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RON WEASLEY GUYS
The best most canon divergent my brain has been but please guys hear me out i
Okay so we all know the things that Harry, Ron and Hermione had to do to get to the sorcererâs stone in the first book. Devils Snare, the key, the riddle and Wizarding Chess. We know that the Chess set was the work of Professor Mcgonagall, and assuming the protections were meant to work that means that Mcgonagall would have to have been an incredible chess player. Not above average, like GrandMaster level player. Given this when Ron beats McGonagall she is taken aback. Only 3 other people have beaten her, Albus, Severus and Tom Riddle. She takes to playing chess with Ron in the nights following in the common room (Ron doesnât sleep at all until Harry wakes up and is back in the dorm). She has not beaten him. At the end of year feast when Dumbledore awards him points for the âbest chess game Hogwarts have ever seenâ the Slytherins and Ravenclaws are utterly ill. Throughout the rest of his Hogwarts career Ron is challenged by more and more students to play chess, Theo Nott, loses to him and the Slytherin students begin to look at him differently. Half of the Ravenclaws in their year watch in awe as he swiftly beats Parma. It continues like this through his time at Hogwarts, he has never lost. The Slytherin students begin to see his cunning mins, right after he beats Pucey, who is infamous for thinking 20 steps ahead. When Ron beats Marietta Edgecombe the Ravenclaws begin to follow him, they watch nearly all of his matches and take notes, completely ignoring the 5 pave paper due tomorrow. After Ron has beaten all of the students Snape (who has been listening to the whispers in the Slytherin common room) challenges him. The whole school watches with bated breath. It is well known that Snape has only ever lost to two people: Dumbledore and Voldemort. McGonagall promises him 15 Knuts if he wins, she canât contain the shame any longer.
The ensuing chess match takes place over the span of several days, Snape is frequently writing late notes for the students who wish to see it. Other teachers are arriving to their respective classes late. Every time the game is paused Dumbledore casts the anti-tampering ward. This continues for nearly a week, Ron wins. Snape has never respected a Gryffindor more in his life (he is doubly harsh on him in potions, you beat one of the best players in the nation and you mean to tell me your potion is still bubbling??[Ron knows that Snape is seeing him, he just smiles and tweets for a few minutes before a perfect potion is bottled{Snape keeps them in his personal store]}) Eventually Ron is set to play Dumbledore, he is utterly terrified. Soon enough the match is the talk of Wizards across the nation, the Weasley family are all overjoyed for him, win or lose. The game begins and reporters from the Daily Prophet are there, Ron almost cracks, almost In the end after a week and a half Dumbledoreâs eyes twinkle, with renewed vigor as he forfeits. Word gets out to Voldemort- he immediately tries to recruit Ron as a Death Eater. Every time Ron rejects him Voldemort sends an increasingly expensive and rare gift. Eventually Ron says if Voldemort vows to not hurt Harry that he will play him in chess, just once. The winner decides their own boon. The world is watching with baited breath as the best chess player and one of the most calculating minds in a century take the stage.The game lasts fornearly 2 weeks, a peace settles over the UK that has not been since Voldemort rose in that grave. The two declare a tie. No body wins, but Voldemort does realize that the war has become far too brutish.
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LOVED the sit down fics. Please consider: US telling THEM to sit down. What are they going to do? Argue and sleep on the couch? (Love your works!! Always makes my day when I see a new one)
AHHHHHHHHH! ANON OMG! I love this. I giggled and kicked my feet the entire time I was working on these. I had so much fun jumping back into the Imagines Series after Kinktober with this prompt. While I'm still working through the 3.5k Spooky Bingo event, I am returning to my usual content.
For those curious, THIS is the fic that Anon is referring to.
Presented in four double drabbles.
For the masterlist and how to submit your own request, click HERE
Content & Warnings (per the warnings MDNI): established relationship, suggestive themes, flirting, arguments, swearing
Word Count: 800
ao3 // main masterlist // imagines & what if masterlist
John Price
âJohn. We have to talk about this.â
âWe are talking.â
âNo. Weâre arguing. And youâre not listening.â
âOf course Iâm listening, love.â
âThen what did I just say?â you ask, exasperated.
John opens his mouth and then pauses. He loses steam, the gears turning as he realizes heâs wrong. He takes a deep breath and then holds up his hands. âIf Iâm being honest, loveââ
âFuck. Sit down, John.â
Your tone is sharp, and John drops into a chair, completely silent, his gaze locked in on you.
âIf you are not going to listen to me, then Iâm ending this discussion. We can come back to this later. When weâre calm.â
John is always the steady one. Heâs your rock, but for whatever reason, this one discussion has transformed into an argument.
There is silence after, and you have no idea what John thinks of your sudden authoritative demeanor. His face is blank, and then his mouth turns up into an amused smile.
âWhat?â you ask, suddenly flustered.
John relaxes into the chair, spreading his thighs wide in invitation. âYouâre so fucking beautiful when youâre angry, love.â
âDonât distract me, John,â you mutter, the irritation beginning to melt away.
Kyle "Gaz" Garrick
"We're having this out," says Kyle, grabbing your upper arm. He tugs you against him, head tipping forward in an intimate gesture.
"I don't want to argue with you," you reply.
"And I'm not done." His tone is calm but firm. Whenever Kyle sets his mind to something, it can be difficult for him to change course.
"Well, I am." Kyle's hold on your upper arm tightens a bit. It's not painful, but he draws you closer. "Now, sit down."
"Whaâ"
"Sit. Down."
Kyle draws back, startled. His hold loosens and descends to grasp your wrist as he sinks onto the sofa. You rarely assert yourself, but you're frustrated with him.
âI am done fighting about this. Either we find a compromise, or we end this discussion.â Kyle breathes deep, his gaze intense as you continue. âYou can sleep out here if you wonât budge.â
âI sleep beside you,â replies Kyle.
âThen talk to me. Donât push me around.â
Kyleâs hand on your wrist softens, his thumb gently caressing the inside of your palm. It makes you shiver, and Kyle pulls you closer. "I'm sorry," he murmurs, voice soothing.
"Can we talk now? No fighting?"
"No fighting," he agrees.
Simon "Ghost" Riley
Irritation bubbles under your skin, creating a buzzing sensation that puts you on edge. You and Simon rarely fight but the two of you always circle back to the same issue.
âIâm sick of talking in circles. We have to figure this out.â
The corner of Simonâs mouth twitches. âIâve already told you how I feel about it,â he says.
âI understand but we have to find a compromise.â
âIâm not willing to budge on this.â
âSimonâ"
He pushes in, invading your space. âYouâre the one thatâs undecided.â
You hate being bossed around, and you hate it more when Simon flaunts his dominance during a disagreement.
âSit down,â you growl.
Simon blinks, startled. âWhat?â
âSit. Down.â
Simonâs gaze narrows, the middle of his brow creasing. But he sits, settling on the sofa.
âI understand how you feel but I need you to listen to how Iâm feeling. This is a big decision, and I want us to talk through things. Iâm not just going to bend over and take it.â
âBut you like it when I bend you over.â
âSimon Riley!â
Simon smirks âNeed to let out a little steam?â
âYes,â you mutter, flustered. âBut this conversation isnât over.â
John "Soap" MacTavish
Arguments with Johnny almost always end in sex.
Heâll use his tongue, his fingers, and then eventually his dick until youâre blissfully fucked out of your head.
âYou are not distracting me,â you say sharply as Johnny moves in, a sly smile on his face.
His hands settle on your waist, gripping tightly. You know if you donât get a handle on this now, youâll be face down in the bed with ass in the air in moments. Itâs Johnnyâs favorite position.
Placing your hands on Johnnyâs chest, you give him a bit of a shove, creating space. âSit down, Johnny.â
Johnnyâs eyebrows rise suggestively. With a sauntering sway, Johnny sits on the edge of the bed. Heâs shirtless and wearing grey sweatpants. They hang dangerously low on his hips.
You cover your eyes. âWe need to have a conversation that doesnât end in sex.â
âI donât see the issue.â
âOf course you donât,â you mutter.
âI like it when you boss me around.â You can feel his heat just before his arms slide around you.
âOh my God,â you groan, pushing at his chest. âSit down.â
Johnny teasingly nips at your neck. âOnly if you sit in my lap.â
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BabyDaddy! Jason Todd
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who almost never picks up your daughter on time for their weekends together, but always promises to make it up with Daddy-Daughter dates, mostly to the mall or teaparties at home.
"Daddy got busy this weekend, pretty girl... But I promise we can have a tea party with Mr. Dino as soon as I see you, alright?"
That was almost always his excuse when you'd call and put your little girl on the line with him.
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who almost never has child support in on time, even though it's a relatively low amount since you decided to have a bit of mercy on him in court.
"Look, I'll get it to you as soon as I can, doll. Just got a little sidetracked this week with a few jobs."
The same thing he always said when the $80 for the week was due. But you always caved and gave him a few extra days, even if you knew it was because he blew it on new gear for his patrols and missions.
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who won't let your daughter come over to his apartment right after a mission because he has to lay low and doesn't want to put her in danger.
"Daddy went on a last minute trip, baby girl... I promise he'll take you the next time he goes somewhere, okay?"
The same promise you always made when she gave you those doe eyes and got teary over missing Jason after a long mission
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who you have to plan sleepovers with because they almost always happen to end up on one of his weekends.
"As long as she's happy, it's fine. Can I pick her up on Monday? I can ask B for the night off and drop her off at daycare in the morning."
Jason tries his hardest not to show just how hurt he is whenever his daughter and you have to cancel plans on him, but you see right through it every time.
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who you invite over for a couple of drinks on the nights your gorgeous girl is out for a sleepover at a friend's or your family's.
"You didn't have to invite me over, y'know... I'm fine on my own, really. But I appreciate it."
His famous last words before the both of you end up tipsy and handsy with eachother for the rest of the night.
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who you're not really sure just how you ended up underneath after only a few drinks and a friendly chat.
"Look at how that tight pussy pulls me in... Almost like you're begging for another baby. That what you want, gorgeous? Me to fill you with another one of my babies?"
He still watches you take a Plan B the next morning, though. Neither of you can handle another child just yet, especially while just hooking up after months of minimal contact.
BabyDaddy! Jason Todd who falls for you all over again after a few of those nights filled with drinking and the sound of skin on skin.
"Thanks for inviting me over, sweetheart... I'm sorry if I overstayed my welcome."
Of course he didn't. You knew exactly what would happen as soon as your daughter asked to go to a sleepover, and you didn't regret it one bit.
Maybe Jason wasn't so bad, after all.
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Werewolf neighbor that canât hold himself back from breeding you once he smells you ovulating.
Warnings: Oral (fem receiving), Major Breeding Kink, Slight Overstimulation, Knotting
Pairing: Male Werewolf x Female Reader ( Reader could be read as human or monster or hybrid)
You had moved into his apartment complex a few weeks ago, and he had tried to keep his distance.
He had only really seen you on that first day when you were guiding the movers to your apartment, which happened to be on the same floor as his. You had given him a shy smile, and he quickly responded with a tense nod before entering his apartment and slamming the door shut, already feeling his cock hardening.
Unfortunately, he could pick up on your smell whenever you were in the hallway due to his heightened senses. It never failed to send his blood rushing to his cock, but he always managed to keep himself locked away in his apartment, rutting into his own hand.
As he hears your door unlock tonight, he waits for the inevitable moment when your delicious scent will hit his senses. Like every other day, it does, but it is much sweeter this time. His cock is almost instantly hard, and a low growl is involuntarily released from his chest.
All of his instincts are screaming at him to breed your fertile pussy, and he groans at the realization that you smell so sweet because you are ovulating. His legs move faster than his brain, and before he knows it, he is in the hallway and pacing towards the elevator where you are calmly waiting.
He grabs you and pulls you over his shoulder, causing you to gasp. â What are you doing?â you ask. He doesnât answer and carries you back to his apartment and bedroom. He lays you down on his bed, and you stare at him wide-eyed. He watches as your eyes trail over his tall body stopping on his throbbing cock, hidden only slightly by some gray sweatpants.
He smirks as you lick your lips. He quickly strips you of all your clothes, pulling your legs apart to settle his face between them. You let out a low whine as his breath hits your wet center. â Iâm going to get this pussy nice and ready for my cock, and then I am going to spend hours breeding this beautiful body. Got it? Iâm not stopping until Iâm sure you are carrying my pupsâ, he says, his voice rough with lust.
You moan out a simple âpleaseâ, your body on fire with need. He licks a stripe up your slit and moans, giving you a grin before burying his head in your pussy and eating you like a god. Every lick has you clawing at the sheets and moaning in pleasure.
He moves to fucking his tongue inside your already dripping cunt, and you cry out at the feeling. His snout rubs your clit as he shakes his head back and forth, and you scream as you cum on his tongue, back arching off the bed.
He crawls up your body and doesnât wait for your orgasm to end before starting to push his thick cock into your still convulsing cunt. Tears come to your eyes at the stretch and overstimulation, but you just pull him closer, needing to feel him fill you completely.
âFuck. Your pussy feels so good. So fucking tight around my cock. You can take it. Just a little moreâ, he tells you. You look down, already feeling so full, and see that there really is still more. You whine, gripping the sheets and bracing yourself for the last few inches of his impossibly large cock, wanting to take all of him.
His clawed hand wraps around your hip, and he gives one last hard shove, pushing the final few inches inside of you. âSuch a good girl. Taking all my cock. Fucking perfectâ, he says, and your cunt clenches at his praise.
He slowly withdraws his cock, relishing in your soft mewls, before thrusting back in and starting a brutal pace. He nips along your neck and chest as your hands claw at his shoulders and back. He never relents in his thrusts, loving the feeling of your cunt clenching around his cock.
You cry out for him, your own release washing over you multiple times, but his instincts wonât allow him to stop until he has filled your womb with his seed.
He flips you over onto your stomach and enters you from behind, fucking you into the mattress. You moan at the new angle, his tip bullying your g-spot and your clit being repeatedly shoved into his silk sheets.
âI tried to leave you alone, pretty girl. I could fucking smell your sweet cunt each time you left your apartment and every fucking time I had to rut into my own fucking fistâ, he says, each word followed by a harsh thrust.
âI tried, baby. I rea- fuck. I really fucking tried, but when you walked out today, I could smell this perfect fucking pussy ovulating. Your body practically screamed that it needed me to breed it. I just couldnât hold myself backâ, he growls out, and you feel his cock start growing at the base.
His knot starts catching on each thrust, expanding quickly with his fast-approaching orgasm. He switches to grinding, his knot no longer allowing him to thrust in and out of you. His cock rubs against your g-spot relentlessly as his hips grind your lower half into the bed harshly, your clit being dragged against the silk sheets over and over.
You scream in ecstasy as you cum once again, cunt clenching around his knot as you milk his cock for his seed. He growls loudly, claws digging into the mattress as his cum begins to fill your pulsing cunt, his knot keeping all of his cum locked inside of you. His short thrusts donât stop as rope after rope of cum continues to fill you, the pressure and fullness making you whine.
After a few minutes, he finally stops and rolls you to your sides, keeping you pressed firmly to his chest and firmly locked on his knot. He releases a small chuckle when you give a small yawn and snuggle further into his chest. âGo ahead and rest, baby. You have a long night ahead of you once my knot goes down.â
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Can I request headcanons for Zayne, and Sylus react gn s/o who always makes it a habit to tell him that they love him whenever they can like when they wake up, before going to sleep, before they leave, and when they return?
Hearing you say such sweet and simple words like I love you at any and every given moment will never not warm his heart, ever.
Sylus could hear you speak the words softly against his chest, right where his heart is when you wake up, almost as though you were whispering secrets to it in such a loving and caring way that it only made it race within his chest and swell with warm emotions within moments of you saying such tender and powerful words.
âI love you Sylus, stay safe and donât do anything stupid.â Youâd tell him as you kissed his forehead, pulling away only to rest your own head against his to stare into his crimson eyes, crimson eyes that stared back at you heavily with love and utter adoration as he chuckles. âI wouldnât dream of it my love, for whom shall warm you in bed when I depart?â Heâd ask jokingly.
âMephisto.â Youâd reply jokingly as the crow could be heard squawking confusingly from his corner of the room, head tilted to one side.
You brought or perhaps revived a warmth Sylus thought was long buried within his chest.
You brought it forth so easily that he couldnât help but find himself wanting nothing more then to rush his business meetings just so he could hear you run towards him, burry your head into his chest as you embraced him while telling him how much you loved and missed him; almost as though the confession weighed heavily upon your tongue like it was something you had to admit to before you couldnât anymore.
He loved how much softer and sweeter the moments before you both drift off to sleep, the last thing he hears is you saying you love him in a sleepy mumble, face buried deep into his chest as sleep encased you both whole. It was a moment he repeats when youâre far away on a mission, knowing damn well he wouldnât be able to sleep without hearing your voice, not after having gotten use to it after your short stay in his home.
Sylus has become accustomed to you being in his home, with him and blessing it with your warmth and personality. So to have to endure a week without you was enough for Sylus to reach for the phone and call you just to hear you tell him you love him, to know that even if there was distance between the two of you that the love between you was still as strong as it was when your both together. Sylus had grown accustomed to you sharing your thoughts and inner most emotions with him, with you always kissing him on the lips or wherever you could reach and whispering;
âI love youâ afterwards before going about your day as though you didnât leave him wanting to keep you locked in his arms in your shared bed, to drink you and your early morning look as you both partake in sharing your warmth, lost in one another as everything else fell away for it didnât matter as all that truly mattered was love of your life that you held in your arms.
I love you was a strong word but your version of I love you was to say that you loved him after every moment, and in the end he found himself whispering âI love youâ against your forehead as he kissed it softly, holding you closer to his chest protectively before you fell into peaceful slumber together with a content smile upon his face.
Stylus was complete for his other half was welhere they belonged; in his arms.
Zayne would feel as though he was back to how he felt when you first admitted your feelings for him each time you reminded him of your love for him.
His smile upon his lips was soft and gentle, his eyes were equally so as he felt light on his feet and his heart sang your name so dreamily even long after you leave his sight.
They were words that one shouldnât say lightly but when you say âI love you Zayne, Iâll see you when you get back from work to watch that new movie together.â Zayne truly believed he could hear the angels sing as he finds himself walking into work with the goal of going back home to you.
