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Bound by business: Jason Todd x reader
Summary: Jason x information dealer reader. He only came for the info, but one thing led to another, a bit of whiskey and some teasing and - .... And she's a self made gotham.boss bitch falling for no one...
Warnings: SMUT MDNI!, dirty talk, p in v, teasing, angst
A/N : Been a while since I wrote smut and a story this long. Let me down gently. XD
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It was dark and the rain was heavy, doing nothing to hide Jason’s irritation as he speeded on his motorcycle to the bad side of Gotham if there was any good side of Gotham in the first place.
Once having reached his destination, he took his helmet off letting rain wet his ruffled hair and started banging on the door.
His contact in the criminal world had been hard lately and he had no idea why, but the reasons behind the sudden change in the attitude were far from his interest.
HE and Y/N had a long history, went way back to the times when he was Robin and she was a good girl, both memories seeming like a fucking grotesque now.
“Y/N! Open the fuck up!”
“The hell Jason?!”
The door opened but she made no move to invite him inside despite the downpour on the outside. Instead she settled on watching him shake the water off like a dog, deriving some sadistic pleasure from the fact he could barely see with his hair stuck to his forehead and falling into his eyes.
“The gun shipment. Tonight. I need details. Time, place, figures involved.
“Well hello to you too, Jason. I’ve been fine thanks for asking.” She scoffed and then smirked.
“I don’t have time for this shit-“
“Right, right, of course. I probably should thank you for not putting a gun to my head right away, right?”
“That is to be rectified at any moment now.” He reached towards his holster.
“Don’t be stupid, Jason. You know you only get this far with things because of me. You don’t want to lose an ally, do you?”
“You’re just an information dealer. Plenty of those in Gotham.”
“Mhm. Sure. And how many of them are as skilled as I am?”
He scoffed, pushing right past her, casually shrugging off his jacket and tossing it on the couch.
“Yeah by all means, ruin my furniture. Drink?” she asked, heading towards the cabinet
“Whiskey. Neat.”
“Wow, someone finally developed some standards. What gives?”
Jason scoffed again.
“Standards, my ass. It’s at your expense so why would I hold back?”
“I might hold you accountable to that in the future. Cheers.”
“Cheers.”
The glasses clinked and for a moment they both sipped their drinks in silence which gave Jason a second to actually look at her. She was a badass, that was what he knew. But every time he came around to her place, which was not really happening that often, she was almost innocent. Ironically. No make up, comfy clothes, just hoodie and yoga pants. He had seen women try harder to look I-woke-up-like-this.
Y/N was just being comfortable.
“What’s with the look Jace?” she smirked from under the rim of her glass, her eyes piercing into him.
“I’m just thinking.”
“About?”
“About why you are suddenly not giving me shit.”
“It’s been a long day if you must know. Long and hard day. My shit giving attitude and my humor might be a little off. ”
“Huh!” he huffed dismissively “hard day? You want to hear about a hard day? The one involving guns and fights? And being stabbed with a knife? Twice?“
“We all have our own definition of a hard day, you fool. You deal with bullets, I deal with people.”
“So you’re basically saying that people are worse than guns? Seriously? Damn, girl you got some audacity there.” He half-laughed, taking another sip of the whiskey and swirling the beverage “so, spill. Which one of your usual charming assholes got under your skin?”
“Luckily someone I do not have any respect for.”
“You have respect for no one, sunshine. But please, do tell. Did you kick him in the groin or punched him in the face?”
“Something like that.” She smirked, clearly so full of herself.
“Please tell me you at least broke his nose.”
“I did no permanent damage, that's all I can say.”
“Meaning you did something painful, but not crippling.” He nodded. He was actually learning to use the same method. Putting a gun to people's heads and shooting them dead was not very useful while searching for info. But then again, he had Y/N for that latter purpose. “Black eye? Twisted arm?”
“I thought you came here about the gun shipment info?” she finally sat on the couch and turned to face him with a hint of tease in her eyes.
“I did. But should it stop me from having a little polite conversation with my favorite partner in crime?” Jason leaned back on the coach with a sly smile
“Mh! I call bullshit.”
“How’s your hand doing?”
The question took her by surprise. Right, the hand, of course he knew about it. She got injured during one of her quests last week and has been dealing with the consequences ever since.
“I’m handling.”
“Uh!” Jason raised his hand stopping her in the middle of the sentence “Let me translate: it hurts like hell but you won’t admit it.” Y/N would never confront her pain – neither physical nor emotional. And yes, he was doing the same but it was easier to notice it in someone else than in himself. “So, given the state of that limb you must have got to that asshole pretty hard. Good job, I’ll give you that. It’s not every day I get to hear about your violent tendencies….” He chuckled and sipped the last of his drink, putting the glass back on the table, his eyes fixed on hers with a mischief in them.
“Oh you know damn well about my violent tendencies…”
“Damn right I do. And don’t I just love every fucking one of them…” his voice dropped an octave as he leaned forward, never dropping the gaze. “Nothing sexier than a woman who can handle herself…”
“Oh yeah?” she allowed him the sudden closeness, clearly enjoying the blooming game “never took you for a guy who loved being manhandled..”
“Oh I am not. But I’m a sucker for watching someone deserving of it experiencing that treatment.” Jason's gaze moved down her body appreciatively, lingering on the swell of her breast under the hoodie and the curve of her hips accentuated by that stupid leggings. He knew she had curves under all those clothes. “It’s a fucking turn on.” He added in a husky tone.
“Is it now…?” she hummed moving a little closer on the couch, her own drink landing on the table as well as she placed palms on his thighs, using it to lean even more forwards, leaving less than an inch between their faces.
“Fuck yeah it is…” his breath caught in his throat a little at the unexpected but not unwelcomed touch. “Seeing you lay someone down with those gorgeous hands of yours….” He licked his lips.
“Mhm… keep talking…” Y/N switched positions, now sitting on his lap, straddling him, her fingers playing with the hair at the nape of his neck and he instinctively grabbed onto her hips. Gods, he was a man and suddenly realized how long it’s been since he had a one night stand, too busy with work.
But this?
This was getting dangerous and deep down he knew that once started, wouldn’t end up easily.
This was not going to be just scratching an itch like it usually was. This would hurt a lot and mixing business with pleasure was never a good idea.
But he couldn’t stop, the primal part of his brain already awakened by the closeness of her body, her almost gentle caresses and the soft, sweet yet seductive tone he had never heard before but she had mastered to perfection.
“I said…” she leaned to his ear “keep talking…”
“Fucks…” he groaned staring at her with undisguised lust “the though of you getting dirty… rough….”
“Uh-huh…” she hummed and started grinding on him. Slowly, almost torturously, causing Jason to take a sharp inhale of breath, but quickly composing himself.
“You always fight like that, princess?” his hands wandered from her hips to her ass, squeezing the ample flesh, pulling her closer to the bulge in his pants.
“Only for the special ones.”
“Special ones, huh?” he held her hips tighter guiding her movements “Like when you want to prove a point? Or-“
“Or. Definitely or.”
She threw her head back, exposing her neck, giving him not-so-subtle hints.
“Or when you want to send a message?” he willingly moved his lips down her skin, sucking on the pulse points, earning a little, delicious moan and hand tangling in his hair. “A message that you’re taken?”
“Am I taken? Can’t remember…” she pulled back, taking off her hoodie and discarding her bra.
“Fuck yeah, you’re taken.” His lips moved lower, kissing her collarbone and cleavage.
“Good to know…” she made a quick movement to pull and toss his shirt somewhere in the room intensifying her movements on his ever growing tent “I think the gun shipment changed the location…”
“You fucking tease.” Jason hissed, changing the positions so she was trapped beneath his body. “Eight inches. Semi-automatic. Brand new and ready for action.”
“Well don’t I love being at a gunpoint…” her hand found a way to his groin, starting to palm the bulge, enjoying the way she seemed to still be in control, even with him on top.
“Oh yeah? A gun to your head?” he groaned, barely controlling himself.
“Maybe not to my head…”
Y/N wriggled on the bed, rolling on her belly for a moment to reach for the condom in the nightstand and that moment was enough for Jason to get hypnotized by that bounding piece of ass.
“I really hope the biggest size will fit you—”
“Fuck, I’ll stuff you so full you won’t walk for a week.”
He pushed her legs open with his knee, doing a quick job of rolling the latex on his length, teasing her clit with a few featherlight touches, loving how she seemed to beg for more with every squirm and entered her in one deep thrust.
“Big enough for you?” he bit her earlobe licking the shell right after, his voice low.
“I – mmm… shit…”
“Have you ever had this big?” The thrusts were long and hard and deliciously painful at first before turning into a series of perfectly aimed and ideally paced movements that made her gasp from pleasure. “Answer the question, princess.”
“I – ah! Ah, shit!” nails of the right hand dug into the mattress hard enough to make holes, the other hand reaching for the pillow, quickly pressing it between her head and the headboard to prevent the potential concussion. He was not a semi-automatic gun machine. More like a rifle, never shooting blanks. Thank fucks, she was prepared in many ways and started taking pills a few weeks prior. Not that it was her plan or anything.
“What was that?” he rocked faster and harder, pulling all the way back only to slam right back inside. “Too much for you, slut?”
“Make me come! Make me fucking come to give me incentive to answer that stupid question!”
“Seems to me like I’m fucking your brains out. Is that right, pretty? Am I fucking you stupid?”
“Fuck!”
“Yeah… you’re so fucked, baby.” He was now hitting her cervix with such a speed and strength as if his life was depending on it. “Fucked by no. One. Else. But. The. Red. Hood.“ Each word was punctuated by a deep movement and if someone asked she would swear it was reaching her stomach. Or maybe she just ate something bad.
“It’s an – ohhh! – oh shit!” she gasped, unable to finish the sentence for a moment. “It’s an honor for you to have me like this….” There was no way she was going to let him win and really fuck her stupid.
“Oh I know… But no one else is big and strong enough for you” he circled her clit, bending head to suck her nipple, leaving a wet trail from one breast to another “now, come for me… come baby…”
She bit her lips so hard that a blood appeared on the bottom one, quickly licking it off, turning Jason wild. He was a sucker for blood. Not only the shooting kind, clearly.
“Yeah…. Yeah…oh! Oh!”
She could feel his pace faltering a little as he was so close to his own climax.
And used it against him, hitting right into the momentum, somehow managing to end up on top of him again, hands on his chest, breasts bouncing, ass slapping on his cock as she rocked up and down, still in control.
“Fuck! Y/n!”
“Yeah, yeah that’s right, moan my name as you come Jason Todd. Red Hood. Whatever. Scream my name.”
“You- where did you learn how to take cock like that—”
“You wouldn’t like the answer. Now come on!” It was immensely hard to keep herself from diving into the sea of release but she knew how to get what she wanted. Years of effing experience in this fucked up place.
