#and going “wow she sure is shitty” thanks guy what a great analysis you got there

[roserunodays]

I feel like a lot of people just fail to take into account how Mahiru sees things, especially now she sees herself in all of this:

She wants to love, and she wants to be loved. She dedicates her entire self-worth on the very concept of love itself and has expressed that she would rather die than live in a world where she couldn’t love. And when she does get that relationship she’s always wanted? The one where she assumes said person can fulfill her needs, and one who she thinks shares the same wants and wholehearted dedication as her? She loves them. She was just “being herself”, but what does that culminate into? Being selfish and obsessive when the person doesn’t show those same needs and wants back. Being suffocating from her pov because she’s not happy with what she’s getting. So what does she do? She keeps going, she keeps giving and taking, letting herself get hurt in the process, just hoping that eventually, she will be happy with her bf. They will be together forever, and everything will be alright in the end while she traps herself and him in a loop of pain and hurt that she continues to perpetuate, and one that she can’t easily get out of.

But of course, it’s not so simple. He dies. She does not. She takes a guilty verdict and is forced to confront the fact that she did hurt. Badly. And she fully recognizes that, she’s guilt ridden by it. But at the same time, she doesn’t want to see her love as something “bad” because that would mean that she herself is bad. She “can’t do it right”. Why can’t she do it right? She doesn’t understand, so she continues. Even with everything, she’ll continue to stick by her ideals because that’s all she really has left. No one to come back to in the real world, and having lost the one person she had because of herself, she’ll selfishly stick to these ideals if it meant that she had something tangible to hold onto again until the very end.

And all of this, all the stuff I mention above is why her character works so well with being contradictory, with being both completely selfless and selfish in moments where she’s interacting with others. Mahiru is a very kind person to a fault that she’ll even not hold a grudge against the very person who almost beat her to death for a multitude of reasons. But she’s also someone who failed to take into account how much her actions were hurting someone in the end, even if it was largely unintentional from her part.

That’s why you can’t reduce a lot of her actions and her character overall to simply “good” or “bad” or “abuser” or “victim” because it just won’t work. Mahiru is too complex to be treated as one of these singular things, just like a lot of other milgram characters this applies to. So why do you think it would work for Mahiru?

[shippostshitpost]

Dyed hair (my beauty guru Au)

Izumi was passionate about far too many things, though there were somethings that just got her beyond excited. Anything All Might related was sure to send her into a fit of mutters. Anything makeup related was sure to get her to be louder than necessary, like, Kirishima yelling about being manly loud. And of course her favorite time of year, summer.

Izumi hummed as she set everything up. What’s everything you ask? The greenette was going blonde, she did this almost every summer and by the time school came around she’d cut off her blonde and hVe a cute pixie cut of green. Kaachan always seemed to let up on the teasing when her hair was blonde, though she wasn’t sure why she was greatful. And what would a beauty guru do as she dyes her hair? Live stream it of course. This was the first live stream she was letting her friends see, she had to admit she was always a little shy about people she knew watching. For the longest time even her mother wasn’t allowed to watch.

She was beyond popular in the hero forms so she had amassed nearly two hundred viewers and now some close friends, she couldn’t help but laugh since their usernames were too obvious.

Iida_Tenya: MIDORIYA CHAN! DYING YOUR HAIR IS A SERIOUS COMMITMENT! ARE YOU SURE YOU WANT TO DO THIS?

“Oh hey Iida, welcome to the stream! Everyone this is my dear friend Iida! We go to UA together! And Iida I know hair dye is serious but I do this every few years so don’t worry yeah?” She began putting up her hair so that she could get the bottom layer first. A lose bun and some pins made it so only the lower levle was visible.

❄️ 🔥: Midoriya, I happen to find your current hair color quite beautiful. Why change it? But may I ask what color you are changing it too?

Izumi giggled a little beginning to mix her dye, she had to stop herself from blushing. Shouto Todoroki was always so formal, cool, calm, and collected. She envied him. Before she could respond kirishima butt in.

Manly_man007: WHO CARES WHAT COLOR IM SURE MIDORIYA WILL BE JUST AS BEAUTIFUL AS SHE ALWAYS IS EVEN IF SHE CHANGED HER HAIR TO SPOTS! I SUPPORT YOU MIDO-CHAN! IT IS SO COOL AND WOMANLY THAT YOU ARE EXPRESSING YOURSELF HOW YOU WANT.

