest fan of FFBF as a third party selling site, but I visit it fairly often to keep an eye on what’s going on with the homestuck stuff [I also follow their tumblr and get email updates from them] so like, did I miss something here??? Am I wrong and this is a reprint that was made and sold out hella fast on FFBF??

The last thing I’m gunna include is the description and details that are [literally identical] found on every selling post about these cards

“A playful version of classic playing cards by Homestuck, with art by NightMargin. This deck features the Midnight Crew members: Spades Slick, Hearts Boxcars, Diamonds Droog, and Clubs Deuce, with weapons and objects that they use throughout their missions.

Details:

54 card deck

Card size:  2.5" x 3.5"

Card finish: linen

Box dimensions: 3.59" tall x 2.56" wide

Art by NightMargin

Great for Homestuck collectors

See if the cards are bootleg it means that all those people listed up on the card crediting the artists involved means they are absolutely not getting their due payments for the art provided on the cards, nor is Hussie or for fans by fans getting any money back on these decks.

It also means 1 to a few people had to come together, have really good images of the cards to provide a template for the printing company, pony up the dough to get x amount of decks printed, and then make bank on letting third party sellers on ebay or online sell them [or even they’re the one’s directly selling them online] it’s hard to say.

All I know is this feels real fishy to me

[unordinary-analysis]

Episode 171

Honorable mentions:

Blyke smiling at the beginning was so endearing I love him

I have to admit to you guys, I did read this episode when it came out and at the time I still had yet to write the episode 170 thing. Didn't affect me though so it doesn’t really matter lol

I want Darren to bring up Blyke’s injuries to Isen because he obviously thinks that Blyke got his injuries while fighting Isen, but whenever I want things like this to happen, they never do :(

Isen’s reaction to confrontation is always to hide

I can’t see Sera’s eyebags in this one that's a good sign

Not a lot of actual things to say about Sera learning about John’s past because we already know it and she’s just repeating things that other people have said

Evie getting attacked by Joker? I’m torn between thinking this is some prank and thinking that we’re getting the Sera/John confrontation right now. The whole call was just presented in such a strange way, I have no clue what that’s about?

finally getting on track with updates, hopefully they won’t always be a week late now r.i.p.

is it analyse or analyze because google docs says 1, but tumblr says 2

Have low expectations for this one, friends. But there is 0.1% substance in this post, so still worth it ;)

Somehow this got kind of long? This isn’t read through or edited, I just typed and posted

The fucking bruise:

    I hope you don’t mind the obvious contrast in professionalism between this episode analysis and the one for 170, but the fuckkksufkhsk? Starting this off with Blyke’s confusion when he is significantly more healed than he was last night that it wouldn’t be possible for him to be so okay? You really gotta do me like that huh? Dropping a bomb like that so early on? But the thing about this is that I cannot think of a logical answer for this? I even considered that what he said just meant that doc got hella good at healing, especially because John has complimented doc on that a couple of times, but it was clear that that was not possible and not what was meant to be understood. 

    I’ve already apologized for lack of professionalism, so to hell with introductions and transitions: this implies one of two things:

Blyke has regenerative powers that are emerging from him now that he’s leveling up

Someone healed Blyke without him knowing

    Starting with #1, the possibility of Blyke having healing powers of some kind at first looks like the more likely answer until you realize that Blyke’s ability is deadass “energy beam” and that makes no contextual sense. But this is the first thing that I, and I’m positive most of you, thought. It’s the most logical reason as to why Blyke went to sleep with noticeably worse injuries than when he woke up. I’m kind of stupid regarding abilities in UnOrdinary, so I’m not sure if this blend of two totally different powers is something special or different, but could you imagine how overpowered Blyke would be? That would be insane. And would give him a total edge over John, or anyone for that matter, because he has both an offense and a defense. The thing about this though is that I’m almost positive that this is wrong purely because I do not think Blyke would have healing powers along with his laser powers. Like I cannot see that happening and that fact makes me sad. But there’s just no way. Right? ???

