#and i got harassed and sent death threats years ago for it

[r3dr0pe]

The fact that "kinning" has been slowly morphed into "character I relate to" irks me so badly as a spiritual kin

Because of that correlation, whenever I tell someone I kin Teruteru and they know his character they get weirded out by me because they're like "why would you kin him" like ??? I DIDN'T CHOOSE THIS!!!!

[atherflame-theconcubus]

Important announcement in the undercut. This is a long..

OK, so a lot has been going on so I’m just gonna say this now. Between the false harassment document, a document from a year ago that’s now just getting traction again, and then an anonymous person seemingly spreading it around from malicious intention. The community genuinely sucks.

Sucks considering I literally just came up with two different alternate universes yesterday that I do not plan on keeping (if anyone wants them, I can give you some rundowns on them)

I’m not abandoning my friends from the community, and I will keep interacting with them with the AU that I’ve already gotten built up upon a lot, and I will hopefully at some point talk about the other AUs for the community I have already listed on my pinned post, and possibly write for some of them over on my A03 account, but I will not be making any more, nor do I want to interact with this community anymore.

As someone who was formally in the buddies community (for a brief rundown on that community, a group of a bunch of children, deciding to get together to make death threat videos to another child who happened to be making troll animal abuse videos that got way out of hand and has a lot of genuinely problematic stuff, including philia, porn, incest, porn, and Loli art. All of which I have unfortunately seen, and become desensitized to) I never thought I would say this, but this community is worse than that one. Because even with how toxic they all are, that community is mostly children. Heck the biggest person in the community/founder of it is possibly 12 right now.

I would sooner go back to that community and apologize to people who accused me of harassment then ever wish to have a positive thought about the sun and moon show community. The community really is that bad.

And I stress this a lot because most of the people perpetuating the harassment in the bud community are children, who most likely don’t know any better. All the people perpetuating the harassment in this community are adults. And people are labeled as harassers, just standing with victims of horrible people.

All in all. This community somehow managed to take the crown for the most toxic community I’ve ever been in. And that is a lot consistently that this community would not be worse than the hate community.

And the biggest reason I say that is because despite me leaving the community and barely interacting with any of it which actually has decent content and is giving us a story with all the characters buds has, I can still make alternate universes and have fun while doing it there. If I make an alternate universe here I have to fear the big blog or other people trying to pressure me into including incest in it.

All in all. I’m saying this, but I hate this community more than the buds hate community. And I can consistently compare it to a cult.

If anyone is getting into this community from the Gacha community, I have recommendations on blogs you should avoid as they will willingly harass you for just trying to stand by people who are sent inappropriate artwork for just liking family dynamics

Dana-the-control-brain

Cephalon ghost

Witchy

Alexandraisyes

Ayyy-imma-ninja (mainly because she’s been standing by and letting people be harassed by her friends for just standing up for victims of harassment from people sending them Gore and corrective rape porn )

Pixelchills (I still genuinely do not want to believe that they actually participated in that fucking document, especially after I tried to clear a situation and keeping them from getting dragged in. I genuinely can’t look at their content the same anymore )

Shattered-sparks (they are someone who I trust, however, I currently now have conflicted feelings because of a document recently shared. I have yet to read it and I would like to trust my friend saying that since the document shattered has improved, however, I’m aware of the fact that everyone would be comfortable with them.)

A-Voice-For-The-Victims (I understand what they’re trying to do, but the way they’re going about it, at least from how I can see it, is only hurting everyone. They’re dragging something that should’ve been dead a long time ago on for longer than it should be because a random anon purposely dug up a year old document, and from what they said, they’re gonna continue to be a stalker. I get what they’re trying to do, but they’re just going about it in the worst way possible) (extra edition here, they just pulled a manipulation tactic. That is another reason why I do not feel safe with them in tsams community.)

My overall experience in this community was fun in the beginning because I got dragged into it by good people, then in the midpoint, I got scared about shipping my comfort ship because of the aforementioned family dynamics in the show, But a bunch of big users in the community have managed to make me hate a community for a show I already disliked.

I also want to skate this right now before I end the post.

DO NOT HARASS ANYONE I MENTIONED. IF YOU DON’T LIKE THEM JUST BLOCK AND GO ABOUT YOUR DAY.