“Oh gosh two more very good friends from UA. Todoroki and Kirishima, thank you both. And the color will be revealed at the end! Now this stream is my summer kick off! This summer we are turning up the heat and really hitting the ground on hero analysis. First up, I won’t be analyzing anything All Might related, so no more All Might looks, at least not this summer.” She watched the chat fly by with random strangers asking her questions and commenting on her new scar. Waiting until she saw a familiar user name.

King_Murder💚: Tch shitty nerd, you’re not talking about All might? Who the fuck are you? Where the fuck is Deku.” The green heart next to his name meant he was a mod for the chat, she had tasked him with kicking out anyone who was...over the top. Or just you know, a pervert.

Manly_Man007: AW COME ON BAKUGO THAT WAS RUDE! MIDORIYA IS PROBABLY TRYING TO ANALYZE NEW HEROES AND HEROES THAT MIGHT NOT GET ATTENTION FROM THE MEDIA!

Floatingoncloud9: Midoriya-chan!!! Also Kirishima why are you typing in all caps?

❄️ 🔥: probably to be “manly” and make sure he had Midoriya’s attention

Manly_Man007: BECAUSE ITS MANLY ALSO I WANT TO MAKE SURE MIDORIYA KNOWS IM HERE AND SUPPORTING HER!

⚡️ pika_boi ⚡️: woah Todoroki nailed it!

“Guys please let me focus for a second?” She laughed “this summer I’m doing looks and videos based on my dear friends at UA, the up-and-coming heroes of tomorrow!”

Manly_Man007: WOAH FOR REAL US?!?!? ME FIRST RIGHT!

King_Murder💚: hey you shitty extra I’m first! Obviously!

Iida_Tenya: Midoriya! I am quite flattered that you’d want to do a video and look based on my style! Though I admit I’m not sure what that all entails I’m proud to be the center of a project of yours! Or one of your projects. If there is anything you need do not hesitate to ask!

Floatingoncloud9: ☺️ ahhhhhhhhh?!?!?!?

⚡️pika_boi⚡️: this is a SHOCKING turn of events eh? eh?

Pinky: WOAH really? You’ll need a lot of pink for mine!

❄️ 🔥: Since you are doing a look based on me may I offer to buy your make up? Or any clothing you may need? Do you do clothing as well? I am new to your stream

Midoriyafan001: Ugh N00b she does make up, fashion, and breaks down hero stuff I can’t believe she calls you her friend and you don’t even know how her streams work! Are you even a fan? How much have you donated to her Patreon account? I bet you’re not even responsible for one tube of lipstick she owns! Do you know her favorite fashion trends are American

“H-hey Midoryafan001, please cool it down a little y-yeah? I don’t let my close friends see my streams but Pika Boi knew new prior to this as a streamer and told everyone about it. So please don’t scold them yeah?”

Her hair was under a cap as she waited for the color to change. Dying her hair took no time at all, she’d done it a few times and it was more muscle memory than anything, well for her anyways.

King_Murder💚: better watch it or you’ll be fucking outta here you shitty extra. And no half n half she doesn’t need you to buy her fucking make up, see those yen amounts? Those are fucking donations. Her fans already got it covered.

❄️ 🔥: I see...

💚Hooray! ❄️ 🔥 has donated 25,000 yen!💚

“Todoroki! You don’t have to do that!” She blushed now completely embarrassed, slowly regretting letting him watch.

💚Hooray! Iida_Tenya has donated 25,000 yen💚

Iida_Tenya: nonsense Midoriya! We must support you! As much as we can!

Manly_Man007: AW MAN IM SO BROKE!

“I Uh I need to go wash my hair be right back!” She set it to a screen with a Chibi washing her hair as she rushed to the shower.

💚Hooray !Manly_Man007 has donated 200 yen💚

💚Hooray! ⚡️pika_boi⚡️ has donated 200 yen!💚

💚Hooray! Momo has donated 59,000 yen💚

❄️ 🔥:Momo when did you get here?

Momo: oh I’ve been here just wanted to observe but I want to help Midoriya buy some new make up and clothes! Oh we should go shopping together us girls!

