#and he doesn’t hate bev!!!!!!!!

[impulsivesuperrobin]

me, gnawing at the bars of my cage: richie tozier is smart!!! he gets good grades!!! he understands bill better than anyone!!! he thinks bev is so tough!!! his impressions are fucking awful when he’s a kid!!! he hates his glasses but thinks it’s cool that buddy holly wears them!!!! his parents don’t always understand him but they love him so much!!! he’s scared of clowns and werewolves and being forgotten!!! he dances with bev in a school talent show!!! and their friendship gives a time traveler hope for derry!!!

[honeytama]

thinkin about best friends to lovers movie night w/ matty d

goofy fluff n smut 18+ w fem!reader under the cut

i’m just thinkingggg like,,, watching YOUR favorite movies and rotting on the couch with him one night. ofc we know you’ve had to endure (you love it) watching lotr with him, but finally he agrees to watch your favs bc he’s your bestie (he’s in love with you)

it’s like the princess diaries and tangled and selena or smth, he says he “doesn’t think he’ll like them” pfft

now i’m thinking about crying in his arms watching selena no one touch me

anyway,,,,

you guys make popcorn and eat your favorite snacks and sip on caffeinated bevs.

he’s surprisingly well behaved, but he has to throw in some snarky comments about the plot/music/anything

“why doesn’t she just—,”

“matt, shut up”

“y/n, this song 🤢”

“MATT, SHUT UP”

for the first movie, maybe you’re on opposite sides of the couch and he gets to use the chaise because “he lives there” 🙄. but you just kind of attract to him, like a magnet, and by the middle of the 2nd movie your legs are propped up and intertwined with his

you’re used to touching each other. he likes to rub his feet on yours,,, and you kinda hate that it gives you body tingles.

he’ll also rests his hand on your bare thigh; he never realizes but he likes to tap his fingers on your skin while you wait for the next movie to load

or when he likes the beat to one of the songs

“i knew u liked the soundtrack :D”

“it’s just a habit,,, no one likes this! 😒” keeps tapping anyway

… 🤨

back to his hand on your thigh *ahem*

something you’ll never get used to is how sexually frustrated matt will make you feel. it HURTS

and you know that he knows he does it on purpose but he just never actually acts on it. he could’ve had you in his bed, anywhere really, SO LONG AGO

but tonight he’s insatiable, and he wants to be big spoon and cuddle w his hand under your shirt on your tummy,, he wants you with your legs in his lap and your arm around his neck,, he just wants your body as close as possible and it makes you dizzy and your cooch is on fire

…and his dick is hard,,,, you can’t help but notice the pressure under your calf as your legs are in his lap.

he *coughs* to cover up moans when you readjust yourself or reach over him to get popcorn so he can peek down your shirt

once he’s had enough of your teasing yes you do it on purpose…

“ok, that’s enough,” he says assertively. gives you that classic matt glare, “you are going to get on top of me or not?”

you practically scramble to straddle his thighs.

you get to kiss him for the very first time; his lips are plump, so soft, and salty from the popcorn. they taste so good. everything just feels right with his tongue in your mouth.

matt grips your hips and guides your heat over his cock, straining in his shorts. of course, you take the lead and grind down on him while making out with him feverishly

“take these off” he pulls at your bottoms

“matt, my movie ;-;”

“y/n, this is your one chance to ride me don’t ruin it for sleeping beauty”

“her name is rapunzel 🙄☝️”

— — —

I COULD SAY SO MUCH MORE SIGH

what’s ur fav movie u think matt would hate (actually love but would not admit)? 😚

[made-my-peace-with-all-the-bad]

Sharing my sick outsiders hcs because I’m sick and projecting

Ponyboy: when he’s sick, he’s SICK and literally all he wants to do is curl up and lay there. In contrast to how he normally always wants Soda, when he’s sick all he wants is Darry to comfort him and make it go away. He just wants him nearby, even if he doesn’t need anything. He will sometimes even go to Darry’s room in the middle of the night and kinda stand there until Darry invites him into the bed.

Soda: I confidently believe that Soda lives in a constant state of sniffles so he normally just powers through then comes home and crashes. But, if he’s super sick, he’ll come home from work, drag a blanket out from his room and throw himself down on the couch with his head in Darry’s lap while Darry rubs his back. And because I believe that Soda hates soup, he will pick the worst possible foods to eat when he’s sick and Darry needs to dig around to find something that is better for his throat that he likes.

Darry: Literally almost never sick but when he is it’s super bad, like he genuinely has Soda and Pony questioning if he needs a hospital. But normally, he just kinda lays in bed and Pony will bring him tea and Soda will convince him that he doesn’t need to worry about missing a couple shifts and that he and Pony are perfectly capable of making dinner (Pony is, soda is not). And at night, Soda and Pong will crawl into his bed and just hug him (yes, they get sick from this, and no, it will not stop them).

Two-Bit: An absolute baby when sick. All he wants is to be held. Sometimes his sister will come in a lay with him but usually it’s Marcia. He will call her, she’ll hear him sniffle and she’s immediately into caring girlfriend mode. She’s at his house in fifteen minutes with six types of tea, 18 packs of tissues, every kind of medicine imaginable, 14,000 water bottles, you name it. And he will literally make grabby hands until she gets in bed and cuddles with him.

Johnny: He used to stay out at the lot when he was sick until one time when Darry found him out there, felt he had a fever, and made him stay at the Curtis house. Now, that’s where he goes anytime he feels sick. And it’s not unusual for the Curtis brothers to come home and see Johnny sniffling on their couch while wrapped in a blanket. And the main thing that Johnny wants when he’s sick is his people showing they care. He loves when Darry makes him soup or when Ponyboy reads to him.

Marcia: Kind of similar to Johnny in that she loves knowing that people care. If she’s sick, Cherry will drop by with a homemade soup and her favorite tea, Brill and Bev would bring her some of his moms cooking, and Two-Bit would come by and just hold her. And yes, I’m confident that Marcia hated (and still hates) cold medicine and needs to be bribed to take it.

Cherry: This girl will try so hard to go through her day like normal if she’s sick, it got to a point where she was so tired she almost collapsed during her cheer practice and Bob took her home. When Cherry said she knew a side of Bob that was caring and sweet, yeah it came out so much when she was sick. He would do anything to make her feel better, she wants a certain food, he’s running to make it or get it, she wants to watch a movie, he’s already got it ready to play, she wants cuddles, his arms are wide open and waiting.

Bob: You thought Two-Bit was a baby when he’s sick? Yeah, bobs a bigger one. This man will literally start crying because of how bad he feels. It’s usually Cherry that takes care of him, but it’s not uncommon for Paul to drop by and help. They’re the only two people he trusts to see him like that and won’t judge him for it.

