#and hopefully this makes sense... i suck at explaining things honestly.

[malboraslihangifs]

hi! if you don't mind me asking, how do you blur the logo on your gifs?

hi angel! it's actually quite simple, i'm gonna put a step by step under read more but if you wish to just do it i made an action to automate the process for me. just make sure you run the action before adding any adjustment layers OR select your gif layer before running it. click here to download and let me know if you have any questions!

alright so! after i've made the gif, i'm usually left with this. if you have only one layer afterwards, that's fine, it doesn't really matter. just always make sure your gif layer is selected. (my photoshop is in portuguese but it should be pretty easy to follow, lmk if there's any questions)

step one: duplicate your gif layer and don't worry if the filters are still activated or not, doesn't really matter. the only thing i usualy edit is the opacity of my layer cause that second is sometimes at 50% so i change the duplicate to 100%. step two: then, add gaussian blur to your duplicated layer. my default one is this one but you can always edit afterwards if that's too much/too weak. so don't worry too much about that now. now we're left with this:

step three: now, to make sure the blur only stays on the logo you're gonna make a layer mask. for anyone not sure, here's where to find it:

and you'll be left with this:

step four: use the select tool (M) and ctrl + A to select the entire image, then delete the entire thing. make sure the mask layer is selected and not your layer, otherwise it will just delete your layer. after you've deleted it, just click anywhere (or ctrl + D) to unselect your image.

step five: select the brush tool (B) and paint over where your logo is. i usually set the size to 35px cause that covers most logos but you can edit if you need something bigger/smaller and i keep the shapness bellow 10% to make sure it blends a little better.

honestly... that's it! your layers should now look similar to this:

and your gif should look like this now vs then

[foldingfittedsheets]

I have never had a post-coital headache, but I saw the ask and it made me think...

Orgasming using a vibe hurts my clitoris. It doesn't even touch my clit because it uses airwaves or something to vibrate the air around the clit, not sure. And I don't enjoy vibrators that touch the clit because it just doesn't feel like anything pleasurable? I can't explain it but it doesn't feel good or bad just kinda numbs me.

I'll be getting bottom surgery to nullify my crotch someday, so I guess it doesn't matter much, since I can limp along till then. I'll be tucking the clitoris and the nerve bundle under some skin and tissue and hopefully the padding will help offset the pain (and I could finally use those cute giant wand vibrators with the big buzzy ball), but I'm just asking in case you have ever heard of this and are willing to respond on your blog.

For the record, I don't enjoy using my hands on my clit, doesn't feel good and dysphoric and bothers my asexuality (I don't like touching genitals at all and the wetness feels icky). I grew up using the pressure and squeeze method. Basically ball up a blanket, press it to my pubis, and then do a very prolonged, overpowered kegel and there you go (kinda tiring tho). I didn't even know I had a clit growing up, always assumed it was the urethra because it hurt to touch (turns out it's supposed to be wet, thanks homeschooling for the lack of sex ed).

So I use the vibrator but I hate the vibrator. The moments before the orgasm is just so painful. And I have to immediately turn it off because the continued vibration causes even more pain and makes my muscles clench up in response which makes it very difficult to pull the toy away from my body. When using it with my partner I have to "tap out" and she'll pull it away for me.

I low-key believe the multiple orgasms for clit+pussy based anatomy is a myth because how could it possibly feel good to touch there once the orgasm has happened? Sometimes I can't close my legs completely for minutes. That shit is so sensitive and like swollen? Throbbing? Why?!?

I theoretically like orgasms. I like the quiet feeling after them. But getting there sucks, masturbating is unpleasant (apparently normal people enjoy the whole process, I'm just there for the afterglow), esp when it's a maintenance orgasm and I'm not horny or physically aroused (sometimes I just think that I need to orgasm without really wanting to if that makes sense, weird ace shit).

This ask is longer than I hoped it would be, but there's lots of important context and I honestly don't know why my body is like this, Google is useless (esp nowadays).

Okay there’s a ton to touch on here, but first: vibes are not one size fits all. Everyone’s body’s are different and motors come in different powers and pulses. The “cute” massage wand types are actually some of my least favorite because they just go cataclysmic in power which is way too much for 90% of clits. They just have good marketing.

If possible, you can look for a gentler vibe. Jimmy Jane Form 2 has a pulse setting that’s reallyyyyy light, and puts vibrations on either side of the clit instead of directly on it. But there’s a lot of shapes and sizes that could be gentler than what you’re using now.

If you’re unsure check out a store and try the vibe on the tip of your nose. This is pretty close to how sensitive your clit is and can give you a frame of reference for how much power you actually want. Generally lower rumbles are more expensive but also more pleasant so that’s a cost/benefit you can run.

The other aspect of this is that clitoral tissue is actually massive. There’s a lot of stuff going on under the hood, so to speak.

Clitoral nerves get everywhere! That’s the whole thing with G-spots- you’re still hypothetically applying pressure to nerve endings associated with the clit. I’ve heard anecdotally that they can end up in the anus too but I couldn’t find a source to verify that.

The takeaway from how sprawling all those nerves are is that there’s probably places you might like sensation better that directly on the clit. Most clit havers in my experience found that pretty overwhelming, myself included.

If your main business with your junk has been businesslike and unpleasant to touch it makes sense not messing with it much. If your partner is a person you trust to explore with you can just have them feel around and caress and see if other areas feel stimulating without being as overwhelming.

As for getting so throbby and uncomfortable afterward, and multiple orgasms: In my experience and anecdotally this depends how you get there. When you come fast and hard your body reacts differently than when you edge into an orgasm. You can try changing up your routine to see if this makes a difference for you.

Some people can never do multiple orgasms, it’s rare for me but does happen on occasion, so it’s worth noting that smut has a lot to answer for in terms of how normal they make that. If you can’t get off more than once it is what it is. It’s not a myth but it’s not everyone’s reality.

I hope this was helpful, good luck and as you say, eventually after surgery this will get easier for you!

[ageravena]

You know what, the Fairly OddParents fandom has been quite tame. Let's spice things up a little bit.

Doesn't anybody else get that silly feeling when you see fanart of Peri being like a father to Dev, like... where's the rest of you 😍? Don't be shy, show us where Dale is. Or are you too scared? (I wouldn't blame you, I was too at first)

Small warning: this post includes slight swearing and many brain-numbing headcanons. I'm not responsible for any mental anguish you may experience

I would like to quickly apologize to the 6 people shipping Peri with Dale. I thought I was the only one but it seems like I've finally found my people. Anyways, back to the topic.

Now that you're here, I may as well show some more art of these two goobers +some silly headcanons. These are my AUed* versions of the two in my odd semi-realistic style that I completely ditch whenever I don't have the patience to draw faces (I often suck at drawing them. No wonder all my OCs are furries)

Note: him being slightly chubby and him having mobility issues are both headcanons I have shamelessly borrowed from others in the fandom. Also am I the only one who thinks Peri WOULDN'T be 6 ft tall? In the series he's like 5 apples tall, so wouldn't it make sense for him to be a bit short?

Note: there's like a bunch of lore explaining the reason why Dale looks so fucked up in my version. I scarred him for life, oopsie! But at least he has Peri now who "forces" him to go to therapy 😍. I may need to make a seperate post where I only talk about him and his past if I have the motivation.

I know a lot of you don't even know the pain of trying to convert a stylized character into a realistic style and still making them look good and kinda recognizable. I envy you who have less realistic art styles.

*And yes, I did say AU. More specifically I'm talking about the "Missionaries of Eden AU" (by me). I'm not gonna go into detail now, but basically it's a semi-biblical and more serious take on FOP, where the fairies are angels, anti-fairies are demons and pixies... I think they can stay as pixies, or maybe they're ghosts, bees? (There's a lot of things I still need to figure out) Their tasks are to work as missionaries on the planets of Eden (planets where life exists). There's a bunch of other lore (some of which I've explained on my casual/personal account on Instagram), but it's best I leave it for another time.

Btw: if you've seen me talk about a "Below the Stars AU", "Bible AU", "Ager DLC" or something else, it's all just the same thing. I just had a hard time coming up with a good name for it lol.

Also speaking of which, I have another post coming up (hopefully) where I explain my reasons for shipping Peri and Dale. It can honestly, out of context, seem like a toxic yaoi crack ship, but believe it or not but I managed to make it the opposite; plausible AND healthy. I want to enlighten you all plus I really want to yap about them.

It feels super funny to ship such a underrated ship. I'm used to shipping semi-popular ships, so to now be all alone feels kinda fun! They have so much potential and so few are seeing the vision?? Though to be fair I'm also glad it's not that famous lmao.

Ps. Ignore the fact I haven't posted anything here for at least half-a-year. All my mutuals are on Instagram, so I don't have a need to post here, though now I've decided to dedicate this account to hyperfixation slop so maybe you'll be hearing from me much sooner.

Ps. Ps. I currently have a 22-page-long google doc filled with lore and info about almost everything I've thought of for the AU, but it's 80% in Finnish so sharing it is useless.