Something of which he had once thought was never going to happen even in a million lifetimes, but he had found himself blessed to even be sharing a bed with you in this lifetime.
âI love you Zayne.â Youâd whisper softly against his lips after pecking them multiple times, wanting nothing more than to wake your beautiful doctor with some much needed affection, all the while watching the fluttering of his eyelashes as he opens those gorgeous eyes of his to look at you sweetly.
âI love you too my dearest.â He relies in his morning voice, rubbing his hand softly up and down your back as he brought you into kiss your temple.
Those three words only made Zayne feel as though the progression of your relationship thus far was more than worth the longing and the pinning he has to endure in silence. Even though you did tell him there were moments where you knew he felt something towards you that went beyond platonic and into something far more romantic and genuine.
âI love you Zayneâ were words that lived within his head constantly, even if he didnât show it sometimes he couldnât help but find himself wanting you to say it more and more.
Was it selfish? Yes but Zayne couldnât help it, he wanted to hear you say it for as long as he possible could, for he knew he could never get bored of hearing you say it as it was something he had been waiting for all this time.
It was like two long lost souls finally finding each other again after so, so long. It brought a weight off of his shoulders and Zayne was more than anticipating where your future would lead you, especially if admiring to your love for one another was going to become easy as breathing.
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đđđđđđđđđ đđ đđđđđđđ... | sae itoshi, shidou ryusei, kaiser micheal
part two with reo, rin and bachira soon!!
plot: you're in a nonpublic relationship, but one gesture in particular blows your cover <3
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â sae itoshi
That you had always been attracted to impossible things was not unknown: as a child you loved unicorns, one of the most imaginative and magical creatures ever. You believed you could love even something impossible, and the same thing had more or less happened when you met your boyfriend, Sae Itoshi. Sae was something impossible, out of your reach for the simple fact that you were a very normal person when he was one of the most famous U-20 soccer players in the world and, above all, of the moment
Sae was impossible, and you had always liked the impossible. That's how you liked to tell your mother when she asked how you ended up in a relationship with him. Known for a big misunderstanding in a public laundry, for a reason still unknown to you, fate had decided that this was not the last time you would see each other
The choice had come when Sae had explicitly asked you for it: not that he was ashamed of you or anything like that, but fame brings negative things as well as positive ones. One of them was privacy. Although after years he was used to invasions of privacy even during a walk, he didn't want to ruin what had always been normality for you. So no one, other than your families and a few friends of yours, knew about you two
And so, a little over a year after you had made it official only to your families that you were together as a couple, the thing that was impossible for you was how your cover was still standing. You didn't mind being in a nonpublic relationship, in fact you found it more pleasant and intimate, but Sae was famous all over the world: you knew that sooner or later everything would collapse like a house of playing cards
And evidently that day was today
"So, who is she?" his teammate asks again, the Spanish accent thick in every word. Your fingers tighten around the handles of his sports bag, desperately searching for a way that doesn't confirm what practically everyone in the room has already assumed. 10 pairs of eyes stare at you curiously, waiting for either you or Sae to speak and make up an excuse that they can deny
The last match that ReAl had won against an equally Spanish team had ended less than an hour ago. It was Valentine's Day, and the stadium where the match was played had made VIP seats available to which only the players partners could access. The partners had a card previously given by the boyfriends which gave the possibility of walking in certain areas of the stadium, one of which was the locker room. You had remained in the popular stands for the entire match, and after the end you had decided to use your VIP pass, which Sae had given you a few days before, to go and congratulate and surprise him. You had purposely waited a full hour to get in just so all the other teammates would leave, but apparently something had been holding them back
The players didn't know you, it was a secret relationship after all. The partners who usually came to see their boyfriends knew each other, and Sae was still the only one no one had ever seen with a girl. Everything fit with the perfect fall of the cover that you had so carefully supported
"umh" you stutter embarrassed. The most damning proof you have is undoubtedly the Sae sports bag you have in your hands, which stands out for its black color instead of the white and red that ReAl uses. You take a few steps back, not knowing at all how to escape the situation, much less where Sae is, who you don't even see in the locker room. His stuff is here, his teammates are here, but where is he dammit?
"We've never eaten anyone, or at least off the field" says a boy who gets up, making the rest of his teammates laugh. You recognize him for being a braggart that Sae tells you about every now and then, who has 100 girls and every game brings a new one. You roll your eyes at the tasteless joke, trying not to let your annoyance show
"I probably went to the wrong locker room, please excuse me..." you say turning on your heel, heading towards the exit, but the boy's hand grabs your wrist just enough to make you immobilize "It's not a problem, you don't have to apologize. But I don't think you're here by mistake..." the boy says laughing cheerfully, and really, you don't understand all his humor. You try to free yourself from the grip on the wrist, but the soccer player doesn't seem to give in as he makes some of his teammates laugh with sleazy jokes
âCould you let go of my wrist?â you say trying to sound polite, but he shakes his head "We need to figure out who your boyfriend is first! Victor, is she your girlfriend?" the boy asks, making you turn towards another guy, who obviously shakes his head "Sanchez, is this yours?" he asks another again, and you can't explain why you have to suffer such humiliating treatment if you haven't actually done anything wrong
"Arion, is it your-" the boy says, but someone interrupts him "She's my girlfriend."
Everyone turns towards the voice, including you: Sae, fresh out of the shower wearing sweatpants and a simple towel around his neck, peeks out from the locker room showers. His eyes waver a little at seeing you here, surprised at the whole situation and above all not understanding how you ended up here. He tilts his head, his usual apathetic look at the boy next to you "You should let go her wrist" he says taking a few steps forward, the usual nonchalance typical of his character. "Oh! Oh, yes" says the boy, immediately pulling away, taking a few steps back. The grip on your wrist releases, easing the pressure you had built up. You breathe a sigh of relief, but at the same time remember what situation you are in: the relationship that you had covered for so long has just come to light
You look up at Sae, who you think is the least bit angry, but there isn't a shred of anger in his face, in fact, he almost seems relieved. He comes in front of you, taking his sports bag that you had in your hands "Thanks. Two minutes and we can go" he says putting it back on the floor, putting a clean t-shirt on and putting the towel back on in his black bag. You look at him embarrassed, not daring to look at any of his teammates who have remained silent in the meantime
Sae stands up, holding his bag with one hand and grabbing yours with the other, letting your palms and fingers connect "Let's go" he says, nodding his head. You leave the locker room, everyone's gaze still on you. Start walking towards the back of the stadium, heading towards the car parks dedicated to the players cars. A slight, uncomfortable silence hangs between you two, and you wonder if he's simply thinking of a way to restore everything to how it was and make your relationship nonpublic again
"It wasn't that bad anyway. You can ask your teammates to just shut up" you say, looking down, but a light squeeze on your hand makes you look up in his direction âHuh?â he asks, and you try to sound clearer "For the relationship. You can tell your classmates not to talk-" you say, but he cuts you off even before you finish "Do you want to make it nonpublic again?" he asks, and you find yourself thinking about it
Being nonpublic had never been a problem for you, you appreciated that Sae cared so much about your privacy. On the other hand, your privacy never really mattered much to you: you wanted to walk with him and hold his hand even in front of a crowd, not pretend not to know him as often happened. If being with him meant sacrificing something, you would have done so immediately and without even thinking about
âI'm actually okay with being public-â you say and at the same moment you see him sigh more calmly âWhat is it?â you ask curiously "I've been waiting a long time to ask you this. But I didn't want to seem hypocritical since I asked you to make it nonpublic" Sae says, and almost immediately you smile at his words
The impossible was something that actually often actually happened. It had happened that you got dating to the prodigy of Japan, and it was happening now when you were officially made his girlfriend for all his fans and the world
â shidou ryusei
âYou went too far as usualâ you say, rolling your eyes, albeit amused. Shidou chuckles, buttoning up the buttons that hide your chest âYou should be used to itâ he says looking up after finishing his work. You laugh softly, still amazed at how you let yourself be dragged into such a situation. But then you think about it and you understand that avoiding these situations with your boyfriend is far too difficult. Shidou cups your face in his hands, tilting your head slightly to look at his beautiful work: two red and purple marks stand out from many other small ones. He observes them with a certain pride, stroking the bite mark he left on you with his thumb
âI don't think this was the break the director intendedâ you say, walking towards the door, reluctantly releasing the grip Shidou had. You hear him murmuring something, but you don't pay attention to it as you brush your hair to the side, leaving the hickeys on your neck visible: you have to walk in an empty corridor and you're hot, so you're not at risk. You place your hand on the doorknob, headed to exit and return to the car, but you are petrified when the entire corridor turns out to be filled with journalists
You stand there, motionless, and Shidou appears behind you, also intending to leave. He stands still, but less shocked, a few steps behind you. Everyone turns in your direction, and an awkward silence hangs in the narrow space delimited by the walls. Many, if not all, notice the red marks on your neck and there are more than a few surprised expressions. Some cameras turn towards you, some journalists take their microphones in case the situation requires them
And you immediately regret having, for the umpteenth time, indulged Shidou's shitty ideas. You knew you had to wait for him in the car so that he could go home with you at the end of the interview, but his messages had convinced you that there was no harm in sneaking out for a few minutes. While you were waiting he had sent you messages telling you that his interview was late and that the director had advised him to go to a private room to relax before his shift. He had asked you to come in to keep him company, that you could sneak in for a few minutes since the corridors were empty, and that he simply needed you. And so you found yourself against the wall with your boyfriend's lips on your neck, killing time until his interview
But evidently something had gone wrong with the program in mind, because now you had more than 100 journalists waiting their turn and now they had a front page story. You and him had been together for a while, and the agreement between you was to keep your relationship nonpublic for a while because the media often went heavy on their idols partners
But the cover seemed to have been blown
"Shidou, Shidou Ryusei? With a mysterious girl?" says a journalist, directing the microphone at you "The king of the penalty area with a woman?" someone else says, and from then on you just hear everyone else making up name after name as they try to get some information out of you two
"Holy shit" you whisper to yourself, covering your hickeys with your hair, even though everyone has noticed them by now. You die of embarrassment at all these eyes staring at you, and the best option at the moment seems to be going back into the room and hoping that this is all just a trick your mind is playing on you. You knew that sooner or later you would make it official, but you didn't think this way and especially with you in these conditions. It all looked perfectly like the most colossal figure of shit the human lifeform had ever seen in this shitty life
You look for Shidou, but when you turn you can't find him anymore. You wonder if he seriously followed the advice to go back to the room and hope it's all a dream, but you know that's not your man's style: instead you feel your shoulders surrounded by his arm, which promptly squeezes you to the point of keeping you by your side alongside. You turn towards him, and on his face you notice that his usual smirk that never leads to anything good. Something's about to explode
"Ladies, gentlemen! One at a time, please" he says loudly, and the attention they previously had on you shifts to him, who has always dominated the scene better in a frighteningly natural way "This racket for WHAT? Two red marks? You've never seen worse, then" he says, and as you thought his joke provokes a small laugh from everyone
The journalists try to get the best place in front of you, and perplexed you turn to Shidou "Don't do anything I might regret" you say almost in a whisper, but he grins "Let me do it, babe. I tied them to my finger like fish to a fishing line" he says confidently, and it's his confidence that worries you. Some journalist raises the microphone, firing off questions that you don't even understand because of the speed. Shidou still doesn't understand them, and after several attempts he gives up; he waves his hand, moving the microphones away
"I thought I would talk today about my relationship with the beautiful girl in question here, but evidently the scoop will go to you and not to the agency we are in" he says dramatically, as if he actually regretted giving information to others. "What did you want to do?" you whisper perplexed, not knowing that his goal today was to make it official anyway. Shidou turns to you, grabs your waist and bends your back, his chest smeared against his âMedia, meet my fucking beloved girlfriend!â he says, kissing you. Confused, you don't know how to react, but shortly after you give in and respond to the kiss, placing your hand against his face. The journalists explode, the cameras start filming and broadcasting. It's an understatement that you have shocked the media for at least the next few days, but with Shidou in the end everything is unpredictable and without explosions
It wasn't the way you expected to make it official, but as long as it works it's fine, right?
â micheal kaiser
The subtle smell of french fries hung in the air, mixing with the light air that resonated in the club. Everyone's chatting made the evening pleasant, which actually seemed to go too well
Hamburg was huge as a city, Ness himself recognized it, yet he had lived there for a good part of his life before moving to Berlin on the campus of Bastard Munchen. You had been here a few other times, and you had fallen in love with the small and cute clubs that the city offered
When you returned to the hotel room with Kaiser you had begged him to go out tonight, since you had arrived you had spent all your time at training or at the match, which had ended with the victory of the German team. And Kaiser has little chance of telling you no, it's something he just can't do: so, a few hours later, you and other team members found yourself in a club celebrating the victory. Sitting next to him you were calm, after all he was your boyfriend and his team knew about you two, unlike the rest of the world. However, being in a public place the only affectionate gesture you could allow yourself was his hand on your thigh, covered by the table and which no stranger could see
Everything was going well: Bastard Munchen had won today, tomorrow morning you would return home and take a few days break from being the team manager. Everything was perfect
But obviously perfection, even if sweated with difficulty and attention, does not last long
You were chatting with a team member when, from afar, you noticed a group of guys watching you. It was nothing new, the players were famous and you were also quite well known thanks to your role in the team. Kaiser notices the same thing, tilting his face towards the small crowd "You're wanted" you say jokingly, and he snorts in a mock annoyed way: you know how much he actually loves this attention from fans, which feeds his big ego. The guys step forward, followed by others and yet others, until the table is surrounded by all the guys shyly asking for an autograph or a photo
The group, made up of a girl and two boys, approaches Kaiser asking to take a photo. He accepts, reluctantly lifting the contact of his hand on your thigh, and you can read his slight annoyance in his cerulean eyes. You giggle a little at seeing him annoyed, but you don't let it show
Then, the dinner that was supposed to be quiet and a way to spend time with your boyfriend turns out to be yet another time when public life comes before private life; it doesn't make you sad though, because seeing Kaiser happy while talking to his fans makes you happy too
You stay to eat your chips and chat with Ness, who unlike Kaiser only had to sign a few quick autographs, and every now and then you glance at Kaiser who stayed behind to talk to the group of people. You notice how completely comfortable he seems, so you don't worry
But then something reaches your ear
"We are moving to another club to spend the rest of the night, would you join us?" a boy says, and the rest of the group nods. Kaiser is used to these somewhat sudden questions, fans often cross the line almost without wanting to "I can't guys. The team is celebrating together tonight" he says playing with a lock of his blue hair, and you try to be indiscreet in listening to the conversation
"What a shame..." says a boy, and Kaiser chuckles "I know guys. Maybe next time" he says, and he seems about to go back to the table, when the girl stops him by taking a few steps forward "Or maybe there's is it a girl you're waiting for?" the woman asks, and you immediately turn towards their direction, trying not to cough up what's in your mouth for the surprise
You see Kaiser a little perplexed, you notice it from the way he tilts his head trying to come up with an excuse that seems convincing "Maybe. But I shouldn't tell you, guys" he says, and this time you're the one who's perplexed
You see him turn towards you, just enough to give you a brief wink that you notice all too well. You pretend like you didn't see him, turning away, but you really don't understand where he's going with his speech. You've been together for quite a while and it's always been confidential for a matter of convenience, being nonpublic you had many pros but at the same time many cons. And at the time you had never talked about making it public, as much as you actually wanted to be like this
"Really? Are you in a relationship?" the boy asks, and Kaiser smiles satisfied "I don't know. Do you think I have it?" he asks, and everyone immediately nods "There are rumors that you are dating the German model who is always on the front page of Vogue" says one, but the other corrects him "What are you saying! He could be dating the girl he was spotted with last week passed in front of the city's cathedral" says the other, and you see in Kaiser's gaze an amusement you've never seen before. You nervously bite your nail, not knowing what he's doing and above all why he didn't complete the conversion a few minutes ago. What the fuck is going on?
"You're both wrong! The rumors all agree that he's dating the manager of Bastard Munchen, have you seen how they look at each other? Or how she's always the first one he greets when the players take the field?" says the girl very convinced, placing her hands on her waist
It is at that moment when all your beliefs fall away. You thought you hadn't made the situation so obvious, but evidently you failed
You turn towards them again, trying to hide the blush that you now know has taken up residence on your cheeks. Kaiser claps his hands happily "Right! I'm waiting for her" he says, and everyone in the group's jaw drops "Are you serious? Are you seriously with the manager?" the boy asks, and he nods. You notice too late how the girl, peeking out from Kaiser's figure, has noticed you: you hide your face by looking down, but it's too late now
"But she's here!" the girl says, and Kaiser rolls his eyes as if he hadn't noticed you âI know. My girlfriend, yu-hu Y/n!â he says, raising his hand to greet you as if he hadn't just dropped a bombshell on a mere group of fans. You raise your face trying to look as calm as possible, as if everything is actually normal and your heart isn't going 100 times faster than normal. Kaiser comes closer, sitting next to you again and putting his arm around your shoulders, while the group looks at you surprised but happy "I don't like to keep my girlfriend waiting, guys. Have a good evening though!" he says, cuddling while you are literally trying not to start screaming
The guys nod, both saying goodbye and thanking Kaiser for his time. When they leave, you turn to him with the reddest face ever "What did you just do?!" you ask in surprise, but with his free hand he caresses your arm, making slow and gentle movements "Doing what I should have done a long time ago. Isn't it better this way, Schatz?" he asks. You suppress the urge to insult him, because the truth is, you too would have liked to make it official a long time ago
âDo you know that now you will have to confirm this to the whole world and not just to one group?â you ask with a sigh, relaxing the nerves that have been on edge for minutes. He smirks, nodding as he grabs his phone âI've had a post ready on Instagram for a while. It's been in the drafts for a long time, how about I post it now?â he asks, and you curse yourself for never being able to be mad at him
You both had each other's fingers tied, it was too obvious by now. Maybe it really was time to share your love with the world and not just with the team, as it has been until now
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I read your post about open enrollment for the ACA and was hoping you might expand on why you believe it would take years to dismantle. I've been terrified that with a Republican house/senate, Trump could just snap his fingers and make it go away within months of taking office. I'd love some reassurance that that's not possible.
