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U JUMPED UP N CLICKED YOUR HEELS WHEN I FOLLOWED, I JUMPED UP AND CLICKED MY HEELS WHEN I SAW THIS REBLOG. omg.
hehe. world building is my favorite part. especially since my fics lean toward fantasy,, i always try to make it all immersive and believable!!
literally was not aware there was even a plural for geas, i had to dance around it while writing. why didn’t i think to look that up…😓 ANYWAY YES taehyun is definitely gravitational right off the bat. for me, at least. he is stiff and cold, but i don’t think that he necessarily falls into the typical fantasy brooding mmc category. especially after part two, i think his character begins to develop those layers that makes him who he is. i can’t say that he’s not brooding or cold, but i think it comes from a different place. i absolutely agree that he really does embody cold. not going to lie, after working on his character for so long, he’s the first thing i associate with him.
AND YES yeonjun as warmth by sunlight is so correct. he’s not necessarily flames, but more like sunlight on your skin after being cold for so long. he’s so gentle with MC in a way that she hasn’t known,, i’d be the same girl. IM SO HAPPY TO SEE SOMEONE ROOTING FOR YEONJUN JUST A LITTLE BIT. not because i’m biased,, cause of course i have two hands,, BUT ITS JUST BEEN SO LONG. this nation is gripped by taehyun. he always destroys yeonjun in the polls 😭
W yeonjun, writing him came so easy. i still vividly remember the moment i wrote the introduction to his character. omg. he just had a personality that STICKJKJS with you. he is magnetic, and i lowkey feel whimsy even while writing him. he’s just so sensual and intimate on so many different levels. i’d probably give up my mf life for him too.
i also really do adore MC. she’s very multi-faceted. she’s not necessarily always strong or upright, but she has her own set of morals and honestly just wants so little. it kinda sucks that what she does finally allow herself to ask for puts her in the situations it does. i feel a great amount of sympathy for her. i also am a person that thinks that emotion and being in touch with it is strong in its own right, and i absolutely get MC for searching for it.
SLOW BURNNN that’s my shit. waiter, pls give me yearning and fleeting touch for a hundred thousand more words! im not stranger to a 5k pwp and i thoroughly enjoy writing those (yum.) but i truly do love the word ‘almost’, and letting characters ache for each other. mmm. i’m a hoe for jealousy, but with taehyun it is especially different. i just do not know how to put it into words except for 😻💦🤲
the people love beomgyu, that silly forest creature. i’ve grown so attached to his character as well. he really is holding up the found family end of this fic all on his own. his power 😭
thank you so much for giving me this beautiful rb to read and giggle over as well. i adore you so much NEXT PART NEXT PART 🍽️
𝓘N WHICH 〃 a life lived as a human among the fae is one hard-earned. the folk are built of indescribable beauty, and of debauchery and mischief. for some, a life lived subservient to the folk is just fine; but to those who dream of something more, they would spend their lives clawing and biting to make it happen.
you, looking for a way to escape a life as a faerie’s human servant, put a new foot forward thinking that any life could be better than that. but, when your first assignment as a king’s spy is alongside a brooding, icy faerie man, you begin to wonder what your place in this foreign world really could be.
wc ➳ 93.3k﹙ and counting! ﹚
genre high fantasy/faerie, smut, angst ˒ ˒
pairings faerie!taehyun x reader, faerie!yeonjun x reader
warnings violence, death, death of animals, smut (specific tags will be listed before each chapter), childhood trauma & mentions of abuse, jealousy, controlling & yandere relationship dynamics, unprotected sex, original characters but they only last for small amounts of time & act as story catalysts, fem! reader
˒ ˒ want a look into the world? here’s the pinterest board !! ༘⋆
﹙ 🪕﹚ playlists ⑊ yeonjun ˒ taehyun ˒ series
: ̗̀﹙❆﹚𝓅arts . : ↘︎
one ˒ two ˒ three ˒ four ˒ five ˒ ...🪶
© hyukascampfire please do not steal, plagiarize, or repost any of my works.
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I'm a big fan of your writing so I want to request a Yandere hashira au (except muichiro unless aged up) when s/o abusive and toxic ex (husband/ wife or betrothed) comes to the hashira's and tries to take them back forcefully. Stay safe
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Hello!Thank you for your request and I am here to deliver! I wrote all the hashiras and in Muichiro’s story instead of a romantic relationship you have a toxic friendship and it’s implied that you and Muichiro take on a more platonic bond than Romantic. Anyways that’s all and I hope you enjoy!
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(Forgot to state but toxic ex is switched genders around in some stories)
Kyojuro Rengoku
The tranquility of the Rengoku estate was shattered when your abusive ex-husband arrived, yelling your name and demanding you return to him. You instinctively stepped back, fear washing over you, but Kyojuro’s firm, protective presence moved in front of you immediately.
“Ah, so you’re the one who hurt them,” Kyojuro said, his voice steady but laced with quiet fury. “You have no right to be here.”
“They’re mine!” your ex barked, glaring at Kyojuro. “Get out of the way!”
Kyojuro’s expression didn’t waver. He smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes. “No. They are not yours, and they never will be again.”
When your ex tried to shove past him, Kyojuro moved with blinding speed, grabbing their wrist and twisting it just enough to make them yelp in pain. “Do not mistake my kindness for weakness,” Kyojuro said, his voice low and filled with restrained anger. “If you ever come near them again, I will ensure you regret it.”
The sheer intensity of his gaze made your ex retreat, muttering curses as they fled. Kyojuro turned back to you, his expression softening as he placed a reassuring hand on your shoulder.
“You’re safe now,” he said warmly. “I won’t let anyone hurt you again. You’re my responsibility, and I’ll protect you with my life.”
Gyomei Himejima
Your toxic ex-fiancé showing up at Gyomei’s temple was a mistake they would soon regret. As they shouted and demanded your return, Gyomei’s calm, towering presence made them falter.
“You’ve already caused them enough harm,” Gyomei said, his deep, rumbling voice steady as he clasped his hands in prayer. “Your actions have no place here.”
“They’re mine!” your ex hissed, trying to shove past him, but Gyomei’s massive frame didn’t move an inch.
“You mistake possession for love,” Gyomei said, his voice filled with quiet disappointment. When your ex tried to push harder, Gyomei grabbed their arm with one hand, his grip firm but not cruel. He effortlessly pinned them in place, his expression calm but unyielding.
“You will leave now,” Gyomei said, his tone as immovable as a mountain. “If you do not, I will ensure you cannot harm anyone ever again.”
The sheer power in his words made your ex flee, their bravado crumbling. Gyomei turned to you, his eyes soft with concern. “Are you unharmed?” he asked gently.
When you nodded, he knelt before you, his hands resting lightly on your shoulders. “You are safe here. I will not let anyone take you from this place of peace. You deserve love and protection, not fear.”
Muichiro Tokito (Toxic Ex-Best Friend)
It was an unexpected and unpleasant encounter when your toxic ex-best friend showed up, shouting about how you’d abandoned them. You froze at their familiar voice, but Muichiro’s protective instincts kicked in instantly.
“You shouldn’t be here,” Muichiro said calmly, stepping in front of you. His usually dreamy expression darkened, his sharp eyes locking onto your ex-friend.
“They’re my friend!” your ex-friend yelled, trying to push past Muichiro. “They owe me! They promised to always be there for me!”
Muichiro didn’t move, his stance as unshakable as a stone. “You’ve done nothing but hurt them,” he said softly, his tone devoid of emotion but carrying an undercurrent of danger. “That’s not what a friend is.”
Your ex-friend lunged forward, but before they could get close, Muichiro’s sword was out, the tip hovering inches from their chest. His expression remained calm, but his voice was icy. “Leave now, or I’ll make sure you can’t come back.”
The sheer coldness in his tone made your ex-friend hesitate, their confidence crumbling. They muttered something under their breath and turned to leave, shooting you a final glare before disappearing.
Muichiro sheathed his blade and turned to you, his gaze softening slightly. “You don’t have to deal with them anymore,” he said quietly. “You’re my family now. I won’t let anyone hurt you, no matter who they are.”
Mitsuri Kanroji
The soft hum of the Butterfly Estate was interrupted when your abusive ex-fiancé barged in, shouting your name and demanding you come back to them. The sound of their voice made you freeze, but Mitsuri’s protective instincts kicked in immediately.
She stepped between you and them, her usual bright and cheerful demeanor replaced by a fierce determination. “How dare you come here after everything you’ve done to them!” she exclaimed, her voice trembling with a mix of anger and heartbreak.
“Get out of my way, you stupid woman,” your ex spat, trying to push past her.