Man, I love writing unnecessary long posts knowing I'm the only one reading them❤️😍 though if you HAVE gotten this far, here's a little treat:

My body refuses to draw Dale in his original outfit. I like to pretend Peri helped him change a bit (most notably taking off his goddamn shoes, though they do have some lore that I've created. GGHHRRAAA EVERYTHING HAS LORE ATTACHED TO IT GRRRR). Also Dev isn't actually grumpy, he just likes to act tough.

My art style looks probably so inconsistent❤️

[russellsppttemplates]

You mean the world to me (Mick Schumacher)

Insecurities get the best of Y/N and, while Mick is on holiday, a media post makes her wonder

Note: english is not my first language. I know this has taken me so so so long to write but time just has been very tricky and I can't seem to juggle it all!

Thank you so much to everyone who likes and reblogs, your feedback is appreciated, and while I'm not actively taking requests, I am writing some blurbs when I can (honestly, it's a very rare thing these days) so if you have any ideas or concepts that can be written in a small amount of sentences and you want to share, feel free to do so!

Tw: mentions anxious symptoms, feelings of being unworthy/insecurities

"Are you sure there isn't a way you can join?", Mick asked, looking at your calendar app with you by his side, "no, I mean, there's these two days here but that would be the travelling alone. I'd get there and spend 24 hours maximum with you before having to hop on a plane back home to be at this client", you pointed, "That's true, yes", he said before rubbing his forehead, "so you're not joining, it sucks, but is is what is is, I guess".

"I'm sorry I can't go, I'd really like to, but with all of this in my schedule and the distance I would have to travel, it just doesn't make sense. We'll do it together another time", you offered, squeezing his other hand that was on top of the table and helping him balance his body, "sure".

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"Hi, liebling, how are you?", Mick asked over the phone, the noise on his side of the line contrasting with the quietness of your shared home on your end of the line, "I've been good, tired, but at least things are progressing well at work, seems like they finally understand that when we have meetings, we can actually get things done if they stop talking about everyone's business", you giggled, hearing a faint smile in Mick's voice, "I'm glad you're okay. We are actually going on a boat now, I'm not sure how good the service is once we leave so I'm calling you now", he explained, leaving you to talk a bit more before he had to depart, "wish you were here, liebling. As soon as you're able, I'm getting you here with me. Hopefully soon, yeah?".

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Your work meetings had actually been productive for once, not making you regret the decision to stay home while Mick travelled. All of the pictures he would send you of him and his friends showed him having a great time, which you were happy about, knowing that that quality time was well deserved.

What you did not see pictures of was the article that had popped in your browser. It was by far something you did on a regular basis, but by some reason or another, you opened the article stating what you could only interpret as a mean, mean joke. As you scrolled down, allegations that Mick had been seen with someone else, "fondly flirting" as the article read, started gaining force and body, different blurry pictures and supposed witnesses' reports filling the page while your mind filled with worries. That was not something you had ever considered, after all you trusted your boyfriend completely, but you couldn't stop the thoughts or shake away the possibility of that actually being true. What evidence did you have? An article that could well be false and just a poor attempt at meddling in your private life, but pair that up with the feelings of uneasiness you had since you couldn't join Mick in the trip and your mind couldn't let the idea go. Tears fell from your eyes as your knee bounced under your desk, your hand shaking as you managed to close the Internet page while your thoughts repeatedly made you doubt. It wouldn't be the first time you heard something like that, after all, relationships come and go, and did Mick have any reason to look for someone else? You both had always agreed that from the moment it didn't feel right to any of you, you would talk to eachother to see a way to solve it, and if you didn't have a way to solve it other than break up, that would be it. Had Mick skipped the first step of the agreement? Or had he tried to talk to you about it and you didn't see where he was at already? Had you been so blind to it? So lost in your thoughts, you didn't even notice Mick arriving back with Angie from their walk until you felt Angie's paws on your lap, asking to get up and snuggle you like she had done many times while you felt like this.

"Angie, do you want some water or so-oh. Y/N, are you okay? What happened?", Mick asked, his hand coming to tub your back as Angie placed her head in your chest area, the weight helping you regulate your unsteady breathing, "Y/N, hey, hey, you're okay, my love. Everything's fine, okay?", he urged you to follow his voice, something that always calmed you, and your heart panged a little bit more. He was the one that knew how to calm you down, but maybe there would be a day where it wouldn't be him, where he would have enough of the way you preferred things and leave you behind, and maybe that day was today. Letting out a big deep sigh, you looked up at your boyfriend's blue eyes, "you know I will never judge you, especially for anything you've done when I don't know the reasons behind it but... what are your intentions here? You know you can be honest with me, Mick", you asked, your lips trembling slightly.

Mick was confused, not understanding where the conversation came from and where it was leading, "what do you mean, Y/N? I know I can be honest with you, I am honest with you. Did I do something to make you doubt that?", he wondered gently, "have you seen something that made you doubt that?", he said as his expression hardened slightly, his jaw locked as he waited for an answer.

Grabbing your phone, you typed in the page you had seen the low quality pictures, "this popped up today", you said, offering him your phone so he could scroll and see for himself, his eyebrows quirking up as he read the words on the screen, "and you believe this?", he said after what felt like an eternity, "is that why you're doubting me?", and while his words and tone stung, your mind could inly list why he would leave you.

"I don't want to, I really don't want to believe in them, but my mind always comes back to them, to the words, and I can't shake them off", you said, your voice little as you looked at him, "so you believe what they are saying?", Mick confirmed, trying to get to the root of the problem, "Liebling, I'm with you, and I don't want to be with anyone else", he said calmly, trying to get you to embrace his body as he stretched his arms, your immediate reaction making your wrap your arms around yourself to control the shaking of your body, even pushing Angie a bit to the side.

"This may be what you want now, but what about a day where you realise you're bored of me and leave me?", you whispered, the tears that were caught on your throat flowing freely now as you looked at Mick while keeping a safe distance from him, "what? Y/N, no, no, no, no. Y/N, I'll never do that to you, never. Don't you trust me?", he asked, the gentleness in his voice leaving slowly, "I trust you, Mick. But it's so hard, I-, I'm reminded of how different I am from everyone else around you, everyday, how I don't have the same they have, and-, and how do I know that?", you questioned as you wiped the tears on your face. Your boyfriend looked at you with uncertainty, "Y/N, I promise that whatever is going on in your head is not the truth. I love you, I have loved you and I'm going to continue to do so", he tried to reason, "If we're not on the same page, we are just wasting out time in this relationship", Mick said and it felt like a dagger through the heart. But it hurt even more because you knew it was the truth. How could you both be in a relationship like that?

Looking at the garden, you tried your best to deal with your emotions and the thoughts running through your head, "I can't talk right now, I'm sorry. I'm tired, I'm afraid I'll say things I'll regret later and I don't want to do that, I don't want to do that to you", you said getting up and heading to the home office, not before hearing a muttered "I love you" from Mick, feeling himself that prolonging the argument would only lead to worse than it had.

You must have fallen asleep in your chair, the small pain in your neck allowing you to come to your senses quickly, your mind also not giving you a break before your mind filled with thoughts, the same ones you've had for a while. Truth being told, you had been feeling unworthy of Mick for a bit. How everyone around him always seemed to have time to go on his adventures, how they loved to be in groups and how you did not fit in the type everyone seemed to think the young driver deserved.

Heading to the kitchen, you looked at the time on the oven to see that it was just past dinner time, not seeing anything that indicated that Mick had the meal already. While you waited for the water to boil so you could make some tea, your hands tapped on the counter, Mick's words from before getting to you. Were you going to call it? Especially like this? Were you on different pages? Did he think you didn't deserve him either? All thoughts spiralled, the kettle long forgotten as you started to feel tingles on your legs, almost like you were incapable of standing on them, making your rest your back on the wall, letting your body slide slowly until your butt hit the floor while your lungs felt like they couldn't get enough air inside them.

You closed your eyes, trying to regulate your breathing as best as you could when you felt the floor vibrate almost, the feeling not getting enough time to be processed as another texture caught your senses, soft fur along your arms before you felt what you recognised as Angie's tongue lick your cheek, her snout later making you tilt your chin upwards while you heard your boyfriend's voice, "Liebling, Y/N, liebling, hey...! Breathe for us, yeah?", Mick said as you tried your best to follow his voice and block out everything else, looking for his hand to hold while Angie managed to lay on top of your legs.

"That's it, nice and slow, very good. You're doing so good, my love, so good", Mick said as he rubbed your knuckles, "big, deep breath, just like I'm doing", waiting to see some colour come back to your face and for you to return back to a normal breathing pattern, the tears now concerning him, "what's the matter?", he said gently, "are you going to break up with me?", you forwarded, "just be honest, it is a yes or no question", you yelped.

Shaking his head and himseld out of his stance, Mick sat in front of you, "Y/N, I'm not breaking up with you", he clarified, "I understand now that the way I said it was not the best, but we need to talk it out. But to me it doesn't mean that, not until we fight for it, fight for us", he smiled softly, seeing you calm down almost totally, your hands a little shaky still while the Australian Shepherd looked up at you, "your head is heavy, miss Angie", you chuckled, finally feeling her head on your legs.

