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Hahaha, I'm so angry. Hahaha, I wish I could let it all go. Hahaha, thanks for ruining my entire livelihood.
#personal journey#still waiting for promises to be kept#why though?#I'm never getting what I actually need back#and i can't afford to replace it#what am i even alive for?#i'm tired of having nothing and being nothing#i wish i could stop thinking about this#i wish i could make you see how shitty you are#i wish i could be better too#i know no one who reads this is actually going to know or care what it's about#i just don't have anywhere to place these thoughts or emotions#you ruined a lot for me#maybe quite literally everything
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Hi, I woke up today to texts from someone I love in frozen South Dakota. She's had a rough run of things lately, child support keeps being late and she's had car issues lately that she's fortunately been able to cover herself, but it's eaten into the very tiny savings she'd finally built up.
She has been taking on as much work as she can get cleaning houses to try to make up for missing child support, but her kids keep getting sick from school and then getting her sick which has made this challenging.
Today her autistic 9 yo was too sick to go to school and so my loved one had to call out of work to stay home and take care of the kiddo, while also being pretty sick herself.
She's done some math and these are the expenses she can't figure out how to cover:
$275 rent $80 medicine $45 phone bill $20 gas $20 replacement noise canceling headphones for autistic kid $20 gas $5 shampoo and conditioner $5 feminine pads
Would any financially secure adults be able/willing to help this little family with even a dollar towards meeting these needs?
She made a gfm here:
#sharp eyes may recognize this is the same person i've posted abt before in the same town using a different name#her creepy ex harassed her after finding the last one so she is using a different pseudonym#he is now paying child support late on purpose cuz he found out she did a fundraiser that one time and apparently he thinks it's funny#i've known her irl for decades tho and it was me who bought her kid that headset that i now unfortunately can't afford to replace :(#e
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sad news for Ukagaka archival efforts Σ´ω`)
all my archive.org uploads have suddenly been deleted following the data breach that was reported around 5-7 hours ago because I changed my login details, I'll try to re-upload the difficult to track down Ukagaka ghosts I documented and my Ukagaka related CD/floppy-disk rips somewhere and I'm going to try to learn how to host stuff myself (neocities is too expensive to keep paying for extra space on) but just wanted to warn my followers that if you change your archive.org email all of your uploads will be erased, to reset any passwords that are the same as your archive.org login. always remember to back up your work on Ukagaka ghosts and progress to a local drive or hard-drive!! right now a lot of the documentation on how to create your own ghost and the history of Ukagaka is lost but hopefully it'll be back soon
#you would think i would be better at data hoarding at this point but my laptops and harddrives keep breaking and i can't afford to replace#not ukagaka#glad I wasn't hacked but it's really disheartening to lose all that work#most of my uploads were desktop mascot or Ukagaka related and impossible to find anywhere else :(#dodgy accounts were stealing my files on archive.org but they were modifying the file sizes+removing sources so I doubt those are reliable#beware of what the hackers claim its pretty obviously bullshit#of course the israel government is bad#but framing the hack that way is definitely deflecting the blame to try to politicize it because afaik archive.org is not pro-israel at all#really sucks#i made this post when i first got the email about the databreach so i am so relieved nobody bought into the lies from the hackers but damn
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Also would like to say, outside of tags on someone else's posts, that most poor people are not paying full price for fancy smartphones. They're getting those phones through trade-in programs or "sign up for this service and get a free phone" things, they're buying discounted or discontinued phones that look fancy but work like shit, or they're doing payment plans (usually for an already discounted phone).
#i say 'they' and not 'we' because my phone is old as hell#and on its last legs but even the discounted stuff is extremely expensive#and i can't afford to replace my phone until it stops actually working#i was eyeing that right to repair phone for a while but it's $800 at least and who the fuck has that kinda money to drop on a phone??#not me lmao
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man it's really nuts to go every single day going "oh it's getting colder, I should get some long sleeved shirts oh but I can't afford that nevermind" and "ooh imagine if I could go see my parents or aunt and uncle some time oh but I can't afford that nevermind" and "it would be so nice to have jeans that fit me oh but I can't afford that nevermind" like it's every single thought. and some of it is the enshittification, like I have repaired the same four pairs of socks so many times, no matter how uncomfortable it is to walk on the bulky seams, bc they don't make cotton socks anymore.