His hands were on her ass, squeezing mercilessly, almost to the point of pain as he finally reached the stars.
Only then she allowed herself to let go as well. Winning, yet again, falling on top of him like a marathon runner who scored a gold medal even if there were truly no losers in this game of love. At least not in terms of the body.
“Damn… you’re heavy…” he hissed, wrapping arms around her, trapping her on top of him, nuzzling nose into her hair. She was right with him, next to him, so warm and soft and tender, making him feel so good, so nice, so liberated.
“Don’t act like you didn’t enjoy my fat ass bouncing on you.”
“Too tired to even try to pretend.” He whispered, trying to kiss her softly, but much to his surprise, she rolled off him, swiftly avoiding his grip, grabbed the hoodie from the floor and stood up fixing her hair, letting it fall down her back like a h/c waterfall.
“Well this was nice.” Her tone was flat, unamused and the warmth in his chest turned into icy cold right away.
“Wait… what? But-“
“I’m gonna go piss now. Can’t risk any STIs. Those hurt like hell, not to mention it’s kind of embarrassing explaining to my Ob-gyn why I wasn’t careful again. I swear one more time and she’ll drop me as a patient.”
Was this a joke to her!?
“But-“ he stuttered looking at her with wide eyes. This was not what he expected at all and there were like a million questions in his head. “Y/n-“
“I’ll be right back, but hey – hygiene right? You should get yourself cleaned too” she grabbed the towel from the rack and threw it on him, effectively flattening his still semi-hard cock and his appetite and energy for another round.
“But –“
“This is serious shit Jason! Gotta stay healthy if we’re to repeat it.”
She winked suggestively, rushing to the bathroom, leaving a little crack in the door, so he could faintly hear her peeing.
What was wrong with this girl!?
This must have been just some stupid nightmare, a product of his tired, messed up, beaten brain--
“So. You wanted to talk about something?” she was back about a minute later. “hey, you still didn’t clean up?”
“Are you always like this?”
“Like what?” she touched her right buttock and hissed at the contact with a scratch his hands left on the skin.
“This no-nonsense attitude!”
“What else do you want me to do?” she tilted her head, looking at him quizzically
“Oh I don’t know!” he finally lost his patience, feeling too vulnerable and too emotional for his own liking, feeling the compelling need to cover himself. Both physically and emotionally. “Normally people like to – oh, I don’t know – talk after sex? Maybe cuddle a little? But you’re just like oh, hey, it was a nice fuck, thanks for letting me use you, dressing and washing up like a freaking germophobe!” he got tangled in his pants, hardly preventing himself from tripping which would be even more condescending.
“Jason-“
“I’m being serious here Y/N!”
‘You called me slut.” She deadpanned, raising an eyebrow.
‘I called you – ok, fine! Fine I called you slut. Is that why you’re suddenly icing me out?”
“No.”
“No!? That’s it? That’s all you got? I can’t fucking believe it!” he punched the wall leaving a little dent, but the broken pride clearly did not affect Y/N.
“Could you please calm down and stop depriving me of my deposit on this place? I’d appreciate it.”
“You’re fucking unbelievable!”
“I don’t understand why you’re being so emotional about it Jason.” It might have been a mirage but from Jason’s perspective it looked like Y/N literally rolled her eyes!
“We had sex!”
“Yes? and?” She hesitated giving him a chance to explain further but he was just standing there with eyes wide and mouth open. “Oh come on, this was just an itch, right? We’re bound by business, not pleasure. You don’t mix two explosives like us. It’s just unwise. We’re both adults, sex is not always about deeper feelings-”
She was still talking but he could hardly hear anything with the way blood was humming in his ears, successfully blocking any other bullshit coming out of her mouth (thankfully for Jason though).
Bound by business.
Mixing explosives.
Unwise.
Unwise!
Fucking unwise!?
“Jason?” she smiled softly, as if nothing happened, bending down and searching his eyes. “That gun shipment of yours? It happens in an hour at the docks and everything is orchestrated by Black Mask. I would take some backup if I were you, it might get ugly.”
“Yeah. Whatever.”
Without any further words he walked outside, feeling defeated like never before and the nail to the coffin was the sound of the door being locked right after him.
He should have known better that a girl who climbed this high in the criminal underworld would be fucked up in some way.
But how can one prepare for the reality of the broken heart?
Back up his ass. He was about to turn his newly found pain into rage and kill each and every one of Sionis’ men himself.
The moon was about to turn bloody that night….
And the worst part?
She was still his information dealer. The best in Gotham, regardless of what he might have said before.
And he was still going to work with her.
Do you know that warning : don’t drink and drive or better : don’t drink and text?
Yep.
Another one should be the warning of developing feelings for your literal partner in crime.
@lettucel0ver @oohyasumi @apple---cider---vinegar
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Try, Try, Try 1
My warnings are not exhaustive but be aware this is a dark fic and may include potentially triggering topics including adultery and trying to conceive. Please use your common sense when consuming content. I am not responsible for your decisions.
Character: husband!Andy Barber, friend!Thor
masterlist - to be added
Summary: your husband puts high expectations on you but you don't think you'll ever be enough for him.
As usual, I would appreciate any and all feedback. I’m happy to once more go on this adventure with all of you! Thank you in advance for your comments and for reblogging ❤️
A single line. Negative. You cringe as you hold the plastic stick over the bin in disappointment. There’s a knock at the door.
“Well,” Andy’s voice rumbles through.
You drop the test into the garbage and exhale softly, “not this time.”
You crank on the faucet and rinse off your hands. The door opens from the other side and Andy meets your eye in the mirror. You can see the same disappointment in him. He even looks angry.
“You been taking your vitamins?” He asks.
“Yeah,” you nod to the pillow box, each day a separate compartment, filled with the multicolor tablets. “I’m off coffee finally. No drinking. I gave Lisa a bunch of wine.”
Your husband sighs, “you were ovulating. You said so.”
“Andy,” you shrug. “It just takes time.”
“Three years,” he says. “Yeah, a long time.”
You wince at his disapproval. You shut off the tap and dry your hands. “I know. I’m trying.”
“We’re both trying,” he insists. “Even on the days I’m tired, from working, when all I wanna do is nothing, I try. All according to your calendar. Are you sure you’re doing it right?”
“What?” You face him. “Yeah, it’s an app and the tests--”
“I don’t know. Maybe you aren’t trying as hard as me. Or maybe you’re hiding something.”
His accusation is like a slap in the face. You blink furiously and shake your head, “what are you saying?”
“You went to the OBGYN last week. How do I know you didn’t get pills? Or an insert?”
“Huh?” You grimace. You got your IUD out the month before the wedding; because he asked. It wasn’t fun or easy. “Why--”
“Cold feet? I mean, you leave dishes in the sink, maybe you’re not ready for a kid.”
Your lashes flutter as your eyes burn. You leave a glass or two in the sink but the place isn’t a sty. You heave and swallow down the hurt. He’s frustrated. That’s it.
“I’m ready. I’ve been just as ready as you,” you croak.
“Hm, well, maybe you should book another appointment. Get a referral and figure out what’s wrong with you.”
“What’s wrong--”
“There are options. In vitro. Surrogate,” he crosses his arms and leans on the door frame, “I’m not getting any younger. Neither are you.”
You want to say that it could be him. That you’re not necessarily the problem but you can’t be entirely sure of that. You sniffle, “Andy, I want it just as bad. I understand that it’s hard but you don’t have to be mean.”
“Cecilia and Mark started trying last year and she’s about to pop,” he retorts. “And Timothy, he’s older than I am and he’s got twins.”
“Andy,” you plead. “You’re acting like this is some conspiracy.”
He looks away as if to suggest that’s possible. You stagger with hurt. His mom always accused you of being a gold digger. Does he believe you? He’s the one who told you to quit your job and stay home.
He clears his throat and his eyes flick over sharply, “almost forgot. Found a cooking course for you. Down at the Elmwood.”
“A cooking... what?”
“Mom suggested it. Said it could help with everything. Make it more manageable if you know what you’re doing.” He drops his hands to his hips.
“But... you like my cooking.”
“Honey, you cook out of cans and the freezer. It’s something but if we’re going to have a little one, you need to start making more organic meals. Processed foods are awful, especially if you’re going to be breastfeeding,” he girds.
Your heart sinks even further. You just can’t do anything right. Not since he put that ring on your finger. You’ve let him down in so many ways. You can’t give him a baby, you can’t cook what he likes, and last night he said you were too dry. Not your fault when he doesn’t offer any foreplay.
“It will be fun too,” he offers. “I’m sure you’ll make some friends. Maybe some who can give you good advice... moms.”
You restrain the flinch and nod. “Sure, probably will be. I guess... learning new things is good.”
“Sure it will be, honey,” he shoves away from the wall and comes closer. “Look, it’s not that bad, alright?” He brushes his hand over your hip and along your lower back. He turns you to face him, “we can try again. Before work?”
He pulls you against him and you have to resist tearing away. You’re not mad. You’re hurt. Why can’t he ever tell you what you do right?
“Sure,” you run your hands up his white tee shirt.
“Mm, when’s the last time we were spontaneous?” He purrs as his attitude shifts entirely. “Come on, get on the counter. Just like old times.”
Your cheeks sear at the memory. When you were his law clerk, it was so exciting. Your little rendezvous, the under the desk fun. Now it’s so much pressure. Now he really feels like your boss.
He backs you up and you brace the counter. He helps you up and pushes between your knees. You gasp as he steps between them and pulls down the straps of your nightie. A shiver speckles goosebumps across your chest as he bends to bury his face.
You clasp the back of his head as he fondles one tit in his hand and latches onto the other. He groans as he teethes at you and sucks as he pulls back, stretching your nipple until it pops free. He looks up at you and purrs.
“You know, when you’re expecting, those are gonna be bigger,” he stands and you hide your disappointment. No foreplay. Again. “I can’t wait.”
He spreads your knees and pulls you so your pelvis is curled. He pushes down the elastic of his boxers as he slides you closer to the edge. He grabs your shoulder, pushing you back against the mirror as he guides himself along your cunt.
He growls as he pushes inside of you, rocking until he finds his way in. He grunts and snaps his hips as you whine. It scrapes dryly as you’re unprepared for his suddenness. You brace his forearm and grit down on the pain.
“You’re dry again,” he snarls and thrusts.
You rasp, “sorry, I’m trying.”
You reach down to your clit and he swats your hand away. He snags your wrists and brings them above your head. He pins them to the mirror and rams in harder. You whimper and curl your legs around him.
“Ah, Andy--”
“Yeah, you like it, don’t you? Like how big I am?” He pounds into you without patient. “Want me to fill you up, don’t you?”
