#and he's her first crush rigth?

[cursedvida]

Talking about OP shipping i have to admit that they're my Roman Empire. I assume the Usopp/Kaya would be finally canon because well... isn't already? But if these two don't end up together i'm gonna riot

vinsmoke "pafall" sanji 🤣

[yondzone]

You fall in front of them - Hashira

You were going on a stroll with your crush but accidentally you fell because of the only stone of the road that wanted you dead. 

fluff and stupidity under the cup

𝕿𝖔𝖒𝖎𝖔𝖐𝖆 𝕲𝖎𝖞𝖚𝖚 

"Why are you hugging the ground?" giyuu say looking at you like you were a fish out of the water.

"Im not hugging the ground I fell"

"why did you fell"

Please hide your face full of murderous attend he may notice it and fell sad about that.

Just let him go and admit that you were hugging the ground because you were cold or because it looked warm and you wished for cuddle

If you swallow your pride and admit that he will surely ask you if you are cuddle starved and if you want something

...or he may just said that you are really peculiar

𝕾𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖆𝖟𝖚𝖌𝖆𝖜𝖆 𝖘𝖆𝖓𝖊𝖒𝖎 

As you were walking chatting together, ultimately you fell down in front of your crush

You were not even aware of the fact that it was completely in his capacities to catch you he was just trying to hide his blushing cheeks.

After he realize your no longer next to him but on the ground he gently declare

"You suck" that's what sanemi thought was the best to say in this situation.

If a tear fall from your eyes he would completely stop smiling and panic, he’ll kneel to your level and give you a handkerchief he is always carrying

and ask you if you wish to go to the butterfly estate

if you are not the one to laugh at humiliation in front of your crush he’ll just propose to treat you at his home.

𝕶𝖞𝖔𝖏𝖚𝖗𝖔 𝕽𝖊𝖓𝖌𝖔𝖐𝖚 

"You won't fall lower than this at least" he say smiling and if you just stand here baffled by his positiveness he just carry you like you were a child which his enough to make you fell like dying from embarrassment

First you fall in front of your crush and then he just try to comfort you like you were a child that fell and was crying.

He’ll go buy you some sweet, still carrying you around the street

If you were not already dying of shame then this his the final blow.

Our sweet boy just wanted to see a smile on your face you know so just embrace the sun this man is.

𝕶𝖔𝖈𝖍𝖔 𝕾𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖔𝖇𝖚

"Oh my is everything okay?" she calmly ask you

And start giving you enough thing to heal a deadly wounded person, its her way to show you that she cares.

Also tell you that you are too clumsy and shall work on it if you want to live, being clumsy could mean you’re death, don't worry its still her way to show that she cares about you, rigth?

"Don’t worry I’ll go and ask himejima-san if you can join his training every morning, don’t worry I won’t let you die".. I admit she have peculiar way of caring for someone but its just the way she is.

Im nice so I’ll give you one advice, quickly find away to explain that it was just today but that you are not clumsy and don’t need himejima-san special deadly training to survive and she may let you go

𝕿𝖊𝖓𝖌𝖊𝖓 𝖀𝖟𝖚𝖎 

"Pouahahah kakdkskaka" -Uzui probably

He knew you were going to fall, he sensed it but he did not feel like catching you.

Truthfully he laughed is ass off and was saying how you flamboyantly fell on your ass

You can be sure that in no time all the demon slayer corps know about this, event if it’s not that funny he which to tell everybody how funny this was.

Just go seek support with his wife there are the best they don’t reflect their marry.

It will takes some time but he will get over it and go and apologize to you

But again some time later he may (he certainly will) bring it out just for fun.

Both of you are like for example just drinking some good sake and he will said ‘remember that time you fell like dog shit’ and start cracking up will you are just standing there, no emotions on your face.

He may or may not pet your head and just say he was kidding after all who loves well chastises as well

𝕴𝖌𝖚𝖗𝖔 𝕺𝖇𝖆𝖓𝖆𝖎 

As you were walking together and him thinking about something else, you were so engrossed in the conversation tat you fell, face first on the ground.

"I won't wait for you, waste of a human"

He deserve to have the stone that make you fall in his face, so you pick it up ready to trow it to his face but him being faster he come back in a sec in front of your face not so tenderly take the stone away from your hands and trow it away

In a way that made him wait for you right?

But dare say this to his face

"in the end you waited for me right"

oh no you dared

The man pride will get hurt and he will just speed up and in no time he his at the other side of the demon slayer corps HQ

Strangely during your next stroll all the stone of the road that could possibly make you fall all disappeared from the ground!

𝕳𝖎𝖒𝖊𝖏𝖎𝖒𝖆 𝕲𝖞𝖔𝖒𝖊𝖎 

I don’t think it’s possible for gyomei to not catch you before you fall, i mean this man is the strongest. The only way you could possibly fall without him catching you before that would be that he his too mesmerized by you that he lowered his guard.

At the moment you fall he would still go to catch you but he was not as fast as normally so you fell.

And he had a lot of regret and though it was his fault you fell, his fault because he couldn't catch you because he was having impure though

So he pick you up and say :

"Were going to the butterfly estate"

Not letting your feet touch the ground again as he carry you (with only one arm of course)

It would take time to hide your embarrassment and explain to the butterfly estate that gyomei was being over dramatic and that you had nothing.

After this accident when you would take stroll he wouldn’t lower is guard anymore (but still let himself drowning in your cuteness) and would walk as close as he can to you so that the next time he could catch you.

𝕶𝖆𝖓𝖗𝖔𝖏𝖎 𝕸𝖎𝖙𝖘𝖚𝖗𝖎 

You were both walking in a beautiful garden of her estate, hand locked together, you both are just talking and laughing, looking at each other in the eyes eventually,

You hit the stone, and unfortunately you take your love with you on your fall, no romanticism here she did not fell on top of your chest or some sort of thing like this, both of you are on the ground in position who would seem impossible to be natural.

She his the first who sit up on the ground then after a blank moment of realization, she start laughing giving you on of her most beautiful smile while she guffaws she say :

"Oh no i fell too!"

Her stupid smile and laugh are terrible, they are terrible for your heart. Not aware of the state her smile put you trough she asked :

‘‘are you hurt? you are as red as a tomato!’

𝕿𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖙𝖔 𝕸𝖚𝖎𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖗𝖔 𝕿𝖔𝖐𝖎𝖙𝖔 𝕸𝖚𝖎𝖈𝖍𝖎𝖗𝖔

“I like train” muichiro say while walking without looking at you nor looking at the ground.

You were dying behind him trying to match is walking speed with the little stamina your body held.

So you ask him to wait for you and he just say "who are you?" 

So you look at him, then he looks at you, and then you still look at him, an embarrassing moment that end when he walk away 

Then after 10 meters he realize, and turn back, look at you with puppy eyes, like in a movie you start running, arms wide open (in slow mo), but then you fall because of a little stone on the ground, modd killed, face licking the ground.

After the pain is gone you stand up and see that muichiro is no longer here.. he forgot you again! damn him!!

[just-an-enby-lemon]

*Random ATLA AU Idea*

1. Aang wanted to run.

The Elders wanted to send him away, to take Gyatso away. His mentor (the closest he had to a father, the only friend - except Appa - he still had, the only childhood left) would listen, would have to and when the morning comes (soon, too soon, so soon) he would abandon Aang just like everyone else. And Aang would be alone soalonenoonelefteveryonegonenotachildjustAvataralonealonealone.

So he wanted to run, to abandon Gyatsu first. Thinking somehow it would hurt less (it wouldn't or how it wouldn't).

0nly he did not.

Not in this world.

And it changed everything and nothing at all.

Instead he walked, walked though the nigth, walked to the familiar door, walked too his master room and cried. "I don't want to go".

Gyatso didn't ask how Aang knew about the Elders orders, didn't tell the kid that it was for the best. No, he huged his meente (his son, his friend, his baby, how could no one else see that this was just a child? Not the master of elements, not yet, just a kid) and said "You won't." It was a vow, a promise he had no idea how to keep. But he would.

They talked though the nigth. And when the morning came somehow Gyatso was able to convice the Elders to give Aang one more year. "Them he will be thirteen, mature enougth to truly understand his call".