Hiya, sure I can share some thoughts on the matter! First, it's very important to understand the ACA is a huuuuuuuuuuuuge system with subject matter experts in dozens of places throughout the process. I'm one of those SMEs, but I am at the end of the process where the revenue is generated, so my insight is limited on the public facing pieces.
What this means is that I am professionally embedded in the ACA in a position that exists purely to show what conditions people are treated for and then generate that data into what's called a "risk score". There's about 6 pages I could write on it, but the takeaway is that the ACA is
1) intricately interwoven with the federal government
2) increasingly profitable, sustainable, and growing (it is STILL a for-profit system if you can believe it)
3) wholeheartedly invested in by the largest insurance companies in the country LARGELY due to the fact that they finally learned the rules of how to make the ACA a thriving center of business
4) since the big issuers are arm+leg invested in the ACA, there is a lot of resistance politically and on an industry level to leave it behind (think of the lobbyists, politicians, corporations that will fight tooth and nail to protect their profit + investment)
The process to calculate a risk score takes roughly 2 years. There is an audit for the concurrent year and then a vigorous retro audit for the prev year - - this is a rolling cycle every year. Medicare has a similar process. These are RVP + RADV audits if you would like the jargon.
Eliminating the ACA abruptly is as internally laughable as us finishing the RADV audit ahead of schedule. If Trump were to blow the ACA into smithereens on day 1, he would be drowning in issuer complaints and an economic health sector that is essentially bleeding out. You cut off the RVP early? We have half of next RADV stuck in the gears now. You cut off the RADV early? No issuer will get their "risk adjusted" payments for services rendered in the prev benefit year (to an extent, again very complex multi-process system).
The ACA is GREAT for the public and should be defended on that basis alone. However, the inner capitalistic nature of the ACA is a powerful armor that has conservatives + liberals defending it on a basis of capital + market growth. It's not sexy, but it makes too much money consistently for the system to be easily dismantled.
Or at least that's what I can tell you from the money center of the ACA. they don't bring us up in political conversation because we are confusing to seasoned professionals, boring to industry outsiders, and consistently we are anathema to the anti-ACA talking points.
I am already preparing for next year's RVP for this window of open enrollment. That RVP process will feed into the RADV in 2026. In 2025, we begin the RADV for 2024. If nothing else, the slow fucking gears of CMS will keep the ACA alive until we finish our work at the end of the process. I highly doubt that will be the only reason the ACA is safeguarded, but it is a powerful type of support to pair with people protecting the ACA for other reasons.
I work every day to show, defend, and educate on how many diagnoses are managed thru my company's ACA plans. My specialty is cancer and I see a lot of it. The revenue drive comes from the Medical Loss Ratio (MLR) rule stating only 20% MAX of profit may go to the issuer + the 80% at a minimum must go back to the customer or be invested in expanding benefits. The more people on the plan using it, the higher that 20% becomes for the issuer and the more impactful that 80% becomes for the next year of benefit growth. It is remarkably profitable once issuers stop seeking out "healthy populations". The ACA is a functional method for issuers to tap into a stable customer base (sick/chronic ill customers) that turns a profit, grows, and builds strong consumer bases in each state.
The industry can never walk away from this overnight - - this is the preferred investment for many big players. Changing the direction of those businesses will be a monumental effort that takes years (at least 2 with the audits). In the meantime, you still have benefits, you still have care, and you still have reason to sign up. Let us deal with the bureaucracy bullshit, go get your care and know you have benefits thru 2025 and we will be working to keep it that way for 2026 and forward. This is a wing of the federal government, it is not a jenga tower like Trump wishes.
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a/n: the elections distracted me! This should have been up ages ago đ Anyhow, look at our boy pout up there. Darling never stood a chance.
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Darling gets closer to making her choice.
The holiday is already shaping up to be your most memorable one yet, and itâs only halfway done.Â
Between all the commotion in the press about Ewanâs film, the lively spin-the-bottle game last night, and your⌠boys being more brazen in their affections, it doesnât matter that youâre still half-limping and that one gorgeous blonde girl is testing the limits of your patienceâMallorca is one for the books.
Half of your vacation crew decided to head out into town for the afternoon, allowing you to see more of the local scene. Bethany, Phia, Luke, and Elliott have ventured off to see some shops moments prior, promising to rejoin the group with loads of goodies. So you walk the cobblestone streets with Tom and Freddie on either side, the lads promising to catch you should your ankle âbetray you and make you faceplant on the streetâ.Â
Because, as Freddie put it, they âcanât have the showâs rising star with a blow to her money-maker,â pertaining to your lovely face.Â
You were able to finally remove your fracture boot that morning, after a long-distance call to your doctor, but you still have to slightly drag your left leg as you walk.
âMate, if you could hurry up a little, maybe we can see more of the town,â Tom remarks with a cheeky smirk. Heâs had an arm looped around yours the whole time, ever on the lookout.Â
âSure, let me just use my incredible powers of self-healing. Maybe we can check one of these souvenir shops if theyâve got a bionic leg on sale,â you deadpan, fighting hard to stifle a laugh.Â
The fledgling weeks of spring bring a steady warmth to Mallorca. The sunlight is bright yet tempered as it casts its glow over the cobblestone streets, illuminating the quaint storefronts and cafes that line that town square. Itâs a picture-perfect afternoon, so long as you donât turn back to Ewan and Louise who are trailing a bit behind.Â
But your curiosity wins over, and you see Ewan smiling politely as Louise gestures animatedly, completely absorbed in her tale. You immediately realise your mistake, a pang of somethingâguilt, longing, confusion⌠and jealousy, because who are you foolingâtightening in your chest. You quickly turn back to Tom and Freddie, who are too busy scheming to notice your reaction.
âSo, do we let Ewan suffer, or do we intervene?â Tom asks, tilting his head toward the pair.
You can only shrug. âI think heâs handling it. Itâs probably better to give them some space.â The truth is, you know Ewan well enough to sense when heâs at his witâs end, and even though he looks like heâs about to throw in the towel, you donât want to complicate things further.Â
Who are you to deny Louise some quality time with your good buddy Ewan Mitchell? He is a stand-up guy, after all, and all of you are friends here. Itâs a casual day out, nothing but a good time.Â
And⌠you do need some time to let his confession sink in. He has given the power to you, and the only thing left to do would be to choose him.
You love him, you love him, you love him.Â
So the choice should be easy, but why isnât it?
Freddie smirks. âSpace, you say? You mean youâre hoping heâll finally snap and make a break for it?â
âMaybe,â you admit with a small smile. âCan you blame him?â
The three of you linger by a cafe, chatting to your heartâs delight. You catch sight of Ewan glancing your way, a genuine smile tugging at his lips. Hey, he mouths, staring you down until Louise nudges him, and he has to shift his focus back to her.Â
âHonestly, though,â Tom continues, âwhatâs the deal with him and Louise? He looks like heâs drowning over there.â
âMaybe sheâs finally wearing him down,â you say, half-joking, but youâre aware of how often Ewan gives too much of himself sometimes, especially to someone like Louise. The boyâs just too sweet and polite to say no.Â
âI give him five minutes before he either leaves or starts shouting for you,â Freddie chimes in, his eyes dancing behind his sunglasses. âItâs a safe bet.â
Before you can respond, Ewanâs voice rises above the clamour of the street. âActually, thatâs not what I meantââ
âI canât believe you thought that!â Louise interrupts, playfully punching Ewanâs arm, her tone a mix of disbelief and enthusiasm. âBut thatâs what makes you so unique! You always see things differently.â
Whatâs unique is the expression Ewan sports as a reaction, akin to a deer about to be hit by a Jeep.
âUnique?â Ewan repeats, a note of incredulity in his voice. He shakes his head, his mouth falling open, like heâs trying to find the words. Louise leans in closer, mentioning something about how cute he looks when confused.Â
Well, sheâs not wrong there. You have to hand it to herâsheâs persistent.
âWhy are we just standing around?â Tom suddenly says. âLetâs get some drinks. We need to fuel up for the gossip you owe us.â
âIâm in,â you say a bit too quickly, desperate for a distraction. You motion toward a quaint nearby bar with a bustling atmosphere. It seems like the perfect refuge, far from the intensity of the current situation. The bartender greets you with a grin, and Tom takes charge, ordering a round of brightly-coloured cocktails that seem to match the vibe of the holiday.Â
Tom gives you a sly look over his glass. âSo here we are, eh?â
âHere we are,â you nod, sensing something coming round the corner.Â
âMy god, this cocktail is amazing!â Freddie gasps dramatically, oblivious to the look you and Tom are sharing. âI must know whatâs in this⌠Is that gin and⌠and what?â
âI myself would rather know,â Tom begins, leaning forward, âabout the truth behind all the drama. The are-they-or-arenât-they of it all. My missus has also been bugging me about it. All she talks about is you and your Ewan.âÂ
Freddieâs grin is huge as he raises his glass. âBloody hell, cheers to that then! I know thereâs something brewing, but no one ever tells me the details. What is this, a fight to the death? May the best Targaryen win? Lucky girl you are.â
Tom snorts. âOr may the right man win. Which, to be honest, is not Matt in this scenario.â
Freddieâs jaw drops in mock horror, clutching his chest. You may take the lad out of classical theatre for a while, but you canât take classical theatre out of the lad. âExcuse me? Matt is a national treasure, heâs mature and reliable, and he throws a fabulous party. Might I mention how highly he speaks of you?â
Tom shoots him a scornful look. âReliable. How riveting. Look, I love the guy, but Ewanâs practically half of her soulââ
You groan. âCan we not turn this into a debate? Iâm actually trying to keep things simple now.â
âSimple,â Tom repeats, one blonde eyebrow arching. âDarling, nothing about this is simple, especially not since Ewan isnât bound to that ridiculous PR setup anymore. Are you going to pretend that it doesn't change things?â
Freddie waves a finger. âIt doesnât have to change things. Mattâs good for her. I mean, theyâre actually happy, and you need someone solid, love. Someone who isnât going to fling you around emotionally, from the very little that Iâve heard.â
Tom rolls his eyes. âOf course, youâd think that. You get all your goss from Liv and she basically adores Matt.â
Freddie clutches his glass defensively. âWell I know for a fact that Matt is fun! And steady! You donât need fireworks all the time to make something work.â
âBut fireworks are the whole point, you know?â Tom insists. âYou canât reduce a relationship to sensible compatibility and call it love.â
âLove can be practical too,â Freddie says, looking at you. âWouldnât it be nice to justâŚbreathe? To not have to worry about how heâs going to handle things every other minute?â
You wince, half-convinced by Freddieâs logic, but then Tomâs voice cuts in, softer, more serious.
âSure, she could breathe,â Tom says, âbut letâs not forget who actually takes her breath away.â
It hits you, the truth youâve been dancing around with both of them.
Freddie gives you a sidelong look. âAlright, love, confession time. Say Ewan was still bound to that PR relationship, do you really think you could have handled not being with him? Watching him essentially be with someone else?â
You swallow, glancing down at your drink. âIt would have hurt, but I would have had to handle it.â
Tom keeps the interrogation going. âAnd now? What would you do if he does end up with someone else? Louise seems to have her claws in him.â
You let out a huff, your next words decisive. âLook, if she can take him that easily, then heâs all hers.â Because that would mean all those heartfelt phrases about being so in love with you arenât true.Â
Thatâs the reasonable part of you. The other, less savoury part wouldnât hesitate to get your own claws in Louise if she swoops in to take your man, petty catfight style.
âBut see! See here,â Freddie exclaims in glee, âWeâre talking about Ewan and sheâs already stressed. She needs a break from the drama, Tom, and Matt is like⌠an oasis.â
Tom rolls his eyes but doesnât let it go. âSure, an oasis that leaves her wishing she were somewhere else half the time.â He sighs, his voice softening. âLook, Mattâs lovely, but heâs not the one. Heâs not the one who can turn your whole world upside down, and I know you two. Iâve seen you together, Iâve seen you apart, and trust me, youâre so much better together. Hell, itâs better for all of us too! I simply cannot deal with Ewan moping around again.â
You feel your cheeks warm as you consider his words. Itâs almost dizzying, trying to compare the two men, as though they represent opposite sides of you, each offering something you desperately need. Theyâre both right, in different ways. With Matt, thereâs a sense of stability that you havenât felt before. Heâs steady, heâs sweet, and he genuinely adores you despite all of the tangled strings that have bound you to Ewan.Â
But with Ewan⌠you want him, love him, with an intensity that is almost all-consuming. Itâs the kind they write songs about, the kind that drives hearts crazy.Â
Freddie drops the dramatics, his voice sincere when he speaks again. âDarling, Tomâs got a point, but just⌠be honest with yourself. What do you really want? Because whatever you decide, itâs your heart on the line. And you know, weâre here for you, no matter who you choose.â And then, as if with the flick of a switch, he turns his flair back on. âGod, you could choose me, just so you donât have to deal with this dilemma of yours anymore!â
You let out a breathy laugh, all the tension youâre feeling dissipating. âI just might!â
Tom mirrors your laughter. âNow thatâs a dangerous idea. But hey, lifeâs short, right? You donât have to have it all figured out right this second.â
Freddie grins, raising a toast. âTo being a beautiful mess.â
You clink your glass with theirs, watching in amusement as they both begin bickering again over whoâs really the better choice. As the debate drifts over to which drink to order next, a quiet but unmistakable presence makes its way to your table. Ewan stands behind you, his hands resting on the back of your chair.Â
âIâve been looking for you guys,â he greets calmly.Â
Freddie doesnât hesitate to take a playful jab. âAh, Ewan! All by your lonesome now? Whereâs your lady?â
Ewan perches on the last empty chair on your table, catching your eyes. âMy ladyâs right here,â he smirks, and he says the words with such ease that your cheeks heat. Everyone would benefit from taking lessons in the Ewan Mitchell School of Charm. âFancy a walk, darling?â
You quickly glance at Tom and Freddie, whose raised brows practically tell you that theyâre going to be chattering about this as soon as youâre out of earshot. âTry not to miss me too much, boys,â you wink at them, letting Ewan help you out of your seat and whisk you away. He offers his arm to you for support, and the two of you fall into stride, allowing the buzz of Mallorcaâs streets to fill the quiet between you.
âSo,â he starts, âI sure hope Tom and Freddie didnât give you any trouble.â
âNothing I canât handle,â you smile, your tone lowering as you decide to tease him a little. âWe would have invited you over, but you seemed to have plenty of⌠entertainment yourself.â You playfully wag your eyebrows at him, and he makes a show of groaning and turning away.
âDonât remind me, my darling,â he groans. âI was so close to faking an illness and making my escape.â
You chuckle at his apparent distress. âPoor Ewan. It must be so hard being adored by a beautiful girl, isnât it? Wait, where is she again? Did you scare her off?â
âPhia came to my rescue. They went walking by the bay or something, I donât know. And about being adored, it only matters to me if itâs by you.â
Youâre about to lean into a joke and call his bluff, when he adds, âWell, you⌠and my mum.â
âI thought so,â you giggle, his eyes holding yours with a familiar sweetness. But then his gaze is snagged by something behind you.Â
âIs it just me, or does that cat look suspiciously like Sansa?â Ewan points to the front display of a rustic souvenir shop, and you immediately see a plush black cat with curious amber eyes.
You gasp softly, your hand tightening around his bicep. âI did leave Sansa back with my neighbour in London, right?â
âAre you sure? Sheâs right there, darling,â he plays along, grinning. âI think Iâd recognise my daughter when I see her.â
âYour daughter, huh? The most you have right now is visitation rights.â
âWait here, baby,â he presses a kiss to your temple, leaving you leaning against the wall across the shop. He disappears inside, emerging just moments later, the little cat plushie already in his hands. His expression is tender as he passes it to you. âHere. Figured you could use a bit of home.â
You take the little black cat, heart swelling at the sweetness of his gesture. âThank you, Ewan. Sheâs perfect.â
Heâs all smiles, his dimples deepening as he nods in response.Â
You hug plush Sansa to your chest. âNow I wish they also had whippet plushies, so I can give you a piece of home tooâŚâÂ
Ewanâs gaze softens, and he shifts slightly, his gaze dropping as he gathers his thoughts. âDarling, I hope you wonât think Iâm just trying to score brownie points here or something, given the current situation, but honestlyâŚâ He hesitates, but makes up his mind as his eyes meet yours. âIf I wanted to feel at home, all I really need is⌠to be with you.â
Your breath catches, and your mind is too focused on what youâve just heard that your hold loosens around plush Sansa, causing it to nearly stumble out of your hands.Â
âEwan,â you say softly, your voice laced with an affection you canât quite dampen. âYou donât play fair, you know that?â
He chuckles, a little self-conscious, his hand reaching for yours. âYou know me, darling, and you know how I feel about you.â His thumb brushes over your knuckles, and the touch is light, almost reverent.
âSo, no Sansa needed, huh?â you tease gently, trying to keep things light even as the weight of his words lingers.Â
His smile returns, a little shy, a little playful. âYou got that right. But maybe we donât have to tell Sansa about this.â
Youâre about to offer a witty rejoinder, when a cheerful shout slices through the air. âEwan!â Itâs Louise, her voice loud and undeniably eager, and you find yourself dropping Ewanâs hand.Â
And either youâre not in her line of sight, or she just didnât bother calling out to you too. What a delightful girl.
âOh,â Louise finally acknowledges you. âThatâs a nice⌠toy youâve got there.â
âItâs a plushie actually,â you mutter dryly, wiggling plush Sansa in the air.
Ewan snorts at your deadpan expression, and much to Louiseâs obvious annoyance, he drapes an arm around your shoulders, pulling you snugly against him. âI got it for her. Itâs almost an exact replica of her cat, isnât it, darling?â
Your eyes widen at his purposeful cheekiness. The lad has finally had enough of another girl trying to get a bite out of him. âWell, yeahâŚâ you stumble on your words, âIt does look like her.â
Louise pouts. âWhat a nice, friendly gesture.â
Ewan chuckles to himself, not letting her mood dampen his spirits. âI think itâs rather romantic.â
âHold on,â Louise responds, appraising you with a raised eyebrow. âArenât you dating Matty?â
âUhhhââ
âThere you kids are!â Phia materialises out of thin air, an angel in disguise.
Oh, you could just kiss the very ground she walks on.
Everyone makes their way to the pool area the next afternoon, the group scattered all around the lush backyard of the villa.