Extra little addition due to something that happened that I’m gonna keep mostly private, the only people outside my friend group that I am interacting with in the sun and moon show community are the role-play blogs, as generally speaking I am 90% sure they are safe people interact with, plus it’s just fun seeing the chaos that goes down over there.. what has been stated above still applies.

[sweetie-peaches]

Hi everyone, hi I’m not a sweetie, is a-ghost, and anyone in your little discord my posts are being shared to. Hello.

I would like to apologize sincerely for my continued harassment and misconduct, clearly it insulted your minuscule egos. I am not afraid of you. You do not know me, you do not know who I am. I made a joke , you got mad. Deal with it.

If you think I’d apologize for anything at all you’re dumber then I thought you were.

Let’s remember why you got posted to twitter. And why I did, shall we? You got posted because of your ableism and defense of abuse. I got posted because someone from your posse of crows sent me a death threat. Let’s be fucking real.

Anyway, you are a bully. That’s all you are.

And for your question, yes, I am a child, I have never lied about being a child. but what does that make you when you fume at the idea of me making fun of you? You are twenty something years old, and yet you don’t act like it.

Does it make you mad? When I make fun of you? When my friends talk about you? Do you type up those supervillain ass posts because you think it makes you look cool to your sad excuse of a fanbase?

A few months ago you told me that you understood the harassment I got, do you? You are the fucking cause of it. You are the reason we get harassed.

And fuck it. I’ll say it, what you say makes me fucking pissed, it makes me upset. At least I have the balls to say that.

I hope you look at yourself in the mirror and feel bad for what you say. I hope your words fucking stick to you forever.

Sincerely, fuck you.

And to everyone who follows me, and to my mutuals, and to anyone who sees my page and feels just a bit of joy, thank you. I know I don’t make it easy, I know I’m stupid, but you care enough to see me and like what I have to say. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I’m not going to be online. I’m tired.

Goodnight. And im sorry i have to make this post.

[garoujo]

MY FINAL MESSAGE TO MY TUMBLR HARASSER :

hi ! as you guys have probably seen on dash, in tags, in your inbox there is an anon + a blog @/ffflowers going out of their way to not only spread lies but also to completely try everything in their power to harass and ‘expose’ me.

if you’ve had them in your asks or seen their posts you would’ve seen a link to a callout post from 2021 regarding a conversation that took place on an old blog of mine. their agenda with this callout post is to ‘prove’ that i apparently ignored this completely and got ‘run off’ tumblr without taking any sort of accountability for what was said or making any sort of apology.

this is not true, back in 2021 i took and still take full accountability for what i said and have never denied it, i made 3/4 separate apologies at that time, one of which was my pinned post for around a week and have continued to grow and do better as a writer and as a person since.

this particular discourse was resolved at that time, i never avoided confrontation and admitted i was in the wrong because i was, i was caught off guard and panicked with a topic that i felt intimidated by — i apologise and take accountability for my own ignorance.

while on the subject of this discourse post, i’d just like to prove my statement in this post where i said this particular situation was not what drove me to leave tumblr temporarily— this can be proven by these screenshots. as you can see, the callout post was dated on the 8th of June 2021.

like i said again in my previous post about this, this did not drive me off of tumblr — i owned up to everything i said, even went back to tag every post regarding the discourse so people could read through and make their own opinion — i did not run from this. i continued to write on this blog for months after this discourse which can be proven by the literal date in which it says my blog deactivated at the top — 20th of October 2021. almost 5 months after the callout post. either i’m a slow runner or my statement is correct. again, this was 2 years ago and this person has harassed me ever since.

but while i’m on the topic, the reason i actually left that blog was due to the anon who is continuing to harass me now. i received consistent and constant death threats by the same anon for months, following the same pattern — when i stopped posting their asks, they then decided to try a different approach. they began to force themselves into other peoples safe spaces to tell them they “couldn’t write certain characters because i selfshipped with them and they belonged to me” before going on to send those creators hate and death threats under the guise that i sent them — also not true.

i left tumblr for my own safety, this anon has my private and personal details, my social media and my face reveals but i refuse to let them ruin my safe space for me again. they’ve began to add more to their stories with sudden plagiarism and ‘black fishing’ being suddenly mentioned into their posts which is again absolutely not true, my guess is their current posts weren’t getting as much attention as they expected and they had to make it a little more eye catching.

