#and he's DEEPLY traumatized
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In my Dammon headcanon he's the oldest son of one of the most renowned artificers in Elturel. He spent his whole life watching his mother work the forges, fascinated with how she crafted such beautiful weaponry and armor for the hellriders that protected Elturgard. He was tinkering with hammers and blacksmith tongs basically as soon as he could walk. His mother taught him everything he knows, and it was her knowledge and influence alone that allowed his life to be spared when their city fell into the hells.
Dammon and his mother watched as his father was murdered by fiends, and his four younger siblings conscripted to fight in the blood war. Only his mother and him were spared warfare, conscripted instead into working in the forges because of their knowledge of weaponry. His mother was considered more valuable for her knowledge of infernal machinery, and she was taken to help design new war machines for Zariel's efforts.
He suffered torment at the hands of his infernal captors. Working in infernal forges was brutal. Dammon knew little rest in the time he spent there, he was fed only enough to keep him working, and though he was surrounded by other conscripted workers, they were forbidden to speak to one another. In Avernus, Dammon was tortured, overworked, and isolated.
When Elturel rose again, his mother risked her own life to see his freedom. She knew that she herself was too valuable to Zariel for her to ever allow her escape, but she found a way for Dammon to return, despite all odds. Dammon felt like a monster when he left her behind. The memories of his family haunt him, he feels responsible for their deaths. He feels responsible for his mother still being trapped in Avernus. (he's got MAJOR survivors guilt).
Only days after the city was restored, Dammon was exiled by his own people. He felt anger, shame, betrayal. He had suffered so much already, now being forced to abandon the only home he had ever known. He was to leave his whole life behind, his whole family behind. He could only take what he could carry, and he felt bitter that he would never see his mother's forge again, the very one he had trained with since he was a child. He felt angry that out of everyone he loved, he was the one who survived. He was angry at himself for being unable to do more to help them. He felt alone, weak, and betrayed. He had lost every person he loved, powerless against the forces who took them from him.
#i'm taking a lot of creative liberty here but i just can't get it out of my head#he's got artificer magic flowing through his blood and he's a mamas boy at heart#and he's DEEPLY traumatized#but he's also just a natural craftsman#can't stop working or tinkering or thinking about metalworking even when he wants to#audhd artificer dammon is near and dear to my heart#you'll have to pry this headcanon from my cold dead hands#bg3#dammon headcanon#baldurs gate dammon#fuck his voice actor and his original story this is MY dammon
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man i love flowey so much, i don’t think i ever realized just how funny he is when i was a teenager. i love that he save scums. i love that he gets mad when you interrupt his monologue. i love that he talks like an anime villain because he thinks frisk is chara and is playing the world’s longest game of edgy oc playground roleplaying. he has the strongest cain instinct i have ever seen. he projects like crazy. he is an incredibly sore loser. i love him
#don’t get me wrong he is also very tragic and a deeply traumatized child put in a weird undeath situation#experiencing immense grief and his body is now something that is entirely a reminder of that grief#he is a fascinating character. but also he’s funny.#i love when asriel says ‘’maybe i was projecting a little bit’’#like. yeah. just a little
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does anyone else think about this every day
LIKE. the way she words it. the way she stabs you, the way her hand is positioned. her expression. the desperation and determination. the way to get here, you have to stab yourself when spectre possesses you. the way this can end with Her stabbing You to take you back.
every princess is alone. lonely. separated, from others, from you, from herself. the long quiet is her only companion and she is pit against them. heavily discouraged from even Speaking to her. and if that Does happen, she Still tries so hard to reach out. she asks you politely. she is still angry, but she is willing to let the past be the past in favor of teamwork. companionship. someone to actually listen to her. and when it happens AGAIN, she STILL is willing to forgive you. for the same damn thing.
the tear between the shifting mound and the long quiet was traumatic for both of them. they may not remember, but they still feel that emptiness. they are, subconsciously or not, trying so hard to return to each other. but whatever they try it still never lasts. its tragic. she is ripped away from you, you are ripped away from her. and it was intentional!!! the tear is jagged and messy and hurtful On Purpose. not maliciously (i dont think) but still. the narrator Did Not Care how traumatic this would be for the entities he was creating.
its just. ugh. the loneliness and the desperation and the little moments of respite and the way the shifting mound so desperately tries to convince you to stay with her, be with her, leave with her. together. the way she says her heart has ached for this moment. they can never truly go back to what they once were. and it hurts them both. but they can still stay close to each other in different ways. and she tries so hard to convince you.