Paul: When Paul is sick, he will curl up in his room and wait it out. And when Paul is sick it’s normally for like a full week. He used to have Darry to come over and take care of him and make him feel better, but before Darry he did it himself, and after Darry he does it by himself. He thinks he’s a lot of work when sick and he doesn’t want to have to make one of his friends deal with that, so he’ll be shaking, coughing, and feel horrible in his warm bed in his silent house.

[queenxxraccoon]

Speaking of female characters in The Outsiders, what do you all think their clothing styles and personality would be like? Characters we’ve read about or watched in the movie, what kind of depth do you think their characters have? I’ll try to give an idea of what I think. I also will say I don’t like a decent percent of the female characters bc of things they’ve been described to have done. Although Angela is the MVP we love her. @nexternalknowsthingz @thatonetotaldramaguy weigh in on this in curious.

Cherry: A girl a really tries to please both sides, can come off as arrogant and selfish but is forced to go along with what she is told (Socs forcing her to treat Greacers like trash). She although has a fiery side to her and has a big belief in her moral values (stuck up for Ponyboy at the drive in) she’s not perfect but I think she definitely tries and has good heart. 6/10 (God I hate her a lot though 😭)

Clothes:

Marcia: A genuine girl, shes very shy and polite. She can be sassy but also classy. Definitely also defends her friends like Cherry and is a real girls girl. Definitely also keeps out of trouble, she doesn’t trash Greasers but can believe some can be erratic or spontaneous into doing bad behavior. Doesn’t condone it but doesn’t make you feel bad for it. 8/10

Clothes:

Beverly: Now, forgive on this, but haven’t seen the musical so I don’t her personality at all. But she seems like she would take no shit. Think of Bubbles from the Powerpuff Girls. Very demure, very mindful, but will bust you right up side the head if she thinks you acting up. I can also see her being a bit of a toxic friend who uses people as stepping stones. 3/10

Clothes:

Evie: Steve’s gf. Not much is told about her in both the in the book and movie but let’s be real, she’s dating Steve. (I personally ship Soda and Steve but if we’re going cannon…) I definitely she a loving girl but someone who can PARTYYYY! A friend who would give the most amazing advice, definitely the girl who like knows what you like before you telling her, example:

Evie: “What you want to eat?”

Friend: “Idk I’ve never ate here before.”

Evie: “I bet you’d like (random food and drink combo)

You order it and you fucking love it. She understands ur taste. 10/10

Clothes:

Sylvia: Oooo hold me back I’m gonna beat this girl up. Similar to Beverly but way more toxic and isn’t afraid to show. Bev would work behind backs and in the shadows, but Sylvia would just be a brat and absolutely bitch to your face. She wants to demolish your self esteem. Katy Perry’s song Hot and Cold (idk I don’t listen to Katy Perry lol could be the wrong song name). Like one minute she could be super sweet but then tear you down the next. Constantly keeps you on your toes and gaslights you till you cook

S/O (Prob past Dallas): “Hey I’m leaving to hang out with my friends.”

Sylvia: “You never talked about them, who are they? Where are you going?”

S/O: “I talked about hanging out with them this morning.”

Sylvia: “No you didn’t, stop lying. Maybe you should get your brain checked because you’ve mentioned them before. Are you gonna go cheat on me with them?” Etc. Not a good time, -10/10

Clothes:

Sandy: Well, she’s not good either. Definitely a little spoiled. Would def manipulate Soda into believing he was a bad bf bc he didn’t do one really small thing for her like pull her chair out in a restaurant for her. 😒 Miss literally cheated, got pregnant and left Soda. (Or Soda got her pregnant? Can’t remember lol) But I feel overall she’s very bratty and not fun to be around. 3/10

Clothes:

Angela: This bitch! WE LOVE HER!!!!!!!! Comes in clutch. Someone talking shit about someone she loves, smack to the face. Don’t like the way ur acting, ear gets pulled. She wouldn’t do this unprovoked either, like she would need good reasons. Def a lover to her friends and a fighter to her enemies. I also believe that she’s into exercise or weight lifting. Honestly in my opinion def the energetic on steroids version of Evie. 1000/10

Clothes:

[reddje]

reddie fic where eddie is literally perpetually pissed and mean and just hates literally everyone and everything and richie is the new kid and immediately falls in love with him and he asks bev (who adopted richie into her friend group the second she saw him) who he is and bev is like “oh that’s eddie…. he’s kind of strange like he’s an asshole” and richie is like perfect i love him and just tries so hard to crack eddie’s exterior and eddie is so stubborn and genuinely like mean and richie just doesn’t get it and keeps going

someone write that down (i already did and i’m gonna write it stay tuned)

(this is getting a lot of attention after the fact so i wrote it go read it)

[fatty-feeder]

First Impressions

Francis sat at the small cafe table, his hands wrapped around a steaming cup of coffee. He glanced nervously at his phone, scrolling through old messages between him and Bev. They had met on a dating app about a month ago, and so far, everything had been going better than he could have hoped. Bev was kind, funny, and open-minded—more than he’d dared to imagine. But there was one thing he hadn’t told her when they first started chatting.

Bev was running late, which gave him a bit more time to think about how exactly he would broach the subject. He hadn’t planned for her to find out so soon, but last week, during a cozy dinner at his apartment, it had come up—mostly by accident. She’d commented on his appetite, laughing about how he always seemed to finish more food than she did.

“Oh, I love food,” Francis had said, maybe a little too enthusiastically.

“What’s not to love?” Bev had replied, giggling. But then she noticed the way his eyes lingered on her plate, the subtle excitement in his voice. “You really love food, don’t you?”

It wasn’t a question, more of a realization. Bev, sharp as ever, had started asking questions, and Francis couldn’t stop himself from being honest. He’d told her about his fascination with feeding, how he found pleasure in the idea of growing bigger, being fed, and seeing how far his body could go. To his surprise, Bev hadn’t been weirded out, at least not visibly. She had asked thoughtful questions and had listened, curious but cautious.

But that had been last week, and since then, Francis had been unsure if she was fully comfortable with it. He didn’t want to scare her off.

The bell above the cafe door jingled, and Francis looked up to see Bev walk in. Her smile instantly warmed the room, and she waved as she made her way over to the table. She looked casual but lovely, wearing jeans and a soft sweater. As she sat down, Francis felt his nerves settle a little.

“Sorry I’m late,” she said, catching her breath. “Bus was delayed.”

“No problem,” Francis said, returning her smile. “Glad you made it.”