    But now #2: someone else did it. And, yes this looks a bit iffy at first, but that’s the second thing I thought of and I literally have nothing else so sit down. Anyway, this is also a very interesting option, so I’m hyped about that. Because if this is the case then that means it’s either Elaine, Tanner, John copying one of their abilities (this entire post is a bit of a stretch why can’t I include this huh), or an unknown character. But the thing is. However unlikely it is, I can’t help but wonder if this is Kuyo’s doing. We don’t actually know his ability yet and he was watching Blyke last night. I think this is probably the most possible thing I’ve said so far, and that’s saying something, but yeah. Otherwise, there’s really nothing I can think of because I can’t even imagine why someone would 1. Be able to find out Blyke was hurt and 2. Sneak into Isen’s room to heal him. Anyway, I’m just confused in general. Excited, but confused.

    Call me stupid in the comments if I missed something else that this could mean because sometimes I just forget things or don’t think of things lol. And right now I especially feel like I’m missing something?

Sera:

    Okay, it’s been weeks and I still get excited because Sera’s learning everything about John. For multiple reasons: one, because she’s known him since the beginning and everything she learns just hits that much harder and two, because she’s probably the character who is going the most in depth with her discovery. She’s for sure the character that has cared the most about knowing who John really is and I really think because of her investigation into John, we’re going to learn something new about him too, maybe if she goes online or something. Maybe she’ll remember something personal that John said and that Isen didn’t know about and she’s able to look online about it and finds something, wouldn’t that be heartbreaking because not only did John betray her, but he was very genuine about it if that makes sense (it doesn’t)? Ignore me, I like to imagine things though and I can really see just Sera’s whole process as a whole go somewhere emotional for both her and John.

    The thing about this, though, is that I do think she’s going to confront John really soon. Probably like in a few episodes or something based on how she’s talking in this one to Isen, so not really sure if what I just talked about is going to fit, but maybe that stuff can happen in their conversation. I don’t know. I just want a moment where Seraphina and John really realize that they’ve lost their friendship and both get sad about it, is that a bad thing to want? Probably. But who knows, John’s in a weird state right now, I don’t really think he’ll get all sad and stuff, he’ll likely get angry or something. Wait, now I want a build up when Sera confronts John where you think he’s going to blow up on her or something, but suddenly he breaks down, letting us see the person behind all of his decisions and actions because John knows he’s a monster (I’m using the fact that he pretended to be a cripple for literally a long ass time to prove this) and that he can’t hide from that. I want to see John confront himself with that and I want Sera to be there. And I know I sound like satan right now, but screw it, this is already very unprofessional. I'm not even analyzing I’m just typing anything that I think.

    On a genuine note, though, I was very happy with Sera explaining how she didn’t think that cripple John was ‘faking’ it. She said, “All the stuff he used to preach to me about… I don’t think he was faking it. He meant everything he said. He regretted his previous actions… and he tried to change.” This is probably the first time another character has really thought about John’s developing character over these events rather than just what he did. Sera is the only one who truly reflected on John and I’m grateful for that. I have to admit, when I first read this episode, I got excited because I thought it kind of supported the big and dramatic claims I’ve been making recently about John, but it doesn’t really. It, however, does nothing to harm it so that’s a win :).

    Anyway, something very interesting to me was Seraphina’s question regarding John’s decision to become a cripple. I don’t think I’ve considered this in depth before so this question was pretty surprising to me to see from Sera. She doesn’t understand why John enrolled as a cripple in Wellston as opposed to a mid-tier or someone who would have less chance of being singled out in general. And I’m going to answer this based on what fits with what I’ve been saying about John. If you haven’t read it, go to my page and either scroll or search for episode 167 because I really tried to be detailed there. Anyways, I think John decided to be a cripple just because he felt like the farther away from his bad self he was, the better off he’d be because what Sera doesn’t understand yet is that John wasn’t just trying to hide from other people when he transferred to Wellston, he was also trying to hide from himself. He probably felt distance was the best way to do that and I use the fact that he moved from a town relatively far away to Wellston (according to Isen’s early interrogation of John) as evidence. Anyway, Seraphina doesn’t think about this or maybe just doesn’t believe that and says that it was a bad idea for John to pose as a cripple purely because it forced him to place himself in a position similar to his before he gained his powers, and obviously it didn’t lead to the best place last time. 