You gulp and gasp around his raw intrusion. He squeezes your wrists until your fingers throb and you notice how he watches himself in the mirror, almost entirely unconcerned with your presence. You turn your head down and bite your lip as he uses you. You just need him to get off and then you can go cook him a breakfast he won’t he even like.
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Obedient demons, devlish Angels.
Wade is so bad at his job he almost starves to death. And Logan is so bad at his, that he makes sure He dosn't.
Tw: depiction of rejection sensitivity, vauge sex, open/closed relationship dynamics, sick/ill demons, "eating" problems, what the title says.
@nuggetpool-hi
No one:
Wade, rubbing up against Logan like a cat: Plllleeeeaaasseee?? Pretty please? I'm staaarrvvinngg Loagie!
Logan, sitting in a chair reviewing the bible: You just ate yesterday; Wade. You aren't starving...
Wade: Yes, I am! You left me here to go spend the night with kurt so Im hungry! Honest! Please?? I'll be quick! You won't even know im down there-
Logan: Enough! I'm tired of this. Stop. Every time I come back, all you wanna do is have sex and I know you kinda have too but I dont want to! Do you ever think about that? Do you ever stop and wonder if I even want to?!
Wade, backing away, tail tucked: ......i-.. I do all the time...
Logan: Apprently not because I already said no! And you just keep-.....
Wade: *anxiously picking at his nails, head down and clearly ashamed to just exist* ....sorry...
Logan: No... Wait- Wade no... I didnt-
Wade, already crying, streaks of red coming down his neck and cheeks: n-no.. Its okay.. i-I wont ask anymore..
Logan: *sighs* I didn't mean it like that... Im just.. frustrated...
Wade, hurt, tears falling: I-its fine.. really. I Just..y-youre so nice to me when-.. when we do it and..and..
Logan, getting up: *reaches out a hand* No, Wade, I didn't mean to- You dont have to find someone else. Ill do it, Just.. just gimme a second okay?
Wade, shaking his head, backing up: No.. I-i wont ask anymore. It's fine.. dont worry about it..
Logan, watching Wade lay down and curl up on his side of the bed, now feeling terrible: ...so... y-you aren't hungry anymore..? Or.. cause we can! I dont mind Its just... *another sigh* Look. Wade.. I don't want you to be hungry..
Wade, whispering: I'll be okay...
Logan then puts his stuff away, trying to pull Wade close. He's squirming, trying to shy away but Logan forces him to stay in his chest, kissing his forehead and softly apologizing. Wade's bloody face heightens Logans primal angelic insticts, fighting the adrenaline rush of battle to keep his touches gentle, rubbing his back with slit yellow eyes. Being a warrior of the lord was difficult when demon bloods scent alone activated the strong desire to overcome evil, esspecially when the one in your arms isn't evil at all, just forever hungry.
*The next day*
Logan: Waade. Im back! Let me eat real quick and ill feed ya.
Wade: *streatches and yawns* Mmh Nah.
Logan: Nah? But yesterday you were whining about how hungry you were.
Wade: Im not hungry anymore. Got some pathetic sap in the chapel.
Logan:...... you..got someone else?;
Wade, non sarcastically, if anything simply explaining: Yeah. Thought you were getting tired of feeding me so.. you know. Besides. Gotta keep the sinners coming back right? Heh heh."
Logan: .....Yeah.... yeah.. thats fine.. thats.... who was it?
Wade: i...I dont know? Just some guy. Fuck, Angel, If I didnt know any better Id say you're acting.... jealous~"
Logan, biting his tounge: No! I just dont-...nevermind..
Wade: You don't like what?
Logan, thinking, his chest tight: I... I don't like you feeding on others.
Wade, gasping: Really!?
Logan: B-but its not like that!! I-i just mean- what kind of an angel would I be if i let a demon feed on the innocent?
Wade, now giggling: Ohh yeaahh suuuree
Logan, finally coming to lay down: Im serious!! You might accidently drain them too much and then what would that make me? A terrible protector. Thats what.
Wade, now pulling his face close, holding his cheeks lovingly: D'aaaaaww~ Loagie baby dosn't want me sleeping around on him? My big brave strong angel boy wants this demon ass all to himself? Hm??
Logan, blushing: No!! I didn't say that! Im just doing my duty as an angel to protect citizens and-
Wade is smirking: Oh yes, your civil duty of fucking a succubus every day, right? Liks you Sooo dont love my tight ass? Hm? And when I nip your balls or when-
Logan, completly red: ENOUGH! ..S-shut up..
This bickering and banter goes on for a while longer before they end up cuddling and falling asleep in each others arms. Wade feels loved in an emotional sense, it feels much better then the other 'love' he got ealier.
*the next x 7 days*
Logan: Hey Wade. Service ended early today and Kurt has a meeting. So im all yours. What do you w-.... Wade? Are you alright?
Wade, weak, curled up inside of the blanket: ....
Logan: Wade?? Come on, don't trick me. Whats wrong? *puts his hand on his forehead. He has a fever but he's shaking. Or was he just hot cause hes a demon? Either way, hes too warm for Logan's liking.* Do demons get sick?
Wade, clinging to his hand with his own, desperate for attention and affection: .. Please..
Logan: Please what? What do you need?
Wade, whos clamy, breathing uneven, and who is now whimpering: N-nothin... i-im fine.
Logan: Wade... tell me whats wrong.
Wade, shaking his head: N-no...I-i dont want to ask anymore..
Logan, finally getting it, realizing that this last week has been all cuddles. He hasn't fed Wade in an entire week: Come on. Get up, Ill-
Wade, whining as if it hurts to talk: I can't..
Logan, now worrying: Y-you cant get up? Oohh.... fuck wade!! Why didn't you say anything!? When I said I didn't want too at that moment I didn't mean starve yourself to death!! Shit!.. okay.. uhm..
Wade, tearing up, silent and holding his hand, logan is squeezing it: ...Im sorry... i-i didnt want to make you upset...
Logan, panicking: Why didn't you just-?!
Its now Logan remembers telling Wade he isn't allowed to feed on the church goers or clergy anymore. He feels terrible.
Logan: You... you listened.. you obeyed an angel?
Wade, eyes closed, trying to ignore his pain: Only my angel...
Logan, smiling, feeling himself tear up. One drops onto Wade.
Wade, whining because angel tears are holy water: OWCH!! W-whhhy??
Logan: Sorry! Sorry I just.. *wipes eyes* Im going to fix this. I promise. Can I fix it? Please?
Wade: If youre asking consent to fuck me then Yes.
And so Logan does. Connecting their foreheads, their tears softly mixing into a slight diluted sting each time they touched one another, kissing like it was the end of the world, the passion and adjustments Logan had is slow. Tender. And passionate. The kind you only really gave to a loyal lover who you've just returned to. A farmilar feeling of home and satisfaction feeding Wade back to health. They must have fucked at least three times that night because in the morning Wade was springy as ever, like a spring chicken being put into a new pasture, the old tired cock trailing behind just happy that the hen was healthy again.
#succubus au#angel au#angel logan#succubus wade#demon wade#deadpool and wolverine#poolverine#logan howlett#wade wilson#deadpool#wolverine#deadpool 3#deadclaws#wade x logan
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pairing ; husband!anton x wife!reader
summary ; you and anton are invited to appear on the popular talk show byob hosted by joon and brian. you both shares anecdotes about your relationship, from how you guys met to their first impressions of one another. fans also get a sneak peek into your married life, plans for the future, and anton’s sweet, drunken confessions that make you and everyone else fall for him all over again.
warning(s) ; english is not my first language, alcohol consumption, light teasing, fluff overload.
part of a series — jagi, mwohae?
Sitting on the terrace, you and Anton waited for your cue to join Joon and Brian on their show. You could hear faint laughter and chatter inside as the two hosts warmed up the audience. Anton reached for your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours.
“You nervous?” he asked, his soft voice cutting through the evening air.
You smiled, shaking your head.
“Not with you here. But… I am curious about what they’ll ask us.”
He chuckled, leaning closer.
“Probably something embarrassing. I’ll take the heat for us if it gets too bad.”
Before you could even respond, the production assistant signaled it was time, and you both stood.
“Hyung, guess who’s joining us today!” Joon teased, leaning toward Brian.
“I’ll give you a hint, they’re both very famous.”
“Bro, aren’t all our guests famous?” Brian rolled his eyes.
“No, I mean like very famous.”
“You’re making me nervous.”
Joon grinned mischievously before announcing,
“Let’s welcome today’s guests, Y/N and Anton, the ‘IT’ couple!”
Applause from staff member erupted as you and Anton walked onto the set. Brian stood to greet Anton with a bro hug.
“What’s up, Anton? Long time no see.”
“Good to see you again, man,” Anton replied with his signature bright smile.
Joon turned to you, his eyes wide with mock amazement.
“Y/N, you look stunning!”
You laughed.
“Thank you, Joon. You’re looking pretty good yourself.”
Once everyone settled, Brian leaned forward and ask.
“So, what did you guys bring to ‘BYOB’ for today?”
Anton reached under the table, pulling out a sleek bottle of whiskey.
“This is our favorite drink. I thought it’d be fitting to bring it here.”
“And soju!” you added, holding up the bottle with a grin.
“Because it’s my second favorite.”
Joon’s eyes widened.
“Yo, they know how to party. Why not open them up now?”
Brian grabbed paper cups and poured drinks for everyone. After a toast, he took a sip and exclaimed,
“This whiskey is dangerous, not too strong but just sweet enough.”
Joon nodded.
“I like it. You two really brought the good stuff.”
After some casual banter, Joon shifted the conversation.
“So, I heard you just celebrated your first wedding anniversary. Congratulations!”
“Thank you!” you and Anton said in unison.
“Time really flies,” Anton added, his hand resting lightly on yours.
“Let’s talk about how you two met,” Brian said.
You smiled, reminiscing.
“We met when I was visiting my cousin. Anton lived a few houses down, and we started out as friends. From strangers to friends, then lovers, and now here we are.”
Brian turned to Anton.
“What was your first impression of her?”
Anton chuckled.
“Honestly? How bright and extroverted she was. I was so shy back then, and she had this way of drawing me out of my shell. It felt… balanced.”
“And Y/N? What about you?”
“My first impression of Anton was his voice. It’s so soft and calming… like an angel. And his smile? It’s everything.”
Joon dramatically clutched his chest.
“Anton, you’re making it hard for the rest of us! That soft voice could make anyone fall for you.”
You playfully leaned closer to Anton.
“Well, too bad. He’s mine.”
The group laughed before Brian asked the question on everyone’s mind.
“So, any plans for kids?”
Anton nodded thoughtfully.
“We’ve talked about it. We both love the idea of starting a family, but we want to wait until we’re ready. Maybe in two or three years.”