They exchanged small talk for a bit, chatting about their day, the weather, work. But eventually, Bev leaned in slightly, her expression softening as she said, “So... I’ve been thinking about what we talked about.”

Francis tensed for a moment. “Oh?”

“About your, um, thing. Feederism,” she said, lowering her voice but keeping a curious smile. “I did some reading after we talked. Just trying to understand it more.”

Francis’ heart raced. “And?”

Bev took a sip of her coffee before responding, clearly choosing her words carefully. “It’s definitely new to me. I’ve never really thought about food in that way before, but I get it a little more now. I mean, it’s not just about the food, is it? It’s about... care, right? About trust.”

Francis nodded, his throat suddenly dry. “Yeah, exactly. It’s about feeling good together. It’s not just about feeding or gaining weight for the sake of it—it’s more intimate than that.”

Bev’s eyes sparkled with curiosity. “I can see that. I like that you feel comfortable enough to share this with me. I’ve never been involved in something like that, but... I don’t hate the idea. I actually think it could be fun.”

Francis blinked in surprise. “You do?”

She nodded, biting her lip thoughtfully. “Yeah. I mean, we’ve been having such a good time together, and I trust you. I don’t know if I fully understand it yet, but I’d be willing to try. At least, a little.”

He exhaled slowly, not realizing he’d been holding his breath. “I don’t want to pressure you into anything, Bev. It’s just something I like, but it doesn’t have to be everything.”

Bev reached across the table and squeezed his hand. “I know. And you’re not pressuring me. I’m... actually kind of curious about it. Like, how does it work? What would we do?”

Francis felt a rush of warmth in his chest. He hadn’t expected her to be this open, and now that the conversation was happening, it felt natural. “Well, we could start slow. Maybe we cook dinner together one night, something indulgent, and you can just feed me a little. If you’re comfortable, that is. We don’t have to go beyond what feels right for you.”

Bev smiled, her cheeks tinged with a slight blush. “I like cooking, so that sounds nice. And I’ll admit, the thought of taking care of you that way, of making you happy... it’s kind of exciting.”

Francis couldn’t help but grin. “Really?”

“Yeah. I mean, you love food, and I love seeing you happy. It might be fun to see where this goes.” She paused, then added with a teasing glint in her eyes, “Plus, I kind of like the idea of having a little control.”

Francis’ heart skipped a beat. There was a playful edge to her tone that made him wonder just how far Bev might be willing to go.

“Well, in that case,” he said, trying to keep his voice steady, “I think we’re going to have a lot of fun.”

They spent the rest of the afternoon talking, laughing, and planning their first “feeding” dinner together. Francis couldn’t believe how lucky he was, finding someone as understanding and open as Bev. She wasn’t just accepting of his fetish—she was genuinely interested in exploring it with him.

As they walked out of the cafe, Francis felt lighter, more hopeful than he had in years. The future felt full of possibility, and for the first time, he could see himself sharing this part of his life with someone who truly cared.

And maybe, just maybe, that someone would be Bev.

[flowers4matti]

i have a couple of silly headcanons

•Will doesn’t hate cats hes just not interested in them so of course they love him and strays tend to find him.

• Alana is a serial monogamous though her relationships are few and far between. She had a short term girlfriend in college but it didn’t last long because she was so focused on school

• Abigail was in band in middle school. She played the flute until her dad made her quit. She loved emo bands like Bring me to the horizon and My Chemical Romance.

• Hannibal has to have it nearly freezing to sleep at night.

•Bev rebelled heavily in her twenties after spending her life helping take care of her siblings. She got mixed up with some bad people and lost someone close to her. It made her want to do CSI so she could help families and the victims.

These are amazing, Anon! Thank you!

I would love to hear anymore you or anyone else has!

[closetnerd62]

I’m skipping around Gilmore girls rn to watch all the Rory and Jess scenes, then taking notes on them so I can write my au cuz I fear I’m insane, and I was curious what ur thoughts on the au were? What roles do you think different characters would play and things like that :)

YES!!! i’m SO EXCITED for this.

because i, like you, can’t go a single day without thinking about marbit, i do see them as rory and jess while trip is dean

now i imagine that the west side is kind of the west side as a whole so two isn’t necessarily new in town, just maybe it’s something like his mom is struggling to either support him financially, or just struggling to take care of him as well as his sister and so one of her clients that she used to be close friends with took him in. so like he can still go back to the east side during the day and have his gang but he lives on the west side

they meet at a similar dinner party type of thing, although i don’t think they’re bonding over books, i think it’s music. and instead of him writing notes in the margins for her, he takes a tape or something and creates a mixtape type of thing.

marcia and two keeps seeing each other around because the families are friends and he definitely does the sly flirting thing that jess does where he doesn’t outright flirt with her but there’s definitely some flirting going on

trip hates him for being a greaser and for talking to marcia, marcia keeps trying to play it off as being friends

if you wanted to use the basket lunch, you could keep it pretty similar to GG, i’d just make it a school fund raiser and you HAVE to keep the call about the fountain head scene but obviously make it about music

you can do what you’d like, i personally don’t really care much about the whole lorelei not liking jess plotline, so i would personally cut it, but if you did want to do it you could use bev as lorelei. idk something to think about

most of the studying plotline could be kept the same, it’s pretty straightforward. two would probably be sent back to his mothers as opposed to a different city entirely

marcia doesn’t see two for a few weeks, but then at prom or something he shows up, while she’s there with trip, she pulls him away, they kiss, the whole “don’t say anything” yada yada

okay that was just season two, i could make another thing for season 3, but if im honest idk if that’s how you’re supposed to do aus i wasn’t sure if i was supposed to put them in stars hollow or not i so sorry if this isn’t what you were looking for

@sondheim-girly

[sondheim-girly]

share ur brill headcanons… also do u think him and bev stay together?!

@to-know-how-it-ends and @walmartbrandwhatever also sent me asks about this and guys I got sick and didn’t have motivation for anything but I’m better now!! So here ya go!

-yes I think him and Bev stay together!

-In my mind theyre that bizarre couple that starts dating in middle school and then gets married after high school and stay together their entire lives

-his parents are away a lot or are always at work, and he bonds with Marcia over this

-this also makes his house basically the dedicated party house

-hes always hosting parties there, or just hosting his friends to hang out

-hes super protective over his friends

-in middle school some guys were bullying Marcia and he got them to stop by scaring them off

-he (like bev) however really believes in the “soc values” and he chooses that over his friends which is just. Gahhhh tragic

-mostly drinks from peer pressure, he doesn’t actually enjoy it that much, mostly cuz of the taste

-ballet dancer brill is so real to me you don’t understand

-he tells all his friends he only does it cuz it helps him be more athletic for football which is a fucking lie

-he’s super smart and actually kinda enjoys school

-he especially likes science and history

-he hates playing football, but all his friends play it so he feels like he has to

-Sergei really looks up to him and Brill sees him as a little brother

these are all my thoughts on him for now :)

[cherrydipp]

CHERRY VALANCE HEADCANONS

- cried for days because she thought royale high shut down on roblox

- used to bake with her older brother , Richie, as a kid and would always make him put the cookie sheets into the oven out of fear of getting burnt.