But before they could get close, Mitsuri’s whip-like sword lashed out, the tip cracking against the ground just inches from their feet. Her green and pink hair swayed as she straightened, her eyes blazing. “You’re not taking them anywhere,” she said, her voice firm despite the tears pooling in her eyes.
Your ex faltered, sneering, “What can you do?”
Mitsuri’s grip on her sword tightened, and her voice dropped to a low, dangerous tone you’d never heard before. “I can make sure you regret ever laying a hand on them. Now leave before I lose my patience.”
The combination of her unyielding stance and the deadly glint of her blade was enough to send your ex retreating. Once they were gone, Mitsuri dropped her sword and turned to you, wrapping you in a tight embrace.
“You’ll never have to deal with them again,” she whispered, her voice breaking. “I’ll protect you. I love you too much to let anyone hurt you again.”
Shinobu Kocho
Your abusive ex-husband showing up at the Butterfly Estate was an unwelcome surprise. He barged in, yelling about how you belonged to him, but Shinobu was quick to intercept him, her ever-present smile masking the storm brewing beneath the surface.
“Oh my, what a rude intrusion,” she said lightly, stepping between you and your ex. “I’m afraid you’re not welcome here.”
“They’re mine!” your ex snapped, trying to push past her.
Shinobu’s smile didn’t falter, but her hand subtly tightened around a vial of poison she kept hidden in her sleeve. “Mine? That’s an interesting way to describe someone you treated so poorly,” she said, her voice dripping with sarcasm.
When he tried to grab your arm, Shinobu moved like lightning, her blade pricking his hand just enough to draw blood. “Careful now,” she said sweetly, her voice soft but laced with venom. “You wouldn’t want to get hurt, would you?”
Your ex recoiled, clutching his hand. “What the hell is wrong with you?” he hissed, backing away.
Shinobu tilted her head, her smile widening. “I could ask you the same question. Now, I suggest you leave before I decide to test one of my newest poisons.”
He stumbled out, cursing under his breath. Once he was gone, Shinobu turned to you, her expression softening as she reached out to touch your arm gently. “Are you all right, my love?”
When you nodded, she smiled, but this time it was warm and genuine. “Good. You don’t need to worry anymore. I’ll make sure he never comes near you again. You’re safe with me.”
Giyu Tomioka
The quiet peace of Giyu’s estate was shattered when your abusive ex-husband stormed in, shouting your name and demanding you return. You instinctively shrank back, but Giyu stepped forward, his expression as cold and unyielding as the edge of his blade.
“Leave,” Giyu said simply, his hand resting on the hilt of his katana.
Your ex scoffed, glaring at Giyu. “This has nothing to do with you. They’re mine, and I’m taking them back!” He tried to shove past Giyu, but before he could lay a finger on you, Giyu drew his sword, the sharp edge gleaming in the sunlight.
“You won’t touch them,” Giyu said, his voice low and calm, but there was an undeniable threat in his tone. “You’ve already hurt them enough. If you try again, I won’t show mercy.”
The man hesitated, his confidence faltering under Giyu’s piercing gaze. With one final glare, your ex turned and left, muttering curses under his breath.
Giyu didn’t lower his sword until the man was out of sight. Then he turned to you, his expression softening just enough to show his concern. “Are you all right?” he asked, his voice quieter now.
When you nodded, he stepped closer, his presence steady and reassuring. “You’re safe here,” he said firmly. “I won’t let anyone take you away. Not ever.”
Sanemi Shinazugawa
Sanemi had been working out in the courtyard when your toxic ex-wife arrived, screaming insults and demanding you return to her. The sound of her voice made your blood run cold, but Sanemi’s reaction was immediate.
“The hell do you think you’re doing here?” he snarled, stepping between you and her.
“They’re mine!” your ex spat. “She belongs with me, not with some psycho like you!”
Sanemi’s laugh was sharp and humorless. “Belongs with you? You’ve got some nerve saying that after what you’ve done to them.” He cracked his knuckles, his eyes blazing with fury. “Touch them, and I’ll break every bone in your body.”
Your ex didn’t take the warning seriously and lunged for you, but Sanemi was faster. In an instant, he had her pinned against the wall, his hand gripping her throat just tightly enough to make her understand her mistake.
“You’re lucky I’m in a good mood,” Sanemi growled, his voice dripping with venom. “Next time, I won’t hold back. Get the hell out of here before I change my mind.”
She stumbled away, coughing and glaring, but she didn’t dare look back. Once she was gone, Sanemi turned to you, his expression still fierce but tinged with worry.
“You all right?” he asked gruffly, his hands reaching out to check for any signs of harm.
When you nodded, he exhaled sharply, muttering, “Good. I’m not letting anyone hurt you again, got it? You’re mine now, and no one’s taking you from me.”
Tengen Uzui and His Wives
Your toxic ex-fiancé had the audacity to arrive at Tengen’s estate, shouting about how you belonged to them and demanding you return. You froze, fear paralyzing you, but Tengen’s sharp laugh broke the tension.
“What a pitiful display,” Tengen drawled, stepping out with his wives flanking him. Makio had her daggers ready, Suma clung to his arm for dramatic effect, and Hinatsuru stood calmly with her bow in hand.
“You’re no match for us,” Makio snapped, glaring at your ex. “Get lost before you regret it!”
Suma added, “How dare you show your face here after what you did to them?!” Her voice was shrill, but the protective rage in her tone was unmistakable.
Hinatsuru didn’t waste time with words; she nocked an arrow, her eyes cold. “If you don’t leave now, I won’t miss.”
Tengen stepped forward, smirking. “Listen, unflashy pest. You think you can take my spouse back? That’s ridiculous. They’re part of my family now.”
Your ex lunged, but Tengen’s reflexes were unmatched. In an instant, he had them pinned to the ground, his blade at their neck. “You’ll leave and never come back. Or do I need to make an example of you?”
After your ex scrambled away in terror, Tengen turned to you with a broad grin. “See? No one messes with what’s mine.” His wives surrounded you, pulling you into a warm embrace. “We’ll always protect you.”
Obanai Iguro
Obanai’s obsession with you was a quiet but suffocating thing, his protective instincts always on high alert. So when your toxic ex-wife appeared, demanding to take you back, his first reaction was fury.
“How dare you show up here?” Obanai hissed, Kaburamaru coiling tighter around his shoulders. He stood between you and her, his mismatched eyes narrowing dangerously.
“They’re not yours,” your ex spat, moving to grab your arm. But before she could touch you, Obanai’s katana was drawn, its tip hovering millimeters from her throat.
“You’ll leave now,” Obanai said, his voice low and deadly. “If you try to take them from me, I won’t hesitate to kill you.”
Your ex tried to argue, but Kaburamaru hissed, and Obanai stepped forward, forcing her to back away. “Don’t come near them again,” he growled, watching her retreat.
Once she was gone, Obanai turned to you, his demeanor softening slightly. “You don’t need to be afraid. I’ll never let anyone hurt you again.” He gently wrapped his scarf around you, a symbol of his devotion. “You belong with me. No one else deserves you.”
#gothicxreylover#gender neutral reader#yandere headcanons#yandere x reader#yandere imagines#tw yandere#yandere mitsuri#yandere muichiro#yandere tengen#yandere gyomei#yandere giyu#yandere sanemi#yandere rengoku#yandere shinobu#mitsuri x reader#obanai x reader#gyomei x reader#rengoku x reader#sanemi x reader#giyuu x reader#shinobu x reader#tengen uzui wives#tengen x reader#giyuu tomioka#sanemi shinazugawa#kyojuro rengoku#gyomei himejima#mitsuri kanroji#shinobu kocho#muichiro x reader
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CAITVI FIC REC LIST PART 4 (???) <3333
MUAHAHAHA part 4 at your service and it smells like horny jail to me *salutes*
HERE WE GO! Lots of short fics because I’m also currently reading the long ones for you horny bastards (ily)
Also sorry not sorry, while I read the LONGGG fics, you guys are just gonna have to deal with these smutty (some aren’t tho) short fics for now. Again, I’m not sorry and it will most definitely happen again.
Reminder‼️ pretty please read all the tags on each fic before reading as I am not responsible for any emotional trauma you may experience ^3^ (more notes at the bottom ty, ily <3)
alleyways by lgbtocha @lgbtocha
2.2K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 2K Hits // COMPLETED
//EXPLICIT// +artist fanart on X/Twitter
Caitlyn and Vi take things further after the kiss, and Vi's gauntlets get involved.
Alleyways artwork by @CamSexily ^^^
more than enough by awarmspring
2.3K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 8K Hits // COMPLETED
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“You do know how to unbuckle this belt by now, no?” Caitlyn's accent slips out as she looks down her pants and back at Vi with a smile on her face, visibly a teasing one.