But destiny is destiny and Aang's was a hundred years too soon.

So before the end of the year the Fire Nation attacked. And this time Aang didn't want to run, he wanted to figth and to protect. But he was the only hope and he was a kid and he was scared and Gyatso screamed "RUN" and he did.

He would regret running just as he would (he did) in a world where he runned that nigth almost a year ago.

And he and Appa somehow fled. Maybe it was destiny or the Avatar State or just dumb luck (or missfortune). And just as it should be they falled. And the water around them froze.

And so did they.

For a hundred years.

Until two siblings from the water tribe found an iceberg.

...

2. "I'm the last waterbender."

Katara froze. In all universes, in all possible words, Katara always froze on that moment. She wanted to figth, to tell the soldier her mom was lying, to do anything. But she always froze.

And her mother always died.

So she runned.

Too little, too late, but she did.

Runned, trying to get away from the body of her mom, trying to escape the ashes.

With a broken toy sword, and I useless toy boomerang, Sokka saw the ashes, and he wanted to figth. He always would want to figth. He was a protector and his people were dying. But he was a kid and in no reality he would ever be able to win.

And in ever reality Hakoda would send his kid alway, not too much, but enougth, away from the figth, away from his mother corpse and the burnt smell.

So Sokka runned. He followed his sister to the snow. They runned non-stop trying to fend the memories away, but they were never able to.

They runned so far that Hakoda only found his kids two days after the invasion, half-frozen, scared and starved but alive ohalivetheywerealivehedidn'tlosttheytoo.

Running didn't change much for them. Katara would still mature too early and Sokka would still be a warrior and everything would be almost exactaly the same.

And they would still meet a misterius kid in an iceberg and go save the world with him even if it was hard.

They running had nothing to do with the fact that it was Zhao chasing them instead of a certain prince.

...

3. Lu Ten was nine and he was running in a metaphorical sense. His father would be Fire Lord one day and soo would he. He needed to hurry.

So he talked his grandfather into letting him go to a war meeting. He did not understand war or death but Iroh did and he was terrifield of seem his son in a war room. His father didn't care, he discussed civilian sacrifice in front of his grandson and didn't noticed Lu Ten terrified face or heared any of the kids pleas, Ozai found it funny, making japes of what he called his "nephew weakness", Iroh quickly found a way to win without this move and convinced his father of it with everything he had.

For the rest of the day his child told everyone of how his dad was smart and a hero and the best. And Iroh almost forgot, almost belived his son had not lost a once of his inocence in the whole ordeal.

But on the night, where the darkest thoughts came, Lu Ten asked about death and sacrifices and if they were doing the rigth thing. Iroh said they were. But sudently he didn't belive it.

Lu Ten runned on the sense where he wanted to know too much too fast. And as the year passed, as his son turned ten, an his nephew turned two and his niece came to this world, Iroh realized he needed to make a better world for them. He could not keep this war, this conquer, he could not keep doing the wrong thing.

So he found a group of people and he joined them. He sabotaged his own country, his own family for the White Lotus, for his children. He would make a better world for them.

History would tell about how The Great General Iroh had gonne mad in his son sixteth birthday. How in a fit of madness he attacked his brother, how he killed his own child and not much after his nephew and niece. And them realizing what he done himself. How Ursa disappered soon after. The poor Fire Lady lost in grief.

The truth layed in a confy and somewhat famous small tea shop on the Earth Kigdom. On the old man who runned it and on his three kids. It layed on Prince's Zuko's (or Lee) nigthmares and his soft smiles and lack of scar. It layed on Lu Ten's (it was a fairly Earth Kigndom name and no one discussed how a painter could be the one in the group who lacked creativity for a fake name) hard training and darkened looks (exclusive to fire nation soldiers and wasn't ironic that he almost became one of them) and in his art and his laugther and his LIFE. It layed on Azula's (and honestly the fact she had insisted on ZuLa as here fake name was completly insane and soo stupid but they just stopped trying convice he otherwise) maniacal smile and uncontrolabe rage fits (diferent of Lu Ten's hers didn't had a specific target, but at least were mostly resulted in burned trees and rocks) and on her friends and her few, small apologies and her compassion (it didn't came easy for her empathy, but she tried, she truly did and sometimes she was cold and cruel, but still was enought). It layed on Iroh's (Mushi) conteplative (sad) stares (on his regret of not being able to take Ursa with them), on the strange people with a white lotus emblem that sometimes appeared on the tea shop (sometimes needing healing, sometimes delivering mensages, most planing), on his tea and his stories and on his hope.

And when the news of the Avatar traveling with two water tribe kids came to them. It layed on the decision of finding them before Ozai. Helping them. Making the hope grow.

...

4. Toph was a runner.

This never changed. She still runned away from her parents overprotectivines again and again. She still runned into the badgermoles and became the best earthbender on history. She still runned into competicions and still became the Blind Bandit. She still runned into Twinkle Toes and his gaang and his adventures (and became his earthbend teacher of course). The only diference was that there were even more places to run into, and so Toph runned into a dumb good humored painter (a soldier in other life, a corpse), into cozy Tea Shop, into a nice old man who was more a father to her than hers ever would, into a akward turtleduck of a teenager and into a angry cool fiery girl (who she never had a crush on, shut up, Sokka).

She runned into the Avatar family and into the Tea Shop one and somehow this was enougth to unite them. To make them just one family. Hers.

[eme-eleff]

Hiii the Greyche name is very cool (I'm the same anon from clovertitan's ask, I kind of stole the name from you hehe sorry) - if you still do the "send me a ship and I will tell you" thing, would you talk about them, Gauche/Grey I mean, and also about each one separately for the characters part. Thanks 💖

Hello cute anon. 🌸💕

Don't worry! I'm so glad you like Greyche hehe and I was so excited while seeing the ship name in your ask. You didn't steal it, in fact, I want you and everyone to use it. 💗💗

I'm doing, I'm doing, so here we go!

002 | Send me a ship and I will tell you:

Grey x Gauche (Greyche)

When I started shipping them: I think like everyone else or at least most of people: while reading chapter 244 (I think is this lol) of the manga.

"This is embarrassing but I want you to look at me more". RIGTH IN THE FEELS! It was too cute for my shipper heart.

What makes me happy about them: Gauche is the only one who Grey is a little more comfortable around and he doesn't reject her as he does with other people.

My thoughts: I think this couple would work so good because Gauche could help Grey to be more self-confident and Grey could change Gauche's fucking obsession with Marie.

What makes me sad about them: I feel like Grey has a crush on Gauche, but he doesn't feel the same. 😢😢

Things done in fanfic that annoys me: I didn't read any fanfics yet. I was looking for some Greyche fanfics written in Spanish some days ago and I couldn't find a single one, so I'll look for some of them written in English. It could sound kinda weird but I don't feel the same reading in Spanish than in English. Btw, recommendations? 🤗🤗

Things I look for in fanfic: FIRST TIMES! But not only sex, first kiss, first date... I think it'd be so cutee. Also interactions between Marie and Grey and Gauche dying of love.

My wishlist: kiss kiss kiss 😘. I want they to end up together and that Grey DESTROYS Gauche's obsession with Marie.

Who I’d be comfortable them ending up with, if not each other: Mmm I don't really ship them with anyone else, so idk. 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

My happily ever after for them: they becoming a really pure, soft and cute couple.

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you:

Grey

How I feel about this character: she's a cutie. I like her but I think she needs to be more self-confident and to have an important character development, but I'm sure Tabata will do this with her.

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Gauche.

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: Grey and Vanessa. I like that Vanessa is everyone's big sister. I headcanon that she gives Grey advices to confess her feelings to Gauche.

My unpopular opinion about this character: Idk if this is unpopular but I think she's fucking strong and she's a really useful magic.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: she needs to trust herself more and stop being embarrassed about every single thing lol. 😂

Favorite friendship for this character: again with Vanessa but also I think Greyche is a good brotp.

My crossover ship: I'm so bad at doing this, sorry 🙏🏻😅.

