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rip my poor hands. dry as a desert cleaning the kitchen
#it took wayyy longer than it needed to#but in my defense#i was cleaning the little plant book#whete all my poor plants live#bc it was Dirty#and climbingnon the counter and moving the plants while also making sure theyre like you know not in danger if dying#takes a long ass fucking time#and i also breaked in the middle for lunch#anyways#someone save me and my poor hands#and my fucjing back#god what i would give to lay down rn#anyways! bathroom next on probably wednesday#and then my room sometime in the near future#i am going to get a good grade at beaung an adult#michi tag
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âA Dance With Toroâ
Fighting a âmeat-eating bullâ is pretty metal.
Once again showing that I'm a person who draws the dinosaurs better than the characters lol.
Timelapse undercut:
Song used Distant Past by Everything Everything. (Oops the video is longer than the song so sorry for the silence for the last minute or so lol.)
#camp cretaceous#Jwcc ben#ben pincus#Jwcc toro#I struggled more than I shouldâve with the lighting#Brave is a really good episode. Tied with The Long Run.#You're telling me this scrawny wild child grows up to be called a babygirl in the fandom??? /j /lh#I don't care if he talks about it too much. I would also brag the HELL out of fighting a carnotaurus and winning (with some help).#You have no idea how much I was chewing at the bars of my enclosure cause I wish I had my iPad so I could#Work on it during my lunch break#Sorry if the blood doesnât look good. Havenât drawn blood since uhhh middle school? Lol#My coworkers watching me scribble Toro in my sketchbook aggressively like the âwtf is this kid doingâ meme#ALâs scribblings of Nublar
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OKAY. OKAY. WINTERS FAMILY TORMENT NEXUS. as i've said before this is all REALLY vague rough outlines bc i wanted to bounce it all back n forth with u. but. what i have:
>winters family (mark & ashe & fridged mom/wife) live in a location hit by the simurgh
>mark is at work when she arrives. something horrific happens at home. maybe his wife is injured or hurt, but not killed. ashe (7/8/9) triggers. whatever his powers are, they. do Not help heal his mom. in fact the opposite.
>mark tears back home asap instead of leaving as soon as he hears her song, actively choosing to stay in her effect zone for his family. finds newly triggered baby ashe & the rest of that scene.
>theyve spent too long in the affected zone to be allowed to go free, especially since ashe triggered from it. mark nukes his whole past life & ashe's to escape without undergoing all the protocols. he spends ages doing shit work to support him & ashe bc theyre both legally dead, ends up working for overlord, manages to get enough of a fake past to get through cauldron background checks & get powers? it'll pay so much better than the grunt work he's doing now & he has to support ashe (powered)(legally dead)(would probably be executed if anyone Found Out)....
anyway to me the trickster is like. the endgame of this specific simurgh rube goldberg. somehow it doesn't end horrifically, for once! but it gets. bad. the fact that they're simurgh survivors is always looming over their heads. its why mark fucking freaks out when ashe joins the wards. literally have nothing more specific than this though u gotta help me put meat on these bones!!!!! STOP "being responsible" and "doing work" and stuff START thinking incessantly abt nhw ashe!!!!! i don't even know his powers bc i have no clue how he triggered!!!! augh. god. them..... mods torture that blonde man in the most narratively satisfying and fucked up way possible!!!!
QUIT YOUR JOB JOIN MY EMO WARDS !!!!!!!!!!!!! god dude god dude I'm gonna be thinking about this all fucking DAY . who needs to be responsible and have a job. not me!!!! FUCK !!!!!!!! dude im just. thinking abt mark being at work getting the notice to evacuate and starting to hear the song and. bc it's important to me that he's a little bit of a coward. it takes him longer than he will ever admit to decide to go back to his family. he definitely hesitates and hates himself for it because. what if he had gotten there 10 minutes earlier! who fucking knows! he never will!!
god man I'm just thinking about. that scene where they're in the hospital waiting to hear back about noelle and the person (ai?) at the desk is giving them the rundown of all the containment procedures and handing them paperwork and asking them if they can pay for the medical care. how fucked up would that be to hear after you're in the midst of losing everything. mark winters the universes most hated man. I looooooove the satisfaction in thinking about that snap decision where he goes from "relatively normal if a little emotionally repressed but otherwise does his best suburban dad" to "my wife is dead and my son is fucked up and there's this fucking sound in my head that won't go away I'm about to erase everything and break several laws in order to get us out of here" and how that eventually leads into. supervillain. it's just soooooooo. sickos haha yessss the downfall of this fucking miserable blonde guy. when do you think he consciously made that choice. he heard "you're never going to get out of here and live a normal life again" do you think he just . sat with that for a while. ashe unresponsive either due to shock or fear or the trauma of triggering/whatever his powers are and mark just has to sit there. by himself. like what the fuck am I gonna do now. auaghghghghhhh I need 2 make him so miserable forever. fuck that guy i hate his ass (<< me when I lie)
I THINK . I NEED TO SIT FOR A WHILE AND FINISH THESE NEXT COUPLE CHAPTERS AND PROCESS A LITTLE MORE BEFORE I MAKE A SOLID DECISION ON ASHES POWERS. but you knowwwww it's gonna be some fucked up horror shit. it has to be. it has to be something fucked up enough that mark forbids him from using his powers and keeps him . at home isolated for his own good. but not TOO fucked that he wouldn't be able to join the wards.
actually speaking of. HOW THE FUCK DOES HE JOIN THE WARDS. I know mark basically fucking erased their whole identity and everything but. there's noooo way the prt would let this kid join them. right?????? right????. how the hell would that even be a possibility with all the precautions in place for simurgh survivors. THEY EXPLODED THAT ONE CAPE GUYS HEAD BECAUSE HE STAYED IN PROXIMITY FOR A LITTLE BIT TOO LONG. maybe it's unofficial. maybe he never Officially joins them but he sneaks out while mark is gone and meets the boys somewhere and they become friends out of costume first. and then they learn about his powers and ashe is like "I can help!" and helps them like. as a rogue or something. but hes never registered as an official cape. is this anything. im thinking about him so much what the fuuuuuck have we done. what have we done !!!!!!!!!!!!!!
#ALSO I HATE THAT YOU SAID FRIDGED ABOUT HER. IN THIS SPECIFIC CASE. WE CANNOT BRIAN FRIDGE MRS WINTERS .#going 2 be in a fugue state for the rest of my shift trying 2 think about ashes powers and how they manifest#bc its totally understandable that hed trigger during an endbringer attack where theyre supposed to evacuate but his mom is hurt#and shes telling him to go without her bc they have to evacuate before simurgh gets there#bc she knows how dangerous that is and wants him to be safe but he cant just LEAVE her hes only . 8 yrs old !!!! and his dads not home yet!!#and he doesnt understand why everyone is panicking !!!! LIKE. THERES SO MANY POSSIBILITIES THERE. AUGHGVGRGRHGH#GODDDDD DUDE. IM UNWELL. I NEED 2 GO FEED MY SNAKE . BUT I WANT TO SIT HERE AND FINISH READING THE NOELLE CHAPTER.#i didnt grt to read on my lunch break at all so im DYINGGGG . im at the part now where krouse is fighting the guard in her hospital room#while she is in the MIDDLE of having her serum induced trigger and its taking her a really long time#aauaghgrhrhrhr i NEED TO KNOW WHY SHES SO FUCKED UP.#head in HANDS#ohhhhh nhw winters family im so glad to be here. and also im so so so sorry#asks#new haven wards#friends!!!#intertexts
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nothing like remembering weird nuggets of information and my coworkers are like wtf how do you know this I'm just shouting IDK IDK IDK IM AUTISTIC?!?? LITTLE SHIT LIKE THIS STICKS IN MY HEAD I GUESS????
#we were playing quixort jackbox as like a break team fun thing#jokes on them we got most of them out of order tho xDDDD#they were parts on a boat highest to lowest#or lowest to highest i guess#IM THE ONLY ONE WHO KINDA KNEW THO#I WAS LIKE I LIKE POTC AND OMFD AND YEAH THEY DON'T USE A TON OF THESE TERMS BUT I GUESS MY BRAIN PICKED SOMETHING UP SOMEWHERE IN THERE#we did get some right or kinda right but in the wrong spot#so that's that#also we had been drinking at lunch just beforehand so it was chaos#fun chaos#but i'm just sitting here like 'lmao I just yelled IM AUTISTIC at like 8 of my coworkers in a heated moment'#I DIDN'T MEAN TO YELL BUT#work adventures#i may get a little too silly for work after having an alcohol but that's on work for paying for drinks in the middle of the work day#i mean isn't speaking vol regulation also an autistic thing so fjwoeaihoeifhaewfk I'm just proving my point#obligatory *waves at coworker who follows me here* hiiiiiii :3
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sometimes i mayhaps would like a boyfriend
#so here is my life rn im going to explain using letters representing people instead of their names bc there are two people w the same name#a and b are dating and c and d are dating then band d cheat on their respective partners w each other and a and c want to date and they#find out abt the cheating so they all start dating - b c and d are in a play that i am in along with e and f#e and f are also dating - f is one of the only other trans people in the cast so we talked a lot and he said he thought he only liked girls#and was thinking about breaking up with e because he is also a trans guy#one day we were going home from rehearsal and f left then e and i were watching b c and d say bye to each other all loveydovey#and e said he wanted that and i said yeah me too and he mumbled something i couldn't hear and i was like 'yeah' bc i couldn't tell and he#said 'join me!' and held out his hand and i took it and boom we were holding hands (his skin was very soft in case you're wondering) and we#shared phone numbers and said that's like how he started dating f and i was like oh interesting and we left and i realised he was asking me#to date him and i was like okay free bf! two free bf! then he texted me and said f didn't want me in their relationship and oh. no free bfs#and then flash forward i was in the friend group with a b c and d and i made friends with a super controlling guy who didn't want me to be#friends w the friend group and only him and was all 'if you're friends w them that means you don't like me' and we were friends w benefits#so i ditched that friend group for him and he was mean to them and wanted me to be like that too so i was kinda rude to them#flash forward again i finally left the toxic guy wow i have no friends now i was in 1st yr high school but e was in last year middle school#i didnt talk to him much bc i was focused on school stuff and now this year e is in first year of hs and im in the second year and he's#hanging out w the old friend group and I noticed him even before i knew who he was and i was like oh that person seems really cool hm#wonder who he is hes friends with old friend group how interesting OH that is e he looks different but he looks cute and now i kinda want#to text him bc he's in one of my lunches and he was in student council on friday and we looked at each other and i waved hi but he didn't#wave back and now im worried hes heard that im mean bc the old friend group but i still like him bc we were really good friends but also#ive been thinking about what might have happened if we did start dating and i really want to text him but i only have him on snapchat bc id#what happened to his phone number but i don't have it anymore#i really want to talk to him but snapchat gives me anxiety and idk what he thinks of me now#but i really want to talk to him!!!!!#help#what#should#i#do#does looking at him count as flirting#zen is gay :]
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hank green is so iconicÂ
#fucking icon! we love it!#text post#hank green#i really appreciate his thoughtful reflections on his situations... as i am accustomed to y'know#having followed him since i was in middle school i know his brand is being thoughtful and considerate and educational#and also funny#last week at work i got the news from kaily who simply texted me in the middle of an already-not-great day 'hank green has cancer'#i felt like throwing my phone when i read that on my lunch break i could've cried#treatable cancer treatable cancer#kaily hadn't watched the video on it yet when she sent that she just saw it on twitter#when i got home i immediately watched the upload and found it comforting#i really do wish him the best
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apologies for the severance spam
it will happen again tomorrow. problably
#eternally thinking about gemma#casey girl please be ok#also harmony has been a constant and my friend might be a bit mad at me randomly saying 'i want her' in middle of lunch break#to a gif of her throwing a mug#or just being in general#but mostly the deranged bits#also helly#my mother is not a fan and we spent lots of time discussing the nature vs nurture thing going on between her and helena#she is everything she is the moment etc
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Uh. Got a little carried away in the tags. But this is very interesting!
little joel on youtube got me wondering what the percentage is actually like. please reblog so i can get more responses and thus a more representative data pool for my demographic of "people who use tumblr in 2023"
#soooooo#i was put into gifted in first grade and it kinda sucked#because theyd pull me out of class and i missed fucking computer lab time!!!!!#but we did fun logic things so i couldn't be super mad.#then they started bussing us to a separate school during that time#wed do our logic puzzle stuff there#then play at their playground#then head back to my school where id get a second playground break and if i was lucky#id also get lunch. so id get two lunches. i was living big#then my parents sent me to a âgifted schoolâ#which really was just all ND kids without appropriate teacher supervision and care.#and that was hell#for 3 years.#my parents said it was like lord of the flies but didnt take me out until i got bad grades (because thats how they are)#then i went to another nother school and was just in an advanced class. there wasnt a seperate gifted program. that school was wonderful#i did almost kill someone but i was young and really really really didn't understand consequences#then in middle school i went to another not gifted but effectively gifted school.#they split up students into two groups thst were basically seen as smart kids and average kids. but of course the average kids were treated#like they were all idiots#and i realized the gifted system just pits kids against each other and it would be better if we didnt have it#i excelled in school but thats it. I'm not socially adept.#my parents wouldn't let me do anything othwr than my absolute best at all times and were perpetually disappointed in me.#they said they were proud but i was always in trouble and never doing enough to keep them satisfied#they gave me extra summer work#by highschool they had completely stopped doing anything special if i got all As. thats just what was expected.#i remember in highschool i was taking a ton of advanced classes sophomore year#and i wanted to wait and do my college english later because i had such a heavy course load#and my mom flipped her shit and said i was slacking off and not living up to my potential#so i took it anyway#finished all my English classes forever before 11th grade
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my laptop will not survive screen recording build up every week
#also bc i was in the other room working the first 15 minutes are only in 480px T_T#why dont mnet post the live after? even for just a few hours? T_T#i managed to watch donghun's performance in my lunch break but how do yall expect us to watch a 2 hour show in the middle of the day#or even at night? it starts at 10.40pm in korea which means its doesn't finish until almost 1am? and mnet are wondering why no ones watchin#wild wild tv schedules tbh#op rambles
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infrunami âź jeon jungkook
summary: youâve made great friends throughout the years but none like jeon jungkook. heâs there for you when you need him and although at times when things get complicated between your feelings and thoughts⊠thereâs one thing for certain. you both have been wasting time acting like thereâs nothing between you.
âź genre/au: friends to lovers. y/n[afab, she/her] x best friend jungkook
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warnings: smut. f2l. slice of life. besties jk and y/n. slight jealousy vibes. idiots to lovers. lot of sexual tension. everyone knows they like each other. for the smut [no protection sorry yall]. heavy makeout. slight dry humping. grinding. doggy style. soft dom vibes jk. whiny y/n. jk gets jealous but never admits it. they both talk to other people bc theyâre in denial.
song inspo: infrunamiâsteve lacy, my kind of womanâmac de marco, no. 1 party anthemâarctic monkeys, love betweenâkali uchis
Friendships in your twenties, youâve learned, come in various forms.
There were people youâve known since you were a teen and people youâve only just met. Some who know everything about you and some who only get a piece of you. Youâve got the ones you meet up with on a random Thursday to run an errand because you haven't seen each other in so longâand you have the ones who seem to always be knocking on your door. Having people who wanted to be around you was one of the best things youâve ever experienced.
âYouâre late.â
He raised his shoulders in a shrug as he picked up the helmet that was strapped onto the back of a black motorcycle, âIâm here, arenât I?â
Part of you gave up on acting upset as you let him slip the helmet over your head. You took his backpack off his shoulders and shoved your things inside before putting it on your back.
âThanks for the ride,â You hooked a leg over the seat, straddling the bike as you fixed yourself up behind him. The helmet fit snugly around your head and you held him around the waist comfortably, âIâll buy you a meal.â
âYou promise?â Jungkook asked with a teasing smile as he kicked up the stand and brought the engine to life, âIâm craving steak.â
âJust donât break my pocket,â You patted him softly, checking your phone one last time, âI swear if they donât give me my car back Iâm going to throw a fit.â
âMaybe next time donât park in a restricted area,â He said lastly, driving off with youn. Your friendship with Jungkook was different from the others. He was your best friend.
Not in the way Mirae was or even Taehyung but he was up there. Heâs the one youâd have knocking on your door because heâs bored or bothering you during the middle of the night. Heâs also the one you call because you know heâll answer.
You donât remember exactly how you two met but it was some time during college, an after party maybe? Campus? Not likely. He was infamous for never showing up. Whatever, it was beyond the point. The point is that somewhere along the way you made friends with an overly clingy man who spent too much time at the gym or gaming in his bedroom when he wasnât at work.
No, youâre not dating him nor do you want to. Heâs kind of just⊠your overly good looking friend who would do anything for you.
âI forgot my lunch at home so Iâm starving,â Jungkook pushed past you to get inside the small barbecue place he dragged you to. You couldnât help but roll your eyes and follow. Heâs taken his backpack back to set it on the chair next to his and you sat across from him. It was a familiar place to eat and the menus took up an unnecessary amount of space so he took them both without question.
âWhat if I wanted to try something new?â You asked with a slight scoff, pretending to be annoyed but he saw right through it.
âYou donât, youâre too picky. Youâre just going to get the same thing you always get,â Jungkook said with another shrug before giving you a menu back anyway, âBut fine, browse a little.â
âChill on the attitude,â You joked, looking over the menu with disinterest.
âHow do either of you manage to be here at least once a week?â The server grumbled as he approached the table, âAnd thatâs on a good week.â
âHey, I havenât been here in like, four days?â You said, second guessing yourself and looking at your friend, âHeâd live here everyday if he could.â
âTrue, Jin is one of the best cooks I know,â Jungkook confessed, making your server roll his eyes.
âPlease, Jinâs rarely here since the new place opened up but donât worry, Iâll pretend to believe you,â he snatched the menus away from you both, âAnd like you donât get the âFamily & Friendsâ discount. Whatâll it be? The usual?â
Jungkook turned to you with an amused expression, eyebrows raised as he waited to hear your new order. He even had the nerve to rest his chin in the palm of his hand and the server waited with a bored expression.
You sunk into your seat, âThe usual.â
âDamn, we shouldâve bet on it,â Jungkook grimaced as he took his phone out of his pocket to scroll through his socials, âSo how was the meeting? It took a while didnât it?â
âDonât even get me started on it, I can already tell theyâre going to be a handful. I might pass them onto Mirae,â You told him honestly, âShe can handle them better than I could.â
âItâs because youâre hot headed,â he said, like it was the most obvious thing in the world. He felt your hard stare and he couldnât help but smirk, âYou know you are.â
âSays the guy who almost got into a fight because of Overwatch,â you threw your straw wrapper at him but he caught it and chucked it back at you.
âFirst of all we were in a tournament and I couldâve won some money,â Jungkook said defensively, âAny sane person would react the same way.â
You raised your brows pretending to be convinced and stared off into space. After your meal and you footed the bill like promised, Jungkook drove you to your apartment.
âLet me know if you need a ride to the garage tomorrow,â Jungkook said as he took the helmet back and you retrieved your things from his backpack.
âWhat are your plans tonight?â You asked curiously as he got back on his bike.
âI donât know, a friend of mine asked me to go have drinks with him so Iâll probably do that,â He told you honestly, âWhy? Wanna watch âLove, Death & Robotsâ again?â
âJust curious, be safe and donât drive,â You reminded him.
A grin widened on his face, âWill you pick me up if I drink too muchâoh right, you donât have a car⊠awkward.â
âAsshole,â you hit him playfully, making him sway but he kept himself steady.
âIâll call for an Uber or something, night.â
Thereâs not a specific moment that made you and Jungkook become good friends. You sort of just clicked right away. In the beginning there mightâve been a slight tinge of attraction but it was the kind you felt for a stranger walking past. It wasnât anything either of you wanted to pursue and ended with a good friendship. You learned a lot from each other and somehow managed to co-exist together.
In the beginning nearly all of his friends thought you were into him. They tried to put it into his head that you had a thing for him but it never went anywhere. Jungkook never made a move on you and after a while everyone just accepted it.
This is what friendship looked like. You didnât have to sleep with each other. You were like one of the guys⊠aside from the obvious. Now everyone just takes you as you are, a good friend of his with no sexual feelings involved.
âYou just got off work?â Yoongi asked as Jungkook finally joined him at the bar, âI thought I was going to have to drink enough for the both of us tonight.â
âDonât you wish,â Jungkook chuckled, taking a seat and the drink his friend ordered for him, âBut no, I was having dinner and had to drive Y/n home.â
âOh, how is she? Havenât seen her in a while,â Yoongi asked.
âHer car got Towed at my apartment for parking in someoneâs spot a couple days ago. Sheâs pissed,â Jungkook answered knowingly, âBut sheâll survive. Whatâd you ask me over here for?â
âOh, Iâm talking to this girl whoâll be here soon and sheâs got a friend with her.â
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Two hundred dollars down the drain all because you parked somewhere you werenât supposed to. It puts you in a bad mood for a couple days. You werenât necessarily short on cash but that didnât mean you wanted to waste it to get your car back.
âDonât touch me Iâm sad,â You mumbled into your desk as your coworker hovered a hand over your back ready to comfort you.
âYou didnât get it back?â Jimin asked, opting to sit on the edge of your desk instead.
âI did, thatâs why Iâm sad,â You nearly cried, âIâm never staying at anyoneâs apartment but mine ever again. Itâs too expensive and thereâs never enough parking anywhere.â
âPoor you, I know whatâll cheer you up though,â Jimin said with a scheming smile that had your head raising skeptically, âYou, Mirae and I out for dinner and a couple drinks after work.â
âIâm pretty sure I just said how much money I spent!â You rolled your eyes making him do the same.
âIâll pay, silly,â Jimin said, âYou look like you could use a drink.â
You were a victim of peer pressure, and for pressure you needed very little of it. All it took was both of your friends reminding you how much fun it would be before the FOMO set in and you joined them.
âYouâre so easily persuaded,â Mirae said with a laugh, âMin didnât even have to beg this time.â
âIâm going through a tough time right now,â You said playfully, reaching across the table for another portion of fries, âThanks for taking those clients.â
âYeah yeah, but if I need any favor you better be the first one to grant it,â Mirae pointed a stern finger at you and you nodded eagerly.
âOne Wish coupon with your name written on it, noted,â You tapped your head a couple times before shooting her a Thumbâs Up. Your coworker [turned close friend] rolled her eyes with a smile as she raised her glass, âReady to chug?â
âOh fuck no,â Jimin groaned, staring down his nearly full glass, âAre we drinking-drinking or are we drinking?â
âBaddie Baddie Shot OâClock,â you nudge his arm, âDonât be scared now. You asked for this.â
âWe have work tomorroâfuck it, letâs do it,â Jimin said while you and Mirae began a chant ready to take the drink.
There were a couple⊠a few drinks involved for all of you. It was supposed to be something casual but that never seems to be the case when youâre with your work friends. Theyâre a good time all the time and sometimes a nice break. Aside from Jungkook, they're some of your closest friends. They know you in a different light than he does. With Mirae you can talk to her about anything and with Jimin heâs a good time. He doesnât tease or scold you the way Jungkook does⊠he lets you have fun.
Not to say Jungkook doesnât but itâs different and you donât know how to explain why.
jungkook: hungryyyyyyyyy
jungkook: hungryyyyyyy
jungkook: HUNGRYYYY
you: lower your voice smh
âIs that Jungkook?â Jimin asked, stealing a fry for your plate, âWhatâs he doing? Ask him to meet us.â
âNo, Iâm mad at him,â You said with a huff, thinking about the expensive towing bill. You werenât actually mad at him but more about the price you paid today. Jungkook is the one who told you it was fine to park there and the one night you do, your car gets towed. Itâs never happened before and itâs technically his fault. His stupid landlord is an asshole and therefore youâre never stepping foot at his place again.
you: and actually Iâm mad at you
jungkook: đ€ why
you: 200$ đ
jungkook: :(
you: you better buy me a spot if you want me to come over again
jungkook: hell no
You put your phone face down and looked at your empty glass, wiggling your brows at your two friends, âAnother?â
jungkook: hungrryyyyy
Jimin rolled his eyes even as he let you go to the bar and order more. While you were gone he got on his phone and began to type. Mirae looked over his shoulder, âWho are you calling?â
âJungkook.â
Jungkook knew Jimin well enough to have his number saved. They werenât close but heâs met him around you before and the guyâs cool. When he called Jungkook assumed it had something to do with you and answered.
âHey man, what are you doing?â
âStarving,â Jungkook groaned, staring at his empty fridge, âYou?â
âCome to JJâs, Y/n is here and weâre having a few drinks. Thereâs some food,â Jimin said as he looked up at you.
âJungkookâs on his way,â Jimin told you once the call came to an end but you barely shrugged in response.
When Jungkook arrived you greeted him like normal and he bumped you further into the booth before immediately digging into your plate. He even had the nerve to ask which drink was yours before taking it, âI havenât eaten all day.â
âWhy do I feel like thatâs a lie?â Jimin asked, trying to pass Jungkook the menu so he could order something for himself, âHow are ya, buddy?â
âAlright, busy with work,â Jungkook said with a shrug, âItâs been back to back sessions lately and I think I need a break.â
âHave you been going to the chiropractor?â You asked worriedly. Jungkook sneered, turning to look at you, âI thought you were mad at me.â
Your jaw nearly dropped as you scoffed. Heâs here eating your food and giving you attitude? Itâs obvious heâs joking but itâs annoying. You crossed your arms over your chest and slumped back, âYouâre here eating my food, asshole. Fine I wonât talk to you then.â
âI have been going to the chiro,â Jungkook says to you, âThanks for worrying.â
âI wasnât worrying,â You rolled your eyes looking across the table at Mirae as Jungkook and Jimin talked like they were good friends.
âOkay I know what Iâm using my wish coupon on,â Mirae said suddenly, âYouâre going with me to the movies.â
âYay, what are we watching?â You asked more interested now.
âI donât know. The guys havenât chosen the movie yet,â Mirae said as she got on her phone and went to add you to a groupchat.
âWhat guys?â Jimin asked curiously, making Jungkook turn to look as well.
âMy friendâs boyfriend and his friends,â Mirae explained briefly, âThey've been wanting to go see this horror movie but it always feels awkward when I tag along with her, her man and his friends.â
âSounds like a group date,â Jungkook said to you, watching your excitement slowly turn to dejection and for some reason it made his heart beat faster.
âIt kinda does,â You agreed.
âItâs not like that. Theyâre actually kind of cool but I still want someone to talk to,â Mirae told you, âTheyâre cute.â
âLet me see a picture,â You reached out for her phone.
âAre you seeing anyone?â Jungkook asked Jimin who aggressively shook his head no.
âNot since the last one, I think she broke my heart,â Jimin pretended to sniffle, âYou?â
âNah, kinda? No,â Jungkook shook his head, âWhatever it is, it's nothing serious.â
âItâs never serious,â You corrected, âI donât know how he keeps track of them all.â
âDonât make me out to be a slut,â Jungkook placed his hand over his chest. Easy banter went on for the rest of the night. It was casual and comforting to spend time with those close to you on a random week night. It reminded you of how good things can be and why you liked being with them. Jimin was fun, careless, considerate. Mirae is full of welcomed attitude and charm. Jungkook is comfortable and protective, always around and ready to meet up for anything. They made things feel easy.
When you date a guy you want him to fit in with your friends and that is hard to find.
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Jungkook has always been a laid back guy. Despite whatever struggles heâs had, heâs always taken them with a strong head on his shoulders and people to support him. He comes from a loving family and close friends heâs known for years. Heâs been in relationships and talking stages that changed him and did his military service as early as he could. He had a plan for himself and when he decided to go to college he didnât expect to meet you.
Itâs not like you had a huge impact on him or anything but he didnât expect to meet someone he can get along with so easily. He thought he already had his lifelong friends picked out. How did you manage to force your way into his close circle and introduce to people and things he wouldnât have known otherwise.
Youâre his best friend and donât let any of the guys hear him admit that. They already give him too much shit about you.
âAre you going for Y/n?â His friend asked a few days after he met up with you and your friends for dinner. Heâs been up to his usual routine during the week and has barely gotton to see or talk to you.
Jungkook and his friend just had a two hour gym session that left them both jittery and out of breath as they sat in the locker room packing up their belongings. He pulled his helmet out and carried it next to him as he shook his head no, âIâm not driving her around anymore.â
âShe got her car back? Thatâs good,â Taehyung said. You didnât have it for almost a full week and during that time Jungkook was helping you get to and from work. Since then youâve had your car and havenât had a reason to call him upânot that it mattered or anything.
âWanna get on the game later?â He asked.
âSure, Iâll shower and have dinner then hop on.â
The two split ways and Jungkook got on his bike to rush home. His evenings didnât contain much excitement as they did during his college days but they were alright. Heâd do exercises after work, head home and wash up, make dinner or go out, and hang out. If he was seeing someone it would look slightly different but he doesnât usually let it get that far.
Itâs not that heâs scared of commitment or anything, he just doesnât feel the need to be dating at the moment. Heâs perfectly content with the way he lives and if he were to get serious with anyone it would have to be someone who understands him. Yes, he does the occasional hook up or fling but theyâre never more than that. Heâs bad at seriously dating. Heâs got to feel truly comfortable with someone.
After his shower, he stood alone in his kitchen thinking of what to make for dinner when he checked the time on his phone. It was almost nine and heâs yet to hear about how your night has gone. The movie was set at six so you had to rush after work to meet with Mirae and all her people but the movie shouldâve ended by now. Why havenât you told him how it went if itâs over now?
Maybe he should just ask.
jungkook: is the movie over
You probably wonât respond if your phoneâs on âDo Not Disturbâ so he didnât expect a response.
you: yeah
jungkook: was it scary
you: ehhhhhh not really
jungkook: what r u doing now
you: they wanted to get food after
jungkook: and here I am cooking for myself
Without question Jungkook took a picture of it all, sending it right to you with a message that said;
jungkook: ur favorite
you: đ is that an invite
jungkook: depends, r u gonna actually come over or hang out with ur new friends
you: idk one of them is reallllyyyyyy cute
jungkook: stay with them then
You looked at everyone you were with curiously. The movie had ended a bit ago and you were walking to the nearest restaurant talking. Mirae was right, the guys were cool and her friend was nice but it was a lot of effort on your part to be social. One of the guys was particularly cute and he spent a little more time with you than anyone else but did that really mean anything?
âI think Iâm gonna call it a night,â You said, thinking about the early morning you have tomorrow and how everyone seemed ready to grab a few drinks. Mirae looked at you, âReally? Youâre not even hungry?â
âNot really,â You lied with a shrug, âAre you gonna be good?â
âYeah, Iâll see you tomorrow.â
You said goodbye to them all, sharing information with the cute friend and split ways. On your way to Jungkookâs he let you know parking spot 97 was good to use and despite arguing with him about it you took his word.
âIf I get towed again weâre not going to be friends anymore,â You told him once you let yourself into his apartment, immediately being greeted by Bam whose tail whipped back and forth behind him with excitement.
âItâs my spot, Goofy,â Jungkook said, casually throwing on a shirt once you were in. Up until now heâs been cooking shirtless from his shower.
âYour spot is 98,â You reminded him, watching the way he rolled his eyes and turned the stove off.
âDidnât you tell me to rent you one?â Jungkook asked, pulling the pot off the stove and onto a cooling rack, âGrab bowls.â
âYou actually did it?â You asked with a smile, âBless your kind soul.â
He brushed you off as you did what he asked and went straight to the end of the peninsula countertop where you could sit and eat. Jungkook didnât bother sitting down, choosing to eat standing up behind the counter and looking at you with curiosity.
âWhat?â
âHow was the date?â He asked.
âWhat date?â You scoffed, âYou mean the movie? One, it wasnât a date and Two, I told you it was alright.â
âYou didnât drink, did you?â Jungkook asked, ignoring the attitude behind your words. You rolled your eyes, âI wouldnât have driven here if I had been. I left before we made it to the restaurants. Why so curious tonight?â
He shrugged, the plate completely empty and he began to wash it and what he used to cook. When you finished and offered to help he told you no and washed your stuff too.
âIâm so full, have I ever told you how good of a Cook you are,â You said as you threw yourself onto his couch, a grunt leaving your lips when Bam nearly tackled you down.
âI wouldnât mind hearing it again,â Jungkook said, rummaging through his fridge and smiling widely, âWant a drink?â
âIâm driving.â
âYou can just crash on the couch, itâll be fine,â Jungkook shrugged, carrying over a couple glasses and a bottle of Soju.
That was enough convincing for you to sit on the floor beside him as he set things down on the coffee table. You took the remote and played some movie in the background as he poured the small glass.