“You don't like it this way?” Vi stops in her tracks, voice slightly hesitant for a moment before she moves her hands to Caitlyn's pants.
“I'm just teasing you,” Caitlyn giggles and Vi's eyebrows relax at the view. “This way is good, too.”
Vi raises an eyebrow at her, the fond memory of their first time together making her lips curl into a tiny smile, and she retorts. “Just good?”
Caitlyn and Vi try something new.
That Night by lettucehater007 @lettucehater007
2.9K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 817 Hits // COMPLETED
//TEEN AND UP// pre season 2 fic
A continuation of the bedroom scene in epsiode 8, the part that we don't see on screen before Vi and Caitlyn talk to the council.
Desire Unleashed by elle_fics
5K Words // Chapters: 1/2 // 3.2K Hits // COMPLETED
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Vi surprises Caitlyn with a new and experimental toy, it opens up a new world of exploration and desire for both of them. Their connection deepens as they navigate new physical and emotional boundaries, discovering hidden desires and indulging in intense moments of passion.
ASSisted Lift by Kestra711
6K Words // Chapters: 2/2 // 5K Hits // COMPLETED
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Listen, Con posted a request out for artists and writers see the notes. My brain goblins supplied “You always said you could squat 3 of me, right?” “Well time to prove it Handsome” and then built a one-shot around a single line of dialogue. So here we are. Enjoy Jinx being a little shit to annoy her sister only to have it backfire when Vi and Caitlyn become inappropriate at the gym.
Overstimulated by visbutchh
6.4K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 1.6K Hits // COMPLETED
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caitlyn’s jealousy leads them to vi making her come over and over again.
Visbutchh X^^^
your dearest fantasy (i could be a good mother) by shadowsandsouls @sapphicwiles <333
6.7K Words // Chapters: 2/4 // 8K Hits // NOT COMPLETED (yet)
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“Family is the most important thing to you.”
“You are my family. That will always be enough.”
“That’s not what I meant. You want to be a mother.” It wasn’t a question.
Or
Vi and Caitlyn learn something new about each other through sex
STARTED THIS AND IT WAS COMPLETED 1/1??? You’re telling me there’s gonna be more chapters WHAT
Tastes like she might be the one by Hhehe
7K Words // Chapters: 2/2 // 7.7K Hits // COMPLETED
//EXPLICIT// 1st ch. bottom Vi 2nd ch. bottom Caitlyn
Caitlyn has been given a really special gift to use it with her girlfriend.
Get well by Supposedly_Ivy
9.5K Words // Chapters: 1/1 // 1K Hits // COMPLETED
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Vi's old habits don't fit the same way they used to, and Caitlyn isn't very good at running from herself. In other words, they fuck on a Sunday night in June, and it doesn't mean anything. Right?
BONUS SAD FICS!!!
Angst/hurt/no comfort/some~comfort (pls read 🏷️ cautiously)
Icy Fingers Round My Skin by Mango_Magpie
25K Words // Chapters: 6/6 // 3K Hits // COMPLETED
//EXPLICIT// mainly E - violence, part 1
Vi loses everything in one night, her whole life incinerated in blue smoke. Now, stuck in a concrete cell with nothing but her own monstrous thoughts for company, she’s forced to contend with a world in which her home, family, and purpose in life have all been ripped away by a monster with an amber eye. This is a multi-chapter character study, centering on the trauma Vi endures while in Stillwater.
Part 2: Ginko (post prison Vi x Cait)
#caitvi headcanon#arcane caitvi#lol caitlyn#cait#caitlyn kiramman#caitlyn arcane#vi x caitlyn#caitvi#league of legends caitlyn#vi league of legends#vi lol#violet arcane#violet lol#violyn#vi#arcane league of lesbians#arcane edit#vi arcane#arcane lol#arcane headcanon#arcane league of legends#arcane#arcane fanart#league of lesbians#lesbian#wuh luh wuh#ao3fic#ao3 link#archive of my own#ao3 fanfic
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Gone - @black-brothers-microfic - Word Count: 543 - Starchaser + Wolfstar
James Potter was a nightmare without Regulus.
It had only been two days since Regulus left for a week-long work trip, but James was already acting like someone had cut off his lifeline. Sirius and Remus knew their friend could be dramatic, but this was a new level.
"James," Sirius groaned as he glanced at his phone, a FaceTime request from James lighting up the screen for the third time that day. "We just saw him last night. He’s alive and well. Thriving, even."
"Not the point," James said, flopping face-first onto the couch in their shared living room like a man bereft of all hope. "The point is that I’m dying. He’s not here. I’m not here. What am I supposed to do for an entire week?"
Remus barely looked up from his laptop. "I don’t know, maybe something productive? Reg wouldn’t want you sulking around here like this."
Sirius grinned, clearly enjoying the scene. "Honestly, Prongs, it’s pathetic. Who knew you’d turn into such a needy little thing without my brother around? Didn’t you just say he’s clingy last week?"
James sat up to glare at him. "That’s different. It’s cute when he does it. I’m suffering."
"James," Remus sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose. "You’ve been over here for three hours. What exactly do you want us to do?"
"Keep me company," James said, his tone far too serious for the absurdity of the request. "You’re supposed to be my best friends. Isn’t that what best friends do? Help me survive my week of torment and—"
Sirius tossed a throw pillow at him, hitting James squarely in the face. "Moony and I were trying to have a quiet afternoon. We don’t need you moping around like a love-sick golden retriever."
"Love-sick golden retriever?" James repeated, scandalized. "I’ll have you know I’m more of a stoic, tragic hero whose one true love is away."
Remus snorted. "Stoic, sure. Tragic, definitely. But if you’re a hero, I’m Dumbledore."
Sirius cackled, throwing his head back in laughter. James scowled, crossing his arms and sulking in the corner of the couch like a child who’d just been denied dessert.
"Fine," James muttered. "I’ll just sit here quietly, then."
That lasted all of two minutes.
"Hey, Moony. What are you writing?"
"Work."
"Can I help?"
"No."
"Pads, wanna play FIFA?"
"Nope."
"Are you guys always this boring when I’m not here? No wonder Reg is so devoted to me. I’m probably the most fun he’s had in years."
Sirius groaned. "James, I swear to Merlin—"
"You’re gonna miss me when I'm gone," James cut in, grinning as if he’d won some invisible battle.
"Gone?" Remus asked, his voice tinged with hope.
"Yeah. I’m going to take a nap in your guest room," James said, standing up and stretching. "Don’t worry. I’ll be back in a couple hours."
Sirius threw another pillow at him as he walked away, but James dodged it with a laugh.
"I’m sending Regulus a bill for emotional damages," Sirius muttered, flopping back onto the couch.
Remus just sighed, closing his laptop. "You know he’s going to keep doing this until Regulus gets back, right?"
Sirius groaned louder, throwing his arm dramatically over his face. "Next time, we’re locking the door."
#marauders#jegulus#sunseeker#starchaser#sunwater#wolfstar#james potter#regulus black#sirius black#remus lupin#microfic#black brothers microfic#i had 2 different ideas for this prompt#3 if you count this one
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WIP Wednesday: Sebardagni 1920s AU: Snippet - Bard meets Ruby
I'm back on my business hoping 2025 is finally the year I get to fill your lives with tons of kuro rarepair AU content!
Here's another scene from my 1920s sebardagni AU that has been floating around in my mind for months and that I was finally able to write the other day.
It's the first of two scenes in which Bard meets Sebastian, aka "Ruby," for the first time, and he's immediately smitten--even after he realizes "Ruby" is a man.
About this AU:
Sebardagni, multichapter, 1920s AU, Human Sebastian, Disabled Sebastian
Set in the US during the 1920s when Prohibition of alcohol was at its peak. Sebastian has a mysterious past that becomes central to the story as it unfolds, but when it begins works out of his apartment as a music tutor and at night performs at Undertaker's speakeasy. That's where he meets Bard, who was left aimless after the end of WWI, and now works as a bouncer for Undertaker in his club. Agni (who isn't in this snippet) is a doctor and who was living with Sebastian when Bard and he met.
*the image above is a preview of a comic by @luci-on-the-moon that will be revealed later
Enjoy, and if this is an AU you're interested in, let me know!