What once was one, then was two, and then was one again. kill me oh my GOD
#slay the princess#NOBODY GETS IT#THEYRE NOT JUST SOULMATES THEY USED TO BE ONE#THEY ARE LITERALLY THE SAME SOUL#NOT narrator bashing btw#the narrator is a deeply flawed guy but i dont think it was like#intentional? like it WAS but not In That Way ykno#he didnt mean it to be this traumatic thing#he just. was a mortal man not thinking about his actions affecting something as Huge as gods#if that makes sense#anyways princess and the dragon is the most romantic chapter
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This is why the bit of undramatized backstory I’m most burningly curious about is probably Flint & Gates. How did they become genuine friends. (And at a time when Flint - who is a ten-time gold medalist in Not Making Friends - was presumably at his most wounded and walled-off and feral, to boot?) What made Hal so loyal to him. How did Flint also lowkey decide that Hal was his pirate dad. Is Hal even remotely aware that he’s been cast in the role of Flint’s pirate dad. Is Flint even self-aware about casting Hal in the role of his pirate dad, or is this all writhing sea serpents living in the here-be-dragons zone of his traumatized subconscious
#absolutely everything about the flintgates divorce is SO fucked up and it only gets more so the longer you look at it#flint smiles and laughs and drinks and plots with gates like almost nobody else and yet he has explained NOTHING of his past#after a decade hal is as much in the dark about miranda as the crew and when pressed flint earnestly struggles to explain!#they’re friends coworkers drinking buddies an old married couple a star athlete and his coach a toxic boss and his HR manager#and somewhere somehow perhaps unbeknownst to BOTH of them they are also a deeply traumatized child and his adopted father#having a messy breakup because flint maybe-murdered gates’ other (acknowledged) adopted son (who is in fact alive and sorta well)#what the FUCK guys. what the fuck!!!!#men will literally hunt spanish treasure galleons instead of going to therapy#black sails#my posts
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I love fadel so much like this man really thought having sex with style would make him leave him alone. That he got it out of their systems and everything’s fine now. But instead style is just going to be even more obsessed with him AND he is going to have a harder time resisting because he Knows. He knows what it’s like to have style. It’s not a fantasy anymore. My guy put the nail in his own coffin
#my sweet darling sexually repressed deeply traumatized boy#you have made a terrible miscalculation#I want to hug him even though this situation is ridiculous like he’s been through enough#I don’t want to see his heart get crushed by style#but it’s going to happen anyway#the heart killers#the heart killers the series
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We don't talk enough about the fact that Amelia Pond, s5 Amelia Pond, before the timeline is reset, isn't just a normal orphan. Her parents didn't die, didn't abandon her, and didn't send her away. They never existed in the first place.
And if her parents never existed, then Amelia cannot exist. She is a causal impossibility.
"People fall out of the world sometimes, but they always leave traces." A photograph. A face carved into an apple. Yes. Sure.
A child.
Now that's too big, surely.
But that's what she is. She is exactly the same as these things. A trace. An echo of something that could never be, never was, never could have been.
And the universe should never allow it. A whole person, that's just too much. She could not have continued to exist indefinitely, in normal circumstances, after her parents never existed.
In normal circumstances.
Because the Doctor didn't just save her from things coming out of the crack in her wall. He saved her from going into it. And he didn't just save her from the threat of going into it simply because of its vicinity.
No, by arriving when he did, he interrupted a process that was probably already in motion. And then by arriving again only moments later on a cosmic relative timestream (too quickly for the process to complete) and yet in the local relative timestream, years later --- years of a potential future caught midway through the process of rewriting -- he solidified that existence. Amy is a creature from another timeline, caught in amber. The Doctor prevented her from never existing, but only after she could already never exist.
And so, no one around Amelia thinks about it. Neither does she. There's some kind of consciousness block, because if you thought about it, really thought about it, for two seconds you'd realize she cannot exist. And the human mind can't deal with that. So, to protect itself, everyone's brain simply slides off it before ever noticing. They just assume that her existence makes sense, and don't question it, and don't notice what they don't question, that is staring them in the face.
But of course, to some extent they do notice. They can't think it, but they notice subconsciously that there's something they can't think. They notice there's something wrong with her, something uncanny. And they don't like it, and they alienate her even more because of it.
"Does it ever bother you Pond that your life existence doesn't make any sense?"