“I’m back and- oh my gosh guys no! Kirishima! Kaminari! Momo! You didn’t have to donate! All though I really look forward to that girls day now!” The changes the screen back to the camera. Her once green hair was now platinum blonde.

Manly_Man007: OH MY GOSH I NEED TO DONATE MORE YOURE SO PRETTY MIDORIYA YOU KICK BUT AND SERVE LOOKS!

❄️ 🔥: It is lovely though you look like Bakugo now.

King_Murder💚: SAY THAT TO MY FACE TO FUCKING CANDY CANE! DEKU AND I LOOK NOTHING ALIKE!

“Take it to a private chat you two!”

Izumi scolded though she calmed when she saw they weren’t typing anymore.

Iida_Tenya: I admire your new look!

Momo: wow beautiful!

Pinky: I WOULD LITERALLY DIE FOR YOU MIDORIYA LITERALLY I WOULD FIGHT ALL FOR ONE FOR YOU!

“Ah Mina! That’s so sweet really oh my gosh I oh wow I’d fight all for one for you too!” She sputtered out in an anxious rush.

Floatingoncloud9: GIRLS SUPPORTING GIRLS

⚡️pika_boi⚡️: I want to support Midoriya!

Iida_Tenya: I do as well!

Manly_Man007: MIDORIYA LET ME HELP YOU TOO ITS THE MANLY THING TO DO!

💚Hooray! IAmMidoriyasFatherSheDoesntNeedBoysAlsoDinnerIsReadyMomSaysHurry has donated 2,000,000 yen💚

King_Murder💚: Hi Mr.Midoriya, kept her safe on here some of these guys have no respect for a young female entrepreneur.

Katsuki knew better, he had never met Mr. Midoriya. But when he had been picking on her as a kid he had cops come talk to him and a few pro heroes. He didn’t question it anymore. He didn’t want to anger Mr. Midoriya.

Pinky: Woah your dad has an interesting user name?

“Yeah dad doesn’t like to talk much so he lets his user name say what he wants to? I’ve been trying to work on it with him....”

❄️ 🔥: Midoriya are you safe? It’s quite odd that your father would stalk your stream like this. Couple that with Bakugo’s behavior... Message me privetly as soon as you can!

Manly_Man007: WOAH YOUVE NEVER TALKED ABOUT YOUR DAD!!?!?!?!????!! MR MIDORIYA I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS!! WAS MIDORIYA ALWAYS INTO FASHION?!?!?!? WAS SHE ALWAYS SO STRONG?!?!?!? WERE YOU A LATE BLOOMER TO YOUR QUIRK TOO? WAS SHE A CUTE BABY?!?!?

Iida_Tenya: You have my most sincere apologies Mr. Midoriya! I have always tried to be nothing short of respectful towards all of the women in my class including your daughter. Clearly there has been some kind of misunderstanding. I will do my best to make sure I don’t compromise her honor!

“Ah well that’s all the time we have today!” She laughed nervously “I’ll post a picture of my hair all dried and styled tonight on my Instagram! See ya!” She cut the camera and sighed

“Dad was that really necessary?” She pouted

“Izumi, my girl,” the skeleton like man smiled at her “as your father it will always be necessary to scare off any boys that even breathe in your direction now come on, your mother made beef stew.”

[nutriyumaddict]

Can I send you a prompt...? I'd loooove to see jealous Ben, that would be so hot ;)

Hello anon! Thank you so much for the prompt! I finally managed to make this one happen!!

Title: What to do when the romantic part of your relationship is definitely not over

“Ben!” Ann practically shouts his name when she sees him in the hall outside the Parks and Rec office.

The initial surprise makes him jump, although he recovers enough for an um and a yeah?

“Oh, just hi. Hi there. How are you today?”

Ben nods, even if she’s acting a bit strange, because really, what is even strange for Pawnee anymore. “Good. Is there something–”

“Are you going in there?” She gestures towards the mostly empty department. As far as he can see, the coast is pretty clear–only April is around, sitting at her desk, looking bored, and playing with her phone.

“I was supposed to drop a couple of forms off and I thought I could do it during lunch.”

Ann gives him a sympathetic smile. “She’s in her office.”

“Oh.” Ben had decided to drop the papers off now because he was hoping his ex-girlfriend would be somewhere else. How silly of him, of course, she’s around.

“Hey, if you want, I could–”

Ann’s words are interrupted by Leslie’s unmistakable and loud giggle.