    I do think Seraphina is wrong in one thing, however. She thinks that John doesn’t want to be put in the same situation as he was before New Bostin, she labels that as his downfall, but I personally believe that John might have done this on purpose to feel as least powerful as he could. But I don’t really have any reasoning behind that though so, dead end. But something else that I disagree with Seraphina on was how she said, “And just like before… He couldn’t handle the pain of being a cripple.” I read that for the first time and just thought damn. That was such a cold statement. And in response all I have to say is that John was handling the pain of being a cripple just fine, it was only when he was forced to shed that that he lost grip of his facade. Seraphina is completely wrong on this point, and I hope she learns that in the future. Like, I’m sorry, but that statement could literally not be more incorrect. I’m stunned at how much that contradicts reality.

[theanxiouscupcake]

2/7!!! SERIOUSLY WHY DO I NEED THIS SO BAD

Oh boy, this took a while, I’m so sorry. Tough times, if I’m being honest with you. 

The prompt mash-up of - Royal AU + Florist AU - from this list.

And also it took a lot of debating, choosing who was to be royal and who was to be the florist. Jess seemed right for the princess and also the florist, but Nick seemed not at all right for a florist. (Don’t @ me about male stereotypes, I promise it was simply because it didn’t seem very in-character for him, lol.)

So here it is!!! (I wrote this in a haze so there’re bound to be loopholes. Forgive me.)

[ This is really fuckin’ long and my fever addled brain cannot be bothered to cut it down lol (would be a slow burn fic if written, so you can imagine), and if this pops unwanted on your dashboard and if you want to skip this, press the ‘J’ key. I’m not able to, for some Tumblr-y reason, insert a cut here. ]

Title: Lilies

Nicholas II is set to get engaged to Caroline (an American, not a royal), daughter of his mother’s bestfriend. He doesn’t want to get married but Caroline does.

Nick has always been private, and the state he’s from is quite small, so he’s not particularly ���famous”. Everyone knows the Royal Miller family because of Walt’s flamboyancy, though.   

In an effort to get him more involved with the wedding, Bonnie gets Nick to take up responsibility for at least one aspect

N: *eye roll* Like I actually have a say. Do what you want, Ma.B: Of course you have a say! It’s your wedding!!N: How about we change the bride?B: Nicky! N: *mutters* I was just… joking…B: *glares at him* N: Fine. I’ll be more “involved”. What do you have for me?B: *completely relaxed now, excited even* I still haven’t decided on… the flowers?N: *sighs* How about… I don’t know… Lilies? B: Are you sure? I was thinking roses would be- *cue turtle face* Alright, fine. Lilies. You’re in charge of the flowers for this wedding, then. N: What? Ma, come one, why don’t you just-B: Nick, you need to be more involved. I’m asking you take care of just the flowers for the wedding or would you rather handle the guests and-N: No! Fine. Flowers. Flower only. 

He does a little research online and finds Jess’s flower store, which recently gained popularity in lilies - procuring fresh ones as well as in floral arrangements; he books an appointment online.

Jess and Cece conversation about the exciting prospect of having a royal as Jess’s client; Spencer is uninterested; Cece clearly doesn’t like him and think Jess is too good for hi

Nick and Caroline meet at a restaurant - breakfast date - sort of updating each other on the wedding stuff. It’s very clear that Caroline is very interested in this marriage and Nick really isn’t.

After the “date”, He shows up at Jess’s store - Here, he bumps into her outside as she’s carrying multiple bouquets of lilies with Spencer trailing behind her, hands in his pocket. The lilies fall and Jess is really angry because they were for a “client” and she yells at Nick (who is at the moment, looking at Jess like “omg so beautiful”) and both of them have a yelling match eventually till Jess huffs and muttering that she’s late, hurries inside.