Helping you get up once you felt strong enough to do so, Mick handed you a cup of water and let you drink it, watching you closely before grabbing your hand, "can we talk about it?", he said, "I don't want you to feel worse, but I don't like to be like this with you either", he explained while you nodded in agreement, squeezing his hand in yours as you walked to the sofa in the living room.

"First, I want to apologise for what I said. I know that I said it and I can't undo it, I know it hurt you, and that is something I never want to do, ever", Mick started, "so, I'm sorry, Y/N", he looked into your eyes, "but, like I said, I want us to talk about it because I feel like that will be how we understand what is going on", he encouraged you.

Gulping, you fiddled with his fingers, "I feel like, sometimes, I'm not what you deserve", you started, "like you could do so much better", you were interrupted by him, "I'm sorry for not noticing you were feeling like this", Mick said, "It's not your fault", you said, looking around the room, "I get insecure about it. That you'll leave. About how I am different than the rest of your friends' and their partners, how I can't go on all these trips because I have work, how I'll never look like the beautiful women that surround you everywhere and that support you around the world, but I also know that you love me just like that and would never make me change who I am, it's just the articles, it messed me up, I'm sorry too", you whispered, your voice cracking fully as the tears left your eyes, Mick's hand stretching to wipe them.

"You mean the world to me, Y/N. You're the most beautiful woman out there and I only care about you. And I want to see you thrive, wether it is in work or other things, I want to see you happy and be the luckiest man in the world that gets to be loved by you, to see you be an even better person everyday", he said as he looked at your lips, "I want you to be with me on trips and adventures, sure, but I will never ask you to drop everything you have and come with me just for that", he mused, "and I would never ever do anything like that to you, nothing they wrote ever crossed my mind. I love you too much to every hurt you like that, and it bothered me that you considered it. I now understand why, so", he kissed the top of your head before looking back at you, eye to eye, "anytime you have these doubts, you can come and talk to me. And I mean it. I'll make sure to remind you everyday of how much I love you and how you mean the world to me", he smiled, seeing a sparkle in your eyes, "Thank you for being so understanding", you said, "I love you, Mick", you smiled, "so so so much", before locking your lips with his, Angie wagging her tail around you, "are you doing that because you want some food?".

[hidden-1n-the-sand]

I wanna hear your evil idea 🙋‍♂️🙋‍♂️🙋‍♂️

YIPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

(not color coded bc too tired to do so but it’s still me tho)

ok so(why do we always start with ok so. idk but anyways)

before the evil idea is explained i think maybe we should. give a brief summary of the lore and the characters. so that it. makes sense

(name may change bc the acronym really sucks) Shadows Of Doubt is a story about 5 unfortunate souls that get trapped in the literal in-between of space, time and all of that bc they apparently broke the inter-dimensional travel rules idk how to explain that we’ll get back to that later and in order to avoid being turned into wandering stars(aka basically turned into an empty shell of themselves that is trapped in the Inbetween for the rest of eternity, wandering all alone with no sense of who they are, until perhaps hopefully one day one of the higher beings will take the wandering soul and merge it with others to create a [name redacted bc mystery :3 also bc we havent fleshed out this part of the plot :3].) they must play along with the games that the higher being in charge of the dimension they’re trapped in, Naiche, comes up with :3 and also they get (even more) traumatized and slowly driven insane for Naiche’s entertainment and bc of other plot related reason anyways onto important characters

“Gather ‘round, creatures and gods from all dimensions, witness these measly mortal beings [tear each other apart?] in order to avoid punishment for the crimea in the debut of our new show, Interdimensional Normopathy!”

-Show’s announcement played every episode of Interdimentional Normopathy’s first season, roughly translated. The Competitors:

Leto(He/It): human(supposedly). captain of the saturnXV7, sorta the reason why they’re all stuck in this living hell. should really not have this job, only got it bc. nepotism? blackmail but technically nepotism. wanted to explore the stars ever since it was a kid, suffered mild memory loss after the incident that trapped his crew in this. dimension thing. does not remember what happened, cannot recall what the original mission of the crew is, im not going to get into personality and descriptions for now so. all you need to know is that its sanity was hanging ok by a thread by the time the events of the story happened, but dw it gets better. well he gets worse before getting better and that is if it wins the show. idk how to be vague. 19, gender is yes so is orientation and all

Sam(She/Space): [unknown, remembers literally nothing about life on earth, does not recognize crew and neither do they recognize her, but space has a JHintergalactic(company the crew works for, we did not bother with names until this point and it shows tbh) mark on her wrists, so that must mean she’s part of the company right? also fire powers. possibly human? perhaps one of the subjects of the early mutation experiments supposedly ran by the company a few years ago, who knows. silly chaotic creature, despises Leto, has survived out of sheer luck honestly, fascinated by Naiche and the Inbetween itself, trying to desperately put the pieces together to remember, is not aware of the fire stuff btw. also space’s the only one who trusts Naiche to an extent, and actually sorta befriends it? everything about the Inbetween is vaguely familiar to space tbh. 22. lesbiam .gender is there and it exists and wait no nvm she lost it gender is gone

Isaac(They/He): [information not found!] :3 very vague about this. not quite human, not quite an individual, not quite anything at all, taken as a prisoner of sorts by the the crew alongside Dawn, existential crisis that will not lead to any impactful decisions :3 age unknown, yes.

Alek(Zi/Hir): human(for now). suffered little to no memory loss, yet when asked claims that zi does not remember anything pre-incident. knows exactly what the mission was, does not tell anyone tho. role in the ship is unknown. made a deal with Naiche :3 does start to get along with Isaac and Dawn, everything will definitely end well for hir btw :3 20, genderqueer, lesbian :D

Dawn(collectively They/Ve): where do i even start. favorite oc btw. system. btw. bodily 18, not human, taken as a prisoner alongside Isaac. WHERE DO I EVEN START AFTER ALL

Dawn is our oldest oc btw. and we definitely didnt project everything back when we first made them. anyways. system of 3(for now for now for now for now)

Atlas(host): They/Them, does not talk at all when they front, does not remember anything before the incident. second least hostile towards Naiche, feels like they know it from somewhere. does not trust Alek, literally the only one who is friendly to Leto, is actually sorta a ray of sunshine(for now).

Noah(anger holder, memory holder): Ae/Aer. the one who remembers. hates everyone. knows exactly who Naiche is, despises the memories that just the mere sight of it brings back. an angsty teenager basically honestly. trapped in the past and refuses to leave.

Vi(?): Ey/Em. is it a role to be the. the power holder? bc Dawn’s not human. what are they? that will be explained. in another post. this is getting too long. sorta a creature. chaos but not evil but not good ig? does not trust anyone, sorta worships Naiche.

Fun fact: Dawn’s freckels turn different shapes depending on who’s fronting. if it’s Atlas, it’ll be a star on the right side of their face. if it’s Noah, it’ll be a tear shape on the left side of their face. Vi. cross shape sorta? if unknown(:D), question mark, if co front, spiral. idk how to explain but powers be explained today: shadows. shadows. Dawn is a shadow creature a creature from an extinct dimension, they sorta look human but not descriptions for another post.

evil idea(not evil just smth. we have thought about for a while): you know how. how ppl often talk about the “core” in a system? like “the original” and they usually say that about hosts which is bullshit bc there is no original and hosts are just the ones who front the most. there’s nothing that makes us special, just that we front more. idk i’ve been listening to be born(chonny jash) too much and the song makes sense honestly anyways Atlas is a fusion, a fusion that breaks after the stress is far too much and they un-fuse(and also try to kill the body but that’s not important). this will be explained later actually i’ve had to rewrite and delete stuff from this post multiple times idk if im explaining this well we love exploring systemhood with characters and idk idk

[crazyk-imagine]

The Doctor’s Friend

Pairing: James T. Kirk x Fem!reader, Leonard “Bones” McCoy x Fem!reader (platonic)

Characters: James T. Kirk, Leonard “Bones” McCoy, Fem!reader, Daisy and Sandy (Reader's old roommates) Warnings: This has been in my drafts for a bit, it makes no sense and doesn’t at the same time, Kirk is dumb but nice, he tries honestly, Bones’ wants his bestie to work with him, we bring up Kirk’s whore past, Kirk could have been a lot worse, this is so bad it’s good Word Count: 834

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You roll your eyes, knowing why he (the he being your oldest friend [and idiot] Leonard) didn't tell you who it was that called you aboard. "Seriously?!" You spin around to face him. "You couldn't tell me who it was that wanted me to join his crew?" 

James interrupts, quite literally stepping in between the two of you. He smiles while doing so, lowering his hand as he stands in front of you. 

You shake your head, "no." 

"Why?” He sounds offended (which would have made you laugh; had you not been pissed off). “I haven't even said anything." 

You turn around, walking forward. "It's better that way." 