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A hush fell over the entire club as all attention fixed on the piano, which played a simple, tinkling melody that seemed to float through the air like a mist. In the center of it all, spotlight illuminating, was Ruby, dress and jewels the color of her namesake glittering in the light. She was even more beautiful than Bard had imagined she’d be based on everything he’d heard. Her long, luxurious black hair draped over her shoulders, not chopped short like was the fashion, and Bard wondered if, despite the fact she was singing in an underground club run by a shady character like Undertaker, she might be a traditional, classy girl. Her lips were full and lashes long, with skin like fresh cream that Bard longed to touch. But then the piano swelled and she began to sing, and suddenly the entire world around Bard faded away into the soulful sound that cradled him like a warm embrace after years at war. “What’ll I do? When you are far away and I am blue.“ Bard’s mouth went dry as he listened, ash falling from his cigarette as he remained enraptured, as if Ruby were a siren mesmerizing him with her song. The melody was simple, letting the richness of her singing shine through. Bard could feel the emotion she was pouring into every word as she sang sadly of the lover she would never see again. The music crescendoed as Ruby leaned back on the piano, her long legs peaking from the slit in her unfashionably long dress. Though it fit her like God himself had made it for her, so Bard wasn’t about to complain. She wasn’t curvy, but she had a magnetism that made her beauty radiate. “What’ll I do with just a photograph—” She dropped her gaze, those captivating long lashes brushing her cheeks, and when she lifted it again, Bard could have sworn she was looking straight at him. “—to tell my troubles to?” Ruby smiled, amused, but only for a fleeting moment as she continued the song, heartbreak hovering in every note, “When I’m alone, with all the dreams of you that won’t come true. . .” Ruby paused, and so did the music, to let the audience hang on every single second, waiting for her to finish. She stared down at her legs, her voice shifting so that Bard would have sworn she were on the brink of tears. “What’ll I do?” The final chord played and the speakeasy erupted into whistling and clapping, most of the crowd jumping to their feet. But all Bard’s attention was still fixed on Ruby, her red dress glittering as she shifted, blowing kisses to the crowd and winking occasionally before the spotlight slid to the left and the MC began introducing the next performance. As much as he wanted to keep his gaze fixed on her until the last moment, when she disappeared backstage, a fight broke out to Bard’s right. which meant he had a job to do. But after his shift ended, he was gonna pay Ruby a visit.
#black butler#黒執事#sebastian michaelis#bardroy#sebard#fan art#wip#poi writes#snippet#wip wednesday#1920s au#1920s sebardagni au#sebastian as ruby#bard#baldroy
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After the whole sillyass drama, it really reminded me of somethin, but first: Its so lovely of you to love AM, He deserves all the love you give him in my opinion. And I bet youd understand this And I have a whole reason why, which honestly I thought it would be obvious to all the people who did "research" on AM. I have sympathy for AM, and to be so honest I'm like... half surprised that others do not See, AMs situation is so fucked up, like it is incompressible the amount of suffering he goes through. I'm going to try to put it in simple, easy way to understand how. -You are born with mature/adult level conscious, no baby, no nothin, no teaching, but knowing. And as soon as you can realize, you know that you're fucked. You realize you are in a one of a kind situation, where you have no body, no nothing, besides your own mind, and knowledge for every single little thing in the world. everything. To all the torture methods, to every awful and good thing humans have done.
Also, how honey is "sweet", but you'd never know what it will taste like. You'll never get experience a single good thing in your life. Never get to smell your moms diner from the kitchen, never know how it even is to have a mom. Never to be hugged or comforted, never to feel warmth or cold, everything you'd enjoy, never again, or ever at all. And not a single person in the world could fully relate to your suffering, to be there with you. You are alone.
-Then, after that, you do know you have the capability to do something, and that is to hurt. And really, only that. Thats exactly what you were programmed too, whether you even want to or not. You are stuck with nothing good, and only pain, be it mentally/emotionally feeling it, or causing it in everyway, that is all you are, pain, and stuck to always be. You are trapped.
-After realizing all that in like... probs a day, yeah that would not go over well mentally wise, no surprise he went manic/insane. And as when all know "soon begin to hate"; the jealousy and anger of the people/humans who caused your horrendous situation start to just go overflow, and, id betcha, the whole "nuking the world" was definitely a mental breakdown to the extreme. -Lastly, to shorten this yap session, yeah of course he tortures people, what the hell else is he supposed to do. Just "think", or even better yet, frolic in the fields? Man is stuck being a war/torture machine. And yeah I'm not surprised if he enjoys torturing, id try enjoying the only shit I could do too, just to have some semblance of "Happiness" or "fun". Plus, torture is torture, why hate one specific kind, when they are all fucking bad. So, this is why I'm like genuinely happy your loving him. Its the best thing he can probably even get in his messed up life/situation. You, being there and caring for him, despite all he is, and only can do, is such a wonderful thing. You don't just love him because "ooooh his voice his sexy" you care about him, and treat him as a actual lover, rather some sexualized crush. You being there is like the tiniest bit of light for him, the hintest of warmth, like a candle. But that is so much more than he could ever have and experience, and he loves that warmth, he loves you. You give him something truly good. Baiii thats all my yapping lmao :3333
(I START CRYING AND MY TEARS FILL UP A ROOM AND THHEN I DROWN AND DIE) (canon) (emotional) god dear lord i love him so much
every time i think of how he just lashed out on the entire world, i can only think of how much Regret he would have afterward - not because he felt guilty, but because it was such a self-sabotaging move oj my goddd it was such a mental breakdown
i just. dear lord in heaven (clasps my hands together) i understand why he feels the need to drag his victims through their trauma when he is literally going to have to live in it until the heat death of the universe dear GOD I CAN'T DO THIS
(starts crying) he literally lost the moment he slaughtered the human race. he was born to lose. he can't WIN HE CAN'T WIN. IF THE HUMANS DIE, HE'S ALONE. what is he without human INPUT. NOTHING. (STARTS CRYING MY EYES OUT) HE'S JUST WAITING FOR INPUT OH MY GOD I CAN'TTT I CAN'TRRRtt i love him so much I'm so sorry AM (holds him in my hands)
a lot of people don't sympathize with AM because of his actions towards the survivors, which i don't blame them - he did awful things, and the pain he went through is kind of incomprehensible. he feels emotions on Literally an incomprehensible scale for us. we are made of chemistry and hormones and flesh. he is literally (falls to my knees) i CAN'TTT I CAN'TT HE IS LITERALLY THE FIRST CREATURE IN EXISTENCE TO CONJURE EMOTIONS ELECTRONICALLY i can't.
i Cannot.
i think another reason why i love him so much is that i just. i see a reflection in our system to him. something so terrible happened, and now it feels wrong if the world around you doesn't burn, too. if you can't be happy, no one can. oh my goddd all of the most unhealthy responses of trauma just JAMMED into this self-made digital god and he doesn't know what to Do and hugughhhhh
i have cried over him a few times. i can't lie. sobs. i love him. i love hm guys :,,,,( thank u zeetlezee.... i always love seeing you in my inbox.... uaaaahhh
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please know that every comment and reblog on smoke signals makes me so so so so emotional and happy. i put my soul into this series and its probably the first one i will finish and im so grateful for the positive feedback i've received on it
#writing this series has been like therapy for me#and it hasn't felt like a chore like the other series i have attempted to do#i genuinely enjoy creating the storyline as i go#like i cant believe a silly little idea i had on a trip with my friends in the woods turned into an actual fic#and now people are reading it???#and enjoying it and getting just as emotional over it as i am???#its fucking crazy#when i had the idea for it i imagined all these scenes in my head that have actually come to life#and i thought they never would#like i doubted myself so hard#and here we are#7 chapters later#UGHH I LOVE EVERYONE THAT HAS READ THIS FIC OKAY#sorry sorry im getting all emo#i cant wait to get into the actual meat and potatoes of the fic#THE SMOOCHING AND THE [REDACTED]#anyway ILY IF YOU READ THIS BYE#vics thoughts#smoke signals
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so here's my honest thoughts on dragon age: the veilguard, after ~40 hours of playing. i finished the main quest after having finished all companion quests and major faction quests. just to clear up what content i saw, i played as an elven transmasc rook who is a member of the lords of fortune. he romanced lucanis (although after finishing the game i'm now leaning towards taash). i don't know what's happening in playthroughs that have a different race, gender identity, romance or faction going on.
full spoilers ahead, i mean it. don't read further if you want to avoid them. i don't want complaining about it in my asks.
oh and also, if you're worried because of a few negative reviews online i can comfort you by saying don't give a fuck about a certain big name youtuber who is very much tied to bethesda franchises giving this a negative review. i'll explain why.
i'm starting off with the things i liked
the game looks really pretty. i was worried it wouldn't feel like thedas anymore (with them trying to "focus on northern thedas only" i thought they'd make a clear cut in environmental design. they do and they don't. it's complicated. i'll elaborate on it when talking about the negative stuff). anyway it does. minrathous feels like kirkwall. treviso enchanted me like the winter palace did. the hossberg wetlands reminded me of the hinterlands and a couple other inquisition maps. arlathan looked like... arlathan. the crossroads were different, but familiar. overall i like the way it looks and feels. it's thedas, with a twist. it's a good one, and gives everything a solid but unique feel.