#like!!!!!! why arent we talking about this!!!!!!!#amelia pond#amy pond#the ultimate autism metaphor on top of being autistic anyway#doctor who#dw#ndw#dw theory#lavender thoughts#SHE CAN'T EXIST SHE IS LITERALLY IMPOSSIBLE#you called clara the impossible girl but that's amy#and THEN the fact that even after it's all set right#she remains shaped by -- remains deeply traumatized by -- a timeline that never happened; a reality that never was#AUGH !!!!!#some wounds just can't heal even if the thing that caused them never existed in the first place#some wounds remain as a TRACE of the other time just as you yourself were once#THE mental illness rep of all time#and in the big bang of course the doctor had to take the shortcut because if they'd all gone the long way round#she'd have been gone before he got there#as starless universe's little amelia disappeared.... it could be millienia but from another perspective it HAD to be moments#they made it only in the nick of time#and the doctor knew that#pond#the life and times of amy pond#lavender writings
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*slaps Caleb’s ass* this bad boy can fit so many psychological disorders in him
#it isn’t even funny 💀#it doesn’t take someone with a psyc degree like me to notice that he needs extensive therapy and he’s deeply traumatized#he even ‘failed’ his mental health evaluations according to his anecdote#caleb#love and deepspace#lads caleb#lnds caleb
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BABY NO 3??? BESTIE—
There'll also be baby number four 🙈🙈 But Sanji is completely done after that. (My whole reason for that is that I felt like Sanji deserves to have Zoro for at least one pregnancy his side-)
#omegaverse#vinsmoke sanji#zosan#roronoa zoro#answered asks#he's gonna have at least one pregnancy and birth that is not as deeply traumatic as the other ones were#also he is PALE he hasn't seen the sun in ages#and I still believe he has brutal pregnancies so he is already at the end of his energy level after getting up
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thinking abt simon "ghost" "acts of service" riley
like in my head he isn't too fond of physical touch. he wont burst into tears and start crying and shaking if you hug him but its very much reserved for the very few people who are close to him. its not that he's scared of it or it makes him super uncomfortable, its just he has other ways of showing people he loves them!
he's the type of guy who when you're getting to know him, listens and remembers every detail you tell him, and makes mental notes of your dislikes and likes w/o you having to tell him.
he takes cold showers every day and when you ask him he just tells you "its better, wakes me up in the mornings" but its really because he knows you like taking hot showers from all the times he's walked into the washroom once you're done and noticed the mirror all fogged up from the steam. he just wants to make sure you dont run out of hot water
in a passing conversation you mention feeling a bit sick, maybe its the change in weather or your allergies acting up but you just really are hoping it isnt a cold. simon doesnt say much but later you find a small ziploc baggie of peeled orange slices with a sticky note with your name on on it
when you go out together and you're a little underdressed for the weather he notices the goosebumps on your arms and how you constantly are rubbing them with your hands, trying to subtly warm yourself from the friction. you dont do a good job however because he glances at you and lets out a small sigh
"what did i say before heading out" "bring a jumper..." you mumble in response "and what did you do?" he crosses his arms over his chest but he isn't mad or annoyed, not in the slightest "not bring a jumper"
it feels like you're on the verge of being lectured but simon just rolls his eyes and gestures you to follow him. you're lead to his car and he opens the trunk, tossing you a black zip up sweater. he's scolding you somewhat, saying that "this is why you're getting sick" and other nonsense and you're lucky he "forgot" to take that sweater out of the trunk or boot because hes bri'ish. you happily take it and put it on because you're not about to turn down a sweater when you're freezing also its from simon and it just looks so comfy! it's definitely big on you because lets face it, simon is built like an industrial freezer, but the material is soft and cozy, with the added bonus of smelling like him. you thank him for the sweater and carry on with your day, not thinking much of it. truth is, however, he always has that extra sweater in his car for you. makes sure its there before you two go anywhere, neatly folded and tucked into the back. he would never admit it though he's such a pussy
when asked about his little favours he does for you he constantly pulls excuses from his ass, saying its just a coincidence that he had those things or literally anything to hide that he goes out of his way to do it for you. he cares about you, he actually cares a lot about you but he's just a tiny bit embarrassed to admit it. he loves you so much but he doesn't want you to think he's like kicking his legs and giggling over the thought of you even though he probably has at some point but you dont need to know that
he thinks he's sooooo subtle and sneaky about it but when you fall asleep and you wake up with a sweater over top of you like a blanket that a) you are 100% sure doesn't belong to you and b) has "S. Riley" written in sharpie on the tag (with a tiny skull doodle next to it), theres no way in hell you can be oblivious to how much he cares about you.