"Do you know who I am or something?" 

You nod. "Or something. Now, go away. And don’t talk to me, Leonard." 

James glances back over at his friend. 

The doctor rolls his eyes and gestures for the captain to follow after you. 

He jogs towards you, holding his hands so you don’t run into him and to prevent you from running away. "So, you said we kind of know each other.” 

Your expression doesn’t change. 

“Oh," he sucks air in between his teeth. "Did we-" 

"Bye." You spin around him and walk away, regretting everything that lead up to you officially talking to the idiotic captain. 

"Hey- hey. Wait!" He runs to follow you. 

"Nope." 

He holds his hands in front of him, stopping you from moving (again). “We’re going to talk about why you hate me so much so I can hopefully persuade you into joining my crew because let’s face it. If Bones is saying you’re good, then I gotta say. I kind of believe him and want you to join.” 

You sigh, “you’re the reason I couldn’t graduate with everyone else.” 

“I’m sorry.” 

“Not the mention the fact that you slept with my roommates and broke their hearts.” 

“Okay, okay. I’m going to need to stop you right there so you can explain to me everything I’ve,” he sighs, shoulders sagging low. “Messed up so bad to make you hate me.” 

“You decided to run through the court one day and bumped into me, ruining my project that was worth- that part’s not important.” 

His eyebrows jerk up at your comment. 

“The point is, you ruined my project, and I wasn’t able to do anything about it because the professor didn’t care. His words actually were, “not my problem” and I failed the class so, thank you for that.” 

“That part I get, which I am sorry for but- uh- why do you hate me about my past with your roommates?” 

“You gave them the “night of their lives” and they wanted more. I mean, that was before you went from Daisy to Sandy. They hated each other for weeks and they kept moaning and groaning about it to me.” You whine. 

He covers his mouth to keep him from laughing. 

“Don’t snicker.” 

“I’m not,” he argues. 

“You are. See this is why I never wanted to talk to you, you don’t take these things seriously.” You take a step forward. 

He stops you once again. “No, look. I am, I really am sorry, but you haven’t spoken to your roommates since graduation, right?” 

“No.” 

“And, needing another semester or a year, made you want to do even better so you could show people how smart you are.” 

You shrug, ignoring his gaze. “I guess.” 

“What I’m hearing is, me coming into your life, was a little bit of a good thing.” 

“Yeah, no. I can’t do this.” 

He takes note of the small crack of a smile that clearly wants to tug at the corner of your lips. “I think you can. I think, I’m rubbing off on you.” 

“That’s not true.” 

“See,” he points the clear smile stretching across your lips. “That right there, tells me you like me. Maybe you could even get used to me enough to come aboard, work with my crew and I?” 

You take a deep breath and stop. 

He bumps into a passer byer, quickly offering an apology. 

“I will… go against every fiber in my body and say…” 

“Yes?” 

“I agree to work with your crew.” 

“And me?” 

“Don’t push it.” 

“Okay.” 

You two walk back towards the doctor (who thanks all and any god that answered his prayers). “How about we go on an “I’m sorry I ruined your life but actually made it better” date?” 

“Don’t push it,” you say and run towards Leonard. 

“Glad to see you two didn’t kill each other.” 

“Shut up.” 

“Now can we go get that drink? I need it after watching you two, do whatever that was.” 

You narrow your eyes at him and elbow him. 

He huffs and bends forward, holding his side. 

James stands beside him and smiles. “I’m happy you told me to come with you today.” 

The doctor groans and smacks his captain’s arm. “Don’t even think about it.” 

“I’m not.” 

Leonard shakes his head and walks away. ‘Like I believe that.’

[will80sbyers]

I feel like so many people don't understand that heteronormativity and conforming still exist if Mike is bi like to me it possibly makes even more sense because in a way I feel like its more expected for us to just ignore the "gay part" I mean bisexuals literally dont even get accepted when seeking asylum because we're basically supposed to suck it up and stay closeted forever and sometimes I read stuff from people and it's like well yeah makes sense that you'd think it makes no sense. And not even in a bad way just they make it very clear they don't consider that some problems aren't exclusively capital G gay problems

Yup!! but honestly I don't have the energy to explain this anymore, in this period of time in particular, they can keep blabbing about it I'm gonna just do my own and be happy waiting for the show to explain it

hopefully they'll get it then... otherwise they will hate s5 if things happen like I believe, it's sad for them, but trying to put my energy into convincing others that we are humans with complexities and get affected by heteronormativity and internalized homophobia too is exhausting and I'm not really into it anymore...

thank you for the very clear ask!! 🩷🩷

[rainparadefromhell]

Hi.

Okay so I haven't really said much about the trailer on here (I'm a bit more active on twitter so follow me there if you wanna talk more @ casualenjoyr) but I just can't explain this feeling that I have in my chest since watching it.

I'll start of by saying I am really really optimistic about season 4. I think it has the potential of being my favorite season (1,3,2 is my ranking rn). Most of you know I'm a benvi so let's start with the obvious.

Ben & Devi

I've seen some people say they are worried about Ben and Devi, with the whole Margot and Ethan situation and I have to admit that was so me... before the trailer. Yeah it sucks because it looks like they are just repeating storylines but I genuinely do believe Ben and Devi need that push to actually admit their feelings for each other. When you think about it, they haven't done that yet. The closest we got to it was Ben telling Devi he likes her personality and that he'd miss her and even though you can see an "I love you" written all over his face neither ever really verbalized the strong feelings they have for each other. The trailer shows us a lot of B&D conflicts but like I said I have a really good feeling about this. Mainly because of this one scene and you all know...

I want to frame this picture and put it on my fridge like they are my family. (bc they are)

Whatever conversation they have here, talking about their futures and leaving school, having sex for the first time - hell even if they just breathe next to each other for a few seconds, I am convinced it will be one of my favorite scenes of the show if not my favorite. The show has been building up to it and I am sure the writing will deliver as it always has with their romantic scenes.

The boink

HA! I totally knew they did it. I think it is the best decision for the season. The show always made a point to acknowledge the connection they have and now that connection is even stronger. I think it perfectly shows, now more than before, just how much more comfortable they are with each other vs. other people they've dated. I also can't wait for the awkwardness that will follow this whole thing. I hope Mr. Shapiro makes some clumsy monologue that ties into what happened (like when Devi was thinking about having sex with Paxton and freaked out in class).

Paxton & Devi

I really hope the writers don't cave in and have anything happen with them. My favorite scene of them is Devi telling Paxton that he was a dream to her last season. I know it's been hinted that Paxton still has feelings for Devi but I do not think she still has feelings for him. Hopefully there will maybe be a situation that happens but then they figure out they work better as friends. I think it will be interesting seeing Paxton technically in the adult world while working in the same high school he once went to. I think there is a lot to explore there with his character and that he matures even more.

Trent, Eleanor and Fabiola

I really like Trent and Eleanor together and I hope they don't break up but if they do I think I'd be okay with it as long as it makes sense with the characters. It seems like Eleanor might have some intense storyline of her own involving acting and I'm really excited. I can't say much about Fabiola because I think she got sidelined a bit again which frustrates me honestly.

(I will be talking about a leaked script spoiler here so please skip this part if you don't want to see that).

The only conflict involving Fabiola I remember happened in the leak we have and it involves Fabiola getting into Princeton and Devi getting waitlisted. Still it just ties her to Devi and not her own storyline but I wonder if it draws a wedge between them. I am also not one of these people that care too much if Devi eventually gets into Princeton. I just hope whatever happens she learns not to put so much pressure on herself and break down if things don't go exactly like she planned. Your life isn't ruined if you don't get into a particular school. In the end, it is what you make of it.

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The rest of the Vishwakumars

We haven't seen much in the trailer involving them but I think their storylines will be really good. I always enjoy and appreciate the plotlines of the adults in the nhie universe so I am excited for that too. Who is getting married? Honestly, I don't even care who it is, I just really want to see a wedding happen. It's a great way for us to rest from all the chaos and the drama. I don't think anything major will happen with Nalini and Devi, I just hope we see even more mother daughter moments because for me that is the heart of the show.

Leaving and moving on

Okay so here's the part where I fall apart a little bit. One of the things that stood out to me in the trailer is Devi having that feeling of not wanting to let go and realizing she'll have to say goodbye to a lot of people. I am really proud of her here because for a nerdy girl dealing with grief that wanted so badly to be popular and have a hot boyfriend, seeing her love her friends, her family, her mom FIRST means so much to me. Devi made a lot of mistakes and put people and status in first place when she shouldn't have. Season 3 reminding her she already has everything she needs around her, that that is her support system means everything. We are all just trying to find a place in the world for us to fit in but never consider that that place isn't found, it's made. And boy oh boy, I think she finally made it, folks.

Saying goodbye to nhie & me being sappy

I am really excited to see these characters again but having to say goodbye will be really hard.