- enjoys barrel racing at rodeos (this isn’t really a headcanon i think this is just something a lot of people forget is mentioned in the book)

- allergic to bees… the first time she got stung her face got really red and she looked like an airhead. it genuinely so bad she was bawling like a baby at the age of 13. now she’s DEATHLY afraid of them ong and all bugs.

- captain of the highschool cheer team! uses it as an excuse to stay away from her house and drunk father as long as possible. “Practice runs until eight tonight Momma, don’t worry though about picking me up — I can walk home,” and she ends up walking around town for a while until she’s tired and need to make her way back home.

- an expressive talker, especially with her tone of voice more than her hands. raising her voice and “hmm”ing to show she’s listening. also with her expressions, furrowing and raising her eyebrows to show how shes feeling, smiling or averting her eyes depending on the conversation topic.

- she owns a cat named Kitty (her parents let Richie and her name her when they were young). super fluffy with rustic fur and dark eyes. she HATES bob and bob hates her right back. the beef started after she bit one of the sleeves of bob’s shirts and her teeth left a hole. the passion is unmatched. cherry always gets mad at him whenever he insults Kitty because thats her BABY!1!!!1!1

“pfft…. stupid fucking cat 😒”

“i HEARD that bob 😡”

“nuh uh”

- the next thing you know Kitty swiped at him.

“CHERRY that THING HIT ME 🤬”

“nuh uh”

- the reason cherry snaps so sparsely/randomly at people is because of pent up anger she bottles in to seem stronger. to make herself believe that she is stronger. fake smiles and a night filled with her parents arguing leave her on her last nerve, causing her to shut down/dissociate in school as to not yell at any of her friends or break down sobbing in the middle of the cafeteria.

- bought bev, herself, and marcia matching friendship bracelets that she never takes off.

- is so stern about bob and the other socs drinking because she’s seen the way it affected her father. doesn’t tell anyone why she’s always yelling at bob for it, just says it’s “unhealthy” out of shame and embarrassment. she’s supposed to be the perfect west-side-soc girl, so why ruin that reputation? the only one who really knows is Marcia and now Ponyboy.

- her biggest shame… she has NEVER rode a bike nor learned

sorry if these are dookie idgaf about my writing when i’m mainly just yapping so…, some are old and some are NEW

[derrydeer]

the losers and their fav horror movies

Bill: saw. it makes him feel better about death being a choice, and he can relate to the feeling of being tested to live. he’s seen all of the sequels with Eddie and Stan, but Richie and the others claim that the first one is all they can watch because it doesn’t have that much gore

Richie: evil dead. he loves a good zombie movie, and one with endless jokes and crude humour? sign him up!

Eddie: scream. he loves the 90’s era of horror movies and something about the plot in scream (and billy’s hotness) doesn’t seem all that scary to him

Stan: final destination. he’s a purist and will only watch the first 2, but absolutely prefers the original. something about seeing all the possible ways the characters could die before they do scratches an itch in his brain

Bev: midsommar. the rest of the losers tease her for being a new age “deep horror” fan, but she really just loves feminine rage and the poetic justice of the movie. also, florence pugh.

Ben: frankenweenie. he’s too chicken to watch a real horror movie, unless it’s midsommar with bev. he hates hearing people screaming

Mike: motel hell. he just thinks it’s silly and not horribly scary. he’s like ben, he can’t deal with people screaming that much. he also loves (spoilers) that the victims get revenge at the end

[t4tozier]

thinking about the intimacy of disabled reddie after derry 2.0

cw: internalized ableism, accidental self harm (via tics)

eddie has really bad imposter syndrome when it comes to his symptoms because he finally came to terms with the fact that his childhood illnesses were fake and so he gets in his head about it a lot

it doesn’t help that he gets phantom pains even though he can’t feel his legs anymore so it freaks him out a lot

but richie’s always there for him to vent or talk about his fears with and he always seems to know exactly what to say to calm eddie down, reminding him that it’s okay to need a wheelchair now and for richie to help him with certain tasks and that it doesn’t make him weak

richie really tries to balance helping eddie with things and not being overbearing so he does worry sometimes but they learn to communicate more openly so that there’s no built up resentment or anxieties on either of their ends

richie gets tic attacks where he hits himself repeatedly and his neck jerks and he tenses up and can’t stop it or unlock himself and he can’t get any words out because he’s just humming every second and eddie doesn’t try to stop him because he knows it won’t do anything but he strokes richie’s hair and distracts him with stories of his last outing with bev or the phone call he had with stan and it helps richie to have something else to focus on

and after it’s over eddie will massage the knots out of richie’s neck and shoulders and rub icyhot into his skin (their house is always stocked) and he lets richie lay on the couch with his head in eddie’s lap so he can rest

when it’s rainy richie’s joint pain tends to be worse so they typically don’t go out much those days, they stay in and order takeout and watch silly movies and eddie will massage his feet even though he hates feet because he knows it helps for when richie stands back up even with his crutches

richie ties eddie’s shoes for him every morning. eddie has an album that’s just richie in different positions tying his shoes. kneeling down, laying on the floor, hanging off the end of their bed—it’s silly and eddie loves it because it makes him feel better about not being able to bend down even in his chair

they take turns making special baths for each other when they’re in more pain than usual, lighting candles and putting epsom salt and essential oils in the water, and then they’ll wash each other’s hair and body so so gently

decorating each other’s aids. cleaning them as a nice surprise when it’s been a little too long since the last time. making sure to always have at least one bottle of tylenol and tube of icyhot in the house at all times. reminding each other to take their meds. like i love them so so much i just think they’d treat each other so well

[birdblorbo]

Loser’s Club as Very Specific Sensory Issues because I have Sensory Issue’s

Also known as me heavily projecting onto my comfort characters. Also brief Stenbrough cause I love them.