003 | Give me a character & I will tell you:

Gauche

How I feel about this character: sometimes his behaviour makes me feel uncomfortable but I think he's great!

Any/all the people I ship romantically with this character: Grey.

My unpopular opinion about this character: he does care about Black Bulls and wants to protect them (is this unpopular?)

My favorite non-romantic relationship for this character: Gauche and Marie. I mean I like he wants to protect her and I kinda understand it because his life was ruined by nobles but I think he needs to calm down.

One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon: he needs a HUGE character development and I think Grey could help him with this.

Favorite friendship for this character: Grey, Gordon and Gauche. The interactions between these three are hilarious. 😂😂

My crossover ship: again idk.

Thank you for the ask! 💞

[all-the-heart-you-cannot-see]

Highschool Boy - Elippo

Hey guys....just to clarify...i don’t know a lot about italian culture so sorry if some things don’t make sense in that context...i was just feeling like writing an Elippo fan fic... if you guys like it i can open another blog and take requests.

hope you enjoy.

Filippo had had his eye on Elia for quite a while now, it wasn’t tipical for him to be lurking around younger boys, especially highschool ones, they were always so “manly” and worried about what everybody else thought...he wasn’t intersted in raising a son, he wanted a hook up, maybe even a boyfriend.

Elia Santini was a different type of highschool boy, he had, in fact, stalked him to death, and the boy was pretty funny, his facebook page were mostly memes and for some reason, and he knew this had nothing to do with the fact that he kinda liked him, Elia seemed a little gay to him...just tiniest bit, there was a light at the end of the tunel, a feeling in his gut that telled him that the guy might actually be into boys.

he didn’t make much of it, he was intelligent, yes, but also a fool when it came to his own personal life, he still didn’t know how he had managed to fix Martino’s dating life if he couldn’t even figure out his own.

so when the big day came, when he would finally meet the rest of Martino’s friends...boy, was Elia a big surprise...he was sure now it wasn’t just him imagining stuff, Elia Santini had kinda flirted with him, surprisingly.

it was very subtle, first stares that he thought were because of his odd fashion choices, then starting conversations with him out of nowhere and finally, the top of the cake, when hugging goodbye the guy had actually stopped an aditional of two seconds to look him in the eye afterwards.

Filippo was flying...high. this couldn’t be his imagination, could it? 

normally he would DM the guy, Filo was always pretty straight foward with this kind of thing, but he also knew he could easly scare him away...what if he had misinterpreted the whole thing? he then decided it was time to go back to the basics.

liking his memes and leaving silly comments. 

god how old was he, 12? he was ashamed...if Marti or Ele could see him....they would give him soooooo much shit about it.

luckly, Elia reciprocated, he liked his comments or replied, he even went as far as liking a pride post he had done last year about pride, like.....was that not sing? it had to be rigth?

he made a decision....he would try and make a move on that Villa boys fundraising Ele had ask him to come to.

He entered the party with confidence, as always, Filo never carried himself with any less than that, he noticed Ele looking around for Edoardo, tho if he were to ask her, she would deny everything.

the Sava brothers were having a tough time with love.

He saw the boys almost inmediatly, Martino slightly towering over Nico as he leaned in for a kiss, both smiling as usual, Luchino combining multiple drinks in a cup as Elia cheared and Giovanni looked at them in disbelief.

granted, Elia was kind of childish...but he liked him anyways...and he was determined to not leave that party until he was sure wether or not he liked him too.

Filippo walked towards them.

“hey guys” he said, Gio was the first to say hi, he noticed while greeting the happy couple how Gio and Elia exchanged looks.

“what are you doing here?” Luchino asked, everybody laughed. 

“well, i can leave if you want” he suggested gesturing towards the exit, they laughed again “nah im just, looking over Ele, she has been acting wierd lately”

Gio shrugged his shoulders and clapped “who wants to go find some pretty girls to dance?” 

“we’ll go with you” Nico quickly responded.

Luchino frowned “ok but, what about my beer mix?”

“it’s gonna taste like shit Luchi, c’mon, maybe you can find Silvia” said Gio putting a hand around his shoulders and dragging him along.

“what about Elia” he asked, Gio slapped him in the back of the head.

“remember what we talked about earlier?”

Filippo tried to act like he haven’t heard that... but he was almost sure now...Elia liked him too...somehow...the gods, the universe, mother nature, hell, maybe even jesus...had decided to bless him.

“so...how is it going?” Elia asked him with a smile, Filippo smiled back, this was going to be a productive night.

they talked...a lot, about different things, their favorite tv shows, how awful highschool was, they talked about his friends, their life, what they liked...and when the music got too loud they went outside...it was a beautiful starry night...like the planets had aligned for him to get this moment or something.

they sat on a bench and pretended for a while to be two straight dudes talking to each other under the moonlight.

“why are you really here?” Elia asked him after a moment of silence...their hands were close together, their pinkies almost touching, the phantom of a smiled danced over Elia’s lips and god did he wanted to kiss him.

“i’m looking after Ele” he replied back, knowing it was kind useless at this point.

“c’mon Filo, im sure you can be a better liar” he teased, Filippo laughed.

“ok, you caught me...im actually here cause i like a guy”

“ oh really?” Elia tried to sound smooth, but Filo could see his cheeks turning red “and how is that going?”

“pretty bad actually, so far all we’ve done is pretend we don’t like each other while we stare into our eyes under the moonlight”

Elia laughed and looked away, he started to move his legs back and forth and for a second Filo feared he might had misunderstood things, then Elia sighed and he understood it was something else.

“maybe” he stared, his voice was soft, low, and nervous “maybe he isn’t sure of what he really wants”

“well...” Filo reached for Elia’s hand and covered it with his “that’s ok...there is no rush”

Elia looked at him, and then at their hands, he seemed to doubt for a second before cursing and subsequently...crushing his lips to Filippo’s.

Filo was surprised to say the least, first beacuse he wasn’t expecting it and second because for a highschool boy...Elia was a really good kisser.

hands still together on the bench Filo used his free hand to hold Elia’s cheeck, he grabbed that one too, and suddendly the nigth was a lot less cold and a bit more dark...and this time, Filippo had a feeling this one would be different.

[poisonzeth]

Ok so I watched VLD s8 and I have opinions 8 (and feels) be warned I’ll get a lot into the Allurance and Klance (I don’t recomend reading this if your otp is Allurance there’s a reason why I didn’t tag that -but don’t worry it isn’t anti Allurance is one of my broships after all-) + an idea for a Klance au at the very end

Don’t expect sth super profound/super analysis.

The season was ok. I don’t hate it but neither is my favorite season of VLD (because s3 am I right klancers ;3).

So Klance didn’t become canon, not big deal, never really expected it to become canon anyway (still hurts but whatev that’s what fanfiction is for) and the Allurance was... bearable (I’ll get to that in a minute) I’ve never been into romantic Allurance, I’ve always prefered them as best friends or siblings. I was still left with some questions, like about Chip and Lance’s FUCKING ALTEAN MARKS (don’t get me wrong I’ve always loved Altean!Lance BUT I NEED A EXPLANATION FOR THIS DREAMWORKS I NEED AN EXPLANATION FOR THIS. 

There were moments that I LOVED, like the only 2 Klance escenes obviously (I’ll also get to that later), all the flashbacks (I mean BABY LOTOR AM I RIGHT? cute cinammon roll that must be protected at all costs) and that one different reallity to were Honerva arrived (loved that, absolutely loved that).

Like Pidge watching 80′s Voltron, her and Allura dressing like their 80′s counterparts, Pidge immitating her 80′s Voltron self and giving autographs (that was simply great).

I ship Veronica and Acxa now too (what shall we call it? Veracxa? Arcxonica? Verocxa?)

I loved Lance so much this season (I mean I always do, but this season we got to see some things of him -personality/psyche- that absolutely adored).

Also the whole thing with the original paladis, love those guys.

Older Keith cannonicaly has long hair and I LIVE FOR IT.

Episode 7 “Day 47”? LOVED IT, favorite episode of the season hands down.

It gets depressing from here on so if you don’t feel nor want to check it it’s ok, there will be no anger, but it’s still me crying and being sad over fictional caracters so be warned. Allurance and Klance ahead. 