#i almost googled the other day 'how to get more money?' bc i can't work more and my job won't pay me more#but the answer is die so#just gonna continue not buying myself anything outside of the occasional meal#just bills for me thanks#oh it would be so fun to dress up for Halloween as--oh nevermind i can't afford that#i would love to replace broken object I've been using broken for a whole year oh nevermind i can't afford that#this post brought to you by: i have $36 until november 8th
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In other news, my phone has started borking itself!
Well, technically the phone itself is fine, despite its somewhat advanced age for a smart phone. However its battery is no longer a flat rectangle, and I'm kinda afraid to use it now. This thing is not supposed to wobble on a flat surface.
I have seen a phone doctor, who's going to attempt to replace the battery, however this particular model is built in a way that to access the battery one must remove the screen, so there's a chance of the screen getting broken in the process. Plus, being an older phone and all, they don't have batteries at hand, and it'll take two to three weeks for the replacement to arrive as it had to be ordered separately.
Thankfully a friend of mine has promised to lend me a backup phone to continue functioning while I wait, but it'll probably take untill sometime next week to arrive.
In the meantime, I am so happy I now have a tablet as a backup, so I'm not completely isolated, but man, it's kinda scary to lose one's access to a functioning phone these days, huh.
#shut up paper#still hopeful I can get it back and running for a while longer#I can't afford to replace bot the computer and the phone at the same time and I already fixed the phone's memory problems recently
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Tiny Tim is driving me up the wall so badly by loudly clawing at the metal grate on the laundry room door that I'm seriously considering dropping a big chunk of my upcoming tax return on one of these
Even if he COULD get his claws in between these slats (and the way they're shaped, I doubt it) the wooden door wouldn't make nearly as much noise being jostled as the hollow door we have now and its screwed-on metal vents
Cats cost money in unexpected ways
#i have tried training him out of this habit but he's very stubborn#i can't just ignore it because it's so loud when he shakes the door i get angry texts from the people upstairs#i have to do something about it T__T#idk if i can afford to replace both this door and my rotten countertop... but i gotta try to find a way...#mod post#cats#tiny tim the cat#the anti worm#financial stuff#home repair
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Getting slammed with an $850 vet bill today 😬 and poor Velma might have a bum knee, which will probably equal more expensive vet visits in the future 😩
#several hundred dollars more than I thought I would be spending today#and poor limpy velma#and I feel like a shithead because I can't afford super expensive surgery if there is a big problem#as it is velma gets significantly more spent on her healthcare every year than I spend on myself#even her yearly checkups and shots and wellness stuff with no extra issues are over $1k/year#whereas I haven't been to the doctor at all since I got her except once to replace an iud
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following the trend that I can't have anything good or worthwhile in my life, i tipped a glass of water all over my pc earlier and it's probably fucked. it wasn't totally flooded so i turned it off, cleaned it and let it air dry for some time. turned it on and it was booting to bios and nothing else, turned it off and let it dry more, now it's booting to a black screen and nothing else. cool. cool cool.