Jess changes out of her stained clothes and hurries to the office where she’s shook at seeing Nick; but still doesn’t really apologize or anything. 

J: *shrugging* Prince or not, it was your fault. 

Nick is amused by her “IDGAF who you are” attitude and is purposely cheeky as hell with her. She tries to ask him what sort of bouquets/lilies/arrangements he needs so she can pre-order and she realizes that he literally has no idea what he’s doing.

J: You don’t know what you’re doing, do you?N: *sigh* No. I mean… they’re flowers, I thought I was just supposed to pick but Ma made me in charge of The Flowers and Everything to do with it.J: Why don’t you ask your fiancee to help?[ Don’t have the entire convo in my head, but it’s clear Nick is trying to get her to offer to help him ] N: *turtle face* She wants me to be more… involved. I need to do this myself.J: Well, alright then. Just FYI, you’re terrible at it :)N: I’m aware. If I could just…. *sigh* I don’t know…J: Alright, fine. I’ll help you out with this, you’re welcome.N: Great. I will pay you double. I’ll see you at Orange Blossom Cafe tomorrow at 8 am and we’ll drive to the wedding location.

Next day, Nick and Jess drive down to the venue location - a lakeside open place, perfect for summers.

Jess is clearly entranced and while Jess walks around in awe, Nick watches her in, you know, awe. Struck by her eyes, the contrast with the lake, her yellow sundress against the green grass and such. - “This is just an objective observation,” he tells himself. 

On their way back, she brings up Nick’s disinterest (displayed by how he doesn’t have an opinion about things about the wedding, or doesn’t have any idea as to what is hapening.) 

He is like it’s none of your business and starts to get mad -

J: Well, if your Royal Majesty thinks it’s a private issue, just say so. There’s no need to yell. N: That’s not even the right title! And it’s not an issue. I’m marrying my childhood…friend. J: *laughs, unable to help herself* You’re marrying your friend? N: *purses his lips and drives quietly, clearly disturbed*

They part ways; Caroline comes to Jess’s office to have a look at the plans - they small talk - Caroline’s nice. A little worried and nervous; she might actually have some feelings for Nick - Caroline seems happy that Nick came up with this stuff though it’s actually Jess and Jess feels a little bad, even feels a little guilty for lying. That’s who Jess is. 

Jess later talks to Cece how messed up it is because Nick only thinks she’s a friend while Caroline actually might feel otherwise (Remember that so far, Nick is just a royal/client that Jess speculates about with friends. Dare I say, gossip? Not mean spirited though. She wonders how difficult it must all be, the obligations and stuff like that)

Bonnie decides to organise a small engagement party - a second one - for the benefit of Caroline’s American friends. Since it’s an impromptu decision, Jess is called in for a great pay for the floral arrangements (+ invitation to the engagement) and she works late nights for three nights in a row. 

With Nick overseeing it of course, and also because he’s being courteous. Over prep nights, they become friends; also interactions  between Jess and Caroline, Nick and Spencer. 

Over these nights, they get closer and they talk about things - Nick wants to be an author, Jess’s mother wanted her to be a teacher but this just appealed to her more; her father had a green thumb. 

They talk about exes, Nick’s friendship with Caroline, Jess’s relationship with Spencer. 

(In their heads: Jess can see that Nick doesn’t care for Caroline that way and wants to tell him that he deserves love but zips it. Nick feels Jess deserves better than Spencer)

Night before the Engagement 2.0, Jess finishes early so Nick offers to drop her back home. He waits in the driveway till she disappears into the house and drives away. When Jess enters the house, she realizes Spencer’s been cheating on her. 

Cece forces Jess to go to the party and is also Jess’s +1 because she needs to get her mind off Spencer. (Cece meets Schmidt here). Jess looks hella pretty (Like in Season 1′s Wedding episode) but Nick notices that something’s really off with her and eventually finds her crying in the toilet. 

