#and i got harassed and sent death threats years ago for it

[r3dr0pe]

The fact that "kinning" has been slowly morphed into "character I relate to" irks me so badly as a spiritual kin

Because of that correlation, whenever I tell someone I kin Teruteru and they know his character they get weirded out by me because they're like "why would you kin him" like ??? I DIDN'T CHOOSE THIS!!!!

[cjlouwho]

Every time the conversation about OS weird behavior comes out, there's ppl claiming we're fomenting harassment and weird behavior and that lfj is a grown man and could've said something and yes I agree and who's to say he didn't anyways.

But most importantly, guess what OS is too?? Oh yeah... A grown ass man who has said he's not even sure if his female costars deserved or not harassment???? That he liked the bi-icon title but then when criticism of his take on it came he got butthurt and couldn't even man up and let the half ass apology up in his stories.

Like at what point are we going to admit he has said weird shit and it's clear, yeah because if there's no words, there's actions, until he says something which we know he won't, he actively does not want to piss off that side that already bully him off of a lot of things, which lol again the grown ass man in question, like sorry if he hasn't shown some basic respect to coworkers why is suddenly a problem to talk about him in our spaces? It's okay still liking him for whatever reason and it's okay to criticize his actions when it prints his character in a weird light, parasocial in what way exactly? If we can only base off what he offers and what he does makes him look like an asshole, I have no problem in thinking that and move on with my day.

Anyways I needed to rant, again thank you for allowing this space for it to happen! Have a lovely day.

Calling out cringe behavior is not harassment, and the fact that it's mostly people who have actively harassed either Lou, or one of Buck or Eddie's previous LI's that say these things speaks volumes.

I agree, Lou is a grown man, and when asked about the harassment he received he shrugged it off and basically said, "comes with the territory." Even saying that got him more harassment and being actively made fun of- even by the writer who interviewed him! I will forever believe that the issue of LI's within the show being harassed could have been stopped years ago by one stern post by either Oliver, Ryan, or Tim. A definitive "Buck and Eddie are friends, will always be friends, but will never be more than friends. We appreciate our fans, but will not stand for the harassment of our costars who have been hired to do a job. Be respectful, enjoy the show!"

To Ryan's credit, he has tried in multiple recent interviews to set the record (and Eddie lmao) straight. But at this point no one is listening to him. They feel he's lying to make the "slow burn" relationship hit harder. They love Oliver when he's all "idk what's gonna happen there we'll have to wait and see" but the second he makes it clear he's not fucking Ryan, they hate him again. Tim's just full of shit altogether. They've honestly created an unsafe work environment for anyone who comes in as a potential love interest. Not even fans can enjoy these relationships without being sent death threats and CSA fics.

You can always rant to me, and I will most likely rant right back at you, so thanks for listening to all the nonsense I just typed up 😂

[atherflame-theconcubus]

Important announcement in the undercut. This is a long..

OK, so a lot has been going on so I’m just gonna say this now. Between the false harassment document, a document from a year ago that’s now just getting traction again, and then an anonymous person seemingly spreading it around from malicious intention. The community genuinely sucks.

Sucks considering I literally just came up with two different alternate universes yesterday that I do not plan on keeping (if anyone wants them, I can give you some rundowns on them)

I’m not abandoning my friends from the community, and I will keep interacting with them with the AU that I’ve already gotten built up upon a lot, and I will hopefully at some point talk about the other AUs for the community I have already listed on my pinned post, and possibly write for some of them over on my A03 account, but I will not be making any more, nor do I want to interact with this community anymore.

As someone who was formally in the buddies community (for a brief rundown on that community, a group of a bunch of children, deciding to get together to make death threat videos to another child who happened to be making troll animal abuse videos that got way out of hand and has a lot of genuinely problematic stuff, including philia, porn, incest, porn, and Loli art. All of which I have unfortunately seen, and become desensitized to) I never thought I would say this, but this community is worse than that one. Because even with how toxic they all are, that community is mostly children. Heck the biggest person in the community/founder of it is possibly 12 right now.

I would sooner go back to that community and apologize to people who accused me of harassment then ever wish to have a positive thought about the sun and moon show community. The community really is that bad.