#I'll give it another 12 hours then Im fucking killing myself#I'm hoping it's just the HD that's fucked since it was primarily in the splash zone#I can't afford to replace it but at least I can't afford to replace it slightly less than the other stuff#It was actually completely fine after the initial accident it didn't short or turn off or anything my game and vid were still playing fine#I only turned it off to be on the safe side. Fuck this gay earth though I guess
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need to draw bc need money... don't want to draw bc do not feel good... suffering
#I wanna get us some supper or smth tonight#one of the issues I've been having appears to be lessening somewhat but it has been replaced by other; similar issues#she's still planning on having me looked at#this is all so inconvenient. it's made all the more so by the fact that I cannot afford it.#now I'm tired and frankly kinda cold#can't drink coffee tho bc it might make some of my issues worse
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Paid my overdue gas and electric bills and texted my friends back to reschedule and refilled my Ventracard because my balance was in the negative. Please clap. I have dental and eye care and a bunch of other stuff scheduled this month in case I lose Medicaid in the new year. I am trying so hard but I am so fucking disabled and I am entirely alone and it is nigh impossible to manage my whole life by myself at this level of poverty while stymied at every turn by the US government. I only just got my muscle spasm medication back two days ago
#I never turn the heat on even when it's 40 degrees indoors because I can't afford it#I don't turn the lights on ever#I live like a medieval fucking monk#I go to bed when the sun sets or light candles#I got kicked out of the blood pressure program because I didn't have replacement batteries for the blood pressure machine they sent
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they should invent work uniforms that are comfortable and don't make me want to claw them to shreds
#fuck you for making me tuck in my shirt#i hate hate hate feeling the ends of it in my pants fuck youuuuu#doesn't help that it's all too big for me currently and i can't afford to replace it with ones that fit#because the shirts are fucking 30 dollars apiece. fuck you fuck offf
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accidentally washed my wireless earbuds and I'm pretty sure they're broken this might actually be fucking it for me
#distant citrus sounds#I CAN'T AFFORD THIS RIGHT NOW!!!#I DO ACTUALLY NEED THESE FOR WORK!!!#they turned on but they're acting weird#they got dried and I'm hoping maybe once they cool down they'll be normal?#they were beeping. google says let them cool down to stop the beeping and don't put them in the case in the meantime???#I just. really can't fucking afford to replace these.
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Testing the new pens I got at Staples yesterday (left) and the Faber-Castell ones Jon grabbed for me at a downtown art store today (right)
Most of the ones I got yesterday were not what I was looking for. I'll still make use of the Sharpie paint pens and the Tombow 01, 03 and 05, but what I really needed was replacements for my Faber-Castell black brush pen and 1.5. I gave the Tombow hard/soft points to Jon, I think they'll be better for his writing than for my drawing.
There weren't a lot of Faber-Castell pen sets that included the brush and 1.5 without also including a bunch of fine tips, which I am well-stocked on, so we got a set that had some gray brush pens so I can experiment with shading and stuff
I uh. Might be reopening donation doodles soon. Being an artist is expensive
#mod post#faber-castell#tombow#pen tests#first i had to pay to replace my main light fixture cuz I can't draw in the darj#*dark#and my last pic (the senshi piece) i could tell my inking pens were on their last legs and i had to get new ones#so i am gonna have to do more donation doodles to afford the supplies i needed to finish the last batch of doodles#fuckin. oops
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I'M GETTING MY NIPPLES PIERCED THIS FRIDAY
#i am so so so so so excited to have them pierced and so so so so so scared for the piercing and healing process lmfaooooooooooooooooo#i've wanted them pierced for YEARS but haven't done it bc i either couldn't hack it or couldn't afford it and now i can afford it so.#i'm gonna hack it. it's gonna be fucking ROUGH.#my nips are so goddamn sensitive 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#but if i want them pierced i have to GET them pierced. i can't just magically have healed piercings.#so i'm going for it this winter when I know i won't be swimming since the healing process takes so long.#by the time they're done healing it will JUST be getting warm again!#hopefully. depends how my body handles it.#but if i try really hard to eat my veggies and treat my piercings nicely then i should heal on 6-9 months????? i fuckin hope.#the pain is supposed to be short. very very intense but short.#and well. after my experience with my last iud removal & replacement and then getting an iv recently? yeah. i think i can deal.#we'll see. worst comes to worst i'll chicken out after the first one and have one pierced nipple. and that's fine.#but i'm going to a good piercer at a reputable shop. i trust them.#so the process will SUCK but i'll be fine afterwards.#personal#piercing tw
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there really is something completely demoralizing about literally starving for over a year bc i cannot work and dragging myself in for the few days i can manage and disability deciding I'm still capable of gainful employment
#personal;#am I????? am I really???#on hr 6 of my shift avery day I reach a point near tears#I spend half of lunch involuntarily dozing#I can't affor to replace braces as often as they should be#I can only afford my meds bc medicaid#I can't even work enough to qualify for medical leaves anymore#if I end up in the hospital I could be fired
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