Conversation in the photobooth - flipped Wedding - Engagement party ends with Jess dancing the chicken dance to Groovy Kind of Love. Reluctant Nick joins as Cece drags Schmidt in, who peer pressures Nick. Caroline on the sidelines, watching quietly.

Next day, like in the show, he and Cece help her get her things back (Nick even plays the “I’m a royal” card). Cece notices the seemingly soft corner Nick seems to have for Jess.

Cece and Jess talk about it like in Cece Crashes but Jess is like “He’s getting married Ceec” and Cece brings up the conversation about Nick’s platonic feelings for Caroline. Jess is dismissive. 

Couple of days later, they’re driving to the wedding location again (for whatever reasons. Maybe another recee type of thing?) and parallels to Cece Crashes. Ends with Jess just fleeing home after he buys her red roses. She is spiralling now, y’all. 

Confused Nick shows up at her (and Cece’s door), demands an explanation - enter a lame ass excuse - She goes to the bathroom to collect herself and they head out again but she’s weirdly on edge, battling this in her head. When they reach the wedding location, she’s able to calm down because they were where he was going to get married. Cece’s wrong.

More stolen moments as he watches her quietly do her job, instructing different people what needs to be done. Nick is feeling things and that makes him very confused and even dazed.

Work done. On their way back, of course the car breaks down. Nick calls Schmidt to pick them up - They’re silent and Nick feels like he would burst with all the thoughts in his head, so:

N: Why lilies? J: What do you- Oh. I… They were my dad’s favourite. He used to buy them for my mom when she was mad, or sad or just to celebrate. She liked wearing them in her hair. Reminds me of…  happier times. *tears up a little, waves her hands but the tears come anway*  A-And the colours that they come in, it’s amazing. That’s one of the reasons why I think any place can be made to look great in just lilies because of the variety.N: That’s… sweet. *Quietly hands her a handkerchief - obviously has his monogram in gold hueuhe*J: I’ll give it to you, fresh and clean. I promise. *sniffles* (She never would)

They stare at each other until Nick clears his throat.

J: What about you, why lillies?”N: “Honestly? Because they’re the first thing they came to mind.” *pauses* *looks at her* I’m glad. I’m glad you’re around. 

Cue an almost kiss and Nick’s phone rings - a worried Caroline. Explains the situtauon and mild tension when she realizes he’s with Jess. “Are you okay? Why do you sound so out of breath?” “No I-I’m fine. Caroline, can I call you in a while?” “Sure, Nick. Of course.”

They won’t make eye contact. Furiously debating in their heads if they should talk about it. Schmidt’s timely arrival.

Schmidt drives them back. Jess dozes off in the back and Nick keeps looking at her in the rearview mirror. Schmidt: Thin ice, buddy, thin ice. Nick shushes him but decides not to talk about it, thinking of the kiss, but outwardly is completely dismissive.

At Cece-Jess’s apartment - awkward goodbye - doesn’t go unnoticed by Schmidt

Jess tells Cece about the almost kiss and nearly cries because she can’t do that. The whole “cheating thing”. Begs Cece and Winston (also a childhood friend) to just come with her everywhere and be the buffer. 

Enter Ryan Geaxinue, a cousin of Nick’s who has arrived for the wedding. ;) - Jess doesn’t have feelings for him per se, but they do have a one night stand. Nick is damn pissed when he finds out. [ A week before the wedding ]

They argue a lot about it, starts with passive aggressive comments and ends in a huge argument -  How it ends:

N: Jess, come on, I can’t be the only one feeling this way! J: Nick, you’re getting married. Married.N: I don’t love her, Jess.J: *scoffs* What and you love me?N: *is stunned and quiet*J: *bitter laugh* Let’s not get carried away, Nicholas. *shakes her head and leaves*

Cue angst. Lot of it.

Nick and Bonnie have a HUGE argument, Walt intervenes but that only pisses Nick off even more and he storms off. Caroline and Nick are on lunch date and she tries to coax it out of him - “…Nick, we’re friends. You can talk to me.” - but he is tightlipped and denies anything is wrong. 