And I stress this a lot because most of the people perpetuating the harassment in the bud community are children, who most likely don’t know any better. All the people perpetuating the harassment in this community are adults. And people are labeled as harassers, just standing with victims of horrible people.

All in all. This community somehow managed to take the crown for the most toxic community I’ve ever been in. And that is a lot consistently that this community would not be worse than the hate community.

And the biggest reason I say that is because despite me leaving the community and barely interacting with any of it which actually has decent content and is giving us a story with all the characters buds has, I can still make alternate universes and have fun while doing it there. If I make an alternate universe here I have to fear the big blog or other people trying to pressure me into including incest in it.

All in all. I’m saying this, but I hate this community more than the buds hate community. And I can consistently compare it to a cult.

If anyone is getting into this community from the Gacha community, I have recommendations on blogs you should avoid as they will willingly harass you for just trying to stand by people who are sent inappropriate artwork for just liking family dynamics

Dana-the-control-brain

Cephalon ghost

Witchy

Alexandraisyes

Ayyy-imma-ninja (mainly because she’s been standing by and letting people be harassed by her friends for just standing up for victims of harassment from people sending them Gore and corrective rape porn )

Pixelchills (I still genuinely do not want to believe that they actually participated in that fucking document, especially after I tried to clear a situation and keeping them from getting dragged in. I genuinely can’t look at their content the same anymore )

Shattered-sparks (they are someone who I trust, however, I currently now have conflicted feelings because of a document recently shared. I have yet to read it and I would like to trust my friend saying that since the document shattered has improved, however, I’m aware of the fact that everyone would be comfortable with them.)

A-Voice-For-The-Victims (I understand what they’re trying to do, but the way they’re going about it, at least from how I can see it, is only hurting everyone. They’re dragging something that should’ve been dead a long time ago on for longer than it should be because a random anon purposely dug up a year old document, and from what they said, they’re gonna continue to be a stalker. I get what they’re trying to do, but they’re just going about it in the worst way possible) (extra edition here, they just pulled a manipulation tactic. That is another reason why I do not feel safe with them in tsams community.)

My overall experience in this community was fun in the beginning because I got dragged into it by good people, then in the midpoint, I got scared about shipping my comfort ship because of the aforementioned family dynamics in the show, But a bunch of big users in the community have managed to make me hate a community for a show I already disliked.

I also want to skate this right now before I end the post.

DO NOT HARASS ANYONE I MENTIONED. IF YOU DON’T LIKE THEM JUST BLOCK AND GO ABOUT YOUR DAY.

Extra little addition due to something that happened that I’m gonna keep mostly private, the only people outside my friend group that I am interacting with in the sun and moon show community are the role-play blogs, as generally speaking I am 90% sure they are safe people interact with, plus it’s just fun seeing the chaos that goes down over there.. what has been stated above still applies.

[salutethesargeant]

I don't wanna keep ranting abt this but does anyone remember the Canapino incident(s) during his time in Indycar? And how numerous amounts of his Argentine fans sent death threats and other harassment to Pourchaire/Ilott?

Barely a year later, we're witnessing the same thing (different situations) here in F1. I do like Franco, and I want him to develop more, but his fanbase has gotten out of control. Jack has (since a few weeks ago or longer) been receiving a disgusting, overwhelming amount of harassment and death threats by crazed out fans and have had his and Alpine's posts flooded with them everywhere. The worst thing is, Alpine only have since fed the flames by recruiting Franco, immediately capitalizing on him, and going through with the soon-seat move by giving Jack a 5/6-race contract.

Sure, support your driver. Be excited about the move. That's all fine. But stop dangerously harassing Jack and dogpiling him for months and months and months... and even now after Franco got his move. It's fucking disgusting behavior seeing all these grown adults threaten Jack for something out of his control. And temporary, considering Alpine are throwing him in the deep end on purpose anyway.

Have some class.

[sweetie-peaches]

Hi everyone, hi I’m not a sweetie, is a-ghost, and anyone in your little discord my posts are being shared to. Hello.

I would like to apologize sincerely for my continued harassment and misconduct, clearly it insulted your minuscule egos. I am not afraid of you. You do not know me, you do not know who I am. I made a joke , you got mad. Deal with it.

If you think I’d apologize for anything at all you’re dumber then I thought you were.