#bug blurb#i know i clown on him a lot but its all affectionate i swear#platonic or romantic idk its up to u#might make this into a series for the cod characters if i have time but idk :P#he just like me fr and its a 6'4 deeply traumatized british military man im projecting on#ghost x reader#call of duty#simon ghost riley#ghost call of duty#call of duty mw#call of duty mw2
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The Justice League, on their way back from a deep space mission that was incredibly successful, received a distress signal from a galaxy they’re passing through.
As they investigate, they learn that a colony of a planet has been wiped out. Completely.
Slowly they piece together that there is some being out there that had been terrorizing planets, starting with colonies and then eventually going after larger settlements and home planets.
The League also learns they are not the first people to learn of this foe, or try to come up with a solution to stop them.
The colony they are inspecting has researchers on it that had fled or escaped from other planets where they piled together all they knew about their enemy, and in an attempt to sift through the mountains of data they had collected, created a device.
If a person was connected to the device, they would mentally experience the number of years required to process the data and come up with an attack plan in seconds. What the researchers had needed was time, so they created it.
As the League pieces this together, Superman sees that there is a being approaching the remnants of the colony and the defense system alerts the “remaining colonists” of the imminent threat. Their failsafe boots up and takes the nearest person, in this case, Batman, who had been studying some of its programming, and activates.
The rest of the team didn’t have a chance to react before Batman blinks and is in motion, setting up machines and dictating code without lifting a finger.
There is no fight, because after the two seconds Bruce was in the machine he was a flurry of motion and the enemy was contained.
They ask him how long had passed for him in the machine. It takes him a full minute to respond.
“150 years.”
#batman#bruce wayne#justice league#batfamily#batfam#i can’t decide how bruce would react to being alone in his own head for 150 years but no matter what it’s bad#because sure he trained with the loa in isolation but not for longer than the average lifespan nothing can prepare you#so either he comes back and is completely silent because he spent the last 20 years not even “talking aloud’’ to himself#or we finally get some sort of emotive bruce. one who finally realized that he needs people and is desperate not to be alone again#when he gets home? and sees his kids? my god that man should cry.#because they were what kept him going through those 2 seconds and 1314000 hours - that he would see them again#and in those years there must have been downtime (if it was like a mental simulation) where he could over analyze his relationships with his#kids and the watchtower defenses and his romantic relationships. and mentally hack the equipment holding him to let him write code in his#head and then program the defenses in real time for the moment he came out of “stasis”#let this deeply traumatized man have too much time on his hands and the isolation he thinks he needs and have it fuck him up irreparably#(based loosely on miles o’brien from ds9 and outer wilds for the mental prison and noncon time loop)#one things for sure and two for certain he lobbys against solitary confinement
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im trying to read post canon yoohankim fics and i can't be bothered to look for them on ao3 like...... im not going to lie a lot of it is really boring.... its fluff in a way that really doesnt appeal to my taste. uh oops I just wrote a bunch of shit in the tags
#i need them to stay codependent and silly and funny. i need kim dokja to try to break up with them. i need him to be scared of#his own sexuality and think that he's not a good romantic partner due to his problems#i need yoo joonghyuk to be afraid for kim dokjas wellbeing. as soft as they may have come to be after the scenarios#i think they get to have a few mental breakdowns#i need to see han sooyoung get angry and cry and have her fingernails dig inside the palm of her hands#i need them to kiss and be desperate. even in a peaceful world they still have their own issues that can just go away#kim dokja understands that he is loved by others but can he TRULY get rid of his fear of being loved?#yoo joonghyuk has found some meaning and purpose to their life of suffering but is that easy to live after only surviving?#han sooyoung has surrounded herself with a family but can she truly sleep at night with the selfish choices she made to save them?#like PLEASE.. i want more than just kim dokja learning how to be loved. it is fun but i want MORE. yhk is about deeply angsty characters#can we treat them as such#they're so traumatized and selfish. they broke the space time continuum for each other. several times#they broke the fourth wall together and youre only gonna make them CUDDLE? i want to see BLOOD EVERYWHERE#orv#orv spoilers#omniscient reader's viewpoint#yoohankim
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he has the range
#bruce wayne#batman#jason todd#dick grayson#the temptation to tag all his fucking kids#funny enough this is not really me being anti batman/bruce#he's a deeply flawed and traumatized man#i get that this is the no nuance webbed site tho so#if you gotta hate you gotta hate
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Excuse me but. ThAt'S iLlEgAl.