Jess is sad too. Two days of running into each other awkardly while she’s workingts to avoid a run-in with Nick. He knows he should just stop visiting but he loves pain and wants to see her. 

Third day, she can’t take it and decides to just go to the venue really early to make plans and delegate later. Unfortunately, as she’s wrapping up he arrives - he wanted some peace. 

She starts to leave but he calls out to her, and she reluctantly joins him by the lake 

N: Hey Jess, what if I wasn’t getting married…J: What? *startled*N: You kept saying that I was getting marrieed… When I said I can’t be… the only one…J: Nick….N: Jess, please. What if I wasn’t getting married?J: But you are….N: That doesn’t answer my question.J: You are getting married. My answer doesn’t matter. You’re getting married in four days. Next week this time, you’ll be on your honeymoon. It doesn’t matter. N: What a mess… Why is everything so complicated…J: Not really, Nick. Caroline deserves love. You deserve love. N: *mutters* It’s not that simple….J: It is. When it comes to love, it is simple. N: Jess…J: Here are the final plans. *hands over papers*. I’ll have Rose contact you and she will take care of the rest. I don’t think it’s a good idea for us to be around each other. Goodbye, Nick. *kisses his cheek and stands up.* Nick watches her leave and is sad. 

Nick goes home where Walt is waiting for him. Talks to him about love and stuff + parts of ‘don’t think about it’ monologue. Nick is worried about Bonnie though, but Walt says that he’ll make sure she comes around - “I owe you that much, son.” [ The amends that Walt and Nick never really made properly on the show ]

Nick talks to Caroline and they break off their engagement. Caroline is sad, but she gives it up gracefully. Caroline has a condition - “Only if I can still go to our honeymoon trip, by myself.” Nick says that they both deserve love and Caroline laughs “Wow you’re in love with her aren’t you” - Glimpse of their friendship.

Next morning, he shows up at Jess’s door and tells her that he’s called off the engagement. 

Lot of fluff. LOT OF IT. So much fluff. 

Some drama with Bonnie but everything’s okay in the end. 

They get married two years later. Caroline’s found somebody too, and everyone’s happy. 

Notes [ Important to the story’s finer details but not key. If I included these arcs as well, this post wouldn’t never end lmao ]:

Winston and Jess are also childhood friends. He’s Jess’s partner at the florist store. Business-wise. Owner of a security firm. Meets Aly, in charge of the royal family’s security.

Bonnie isn’t a fan of Jess, especially when she starts suspecting Nick’s feelings, but Walt loves Jess.

Jess encourages Nick to write and Nick starts to write The Pepperwood Chronicles. Caroline happens to read it once and when she reads aboiut Jessica Night, that’s when she realizes his feelings for her. A substory plot would be her internal conflict and unsurety after this. 

Oh boy that’s long. Not gonna lie, this fic escalated so much in my head and boy was it a lot of work. I have half a mind to actually write this, lmao. This would be a 2-part, really fucking long slow burn fic :3 

Feel free to ask me questions!! I might have missed a lot of things because I didn’t re-read it, so whatever you think I might have missed out on, do ask!!

[iwanttospeakmymind]

Dec. 10, 2017.

It’s 5:30 in the morning. Holy fuck, I can’t sleep. I took a power nap and now i’m awake as shit. Let’s get to updating on my life, shall we?

I’ll keep Alan & I’s shit short and simple. We gave it a second shot, things were good for a week, I went home during the long weekend, and found out mid-next week that he cheated on me during the weekend. I had my mistakes, he had his. But it doesn’t mean I would cheat on someone. Men ain’t shit.

Okay sure. We weren’t dating. We were nowhere near exclusive among our friends, but we were talking. We were holding hands and he slept over the night before I left and we cuddled. That’s not what normal friends do. But over the weekend, our friend Eva’s best friend came down to Sac from SLO and he just thought it was okay go kiss her, make out, dry hump, and continue it the next morning, all done without even the thought of me. She came out with hickies. That’s considered cheating, right? Lmao, I hate men.