“Yeah,” you added.
“We want to enjoy this time together first. But we do love babies.”
As conversation flowed, drinks poured, Anton began to loosen up, a soft flush coloring his cheeks. He leaned closer to you, his words slightly slurred but still clear.
“Do you know how lucky I am?” he said, his gaze locking onto yours.
You laughed nervously, knowing he was entering his overly affectionate, tipsy phase.
“Anton…”
“No, I’m serious.” He turned to Joon and Brian.
“She’s everything. Like, I don’t think I’d be half the person I am today without her. She’s my anchor, my best friend, my—”
“Okay, okay!” you interrupted, face burning.
“I think he’s had enough.”
Brian and Joon were doubled over with laughter.
“Yo, Anton, you’re gonna make us all cry,” Joon said, wiping his eyes.
“But it’s sweet,” Brian added. “Keep going.”
Anton ignored them, still focused on you.
“I just want everyone to know how much I love you. Even if I embarrass myself on national TV, it’s worth it.”
You covered your face with your hands, laughing and groaning at the same time.
“He’s like this every time he drinks.”
“And we love it,” Brian said.
Anton leaned back slightly in his chair, his gaze softened. He was quiet for a moment, prompting Joon to nudge him with a laugh.
“Yo, Anton, you good? Did the whiskey hit you more already?”
Anton chuckled and shook his head, his focus drifting toward you.
“No, I’m just… thinking about something. You know, it’s one thing to love someone, but it’s another to realize how lucky you are to have them.”
Brian raised an eyebrow, intrigued.
“Oh, we’re getting deeper now. What’s on your mind?”
Anton smiled wistfully, his cheeks slightly flushed.
“Our wedding day. That moment when Y/N walked down the aisle… I swear, it hit me like a ton of bricks. She looked so beautiful, so radiant. I couldn’t believe she was about to marry me. I mean, who am I to deserve her?”
You rolled your eyes playfully, nudging him.
“Stop that. You know how much I love you.”
“No, but seriously,”
Anton continued, looking at the hosts.
“I was standing there, and I felt this overwhelming mix of emotions, happiness, gratitude, even a little bit of fear. And then I remembered what my dad told me once.”
Joon leaned forward, curiosity piqued.
“What did he say?”
Anton’s smile grew, and he glanced at you before answering.
“He said, ‘When you find someone who brings out the best in you, who makes you want to be better every single day, don’t ever let them go. And if you’re lucky enough to marry her, make sure she knows how much you love her every single day.’”
The room grew quiet for a moment, everyone absorbing the weight of his words.
“He told me that when I first introduced him to Y/N,”
Anton added, his voice soft.
“He could see how happy she made me, how much I lit up whenever I was around her. And on our wedding day, as I watched her walk toward me, I realized he was right. I’m the luckiest guy in the world.”
Joon let out a dramatic sigh, fanning his face.
“Okay, who’s cutting onions in here? Anton, you’re killing me, man.”
Brian nodded, visibly moved.
“That’s so beautiful, hyung. Honestly, it’s refreshing to see someone so genuine about their love.”
You placed a hand on Anton’s, squeezing it gently.
“He’s always been like this. Even when he’s not drunk, he has a way of making me feel like the most loved person in the world.”
Anton grinned, his confidence returning.
“Well, I’m just telling the truth.”
#riize#riize imagine#riize imagines#anton#anton imagines#anton imagine#anton lee#anton lee imagines#anton x you#anton x reader#anton x y/n#lee chanyoung#lee chanyoung imagine#lee chanyoung imagines
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Getting to Know Jake Lockley's Massive Cock
Jake Lockley x f!Reader | Explicit 18+ | 5.5K
Summary: You are a fic writer in the marvel universe living in New York where Moon Knight, and of course, Jake Lockley are real. His identity, as well as Marc's and Steven's are public. You write for the fandom, primarily for Jake. He joins tumblr...and reads your fics.
Warnings: smut, oral, p in v, unprotected, cream pie, breeding
A/N: I had so much fun writing this one. If I had more time I would have created fun edits for the parts where there are tumblr posts and messages and such, but I really wanted to post this already. Also, sorry about the Spanish, I don't speak it. If it bothers you too much, give me a shout, and let me know what I should change it to and I'll fix it!
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It was always the same. When you finish a story and are about to post it the nerves kick in and you hesitate to hit the button. You shake yourself, literally, and post it before you could talk yourself out of it.
You refresh the page and there it is, first post on your dash under your url: jake-lockley-is-my-husband. You know if you don’t distract yourself, you’ll obsessively check for any interactions with it. So you close out and find something else to do.
You manage to occupy yourself until it’s time for bed, and you just can’t resist checking. You have dozens of likes, a few reblogs, and two lovely comments that you reply to before going to bed. All-in-all not too bad.
When you wake up the next morning you can’t wait to check again and when you open tumblr your first thought is that there must be a glitch. You have thousands of notifications. You try to sort through your activity but it’s a complete mess. Fics you posted months ago are suddenly getting interacted with, and random other posts too. But your top post is the fic you posted yesterday. You scroll through the comments:
No way it’s really him.
New celebrity tumblr just dropped.
Man of the people!
You go to the reblogs to figure out just what the fuck these people are talking about and click view post on the most recent. You scroll through a chain of reblogs until you get to the first one.
It’s from a blog called jake-lockleys-massive-cock. It says:
dios mio that was hot! i love the way you write me. it’s kinda eerie how spot on you are. #my wife knows me so well #fic rec
Your brain practically malfunctions. Was-was-was that, was that, was that…?????
You go to his bio. His pfp is a picture of Jake Lockley and he’s written:
hola, me llamo jake lockley the handsome third of the superhero known as moon knight. he/him. some say man of the people. according to fics written about me: lover extraordinaire. here to read said fics. if you write for me, tag me 😉
It was some kind of joke, right? It had to be. You scroll through his blog. He’d been busy in the last five hours, replying to asks about his identity to which he provided pictures of himself. Pictures that people were quick to point out weren’t anywhere else on the internet. Others of course still doubted it, but you were starting to be convinced. Or maybe you just wanted to be convinced. But that would mean that Jake Lockley had read your smut about himself.
You don’t know how to respond directly to him so instead you make a new post:
Oh my god you can’t do this to me when I’m asleep. Did jake lockley just comment on my fic? No right? Am I still dreaming? #freaking the fuck out
You step away because it’s just too much. Notifications are still coming in and you don’t know how to reply to any of them. Later, at work, at random moments you’ll think about it and it’ll shock you all over again. This potent mix of excitement and fear courses through you. Fear because all of the attention is damn scary. You scroll through your asks on your break and there is some hate in there. Some of it just random hate that seems to come with getting attention. But some of it clearly borne of jealousy that Jake had singled out your fic.
You consider turning off anon, but some of your best requests had come from people on anon. And you don’t want to end that. You think about replying to the hate but you barely have time to reply to all the nice comments. Instead you block the bad and focus on the good. You can’t get to it all, but you’ll try.
You still can’t work up the nerve to reply to him directly - if it really is him anyway.
-
You’re still trying to manage your inbox days later when you see a request come through. You were planning on closing them since you’d gotten so many new ones and needed time to get to them all. This new request is from jake-lockleys-massive-cock. Your heart is practically beating in your throat as you read it.
are you avoiding me? seems like you answer all your requests so here’s one: jake (that’s me) gives you a cream pie and fingers it back into you with my gloves on.
You realize just how much you believe it’s the real him by how wet you get from this request. You try and try and try to temper yourself, but your imagination gets the best of you and for a few hours as you fulfill this ask you live in a world where not only is Jake Lockley requesting smut about himself from you, but he’s actually giving you a cream pie and fingering it back into you with his gloves on.
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I would never avoid my husband. That’s preposterous. Go Time Summary: Trying for a baby, your ovulation window comes up and Jake’s busy driving around. You go meet him and fuck right there in his cab. A/N: not the way ovulation tests work but idc You’d gotten the smiley face. It was on a stick you’d just dipped into your pee, but still it made you incredibly fucking happy. You immediately reached for your phone and called up your husband. It went straight to voicemail, but that was common when he was working. You left him a brief message: “It’s go time.” You don’t have to wait long for a response. He’s good about checking his messages in between fares. You pick up. “Jake Lockley, are you ready to put a baby in me?” “Mi vida, no puedo esperar a esta noche.” [Can't wait for tonight] “No, not tonight. Now. We’ve missed the window the past three months because something always comes up. I want to do this now.” “It would take me hours to get home with the way traffic is right now.” “So…let me come to you.” You take the subway and meet him in one of the sub-levels of a parking garage. It’s full but he doesn’t need a space and everyone is already in their offices so no one is around. Jake’s double parked in one of the darker corners, leaning against his yellow cab. You thread your arms around him in a hug and he pulls you closer burying his face in your neck. Being close to your husband like this still never fails to turn you on. And knowing that you’re about to try for a baby with him just takes it through the roof. He slides his hands into the back pocket of your jeans, giving your ass a little squeeze. Your lips meet his and it’s all a rush from there. He opens the door to the backseat, ushering you in, trying not to break the kiss. On your back he pulls off your jeans, muttering, “...should’ve worn a fucking skirt.” He gets in and pulls his pants down his thighs freeing his cock, already leaking precum. You can’t help but lick it off. “No, no, baby. This load’s going between your legs.” He pulls you into a straddle on his lap and drags the head of his cock through your folds. “Already so wet for me.” You’d taken him so many times before but it still took you a minute to get used to his size. You sank slowly down over him letting the thickness of his cock give you that delicious stretch. Soon though you’re bouncing on him like a pro and he’s pulling your shirt down to free your tits and mouthing at them while your cunt soaks his lap. He knows you. Knows you better than you know yourself. No matter how much you rock and shimmy your hips, somehow you just can’t hit that spot like he can. He knows this, of course, so he takes your hips and angles you and pulls you down onto him. It doesn’t take long after that. Those pretty sounds and the way your cunt squeezes his cock so good have him right there with you. You cum together, his seed coating your walls so thoroughly, there’s no way you won’t get pregnant from this. Unless you let it all leak out. He at least as the presence of mind to get you on your back to help keep it in. He watches as some of his cum drips out of your spent hole and without a thought, he gathers it on his gloved fingertip - in his haste he hadn’t taken off his driving gloves - and pushes it back inside you - deep inside you. He does this over and over again, making sure his cum stays in, ushering it back with his thick fingers, up to your cervix. His thumb slides over your clit and the tips of his fingers inside you are coaxing you toward your next release. You want him to fuck you again. To make the most of your ovulation window. “Do you think we could go again?” He slips his fingers out, only leaving you empty for a mere moment before he fills you up with his cock. “Mi vida, I’m not stopping until you can’t hold one more drop.”