Let’s remember why you got posted to twitter. And why I did, shall we? You got posted because of your ableism and defense of abuse. I got posted because someone from your posse of crows sent me a death threat. Let’s be fucking real.

Anyway, you are a bully. That’s all you are.

And for your question, yes, I am a child, I have never lied about being a child. but what does that make you when you fume at the idea of me making fun of you? You are twenty something years old, and yet you don’t act like it.

Does it make you mad? When I make fun of you? When my friends talk about you? Do you type up those supervillain ass posts because you think it makes you look cool to your sad excuse of a fanbase?

A few months ago you told me that you understood the harassment I got, do you? You are the fucking cause of it. You are the reason we get harassed.

And fuck it. I’ll say it, what you say makes me fucking pissed, it makes me upset. At least I have the balls to say that.

I hope you look at yourself in the mirror and feel bad for what you say. I hope your words fucking stick to you forever.

Sincerely, fuck you.

And to everyone who follows me, and to my mutuals, and to anyone who sees my page and feels just a bit of joy, thank you. I know I don’t make it easy, I know I’m stupid, but you care enough to see me and like what I have to say. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I’m not going to be online. I’m tired.

Goodnight. And im sorry i have to make this post.

[mikurulucky]

has tumblr always been crawling with proshippers and proship views like this? has it decreased recently after the mass exodus? or did it get worse?

Since 2013 before I even saw anyone criticize that shit on a regular basis, hell I think people who criticized ships of that nature (adult/minor, incest, abusive, etc etc) they were called sjws back then. 2014 was when I saw the criticism and got confused because those kind of ships were so normalized to me, and then I saw death threats get sent to proshippers which only pushed me further into that sphere. Took me some years to actually hear out the other side and get out of the proship side of tumblr for good.

As far as whether it got worse or not, I think it's mostly the same as it always was for the most part, but it did get bad on twitter prior to twitter going to shit.

Also still seeing the occasional antishipper wishing death on proshippers which makes me think "Bro... that ain't gonna help, stop that." Like, it's better to educate others about this stuff than to go the aggressive route like that, and sadly a lot of the aggressive threat hurling varieties tend to be quite young.

Also took me until a couple years ago to witness a proshipper sending death threats to an anti, that's when I realized that the aggressive harassing types are on both sides of the whole thing and that basically just prolongs the proship issue and it ruins others' mental health. Like, if you post death wishes towards proshippers, a young or even underage person groomed into the proship sphere is gonna look at that and that'll traumatize them, or worse. It harms more than it helps, same goes with proshippers sending that shit to antishippers, how do y'all think underage antishippers feel about that? That shit's gotta stop on both sides if we want this whole thing to improve.

Sorry for the ramble, but long story short:

[garoujo]

MY FINAL MESSAGE TO MY TUMBLR HARASSER :

hi ! as you guys have probably seen on dash, in tags, in your inbox there is an anon + a blog @/ffflowers going out of their way to not only spread lies but also to completely try everything in their power to harass and ‘expose’ me.

if you’ve had them in your asks or seen their posts you would’ve seen a link to a callout post from 2021 regarding a conversation that took place on an old blog of mine. their agenda with this callout post is to ‘prove’ that i apparently ignored this completely and got ‘run off’ tumblr without taking any sort of accountability for what was said or making any sort of apology.

this is not true, back in 2021 i took and still take full accountability for what i said and have never denied it, i made 3/4 separate apologies at that time, one of which was my pinned post for around a week and have continued to grow and do better as a writer and as a person since.

this particular discourse was resolved at that time, i never avoided confrontation and admitted i was in the wrong because i was, i was caught off guard and panicked with a topic that i felt intimidated by — i apologise and take accountability for my own ignorance.

while on the subject of this discourse post, i’d just like to prove my statement in this post where i said this particular situation was not what drove me to leave tumblr temporarily— this can be proven by these screenshots. as you can see, the callout post was dated on the 8th of June 2021.

like i said again in my previous post about this, this did not drive me off of tumblr — i owned up to everything i said, even went back to tag every post regarding the discourse so people could read through and make their own opinion — i did not run from this. i continued to write on this blog for months after this discourse which can be proven by the literal date in which it says my blog deactivated at the top — 20th of October 2021. almost 5 months after the callout post. either i’m a slow runner or my statement is correct. again, this was 2 years ago and this person has harassed me ever since.