âYouâre a bad influence,â You joked as you took the first drink like it was a pre-starter and he did the same, âWeâve got work tomorrow.â
âYou only go in for a couple hours, I know your schedule, don't forget that,â Jungkook pointed a teasing finger at you, plopping down on the floor with his legs crossed, âIâve got a beginnerâs session around 10am and a few private classes after. Iâll be the one regretting it tomorrow, not you.â
âYet youâre still the one asking for more,â You said playfully, reaching for the familiar green bottle and pouring a little more in his glass. You didnât notice the way Jungkookâs gaze flickered down to your exposed waist when you leaned over the coffee table to grab it. The waist of your underwear showed just slightly underneath and he was surprised to find out it was black and lacy making his eyebrow quirk with curiosity. When you sat back down he looked away, pretending to be focused on the movie, âYou dressed up for your date?â
âIt wasnât a date,â You said with a groan, sitting back a little closer to him than before and he didnât bother moving away, âAnd look at what Iâm wearing. Does it look like I dressed up?â
A knowing smirk pulled at his lips as he raised the glass to his lips, âI didnât realize you wore lace so casually.â
Your brows furrowed with confusion, realization dawning on you just moments later and without thinking you pushed at him playfully, âHowâd you know?â
Jungkook laughed, hand sliding down your back where your shirt rose and he didnât hesitate to reach for the thin fabric nearly pulling on it just to feel you squirm. You couldnât help but whine, moving away, âFreak.â
âSays you,â Jungkook said, keeping his hand on you, âCome on tell me, how was the date.â
âWhy are you insisting it was a date?â You asked, taking a big gulp and turning to face him, âYou never hear me asking about your little flings or whatever you like to call them nowadays.â
âBut if you asked me Iâd tell you, I wouldnât be all secretive about it like you are,â He said with a shrug of his shoulders, âHurry up and drink more.â
âDonât pressure me,â You rolled your eyes but did as told, âAnd I did tell you. I said one of them were cute over text, remember?â
âHardly,â He shrugged looking away with a bored expression, âCuter than me?â
You didnât say anything making him smile, âIâll take that as a no.â
âHe was alright, pretty cute and nice,â You finally said but Jungkook wasnât listening anymore. His attention had drifted to the way you leaned against him with your side against his fitting perfectly beside him. It was obvious your words fell on deaf ears but you didnât seem to mind either. You turned to face him, convince him that the guy you met was just cute but it wasnât worth it. Youâll probably never see the guy again and if he does want to text, it most likely wonât lead to anything.
âWhat?â He asked, catching your stare.
âYouâre drunk,â You pointed out his red cheeks and ears, âAlready?â
âNo.â
âThen why are you blushing?â You asked with a teasing smile going to poke his flushed cheek when he grabbed your hand suddenly. You both had been casually drinking since you sat down but it isn't until now that you can feel the alcohol take effect over your body. You blamed it for the way you were looking at your friend at the moment.
It was hard to see him as just Jungkook, right now you can only see him for how attractive he was. Heâs gotten way more muscular lately and with the added tattoos itâs hard to ignore it. When you walked into his apartment earlier and found him shirtless it was hard not to look at his abdomen. You donât remember the eight pack or his biceps that big. Without thinking you placed a hand on his chest, taut muscles tense underneath your touch.
Jungkook couldnât help but let his breath hitch when your hand trailed down his rib cage suddenly, âWhat?â
âYouâve gotta get a new hobby, youâre going to get too bulky,â You said jokingly, feeling his muscles. He was taken back to have your hand on him but he didnât back away, âBut you like it.â
Not bothering to wait for a response, he lifted the end of his shirt displaying a smooth trail of muscle down his torso and prominent V-line that you tried not to eye too hard. Your hand slipped down without much thought to your actions and lifted your brows in surprise. His skin felt hot to the touch and part of you wanted to keep running your hand over him but you knew better. It would be weird if you did. Itâs not like heâs just some random guyâŠ
âI need to pee,â You blurted out, rushing to your feet and kicking his leg playfully, âPut your shirt down.â
âMight just take it off for you,â Jungkook teased, biting his lip watching you walk away.
When you were alone looking at yourself in the mirror it was easier to tell how you felt. You were past tipsy and buzzed but not fully drunk. Your vision was slightly blurry and when you stood straight you felt dizzy but it was the good kind of dizzy.
âWhat next?â Jungkook asked when you came out of the bathroom, hair up in a clip now and makeup wiped away with some wet wipe he had in the bathroom. He had to do a double take at your new appearance but he didnât mind the change. You looked comfortable and he can see the clear look of buzz on your face that heâs sure matched his, âOr are you calling it already?â
âCalling what?â You sat back down next to him, stumbling into him a little and he helped you with a hand on your waist guiding you down. Neither of you seemed to care for the fact that you were partially sitting on his lap.
âCalling it a night,â Jungkook said, shifting you closer to his front, âYouâve taken off your makeup, put your hair up⊠you look ready for bed.â
âI thought you wanted to drink,â You said, suddenly aware of how close the two of you were and his lip piercing had a slight shine from the light reflecting off of it.
âNot if your date tired you out,â Jungkook said with a knowing smirk when you rolled your eyes, leaning into him a little more. He didnât care who you met up with tonight but he knows itâs getting on your nerves and sometimes he loves to push your buttons, âYou probably wouldâve preferred to stay out with them since one of them was⊠whatâd you say? Cute? Nice?â
âIf you think that, why'd you ask me to come over?â You asked slightly irritated now.
He shrugged, grinning now when he felt you relax in his hold, almost straddling him, âTechnically, I did say you could stay with them.â
Your eyes narrowed, hands on his chest ready to push yourself off him, âFine, I got his number. Iâll see if theyâre still ouââ
âNo,â He whined, arms tightening around your waist, âNo, youâre already here and youâre drunk now. You canât leave, be a safe driver.â
âAre you trying to manipulate me to stay?â You couldnât help but laugh, arms circling around his neck. He felt your breath tickle his ear and for some reason it made a shiver run down his spine.
âDepends, is it working?â
It was.
It had been since the beginning. Jungkook didnât need to do much to get you to hang out with him and he knew that. Itâs the same way around. It takes little for Jungkook to beg you to spend time with him. Youâre his best friend.
And as his best friend⊠sometimes⊠sometimes he wonders how your lips taste. He doesnât remember when his hand moved from your waist to your neck, or how he moved it to tilt your chin up until your lips were brushing against each other. All he remembers is how close you were to kissing and all he needed was one push, one sign that you want this too and heâll go for it.
You nearly fell into it too. You can blame the alcohol or the fact that Jungkook is incredibly hot despite only seeing him as a friend but you wanted to kiss him too. You wouldâve.
Key words: Would Have.
âOpen the door, you Fuck!â
You practically threw yourself off him as someone pounded on his door and it took you a second to reel in what was about to happen. Jungkook couldnât move for a second, trying to understand why you got off of him so quickly when he heard it again.
âJungkook, I checked your location, open up,â His friend yelled, knocking on the door, âIâm going to piss myself, let me in!â
âComing!â Jungkook shouted, sounding annoyed as he got up to unlock the front door. You pulled yourself onto the couch, fixing your shirt that had risen when his hands had grazed your waist and stared down at the empty bottles of Soju.
âTaeââ He couldnât finish his sentence before his friend was pushing past him and running straight for the bathroom, waving hello to you before disappearing. He stood at the open door trying to wrap his head around what just happened.
The two of you were drinking, messing around and almost kissed? Almost? If Taehyung hadnât come barging in would you have done it? Would you know when to stop? Would you stop anyway?
âFuck, I was in the cab on my way home and he would not pull over,â Taehyung said once he was done with his business, âI was like âListen dude, my friend lives around here so drop me off or Iâm going to puke in your backseatâ.â
âI thought you had to pee,â You chimed in when he sat down next to you, acting like he had been there the whole time.
âI thought so too but it came up the other way instead, what are you guys doing? Drinking?â Taehyung asked looking down at the coffee table, âUgh I canât even think about it, donât play APT with Jin hyung, he talks too fast and wins everytime.â
âMaybe he was just speaking gibberish but you couldnât tell,â Jungkook said, arms crossed over his chest looking unimpressed, âSo⊠is the cab still out there waiting orâŠâ
âNah, Iâm just gonna crash hereââ
âGreat!â Jungkook scoffed, âSleepover at my place, first Y/n⊠now you⊠itâs like weâre in schoolâŠâ
âWell I wouldâve gone home if you didnât ask to drink,â You told him trying to ignore the fact that you almost kissed but it was hard to ignore the way he bit his lip at you, âI could still call an Uber.â
âNah, Taehyung can,â Jungkook said, sitting on the armchair across from you.
âWhoa, youâre the first person I thought of, why kick me out now? Iâm drunk, Kook, be nice to me,â Taehyung pouted, leaning against your shoulder, âWhatâd you do? Whyâs he so grumpy?â
âDonât blame me, youâre the one that came pounding on the door so late at night,â You said playfully, shoving Taehyung off. He was more Jungkookâs friend then yours but youâve hung out around him enough to feel comfortable with him.
âSo? I always do thatâWhy?â Taehyung turned abruptly, âWhat were you guys doing?â
âDrinking,â Jungkook said, âYou wouldnât want to since yknow⊠Jin got you drunk⊠you probably want to call it a nightâŠâ
âNah, I puked a little earlier so Iâm fine now,â Taehyung said, âPlus I havenât seen Y/n in a while, what are we watching?â
âActually, Iâm tired,â You told him with a small yawn, âI think Iâm calling it a night.â
âAre you trying to get rid of me?â Taehyung asked.
You laughed, âNo, Iâm just saying Iâm tired.â
âGo to my room,â Jungkook said with a sigh, thinking about what the two of you were about to do before he stormed in, âIâll stay out here with him.â
When you left, Jungkook threw a pillow at Taehyungâs head, making the other groan, âWhat?â
âNothing,â Jungkook huffed , âNow I gotta sleep on the couch.â
Taehyung smirked, feeling more sober now as he put two and two together, âOr you could go follow your girlfriendâŠâ
âWeâre noïżœïżœïżœweâre not dating,â Jungkook thought about how you almost kissed and his face flushed red, âFor fuckâs same, go get the extra blankets and pillows. I get the big couchââ
âBut Iâm like a centimeter taller thanââ
âThis is my house!â Jungkook yelled, throwing himself on the couch and covering his face with one of the pillows, âOr get an Uber back to yours.â
âJeez, youâre rude tonight. I always come over when Iâm drunk,â Taehyung laughed knowing how annoyed Jungkook was, âJust say you were going to get freaky with Y/n.â
âI wasnât!â
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It took you a full day to come to terms with what happened the other night at Jungkookâs. The two of you had been drinking and almost kissed, almost.
Thereâs no way to deny it. You were close to kissing.
If Taehyung hadnât shown up out of the blue, would you have done it? Would he have slept in the same bed as you? What would you do or say if he asked?
Thereâs always been an underlying sense of tension between you but you tried not to think about it. You told yourself that nothing was ever going to happen. It was just how friendships with someone you found attractive was.
A loud sigh left your lips, dropping your head against your keyboard and letting an endless stream of spaces fill the word document. Soft fingers pulled your head up to slide the keyboard out making you look up at the person who did it. Jimin sat at the end of your desk, âI was just sitting in my office wondering why my friend hasnât gone to distract me today. Whatâs up with you?â
âMorning, canât focus,â You told him.
âHowâd the showing go?â Jimin asked, trying to find something that could get you talking.
âThey liked it, itâs a little over their budget but I think weâll close the deal on it,â You said.
âGood, what about the other night?â
âWhat about the other night?â Your question sounded rushed and made him look at you with peaked interest. He crossed his arms over his chest and smirked.
âWith Mirae and the movie,â Jimin said. He watched you release a breath you werenât aware you were holding and pressed you for more, âDid you talk to any of the guys?â
âYeah⊠um, I did,â You sat back, chair swiveling out as you turned to face him, âHis nameâs Namjoon. I got his number and he texted me yesterday before the showing to wish me luck.â
âSo what? Are you and Mirae gonna ditch me when you guys find someone? Who are going to be my drinking buddies when youâre off with your boyfriends? She told me all about the other guy, Iâm starting to feel pushed aside,â Jimin spoke in a ramble making you roll your eyes.
âRelax, it was the first time I met him. Mirae, yeah she really hit it off with the other guy,â You said.
Jimin just nodded, taking in your words and finally deciding to bring it up, âMirae said you left early though.â
âYeah, they wanted to go out to eat but I wasnât hungryâŠâ You said.
âBullshit, I checked your location, you went to Jungkookâs plaââ
âOkay! Whatâs up with all the stalking lately? First Taehyung, now youâwe share locations so that you know Iâm safe after a night out,â You pointed a finger at him, trying to deflect some of the questions away from you, âAnd yeah, I did go to his place. He made food and I didnât want to go eat with all of them anyway.â
âInteresting excuse, so what? Did you guys fight or something? You know I understand youâre close friends but youâre not close friends like we are.â
âThatâs not truââ You cut yourself off thinking about how you almost kissed Jungkook and as much as you love Jimin, youâll never find yourself kissing him, almost!
A loud groan left your lips as you dropped your head against the keyboard again and Jimin watched the aggressive keyboard smash type out gibberish. This time it was his turn to roll his eyes and he stood up, âWe both know thatâs a lie but fine, Iâll let you be.â
You donât remember how the rest of your day went aside from the fact that you were distracted the entire time. Right now you have three different clients youâre currently helping buy their first home and the last thing you need is to be distracted right now.
Jungkook is your friend and until he makes it clear that he is interested, youâre just going to move on. Well⊠even if he was interested, what does that mean? Does that mean youâre into him? Itâs all so confusing.
He took a deep breath, leg threatening to bounce with anxiety as he counted the reps his current client did between sets.
âKook, man, youâre killing me today,â His client said with a deep huff, nearly collapsing on the floor as he set the weight down, âI thought weâd be taking it easy after the last session.â
âI donât know why you would think that,â Jungkook said, âTake a breather and do another fifteen.â
Even as he said that, he switched places with Hoseok and prepared himself to do a set. His client watched him with his mouth open in confusion, âItâs what you said! You said weâd be taking it easy today since last time was so much. Iâm still a sore man, please donât do this to me.â
âYouâre right, I did say that,â Jungkook huffed, counting in his head as he did bench presses, âNext session weâll take it easy.â
âFuck, I need a new trainer,â Hoseok groaned, chugging back water and pacing back and forth.
âYouâre at my gym! Youâre lucky weâre friends, donât say that,â Jungkook stood up and motioned for Hoseok to go, âNow you're doing twenty.â
âRude,â Hoseok said, âWhatâs up with you anyways? You seem on edge today.â
âIâm fine,â Jungkook said looking down at his gym bag where his phone currently was, âBut uh, just out of curiosity⊠if someone hasnât talked to you in a couple days, what does it mean?â
Hoseok couldnât help but chuckle, âCome on, how old are we? Thatâs what youâre stressing about?â
When Jungkook didnât laugh it off Hoseok got a little more serious, âDepends on the person. Girlfriend? Family member? Stranger?â
âNot girlfriendâjust friend,â Jungkook clarified quickly.
âFriend?â Hoseok looked at him curiously, âFriend with the occasional benefits or Friend youâre currently upset with?â
âNeither, just friend,â Jungkook shook his head, âI mean⊠like actual, genuine friend and⊠fuck, I donât know.â
âWho?â
Jungkook didnât say anything but it wasnât hard for Hoseok to connect the pieces, âY/n?â
To that, Jungkook nodded meekly.
âI mean⊠itâs normal to not talk everyday. We donât talk everyday, I send you like a hundred Instagram reels a day that you donât see me crying about,â Hoseok said, skipping from 15 to 17 and hoping Jungkook didnât catch the reps he didnât do, âWhich by the way, you could at least bother to react to every now and then.â
âSorry, youâre right, Iâm overthinking it,â Jungkook said, âAnd youâre not done, you skipped ahead.â
âFucker,â Hoseok cursed under his breath and hurried to do them properly before he could take a break, âBut honestly, whatâs up with you and Y/n? Arenât you âjust friendsâ?â
âWe are,â Jungkook bit his lip nervously, âI donât know Iâm being weird. Iâll just ask her what shes doing later.â
âBeing weird about what?â
Jungkook looked at him with wide, rounded eyes like heâd just been caught doing something he shouldnât have and the words came out in a shy whisper, âNothing.â
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Over the night Jungkook reached out to you. He sent you some stupid text about a new tv show heâs watching that he thinks you could get into. It wasnât anything serious or anything but it brushed past what happened. It was normal.
Things were normal and clearly nothing had happened that night so you were overthinking for no reason.
âYou donât want to go?â Mirae asked, watching you stare at your reflection for the hundredth time trying to find something off about your appearance.
âI do, weâre going, donât worry,â You looked around, âI just need perfume.â
âWhereâs Jungkook?â She asked, standing up for you to give her some too. You checked the ETA on your Uber before answering.
âHuh? Heâs probably already there, I donât know. Letâs go downstairs, the Uberâs pulling up,â You told her as you quickly grabbed your things and began to walk out your room. Your friend followed suit, âAnd then weâre going out with Namjoon and Jisoo, right?â
The only reason Mirae agreed to come with you was so that you could go with her and the guy she likes later. A couple days ago Jungkook let you know that Taehyung was going to have a few friends over to watch some MMA fight on tv and drink. You still felt awkward seeing him in person and he knew you had no reason to say no so there was no point in trying. In the end you asked Mirae to join you and after begging, she agreed. She had plans with one of the guys from last week and found it perfect to have you tag along after.
Youâve been to Taehyungâs place once or twice before â usually with Jungkook â but it was different to walk in without him.
âLook who finally showed up,â Taehyung said with a smile as he opened the door for you and Mirae, âHi Y/n, and Mirae right?â
The two have met before but it was brief and awkward so you were surprised he even remembered her name but they greeted each other politely anyway. You looked around, surprised to see a lot more people than you anticipated, âDoesnât look like a couple friends, Tae.â
âIâm a social being,â Taehyung said with a hand to his chest, âJungkook is somewhere around here. I thought youâd be coming with him and then got stuck waiting around for you to show up.â
âI need a drink first.â
Jungkook was across the room talking with some people you didnât know. It wasnât hard for you to see that the one closest to him was a pretty brunette with a soft smile and big eyes. She talked with him the most and you had no idea who she was. For all you know he couldâve come with her tonight or just met her and really hit it off, youâre not sure, and youâd rather not know.
He barely knew the girl but Yoongi introduced her to him a while before you got to Taehyungâs place. He had been staring at his phone anxiously waiting for a text that never came and the next thing he knew, Yoongi was having him meet Sera. She was pretty and easy to talk to, paid attention to him even when others talked and stood by him wherever he moved to. It was alright, he didnât mind the extra attention but it wasnât⊠that interesting.
Sera said something in his ear that he had to lean down to hear properly but in all honesty he wasnât listening to begin with. If anything it reminded him of when you whispered in his ear but it didnât feel the same. His eyes scanned the people that arrived over time, occasionally drifting to the door and stopping once he saw you walk in. You wore a short black dress that accentuated your legs and it was hard for his eyes to remain on your face. Mirae was dressed similarly and you both looked out of place in a good way.
âHow do you know Taehyung?â He heard Sera ask and he answered with little eagerness, watching you talk with his friend and head for the drinks.
âWe met a few years ago when I first moved to the city,â Jungkook said, looking down at her trying to focus but his mind had gone elsewhere. Turning to Yoongi he said, âIâm gonna go say hi to Y/n.â
Yoongi could try and keep him around but there was no point. Jungkook was walking off before anyone could stop him. He left Sera alone with the others so he can talk to you. Since you last seen each other and had the âAlmost Kissâ he had only texted you. Youâve both had a busy week with work and nerves probably kept you apart.
He didnât like that. He didnât want to overthink anything. He just wanted to talk to his friend.
âWhat are we drinking?â He asked with an overly gracious smile, slipping himself between you and the counter so you were forced to look at him.
âDepends, what have you had?â You asked, immediately feeling yourself tense for a second before you realized who it was.
âNothing too strong just yet,â Jungkook admitted, âIâve been waiting for you all night.â
He greeted your friend quietly before looking back at you and where you stared off at, âReally? Iâve been here for a while, I figured you wouldâve noticed earlier if youâve been waiting all this time.â
He could sense the small sarcastic tone in your voice but there was nothing strange to it. You usually talked this way with him, always sounding close to flirting or jealous or⊠interested in him. It was confusing at first but overtime heâs learned to ignore the tone or offer it back. It works for your friendship.
âI mightâve gotten a little distracted,â He couldnât help but smile, âWhat time did you get home last night?â
âEarly,â You said with a shrug making his brow arch, watching you pour yourself a mix of rum and coke.
âThen why didnât you text me back?â He asked.
âI didâwell, I was going to,â You began to say, feeling yourself on the edge of smiling as you thought up an excuse, âI forgot.â
âRightâŠâ Jungkook rolled his eyes looking over at Mirae instead, âYou both look nice, did you just have dinner or something?â
âNo, weâre meeting up with some guys in a bit,â Mirae said without much thought and you snapped your eyes to her. She looked up, catching the way Jungkookâs smile dropped a fraction lower and shifted her gaze toward you. Your glare was enough to tell her she shouldnât have said anything.
âGuys? The oneâs from the movie? What are you doing? Going out?â He asked, attempting to sound indifferent. Itâs not like he can say anything. He doesnât know why it doesnât sit right with him but it didnât. He didnât even know the guy but he knew you thought he was cute. Jungkook knew you were talking to him at least a little and that you wore a dress for him tonight.
âTake this,â You offered Jungkook the drink, âAnd weâre going out for a little bit but I think itâll be a casual night.â
âSuper casual,â Mirae laughed nervously, looking around, âWhereâs the bathroom? Iâll be back.â
Before you could follow after her, he stood in front of you.
âSo who were you talking to? Have I met her?â You asked, clearing your throat awkwardly. It was an attempt to take some of the heat off of you because this was feeling like an odd interrogation. Anyone passing but might think itâs a loverâs quarrel but it wasnât.
âIâve barely met her,â Jungkook said, âItâs Sora⊠Sua⊠Sera? Something like that, I donât know. A friend of Yoongiâs I met the other night.â
âCool,â You looked back to find her talking with someone else now.
âWhat about the cute and nice guy youâve been going on about? Youâre seeing him again tonight?â Jungkook asked, taking a sip from the cup and leaning against the kitchen counter. He had a good view of you standing a couple feet away and he had to resist the urge to pull you closer.
âI have not been going on about him, thereâs nothing going on,â You told him with an exaggerated sigh, leaning into him absentmindedly and feeling his hand on your side keeping you steady, âI asked Mirae to come with but she had plans with them after and just asked me to tag along.â
âAlright, you donât have to explain it.â Jungkook said, sounding like he was brushing you off but not meaning to. Obviously he was happy you were here and talking to him but he didnât want to hear more. It was beginning to sound like you were explaining yourself to him. Making yourself sound better after he asked you about Namjoon. He doesnât even know why he asked you about that guy, he doesnât care.
âAlright, I wonât,â you crossed your arms over your chest looking away from him, âDonât ask me about anyone then.â
Jungkook had to bite the inside of his cheek to stop himself from responding. He didnât have anything to say because all he wanted was for you to tell him a little more about Namjoon. Why did he act like he didnât care when he did?
Without bothering to ask anything he was scared to know about, he turned away from you and looked back at the people he was standing with before. You walked off to find Mirae, a little annoyed with Jungkook for reasons you couldnât understand and needed to get away. Whatever, you almost kissed and considering he hasn't said anything about it itâs clearly not on his mind. If thatâs the case why does he act like he cares about who you talk to only to stop you when you explain yourself?
When he joined Yoongi and the others again he acted like he didnât care that you wandered off away from him. He didnât seem bothered when you left later that night without saying goodbye and didnât check his phone once for a text from you.
He canât explain why but he doesnât know how to feel about you. For so long now it feels like youâve just been a close friend to him. Youâre someone he calls when heâs bored and thinks of when he finds something funny. You get him like a friend, you donât expect much either. Youâre more like the guys heâs friends with, and youâre not like the girls whoâve tried to get with him. He doesnât know how to explain it but he likes having you around and the last thing he wants to do is complicate things by catching feelings.
Especially when he doesnât know how you feel and heâs too nervous to ask. Itâd be crossing the line. Youâd probably be grossed out if he expresses interest in you. Heâs seen how quick you are to stop being friends with a guy who approaches you like a friend but wants to be with you.
Heâs already done too much by almost kissing you.
âY/n, good to see you and donât you look pretty,â Namjoon said later that night, hugging you in greeting when you met up with him and Jisoo. The club youâd gone to after Taehyungâs was lovely and packed with people everywhere that it was hard to find him in the first place. He brought a surprising smile to your face but youâre not sure how to feel about him just yet.
âThank you, thank you, dressed up just for you,â You told him playfully, leaning against the bar when Jisoo asked for your drink order. Namjoon was attractive and charming but⊠thereâs something holding you back even if you flirted with him absentmindedly. Was there much weight to your actions? Did you actually care to get to know him better?
âI like it, howâs your night been?â Namjoon attempted small talk. It was what your conversations usually consisted of. Even the first night you met you only talked about the movie and when Jungkook texted you, you talked about your friends too.
Heâs told you a little about himself and youâve told about yourself but not enough. Your mind always seemed off somewhere else.
Time passed by without wondering about Jungkook, using Namjoon as a distraction but it didnât work for as long as you hoped. When your night had dulled and your friends dared to call it the end, Namjoon looked at you for an invitation to your apartment that you never gave him. You went your separate ways and left on your own.
It was past 3am and you shouldâve gone to bed, not gotten on your phone to find someone to talk to.
âHello?â
âAre you sleeping?â You asked, falling on your bed and sinking into the pillows.
âWas trying to, whatâs up?â Jungkook asked with a small yawn that had you debating if you should hang up and let him sleep instead.
âNevermind, youâre tired I shouldnât have called,â You began to say, looking around for your phone charger to connect it before you end the call.
He sat up in bed, checking the time and sighing, âBut you did, are you still out with your new friends?â
âJungkook!â You whined, rolling onto your stomach and staring up at your dimly lit ceiling.
âIâm kidding,â He laughed softly, voice a little raspy from being half-asleep but he couldnât help but press you again, âBut are you?â
âI just got home but Iâm not tired. Iâm bored.â You admitted.
âWhat should I do about that?â Jungkook smiled, imagining the way you roll your eyes.
âI donât knowâŠâ You bit your lip in thought. You really werenât tired but that didnât mean you had to drag Jungkook around.
âWant me to come over?â He finally asked.
âItâs late.â
âI think we both know that.â He rolled his eyes, already getting out of bed so he could throw some clothes on, âDo you?â
âWhat would we do?â You asked, leaving your bedroom so you could get the front door unlocked for him.
He put his phone on speaker as he slipped on a pair of sweats and threw a hoodie over his head, âI donât know, we both donât work tomorrow. Maybe watch a movie?â
âAt this hour?â You asked. You could hear Jungkook huff, sitting on the edge of his bed unsure what to do, âYou really want to come over?â
âMaybe, you did ditch me tonightââ Jungkook started, getting cut off by yet another whine.
âNo I didnât! You know what, come over so we can talk,â You told him.
âIâm already getting dressed, chill out.â
It took only around ten minutes for Jungkook to come around and he walked into your apartment with a shake of his head. You mustâve left it unlocked earlier and he didnât like that. What if someone broke in? He locked the door behind himself, kicking his shoes off by the heels you wore tonight. The only light he could find came from your bedroom and he didnât hesitate to let himself in.
âWhat have I told you about leaving your door unlocked?â His words were barely heard over your scream of terror as you walked out of the bathroom dressed in a t-shirt and pajama shorts.
Once the scare wore off you said, âRelax I left it open for you.â
âSure you did, I bet it was for your new friâow!â He groaned dramatically when you hit his arm playfully. He laughed at your annoyance and threw himself on the bed, âIâm kidding. Whatâd you go do anyway? Did your dress leave him swooning?â
âYouâre so annoying,â You sighed jumping down next to him, âJust say youâre jealous.â
âJealous?â A scoff left his lips.
âSounds like it,â You looked for your remote, âWhat do you wanna watch?â
âIâm not jealous. If you want to go hang out with another guy then do what you want,â Jungkook cleared his throat awkwardly, âWeâre just friends, anyway.â
You raised a brow in confusion and surprise by his tone with you, âAnd if I wanted to donât you think I would be doing that right now?
âI mean you did earlier when you left,â Jungkook said annoyingly.
âGo home if youâre going to argue with me,â You told him, rolling your eyes and crossing your arms over your chest with frustration.
âHell no, I drove over at this hour, Iâm sleeping here,â As if to make his point more clear, he made himself comfortable on your bed.
âNot if youâre going to act mean.â
âIâm not!â Jungkook scoffed, leaning up with your pillows, âIâll stop, whatever, fine. Donât kick me out, itâs so late. I drove all the way here for you.â
âItâs like a ten minute drive,â You groaned when he pulled on the end of your hoodie, âWhat?â
âThis is mine,â Jungkook looked at the gray apparel, âI donât remember giving it to you.â
âYou didnât, but you left it in my car,â You tried to pull back but it was no use. Jungkook wasnât letting you move away.
âSo? Doesnât mean itâs yours. I want it backââ
âIâll wash it,â You pulled your covers up to hide yourself underneath but there was no point. A smirk appeared on his face, âI want it now though.â
You didnât say anything as he pulled you closer, falling over him a little. His hand slid down your waist keeping you against him, too close to be appropriate for two friends.
âWhat are you gonna do? Take it off me?â You dared to ask, making yourself comfortable against his chest. Part of you knew you shouldnât be laying in bed like this with your friend.
âShould I?â He asked in a low whisper, fingers slipping up your back just under the hoodie where he could feel your bare skin. You didnât wear anything underneath and it made him want to explore more.
You didnât say anything or bother to push his hand away. You kind of liked his touch, it was gentle but his fingers were rough from all the time he spends at the gym. Your body lay on his, leg nearly hooked around his waist and looking down at him with curiosity.
Jungkook could make out small fragments of makeup you couldnât get all the way off. There was still a small outline of lip gloss and your lashes were dark and long. Your cheeks still had a hint of blush but even in this state you were pretty. He canât get the image of you in that dress earlier out of his mind.
You were oddly close to him and found yourself in the same predicament as last time. Your lips only centimeters apart from his and a need to close that space. Jungkook parted his lips in a breath, catching the way you looked at him and his hand had slowed down its caress until it was tracing a soft line against your spine.
He felt the shift of your upper body when you tried to lean up, almost closing the space but hesitant still.
You wanted to kiss him. He can tell and he wanted to kiss you just as bad. This time around there were no interruptions so what was stopping him from leaning into you too?
âHow much did you drink tonight?â Jungkook found himself asking before he could stop himself. It wasnât the right time to ask but he wanted to know if this was just something that happened when you were drunk or could it happen sober too?
âI donât know, I stopped drinking like a while before I got home,â You leaned back, brows furrowed together, âWhy? You drank tonight too?â
âI went home a little after you left,â he admitted. It was around midnight when you left Taehyungâs to go with Mirae and those guys. Heâd barely managed to survive at the party much long after that and called it an early night. Youâd been out longer than he had.
âOkayâŠâ You pushed off of him, feeling his arm loosen around you, âThat was kind of random.â
Jungkook knew he should have stayed quiet. He shouldâve just kissed you and see where things couldâve gone but he had to ruin it. He had to ask you something that was eating at him.
All heâs been able to think about lately is possibly kissing you and this time around he ruined it all on his own.
âY/n,â He poked your side to get your attention but you had your back to him, turned on your side and tuned him out.
You felt stupid for even attempting to kiss him. He pushed you away after what felt like him flirting with you and it was embarrassing. He just sees you as a friend so you have to stop doing this.
With a huff of frustration, he stretched himself out on his side of your bed and stared at the night landscape on your flatscreen. In a few short moments itâd go into sleep mode on its own and the room would go pitch black.
You mustâve been tired, worked up or even a little buzzed still but you fell asleep long before he did. Youâd been so tired you didnât notice when your cell phone fell onto the bed in the space between you and just as he felt himself close to sleep, the screen lit up the room.
Jungkook planned on ignoring it, not caring who mightâve texted but something in him told him to look. Plus, youâd be mad if you woke up in the morning and your phone wasnât charging. He picked it up, eyes squinting at the bright light and read the notification.
namjoon: did u make it home safe ????
Here he was sleeping in your bed while another guy texted you. How dumb is he?
You flirt with him but you donât want him, simple as that and he doesnât know if he could take it anymore. After some contemplation, he carefully got out of your bed and rounded to your side. He found your charger and connected your phone before he left your bedroom quietly and went home before you could wake up.
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Your office felt oddly cold that following Monday. You spent Sunday holed up in your bedroom trying to figure out what happened over the weekend and youâve somewhat come to terms with it when you texted Jungkook and he chose not to respond.
You werenât in the mood to work but there was nothing you could do about it. The clients you were supposed to meet with postponed the lunch meeting to later in the day so really, you could go home for a while but you also didnât want to. It would make you think about how you almost kissed Jungkook and how he pushed you away and left in the middle of the night like you were some one night stand or something.
âIâm not going out anymore,â You told Jimin as you walked into his office, âI make poor decisions when Iâm under the influence and Iâm done.â
âWhy? I thought you went out with Mirae,â Jimin said swiveling his chair out from under his desk top, âWhich by the way, fuck you both for no invite.â
âIt was last minute,â You told him, leaning against a shelf, âAnd I regret it.â
âWhy?â
âStop asking me questions, I canât explain it,â You whined, covering your ears dramatically which only made your friend roll his eyes.
âYou storm into my office complaining and Iâm not allowed to ask questions? What happened to a positive work environment?â Jimin asked with a scoff.
âItâs hard to explain, it was great when I was with Mirae and Namjoon and Jisoo butâŠâ You bit your lip nervously.
âBut what?â Jimin waited. He knew how your night went because Mirae filled him in on everything. He had known you went to Jungkookâs friendâs place to pregame and if it wasnât the group you were with that left you stressed it had to be Jungkook. You think youâre so secretive about the trials and tribulations of your ïżœïżœfriendshipâ with him.
âNothing,â you sighed out, checking your phone. Maybe you just needed to give it a few days for the embarrassment to go away and youâll be fine again.