The words pour out of you. Never before have you had such inspiration to write a story. You’re awash in the glow of post-writing when you realize that now you have to post it. For Jake (if it’s really him) to see. You just wrote filthy smut for your celebrity crush. By his request, but still.
Normally you look over it for a quick proofread/revision before putting it out there for the world to see. But you’re pretty sure you’ll change your mind if you don’t just post it as is. So you add a note to the A/N section and send it off into the abyss of the internet.
You want to log off. Go do something, anything else. But the thought of someone else seeing his reply before you do makes you seethe with jealousy. So you stay connected and obsessed and watch for replies.
You’re still getting a stream of notifications so you ignore those and refresh the page with your post every few seconds to start, and then only every 30 seconds. You get some likes, then some comments and reblogs. You don’t even read them when you see they’re not from him.
Finally after what seems like forever, but is really about ten minutes judging by the timestamps, he replies.
i didn’t know i had a breeding kink until just now. you’re a goddamn genius. also my cock is way bigger than you described.
While you’re still recovering from this praise, you get a dm from him. You have to take some deep breaths before you open it.
Jake: do you know you’re my favorite writer? would you like to see a pic of my cock, you know, for inspiration?
You: Wait. Are you serious?
Jake: yeah, i love all your work.
You: NO, about the other thing.
Jake: only if you promise not to share it. it’s only for you.
You: I promise. If you’re not comfortable though, it’s all good.
Jake: ok, here it is.
The pic comes through and it is indeed a massive cock. Just not the kind you were hoping for. It’s a very large rooster. Like a rooster photoshopped to be huge.
You: 🙄🙄🙄
You: You know if I had really expected you to send one I’d be disappointed right now.
Jake: sorry, cariño. i’m looking at the dick pic i took and now i'm thinking i’ve over-promised what i have. 😰
You: I can promise you that I will like it, but there’s no pressure to send anything.
The dots appear and disappear a few times as you await his response. You’re about to change the subject, when his reply pops up.
Jake: está bien, look what your fic did to me.
And a second later a picture of the finest cock you’d ever seen. You waste no time replying, wanting to reassure him that you indeed love it.
You: oh fuuuuuuuck 🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤🤤
You: Is this really yours?
Jake: you’ll just have to trust me 😈
It does its job and inspires you. You feel inspired all night long. But you don’t write one word.
-
You’ve never spent so much time on tumblr as you do for the next few days. You dm with Jake a little bit, but he’s a busy man and you only get to talk for a few minutes here and there. You’re addicted to his blog though. He’s reblogging so many fics and answering asks. You’re pretty sure he has his queue set up and he just blasts these things in the few minutes he probably gets to spend on here.
On a tender Marc x Reader fic where Marc opens up about his past and then has emotional sex with the reader, he’s commented:
that’s pretty good, but marc cries more during sex.
And on a Steven x Reader fic where the reader is dominant, taking what she wants from Steven and pegs him:
this was fucking hot, but steven would be hard from the moment you looked at him. if your hand is down his pants, he’s already at full attention. #why is it always steven who gets pegged? #i feel left out
Someone asks him if Steven and Marc are also on tumblr and he replies that they don’t even know that he’s on here.
It’s shameful how often you look at his dick pic. He hasn’t asked you to, but you want to return the favor. You spend some time taking a good pic of your tits and you want to send it to him, but you have to figure out how to broach the subject with him.
He’s just caused a stir by posting:
thinking about getting a cat now.
And after lots of comments with suggestions on what to name the cat, he creates a poll.
He dm’s you with the question:
Jake: can you explain to me why everyone wants me to have a cat?
You: We can just tell you’re good with pussy 😏
Jake: jajaja, so you don’t know either
You: Forget it, Jake. It’s Fandomtown.
Jake: !!!!
Jake: one of my fav movies
Since you’re the queen of non-sequiturs, you write
You: Hey, could I send you something?
Jake: like…in the mail? 🤔
You: Uh, no. Like a picture? Of me?
Jake: absolutely! i’d love to see your face.
You: Welllll it’s not of my face
Jake: you have my attention
You: It’s a tit pic. Is that ok?
Jake:
You take a deep breath and remind yourself that he’s a guy and guys like tits. You send it to him and the one second that ticks by before he’s typing makes your heart skip a beat.
Jake: 🍆💦💦💦
Jake: tan hermosa. quiero tocar y besar y lamer y chupar y poner mi cara en ellas [So beautiful. I want to touch and kiss and lick and suck and put my face in them]
Jake: if i stop responding i want you to know it’s because i'm stroking my cock while drooling over your tits.
You: That’s perfect. It’ll give me some time alone with your dick pic.
Jake: dffdsdsadsajkl you’re trying to kill me woman
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It’s strange how something so incredible can become so normal in the span of days, but it’s hard to remember what it was like before Jake was being a menace in the fandom. Not that it wasn’t still exciting, every post, every comment, every ask. But you no longer had to pinch yourself to prove it was real.
In fact it was so usual, it felt strange when he seemed to disappear for a few days. You missed him, but you didn’t wonder about it too much. He was a busy man, a superhero, a cabbie and shared a body with two other whole people.
His absence gave you some time to catch up on your tbr list, reply to comments and get to requests. You’re in the middle of an engaging back and forth on a thread when you get a request on anon.
can i request a fic of reader holding jake (preferably against your perfect tits) as he cries?
It’s him. You know it’s him. Was he even trying to disguise himself? You sprint to your dms.
You: Everything ok, buddy?
Jake: whatever do you mean? 😇
You: 🤨 Ok, ok, brb.
You get to work right away.
Get Closer to Me It’s later than the usual time that your husband, Jake, comes home. He always tells you not to wait up for him, but you struggle to fall asleep without him so you might as well stay up watching TV. You’re in one of his T-shirts. It smells like him and the soft cotton caresses your bare skin underneath. Finally you hear the click of his key opening the lock. He steps over the threshold, tired from his night of protecting the city. Something’s wrong. You can tell by the way he doesn’t meet your eyes. If not for the protection of his suit, you’d fear he’d been hurt. He lets you lead him over to the couch where you sit him down. You take off his shoes for him and then sit back. As soon as your ass touches the cushion, he throws his arms around your middle and buries his face in your chest. You’re about to ask him what’s wrong when you feel his body shuddering with sobs. As much as you rely on his strength, it’s times like this when he trusts you with his vulnerability that makes you feel closest to him. You cherish the moments you get to be his rock. A wet spot blooms between your breasts, soaking in his tears. You run your hands through his hair, using your other hand to graze your nails on his back. You lay together in the stillness and silence of the night until his breath calms and his grip on you eases. You kiss the top of his head and he shifts, nosing the space between your breasts and placing a hand beneath your shirt, traveling over your ribs to squeeze at your flesh. “Jaaake?” you ask lightly, drawing out his name. “Hmmm?” he replies. “What are you doing?” From where his face is firmly planted in your chest, comes his muffled answer, “It’s soothing.” Your body shakes with laughter and relief. If he’s fondling your tit, he’s back to his usual self. There’ll be time tomorrow for talking about what was bothering him. But for now, it was time to take your husband to bed.
You’ve never written or posted something so fast. Before you can even tag him by adding your tag list in a reblog, he’s reblogged it with the comment:
THAT’S WHERE YOU CUT IT OFF?! #why are my eyes suddenly wet #boobies make everything better #currently accepting hugs
Then you get a dm:
Jake: gracias, cariño. i’m feeling much better. 🥹
You: Glad I could help! ❤️
-
One thing that you and Jake had bonded over was being New Yorkers. Despite not having it in your bio, Jake could tell you were one based on your posts. He messages you that he’ll be in town in just a few days.
You: Are you excited to be coming home?
Jake: i’m more excited to be closer to you.
Wait. Was Jake actually flirting with you?
Jake: do you think i could meet you while i’m there?
Holy shit holy shit holy shit. For the first time in a while you worry that maybe this guy isn’t really Jake. Because it’s not possible that Jake Lockley wants to meet you, right?
When you don’t respond, he messages:
Jake: no pressure if you’re not comfortable.
You: No, I’d love to meet you. It’s just… you could be anyone on the other side of this screen.
Jake: ah. would you like to chat on video?
He gives you his number and you take a few short minutes to freshen up and find a spot with good lighting before you video call him. He picks up right away, his smile lighting up the screen.
“Cariño, eres muy bonita,” he croons. [You are so pretty]
You put a hand over your face in embarrassment.
“No, no, no, don’t cover that pretty face!”
He’s walking around his place, the background shifting behind him as he moves around.
“What are you doing?” you ask him.
“Packing.” He sets up his phone and holds up two pairs of pants. “What do you think? Tight jeans or grey sweats?”
He’s rendered you completely speechless, your mouth is hanging open but no sounds come out.
“¿Por qué no los dos?” He shoves both in his suitcase and picks up his phone, but before he can continue his conversation with you, his attention is drawn to something or someone off camera. You don’t hear anyone but Jake listens with a stony face, then rolls his eyes.
“Lo siento, cariño. I have to go.”
“Was that Khonshu?” you ask, all amazement.
“Unfortunately. See you in a few days?”
“Yeah, see you then.”
You hear him start to yell, presumably at Khonshu, as he hangs up the call.
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Jake: no don’t send me your address.
Jake: if i find out you give random people online your address i’m going to be mad. you should care more about your safety.
You were texting with Jake, trying to make plans to meet up and though it would be convenient to have him at your place, he doesn’t want to put you at risk. If an enemy of his sees him there, your place would be compromised.
You: Oh, but it’s ok if I send a random person on the internet a picture of my tits?
Jake: uh, yeah, your tits are beautiful, you should share them with the world.
You’d managed to fend off the nerves until the day of. Now as you make your way to the intersection you’d agreed to meet at, your heart feels like one of those huge timpani drums and like a gorilla is erratically banging on it.
There’s a crush of people and tourists on the sidewalks and you’re not sure how you’re supposed to find him. Though you are like extra super early, so perhaps he’s just not here yet.
As you scan across the street, you walk by a line of yellow cabs - and nearly walk right past him. He’s leaning against his car, flat cap pulled down covering his face, and gloved hands holding a newspaper. He’s reading a newspaper. An actual goddamn newspaper of all things.
He lowers it when you stop in front of him. His eyes scan you and a smile spreads on his lips. “Would you like a ride, señorita?” he asks, one eyebrow raised.
He folds up his paper and tosses it into the passenger seat through the open window, then opens the back door for you. For a moment you’re worried he doesn’t recognize you, but then you step toward the door and his hand is on your lower back guiding you into his car. He leans down to your ear to tell you it’s nice to meet you and that you look beautiful today.