but while i’m on the topic, the reason i actually left that blog was due to the anon who is continuing to harass me now. i received consistent and constant death threats by the same anon for months, following the same pattern — when i stopped posting their asks, they then decided to try a different approach. they began to force themselves into other peoples safe spaces to tell them they “couldn’t write certain characters because i selfshipped with them and they belonged to me” before going on to send those creators hate and death threats under the guise that i sent them — also not true.

i left tumblr for my own safety, this anon has my private and personal details, my social media and my face reveals but i refuse to let them ruin my safe space for me again. they’ve began to add more to their stories with sudden plagiarism and ‘black fishing’ being suddenly mentioned into their posts which is again absolutely not true, my guess is their current posts weren’t getting as much attention as they expected and they had to make it a little more eye catching.

they’ve also been consistently sending me anon asks hoping to bring relevance to the situation by urging me to post about it, they will send me hate before deciding to try and pretend to be another, nicer anon urging me to ‘hear my side of the story’ or showering me in compliments about how they ‘need an explanation because they know i’m too nice for that’ again, it’s obvious it’s them since they go back to being horrible when they’re ignored, and quite frankly it’s terrifying the lengths they’ll go to harass and manipulate me.

this morning while i was at work i had received an anon urging me to do that exact thing, to talk about the discourse, they sent me consistent asks until i made my post talking about how i will no longer be mentioning it on dash, they then sent me another nastier ask immediately after before then going to post on their blog @/ffflowers almost immediately after that.

also this is part two of them harassing me here and the reason i left my last nsfw blog + them doing the exact same thing they’re doing now, they have a pattern — they will wait a few months before bringing themselves back into my inbox, when their hate asks to me are left unanswered then they play their way into other peoples inboxes hoping they will post + bring attention to the ‘discourse’ they are trying to spread. also another post i’ve made about this situation lastnight here.

they’ve become increasingly more angry and violent the longer they’ve been with me, i’ve been doxxed, threatened, consistently told to die and kms + had my character ripped to shreds on a site where i simply post writing for fun. i apologise to anyone who’s been dragged into this or harassed by this person, they are nasty and this probably won’t be the end of them either — but i refuse to let them drive me off of this app again.

i’ll be taking a small break for a few days to calm down, anon will remain off so they can’t contact me because at this moment i don’t feel safe and will be laying low on my personal acc for a while until i feel better. i apologise again for everything, the posts and my actions included, but i have no secrets.

emmie <3

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[belmeran]

if you don't mind me asking, what happened with shalamin (the person from that bnha tweet I might've spelled it wrong)?

lol you’re good!! and it’s been years, i completely forgot about them until i recognized the name. we used to be mutuals on twitter back when i was like fifteen. they always gave me a bad vibe, they were generally kinda mean and had an ego. a specific instance i remember was there was this one person (who i’m pretty sure was a minor) who had made a kl@nce fic thread (censoring bc i don’t want this clogging up the search or anything), and some of the fics had nsfw in them that they gave content warnings for. shaIadin made a bunch of vague tweets about them and got their followers riled up about who they were talking about, then namedropped and literally sent a horde of harassment and death threats after this kid and they ended up getting bullied off twitter.

but yeah again this was so long ago, them being in the screenshot just got a laugh out of me

[melis-writes]

I love how you’re never rude or obnoxious or mean to your anons as I’ve always come across it in other fandoms and there’s one person that I’m thinking about right now in particular, but I just love how you encourage your fans and fans of Michael, Sonny etc. and encourage their ideas or headcanons and how you respond with your own ideas on whatever is sent

Thank you 🙏🏼

Of course!! ❤️ Honestly, we could use more kindness and love in this fandom. I joined it in 2021 and it was... a hellscape. I think many of the shittier people left it a long time ago or simply got bored and were just rampaging trolls at the time, but it was very toxic here back in those days. 👀

I remember when I was maybe ~10 chapters in Moth to Flame and posting on here that I got an ask from a sweet anon who claimed I was "the best" fic writer when it came to Michael Corleone fics. Their ask also said that I was better at writing than the other Michael Corleone fic writers. I didn't honestly react or say anything to that second half, I was just so overwhelmed (in a GOOD way) about the nature of the ask and the fact someone liked my fic SO much. Anyways, then came the hating ass anons into my inbox and the subposting on the "Michael Corleone x Reader" tag. That ask got under so many people's skin (if the shoe fits, I guess) that I was getting "you're NOT the "BEST" okay... Everyone who writes Michael Corleone x Reader is amazing". All of a sudden this hostility and toxicity began to flood into my inbox. I even got some death threats and straight up harassment. This was pretty consistent for almost an entire year.