Also even later it stops being so sad so there’s that.

Now, about the Allurance (this part gonna get log, bear with me here).

It didn’t feel right to me (not because Klance is and will always be my otp) but because it feel too much one sided; yeah, Lance loves Allura we know, I can live with that (he pretty much has since season 1) but it made me sad because it didn’t feel like Allura loved Lance, to me it felt too much like Lance throwing his love at Allura and Allura just... thanking him for it. It hurts even more because of had the DW’s team had said about Lance and needing someone to whom he’ll be their first option, and that’s not Allura (that’s Keith but I won’t get into that).

Allurance honest to got made me cry and it was for the reasons I meantioned and I’ll repeat them again because that’s how hung up on it I am.

I didn’t like the Allurance because it didn’t seem nor feel like Allura liked Lance back, sure as a friend and family but the same way Lance loved her? NO

He was always there for her, to support and help and cheer her up, but she wasn’t for him (in fact the few times we saw him in need for that it was Keith who was there for him -I’ll get to in a tick-).

He just wanted what he tought was best for her but did she listen? NO and don’t get me wrong I love Allura, I would pay her to step on me (I just think I liked her better at the beginning of the show which is sad). Heck, she got the kind of men a lot of people would like to date, charismatic, caring, loving, sincere, but it didn’t seem/feel like she was enjoying/wanted/liked/noticed it that much, which isn’t necesarily a bad thing sometimes we just don’t want things not matter how wanted those things are, sometimes we’re not ready, sometimes it just isn’t a priority or sth we want at that moment in particular but we may want it in the future, it just made me sad because Lance honest to god loved her sincerely.

Now that that’s ‘done’. The Klance this season. 

Well, there were 2 major (and pretty much the only) Klance moments, both in where Keith is there for Lance. The first one is in the first episode when the whole Allurance date happened, it was heartwarming, because there he saw that Keith sees in Lance/the Lance that I don’t feel that Allura sees.

The second one was in episode 11 after a meeting, Lance needed some cheering up and kind of a reassurance that everything will be al rigth in the end, Keith cheered him up, Keith reassured him.

I don’t really care that Klance didn’t become canon (heck I’m used to it, few of my otps are canon) but it did hurt me, because it was hinted at, not only in the show but at certain things an comferences, and maybe I’m reading too much into it, maybe it was all filtered to me through my wishful thinking and stuff like that, BUT, they said the whole thing with Lance and the person to whom he’ll be first option and then he was Keith’s first option in the game episode in season 7, and I think that got a lot of us hyped with hope.

So it truly crushed me that they didn’t even hugged in the end.

And I think it hurted me more that other times because this was my first otp that, in my eyes, actually had an opportunity to be canon, that would make sense and that would give us some well deserved good representation. But like the majority of my otps, it didn’t happen. 

And I’m not even angry about... just sad.

Because while I pretty much expected Klance to not be canon, I seriously didn’t see the Allurance coming, yeah, maybe a date was to be expected, but I think must (if not all of us) thought that ‘well, maybe they will be together for a while and later break up cuz they’ll notice they aren’t what the other is looking for’or sth like that.

And because while I didn’t expect them to become canon, I still hoped for it, hoped more than any other of my otps, because it truly feel that would be possible, that it had the biggest opportunity/chance (especially of my otps) to become canon. Because you know, Klance is canon king, or at least the fake canon king.

BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?

I won’t stay depressed over it forever, and you why? Because in the end, does it really matter? Maybe, the representation mattered, but it was not the show for it, because Voltron is a show a bout a giant robot made of 5 lions to defend the universe, romance subplots aren’t the reason why I watched Voltron, why I continued watched nor why I liked it to begin with.

I like the story, I love the characters and I love the universe, and that’s what matters the most to me. Romance is not what the show is about and it’s not why I like it.

And Klance won’t stop being my vld otp just because it isn’t canon. That’s not what shipping is about. We (or at least I) don’t ship thinks just because they’re canon, I ship things because of the chemistry of the characters, their story, heck, even maybe just for crack or aesthetics.

And in the end, that’s what fanfics are for. I’ll just continue bathing in all the Klance fanart ad fanfics.

Now see y’all, Imma go cry over my otps (mainly Klance and Asheiji) and cry more over Banana Fish (y’all should watch it, unless you’re easily triggered by certain things, better investigate the show before watching it BUT IT IS REALLY GOOD) and the fact that next week is the last episode and cry even more because I know what will happen but it will still absolutely destroy me.

Heck what about a Klance Banana Fish au in where Keith is Ash and Lance is Eiji, that would be the most angsty au ever, I like the idea, Imma do this, BE READY Y’ALL FOR THE ANGST WITH THE VLD KLANCE BANANA FISH AU TO COME, should I do it in space or rigth like BF?

[dear--charlie]

Dear Charlie,

Guess who’s back - and with a bang? Like actually a bang. My lovely roomate is back home and yes, with a bang. I don’t get it, why didn’t she just move in with her boyfriend? He seem to be here all the fucking time either way.

That was not even why I wanted to write to you. I’ve tried composing a letter for like two days now, but the words dosn’t seem to get right. I just have alot on my mind and I’m so up and down. One day I’m happy and the next I’m so sad and just want to die. I’m confusing myself tbh, and I just don’t get it. I don’t know, it feels like i’m faking everything, or that is a dream. Somtimes I just “wake up” and i’m like wtf, do I actually live here, what am I doing? I’m not ready for stuff you know? Also I can’t stop living in the past, like I revisit memories from like 5 years ago all the time, and it’s just ugh, why can’t I move on from shit? I want to tell you so much about my past and about everything but I don’t know how to. My brain won’t work like it should and it’s frustrating. And I feel like im failing school. I got so much schoolwork and I just procrastinate it and we recently did an interview thing - the one I told you about - and it turned out so ugly and idk, I just want a new start again, but I can’t keep moving away as soon as stuff gets rough, right? I feel presured for alot of reasons. Both of my brothers are doing good. One has a stable girlfriend and just a nice life and the other is really succesful and gets really good work-oppertunites all the time, and im jealous. Sure I’m the youngest, but I still feel like I should have accomplished more than I have. I can’t even get a boyfriend you know?

Or like, the people I like, don’t like me back. I often think that people never like me, in that way you know, but these past few years I kind of realize that it’s a lie. Let’s go through the people I know had had a crush on me - just to boost my confidece, shall we? First, there was G. This was really just a crush, because we didn’t know eachother at all. He was in the year over me, and you know, somepeople you just flirt with. I often found him staring at me, and I remember this one time, he was walking past me, up the stairs, with his friends, and time just stopped. As he walked he turned around and looked at me. And lit truly felt like time stood still. Then his friends grabbed his shoulder and pulled him away. After G, there was O. O and I were in the same class, but completly opposite groups. I was the awkward, quiet one, that nobody really knew, and he was more like the “popular” crew. He was the only one shorter than me. We talked a bit, nothing to much, and then one day, his friends just started to joke with him whenever I was around or telling me that he thought I was pretty. Anyway, let’s move on to D. D is amazing and i’ve had a crush on him too, but that was never anything speciall. We cuddeld a bit and walked home togheter. It was sweet and innocent. And then there was M. This is a bit of a weird one. M is older than me, by quite a bit. He was the one I saw as an older brother for alot of the time, until one day. I had been on like a gamenight, and it was only him and we left. And I don’t know how we got to that point, but we were spooning on a couch, and just like talked for hours. After that he drove me home and, instead of getting out of the car, we talked some more. This was like 5 years ago and we kind of drifted apart, but just a few months ago, we met at a wedding and he asked me about my boyfriend and stuff like that, mind you, i’m single. It was kind of awkward but he looked happy when I said it. Then there’s B. B is just an awkward story of one of those times you just are nice to someone and they take it the wrong way. He was were obvious and just cringey. He asked me to prom and I said no. And then there’s H. I told you about him before - the one that got away before it even was something - yeah him. At some point, we basically were togheter and then it never happened. I’m probably gonna rant more about him some other day. Last one for today must be C. C is the guy I probably should have gone with. He is perfect (H is perfect too but eh). First time I really connected with C, I’ve mentioned before. We had had one thing before that, I once spent the night with him. Nothing much, we just spooned and that was it. Then there was the time where everyone thought I was sick, but he saw that I really just was feeling shit. So he took me for a walk, brought blankets, and we sat by the waters for hours. He talked on and on and then asked me how I was. And I just broke down and I could not stop crying and he said the rigth things and kept asking what was wrong even though I said nothing. “nobody cries that much for no reason”. And he kept me company and just talked with me. The day after, he sent me a message “I truly ment what I said yesterday, I am here if you ever need to talk. I just want you to be happy”. And we chatted for a bit. He invited me to his birthday, with loads of his family there and it was fun. He came to visit me anothertime and it was perfect. We cooked togheter, took care of the dishes togheter, watched a movie, showed eachother bad youtubeclips. We went for a walk and sat by the lake for hours. He wanted us to skinnydip, but me, being way to selfconsius, said no. And it started raining,  so by the time we got home, we were soking wet. And we shared bed, we spooned and cuddeld. I could feel that he wanted more, but I was being a coward again. The next morning he baked scones for breakfast, and we ate in bed. He took a shower and casually walked into my room with only a towell around his waist. And a few weeks after he wrote to me again, wanted to check up on me, and wondered if I was okay with us sleeping togheter/all that. He was just sweet and actually seemed to care. Maybe he was the one that got away.