You’re too caught up to reply. Up close his brown eyes are even deeper and richer than you could have imagined. His touch is gentle and comforting but the strength in him is unmistakable. And best of all his scent, sharp and heady, his cologne a perfect complement.
Your body still tingles from his touch as he circles around from the back and slides into the driver’s seat. As soon as he shuts his door, it feels like the two of you are in a little bubble. He meets your eyes in the rearview mirror. “Sorry about the pretense. Can’t be too careful these days. Never quite know who’s watching.”
“That’s okay,” you try to say, but it comes out in a croak. You clear your throat, embarrassment racing up your neck. “So, um, where are we headed? Your place?”
He pulls out into the flow of traffic, and glances in the mirror at you. “We don’t keep a place here. When we visit we usually stay with a friend.”
You wonder if you should be jealous of this friend until you realize he probably means…”Frenchie?”
Jake barks out a laugh. “I’m so glad you all use your powers for smut. If any one of you became a villain we’d be so fucked.”
“‘So fucked’ is kind of what I’m going for.” You can’t believe you said that out loud. Apparently you have no control over your mouth when your panties are soaked.
Jake doesn’t seem to mind. In fact, though you are busy admonishing yourself in the backseat, it doesn’t stop you from catching the way he bites his lip and tightens his grip on the wheel.
Before you can restart the conversation, Jake pulls into a parking deck underneath a hotel and slips into a spot. Was-was he recreating your fic?
You stay in the back as he gets out. He comes around to your door and you expect him to climb in but instead he offers you his hand.
“We’re not staying in the car?” you ask him as you take his hand and he pulls you out.
Amusement flickers in his eyes. “No, cariño. Cab sex is hot in theory but there’s not nearly enough room for what I have planned.”
You’re thankful to still be holding onto him because your knees go weak at that.
As you wait for the elevator, it occurs to you that you don’t know for sure that this is Jake Lockley. Like the real Jake Lockley. There were known to be lookalikes that posed as various superheroes. What if you’d been duped by one?
You’re quiet in the elevator. And through the grand lobby of the hotel complete with a fountain. And when Jake nods to the man dressed very nicely at the reception desk and says, “Buenas tardes, Eduardo.” And when the man returns the nod and says, “Señor Lockley.” And when Eduardo looks right at you and Jake says, “This is [your name].”
You don’t speak until Jake has opened the door to his hotel room and you hesitate before crossing the threshold and you blurt out, “How do I know you’re you?”
His eyebrows lift in surprise. “How do any of us know who we are?”
God, he’s funny and charming. Even if this turns out not to be the real Jake Lockley, you might fuck him anyway.
“No, I mean how do I know you’re actually you. You look like Jake, but you could be some impersonator, right?”
“Oh, I see.” He ponders for a moment. “If you’re comfortable coming into the room, perhaps I could show you something.”
You still hesitate.
“Okay. No. Good,” he says. “You have a survival instinct after all. Here, I’m going to go in. You watch from the door, but only open it enough for you to see in, okay?”
You nod and Jake goes in and you hold the door open just enough like he said. He turns around and while turning, his clothing appears to morph into a black and white suit, complete with a cape that you know only too well. Your jaw drops open because it’s one thing to see it from a recording where your brain is used to seeing all manner of crazy CGI. But it’s another to witness it right in front of your own two eyes.
You rush in, letting the door close behind you. “Oh my god,” you gush. “Can you keep it on?”
He embraces you and delivers a kiss that feels completely natural like the two of you have done this hundreds of times before, but also nothing like you’ve ever experienced. And maybe that’s one and the same. His breath is minty, and you swear he’s wearing cherry chapstick.
“That will defeat the point, won’t it?,” he says. “This thing doesn’t have a zipper. Besides, it’s really itchy.”
He transforms back while you’re still in his arms, and you have to admit you like him better this way anyway.
It’s not anything like your fics and that makes it magical. There’s more fumbling and laughter and friction. He’s not some love god and you’re not a siren. But there is desire, and it is real.
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That One Night Summary: When your date stands you up, but you’re lucky that it happens in the same bar that Jake Lockley frequents. A/N: Special shoutout for the inspiration, you know who you are You’re in Jake Lockley’s hotel room. In the bed. And you’ve just laid eyes on the swollen spear he calls a penis. Your gulp is cartoonishly loud, and your legs press together like they’re Shaggy and Scooby in a haunted mansion. “Don’t worry, cariño. I’m going to get you really wet,” Jake says, crawling on the bed toward you and gently prying your legs open. He settles his face between them and when his tongue touches your clit, your legs fall all the way open and you sink into the bed. You marvel at the way your night has gone. From getting stood up, to trading looks with the hot stranger across the bar, to now being in said stranger’s - no he told you his name, so technically he’s not a stranger anymore - bed. He lifts his mouth off of you and you whine in protest, but he shushes you and a fingertip circles your entrance before dipping gently in. He goes slow, tantalizingly, excruciatingly slow. He works you until you can take two of his thick fingers, then his lips return to suck gently on your swollen nub. He didn’t lie. You are soaking wet, the puddle beneath you more like a lake. You’re at the edge when he asks, “Do you want your first orgasm on my fingers or my dick?” Your body doesn’t give you a choice, the image of either sending you over, and you clench down so hard on his fingers, he mutters, “Fuck.” He sweetly kisses his way up your body as you come down. Planting them on the soft skin of your belly and spending his time covering every inch of your breasts. He ignores your pleas to be fucked, waiting instead until your breathing slows and the coil inside you relaxes. You look up into his deep brown eyes and caress his face, wanting to know this man, his story, his life, what brought him to you tonight. “Ready?” he asks, and you nod. Despite how slippery you are, he’s still big enough for you to feel the stretch. He eases himself into you, breathless praises falling from his mouth. “Doing so good for me.” “You’re taking me so well.” “Tu cuerpo me maneja tan bien.” [Your body handles me so well] When he’s reached your depths, he stays there, letting you get adjusted around him. “Why don’t you show me how you like to play with your tits?” he suggests. You’re self-conscious at first but he watches you, hypnotized, while you tug at your nipples and knead your flesh. It relaxes your pelvic floor enough that Jake can fuck into you. Gently, until he learns how far into you he can go. He’s like a fucking paperweight inside you and you tell him so. “It feels even better from behind,” he informs you. And that’s how you find yourself on your knees, Jake behind you, his heavy cock dragging across your G-spot back and forth with every thrust, the pressure building up until it’s nearly blinding, your legs shaking so bad that he has to hold you up, which is a good thing because your body goes limp when your release comes, and then his cock is jumping inside you (‘twitching’ is too tame for what this monster can do), his spend replacing the weight of him. The bed is soaked, your legs are a sticky mess, and the night is just beginning.
The writing came easy but you debate posting, wavering between wanting to keep your experience to yourself and knowing that no one but you and Jake would know the truth. Ultimately, since you had kept the most personal parts out of the fic and it felt somewhat removed from the real thing, gussied up as it was to be smut-worthy, you decide that you want to share it, and as usual, you click the damn button before you could change your mind.
You wait a while before checking the interactions. This time not caring as much what other people would say, or whether anyone would read it at all. There is only one person’s feedback you’re interested in. And it’s there the next time you open tumblr:
sounds like a really good time. like something i’d like to do again.
#jake lockley smut#jake lockley x fem!reader#jake lockley x you#jake lockley x reader#moon knight fanfiction#moon knight fic
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Artist Highlight: Jo-Harrington
This week, we're highlighting @jo-harrington! All recs this week will be for her work. @jo-harrington writes for the Stranger Things Fandom, with a special focus on xOC, and xReader fics. She's also a great beta-editor and design all the graphics for her fics! We're highlighting Jo for her incredible world building and strong OCs.
You should check out her Store Manager Verse fics for some great fluff and top-tier retail angst Jo answered some questions about her creative process and her work under the cut
Why Stranger Things?
I’ve been an avid ST Fan since the beginning. My old Store Manager and I watched the first episode in the backroom of our store while folding t-shirts and rest was history. Fic-wise, a certain Metalhead Dungeon Master brought me out of a fanfiction posting hiatus and I haven’t looked back since.
What's your favorite ship (platonic or romantic) to create for?
Platonic is always going to be the Hellfire Club boys. I love writing their adventures. Their friendship is epic and deserves to be explored and celebrated. Romantic…EddiexOC or EddiexReader. I mean, I’ve been an xOC girl since my first fandom. xReader is new for me but it’s almost an extension of xOC. I always joke that I’m allowed ONE epic borbo obsession love of my life per decade and I’ll give them one canon pairing but the rest are OCs.
What's your typical writing process like?
I have an idea, I write it down, I get sick of working on a chapter, I don’t edit, I post. (Which is funny because when I beta, I am a lot more detailed. But for my own work I just need it out of my head.) It might not be the best. It could probably read better or have less typos or mistakes. But it’s always from the heart.
How do you come up with your OCs?
I sit there for a long time and figure out how I can put a part of myself into a story. Oops was I not supposed to say that? Sometimes you think of a character that you just can’t help but want to write. But even if they aren’t a manifestation of your physical self or your personality, they almost always end up being an extension of you in some ways, or something you aspire to be. You also need to add some attributes you hate into them, so that they’re not too perfect and you can throttle them around and make them suffer and not feel too bad/let it become a self hatred thing.
What has been your favorite project so far? Why?
Store Manager Verse. (EMxReader) Retail is who I am and who I’ve always been. I had a mall romance irl that went south. So it was a way to rewrite my past with my comfort character…and also give said comfort character a happy ending as well.
What has been your hardest project so far? Why?
As Above, So Below. (EMxOC) It is a passion project, it is a beast, every chapter takes an emotional toll on me and it takes a month—if not more—to recover. But it has been the single most fulfilling project that I’ve worked on in the 20 years I’ve been writing fanfiction. I've been working on it for about 2 years now. 3 more chapters til the end…I’m gonna be very sad when it’s over.
Have you ever had a creative block? How did you get over it?
My brain is just a beehive that I shake every now and again to get the bees angry. Honestly, the bigger block I get into is self-doubt. I have no problem finding the words, it’s the courage to put them to paper I struggle with at times.
Is there a big source of inspiration for you? Books? Art? Games?
Yes all of the above. But in all seriousness, life experience is the best inspiration. There’s only so much research you can do. Truly for me, the canon characters are the source of inspiration. Then I take from things I’ve done, things I’ve read, places I’ve been in order to take an idea to a fully formed plot.
Is there an upcoming project you're particularly excited about?
Eddie Munson Big Bang. I know you’re gonna hear that a lot. I love creating really ambitious AUs and I think this one is really testing my abilities as a writer. It's a crossover fic, in a way, but with a lot of original plot folded in. I hope I do both fandoms/universes justice.
Is there anything we didn't ask that you'd like to add?