Long Post

Bill: Loud noises. For obvious reasons Bill hates storms so the rain and especially thunder tip him off, but anything resembling thunder can also freak him out. For example loud music with a lot of drumming (I was in marching band for years and drumline alone would probably give him a panic attack. I hate drumline). He doesn’t like concerts or movies in theaters because of how strong the sounds are without him being able to control it. Headphones are ok because he can lower it when he chooses, though he prefers to just mute out any sound with ear plugs rather than mute out outside sounds with music unless the drumming in the song is very light and slow. If he can’t do either he likes to lay his head on Stan’s chest or just another loser if Stan’s not around so he can hear their heartbeat. The steadiness helps calm him down while reassuring him they are alive and well. 

Stan: Being touched. There are very few exceptions where Stan is comfortable with touch and he is more comfortable with certain losers touching him over others. He is most comfortable with Bill least comfortable with Richie. (Full scale: Bill, Mike, Ben, Bev, Eddie, Richie) Richie calls it favoritism but its mostly on a scale of movement. Bill is very stable with Stan, making sure to limit his movements. Also he has been helping Stan become more comfortable with casual affection as Bill is very affectionate. Going along with the previous when Bill lays on him it is a comfort for both as Bill can hold onto him while Stan is on the outside able to push him off if needed rather than feeling surrounded. Ben and Mike are just very stable on their own. Beverly is in the middle, she can be still if needed but prefers not to. While Eddie and Richie on the other hand can’t sit still to save their lives and the sudden and relentless movements freak Stan out. When hugging someone his arms have to be the one on the outside, if they are on the inside he feels trapped.

Chewing Noises. He can’t stand any sort of chewing noises and has to stop eating if he can hear himself or someone else chewing. He immediately loses his appetite at the sound no matter if he is in the middle of eating or is about to eat. Saliva in general also grosses him out. For example if a dog drools on him or is excessively drooling in general he loses his appetite as well.

Eddie: Food textures. Eddie is not a picky eater taste wise but the texture could completely make or break it. He hates jello. He refuses to even touch it with his finger. Also he hates excessive oil. If he can feel the oil on his fingers after touching it, then it’s too much. (You know those frosting that leave a film on your tongue? Yeah I hate those and so does he). If he doesn’t like the texture of a food he will completely refuse to eat it.

Richie: Too tight or too loose shoes. He is constantly tying and untying his shoes as they are never perfect. Also it’s a nervous habit. He mostly despises too tight of shoes but fears if they aren’t tight they will fall off when he runs so he is always trying to find the balance between the two. This also applies to button ups. He always leaves them unbuttoned because he fiddles with the top button if it’s fully done up. On the occasion he has to dress nice he hates the top button. When it’s undone it feel too loose and rubs at his skin, but if it’s buttoned it feels like it’s choking him.

Beverly: Fabrics. She hates anything knitted, (Seriously knitted clothing and blankets feel horrible and I will die on this hill. I also can’t stand the feeling of jeans so I’m choosing to ignore her overalls). She exclusively wears faux denim as real denim makes her itch. She both hates and loves dresses. She hates them because of the objectification when she wears them but loves them because there is less fabric touching her and if it does it is very brief so as long as the top is comfortable she doesn’t have to worry about the bottom.

Ben: Tight clothing. He can’t stand the feeling of restriction tight clothes cause, especially on his legs. He hates the way pants tighten on his thighs when he bends his knees thus wears either very loose thin pants or shorts. (There’s this pair of pants I own that never tighten on my thighs no matter how I sit and I love them) He also cannot stand long socks, they squeeze his calfs too much. 

Mike: Smoke. Any bit of smoke makes him cough and along with that sometimes strong smells do too, like a really strong candle. He hates cities because of the amount of cigarette smoke and if he sees someone smoking he holds his breathe until they pass or he passes them. He cannot sit close to the fire and especially cannot sit in the direction the smoke is blowing.

Can you tell I project myself onto Stan highly? 

[vacantgodling]

i draw bev (& solange) @jezifster 🤪

you can’t see it but bev’s wearing a mask. he genuinely hates when people touch him but solange doesn’t really take no for an answer.

she drags him out of the house bc she’s worried about him being a “recluse” and never having fun “and you’re my best friend so let’s hang out! :D”

and bev is very “i am a recluse and being in my CLEAN HOUSE is fun and when did we become best friends who told you that—“

he never really argues tho 🤭

[leviathanlazarus]

Reaching for Stardust - Part XVII

Read Looking for Space here / Playlists / Read RFS on wattpad or read previous parts here

Word Count: ~4000

Warnings: none:)

This chapter took me ages to write! But it ended up being quite a fun one. Hope you enjoy <3

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“I can’t believe the boys actually wanted to go to a club,” I said from the passenger seat of Josh’s Jeep. Although it wasn’t a super long drive to get to the city and to see our kinsmen again, I was glad for the break in the harsh winter weather that made the journey smoother–instead of the ice-slicked and snow-covered roads we’d been struggling to get used to again, the highway was clear and dry, the snow kept to the sidelines. The woods lining the interstate were still coated in a seemingly perpetual layer of white which seemed to sparkle a bit with the rare and warm sunshine, the sky a wall of gentle blue and sparse clouds, the sunlight strong through the windshield. I was actually beginning to feel too warm with the heat from the vents and the sunshine licking my skin, bundled up with anticipation of the worst. You never knew when things might change. But underneath my coat, I was already in my “going out” outfit–a midnight blue sequined top with a deep v neckline that was slightly itchy on the inside but not enough for me to sacrifice it, a black skirt and matching sweater tights to complete it. Sequined black heels too, which made me notably taller than Josh, which he seemed to actually love. 

“It is a little surprising,” Josh agreed, also dressed in his New Year’s Eve celebration outfit–gray, almost silvery, pants and a matching jacket, a white shirt underneath, all topped off with a mixture of silver and gold jewelry. I figured we’d both be sparkling quite a lot throughout the night. “Then again,” he continued, turning down the heat after he saw me close one vent. “I think they’re always riding on the high of a much busier life these days. Going out to a whole myriad of places is more natural for them now.”

“Yeah, that’s true.” I looked out the window again, following the treeline with my eyes, imagining how much fun those three boys must have after their shows. Josh and I heard a lot about those nights, sure, but it would be so different to be a fly on the wall. Or to actually be there.  

“Jane didn’t wanna drive down with us?”

“She’s already there,” I said with a laugh, pulling out my phone to check again for texts from her, though I had a feeling there would be none. “She drove down yesterday.”

“Oh, they had a sleepover?”

“Yes. Imagine that.” Yup–no texts. I clicked my phone shut. “I’m assuming it all went well since she hasn’t texted me at all. Did Jake text you?”

Josh chuckled. “Nope. And why isn’t Bev joining us tonight?”

“She’s got another party to go to.”