Matt lingers outside your door, waiting for you to finish changing. He leans casually against the railing, his gaze drifting downstairs to Fabien and Elliott, who are hauling crates of beer toward the poolside. He whistles and shouts out a playful, âSave me some, lads!â
âWaiting on your woman, Romeo?â Elliott sings up at him.
Matt waves them away, spinning around to face your door. As he waits, his mind drifts back to a conversation he had with Liv the evening before. Sheâd seen right through him, spotting the quiet insecurities he tried to keep buried and urging him to go all in with you, to show you what he couldnât quite put into words. And so, he decided he would; heâd pour everything into showing you just how much he cared.
He has the advantage in that he hasnât hurt you the way Ewan has in the past, and he has absolutely no intention of doing so, not when being with you feels like the easiest, most natural thing in the world.Â
To him, you are like the human equivalent of a shot of espresso, a musical laugh, a jolt of positive inspiration. Heâs always felt this, but one night, many nights ago, this effect that you have on him became amplified.
And suddenly, you are all he sees.
And he wouldnât have it any other way, especially not after you finally open the door. You don a forest green bikini that leaves little to the imagination, with a sheer white wrap tied loosely around your waist.Â
Matt lets out a low whistle, walking up to you with a slow, playful swagger. You roll your eyes at him when he unapologetically draws his gaze over your bare skin, but he canât help it.
You look so ravishing that he wants to push you back inside the room. As stunning as your bikini is, it would look even better off.
To hell with the pool.
âWhat do you think?âÂ
He has roused from whatever grey temperament he was stuck in, now that heâs had his espresso. âI'm a goner. Absolutely done for.â
âFlatterer.â You shake your head at him, taking in his broad, bare torso. âWell, you donât look so bad yourself.âÂ
He smirks, his large hands kneading your waist. âI'm the luckiest man on the planet, and this is you after an accident, you say? My love, you're a vision in green.â
âYou like the colour?â
âMmm, if I didn't like you in it, I'd cause a fuss about how you're playing for the other team, my Alyna.â He swoops down and kisses the crook of your neck, the spot he is aware would tickle, eliciting a soft giggle out of you.
âI could never,â you say, swatting his arm. âThey were just out of black bikinis at the shop.â
âBlack... green... we both know you look the best without either of them on. I mean, we did establish that six times in one night, rememââ
âMatt!â you squeal, eyes wide and scandalised. He feels smug, because he made sure you would never forget that night. âYou're such a dog. Come on, let's join the others. I canât wait to finally dip my toes in the pool.â
He is one step ahead of you the whole time, paying special attention to your bad ankle. He knows heâs being too careful when you eye him strangely, but he doesnât care. âI got you,â he says.
âI can walk, you know,â you huff. âIâd have been down here ten seconds ago if it wasnât for you going all Mr. Protector.â
As you reach the final landing, Phiaâs voice rings out, âHands off my woman!â
âSheâs got a point.â You tilt your head at Matt, lips pulling at the corners.
âHave I? I was just kidding,â she shakes her head, before mumbling under her breath. âI'm not Ewan.â
Matt huffs out in response, trying not to let it get to him. Phia takes your other arm, deaf to your protests. Itâs silly, because theyâre both aware that you can probably fend for yourself, but not if they have anything to say about it.Â
Fabien, Elliott, and Harry are manning the grill out on the patio. Some of the ladies are cozying on their sun chairs. Ewan, Luke, and Freddie are smoking on a bench under a canopy. And Thom Yorke serenades the whole scene, the speakers emitting ambient music.
Mattâs always loved a good European excursion, but this one might be his favourite yet. Thanks to the girl who lets him fuss over her despite her feigned annoyance.
Your fingers dig tighter into his arm as the two of you lower into the pool. He relishes the moment and allows the ebb of the water to push him closer to his girl.
âHold on to me.â
You roll your eyes, but wrap your arms around his shoulders anyway. âI'm fine, Matthew. My ankleâs almost healed back to normal.â
âAlmost is the keyword there, my love. We can't take any chances. So... hold on to me, beautiful.â The late morning sun is a blanket comfort as you float on together, your laughter ringing out as he flaps an arm on the water and splashes your face.Â
From the sidelines, Freddie lets out a loud, teasing whistle. Matt responds with a triumphant fist pump, turning to give him a cheeky grin.Â
That might have been a mistake because his eyes landed on Ewan, seated comfortably to Freddieâs left, a cigarette burning low between his lips. His eyes are obscured by dark sunglasses, but heâs clearly surveying the scene unfolding in the pool with an air of nonchalance that doesnât sit well with Matt.Â
He would have expected Ewan to jump in the pool as well and make a show of laying a claim on you as he had before. But no. The younger lad just sits, and watches, the makings of a smirk pulling at his lips when Matt makes eye contact.
Since when has he been this self-assured? Perhaps youâre to credit for this renewed sense of confidence?Â
Are you slipping away from him, and back into Ewanâs arms?Â
Too many questions, and not even the pleasant haze of Spain can shake the anxiety out of him.Â
But then, Liv strolls over, positioning herself in front of Ewan, blocking Mattâs view. She bums a cigarette from one of the guys, and as she turns, she gives Matt a subtle nodâa reminder of her advice from last night. Just show her, sheâd said. Show her youâre all in.
Thank the heavens for Olivia.
Turning back to you, Matt softens, brushing a lock of hair from your face. He presses a gentle kiss to your cheek, feeling his doubts fade as you meet his gaze, eyes bright with laughter.
âEnjoying yourself there?â you ask sweetly.
âWhatâs not to enjoy?â he replies, his hand tracing slow, lazy circles on your back.
âI donât know,â you shrug, âI just donât think Iâve ever seen you glare like that before.â
âI was not glaring.â
âYou so were, Matthew.â
âOh, yeah?â he murmurs, a mischievous glint sparking in his eyes. Before you can react, he dips underwater, reemerging just inches from your thigh, where he plants a quick, teasing kiss that makes you yelp.
âWhaâOh! Matt! Get up here!â
He surfaces, grinning, his arms winding around you again as he pulls you close. Your laughter mingles, echoing across the pool as the rest of the group cheers and jeers good-naturedly.
Just as Mattâs about to pull you in for another kiss, a loud shout breaks through the calm.Â
âCannonball!â Tomâs voice echoes from the villa, and before either of you can turn around, he comes barreling out, sprinting at full speed. With a triumphant yell, he launches himself off the edge, arms and legs splayed out like a human starfish.
The massive splash sends water arcing high, soaking you, Matt, and everyone within a ten-foot radius.
âAlways one to ruin the moment, Tom,â Matt jokes.
âHad to make sure you two didnât get too cosy,â Tom shoots back, swimming closer and clapping Matt on the shoulder.Â
Itâs all in good fun, sure, but then Matt catches Tom shoot a quick wink at Ewan, a flash of understanding passing between them.
So thatâs how itâs going to be? Game on.Â
Itâs the penultimate day of the Mallorca trip and the group has rented boats to paddle out along the stunning coastline. Only 2 people are allowed per vessel and some pairs have already formedâPhia and Phoebe, Louise thankfully pulled away from Ewan by Bethany, Harry and FreddieâŚ
And then thereâs Ewan who strides over to you determinedly. Matt is a half-step behind, his expression expectant, but Ewan is quicker. âIâm with you today, darling,â he says, his tone leaving little room for question. His hand finds yours, warm and grounding.
Mattâs eyes flicker with disappointment but heâs never been one to kick up a fuss. He gives you a faint resigned shrug, then turns to Liv. âGuess that means you and I are a team then.â
Liv rolls her eyes playfully, pushing her sunglasses up and swatting his arm. âDonât sound so thrilled. But I promise I wonât make you row the entire time.â
Mattâs smile softens as he looks at her, his earlier disappointment slipping into something more relaxed. âFine, but Iâm claiming the right to judge your rowing skills.â
âIâll have you know Iâm an excellent rower,â Liv insists, taking her spot at the front of the boat and casting a teasing glance at him. âYou, on the other handâŚweâll see.â
As you and Ewan push off into the water, he throws a glance back at the others, and a spark of mischief lights his eyes. âThink theyâll survive?â
You laugh, settling across Ewan on the boat. âI think itâll be a surprise if Tomâs boat doesnât capsize.â
Soon enough, everyoneâs boats are spaced out on the clear, serene waters, and thereâs nothing but the occasional splash of oars, the birds squawking high above, and the warm glow of the horizon. Ewan rows steadily, having doggedly refused your offer to help, and every now and then, his eyes flick to you, a soft smile never leaving his lips. His gaze lingers, like heâs committing your image to memory.
As you watch the world, he watches his world.
âFeels like another reality out here, doesnât it?â he says, his voice barely above a murmur.
You nod, watching the sunlight dance across the water. âIt really does.â You pause, glancing over your shoulder to see Liv and Matt, already in animated conversation. âItâs nice to just⌠forget everything for a while.â
He smiles, tilting his head. âAnything specific you wanna forget?â
You smile back. âEverything, really. The pressures, the expectations⌠wondering what everyone thinks or wants.â
From a few metres away, Mattâs voice carries over the water, cutting through the quiet intimacy of the moment. âIâm just saying, Liv, you donât have to prove anything. You can let me row.â
Liv laughs, her voice filled with playful defiance. âMatt, I am fully capable of handling this. Maybe itâs you who should be taking notes.â
âOh, Iâd hate to step on your expert skills,â Matt teases back, before throwing a glance your way, his gaze lingering a bit too long before he turns back to Liv, who seems blissfully unaware of his momentary distraction.
Ewan notices it too, and his grip on the oar tightens ever so slightly. But he says nothing, keeping his focus on you as he rows further along the shore.
He steers the boat around a small bend, his voice low. âTheyâre good together, donât you think?â
You turn, following his gaze. Itâs a simple, easy dynamic between them, one you know youâve seen before, and for a moment, a pang of something unnameable twists in your chest.
âYeah,â you murmur, a touch distracted.
Ewan catches your gaze, his eyes searching yours. âYou seem⌠surprised. Or maybe⌠jealous?â
You laugh it off, shaking your head. âNot at all. Itâs justââ
But before you can finish, a sudden splash interrupts you. Harryâs boat has tipped over, both he and Freddie flailing in the water, their laughter filling the air as they try to right themselves.
Bethany, a few feet away, doubles over, her laughter carrying over the waves. âOh my god, Freddie, I told you to sit still!â
Harry, sputtering as he surfaces, grins. âGuess I got too excited.â
âSo I was wrong,â you turn to Ewan, smirking. âItâs not Tom who capsized.â
Ewan just laughs, then adds slyly, âHere I was wishing it would have been Matt.â
After the boats return to shore, youâre all tired and exhilarated, the sun higher in the sky as you make your way up the beach. But the peace is short-lived. Fans, seemingly appearing out of nowhere, begin to gather along the shore, their voices excited, cameras ready as they shout greetings and ask for photos. The relaxed energy shifts as each of you is drawn into the swirl of attention, questions flying as you try to keep up.
A fan steps in close, slightly shaking in her nerves. âYou⌠and Ewan?â she asks, the question open-ended but its meaning clear.
You chuckle awkwardly, caught off guard, opting to just wrap an arm around her shoulders as she takes a selfie with you.Â
But the fan is relentless, her attention shifting to Matt, whoâs standing off to the side with Liv, his gaze directed toward you even as he signs another fanâs poster. âWhat about him?â she says, grinning.
Ewanâs arm slips around your waist protectively, pulling you closer. âSheâs with me today,â he says confidently, not minding the possibility of this fan taking to the internet after this encounter, with proof of her ship actually being together.
Ewan doesnât care; he has no reason to hide how much he wants you. Not anymore. If his fans want a crumb, as he often reads online about him, then heâs going to give them a whole feast.Â
With you as the main course in the Ewan banquet.
As the day comes to a close, you find yourself resting all alone in your room, stealing the group introvert mantle right under Ewanâs nose. Everything that has happened during this vacation plays in your mind like a montage, and somehow, it all feels like itâs building up to a grand finale.
But before you can lose yourself completely in your thoughts, thereâs a soft knock at your door.
You groan to yourself as you walk over, but your protest dies as you find Ewan standing there, holding something behind his back.
âHey, you,â he greets you with a smirk thatâs more mischievous than usual. âGot a minute?â
Your heart skips a beat â itâs always been that way with him, that instant flutter, even now after everything. âSure. Whatâs up?âÂ
âIâve got a surprise for you,â he says, his grin widening at your raised brow. He steps into your room, pulling whatever heâs hiding behind his back.
When he finally reveals it, you blink, eyes widening. âYou... bought these?â You canât help but laugh.
Two brightly coloured superhero masks â one Spider-Man, the other Spider-Gwen.
âYep, I saw a costume shop that had Carnaval masks⌠and these too, apparently,â Ewan says, looking pleased with himself. âI thought it would be fun. Weâre getting away from the villa tonight. I figured we could use these. You know, masks for our incognito date night.â
It had taken one quick scroll on the internet for your group to discover that the paparazzi trailed everyone around town today, and Elliott even annoyingly revealed that he might have seen one or two of them lingering outside the villaâs premises.Â
Vultures.
You laugh again, shaking your head. âWait, youâre serious? Weâre wearing these to our⌠date? Wait, why are we going on a date?â
He shrugs with a playful glint in his eye. âWhy not?â
You hesitate for a second. Itâs such a ridiculous idea, but in the best possible way. Heâs always had a way of pulling you out of your own head, making you feel like thereâs no right or wrong way to just live in the moment.Â
Or maybe he could propose anythingâanything at allâand youâd be beside yourself if you refused. Itâs how you and him ended up having copious amounts ofâŚ. casual lovemaking, months after breaking up.
âOkay,â you finally say, âbut only if you promise not to laugh when I look completely ridiculous in it.â
âNever,â he says with mock solemnity, holding out the Spider-Gwen mask for you. âYouâll look amazing. Trust me.â
As you slink past the gates, the masks make you feel more than a little silly, but also oddly liberated. Itâs like youâre in on another secret with him, something just for the two of you.
You look at him, smiling as you adjust the mask. âThis is insane,â you say, your voice muffled behind the fabric.
Ewan smiles back, clearly pleased with himself. âI know. And itâs perfect.â
âAre you sure this isnât just you practicing for an audition for yet another Spiderman reboot?â
He only playfully shoots air webs at you, his adorable pew-pew noises audible under his mask.
You chuckle softly, your heart warming at the sight of him. âSo, what now? Youâre just going to walk me through the streets like this?â
âOf course. You ready to go on the best secret date of your life?â
You laugh, feeling lighter than you have in days. âLead the way, Spiderman.â
The walk isnât long, just enough to enjoy the quiet of the night and the unexpected adventure of it all. When you finally arrive at the restaurant, you stop dead in your tracks, blinking up at the building in front of you. Itâs perched on the edge of a cliff, offering a breathtaking view of the bay below. The warm glow of the restaurant spills out onto the street, and youâre immediately struck by how beautiful its facade is.
You look at Ewan, your surprise written all over your face. âThis... this place looks amazing. How did you find it?â
âI have my ways,â he says, grinning. âCome on.â
He leads you up the stairs, and you both remove your masks as you enter, giggling to each other. Youâre met with a homey, rustic atmosphere. Thereâs a dim light from lamps perched on the posts, the soft murmur of conversations, and the smell of fresh food in the air. Itâs everything you didnât realise you needed tonightâcalm, peaceful, and more than a little romantic.
âI booked a private table for us,â Ewan says softly, glancing around for the waiter.Â
The two of you are escorted to a table on the balcony, overlooking the bay. The moon reflects on the water, casting a silver glimmer over the scene. For a moment, you just sit there, both of you silent, taking it all in.
âEwan, this is incredible,â you say, your voice quiet but full of admiration. âI donât even know what to say.â
Ewan smiles, reaching across the table to take your hand. âYou donât have to say anything. And I promise this isnât some ploy to get you to speed up your decision-making. I just⌠I just wanted you to have a night where you could forget about everything else.â
He leans back slightly, his eyes studying you with that gentle familiarity, like heâs waiting for you to say something more, but he doesnât rush you.
You glance down at the simple sundress youâve been wearing all day. You didnât have time to change when Ewan mentioned the surprise evening out â there was no real thought given to a perfect outfit. And yet, as you sit here now, across from him in the warm candlelight, you donât feel the usual self-consciousness you mightâve once felt.Â
You feel more beautiful than you ever have before, because he sees you as the most beautiful person in the room. In any room.
âI donât know how you do it,â you say, looking at him. âHow you make everything feel soâŚâ You trail off, unable to find anything adequate.Â
His lips curl into a knowing, half-smile. âI feel the same about you.â
And you might not know it yet, but this night is when you choose him.Â
Under the unprecedented rainfall, later on, you will realise that you never truly had to choose.
Itâs always been Ewan, all along.Â
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BIG TITTIE COMMITTEE
Itto, Kaeya, Alhaitham, Childe & Wriothsley
Contents: Big tiddie men react to you (their partner) shoving your face in their tiddies.
Warnings: men tiddies, suggestive content, slight nsfw, fluff
Itto
"Hey, babe- What are you doing?" Itto laughed in surprise at your sudden affection. You feel his hard chest rumble as he laughs, making you nuzzle your face between his pecks. Both of your hands reach up and grope his muscular pecks, lightly squeezing them.
"Woah there! Getting handsy are we? Two can play at that game, baby." Itto reached down and grabbed you by the waist with two large, strong hands and easily hoisted you up so your own chest was level with his face.
"Hey! I was enjoying myself there!" You whined at him, giggling lightly at his fluffy white hair tickling you as he nuzzled his face between your breasts. He stopped and looked up at you with a smirk.
"Don't worry, I got something else for you to enjoy."
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Did I mention that he has nipple piercings?
Kaeya
You were truly at your wits end with Kaeya. All day you'd been watching him strut in and out of your office, delivering you paperwork in his usual outfit. Only throughout the day, you had noticed something strange. Every time you saw him, his undershirt seemingly became lower and lower. He'd also made sure to bend over your desk every time he passed you your work, giving you full view down his shirt.
You'd finally had enough by the end of the day. It was late and everyone in the knights of Favonious' headquarters had gone home -- besides the usual knights that guarded the front entrance, yourself and of course Kaeya. You had just finished signing your final piece of paperwork when your blue-haired partner slinked through your door.