Jimin looked at you expectantly, deciding to take a different route for his questions, âSo how was it with Namjoon? Mirae is all Heart Eyes for Jisoo.â
âHuh? Oh, no itâs nothing like that,â You told him honestly, âWe talked yesterday and I donât know, I think itâs obvious weâre good as friends right now.â
âSo no feelings at all?â Jimin asked, watching you shake your head, so he kept pushing, âReally? Have you actually thought about it though? I thought heâd be someone whoâs your type or something.â
You stayed quiet, not bothering to hear him out as you let your mind run rampant. Namjoon is attractive but heâs just a friend and he knows that. If you were not emotionally available you might have given him a better chance but right now you know you feel something for Jungkook. Itâs stupid considering he clearly doesnât want you but it would be unfair to Namjoon if you used him to get over the other.
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It took over a week for Jungkook to get the courage to talk about you. He wanted you, he wanted you so bad but there was something holding him back. Heâs mad that youâre possibly interested in someone else and heâs pissed that he ruined your chance at kissing. Heâs annoyed with himself for many reasons and the only thing he thought to do was distance himself from you.
Thereâs no point in asking to hang out all the time if youâve got someone youâre interested in, you'd probably rather spend time with.
Throughout the week he found himself joining his other friends and whatever they did instead of seeking you out like usual. If they thought it strange no one had the nerve to question it. It was obvious there was something going on between you and considering Jungkookâs been on edge nobody wanted to push him to know more.
On Tuesday he met up with Yoongi for dinner and surprisingly enough some other people showed upâSera (the girl from the party) being one of them. She talked to him the most like last time and it was clear she was very interested in him. He was flattered but that was it. He was too stuck on you even when you werenât talking.
By the time the weekend rolled back around, Jungkook let himself be dragged to another night out. Yoongi and some of his other friends got him out for a couple drinks at a few bars. He didnât mind it, but it was weird when Sera and others showed up. It felt oddly like a set-up and he wasnât sure what to make of it.
âSo you donât think sheâs hot?â Hoseok asked as he waited at the bar with Jungkook for the round of drinks heâd just ordered. Jungkook looked back at the group finding Sera looking at him but he just looked away.
âSheâs⊠sheâs alright,â Jungkook shrugged his shoulders, âI donât know, not really my type though.â
âWhy? Because sheâs not Y/n?â Hoseok asked with a scoff that made Jungkook roll his eyes. Out of everyone Hoseok was always the main one to point out his relationship with you. It all started when Hoseok made a comment months ago about how he thought you were hot and Jungkook was a little too quick to shut it down. It was weird for him to think of two of his friends going out or talking and Hoseok took that as a sign that Jungkook wanted you⊠which wasnât true.
Anyway, the point is, Hoseok always brings you up around him and tonight was no different.
âWhere is she anyway? I feel like I havenât seen her around in a while,â Taehyung said, appearing out of nowhere holding a drink of his own.
âYou saw her last weekend,â Jungkook told him.
âYeah, but I havenât seen her with you,â Taehyung clarified but Jungkook didnât seem to care anymore. Hoseok nudged Jungkook and with a drink, âLetâs go talk with Sera and maybe you can introduce me to her friend.â
Taehyung let the other two leave and without thinking he grabbed his cell phone and dialed your number.
You were hanging out at Jiminâs place after finishing some work with him and Mirae when Taehyung called, âHello.â
âHey Y/n, where are you? What are you doing?â Taehyung asked looking back at Jungkook who looked tortured to be sandwiched between Sera and Hoseok.
âAt a friendâs place, whatâs up?â You asked looking between your friends who looked back at you with curiosity.
âCome to JJâs Bar, weâre all here,â Taehyung kept it simple. In all honesty, he genuinely likes having you around. Youâre funny and like Jungkook in a way. When Jungkook brought you around it was surprisingly easy to befriend you and youâre someone he likes seeing. He thinks you and Jungkook should get together some dayâif you havenât already. He doesnât understand why it hasnât happened yet when you both clearly want to and okay, he mightâve cut in on that first night but he swears he was drunk. He didnât mean to and since then youâve been distant from each other.
Heâs been trying to invite you since Jungkook wants to be too stubborn to admit he wants you around.
âWhoâs we? Yoongi? Jungkook?â You asked, beginning to gnaw on your bottom lip, âLet me think about it.â
When you hung up, Jimin was the first to speak, âI can drive you.â
âI donât know⊠I havenât really been talking to Jungkook this weekend,â You admitted to making Mirae roll her eyes.
âWe know, but itâs obvious you want to. Youâve been depressed all week,â She said, trying to convince you to be honest about your feelings. Neither one of you wants to admit whatâs going on between you so you just keep going around it. Youâve been off for a couple weeks now and everyone can see it but you two.
At the bar Jungkook was bored. He wasnât in the mood to drink or be out with everyone but he dragged himself along because he had nothing better to do. He wasnât going to stay home staring at his phone or getting FOMO because he missed his friends. He doesnât want to be here but he doesnât want to be home.
Frankly, Jungkook knows where and with who he wants to be but heâs too stupid to pick up his phone and call you.
âJungkook, be honest, are you seeing anyone?â Sera finally asked as she noticed him stare at his phone screen. The bar was dark with colorful lights here and there, packed with people and he was more interested on his phone. Sheâs done everything she can to get him to notice her but it feels like she keeps falling shorts. He talks to her, close to flirting but never all the way, yet she canât tell how he feels. Well, no, she can tell heâs thinking about something else but everyone tells her heâs single. She remembers seeing you at Taehyungâs last weekend, it was the most interested he looked in anything but the two of arenât⊠dating [?] so what was his deal?
âWhat?â He turned with surprise written on his face. Sera was blunt and it caught him off guard.
âWell, I think youâre hot and I want to get to know you but I donât know where your head is at,â Sera said loudly over the music. He was flattered butâŠ
âYou actually came!â Taehyung greeted you warmly, wrapping his arms around you in a tight hug as you found him and the others. You hugged him back and looked at everyone, not remembering him mentioning any of the other women hereâor the one Jungkook was talking to.
âY/n,â Yoongi said hello, âDo you want a drink?â
âUmâŠâ
âI uh,â Jungkook blinked in disbelief as he looked at you just a few feet away from him. He didnât know youâd be here, how? âItâs complicated.â
He tried to sit there and focus on Sera but it was hard. He didnât want to just ditch the girl out of the blue but you havenât spared him a single glance. Itâs like youâre here for his friends but not for him and he didnât like that. Youâre supposed to be his friend not theirs.
You stood back, nervous to greet him. You barely know the girl but what if itâs someone heâs interested in? What if youâre just supposed to be someone he calls when heâs bored and flirts with when no oneâs around? What if youâve read too much into it and let your feelings get involved? You debated approaching him or not especially considering how he left you alone in bed after pushing you away from a kiss. Was it a mistake coming here? Whatâd you even hope could happen?
âJungkook,â You waved, hoping you didnât sound too nervous or bothered while also not sounding too enthusiastic in case that was a girl he was after. You just needed to sound friendly. Thatâs it.
Sera looked between you with peaked curiosity. Sheâd notice his attention had left her a while ago but now she sees why. Jungkook didnât bother looking back at her as he stood up, making his way over to where you stood.
âYou didnât tell me you were coming,â He said shifting his eyes around, âWho invited you?â
âI canât hang around your friends anymore?â You asked bluntly, âWhat do you mean who invited me?â
âI just⊠I didnât knoâshould we get a drink?â His voice shook with anxiety as his hand slipped down your back to lead you to the bar. He wasnât doing anything wrong talking to Sera but for some reason he didnât want the two of you around each otherâespecially after she just told him she was interested.
âIâll probably leave, I donât want to be somewhere Iâm not wanted,â You said bitterly, trying to step away from him but he didnât let you get far from his arms.
âI want you here, of course I do. I just wanted to know who texted you,â Jungkook told you looking at his friends and the only one that was smiling, âTaehyung?â
âYeah, he asked me to come but if itâs going to be a problem Iâll just leave,â You kept saying.
âWhy would it be a problem? Iâve been meaning to text you butâyknow, um,â Jungkook cleared his throat awkwardly, leading you away from the group. Itâs not that he didnât want you around them but he was only comfortable with you right now. He didnât need everyone hearing him.
âAlright, you donât have to explain it,â You brushed him off, turning to the bar and debating if you wanted a drink or not. You werenât in the mood to but now that youâve seen Jungkook with another girl, you might.
âKook, Y/n, want a shot?â Taehyung asked, trying to get you both to go back with everyone.
âIâm driving,â Jungkook said. He had a small sip earlier but heâs not here to drink all night then get stuck Ubering--especially not now that youâre here. What if you go home with him [he means take you home].
âY/n?â He turned to you only and you contemplated. Jungkook bit his lip in thought, tempted to say no on your behalf but he wanted to know what youâd do. Taehyung invited you tonight and last weekend too, why? Heâs happy youâre here but why is Taehyung the one making a move?
âIâm good, Iâll get something else,â You lied, turning away from the group. Part of you wanted to leave then and there but Jimin dropped you off and youâd need to call him back.
Jungkook didnât hesitate to follow you to the bar but you didnât try and order anything. He even asked if you wanted something but you didnât, âJungkook just be honest, should I leave? I know you said you want me here but I donât know⊠if you wanna hang out with your friends or, yknow, other girls I donât want them to get the wrong idea. I just came because I wanted to talk but⊠I donât know.â
âIs it because of Sera? Y/n, I donât like her or anything. I want you here, Iâm sorry for not inviting you,â Jungkook tried to reassure you but you werenât really listening.
âThis isnât about her, itâs you. Youâre the one being confusing, Kook,â You admitted.
âMe?â He looked genuinely taken back, âHow?â
You scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest as a shield between you knowing heâd try and pull you closer like he usually did. You werenât the type to argue with someone in public but you were a little annoyed.
âAre we friends? Because if we are donât try and kiss me then ignore me for days and go out with someone elseââ
âAre you serious right now?â He asked, âThatâs what youâre mad about? Youâve been doing that to me for the past few weeks with your friend Namjoon.â
âWhat? Thatâs not true, Iâve told you every time I was gonna hang out with him. You only call me when you think Iâm with someone else,â You told him bitterly.
âYou donât honestly believe that. I call you more than you bother reaching out to me. You only call me when you need a ride or youâre drunk and bored,â Jungkook said, standing a foot away from you so you could hear him better, âYou flirt with me and I think thereâs something there but then you brush me off or go with someone else. Iâve been trying to make things more clear but you make it so hard.â
âI make it hard?â Your jaw nearly dropped, âAlright this is stupid. I donât want to talk about it anymore.â
He knows what youâre doing and he doesnât want to play along. Any time the two of you talk about something a little too complicated you start to backtrack in order to avoid it. No, if you wanted him to be honest you had to let him. After the first night you almost kissed, you didnât message him for a couple days. Heâs the one who reach out to you. This time around heâs the one that left because Namjoon was on your phone and he didnât know what to make of it. He shouldâve asked if anything was serious between the two of you but he was too cowardly to do it and left instead. Maybe you were mad he didnât reach out but why didnât you try? Yes, you came here hopefully looking for him but the second you see him talking to someone else and confront him about it suddenly youâre shutting down?
Whoâs leading who on?
Yoongi saw most of your interaction from across the bar. You werenât full on arguing but itâs obvious the two of you had things you wanted to say but didnât know how. After a while he didnât want to just sit back and ignore it. He at least wanted to know if you were both alright.
When he made his way over he tried asking you again if you wanted a drink or if Jungkook wanted to join him outside. You took that as a sign to make an escape for a moment and rushed to say, âIâm going to the restroom.â
Jungkook was stuck between following and waiting for you or going with Yoongi but his hand trembled with nerves and he needed fresh air. His friend offered him a smoke and he took it reluctantly knowing youâd hate the smell of it on him. Even when heâs sort of upset with you he canât make himself do something you donât like.
âWhat are you guys fighting about?â Yoongi asked taking the cigarette Jungkook rejected and lit one for himself.
âItâs stupid,â Jungkook mumbled under his breath.
âClearly not when you look worked up,â Yoongi said, âTell me.â
âThereâs been a couple times that we almost kissed and I thought she was talking to someone else but now sheâs acting upset with me and I donât know why. Iâm not doing anything, the other night we almost kissed again but I couldnât bring myself to do it and then the guy texts her. I didnât know Taehyung asked her to come and now she thinks I donât want her here and probably thinks Iâm into Sera but Iâm not,â Jungkook began to let it all out, hands running through his hair nervously.
Yoongi couldnât hide the look of surprise on his face over the fact that you guys had never kissed before. It was sort of a running joke between all of them that youâre both secretly hooking up but it appears not to be the case. You both had been good friends until then and all the bottled up emotions are finally begging to be let out. It made him chuckle over how dumb it was.
âDid you bother to ask her about him? Actually ask and not make assumptions like you always do?â Yoongi asked, âBecause honestly, I think youâre both into each other and donât know what to do about it.â
âYou donât get it hyung, I canât just ask Y/n thatâŠâ Jungkook groaned with frustration, âIâm being so pathetic, arenât I?â
âA little. You pay for a parking spot specifically for Y/n and sheâs not even your girlfriend. You want her to be so just talk it out.â
âIâm gonna talk to her,â Jungkook bit his lip, watching Yoongi finish up and ask him if we was ready to go back in. When he did, you were standing there talking to Sera and he wasnât sure what it could be about.
Honestly, it was nothing to worry about. She saw you looking clueless after your restroom break and introduced herself as one of Yoongiâs friends. Although you wanted to ask her about Jungkook she didnât even bring him up. When he went up to you both but placed a dominant hand around your waist.
It answered what Sera already knew, that he was claimed for even if neither of you said it. His heart was with you.
âAre you mad at me?â He asked suddenly, âFor the other night?â
âNo, Iâm confused,â You let him turn you in his arms so that you faced him, âI thought you wanted to kiss but then you stop it and when I wake up youâre gone. Itâs fine if you just want to be friends but donât lead me on like that.â
For a moment he wasnât sure what to say. He didnât think youâd say it so bluntly but you did. Youâve been thinking about those Almost Kisses youâve shared just as much as he has. He just didnât expect you to be thinking he was leading you on. He thought you were leading him on.
âIâm not⊠Can we go and talk somewhere?â He asked, trying to take your hand in his but you rejected his advance. Once again you probably looked like a couple arguing and it was so stupid.
âI just wanna go,â You told him and to keep you from leaving he pushed his keys into your hands.
âLetâs go then,â He said. You looked at him with a small smile, feeling somewhat upset with him but also unsure what to do. Part of you wanted to leave on your own but you also wanted to hear him out.
You pushed them back into his hand with a sigh, âNo, youâre here with your friends, I shouldnât have even bothered.â
âY/n, I donât care I wanna leave with you, letâs go,â He turned to his friends, not bothering to get closer as he began to wave, âIâm gonna call it a night guys, Y/nâs taking me home.â
âKook,â You couldnât help but whine. He just smiled, leading you out the club and you learned he wasnât kidding. He really was making you take him home in his own car, hoping itâd keep you from parting ways with him tonight.
âI didnât know it seemed like I was leading you on,â Jungkook said, almost sounding bitter at the thought of it. He slumped back in the passengerâs seat staring out at the dark city lights trying to process what you time him not too long ago.
You didnât say anything and that made him turn to you, âYouâre the one thatâd ditch me for that Namjoon guy.â
âI didnât ditch you, every single time you asked me about him and I tried telling you how it was, youâd stop me,â You reminded him, thinking back to every time heâd bring up someone else and ignore every time you told him it wasnât anything serious, âAnd how was I not supposed to think you were leading me on? One second you act like you want to kiss and the next youâre pushing me away.â
âIâm not saying youâre wrong about how I acted but it was because I was jealous. You knew I was jealous I just kept acting like I wasnât and look at where we are now. Youâre mad at me,â Jungkook shook his head, âAnd I want to kiss you. I think about kissing you all the time and that nightâthose nights⊠I regret not doing it but sometimes I canât read you.â
âI never know where your headâs at. One second youâre in my arms and I think thereâs something between us but then you⊠I donât know, I feel like you know Iâll always be around,â He admitted, looking out his window to avoid your sudden stare.
The rest of the ride was silent and though Jungkook could tell there was a lot on your mind you werenât saying any of it. He feels more assured now knowing that you felt the same way he did but itâs like going in circles talking about this. He just wants to get you in his arms and act like you both havenât made it more complicated than it needs to be.
When you parked his car in the lot of his apartment, you turned the engine off and turned to face him, confused on what to do now. Do you sleep over or get yourself a ride home? Jungkook had pushed his seat back to get more comfortable but now it felt like you were farther from him than he liked. You looked back to find him already staring at you. His eyes fell to the way you nervously licked your lips and he couldnât take it anymore.
The sound of his belt unbuckling caught you off guard you almost missed how he leant forward so suddenly you nearly pulled back. His lips collided with yours with such need that you met with equal eagerness. He slipped his hand down your hair toward your neckline keeping you from pulling back. Jungkook doesnât know how to describe the kiss.
It was good, better than he imagined but was it the kiss or just you? Was it the fact that was finally getting a taste of you? You leaned forward, bumping into the middle console to kiss him a little harder, tongues meeting in a wet, tender way that had you gasping lightly. If this was what was on your mind for so long, you now knew why. Kissing him felt good, felt different and you didnât want to stop.
âInside,â He tried to say between kisses but he found it hard to pull away. The word just came out in an airy whisper, struggling to find sound.
He pulled back with a small groan, hand in your hair and forehead pressed against yours as he tried to catch his breath, âLetâs go inside, please?â
Your small nod was enough for him to storm out of the car, rounding to your side and helping you out of the car, leading you up. Up the stairs he stopped every now and then to plant a small kiss on your shoulder or neck, arms around your waist.
âDonât like when youâre mad at me,â Jungkook said, unlocking his door and taking you in, âAnd I was jealous about Namjoon, so stupidly jealous because he texted you and I saw it on your phone anââ
âThereâs nothing going on between us,â You assured him, âAnd I was never mad at you. I thought you didnât want meââ
âCrazy, youâre crazy to think that,â Jungkook cupped your face in his hands, âYouâre the only one I want and Iâm sorry I didnât make it more clear.â
You smiled, arms around his neck as he hoisted you up so he could kiss you better and walk toward his living room, âMe too.â
He carried you to the couch, taking a seat and pulling you onto his lap with ease. You didnât hesitate to make yourself comfortable, leaning down to kiss him as his hands moved up your waist. He let you take the lead for a little bit, head tilted to the side when you kissed near his ear making a small smile appear on his face. His ears were sensitive and everyone knew that. Whenever you tried whispering something in his ear, heâd practically have to shove you away or itâd make goosebumps form on his skin. Now youâre kissing up his ear lobe and he was sinking into the couch pulling you with him.
A light frown left his lips when he felt you nip at his lobe with your teeth and his head fell forward, nearly bumping your shoulder making him tug on your neckline to kiss your exposed collarbone. You lifted his chin with a light finger touch and met him with a kiss. His hands slipped under your top, feeling along your smile like heâs done before. He likes to feel how warm you are under his fingertips, like to feel your natural curves. You liked the way his rough hands felt against your sides when he ran his hands up, nearly touching your chest before tracing them back down.
Jungkook couldnât hide his growing erection when you pressed down against his lap. It didnât help that you were licking along his bottom lip tugging on it with your teeth until you were tongue kissing. He sat straighter, hands itching to rip your top off. Heâs seen you in sultry outfits that made his head turn everytime and heâs interested to see what was under.
âKook,â You sighed softly, pulling away from the sloppy kiss to catch your breath. Your lips felt number and swollen and his did too. He was so damn kissable and you canât believe you havenât done this yet. What were you so worried about all this time? He looked at you with these spark in his eyes and lip between his teeth, hands around your waist and bulge pressed against you. You looked down at his lap, shifting back a little before grinding forward again. A deep groan caught in his throat when you did it and he looked at you hopefully.
âYouâre so hot,â Your hands ran along his lean shoulders down toward the bottom of his shirts and helped you yank it off of him without a second thought. Youâve seen him shirtless countless of times, in person and on the phone. Youâve felt his body when heâs rolled over in his sleep to cuddle and it doesnât ever leave your mind how attractive your friend is. You remember when he first started getting his tattoos done and when he first started boxing. He got so much stronger and his tattoos just got so much hotter.
You leaned forward, kissing softly against his neck, hands feeling up his abs and hip bucking into him. His hands guided your hips against him, hard dick feeling constricted in his jeans and when you kissed near his pecs he released a light moan.
âStop, youâre going to drive me insane if you donât,â He groaned, hands pulling on your top.
âYou want me stop?â You asked, grinding down on him. You were starting to feel needy and aroused. If he wanted you to stop, maybe you should before you take it too far.
âNo,â Jungkook finally yanked your top off you, catching your lips with his, tongue searching the inside of your mouth, âDonât want you to.â
His hands wandered south, inching up the small fitted skirt you wore tonight. Last time he saw you in something revealing was when youâd gone off to see Namjoon wearing a dress. He remembered eyeing you closely wishing you werenât leaving and wondering if youâd dressed up for someone else. Now youâre grinding down on him with your skirt bunch around your hips, bucking into him with a thin pair of panties on and it drove him insane. His jeans were in the way of letting him feel your head against him and he couldnât take it. A small squeal left your lips when he swiftly turned you to lie on the couch, trapped underneath him with your legs around his waist.
Jungkook kept his hardened dick in his pants, pressed between your spread legs as he kissed down your neck, leaving love bites behind while his hands began to trace your sides. You breathed heavily in anticipation when he tugged your bra down exposing your breasts over the cups and he didnât hesitate to keep going. His touch was eager as he licked between them, cupping your right boob with his hand while kissing the other. He sucked your hardened nipple into his, humping his erection against your clit. You released a small moan when he ran his tongue around your bud, lost in himself Jungkook groaned when you pulled on his hair softly.
You snuck a hand between your bodies and reached for his belt. The jeans felt rough against your wet panties but it also felt good to have something to bump into. In all honesty, you liked grinding against him but you need more.
Now.
Jungkook lifted his body up slightly, not bothering to break away from worshiping you in kisses and helped you unbuckle his belt.
âYou want it?â Jungkook asked in a husky whisper, throat sore and lust in his eyes. You nodded your head watching him sit back on his haunches, using his skilled fingers to undo it the rest of the way and tug the zipper down. He kicked them off without much or a care for the things on his coffee table and with his other hand, he held your hips, âSay it.â
A soft whine left your lips as you got the hint and turned onto your stomach, your head so close to the armrest of the couch and knees digging into the cushion below you. Youâve been in this living room a hundred times but never thought youâd be in this position. He pulled your panties down with ease, not bothering with the skirt as he pulled it up so it was around your waist and gave him a perfect view of what you looked like bent over. He couldnât help but place a hand on the round of your ass, fingers digging into the soft flesh with his bottom lip pulled between his teeth.
Jungkook was pathetically desperate for you and couldnât find it in himself to pull away enough to pull his briefs all the way down. Instead, he lowered them enough for his hard cock to spring free. You hadnât said anything yet, seemingly stuck in a lust filled daze, arms using the side of the couch for support. He could see the slick lining your pretty cunt and he needed to be closer. He lined his member up with your files, grinding against you and feeling your wetness coat his member in arousal.
You released a moan, arching your back into the couch and ass back on him, âI want it.â
His cock twitched with need when you said it in your usual whiny tone. The tone you use when you call him late at night because youâre bored or annoyed with him. Jungkook nodded his head even though you couldnât see him, he used a hand on your hips and the other in his length to catch the small hook of your entrance. You were so unbelievably wet that his dick was covered, it made guiding the tip of his cock against your wet pussy better.
âYouâre so wet, baby, fuck,â Jungkook groaned, palming your ass as you waited so prettily for him to just fuck you already.
He can tell you were getting impatient by the way you shook your hips side to side and he couldnât help but smile. Feeling warmth burst through his chest he leant over your body, resting his arm next to yours and kissed your neck. Without another word, he pressed his face against your hair and thrusted forward. With just the first thrust, you felt the stretch of your walls around his girth. It hurt for only a few seconds as you took him in and you lifted your head, stopped by how Jungkook hugged you from behind.
âOh,â You gasped turning your head to look at him and he caught your open lips with a tongue kiss that made you relax against him. It took him a moment before he pushed the rest of his length into your tight pussy with a grunt.
Once he felt you relax, he tried to sit back, thrusting into you with care trying to adjust. You pushed back against his length, meeting his thrusts until you caught a steady rhythm and Jungkookâs fingers dug into your hips, watching the way you looked as he fucked you from behind in his living room. You felt so good to him. Your walls tightened around him deliciously making his head tip back losing himself to the feeling. âRight there.â
At this angle with your back down and ass up, his dick felt your innermost walls clench, he felt the curve of your pelvis and your butt felt soft.
âFuck,â your head fell against the arm rest trying to keep up with your pace but he was bigger than you ever couldâve thought of. Youâve felt a hint of it before but to have him inside you making your body shiver with need it was hard to focus on your movements. Jungkook could feel you slow down as you felt the pleasure build up inside you. It brought him back to attention and with more assertive energy, he placed a hand on your ass and the other on your lower back, making sure you stayed in position so he could fuck you.
Your jaw dropped when his strokes changed making him reach deeper inside you. This position always made you feel dirty in a good way and left you a moaning mess, letting him slam his hips into you. Swear beaded his forehead, fucking you chasing his and your pleasure.
âSo good, so fucking good,â He groaned, arm circling around your waist and lowering more of his hips into you. The tip of his cock hit that good spot deep inside that made you want to clench your eyes shut.
âKoo,â You tried to get out more of his name but it was harder to hold yourself together, fucking back onto his dick with eagerness, needy whimpers leaving your lips. You pushed against the armrest trying to stand up a little, itching to be closer to him.
You didnât even need to tell him anything, he pulled your back against his chest until your were nearly sitting back on his dick, grinding against him, taking every inch he gave you. He placed a hand on your navel, keeping you flush to his body, dropping needy kisses on your neck knowing itâd leave love bites in their wake.
Your orgasm began to build up inside you, so close to popping and it made you a little more pliant to take whatever he gave you. You fucked yourself back onto him while his other hand groped your tits, listening to his whispers of need in your ear telling you how good youâre taking it.
âJust like that, cum for me,â Jungkook said with a deep rasp to his usual delicate tone. Itâs like he wanted to walk you through it and fuck, it was working.
The moment your cunt clamped down around his dick leaving him to hiss through gritted teeth, he knew you were going to cum. He let you fuck yourself to release, whining in his arms and legs shaking as he held you up.
He slowed his hips, keeping himself to the hilt inside you feeling the way your orgasm made your body tremble for him. Your pussy was dripping around his length and he was tracing soothing lines against your spine as you fell back to the couch trying to catch your breath, âGood girl.â
His words had a clear effect on you still as your pussy twitched, making him smile. He never took you as the type to like pet names but he knew you liked to be praised. Well, he knew you hated being scolded but usually you listened to him when he did. Now he knows praising you feels a lot better.
Jungkook sucked in a tight breath as he began to pull out his aching member, worried youâd be feel uncomfortable right now. The need to cum was so heavily set into his body but he wasnât stupid. He knew he wasnât wearing any protection and though thereâs a chance youâre taking anything, he wasnât going to risk losing himself inside you. A little whine left your lips as he slipped out and you couldnât help but look back at him with furrowed brows.
âYou good?â He asked with concern, caressing your side lovingly. You didnât say anything, turning to sit up and wrap your arms around him. He groaned when you rubbed against his cock on accident and you looked down at it immediately.
He caught your stare and smiled, âCan we finish this somewhere else? The couch is a little too smallâŠâ
You laughed, âThereâs more?â
You were teasing him and you both knew it which only made him roll his eyes playfully. With a swift move, he lifted you up, carrying you to the bathroom catching you by surprise, âYou didnât think we were done yet did you? What about me?â
âź
A MONTH LATER
âYou guys are so bad at hiding it,â Mirae said as she sat in the packed booth of your friends, all watching you hold hands under the table. You looked at her with feigned innocence, shoving Junhkookâs hand off your thigh.
âHiding what?â You asked, looking at everyone around. Taehyung sat on one end, Yoongi next to him, Jimin there and Mirae too. They all looked equally unimpressed but your act but it was somewhat funny.
Jungkook tried to hide a grin but he was so bad at it. He smiled at you warmly, âTold you.â
âItâs your fault, I bet we couldâve hid it a little longer if you didnât smile,â You tried to say but even you didnât believe yourself. Jungkook didnât even bother to look guilty as he broke out in a laugh. Yoongi chuckled, looking at the way Jungkookâs cheeks flushed red when you looked at him a little too long.
âI knew the second Y/n stopped coming to work all moody because she wasnât talking to Jungkook,â Jimin pointed out and Mirae agreed quickly.
Hoseok sighed, âI knew when Jungkook stopped giving me killer workouts at the gym. I almost broke my shoulder.â
âWhoa, Iâm a great personal trainer,â Jungkook put a hand to his chest, âDonât come at my profession.â
âIâm not, Iâm pointing out the fact that you were always moodier when you didnât see Y/n,â Hoseok argued.
Jungkook couldnât even deny it so he didnât try. Instead he place his hand back down on your thigh and leaned into you to share the dinner menu, âAre you gonna try something new? Youâre picky.â
âI might want to expand my horizons,â You looked over everything with a concentrated expression.
He raised an amused brow at you, surprised when the server came around and you actually did try something new. He let the others go before him and when it came to being his turn, he ordered your usual.
âAre you switching it up too?â The server asked, all too familiar with the two of you and your eating preferences.
âItâs in case she doesnât like it,â He admitted with a sly wink in your direction. You hit his arm playfully and turned toward your friends who glared at you grossly.
âIâm losing my appetite,â Jimin teased, looking at Mirae as she texted away on her phone, âYou?â
âKinda, I donât know, Jisoo just asked what Iâm doing,â Mirae said.
Jungkook looked up with slight interest. He tried not to be the jealous type but⊠Jisoo is friends with Namjoon. Heâs met the guy now and heâs not that bad but heâs also way taller than him with a bulkier physique.
âWhat is he doing? Tell him and his friends join us,â Jungkook said suddenly making her furrow her brows at him.
âHe wants to see Namjoon again, I think heâs got a little crush on him,â You told her, making him shrug.
âThe guy is built,â he said, âI just wanna know what pre-workout he takes.â
âAnd to think you spent all this time not liking him because you didnât like Y/n talking to him,â Taehyung said, feeling the need to bring up the awkward part. You glared at him but he only smiled mischievously.
âHey, letâs move on from that,â You said leaning against Jungkook who pulled you closer, âWeâre all just friends.â
âExcept you two, so can you just say youâre dating already and we can go on with the usual?â Yoongi asked impatiently.
âI thought you said we were bad at hiding it,â your boyfriend sat up, pulling you into his arms giving you a tight hug and looked at his friends, âBut fine, this is my best friend and girlfriend.â
âWhoa, I thought I was your best friend now. Y/n canât have both titles,â Taehyung scoffed, sitting up, âI practically brought you two together. I mean yeah I was fucked up that first night but once I caught on I was the one always inviting Y/n over.â
âIâm the one who told Jungkook to get his head out of the gutters and talk to Y/n,â Yoongi said with a raised finger to state a point.
âNot to join in on the fight but⊠I also tried getting Y/n to talk about Jungkook and drove her to JJâs the other night,â Jimin leaned forward to say and suddenly they were all arguing over who brought the two of you together.
It was stupid but friendly and it made you laugh with amusement.
âIâm not the jealous type, right?â Jungkook asked you as he thought about what Taehyung said earlier instead of their current banter, âI didnât care that you talked to Namjoon⊠I just, y'know I didnât want you to like him, thereâs a difference.â
His face looked confused in a surprisingly cute way for your motorcycle riding, tattoo covered boyfriend and it made you smile. âOf course youâre not the jealous type.â
Jungkook smiled back warmly, leaning into you for a quick kiss.
When your food arrived you regretted ordering it just like he knew you would and he switched you plates like he knew he would. Aside from the obvious displays of affection nothing else changed for the two of you. Or at least you donât think it did.
He still came over whenever he felt like it and you bothered him at any hour of the day. When he wasnât sleeping in your bed trying to keep you from going to work he was checking his phone for a text from you throughout the day.
Youâre not sure if itâs because he was your friend first but your relationship with Jungkook was a perfect mix of love and affection with ease and playfulness.
Your best friend was the one for you and heâd been right in front of you the whole time.
::.
NO PART TWO
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honestly I kinda liked this friendly little vibe. I wanted more angst but idkkk. they kinda gave toxic but not like super hide red flag toxic. theyâre in their twenties yall đ
Iâm preparing for this angsty yandere fic for Taehyung so I wanted to something a little softer, slice of life vibe
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my angel baby
(alastor w/ angel daughter reader)
[caution!!: EPISODE 8 & 6 SPOILERS. NOT PROOFREAD]
(notes: alastor joins charlie and vaggie in heaven to convince them about the hazbin hotel. angel reader physically resembles a fawn. )
(right now this is considered a oneshot, unless there is a very high demand for a part 2 I'll happily make another one for funzies!)
(PART 2 IS OUT!!!)
(also apologies if alastor's last name isnt actually altruist LMAo I kinda just wrote it assuming so đ )
You made it to heaven, lucky you.
Heaven was surely a treat, you lived your days with the upmost happiness, the light of heaven shining on your skin with kisses as if praising you for your goodness and your sacrifices,
all your sacrifices.
You were currently taking the job over for St. Peter at the gates of heaven for just a few minutes to await for any wondering souls to appear, to help guide them while he came back from a lunch break. Normally they wouldn't allow a human soul like yourself with little experience in this kind of task to take charge of such an important job, but you were close to many of the high ranking angels and you have proved your proficiency in tasks that you set your mind to, so you were glad to help those in need.