they’ve also been consistently sending me anon asks hoping to bring relevance to the situation by urging me to post about it, they will send me hate before deciding to try and pretend to be another, nicer anon urging me to ‘hear my side of the story’ or showering me in compliments about how they ‘need an explanation because they know i’m too nice for that’ again, it’s obvious it’s them since they go back to being horrible when they’re ignored, and quite frankly it’s terrifying the lengths they’ll go to harass and manipulate me.

this morning while i was at work i had received an anon urging me to do that exact thing, to talk about the discourse, they sent me consistent asks until i made my post talking about how i will no longer be mentioning it on dash, they then sent me another nastier ask immediately after before then going to post on their blog @/ffflowers almost immediately after that.

also this is part two of them harassing me here and the reason i left my last nsfw blog + them doing the exact same thing they’re doing now, they have a pattern — they will wait a few months before bringing themselves back into my inbox, when their hate asks to me are left unanswered then they play their way into other peoples inboxes hoping they will post + bring attention to the ‘discourse’ they are trying to spread. also another post i’ve made about this situation lastnight here.

they’ve become increasingly more angry and violent the longer they’ve been with me, i’ve been doxxed, threatened, consistently told to die and kms + had my character ripped to shreds on a site where i simply post writing for fun. i apologise to anyone who’s been dragged into this or harassed by this person, they are nasty and this probably won’t be the end of them either — but i refuse to let them drive me off of this app again.

i’ll be taking a small break for a few days to calm down, anon will remain off so they can’t contact me because at this moment i don’t feel safe and will be laying low on my personal acc for a while until i feel better. i apologise again for everything, the posts and my actions included, but i have no secrets.

emmie <3

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[mikurulucky]

has tumblr always been crawling with proshippers and proship views like this? has it decreased recently after the mass exodus? or did it get worse?

Since 2013 before I even saw anyone criticize that shit on a regular basis, hell I think people who criticized ships of that nature (adult/minor, incest, abusive, etc etc) they were called sjws back then. 2014 was when I saw the criticism and got confused because those kind of ships were so normalized to me, and then I saw death threats get sent to proshippers which only pushed me further into that sphere. Took me some years to actually hear out the other side and get out of the proship side of tumblr for good.

As far as whether it got worse or not, I think it's mostly the same as it always was for the most part, but it did get bad on twitter prior to twitter going to shit.

Also still seeing the occasional antishipper wishing death on proshippers which makes me think "Bro... that ain't gonna help, stop that." Like, it's better to educate others about this stuff than to go the aggressive route like that, and sadly a lot of the aggressive threat hurling varieties tend to be quite young.

Also took me until a couple years ago to witness a proshipper sending death threats to an anti, that's when I realized that the aggressive harassing types are on both sides of the whole thing and that basically just prolongs the proship issue and it ruins others' mental health. Like, if you post death wishes towards proshippers, a young or even underage person groomed into the proship sphere is gonna look at that and that'll traumatize them, or worse. It harms more than it helps, same goes with proshippers sending that shit to antishippers, how do y'all think underage antishippers feel about that? That shit's gotta stop on both sides if we want this whole thing to improve.

Sorry for the ramble, but long story short:

[ookikufurikabutte]

anon that loves all of your trans art and asked for your ko-fi

dude i just saw your post about being banned from twit a few days ago possibly by proshippers :((( i'm so sorry, that's such dick move to pull when you're just setting a boundary. please be safe, i've had to deal with those folks before and it was NOT a pleasant experience

thank you so much 😭

i’m glad i happened to be awake like 30 minutes after they sent the email that i was suspended because within 5 minutes of appealing i was able to get my account reinstated.

i just will never get it tbh. it’s always “block and curate your own content” but someone will always be a hypocrite when you DO do that.

and i have dealt with them in the past too orz.. let’s just say they preach anti-harassment but i got sent gore, death threats, and was psychoanalyzed through the screen like 4 years back (ppl were telling me i had mental disorders i didn’t have over this).

it’s just funny how i said “please don’t follow me if you like xyz” and i wake up the next day suspended…. like damn.

[ivyial]

hii, how are you? I stumbled upon your page and I started to check it out, upon doing that I came across one of your eagleone posts, and how you view the ship or how you view people who dislike the shop entirely for no reason at all. and to be honest I couldn't agree more. your choice of words and how you describe just makes my heart feel hope again. hope that there's actual human beings that are using a gift called a brain for once.

it honestly drives me crazy to see people literally sending death threats and literal racism to those who ship a ship that isn't quite popular. another account just a few days ago that speaks alot about eagleone and analyses their scenes and dialogues, got literal death threats that would me a grown adult puke from how disgusting to know such human beings exist.