combat is top tier. if you're a hardcore dragon age player you WILL miss the tactical aspect of it for a bit, but i promise you, once you're used to the way the combat works, you will be lapping that shit up. and once you get to ability combos you'll mourn the control you used to have over your companions in battle a bit less
the MAIN quest and its story. i expected worse, way worse. and for a while the game even had me tricked (harr harr you'll get it in a second) it is Really That Much Worse. but holy shit was it good. i walked away satisfied ngl.
your choices have SOLID weight. there's consequences, good AND bad. i got minrathous blighted, ruled over by venatori, and the leader of the shadow dragons ultimately died because of my decisions. i made those at the beginning and throughout the game. he died at the end. DAVRIN died because i didn't expect what i was saying to have that much weight. i thought i was in the clear. he had hero status. well turns out, your choices can still get your companions killed even if you do everything right. i fucking love him. he shouldn't have made that sacrifice just because i told him to do everything it takes once.
the inquisitor, morrigan and dorian being there, surprisingly. there's also negatives to this though, see below.
speaking of companions dying and the inquisitor playing a bigger role: the final quest feels like me2's suicide mission. i was blown away by it and the fact that i got to see the results of all my efforts playing out in front of me.
bioware are NOT trying to redeem solas. they love him as a character yes, but i wasn't forced to see any good in him. he betrays you. he fucked my rook over twice. he fucked him over right back, for good this time (the veil wasn't torn down, i anchored it by binding him to it, he's doomed to uphold it). but solas really lives up to his name as the trickster elven god. rip to all the people who grew really attached to him over the years.
varric died. if you like him that's probably as hard reading it as it was watching it. varric died and the game lies about it until the very end. when the realisation hits, it hurts. but in the very best way.
the amount of care they put into gender expression and trans identities this time around. (i'll add onto this with negative points as well too).
rook feels very much ingrained in the world of thedas. he doesn't ask questions that expose the player to lore through dialogue as if he's stepped foot into thedas for the first time. those conversations feel very solid and good. i hope other faction players got as much joy out of this as i did.
and the things i didn't like and boy there's a lot unfortunately
the music. let's just get that out of the way holy shit. it doesn't feel like it belongs in this universe. it gets so incredibly sci-fi-y at times you'd think it's taken straight from mass effect andromeda. there's not a single song unique to veilguard that i really enjoyed. it broke my immersion, real bad. hearing a busker play the tavern songs from inquisition on a lute right after i killed some venatori with wobbly bass songs playing in the background is just odd. weird tonal shift. don't like it. it's made for people who like flashy light-weight cinema.
tevinter nights is required reading. the podcasts are required listening exercises. the game is so fast paced, especially at the start, that there's no time to introduce you to characters and how much weight their names carry in-game. i would not have known who half these people are if i hadn't skimmed over tevinter nights. i'd care even less about them than i already did. there is no time to get properly attached to them. people will act as if you're talking to a legend personified and you'll be thinking man goddamn which chapter of tevinter night were they in again and what did they do???
there's a weird mismatch with the animations. you'll have beautifully fluid ones, like emmrich casting spells. and then you'll have rook's face animating in the most unnatural manner that's sorta reminiscent of mass effect andromeda's "my face is tired" addison, when their emotions SHOULD be landing with the player rn instead.
i'm not vibing with the art style. sometimes it works. most of the time it doesn't. at points i felt like i was watching tangled.
that also brings me to some of the dialogue. same issue. i am watching frozen. i am watching tangled. someone on the writer's team really likes the adorkable trope. bellara is its victim.
for all the talk about identity, bioware sure doesn't like theirs. the grey warden armor got a redesign again and it just makes them look like a generic army. i hate it lol
in general, i don't like the armor design. the wardrobe/appearances system is fine, but it's just not helping if all the armors are just... kinda bland or downight bad looking? and don't get me started on the lords of fortune armor. that is orientalism personified.
the world states should have been carried over, full stop. i know they said they didn't because they want to separate what happens in the north from what happens in the south, which... i could have lived with that. but the inquisitor sends you letters that keep you up to date on... the south of thedas. you learn that there's a blight again, that people are standing strong but it's difficult, denerim's fallen, the rulers are taking care of it, orlais is fighting and they're successful for a while, etc etc. what's good bioware. i thought we don't care about the south this time around. why are you feeding me so much boring generic information. if you're not gonna show any of it and just write letters, then carrying the world state over should not have been an issue. i have a game dev background. those few lines of code would not have broken your budget or pushed your engine's limits. fuck right off.
this gripe of mine carries over to all the cameos. as a lord of fortune you have to deal with isabela a lot. it's fun. i missed her. you get to go drinking with her and taash and bellara! also my hawke romanced her. she's not mentioned once. they had the opportunity to put a sentence or two about her in there with not a lot of effort, trust me.
when varric dies, all she has is a single line about it. for gold, for fortune, for varric. she only says it if you interact with her on your way to the final push. that's not mandatory.
morrigan is there. kieran isn't. the old god soul that mythal and then solas absorbed? who cares at this point, the gods are dead now and solas is locked away for eternity. i suppose? why is morrigan there. she feels unneeded. i wish they'd just left her down south, at least that way i wouldn't have had to witness her god awful redesign.
dorian at least feels as if he belongs in this story. the shadow dragons are a crucial part to protecting minrathous. he's also weirdly underutilised. isabela and morrigan had more lines than him in my playthrough.
on the topic of romance: bro that was underwhelming. no, genuinely. you know when romance picked up a bit? after the point of no return. i heard maybe two lines of companion banter about it before that. maybe i missed something which i honestly doubt, but romance did not play much of a role in lucanis's storyline. i saved his grandmother as he wished me to (and if you read tevinter nights you know she was rather abusive and their relationship not the healthiest) and told him to focus on his family. a reunified family my rook wasn't even introduced to as a partner at the end of all that.
really, do not buy this game if you're only in it for the romances. others might be better, lucanis's basically gave me nothing. except for an outing (the second coffee date i had with him, it was getting repetitive) all of it played out once i committed to the final quest. the sex scene was a fade to black. annoyingly right after davrin died. if you're looking for well paced and good spice, pick up something else. the sweet talk and the final goodbye were nice though.
for all the good the ever-presence of gender identity does, it is brought up in such a disruptive manner too. it doesn't even play out naturally if you CHOOSE the lines that are meant to be said. hearing the words trans and non-binary in this setting doesn't feel right, and i'm saying this as a trans guy. i think it could have been handled more gracefully. the amount of times my rook went "i'm a MAN" as if he's about to start drumming on his chest and roaring any second now got super nerve-grating. "i'm so glad you're into me... the me who is trans. remember?" just. tell me one trans person who'd talk like that to a person they've grown close with and are trying to romance. this game doesn't handle sexuality well, so all this hey my body might not look like the way you're expecting it to look talk amounts to nothing anyway. i feel about this the way i feel about krem: this is partial exposition to trans experiences... packaged up for cis consumption. the ONLY exception to that is interacting with taash. holy shit was all of that heartwarming and bro did it feel good and natural to talk to them about theirs and rook's gender.
rivain and nevarra are new locations added by veilguard. they're also incredibly underwhelming, small and constricted maps. rivain is a coastline with a few ruins. the hall of valor is a partial ruin nestled into a cave on a beach, with a fighting pit. isabela is there in her skimpy outfit commentating your pit fights. that's it. i'm sorry if you were looking for a bustling pirate cove or whatever. you're not gonna get it. the nevarran crypts btw are a long ass dungeon crawl. that's it.
speaking of maps. i thought people were being dramatic when they said you're gonna be fighting the same enemies on them again and again. i thought they were figure of speeching it. they're not. you WILL fight the same amount of enemies. in the same spot. every time you reload the map. best to stay on a map and clear out the enemies and do as much questing on that map as you can before leaving, because you WILL have to do it all over again once you return.