Josh gave an exaggerated, offended scoff. “Would this other party be better than spending the night with us at a club called Pearl, drinking overpriced champagne and smoking all of Sam’s weed?”

I laughed. “I think she just doesn’t wanna hang out with Sam, honestly.”

I saw Josh’s lips twist a little. “Ouch.”

“No, no, it’s not like she hates him or anything,” I assured him. “I think she’s still attracted to him but knows he’s not interested anymore. So it’s easier for her to take a step back.”

“You think that or she told you that?”

“She told me. More or less.”

“Well,” Josh said, shifting in the driver’s seat. “That makes me a little sad. Bev is great. Is this going to make their places in the wedding awkward?”

“She assured me that it won’t,” I told him and, for once, I actually really wasn’t worried about it. “She’s hell-bent on finding some hottie at her party tonight and bringing them home.” 

“Oh, is that right? I hope she achieves her goal.”

I reached over to briefly toy with his earring. “What’s our goal tonight, Josh?” 

He giggled and swung his head to the side to evade my intentionally ticklish touch. “Our goal, my darling, is to get absolutely wasted and have the best time ever.”

“Which we will be doing again in like, two and a half weeks.” I shuddered, not from any slight chill in the car but from the anticipation. “At our wedding.” 

“So?”

I smiled, using Josh’s own smile at me to turn the nervous anticipatory energy into unbridled excitement. “So let’s do it.”

-

Pearl lived up to its name which, in my own naivety, I hadn’t expected. Then again, I should have known that Sam especially would only go to a club he passionately approved of, which meant it wasn’t going to be a cesspool or anything even remotely close to “subpar.” Still, I hadn’t been prepared for the slick white light, the shimmering waves illuminating a glossy, excited crowd, hot, scantily clad bartenders and servers passing out colorful cocktails in slim glasses, and certainly not the very not Sam music, which was pulsating and electric. The sound felt like it was vibrating through my bones as the entire lot of us made it past the exceptionally well-dressed bouncer and headed toward the bar.

The place was packed despite it being early. It wasn’t even half past nine, yet a throng was caught up at the bar, some people leaning over the counter in desperation while some stood back, shoulders straight and taut, eyeing the bartenders with impatience and contempt.

“I’ve never been to a club where so many people were actually dressed up,” I noted to no one in particular while I surveyed the people squishing against our group. Even the people who didn’t look fancy were sparkly enough to make up for it. 

“How many clubs have you even been to, girlie?” Sam asked, a cheeky smile on his face while he stayed close to Danny, who was one of the people leaning over the bar. The two of them were dressed up–Sam was in silky, shiny creamy fabrics with a bold pop of red from his jacket, while Danny was in black and indigo. I could even see faint traces of black eyeliner around Danny’s long lashes–oh, how things had changed. 

“This makes two,” I told him, earnestly proud of that fact. 

Danny fell back into line with all of us and said, “It’s gonna be an eternity before we get drinks. Should you guys find us a table or something?”

“Yeah, what exactly are we doing here?” I asked, trying to peer past the crowd ahead of me for spare tables. There were people sitting on the edges of the club, but on free-standing stools, not tables, and with my strained leering I could see a dimly lit hallway that piqued my curiosity. I tugged on the sleeve of Sam’s jacket and asked, “What’s back there?”

“Actual tables,” he told me, giving Danny a shove to get him struggling for the bartender’s attention again. “There’s also a big patio out back.”

“There’s also another bar in there,” Jake said, tilting his head and looking at Sam with his eyebrows raised. “So why don’t we try that?”

“Tag team it,” Sam suggested, lifting his arms to gesture out at the hallway and back behind himself at the bar. “Us here, you back there.” 

“And WE will find all of us a table,” Josh added, linking his arm with mine. 

“My god,” I said, too quiet to be heard over the music while Josh and I navigated through the crowd, Jake and Jane just a few steps ahead of us. I raised the volume of my voice to say, “What do you think about this place?”

“I’m not sure yet,” Josh called back to me, pivoting to avoid being elbowed by a man shoving his way past us to, presumably, get to the bar. “Visually, I don’t dislike it. The music, however, I’m not sure about.” 

I wasn’t either. The fast beats that had been laced with electric pop sounds had been replaced with what sounded almost like strange, electronic remixes of goth metal songs. “It’s like whiplash,” I had to shout back to Josh. 

The dark hallway was lit with strings of fake pearls, all dripping from black wires that almost entirely disappeared into the walls, and then we were in an even larger room where there were indeed tables. I sighed with relief–the space was marginally quieter, though the same songs filtered in my eardrums, and the bar was entirely visible. I watched Jake take Jane’s hand and zig-zag through the other patrons to reach it as I cleared my throat, the air so full of so many different colognes and perfumes, smoke and sweat, everything dry and dank at once. 

With the volume of the music so loud, Josh and I resigned to sitting next to each other in mostly silence, primarily communicating with facial expressions and hand gestures–a sour face from me when a man in a pleather jacket and way too much Axe body spray walked by, which made Josh sniff after the man and laugh hard into my side. The wait for drinks continued, and Josh’s eyebrows lifted and his lips parted in awe while he pointed at two girls headed to the bar, one in a purple sequined mini dress and the other in a longer, flowy, glittery teal dress. 

“Matching!” Josh said, leaning against my shoulder to get right at my ear. “Kind of.”

I nodded, my eyes following the shift of those purple sequins until the girls disappeared into the sea of people, then caught a glimpse of red and black headed our way–Sam and Danny, respectively. 

“My fucking god,” Sam said loudly as soon as he was within six inches of our table. He set down a try of six shots that he’d been carefully cradling the entire way as Danny set down a separate tray holding four different cocktails. 

“It’s nice that they gave you trays,” I noted, tapping the one holding the shots which was all iridescent and cream colored. “So fancy.”

“You didn’t get Jake and Jane drinks?” Josh asked, scanning the tray of cocktails that all looked unfamiliar. “What are these anyway?”

“Different house cocktails,” Danny said, pointing at each one as he explained them. “This red one is called something like ‘Cherry Divine.’ I think it has amaretto in it.” He pointed at a bubbly, almost clear drink with a strawberry garnish in a shorter wine glass. “This one has champagne in it but I can’t remember what else.” 

Sam shoved those two at Josh and I, clearly ready to get on with it, and took the last two for himself and Danny. “Okay, yeah, drinks,” he said with a huff, running one hand through his hair. He picked up a shot for himself and gestured at the tray. “Let’s do shots already.”

“Wait, wait,” Danny said, laughing, and grabbed Sam’s arm. “We have to wait for Jake and Jane.” 