:(

Never Have I Ever is not a perfect show and if you know me you know I criticize it quite a lot but it is really near and dear to my heart as a viewer that has watched it from the day it came out in 2020. I've joined Tumblr first during season 2 and connected with a lot of people whose posts and opinions I appreciate and value SO much. I've never really been a proper part of a fandom like this before and I have to say that for the most part it has been such a wonderful experience. It gave me my first followers (also online friends) and a community. Thank you to everyone that has interacted with me in any way, I really did spent a lot of nights reading your metas and analyses like they were the most influential philosophy works of our time.

I hope this sweet little show stays with you in some part even if it's just John McEnroe crawling inside your ear on a random Tuesday. You tell him to stop but he is in there.

[emblazonet]

Nerilka's Story

Can someone explain why this book exists, please?

It's fucking TINY and it took me over a month to get through, and it somehow managed to make me hate characters from Moreta: Dragonlady of Pern, which is an incredible feat, because I loved Moreta and the cast.

I liked Nerilka in Moreta. She was fine.

Being in her head was like someone rubbing a cheesegrater on my skull.

As usual, spoilers follow for a book that's been out since 1986.

I mean, Anne McCaffrey did succeed in writing a first-person book that is exactly like a person writing shit down in a diary with very little filter and with no real sense of plot, and if I wanted that, I would go read a real person's diary, because it sure as fuck couldn't be more boring than this.

The first half of the book is just Nerilka (Rill) being all like 'wah I was mean to my family and now they're dead' which, like, valid thing to be sad about. Her dad sucks, which we know from Moreta. Great, we can maybe have tension with him—wait no. Suddenly the focus then moves on to Rill's flouncy stepmother who is just a really boring charicature of a stock villain. She's pretty and brainless and lords it over Nerilka and it's flat and boring and comes across as pretty misogynistic honestly.

McCaffrey's weird bloodline shit is extra gross in this. The drudges come off as subhuman in intelligence, who must be managed and herded. (And then all the parts later on where Alessan needs to have a person of the right bloodline to marry and I'm just like.... why.) There's no magic or anything that runs through bloodlines. There's no scientific reason why nobles matter more than other people. It's just stated to matter for some reason with no back up. If the caste system was like, nuanced or something—a drudge struggles to be thought of as intelligent or something, in another Pern story even!—then I'd be more tolerant, but this seems like an unconscious bias, and therefore it irks me.

The other issue with the first half of the book is that it's a really shoddy rehash of stuff that already happened in Moreta. Yawn.

I was relieved at first when Rill finally got to Ruatha hold where hopefully she could have some characters to interact with—the telling instead of showing was by this point irritating the everloving fuck out of me. Unfortunately it's just 'here's some boring vaccine logistics' for pages. Then finally Moreta dies which introduces some conflict...

And instead of anything compelling we end up with Mega Depressed Emotional Shutdown Alessan who basically gets a complete personality wipe, because that's how grief works right? And then suddenly he's making some stupid shitty suicide bargain to Rill. "You can kill me once I put a bun in your oven, but don't worry, I won't beat you!" WOW.

WOW. (There's no 'omg you were Lady Nerilka all along!' moment in any of the book, by the way, despite her travelling incognito. Everyone just already knew. That dialogue might have been fun! Can't have that.)

(There's also no scene where Rill and Alessan reminisce over Suriana, the one person they loved in common, because that also might be fun or have emotional resonance.)

And then Alessan is a zombie for the rest of the book. Look, yes, grief changes people, sure, but like. Maybe we can cut out realism in the TELEPATHIC DRAGON book to maybe not have a previously-likeable dude turn into 'not beating my wife is my one redeeming quality haha I have no emotions anymore.'

Like he gets four sons and doesn't emote until there's a daughter???

And Rill's like "This is fine, he has no real emotion for me except pragmatic approval, but I like being pregnant so it's a happy ending after all!"

(This book has some weird moments about pregnancy. Like the whole bit with the runner giving birth where Rill says runners are so much more advanced than humans because they don't wail and weep and curse in pain. What. What is that. Why is that. That's fucking weird, Anne! That's a weird thing to say! I love my random animal birth scenes to have an Obligatory Misogynist moment to make the narrator sound like she's Not Like Other Women, that's fucking great.)

Anyway this book fucking sucked and I'm going to pretend it never happened in order to go on enjoying Moreta.

1/10 YIKES

[t4tprinzzy]

2. What are your sides traits? Are they the same or different from the Sanders Sides?

4. Do your sides have names? Is there a reason they're named that? (Ex. How Patton's name comes from "Pathos")

9. Do your sides interact with the Sanders Sides? If so, who gets along with who? Who hates each other?

16. FREE SPOT FOR ANSWERERS! Ramble about anything you want!

- @transfemlogan

2: my sides traits are Hope, Sensitivity, Logic, Creativity, “Cringe” and… weed. the weed side

cringe is like a reclamation of sorts, and is used positively. she’s made of self love rather than self deprecation :3 rawr basically encompasses all my interests that society considers “cringe”

hope is kinda like my morality in a way, but functions differently from patton (especially since she’s also my selfishness). hope wants me to be better, and knows i can be, but isn’t overbearing about it

sensitivity is also my anxiety, and kinda takes things to heart. but she’s fiercely protective of me and the others, so if any of us get hurt, all hell breaks loose. they’re unintentionally the reason i worry about if im a bad person, because of the anxiety portion of her functions. she doesn’t mean to make me question it, it just happens because of their worrying

and logic and creativity are fairly similar to logan and roman respectively, but my logic is very emotional, and i only have one creativity that encompasses all aspects of imagination

weed is… my stoner thoughts. and my munchy cravings. and my love of bongs

4: they all have different names from their traits except Hope! he’s just Hope because it feels right, i honestly have no reasoning skjdjdfk

Sensitivity is Ophelia, named after the hurricane because they’re like an oncoming storm, and also because the name means “aid” and “help”, and all Ophelia wants to do is help me through life’s issues,, idk it makes sense in my head lmao

Cringe is Ebony because “my name is Ebony Dark’ness Dementia Raven Way and i have long ebony black hair (that’s how i got my name) with purple-

Logic is Nikola because i wanted to name it after someone in history who was known for their brilliance, and Nikola Tesla, inventor of the tesla coils, seemed like the right pick. idk something about a guy who worked with electricity seemed right to me

Creativity is Angelo, derived from Michelangelo, the famous painter. for hopefully obvious reasons lmao

Weed is… Mary Jane. i probably don’t need to explain

9: i haven’t yet decided if they actually interact! but i think hypothetically, Hope would get along well with Remus. idk why, just the vibe i get. and Janus i think. and he would probably think Patton is a bit much kajdjffj like “damn this guys in charge of thomas’s morality??” kajdjdfj

Nikola and Logan might get along as well, and logan would be fascinated by Nikola’s capacity for emotion, given their role as Logic. it would definitely be intrigued by Remus and Roman, being two creativities that separated from each other, and probably try to study them sjdjdjfjf

Angelo and Roman would freakin love each other lmao a prince and a fae, that’d be great. though Angelo can have darker ideas that lean towards remus territory

Ophelia would appreciate Virgil at first but after a while be like “wow this guy kinda sucks” KSJDJDJF and due to her being intrusive thoughts and anxiety, she wouldn’t really like being around Remus cos of the influence he would have (remus would say some shit like “your bones are always wet” or smthn idk and Ophelia would freak the fuck out)

Ebony and Remus. need i say more <3

also Mary Jane and Remus. but Mary Jane probably likes everyone (probably doesn’t trust Patton at first, cos his dad energy also has some narc energy like he’s gonna be all strict about drugs, but warms up to him eventually)

16: UHHH UM. RELATIONSHIP DYNAMICS?

im dating myself, and as such im also dating my sides. so there’s that

Ebony and i are cuddlers through and through. if i had longer hair he’d always be braiding it lmao and it loves making me kandi jewelry that i cant wear cos it’s imaginary </3 faer primary love language is physical touch for sure (words of affirmation is a close second)

Nikola just loves spending time with me and telling me everything on its mind <3 they also love sharing fun facts about the world cos it knows i love learning. their primary love language is quality time

Angelo is always wanting to slow dance with me, even though im not a good dancer lmao. he’s very romantic and sensual, so fae’re always trying to sweep me off my feet by waxing poetic. magics primary love language is a tie between gift giving and acts of service

Hope enjoys singing to me, especially to try and help me fall asleep at night. it doesn’t always work but the gestures there lmao. she’ll run his fingers through my hair and softly serenade me and fuck im so touch starved KAJDJDDJF her primary love language is acts of service (quality time is a close second)

Ophelia writes me poetry and performs it (not in a bombastic way, just… a gentle delivery that speaks for itself). they get help from Angelo for this lmao but it’s always 100% her writing. her primary love language is quality time (physical touch is a close second)

Mary Jane is also a big cuddler, and, of course, enjoys smoke sessions. it also enjoys joint cooking sessions (pun intended), where we both cook something :3 its primary love language is physical touch and quality time

i hope i answered these well :3

[pholiabanna]

Confession time; i kinda hate the st writers. They are the reason why the pride was ruined during the vol2 waiting, the reason why we face constant homophobia from mlvns and the ga for shipping byler and all bc they refused to break up mlvn and also included that shit ass monologue. Now we have to wait years to see the conclusion meanwhile ppl gradualy start lose their interest. They ruined Nick's career and reputation for no reason when his site was there for years. The way they say nothing against the apparent fandom homophobia even though it is not even a secret since ppl sharw homophobic comments left and right. The way they use Will's car scene as a memeable moment even though many queer fans were devastated when the scene came out. The way they write these characters. The way they treate Will. The way they treated Robin. I have so much spite and hatred bottled in me and i am only starting to realize it after a year. If byler doesnt become canon i hope all st writers and the duffers lose their jobs and never manage to write ever again. I would even support Netlix going full bankrupt. My respect for the writers all depend on whether or not byler becomes canon and i dont care if it makes me stuck with byler or whatever. After everything the writers pulled, yes, my respect all depend on this choice for S5.