Anyway, that must be it for today. I really got to sleep now, but thank you for being here as always. I don’t know what I would do without you. Also, thanks for letting me rant about boys.

Love, Milla

[longsleevs]

The cabin

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

Warning: language i guess

A/N: This time, a short imagine! Xx

Summary: Jacob looked confused at all of us "What the hell is going on! You two like each other or what!?" In that moment i was about to freak out, so i just standed up and went inside the cabin.

We just can't wait till the moment when we arrive in that little town full of snow and cute views, were we will spend an amazing weekend

"What are you thinking about??" Tom said while i was looking through the window "What??" I said turning to look at that beautiful eyes that drive me crazy, he smiled "I asked what are you thinking about" he said with a kind smile "Oh! I just can't wait to arrive, that's all" i said looking through the window again trying to not to blush, he just smiled and turn to talk with Haz and Jacob

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We finally arrived at the cabin, it was a smol house made of wood, it looked like any Christmas movie from the outside "This place is amazing" Z said looking to not just the house, the view that we had too "So you guys just learned something new" Jacob said while we all looked at him confused "That i can choose the house for the trip and it will be amazing" he said with a proud smile "We haven't seen the house inside Jacob, calm down mate" Haz said while Tom was laughing

In that exactly moment Jacob opened the door, and we went to inside the cabin to find the most beautiful place that we had ever seen "Can i spend the rest of my life here" i said as i walked around the house sort of like flouting with a huge smile on my face, i could feel a pair of eyes looking at me, following all my moves, normally i would stop but I'm just so exited that i didn't even care

We went upstairs to find 4 rooms, 3 bedrooms and 1 bathroom; we decides that girls in one room, boys in other room and mama Jacob in the last room. "You're telling me that this house just have 1 bathroom, while here we are 2 girls, 3 boys, 2 GIRLS that will never left the bathroom and the this idiot, that will want his hair to look nice!" Haz said like a insane person, like completely insane "Calm down, there are othet bathrooms Harrison" Jacob said laughing "I'm sure that you aren't insane because of Z and Y/N or my beautiful hair, you just don't want us to smell your shit in the bathroom, mate" Tom said and Harrison started laughing "Shut up! That was our secret, idiot!" Haz said thing that make all of laugh, suddenly i felt a soft touch on my shoulder "Sorry, darling" Tom whispered to me with a soft smile in his face.

Look away, you blushing, idiot!

Gez, i just don't know how to explain, how much i love this guy, that curly brown hair that falls over his cute face, that soft and kind smile that melts my heart, that deep brown eyes, the fact that in my head he is the most perfect human being on earth

Back to earth, Y/N

The next thing that i knew was that we were at the living room and we were already on the couch, Tom sat next to me (i was next to Z btw) and put his arms behind me, like resting them on the couch, but I could feel his touch from behind.

We were talking, laughing, having a great time, but all i could think about was the fact that he sat next to me and that his head was rest on my shoulder; i was freaking out inside and i knew that Z realised what was going on next to her and that her friend is about to have a heart attack

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It was all dark outside (we arrived at 4 pm, rn it was 7 p.m) and Haz has the great idea of going outside and had like a little camping, but we will sleep inside, that's how he explained his idea, btw he meant have a little wood fire, we all laughed at him, i thought that he was insane because outside was freezing, but 3 out of the 4 people liked his idea, guess who said no, Yup! ME!!

We were in the living with Z, the guys went to the grocery store and we decided to stay "What was that in the living today?" She asked me with a smirk in her face and then laughed "Idk, i sat there and he came and sat next to me, thing that could be completely normal, but then he sort of hugged me from behind, i mean, you know exactly what i mean" i said and she laughed "idiot" she said as i rolled my eyes "and then he- he rest HIS damm head on MY shoulder and stayed like that until we all moved. Did you dam told him about my feelings! No! You told Jacob and he told Tom, yeah... that's what happened. Btw I'm going to kill you two!" I said and she laughed of her paranoid friend "No idiot, i didn't said anything, stop being paranoid" Ha! Look i knew that she think I'm being paranoid! "And no Jacob don't know. And maybe he likes you back! Is that so difficult to believe!?" She said as looked to the ground playing with my fingers "Yeah... why would he like me? I mean I'm just Z's friend, or that annoying girl that is always with us..." i stoped when i heard the door open "WE BACK!" Haz shouted, while we were rigth next to the door "we are rigth here idiot! And don't scream!" she said mad, just because i was about to cry.

I tried to stop crying, cleaned my face and turned to face Jacob ans Haz "Where's my chocolate??" I said trying to sound exited "Tom has it" Haz said, pointing at the kitchen, looked at him confuse "He is at the kitchen" i said ohhh and gave him a smile and went to the kitchen finding Tom taking the stufs out of the bags "You will just stare or you will help me??" He said and laughed "Mmmmm Sorry... i just came to for my chocolate, but i can help you!" He didn't even looked at me, or smiled, he just keep taking the things out of the bags "Here it is, love" he said as he took the chocolate out of the bag, i just smiled at him and started taking the stuff out of the bags with him.

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We all were outside, i had life 3 or 2 bed sheets around me and like 2 couts, because it was freezing, while the weirdos of my friend's were drinking freezing beer and i was drinking hot coco. We all were sat on like this big chairs, all of them were for like 2 or 3 persons, i was sat in the least cold one when Tom came closer "Can i sit there??" I looked up at him "Yeah! Sure!" I said as i gave him some space to seat "Can i?" He said touching the sheets, i nod and gave him a little of space, in that moment i realized that we were cuddling, and sharing the sheets

Don't freak out

"I guess that we have a couple here, and i didn't knew!" Jacob said pointing at Tom and me "No we not! We are just feezzing!" I shouted without processing the words that were coming out of my mouth. Z looked at me saying 'like you are and idiot', while Haz looked at Tom but i didn't pay much attention on that "What it's going on here? Is there something that you guys wanna share with me?" Tom and I looked confused at Jacob while Z and Haz just looked at us like if they wanted to know what to do "Mate, just say it" Haz said looking at Tom "I guess you should say it too" Z said looking at me and whispered "sorry". Jacob looked confused at all of us "What the hell is going on! You two like each other or what!?" In that moment i was about to freak out, so i just standed up and went inside the cabin.