( didn't realize to be that long LMAO )

anyway I just wanted to say that I absolutely love all your eagleone content literally makes my day <3

i- 🥺🥺❤❤ omg thank you so much anon

i've never been one for ship wars. what bothers me the most about the eagleone discourse (and the current cleon discourse on twitter as well) is how likening characters to siblings (eagleone) or saying one views the other as a kid (cleon - insane take but anyway) eventually becomes "these characters are LITERALLY siblings, they are so sibling coded to me that it essentially makes them actual siblings" and creates a breeding ground for harassment and accusations of proshipping.

shipping has always been a matter of personal taste, and it's one of those few things in fandoms where there's no need to debate about conflicting ships. in the end, you can just agree to disagree. i like X for those reasons and you like Y for those. that's it. ships are usually better enjoyed with fellow shippers. it only risks becoming an echochamber when people start to take it so seriously that their group of shippers decides to hate on everyone else, and eventually, to harass them.

which is unfortunately what is happening right now. i'm very aware of the death threats and everything else, and it's sad and infuriating to realise that fandoms will never change. idk how old you are anon, or if you were around on tumblr when it happened, but a few years ago, the voltron fandom was a big thing around here (i apologise in advance to everyone who had to live through that lmfao). klance was arguably the biggest ship in the fandom (keith x lance), so the shippers were actively campaigning for it to become canon. it got to the point where klance shippers sent the show creators cupcakes filled with glass shards to convince them to canonise the ship. I WISH I WAS FUCKING KIDDING

this stuff's not new, bullying fellow fans isn't new unfortunately, and bullying actors or producers isn't either. if i remember correctly, when supernatural s4-5 (i guess) were airing back in the 2000s, dean's love interest jo was removed from the show supposedly because fangirls lost their shit and sent hate mail to producers. but that's all speculation, i can't find a reliable source for that.

i wish people would stop taking everything so seriously and get this nasty over fiction. however, it's unlikely that it will happen, because fandoms are filled with kids who don't know any better, are sometimes fully raised by the internet and then turn into immature adults. it's rare to find spaces in fandoms were you can genuinely have fun and create content without being policed by 12 year olds, but when you can, it makes the fandom experience a lot better.

i don't put much content out there, but i'm glad to see that the few posts i write are appreciated!! i'm working on an eagleone fic rn so it definitely makes me want to keep working on it regularly and create more content 😭

[yelena-bellova]

I can’t see Taylor Swift the same way after the whole All Too Well 10 Minute Version thing. I’m not even a Jake Gyllenhaal fan. And while I do think what he did he was really shitty especially when you consider the age gap and the fact that she was twenty (gosh I just realized I’m the same age she was) and he was much older made it 10x worse. BUT that does not mean that the fans have to harass him about something he did 10 years ago. Like it’s perfectly fair to be mad or dislike him, but they basically cyberbullied him and sent death threats. And I understand Taylor is still mad at him, and she has every right to be, but she also has a right to tell her fans, “Look everybody. This is not cool. Do not bully a man I had a bad relationship with almost a decade ago.” I think she did say something like “picture you and your ex instead of me and my ex when you listen to this,” but I think that was before the Swifties cyberbullying Jake got ugly.

See, this is why I only like Taylor Swift’s songs and don’t care about her fandom.

Yeah, the Swifties have been absolutely horrid to Jake and Maggie. I think Maggie had a premiere or some big achievement around the same time as ATW10 came out and the Swifties relentlessly went after her on social media. Totally overshadowed her moment. Hell, Jake was getting death threats. I don’t care how shitty a boyfriend you were, nobody deserves to have their life threatened.

The word Swiftie now triggers eye rolls and groans in society and I just don’t want to be associated at all with them lol

[black-butterfly-system]

Apologies to a Friend

Some time ago, I started talking with a guy who I felt could understand me and who I thought I could understand back. I had been reading him for some time, because he was struggling with issues I felt identified with, but most specially I felt identified with his defiant attitude of pursuing freedom, 'cause this unbreakable will is part of my core.