"Finished yet?" You looked at him, immediately taking note of his teasing smirk.
"Not yet." You paused, your eyes dropping down to his semi-bare chest, "There's still something I need to do." You look back up into his eye. You motioned him over with a single finger. Once he stood before you, you grip him by his ridiculously slender waist and pull him into your lap, finally burrowing your face into his firm-but-ample chest.
"My, my~ It seems somebody has been struggling today." Kaeya mused, his arms hugging your shoulders. He knew exactly what he was doing, teasing you all day. You groan into the valley between his pecks.
"Kaeya, you're truly evil." He laughed at your defeated tone.
"I know." With that, he pulls you up into a kiss.
Alhaitham
Alhaitham was perched in his usual reading corner when you arrived home from class. He greeted you and continued his reading. You had a very long and tiresome day at the academia that day. It seemed like nothing you did was right and it made you want to crawl into a hole and cry. You needed your boyfriend.
Alhaitham looks up at you as you approach him. "Can I touch you?" You ask, knowing sometimes your boyfriend gets a little overstimulated after a long day at the academia.
His eyes scan over you for a moment before he sets his book down and moves himself into a more comfortable position to accommodate you. "Of course." You immediately fall onto his lap and bury your head into his chest, his pecks making for a good pillow to rest your head and his heartbeat calming your soul. You close your eyes and just listen, enjoying the calm ambience.
"Has something happened today?" He asks. You shake your head and mumble, "Jus' needed you." You look up from his chest and see a light blush dusting his ears and face. His strong arms tighten around your body and he gently kisses your forehead.
No more words were exchanged for a while after that. You both just enjoyed the quiet ambience of each others company...
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That was until Kaveh came home after his class and complained both your ears off about a project he was assigned.
(Autistic Alhaitham is real.)
Childe
Despite your husband being a fearsome harbinger of the fatui, he was gentle with you. Even during your episodes of play fighting. Ajax laughed loudly as you attempt to tackle him to your shared bed. He'd just made it back home from his business trip to Liyue and you were eager to get your hands on your ginger partner.
You had missed him dearly, but you also understood that his work was extremely important and he even had to complete quests asked of him by the beloved Tsaritsa herself. "I swear I'm going to lock you up so you cannot leave me again." You wrapped your arms and legs around his sturdy body, nuzzling your face into his neck and taking in his familiar scent.
Ajax chuckled and hugged you tighter. "Alright." He sat you both down on the bed where you finally pulled away to take in his appearance. You raised an eyebrow.
"A harness, Ajax? This is what the fatui have you wearing?" You tugged on his chest harness, enjoying the way his body came forward with it. "Yes, they do. Got a problem with that?" He asked, amused by the question.
"Perhaps I really should lock you away." Your hands ran over his chest, admiring the way it looked with the harness tightened around it. You flatten your hand in the middle of his chest and shove him down, leaning over to look him in the eye. "Can't have anyone else seeing you this."
The ginger raised an eyebrow and smirked, watching as you stared at his chest with a glazed look in your eyes. That's when you begin unbuttoning his shirt, making sure to leave the harness on. Once his shirt is unbuttoned, that is when you strike.
You waste no time shoving your face into his pecs, gripping them with both your hands and squeezing them together. Ajax laughs, his hands rub up and down your waist, as you continue your assault. That's when you bite. His whole body twitches and he lets out a yelp. "H-hey!" This does not deter you though. You've been without this man for weeks and you're determined to get your fill of him. You nip, suck and bite across his chest, leaving marks in your path. By the end of it, your husband was thoroughly ruffled, his face sporting a deep blush and his chest and neck covered in marks left by you. You sat up and smirked in satisfaction with your work. You meet his half lidded eyes.
"Take off your clothes.... Leave the harness on though."
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You'd truly never seen this man move faster.
Wriothesley
You had been pissing Wriothesley off all day. You'd made it your objective today to see how long it would take him to crack before he punished you -- And you were doing a hell of a good job of it.
The Duke was at his wits end with you. You'd purposely been flaunting around his office all day in your skimpiest clothes and talking back to him. Making sexual innuendos at every possible opportunity and even going as far as to flirt with guards in front of him. It was an hour away from lights out and he was almost done with his paperwork when you sauntered out of your shared bedroom, and back into his office. He immediately gritted his teeth. You were in nothing but one of his dress shirts.
You were thoroughly enjoying the reactions you so easily drew out of your husband. It was immensely entertaining to you. Especially since there was little to do in the Fortress of Meropide. I mean, what did he expect locking you down here?
You sauntered your way over to him, taking no notice of the work he was doing and drape yourself across his lap. He let out a deep growl of your name. You only smirk up at him in response and play with the tie around his neck, tugging on it.
"What's wrong with you today?" He grumbled out, his tone frustrated.
"Bored," You say nonchalantly. "And I want attention." You run your finger down his chest, picking at the dip in his dress shirt. Wriothesley let out a groan. "So you've distracted me all day? Because you wanted attention?"
You grinned up at him, "Yep." You said, popping the P. He let out a sigh and shook his head at your ridiculousness. "Well, I have a few more things to do. Do not distract me." You didn't reply.
The Duke continued to do his work, ignoring you completely. You pouted. Then an idea bloomed in your head and your gaze dropped down to the muscular chest before you.
Wriothesley let out a yelp. You were too busy groping him to notice. You had your face shoved between his tits, rubbing your face in the grey chest hair between them, your hands slipped into his shirt, squeezing and pulling at his pierced nipples.
"Okay, that's it." He gripped the back of your collar and pulled you out of his cleavage like a scolded kitten.
"Hey! I was busy-" You were cut off by him throwing you over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes and storming off with you to your shared bedroom.
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It was going to be a long night for you.
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Okay, what the heck is this? Is there a conspiracy theory I haven't yet heard, in which Israel is trying to kill everyone in Gaza in order to... build a Suez-type Canal???
Can I please invite people to view a quick map?
Constructing a massive canal, from scratch, across the Negev Desert, is a visibly ridiculous idea.
The Suez Canal is literally right there.
But yes, of course there's a conspiracy theory about this. As featured in The New Arab, which (as we'll see) is absolutely not an unbiased source, nor one that fact-checks its shit.
Of note, this article features several blatant red flags:
Lack of sources or citations: For example, "The US had once proposed to use some 520 nuclear bombs on the Negev Desert (Naqab) to help create the canal." When? Says who?
Presentation of old data as current evidence: If the one above were true, do we think that the US would use 520 consecutive nuclear bombs for any reason today? Much less to build a canal next door to another canal?
As the article itself points out, it's talking about "a proposal in the 1960s by Israel to connect the Red Sea to the Mediterranean Sea through the southern end of the Gulf of Aqaba."
Not a current proposal.
And not an accepted proposal, obviously.
The reasons for the proposal at the time were that Egypt was at war with Israel. It was one of at least five Arab League countries that invaded, simultaneously, to destroy Israel as soon as Britain left.
It lost, but it did not accept a peace agreement with Israel until 1979. (And the rest of the Arab League countries were so angry with it for negotiating a peace agreement that they kicked Egypt out of the League. The Egyptian president was also subsequently assassinated by the Egyptian Islamic Jihad.)
Internal contradictions: "(the formerly proposed canal route) would then head north again to circumvent the Gaza Strip and connect to the Mediterranean Sea." So.... the canal the did NOT involve the Gaza Strip??
The article also tries to imply that it would be worth building a canal NOW, because back THEN, Egypt could deny Israel access to the Suez.
Again, that was before they had a peace treaty.
The article does NOT mention that that was an act of war, or that Israel has enjoyed freedom of navigation through the Suez Canal and the Straits of Tiran since 1979.
It does claim that "The Suez Canal was also closed for a staggering eight-year period in 1967, at the beginning of the Six-Day War, also known as the ArabâIsraeli War, which was fought between Israel and a coalition of Arab states (primarily Egypt, Syria, and Jordan)." Uh. How was it closed for eight years at the beginning of a six-day war?
Weasel Words: Intentionally vague terms that lead the reader to a desired conclusion without anyone having to outright lie.
For example:
"As Israel intensifies its Gaza onslaught, focus turns to the controversial Ben Gurion Canal Project" - Whose focus?
"talks about a long-discussed economic opportunity known as the Ben Gurion Canal Project have surfaced online" - Whose talks? Talks now, or back then?
"This backdrop underscores the potential strategic importance of an alternative canal" - According to whom?
"He was described" - By whom?
"If it goes ahead, it would be almost one-third longer than the current 193.3km Suez Canal" - If it goes ahead?! This article still hasn't actually said it's been proposed again, much less considered... Because there's zero evidence that it has!
Outright falsehoods: "With Gaza razed to the ground" - Gaza has absolutely not been razed to the ground. Some 50% of buildings in the Strip have been damaged, not razed to the ground.
"there have been alleged plans to literally cut corners and reduce costs by diverting the canal straight through the middle of the Palestinian enclave." - Alleged by whom? By no one, as far as this article says.
"However, the presence of Palestinians there would remain an obstacle." No shit. You know what else would be an obstacle? The fact that it's part of PALESTINE. A country, with its own government, which Israel has to actively work with on a daily basis. And which would very definitely oppose Israel getting rid of everyone in Gaza and running a redundant canal through the whole darn thing.
"the mass explosion of Palestinians" - oh my god. I am very curious about the editing process of this publication now.
On top of everything else, this article is a year old. Israel has yet to kill everyone in Gaza, or otherwise clear out the tiny Strip and dig or atom-bomb a canal right through it. And yet, here we are, trying to buy this goofy story because there's vanishingly little evidence of anything like a genocide going on.
I do not understand how it can be that 13 months ago, a group that rules Gaza as a brutal dictatorship, whose mission is to violently destroy Israel because Jews Bad, invaded Israel and tortured, mutilated, and burned its way across an area larger than Gaza itself in less than a day... and yet, so many people find it impossible to believe that Israel would actually want to wipe Hamas out.
In fact, so many people find it far more plausible that Israel voluntarily dismantled all its settlements in Gaza in 2005 and left it to rule itself, because it... secretly wanted all that tiny piece of land, and really wanted to murder everybody in it. But not Palestinians in general. Not the West Bank. Not the diaspora. Just Gaza.
I just... what the entire fuck?
palestinian children are dying of heart attacks because of the constant fear and nervous system exhaustion of near 24 hr bombardment. for ELEVEN FULL MONTHS palestinian children have been dying of heart attacks. dying from fear.
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In the Quiet of Us
Hello, I had another idea for a fan fiction. This one was more of a spur-of-the-moment idea, but I hope you still find it enjoyable. As always, I have anonymous ask available for those who would like to express their opinion anonymously.
Pairing:Â Lando Norris x named!female character
Plot: Lando Norris learns to navigate his girlfriend's hesitation with physical affection, patiently helping her open up and show love in her own quiet, touch-starved way.
Tag: fluff.
Word count: 1697
Disclaimers: english is not my first language - I feel like you could tell from my writing style - so I apologize if some of the sentences structures are off, or if I use outdated or inappropriate-for-the-context words, I used a synonym dictionary to try and stop myself from repeating the same words, I still did do that though.
The girlfriend has a name as I wasnât able to write this without a name, I apologize, I made it a shorter name so it can be skimmed over. There is no physical description of them.
Lando Norris had always been an affectionate person, and anyone close to him would tell you the same. Whether it was a warm hug after a tough day or a playful nudge to break the silence, Lando found comfort in touch. Friends and family alike knew heâd be the first to throw an arm around your shoulders, squeeze your hand for reassurance, or wrap you in a bear hug when you needed it most. For Lando, physical closeness wasnât just a part of lifeâit was his language, one he was fluent in and spoke without hesitation.
But when it came to Evie, Lando soon realized that physical affection wasnât something she was used to. She wasnât cold or distantâquite the opposite, actuallyâbut there was a quietness to her, a shyness that kept her hands tucked in her lap rather than reaching out. It wasnât that she didnât want to be close to him; he could see the way her eyes softened when he touched her, how her breath would hitch when he leaned in a little too close. But there was always a hesitation, a space she kept between them.
Their first date had been sweet and simple, a quiet dinner followed by a walk in the park. At one point, heâd offered her his arm, hoping sheâd take it. But instead, sheâd simply smiled and slipped her hands into her pockets. At the end of the night, as they said goodbye, he leaned in for a kiss. She blushed a deep pink, her hands clutching her purse as though it was the only thing keeping her steady. Her hesitation caught him off guard. Heâd pulled back, a soft smile on his face to cover the momentâs awkwardness, but she didnât move away. It was as though she wanted to be closer but didnât know how to reach for him.
As the weeks passed, Lando began to notice the small ways Evie responded to his touch. She wouldnât reach for his hand, but sheâd linger if he held it. She wouldnât initiate a hug, but once he pulled her into his arms, sheâd hold on tight, pressing her face into his chest like she was grounding herself in his warmth. If he brushed her cheek with his thumb or let his fingers graze hers, her cheeks would flush, her lips parting in a soft, unsure smile. It wasnât that she didnât want to be closeâit was just that she wasnât sure how to be.
It stung a little at first. Lando had always been so open with his affection, so ready to give, but he quickly realized that Evie just wasnât used to it. And as he got to know her, he could see how deeply she cared for him in all the ways that didnât involve touch. Sheâd make him laugh until his stomach hurt, stay up late just to talk about their days, remember every small detail he shared with her. He saw kindness in her every action, even in her hesitance. And whenever he held her, no matter how shy she seemed, she never pulled away.
She wasnât rejecting him; she just wasnât sure how to express her feelings through touch. But that didnât stop him from being patient, from offering her the space she needed while still trying to show her how much he cared in his own way.
Then, as the months passed, Lando started noticing something else. A pattern, little signs that showed she was trying to be close in her own quiet ways. Sheâd poke his shoulder after a joke or hold her hand up for a high-five with a shy smile, only to linger a second too long. These gestures became more frequentâsmall touches, like a light brush of her fingers over his, the faintest hint of a hand on his arm. It dawned on him, in the sweetest way, that this was Evieâs version of physical affection. A high-five, a gentle nudge, an extra glance over her shoulder as he watched her laugh with his family. Each small touch felt like her way of reaching out, even if it didnât look like much to anyone else.
And Lando loved it. Every high-five, every poke on his shoulder felt like a step forward, like she was learning how to show what she felt in her own way. He noticed that these gestures would come at the sweetest momentsâafter theyâd had a laugh, or when she was watching him with that soft, shy smile of hers, or during the quiet times when they were just being near each other. He realized that Evie wasnât distant at all. She was just... a little touch-starved, perhaps too used to holding back.
So he decided heâd help make up for all the love she hadnât had, all the closeness she never felt she could ask for. He started pulling her close more often, wrapping her in warm hugs, brushing kisses over her temple whenever he could. Sheâd always hesitate at first, that little spark of nervousness in her eyes, but then sheâd melt into his arms as if they were the safest place in the world. And every time, heâd whisper soft words of affirmation, making sure she knew how much he loved her, how happy he was just to hold her.
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One afternoon, while they were sitting together in silence, Lando reached out and tucked a strand of hair behind Evieâs ear. She looked at him, her eyes soft and a little uncertain, and he couldnât help but smile. He liked the way she looked at him, like she was always just on the verge of saying something but couldnât quite find the words.
âYouâre so cute when you blush,â he teased gently, his fingers brushing over her cheek.
Evie turned pink, her gaze dropping to her hands. âI... Iâm not good at this, Lando,â she murmured, her voice barely above a whisper. âBeing close... Iâm just not sure how to... I donât want to mess it up.â
Landoâs heart ached at the sadness in her voice. He reached out, cupping her face in his hands, his thumbs brushing over her cheeks. âEvie, you donât have to know how,â he said softly, his voice filled with love. âYou donât have to do anything. Just let me love you. Let me hold you.â
She met his gaze, her eyes brimming with unshed tears, and slowly, she leaned into his touch, allowing him to pull her close. Her arms wrapped around him tightly, as if he were the only steady thing in her world.
âThank you,â she whispered, her voice so soft, he almost couldnât hear it. âFor being patient with me.â
âYouâre worth every second,â Lando murmured, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. He meant it with all of his heart.
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As time passed, Evie began to open up in small, quiet ways. She started to initiate small gestures, things sheâd never done before. She would reach for his hand when they watched a movie, her fingers gently curling around his. She would rest her head on his shoulder, her breath soft against his neck. Each small touch was a quiet declaration of her love, her way of showing him that she was learning how to trust in the closeness they shared.
One morning, as Lando was making breakfast, he felt a pair of arms wrap around his waist from behind. He froze for a moment, caught off guard by the warmth of her embrace. But then he relaxed, covering her hands with his and smiling as his heart swelled. They stood there for a while, wrapped in each other, and for the first time, Lando felt like they had finally found a rhythm togetherâone that didnât need words, one that was just about being there for each other.
Each day brought something newâa gentle touch, a small kiss, a hesitant hug. She would press a kiss to his cheek, rest her head on his chest as they lay together, ask him to hold her on days when she felt vulnerable. Every gesture made his heart swell, and he made sure she knew how much he cherished each one. With every forehead kiss, every squeeze of her hand, he let her know that her love was a gift, never a burden.
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In the quiet moments that followed, Lando never stopped showing Evie how much he loved her. With every soft kiss on her forehead, every gentle squeeze of her hand, he let her know that her love was a gift, one he treasured deeply. And in return, Evie began to understand that love didnât need to be loud or perfectâit just needed to be there, in every little gesture, in every quiet moment they shared.
One quiet evening, after a long day, they found themselves on the couch, wrapped up in each other and a warm blanket. The TV played softly in the background, but neither of them paid much attention. Evie was nestled against Landoâs side, her fingers tracing slow patterns over his hand, her head resting against his shoulder. He felt her breath even out, and he looked down to find her gaze soft and peaceful, a contented look he was coming to cherish. It was a peaceful silence, one that spoke volumes.
After a while, Evie lifted her head and looked up at him, a thoughtful expression crossing her face. âDo you think Iâll ever be as good at this as you are?â she asked, her voice filled with uncertainty.
Lando gave her hand a gentle squeeze, smiling at her with a warmth that held no expectation, only love. âYouâre already everything I need, Evie,â he said simply, pressing a kiss to the top of her head. âJust as you are.â
She leaned back against him, her fingers curling around his as she closed her eyes, content. And for the first time, they didnât need words to feel how much they meant to each other. They had found their own way, and it was perfect.