You stood there reading through the millions of pages looking over all kinds of names, all seemed like names that you wouldn't normally hear back in your time when you died. Some you liked, others didn't exactly pique your interest much, but the advancement of names since the 1930s surely proved how much times have changed and how quickly time seems to pass in heaven.
You wonder if it is in hell too.
'Hell?..' you wondered as you shook your head and sighed, your mind has been on that place lately and you wondered if it was even worth the rent free space in your mind.
You were currently slouched over the book and decided to close it with a glum look on your face, your elbows now resting on the golden podium and your hands cupping your face.
Geez, and you've been thinking a lot about your old man.
What-- no wait-
You shouldn't call him your old man, let alone your dad, not even father, pops-- not even by his damn name.
Even so, as much as you hated it.. you couldn't help but still use his last name sometimes since it's what you were given when you were first taken in.
Your last name?.. why, you're forgetting already?
_____ Altruist is who you a---
"HELLO??"
You snapped out of your thoughts as your head slipped from under your palms, face planting onto the cover of the enormous book. In embarrassment you snapped your head back up and your wings followed suit, spreading open behind you in shock as your eyes searched for the voice that called out to you from below.
You finally darted down to see three oddly shaped figures, your panicked vision soon relaxing to see two girls and a man dressed in red from tip to toe.
How peculiar.
Your eyes only set on the girl at the moment since she was the one waving at you and basically begging for your attention.
"Hello hello! uh.. Down here!" The girl with long locks of pale yellow hair waved, her smile widening when seeing she's caught your attention.
"Ah- yes yes! Hello hello! Welcome to Heaven! May I.. uh-" you scrambled nervously to open the book in the middle of it, "May I have your name please?"
She nodded, also returning a bit of a shy attitude back "Yes of course! My names Charlie Morningstar!"
Just like that you flicked the pages to go to the names that sounded similar to the girl's, mumbling her name under your breath as your finger traced down each name on the list.. to your dismay you couldn't find it.
"You don't seem to be on the list ma'am.. how weird.. does this usually happen with St. Peter?.." you spoke in concern, mumbling the last part to yourself.
The girl then started to explain something about her dad getting her a meeting, your mind a little clouded still trying to find her name until you heard the forbidden name that no one inside the pearly gates ever attempted to say out loud.
"-- maybe try, Lucifer.. Morning...star-"
And just like that you slammed the book closed, no words coming out of your mouth but an exasperated look of shock freezing your face.
"Oh-hoho... that explains so much--" you gave her a small sheepish smile, awkwardly looking off to the side where your eyes couldn't help but drag themselves to the man dressed in red.
"Miss you don't think.. you could've..." your eyes at first looked at the man's waist, his coat lightly shredded at the ends and the stripes of the long suit guided your eyes upwards "-gotten..." up and up and your eyes met his. The red eyes, the ears, the small horns, the horrific aura, and..
Oh dear, you'd recognize that damned smile anywhere.
"--lost..?" the end of your sentence dragged on, taking a long while to finish since all you could think about is how this man is at the front door step of the place he shouldn't even be considered in being let to enter.
Alastor, your father from the living realm. Not connected by blood but by life and connection.
The man where you got your last name from by being taken in and called his daughter.
The red deer demon seemed to recognize you as well, a spark in his devilish eyes proved it so, but it was very brief since he more or less also seemed to relish the look on your face with his smile stretched further up.. however further up it could get.
Charlie seemed concerned at your reaction, waving her hand in front of your face gently as if to get you out of this trance. "Heyyy... are you okay?.." she asked with genuine worry until all of you were focused away from this bizarre moment when a set of three angels befell before you all. The two seraphims and finally-- St. Peter off from his break.
"_____. We can take it from here, we appreciate the help." The highest and oldest seraphim announced your name and her appreciation while gliding down a bit more earlier than the blonde angel you covered for, she and the younger seraphim's forms going from their true to more human-like appearances.
"_____! My dear friend thank you so much for covering for me, always a real helper you!" St. Peter popped beside you as he praised you while gently flying beside you, you looked up at him with a small nervous smile before opening your own wings to flap down from his podium and let him get back on the job.
"It's no problem at all, you know me! Always.. happy to help.." you spoke your last words to him before your wings gently took you down to set yourself beside another one of your friends, Emily! You never talked much to Sera that wasn't in a formal setting but Emily seemed so easy to get along with. She gave you a tight squeeze of a hug while saying hello which eased your nerves a bit more, of course they never fully disappeared with the man who ruined everything before you let out your last breath.. standing right in front of you.
The man that brought you up here in the first place.
The seraphims introduced themselves to the three residents of hell, the deer demon more quiet until finally finding a spot of silence to jump in and introduce himself as well.
"Why hello, a real pleasure meeting you two quite the pleasure! Never thought I'd ever get to see an angel up this close in my life HAHA! The names Alastor!"
The voice, the radio static over it, his name.
It was him, you recognized it as if you listened to him on the radio just yesterday, your own personal hell.
Whatever reaction or words the higher ranked angels said seemed to fizzle out of your brain as they were replaced with the memories of your last moments on earth.
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"Father!" you screamed as you ran up to your childhood home, the home to which you were raised and kept in, your home in which you lived in with your father, Alastor Altruist.
For sometime you had suspected foul play when it came to your father's weird actions when the night came, the tone he spoke through his radio show when announcing several murders happening across and haunting New Orleans. You just didn't want to truly believe that the man that found you, a poor little orphaned baby, and raised you would do such disgusting and diabolical crimes.
You couldn't believe it.. until you finally saw it.
Your legs scrambled and fought each step to become faster, finally reaching the door of your home you slammed it open with a strong kick after jiggling the doorknob didn't work.
You knew the next murder he would commit would happen in your home.. you thanked whatever force that made you disobey him and look through his study since if you didn't you wouldn't know that right now there was blood to be shed.
The door opening and with your kick full of adrenaline and panic it made the door barley cling onto it's hinges. There your father was, on top of a wounded man that seemed to be gurgling and gasping to breathe as the victim attempted to claw at Alastor's grasp. Pieces of glass and wood broken across the entire floor, walls bloodied and worn out, pictures that hung neatly now cracked and lopsided or shattered on the floor.
Whatever happened in here, the victim was sure a fighter in the beginning.
You immediately without hesitation with full force pushed Alastor off the man, pulling the bloodied stranger by his wrist. The victim and you stared for a moment, him mostly realizing that he's being saved by a young girl like you. His lips parted to thank you but you could see Alastor raise his kitchen knife in the air and sprinted toward him to stab him on the back.
With no words left to share or spill you grabbed the stranger by the shoulders and with all your might pushed him and yourself away so that in the end Alastor ended up stabbing nothing but air.
Alastor grunted in frustration, his bloodied smile yet never faltering despite the challenge you now gave him.
The man snapped his head at you, eyes fixated at you before snapping back to his victim and raising his knife up once more, in a haunting motion his steps creeped and creaked towards the injured New Orleans citizen stricken with fear and terror.
Just like that, Alastor slams his knife down with no hesitation. The knife fully in his prey with no inch of the blade uncovered.
Oh-- wait.
That shriek, the sobs, the shaky breathing and the coughs of blood.. that wasn't his victim.
It was you.
His daughter, he stabbed his daughter.
For a moment you could see his crazed smile falter, the humane part of him uncovering itself for a moment, for you.
His little girl was covered in her blood because of him, the little baby he found on that cold rainy day is dying because of him, his bundle of joy that he took years to take care of is leaving him.. and it's all his fault.
He didn't know it was you-- he didn't know you'd be that stupid to sacrifice yourself for some random prick.
He didn't know that in the end, someone as evil as him could have raised someone as selfless as you.
"p..papa..?" you whimpered, your painful coughs of blood spilling out and going down your chin and your neck. "It hurts-- g.. it hurts so much papa.." you cried as the knife in your chest seemed to feel as if it was melting into your skin, becoming one with you. It obviously wasn't but the pain was just that painful.
Alastor's smile faltered and kept trying to stay up, his own set of tears falling down his face and onto your cheeks that were slowly losing life. Regret stabbing his own heart the way he did to yours. He let go of the knife and instead cradled you in his arms, just like how he used to when you would have nightmares as a little girl.
"Shh.. Shh.." he shush you softly as he gently patted your head, moving away any uneven strands of hair he could spot with his hands trembling in regret. "Little one.. don't worry about a thing, papa's here.. " he mumbled, the gentleness replacing what once was pure aggressiveness.
Your eyes slowly started to flutter closed, your pulse slowing down, breathing less profound, your limbs going limp, and your face.. contorting into a peaceful state of slumber.
Alastor watched as you passed in his arms, his faltering smile picking itself up once more to stretch itself across his face with tears pouring out his eyes. This wasn't a smile of joy, it was a smile to hide what he truly felt.. to lie to himself. "My little angel, forgive me please."
Those were his last words to you, words that in the end you couldn't hear.
And that man he tried to kill earlier? He escaped when he was given the chance, Alastor was sure the cops were to invade his home soon.. now there was just one thing left to do before he'd be found once again to pay the consequences.
He took your body to a beautiful forest filled with flower meadows. Alastor knew this was one of your favorite spots as a young girl, why not let you rest here.
Ah but as he was preparing to bury you in your final resting place... that darn deer hunter.
Well, you know the story. Mistaken for a deer, shot, that's the end of Alastor Altruist and his darling daughter, ______ Altruist.
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As you stood there you were awoken from your thoughts with the high angels escorting the princess and her other female companion into the gates of heaven, St. Peter welcoming them humbly with one of heaven's popular songs.
You were frozen, in shock. A chill went down your spine as you felt a foreign energy come closer.
You felt long fingers grapple themselves onto your shoulder which made you dramatically turn towards the hand and away from it.
Your father wanted to talk to you.
Your contrasting colors and appearances made this reunitement even more uncomfortable for you, his demon form seeming to match his disgusting self that he hid from the human world before.
His face was hard to read, especially with that signature smile of his that even in death he would never get rid of.
"Little one, my darling daughter.." he spoke, his voice seemingly trying to seem genuine but the radio filter over it made it feel condescending to you.. as if mocking you.
The look on your face was evident, you missed him so much but hated him with your entire being because of that hidden side he kept for years.
He continued "My little ____... out of all places I never thought I'd see you here. Oh but it's definitely much better than down under my little dove.."
Geez what was he even saying?? What were his intentions..?? You couldn't tell.. after all this time, you couldn't forgive this man, this serial killer, this demon, this.. monster. You couldn't.. not this soon anyways.
You took a deep inhale and exhale before fixing your posture and stance, trying to seem more professional and confident. "Sir, your hosts and companions are ahead of you. You wouldn't want to miss your introduction to a place you'll never see again after this day." Your voice stern and professional, trying your best to be void of emotion.
"Darling.. is that truly a way to greet your dear ol' father?" He spoke, hand stretched out while the other held onto his staff.
"Your friends are waiting on you, don't be late Alastor."
Just like that you turned your heel and gave him the cold shoulder, your wings spread and started flapping. Taking you up and away further into your home.. Alastor watched you as you left him once again, this time by choice.
Ah but he knew, he'd have his darling daughter back soon. His little angel that he cared for will forgive him.. he knew you had to.
With his grin widening even further he walked to catch up to the Princess of hell and her partner into the pearly gates, to see what other thing could entertain him while his daughter snapped back to her senses.
(hello!! thank you so much for reading I had a blast with this. as you can tell. once again thank you so much for reading! hope to see you soon! mwa mwa!)
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MEET ME AT OUR SPOT ËË ìŹìŹì€ âžÂ part one of the playerâs game seriesâplaylist & series tag
with the news of your grandmaâs depleting health, life has you moving to your motherâs seaside hometown for the summer to your auntâs. while there, you meet the illustrious playerâjake simâthat everyone canât seem to stop talking about. what you never expected was to gain his attention and spend the three months youâre there falling for him.
pairing ââžâžâž sim jaeyun x fem!reader đ· iηcâudᄱs đ jungwon, lifeguard!jay, player!sunghoon, and oc hana (jakeâs ex)
genreïčđïčâžâžâž angst, smut, fluff, strangers to temporary lovers, beach au, summer fling/summer love, lifeguard!jake, blonde!jake, kindaaa slow burn, h2o jokes references (i had to), slice of life, lifeguarding & surfing inaccuracies, reader is jungwonâs cousin
warnings ââžâžâž player!jake, toxic!jake, soft dom!jake, subtle manipulation, reader and hana almost drown once, mentions of readerâs dad passing (before story) and grandmaâs depleting health, alcohol, skinny dipping, corruption kink, virgin!reader, inexperienced!reader, unprotected sex (condoms!), fingering, oral fixation, oral (f. rec), semi-public sex?, jake is jealous and a little possessive, heâs also lowkey a munch, hair pulling, cum eating?, petnames (baby, pretty), praise, jake talks you through it, creampie, dirty talk, slight dacryphilia, dumbification, marking
kipoâs note ââžâžâž this is mainly for @jjunberry (who held me at gunpoint to make this fic about jake), so echo i hope you enjoy!! ⥠i might make a part two,,, not sure! i have some ideas for it, but it depends on how everyone is feeling! >ă
< let me know what you think!! divider is by @/cafekitsune :D i hope you all enjoy!!! all feedback and reblogs are welcome! âĄ
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your mom nudged you awake just as the plane was beginning to land. you rubbed your bleary eyes and blinked rapidly to try and get your eyes to adjust to the bright sunlight. nudging you again, your mom said, âwake up, weâre about to land.â
rolling your sore neck out, you sat up in your chair and looked around the plane at all the other passengers preparing themselves for the landing. you sighed softly to yourself, you never really liked planesânot that youâve been on many. you were flying from the small town you called home to the small seaside hometown of your motherâs on the request of your aunt.
your auntâs phone call still replayed in your head. you and your mom were in the middle of making lunch together when she got it. with a smile, your mom answered her sisterâs call. âyes, older sister, is there a reason youâre interrupting my day?â your mom asked playfully.
her grin quickly vanished and through the phone you could hear your aunt say, âitâs mom⊠the doctors say she isnât getting betterâŠâ
your mom turned you with a worried expression. you had stirred the contents of the pot on the stove before turning fully to your mom, brows furrowed. fear sank deep into your chest at the thought of your grandma not getting better. surely there was something else the doctors could do, right?
stepping up beside your mom at the kitchen island, you listened in to what your aunt was saying. âtheyâre trying everything they can. some things workâand she starts getting betterâbut some things donât,â you could hear your aunt's voice start to wobble.
your aunt then quickly changed the subject away from your grandmaâs depleting health, âwhy donât you and y/n come down here for the summer? see grandma, jungwon, and i? itâs been so long since iâve seen you both!â
you thought about the last time you saw your aunt and cousin. it was at your dadâs funeralâwhere you and your aunt had desperately tried to keep your mom together. it would be nice if you made a new, happier memory with them.
âohâŠâ your mom spoke, looking over to your place next to her. you could tell she was trying hard not to break in front of you. âweâll be there.â
you and your mom were in your auntâs car now after she had picked the two of you up from the airport. your head was resting against the glass as you peered out to the coastal scenery. youâve never been to your momâs hometown before. you had asked her onceâsometime after your fatherâs deathâand the sadness in her eyes made you regret asking. it was where your parents met. your father was visiting and the rest is history.
[ YOU HAD ME AT âHELLOâ â 1ST MONTH ] âïž ninety-two days until you return home.
your aunt pulled up to her and your momâs childhood home where you could see your cousin, jungwon, waiting for you all on the porch. jungwon jogged up to the car just as you were exiting it, ây/nie! itâs been so long since i last saw you. did your head get bigger?â
âshut up!â you said, playfully pushing your cousin away from you. you put a finger to your chin in thought, âhmm, did you get shorter? i swear you were taller the last time i saw you.â
jungwon put a hand to his chest in mock hurt as he playfully rolled his eyes with a grin. he helped you and your mom get your luggage out from the car and drag it all inside.
you were staying in your momâs childhood bedroom for the summer. although most of her decorations from her teen years had been taken down, you could still see the remnants of your mom in the room. you piled up your suitcases near the closet and dresser, turning to jungwon with a huff as you tried to catch your breath.
âwe should head down to the beach after youâre done settling in! you said youâve never been in the ocean, right?â jungwon asked you. you nodded in reply. you were excited to swim in the ocean and check out what the boardwalk had to offer.
âwe should, that sounds fun!â you exclaimed. he then left and you started the lengthy process of turning the bedroom into your own for the summer. it didnât help that you also overpacked. you couldnât really tell what to bring and what not to bring to a small seaside town, so you kind of brought everything.
once you finished unpacking and taking a quick visit to your grandmaâs room to greet her, you met jungwon in the living room. he was sitting on the couch scrolling through his phone. once he heard your approaching footsteps he looked up. âready to go?â he asked you.
âready to go,â you repeated with a nod. you had dressed in your bathing suit and cover before leaving your room and you saw that jungwon had done the same. he was clad in swim trunks with a black shirt. nerves bubbled in you about swimming in the ocean for the first time but you tried to not let anxious thoughts overwhelm you.
you and jungwon were making the short walk down to the ocean, which your aunt thankfully didnât live too far from, when you caught sight of the boardwalk and marveled at all the shops and people around. you and jungwon laid your towels down in the sand and made your way straight to the bright blue water. squealing as jungwon flicked the cold water at you, you pushed your hands forward to splash him back. you then dunked completely under the water to try and get used to the coldness faster.
âoh my god!â you exclaimed as you surfaced, teeth chattering and body shivering, âi wasnât expecting the water to be this cold!â you guessed that it was quite nice with the harsh heat of the summer sun beating down on you. jungwonâs laugh filled your ears as he splashed water at you again.
you werenât the best of swimmers, that fact being very obvious to jungwon once he saw you doggy paddling in the water. you mostly stuck close to the shore, not wanting your feet to not be able to touch the ground. slowly, jungwon got you further and further out to try and help you swim better. it wasnât working that well.
âi swear if i end up drowning out here because youâre a shitty swim teacher, iâm coming back to haunt you so bad!â you shouted to jungwon as you dipped under the water with the small oncoming wave. jungwon laughed hard, âdonât be mad at me because youâre a shitty swim student! besides, thereâs like three lifeguards on the beach right now.â
jungwon motioned back to the shore at the three lifeguards. you turned to look, their small figures elevated from the rest of the crowd. one of them blew their whistle at some kid trying to drown another kid. distantly, you heard him yell, âstop trying to drown her before i kick you off the beach!â
you turned back to jungwon, âthey seem preoccupied.â
jungwon shook his head with a smile. âwell iâm kind of hungry⊠iâm gonna go get something to eat. you coming with or staying in the water?â jungwon asked you. you thought it over for a moment. you werenât particularly hungry. âiâll stay in the water. you know, hone my swimming skills while youâre gone,â you replied.
âdonât drown!â jungwon said as he began making his way to the shore. you scoffed playfully at him. once you were alone in the water, you started trying to actually swim a little. you decided that you wanted to test yourself to see what you learned by going further out in the ocean.
you were swimming, pretending to be a mermaid and going absolutely nowhere when all of a sudden a bigger wave than normal came rushing towards you. you noticed it a second too late and it crashed into you, causing you to submerge in the water.
just as you surfaced, gasping for air, another wave hit you and submerged you again. you hands grasped at air and your lungs burned as your ears rang. you didnât know how long you spent being pummeled by the water until you felt arms wrap around you.
you were flipped onto your back as they pulled you to the surface. sputtering and gasping, you were finally able to inhale properly and bring oxygen back to your lungs. you tried to move but your limbs were heavy with exhaustion and you couldnât help closing your eyes from the bright sun.
your back hit a hard surface and you cracked your eyes open to see that you were on a surfboard. âi got you, donât worry,â a male voice, who you were assuming was one of the lifeguards, said above you. you started to cough violently as you held on for dear life to the surfboard. âthank you,â you managed to whisper hoarsely.
âno worries!â he responded breezily. you could feel him paddle you back to shore. you focused on taking deep breaths and trying to still your racing heart. you couldâve died back there all because you got cocky. if the lifeguard didnât rescue you when he did you wouldâve drowned.
once you both got back to the shore the lifeguard gave you a once over to ensure everything was all right. he pushed the blonde hair off his forehead as he spoke to you, âare you okay?â
you nodded weakly and said a bit flusteredly, âi think so, yes. thank you again, truly!â he flashed a bright smile at you and you couldnât help but notice how cute he was. it almost made you want to jump back into the water and purposefully sink to the bottom so he would come and save you again.
âmaybe you should stay out of the water for a while,â he said with a smile, âespecially if youâre alone.â just at that moment you heard your name being shouted, the sound getting closer and closer to you. it was your cousin and you could hear the worry in his voice.
âoh my god, y/n!â jungwon exclaimed as he bent down towards you in the sand. he kept repeating what he said a couple times as he inspected you. you had to push his hands away and tell him that you were fine thanks to the lifeguard.
âi told you not to drown!â he suddenly shouted. if the people around you werenât already staring at you, they were now. heat rose to your face from all of the sudden attention and embarrassment filled you. before you could speak the lifeguard chimed in, âtechnically she didnât!â
you raised your brows as you smiled at how annoyed jungwon looked from his comment. âexactly, i got saved!â you added. jungwon waved a hand at you as you got to your feet with the aid of the lifeguard. jungwon then grumbled to himself, âi knew i shouldâve made you come with me. and just my luck too, i left my food back at the table!â
turning swiftly to you, jungwon took your arm, âalright, beach time is over, we're going home. you get to explain to our moms how you managed to almost drown.â he pushed you towards the entrance of the boardwalk. jungwon then turned to the lifeguard and said, âoh! thank you for saving her!â
the two of you were almost out of the boardwalk when jungwon asked you why you kept looking behind you. you quickly turned to face forward with heated cheeks. you had been staring back at the attractive lifeguard, not realizing how obvious you were being about it. âthat lifeguard was cute,â you said meekly.
jungwon looked behind him to look, âoh, jake? you really donât want to get involved with him, y/n⊠heâs kind of a player.â you began to laugh off his statement when you turned to look at jake again and saw how he was surrounded by a group of girls in colorful bikinis.
jake had a smirk on his face as he wrapped his arm around a girl with dark hair while talking to another. your heart sunk a little in your chest. of course you werenât the most special girl in the world, but that didnât mean that you didnât feel a little disappointed. you had to be realistic with yourself, someone like jake wasnât going to fall for an average, everyday girl like you.
âohâŠâ was all you could say in reply as you turned back to the path you were taking home. you tried to think of the bright side of thingsâat least you wouldnât end the summer with a failed relationship and a broken heart.
it had been almost a week since you arrived and besides the small beach trip you and jungwon took when you first got here, you havenât left the house much. you were pretty sure that you were driving your mom and aunt crazy, especially when your mom brought up the idea of you getting a summer job. âitâs easy cash!â your mom explained, setting her open book down on her lap.
you aunt chimed in, âyeah! i heard mrs. song needed some more employees, why donât you go down to the juice bar and apply?â you supposed that earning a little bit of cash while you were here wasnât that bad of an idea, so you did exactly what your aunt suggested.
mrs. song didnât even spare one glance at you and all she asked was, âcan you make a smoothie?â you told her that you couldâand very well if you do say so yourselfâand she responded with, âgreat, youâre hired! you start monday at nine.â
you hadnât realized that it would be that easy. she didnât even interview you, but you put it to the back of your mind. you werenât the one to pass up easy money. you had thought that it would at least take maybe an hour to go through the whole process, so now you were out and about with nothing to do. you decided to explore the town a little by yourself, since you still were unfamiliar with the whole place.
as your feet moved mindlessly, you looked around. it was a beautiful day out today, just cool enough for the summer sun not to boil you. you were so lost in your thoughts that you didnât realize that you were climbing over some rocks to a secluded part of the beach until you almost slipped and fell.
there was a cove where a small amount of the water flowed in to an open cave-like entrance. being the curious person you were, you decided to follow it. you peeked into the cave, there was a huge opening at the top of it that let in a lot of sunlight. cautiously, with your flip flops in your hand, you made your way into the cave. you guess it wasn't really a cave at all, more of an open rock structure.
you were in the middle of the cave, the opening at the ceiling shining sunlight onto you, when you heard behind you, âoh!â jumping in shock, you turned to where the voice came from.
it was the cute lifeguard who saved you earlier this weekâjake. he wore his shock completely on his face as he was frozen mid stride. there was a towel balled up in his arms along with what looked like some fishing equipment. heat quickly spread through your face as you struggled to make eye contact with him. âwasnât expecting anyone to be hereâŠâ he murmured to himself, shaking the blonde hair out of his eyes slightly. you noticed he had an accent.
âoh! iâll go!â you quickly said, already making your way back to the entrance. jake held up his hands to stop you and in the process his towel fell to the sand below the both of you. âno, no, no, thatâs okay! you can stay if you want. uh⊠hello!â he replied with a smile.
you froze right in front of him like a deer in headlights, but managed to nod. he nodded back to you, smile widening, before making his way further into the cave. he sat his stuff down a couple feet from the small pool of water that formed from the ocean. you stood in the same spot by the entrance and watched him.
ânice meeting you again! what was your name? are you new here? i feel like you are. i havenât seen you around before,â jake asked you, looking up from where he fiddled with his fishing hook. you took small steps towards him and nodded. âuh, yeah! my nameâs y/nâiâm just here for the summer actually! thanks again for, you know, saving my life,â you said awkwardly.
jake chuckled, âseriously! no worries, y/n! so⊠howâd you find this place? i mean, nobody really knows about it but me.â he put his hook down and stood from his spot, giving you his full attention.
âi was just wandering around reallyâŠâ you trailed, scratching the back of your neck, âiâve been trying to explore the area since everything is so new to me.â jakeâs eyebrows raised and he nodded at your words.
âyou know what, you should let me show you around town since youâre new here!â jake exclaimed like it meant absolutely nothing. your eyebrows shot up at his offer. he wanted to show you around? just the two of you?
you shook your head a little and waved a hand in the air at him, âoh, you donât have to bother! i can find my way around by myââ
jake cut you off and playfully said, âcome on, i insist! i canât just let you wander around blind! besides, this town may be small, but it does have its secrets. and lucky for you, i just so happen to know all of them!â he motioned around the cave that the two of you were in. âfor example: this place,â he added.
call it genuine curiosity or the fact that you found him so attractive and charming that you couldnât say no, you agreed. âif you insist!â you laughed sheepishly and jake smiled from ear to ear. the warning of him being a player got completely pushed out of your mind and all you could think about was the opportunity of getting close to him. everything seemed so perfect for it.
jake walked up to you and wrapped an arm around your shoulder, âgood, good! i was gonna go fishing, but this is way more fun. from here on out, this place will be known as our spot!â jake held a hand out as he turned the two of you in a circle. you giggled and glanced over at him, âour spot, got it!â
for the rest of the day, you and jake spent time getting to know each other as he showed you around town. he was a lot different than you thought he would be. for one, you expected him to be a lot more standoffish, but he was really friendly instead.
the two of you were sitting at one of the tables outside of a food stand after getting food when you asked jake what he liked to do for funâbesides the fishing he was going to do earlier. âwell, i like long walks on the beach andââ he joked before you cut him off with a nudge to his shoulder.
âbe serious!â you exclaimed as he started laughing, which made you laugh too. jake raised his shoulders and exclaimed, âwhat! i do like long walks on the beach, theyâre calming!â
after the two of you settled down a little, jake suddenly asked, âdo you have a bucket list?â you thought for a moment. youâve heard of the whole concept of bucket lists, but you always thought them too unrealistic to actually go through with it. it was more of those things that you thought would be nice to do, but knew you were never going to be able to do it.
âno, i donât,â you replied.
jakeâs eyes widened at you from across the table. the setting sun casted him in a hazy glow and made his blonde hair almost appear pinkish. âyou donât have a bucket list? no, we need to fix this. weâre coming up with a bucket list togetherâwhatâs something you always wanted to do?â he asked rapidly.
âiâll have to think this through first!â you quickly spoke, holding your hands out in front of you to slow him down, âit has to be realistic if weâre gonna do this together, iâm only here for three months! and i want to be able to have memories of itâphysical memories!â
âokay, okay, iâll give you until tomorrow to come up with some ideas!â jake laughed, âbut what do you mean physical memories?â he leaned forward onto the table and rested his head in his hand as he waited for your answer.
humming in thought, you replied, âlike one of those cheap disposable cameras! we can take a bunch of pictures of us going through the bucket list and at the end of summer when iâm gone we can get them developed! that way we stay in the moment.â jakeâs eyes lit up and he practically dragged you out of your seat and down the boardwalk.
âi know just the place!â he said and led you towards the entrance of the boardwalk. after walking a short distance, jake pulled you into a place that selled various types of cameras. you had gotten there just in time, since the store was just about to close for the night.
the two of you had run around the store looking for the disposable cameras you were talking about, having absolutely no luck, until you heard jake call out your name. when you made your way over to him he held two in his hands out for you to see. âone for you and one for me!â he grinned.
you made your way over to the register and jake paid for themâwhich you complained about but he ignored you anyways. once you got outside you both ripped the packages open. you heard jake turning the dial and looked up. he had the camera up to his face and took a picture of you just as you looked up.
blinking rapidly, a shy smile took over your face. âwhat was that for?â you asked. jake grinned from behind the camera and lowered it to look fully at you.
âi want my first memory to be of you,â jake said simply. your eyes widened and your heart did backflips in your chest. heat spread to your cheeks and you looked away at the intensity of his stare.
âreally?â you asked quietly. you heard jakeâs laugh and his finger was under your chin. he turned your head so you were looking at him. the two of you were so close you could feel his breath fanning across your cheeks. jake nodded at you.
with a smile he added, âyouâre so cute.â he held his camera up and aimed it at the both of you so that you were in frame. still shocked from what just happened, you idly looked up the camera with a dazed smile and jake snapped another picture.
to break the sudden tension, you turned to him with a flustered smile. âi want one of us too!â you said cheerfully. you held your camera up and jake wrapped his arm around your waist and pulled you close until you were completely up against him. your face felt on fire as you snapped the picture.
you looked over to jakeâwho still had his arm wrapped around you waistâand quickly came up with an excuse to escape the tension. âi should probably start heading home,â you muttered as jake stared back at you, âitâs getting late.â
jake slowly removed his armânot far, as it now rested on your hip as you turned to face him. âiâll walk you,â he replied.
the walk back to your auntâs was shorter than you expected and it made you wish that you purposefully took a couple wrong turns so that you could stay with jake longer. you were beginning to really enjoy his company and wanted to get to know him more. you took a step towards the porch before turning to jake. âthis is meâŠâ you trailed.
he had given you his number on the walk over so you could talk more about the summer plans you had come up with. âit was nice getting to know you today,â jake spoke softly, a smile slipping onto his lips. you nodded and agreed with him.
âthank you for making my summer more interesting! if it werenât for your bucket list idea i probably would just stay in the house the whole summer whenever iâm not working at the juice barâŠâ you chuckled. jake joined in with you and said that it was no problem.
for a second, you thought that he was going to kiss you, like how this scene played out before in so many movies. an awkward smile overcame your face and you took another step towards the door. âiâll see you later?â you asked, taking more steps towards the door.
âabsolutely! after your shift tomorrowâyou did say you worked tomorrow, right?â jake asked and you nodded in reply. he then said, âiâll see you tomorrow then!â
when you finally got into the house you inhaled deeply and exhaled slowly. you took your shoes and jacket off by the door just as your mom came down the stairs. âyou were gone all day! where have you been?â she asked curiously and made her way to the kitchen.
following her, you responded, âjust out exploring the town⊠i made a new friend!â she hummed and turned to raise her eyebrows at the last part. ânew friend? thatâs good, honey! maybe you wonât be inside all summer,â she teased.
the two of you laughed and you made your way upstairs to get ready for bed. you placed the disposable camera on your dresser, a small smile coming to your lips as you thought about the day you just had. slipping into bed, you tried to not let the excitement for tomorrow not let you sleep and closed your eyes.
jake: meet me at our spot? jake: after your shift, of course.
your shift had just ended when jake had texted you. the two of you texted all night about potential bucket list ideas for the summer but neither of you had decided on anything concrete.
you: iâll see you there!
when you got to you and jakeâs âspotâ, he was waiting there for you, two drinks in hand while sitting in the sand. the sunlight from up above perfectly lit him up and made his blonde hair glow. he extended one of the drinks out to youâthe same drink you had gotten last night on your little adventure togetherâas he rose to his feet.
you thanked him with a warm smile and the two of you had begun going over different ideas for your bucket list. âremember though, iâm only here for three months! it canât be anything crazy like going skydiving or anything,â you told jake as you sat side by side in the sand near the entrance of the cave.
jake nodded and pretended to cross something off midair. âgot itâno skydiving,â he said with a playful pout. you giggled at him while nudging him with your shoulder as you rolled your eyes.
âwhat about⊠surfing?â you asked, turning to jake. âiâve never been surfing before, but thatâs mainly because i canât swim⊠maybe that isnât a good idea actually.â you let out a nervous laugh as you recalled the way you and jake met and your cheeks heated from the embarrassment.
âlucky for you,â jake said while standing to his feet and putting his hands on his hips, âyou have the number one lifeguard here to teach you and look out for you!â jake started flexing in various poses, making you laugh as you looked up at him.
âseriously, though. i can teach you! nothing will happen to you on my watch,â jake exclaimed as he sat back down. you shrugged, he was your best option considering that heâs literally a lifeguard. if something went south, at least you knew youâd survive with him by your side. nodding, you agreed, âokay, deal!â
you and jake spent the rest of the time at your spot debating on various things you both wanted to do for your bucket list. other than him teaching you how to surf, the both of you also came up with stargazing, going to the summer splash charity event, and doing something adventurousâlike skinny dipping.
the summer splash charity event is a party that raises money to provide resources for the sheltered animals in town. according to jake, it happens every year and everyone goes to it. itâs a formal event that everyone dresses to the nines for. you made a mental note to ask your mom about it to see if she had a dress you could borrow.