A lot of my friends left the fandom and stopped interacting with it completely. Two of them deactivated their Tumblr accounts because of the toxic mess the fandom became. ☹️

Honestly, I never ever claimed to be "the best" or "better" than anyone, but as I stood up for myself more and more and defended my talent, people shit on me even more. I refused, and I still REFUSE to tone down my talent and "humble" myself so some insecure fic writer can feel better about themselves. It was and is not my job to baby other writers. If the projection is so hard that they feel the need to harass me online over how popular my work is getting, y'all have to touch grass and seek professional help. It was ridiculous. I was getting shit on for having talent. 💀

In reality, I'm not this evil, narcissistic fic writer who thinks I'm better than everyone. 😂 I've always encouraged my inspired fans and readers to write their own fics, provided writing help/tips, and dived deep into fun headcanons that they wanted me to sprinkle into my fics. There's already so much bad out there in fandoms, especially the misogynistic side of The Godfather fandom which is still brewing... I refuse to be a part of the negativity but I also refuse to entertain it or accept it.

Now I very much feel so grandfathered into the fandom that I'm like Vito just sitting at his desk and my beloved mutuals and followers approach me for my thoughts and fics 🥺💖

[spongebob-connoisseur]

"uUhHh AcTuaLLy sTePhEn HiLLeNbUrG wOuLd'Ve HaTeD-" no literally just stfu

the staff are trying their best to make an entertaining show and he would be very proud of how they added their own touch to his show PLUS this show is literally hurting nobody they're just switching things up a lil bit

but yeah go off about how the show hasn't been as good as the eps you saw 20 billion years ago when you were literally in the target demographic bc the creator is dead and his friends/co-workers are """ruining his legacy"""

yeah real mature argument you got there buddy 😐

Tbh ur right but also I'm mildly confused if you mean this as a general response to the fans or me specifically because I used to be against the spinoffs and stuff years ago though I realize I was wrong and I love the spinoffs now but my old posts are still out there :/

Still I agree, Hillenburg left the show in the hands of the crew, particularly people who worked on the show since the beginning. He never said no spinoffs, he said he didn't see any, this interview that's often misquoted is from almost 15 years ago. Even the ex crew members who were critical of the spinoffs said cartoon reviewers twisted their words.

We do know Hillenburg was involved with kamp koral. Literally the 3rd movie was in CGI as a test to see how CG would work since Hillenburg was skeptical of it but he ended up liking it. The 3rd movie was in production since 2016, Hillenburg was CERTAINLY involved in it. The movie was originally set to come out in 2019 but kept being delayed. It did finally come out in 2020 but a year delay isn't enough to create the whole kamp koral concept. It was conceived while Hillenburg was alive. We KNOW so because the literal concept of Spongebob going to camp was his idea. Hillenburg loved camping and thr outdoors. It was something personal to him. It's actually really unfair how much the show gets dragged due to misinformation and inflammatory statements done by cartoon reviewers. I'm not a fan of kamp koral but I'm being honest when I say it was treated REALLY unfairly.

All this drama about Hillenburg's legacy ended up causing so much damage. Do you have any idea how many crew members were harassed and sent death threats over this? Some privates their social media, some abandoned their social media. Someone said Spongebob fans are the sonic fans of cartoons. Tbh I don't think they're that bad but they honestly have a shitty track record that are sometimes ENCOURAGED by some cartoon reviewers. I've been into the show's online fandom since I was 13, you cannot believe how many times there was drama over fans sending death threats to the writers. I can't even count it on my fingers.

People wonder why the Patrick Star Show made fun of cartoon reviewers but y'all don't know how hostile some people were.