Mixing deep suffering with hope is describing my journey through this life, so I was glad I had found what seemed to be a kindred soul. I had lost my best friend after telling her about my DID, I had already lost my previous best friend to death, few years ago, it's hard to find someone who can understand me, because I think only someone who has suffered can, and even harder to find someone who has suffered and genuinely wants to heal, and keeps his sensitivity, and is still willing to fight.

Now even harder to talk about multiple personality disorder with someone to share our experiences and that at the same time keeps the previous chime.

The issue is that I didn't know how to talk to him, but I felt attracted (as a friend) to him, as if we had a spiritual mission together, so much, I can't stop thinking about him, not even after I had already given him my insight about how to heal, I didn't want to give so much information because I do know how crazy MK groups are, but also, I know the despair of trying to heal and not knowing what to do, and I wanted to spare more people that pain, so I shared what I knew anyway.

I got online harassment because of it as a clear threat for speaking too much. So, I was paranoid. And if just waking up to my DID wasn't enough, without friends to talk deeply about it, I sent him a message, then I started to read his personal profile and I got heavily triggered with his posts. I don't blame him for this, and I don't blame me either, because despair is the natural reaction to seeing horror (most especially if you're already acquainted) and most specially when you are sensitive and empathetic.

Also, I have been switching personalities like crazy, I still can't identify them clearly because I just recently woke up to the truth of being a system and I still don't have control over these switches, I only notice them because and after I start to feel/think/write differently. Right now I'm in a dominant fragment of mine, the host, who has a richly developed personality.

I'm sorry this guy met me in one of my worst moments, because I know I gave him the paranoid and obsessive "side" of me as my first introduction. If I could talk again to him, I would tell him that I'm sorry and that there's more in me than just fear and that I would like him to meet those other fragments of myself, and I would ask him for comprehension and patience, because I'm doing the best I can with all this information and circumstances I'm in.

Also, I'd tell him that when someone is very reserved I feel fear and automatically I start a self defensive attitude of suspiciousness, I tend to be super outgoing. But I also believe clear communication and empathy can solve any situation, allowing me to relax and be vulnerable, just as vulnerable as I'm writing right now. I hope he can reconsider the situation, or he may want to wait until I can manage and recognise my “alters” better, so I don’t make a mess out of literally nowhere, just because of the intrusive thoughts, I’m still trying to get some understanding of myself.

That's all.

[lionews]

"Tf? Why did they put you on a beware for calling out transphobia? Do they realize that Lioden is very much heavily supportive of LGBTQ+?"

""Oh, also, one of the points was, "Xyz artist won't let me follow them on Instagram this must be og anons fault since og anon follows xyz artist!""

I decided not to leave after all so I'll give a vague and brief summary.

Like the other Anon (orange) said they got upset because an artist they followed removed them as a follower.

The beware has a lot of edited and faked screenshots, accounts they made to send threats to themself, posts that had nothing to do with them, screenshots of my close friends story, issues from 5 years ago, claimed I was misgendering them while they absolutely refused to refer to me correctly, dming my friends about me, screen shots of them actively stalking me (???), and alot more I don't want to get into.

I've been trying to avoid this ass for years and I've been block evaded, harassed, sent death threats, my art and OCS stolen etc. it's just some stupid fucking shit always with them.

I'll admit that I was an ass when I was younger but I've apologized for it and they forgave me. I changed how I act towards others and bettered myself as a person.It's driving me insane especially knowing nothing I say will change anything. Now they want me to message them as if I'm going to unblock them only to apologize for shit they lied about. I'm not going to do that.

They have my old phone number too which scares me because one mistake on my end and they're going to doxx me (⁠˘⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠˘⁠).

.

[traumatizedjaguar]

I was expelled from my first college. There was this group of students there that kinda bullied me and I became suicidal and started self-harming and then I eventually got angry at them because I blamed them for causing that and I kinda got in the mentality of a school shooter and I harassed them really badly and texted them a bunch of death threats. I transferred colleges and got help and I thought it was behind me until one day I randomly got harassed online by one of them and I again went overboard with my revenge. I've worked really hard to redeem myself but sometimes I feel like I'm forever scarred by the experience.

Same anon as before. That wasn't the first time I did something like that. A few years ago, there was this really homo/transphobic anti-sj blog on this site that was run by a minor who would stalk my tag and blog and reblog my posts just to call me names and talk about me in their FAQ just so their followers would harass me. One day I felt really provoked by them so I sent them messages back trying to convince them to stop being homophobic and I tried to be really gentle about it while they were blatantly nasty. They then said that I harassed them to the point of a suicide attempt and told their followers to attack me again. That person was pretty nasty but I still feel guilt knowing I may have caused a suicide attempt.