âskinny dipping?!â you whipped around to where jake was sitting, feet in the water as he mindlessly dipped his finger into it. he looked back to where you were standing, âwhat? you said you wanted to do something adventurous and thatâs the first thing i thought of!â
you wrapped your arms around yourself, suddenly self conscious, as you shifted your weight from one leg to the other. noticing the change in your body language, jake stood as came up to you slowly. âwe can do it at night when the beach is completely emptyâor not at all if youâre not comfortable. itâs completely up to you,â jake said softly.
you looked down to your feet as you thought about it. you did tell him that you wanted to do something adventurous this summer, break out of your shell. thereâs nothing more adventurous and nothing that screams âbreaking out of your shellâ quite like skinny dipping does. you inhaled deeply, âno⊠letâs do itâonly at night though and only when the beach is completely empty.â
jakeâs eyebrows raised but you couldnât miss the slight smirk that was making its way onto his lips. âare you sure?â he asked seriously.
you hit jake in the arm. âdonât pretend like you arenât excited to see a naked girl!â you joked, trying to lift the tension. the smirk on his face shifted to a grin and he broke out into a laugh. jake held his hands up in the air and turned away from you. âi canât say that iâm not,â he replied.
the first month of your stay was almost coming to an end and it seemed as if you and jake were attached at the hip. for the entire month, jake had shown you the ins and outs of the small seaside town until you knew it like the back of your hand. your disposable cameras had filled up and you had to buy another one from all the pictures youâve taken.
a smile came to your face and heat spread across your cheeks as you thought about one of the special pictures youâve taken just yesterday. you and jake were out on the town again, him showing you this skate park that nobody really uses anymore. the two of you sat on the edge of the ramp and you listened as jake pointed out various graffitied names and told you about the people behind them.
it was nighttime, and you knew you should start heading home before it got too late out, butâlike alwaysâyou didnât want your time with jake to end. the moment grew quiet and your eyes traveled over all the different names and made up different stories for them. you felt a pair of eyes on you and looked over to where jake was staring intently at you.
âiâm glad i got to meet you,â he said softly, leaning closer to you. you looked away briefly, a flustered smile lighting up your features and face heating. you couldnât imagine a different timeline where you didnât meet jake.
âiâm glad i got to meet you, too,â you replied shyly. jake smiled and reached his hand up to cup your cheek. for another moment, which seemed everlasting, the two of you looked into each otherâs eyes. when his lips pressed to yours, everything felt as if it fell into place. it felt as if this was the moment when everything clickedâwhen you knew what youâd finally been looking for.
you were filled with passion that threatened to break out. you pulled jake closer and the thought of needing to breathe didnât even cross your mind. that was, until your lungs screamed for air and you and jake finally pulled away from each other.
a smile broke out onto your face and it did on jakeâs as well. he chuckled slightly and held your hands in his. then his eyes lit up suddenly and he was pushing himself off the ground and jogging over to where your bags were.
âwhat are you doing?â you giggled, turning fully to where he stood. he dug in both of your bags and pulled out the cameras. jake then jogged back over to you, dropping back down to the ground next to you, and handed you your camera.
âyou said you wanted physical memories, right?â jake held up his camera so that the two of you were in frame with all the graffitied names in the back. âsay cheese!â he smiled and you laughedâwhich he caught with the flash of the camera.
ânow you,â jake added, urging you to hold up your camera. you laughed again and held up your camera, head tilted against jakeâs, as you snapped a picture. you turned to jake and he smiled at you. he then pressed a kiss to your cheek and laughed at how flustered you got from it, which he also managed to catch on camera.
when you did finally get home, drunk on the thought of the kiss you and jake shared, jungwon was waiting for you. he sat on the couch, some random show he wasnât watching playing on the tv. when you stepped through the door, he turned towards you.
âyou and jake have been spending a lot of time togetherâŠâ jungwon trailed, eyebrows knitting together. the smile on your face vanished and you quickly took off your shoes.
âyeahâŠâ you mumbled in reply, âwhat about it? weâre friends.â you didnât mean for your words to come out so harsh, but you couldnât help it. you were getting two different ideas of jake and you believed the one that came straight from the source more rather than the one that was passed around.
jungwonâs eyebrows raised slightly, âi just want you to be careful and to not get hurt. i told you, heâs a player, and i donât want you to get caught upââ
âiâm a big girl, jungwon. i can handle myself,â you cut him off abruptly. anger pulsated through you. why does he keep telling you this? âjake isnât like thatânot anymore.â
before jungwon could speak again, you stormed off to your room. you refused to let his words ruin your night, not after you and jake had finally kissed. you tried to focus your mind on the kiss, the way his soft lips felt against yours and the tickle of his blonde hairâdark brown roots barely grown outâagainst your skin.
inhaling deeply, you got ready for bed. under the security of the covers, you opened up your phone to send a message to jake. a smile made its way across your face and it took everything in you not to squeal as you put your phone on your nightstand.
you: i had a really great time tonight! sweet dreams! jake: me too! sweet dreams, pretty.
you mentally slapped yourself to stop thinking about his text. âpretty,â he called you pretty. you giggled to yourself and turned over in your bed, shutting your eyes.
[ YOU KNOW IâLL âSEE YOU LATERâ â 2ND MONTH ] âïž sixty-two days until you return home.
itâs been almost a week since the kiss you and jake shared. the two of you had fallen naturally into things a couple doâgo on what seem like dates, kiss and such. you were so sure that jake was going to ask you to be his girlfriend, yet heâs made nothing official.
you thought that maybe you were imagining the whole thing, that the two of you havenât kissed at all and nothing has changed between the two of you, but that was until he kissed you again. and again. the only thing he asked you is if you wanted to go to a beach party one of his friends is having this weekendâwhich you agreed to.
you sat slumped against the counter of the juice bar. today was a slow day and you began regretting working there at all with how much your feet hurt. âi donât know, what do you think? am i overthinking things? i just feel like he shouldâve asked me by nowâŠâ you looked to your side to where your coworker, hana, leaned near the smoothie machine.
you met hana on your third day of working at the juice bar and the two of you became fast friends. you didnât have a lot of shifts together, but when you did she told you all the gossip on some of the people around town who youâve never met and probably never will. in return, you mainly shared your anxious thoughts revolving jake, which she didnât seem to mind hearing.
âare you sure heâs not playing you?â hana asked, somewhat hesitantly. you sighed and looked away, focusing your attention on the ocean waves ahead. you hated how many times people asked you that question.
âthereâs nothing to play if iâm not even his girlfriend,â you stated. to which hana responded with a ââŠnot quite.â
âi know this is a sore subject for you so iâll keep it brief, but what if he is?â she pushed off the counter and made her way over to you, slumping next to you as she looked at you. she rested her head in her hand, âi donât really know this jake, but i have heard of him. and iâve heard that he cheated on his last girlfriend. now that could just be a rumor, but he doesnât exactly have the cleanest track record. the guy has hooked up with every girl he could lay his eyes onâwhat if heâs just trying to get into your pants?â
you groaned and buried your face in your arms. this really didnât help with your overthinking. what if jake was just trying to get into your pants? what if this all was some elaborate scheme to get close to the new girl so he could sleep with you? what if he wasnât the person he was making himself out to be?
âwhat if he is?â you asked, voice muffled. you already knew the answer, hana didnât even need to say it. and she didnât. hana rubbed comforting circles onto your back instead.
âmy shift is about to end⊠i really hope that what i said isnât true y/n, but for your own sake⊠i would be careful around him.â you got up from the counter, nodding at hana and her departure, and sighed again. from your pocket you felt your phone buzz and looking at it, you laughed wryly. the universe really does have a way with thingsâŠ
jake: hang out with me after your shift? jake: we can get a move on with our bucket list and i can teach you how to surf!
you wanted to bang your head off the counter at how your heart fluttered from him messaging you. you wanted to heed everyoneâs constant warnings, but a part of you wanted to push them out of your head. a part of you wanted to cast caution to the wind and take the leap of faith. jake couldnât be playing you, he couldnât. that just didnât seem like him. a part of you wanted to keep moving forward with your relationship, close your eyes to the fact that you could very well be walking down the path of getting hurt.
at this point, you were in too deep. if you got hurt, then you got hurt. at least then youâd know it was realâat least for you. caution be damned. you inhaled sharply as your fingers typed out your response:
you: of course! meet me at the beach after i grab my swimsuit? jake: iâll see you later!
after your shift endedâand you ran back home to grab your swimsuitâyou met jake at the beach like you both agreed. he was already clad in swim trunks, the lack of shirt shocking you for a quick second, and leaning against the surfboard he had next to him. âyou ready?â jake asked as you walked up to him, a smile gracing his lips as he pushed off his surfboard.
you nodded, eager to get into the water and cool down your heated cheeks. the two of you made your way into the water together after he grabbed another surfboard for himself, passing the one he was carrying to you.
jake had begun teaching you how to actually even get on the board, firstly getting onto your stomach and then eventually standing. when you finally cheered at the fact that you were able to stand and not embarrassingly slide off into the water, he then taught you how to actually ride a wave.
âsteady⊠and then up!â jake guided next to you as the two of you caught a small wave. when you surfed back to the shore you jumped to your feet and cheered, wrapping your arms around his bare torso.
âi did it! i did it!â you cheered, twirling you and jake as he laughed. you pulled away from him, smile still as big as the sun. jake pulled you into a brief kiss, pulling away with a proud smile. âyou did it!â jake cheered back.
with your flustered gaze, you turned back to the oncoming waves with newfound courage, but instead noticed something else. in the distance, you could see someone flailing in the water. their head went under with the oncoming waves. in wordless shock all you could do was point towards the water while hitting jakeâs arm until the words finally spilled from your mouth, âsomeoneâs drowning!â
jake turned towards the direction you pointed in just as the person in the water gasped for air and went back under. his eyes widened and he briefly looked around at the lifeguards present on the beach. when he saw that none of them were paying attention, he picked up his surfboard from the sand and took off towards the water.
you stood back on the shore, worry eating at you as jake pulled the person onto the surfboard and swam them back to shore. it reminded you of how he saved you on your first day here. when he reached shore you helped him get the unconscious person onto the sand as one of the lifeguards ran towards your direction.
your eyes widened in horror as you realized it was your friend, hana. jake alternated doing mouth to mouth and chest compressions on her until her eyes sprang open and she coughed up water. âoh my god, hana! are you okay?â you bent down to ask with furrowed brows, cradling her cheek with your hand.
weakly, she nodded and smiled at you. hana turned her attention to jake, her smile widened as she let out a hoarse âthank you, you saved my life!â jake gave her a tight-lipped smile and nodded, his eyes finding yours. the two of you backed up as the lifeguard on duty took over.
âthatâs one of my good friends from work!â you exclaimed as you looked back at the scene, brows knitted together. âi really hope sheâs okay⊠almost drowning is really scary.â
jakeâs hand found yours and he pulled you back to where your towels were. his face was weirdly blank and there was what almost seemed to be a scowl on his lips. you put a hand on his shoulder and leaned towards him, âhey⊠you alright?â
jake just nodded, giving you a smile that didnât reach his eyes. âthat was just kinda hectic⊠why donât we go do something else instead of surfing again?â he asked you. you nodded, an empathetic smile forming on your lips.
the weekend had arrived and the beach party that seemed to be the talk of the town was tonight. instead of being excited for your first ever beach party, you were nervously shifting your phone in your hands. since the whole beach incident, itâs been almost radio silence from jake. when he was answering your texts, they were only one word replies or dry texts.
you didnât understand what had gone wrong. at first you thought he needed space. saving someoneâs life was no easy feat and definitely had to take a toll on him, but you wanted to be there for him any way that you could.
when you saw him one day while working, he acted like he didnât even hear you calling himâchoosing to instead hurry off with one of his friends. your heart dropped and hana rubbed more comforting circles into your back as you tried not to cry. âhe really seems like heâs playing you, y/nâŠâ hana had trailed off hesitantly, knowing how much of a sensitive issue this was for you. âmaybe you should just end things officially with him.â
what if jake was playing you?
you did the finishing touches on your outfit for the party and took another look at yourself in the mirror, a small smile forming on your lips. it was just your bathing suit and a simple cover up, but you looked good, if you did say so yourself. you grabbed your phone again, hoping to hear from jake but knew that you wouldnât. sighing, you threw your phone onto your bed.
you debated even going to the stupid partyâin fact, you were already an hour and a half late for it. what was the point if the person who invited you wasnât even talking to you? but you thought fuck that. you were going to go out and enjoy your summer at a party you were going to have fun at, with or without jake.
after doing another once over in the mirror, you grabbed your things and made your way downstairs for the walk down to the beach. if jake was going to ignore you, you were going to ignore him right back. tonight, you were only going to care about you, not him. two can play at this petty game.
you could hear the music playing from the party, which only got louder and louder the nearer you got to it. there were bodies everywhere, including those in the water. everyone was clad in their bathing suits, either chatting with others or pulling each other into the water. you made your way over to where a bar was set up and grabbed yourself a drink.
you didnât want to get too drunk tonight, since you were alone, but you wanted something in your system. nursing the drink, you wandered around to find something to do. it dawned on you how little people you knew here. you didnât really expand your friendships much besides jake and hana.
the cool night breeze made you shiver slightly, so you decided to make your way over to where there was a campfire set up. there were plenty of people around it and maybe you could meet some new friends. thatâs when your heart dropped.
just a few feet ahead of you was jake and his friends, no doubt drunk out of their minds. you wondered how you didnât hear their loud bantering over the music, but you guess that it all sort of blended in. jake sat on a beach chair, some random girl in his lap with his hand resting on her ass. it wasnât any girl you recognized.
what the fuck, you thought, anger bubbling up inside you. i knew it, i shouldâve knew he was playing me like the fucking fool i am. just at that moment you and jake made eye contact, the smile on his face faltering as he took in your look of pure devastation. you shouldâve just stayed home.
turning on your feet, your eyes scanned for somewhere you could run to, but seeing nowhere good enough they landed on the water ahead. itâll have to do.
you stripped off your bathing suit cover and speed walked with fevered passion out towards the water, hoping that the darkness will cover up your tracks. you didnât even care that the water was freezing cold, you couldnât feel it with how the anger was heating up your skin. instead, you dipped your head underwater for a couple seconds, complete silence and darkness calming you briefly, before surfacing again. luckily, jake didnât follow you outâif you could even consider that luck.
as soon as you surfaced, you were face to face with a stranger you didnât know. you let out a shocked gasp and moved backwards. âsorry,â the stranger awkwardly chuckled, giving you some space. âi saw you storm in the waterâitâs not safe to be out here in the dark swimming in the ocean alone.â
you quirked an eyebrow at him, âwhatâs it to you?â you really didnât need more people making this moment difficult for you.
his face lit up like he forgot to mention a very crucial piece of information. âoh! uhâiâm a lifeguard.â he held out his hand to you, the moonlight illuminating it. what was up with you and lifeguards? you hesitantly took it and gave him a wary smile. âiâm jay. youâre jakeâs girl, right?â
your smile immediately dropped. you werenât âjakeâs girl,â and it was clear that you never was. all you were to him was some pawn in a game you didnât even really know you were playing. ânot jakeâs girl,â you responded.
you looked back to the campfire, seeing that jake and some of his friends were nowhere to be found. you turned back to jay, âand i guess youâre right. i can't swim that well anyways.â a sheepish smile made itâs way onto your face.
âmaybe i should get you back to shore thenâŠâ jay laughed, âget you warmed up by the campfire? itâs pretty chilly out here and i wouldnât want you to get sick.â you nodded and the two of you swam back to the shore together. as soon as you stepped out, your teeth chattered and your body shook like a leaf. all the heat from the anger dissipated and now you were just cold.
you and jay sat side by side on a log, the flames from the fire drying you off and warming your bodies. after a couple moments, jay turned to you and said, âyou donât seem to be one who falls for a playerâs antics like jakeâs.â
caught completely by surprise, you cleared your throat slightly as you thought of something to say. you werenât one to fall for a player, especially after being warned so much about him. it was unlike you. but there was just something about jake that kept luring you in, like a lamb to the slaughter. âi guess i was too caught up in being in a new town that i put caution asideâŠâ you trailed, staring down at your hands.
jay hummed, âah, new girl. i see.â you looked over to him and nodded, trying to lighten the mood with a small laugh. âyou live and you learn,â jay added, almost solemnly. it made you wonder what he had to go through to give you such advice. you didnât have the chance to ask before you saw jake barreling his way over towards you, stumbling over his own feet.
he stood across the fire from you and jay, anger dripping from his face. âwow, you move on quick!â he seethed, eyes locking on yours. jakeâs accent was heavy and thick, words slurred. you scoffed at him. did he think you didnât see him with that other girl on his lap?
you shot up from your seat, âi move on quick? me? you literally had some girl on your lap after ignoring me for days, jake.â in the corner of your eyes you saw the attention the two of you were gathering. people dipping by otherâs ears to whisper about the two of you. you didnât even have to guess what they were saying. you knew that it had to be something along the lines of âjake sim strikes again! another stupid girl fell into his trap. they just donât know how to learn.â
ignoring your words, jake instead said, âi didnât know you were such a whore, y/n.â you face contorted to one of hurt and you took a small step back, the back of your foot knocking against the log you were just seated on.
jay jumped from the log, moving ever so slightly to step in front of you. âwhat the fuck, man?â jay hissed towards jake. jake didnât even pay him any attention, his eyes never left yours.
you didnât know how everything went so wrong. it seemed like just yesterday jake was kissing you for the first time at the abandoned skate park. now everything was so twisted and you were left standing in the center of it all. you desperately tried to not let tears well up in your eyes. jake didnât get to go treat you this wayâhe didnât get to win. you looked him dead in the eyes, âwhat the fuck is wrong with you, jake?â
before he could answer, his friend came up to him and slang and arm around his shoulder. you recognized him, despite jake never introducing you to any of his friends. park sunghoon, jakeâs bestfriend and right-hand manâand no doubt another player. his eyes glided over your body, still somewhat wet from your dip in the ocean. his lips curled up into a smirk, âwhoâs this jake? victim numberâŠâ he trailed off into a laugh, eyes hooded from the alcohol. âoh wait⊠i lost count,â sunghoon laughed again.
the anger disappeared from jakeâs face, now replaced with complete detachment as he turned to sunghoon and laughed. you literally couldnât believe what you were seeing. was this how he treated every girl who had unfortunately fallen into his web?
âsheâs cute,â sunghoon said, eyeâs trailing you again. you had the urge to cover up, pulling your bathing suit cover tighter around you, suddenly feeling disgusted at the fact that they were talking about you like you werenât even there.
âmake your move, i bet sheâll let you take her right here,â jake replied, looking at you. your mouth opened in shock and you were frozen in place. jake was like a completely different person. noâthis mustâve been the real him he was hiding from you to get in your pants. you were in such shock that you didnât even see jayâs fist connecting with jakeâs face until they were rolling around in the sand throwing more fists at each other.
you stood in the same spot, unmoving, as more of jakeâs friends showed up and pulled them apart before anything serious could happen besides some cut lips. jake pushed his friends off of him and stormed off towards a group of girlsâthe one girl in particular who was in his lap earlier. he pulled her towards up and smashed his lips onto herâs, all the while making direct eye contact with you.
you looked away, scoffing to yourself as you made your way to where jay stood brushing sand off himself. âiâm so sorry, are you okay?â you asked while aiding him in brushing off sand.
in lieu of a reply, jay hissed, âheâs such a fucking asshole. how did you even get caught up in his drama?â when jay turned to you, there wasnât any anger in his eyesâat least, not towards you. it was a genuine question, and somehow that made you feel worse about everything.
you looked back over to where jake stormed off to to see that him and his friendsâand the girl he kissedâwere all walking over to the ocean to swim. they left abandoned articles of clothing in their wake as they started to chase each other into the water. you sighed mellowly, âi thought he was different, not who everyone said he was⊠it turns out i was wrong. heâs exactly like how everyone says he is.â
you couldnât help the stray tear that escaped your eye, quickly moving your hand to wipe it away. you felt jayâs eyes on you as you stared down at your toes in the sand. he doesnât get to win, you thought, opening your mouth to speak as you looked up at jay.
jay beat you to it. âletâs get a drink. take your mind off of it?â he offered. you closed your mouth and nodded, walking side by side with him towards the bar.
you were well past tipsy now as you and jay spent however long talking and getting to know each other. just as the two of you were in the middle of a conversation about your favorite aquatic animal, jake walked up to you. his head was down and he looked like a kicked puppy as he stood in front of you. he was only in his swim trunks and almost completely dry, so you were guessing itâs been a while since heâs been out of the water. ây/nâŠâ he trailed, looking up at you through slightly wet strands of blonde hair.
âthe fuck do you want, jake? here to call me a whore again? just leave me alone,â you waved a hand in the air at him, taking a sip from your drink. jake tried to take your hand in his but you snatched it out of his grip. you were guessing he was sober now.
âcan we please just talk?â jake asked. his eyes skimmed over to jay who was glaring at him. âprivately?â jake added. you laughed at him. is he serious?
âshe told you to leave her alone, dude,â jay said, tone a little harsh.
jake rolled his eyes, they landed on jay with a glare, âshut the fuck up, jay. this has nothing to do with you.â jake turned his gaze back to you, gaze softening completely. he almost looked sorry. you almost laughed again.
âplease, y/n. just five minutes and youâll never have to see me again,â jake pleaded.
next to you, jay scoffed. âyou promise?â jay cooed towards jake and jakeâs glare immediately came back as his eyes snapped towards him. you sighed.
âfive minutes, jake. thatâs all iâm giving you to explain everything,â you spoke quietly. jay looked over at you. in his eyes you saw his question, âare you sure?â you gave him a slight nod and then stood. âdonât waste my time,â you added.
you wobbled slightly as you stood and jake took your hand. again, you pulled it out of his grasp. âi can walk by myself,â you bit out. jakeâs eyebrows raised in slight shock but he said nothing as he guided you to somewhere private.
he led you a little bit away from where the party was, but close enough that you still heard the music blasting from the speakers. he pulled you behind an empty stand where wandering eyes couldnât see you. you turned to him with a deep sigh and raised brows raised as you crossed your arms. âtime is ticking,â is all you said.
âshe meant nothing⊠i promise. it's you i want, y/n,â jake started, hands coming to rest on your shoulders. you rolled your eyes at him. meant nothing? so he thinks youâre stupid.
âdoesnât seem that way to me,â you countered. you turned to walk away. if he was just going to lie to you then there wasnât any point of hearing him out. jake grabbed your hand and pulled you back towards him. he cupped your cheek and guided your gaze back up to his. âiâm serious. it is you that i want. my head was everywhere and the alcohol didnât help and iâm sorry. iâm so sorry, y/n, i didnât want to hurt you.â
in your head you cursed him for being so alluring, and then cursed yourself for drinking so much because now you were melting like puddy in his hands. you didnât want to believe him, you really didnât, but the more you searched his eyes, the more you saw the truth in them. jake wanted you, that much was the truth. but was he truly sorry⊠that was to be determined.
the anger in your eyes softened and your eyes glazed over, âwhy would you do that, jake? you donât talk to me for days and then i come here and see you all up on some girl? after spending so much time with me and acting like weâre a couple?â you swear you saw jakeâs heart break as he pulled you into his chest.
âi know, baby, i know i messed up and iâm sorry. let me make it up to you and show you that youâre the only one who matters to me,â jake said softly and you pulled away to look at him. he pressed his lips to yours, his hand cupping your face gently. you shivered slightly at his touch and the petname falling from his lips. a fire lit up inside you and you pressed your lips to his harder, wrapping your arms around his neck.
jake backed you up against the empty stand, lifting you so you sat onto the ledge that was lower than the actual stand. he pulled away from you slightly, enough for the both of you to catch your breath. âtell me now if you donât want this and iâll stop,â jake breathed.
you kissed him again, skin hot in all the places he touched you. âi want this,â you briefly broke apart to say. jake dropped to his knees between your legs. you shifted slightly as he pressed kisses onto your bare inner thighs, lifting your legs so they rested over his shoulders.
âuhâjakeâŠâ you stammered, eyes fluttering closed for a quick second. jake hummed, looking up at you with a raised brow. âi-iâm a virgin⊠iâve never done any of this beforeâŠâ
jakeâs lips curled into a wicked smirk. he rose, thumbs trailing your thighs and kissed you. âthatâs okay,â he said as he got to his knees again, âiâll take good care of you, baby.â
you gave him a sheepish smile as you lifted your bathing suit cover to pool around your hips. you then lifted your hips so jake could take your bottoms off and scooted to the edge of the ledge you were sitting on.
once your bottoms were off, you shivered slightly from the sudden coldness. more from the way jake was now pressing kisses close to your core. it was embarrassing how you were absolutely dripping for him despite being angry at him not too long ago, but either jake didnât notice or didnât seem to care much. he returned your legs back to his shoulders.
jakeâs mouth latched onto your clit and his tongue swirled around it. you jumped, a moan escaping your lips as your back arched slightly. his tongue continued to swirl around your clit and his lips sucked in, making your back arch more. your fingers ran through his blonde hair, grabbing at it to try and steady yourself. jake looked up at you and you could feel the smirk on his lips.
your breath was heavy and you shamelessly moaned from how good jake was making you feel. if there was one good thing that came out of all of this, it was finding out just how good jake was with his tongue. you were so high on cloud nine that you moaned a little too loud once you felt jake slowly enter a finger into you, testing the waters, pulling in and out slowly. he then slowly slid in another finger, the stretch making your head whirl.
jake laughed, the vibrations sending shockwaves throughout your body. you gasped when his fingers angled up, pressing right against your sweet spot, and bucked your hips forward. âfeels so good,â you whimpered. âp-please donât stop!â
you legs began to shake and the pleasure was so much that you couldnât help but rock your hips towards jakeâs mouth and fingers. jake started to to hum against your clit lightly, fingers moving faster. you gripped his hair and the edge of the ledge tigher, âjust how many girls have you treated like this?â you breathed out between moans. your eyes were squeezed shut and you felt how close you were to being undone. âis this what you do to get back on their good side?â you asked.
jake pulled his mouth away from you and your eyes fluttered open to look down at him from the loss. his fingers continued to move rapidly. âyou wouldnât be the only girl,â jake commented. you didnât even get a chance to respond as he pressed his fingers against your walls and you came undone onto his fingers. you squeezed your eyes shut and cried out, chest rising and falling harshly.
when you came down from your high, with the aid of jake and now suddenly sober, you opened your eyes just as he pulled his fingers out of you and to his mouth while rising to his feet. you glared at him harshly as he licked his fingers clean, mouth and chin wet with your arousal and blonde hair messy. looking behind you, you reached for some napkins and cleaned yourself up before putting your bathing suit bottoms back up.
you threw the rest of the napkins at his face and pushed him away from you as you jumped off the ledge. âyouâre such an asshole,â you muttered angrily as you stormed back off in the direction of the party. from behind you, you could hear jake calling your name as he jogged after you.
âfuck off, jake!â you yelled, not bothering to turn around as you moved faster.
when you got back to the party, you went up to the campfire where jay was still sitting, a bottle in his hands. âthanks for talking to me tonight, but iâm gonna head home actually,â you told him, trying to give him your best fake smile but it instead coming out in a half grimace. you heard your name being called and jay stood.
âiâll walk you home,â jay said as he placed his bottle in the sand against the log. you nodded and the two of you quickly walked off.
the walk back to your house was silent. you mainly processed the series of events that just happened. how could you be so stupid? once again, you fell into jakeâs trap. when will you learn?
you didnât even realize you made it to the front of your auntâs house, too lost in your own thoughts to notice your feet moving on their own, until jay said, âare you going to be okay?â you looked over to him in slight shock, thinking about his question for a moment.
shrugging, you responded, âiâm not sure yet. for now i will be, i guess. thanks for walking me home, jay. i really appreciate it.â jay gave you a nod, not entirely convinced. âanytime,â he spoke and watched as you walked up to the front door and entered the house.
you ran to the bathroom, wanting to rub your skin clean until it was raw. you stayed under the water for a while until it started to run cold and stayed for a little more after that, tears being washed away from the stream. when you did finally get out, you laid in your bed unable to sleep.
you phone was being blown up by jake and you just didnât have the energy for him right now, so you turned your phone off. you didnât want to hear anymore of his excusesâor truths, you still couldnât decipher which was which. you just hoped that sleep would come to you soon and you wouldnât dream of him.
when you woke up in the morning from a dreamless sleep, the first text your eyes saw as you checked the time on your phone was from jake. you sighed softly, telling yourself youâll check the rest of his messages later. the message your eyes scanned was:
jake: meet me at our spot? i didnât mean what i said. it wasnât my intention for it to come off that way. please answer, y/n. i know you wake up around this time, so please meet me there when you see this.
you weighed his message in your head, deciding to ignore it entirely or to meet with him. after pacing around your room, you decided to meet with him. this was itâyou were putting an end to everything. no more games. you were only going to meet with jake for closure, to finally see if his words have been truths or lies.
you got ready for the day, thankful that you didnât have to work at the juice bar, and mentally hyped yourself up. you couldnât let yourself be lured in by jakeâs trap again; acting like a pushover for him. you wanted answers, not to lose yourself in his warm and inviting brown eyes. not to think about how good he made you feel last nightâdespite the memories clouding around your racing mind making your heart do flips.
leaving the house, you made your way down to the beach with newfound confidence.
when you reached the open cave-like entrance, you saw jake sitting in the sand lost in thought waiting for you. his eyes immediately snapped to your figure when he saw you approach. jake looked like he hadnât slept, eyes rimmed red and dark circles sinking in his eyes. his blonde hair was in every direction as if heâd been running his fingers through it constantly and his plain shirt was wrinkled.
jake slid his phone that he was clutching into his pants pocket as he stood to his feet. hesitantly, you walked up to him, stopping a few feet short of him. you left your expression purposefully blank as you quirked a brow at him.
âi didnât mean it like that,â jake started, taking a few steps towards you. he furrowed his brows and tilted his head to the side slightly.
âso how else did you mean it, jake? iâm tired of playing this game with you.â
jake sighed and ran his fingers through his hair. âi meanâi did mean it like that,â he closed the distance between the two of you and grabbed your hands, effectively removing them from where they were sitting across your chest. jake slid his thumbs across them as he spoke.
âbut not with you. i wonât lie and say that i donât have a reputationââ
you cut him off, tone harsh as you pushed away from him. âa reputation of being a player? of stringing girls along; using their feelings for you against them to get in their pants? your reputation precedes you, jake, and iâm not going to be your next victim.â
âand you wonât beâthat life, me being a player, itâs over. itâs in the pastâcanceled, i promise you. i meant what i said to you yesterday, baby. i want to be with you and iâm sorry for making you think that i didnât.â jake stepped forward and cupped your face, tilting your head so you looked in his eyes and saw the sincerity in them. you exhaled softly and your eyes fluttered shut.
jake continued, âas soon as i got into that water, i immediately sobered up and knew i fucked up. i shouldnât have spoken to you like thatâshouldnât have let my friends speak to you like that. that was really shitty. iâm so sorry.â you opened your eyes and they grazed across the cut on his lip from his fight with jay.
your arms hung limply at your sides as your mind struggled to come up with any thought whatsoever. it was silent for a moment. âyou ignored me for a whole week straight. pretended that i didnât even exist to you,â was all you managed to say.
jake sighed again and shut his eyes briefly like he was having an inner battle with himself. âmy head has been everywhere this week, baby. iâm sorry. lifeguarding has been more taxing than usual and iâm really not in my right mind. the alcohol last night really didnât help either, like i said.â
your eyes softened. it was just as you expected. âso why didnât you tell me all of this? i couldâve helped youâbeen there for you!â your words were light, but your insistence made jake look up.
jake just shrugged, not knowing what to say. he settled on, âi didnât know how to explain it all. iâm not that good at telling people how i feelâclearly.â
you rested a hand on his cheek, a small smile coming to your lips. âitâs something we can work on⊠why donât we do something from our bucket list today? help get your mind off lifeguarding?â you suggested. jakeâs face lit up and he wrapped his arms around your waist, pulling you into him.
a cheeky smile played on jakeâs mouth as he nodded and you rolled your eyes, pushing at his chest lightly. you pointed to the shallow water coming in from the ocean, âif you say skinny dipping iâm drowning you in the water over there!â
jakeâs smile widened, a pretty laugh leaving his lips. it was a sound you could hear forever. âi wasnât! i was gonna suggest we go stargazing.â
he pulled you closer to him and bent down towards you, breath fanning across your neck and his nose sending a shiver down your spine from the way it trailed along the skin near your ear. âbut if you wanted to skinny dip i wouldnât be opposed,â he whispered, voice dripping like honey.
you inhaled sharply at the way jake brushed his lips against your jaw ever so slightly. you didnât even notice the way your grip tightened around his shirt at his chest. all you could think about was his lips at your core making you feel so good. better than you could ever do for yourself. the way his fingers reached deep inside you and pressed against spots that you couldnât reach yourself no matter how hard you tried.
breath hitching, you tried to control your breathing as you let out a chuckle that you hoped sounded playfully annoyed, but instead came out as nervous as you felt. with all the strength you could muster, which was barely any at all, you pushed at his chest again and jake took a couple small steps back. that same wicked smirk from last night curled his lips upwards.
god, that smirk. if given the chance, you knew that jake sim would absolutely ruin you. you knew that he would worship every inch of your skin while completely defiling your innocence.
you subtly pressed your legs together at the thought of his hands wandering over your naked body and bit your lip at how it would feel when he finally slid into you. no, you couldnât think such dirty things with him looking at you like he knew every thought running through your head right now.
you kept your eyes firmly on the grains of sand beneath the two of you until you were sure your thoughts were clear.
once the dignity started to come back to you, you slowly looked up at him. you plastered a playful smile on and raised your brows while crossing your arms across your chest. âyouâre on timeout. so going skinny dippingâand whatever dirty little thoughts are running though your head with the ideaânot happening. got it?â
you were definitely projecting with your statement, even if you both were most likely thinking the same things. jakeâs wicked smirk remained on his lips, this time more playful than wicked. he raised a singular brow at you, head tilting subtly. he didnât even need to speak for you to get the connotation.
weâll see about that, wonât we?
you and jake spent the rest of the morning together, hanging around the beach taking various photos with your disposable camera, until you got called in to work to cover a shift. you had just finished cleaning the blenders at the juice stand when jake scared you, suddenly announcing his arrival while leaning across the counter with a shit-eating grin.
gasping loudly with a hand pressed to your heart, you took the hand towel you were holding and smacked him with it, making him laugh. you couldnât help the smile that spread on your face at jake being here. your shift so far was boring, your friend hana wasnât working today and nobody was really buying anything either. you desperately needed the distraction.