Also for the record I'm not against being critical of the show. I've done so many times in the past myself. But at the end of the day, this show is people's jobs, they have their own lives, be respectful and be reasonable. Of course this is the internet so those two qualities are hard to find on here but I'm just saying.

[ivyial]

hii, how are you? I stumbled upon your page and I started to check it out, upon doing that I came across one of your eagleone posts, and how you view the ship or how you view people who dislike the shop entirely for no reason at all. and to be honest I couldn't agree more. your choice of words and how you describe just makes my heart feel hope again. hope that there's actual human beings that are using a gift called a brain for once.

it honestly drives me crazy to see people literally sending death threats and literal racism to those who ship a ship that isn't quite popular. another account just a few days ago that speaks alot about eagleone and analyses their scenes and dialogues, got literal death threats that would me a grown adult puke from how disgusting to know such human beings exist.

( didn't realize to be that long LMAO )

anyway I just wanted to say that I absolutely love all your eagleone content literally makes my day <3

i- 🥺🥺❤❤ omg thank you so much anon

i've never been one for ship wars. what bothers me the most about the eagleone discourse (and the current cleon discourse on twitter as well) is how likening characters to siblings (eagleone) or saying one views the other as a kid (cleon - insane take but anyway) eventually becomes "these characters are LITERALLY siblings, they are so sibling coded to me that it essentially makes them actual siblings" and creates a breeding ground for harassment and accusations of proshipping.

shipping has always been a matter of personal taste, and it's one of those few things in fandoms where there's no need to debate about conflicting ships. in the end, you can just agree to disagree. i like X for those reasons and you like Y for those. that's it. ships are usually better enjoyed with fellow shippers. it only risks becoming an echochamber when people start to take it so seriously that their group of shippers decides to hate on everyone else, and eventually, to harass them.

which is unfortunately what is happening right now. i'm very aware of the death threats and everything else, and it's sad and infuriating to realise that fandoms will never change. idk how old you are anon, or if you were around on tumblr when it happened, but a few years ago, the voltron fandom was a big thing around here (i apologise in advance to everyone who had to live through that lmfao). klance was arguably the biggest ship in the fandom (keith x lance), so the shippers were actively campaigning for it to become canon. it got to the point where klance shippers sent the show creators cupcakes filled with glass shards to convince them to canonise the ship. I WISH I WAS FUCKING KIDDING

this stuff's not new, bullying fellow fans isn't new unfortunately, and bullying actors or producers isn't either. if i remember correctly, when supernatural s4-5 (i guess) were airing back in the 2000s, dean's love interest jo was removed from the show supposedly because fangirls lost their shit and sent hate mail to producers. but that's all speculation, i can't find a reliable source for that.

i wish people would stop taking everything so seriously and get this nasty over fiction. however, it's unlikely that it will happen, because fandoms are filled with kids who don't know any better, are sometimes fully raised by the internet and then turn into immature adults. it's rare to find spaces in fandoms were you can genuinely have fun and create content without being policed by 12 year olds, but when you can, it makes the fandom experience a lot better.

i don't put much content out there, but i'm glad to see that the few posts i write are appreciated!! i'm working on an eagleone fic rn so it definitely makes me want to keep working on it regularly and create more content 😭

[ookikufurikabutte]

anon that loves all of your trans art and asked for your ko-fi

dude i just saw your post about being banned from twit a few days ago possibly by proshippers :((( i'm so sorry, that's such dick move to pull when you're just setting a boundary. please be safe, i've had to deal with those folks before and it was NOT a pleasant experience

thank you so much 😭

i’m glad i happened to be awake like 30 minutes after they sent the email that i was suspended because within 5 minutes of appealing i was able to get my account reinstated.

i just will never get it tbh. it’s always “block and curate your own content” but someone will always be a hypocrite when you DO do that.

and i have dealt with them in the past too orz.. let’s just say they preach anti-harassment but i got sent gore, death threats, and was psychoanalyzed through the screen like 4 years back (ppl were telling me i had mental disorders i didn’t have over this).

it’s just funny how i said “please don’t follow me if you like xyz” and i wake up the next day suspended…. like damn.