Ben frowns while Ann grabs his arm, pulling him a few feet away from the door.

“Look, this is kinda weird. I’m sorry.”

“Yeah, it’s been–”

“No, I mean, her ex-boyfriend is in there.”

“What?” Ben is confused. Isn’t he her ex-boyfriend? “Who?”

“Justin.”

Ben’s frown grows larger. “The one with all the stories?”

“Yeah.”

“The one with the pretzel-y positions and the Kama Sutra ap on his phone?”

“Right. Well, not that I know personally, but, I mean, yeah, she mentioned how–”

“Her hip hurt for like three days after that one time,” Ben interrupts with a whisper. Yeah, he’d heard all about Justin and his uncomfortable, sophisticated positions that were not really that sexy or attainable by normal people.

She’s in her office with him?

And she’s laughing?

“He’s in town for the day,“ Ann explains.

“So, what, they’re…hanging out now?”

Why does he feel like he just got punched in the stomach? He and Leslie aren’t dating anymore, so Leslie can giggle with whoever she wants.

Ann’s expression is apologetic. “Kinda. I think so. I mean, sure, he’s a bit pretentious, I guess, but he’s also fun and it’s light. And she needs fun and light right now. Because of…you know…you guys,” Ann trails off awkwardly.

“Sure,” he cranes his neck a little and from this angle, he can just see Leslie smiling at a very well-dressed man standing in her office.

Huh. He’s taller than Ben had imagined him to be.

“So…do you want me to drop the forms off for you?”

Ben looks down at the quarterly budget in his hands, then back towards the Parks Department. Justin is sitting on her desk now and what he really wants is to go in there and tell that jerk to keep his pants on and take Leslie by the hand and kiss her until…wow.

Okay.

He quickly hands Ann the budget. “Yeah, if you could, um, put this on Ron’s desk, that would be great.”

“Sure,” Ann starts to turn but then stops. “You know, the other night, at the park for the end of the world thing? Seeing you flirt with Shauna was really hard for her too.”

“Yeah,” Ben agrees. “She drove me to a deserted gas station.”

“I heard about that. But now, you two are on the same page, right? The romantic part of your relationship is over.” It’s not a question when Ann says it.

He watches as she then heads into the Parks Department with his quarterly budget analysis in her hands.

* * * *

Two hours later Ben is still thinking about Leslie. And Justin.

Good lord, he’s actually jealous. He’s so, so fucking jealous. He’s normally not the jealous type but then he normally doesn’t have to watch and listen to the person he wants to be with (but can’t), giggle and flirt with someone else.

And also…just because he can’t be with her, someone else can?

Besides, it didn’t work with Justin before so why would she be laughing and flirting with him now? Because it’s fun and light, Ben reminds himself, exactly like Ann said. And sure, that makes sense, but he’s completely blown away by how this new development is making him feel.

Thinking about that asshole making Leslie laugh makes Ben want to…what?

Kiss her.

Nibble at the skin of her neck.

Rub his nose against hers as he tugs her panties down and pushes himself inside.

Oh yeah, and make sure that Mr. Interesting knows exactly which ex-boyfriend is the one who should be on the receiving end Leslie’s laughter and smiles. Which is exactly what Ben has spent the last couple of months trying so hard to avoid.

Fuck, he thinks, what is happening? Why is the thought of Leslie spending time with her ex making him so crazy? And why does he so clearly not at all want to push her away right now?

Ben groans and puts his head down on his desk.

* * * * *

It’s a little after six and most everyone has cleared out of City Hall. Ben is in the hallway on the deserted fourth floor, so the last person he expects to see is Leslie.

When they walk towards each other, their hands brush lightly as they pass. It’s such a small thing but it’s all he needs to ignore all his efforts to push her away lately.

He stops and reaches, tugging her gently on her wrist, pulling her towards the wall. She looks surprised, but not really. Especially not when she pushes her face close to his.

“You were outside earlier. I heard Ann say your name.”

“Yeah.”

“That might have been uncomfortable for you,” she says like this conversation is completely normal. Like this conversation doesn’t make his stomach feel like there’s still a large rock lodged in there. A rock that’s been there all afternoon.

“It was more like awful,” Ben admits honestly. “Speaking of, I’m sorry about the other night, um, at the park with Shauna. That was kind of shitty of me, I knew you were watching.”