What do you mean my man CEJ spent years alone in an eerily silent place, surrounded by bones and scraps of flesh that used to be his comrades. What do you mean my good dude has to have ASMR videos playing at all times because he might as well go insane if left alone in silence for more than a minute. What do you mean he spent months - years maybe - whispering the names of his dead peers again and again and again and -
WHAT DO YOU MEAN HE SPENT SO LONG WITH SILENCE FILLED ONLY BY HIS OWN WHISPERS HE FORGOT HUMAN LANGUAGE AND THE ONLY WORD HE UNDERSTOOD WAS 'NEED'. WHAT DO YOU MEAN HIS FIRST RESPONSE TO SOMEONE NEEDING HIM IS TO REACH FOR HIS SPEAR BECAUSE WHY WOULD ANYONE NEED HIM IF NOT FOR KILLING
I AM SICK AND TIRED AND I NEED MY GOOD PAL CEJ TO CATCH A. GOD. DAMN. BREAK!
#the fact that he got out and is immediately faced with 1) mutating. from the start. 2) LSY and Honeybee just fuckin' gone with the wind ???#WHERE ARE THEY I WILL NOT WAIT EIGHT YEARS FOR THEM TO COME BACK TRAUMATIZED#i know we're reaching the final stages of the story but damn can we catch a break#this arc destroyed me fr#“hey remember these deeply traumtiwing events. aha would be shame if -aha- you had to go through them again - aha”#The hunter wants to live quietly#The hunter's gonna lay low#thgll#thwtlq#Cha Eui-jae#Lee Sa-young#Honeybee
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Exclusive first look at Daniel Molloy and Lestat de Lioncourt in AMC’s Interview With the Vampire season 3.
#‘everyone else gets a deeply traumatic and revelatory interview with daniel! it’s my turn!’#also lestat has no hang ups he will happily fuck that old man first chance he gets#no questions asked#also lestat owes daniel at least a fruit basket for the whole ‘he didn’t save you! lestat did!’ bit#louis wasn’t gonna figure out shit on his own#danstat#daniel x lestat#lestat x daniel#daniel molloy#lestat de lioncourt#amc interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#iwtv#interview with the vampire
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"Louis and Armand were still in love in Dubai!!" "Louis and Armand never loved each other!!" - no. it's worse. they were on the precipice of something good, but Armand couldn't recognize that, so he ruined everything they had, right when Louis had actually come to love him. the love was there for a fleeting moment and it was ruined irreversibly, never to return, even after decades they'd spent together out of desperation and spite. it's worse and that's the point
#iwtv#interview with the vampire#amc iwtv#louis de pointe du lac#the vampire armand#like. i don't understand how anyone would buy into one story or the other#when it's so very clear what the truth actually is#armand could've had everything he'd ever wanted#and he destroyed it all himself because he is a coward. everything he does is out of cowardice or desperation or impulse#he doesn't really scheme. he just reacts. and half the time it's with lies and manipulations#because he's Scared. he's still so deeply hurt. he's so lonely. and he could not bring himself to trust Louis#even though he couldn't resist developing that relationship either#your honour he is traumatized and stupid#i love him#i think there's also a primary audience reason why some people are so averse to the truth of their relationship#it's bc a lot of people don't like/can't handle the idea of love being both real and temporary#as well as something that can be destroyed so completely
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the way amy and tails just... run past metal sonic as he collapses. i'm losing my mind. he's just an object to them. he's just a threat to be neutralized. they have no idea.
amy yelling out "i can't let *MY* sonic get away!" as she skips past his body
THAT *IS* YOUR SONIC!!!! THAT'S YOUR SOULMATE!! TAILS, THAT'S YOUR BIG BROTHER!!!!!! HE'S COLLAPSED ON THE GROUND!!!!!!!!!
#sth#sonic the hedgehog#tails the fox#amy rose#metal sonic#.txt#amy calling out “MYYY sonic ^_^” while metal is right in earshot... oof...#good thing he's probably ko at this point#good for him i mean. he won't want these memories.#its both deeply funny and deeply tragic.#metal sonic has said again and again he can't UNDERSTAND why he can't win. he's so confused. he's so enraged. he's so hurt. he's so alone#like imagine one day you wake up and everyone is chilling with a doll of you. and they insist its the REAL you. that youre a monster#youve been truly and utterly replaced. disposed of. what can you even do#fight? and become the monster they accused you of being??#'the REAL you wouldn't be this angry!'#?!?!??!?!?!?!? just such a genuinely startling and bewildering and unreal experience.#its also worth mentioning that for metal this all happened AFTER his traumatic roboticization. and his friends deaths too. ✌#ok enough i got homework lol
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