I sat on the couch "What the hell is going with me! You have always expressed how you felt so damm easily but now you can't even told the guy that drives you crazy, that you love him!! I'm an idiot" i said to myself as i started to cry. I felt completely lost, until i felt that soft touch on my skin, i looked up and i just saw Tom sitting next to me and putting his arms aground me, i rest my head on his chest and tried to stop crying "You can keep crying, darling" i looked up to him, our faces were in front, my eyes were lost on his deep brown eyes "Why are you crying, love" he said cleaning my face, and getting closer "Nothing" i said looking down "You wanna know my secret, the one that Haz told me to said it, darling" he said while holding me on his arms, i just nodded "You need to look at me, in the face, if you wanna know, love" i looked at him "Ok... Here it is... I'm going to say it. I- I- reall- really..." he was really nervous, that was kinda obvious, with just looking at his face, once he said the word 'really' he got closer to me, and our lips connected on a cute and soft kiss, i pulled away after a little kinda shooked "I really like you Y/N... No! I love you, i have being in love with you since the first time that i ever saw you... i just thought that you were the most beautiful and amazing person in this world. The way that your hair is always up in a messy bump, that kind and cute smile that you always have, the way that i get lost every single time that i see your beautiful green eyes, and the way that they sometimes change of colors. And for me you are just perfect, you are the most perfect and beautiful and amazing and kind soul in this entire universe" i looked at him so damm shook, i just never though taht this guy could feel the same way that i feel for him "Wan- Wanna know m-my secret??" He looked at me confused, i mean he just said all that beautiful things about me, he just confessed his fellings and i didn't even said anything "Yeah... i guess" he said with a mad tone "I love you too Tom" i said whith a huge smile, he smiled and his eyes has sparkles "I can't believe i just told you that" i said looking down, he just kissed me without saying a word, his lips were so soft and comfortable and the way the fitted with mine was just perfect "Since when?" He said with a happy face, once we pull away "Before we meet in person, i mean... before i even knew you were Spider-Man... i mean since the impossible" i said looking down "You looked so cute, sensitive and soft, i fell for that kid, i mean i had a crush on 16 or 15 year old Tom. I always watched your movies, i had a crush on you and i admired you... You don't know how loud i screamed the day that i found out that you were Spider-Man, because that meant that you and Zendaya would be in the same movie, and that i could meet you. I fell in love with you since we meet, i really didn't knew you before, but when i finally meet you i fell completely for you... I couldn't control myself any time that we were together, i just looked at you and the only thing i could think about was about the way that yout curly brown hair falls over your face, about your soft and kind smile and about your beautiful eyes..." he cuts with a kiss, wow! thee kiss already! We went away when we heard the door open

"Can we come in??" Haz said, Tom and I laughed "Yeah!" 3 people came into the house "you don't wanna kill me rigth?" Z said hiding behind Jacob "Nop, not at all" i said laughing at my bestie "How is everything in here??" Jacob said "Better than ever" Tom said with a huge smile.

Materlist

A/N: Hi, my little sunflowers!🌻 Hope you liked this one. It has being a completely mess writing this, Why? Oh! Easy! Because the internets didn't worked and i saved it all, like until the half of the story on the drafs, and the Wi-Fi wasn't working, so it didn't save, and then i completely forgot like my password, oh! Rigth! Why my password?? Because my little sister uninstalled Tumblr from my phone!🙄

[skscenes]

[Dana&Josh - Ep 5 - part 1] . Invite: I'm invited or you're inviting me?

Sharing an apartment with Josh was so easy during the two firsts months! 

First because we respect the rules (we're very especift in many things. Yeah, trust me, we had a long and serious talk n tha first time I got there).

Second, because I moved to there in the best moment of the year: The end of the year! And Josh and I always liked this ends year's celebrations. 

Soon I moved, I already thinking about with who I'd go spend the christmas. With my relatives whom every year got to my house spend with me and my parents? Or I'd spend the christmas with Jenny and her parents? At last,  they considere me from family (even her father, even though he was separated and visiting her only on holidays). 

But after some weeks, maybe just two weeks, when Josh asked me if I'd like to set up the Christmas tree and help with the decorations at the weekend, I had one more place to choose spend the christmas:

-Yeah, The Baure are my family. I'll spend the christmas with them. You're invited. -He said putting a ornament in the tree. his expression was full. He didn't even look at me when he said it. It was like it was obvious and he was just commenting as a reminder.

Ok girls, this is the time when you should have your feet on the ground and not think beyond what you should. Because my crush on him and his adorable way to be (with me or with everyone), be invited to spend time with his family could be a sign. BUT IS NOT! So don't be excited. Of course I thougth it, but only for seconds.  Anyway, I was glad for that. At last, I loved seeing his adoptive parents and knew his siblings (when his parents invited us by surprise to have lunch outside, a few days before we set up the christmas tree).

Well, at that moment I knew he was being kind with his friend and fellow of flat saying I was invited to spend the christmas with them. I spent fill seconds to answer, than he completed:

-I mean, I know you maybe spend the holiday with Jenny or go to your relatives's house with your parents whom possibly come for the holiday, rigth? I just saying you have another option for xmas. - He look at me and smiled.

-I'm invited or you're inviting me? - I smirked while decorate.

He looked me understand my play and answered gotting me:

-The option that most convince you to spend the christmas with me.

[jenhedgehog]

Submitted by: Anon

IT’S ANGST TIME! It’s half an hour past midnight, and Lapis, Peridot and Pumpkin are taking a walk alongside the lake, the moonlight reflecting on the surface of the water enlights the whole scenario giving a beautiful and relaxing atmosphere, the two are chatting and sharing various new little heart experiences, and in a moment of distraction of Lapis, Peridot playfully splashed some water behind her back, this started a splashing war between them, a war that Peridot is going obviously to lose, and Pumpkin just jumping around and barking excitedly. The two are now sitting on the shore, Peridot has her head resting on Lapis shoulder, with Pumpkin sleeping on Peridots lap, they’re here, content with just being peacefully with each others company, this night seems peaceful, until… … from the water emerges a huge, semitransparent, crab-like creature, seemingly made of water, with a light blue gem embedded on its left pincer. With a strident scream towards the now startled gems and frightened poor pumpkin, the monster rushes to attack them, Lapis quickly creates a giant fist from the water to punch its face, but… the fist just passed through it! Off course, this creature is made of water, this means that it is immune to Lapis attacks, now Peridot has to think to something quickly, she looks around her to find something metallic to smash on the monster, but there is not even a single piece of junk to use here on this normally beautiful natural landscape, but now only a dangerous place with no weapons to defend themselves, the only thing that they can do now is… “RUN”! Lapis shouts, and quickly grabs pumpkin with her left arm and Peridot with her right one, and with a quick motion she spreads out her water wings and flies away, but before she can reaches enough altitude… … the monster, exending one huge pincher abruptly, manages to catch them midair, grabs Peridot by her head and makes lapis falling down, she tries to protect pumpkin from the impact shielding him with her arms, and succeeded to take the both of them on the ground without any significant damage, she goes to stand up when… “AAAHHH!!!” she froze, eyes wide open in fear, hearing Peridots voice screaming in pain behind her she turns around and gasps seeing the monster pressing its giant pincer around Peridots head, holding her high off the ground, and even more worrying, she notices that Peridots body is… glitching, this could only mean one thing… “PERI, NOOO”! Lapis hastily creates another giant fist and tries again to to punch out the monster without thinking twice, she’s driven by pure instinct and fear, in fact the giant fist passes through the monsters body again, she has to think to something else, and fast, or else Peridot will be soon shattered… she got it, she have an idea, she creates like a giant water axe and goes to cut a big tree trunk, once she cut it, she creates a giant water hand again, grabs the trunk with it and, while the monster is too occupied crushing the poor green gems head… … “TAKE THIS, YOU MORON”! Lapis tosses the big trunk with the water hand, and hit the monster with it rigth in the middle, causing its body to fall apart in a huge rain of scattered water and poofs, letting its gem and Peridot fall down in the shore of the lake, with the trunk that fell down only a couple of meters away of Peridots still glitching limp body. Pumpkin, barking worriedly, runs to Peridot, Lapis stares from far away with an horrified expression where her companion is lying unconscious, and, snapping out of her shock, runs over there too. Peridot is lying on the ground, glitching even more than before, with her face turned to the other side of where Lapis is coming from, so that she can’t see her face from where she is now, plus now Pumpkin is covering her head too, trying to wake up her with soft whimpers and paw touches, Lapis reaches her, Pumpkin sadly move away a little to make space for her, she kneels down, gently takes her glitching face and turns it in front of her… … she gasps in shock as she sees in which state is her face now: her visor is completely gone, not even a single shard of glass remains, her whole face has evident signs of having been under pressure (any other gem would have been poofed, how on earth she isn’t), an expression that shows debility and pain, but the worst thing is the large and deep crack in her gem that is causing the continuos glitch of her body and the risk for her life. Seeing her suffering like this is upsetting, to say the least, but Lapis must focus on bringing her to Steven as soon as possible to have her gem cured, she bubbles the gem of the damn monster and sends it to the barn, she immediately takes Peridot in her arms, Pumpkin jumps on her back, then she spreads her water wings and… “L-Lapis…” she hears the fleeble voice of Peridot,“Peri! Hold on, I’m taking you to Steven, you will be fine” “N-no, I d-don’t have m-much time…” “Peri, no…” Lapis can’t hold back her tears anymore,“L-Lapis, I-I…” one last rapid sequence of glitches and then her gem… “NO!!!”… … Lapis tightens her grip on her and suddenly a bright light radiates out, wrapping the both of them, the silhouette of the light gets bigger and then it fades away until the fusion is fully revealed, Pumpkin watched in amazement the whole sequence and now is wondering who this tall turquoise colored gem with four arms and huge water wings is, she doesn’t seems in good shape though, she’s glitching slightly and has a big crack on one of her gems, the one in her forehead, while the one on her back is just fine, she appears to be struggling to mantain a standing position “I-I just couldn’t let you be g-gone forever…” Pumpkin isn’t sure if he understood what his owners… owner said to them… herself, but he clearly saw the tenderness in her eyes when she gently picked him up and cradled him in two of her four arms “c'mon, l-let’s get out of here and find Steven b-before I’ll pass out” she spreads her huge water wings, glitches a few more times, and flies off, leaving the beautiful but apparently dangerous lake behind, still shimmering in the moonlight. OK NOT SO ANGSTY MAYBE, SORRY FOR FLOODING YOUR INBOX, HOPE YOU LIKED IT, ENGLISH IS NOT MY FIRST LANGUAGE AND THIS IS MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT FANFIC SO THERE MIGHT BE SOME MISTAKES, FEEL FREE TO EDIT, BYE :D