Thanks for sharing. Also if you’re even around anymore as this is an edit: I doubt you harassed them to the point of suicide they could be using that as a way to control you and make you feel like the guilty party. I’m sorry you were abused/bullied by your peers.

[alligatorjesie]

Here we are again for the next fucking installment of ‘Why would I, a harasser, be harassed by the people I’m harassing?'

Well ain’t that a fuckin mystery of the century.

Are you fucking daft? Did you fail school at grade 4? Do you not understand that your actions have consequences? You really can’t fucking figure out why anyone might tell you something like this?

  YOU @reylossaidwhat​?

With the blog that is dedicated to showing every anti out there these years old recipes of ‘bad reylos’ who have long been removed from the fandom your actively harassing thus causing shit out of fucking nothing.

And the only ask you’ve been bold enough to post is calling reylos ‘unhinged racist bitches’ and ‘fucked up people’

I suspect you might have others but since they probably have death threats in them you’re not bold enough to post those ones. Like they don’t prove my point over and fucking over.

The shit you’re doing isn’t helping anyone, you’re just causing more harassment in a fandom that already sees a lot of harassment. You’re only causing more harassment to Yourself, because I’m not blocking you any fucking time soon.

I’m fucking tired of seeing this shit in my fucking fandom and I’m doing more about it then you fucking are.

Why would anyone tell you something like ‘Your family is bleeding because of your actions’? Are you so fucking stupid you can’t understand why anyone in this fandom would be Begging you to stop? Do you think merely mentioning blood is implying they want you to bleed? You do fucking understand analogies right?

You know what, no I don’t think you fucking do. 

Let’s take a really short segway out of the topic at hand to clear this one up for you because you seem really fucking confused about the context of what was said here and if your more recent post proves anything is you don’t understand a lot of fucking things so lemme help you out here: This post isn’t implying Finn is like Snoke. I just don’t even fucking know were you got that implication. 

This post is implying that Ben doesn't like people touching Rey. 

Fuck me there could be a third image of the Queen of England, there is no relation to Finn and Snoke other than they touched Rey.

No one is comparing Finn to Snoke here. You’re a fucking moron.

Now back to the topic at hand:

This is a translation for one, so we can’t assume anything that was originally sent is even being directly translated. I’m not incredibly familiar with languages but this looks like Arabic? Not exactly known for it’s direct translations to English. Here, lemme show you:

Yeah, it’s not fucking exact.

And secondly, I’m not sure how the fuck you read this as anything else but a heartfelt plea to ask you to fucking stop.

You’re stressed out? Because some reylos are asking you to stop harassing them and their fandom? I was sent this anon a few weeks ago by an anti:

So you’re going to have to understand and I mean this with my whole heart;

I don’t give a fuck.

I don’t fucking care that your stressed out over reylos getting up in your shit because you were actively harassing them.

I get shit like this fucking weekly. I have been getting sent death threats since I was fucking 9, so I’m not sorry. I don’t care that you were stressed out over your own fucking actions during a time period EVERYONE WAS STRESSED OUT.

They could have been a lot meaner to you but instead they begged and fucking pleaded that you fucking stop. If this is causing you stress then try and deal with ACTAL DEATH THREATS EVERY WEEK FOR YEARS and see how fucking well that works for you.

You’re upset some reylos used some colorful language to ask you to stop harassing them? Get sent a few of these every week for 7 years straight for being in the reylo fandom or conversely your entire life for being in the furry fandom and come back to me:

You and You Alone have to power to stop this shit when the fuck ever.

An eye for a fucking eye mate.

Don’t want to be harassed? Stop harassing.

 It’s just that fucking simple.

[findingschmomo]

hey everyone, quick psa: commenting on a fic is a privilege not a right. comments can be turned off in a heartbeat. authors can delete comments as they please.

over a year ago, someone left a semi rude comment on a story of mine. it upset me so i deleted it (and didnt think to screenshot it lol). this anonymous user then decided to start harassing me throughout my stories. i kinda want to talk about it.