Honestly I see where you're coming from, so your feelings are completely valid. I do believe that the monologue and saving byler for the last season makes narrative sense because of the way they've written the story and how best friends to lovers stories usually work (they normally won't get together until the end of a movie, and you have to think of ST as a 5 season long movie).

I think most of those things you pointed out are more of a fandom problem, like Will crying in the van becoming a meme- I believe it was portrayed very seriously in the show and it was a certain sector of the audience who decided to memefy it. Also, the homophobia would happen even if byler became canon in season 4, sadly homophobes are everywhere in every fandom. I also believe a lot of those things you pointed out are more of Netflix's fault, because using Wills scene as a meme was something accounts like Netflix, Netflix geeked, Netflix UK and other did, but I don't recall strangerwriters doing that (but I may be wrong so please if I am let me know). Their executives were probably the ones who decided to split the season as well, and having vol 2 come out right after pride month (being a terrible coincidence because of the byler-Milkvan storyline and the homophobia that subsequently came from maloobans). If I remember correctly, the writers account has stated a couple times that everyone should be allowed to ship whoever they want. But as you pointed out, sometimes I feel like they could do a little bit more. They tanked Nick's reputation (which I can understand up to a certain point if they are trying to protect the show they are working on from getting spoiled, but maybe they should have made a less vague and incriminating statement), and they definitely could address the rampant homophobia in the fandom more frequently.

It sucks that we need to wait so many years to prove we were right, but think about how satisfying it will be once the season comes out and you watch all of those people have a breakdown, and hopefully you see interviews from the duffers explaining how that was the intention all along. If that's the case, then I'll be happy, but as you said, if all of these was for nothing and byler isn't endgame, I'll definitely consider it queerbaiting, because they have built up romantic feelings for Will on Mike's side, even if some people want to deny it. So yeah, queerbaiting in 2023 sucks, and it's totally valid for you to feel like you won't respect them anymore if they go that route. I think more people need to realize this is not a matter of whether the couple I like ends up together over the couple other people like, it's a matter of whether queer people get a respectful and deserved treatment or not. And if they don't, then they're terrible writers, because if the way they fucked up that storyline, and terrible people too.

But hopefully not. Right now, I'm really convinced byler is endgame and they know what they're doing. We have to deal with crazy Melvin stans meanwhile, but the wait will be over before you notice and they'll get really quiet and embarrassed once they realize how wrong they were. But I'd like for them to address some of the homophobic comments online a little bit more often.

[filmmarvel]

Shadow and Bone Season 2 Pros and Cons

I’ll keep adding to this if I think of more things.

PROS:

Nikolai. His existence alone bumps this season up to another level of fun.

No I Am Become A Blade scene!! Thank god.

The sets, the costumes, all the little props and details! This show is so gorgeous, and I love the amount of care put into each of these artistic aspects.

I love that each intro is different. They’re always really fun to watch.

It will always be fun to see book characters come to life on screen. Even if they aren’t perfect, it’s still really enjoyable.

The Nichevo’ya looked so cool! As did the Sea Whip.

Overall I really liked the Shadow and Bone storyline! They got rid of a lot of the messier things from the book- Mal’s behavior, the weird Siege and Storm pacing, the overdramatized Nikolai/Alina/Mal love triangle, the unfortunate Ruin and Rising Ending, etc. Plus Nikolai just really gives them the upper hand.

Seeing Dirtyhands for the first time! The only time it really felt like watching Kaz from then books.

The coronation scene was gorgeous, and honestly I thought the Jurda Parem bit was really cool.

Ben Barnes was fantastic as usual.

The Worldbuilding was on a whole other level this season! Even if it was rushed, it was still really fun to get to see so much more beyond Ravka.

David and Genya’s storyline was beautifully done.

CONS:

Pretty much everything with the Crows. I realize my ‘set your expectations low and you can’t be disappointed’ approach to this season maybe isn’t the best way to think about it. Even when thinking about their plotline from a completely detached-from-the-books view, it was still messy. My primary complaint from the beginning was always the lack of coherency between their two plotlines. After further thought, pretty much everything they did was a mess. In bringing so much of their book plotlines into this season, they rushed the hell out of it and sucked all the poignancy from the books out. And again, I’m not mad because they did some rearranging of book plot lines, I’m just mad that they did it so poorly.

The acting. To be honest I’m surprised that I haven’t really seen many other people mentioning this. I’m not saying they were all bad, but the fact is that Ben Barnes is really the only great actor there. That’s been true since season 1. I try not to let it bother me too much, and to be honest I had totally forgotten how bad some of it was in season 1 until I watched season 2.

The pacing. Honestly I’m sticking to when I said I preferred this rushed pacing over the original Siege and Storm pacing. It was fast paced, and exciting. Unfortunately it was also just way too much way too fast.

Some of the green screens were… obvious.

I can’t be the only one a little surprised that they change the way Alina’s power looks every single episode. But hey, screw continuity, at least it looks cool.

No Fedyor and Ivan :(

What the hell was that look between Inej and Tolya in the finale?? What? This is one of the only times I’ll get annoyed with changes from the book. It just seems really unnecessary, why insert more romance when you have such a beautiful love story between Kaz and Inej?

Obviously I’m not the only one wondering what they’re planning with Alina’s dark powers. That just didn’t really make sense, and her smiling made even less sense. Hopefully they’ll explain this if there’s a season 3!

As much as I love that they axed the whole ‘Alina loses her power and settles down with Mal’ ending, I have to say that I didn’t love that they broke up at the end? It just didn’t really make sense to me. So much of the show is focused around their love for each other, and the fact that they’re each other’s homes. That being said, I didn’t hate every aspect of this ending- I didn’t hate that Alina isn’t giving up her seat at the table, and it made sense that Mal didn’t really want that life. So I don’t think this is 100% a Con- it was just a little confusing thematically. It felt like they tried to fix the Ruin and Rising ending and just swung too far the other way.

Overall I’ll always really enjoy this show, it’s really fun to see material from the books onscreen. I had great time watching this season. Do I think this season was great? Obviously not, but clearly my expectations were low enough to begin with that I wasn’t too disappointed. Anyways, let me know if you agree, and if you have anything you’d add!

[jackienautism]

ive always sort of taken ashley's reaction to that whole situation to be like. in that moment, emily goes from ally to potential threat, and ashley freaks out and her thought process is basically.... "remove the threat". it is mike who escalates and picks up the gun like you said. my guess is, seeing a friend get shot is way different than the possibility of them getting shot? so like... if mike shoots emily, ashley a) sees that reality and b) knows that it wouldn't have happened without her. hence the guilt. but in the case of mike putting the gun down, the potential threat is not gone in any way and ashley didnt have to see her friend Actually get shot. so her reaction is probably from the uneasiness of the situation being unresolved, until she reads the notebook, realizes there was never any danger to her from emily, and THEN feels guilty. hopefully that makes sense? combo of whether or not ashley's unease and panic is actually resolved in the moment, as well as Actually watching emily die or just... having that almost happen.

i honestly have no idea what this is in reference to, but it all makes sense to me yeah! all i wanted was just to talk abt how its kind of fucked (atleast to me) how sam's relationship goes up after ashley reveals the truth 😭 i didnt mean for this to end in a discussion abt the like...bite / shooting scene as a whole. but i appreciate you coming into my inbox nonetheless!

but yeah i really don't blame ashley for freaking out the way she did, its just silly bc didnt jack sooooort of explain the whole situation back in the lodge? i could be TOTALLY misremembering so dont take my word for it. but its just.... he mentions cannibalism and this isnt necessarily cannibalism correct? but yeah. still. ashley is totally one to jump to conclusions before her mind can rly like....digest the situation properly so its sooo in character for her to automatically assume the worse. bc look at the whole basement scene w/ the ghost? her emotions get the best of her and makes her believe things that otherwise have a "rational" / believable explanation. so i totally don't blame her at all for acting the way she does

once again, i totally forget what this could potentially be in reference to fdkgndfg so apologies for that. did they rly like. show that ash was guilty that well though? like. OBV the guilt is gonna be there since her words and actions and whatever sort of led up to the moment of em getting shot, but after that ? does she rly show anything ????? not to say that she doesn't regret what she did and said if em actually dies, bc i jusrt KNOW that isnt true, i just think mike shows more remorse than ashley does which sucks. unless its more of a ...... silent guilt. which is probably is. ive only rly watched the scene and the aftermath once so i cant remember it too clearly sorry