[redemonarc]

I sent anon messages to stols and people in the rp community even though i didn't role play and I found all those blogs from the tags and for the drama, I lurked on blogs and saw the things Stols was posting and then saw the allegations from some call out blogs since a year ago

I remember when one time that someone told Stols of sending anon hate messages and stols responded to it and I saw it on their blog so i went with that since it was easy and people believe it.

there was a few call outs about Stols so when I saw them and read them then that's when I got mad and started trolling but then i didn't start trolling some people until I saw stols talking about they won't write with other Stolas and losing their blitz and that was a few months ago

You got dragged in to it because i sent a anon hate message to botanikos and then one to Stols since the allegations that they send anon hate to others and theirself so when you got framed, that was because I sent it and people thought you did

i just wanted to make people in the rp communities block Stols and get mad bc I wanted stols to leave bc if the things about them are true then they don't need to be here

anyways sorry again, I'm really stopping trolling for real

YOU'RE THE REASON I GOT SENT DEATH THREATS, HAD STRANGERS WHO THOUGHT I WAS A HARASSER EVEN AFTER THE WHOLE ORDEAL, AND NEARLY RUINED MY REPUTATION IN THE COMMUNITY!?

Dude, do you not realize how bad you actually hurt me?

How much damage you caused me during August and September? Not only did I have people blaming me for stuff I didn't even do, I had people telling me off, I had people calling me an abuser/harasser, and was mentally & emotionally exhausted because I had to spend hours proving my innocence.

YOU CAUSED ME TO GET HARASSED, FALSELY ACCUSED, AND YOU THINK A SIMPLE APOLOGY POST IS GOING TO FIX THIS?!

Even though my innocence was proved, I still got people who don't believe that I'm innocent. I still got shit sent my direction because of you.

If you were truly sorry about everything you've caused, you would have spoken up on your actual blog on your real identity proving who you are and apologized for everything you've done way sooner than this. You could've spoken up months sooner instead of sitting back 5 months later.

I know I'm mad at the drama blogs for spreading it, but the fact that you were the cause of it just goes to show everything that anyone needs to know about you. Whomever you are.

[black-butterfly-system]

Apologies to a Friend

Some time ago, I started talking with a guy who I felt could understand me and who I thought I could understand back. I had been reading him for some time, because he was struggling with issues I felt identified with, but most specially I felt identified with his defiant attitude of pursuing freedom, 'cause this unbreakable will is part of my core.

Mixing deep suffering with hope is describing my journey through this life, so I was glad I had found what seemed to be a kindred soul. I had lost my best friend after telling her about my DID, I had already lost my previous best friend to death, few years ago, it's hard to find someone who can understand me, because I think only someone who has suffered can, and even harder to find someone who has suffered and genuinely wants to heal, and keeps his sensitivity, and is still willing to fight.

Now even harder to talk about multiple personality disorder with someone to share our experiences and that at the same time keeps the previous chime.

The issue is that I didn't know how to talk to him, but I felt attracted (as a friend) to him, as if we had a spiritual mission together, so much, I can't stop thinking about him, not even after I had already given him my insight about how to heal, I didn't want to give so much information because I do know how crazy MK groups are, but also, I know the despair of trying to heal and not knowing what to do, and I wanted to spare more people that pain, so I shared what I knew anyway.

I got online harassment because of it as a clear threat for speaking too much. So, I was paranoid. And if just waking up to my DID wasn't enough, without friends to talk deeply about it, I sent him a message, then I started to read his personal profile and I got heavily triggered with his posts. I don't blame him for this, and I don't blame me either, because despair is the natural reaction to seeing horror (most especially if you're already acquainted) and most specially when you are sensitive and empathetic.

Also, I have been switching personalities like crazy, I still can't identify them clearly because I just recently woke up to the truth of being a system and I still don't have control over these switches, I only notice them because and after I start to feel/think/write differently. Right now I'm in a dominant fragment of mine, the host, who has a richly developed personality.

I'm sorry this guy met me in one of my worst moments, because I know I gave him the paranoid and obsessive "side" of me as my first introduction. If I could talk again to him, I would tell him that I'm sorry and that there's more in me than just fear and that I would like him to meet those other fragments of myself, and I would ask him for comprehension and patience, because I'm doing the best I can with all this information and circumstances I'm in.