âwhat are you doing here?â you smiled, leaning across the counter in front of jake. your faces were mere inches away and jake closed the gap by pressing a kiss to your lips.
âi wanted to see you,â he replied, smile never leaving his face. that was, until jay showed up to order a drink.
âhow are you, jay?â you asked as you started the process of his drink, turning slightly to look at him. he was soaking wet, no doubt just getting off one of his shifts. running a hand through his damp hair he breathed out harshly, smile not reaching his eyes as he shook his head a little.
âyou know how lifeguarding isâŠâ he trailed off. you gave him a sympathetic smile, definitely not knowing how lifeguarding is, but from your talk with jake earlier, you could only imagine.
jake shifted in his seat, turning to face jay. âyeah⊠i do,â he spoke. you glanced over to him as you poured jayâs drink in one of the to-go cups. jakeâs mouth was pressed into a thin line and his eyes sharp. they were both deadly silent and you had the feeling they werenât talking about lifeguarding.
slowly, you slid the drink you just made towards jay as your eyes flicked between the two of them. their staring contest was cut short by one of jakeâs friendâs calling his name. reluctantly, he got up to meet them, eyes flicking to you before turning around. what was that all about?
jayâs eyes slid to you, a sigh escaping his lips. âi hope you know what youâre doing, y/n,â he said before handing you the money for his drink and standing from his seat. your brows furrowed in question but before you could ask what he meant, jay spoke again.
âthereâs no winner in the playerâs game. itâs best to know that before itâs too late.â
jay then left, leaving you with your mouth hanging open. your mind was surprisingly blank despite his words that you were desperately trying to process. to distract yourself, you began tidying up.
jake came back up to the stand just as you finished, his friendâsunghoon, if you remember correctly from his hurtful words at the beach partyâfollowing suit. your eyebrows were raised in slight shock as you tried to keep the scowl from off your face. jake said nothing, just waved his hand towards you while looking at sunghoon in a âwellâŠâ kind of way.
sunghoon sighed while leaning on the stand towards you. âuh⊠listen, y/nâŠâ he looked towards jake in question and jake gave him a small nod without taking his eyes off you. sunghoon continued, âi was a real asshole for what i said at the beach partyâreal shitty. iâm sorry, i shouldnât have spoken to you that way.â
he scratched the back of his neck and his apology hung in the air for a moment. you smiled awkwardly, eyes flicking between him and jake. clearing your throat slightly, you responded, ât-thank you? i appreciate the apology.â
it was awkward for another few moments before jake finally broke the silence. âsoâŠâ he started, dragging out the vowel as he leaned more over the counter towards you. âwill you be my date to the summer splash event?â
sunghoon scoffed while turning towards jake, hitting him on the shoulder. âdude, you havenât even asked her yet? the event is next month!â he exclaimed. a sheepish smile took over jakeâs face as he leaned back into his chair. you raised your brows at him.
âyeah, jake, why havenât you asked me yet?â you teased. sunghoon mirrored your expression and the two of you stared a hole into jake. he sunk into his seat.
âi may⊠have forgotten about the whole thingâŠâ jake murmured. you and sunghoon laughed at him, sunghoon shaking his head as he turned back to you.
âyes, iâll be your date to summer splash,â you laughed, causing jakeâs smile to brighten.
the three of you talked more before they left for sunghoonâs house. before they did, jake leaned across the counter to meet where you already sat halfway. âare we okay?â he asked near your ear in a hushed tone. you nodded, a genuine smile on your face which caused one to appear on his. jake then brought you in for a kiss, which was quickly cut short by sunghoon going, âugh, get a room!â
heat spread throughout your face and chuckles escaped jakeâs mouth as he pressed another kiss to your warm cheeks. he was then pulling out his disposable camera, turning his back to you and holding it up in the air.
âgroup picture!â jake shouted as he pulled sunghoon towards him. sunghoon rolled his eyes, but smiled for the picture nonetheless. you gave the camera an embarrassed smile as the flash went off. jake chuckled again, bringing your lips together briefly before running off with a disgusted sunghoon.
you: meet me at our spot? jake: already here, baby. you donât even have to ask! you: rolling my eyes right now⊠bring the blankets!
a couple days later, you and jake had planned to watch the stars at your shared spot since you were both too busy the day you originally planned. according to jake, it was the best spot to see as many stars as possible in the small town. jake had beaten to you the spot, already having the blankets and even pillows set up right under the opening in the ceiling.
the moon shown perfectly from the opening, illuminating jake and the area he had set up. âhi,â you smiled, setting the basket of wrapped sandwiches onto the blanket and plopping down next to jake. you looked up towards the ceiling at the stars, a soft smile taking over your features.
âhi,â jake replied. he moved closer to you until you were almost cheek and cheek to look up at the stars as well. âi told you itâs the best place to see them,â he added quietly. you looked over to him, smile still on your face, and giggled. jakeâs smile widened and he brought you in for a kiss.
the two of you watched the stars for a while in silence, apart from the rustling of one of you unwrapping a sandwich. at some point, the two of you had laid down onto the blankets and pillows, you tucked into jakeâs side, head resting on his chest as his fingers lazily traced patterns onto your arm and hip.
âthe whole world outside disappears when itâs just the two of us in here,â jake softly said, causing you to look up at him. his eyes were focused on the stars until he felt the weight of your stare. he looked down, a shy smile playing on his lips.
âyouâre right,â you smiled at him, continuing your watch of the stars. âweâre the only people in the world in here.â jakeâs fingertips were suddenly lifting your chin to look up at him. once you did, he pressed a soft kiss to your lips.
smiling against his lips, you kissed him again, sitting up on your elbow to kiss him better. the kiss deepened, so much so that you got the urge to swing your leg across his to straddle him. but before it could go any farther than a kiss, jake pulled away. you both were breathing heavily as you stared into each otherâs eyes, lips barely brushing.
âwill you be my girlfriend?â jake breathed, searching your eyes for your answer. you giggled a little. it was funny that he even had to ask you. the answer was always going to be yes.
you nodded, smiling widely, âi thought youâd never askâŠâ you lips connected with his again, this time more passionate than the first. jake sat up onto his elbows, eyes fluttering closed.
âiâm sorry i took so long,â he murmured against your lips.
this time you did give into your urge. throwing your leg over both of his, you wrapped your arms around his neck. jakeâs arms immediately came to sit around your waist, pulling you closer to him until you were chest and chest. the kiss was feverish, desperate. itâs what you wanted to do ever since you had gotten to know each other.
fire burned in the pit of your belly and you were overwhelmed with the sudden need to have jake as close to your body as possible. you needed more than his lips on yours and his arms around your waist. you didnât even realize you grinded down onto him until he broke away from your kiss to let out a small whimper, forehead pressed to yours.
he trailed hot kisses along your jaw and down your neck all while you grinded down against him again. you felt like you were on fire as his lips found yours again and it was the only thing you could do but pull away and take off your shirt.
jakeâs eyes landed on your breasts and the lacy bra covering them, but you didnât let them linger before you were pulling off his shirt as well, completely driven by desire. next you were shimmying off of him until the shorts you were wearing were off too, leaving you only in your bra and panties.
the rational part of your brain finally kicked in when you heard jake unbuckling his belt. you broke away from his kiss, suddenly aware of what the two of you were about to do. heat spread up your neck and across your cheeks and you whispered, âi told you, youâre on timeout.â
jakeâs mouth fell open in a shocked smile, hands freezing in place. in order to cool yourself down, you pulled yourself away from him and stood to your feet. turning your back towards him, you made your way to the ocean, stripping off your bra and panties in the process until you were completely naked. you glanced back at him with a playful smile.
you stepped a foot into the water and immediately shuttered at how cold it was, but you made yourself walk the rest of the distance until you were submerged up to your shoulders. you turned towards the cove where jake still sat frozen. âare you coming?â you called, giggling to yourself at the bulge in his shorts.
âyouâre such a tease,â jake called back playfully, standing to his feet. you laughed, more teeth chattering than actual laughter. when jake started pulling down his shorts, you averted your gaze, suddenly interested in the ocean horizon.
you heard the pitter-patter of jakeâs footsteps and the slight splashing of water behind you as he came closer. âyou put on such a show, but now you canât even face me?â jake said in a husky voice against your ear, chest pressed against your back, causing a shiver to go directly down your spine and your heartbeat to pick up.
jake trailed a wet finger across your shoulder and you inhaled sharply, trying to gain your composure. turning to him, you replied, âif you canât handle the heat, stay out of the game.â you threw his signature smirk back at him and he laughed, coming closer to you until your noses were brushing up against each other. you tried to ignore the brushing against your thigh, but it was growing harder the more seconds that passed. instead you cupped your hand in the water and lifted it to drip the water onto jakeâs head, pulling another laugh out of him.
grabbing your chin, jake lifted your head to kiss you deeply, his tongue dancing in your mouth with yours. pulling away, jake smirked. âyouâre going to eat your words once iâm finished,â he said lowly, pressing kisses to the skin beneath your ear.
jake pressed you closer to him, his body heat helping to warm you from the cold water. his lips trailed back up to your ear and he added, âget use to the feeling of your body shaking.â
if your body wasnât on fire before, it definitely was now. jakeâs lips were back on yours, this time rougher. you were sure he could feel your heartbeat racing from how close you were to him, feel the heat creep up your neck with how your bare bodies were against each other. when you pulled away to satiate your burning lungs, jake caught hold of your bottom lip between his teeth. he bit down softly, the corners of his mouth raising at your reaction before letting go.
you hid your face in his chest as he trailed open-mouthed kisses up your shoulder. you resisted the urge to shiver. âjake, iââ you cut yourself off, too embarrassed to bring the topic up.
âhas anyone ever touched you like this?â
jakeâs fingers trailed down your sides, stopping just at your hips and you took a sharp inhale. you shook your head as jake continued his kisses, going from up your shoulder to the side of your mouth. âdonât worry, pretty,â he whispered huskily, lips lingering over yours before giving you a feather light kiss. âiâll be gentle⊠i promise.â
he intertwined his hand with yours and guided you back to the rock structure where your abandoned late night picnic resided. you laid down onto the blanket, looking up at him with big doe eyes from where your head laid on a pillow. his eyes took in your body finally, eyes widening more at every exposed inch he could see. when they landed on your soaked pussy he smirked subtly.
jake climbed over you, pressing a deep kiss to your lips. âare you sure you want this?â he asked you breathlessly. his eyes were squeezed shut and his brows were furrowed, like he was fighting the urge to not ravage you right then and there.
âyes⊠please. iâm ready,â you whispered.
eyes fluttering open, jake brought his lips to yours again. he then started to kiss down your body, making sure he kept eye contact with you. when you looked away, his gaze too intense, he would immediately stop and grab your chin to look back at him. âyou donât have to be nervous, baby. itâs just me.â
how could you not be nervous? the last time he was this close to your body was when he was eating you out at that beach party. and you were nervous then, too; never having someone attached to your core before. even then, you only remembered bits and pieces from the encounterâjakeâs pretty mouth on your clit and the hazy sensation of his fingers inside you, stretching you outâyou being too drunk to remember the full thing. this time you were completely, absolutely, sober with none of the confidence the alcohol gave you.
jake kissed right above your core, stopping with a smile against your skin. you thought he was going to speak, but he instead dove straight in, tongue flicking against your clit as his lips sucked.
you immediately moaned out, back arching off the soft fabric beneath you and head throwing back. you gripped the blanket tightly in your hands as jake wrapped his arms around your thighs to keep you from moving. he continued his motions, eyes never leaving you. your hand found his wet blonde hair, fingers tangling in the strands as you pulled at them. âplease, jake!â
he hummed and you swear you saw stars, moaning loudly and trying to squirm away from his strong grip. âdoes that feel good?â jake asked you, breath fanning over your throbbing clit. all you could do was nod. âyeah?â jake asked, removing one of his hands from around your thighs.
his other hand rubbed at your clit with the pad of his thumb, sending jolts up your body, as the hand he freed teased at your entrance. you were a spluttering mess, desperate pleas for him to do something other than rub at your clit breaking the silence and clouding your thoughts. you barely even heard the chuckles that escaped jakeâs lips as he kept teasing. he waited until you were practically writhing underneath his touch and begging him for more before he finally slid his fingers inside you achingly slow. you barely registered the slight pain, only the pleasure.
âyouâre so pretty like this,â jake cooed.
you gasped as his fingers started to move, dragging against your gummy walls. the wetness making you dizzy and bringing tears to your eyes. jakeâs pace only grew the more his fingers fucked into you, fingers curling and making your thighs tremble.
just as you moaned out a broken âg-gonna cum!â jake replaced his thumb running circles into your clit with his mouth, his tongue swirling around your poor clit. his hand went to hold your legs open when you tried to squeeze them together, the rope in your stomach about to snap.
when it did finally snap, you were gripping the blankets so hard that the clenching of your fingers started to hurt. you cried out, weakly trying to push jakeâs head away with your other hand but getting nowhere. he didnât stop, lips sucking your clit as squelching sounds emitting from your spent pussy with how your cum now dripped down his fingers still pushing in and out of your entrance.
the vibrations of jakeâs laugh was like lighting throughout your body, shocking you to the core. you whimpered and jake finally pulled his lips away, satisfied with helping you ride out your high. he sat up on his knees and you looked up at him through half-closed eyes, brain foggy.
âyou ready for more? baby?â jake asked before sticking his cum coated fingers in his mouth while staring down at you. he let out another hum, eyes fluttering closed briefly, âyou taste so fucking good.â
you covered your face and sheepish smile with your hands and jake chuckled, leaning down to press a quick kiss on your lips once he was finished licking you up from his fingers. you could taste yourself on him. âare you ready?â jake asked and you nodded.
âwords, pretty. i wanna hear you,â jake added, moving your hands away from your face. your body was on fire still, still reeling from your recent orgasm. jake pressed kisses to your cheeks.
âiâm ready,â you uttered meekly.
jake leaned back and now it was your turn for your eyes to trail along his body, not quite getting the chance when his head was between your thighs making you see other galaxies. his blonde hair fell in his eyes, which he dragged his fingers through to get out of his way. toned body still glistening from your dip naked in the ocean, making you want to run your fingers along the soft skin. and finally⊠his large hard cock hovering mere centimeters above your still throbbing pussy, precum leaking from his tip.
you didnât know how you would fit all of him inside you, it barely looked like you could wrap your hand around him. but you were determined and you refused to back down. if you were going to have your first time with anybody, it would be jake sim.
âlift your hips for me, pretty.â your eyes snapped back to jakeâs face to see he had dragged a pillow next to the both of you. you did as you were told, knees wobbling slightly, and jake slid the pillow under your hips. he pressed another kiss to your lower stomach.
jake held his leaking cock, looking up at you for confirmation one last time and you nodded. âthis is gonna hurt for a second, okay? just take a deep breath.â
you inhaled deeply, waiting in anticipation and slight fear.
he lined the tip of his cock with your entrance, sliding it along your wet arousal and creamy white cum. slowly he began to push himself in and immediately you felt the stretch. you grimaced, resting your head back on the pillows. even with how wet you were with jake fingering you, and your previous release, jake was barely able to get his tip inside before you winced in pain.
ârelax, baby, relax,â jake soothed as he kissed the inner part of your thigh. you tried to will your body to loosen up, taking deep breaths to calm yourself. jake rubbed his thumb slowly into your clit, glancing down at you with a look full of concern. you were no doubt squeezing the hell out of him, if it werenât obvious from the small whimpers leaving his mouth as he slowly pushed in more.
after basically doing breathing exercises and jake giving you soothing kisses, he finally bottomed out, halting his movements so you can adjust to his length and thickness. you moved your arms from where they covered your tear-filled eyes and jake leaned down to kiss your cheek. âyouâre doing so well for me, pretty. tell me when to move,â he said softly.
once you felt like you werenât being split in half, you gave him the go-ahead. jake leaned back again. âdo you feel itâŠâ he started. his hand pressed down on your lower stomach and you gasped softly. âright here?â he continued.
you took your lip between your teeth and nodded, âyes⊠please start moving, jake.â you didnât know how long you could stand the feel of him completely stretching you out and filling you up. it felt like you were going to burst any minute if he didnât do something.
âyou want it that bad? youâre not scared anymore?â jake grinned and you shook your head. âgood, remember what i told you.â he slid his hands up your stomach to cup your breasts, thumbs rubbing over your hardened nipples before settling back down at your hips.
you struggled to remember what he was talking about, you mind going entirely blank. all you could think about was his cock inside you, his hands all over your body, and how you felt everything. was it âiâll be gentle⊠i promise,â or âget use to the feeling of your body shakingâ? your mind started to spin with how both sentences contradicted each other.
jake grunted as he slowly slid halfway out. âfuckâŠâ he groaned, his grip tightening on your thighs. âyouâre so fucking tightâsqueezing the shit out of me, baby.â he pushed in a little too fast and you moaned out, half pleasure and half pain.
he continued his slow pace, making sure he didnât go too fast so he wouldnât hurt you. your body finally relaxed, eyes rolling back and sensitive walls fluttering around jakeâs cock. âfaster,â you breathed.
âfaster?â jake repeated and you could just hear his smirk. âyou want me to fuck you faster?â without a response, jakeâs hips snapped to yours. he pulled his cock out until just his tip remained in you. jake hummed, waiting for your reply.
âyes!â you cried out, back arching from the way his cock rutted so deeply into you. your breathing was heavy and your tongue was heavy as you tried to form more words. ây-yes, please fuck me faster,â you whined, speech coming out slurred as your hands clawed at the messy blanket beneath you.
jake leaned down to bring his lips to yours just as he rutted into you once more. you moaned against his lips, the sound cutting off as he kissed you rougher. jake continued pounding into you, not hard enough to hurt you but enough to make sure you felt every inch of him inside you. he took your lip between his teeth as he pulled away slightly before letting go. âf-fuck you drive me crazy. do you know how long iâve been waiting to do this to you? fuck your perfect pussy like this?â
you barely registered his words, your blown out pupils staring at him hazily as you moaned louder each time his hips connected with yours. jake continued, his words slurring, âand to think that asshole almost had youâŠâ jake let out a wry laugh in between his heavy breaths, his hips moving faster on their own accord. âyouâre mine. all mine. can that asshole fuck you senseless like this?â
you bucked your hips up, shaking your head rapidly. you really didnât know who jake was talking about, but that didnât matter to you. he was right, nobody can fuck you like he can.
jake kissed you sloppily through your moans, breath hot on your cheeks as he occasionally pulled back for air with the way his chest rose and fell heavily. âthatâs it, baby... fucking take it,â he moaned when your back arched again and his cockhead hit deeper. âyouâre taking my cock so well. do you like how i split you open like this? do you feel how deep iâm fucking into you, pretty?â
tears streamed down your faces as you moaned out incoherent words, too dumb on jakeâs cock to think straight. all you could do was nod and tell him to move faster, clawing at his shoulders until your nails dragged red lines down his back. you never needed someone as much as you needed jake. it was like a fever, making you burn red-hot until every thought consisted of him
you whimpered loudly, trying to press your legs together and squirm away but jake held you in a death gripâmaking sure your legs stayed spread and your knees stayed pressed to your chest. your thighs shook in his grasp as you twisted from side to side, a squeal leaving your parted lips. âg-gonna cum!â you spoke shakily, whimpers falling from your mouth.
âgood, baby. let go for me. cum all over my cock,â jake gritted out, accent heavy, before throwing his head back in a moan. he muttered out curses as his pace increased slightly and then kissed you roughly. he kissed along your jaw and now to your neck, right where you were the most sensitive and leaving goosebumps in his wake. jake sucked pretty markings onto your skin, claiming you further as his.
you wrapped your arms tightly around his neck, on the verge of hiccuping just as you felt the cord in your stomach begin to fray. with a particularly hard thrust, wet squelching sounds filling the nighttime air, the cord snapped and you were smearing warm cum all over jakeâs cock.
the pillow beneath your hips prevented the cum from dripping out of you except when jake thrusted into you, dribbles of cum leaking out from around the base of his cock. jake leaned his forehead to yours, âf-fuck, baby. youâre taking my cock so well. you feel how well youâre pretty pussy is taking me? itâs l-like your pussy was made for my cock.â
you felt jake twitch inside you before he was filling you up with even more cum, the white liquid completely coating him as he fucked his cum back into you. your nails dug into his shoulders as you cried out from the overstimulation despite bucking your hips up to feel even more, unwrapping yourself from jakeâs neck to grab a fistful of the blanket as you shook underneath him. âtoo m-much, jake! ahââ
jake kissed you hard, moaning softly against your lips. he pulled back and leaned back onto his knees, hand holding the base of his heavy cock that was still buried deep inside you. you managed to sit up on shaky elbows. your poor pussy was glistening with your arousal and painted white you and jakeâs mixed cum.
you watched as jake slowly pulled out of you, creamy white liquid covering his softening cock, eyes fixed on how your pussy fluttered around the loss of him. the corners of his mouth pulled up into a wicked smile. you didnât even notice how he had pulled out his disposable camera, nor the flashes of how fucked out your face looked and how completely ruined by him you were beneath the full moonlight. âgood job, baby! iâm proud of how well you did,â jake leaned to kiss you, his cock sliding against your sensitive clit and making you jump. jake chuckled.
you beamed shyly, eyes avoiding his stare and instead focused on how his cum was still inside you. jake reached out his hands and you took them, slowly sitting up fully. his eyes focused on the way your mixed cum spilled down your thighs and dripped onto the blanket. âfuck,â jake murmured.
his eyes trailed up your body and to your swollen lips, his smile growing. you could see it in his eyes what he was thinking: you look the prettiest like this, defiled and my cum drilling out of you. jake kissed you again, softer than all of his previous kisses tonight.
âletâs get you cleaned up, pretty.â
âwhy are you walking so weirdly?â you motherâs voice startled you. you fiddled with the shear scarf youâre wearing. jake left a lot of love bites on youâmost that you were able to cover with makeup but some that shone straight through it no matter how many layers of concealer you put on it. you didnât really want your mom seeing that and asking a bunch of questions. it was also the height of summer and you could practically see the heatwaves in the air, so you didnât really want to be sporting a turtleneck right now.
your voice comes out slightly unsteady, âwhat do you mean?â
your mom comes to stand in front of you, eying you up and down. her gaze flicks back to yours with an analytical look. âyouâre walking like a duck. whatâs wrong with you?â she questions.
racking your brain for a suitable and believable lie, you rush out, âoh, i just hurt my ankle a little bit on the walk to work yesterday...â her gaze widens. âbut donât worry, mom! itâs nothing serious. iâve just been trying to not put as much pressure on it is all!â you quickly add.
you definitely werenât telling her that you lost your virginity last night to the renown player in this small town and you walking funny was the result. no, that would be much too embarrassing. you straightened your walk a little, trying to make it seem like you were okay. you were glad your back was turned to her so it hid your wince of pain. maybe you shouldnât have told jake to go so fast on your first timeâŠ
âweâll make sure you ice it or something, you donât need it getting worse,â your mother said before leaving the kitchen, mug in hand. you sighed in relief to yourself as you finished getting ready for work.
jake met you halfway on your journey and you smacked his arm hard whenever he came up next to you. âow!â he laughed, cradling his arm. âwhat was that for?â
âthat was for making me walk funny and leaving all kinds of love bites all over my skin that i had to try and hide!â you exclaimed, pointing at your neck with a pout. jake laughed, wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you closer.
you pouted again, âyou said youâd be gentle!â
jake pulled down the scarf you were wearing with his free hand. he pressed kisses to your neck, right where the marks were, causing you to squirm away from him from the sensitivity. âiâm sorry, baby,â he murmured against your skin. âbut you did tell me to go faster.â
you rolled your eyes at him and he laughed more. jake leaned down, his lips brushing up against the shell of your ear. âand i did say to get use to the feeling of your body shaking,â he added huskily, accent thick.
âbesides, you should see the red lines and crescent marks you left all over my back. iâm a lifeguard, i canât just put makeup and a scarf over it!â jake mumbled. you laughed at him.
the tank top he was wearing told you he clearly didnât care if others saw the marks you left. itâs almost as if he wanted to show them off. the two of you continued your walk.
[ YOU HAVE TO SAY âGOODBYEâ â 3RD MONTH ] âïž thirty-one days until you return home.
you sighed deeply as you stretched out your tired joints after a particularly long shift. the sun was blaring on your skin all day and despite the thin clothing of your work uniform, it did nothing to save you from the heat. you desperately just wanted to meet up with jake so the two of you could go swimming before the afternoon sun went down.
in the distance down the boardwalk you caught sight of jake. a smile spread itâs way across your face as you excitedly called out to him. jake didnât seem to hear you, instead turning the corner to where the water fountains were located. you quickened your step as you tried to catch up with him.
you were just about to call his name again as you turned the corner before you froze in your spot. the smile completely dropped from your face and you tucked yourself against the corner of the wall as your eyes widened at the scene in front of you.
jake and hana stood just a few feet from you. hana was pressed against him, arms lifting to wrap around his neck while one of his lingered around her waist, just barely hovering over the bare skin of her torso.
âoh? but you kissed me, so you obviously still have feelings for me!â you heard hana exclaim.
you moved to lean against the wall away from them, pressing your back to the cool bricks. you felt like your world was coming down around you, once again. how stupidâhow foolish of you to believe jake. your chest rose heavily as you tried to catch your breath. and what did hana mean by âstillâ? was she one of his exes this whole time?
suddenly everything started to fall in place. hanaâs constant encouragement of you ending things with jake under the guise of being a âgood friendâ. jake never coming to see you at work when hana was working the same shift as you. your eyes widened as you finally understood why jake was acting weirdly towards you the week leading up to the beach party.
it was hana he saved from drowning. the very same hana you told him was your good friend. you felt so stupid. you tried hard to keep the tears from brimming in your eyes.
you took a deep breath as you pushed yourself off the wall and another as you steadied yourself to go up to them. ââto mouth, âŠpsycho!â you heard jake say distantly, but the drumming in your ears overtook his words.
you stormed up to them and as soon as jake saw you he jumped five feet away from where he and hana were pressed up against each other. a nervous smile quickly appeared on his face and his mouth opened to speak before he got a good look at the state you were in. the smile fell from his face. ây/n, listen to me⊠itâs notââ
âyou know what, i shouldâve listened when people kept telling me you were a fucking player,â you swiftly cut him off, venom dripping from your voice with so much ferocity that it shocked even you. âyou never cared about me, did you?â
jake opened his mouth again, eyebrows knitting together, but you didnât let him speak. âis our spot even our spot, or is that where you take all the girls you want to sleep with? make them feel special and like theyâre the only girl in the world for a night before tossing them to the side?â
ânobody knows about that place but you. youâre the only one who knows about it, i swear, y/n. and iâm not playing you or tossing you aside. please, let me explââ jake started.
âsome people are just made for each other and some people arenât! and clearly⊠you and jake arenât meant for each other,â hana butted in, swinging her attention towards you with a smug smirk. it was like she was a completely different person now that the mask was taken off. she put a hand on your shoulder, âiâm your friend, take it from me!â
you harshly shrugged her off, causing her to scoff loudly. you glared at her fiercely. âshut the fuck up, hana!â you and jake spit out at the same time.
you refused to let the hurt creep into your voice, refused to let the two of them win against you. âi thought you were my friend, hana? how could you? the whole time you were only in my ear to try and give yourself the advantage. youâre both pieces of shit,â you said while staring daggers at her. you attention turned to jake.
it was almost impossible to not let the hurt show through. you had really tried, but looking into jakeâs eyes was the last nail in the coffin. his eyes were glossed over and he went to reach for you but you backed away. âall you wanted from me was to get your dick wet. youâre such a fucking asshole, i never shouldâve let myself get close to you. never shouldâve found that stupid spot and never shouldâve met you. all it caused was trouble,â you finally spoke, voice quiet as the tears slipped from your eyes.
you turned to leave but jake grabbed your wrist, you refused to turn and back and look at him. if you did, you knew you wouldnât be able to stand your ground because despite everything, you still wanted to be with him.
ây/n⊠please,â jake breathed, his voice breaking.
you roughly yanked your wrist from his grasp and more tears fell from your eyes. âyou donât have to worry about me getting in the way of your game anymore. iâll be gone by the end of the month and weâll never see each other again. weâre done, jake.â
you inhaled sharply, pushing down a sob as you quickly walked away from the two of them. behind you, jake kept calling your name, but it only pushed you to go faster until you were running. tears blocked your eyes as you let your feet guide you home.
your body collided with a hard chest and you looked up, sniffling and wiping your tears. âwhat happened?â jay asked as he steadied you.
all you wanted was to be in the comfort of your bed right now. you couldnât help the broken sob that left your mouth. âyou were right⊠there aren't any winners in the playerâs game. i get that now. thanks for telling me, jay,â you pushed out quickly before hurriedly making your way home.
you pushed through the front door and immediately ran over to where your mother stood half in shock. she wrapped her arms around you, her hand rubbing comforting circles in your back. âoh honey, what is it?â she asked softly between your wracked cries.
you just wished this day never happened.
two weeks have passed since youâve last seen jake. two weeks have passed since you last saw anybody, really. youâve mainly stuck to the confines of your motherâs childhood bedroom crying until you no longer had any tears to cry. you laid curled up in your bed, completely numb.
your family, especially your worried mother, tried checking up on you to see what happened but you just kept saying the same thing over and over again, âiâm fine.â or at the very least, you will be once youâre back in your hometown and far away from this one. there was only a little over two more weeks left and then youâll be rid of all this drama for good.
a little over two more weeks and youâll never have to see or even think about jake sim ever again.
half of you is finally ready to go home. it was funny how you thought this place would give you a pseudo fresh start. the other half of you⊠it wants some type of closure.
for the two weeks youâve been tied to this bed youâve debated on if you wanted to give jake one last and final goodbye. not for him, but for you. to close this chapter of your life once and for all. you sighed as you heard your phone buzz again.
jake: i know you said you needed space, but please let me explain everything. jake: i promise you nothing happened between me and hana. jake: or any other girl besides you for that matter. jake: please talk to me, y/n.
heâs been texting and occasionally calling you since you left him and hana to their own devices two weeks ago. you havenât answered a single call or message from him. at first, you read every message that came through and listened to every voicemail, but listening to his voice, accent filled with sadness and guilt, made you feel worse.
you ignored the buzzing as a knock sounded on your door. you didnât have the energy to move from the blank, white wall you were staring at, nevermind talk, so the knocker entered without a word. the bed dipped beside you and a hand was placed on your shoulder.
âhoney, thereâs lunch downstairs if youâre hungry,â you mother spoke, softly. you said nothing. you heard her defeated sigh as she stood to her feet.
âmom?â you asked, voice barely above a whisper, as you turned to her. you caught a glimpse in the mirror of your red-rimmed puffy eyes. you looked like you went through the ringer. your mom froze briefly before turning back to you with a hopeful smile. âcan we catch an early flight back home?â you continued.
your motherâs smile faltered slightly, but she nodded sadly. just then, another knock was heard. this time you recognized it as the front door. your mom gave you one last sad smile before leaving the room and shutting the door behind her. you went back to staring at the same blank, white wall. a moment later your mother came back.
âitâs for you.â
you sighed softly and pulled yourself up from the bed. you felt like a zombie with your red eyes and dark circles and pajamas that hung limply off your body as you made the trek to the front door. with another sigh, you opened it, breath catching in your throat.
jake stood on the other side, blonde hair looking like he hasnât brushed it a day in his life and the same red eyes and dark circles as you. he had dark brown roots sprouting from his scalp, despite him always making sure to keep them touched up. he looked rough, but you suppose you didnât look any better.
ây/nâŠâ jake breathed, like he couldnât actually believe heâd ever see you standing in front of him again.
in the corner of your vision you saw your mom exit down the hallway to her room, giving the two of you some privacy. you didnât hear anyone else in the house, so your aunt and cousin mustâve been out. you resisted the urge to slam the door shut in jakeâs face. âi donât want to see you,â you spoke sternly, a bite in your tone.