In that silence, wrapped in each otherâs arms, they both knew that love could be quiet, soft, and yet, more than enough.
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would logan ever get jealous of his gfâs comfort plushie?
only in a playful way, i donât see him being jealous over something that brings comfort to the person he loves most. itâs kind of a running joke, him being âjealousâ of your plushieâ heâll pout dramatically and complain that you love the thing more than you do him or give you a look when he tries to reach for you in bed for a cuddle only for his hand to land on the plushie snuggled close to your chestâ but really he doesnât mind it at all. heâll wordlessly pick it up and bring it to you if youâre having a bad day, and heâll even âargueâ with it to make you laugh or at least smile. he has no reason to be jealous of a plushie, anyway, because youâre both grown adults and a toy is still a toy at the end of the day (meaning that you obviously donât prioritize an object over a real life person and the connection with the plushie doesnât come from a weird, baby/little girl thing that infantilizes you because thatâs a whole other story entirely and he would be massively creeped out by the whole ddlg infantilization thing lol heâs a dad to like 5 teenage girls you will NOT catch him be weird like that ever.)
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Snickerdoodle pt. iv
pairing: Art Donaldson x reader, Patrick Zweig x reader, Tashi Duncan x reader summary: Art comes out of retirement to test out his coaching skills. Your relationship with him continues to spiral. warnings: smut 18+, cheating, divorce, rough sex, piv, marijuana use, slight angst, hastily proofread word count: 7.7K divider by @cafekitsune <3 prev part
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Kaleb decides he wants to play tennis. Or that he wants to âget seriousâ about it. Heâd done tennis camp every summer along with soccer camp, and heâd enjoyed it enough. But for some reason, heâs determined to be a tennis player now. You blame it on how much time heâs been spending around the Donaldsonâs. Between the various play dates and carpooling, he and Lily have been attached at the hip.
The two of you are enjoying a quiet evening on a weeknight when he brings it up.Â
âLily doesnât really like tennis,â he tells you in between bites of mashed potatoes.Â
âWell thatâs okay. Sometimes our friends end up having different hobbies,â you say.
âHm,â he puts his finger to his chin, âkinda like you and Mr. Art?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âWell heâs like the greatest tennis player ever,â he says, spreading his arms out wide. âBut youâre terrible at tennis. And you guys are friends right?â
His assertion has you placing your fork down. âOkay, first of all, Iâm not terrible at tennis. Secondly, itâs really not fair to compare me to a professional tennis player, K, heâs had years of practice.â Then, you reluctantly think of the last thing he said. About the two of you being friends.Â
Images of Art kneeling above you in bed dance through your mind. You think of the last time you were with him. How heâd laid his cheek on your thigh while you threaded your fingers through his tufts of blonde hair. His gaze searing as he watched you in all your post-orgasmic bliss. Your chest was still heaving as you tried to recover. Â
You clear your throat.Â
âYeah, um, I guess we are friends.â You avoid eye contact with Kaleb and pray he changes the subject. You donât want to think about Art.Â
Unfortunately, your son is too young to properly read the room. If he was, heâd see the way youâre clenching your fork in your fist. Or he wouldâve realized by now that his mom is a harlot. Instead of calling you out on your immorality, he turns to you with express earnestness. âI wanna play tennis like Mr. Art,â he says definitively.
He then furrows his little eyebrows and asks you, âyou think I can be as good as him one day?â
You smile, reach over to smooth your palm over his curls, and tug his ear. You say what every parent would. âI think you can do whatever you put your mind to, my little monkey.âÂ
He grins at you, dimple poking out.
After all, youâre almost certain this is just an eager phase prompted by Lily bringing Tashi to school for career day. Tashi mentioned to you that Kaleb was very eager to ask questions about her job. Apparently, he thought it was super cool that she âgot to coach the best tennis players in the world.â Youâre worried that before dinner is over he might ask you to put in a word with her about coaching him.Â
Once youâve finished eating, tucked Kaleb in, and tidied up the kitchen, you finally get to relax with a cup of lavender chamomile tea.
Before you settle into the refuge of your bed, you make a note to sign Kaleb up for club tennis.Â
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Youâre at a gas station near Kalebâs school when you realize your dumb credit card has a faulty chip. You grab your purse and lock the doors to your car, having been forced to go inside the store and pay for your gas the old fashioned way.Â
The door shuts behind you with a ring of a bell. The unmistakable smell of fuel fills your nostrils as it mixes with stale coffee and the emblematic stench of small convenience stores. You grumble when you see thereâs a short line.Â
With a sigh, you take a detour down one of the narrow aisles to grab a pack of gum. You pick out a random pack of spearmint, but your inner child lingers on the yellow packaging of juicy fruit bubble gum sitting beside it. When you were little, your mom wouldâve made you pick one or the other. Without a second thought, you pluck the yellow pack out from the shelf and head back towards the front.Â
On your walk back, you glance out the windows, checking to make sure the pump youâre parked at is still number 5.Â
The line is shorter now. Thereâs only two people. You think you recognize the dark head of the person standing at the counter. Theyâre digging through the back pocket of their jeans and pulling out a leather wallet when your cellphone dings. Itâs an email notification from your boss. You read the subject header before dropping the phone back into your purse, hoping to avoid whatever stressor awaits you there for a couple more hours or so. When you look back up, youâre met with the face of the dark haired stranger.Â
His eyes meet yours. Patrick Zweig sends you a mischievous smile of recognition as he saunters toward you. He snaps his fingers. âI know you.â
âHi, Patrick,â you say through your tight smile. The last time youâd seen him, he tried to blackmail you into going out with him. If he wasnât so attractive, youâd probably be repulsed by him.Â
âLong time no see.â He pockets his package of Marlboros. âHow you been?â
âUm just busy you know,â you hum. âYou?âÂ
He nods. âSame, same.â He looks you over, smile growing wider when he meets your eyes after lingering on your cleavage. He doesnât even attempt to be discreet.Â
You scoff, rolling your eyes to the side.
Thankfully, the bald guy in front of you finishes up his transaction so you have an excuse to say âexcuse meâ to Patrick as you approach the register. You glance back when you hand your money to the bored cashier, catching one last glimpse of Patrick as he exits through the door. You nibble on the inside of your cheek, feeling the tiniest hint of disappointment.Â
You accept your change and two packs of gum and make your way back to your car. Not wanting to waste any more time at this point, you toss the plastic bag into the passenger seat and hurry to pump your gas. Â
Youâre leaning against the trunk while the fuel fills your tank when you hear a small âhey.âÂ
Youâre startled as Patrick approaches you again. You look around suspiciously. âUm are you stalking me?âÂ
âNo.â He huffs out a laugh. âI was standing over there taking a smoke.â He points towards his beat up suv. You wonder why he doesnât have a better car. You thought tennis players made money. âAnd I saw you. Didnât get to say goodbye earlier.âÂ
You click your tongue. âWell, bye.âÂ
âWaitâI hope I didnât rub you the wrong way last time.â He rubs his palm over the back of his neck. âI kind of have a fucked up sense of humor.âÂ
âIt wasnât the joke,â you supply. âIt was more so you trying to blackmail me into going on a date with you.âÂ
He laughs. âYeah, I donât know why that didnât work.â The grin he gives you sends a shiver down your spine.Â
This time, you smirk, your gaze tracing the length of his body, from his Nikes to the curly wisps of hair flying in the wind. The gas pump clicks, signifying that your tank is full. You donât remove it right away because youâre busy letting Patrick type his number into your phone. You wish you could say you played hard to get, but that would be a lie of monumental magnitude.Â
You donât actually intend to call him, content to let his number go forgotten in your phone. After all, what type of woman would get involved with the best friend of the man sheâs having an affair with?Â
Later on, when youâre having a glass of wine, mommy duties complete for the night, you pause on his number as you tap through your phone. You inhale, take a sip from your glass, and quickly save his contact before swiping out of the app. You can blame it on your being slightly tipsy when you notice that heâs saved as âfor a rainy day.âÂ
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It turns out that the tennis thing isnât just a phase. You donât mind of course. Youâd always support your kid in whatever he pursued. The only issue is that Art fucking Donaldson thought it would be a good idea to train little Kaleb. As if you needed more reasons to be around the man.Â
Youâd told him that you didnât think it was necessary because your son was only eight years old. Surely, he wouldnât need a retired professional tennis player to train him. His tennis lessons at the local club would certainly suffice. Plus, you imagined he had more important things to attend to than give private lessons to a third grader.Â
On a random weeknight, youâd gone to pick Kaleb up from a play date with Lily, hoping to grab him and get back home before the rain got any worse. Art had greeted you at the door, placing a hand on the small of your back.Â
He decided to bring up the topic again. Even Tashi, who was usually busy with training of her own, chimed in, claiming it would be a good opportunity for Art to find real meaning in tennis again. Whatever that meant. Patrick, who you had been avoiding thinking about, once again inserted himself into a conversation, pointing out how young he and Art were when they first started playing tennis. According to him, it was never too early to learn how to properly hit a ball with a racket.Â
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The thought of Art spending time with Kaleb through tennis is an endearing one if youâre being honest with yourself. But you know you would have an intense fight on your hands should Chris find out.Â
Ever since Art had stepped in with your ex at the fall festival, heâd harbored an attitude toward him. Heâd gone as far as complaining about all the time Kaleb spent at his house, accusing you of trying to turn your son against him. If it werenât for the court mandated visits, youâd have simply told Chris to go to hell. But in an attempt to maintain peace for your sonâs sake, you reassured him that Kaleb only spent so much time around Art because Lily was his best friend.Â
You asked him if it was worth destroying his sonâs friendship. He conceded for the time being, but youâre sure if he found out about any extra tennis lessons, heâd blow a gasket.Â
Ironically, you had never been offered the freedom to express such possessiveness. You had to be content each and every time your son stayed at his fatherâs new house with his new fiancĂŠe that you barely knew anything about. You handle some occasions better than others.Â
This time, though, when you watch Kaleb go through the front door of their luxurious home, Spider-Man backpack affixed on his back, your stomach churns. Chrisâ fiancĂŠe smiles and waves to you with her left hand. Bitterly, you think itâs a miracle she can even lift it with the large diamond wrapped around her finger. She places her hand on your sonâs shoulder, pulling him into their home, as if she wasnât the one that helped wreck yours.Â
Maybe itâs the fact that this past week wouldâve been your anniversary, but your shoulders shake with sobs throughout the entire drive home. You sniffle as you think about Kaleb building a life with his soon to be step-mom. You hope she treats him right, but, ultimately, you wish he didnât have to know her at all.Â
It doesnât help that you arenât able to bury your sorrows in Artâs chest or on his dick. Heâd already told you about the gala heâd be attending that weekend for the Donaldson Foundation. You havenât seen him since last weekend, and you ache to call him, but the thought makes you feel nauseous when you think about the wretched irony of seeking comfort in a married man. In a decision thatâs almost homogeneously pathetic, you sit in your lonely driveway and send a âheyâ to âfor a rainy day.â
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It doesnât take long for Patrick to offer to come over. You send him your location as you pop open a bottle of wine.Â
You reach for a glass, your eagerness causing you to apply too much force as you slam the glass down. It breaks under the pressure of your haste, immediately cracking at the stem. The inconvenience is too much for you. You curse before bringing the entire bottle up to your mouth. You take a swig, red liquid spilling out of the corner of your mouth. With a gasp, you wipe your mouth with the back of your hand. Pitifully, your vision starts to blur again as your eyes swell up with hot tears. You resort to sitting on the kitchen floor, taking the occasional drink, and wallowing in your despair.Â
Youâre propped against the cabinet, knees to your chest as you cradle the green tinted bottle of red wine like a toddler holding a stuffed animal, when you hear your doorbell ring. You stumble to your feet, dragging them as you move toward the door. When you swing the door open, Patrick is standing there with his hands in his pockets. He looks you over once, mumbling that you âlook like shitâ before stepping into your home as if heâd been there a thousand times.Â
He lifts his eyebrows when he sees the neglected pieces of glass on your counter. He looks back at the bottle in your fist before groaning. âPlease donât tell me youâre an alcoholic.âÂ
You roll your eyes. âNo, Iâm just having a pretty shitty day.âÂ
âNo shit,â he snorts.Â
You send him a glare. âI donât even know why I called you,â you say and rub your temples.Â
âBecause Iâm obviously easy and you know it.â He smirks.Â
It makes you laugh, your red, puffy eyes squinting back at him.Â
Patrick eventually convinces you to smoke the joint heâd brought with him. You havenât gotten high in years, and you find yourself mindlessly rambling about your life as you pass the joint back and forth to him. Youâd stopped crying a while ago, your eyes now red because of the weed.Â
You and Patrick are lounging on the floor of your living room. Youâre dragging your fingers through the shag rug underneath you and leaning your head back on the sofa when you hear him laugh. He sounds like heâs far away, down through a tunnel, but when you turn your head, his face is right beside you.Â
âWhatâs funny?â You grunt.Â
He shakes his head. âSânothing.âÂ
You frown and shove his bicep. âTell me,â you say, scooting closer to him. âI hate feeling left out.âÂ
His smile falters for a second like heâs remembering something, but when you blink heâs sporting a melancholic grin. âItâs justâyou kind of remind me a lot of Art.â His head falls to the side to really look at you. âI mean not like completely, and not really how he is now, but when youâre upsetâit reminds me of when we were teenagers.âÂ
âI canât tell if thatâs a good thing or not,â you say. It comes out as a whisper. Your faces are so close that you donât want to startle him.Â
âHm.â His eyes flicker to your lips. âNot a good or bad thing. Just a thing.âÂ
âThatâs why you like me?â You mumble teasingly. âBecause I remind you of your boyfriend?âÂ
He smirks, lips so close to yours you feel his breath fan them. âWho said I liked you?âÂ
âYou donât have to.â Youâre just the slightest movement away from kissing him. If you tilt your head just the tiniest bitâ
He lets out an almost imperceptible moan when he finally presses his lips to yours. Itâs so quiet, you think you mightâve imagined it. It all happens incredibly fast, but feels like slow motion. Your head is fuzzy and your body is tingling as Patrick grabs your waist, hoisting you onto his lap. It takes you a moment to build momentum, your sensory overload working against you.
When youâre finally able to match his energy, the kiss is searing. Heâs sucking your lip into his mouth like youâre already his, hands roaming everywhere he can get them. When he bites your bottom lip, you suck in a breath, giving him room to thrust his tongue into your mouth. You mewl at the way your mouths seem to fit together like velcro. Your toes curl and you tighten your fists into his dark locks when you feel his hot tongue traveling down your throat, leaving white hot bites that feel like being branded. His teeth sting and your cunt throbs as you impulsively rut against his length.Â
Patrick rubs his large palm over your ass before abruptly smacking it, making you release an embarrassingly airy moan. His teeth tug on your earlobe. âYou like that?âÂ
You only nod, wrapping your arms around his shoulders.Â
âHmm?â He mumbles, continuing to lave over the skin behind your ear. His hand comes down on your ass again, harder this time.Â
You let out a pathetic squeal and slam your hips down against him in search of some kind of friction to relieve the ache between your legs. âOh godâplease fuck meââ
His mouth meets yours again. You can barely kiss him properly, panting about needing him to fuck you right now.Â
He really is easy, you think, but itâs not like you have room to talk.
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The first time Patrick Zweig sinks his cock into you, youâre on your knees, face pressed against your rug. The slam of his hips threaten to take your breath away as tears cling to your eyelashes. Heâs rough, possessively grabbing your flesh with no regard for potential damage. When he experimentally grips your hair in his hand, tugging your head back gently, you see stars behind your clamped eyelids.
Patrick nearly whimpers at the way it makes you arch your back into his thrusts with increasing intensity. He groans something about you being a slut and fists your hair with less restraint. Your walls clench around him when he wraps his hand around your throat, pulling you to his chest.Â
He grunts into your ear. âI knew you liked it rough, could tell from the first time I saw you.âÂ
The tears have started to spill now. Whether itâs from the humiliation or the utter ecstasy, you arenât sure. All you know is that you almost sob when Patrick drags his tongue alongside your face, collecting the salty tears.
áŻ
He buries himself inside you for a second time no more than twenty minutes after youâve both cum. You gasp and claw at his back as his body presses you into your couch cushions.
You have to admit that Patrick knows how to fuck. Knows how to read your body, tapping into just the right frequency to get you off.Â
Itâs obvious that youâve been craving this type of treatment from the way youâre responding to him. But youâre sure that he must have a sexual sixth sense because in the midst of fucking you wildly, he grabs your ankle thatâs dangling by his ear, turns his head, and plants a sweet kiss to the bone. It makes you melt into the sofa.Â
He leans down to shove his tongue into your open mouth. Softly pats your cheek, relishing in your cock drunk state.Â
âDoes he fuck you like this?â He murmurs into your neck.
You donât have to ask who heâs talking about.Â
âHuh?â He prods.Â
You choke down a moan. âBetter. Heââ You cry out when you feel him start rubbing harsh circles into your clit. âHe fucks me better.âÂ
He huffs out a laugh through his smile, but his hips slam down harder as if heâs determined to change your answer. In less than a minute, youâre biting down on his shoulder when you feel another orgasm rack through your body.Â
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You take a longer break this time. Stopping to pour yourself a real glass of wine. One with its stem intact. Patrick lazily inhales from a cigarette as he watches you, with hooded eyes, attempt to hold a throw blanket over your bare torso. In contrast, he nonchalantly spreads his thighs over your couch, body on full display.Â
His eyes leisurely meet yours. They shine prettily in the dim lighting of your home. His dark lashes flutter on each drag of his cig and it makes the corner of your mouth curve up when you take a sip. The lamps have cast a cozy shade of amber over the room. It blankets Patrickâs skin in a golden aura reminiscent of something being baked in an oven.Â
Patrick reminds you of the gingerbread man, you think. It makes you press the tips of your fingers to your lips to stifle a giggle.Â
He tilts his head at your odd behavior, but he assumes the weed must still be affecting you.Â
Once youâve placed your glass on the coffee table, and heâs put out his cigarette, Patrick is pulling you by the ankle, tossing your blanket to the side and kissing his way down your abdomen.Â
You yelp when he captures one of your hard nipples in his mouth but let him press his hot kisses into your skin nonetheless.Â
You end up cumming for the third time that night with his head buried between your legs.Â
áŻ
Patrick leaves while youâre asleep.Â
When you wake up around 3am to an empty house, you think itâs for the best. You check your phone. You have a missed call from âa.d.â and a text from Patrick that says âhad funâ with a winking emoji. You donât respond to either, instead, opting to pad your bare feet to the bathroom. You desperately need a shower.