I later on found out from a friend, Jenica, who was present at the time. Funny thing here was, once Alan and Eva’s best friend made out, Alan and Kevin quickly told everyone there not to tell me anything about this. Their reasoning was, “they wanted Alan to be the one to tell me.” In the end, he never told me, I had to find out myself. I don’t know about other people, but in this case, my friends should’ve been the ones to tell me. Sure, he did the crime. But as my friends, y’all should keep me in check and not make me look stupid in front of so many people. While people knew, I knew nothing. He tried apologizing to me after he figured out that I found out about everything, but cheaters only feel sorry after they get caught up. Alan, you were never sorry. You never thought about me like you claimed you did. You never loved me like you claimed you did either. You’re a fucking joke. Same with Kevin. Kevin always had a way with manipulating our friends and became so toxic, I never knew how toxic he was until I cut him off. I am so happy and I cannot believe I had to deal with him all this time. I’m happy with these two out of my life. And sadly, I basically cut off Eva too. Those three are a package. I can’t continue a friendship with Eva if all I’m doing is acting fake. So I cut her off too.

Hah. So much for keeping it short. Sorry, I just wanted to get it off of my chest. I originally planned to vent on Tumblr right when it happened, but I had so much going on, I had no time. Now that time has passed, my anger has subsided and I’m doing better. But anyways, onto the next update.

Jerick. Hi. Hello. It’s been 8 1/2 months since our breakup. The only connection I’ve had with you since then is updates from your social media and seeing you at certain Fil-Am events. I have a confession to make. Lately, I’ve been thinking about you a lot more than usual. I think it’s because I heard about you through Gabe.

So here’s the breakdown. My close friend, Nicole, picked up triplets this semester, one being Gabe. Gabe’s girlfriend, Jamee, attends UOP and recently got picked up by Jerick. Jerick!!! What are the fucking odds. When I found out, I was so shocked. I told Nicole and she thought that was hella weird.

Of one of the all-nighters I pulled, one of them I spent bonding with Mikaela, Brevin, Kai, Alvean, and Gabe. Getting closer to Gabe was something I was not expecting, but over time my curiosity of if Jerick has ever mentioned me to him rose. I began to get curious and I wanted to ask.

Eventually I did. Before our Asian Civ class, I decided to tell him. “Hey Gabe... This is really weird to say but I was recently on my explore page and saw that your girlfriend got picked up by my ex.” “Really? Jerick’s your ex?” Yeah, something similar went along like that. He was shocked when I told him, because afterwards he told me, “Jamee told me Jerick is gonna transfer to Sac State next year and he has an ex here, who’s in SP and in CORE. He doesn’t want to join SP until a year after he transfers here because he feels like her and her friends hate him.”

Okay, the last part made me smile, but in a way where it didn’t make me happy, it made me slightly confused. Maybe it’s because we broke up that he thinks I hate him, but I don’t. Alright, I used to. I used anger to cover up my hurt over the break up. But I don’t anymore. If anything, I miss having him in my life. I know it’s better to have us live separate lives though, because if he was in my life as a friend, I would still love him wholeheartedly as a significant other. And that’s not good.

I do want him to join SP though. He is a joy to be around and there’s so many good people in SP. I don’t want him to miss out on such a good opportunity to meet new people just because of me. If he attends Sac State, might as well join SP to meet new people and get a good group of friends started.

Not gonna lie though... I’m starting to have thoughts of hope. My hopes of us getting back together are appearing again, knowing he’s still thinking of transferring to Sac State. It makes me hopeful that we might bump into each other and we might try to respark things again. I really don’t want to get back together, but I do. My heart still looks for him, despite my attempts of looking around for better people. I still believe he’s the only one compatible for me. I can’t see myself in a genuine, comfortable relationship with anyone but him.

I don’t know. My heart’s a mess. I’m planning on deactivating my social media during break, so I’ll be on tumblr more. Maybe deactivating them will clear up my mind on what I really want right now and in life.

See ya in a bit, Tumblr.