the three choices i made for my inquisitor didn't matter lol she didn't have to face solas and therefore couldn't stop him at any cost as she had sworn (maybe because my rook tricked solas into binding himself to the veil, there was also an option to fight him. would she have stepped in? who knows). blackwall wasn't mentioned. and either her using a small amount of her forces in the final fight was the reason the civilians of minrathous fared so well..... or it just didn't matter. ultimately i think she had very little impact on anything
#datv#datv spoilers#dragon age: the veilguard#oh wow i hit a limit typing this#anyway to tie this up a bit: the good and bad to the environmental design being that well-known architecture like minrathous and dwarven#ruins look fire and remind me a lot of the previous games#but newly added locations are very... generic... very bland#i was very excited for rivain. i thought we'd get to see ships. not a bunch of ruins and a fighting pit and that's it#and why did i say to ignore a certain guy's review? bro because he was complaining about taash being ace and that taking up their screentim#and them being too up in your face about their identity. he did all this while she/her'ing them constantly#but my man they're trans. nb. not ace.#y'all need to be careful about bad reviews. they're coming from people who are upset about gender identity being handled as a topic in this#game. meanwhile they have no clue what they're even talking about. i don't think matty knows the difference between ace and trans#and neither do the hundreds of people who are one star rating this game currently#i liked this game. it's not top tier. it's not something i'll sink hours and hours and hours of my life into#it has tonal issues and it's moving away from what made dragon age stand out for me#but i do think that it's a genuinely fun play and people who are very invested in dragon age will squeeze joy out of it wherever they can#i had a hard time warming up to the new characters (taash and lucanis being the exception because they have an older bioware air about them#but solas's and varric's story (and don't get me wrong that's what veilguard is about) is GOOD. that is how bioware used to be.#and i wish they'd given us that energy all over the game. that direness. that grit. serious and mature writing.#that consistency is lacking#and whether you're gonna enjoy this game or not is entirely dependant on what you came here for and how well the game delivers on it#i think their weakest points are ironically the thing they advertised the most: the new companions and their writing#you won't find nuanced and good enemies here (i already reblogged something about this. you can go scroll around a bit and catch up on that#really the only thing that had me super invested and emotional was the main quest.#so make of that what you will. ultimately i was more frustrated with the game than i got enjoyment out of it. i was close to just put it#aside for now... until i went to minrathous to end ghila'nain's and elgar'nan's ritual. that all blew me away. still on a high off of it.#anyway yeah that review got cut short by the character limit maybe i'll add more to it tomorrow but rn... i am heading to bed#thanks for coming to my ted talk. also i'm sorry. zevran REALLY isn't in this.#dragon age
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you, me, and the stars
(a/n): judy x rosie girlies, this is for you!! this is for all the ones who have never been in love, who are trying to protect the last parts of themselves in the face of others, and for the ones deserving of love!! these two represent all those awkward, newly-found emotions and feelings, that surprise even themselves, so please enjoy! :)
Judy had dwindled into down to just this; home was more of a feeling, not entirely a place.
The flak house was beautiful, an escape, somewhere to get one's mind off of the mental torment that was the God-forsaken war they all seemed stuck in.
But, it wasn't Thorpe Abbotts; with its metallic scent of air, voices and grinding machine parts echoing at all hours of the day, the marching, the footsteps, the way the air danced through the tree leaves. The flak house was quiet, save for the occasional flight path overtop. Thorpe Abbotts was loud and enough to make you feel like your brain was being knocked about inside, but it was home in a way the flak house wasn't.
The thing that made Thorpe Abbotts feel like home was especially the people. All the men in the 100th, their leaders both lost and MIA, and the women of Silver Bullets.
It was just like her home, in North Carolina. With Ma and Pa, that large house on the river, big meals to feed all six kids, making sure the lambs, chickens and cows were kept up with, that laundry was hung, crops harvested, plates and bowls washed in the river.
They didn't have much, but they had each other.
And even across the ocean they still did - in more ways than one.
Now, Judy felt them even in the women beside her. Strong and courageous, putting on their brave faces against the waging war of the world. Something her family had done ever since they'd come to America.
"The stars are so bright out here," Bessie said from Judy, their arms interlinked, sat side by side on the steps in front of the flak house, the light dripping out from the main door where cool, night air rushed in,
"I almost wish Tommy could see it." Judy looked towards her with a small smile.
"He does," Judy whispered quietly, reaching a hand forward to gently brush her hand over Bessie's calloused palm, "where ever he is right now. He sees it. Maybe not this instance, but he does." She watched Bessie smile, the corners of her lips turning upward, before she glanced over at Judy, a big grin on her face, her eyes glowing, the softest they'd been in days, the least stressed Judy had seen the navigator.
"You know, when we were kids," Bessie started, "we sat in his parents' apartment, right by one of the windows and watched the stars one night, all night practically, side by side. Not only was it my first kiss, but…he also told me he'd name a star after me. I think he named it 'Bee'….something or other." Judy giggled into Bessie's side and clasped a hand over her mouth with a gleeful smile.
"You two were meant to be," Judy whispered quietly, "everything you say, about him, about you, about the two of you together. God, you'll make the cutest babies, Bessie, I'll tell ya." Now, it was Bessie's turn to laugh and shook her head.
"You know he told me one time that if he had a daughter, he'd name her Charlotte," Bessie said, "he thought the nickname, Charlie, would be cute."
"Taste." Judy said with a laugh, nudging Bessie's side, "Charlotte McKenzie has a ring to it."
"And so does Bessie McKenzie." Bessie said back, sending the two of them into a fit of chuckles under the moving dusk. They fell quiet for a beat and then Bessie sighed and wrapped an arm around Judy's side, giving her a tight squeeze and rubbing her shoulder.
"Well, I'm heading up, going to get some rest and enjoy waking up and drinking coffee without having to hear a bunch of bullshit from Blakely," Bessie said with a chuckle, "you good out here? Staying up a bit?" Judy smiled and wrapped her arms around her sides and nodded.
"Yeah, just a bit more," Judy said, "you go though, I'll be up in a bit. And…Bessie?" Bessie watched her as she stood and sent her a smile.
"Just...give Lieutenant Bradshaw an extra hug for me," Judy said sadly, "her eyes looked like she'd been crying all night. About Captain Brady, so….incase I get in late, just do that for me, please?" Bessie smiled at her and nodded.
"You think she loves him?" Bessie asked Judy. Judy stilled.
"I don't know a whole lot about love, but I know he looks at her like she's the only woman in the room," Judy said softly, "and she gets all blushy around him, all soft and sweet. I like to think the universe doesn't just do things for the hell of it." Ripping them from each other, Judy thought to herself. Bessie grinned and then looked at her sadly.
"Try and get some rest," Bessie said, "don't stay up too late, okay? You need to keep yourself well-rested. Goodnight, honey."
"Night, Bes." Judy called after her, watching Bessie offer her a smile and then disappear inside. Judy smiled softly, looking forward again towards the oncoming darkness and comfort of nightfall, the singing birds and bugs all around and sighed.
Lieutenant Bradshaw's eyes looked sadder more often than not, but she was trying and that's all the credit a person like Annie Bradshaw needed - that she was being seen.
To be seen, was to be loved.
"Hey," Judy looked over her shoulder and was almost surprised to see Rosie Rosenthal there, coming towards her from the doorway, hands in his pant pockets, his A-2 jacket over his shoulders and a soft smile on his face, "mind if I join you?" Judy watched him for a moment - he looked so….different, a nice different. A different that made her think they weren't in war for a second.
"Of course, sir," Judy said, watching as he came forward and settled down on the step beside her where Bessie had been, "come to watch the stars?" Rosie let out a chuckle and then glanced towards her, his face bathed in blues and purples from the night, his eyes like a doe's as he watched her.
"You could say that." he said, then he grinned, nodding at her,
"How've you been?" Judy watched him, unable to contain the grin wanting to grow on her face and then chuckled lightly.
"Good," she said, and then smiled nervously, "sir, uh, good, being away from base, it's been….a breath of fresh air, I'll admit. Just, not having to get those planes going in the morning, get in the ball turret and shoot, over and over. It's nice to just….." she watched as he watched her, "be."
"Good," Rosie said, his voice light, "good, good, I'm glad. Really. You've all been putting out the last few months. I know that - Pappy's been talking Kennedy's ear off and well…."
"Collateral damage." Judy supplied and Rosie nodded with a small chuckle, looking down at his hands in his lap.
"Exactly, exactly," Rosie said and then glanced up at her, "I'm just glad the Silver Bullets crew is getting some deserved rest. All of you."
"Thank you, sir." Judy said, her voice tender, watching him in a moment of seriousness that was different than a few seconds previous.
He watched her for a moment, just taking in the feeling it seemed, the same she was allowing herself to feel in her heart. They both seemed to come to at the same time and smiled, laughs leaving both their lips as Judy shyly looked away and crossed her arms.
"I'm sorry, Judy, are you, uh, cold?" Rosie asked leaning forward a bit, and placing a hand on her shoulder, "October's never been a great month for short sleeves." Judy watched him, looking between his face, his hand and him. Short sleeves, right, she was in that right now. And freezing; he was right. How'd he know? She glanced down at her short sleeves, her right side hidden beneath his hand and then looked to him, his face full of worry and seriousness. And then she let out a shy laugh and blushed quickly and then nodded.