âi wonât be able to live with myself if you leave believing in a lie. please hear what i have to say,â jake pleaded.
you squeezed your eyes shut as you fought back tears. seeing him was too much. everything, every emotion came slamming against you like a tsunami and you wobbled on your feet. you inhaled a shaky breath and opened your eyes as tears fell from them. âi. donât. care. i donât care what you have to say, i donât want to hear it!â you shuddered, voice progressively getting louder as more and more tears fell from your eyes and his.
you shut your eyes again and focused on steadying your breathing. a hand came to rest on your upper-back. âi think you should go,â you heard your motherâs voice say protectively. you didnât open your eyes again until you heard jakeâs retreating footsteps. only then did you see his defeated retreating figure.
your mom pulled you into a hug and shut the door, effectively blocking your view of jake. you buried your face in her chest as a sob overtook your whole body. your mother held you close, rubbing comforting circles in your back.
the next day you couldnât get the vision of jake at your doorstep out of your mind. itâs all you thought about all night. the tears that fell from his eyes and his defeated stance as he ushered away. you decided on the half of you that wanted closure.
you: meet me at your spot.
despite you sending that message as you were already halfway there, jake was still there before you like he always was. he was pacing around when you entered, looking even worse than he did yesterday. when he turned and saw you, he immediately started, ây/n, iââ
you held up a hand to stop him. you didnât come here to hear his excuses. âdonât speak,â you said, and you sounded so done with the world. like nothing even mattered anymore. âiâm not here to hear whatever excuses youâve come up with, iâm here merely for closure.â
jakeâs brows furrowed as you talked and his shoulders slumped. a look of confusion rang loudly on his face as he tried to piece together what you were saying. âiâm going back home earlyâa couple days from now, actually. so this is goodbye, jake.â you turned to leave but he grabbed your wrist to stop you.
âwaitâŠâ jake murmured with a pleading gaze. he pulled a folded up piece of paper from his pocket and pressed it into the hand that held your wrist until your grip tightened around it. you looked down briefly and looked back up at jake with a melancholic look.
âplease,â jake begged, voice a whisper. âplease donât go.â
you shook your head at him and went to pull your wrist from his grasp but he held on tighter, refusing to let you slip through his fingers again. âwhat about the rest of our bucket listâsummer splash? we were supposed to go together⊠and i was supposed to show you more of the hidden spots around townâyou canât leave yet, y/n. you canât.â
you looked away from him and the way his voice broke as he spoke to you. you pulled your wrist again to escape the shaking from his hands. this time you were able to break free. you shook your head again, âgoodbye, jake.â
you didnât look back at him as you sped away, over the rocks and through the warm sand as tears fell once again from your eyes. you knew if you did youâd stay, and you just didnât know how much more heartbreak your heart could take. you had to leave, there was no other option. if you looked back at him, you wouldâve stayed forever.
as you and your mother packed your things for your upcoming flight, the letter jake gave you burned a hole through your brain from how much you were thinking about it. the feather-light paper weighed a ton of bricks everytime you picked it up that you stuck it in the pocket of your suitcase to hopefully forget about it. you didnât.
it was all you could think about as you said your goodbyes to your family and as you entered the airport to wait for your flight. you didnât want to read it, but a part of you had to know what the contents of the letter were.
you slipped the letter out of the pocket it was in as you were boarding your flight, making sure to keep a tight hold of it so you wouldnât lose it anywhere. only when your mother had fallen asleep did you unfold it and read jakeâs words, inhaling sharply as your eyes scanned the first line.
to my love, my one and only,
iâve never really written a letter to someone before. as i told you, iâm not really the best at expressing my emotions, but iâve run out of options to get my feelings across to you. i really do hope you read this.
where do i start? from the beginning, i guess⊠when i pulled you out from the water, you were the prettiest girl i had ever seen. iâll admit that then, i only saw you at face value. i only saw what you could do for me, and not you as a person. but then i thought that it was fine because it was likely that iâd never see you again, until i saw you at our spot.
something in my brain just automatically clicked and i had to get to know you; know your name and all of your interests and hobbies and every single little mundane thing about you. i just knew i had to know you. put aside my ways and be someone worthy of even being your friend. so thatâs what i did, or at least, thatâs what i tried really hard to do. it turns out when youâve screwed over as many people as i did, karma comes to bite you in the ass quick.
but even then, i couldnât help falling in love with you. i wanted to spend every waking moment with you, just breathing the same air. unfortunately, that didnât stop me from fucking up repeatedly. i got jealous, and albeitâeven a little possessive, and got out of line. i really hurt you and words canât describe how sorry i am.
iâll say it once, and iâll say it a million more times if i have to. i meant what i said when i told you that youâre the only want i wanted. not hana, not some random other girl, you. youâre the one i want, the one that i desperately need, and now youâre slipping through my fingers because of my own dumb actions.
i shouldâve been honest with you and maybe things wouldnât have ended like this. iâm sorry that hana and iâs past ruined our relationship, and iâm sorry that i let so many things come between us to ruin it as well.
about two years ago, hana and i dated. it didnât last very long, only four months, but sheâs made my life hell ever since trying to get back with me. no, i didnât cheat on her or anything of that sort, we just didnât click. and i donât know if it was my reputation or what, but sheâs been trying to tell me in any way she could that that was a mistake.
i donât know how much you overheard, but none of it was true. she cornered me and wrapped herself around me, saying how i mustâve still had feelings for her since we âkissed.â the kiss in question being me giving her mouth to mouth and saving her life. i told her that she was a psycho to think that mouth to mouthâsaving a personâs lifeâwas kissing. thatâs when you found us.
i would do anything to fix this, anything for another chance with you. prove to you that iâm someone you can be with and not have to worry about what my next move will be. if iâm being completely honestâand iâm not saying this to try and manipulate you or anything, so please donât take it that wayâbut over the course of the summer i really have fallen for you, y/n. with these unfortunate circumstances, it made me realize that i love you, i really do. and iâll fight for you, because our relationship canât end on this note. i refuse.
iâm so sorry for everything iâve done and everything that has happened because of me. and the worst part is, iâm not sure if iâll ever even be able to tell you any of this in person. iâm not even sure if iâll ever even see you again, but i have have hope that i will. like the poets say, or whatever, two people who are meant to be will always find a way back to each other. and we are meant to be.
no matter how long it take, iâll wait for you.
iâm also sorry for this shitty fucking letter, i tried to be all poetic and in tune with my emotions, but i got do clue how to do any of that shit. i hope my emotions still shine through, though. i love you.
always yours, jake
you clamped a hand over your mouth as you suppressed your sobs, looking at the letter through your now blurry vision. you didnât know how to feel, if you were being honest with yourself. it took your mind a while just to process everything he was saying. the one thing that stuck with you at the moment was the fact that he loved you. jake loved you, and you were coming to the startling realization that you loved him too.
youâve never loved anyone romantically, but the feeling was undeniable as anything but. you loved him and he loved you.
tucking the letter neatly and safely into the pocket of your carry-on bag, you tried to focus on everything that has happened this summer. tried to name every emotion that came up and categorize every thought. you still didnât come up with an inkling on how to feel. even if jakeâs words were true, which you suspect they were, that doesnât change all the hurt he put you through because of his selfishness.
but still, you regretted ending everything how you did. now you were millions of miles in the air far away from where jake was and the only thought in your head was how you missed him already. how you wished you kissed him one last time.
how you wished you were next to him laying under the stars where the rest of the world melted away.
but it was too late. you had already made your decision, and you had no choice but to stick with it.
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park sunghoon x idol!fem!reader | stuck by the glue onto you
wc. 1.2k genre. strangers to lovers(??), pining + clingy hoon cw. none!! notes. idk what this is but this was todays daydream! so i had to write it into a fic (kinda messy bc itâs a brain dump but!)
you were laid out in your bed after a long day of practice, taking time to admire the view out your window while also scrolling through tiktok. you wanted to see if fans had watched your groupâs new variety show with enhypen yet, knowing how excited both fandoms were after seeing the teaser.
when you scrolled onto a particularly interesting video, you sat up, your heart rate increasing as your eyes narrowed on the text.
âsunghoon realizing that heâs in love with y/nâ was the caption in the middle of the screen along with âglue songâ playing in the background. you took a deep breath before allowing the video to play, already feeling butterflies invade your stomach.
CLIP #1
you were very nervous while being interviewed considering that your group had only recently debuted. it was your first week doing promotions and due to being a foreigner, you werenât very confident with your korean yet.
as your shaky hands held the microphone close to your face, you began to stumble over your words. the dialogue on the script you were supposed to repeat suddenly blurring together. panic crossed your face for a split second, and mc sunghoon noticed that. he quickly mumbled the word you forgot into his microphone and you shot him a grateful smile before repeating and continuing with your small speech.
CLIP #2
you had remembered seeing this clip about a year ago, trying to brush it off even though the moment had never left your mind. apparently sunghoon couldnât divert his gaze from you at an award show, his eyes practically sparkling as he observed you in your gorgeous dress. sunghoon rarely looked at any other female idols, so fans seemed to single out the moments when sunghoonâs attention was only directed onto you. when the two of you crossed paths, he smiled and politely bowed which caused you to do the same.
CLIP #3
your group was meeting enhypen for the variety show you had recently filmed with their group. everyone was shy and timid even though you had met each other many different times due to being under the same company. fans seemed to mostly focus on you and sunghoon though, who were very giggly and flustered. sunghoonâs ears turned a light pink as he shook your hand, his palms already sweaty due to the small encounter.
CLIP #4
sunghoon tried his best to be nonchalant about the fact that you had both been paired together for the field day activities, which was hard considering his long time crush on you. once the two of you started playing the games, you became more comfortable with each other. it seemed as if you two had been lifelong friends as you laughed and joked with each other.
the members teased him about being your shadow while completing missions, noticing how sunghoon never left your side even for a second.
CLIP #5
during your lunch break, sunghoon still seemed to follow you like a lost puppy. he timidly walked up to you, watching as you served yourself from the mini buffet the company set up.
âwhat are you eating?â he asked softly, causing to quickly look up at him with wide eyes. he scared you a bit, but the momentary surprise was soon replaced by comfort due to his presence.
âoh umâŠi was just combing some stuff. i came up with this really good combination, want to try it?â you asked, your tone becoming more light once you got over the initial shock of sunghoon being so close. sunghoon nodded his head in agreement, allowing you to take his plate and serve him.
when you had expected sunghoon to walk away and join the boys at a smaller round table to eat, he didnât, keeping close as you looked around for an empty seat. since you concluded that sunghoon wanted to eat with you, you led him to a picnic table for two, smiling at the boy as he sat across from you.
the boys all gave him curious looks, the editors making small question marks appear above their heads as they observed you two. sunghoon didnât seem to careâ or maybe he simply didnât notice, too focused on your pretty smile and the way your cheeks puffed up as you shoved rice into your mouth.
CLIP #6
while walking up a trail to find your next mission, you had nearly stepped into a deep mud puddle that would have definitely ruined your favorite pair of sneakers. sunghoon stopped you quickly, placing a strong arm in front of your torso to stop you from moving. you looked at up him with a raised brow before realizing that you had nearly stepped into the mess.
âah, thank you.â you giggled nervously, feeling grateful that the gentleman next to you had been looking out for your safety. the boy mumbled a small âyour welcomeâ before grabbing onto your sweater and gently tugging you around the puddle. the action made your insides melt.
CLIP #7
when everyone had finished their respective missions and mini games, you were all called back to the picnic area where you had first started. sunghoon and a few other members were already there, waiting for the rest to arrive. the boy was about to sit down on the plush grass until he saw you and a couple of your group mates walk into the area. you sat down behind jay and a member of your group, causing sunghoon to look longingly at you. before he could even warn himself about being too obvious about his crush, he walked over and sat down next to you, a small smile on his face as your gazes met.
you looked at him for a second too long, causing you both to quickly look away in a flustered frenzy. you bit your lip to suppress a giggle, trying to focus on jungwon who was congratulating both groups for finishing the tasks.
CLIP #8
the clip was zoomed in, and you hadnât even noticed that the camera had still been recording your actions. you and sunghoon walked away from the picnic area with the rest of your groups back to the car, playfully bumping shoulders as you trekked up a hill. it wasnât much compared to the rest of the clips, but it was enough considering the compilation you had just watched.
you breathed out a shaky sigh before opening the comments, noticing how everyone cooed over the interactions and gushed over how sunghoon seemed to be enamored of you. people described how his eyes lit up whenever you smiled and how he had been attached to you like glue throughout the whole video.
you were a bit surprised that you hadnât noticed how clingy sunghoon had been that day, only focusing on how you finally had time to get to know the boy more.
you smiled upon playing the video a second time, your finger hovering over the âshareâ button before finally copying the link and sending it to sunghoon on a whim.
you waited all night for a response, barely being able to stomach down your dinner and constantly darting your eyes over to your phone that only seemed to light up from company emails and your groupâs chat.
suddenly as you were getting ready for bed, your phone lit up with a notification from sunghoon. you quickly grabbed the device, toothbrush dangling out of your mouth as you read over the text message multiple times. a squeal threatened to emerge from the back of your throat once you had finally had processed his words.
[sunghoon: ah, i guess they caught meâŠitâs been hard to take my eyes off such a pretty girl ~]
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Hard Launching â°ââĄâ°â
Summary: lando and y/n wanted to hard launch their relationship after dating secretly for a while. lando finds the perfect way to do so.
â ln x reader â§Ë*°àż
â fluff + humour â§Ë*°àż
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lando and y/n had been discussing for a while about hard launching their relationship. they had managed to keep it out of the media for an entire season, but the media liked to paint lando as a villain, in more ways than one. not only were they attacking his skills on track, they began collecting pictures of lando with women, no matter how many years ago, and publishing them with articles about him being a womanizer.
the funniest ones were the pictures of lando and her sister out on some bonding time. reading those articles always made y/n laughed, and she would be lying if she said that she didnât have them bookmarked in her browser for a pick me up when she was having a bad day.
at first, they had thought of doing a simple post with a cheesy caption. enough to let the fans knows that he was off the market again. but, it also felt kind of boring, and that was not lando or y/nâs style.
they discussed it for weeks, looking at different social media websites for inspiration, until it struck lando. scrolling through instagram, heâd found the perfect way to hard launch his relationship with his girlfriend.
when y/n asked him, he said, âyouâll just have to wait like the rest of the world, my love. but, i know youâre going to love it.â
y/n waited, just like he had told her to. she waited for two months, until one day, in the middle of her work, she received the instagram notification of lando posting and tagging her. this was the moment, y/n thought.
opening instagram, she found a reel, instead of a post or a story like she assumed. quickly, wearing her airpods, y/n clicked on the reel, increasing the volume in the background.
the reel opened with someone recording lando as he walked, head down and concentrated. the person recording said, âexcuse me, what are you listening to right now?â
lando took out one of his airpods, and said, âmy girlfriend yapping,â and then walked away.
the reel immediately cut to different instances of y/n talking and lando patiently listening. they were all sped up videos, and y/n watched her animated hands as she ranted, and lando listening, changing his position every so often. the music in the background was a lively, jaunty sound, and it fit so well with the reel.
there were a series of videos, from their home, from the paddock, from conference rooms where they were waiting for zak, or even from the gym where lando worked out, and y/n basically followed him, still talking his ear off. there were multiple videos of them on facetime as well, or screenshots of their hour - hour and half long conversations.
y/n laughed. it truly was the perfect way for lando to hard launch their relationship. it described them perfectly, if she did say so herself.
scrolling through the comments, she saw a lot of fans crying that he was a taken man now. she saw some saying things like, âthis is the realest representation of a relationship.â there were some hate comments too, but they were stupid, so she ignored them.
she commented on the post as well, typing, âwait till i send you a 20 minute voice note on my lunch breakâ to which lando immediately responded with, âcanât wait, i got my airpods and my phone fully chargedâ
y/n laughed again, opening her text messaging app, and sending a quick âi love you this was perfectâ to her boyfriend.
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HOW TO NOT SURVIVE HIGHSCHOOL
LYING to his friends about having a girlfriend was definitely not on his âhow to survive highschoolâ list and now, he has to convince his biggest rival that will surely laugh at his face, to fake date him.
PAIRING. rugby player+rival!sunghoon X rival-fem!reader (mentions of the rest of enha, aespaâs karina and boynextdoor taesan)
GENRE. childhood enemies to fake dating to lovers, angst, comedy, fluff and idk what more.
WARNINGS. young sunghoonâs a bitch, so is young y/n, also older sunghoonâs a bitch and so is y/n, manipulating here and there, misunderstandings, miscommunications, definitely curse words (seventh graders already know how to curse here!) , horrible humor, ik its weird but all of the mentioned idols here are the same age! (lmk if i missed something pls!)
WORD-COUNT. 10.4k+
NOTE. ok fine! bully me for not knowing how to make a pretty cover, its the story that matters though, right? anyways besties i really dunno when will be my next update so please be patient!! i miss writing and being here 24/7 honestly but its just been really hard for me.
âi need you to fake date meâ
ânoâ
âplease?â
âare you seriously begging right now?â
âyes?â
âthatâs fun, get on your knees and beg moreâ
âare you nuts? iâll never do thatâ
âfine then, pay me for thatâ
âhow much?â
âtwoâ
âdollars?â
âbillionsâ
if thereâs one thing sunghoon can say about himself is that heâs quite an organized person, therefore he made a list for highschool.
a list that will help him survive his last years in highschool and will help him stay sane at the same time.
he called his list âhow to survive highschoolâ, creative, right?
heâs been following his list and so far managed to survive just perfectly.
staying in rugby team with his friends? check!
âsunghoon! catch!â he heard a voice calling him and saw a ball coming right at him, he caught the ball and ran with it, then passing the ball to riki, his friend and teammate who scored the game and ended it with a win.
âthat was a good one! take a break and return in thirty minutes!â the rugby teamâs coach clapped and sent the players off for break.
âhey! i got your exam grades here! come collect them!â jungwon, one of sunghoonâs friends waved the exams to show the players he got the them in his hands.
sunghoon went up to jungwon and took his own.
get high grades? check!
âi got A+ again!â he looked at the grade and excitedly smiled.
âugh, youâre making me sick being the nerdy rugby playerâ jay, another friends of his rolled his eyes.
âyouâre just jealous my grades are higher than your chances with your crushâ sunghoon joked.
âoh youââ âenough! no fighting on break timeâ heeseung cut jay in the middle of his sentence.
âletâs just get something to snack, itâs lunch time anywayâ sunoo suggested and they all nodded.
âyou guys ready?â riki asked before they entered the hallway.
get popular enough so students will freak out when they see you? check!
âsunghoon! i got you this chocolate snack! please accept this and enjoy itâ a one random student handed him the chocolate snack.
before he could take it, jake snatched it and smiled, âiâll take that, thank youâ and left the girl and sunghoon speechless.
âdude what the fuck?â he asked his friend.
âit could be poisoned for all you careâ jake shrugged but proceeded to take a bite from the snack as they kept walking.
âletâs just sit right there!â jungwon pointed at one lunch table as they entered the cafeteria.
âreally? right in front of where y/n is sitting?â sunoo whispered in his ear.
âsure, letâs do thatâ sunghoon replied and started walking towards the table.
âum, iâll go grab the snacksâ riki said and ran to get the snacks.
âdid he just-â âoh, itâs going to be interestingâ jake smirked and watched sunghoon as he walked really closer to you, who was sitting with your back towards him.
âso, what are your plans for the weekend?â your friend karina asked as she took a bite of your food.
âoh i donât really know, probably chilling at home andââ you were cut off middle sentence by someone bumping into you, causing you to spill some of your food on your uniform.
âwhat the fuck?â you turned around and saw the person behind it, âshouldâve known it was you, parkâ
get yourself a rival so itâll be more fun and interestingâŠ.? check!
âsorry, couldnât see you thereâ he smirked.
âjust go awayâ you rolled your eyes at him and turned to your friend who looked awkward as hell.
âsureâ he started to walk but bumped into you again, causing you to spill more food on your clothes.
âoops! that happened againâ he chuckled and continued to walk to the table.
âthatâs itâ that was your last straw.
you got up and took your water bottle, ây/n dontââ your friend tried to stop you but it was too late already.
as you got closer to sunghoon, you poured all your water on him.
âwhat theââ âsorry!! i slipped over and spilled some on you!!â you replied with a smirk and stormed off.
his friends who were watching the whole thing from afar, walked closer to now drenched sunghoon and started laughing.
âdamn, that was fun. do it again!â jay cheered.
âhere sunghoon i got you a towel!â a student walked up to him and handed him a towel to dry himself.
âthank you, iâll take itâ sunoo said and took the towel.
sunghoon glared at him, âwhat? youâre already used to being drenched by sweat, itâs the same thing, no?â
âi hate himâ you rolled your eyes.
âsay, whatâs the deal with you and sunghoon? you never really told me and i just assumed he annoys you because heâs a nerdy rugby player,â she chuckled, âbut it seems more than thatâ
âpark sunghoon has been on my ass ever since seventh gradeâ you sighed.
âwhy? what happened on seventh grade?â she asked, leaving everything she was busy on behind and crossing her hands to focus on you and you only.
before seventh grade you and sunghoon were best friends, hell, your parents couldâve sworn that one day youâll end up marrying each other.
you were stuck like a glue, always around each other and doing basically everything together, no one could tear you apart.
until, seventh grade happened.
you were the top student in class, you aced everything, from math to arts and received praises from all teachers. for the last few days of school, the teacher wanted you to show the whole school your arts project.
you drew your favorite view, which was your house garden, the teacher got so excited over the drawing and decided she wants you to show it to everyone else too.
a day before the last day of school, you were busy doing the last touches of your art, sunghoon was busy doing his usual, which was to annoy you.
âsunghoon stop! i need to focusâ you scoffed.
sunghoon shrugged, âbut iâm boredâ
âgo play around with others or somethingâ you sighed.
he shook his head, ânot when i can annoy you!â
he walked back and forth, even twirled around, until he became dizzy and accidentally pushed you over your drawing, making it look like a big mess over the canvas.
you let out a yelp and looked at it with teary eyes.
âiâŠ.iâm sorry!â he quickly said.
âget out!â you yelled without even looking at him.
âit can be fixed! just a few littleââ âi asked you to get out! you ruined my drawing! how will i be able to show it to everyone now?â at this point you started crying.
you didnât show your unfinished and ruined art in front of everyone, instead it was sunghoonâs drawing that was shown to everyone.
your teacher saw the ruined art and decided to change the plans by taking sunghoonâs project and showing it to everyone.
jealousy was eating you alive. it was supposed to be you up there on stage, showing the project to everyone and getting the compliments, you deserve that after working so hard.
it was sunghoonâs fault, all of it.
before you walked away with your parents, sunghoon called you a few times. at first you ignored his callings, but your parents, unbeknown to the whole story behind it, stopped your tracks and told you to go to sunghoon.
with heavy steps you walked closer to him, âwhat do you want?â you coldly asked.
âi wanted to apologizeâ he took a deep breath.
âgreat, you just didâ
âwaitââ
âweâre good now, i forgive youâ you lied. you just didnât feel like hearing his excuses and explanations.
âwow, really?â
âyeahâ no.
although you told sunghoon you forgive him, things became really awkward between the two of you.
summer vacation arrived and you did your best to ignore him, except the times where he left you no choice and just randomly showed up at your house.
eighth grade was cool between the two of you, but you still held strong feelings against him.
he tried his best to overcome the weird awkwardness between the two of you, youâre too important for him to let go. he was honestly so scared of entering highschool without you by his side.
the second half of eighth grade was the last straw between the two of you.
you started crushing over someone in your class, and started hanging out with him, slowly getting close to the guy.
sunghoon, who was carefully watching you from behind, didnât like your new crush, he seemed like bad news to him, getting close not only to you, but to other girls as well.
your parents, who were strict that time, warned you about dating a guy at such young age, and sunghoon had to do what he had to do.
âpark, what the fuck?â you came up to him and pushed him.
âwhat?â he asked surprised.
âwhy the fuck did you tell my parents about him?â you shout.
âoh,â he rolled his eyes, âso itâs about himâ
âof course itâs about him! you know about my long time crush on him!â
âheâs bad news y/nâ sunghoon tried to warn you.
âno, youâre bad news! i shouldâve known not to forgive you at allâ you scoffed and walked away.
ây/n, wait!â sunghoon called you but you were faster than the light and suddenly was nowhere to be found.
âuh ohâ jay, who was there to witness everything pat his friendâs back, âyou fucked upâ
âyeah, thanks jay i really needed thatâ sunghoon rolled his eyes.
âreally? going behind her back and telling her parents about some guy? you couldâve just talked with her about itâ jay snapped.
âitâs not that easyâ
âit sure isnât, and so will be your attempts to talk with herâ
jay was right, sunghoon tried everything to get to talk with you, followed you everywhere, sent you numerous texts and calls until you had to block his number, even showed up at your house a few times. nothing helped.
so sunghoon, being the cool teenager he is, decided to move on. he doesnât need you anymore anyways.
nineth grade came and so did a new student that sunghoon couldnât take his eyes off of.
slowly he tried his best to get closer to her and spending more time with her, he was so close to confess his feelings towards her.
âdid you do that on purpose?â she asked, nothing but hatred in her eyes as she looked at sunghoon.
âdo whatâŠ?â he asked confused.
âdid you tell the whole school about my family issues?â she raised her voice.
âwhat? no! i would neverââ
âforget it, youâre such a jerk!â she yelled and stormed out.
âwait!!â he called her and was about to run after her but his eyes caught a glimpse of a person smirking.
he clenched his jaw and moved closer to the figure, âwhat the fuck did you do?â he asked.
ânothing, i donât know what youâre talking aboutâ the person shrugged.
âdonât play dumb, y/n. i know you had something to do with itâ he rolled his eyes.
âstill donât know what youâre talking aboutâ you shrugged again, âmaybe someoneâs just taking a revenge on you, i don't knowâ you added and left with a smirk.
âi hate you choi y/n!â he shout. âitâs mutual park sunghoon!â
âoh now i get it! yes girl! give him the revenge he deserves to getâ karina cheered and you nodded.
âbut, donât you think he ruined your chances with your crush just because he was jealous?â she asked and you glared at her, âi mean, even your parents couldâve sworn youâd end up getting marriedâ
âeven if he was jealous, he shouldâve confronted me about itâ you replied and she nodded.
âyouâre rightâ she sighed, âbut what if he was, i donât know, scared?â
âare you seriously on his side now?â you asked in disbelief.
ânever!â she hugged you and you giggled.
âletâs get you cleaned up, i think i have an extra uniform in my lockerâ
âoh no, walking in school hallways like that is like just straight up asking to be bulliedâ
âi wonât let anyone bully you bae, letâs goâ
âby the way! all of you are invited to my brotherâs wedding, no single hoes are invited though, that includes you sunghoonâ heeseung chuckled,
âsweet! when is it?â jake asked.
âin a monthâ
âwhat? you cannot be serious!â sunghoon complained.
âsorry, your single ass will not be able to handle this weddingâ heeseung shrugged.
âeven riki has a partner before youâ sunoo laughed.
âguys just realized sunghoon is really the only one single hereâ jungwon added which made everyone laugh and make jokes about him.
âall of you can shut up because i actually do have a girlfriendâ
heeseung was obviously joking about sunghoon not being invited because heâs single, but he was not expecting to hear his friend confessing that he actually is seeing someone now.
sunghoon was also not expecting that big lie to come out of his mouth, but it was already too late.
âwhat?â jungwon spoke first after the silence that surrounded after his confession.
âi do have a girlfriendâ no sunghoon, you can still get away with it and say you were joking.
sunghoonâs list of surviving highschool has a lot of tasks still left untouched, but this one was definitely not, and was never written, as one of his tasks on his list.
lie to your friends about having a girlfriend? definitely not on the list, stop with the lies!!!
his friends looked at him in shock. riki dropped the spoon he was about to shove into his mouth, jake choked on his water and heeseung pat his back, jay almost fainted and jungwon and sunoo froze in their place.
âwhat?â sunghoon asked.
they all burst into laughter, âthat was a good one! i almost believed you!â riki wiped his tears that fell down because of the amount of laughter he let out.
âiâm serious!â sunghoon scoffed.
âyou? a girlfriend? sunghoon, i saw your âhow to survive highschoolâ list, you had a âno matter what, stay single until you finish highschool!â line!â jay chuckled.
âi can break one line its not a big deal, besides, sheâs definitely worth itâ sunghoon smiled.
heâs talking about no one, no one comes to his mind at the moment, but he still keeps on with his lie.
âwill we be able to see her before the wedding?â heeseung asked.
âa day before maybeâ sunghoon nodded.
âhey! weâre already late for practice! get up everyone now!!â jungwon checked the clock and hurried everyone up.
sunghoon knows he fucked up, real bad. he never had a normal conversation with a girl in highschool, and letâs not forget about the fact that everyone talks to him as if he has some kind of royal blood.
the only real friendship he had with a girl was with you in his childhood. and youâre the only girl who can talk back to him without feeling threatened. wait, thatâs it!
âi need you to fake date meâ
curse him and his very awful impulse control.
as soon as sunghoon finished his practice he went to the library, figured heâd find you there and apparently he was right.
the book you were reading was long forgotten as you tried to process what you just heard.
ânoâ you replied shortly.
âplease?â he sounded so desperate.
âare you seriously begging right now?â
âyes?â
âthatâs fun, get on your knees and beg moreâ you smirked.
âare you nuts? iâll never do thatâ he frowned and rolled his eyes.
âfine then, pay me for thatâ
âhow much?â
âtwoâ
âdollars?â
âbillionsâ
âhell noâ
âkiss my ass goodbye thenâ you shrugged.
âyouâre unbelievableâ
âsaid the one who barged into the library and started begging me to date himâ
âyeah, itâll help you become popularâ he slightly nodded.
âright, youâre already popular and have multiple fans or whatever, why donât you just ask them?â
âitâll just make things worse!â
âfuck off sunghoon, iâm not going to fake date you and help you because of some stupid lie you toldâ you rolled your eyes and got back to reading the book.
he tried begging you once more but at this point you just decided to ignore him until he left.
âwhat the heck was that?â you asked yourself and shook your head.
âhey y/n!â you heard a voice calling you and you immediately recognized this voice.
it belonged to taesan, your classmate and also your longtime crush. taesanâs quite popular amongst the students, and surprising so, heâs not a rugby player.
youâve made a pros and cons lists about your few old crushes and also made one about your current crush, taesan.
pros? heâs funny, smart, creative, caring, friendly, kind and would prefer to spend his free time in the library with you.
cons?
âhey sunghoon dude! didnât see you there, what are you doing here?â
heâs sunghoonâs best friend. that is a BIG no no for you.
âjust came to check something, studying again?â sunghoon smirked as he looked at you.
did he seriously wait for taesan to come so he could spend more time annoying you?
âyeah, itâs my studying with y/n time, weâve been doing that for a whileâ taesan smiled widely and winked at you.
without even noticing your cheeks started to heat up. but your blushing cheeks were already noticed by someone whoâs definitely going to use that against you.
âright, iâm not going to interrupt you two, enjoy!â sunghoon said as he gave you one last smirk before turning around and leaving.
âisnât he so weird sometimes? i can definitely understand why you hate his gutsâ taesan chuckled and you nodded.
âhow are you today anyway? didnât see you that muchâ he smiled.
âso far so good, you?â
âgreat now that iâm here with youâ
you tried your best to stop your racing heart beats after hearing what he said and making eye contact with him.
you just giggled and opened a book right away, âletâs just start with this book!â
after some time that felt like half an hour to you (but was actually two hours or so) it was time to go back home.
âlet me walk you homeâ taesan suggested.
âitâs okay, i live closeby, if so iâm the one who needs to walk you homeâ you giggled.
âi insistâ
you didnât reply to him and just walked out of the library as he followed you.
âoh hey y/n, taesan!â you stopped your trace when you noticed sunghoon standing right outside the library.
âsunghoon? why are you still here?â taesan asked, emphasizing the last question.
âjust walked by after dropping yeji at her friendâs house, also i promised y/n iâll walk her home, right y/n?â
you looked at him confused but he gave you the âyou better say yes nowâ look, and besides, you didnât want to bother taesan with the long walk.
âright, i completely forgot, iâm really sorry taesan, next time iâll be the one to walk you home!â you said and he nodded.
âdonât worry about it!â he said, quite confused since he never saw the both of you getting along and actually walking home together, even though you live right across each other.
sunghoon took your hand and dragged you away from taesan.
âwhat the fuck park?â
âwalking him home? seriously? your lazy ass could neverâ he teased and you rolled your eyes.
âfuck off sunghoon, why are you really here?â
âiâve got a deal to offerâ he stopped you from walking and you glared at him.
ânoâ
âyou havenât heard it yetâ
âi donât care, itâs a no from me, i can never trust youâ you scoffed and started walking away.
âiâll help you to get close to taesan!â he said and you froze for a second, âi donât need your helpâ
âoh but you doâ he smirked as he figured he got your weakness point, âyouâve been acting awfully trying to hide your little crush on himâ
âwhat do you need?â you asked, half convinced.
âa monthâ he said straightforwardly.
âare youââ
âa month of fake dating and then iâll let you tell everyone you broke up with me and broke my heart and whatever you wantâ he licked his lips, âiâll help you get closer to taesan tooâ
âi need a day to think about itâ you sighed.
âfineâ he said, full of hopes and prayers.
as you arrived you bid your goodbyes for the first time in years, and it never felt so weird as much as it just did.
as you entered the house you took a quick shower and ate, right after that you ran to get your phone a called karina.
âi think you should do it, a month wouldnât be so bad, plus, he did say heâll help you get close to taesanâ she said.
âcan i really trust him though? he ruined my chances with my crush once alreadyâ you groaned.
âyouâre right, donât trust that guyâ
âbut heâs also the only one that could get me close to taesanâ
âright again, trust him fully and agree to that dealâ
âyouâre not helping me at all!!â you complained.