In the morning, you tidy up your home from the events of the night before, cringing at what took place on the terracotta colored sofa.
When the buzzing in your head doesnât stop after cleaning your entire living room from top to bottom, you find yourself in the kitchen, pulling out ingredients to make chocolate chip cookies.Â
Youâre frantically kneading dough when the doorbell rings. You frown, not expecting company, but clean your hands as best you can as you make your way to open the door. Sometimes, your talkative neighbor, Mrs. Taylor, likes to come knocking on your door early in the mornings.Â
Youâre surprised to find that Art is standing on the other side with a latte and a bag containing a chocolate croissant. You assume itâs for you. He places his things down on the table by the door, the one that holds your catch all tray, and scoops you up into a hug.Â
He groans into it, making you smile. âHi,â you mumble into his chest.Â
âHi, pretty girl,â his voice comes out equally mumbled. âMissed you.â You can hear the grin in his tone. It makes your heart clench.Â
You allow yourself to hold onto him, despite the ever present worry that you should be reining yourself in when it comes to him. He moves to let you go, grabbing your face in his palm and kissing the side of your head. You whine and lock your arms around his waist in protest. You inhale his scent, all warm and familiar. Youâve missed him.Â
âBaby,â he laughs into your hair. You grunt, squeezing him tighter. âOkay, câmere.â He pulls you into him, securely engulfing you in his arms. âI got you, I got you.âÂ
You eventually release him long enough to walk into your home.Â
Youâre relieved that youâd been overtaken by a cleaning spell this morning because you fear that Art might take one glance at your couch and figure out who had been here. That heâd smell him in the air.Â
Youâre afraid he mightâve detected it anyway when he freezes in the walkway separating your kitchen from the living room. You nibble on your lip as you try to search his body for any signs that heâs onto you.Â
To your relief, Art is actually focused on the copious amounts of cookie dough you have on the counter of your kitchen island. He turns to you with the all knowing look of a father, his eyes creased with concern. âOh no, what happened?âÂ
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After a therapy session in which you decide to stop letting your ex influence your decisions from afar, you finally relent, allowing Art to begin practicing with Kaleb on their private tennis court. It seems like since you got involved with their family, thatâs all you ever do, give in to everyoneâs requests. In any other context, it would be disturbing, but the sight of Kaleb racing to the court with an oversized tennis bag fills you with joy. The bag threatens to pull him down, but his excitement keeps him upright as he makes a beeline for Art.Â
You donât know whoâs more excited to see Art between the two of you. Your sonâs tennis instructor waves at you from across the court. And you have to fight the rush that flows through you, threatening to cut off your oxygen, and give a simple wave in return. It makes you feel like a kid with a fervent crush. You could gag.
You remind yourself that youâre here for Kaleb. Not you.
You think that as long as you get to see him happy like that, youâd agree to anything. Itâs a scary notion, but becoming a mom has made you aware of a lot of terrifying realities.Â
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Itâs this maternal need to preserve your sonâs happiness that leads you to another prolonged encounter with Tashi Duncan. Sheâd caught you when you were dropping him off for tennis lessons one day. Apparently, she had a free day. Lily was spending the day with her grandparents, and Patrick is, thankfully, nowhere to be found. You try to hide your relief when she tells you that. You donât think you can face him right now.Â
She insists you join her in their sunroom while the boys practice. You try to think of an excuse to turn her down, but you decide your karma from sleeping with her husband has built up too much to take the chance of tacking on more. So, when she offers to make you a cup of tea, you oblige and sink down into the fabric of a warm sofa.
When Tashi reappears, she sits down with a cup of steaming hot tea for the both of you. You thank her with a smile, letting your eyes trail over her figure. She looks ethereal. The sunlight pouring through the glass forms a halo of light around her, illuminating her like a Madonna painting. She has her hair pulled back into a low ponytail that causes her to have to tuck the loose strands behind her ear every now and then. The motion makes you take notice of her slim neck and the way her collarbones dip into her loose-fitted button down. Even dressed casually, she looks like a goddess.Â
You feel your heart start to beat a little faster and reach to take a sip of your tea. You wonder how she knew that lavender chamomile was one of your favorites.
Itâs only awkward for a moment because the two of you quickly fall into a conversation about what sheâs missed now that Art has taken over attending the PTA meetings. Thatâs how youâd initially met her. She had actually been the one who you exchanged communication with about carpool and play dates. Artâs retirement allowed her to focus on tennis and other aspects of raising Lily that she preferred. You giggle when she admits that she never really liked those meetings anyway. You donât tell her that you always had that inkling.Â
When you mention that Cynthia is still advertising her knitting business at every single meeting, she sucks in a laugh before leaning toward you. She presses her lips together, holding in her giggle. âGuess what?â
You squint at her, your expression already anticipating a joke. âWhat?â You all but sputter out.Â
âIâm probably responsible for like half the sales on her Etsy shop.â She says like sheâs admitting to something top secret. Itâs a lot like the expression Lily takes on when her and Kaleb are playing âsecret agent.â
âGirl, what?â You didnât think sheâd be a fan of crocheted animal figures.Â
âI ordered one for my mom for Motherâs Day,â she explains. âShe fell in love with the thing I swear, thought it looked just like her little Yorkie, next thing you know sheâs asking for the link to share with all her friends.âÂ
Youâre snickering into your mug imagining Tashi unintentionally being Cynthiaâs best saleswoman.
She smiles at you. âIâm serious. Apparently, amigurumi is the new thing. Itâs gonna be flying off the shelves. Thatâs why I had to go ahead and put in my order.â
âOf course you know the official term.â You toss your head back. âWhatâs yours look like?âÂ
âItâs a little tabby cat,â she smiles wistfully. âLike the one I had growing up. Her name was Aphrodite.âÂ
Itâs a fitting name.
Youâre biting back a grin as you take a sip from your tea. You sigh at the taste. âHowâd you know what type of tea I liked?â You ask absentmindedly.Â
âArt mentioned it to me.âÂ
You freeze. âArt?âÂ
âYeah he says you like to make it before bed. Now, heâs hooked on it.âÂ
All the blood in your body rushes to your head. You feel that unwelcome yet proverbial sinking in your gut. You think you might start projectile vomiting.
âAre you okay?â
You donât respond. Itâs hard to speak when you feel like youâre dangling upside down on a roller coaster.
âWait⌠you didnât think I knew did you?â
For some unintelligent reason, you decide to play stupid. Usually, in times of danger, humans resort to fight, flight, or freeze. You choose fucking idiot. âKnew what?â
âThat youâre fucking my husband.â Tashi says quite unceremoniously.
âWhatâwhat do you mean?â You squeak out.
âDonât.â She laughs. âIâve known the whole time.âÂ
âHow?â Your voice is shrinking smaller and smaller to your ears. The sound of Tashiâs voice, her pert laughter, drowning it out.
âArt tells me everything.â
âAnd youâre okay with it?â You attempt to ask though you can barely hear it.
You know your question reaches her ears because she shakes her head and tells you, âI suggested it.âÂ
Your eyes go wide. Her divulgence seems to propel you forward on your metaphorical roller coaster. In a snap, it brings you out of your stupor.
âI told Art that he should fuck you.â She says it like itâs nothing. Like itâs as simple as telling him to pick up some carry out on the way home.Â
Youâre confused, and your head is starting to hurt from the whiplash, and you wish this ride would end already. âIâmâIâm not sure I understand whatâs going on here.â
âOkay, well, Artâs been attracted to you since the day he met you,â she says plainly. âBut heâd never actually do anything about it because thatâs just who he is. He needed that pushââ
âThat push?â
She nods. âHe needed to know he could do it and everything would be fine. Heâs still figuring out how to be open to stuff like this.â She explains, gestures vaguely in the air. âHeâd never break up what seemed like a happy marriage, but when it was clear that your marriage was far from happyâŚwell he started to warm up to the idea.â
âWhat do you mean far from happy?â The shock has you feeling unreasonably defensive.
âClearly something was off. You never seemed happy with him. Youâve said it yourself that he was a dick.â
âUmâokay, well, Iâd say something has to be off if youâre coaching your husband into sleeping with unsuspecting women.â You shoot back. Your gaze is sharp and accusatory.
She lets her eyes fall down to her lap, picking at little buds of lint being exposed by the sunâs glow. âYouâre right, something was off between us,â she says like itâs something in the past. Like maybe theyâre good now, but at one time they werenât. âBut Art knows how I feel about him.â Then, her gaze returns to you. âSomething tells me your husband either didnât know or didnât care.â
Her comment strikes a nerve. Chris did know something was off, and she was right, he didnât care. He made you feel like needing more from him made you selfish. As if the reminder of the vows he made to you was an affront to him. He knew you were unhappy. That you felt ignored. But he didnât care. When youâd served him the divorce papers, you naively thought that heâd realize what he might lose, that he might beg for your forgiveness, promise to be better. Instead, you watched him sign the document in the same way heâd signed receipts for dinner before closing the tab and tucking the pen inside.Â
You think you envy her. Because she has a husband that actually doesnât want to leave her.Â
âHey.â She grabs your attention. Her voice softens when she sees your glassy eyes peering back at her. âIâm not judging you. Iâm just trying to offer an explanation.âÂ
You work to swallow down the onslaught of emotions threatening to rise up like bile. You release a fractured noise from your throat, letting the revelation fully soak in. âSo you really knew this whole time then? Or rather you orchestrated it?âÂ
âOkay, thatâs a little extreme,â she says. âWhen we found out you were getting divorced, I mentioned to Art that he should pursue you. Thatâs all.â She shrugs. âI never knew if heâd actually do it or when heâd do it. All I know is that the first night he came home smelling like you, he fucked me like he did when I first agreed to be his tennis coach.âÂ
âThen, he was constantly meeting up with you or staying to talk after PTA meetings,â her fingers curl to form quotations around the word, talk. âBut I knew what was up.â She bites her lip. âIt was honestly kind of hot.âÂ
You frown. The thought of him sleeping with her immediately after being with you has your stomach in knots. The worst part is that you canât stop wondering if heâd showered first. If heâd cleaned himself up or if heâd went straight to her, buried himself inside her, cock still sticky with your fluids. In a way, itâs like you had also been inside her. If you think about it long enough, you can imagine what it must feel like. So, you donât think about it. Instead, you fix your gaze on the golden pothos plant sitting on top a table to your right. The tapping of your nail against the ceramic mug fills the silence.Â
She gives you a questioning look.Â
Ignoring the implications of what she just told you, you settle for the anger youâre feeling instead of dwelling on any confusing arousal. âDo you not realize how fucked up this is, Tashi?â
âExcuse me?âÂ
âYeah! Itâs fucked!â You throw your hands up. âI mean Iâve been running around feeling guilty, thinking I was a fucking homewrecker while the two of you get off on a cheating kink!â
She can tell you have more to say, so she leans back and lets you go on.
âI mean how could you do that? I was fucking depressed.â
She snorts. âNot so depressed that it ruined your libido. You two have been going at it like rabbits.â Her smirk makes your cheeks burn.Â
You place your mug down onto the table. âWow. You know what?â Youâre on the edge of the couch now, body rigid. âYou and Art can go fuck yourselves! This is seriously messed up.â
She raises her eyebrows. âAs messed up as you fucking another womanâs husband?âÂ
Her words drip with mirth, and it pisses you off that the fiery look in her eyes is poking at a budding desire in your belly. âThis is ridiculous,â you mumble to yourself. Youâd rather focus all your energy on being outraged than interrogate why this is kind of turning you on. Youâre about to stand up to leave when she places a hand on your arm.
âAre you seriously mad right now?â She asks you.Â
An incredulous look takes over your face. âWhat do you think?â You spit out.
âWell, would you have preferred I not know?â She asks as if youâre the crazy one here.
âIââ you squeeze your eyes shut, and try to gather your thoughts. âObviously not, Tashi.â You glance up to the glass paned ceiling. âI justâit wouldâve been nice to know what was really going on. I mean he never even told me that you knew.â
âWell, did you ask?â She asks simply.Â
Did you? You think back to the past couple of months. The more you and Art hooked up, the more you avoided directly mentioning Tashi. He didnât bring her up more than what was necessary, so you suspected he was actively trying to keep it from her.Â
To be fair, he did mention a couple of times that heâd told Tashi you two were going to meet up for lunch, but you thought he mustâve been leaving out the activities that followed. And if she happened to call him while the two of you were together, he would casually tell her he was with you. You obviously assumed he was downplaying your friendship because there was no way Art would be so nonchalant about a mistress. But, apparently, the word mistress didnât even apply to you.Â
âI mean, I guess I didnât.â You stammer. âBut I feel like that was on him to bring it up to me.â
âWell thatâs where you went wrong. Art can get in his own way sometimes.â A pensive expression works itâs way onto her face. âOr maybe part of him did kind of get off on feeling like he was sneaking around.â The thought seems to bring a small smile to her face.Â
It still doesnât make sense to you. You try to tamper down the sinking feeling that youâve been nothing more than a pawn. âI just donât understand why you two couldnât proposition me like a normal couple looking for a third,â you say.
âWho said you were our third?âÂ
âOh, so thereâs other women youâve sent Art to fuck?â
âNo. IâI donât just pimp out my husband, okay?â
You back down.
âWe already have aâŚthird I guess.â
You look at her with furrowed brows.Â
âPatrick.â She answers.
âPatrick? Like Patrick Patrick?â
She nods.
You laugh cynically. You didnât think this situation could get any worse.
âI know.â She sighs. âI know how it seemsââ
âWas that part of the plan too?â Youâre out of breath, chest heaving.Â
She looks genuinely confused. âWhat are you talking about?âÂ
âMe and Patrick,â you blurt.Â
âWait a minute, youâre sleeping with Patrick?â Sheâs scooting closer to you.Â
You shake your head. âIt just happened once.â You think of how heâd shoved your face into the rug, fucking into you as he grunted out various obscenities. âI was high. I havenât spoken to him since.â
She looks away for a moment, brows drawn together tightly. Sheâs piecing together what youâve told her.Â
âIâI didnât know he was with you guys,â you try.Â
She waves you off. âNo, itâs not that.â She sits back. âIâm just not surprised that he wormed his way into your pants. He just couldnât take that Art had something to himself.â Sheâs speaking to you, but her eyes are trained ahead.Â
âSo, you really didnât set that up too?â You ask meekly.Â
âGod, no!â She says. âI had no idea.âÂ
You believe her.Â
âLook I donât care what type of weird shit you tennis players are into, if you guys have wild orgies or whatever. I just wouldâve liked to have known that I wasnât a hypocrite.â
âA hypocrite?â
You nod. âI mean I sit here and give my ex shit for cheating on me with that skinny ass whore from Modesto. Hell! Thatâs why I got so much fucking alimony.â Youâre rambling now. âAnd, then, I go and let Art fucking Donaldson screw me and then send him back home to play loving father and husband like itâs nothing. God! And on top of it all, I also sleep with his best friend! I became the whore from Modesto.âÂ
Tashiâs watching you like youâre a kid experiencing big feelings.
âI felt like a home wrecker.â You sniff. âBut apparently Iâm actually notâŚbecause it was your idea, well only Art, not Patrick, and Iâitâs all just fucking with my head.â
Tashi swallows. âI honestly thought youâd be relieved to find out.â
She looks at the frown on your face, takes in the way your plump bottom lip is jutting out. She reaches for your hand. âWeâve never really been the best at communicating. Me and Art. For the past year or so, weâve gotten better at talking to each other, being honest about what we want, but weâre still working on doing that with other people I guess.â You let her thumb rub the back of your hand before you gently pull away.Â
You grab your mug again. The handle is cold to the touch.Â
âI promise we didnât mean to fuck with you. Honestly, I think Art really likes you.â She offers you a small smile.
You look into your mug trying to still your reaction. You donât care.Â
Tashiâs gaze feels heavy on the side of your face as you feel her watching your expression. You start to fiddle with your watch. Checking for the time. Except your watch is too busy displaying your increased heart rate to offer the time.Â
You sigh.Â
She reaches out to you again, but this time she brings her hand up to your face, moving the curls falling down over your eyes. You let her nimble fingers caress your cheekbone before trailing down to your chin, guiding you to look at her.Â
She gives you a steady, knowing smile. âYou fell for him didnât you?âÂ
Your cheeks go ablaze, and you try to look away from her.Â
âHey.â She grasps your chin in a firm, but gentle hold. âItâs okay.â She nods as if itâll telepathically make you agree.Â
You clear your throat. âI know you say that, but this is all new to me.â Your voice is slightly wobbly and you think you might cry. âIâI didnât think itâd happen but it did. I thought I could get him out of my system but now,â you inhale and press two fingers against your neck, subconsciously trying to self-soothe. âNow, itâs likeâitâs like I canât stop.â Your voice comes out almost like a whisper. Like youâre afraid to admit the truth.Â
And, really, you are afraid. Youâre fucking terrified.Â
Youâre scared to fall in love with a man who already has oneâtwo people in his life that heâs in love with. The last time you entrusted a man with your love, he was only meant to love you, and he couldnât even give you that.Â
What if you realize youâre absolutely enamored by Art Donaldson and he realizes the same thing Chris did? That thereâs something about you that makes you unworthy of love. That the depth of you is as deep as your cunt goes and thatâs it.Â
What if he realizes that he already has what he needs in Tashi, even Patrick? What if they realize they actually arenât willing to share?
You apparently voice the last bit aloud.