“There they are!” Josh said victoriously, standing up and waving an arm out at the pair headed toward us, another tray of shots in Jake’s hands and another tray of cocktails in Jane’s.

“Long wait,” Jake needlessly explained as he lifted the tray of shots over his head while shoving past a different couple going in the opposite direction. With a deep sigh, he set it down once he was finally at the table and Jane set her tray down in tandem, then they both looked incredulously over the four trays holding the copious amounts of alcohol.

“So are we gonna do all these shots right now?” Jane asked with a laugh, sitting down across from me, the silver and purple glitter in her fine, tulle-like top catching the light. 

Jake sat down next to her and finally Sam and Danny joined in their own chairs, the table bouncing a bit as Sam slid in too hard. “We really should,” he said, already reaching for two of the shots. He and Josh were actually the least sparkly and shiny of us all, with Jake taking a little note from Danny with his all-black ensemble. “I’m feeling fairly desperate for a cigarette now.”

“Me too,” Josh echoed, passing me a shot next. I sniffed the clear liquid, discovered it was tequila, and grimaced. Josh just laughed and said, “You’ll need one too after this, won’t you?”

Twelve shots down the hatch, two for each of us, most of us wincing with each one; we sipped our cocktails as chasers and sat there amongst the excitable crowd, all of us turning our heads one direction, then the next, to take in the atmosphere. 

New Years always felt strange. There was so much expectation, but for what? Josh and I tried–and succeeded, honestly–to make the best of it every time it came around. The harsh, dark, bitter cold winters ended up being no match for a rowdy night full of multiple bottles of champagne, loud music, card and board games and the inevitable midnight kiss which always led to sloppy, fun, giggly drunk sex. This year was the first in a couple years we’d gone out, although last year we had also ended the night with not just the two of us. 

Looking away from the strangers and back to all my friends–my new family–I began to wonder what next year’s celebration would look like. There had been a night recently where I’d been texting Danny, mostly about wedding stuff but also about band stuff, and the latter proved to be more interesting–I’d known how talented all the boys were and I’d seen their success grow more and more over time, but I hadn’t known just quite how serious it was becoming. Danny wouldn’t tell me details–he swore that he couldn't–but apparently big things were happening. Bigger than all the other big things that had happened. And with the sudden onset of a wicked buzz in my head from the shots and somehow downing half my cocktail without even realizing it, my mind lingered on the mystery and the trepidation that came along with it more than I cared for.

“Is anyone feeling daring enough to dance?” Josh asked, scanning each and every one of us with bright, mischievous eyes. 

“Can anyone dance to this?” Danny asked, tilting his head, eyes looking up. “I don’t even know what I’m hearing.”

“I’m gonna need a few more drinks before that happens,” Jane said, and I voiced my agreement.

“Patio?” Jake offered, gesturing to the vague backdrop where the patio must have been waiting, and was probably just as congested as the inside of the club.

“Are we really ready to risk losing our table?” I asked, though I wasn’t quite sure I wanted to stay in any longer once the music changed yet again. The bass was even louder than earlier, aggressive and juxtaposed by swooping, high-pitched vocals. Maybe later on they’d start playing more familiar tunes. I turned to Sam and asked, “You chose this club? May I ask why?”

“Okay, alright, the music absolutely sucks ass,” Sam agreed, lifting his cocktail. “But the drinks are good, it’s busy, it’s kind of cool. Sue me for wanting us all to do something different for the new year.” 

“No one’s gonna sue you, but I do really want to see you dance now,” I told him; Josh smiled and gave an enthusiastic nod while Jake snickered behind his drink. “You know, to make up for it.”

“I would also like to see you get down with these strange, terrible songs,” Danny chimed in, nudging Sam with his elbow. 

Sam roped an aggressively affectionate arm around Danny’s waist and brought their faces close together. “Only if you do it with me. You’re the one with all the moves.”

The patio out back was less crowded but still full of life, although most people had covered up their festive outfits in favor of jackets and coats to shield against the cold. Some brave girls didn’t cover up at all and I wondered how they were standing out there without, at the very least, shivering violently. 

The city street in front, mostly devoid of trees, sent wind hurtling back to us but the vague sort of tree-lined courtyard behind the fence–also covered with string lights of fake pearls and tiny, glittering white stars–shielded us a bit from the other wall of cold air. I wrapped my coat tighter around myself and Josh pressed himself to my side. My hand that was holding my drink was already becoming frigid and a little stiff; I went to put the other in my coat pocket but Josh grabbed it and held it, his hand warmer while he rubbed his thumb over my knuckles for a few seconds, then he let me go to fish for his cigarettes while Jake pulled out his own and Sam whipped out a joint.

No one else around us cared about what we were doing or who we were–while I shared that American Spirit with Josh, I wondered to myself if Jake, Sam and Danny were reveling in their anonymity. Someday, they might not have much of it. But tonight, we were all strangers to the rest of the club-goers, just another posse looking for a good time and to ring in the new year with lights, glitter, alcohol, smoke and that excitement that some people like to say only comes once a year. Meanwhile, I was sure I felt those butterflies, the anticipation, the bundle of buzzing sparks every day with my sweetheart, who stayed close to my side and whose fingers brushed against mine each time we passed the cigarette back and forth. 

We smoked; we drank; we danced. Danny really did have the moves, I was reminded of again–I hadn’t seen any of the boys dance in so long that I couldn’t stop laughing with pure delight when Danny was the first to get out on the dance floor and force himself to jive with the music. I watched Sam watching him, then he swept out to meet his best friend and long, gangly limbs moved alongside Danny’s more built ones; it didn’t take long for Jane to pull Jake along by the hand, giggling enough for him to laugh too, and Josh and I watched them all until the song changed. Then he was doing the same thing–grabbing my hand and yanking me into the crowd, into the circle of our very best companions, while the clocks around the Eastern time zone ticked minute by minute into the night, while everyone forgot all the bad things that had happened in the past twelve months.

Pearl had their own ball to gradually drop in the last minute of the night and, of course, it looked like a huge, shiny, opalescent pearl. It twirled in the air, sparkling in the lights from the extra layer of jewels and sequins coating it, as some people kept dancing, ignoring it, some kept dancing while watching it with their heads tilted up and fixed in the same direction, while some people stopped entirely to focus their full attention on it. It was a mixed bag in our group–Sam and Danny kept dancing as if the ball didn’t exist. Jane and Jake swayed together slowly, side by side, watching the molasses-slow drop, as if the music was something gentle and light. Josh gathered me in his arms and swayed us together too, my back pressed to his front, and I had a hunch we were both imagining the giant fake pearl as the moon outside–the moon that would ascend, not fall, on both, on all, of us in just a few more nights. 