“That was awful too,” Leslie tells him bluntly. “And I hated how it made me feel.”

They’d been slowly inching towards the wall and now Leslie’s back is pressed against it and Ben is only inches away. God, she smells like cupcakes right now, he realizes. Of course, she smells like fucking cupcakes.

“So, how is Justin?” He’s trying to keep his voice neutral but he’s pretty sure he sounds a bit jerky and sarcastic.

“He’s good. He’s in town for the day.”

“I heard.”

Now her hands are playing with his striped tie and she’s got a smug little grin on her face. “Does it bother you?”

There’s really no point in lying, Ben decides. “Yes.”

He’s not quite sure who initiates the kiss, just that, without much warning, his lips are on hers and Leslie groans, welcoming his tongue inside.

* * * * *

They grope and stumble their way into a conference room. It’s somewhat fitting that they’re doing this up on the fourth floor, he thinks, but it’s also a bit problematic. Leslie doesn’t really want to sit on any of the surfaces, and he can’t blame her at all.

In between heated kisses, Ben manages to get his cardigan off and places it down on the table for her to sit on. But trying to get her pants off over her heels, however, is a struggle and it’s with a frustrated groan that she finally spins around in his arms and just bends over.

“Fuck.”

Her pants and panties are down around her knees and her shirt is half off but instead of quickly pushing inside, he leans forward against her, settling his lips up by her neck. Ben kisses and sucks at her skin, enjoying the sounds that she makes–sexy little whimpers that make his hips start to move, pushing teasingly against her ass.

Even with his own pants still on, they fit so perfectly together and he wants to put his mouth everywhere.

Ben kisses a trail down her spine, kisses her glorious ass, and brushes his tongue against her exposed slit. When he eventually straightens back up and his hand finds her again, she’s all warm and wet and eager and rocks back against him as he fingers her.

“Bennnnnnnnn.”

He smiles at her impatience. It’s endearing. He’s missed it. It’s one of the things he loves about her because by now he’s accepted the fact that he is completely in love with her. And it hurts.

Ben is also fully aware that this is incredibly stupid and careless but still, he gets his pants down just enough, puts his hands on her bare hips, and thrusts inside.

And then her annoying ex-boyfriend, and his and Leslie’s own break-up, and her campaign, and his sadness, his jealousy–all of it–it just disappears and he gladly loses himself in her completely.

* * * * *

Afterwards, Leslie’s pulling her pants back up when she says, “So, this is kind of awkward, but I’m…supposed to meet Justin for a drink now.”

“What?” Ben blinks in confusion.

“Well, I mean, we made plans earlier, before…this,” she sounds very apologetic but she doesn’t offer to cancel her plans. Not that she should, of course. She’s not his girlfriend, secret or otherwise, anymore.

Even if he did just fuck her from behind and make her orgasm twice in a conference room.

“Okay. No, that’s…cool. It’s fine. It is fine. Coolio beans. Um, I understand.”

“It’s just a drink, maybe two. Just a couple of exes catching up. Don’t be…jealous.”

“You don’t have to explain anything to me. Really,” Ben says, zipping his own pants back up and gathering his brown cardigan–the one she was moaning into the sleeve of just minutes ago.

“I know. I’m just telling you, Benjamin,” she starts, giving him a knowing look, “that I’m going to meet my ex-boyfriend for a drink or two right now, but that I should probably be home by 10. Alone.” Leslie pauses dramatically. “In case you were wondering.”

Shit. He was wondering.

Ben is also a little unsure of what this all means and whether or not the romantic part of their relationship really is over now–he guesses it’s probably not, since at the moment, his come is most likely running down Leslie’s leg. Plus, he’s also pretty sure that he just got an invitation to have sex with her again later.

“By 10, huh?”  

Leslie grins like she’s pulling off something incredibly sneaky before she answers his question. “Yep. 10. At my house. I should be there. All alone.”

He nods and pulls her close, kissing her smiling lips hard, kissing her like they just totally fucked in an empty conference room in City Hall. Judging by the way she leans into him and opens her mouth to moan again, he’s pretty sure she likes it as much as he does.

And that she’s going to be thinking about this when she’s sitting in some bar with Justin.

Ben is also pretty sure that he’s going to be at Leslie’s house by 9:55 to do it again.