AND I THINK I FINALLY KNOW WHAT THIS IS TALLKING ABT.... ITS ABT THE COMMENT SHE MAKES IF MIKE DOESNT SHOOT EMILY RIGHT? hopefully thats what it is fkgnfg but yeah that totally makes sense to me! or wait. is this just abt the potential guilt ashley feels in this scene? AAAAA IM SO SORRY I SAY A LOT OF THINGS AND I DONT WHAT THE HELL I JUST SAID!!!! if you wanna clarify things for me if i didnt answer this to your satisfaction id appreciate it dfgknfg but once again, i appreciate the discussion regardless!

once again though, i think that does make sense yeah! esp in regards to ashley's "i hope you did" comment following mike failing to shoot em. bc youre right, the uneasiness and .... anxiety of the situation is still there, so it makes sense why she wouldnt seem very ..... happy over mike not shooting em / not getting her to leave

youre right though it def all depends on what occurs, which is like. realistic. esp from a Human Being perspective. so it sucks that a lot of ppl blow the scene out of proportion and unnecessarily hate on ashley for her (rather realistic) reactions to what's shown to her. bc yeah ok if its put out there or if it ever enters her mind, of COURSE shes gonnna freak out ove rth e potential of em "turning into one of them." the only one who doesnt rly believe it at first is sam and thats due to how ..... levelheaded she is, even under times of stress. but ashley is the COMPLETE opposite of that. she''s like. ive seen others talk abt this before but. she's not grounded in reality, which is a very interesting and good way of putting it. so yeah of course her imagination is going to take her into dangerous places and shit and therefore dictate how she reacts to what happens. hopefully this makes any sense? i know i dont necessarily need to defend her actions here (since plenty of others have already done the same) but i just wanted to get my thoughts down sdfnksdf

[thedevilsrain]

waw personal post about having sisters and radicaI feminsm underneath

had like. an interesting chat with my sister about... basically trans issues yesterday. she isnt a full blown t3rf, she basically agrees Trans People Exist And Are Not Perverts (a thought my other sister doesnt share), but she agrees with a lot of transphobic and t3rf sentiments, mostly out of sheer ignorance

i broke down to her a few stereotypes, such as that there is a binary between trans people and their appearance (transfems are always feminine, transmascs are always masculine, non binary people are always "androgynous"), told her there are trans people who dont go on t, and that trans women literally never equalize their upbringings to that of cis women - they equalize their upbrings to that of other trans women

also told her that the fact transmascs are rarely seen in media/news arent because of "misogyny", its because the media finds it much easier to attack a "man" dressed as a "woman", than a "woman" dressed as a "men" (which then reveals their own transphobia because they just think the latter case is a "confused woman" while the first is a "pervert" if that makes sense)

and like.. it was good. she listened. again, most of it came from ignorance - hearing all the shit our other sister says, and not knowing any trans people herself, besides from the videos of Bad Trans People she would see shared around

(specifically, she brought up a video she'd told me about before, of a trans person at a rally saying "Iesbians will suck dick!" and saying she was baffled by it; to which i calmly explained there were not just trans women who were lesbians, but cis women who dated them, and that the matter of genitaIia isnt, for the lack of a better word, "ignored" or "forced" upon cis women)

funny enough the only thing we hit a wall out was the word t3rf itself - i told her at the end that it was nowhere close to being a slur like the T slur, and she said "t3rf is to feminits what the T slur is to trans people". when i told her "being called a t3rf doesnt get you killed in the streets" she scoffed and said "of course it does", even she stated herself braziI remains the country that kills the most trans people

i gave up after that mostly because we were both kind of tired, but another thing i hit a roadblock at was when she said "i'm honestly just tired of this whole discussion", and it honestly hurt me a bit. not because she didnt want to continue discussing it, but idk, just the way she said it made it seem like "oh can we discuss if trans people deserve to live some other day"

and on a darker note when i told her our sister wants trans people to die, she said (jokingly) "no she doesnt, she just wants them like.... to go away", and i said "yeah, go away, hide in the closet, and die" and she actually laughed and agreed because we both know that its the level our other sister has reached

overall again as i said, surprisingly good talk. shes very hesitant to mention the topic of trans issues with her Igbt friends because of her own bigoted friends, and i hope shes at least more willing to learn now

also she hopefully learned that jk roIando (as i call her) Is Bad because shes literally associating w friends of neo nazis now lol

[notebookmusical]

Hi! I hope you're having a good week and enjoyed your birthday, even if it was pretty lowkey. Honestly I always keep my birthdays that way so I know what you mean and I remember that we both said we both weren't big birthday people when we talked about it. I'm so glad you were happy with your surprise songs. That's so cool that you almost predicted it and got something you wanted. I almost did that at my show with Right where you Left Me, but it was a lot easier cuz she was trying to play each song at least once back then lol. I guess the tour has been going on for a long time and I will miss it..but she deserves a break and I'm also expecting the other rerecordings soon..so it won't be that bad. I'm expecting maybe around February, March or April, since it will be about a year since TTPD. But I've seen some people say they think a new album could be next instead. Do you have an opinion? To be honest, I always said Wonderland was one of my least fav songs lol but I still like it when I hear it sometimes. It's just one I usually forget about..but I love Alice in Wonderland too, but the song doesn't really make me think of it. I did enjoy the actual mashup though, and same with Never Grow Up and the Best Day. It made sense why she would sing it near one of the last shows as a tribute to her family and parents and it's cute that your mom was there with you.

Hmm I was wondering if it would feel that way. But I think it makes sense where it is, instead of at the end of the show..although I Can Do it could also be a fun finale. Wow you were close guessing a place in this world..aww. I felt that about the night two songs too, kinda but I guess she wanted to perform with Gracie again, and play Maroon for the last time lol. Aww I'm sorry the cameras were blocking the view..that kinda sucks but it's kinda cool to be like..I was there! I mostly think the same, and I wonder if it will be the next thing, before the rerecordings or not...but maybe early next year is my guess like end of January and rerecordings later. A doc makes sense to celebrate a tour like this so I'm excited for it too.

It's weird cuz for the Outsiders..I totally agree that I see them all as separate and I can't explain why. Like I was flipping thru the book recently cuz I couldn't remember exactly how it was in the book compared to the movie. So I was like..did they change that from the movie or was it like that in the book? Like it felt like some scenes were out of order or something so I wanted to double check that. I just can't remember since it's been a while since I saw the movie even. However when I was reading parts, I could only picture the movie and not the musical and idk why lol. I suppose cuz I'm more familiar with it, but it will be interesting to see which one you like more after reading and not being familiar. It seems like some people that saw the musical first don't enjoy the movie that much. It seems like the musical tried to stick closer to the book. I was looking thru it and in the first chapter it says ponyboy was reading Great Expectations and they turned that into his song which was pretty cool cuz I never would've remembered that. Sorry if that's a bit of a spoiler but it's an example of wondering where the songs would go. so I'm excited to see more of that from the book and compare it to the musical. I also told my sister we could actually read it since she never did. Unfortunately they didn't keep one of my favorite lines from the book exactly but it's pretty much in there in other ways. They also made some other changes but I get they couldn't fit everything. They also performed on Jimmy Kimmel this week and the performance was so good! I'm afraid you would have Outsiders overload by the time you were done though, similar to what happened with Wicked haha.

How was the Wicked book? Did you enjoy it? I've heard it's bad but hopefully or maybe I can get to it by the time the second movie comes out. Would you recommend the audiobook? I just saw it on Spotify..I always said I can't do audiobooks cuz it's hard to pay attention but maybe it would help and for my sister especially. Did you see that they named it Wicked For Good in place of the part 2 lol. I guess I like it but I'm also wondering why but it definitely could be the highlight of the next film so it makes sense. Ooh I forgot about Thank Goodness but I am excited for it cuz it's similar to No one Mourns the Wicked and it will feel similar to the beginning of the first movie. I'm also curious about what kinda songs they added in Part 2 and for who. Could it be another Glinda song..probably for Oscar chances. Apparently there are 2 new songs so what do you think the other one would be? I don't know if the movie Part 1 will win a lot of awards like for acting, and the color was disappointing but I was impressed with the sets and the costumes so maybe that will win.

Did you enjoy the Back to the Future movie and did you get to see the musical yet? To me, that one is a little easier to imagine as a musical based on the few clips of performances I've seen. The only song I know for now is Back in Time. The vibes are also pretty different and more fun I would say and I hear they do a few cool things on stage so I would be interested in that. But fun fact..the original Marty Casey Likes was also Ponyboy in the Outsiders workshop a few years ago before he decided to do Back to the Future which is odd cuz the shows are so different, but just another fun connection. He was also in Almost Famous, another movie I love that is a musical, but I never listened to that either lol. But I know it has Solea Pfeiffer which is another reason I wanted to hear it but it didn't do that good on Broadway. Maybe I will after I see this one, but otherwise I'm not that familiar with the original cast as far as comparing it to the tour. What I liked about Kimberly Akimbo is they bring some of the ensemble to the tour which was pretty cool. Anyway I think Back to the Future is actually closing by the end of this month, but it's already been on Broadway a few years I think so it's been pretty successful.