Tashi tilts her head, some of her strands have fallen loose again and she wears the prettiest pout on her lips. âDo you want me to prove it to you?âÂ
You gulp when her hand presses into your thigh, and she brings her face impossibly close to yours, forcing you to hold her gaze. âYou want me to prove that Iâm okay with it?â Her eyes flit between each one of yours with a level of seriousness youâd expect from someone like her.Â
Her expression demands an answer, and so, you give a faint nod, transfixed on the woman in front of you.Â
You gasp when you feel her mouth on yours.Â
You learn that Tashi tastes sweet when she has her tongue in your mouth. You think you can taste the tartness of the lemon sheâd sucked on earlier. Itâs good, and you realize youâre fucked because you really like kissing her.Â
Her tongue twirling around yours has you panting quietly, and you keen when you feel her manicured nails press into the nape of your neck. You havenât kissed a woman since your last girlfriend in college, and you find you miss it. Something about it feels like drinking sweet tea on a hot summer day. Climbing into cool sheets at night when youâre bone tired. Or the feeling you get when you discover the song that youâre going to replay for the next week.Â
It also makes you feel absurdly wet.Â
The two of you work up a rhythm of pulling away for a breath before coming back together like magnets, letting your foreheads gently press together as you breathe deeply, thumbs caressing skin, eyelids fluttering.Â
Your tongue is sweeping across Tashiâs lip, on a path to enter her mouth again, when you hear someone clear their throat.Â
Thereâs an audible smack as you yank yourself from Tashi, eyes flying to the doorway of their sunroom.Â
Art is standing there staring at you, gaze shifting from your face to the hand you still have placed on his wifeâs neck. His jaw is clenched, and his bulge is painfully evident in his pants.Â
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a/n: I've been waiting for this since the first post. Let me know how you feel about the reveal <3 as always, my asks are open!
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This has been a difficult time for so many of us, but I'd just like to say that these last few hours have left me so unbelievably touched and honored.
My Papa was one of my favorite people in the world. A piece of my heart died with him when he left. It's been almost fifteen years and I sometimes still feel the grief like no time passed. My Gramma was one of the strongest women I ever knew, and it felt like the world had lost a beam holding it steady when she was gone.
I always try to keep them close to me.
To see their love, their passion, their humor, their hope find homes with so many more people is incredible. And to see so many people in the comments say that they'll keep going and fighting to make them proud is... breathtaking.
One last fact about my grandparents out of the many, many facts I could share (because I could talk about them all day and still never be done).
Both of them were cremated. They didn't feel the need to take up any additional space in the world when they were gone.
But. When my grandfather passed my family made a bench for him. It isn't flashy or colorful. It has his name on a little plaque, and that's about it.
And it's made out of wood from the coney island boardwalk where he grew up. The boardwalk where he and my grandmother met.
Because yes, they were fighters. But no matter its chaos, its horror, its flaws, and its imperfections, they also knew it was alright to sometimes just sit and realize that the world was full of beauty that was worth watching side by side.
They were both realists at the end of the day who knew the war would never be over. But they raised soldiers and taught them how to push forward just like they let them know there was a hug and a joke and a hot homemade meal at the end of each battle waiting. They raised their daughters, my aunts and my mother, who in turn raised their sons and daughters, to help others, to fight with kindness and with words and with picket lines. I am just one in a family of all ages and genders and generations who are prepared to continue raising more warriors and leaving seats open at our table for people who need them.
So get ready to fight. Get ready to push forward. And do it knowing that it's alright to sit, to breathe, to love, to hope, to cook, to laugh, to scream, to cry, to read, to knit, to look towards others for help. Do it knowing that they'd want you to. Do it knowing that there is more to being a warrior than the blood on your knuckles or the sign in your hand.
Being a warrior is standing in the face of hate and seeing the beauty beyond it.
Thank you so much for keeping them alive with me. It means more than you could ever know.
I'd like to tell you all a story about my grandmother.
My grandparents raised their children, four girls (one of them my mother), to be fighters. My aunts marched in Washington for women's rights with babies strapped to their chests and like to joke that all of the grandchildren who came from that line (including myself) were born with picket signs in their hands.
But it started with my grandparents. They fought hard for what they believed in. They marched against Vietnam. They marched for Martin Luther King. They marched for women's rights. They marched for a better future.
But let's talk specifically about my grandmother for a moment.
My grandmother unfortunately passed away in 2016. She had to watch the first Trump election and did so knowing that it would probably be the last election she'd ever see. And there is some argument there that she could have given in to fear and defeatism. She could have decided none of it was worth it, and she could have decided that fascism had won and the world was over.
But she did something else instead.
To give some context, my grandparents had friends who were Republicans. I say were, because they shifted from the normal Republican towards the MAGA Republican we see today. And despite a very clear message from my family about how we felt, they were more than ready to still come to the funeral as if everything was normal. Like their beliefs were normal. Like they were welcome to celebrate someone who had fought so hard for the rights of other people.
These were people who would have absolutely used their rhetoric to scream and shout if they were left out or disinvited.
And so my grandmother, even past her final moments, pulled the most brilliant, petty move I've ever seen.
She'd decided ahead of time that everyone who had known her was more than welcome to attend but that she wanted everyone attending the funeral to donate money. That was the requirement to be invited. And so everyone did just that. There was no talk about what the donations were for, just that they were appreciated. I want to say that the assumption was the money would help pay for funeral expenses and give the family some support while we grieved.
Except that wasn't the case.
Because in those final moments of the funeral, the rabbi stepped forward to thank everyone, and then very cheerfully announced;
"Arlene was so happy to know just how many people were coming to join us here today. She couldn't have been more proud of her family. And I'm sure she would have been elated to see just how much money you all gave today to Planned Parenthood."
When I say that the faces of those people are enshrined in my memory, I mean it. The anger, the devastation, the rage, the betrayal. It was an absolutely gorgeous display of true defeat at the hands of a boss ass old lady who literally fought with her last breath and threw up both middle fingers all the way out the door.
What I'm saying is this.
It is very easy to feel defeated. It is very easy to think that everything is over, and there's nothing left for us to do. It's very easy to say that fascism won, that fear won, that hate won.
But that's only true if you let it be true.
There is always more that we can do. There is a future that is still worth fighting for. And it's more than possible, even when it doesn't seem like it.
And fighting is going to look different every time.
Some days it will look like picket signs in our hands.
Some days it will look like spending time with friends and family and people you love and knowing that you have a community that supports you and your vision of a brighter future.
And some days, it's pulling absolute natural level 20 petty trickster shit even after you've left the world.
Because you can always make an impact and you can always add a little brightness to life, and if that means tricking a group of MAGA idiots into throwing their money behind Planned Parenthood in the middle of your own goddamn funeral then that's what it means.
Keep fighting. People have done it before you. People will continue to do it after you.
And enjoy the little victories.
(Even the petty ones)
#equality#equal rights#picketing#protesting#fighting#we can do this#we truly can#take a break and then keep fighting#make my gramma and papa proud#thank you all for keeping them alive#this has been incredible to watch#I am speechless#truly
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Hello! Can I request an angst Sylus x reader ff where the princess reader and Prince Sylus are in an arranged marriage and he really hates her also because of the rumors her fake friend made. The reader is cold on the outside but a very loving and sweet inside. During their 1 ½ year as a married couple, Sylus didn't acknowledged her as his wife but she does as her husband. One day, tables turned....Sorry for my English đ
urgh i think you're wanting a fic from this which if i were to do this it would hoenstly end up being 5k</a long fic for which i aim 40k words for minimum and i mean this with all the kindness of my heart - i do not have the energy to do that for free so i hope youre okay w the typical hc style im doing!! also i changed some of it bc i dont see sylus making judgements of people based off what hes told
Sylus had long given up on the idea of doing things for himself wholly. He didn't have the ability to do things for just himself, selfishness the last thing on his mind with the status he owns. That's why he didn't object too much to being married - even if it was to someone he doesn't know.
Your first meeting was all business. He didn't mind at all but everybody in the room could feel the temperature drop by a few degrees. The two of you set out the terms of the marriage cleanly, coming to an agreement in very little time. To him it seemed that the two of you are on the same page, making things that much easier.
To respect your boundaries the two of you sleep in separate rooms. He's always busy, going off to meetings or sitting in his office reviewing the immense stacks of paperwork he has. Despite that, you try your best to find ways to include yourself in his schedule.
The servants always make room for you when you pass by, allowing you to go as you please while whispering about what might happen if they didn't. You pay it no mind, knowing that you've always been seen as intimidating. All it did was secure you a perfect match in Sylus, so you couldn't really mind. You learned quickly what his daily schedule looked like, finding the smallest gaps to insert yourself simply by delivering refreshments or news that other staff begged you not to do as it was below your station.
Sylus was a little surprised at first but he took it well, greeting you politely and thanking you whenever you came in. He understood it as you trying to keep appearances with your marriage, despite it being very clear to everybody involved everything was just for politics. He allows you your vice, sometimes even making small conversations with you. He didn't think you had any ulterior motive with how brief and impersonal the visits were.
He learned later that you began baking the pastries for him through the grapevine. You didn't tell him yourself, worried that he'd think you were trying to buy his affection while all you really wanted was just a way to be closer to him without intruding. He thanks you by buying a new set of clothes for you, a short, yet sweet note of him thanking you for thinking of him.
He doesn't seek you out still, not until he hears you've come down with a terrible illness that the physicians can't quite place. Thankfully it doesn't seem to be fatal, just incapacitating. By now the staff have begun to warm up around you, quietly speaking amongst themselves about how much you miss being able to see Sylus . You've admitted that you know Sylus doesn't see you as his spouse but you think of him as your dear husband, even if your relationship is slightly more than that of acquaintances.
He comes to visit you, sitting by your bed and just. Talking. He doesn't address the fact that you're sick - you've heard it too many times at this point - and just tells you about his day. Asks you about yours, what you want to do next week and if you'd be wanting to spend some time with him. The way your eyes light up makes him regret not reaching out to you sooner but he has a feeling he's got more than enough time to make it up to you.
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You know that trope where Person A thinks Person B is just being nice but theyâre actually flirting. What about the opposite? Person A misreading their behavior and being the only one falling impossibly in love.
Clumsy in Love part 4
Eddie rubs his hands over his face and presses the heels of his palm into his eyes.
Im such a piece of shit. God, how could I just do that.
Heâs pissed at Steve for not saying something sooner, for waiting until Eddie had something good in his grasp. But heâs angry with himself too.
How stupid is he, really? Did he really not notice until it all came face to face?
He has Adielâs number memorized, but he knows which of Steveâs beauty marks form constellations.
Mostly, hes confused. His feelings are a jumbled mess and heâs never been good at sorting them out. Naturally, he turns to music. Dio has serenaded him these past few days. Wayne has steered clear of his shit show.
How do you feel right now?
What do you see?
Where would you be right now?
Hey angel what about me?
Jesus fucking fuck. He attempts to run his hand through his hair only it doesnât get too far, rings snagged in his tangled hair. He can feel the oil built up on the strands and knows itâs time to get his ass out of bed. He doesnât.
âAngel, Angel, angel. You were my angel. Just not anymore.â He mutters to himself long after the track has finished and another song plays. Heâs learning to let go still, even after heâs ended it.
You know what really makes him feel like a dickhead? That Adiel got hurt because of him. He didnât deserve to get caught in Eddieâs bullshit.
Guilt eats him alive.
His conscious hurts and his heart trembles, tumbled in his chest, but he doesnât feel the heartbreak the way he should. That world-on-fire and breath burning feeling. He canât find it.
Like a masochist he wants for it, desires it, deserves it like sinner.
Those last few weeks were enough for his feelings to settle, for his heart to make a decision with or without his input. He triedâgod fuck I triedâto feel that skipped-beat flutter when Adiel smiled his way. Could almost convince himself he could. That Adielâs interlocked hand in his still felt an extension of himself instead of something foreign.
It used to feel like I belonged at his side. Why did it have to stop?
Heâs wronged a friend who trusted him to keep his heart safe. A friend who had already been through so much. And Eddie added to that lifetime of hurt because he couldnât figure it out himself.
Because he was too stupid to see and too stupid to know.
He thinks of Steveâs lips, like he has now for days. Weeks. His heart twists, rung out. That skipped-beat flutter that betrays him.
Fuck. Fuck, man.
He has to stop yanking at his hair like he can train himself out of feeling it.
Do your demons, do they ever let you go?
When you've tried, do they hide, deep inside
Is it someone that you know?
You're just a picture, you're an image caught in time
We're a lie, you and I.
âIâm so fucking sorry,â he tells no one because he needs to say it until he can forgive himself a little. Until he can make himself believe that Adiel will forgive him, in time.
âIâm so sorry,â this time says it to himself, covers his face with his hands and finally cries.
Against his fucking will he cries, canât hold onto it anymore. Ugly retching sobs that can only come from mourning an almost.
Finally, after days of like solitude, Wayne creeps in un-intrusive as a shadow. His hand on his shoulder may be the only thing that keeps Eddie from disappearing.
âI couldâve loved him, Wayne. I couldâveâI did. I think I fucking loved him and I didnât know untilâuntil I didnât anymore. And thenâand then I just couldnât again.â
I wish he got to know that. That even for a short time, I had loved him.
Wayne, ever a man of few words, sits with him and lets him have his silence.
âââ
Itâs a little over a month after that that Steve pays him a visit.
Heâs smart enough to show up when Wayne isnât home, looking sheepish as he shuffles on his front step. At least he has the gall to look him in the eyes.
All this is because of you, he thinks. His dark under eyes, his pallid skin. The rage in his blood. The almost that he had.
âWhy are you here?â He looks taken aback, almost shrinks in on himself.
âI⌠the boys said that you, well.â Steve rubs the back of his neck, his hair longer than when Eddie last saw it. It slips through Steveâs fingers. âYou never came by again and I wanted to see you. To talk? Can we talk? Canât⌠canât I come in?â
Having Steve in his home, in his space, is dangerous.
Those eyes are deep, soften by tired shadows.
âNo,â his swallow is audible and steels himself, âWhy should I want you in my home, Steve?â
Steve stands there lips parted and hands clenches at the bottom of his sweatshirt, eyes shined over. Eddie takes the chance to step forward. Everything inside him is too much.
âDonât you understand what you did? I was happy. And you, fuck, you ruined it! Steve! You!â He out of the door way now and Steve steps back, back, back.
Steveâs face is red in shame. Eddieâs in anger. His pointed finger jabbed at his chest, accusing.
âYou couldnât just let me be happy? Why? Why did you kiss me, Steve? Why then? Was it because you couldnât stand that I finally had someone? Say something!â
Steves eyes overflow, âYes! I could stand it because I love you, asshole! I thought, I donât knowâI thought you loved me, too. Okay? Me. We both felt itâtell me you felt it too, Eddie? It wasnât just me, right?
âYou were everywhere and everything. Youâd smile at me and it was the sun. So close, always right there and it was like we wereâwe were teetering on the edge of something amazing. And I was so happy, Eddie. So happy that day âcuz I thought, it was just us, right? Me and you. Just us. Together.
âBut then you saw him and your werenât even listening to me. You didnât hear a word I said, did you? You only had eyes for him. You left me there and I didnât know what to do with myself âcuz suddenly all youâd talk about was him. Every day and every minute we were together. After thinking, after thinking you loved me too.
That I had you.
So yes! Okay? I kissed you because I was selfish and I needed to know. I needed to know if any of it was real. If there really was nothing there.â
Steveâs breathing hard by the end of, words a wavering wet string of rawn vulnerable pulled out of his chest. Heâs looking at the floor, hair covering his eyes, and shoulders trembling as he hiccups.
Then, everything feels still. Calm inside. For the first time in ages, Eddie feels like he can take a deep breath and not fall apart. He closes his eyes for a second and just breathes. The fight escapes him with the last breath.
âYou ruined me, Steve. You ruined me in a way that even I didnât understand. I didnât know, not until that night, about how you felt. And Iâm sorry if it was my fault, if I did and said things to make you feel that way, okay? But I didnât⌠I didnât feel that way about you. Not then. Not when you kissed me.â
âAnd now? Eddie? Do you⌠could you feel that way for me, now?â
âIf it werenât for you,â he begins, âAdiel and I⌠we couldâve had something great. But then youâand Iâ I couldnât stop thinking about it. I wondered so much on why you kissed me that night, replaying every moment together, to see what you saw. And ended up feeling⌠feeling what you felt.â
He takes the chance to move forward the last bit of space to reach to him, have him look him in the eyes. Both of them mirror images of despair.
âYou ruined me, Stevie. Everything was different. It wasnât perfect anymore, I couldnât make it perfect again. And I couldnât be who I had been with Adiel knowing that I couldnât find in me what we had before. That maybe, this has the chance of being something amazing, too.
I stopped seeing you everyday, so I saw you in everything. I stopped speaking to you, and you became the voice inside my head. It was maddening.â
Eddie laughs and wipes away the tears from Steveâs eyes, they fall faster when he smiles a weak and small but real thing.
âAdiel and I, we fit together; we were good together. But despite that, I didnât want him anymore. I didnât know why, I think I still donât, but⌠I donât need to know. I just need feel it, Stevie. And I feel it. I want this. Me and you. You have throughly ruined me, for anybody else.â
This time the kiss is different. Itâs shared elation, wet and salty on the tongue, and clumsy as they try to fit into each other. Disappear in one another.
âAre you still mad?â
Those brown eyes donât resemble gems of green, but theyâre filled with incredible warmth and Eddie sees home in them,
Sees a life with them,
Itâs own kind of precious.
And he laughs.
âSo much, Stevie. Iâm mad and heartbroken and falling jn love and happy and so so sure of us. I think, I think I still need some time, Iâm really fuckedâno, no, shouldnât cry anymore,â he says as Steveâs face scrunches and itâs so unbelievably cute if he wasnât blaming himself for it all.
âI just want to make sure I do this right this time. And if I, if I invite you in⌠I wonât be able to.â
Steve rests his forehead against his, there is heat between them, âBut I have you, right?â
âYeah, took me a while to figure it out but⌠yeah. Yes. You have me, Steve. God, and I have you. And tomorrow, tomorrow youâre going to come over and pick me up at 6 in the evening so we can eat shitty pancakes at the diner.
And then weâll figure this out together.â
Part 3 <đ End, thank you for reading and for all the feedback!
#so yeah they got some shit to work through but theyâre all in baby!#the number of times I started writing it in on pov and then delete it for another pov and then again#but Eddie hadnât had a turn to speak his truth so I think this was the right choice#a lot of dialogue in this one with is my Achilles heel đ#might be another part depending how yall feel#or a short one shot of adiel finding happiness so so many of you felt for him#steddie#bee speaks#steddie headcanon#steddie prompt#steddie ficlet#steddie fic#steddie drabble#clumsy in love
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