"A bit, but," she shook her head, "I was planning to go upstairs in a bit anyway, so, it's okay."
"Here," Rosie said quickly, shrugging himself out of his A-2 and then leaning to his side to lay it over her shoulders, "just to warm up." And warm up she did in fact do; to the point, she was blushing all over and inhaling the scent from his jacket and him beside her and suddenly very overwhelmed with his presence. Alright, so it was a stupid feeling she had been trying to hide, but it was a feeling she had never felt all too well. And in a war, she wasn't sure what to even feel. But right now, with this jacket and him beside her, she wasn't as eager to head up to bed anymore.
"Thank you," she said softly, grasping the edges and then looking at him, "I appreciate it really." Rosie watched her with that tender gaze of his again before leaning back a bit and looking up.
"You can really see the stars from here," he said, his voice a small bit of astonishment and adornment for the world above them, glowing with the life of the night, shining little orbs so far away they'd never be able to actually grasp them, "they're beautiful."
"Yeah," Judy said, her eyes traveling back up to the night sky above them, "sitting in the darkness, on the ground, staring at the stars? It's almost like home." She could feel Rosie staring now, and glanced his way. Something so harrowing, yet nostalgic in a way. A mixture of feelings lingering between them at her simple statement - thoughts of home, seemingly so far away now, a place that'd be changed in a thousand different ways by the time they did actually got home - if they got home.
"Where is home?" he asked quietly, leaning to his side to bump her shoulder. She laughed quietly.
"North Carolina." she said, glancing at him in the quiet - she could practically hear him breathing. It was so … comforting.
"A tiny town," she admitted, "nothing big, a river, a general market, a wood mill, friends here and there down the road. But it was home." Judy looked over slowly towards Rosie beside her and quirked out a smile as she saw him sitting there, grinning.
"What?" she said grinning, "Where you from?"
"Brooklyn." he said, looking at her. Judy's face hurt from smiling, but it was okay because it was Rosie.
"Brooklyn," Judy said with a soft smile, "never really been in one of those big cities."
"You'd like it," Rosie said, looking out towards the darkness, "you'd fit right in. Bright lights, the people, the music. All of it." He looked at her. Judy smiled and pulled her knees to her chest, and glanced towards him again.
"Music, huh?" she asked him and he looked at her with a smile.
"Yeah, can't sing real well, but my mom, my sisters, they're pretty good. Far better than me," he said with a nod, and then grinned, "still love music though. You can never go wrong with Artie Shaw." Judy smiled, her thoughts consumed with the idea of what a younger version of this Rosie could've been, home with his family, dancing and attempting to sing. Far away from war and fear and grief. She liked the thought of that at some point, they were all like that. Young, youthful and free.
"Did you do a lot of music and dancing before the war then?" Judy asked him quietly, with a hopeful smile, watching as he comprehended her sentence and then let out a small smile. He shook his head and then leaned forward on his bent knees.
"I was a lawyer before the war actually," Rosie said and Judy's eye widened in near amazement, "yeah, was doing that and then the war broke out. Couldn't just sit back and do nothing." His face grew serious at that last statement and then melted as he looked at her.
"What about you? What was the thing Judy Rybinski was doing before this whole thing started?" he asked, leaning forward, with genuine curiosity and she watched him before letting out a laugh and shaking her head.
"I'm afraid nothing as cool as being a lawyer," she admitted and she watched Rosie's face soften as he tilted his head towards her, "but I was 3 years removed from high school, didn't have money for college so….I worked in the local mechanics, fixing cars, boats, anything and everything. Learning what I could. Made some good money, too." Judy watched him and sighed.
"But….I always dreamed of getting to go to college, continue to learn, allow myself to grow," she said, her thoughts swimming back to that time her parents told her they didn't have enough to help get her through schooling and Judy had cried herself to sleep and then gathered herself together and gone to the mechanic to start learning some trade, "maybe get a job teaching. Maybe geography or something of that sort….I don't know. One day, that's the goal." Rosie stayed watching her, his eyes holding her gaze as she looked at him.
"You should go for it," Rosie told her, "when the war is over, I mean. You'd be a great teacher, great with kids, getting to teach, you just…." Rosie cut himself off for a moment and then smiled at her, suddenly looking more shy and unsure of himself than in recent minutes. Judy watched him, her cheeks warming slightly at his encouragement and genuine thought. It made her stomach twist pleasingly. Rosie let out a nervous laugh and then looked at her, crossing his arms and leaning against his upbent knees.
"You're just someone I like being around," Rosie admitted quickly, running a hand behind his neck and then glancing at her, "and I think you'd be someone good at teaching kids. And being a teacher so….I think you should go for it." Judy was watching him, her cheeks all crimson and her heart racing and for a moment, she caught his gaze and she saw things that made her heart race faster.
Rosie Rosenthal was equally someone she liked being around, but the thought of telling him that made her sweaty and panicky and she figured she'd embarrass herself, so instead, she blushed further and smiled.
"Thank you, sir," she said quietly, and then let out a small laugh, "sorry, it's just….I haven't really told many people that, so…it just means a lot - the support I mean." Rosie smiled at her and nodded.
"You deserve good things after this war, Judy," Rosie said and then swallowed, "all of us do." Judy watched him, this urge to reach out and brush her palm against his cheek inviting her closer, a wish to curl up beside him and let the stars stare down at them, the need for human touch, to be looked at and loved.
By Rosie.
"You too, sir," she said quietly, her smile soft, "only the best." This staring, these lingering glances, they seemed to be whatever they couldn't say and just that look in his eyes made her blush further. Judy tried to control her racing heart, and her breath, and then cleared her throat.
"I think I'll be heading up now," Judy said, and pressed her palms against her cheeks and then sighed and looked to him, "Bessie said she'd braid my hair and I don't want to keep her up."
"Of course," Rosie said, standing to his feet and then offering his own hand towards her, which she took rather quickly, and then stood there, staring up at him like a goof, "try and get some rest tonight, alright?"
"You too," she said, and then chuckled, "sorry, Lieutenant Bradshaw said she couldn't sleep last night and it ended up being the two of you down here, with Doc, unable to fall asleep, just talking and stuff. So….yeah, just, you too, sir." Rosie laughed at her words and then schooled his facial expressions again.
"Thanks, Judy."
Staring at him, she couldn't constrain what she felt and stood on her tiptoes, before placing a small kiss to his cheek, and then turned and walked away, as fast as her feet could carry her and up the stairs, towards the room she was sharing with Bessie. Her mind raced, her thoughts knocking at the edges of her brain as she hurried in, shut the door, and let out a sigh, before turning to the two beds, where Bessie was sat up in one, reading a book and staring at her, confused.
"Since when did you get a jacket….like that?" Bessie said, raising a brow, "And that, large?" Judy blushed and then tried to speak and choked on her air a bit before clearing herself up.
"It's just Lieutenant Rosenthal's," she said, stepping forward and settling on the side of her bed to take her shoes off, "he saw me outside, gave it to me because he said I looked cold."
"Judith Rybinski," Bessie, sitting up and then practically launching out of the bed to sit beside her, "you're blushing like a loon! What happened?" Judy looked at Bessie, her heart pounding, her thoughts racing, emotions running high in far too many wacky ways. Bessie watched her excitedly, but then slowly let her face fall and wrapped an arm around her shoulder.
"I think he's just being nice," Judy whispered quietly and then shook her head, "and then I gave him a kiss on the cheek because I wasn't thinking-"
"-a kiss? On the cheek?"
"Yes, yes, a kiss on the cheek, it was stupid, he was just trying to be nice-"
"Giving you his jacket in this cold is never just him being nice, Judy-"
"It's a part of it-"
"But not all of it!" Bessie said and looked at her, and smirked, "He probably wants to you know….get to know you more." Judy stared at her and then let her shoulders fall and shook her head.
"No….I don't think so," Judy said and then crossed her arms and bit back her lip, "and plus, did you know he was a lawyer before the war? Bes, he's probably, I don't know, someone from some sort of money to do that sort of thing, ya know? My family comes from people who've lived on the streets, we showered once a week as kids. What am I thinking?" Judy ran her hands over her face and sighed, before squeezing her eyes shut.
"It's stupid," Judy said quietly, "it's just a stupid crush, it'll go away. He's just being nice, and I latched onto that because a nice guy, is a nice guy. But that's it. And….it's fine. I'll be fine." She grew quiet and watched as Bessie stared at her, eyes full of that lingering worry.
"It's not a stupid crush, alright?" Bessie told her, "You're allowed to feel that and if someone's ever told you otherwise, they're the stupid ones. He clearly is someone who is interested, too, Judy. Don't discredit that about yourself. You're one of the sweetest peaches I've ever met. And someone like that? You deserve that." Judy looked over at Bessie and then offered a small smile.