So I only did a basic plot synopsis on Floyd Collins and it doesn't seem like something that would translate into a musical lol..but I'm sure it's good. I've only heard a few songs from Light in the Piazza and know the plot of it but I think I understand the music style it's gonna be if it's similar to that. Actually I just listened to the cast recording of Days of Wine and Roses which is the same person who did the Floyd Collins musical which is a total coincidence..I had no idea until I looked yesterday. I did enjoy some of the music and Brian D'arcy James and Kelli o Hara were in it. So I'm not sure if I will end up listening to it..maybe sometime but will probably listen to the new cast recording version and hopefully there is one. I also read an article about new musicals opening in the spring and it's hard to predict what will be at the Tony's so I guess we will see. They also announced Eva is leaving Gatsby now and being replaced by Sarah Hyland so I guess they need stunt casting somewhat, but she was pretty good in Little Shop. I think I read that Eva is going back to Hadestown which I wouldn't have guessed. I also saw the new Gypsy footage which looks amazing and that it got good reviews too.

Well your replay results don't really surprise me cuz I remember it was similar to last year. I didn't know you enjoyed the 1975 that much though..which I also love, and those are all good choices. Taylor is only on my Spotify Wrapped cuz she has consistently been releasing albums for the last five years and sometimes it's two rerecordings or the length of a long album. For example, TOP only made it this year cuz they had an album and I saw them in concert this year. I guess I'm weird cuz I listen to so much different artists and new stuff that im not really listening to the same fav artists or anything the way other people do. I'm kinda surprised about the cast recordings not making it since they are long albums and I thought it would count more. That's a good point about vinyl and maybe I will start using my vinyl player more in the new year.

I've been good and don't have much planned for the rest of the year. We celebrated Christmas last weekend cuz my brother is going to Mexico so it will probably be jjust chill. I can't believe it's Christmas already and doesn't feel like it. I might see family this weekend but don't know yet. But in the past, we always worked on Christmas so it's not that big of a deal. I'm hoping to see Hamilton but that's only if I get picked for lottery now since it's all sold out. I did end up listening to the Warriors album and enjoyed it but I probably won't see the Mufasa movie. I have two concerts in February now since I was able to get Zayn tickets last week, and Soccer Mommy. I might go to Back to the Future and some like it Hot musicals as well. I'll also try to finish some books I was in the middle of by the end of the year lol but I haven't really thought of resolutions or anything yet, even if they usually stay the same. But I hope you have a lovely Christmas and New Year's if I don't talk to you again. As always, there's no pressure to reply and I hope you're doing well!

gooood morning 🩷 anon!!! i hope you're having a good week! do you consider weeks starting on monday or sunday? i used to think of weeks starting on sunday, but ever since i started hobonichi-ing, i've had to rewire my brain so that i think of weeks as starting on monday!

as a heads up, it may take me a little longer to reply to asks in the next few weeks — my best friend is visiting from australia! or i'll be replying in record time, who knows!

i'm honestly quite relieved that eras is over, although i will definitely miss it too! i think that given the success of tortured poets, it'll be some time until we see another new album — maybe a rerecording in a few months? i've been thinking of doing a full relisten of her discography, maybe an album or two a day? i was going to say i'd try to squeeze them all in before my friend comes but some of these albums are long 😭 and i do not know if i can commit myself to that.

guess what guess what!! i do not know if you saw my bat signal but i finally read the outsiders!! jamie wants to watch the movie with me, so it'll be at least a month before i can watch the movie and then i can watch a bootleg of it! woohoo! we're getting closer! that being said, i do think spacing it out a bit will help with fatigue, which is good!

i did actually really enjoy the wicked book! there's a lot that's different and i think it really helped me in thinking of the musical, and movie (and book obviously) as separate things. i think there were some things i was like, shocked to know they didn't keep, and i'd love to know more about the process of adapting wicked as a musical. just because it is quite different. and i do recommend the audiobook! i had to train my brain to like audiobooks but i really do love them — they work best for me while i'm doing something else (cleaning, crafting, walking the dog, playing a game, etc) and i really had to experiment with speed (some audiobook narrators are SUPER slow, some are too fast, etc). i really liked the choreo and costumes in the movie! and i'm so excited to have my heart ripped out with the "for good" bit!

back to the future... whew. i have many mixed thoughts about it, but i did think it was a phenomenal adaptation of the movie in the sense that it picks out all the bits that everyone loves, it felt very 1:1, etc. as a musical... i didn't quite enjoy it as much as i wanted to, i left not really remembering a single song (which is ... kind of important for a musical). i was talking to my friend will (who saw it in the west end) before i saw it, and he said it was kind of like a ride and more like an experience than a show, and at intermission i sent him a text and was like. you are entirely correct. you know those rides at universal or disney, like soarin or the simpsons ride? that's what it felt like. mixed with like, a musical? at one point i was like oh this show feels very tailored to like, theme parks and cruise ships. like it is an ... experience. and i knew going in that this was a "very loud show" and brought my loops but it was still ... far too loud WITH them in, which is saying something i think. my friend that i went with got slightly motion sick from the screens at the beginning, and the flashing lights/the way the lights were in general did give me a migraine, so i'd give anyone going to it a heads up for those things! our tour marty is actually from our state! and more specifically, my neighborhood, which is so fun haha. i thought he was fine! i really liked the guy who plays george mcfly, and thought he would be a great pomatter in like fifteen years — then went and looked at his headshot and was like oh it's giving the outsiders haha. i've also been meaning to give almost famous a listen! maybe in the new year!

i did see the hadestown casting! and i am sad for the west end current cast because their contracts are getting cut short to my understanding, but am super super excited for andre and patrick and amber to return to hadestown. and am glad their performances are getting preserved/filmed 🤍 i've been listening to the west end recording a lot, and have been very charmed by dónal's orpheus. he's still no damon but still very charming to me!

i do like the 1975! i haven't listened to them as much but apparently (according to apple music) they were my most listened artist in both january and february, and so i think that's why they made it on there? i didn't listen to as much music this year! and yes, i think it's very easy for taylor to be on a wrapped/replay list because she has SO many songs and even though it doesn't feel like you're listening to her for that long ... some of her albums are like two hours long haha.

how was your christmas? 🤍 oh my gosh i'm so happy for you with zayn tickets — i hope you have the best time!!! i think i'm going to do some "25 in 2025" lists but that's about as far as i've got for resolutions and goals! have not given it too much thought (and need to)!!! hope you're doing well 🤍 !! happy new year if i don't talk to you before it!

[after-nine-at-the-oasis]

Okay good we're explaining to them

Yeah those are really low!

I mean physical health and mental health are both important so the decision sucks but :((

Awww honey 😭😭💔

Both of you :((

I'm sorry lovelies <33

This doesn't guarantee jeopardizing that but yk

:'O Charlie

No Shaun I think it does

Let her talk

Yeah Morgan :') thank you

I like the way she moves her hands

Idk just mood

:'o. . Yeah, brains both different

Ahh yeah that makes sense

I see what she means

I'm glad she got the help she wanted and needing :'))

Yeah, I think that makes sense <333

It doesn't make the decision for everyone but yesh

YAYY :'DD

It worked out and it will hopefully help her <3

That was so sweet :')) 😭😭😭😭❤️

Hey guyss

Hmm okie dokie

D': oh no

That's awful 😭😭💔❤️

Aww honeys :((

Okay Lim I don't think it's about you lol xd

Lim you don't know, because you don't know her

Yep he has a point xd

I don't think it's a nice thing to do regarding Lim but he does actually like her

So you can't be interesting without a career Lim?

I think your career orientedism is coming into play xdd

Oof okay maybe don't tell her "let me tell you something about your mom" but yeah go off honestly xdd

Aww those are delay things :'DD

Aww Lim's kinda considering it :'DD slay

Aww :'))

Okay Glassman chill lol

OKAY CHILL

Aww honeys 😭😭💔 I'm so sorry :((

WAIT

THAT SHOT FRAMING

ASHER'S GONNA MARRY THEM

Aww :')) idk what she's saying but <33

Awww :'o he's kinda like admitting it

That's a sucky phrase like nice but it sucks to sad but sweet :'((

:'O ayo!!

Awww Asher's organizing it for them :'O he's telling them all the stuff

They can!!!

AUAAAAGHHHH HE'LL PLAN IT YEAH :'DDDD

Awww :')))

And he says it :'))

Awww honey <333

It must be hard to "admit" it but I'm glad it's working for you honey <33

Yeah :'))

Awww honeyy 😭😭😭❤️💔❤️