Also, I'd tell him that when someone is very reserved I feel fear and automatically I start a self defensive attitude of suspiciousness, I tend to be super outgoing. But I also believe clear communication and empathy can solve any situation, allowing me to relax and be vulnerable, just as vulnerable as I'm writing right now. I hope he can reconsider the situation, or he may want to wait until I can manage and recognise my “alters” better, so I don’t make a mess out of literally nowhere, just because of the intrusive thoughts, I’m still trying to get some understanding of myself.

That's all.

[lionews]

"Tf? Why did they put you on a beware for calling out transphobia? Do they realize that Lioden is very much heavily supportive of LGBTQ+?"

""Oh, also, one of the points was, "Xyz artist won't let me follow them on Instagram this must be og anons fault since og anon follows xyz artist!""

I decided not to leave after all so I'll give a vague and brief summary.

Like the other Anon (orange) said they got upset because an artist they followed removed them as a follower.

The beware has a lot of edited and faked screenshots, accounts they made to send threats to themself, posts that had nothing to do with them, screenshots of my close friends story, issues from 5 years ago, claimed I was misgendering them while they absolutely refused to refer to me correctly, dming my friends about me, screen shots of them actively stalking me (???), and alot more I don't want to get into.

I've been trying to avoid this ass for years and I've been block evaded, harassed, sent death threats, my art and OCS stolen etc. it's just some stupid fucking shit always with them.

I'll admit that I was an ass when I was younger but I've apologized for it and they forgave me. I changed how I act towards others and bettered myself as a person.It's driving me insane especially knowing nothing I say will change anything. Now they want me to message them as if I'm going to unblock them only to apologize for shit they lied about. I'm not going to do that.

They have my old phone number too which scares me because one mistake on my end and they're going to doxx me (⁠˘⁠･⁠_⁠･⁠˘⁠).

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[findingschmomo]

hey everyone, quick psa: commenting on a fic is a privilege not a right. comments can be turned off in a heartbeat. authors can delete comments as they please.

over a year ago, someone left a semi rude comment on a story of mine. it upset me so i deleted it (and didnt think to screenshot it lol). this anonymous user then decided to start harassing me throughout my stories. i kinda want to talk about it.

It started like this

to more aggressive:

I turn on comment moderation. and then, i get a notif from a DIFFERENT story of mine.

first of all: dont ever trauma dump on a random stranger on the internet. to think how this could have affected someone else other than me. also having a bad experience doesnt excuse bad behavior. I also dont really care? this comment reeks of entitlemtn that you are trying to couch with your sudden backstory.

also this is a really bad attempt at an apology. that finally 'im sorry' is laughable. i dont even want an apology??? because i dont care. honestly. just let it go.

anyway, i delete it and then i get this

i dont think this person understands what the word insecure means

i tag all my fics appropriately and extensively

i delete that one (and its quite fun tbh, since it seems to upset them so god damn much).

Now, this anon has decided to drop a coment on A THIRD story of mine:

i tagged this story with the 'chose not to use archival warnings' which i dont think this person comprehends. but also its a moot point, because their real anger is being silenced. i dont have to have a reason to delete comments on my own story. let alone THESE COMMENTS ON A DIFFERENT STORY COMPLETELY AND THEREFORE ARE JUST HARASSMENT/SPAM at this point.

After this they decide to use a different tactic: pretending ot be other people who have heard this salacious rumor about this rusame writer out there mass deleting shit. (i dont, but whatever, not the point)

this comment ^^ is again on a completely different story of mine. can we note the date on this one. I left the user because its just guest (ive been protecting this persons identity because they did use a name previously, although it isnt tied to any account) so that I could show the time stamp. 2021.

its Oct 20, 2022, and I got YET AGAIN another comment from definitely not this person.

again this is so sad. like, its been months my guy. what are you doing. no one gives a shit. there is no YT vid about me. also the 'didnt realize they were a hetalia author' bit is what really sends me. ALL of the stories mentioned in this debocle are hetalia. so how could this video takedown of me not mention that?

anyway. ive had worse commenters before (who've sent me repeated death threats, for example, and ive had to get AO3 admin involved to stop it). this person is no where near that level. i just find their persistence laughable and also really really sad.

but regardless, i want to make this clear: It's the author's story. They're in charge of comment moderation. you are not entitled to the space. enjoy your free content and leave people alone