There’s no need to apologise, Anon :)  Thanks a lot for the submission, I really enjoyed reading it!

[yutasflower]

92 Truths

63.Get married: 43.Blood type: Rules: Write 92 truths about yourself then tag 25 people

I was tagged by the lovely @nycbtslover Sorry its lat ><

LAST…

1.Drink: Water

2.Phone call: Uhhh.. I think my dad?

3.Text message: To a rp chat( if you in it you know what im talking about)

4.Song you listened to: I think it was Ma city by bts

5.Time you cried: Yesterday my parents made me cry

HAVE YOU EVER…

6.Dated someone twice: Never dated any one beside voltage men and fictinal men

7.Been cheated on: Not when guys dont like you

8.Kissed someone and regretted it: Never kissed any one so no? 9.Lost someone special: Yes my when I was little...

10.Been depressed: Yes

11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: No

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: 

1. Teal

2. Blue

3. Fusia

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU…

15.Made new friends: Eh kind of

16.Fallen out of love: No

17.Laughed until you cried: Yes

18.Found out someone was talking about you: I mean I hear people talking about me, but not usally

19.Met someone who changed you: I dont think

20.Found out who your true friends are: I think but im not sure?

21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: I dont have facebook so no

GENERAL…

22.How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: I dont have faceboolT-T. 

23.Do you have any pets: I used to have a dog but then he died

24.Do you want to change your name: Sometimes

25.What did you do for your last birthday: My family threw me a birthdya party I invited one friend over. After she left got some new routes in BMP2 and Scandal in the spotligth and played that. And then went on my old tumbr

26.What time did you wake up: Like 6 am I can never wake up late for some reason.

27.What were you doing at midnight last night: Asleep

28.Name something you cannot wait for : A jungkook fansite doll im getting

29.When was the last time you saw your mother: When she came home 

30.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Not trying that mnay new things

31.What are you listening to right now: Just a princes jellyfish episdoe

32.Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: No

33.Something that is getting on your nerves: Nithing rigth now

34.Most visited website: Youtube, an tumblr

35.Elementary: Done with

36.High school: Well be in there two years 

37.College: Hope I get into teh one I want

38.Hair color: Black

39.Long or short hair: Meduim

40.Do you have a crush on someone: If jungkook counts, but if not no cause all the boys in my school are fuckbois fun

41.What do you like about yourself: Nothing really... but ill say my lips

42.Piercings: Just in my ears

43.Blood type: I dont know im neither do my parents

44.Nickname: I have mutlple ones, but the most common ones are Jenny, JenJen, Jen

45.Relationship status: Forever alone 

46.Zodiac sign: Cancer

47.Pronouns: She/her

48.Favorite tv show: Age of youth , but for non kdramas maybe supernatural? 

49.Tattoos: None 

50.Right or left hand: I cant tell then apart that easily(I know im stupid) but im pretty sure rigth

FIRST…

51.Surgery: None but ive gotten an x-ray

52.Piercing: Just my ears

54.Sport: I dont play sports but I do like field hockey

55.Vacation: That ive went on? Was to El Salvador( If you know where that is or have heard of it. Or are from there, I like you even more know)

56.Pair of trainers: Im confused on what this is aksing?

57.Eating: I was eating some lemon bread

58.Drinking: Water

59.I’m about to: Do the next question

60.Listening to: Exo bring me down

61.Waiting for: Food? And the answer for the next question

62.Want: Have more confidecne in myself. And to meet BTS

63.Get married: If I meet my special someone sure

64.Career: Maybe writer , graphic desginer or Editor for like videos 

WHICH IS BETTER…

65.Hugs or kisses: I dont like hugs that much but ive nver been kissed besides my cheek. But ill say kisses

66.Lips or eyes: Both

67.Shorter or taller: Taller but i dont really care

68.Older or younger: Both but depends on the person

70.Nice arms or nice stomach: Stomach

71.Sensitive or loud: Both

72.Hook up or relationship: Relationship I dont really like jsut a one time thing

73.Troublemaker or hesitant: Kind of both which ever I need more at the time

HAVE YOU EVER…

74.Kissed a stranger?: No

75.Drank hard liquor? : No

76.Lost glasses contact/lenses? : My little sister has broken then before and then lost them

77.Turned someone down?: Nope

78.Sex on first date?: Never been on a date before

79.Broken someone’s heart?: No im not that important to someone, and no ones ever liked me before so no.

80.Had your heart broken?: Yeah but I got over it

81.Been arrested?: Nope

82.Cried when someone died?: Yes

83.Fallen for a friend?: No

DO YOU BELIEVE IN…

84.Yourself?: Nope

85.Miracles?: Eh kind of

86.Love at first sight?: Yes

87.Santa Claus?: No

88.Kiss on the first date?: Depends if the mood is rigth and you know what your doing

89.Angels?: Yes

OTHER….

90.Current best friend’s name: Sophie

91.Eye color: Dark brown

92.Favorite movie : The hunger games

I tag: @our-kpopreact @philophobia999 @yourhopeyourangeeel @taendency @akookieforhobi and anyone else who wants to do it

[chalitempha]

OC/Kai fanfic Closure

                  Here I am sitting in front of my laptop. My room is a little colder than normal, maybe it's just me. I crushed my phone and locked my door. Now is the time to stop runnig away from my past. I'm a little tipsy but my mind is clear enougth to see my keyboard and the word page on my screen. I need to learn from my memories, from all the wrong and good choices I made, what it could have been and what it was. I'll write everything in a vain attempt to keep these memories forever and I don't want to forget... I'm afraid to do the same error as in the past. I stared at my wrists, the little scars fading across the pale skin, then at my fingers, they looked weird from all the nail bitting, an habbit I picked up from him, it's weird thinking I'm tiping my story starting from so far back .