It started like this

to more aggressive:

I turn on comment moderation. and then, i get a notif from a DIFFERENT story of mine.

first of all: dont ever trauma dump on a random stranger on the internet. to think how this could have affected someone else other than me. also having a bad experience doesnt excuse bad behavior. I also dont really care? this comment reeks of entitlemtn that you are trying to couch with your sudden backstory.

also this is a really bad attempt at an apology. that finally 'im sorry' is laughable. i dont even want an apology??? because i dont care. honestly. just let it go.

anyway, i delete it and then i get this

i dont think this person understands what the word insecure means

i tag all my fics appropriately and extensively

i delete that one (and its quite fun tbh, since it seems to upset them so god damn much).

Now, this anon has decided to drop a coment on A THIRD story of mine:

i tagged this story with the 'chose not to use archival warnings' which i dont think this person comprehends. but also its a moot point, because their real anger is being silenced. i dont have to have a reason to delete comments on my own story. let alone THESE COMMENTS ON A DIFFERENT STORY COMPLETELY AND THEREFORE ARE JUST HARASSMENT/SPAM at this point.

After this they decide to use a different tactic: pretending ot be other people who have heard this salacious rumor about this rusame writer out there mass deleting shit. (i dont, but whatever, not the point)

this comment ^^ is again on a completely different story of mine. can we note the date on this one. I left the user because its just guest (ive been protecting this persons identity because they did use a name previously, although it isnt tied to any account) so that I could show the time stamp. 2021.

its Oct 20, 2022, and I got YET AGAIN another comment from definitely not this person.

again this is so sad. like, its been months my guy. what are you doing. no one gives a shit. there is no YT vid about me. also the 'didnt realize they were a hetalia author' bit is what really sends me. ALL of the stories mentioned in this debocle are hetalia. so how could this video takedown of me not mention that?

anyway. ive had worse commenters before (who've sent me repeated death threats, for example, and ive had to get AO3 admin involved to stop it). this person is no where near that level. i just find their persistence laughable and also really really sad.

but regardless, i want to make this clear: It's the author's story. They're in charge of comment moderation. you are not entitled to the space. enjoy your free content and leave people alone

[sapphia]

Lindsay Ellis has quit, and I have some reflections.

So a while ago I made this post about breadtube cancel culture, using Lindsay Ellis and Jenny Nicholson as examples. I made it before the Raya cancelling, and before the Harriet Tubman slave fic, and every time there’s been new drama, it’s got a handful of notes again, and usually I’ve had to go find out what the drama was so I can unpack it whenever someone brought it up as a “gotcha”.

But it also got notes from people who took issue with me making the post at all. Something that was said a few times was that I shouldn’t be defending these “white women” because cancel culture doesn’t actually affect them. Cancel culture only cancels POC creators, apparently, and these creators will face no consequences as a result of the campaign of targeted harassment they’re facing.

Well, here we are.

I’m not a huge fan of Lindsay Ellis. I don’t follow her on Patreon. I think an old YouTube account of mine might be subscribed to her, but not my main one. I check in on her channel a couple of times a year to see if she’s posted anything I’m interested in watching, because a lot of her stuff doesn’t appeal to me. Her unique style repels me at least as much as it draws (I think it’s a bit cringe, tbh, though I can’t deny it’s funny at points). I certainly don’t think she’s never been wrong, and I do, in fact, think that some things she’s done has been problematic.

But her content was witty, clever, well-made, and above all else, it mattered. It was critical. It looked at works through a progressive lens, calling out racism, sexism, ableism, fat phobia, classism, transphobia, etc etc. I don’t think she has to be perfect for that to be worth something. Her content and contribution through the years has quite literally shaped video essays as a genre and a form of media, and I think the internet is a worse place without it.

So congrats. You all got what you wanted. She was finally sent enough bad-faith criticism, enough insults, enough rape threats, enough death threats, and enough total condemnation of her character, that she will now shut up and keep her opinions to herself. That’s what you all wanted, right?

I hope you’re pleased with yourselves.

[thedviousone]

I don't give a fuck what people ship. But sessrinners being happy over how yashahime depicted their ship KNOWING that the show is aimed at little girls, JUST because it made their ship canon is what makes them absolute monsters. Make NO mistake, they COMPLETELY understand the "anti" perspective, they know exactly how wrong it is. But they're too wet over some pixels that they bury away their logic, morals, and empathy. These pathetic rats are the source of the plague in this fandom.