Despite the club being more or less a total mass of strangers, most people all chimed in together for the final ten second countdown of the ball drop. Sam and Danny did too, which prompted the rest of our group to join, all of us so drunk and stoned that every second of camaraderie felt like part of a huge, profound mission. In a way, I think it was–getting through any year was a feat every person should celebrate. 

I felt an excited sort of trembling in my bones, my eyes wide and too clear given the amount I’d drank as I followed the descent of that opalescent orb hanging overhead like it really was the moon. The moon displaced, an artificial but still significant moon that had been created just for us, for all of us who danced, laughed and consumed beneath it. 

When the chanting of counting became a roar of nearly synchronized cheers, before Josh spun me around, I saw Sam grab the sides of Danny’s face and pull him into a shocking, searing kiss. My own laugh in response at what I’d witnessed caught in my throat, a hand flying up to my mouth; I saw a flash of dark hair that I knew was Jake going in to kiss Jane, then Josh was in front of me as my mind went dizzy for a moment. But when he pressed us back flush together, facing each other this time, and his mouth met mine. I blinked into velvet darkness and felt like we were the only two people in the universe for a brief, blissful moment.

-

“So…” I began, slurring the single word, while Josh and I were undressing in Danny’s room. Now even more unsurprisingly, he and Sam had volunteered to share Sam’s room and leave us in Danny’s, and I had saved this juicy gossip until Josh and I were alone. It hadn’t seemed like the best thing to bring up with all six of us crammed into an uber on the way back to the boy’s house, although even in the dark confines of that SUV, Sam and Danny hadn’t hidden touches of their hands and the pressing together of their thighs. 

“So..?” Josh countered with a sly smile at me not having finished my thought. He stumbled as he tried to take his pants off, helplessly hopping around on one foot until he careened over to prop himself up with the edge of Danny’s bed. 

“So,” I began again emphatically, raising my eyebrows at Josh while I unzipped my skirt. “Did you see what Sam and Danny did when the ball dropped?”

“I caught a glimpse,” Josh replied with a chuckle, then a grunt of effort as he struggled to kick his pants all the way off. “Given how things have been going for a while, can’t say I’m surprised. Anyway, who doesn't want to kiss Danny?”

I laughed and nodded. “Totally, right? But yeah, not surprised, just surprised to see it, I think.” Standing in just my bra, tights and underwear, I grabbed my overnight bag to rummage through. The pajamas I’d packed felt luxuriously soft, comforting and inviting against my fingers, the electric energy of our celebration night dwindling into the usual drunken sleepiness.

“Everyone’s pairing off!” Josh said with a dramatic flair of his voice and a dramatic whipping off of his shirt to the floor. “What are we going to do?”

I laughed, tossing him his own pajamas from his bag. “Who do you think will get married next?” 

“I can’t even think about that.” Josh stripped down to nothing at the same time I did. “I almost didn’t remember you and I were getting married until just now.” 

I let out a loud laugh while the soft cotton brushed over my chilled skin. “You’re a little liar. I’ve thought about it a lot tonight, actually,” I told him, looking away from his nude form to find my travel toothbrush. “It was a really enchanting night. I didn’t expect it–not with the music and the club being, like, what it was.”

“It was a great night,” Josh agreed, achieving a little more balance while he got his PJ pants on. “Now it’s a new year–what are we gonna do with it?”

I paused at the bedroom door, toothbrush in hand, head and heart thumping: “We’re gonna get married and we’re gonna have the time of our lives.”

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[imbadatwrighting]

Dude if your writing for Stanley uris could I ask for x trans male one where the reader is absolutely completely in love with him but he hasn't transitioned yet and they don't know whether or not Stan accepts people like him so he ask bev for advice cause she like already knew a stuff. If not that alright but I've had this idea for a while and I can't write sooo....

I don’t think I’m really good at writing trans reader so I apologize if it’s kind of crappy but I tried so 🤷‍♀️also I tried to write this as an one shot but I didn’t like it so I changed it to Head-canons

Pairing: Stanley Uris x Closeted Trans! Male reader

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Honestly the only person that knows you’re trans is Beverly

She knew before you did-

She also knows about you big crush on Stanley

You and her talk about him at your house while she gives you a shoulder massage

You tried to reciprocate that but it didn’t work out that well, so let’s just say it’s never going to happen again

She tried to be your wingman and she’s was honestly good at it…. Sometimes

Other times she’ll go one showing pictures you took of Stan to him

I mean it does help you a lot and always make him blush and like you a little bit more but not so much for you as you just think he’s embarrassed and doesn’t like you talking photos of him

When you finally muster up the courage to ask him out he of course says yes which is amazing in the moment but of course makes you realize that you will now have to definitely tell him your trans which isn’t going to be the most fun in the world

Cue complaining to Beverly now about having to put yourself to Stan instead of the usual ‘Im in love with Stan’ stuff

But even though you were talking to Beverly you still couldn’t tell Stan about it

Until after the whole Pennywise situation

I mean after getting stabbed your self and Stan almost getting his face bitten off from Pennywise, it’s a safe bet that you would want to tell him before he died

Especially after realizing he might not have a lot of year to live

Random thing but Beverly wanted to tell you so bad about not seeing Stan in the future but every time you would talk about him made it worse and worse until she just decided that she couldn’t

Who knows it might not even have been that big of a deal… right?

When you finally got to muster up your courage to tell him my boy Stan was so understanding and happy for you

You and him ever other week will go out to shops and by some more boy viewed clothing

Honestly it’s so sweet

And not at all what you thought would happen-

I mean you expected something more of him not accepting you and finding you as ‘weird’ and ‘abnormal’

Which of course was never something that was going to happen

It doesn’t matter that Stan has different views for the world

When it’s about you he’s the kindest man in the world

Omg if you wanted to get your hair cut-

He would go with you during it and might get like a trim for himself too

He would be so happy for you

But if you didn’t then that’s ok too

He tries so hard not to push your boundaries and make you happy

But the only thing that he pushes is the fact that your closeted

Honestly he doesn’t care about that stuff

You could also tell them that you two are dating and if you guys get hate then you get hate

It’s not going to stop him from loving you

But if anyone was outright mean to you about switching your gender-

It doesn’t matter if you can handle it yourself or don’t care he will be your #1 defender for life

If he had to growl and bark in order for you to not be made fun of for something you can’t control then so be it

He might like it you’ll never know until you try 🤷‍♀️

Overall this boy is literally the sweetest boy out there and he will always be there for you no matter what

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I think I did pretty good for my first time writing something like this but I don’t think I’m going to be doing trans readers often :(