I’m from the Midwest, so thank you for listening to all of my long-winded answers. Haha.
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hey. h.hey. what’s the hs keiji incident. hey.
well would YOU like to know...
okay I'll tell you
When keiji still lived in Otaru, life was pretty good. He had a wonderful girlfriend, he was happy with his self-expression, and well. yeah!! During this time, he joined a band. Some 2nd and 3rd years were putting up flyers for recruiting new members and keiji thought "why not give it a chance!". so he did!! and in the end, they chose him.
For lead singer.
Keiji is a pretty good singer, with a special knack for heavy rock songs. It was a rock band, so it fit perfectly. Their previous singer had graduated so they wanted someone new and fresh. Keiji was so surprised and so happy and he loved rehearsals and yeah they were a bit rough but god..he loved that enviroment. He loved feeling exhausted after practice he loved the feeling of pouring his heart and soul into a growl or scream he just loved it all.
Near spring/summer time, it was their first performance. Just around this time, Keiji's mom broke the news that they'll be moving to the shibuya region over the summer. This. this was a blow to him. But he couldn't think about that right now. Because that night was his performance and he couldn't let his emotions get to him. He wanted to hide away in his room but he couldn't. So he held through. Himeko came to the show, right in front of the stage at the venue.
It was time for them to go on. Keiji felt. off. But he still went on, holding the mic and grinning. The drums started to tap off, the guitars started to play, it was keiji's time to come in and-
-no sound came out.
He froze. He was frozen on stage. His hands were shaking. He could feel the stares of everyone at the venue, everyone behind him on stage, the voice of the lead guitarist chiding him. He panicked.
What an awful way to find out you have stage fright.
He never thought he would, he had always sung on stage as a kid, he was fine during rehearsal and hell, even during the audition! But with the weight of had been told to him earlier that day, and the sheer amount of eyes piercing into his body.
He ran off stage.
Himeko immediately ran after him, but not as quick as the other band mates.
The lead guitarist got hold of him first, grabbing him by the shirt and pushing him against the wall.
"Godamnit Keiji- what the fuck was that?!"
"I-I dont..know..urgh- let go of me asshole.."
"Jeez kid, and did you think before auditioning that you might be scared of preforming? or did you just waltz yourself up here to screw thing u-"
"Just shut the fuck up, okay?! I didn't fucking know that would happen, just let me go and leave me the hell alone"
"Don't you talk to me like that, Takatsuki. This'll only hurt you more than it hurts us. We can always just kick ya out and get someone new...but you'll always go on knowing you can't even preform right! You'll go on knowing you just screwed up THE BIGGEST SHOW WEVE HAD IN YEARS!"
"...f...fine. Kick me out, probably woulda left on my own anyways.."
He let keiji fall to the ground, before he got back up, narrowing his eyes at the rest of the band and running off. That's when himeko caught up to him.
"Kei- Keiji! There you are..I was so wor-"
"Leave me alone, Himeko."
"Keiji, honey...I'm not leaving you right now. Tell me what happened..it's okay..no one's upset at yo-"
"nono everyone is upset at me, okay? Fuuuucckkk..how pathetic am i?! haahaa..how did I screw up that bad?! You know it, it's true..don't lie to me."
"I would never, so stop yelling and jus-"
"I'm leaving..I. ughh...I'm moving away. I'll be gone by the mid of summer."
"...a...ah... when did you find ou-"
"this morning."
"...hm."
"...do you think...we can last long distance..?"
"...I...I don't know Keiji."
"...yeah. Yeah I uh.."
"..Keiji..?"
"...I think...it's better t..hm..I think.."
"..just say it, kei."
"...it's better to end it softly now..than messily later..isn't it.."
"..I said I wouldn't lie to you.."
"..alright..ehh..ehe...what a night..amiright..?"
"keiji..you dont have to-"
"I should..g..go home now. Ill...I'll see you, Himeko..."
"..ke-"
"..love you.."
"..I love you too."
Himeko and Keiji mutually decided to break things off- to avoid conflict in the future. They stayed close- more platonic partners if anything..but it was still weird. Keiji finished school, avoiding as many people as he could, shutting himself in his room every Sunday and skipping school at least once ot twice every week or two. or three.
Eventually he moved away, said goodbye to his friends...and of course Himeko.
He started off in his 2nd year of hs at kamikou...and immediately started a new life. He wanted to be someone else..so he did. He kept his old personality and habits but..no one here knew him! It was refreshing..but stressful of course.
One day he sees a boy practicing guitar alone after school...the rest is history :3
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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the amount of times I have potentially controversial opinions that I type up and then save in my drafts forever because I still feel them but am too shy and afraid to choose violence in any way
#wc fandom an absolute mess right now LOL#I'm reserving judgment until i read the new book. I don't believe in having bad faith takes on a book I've never read#if it's bad oh believe me brother you will hear about it when I've read it!#until then all i will do is shake my head at everyone saying ''dont read it it's bad!!!''#no! read it actually! if you want to form and articulate your opinions on something you have to READ IT#you look like a fool if you just go off of hearsay forever#something i see constantly in this fandom is people being like ''i refuse to read some book but can you BELIEVE this happens in it??''#and then say the dumbest shit about a scene taken out of context#yes yes i will never claim this series is well written. it's messy! not denying it#but sometimes y'all overreact in the most insane ways#I'm getting too old for this#sorry wait i just wanna add one more thing which is that if i avoided everything that people told me never to experience#i never would have read some of my favorite books or played some of my favorite games#currently quite obsessed with a game that so many claim is ''the worst entry in the series''#which is a wild thing to say with such confidence for any entry in a series that's been running for over 30 years#anyway i loved it. it's flawed and i loved it. so the rest of the series had better blow me away#pigeon mews#i just woke up i am extremely sleepy#i should not be posting this but I'm doing it#quick clarification: this post is not about people disliking the new book. dislike to your heart's content#this is about people (especially people who haven't read it themselves) saying do not read it because it's bad#maybe I'm just tired of this fandom being so miserable all the time. you don't have to be here if you're not having fun!#anyway. me: I'm too shy to say what i mean. me in the tags: HERE'S WHAT I MEAN lmfao#this post may self destruct (by which i mean get privated) if i feel self conscious about it once I've finished waking up
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also to anyone who plays honkai, does anyone have other translations of the game? aside from the official?
i feel like i talked about this with a friend, but the translations just. don't line up with what's being said a lot of the time and it's slightly driving me insane x - x
#like!!! i can understand bits and pieces but its not enough to understand whats fully being said#but i just know that some of the things being said do not line up with the subtitles and i want to gnaw on something when it happens#idk....#cuz like this one line in ch 11 ex where himekos in kianas flashbacks (i am crying)#himeko asks kiana whats on her mind and she says something like 'tell mama what youre thinking about'#but she doesnt!!! say that in the official dub!!!!! she just says 'tell your teacher' !!!!!!!! WHY#it is very cute though how much kiana looks to st freya cast as her family its so ; - ; i feel so bad#also the voiceacting is absolutely killing it in ch 11 ex its amaziiiing#like!! kiana was saying she was angry towards fu hua but not because of betrayal and more because she realizes she was helpless towards fat#YOU CAN HEAR THAT IN HOW SAD AND JUST ABSOLUTELY DEJECTED KIANA SOUNDS..... its amaziiiiing i love it#at least to me !#it was weird when i saw kiana get angry at fu hua because while she did look angry#her voice kinda sounds otherwise#but anyways#snow plays hi3#just asking !! because im sure theres probably bounds of translations!! but i just dont know whats like. A Good Trusted One#so i trust. whoever plays honkai aPPARENTLY THERES A FEW OF YOU HIIIIII!!!!!!#im shaking all your hands im sorry im kind of new and probably like absolutely blissfully ignorant but i am shaking your hands#i wish there was a way to keep tabs of who Does bc then i can annoy cOUGHS#kidding! i wouldnt lmao
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I feel like growing up with parents that are rabid conspiracy theorists about anything and everything affects you like. way way way deeper than most people do (or maybe want to?) acknowledge. and I just wish it was talked about more honestly
#misc.txt#ventish#(<-not too bad just tagging for blocking purposes)#like. this is embarassing to say but my parents were and still are severely anti vax. so at some point I need to go get#proper rounds of vaccines#bc obv I was not fucking allowed to#preferrably uh. fucking soon if I can work out how to do it without them knowing#(and if I can't I guess. I'll have to figure out some health insurance stuff bc I could literally be in danger if they did know.)#(which is a whole can of worms on its own.)#and EVEN THOUGH I fully 100% know that everything they fed me was bullshit#I still have so much deep fear around it bc it was drilled into my head so fucking hard growing up#x will kill you. y will make you sick. z will probably damn you to hell forever but maybe not who knows better to be scared and 'safe.' etc#and it's so hard to even explain it to ppl because they go 'oh so you still believe that stuff' and no!! no I do not!!#Ive just been trained since birth to be afraid of anything n everything!! I've been fed lies for my entire life!! thats hard to shake off!!#I WANT to do good things for myself but my stomach drops on instinct just thinking about it#and I am so so so tired of having to be brave about things I never should have had to be brave about. that's all ig. I'm tired.#like either ppl think you have also inherited their insanity OR they just look at it like 'oh haha funny quirky kooky'#no it's kind of torn my psyche to shreds in ways I'm still uncovering. but w/e go ahead and laugh <3
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People be wilding, I hate when I ask for some dirty tricks to swindle my brain because therapeutic methods are slow and I would kinda like to do things even before they work, and people just recommend me what is essentially CBT coupled with exposure therapy.
#girl if that worked right here right now i wouldn't be asking you for dirty tricks would i?#like#me: Hello fellow STPD people if i don't follow these very specific steps to ensure that my writing is perfect and 100% accurate#and if i don't redraw every line i draw until it's Right™ and Perfect™ and don't make a bunch of angle guides before that I cannot#write and i cannot draw because if it isn't perfect God will not let me into heaven and also he'll tell everyone that i am a fraud#and a piece of subhuman trash and everyone will mock me forever and see me as weak and wrong and bad and it will be so over#this is not ideal. because sometimes I do not have the time to do the necessary steps but it's either doing them or not doing the activity#at all. I don't like having to do all that shit and frankly it's annoying and irritating and nonsensical but it calms me down and i HAVE#to do it. since this is not ideal i tricked everything by just buying a sketchbook and going 'God cannot see inside this one'#so now i have one specific sketchbook that i can use however and make as many imperfect lines as i want because God can't see it#and if i make a mistake he won't know. and won't tell anyone. this is a bit better but it sucks because everything has to#be contained in that sketchbook and i prefer working digitally. what do?#fellow people with STPD for some fucking reason: You should try drawing without doing any of that : )#like ah yes thanks. yeah totally. i haven't thought of that at all thank you for your wisdom#like listen to me right here right now i am having trouble going outside because i performed the stept i take before writing to#about 60-70 %. Enough to actually guarantee a good result if i were normal but you see i am not and I didn't perform#the steps too 100 % and ever since then I can't shake the feeling that it's all wrong because i fumbled and it's my fault#and now everyone hates me and wants to hurt me and knows that I'm a fraud and I'll never be anything else all because I didn't do it right#all because I didn't do the steps to their full completion. it tormented me until i deleted the whole goddamn thing#and even now it torments me but slightly less. like oooooh I'm sure everyone i know knows and is judging me#and tries to interact with me because they want me to let my guard down so they can hurt me. because I'm insufficient and wrong#but perhaps God has not told strangers so actually i can go outside. because uuuuh I deleted it in time. this makes sense.