âi donât know bae, i guess that if i was you i wouldâve probably go with what my heart saysâ
âclichĂ© much, arenât we?â
âi didnât know what to say!â
âi guess i justâŠâ
âreally? are you for real? is it really happening right now? i need you to sign this contract right now before you regretâ sunghoonâs eyes widened and his lips formed into a little smile.
you rolled your eyes, âdonât make me regret thisâ
âokay okay, i wonât, letâs just find a spot where we could talkâ he said and took your hand.
he dragged you to an empty classroom and closed the door.
âso,â he spoke, âwe need rulesâ
âno shit sherlockâ
âcan you stop being an actual bitch for a second and hear me out?â he spat and you rolled your eyes.
âiâll be walking you home, mornings and afternoons no matter whatâ he said.
âdoes that really matter? i mean, no one sees usâ you sighed.
âthatâs what you think, my friends are stalkers itâs actually scaryâ
âwhateverâ
âweâll be posting pictures together which means weâre going to have to go on dateââ
âim gonna stop you right thereâ you cut him off middle sentence, âyou can just use pictures from pinterestâ
âwhat?â
âthereâs no chance im going on dates with youâ you argued.
âyou agreed to this fake dating, you need to face the consequencesâ
you groaned and he continued, âkissing is not prohibited, you can kiss me whenever you want, if itâs necessaryâ
you felt like throwing up hearing this sentence.
âwhoâs gonna buy that? just yesterday you were bumping into me and acting like a total bitch in front of everyoneâ you rolled your eyes.
âitâs as simple as that, weâll say weâve been forced by our parents to come as a couple to an event and we had a deep conversation about our past and after a while of reuniting i asked you out and we decided to hide our relationship until nowâ he shrugged.
âwow,â you clapped, âyou thought about it the whole day yesterday didnât you?â
ânoâŠâ he scratched his nape and looked everywhere but at you.
âsureâ you nodded, completely not believing what he just said.
âanyways itâs all settled, weâll be posting a picture today after schoolâ he said and was about to leave the classroom.
âone more thing,â he said, âpda is a must, therefore youâd have to give me your hand and weâd have to go hand in hand to classroomâ
âjust say you want to hold my hand, iâll take that into consideration, but iâm not interestedâ you asked annoyed.
âyou wish someone would actually want to hold your hand out of his own willâ he rolled his eyes.
âyou havenât touched a single soul in your entire lifeâ
âjust shut upâ he sighed.
ânever as long as your annoying ass is right besides meâ
he just groaned and took your hand.
âstarting nowâ he nodded, âitâll make everyone confuse until we reveal our relationshipâ
âyuck, even calling it a relationship is making me want to throw upâ
âhope your stupid brain knows itâs mutual but whatever, just donât act like that when weâre togetherâ
walking through the hallway while everyone is whispering and glancing at you was never a problem to sunghoon, it was a big problem for you though.
you tried letting go of sunghoonâs hand to stop the whispering and glancing but he held you tighter.
âitâs okay, calm down iâm here with youâ he whispered.
as much as youâd like to deny it, it made you feel somewhat safe.
however, itâs the park sunghoon weâre talking about. your worst enemy.
âis that supposed to make me feel better?â you whispered back.
âand weâre here, outside your classroomâ he changed the subject and stopped right outside of your class while everyone else kept looking at the two of you.
âiâll wait for you after classâ he winked and left a peck on your forehead before leaving to his classroom.
you so wished you could wipe it off at the moment. or at least, you think.
âwhat the fuck did i just saw?â karina walked up to you as soon as sunghoon left.
âwe have a lot to catch onâ you sighed and dragged her inside the classroom.
âand you agreed?!?â
âms. karina and ms. y/n, would you like to share to your class what were you talking about?â the teacher knocked on the desk.
âno, weâre sorryâ you said quietly and the teacher went back to teaching.
âyou told me to follow what my heart says!â you whispered-yelled to her.
âi didnât think itâd say to agree to it!!â she replied back.
âwell i did, and now iâm stuck with the worst person everâ
âmaybe heâs not that badâ
âget out karinaâ
âcanât, weâre in the middle of a classâ she shrugged and you groaned.
âso youâre now dating your worst ever enemy, the infamous woman in this highschool, choi y/n?!!â
âyes jake, i donât know why itâs so surprising to youâ sunghoon rolled his eyes as he took a bite from his lunch.
âsurprising only to him? sunghoon, just a few days ago you called her an attention seeker bitch, now youâre telling us youâve been dating for a few months already?â jungwon asked, concerned.
âwell we did great at hiding didnât we? our parents told us we should sign to drama classesâ
ânothing here makes senseâ jay shook his head.
lying to his friends about his whole relationship life? was definitely not and never will be on his list but he couldnât care less about the list anymore.
âlife doesnât make sense, jayâ sunghoon sighed, âit just happened, now i canât stop thinking about her, itâs like i want to spend every minute with herâ
âew, not in front of my saladâ riki gagged.
âalthough it makes no sense to me, iâm happy for you sunghoon, so proud of you for finally getting along with someoneâ sunoo pat his back.
âhey what do you mean by that?â
âfrom childhood friends to childhood enemies to lovers, that sounds like an actual pretty good story genreâ heeseung crossed his arms and nodded.
âcanât believe you havenât told me anything about it!â taesan, who for the first time in a while joined their lunch table, lightly pushed sunghoon, completely in disbelief.
âyouâre right, i shouldâve told you about it beforeâ sunghoon nodded.
sunghoonâs a bad friend. a very, very bad one.
a few weeks ago he had a conversation with who he considers as his best friend, but how could he face him now after this conversation?
âhey hoon! i wanted to ask you somethingâ taesan bit his lips, a bit anxious to start the conversation.
âyeah dude, whatâs up?â he asked.
âi know you and y/n areâŠ.not on good terms, but i actually started spending some time with her and iâm really interested in herâ his eyes lit up from excitement just by talking about you, âwanted to ask you if thatâs okay that, you knowâŠ.â
âyeah for sure! even though i hate this person with all my heart, i canât decided on your life, canât see how and why youâre interested in her but whatever, itâs yoursâ sunghoon shrugged.
âthanks sunghoon, iâm really glad i got you as my friendâ taesan hugged sunghoon tightly.
sunghoon definitely knew about taesanâs little crush about you, and the day he told you that taesan has a little crush, he actually meant you.
back to today, sunghoon feels like his whole life was tearing apart.
how could he betray his friend like that? after everything taesan did to him. from helping him with studies to even paying for the things he couldnât.
taesan shook his head and smiled weakly, âwhatever makes you happy sunghoonâ he said.
sunghoon was expecting him to shout at him and get mad about it, but was actually surprised he took it well somehow.
âiâm doing this for you tooâ sunghoon thought, after all, he has the perfect plan for taesan and y/n.
âthanks taesanâ sunghoon hugged him tightly and pat his back as a sign for asking for forgiveness.
âthatâs not gonna work, too many people are looking at usâ you complained as soon as you got out of your last class for the day and noticed sunghoon who was already waiting for you outside.
âwith popularity comes the consequencesâ he shrugged and you rolled your eyes.
âenjoy lovebirds!â jay shouted as he walked past you.
âletâs goâ he extended his hand out for you to hold it but you shook your head.
âi promised taesan iâll review his essay he wroteâ
âyou can do it tomorrowââ âcanât, plus you said youâll help me with taesan, we can go on your stupid fake date laterâ
sunghoon rolled his eyes and sighed, âfine, iâll walk you to the libraryâ
when he noticed you smiling he couldnât help but feel that weird feeling of excitement, but then he realized you were not smiling because of him.
âhey y/n!â taesan smiled warmly at you when he noticed you, âand sunghoonâ he added quietly.
âhey taesanâ you called with a wider smile on your face and sunghoon nodded.
âiâll pick you up later thenâ he said and walked away.
âsoâŠyou and sunghoon huh?â taesan asked.
âugh, donât evenâ i felt everyoneâs eyes on me throughout the whole dayâ you groaned.
âyou donât seem that happy with thatâ
âbecause iâm not! iâm so tired of it already, i shouldâve known not to agree to that dealâ
âwhat deal?â
âuhhhhâ you freaked out, how stupid can you actually be??
ânothing!! no dealâ you giggled nervously.
âif you say soâ he shrugged and opened his laptop to show you his essay.
âwhy dont you just tell him?â karina asked you over the phone.
âand what will i say if he asks why i agreed to the deal?â
âsimple, âi did it because i want sunghoon to help me date youâ, like thatâ
âsure, itâs that easyâ you rolled your eyes.
âhow was your first day dating sunghoon anyway?â
âhe took me to get some ice cream, he actually remembers my favorite tasteâ
âyeah i saw on your instagram story, if i didnât happen to know that this is all fake iâd actually believe itâ she said teasingly.
âcanât believe iâm saying this butâ you sighed, âheâs not that bad to hang out withâ
you expected a reply from her right away but all you heard was silence.
âkarina?â
âi canât believe this conversation is not being recordedâ she finally spoke.
âforget that i said thaââ âno no no! please continueâ
âwellâŠ.he was actually super nice and even paid for my ice cream, even found a nice spot and brought me his jacket since it was starting to get coldâ you said calmly.
ây/nâ
âhm?â
âyou might end up falling in love with him instead of taesanâ she said and you scoffed.
âare you forgetting that he literally ruined my life?â
âi said what i said!â she argued.
eventually you ended the call and drifted off to dreamland.
âsoâŠ.â
a few days passed since you revealed your (fake) relationship and today was the first day you sat with seven other people at your lunch table.
âyou and sunghooââ
âstop itâ
âsunghoon and yoââ
âshut it!â
sunghoonâs friends tried to ease up the awkward situation but were shut off by you and sunghoon.
âwe just think itâs weird thatâs all!! itâll pass sooner or laterâ jay chuckled.
âso y/n, howâs life?â riki asked.
âseriously?â sunghoon raised his brow.
âbabe, itâs okay,â you almost gagged after using the nickname on sunghoon, âlifeâs fun, you never know which surprises awaits for youâ
you raised sunghoonâs hand and showed everyone your locked hands.
âew, donât need to use those nicknames and act all cheesy hereâ jake teased.
âyou wanted to meet my girlfriend didnât you? here she isâ sunghoon spoke.
thatâs when it got to you. sunghoon lied to his friends about having a girlfriend! why did he choose you though? out of hundreds of students.
âyouâre rightâ heeseung nodded, âif you already know each other so well, why donât we ask you questions about sunghoon and you answer?â
âbaby you donât have toââ âitâs okay, hit me with the questionsâ
âsunghoonâs favorite color?â
âwhiteâ
âhis favorite seasonâ
âused to be winter, itâs autumn nowâ
âfavorite ice cream flavor?â
âumâ you froze for a second.
âah ha! got youâ
âcoffeeâ
âaw man, you suck!â riki said in disappointment after you answered all the questions correctly.
sunghoon in the meantime was busy staring at you and daydreaming.
when did you become so pretty? with your cute eyes that lit up every time you answered a question correctly, and your lips that formed into a smile when you noticed you won over his friendâs questions.
how come you remember those details about him as well?
he had tons of questions, but curse his inability to communicate well, heâll probably leave those questions unanswered.
the only thing he does know, is that heâs scared to fall in love with you.
âbabe? are you ready to go? let me walk you to the field now, you have practiceâ
you called him and he zoned out, for a second there he really forgot this is all fake.
the way youâd look at him and call him babe, it made him feel so weird, he had never felt like that before.
âyeahâ he slightly nodded and got up.
when both of you arrived at the field he stopped in front of you and frowned.
âwhat if iâll just take you on a date instead of practice?â he asked.
âsunghoon what the fuck? weâre all alone here nobody sees you, you donât need to act all lovey doveyâ you snapped back.
ârightâ he said, almost sounding too disappointed.
âiâll go back now to the library, taesanâs waitingâ you smiled and started walking away.
âpull yourself together sunghoonâ he sighed and entered the field.
âheyâ you called taesan as you saw him already sitting at your usual library desk.
âhey y/n!â he called you back excitedly.
âmissed being with you after school, i went on too many dates with sunghoon latelyâ you sighed.
âyeahâ he whispered, you could hear a bit of disappointment in his voice but he shrugged it off quickly, âhey how about instead of studying weâll go hang out, i got pretty tired of reading todayâ
âsure! of course, i would love to!!â you excitedly replied.
taesan got up and held your hand, âletâs go watch some moviesâ
practice ended and sunghoon went straight to the library without even showering first. he couldnât wait telling you how his friends couldnât stop talking about you and praising your (again, fake) relationship.
he looked at the clock and it was usually around the time you and taesan would finish and get out, only this time you were nowhere to be found.
sunghoon started to freak out, what if something bad happened to you? did taesan leave you alone? what if he did something bad to you?
no, no. sunghoon was just freaking out.
he tried calling you, but your phone was turned off, you werenât available.
he ran all the way to your home and asked your mother if she happened to see you, but got a negative answer.
âwhy, is she missing?â your mother asked and tried to stay calm.
âno of course not!â sunghoon awkwardly said, âweâre just playing hide and seek thatâs all, i was wondering if she walked all the way here to hide in her roomâ
seriously sunghoon? thatâs the best thing you got?
âalright, have fun!â it seemed like it made your mom believe him!
ây/n where the fuck are you?â he whispered to himself.
he decided to call taesan, âif heâs not answering i sweaââ
âhey dude, whatâs up?â his friend on the other line answered calmly.
âdo you happen to know where y/n is?â he straightforwardly asked.
âyeah, sheâs right next to me, didnât she tell you weâre going to watch some movies?â taesanâs voice stayed calm but on the inside he was smirking.
taesan 1, sunghoon 0.
âshe probably forgot or somethingâ sunghoon giggled, âwhen do you plan on coming back?â
âdonât know, but donât worry dude, iâll make sure she gets home safelyâ
âyeah, okayâ sunghoon said and ended the call.
âwho was that?â you asked.
âyour boyfriend, didnât you tell him weâre here?â
âoh no, i forgot about itâ
âyeah he was worried sickâ
âi think we should head back nowâ you let out a sigh.
âokay, sureâ he nodded and both of you got up.
you donât know why you said it instead of staying the whole night just watching random movies with your longtime crush.
what the hell did this fake dating with sunghoon do to you?
taesan walked you until it was already safe for you to walk alone, you argued with him that itâs fine and your house was a minute away, he tried insisting but you didnât budge.
both of you knew why you wanted to walk over to your house alone.
sunghoon 1, taesan 1.
you really tried using you muscle memory and walk to your door with your eyes closed so you wonât have to meet withâ
âwell who do we have hereâ
âi really didnât want to see you here nowâ you sighed and opened your eyes.
âi was worried sick! why didnât you just send me a text or whatever?â he spit out and you never really realized how irritating his voice is until now.
âwhat are you? my mom? why do i have to tell you my whereabouts?â you snapped.
âweâre dating, of courseââ âhell no weâre not, this whole thing is fake and you know it, i dont owe you shit, parkâ
for the first time sunghoon was stunned and speechless because of you. he did not know what to say or even process what the hell just happened. and why the fuck was he so annoyed by you going to the movies with taesan?
âif you dont have anything to say just goâ you sighed and just like that he left.
you finally got inside your room and laid on your bed, thinking about your last events and how stupid it was of you to go home early because of that fucking rat who was âworriedâ over you.
your phone buzzed and when you looked at the caller ID you smiled.
âjust checking that you arrived safelyâ
âiâm not a five years old kid taesan,â you chuckled and got up to sit on the edge of your bed, âbesides, it was a minute walk from where you left meâ
âalright, was just checking if you were still aliveâ he giggled.
âhey taesanâ
âhm?â
âletâs hang out more, i had real fun todayâ
âall i was just asking is for you to text me if thereâs a change of plans! i was really worried because i knew i had to pick you up but you were nowhere to be seenâ that is how your morning started, for the past few days it because a routine for you to have a morning and after school walk with sunghoon, and each morning youâd have a little fight.
this time, even though you hate to admit it, heâs right.
âyouâre right, i shouldâve told you beforehand, i just got super excited to go out with taesan so i forgot about it, besides youâre supposed to be happy for me, iâm finally getting closer to my crushâ you huffed.
âthank you, and yeah, iâm super happyâ he rolled his eyes and you nodded.
âanother thing, heeseungâs brother is having a wedding in less than a month and we have to go there together, as a coupleâ he said, âafter the wedding weâll plan the break up and will part our waysâ
âsounds like a plan to meâ you shrugged.
âno matter what happens, please just show up to his brotherâs wedding, i think heeseung already favors you so much, he always did but i always warned him not to get too close to youâ
âobviously you didâ you rolled your eyes, âbut i will do it, for him and for his happinessâ
âthank youâ he said sincerely.
âwow, didnt know you could be genuineâ
âjust shut up and continue to walkâ
two weeks passed and as much as you hate to admit it, dating sunghoon park isnât something that bad.
you went to all kinds of âdatesâ together, that one amusement park date was your favorite.
âno no no no! donât go too high, y/n hold my hand tight!â he yelled on one of the roller coasters you forced him to get on, âi think iâm gonna throw up oh no, here it comes! i hate it hereâ
while he was busy yelling, you were busy laughing your ass off at him. he was cute, you admit.
it reminded you of that time you went to an amusement park together when you were kids, he remained the same, nothing changed.
as you got tired of the amusement park, he took you to a restaurant and both of you sat one in front of the other.
âi like it here, this place is designed so beautifullyâ you said.
ânot as beautiful as youâ he mumbled.
âhm?â you asked and he shook his head, ânothingâ
âyou know, it wasnât so bad today, i really had funâ he started speaking, âreminded me of our childhoodâ
âyeah, i thought about that tooâ you nodded.
âi kinda miss itâ i kinda miss you, he wanted to say, but he felt like itâd be too much.
sunghoon that day realized his strong feelings for you never left, and probably never will. your past antics were long forgotten and all he wanted was to hold you in his arms and tell you how much he loves you, and he have always had.
âi kinda miss it tooâ you replied and it was like an unspoken tension between the two of you.
none of you would talk after that and just walked home in silence, but it was a comforting one.
âgirl, heâs super like, into you, and youâre so like, into him tooâ karina said after you told her about the amusement park date.
âam not! iâve been actually going out with taesan a lot, i really really like himâ you smiled.
âwhatever you say girl!â
âi actually am going to hang out with taesan today, iâll update you on everything, bye baeâ you smiled and ended the call to get ready for your hangout with taesan.
an hour later he sent you a text that heâs already waiting and you got out of your house right away.
âyou look, really prettyâ taesan was being so stunned by your beauty that he forgot how to talk.
âthank youâ you smiled, âso, where are we going?â
âa new arcade just opened and i know how much you love arcades so i just thought of testing it outâ
âoh my god you really do know me so well!!â you took out your phone to text sunghoon about your whereabouts.
you became more responsible and it suddenly didnât bother you as much to text him about it, it almost became a habit of you.
âoff to the new arcade that opened up with taesan, donât you worry about meâ you texted him and closed your phone.
as you arrived your eyes roamed around the big arcade and suddenly you looked like a five years old child who just got their first ever vanilla ice cream.
âwhat are we waiting for? letâs just go!!â taesan cheered and you clapped.
after hours and hours of playing you both went to sit down by the nearest park there.
âit was so fun today, we have to do it again!â you grinned and taesan nodded.
it suddenly became so quiet and you noticed taesan was staring at you for too long.
âare you okay?â
âi know about you and sunghoon,â he spoke, âabout your fake dating thingâ
you were too stunned to speak.
âi heard you arguing on the same day we went to the movies, i wanted to check on you if you arrived safely but i noticed you and sunghoon talking and i couldnât help but eavesdropâ he shrugged.
âohâ was all you could let out.
âi was actually glad to find out that this whole thing with you and sunghoon was fakeâ
âwhat do you meaââ âi like you y/n, a lotâ he cut you middle sentence and you felt so weird hearing his confession.
âoh! there you are!â before you could even respond to taesan you heard a voice calling the both of you.
you turned around and saw the one and only, park sunghoon. what was he doing here?
a few days ago taesan asked to meet up with sunghoon. he confessed to him about knowing your fake relationship and told sunghoon he was going to confess to you.
âi like y/n, a lot, you already know thatâ he said.
âwhatâs your plan?â sunghoon asked.
âasking her out after going to that new arcadeâ he exposed his plan, and sunghoonâs cue to stop the confession was a simple text from you about your whereabouts.
sunghoon for the second time chose to be a shitty and egoistic ass friend, and prevent his so called âbest friendâ from confessing to you.
but of course sunghoon wouldnât tell you all of that.
âme and y/n were planning to go on a date today! i guess she forgotâ sunghoon smirked.
âcut it sunghoon, i know youâre not really datingâ taesan clenched his jaw.
âdoesnât matter, i still made us a reservation for this new restaurantâ sunghoon rolled his eyes and dragged you away.
you were too shocked by the whole scene that only when you arrived back to your home you realized what happened.
âdid you justââ you sighed, âruined my fucking chance with taesan?â you felt your blood starting to boil.
âwhat do you mean?â he asked confused.
âtaesan just fucking confessed and you just fucking showed up and dragged me away, what the fuck were you thinking?â you shout.
ây/n iââ
âyou what, sunghoon? want to ruin my life once again? just like you did with my painting from seventh grade and my crush from eighth grade?â you snapped.
âyou seriously still hold that against me? we were in seventh grade for godâs sake!â
âand it ruined my life ever since then! did you become your familyâs disappointment? because i did, oh! and funny enough, not only that seventh grade made them disappointed in me, but also my stupid crush on eighth grade that you decided to snitch on!â you looked at him in disbelief.
âwhat about my crush from nineth grade then, huh? not only you lied to her and told her i spread the rumors about her, you made me look like the bad guy and the other students refused to talk to me for months! you basically made everyone back away from me!â
âand rightfully soâ you rolled your eyes.
ây/n, lookâ sunghoon ran his hands through his hair and sighed,
âsave it park, i donât want to hear from you ever again, i had a blast ignoring you for the last few years and iâll continue having a blast if itâll continue that wayâ you lied through your teeth, âweâll only talk when necessary and cut ties after heeseungâs brotherâs weddingâ
ây/nâ sunghoon called you again but you already walked away and entered your house.
sunghoon knows he fucked up, and he realized there were so many miscommunications between the two of you over the past few years and he didnât know how to fix it.
meanwhile you, the minute you stepped inside your room and closed the door, you started crying.
you didnât know how to feel with yourself. you were glad that sunghoon cut you off before you could answer taesan, because surprisingly so, you were about to reject him.
taesan is a nice guy, he really is, and he really was your longtime crush, until your old crush entered your life again.
you realized you gained back your feelings the moment sunghoon opened his mouth to genuinely talk with you, in fact, those feelings never really left.
you found yourself so focused on the way that his dimples would always show while smiling and talking to you, or the way his fangs would show up with every smile he gives you.
but you couldnât help but let your blood boil after his whole âiâm not going to let y/n have another chance with someoneâ show, it made you think about your past and you hated it.
the next few weeks felt normal to everyone but you, sunghoon and taesan.
you and sunghoon acted as if nothing happened between the two of you when someone you know happened to be around.
when you two were alone? hell, you wonât even shoot a glance at him.
and as for you and taesan, you told him itâd be better if the both of you would take a short break for a while, just for you to adjust everything.
sunghoon refused to let go of you so easily once again, he tried everything, calling, texting, even calling your parents to ask if you were home and maybe they can tell you to pick your constantly ringing phone up.
it all felt like a deja vu now, but not the good one. you were getting distant again and it scared him that the same thing will happen yet again.
âthank you for comingâ sunghoon welcomed the person into his house.
âwhy are you so stressed? oh no donât tell me you got someone pregnantâ
âjay, i sometimes wonder if your last braincells are just off to go travel or somethingâ sunghoon groaned.
âwell, you seem so tense, what is it?â
sunghoon decided to tell jay everything from A to Z, theyâve been best friends for long and he feels like he can trust him wholeheartedly, plus he had to get some help from someone.
âi knew it the moment you told me both of you are dating! it felt so unrealâ
âthanks a lot jay, it really helpsâ
âwell, i think im getting a little deja vu for eighth gradeâ
âexactly! i donât want this to happen again! i know i fucked up but iâŠ.â sunghoon sighed, âiâm willing to do everything as long as i wonât lose herâ
âokay first of all, ew dude thatâs so cringyâ jay said in disgust, âsecond, i think you just need to give her some time, iâm sure that if you still havenât heard about her and taesan dating, she might as well was about to reject himâ
âthen why would she get so angry at me? it doesnât make senseâ
âyou took a whole ass opportunity from her to try and sort her things out, of course sheâd be pissedâ
ârightâ
âtry to talk with karina maybe, she might help you out on this oneâ jay pat his friendâs shoulder, âbesides, the wedding is in a few days and you told me you made her promise you to show up no matter what, itâs not like she can run away from you for longâ
âi hate that youâre so rightâ sunghoon groaned and jay shrugged, âiâm just saying whatever comes to my mind, whenever it comes to my mindâ
âwhat do you want, park?â
âwow you really sound like y/n nowâ sunghoon sighed as he saw karina looking at him uninterested, âi guess she already told you what happenedâ
âyes, she didâ she also told me sheâs scared because she actually has feelings for you, she wanted to say. but its not her place to say it anyway.
âhowâŠ.is she doing?â he asked quietly.
âwhy do you care?â
âoh no please donât make it harder than it already isâ he mumbled under his breath.
âbecause, i need to talk with her, a serious conversationâ
âoh no donât tell me you caught feelingsâ
âhow did youâ nevermind, please tell her that iâll be waiting for her, and i really want to sort things out between usâ he sounded so desperate it scared karina.
âiâll see what i can doâ karina nodded and he bit his lips and smiled.
âthank you, thank you, thank you, thankââ âi get it you can go now!â
he nodded as he got his bag and went for another practice.
âhey bae how are you doing today?â karina hugged you as she sat on your bed.
ever since your last encounter with sunghoon you started missing a few classes here and there, you didnât really feel like going to school and seeing sunghoon anyway. thatâs why karina came to check up on you.
âsame as usual, i donât knowâ
âi know what youâre thinkingâ she said and you looked at her creeped out.
ârelax, itâs nothing scaryâ she laughed, âi just know youâre thinking about himâ
âam not!â you argued.
âyeah, and iâm queen elizabethâ
you canât stop thinking about sunghoon, she wasnât lying really.
you realized how messed up your whole story was. you need answers from him, you need the apology youâve been waiting to hear, the confirmation that he misses you as much as you miss him. you need to hold him tight and never let him go again.
âfine, you got meâ you sighed.
you wish youâd know how to sort things out without going crazy.
âhe came up to me today,â she said and your eyes sparkled, âhe asked me about you, heâs been so desperate to talk with you, he looked and sounded really sincereâ
âi donât know karina, iâm not sure if iâm ready to face him without getting angry again, itâs just that whenever i see him my blood just starts to boil when i think about our pastâ
âthatâs your problem, you refuse to let go of your pastâ she put her hand on your shoulder, âjust let it go, and get the answers and confirmation you need from himâ
you decided not to show up at school ever since your conversation with karina.
sunghoon tried checking up on you multiple times but each time youâd lie to your mother who opened the door for him and told her to tell him that youâre sick. both of you knew it was wrong.
sunghoon was going crazy, his friends couldnât stop asking about you and about your whereabouts and he could only lie and say that youâve got really sick and that heâs been taking care of you.
he asked karina about you again and again, until she got tired and told him everything, about your wellbeing and your health.
he was so worried for you it surprised her, he was really acting as if heâs your real boyfriend.
karina would lie if she said she didnât confuse him as your boyfriend for a while.
âhereâ sunghoon handed karina a notebook.
âwhatâs that?â she asked.
âi took some notes on this class, give it to y/n pleaseâ
âsunghoon, iâm not some kind ofââ
âi know i know youâre not a delivery guy but, i donât know how to give it to her in any other wayâ he sighed.
oh the poor guy, she really pities him.
wedding day came and sunghoon was going back and forth in his room.
will you be coming? should he pick you up? you promised him! if not for him then for heeseung!
at the end, jay called him and told him it was becoming too late and he should just come without you.
sunghoon left his house with a heavy heart and empty hands, that were supposed to hold you tightly and close to him.
âhey hoon! you came!!â heeseung welcomed his friend with a hug and a big smile over his face.
âwhereâs y/n?â he asked.
âoh y/n, she really wanted to come butââ âbut what?â he was cut off by someone else.
when he looked over his shoulder he found you, walking over to them and putting your hands together on sunghoonâs right shoulder.
âi was getting ready and it took me too long to come, so i just told sunghoon to go away so he wonât be late because of meâ you smiled and planted a kiss on sunghoonâs cheek.
âiâm so glad you came!!â heeseung smiled widely and hugged you tightly.
sunghoon was still shocked seeing you there, first you walked in, looking gorgeous than ever in the outfit you put on yourself, then you went and put your hands over his shoulder and lastly, you kiss his cheek.
he froze and zoned out for a few seconds until you waved your hands in front of him.
âletâs get in! itâs about to startâ you were about to walk in but sunghoon was quick enough to pull you back to him.
he was holding your waist and pulling you closer to him.
âfirst, you walk in here, looking prettier than any other person here, no offense to the bride, then you smile and kiss my cheeks. i donât understand, whatâs happening?â he asked, his face is closer than ever to yours.
âi donât want to open it up nowââ âif not now then when?â
you sighed and closed your eyes.
âi only have one questionâ
âshootâ
âdid you really regret what you did back then?â
âof course i did, i still doâ he reached your hand to hold it, âlook at where it got usâ
âwhy did you ruin my chance with my crush back then?â
âyou said only one questionâ
âokay so maybe now i have moreâ
âi did it,â sunghoon stayed quiet for a second, is this the right time to confess? âbecause i really liked you, and i still doâ fuck it.
âwhen we started to fake dating i realized those feelings never left, everytime i look at you i just cant help it but smile, i think itâs way beyond just âlike youâ, i love you y/nâ he let go of his hold on your waist and held both of your hands in his.
you stopped breathing for a second as you tried to process what you just heard.
âpark sunghoonâ you whispered and he hummed.
âiâm here babyâ
âi hate youâ you said and sunghoon could swear his heart dropped.
âi hate you for making me hate you so much to the point it ruined our friendship for so longâ you continued, âyou couldâve confessed your feelings and we couldâve been the best highschool couple by nowâ
sunghoon furrowed his eyebrows, he got so confused by your words.
âif you still didnât get it, i happen to love you too, you dumbassâ you laughed.
without giving you a warning he pulled you into a kiss with a big grin on his face.
it was a desperate kiss, as if he was waiting to do this for so long. both of you didnât want to part away but you did eventually because of the lack of oxygen.
âi canât believe we fucked this up because of this stupid painting in seventh gradeâ that was the first thing he said afterwards.
âyou fucked this up and itâs not just a stupid painting!!â you argued and he laughed as he hugged you tightly.
âiâm joking, iâm really sorry for that, and for the crush thing in eighth grade tooâ he grinned, âbut he was just not good for you, you had me the whole time and still wanted himâ
you kissed him again and smiled.
âi was too blind i guessâ
âcan you two cut it off lovebirds? the wedding is about to startâ both of you turned your heads and saw annoyed jay standing in front of you.
âsorry! comingâ both of you said at the same time.
as you sat one next to each other, sunghoon interlocked your fingers together.
âheyâ he whispered and you hummed.
âhearing âi love youâ from you really warmed my heartâ he smiled, âjust letting you knowâ
âoh really?â you asked and he nodded.
âi love youâ you kissed his cheek.
âiâll keep saying this until youâll get tired of itâ
âwhich is basically neverâ
jay groaned and turned to look at the both of you âcan you please just stop being so lovey dovey oh my godâ
âyou were exactly like that on your first days with your girlfriend stop being such an attention seekerâ jake rolled his eyes and jay hit him.
âshhhh!! why donât we just pay attention to heeseung thatâs crying right there?â
âjust took a picture! will definitely use it to blackmail him!â
âpoor little thing only wanted to get emotional in his brotherâs weddingâ
âsoon to be us at sunghoonâs and y/nâs weddingâ
and they lived happily ever after! i mean, as much as you can when you have those six people as your friends and karinaâs nonstop questions about future kids.
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See I feel like I should cancel this interview so they have notice ahead of time, but also if something falls through with my job then I absolutely need a backup plan
#the interview is next friday and itâs online so honestly i think giving notice 48+ hours before is enough#like they still have open interview slots next week so i donât think theyâre That busy#but i still want to make sure they know i wonât be showing up#UNLESS of course i still havenât started work by then. then i will probably do the interview just because#see i donât Think this job will fall through but also if they ask for references from the caravan park i am so fucked#best case scenario those people will have no record of me and iâll have to be like âyeah i think my previous supervisor leftâ#worst case scenario they find out i quit in the middle of a shift because my line manager was rude to me one too many times#i mean that Was five years ago so i could definitely argue that i was 22 and stupid and it will never happen again#like back then i didnât really need that job. it was just something to do until i went back to university#but now i am 27 and i NEED this job and tbh i am willing to put up with any amount of disrespect as long as they donât actually kill me#my standards have dropped through the floor. as long as they pay me the correct amount of money on time; donât try to make me do anything#illegal and donât actually harm my person; iâm fine#idc if my lunch break sandwiches come out of my wages; my lunch break is unpaid; i work long hours and someone calls me a bitch. idc#just pay me and then give me a good reference for the next workplace i apply at because god knows i need one#all i am trying to do here is earn food money and break my habit of getting into screaming arguments with line managers#that is my only goal. being ordered around does not conflict with my goal. etc#so in summary i donât think iâm going to cancel that interview unless i am timetabled to work next friday lol#stuff just seems to happen to me in employment settings. no one can blame me for wanting a backup#personal
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