(i just saw this but it feels like this ask was actually sent a while ago??? I'm sorry anon ;_; )

But yeah, i definitely agree anon. In all my years of being in the Inuyasha fandom, never had i ever had a problem with other fans and what they ship, and they never had a problem with me and what i ship.

SessRinners on the other-hand, that's a community i have decided i despise and will openly laugh at and dunk on at any given opportunity. They're the shippers that the internet makes fun of and calls out all the time. The ones who harass, who doxx, who send death threats... over characters that aren't even real. I have never seen or heard Inukags, Sesskags, Inukiks, Sesskiks, SessKagu, ect doing any of the shit that SessRinners have been doing, and even if those communities have their own crazies, they seem to be easily drowned out by other members that just stay in their lane and enjoy their ships. SessRinners are incapable of staying in their lane. They're incapable of just letting people enjoy what they enjoy, or not ship what they ship. They NEED people to accept SessRin as canon. They NEED validation.

As disgusting as SessRinners are, they're also laughably sad. They got their ship, creepily depicted just like they want it, but the cost? Yashahime is hated so badly that people in Japan were actually tweeting at Sunrise to apologize to the fans for this travesty of a show. SessRin was so negatively received that merchandise and official artwork won't even depict them romantically. Hell they're not even showing off SessRin. It's InuKagMor being advertised cuz that's what got Yashahime the most views lol

[peppertaemint]

I’m glad that anon brought up what you said a year ago and how it was pretty much spot on Namjoon’s sentiments at the festa dinner. I remembered you too and the shit show that ensued when you made your post. Because you had a bigger account at the time, many people saw what you wrote and so many asks were sent around to different blogs pretty much condemning you. Now many of the same blogs who assured everyone that BTS were still the same last year are now saying how they’ve actually felt the same deep down but didn’t want to verbalize it. I mean I’m not blaming anyone because not everyone could sense the change as early as you did but it’s just interesting to see how the public opinion on BTS’ music identity has changed over the last year. I can imagine that the harassment you faced was swift and unforgiving. I saw the asks sent to blogs accusing them of secretly being you and others throwing subliminal shade by referencing your ‘controversial’ post. Kudos to you for still continuing to blog after all that backlash. I guess the lesson learned is that everyone’s opinions are valid (as long as it’s not unreasonable hatred/disrespect) whether it’s a positive or negative take. Do you have any thoughts on how the boys solo careers and their relationship with their company will play out?

I appreciate you saying that, Anon. : ) It's not worth blaming anyone. What I would hope is that maybe some people will listen to others next time they present an opposing opinion and dialogue with them directly versus gossiping on other blogs. When we listen to each other, we get a whole lot further. You said it perfectly—everyone's opinion is valid. Just because we don't particularly like it, doesn't mean that person should become a target for horrible behaviour. I got off light, despite how horrible it was; other accounts I've talked to who went through the same thing on Tumblr & Twitter had their lives and the lives' of their loved ones threatened. Is it really that deep? We're talking about art here. Violent death threats, really?

I hope (probably in vain) that some of the army how joined the bandwagon to harass and degrade me and other people might reflect now that they know we weren't wrong. Idk ...

In terms of their solo careers, I'm really unsure what we will see because Hybe isn't exactly a consistent purveyor of the finest Kpop offerings. Consistent is the key word there. BTS have had these moments of brilliance (some MAMA/MMA performances, MOTS ON:E, LY:SY tour) but there isn't a consistency there. We also have Hybe saying on multiple occasions that they don't do "solo". So what will this look like? Hybe is still inexperienced and lacking in areas (styling, some of their music production/mastering, MV production—don't get me started on the weird CGI backgrounds).

So, I am hoping the solo work will be a sliver of what Kim Kibum (SHINee Key) has fought for at SM. He goes in with a PowerPoint presentation and lays out his ideas for his concept, including styling and other references. And then he takes part in all the production stages, including giving notes on the recordings themselves for the music producer. Kpop as a genre has been likened to Broadway; execution of concept, including styling, editorial photography, the physical production and the performance are all important, second only to the music itself. Some would probably consider all parts equal.

BTS' solos will display what their relationship is with the company and where they are in their artistic journey. The most important thing, I think, is to remember that a solo debut is a beginning. It's starting from scratch. Even though members have solo works in the BTS discography, they don't have experience of going solo. Readers should watch Taemin's debut solo stages. If you look carefully, you can see him trembling. And this was a person who never even wanted to debut in a group! ;D