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wait also my tags on that post were about people i knew in freshman and sophomore year of college specifically. i mean some of them i knew after that and most of them i knew from high school but damn some people really made everything about themselves when i was being emotionally manipulated in my freshman year
#i cant even think about it. makes so like disappointed and upset to think about some people.#its also just crazy how some people have like no introspection abilities at all.#they'll be like 'you did x once you abused me' ignoring how they did x 15 times and y 20 times and also came at me physically violently#and i know its not a calculator. i know i cant put all the bad things we did to each other into an algorithm that tells us who abused who#like i am aware that we had a toxic relationship and its better now that we are not in contact#but it makes me shake my head when i think about screenshots people used to send me of stuff my ex friends were saying about me on twt#because those people DO think they can put every bad thing ive ever done into a calculator that will show the result that i abused them#anyway. i like to think any person who knows me well and/or irl knows thats not me and i dont talk to almost anyone from that time anymore#i still follow and talk to fee...i think i still follow joanna but she is never on anymore....#in the end there is not much use in thinking anf agonizing about this anymore. i used to go into spirals a lot like maybe i DID abuse x fri#end and i just didnt REALIZE it maybe im CRAZY but. i definitely dont do that anymore. what she said to me made me do that.#(again. emotional manipulation.)#but its so crazy to remember high school and college from my current vantage point. i've lived so much good life since then.#now i own a house. i garden (something x friend told me i would never be responsible enough for) i have a boyfriend who has been scretly#into me for over year before we started dating (something x friend always told me i was imagining in people) i have a job i find fulfillment#in (something x friend said i would never find if i kept changing jobs looking for one i liked)#i feel like i make a post ever year or so when i inevitably end up looking back on those times...and i always feel guilty for making them#because i dont want it to seem like im gossiping or slandering (even though x friend posted about me all the time) but idk#i dont go to therapy yknow. i just journal and write and think in my head and on occasion i make a blog post with rambling tags#i talk to people and learn about them and through that learn about me. i read and learn about the world and the mind.#im not saying i wouldnt go to therapy if i could afford it...but i guess im defending my right to make a post about the past every year-ish.#it helps#t
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Haha I should not have read my mums texts
#I knew my sister was bitching about me to my mum but I didn’t think it was that bad#like in terms of this situation my mum was completely completely on my side so it’s nothing to do with her#but I just can’t believe she said these things about me#essentially I worked for her for 4 days straight for free - it was a 14 hour shift on a bar#each day - so 56 hours in total#it was extremely hard on me mentally and physically but I did it because I wanted to help her all I could#I had a job interview essentially 2 days later where I needed to produce a social media reel#I had to make it while working on the bar because I wouldn’t have time to do it otherwise#I asked her to watch the reel a total of 2 times#and because she had canva premium she said she’d download it for me the next day (otherwise the video wouldn’t have backing music) - then#it wouldn’t download from her account - so I sent her the video and asked her to put the music over it - which would take 5 mins of her time#(it literally only took me 5 mins and she’s much more experienced at canva than I am)#she flat out refused - my mum then called her to try and explain the situation and she got really angry at her - eventually she sent me her#log in details - then I added the music myself#it was really disheartening for me because I gave up 56 hours of my time for her and she couldn’t even give up 5 mins#since then I’ve read these texts and she said she feels like she’s in an abusive relationship with me because all she does is give and all#I do is take#and the thing she cited was me asking her to check over the video (I asked her 3 times max - the video is 50 seconds - and also saying no#when she asked me to prep some cocktails for the next day at the bar - it was 12am - I’d been working since 10am and I was so exhausted that#I was shaking when I came home - I sat and cried in the toilets because I was so exhausted)#I literally give up so much of myself for her - even when she’s mean to me for no reason - I would never say she was abusive to me#and yet I’m abusive for asking for her help on a task that would take her no more than 5 minutes#I don’t know if I can ever speak to he in the same way again#I mean for god sakes I spent an entire week beforehand helping her prep for the festival because she was so stressed#I asked her to help me once and she saw me as abusive#I don’t even know if I can ever help her again because what’s the point of giving and giving if my giving is never good enough for her#I don’t know the things she said really mirrored the things my ex friends once said about me and it hurts coming from her because I thought#she wouldn’t ever view me that way#and I can’t even talk to anyone about this because ya know I should not have read my mums texts
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I keep thinking about all of the disabled activists and people before me who stranded themselves on the 4th floor of buildings for weeks and crawled up stairs and fought with airline staff and schools and doctors and refused to stop existing in the face of injustice and bigotry no matter how big and scary and hopeless it seemed. Every time I get angry and scared the protests that lead to the creation of the ADA pop up again and remind me that disabled people are so much fucking stronger than anyone has ever given us credit for, and I can't help but be proud of that. And I know not all disabled people feel like we should take pride in our disabilities and have flags or whatever, but I think not just living, but thriving, in spite of a world that wants us dead and gone, in the face of both illness and persecution, and how we've not only bought ourselves forward, but uplifted the disabled people around us, secured more equal futures for everyone who will come after, and truly changed the way so many abled people have seen us for the better is something to be damn fucking proud of.
We have always been here and we always will be, there will never be a world without disabled people because being disabled is not bad, it's a natural part of the human experience and yeah it sucks some times but even when it sucks we have fought to build beautiful, unique, happy lives with people, both like us and not, and that should be celebrated.
The first sign of human civilization is the healed femur. The body of the profoundly disabled person who would have needed help to even just eat being carefully laid to rest after decades of a full, happy life. The medicinal plants showing even before we were entirely human we were doing what we could to not just survive, but alleviate suffering while we're at it. Above everything, evolution selected not the baby who can walk and eat and be quiet, but the one that can ask for help.
Disabled people are not just angry cockroach motherfuckers who refuse to die, we are proof of humanity's HUMANITY. Proof that natural selection selected a species that takes care of each other. From healed femurs and medicinal plants to vaccines and IVs and insulin to now, we are driven to help one another, we are at our strongest when we don't leave our most vulnerable behind. And I am living proof of that. My mother is living proof of that. Every disabled and chronically and/or mentally ill person I know is living proof of that.
And I don't know about the rest of you, but will carry that shred of humanity's true nature inside me like it's my fucking soul. I am scared and angry and hurt, but I have a lifetime's experience being scared and angry, and I can shake off the kind of pain that would make Atlas crumble to dust like it's nothing but a stiff fucking breeze. Disabled people have always been here, turning fear and anger and pain into joy and beauty and connection, and I'm not going to let everyone who came before me down. I'm not going to give up. Not now, not ever.
It's okay if you're disabled and you've hit your limit, you're too scared and tired and hurt, I won't blame you. But I won't abandon you, either. I might not be able to right all of the wrongs in the world, but I'll be strong, I'll carry all of you with me, I will not give up.
As I've said before, society hates a cripple who won't die, so we must spite them and live anyway.
Please, live anyway. I know if anyone can, it's us.
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hear me out...chan trying to fit it in but he's too big and he's whispering all kinds of stuff trying to get you to take it and you're frustrated and needy and you're just so !! done !! because it feels empty and he's so close yet he's not in and finally finally, his thick tip catches and he inches in agonizingly slow simply to hear you whine for it
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“it’s too big, channie,” you whimper, peering down between your legs— the big fat tip of chan’s cock throbs an angry red as he slides it up between your pussy lips, taps it against your fluttering hole. your ankles dangle in the air over his shoulders, thighs pushed up to your chest by his body pinning you against the mattress, so close you could feel his hot breath, ache for a kiss from the plump, spit-slick lips he bit in arousal. he grips the base of his shaft in one hand, guiding it to push at your rim; you’re frightened by the sheer size of it, thick as a can, veins fat and pulsing… the pressure of it was already overwhelming yet you roll your hips down eagerly, desperate for it to slide in and fill you up.
“shh, stay still, babygirl,” chan coos so sweet, his veiny hand splayed out across your tummy. “and take this fucking cock. daddy knows you can.”
your pussy is making it difficult, so wet chan’s cock misses your hole, slides up your folds to bump against your clit. you shake in pleasure and frustration, reaching your hand down to take ahold of chan’s cock yourself— chan lets you with a warm smile, his thick arms shaking with every slick twist of your hand.
“you need me that bad, baby?” he chuckles, breathless. “thought you said it was too big.”
“i’m so empty,” you whine in response, angling his flared head to spear your core. “need your big cock, daddy—“ finally, finally his tip catches and slides in, sudden yet so achingly slow, your eyes rolling back in tandem with chan’s deep, guttural groan; the stretch burns deliciously, clouds over your senses as your mouth drops open in a moan for more.
“there you go, baby, just like that,” chan continues to bully his cock in past your tight rim, slow and gentle— but there’s nothing gentle about the way he fills you up, inch by fat, throbbing inch stretching your wet gummy walls to their limits. you can feel every ridge, every vein drag hot and heavy… you let go of his shaft in favor for scratching deep red marks into his flexing bicep, scrambling for something to hold on to and ground you. “daddy’s good girl, taking his cock so well— feels so good, doesn’t it?”
“b-big—!” you croak in a daze, an echo of your earlier sentiments; it was all you could manage to make yourself say, rendered brainless in an instant as chan’s blunt cockhead kisses your cervix. “so— so fucking big! ‘n deep, daddy, fuck—“
“yeah?” chan huffs, hips stuttering flush against yours. “am i too big for your little cunt, baby? feel me all the way up here?”
he presses down on the bulge his cock makes in your belly, causing the both of you to keen, your little dripping pussy fluttering around his cock as he twitches inside of you; you desperately want him to move, start pounding your pussy like you’ve been wanting so, so badly… you eagerly nod at chan’s teasing words, buck your hips the best you can folded in half. “yes, yes!” you wail, voice slurred, “give it to me daddy, please!”
“you’re so pretty when you’re begging for me, angel,” chan grins crookedly, pulling his hips back to slide himself out of your hole. you hold your breath in wicked anticipation. “beg some more and i’ll give you what you need.”
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