Bakc then, I was still weirded out by all the new things going on all around me. It had been weeks since we started high school, and I was always alone, you know not popular and lonely. I didn't even try to get along with the poeple in my classes but well it's hard to fit in when all the groups are already made even more so when you're like me, I kinda through they would come talk to me you know? I'm shy... Whatever, I quit my old middle school for this high school where was my older brother and since I missed some of the first days (because I’m dumb and thought it was a few days later), it was too late to make friends. Well it's true I didn't like being this way but it was still better than being bullied, perhaps I was blessed to be ignored at first. Well I didn't stay alone too long since about three weeks later I was suddently inside a group, some "bad influence" they would say but they really weren't. Just a bunch of depressed teens burrying their issues under alcool, weed and cigarettes; it's really something you see everywere around here. Of course I had never seen people like that before but it was just because all my life untill then, I was in a private catholic establishment, and it really does explain everything.

Did I say I admired my brother? Junmyeon-hyung had always been my role model,he's much more out going and handsome than me! I'm so lucky to have such a brother who accepted me for who I was. I'm bisexual and I've known that since middle schools days, you know my mother was really open minded and very supportive of me; she even tried to talk to my father for me. But he didn't want a daugther like that and I never really got to talk with him and ever since we had some big arguments about it, the type where hurtful words are trown in every directions ending with us being a eatch other throats. My brother was the one who aways stoped us. I'm kinda weak but I'd never say it out loud. I couldn't help but be jealous of my brother when they went out, jealous of the perfect father-son relationship they had. But I would never hate my father or my brother. I hope one day my father will accept me and for now my mother and brother are enough.

It was at our third classe of biologie when he first talked to me, the teacher had warned us to take our blouse for today. Looking down a the sprailed corps of some sort of frog waiting to be cut. I took a thin blade and started poking it inside the flesh of the little animal's stomach. I didn't even know what I was doing and the boy rigth next to me started laughing... I was then startled by the one behind me when he lightly tapped my shoulder. It may have been the first human contact (other than family) I had in weeks to be honest . He was a little short but still  taller than me and he smelled like he had just smoked even through his face screamed innocence. Then, as if I didn't have a tiny embarassing heart attack, he explained me the 'how to' do what the teacher asked without having to make the frog into the mess I wasn't aware I caused. He finished with a smirk on his face making him looking a tad arrogant... Way to make someone feel stupid...

"If you're so good you should be surgeon, must be funny cuting open people as a job." I said to him half serious half joking. Then I may have sent him a death glare because, well, he annoyed me. My pride kicked in every so often making me very hard to talk to. Must be why I didn't have friends. Then again, I'm probably asociable by nature.

"Wow, you really sounded like a psyco you know?" then he bursted laughing. He was a funny felow. I was mildly surprised at the outburst and my eyes probably went wide making him laugth even more. His laughter was infectuous, so obviously, I followed his example and laugthed with him. We made small talks over the dead frog between us untill the end of the class.

He was called Kai, well that's what he told me, in reality his name was Jongin but he think Kai is cooler. It's the type of guy you don't see everywhere. You meet someone like him only once in a lifetime then you do your best to never forget. He looked like the average popular kid at first sight, really, you wouldn't know his mind is like a fucking death trap or a maze at best if you only saw his cute perfect face... and he's more of a nerd than a popular kid really.

After biologie he presented me to his friend Yifan, a tall guy ,a really tall guy well if that count as presenting when you scream I JUST MET THIS GIRL AND SHE'S A PSYCOPATH COME HERE in a corridor between two classes... Only then he remembered that of course he hadn't asked my name... Or maybe he did remember but  just didn't care?

Kay surprisingly took interest in me in an experimental way. I just went with it. What could possibly go wrong ? haha. Soon we started to get closer and he pushed me inside his group of friends he already knew from middle school. In the circle there was Yifan and Baekyun alias the tall and the smart one ( I just found him anoying, he's a little bit of a smartass) they were also in our class wich made me happy, then there was 'Xiumin' everyone called him that, so much that I forgot his real name,after him came Yixing, Luhan, and 'Channie' his name was Chanyeol but it was fun calling him Channie so we settled for that name and to be true to myself I found him really attractive. The problem was that this group was only composed by guys. With me being the only girl in there... I went thourgh hell in my last town, every days people would give me dirty looks, call me by harsh words behind my back, trow things at me and mostly ignore my existence hence the reason why I had to change high school. It hurt to be judged by hyppocrite and it was still okay. But since here no one knows, it can't be helped and I wouldn't be held responsible for hidding that tiny detail.

I didn't have any idea how long I could keep the lie going but I was willing to do so for has long as I could. But of course life is a bitch. I was starting to fall for Channie, he was straight and was already in a long distance relationship with some  2 years older girl so I knew he was out of reach and maybe, just maybe that's why I fell for him. Maybe I believed it could stay something innocent and I through I knew how to controle myself... Back then I was rather naive I never really loved anyone just tiny crush here and there. It was like I lived in a cocoon all these years, I mean I had never smoked, drank or skiped classes voluntarily and I didn't go out since I didn't have friends, in short my world wasn't much more than my familly, the classes and the bullying. But I mastered the skill of fake smiles and hadn't cried ever since my only friend Tito (my hamster) died by the start of middle school.

So shocked is a weak word to define how I felt when I first came to this new high school. Everyone was smoking and I could tell it wasn't just cigarettes. Everyone were in front of the gates making little groups, blocking the way and puffing on their stick of cancer. And I can't even describe how I felt when I spotted my own brother smoking within one of those small groups!  He told me it was okay that he didn't smoke that mutch and to keep it secret from our parents. I did just that but not without a long sermon about the bad side of smoking and the risks. After a few months I came to an understanding, here smoking meant having a social life. Even the one who didn't smoke carried a lighter just to lit others peoples cigarettes. Smoking became the norm since they were way fewer people who didn't than people who did. I started smoking weed but only during parties and when Kai wasn't watching, he didn't want me to smoke.

Kai seemed to think I didn't know shit about the world and that I was the happiest person alive. I couldn't have denied that I was enjoying the time we spend together because It became the happiest time of my life. He made me think I wouldn't be able to live without him. But did he want to make me feel that way ? I still wonder, maybe it was just me who needed him all along. That wouldn't surprise me. Anyway, everything he and his friends did made me more and more atracted, but the way they smoked all the time was making me worried over their health, they used to hug me to make me shut up. I swear to god they smoked at least two packs a day. But the way he was with me was different from how he was with his friends, he made me feel like I was so special, so much more important to him. He made me believe I was the only one he could trust.

I would always tell him to stop smoking and that it was bad for his health and I guess we did argue a lot about that. He never listened to me, told me it wasn't my buisness, that I should mind my own and leave him the fuck alone. After four months I stopped nagging him. I knew why he was wasting his life away. He told me. Even if I couln'd understand, even if it didn't make sense to me. He trusted me. Only me.

Because he was broken. He was a sad depressed fuck ruined by his mind and his family. Every week he went to see a psychologue and went to the tribunal. His father his a fucker who left his mother after cheating on her, leaving her with him, his little brother, 5 years younger with autism; and no money to help. But fuck it. His mother broke down. She's a druggie who won't even give two flying fuck about her sons. Of course he's too young to be alowed to do anything. But the thing is that he doesn't fucking care. He tried to kill his father and threatened him with a knife which is why he goes to the tribunal every week, which is why keep bitting his fingers untill they bleed, which is why he smoke untill his lungs burn and his troath is raw screaming at him, making him forget about the world for just a little while. And that's why I don't tell him to stop anymore. Even through it hurt me to see him wither away. Because I can't do anything. If only I knew how to save Kai, if only.

I was happy, happy to know him, happy but so, oh so scared to lose it all... Once he said to me "What esle is there to do but to enjoy what we have now?" It was like he already knew how everything was going to end and he couldn't have been more right. Nothing last forever I knew but still hoped for more. And I shouldn't have because all I did was mistakes.

The last thing he told me was "I knew it wouldn't last. But this was faster than expected."

He died too soon and he killed me in the process.

I still don't what could have been done, where was the mistakes. No mather how much I search for it, nothing.

Maybe it's time for me to understand there are some things you can't do anything about. It wasn't my fault.

Everyday like a mantra I keep telling myself it wasn't my fault.