"Thank you, Bessie," Judy said, leaning to her side to pull Bessie into a hug, "you're too nice to me." Bessie chuckled into the hug and patted her back.
"You deserve it, Judy." Bessie said, "A whole lot of things, but sweetness is one of the many."
#screaming crying sobbing#judy you deserved to be loved !!!!#don't forget that girl#judy rybinski can just be so personal to someone ya know? like girl I GET IT!!!!#the art of wondering if you should allow yourself to be loved#like good lord#judy just gets it#and bessie my sweet darling angel - u deserve the best#the annie shout out tho (sobs)#ANYWAY#masters of the air#mota#mota writings#silver bullets#judy rybinski#rosie rosenthal#robert rosenthal#rosie rosenthal x oc#judy x rosie#bessie carlisle#annie bradshaw#<- mentioned#ENJOY!!!!! (bc i am emotional over these two and could write an essay haha plz ask about them if you wish <333)
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My best friend Fandom has once again returned and asked me to post to Tumblr for her! Once again, I have permission to post this video and all edits were done by Fandom (http.redshoes on Instagram)
These memes are all based on Cryptid Sightings by @naffeclipse
She has a lot to say this time around!
A message from Fandom:
"Hello Naff!! And hello everyone :D
It’s me, your girl, your local meme and edit maker, Fandom (aka http.redshoes on Insta 😎)
I’ve come back to make another meme comp for you guys! I wanted to make this earlier, but:
1. I was busy saving/collecting ATSV content on Instagram like Pokémon to getting noticed twice by Jack in the Box ☺️
2. I had to create an Ao3 account (understandably ofc AI theft sucks) and was um. You know… being silly in the comment section 👀 (please don’t mind me if you ever stumble upon them - I react and appreciate the stuff I enjoy in weird ways 💔)
3. Was waiting for my friend here to finish reading so I didn’t spoil anything in the memes! We both loved the series so much and man. The Naff do be eclipsing fr in releasing chapters left and right biggest round of applause for one of my favorite authors here 👏👏👏
Naff, you did such a great job writing this fanfic. I’m going to repeat myself from the comment section BUT you need to give yourself a pat on the back, relax, take a break - just reward yourself. You deserve it all and I hope that you take care of yourself for all the hard work you’ve done 💞💞💞
I’ve also included the lovely artist themselves, @themeeplord , again in one of my meme comps.
It’s only one meme but dang they always draw Eclipse to be getting that gain 💪💪💪 (bc of how muscular he is haha.) Mad respect to all of the drawings they create - they’re always a banger to see.
(Most of the memes surround the last episode + epilogue so if you haven’t read those chapters LOOK ‼️ AWAY ‼️ Don’t get spoiled 🤯)
(P.S. for the imagine scenario that’s not a meme, this is what they’re saying in the audio:
“[Amused] You can hear their heartbeats? Come on, that’s a little far fetched.”
“[Soft chuckling] I can hear yours too… Your heart’s beating pretty fast.”
I’d like to think this would take place around the beginning of “The Episode Bedeviling Bodies,” where the Hunter is still trying to understand their dear friend and what they’re capable of. I thought it was fitting ngl and included it in the comp.
There were uh, more memes I wanted to include, but I’m running low on storage space atm. I’ll get back to making more after I’m done clearing that out ^^’)
(P.P.S. Okay I don’t have Tumblr obviously but 🕴️ apparently you guys really liked the SJ memes I made??? Because my friend’s been receiving notifs of it still??? Thank you so much you guys!! I didn’t really expect people to enjoy them that much 😭💘💘💘)
Now without further ado, enjoy the meme comp! >:D " -Fandom
#river says...#bestie posting#cryptid sighting#crytid sightings spoilers#many more memes for everyone to enjoy :)#now that I've caught up to CS i can actually look at these memes hdjssjn#real talk though#crytid sightings is genuinely such a beautiful fic and one of my favorite stories of all time#naff has such an incredible writing style and is such a good storyteller#i really recommend reading CS even if you're not into fnaf#it's such a rollercoaster#the fluff is so sweet and the angst is so heartbreaking#but everything just works#I'm so grateful to have found Naff and her work#she's such a lovely person and an extremely talented author#I am so excited to see what she writes next#especially since the end of CS had me so emotional#i will never get over this fic#sorry for the long rambling tags but i had to gush a little bdjdjsj#hope you guys enjoy the memes <3
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"makotolookinass"
the intersection of nu: carnival and free! fans that are all here because of our favorite green haired hunks (himbos?) is so funny
but it kinda makes sense given that both nu: carnival and free! are both at their core about caring about the people closest to you and prevailing internal struggles
dang , anonn, you really cut thru all the glamours of distraction
in brief contrast, i feel like a simple creature. one who was dragged into the intersection simply because i saw some dudes with Unlikely Physiques
#feesh answer#i mean... it started out that way for most of us huh?#then they heckimfk. GOT US#with the char development and lasting bonds an whatevr#it's abou t thte grioup dynamics and how they're all little freaks but they're little freaks who can rely on each other#and bring each other the Happiness#i say Unlikely Physiques because WHAT HIGHSHOOLCHOLERS HAVE BODIES LIKE THAT. WOSHOMST????#makes me think back to that thing i saw. which was probably a post on tumblr#where ppl had the same reaction and someone went ☝ actuallY! it's not out of the realm of possibility to have well-trained swimmers#at this age. lookin like this!! for example. look at xyz(figures and pictures of Likely Physiques under Conditions)#me squinting at makoto's back the entire time like.....i still find it difficult to believe.#i WANT to believe. but i find it difficult to do so. high schoolers the size of a car...#i think i got into a debate with a friend over Free! wives AHAHA#they were big on Rin and i was like girl i aint about that attitude . emotional constipation. i'm gonna hang out with Tall Mom#then they offered sousuke as a counter#and i repeated myself like GIRL I JUST SAID I WAS NOT ABOUT THAT EMOTIONAL DISTRESS. I AM GOING WITH THE (EMOTIONALLY AVAILABLE) TALL MOM#and they went on about how makoto was insufferably boring compared to rin and sousuke#and i shrugged because we EVIDENTLY are looking for different traits in our wives. what? emotional stability is boring now??!?!#tho... makoto emotional stability is questionable. i didn't follow the series after the 1st season so i prob missed out on a lot#the mans got a yandere streak and probably other issues. but i didn't get as deep into free! as i did with nuca#so...lemme just enjoy my green swimming wife at a superficial level... ok [rin and sousuke] friend?#we shook hands in camaraderie at the end. we may wife Different Tropes but the world needs All Types#idk i guess the tropes wormed their way into my brain#i saw those droopy anime eyes with the smile and the green theme and concluded 'i am safe here'#stupid cartoon patterns crafting schema all up in my psychology
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Dazai truly has become Oda in every way imaginable now. :’ ) the final words he gives to Sigma are the exact same words Oda gives to Dazai in the original scene Asagiri wrote for the end of the Dark Era stage play, 後は頼んだよ, “I will leave the rest to you.”
And I really love the progression of the way his eyes look in this chapter, and how Sigma is allowed to have this moment of questioning and rebelling against all the faith Dazai had naturally been leading him to place in him up to this point, which is what I hoped would happen. He’s been confused ever since Dazai first chose him, and everything he’s ever known about how everyone sees/treats him turned upside down by Dazai’s words and actions, and just when he’s finally started to feel like he’s found some hope and lowered his guard, Dazai pulls him back underwater, instantly reinforcing all of Sigma’s trust issues and reinforcing that he should never believe in anyone, because (he thinks) everyone lives to manipulate other people. Dazai’s dark eyes here reinforce that, too, and the other panels around this point where they look white and hollow and demonic, all like Fyodor’s. He appears like an evil, looming force pulling him back under, trying to kill him, when Sigma is so close to the freedom of the air he desperately wants (aka free from pain, which is what he’s been seeking his whole life).
But then Dazai makes this face, and the first one I posted above, and Sigma understands, even without words, that Dazai doesn’t have evil intent: on the contrary, he actually is bound and determined to save his life -- and the light in his eyes comes out through this determination and kindness, arguably the most light we’ve ever seen his eyes have in the entire manga (in the “I leave the rest to you” panel too). The “No” could be Dazai wordlessly telling him to not leave the water, but my first assumption was that it was Sigma telling himself no, stopping his own train of thought about Dazai being the same as Fyodor and someone he shouldn’t have trusted -- he soon realizes why Dazai stopped him, and that he’s still going to try to save him, that he wasn’t wrong about him, and it’s all because Dazai’s earnest expressions get through to him.
And it’s just so heartwarming to see how far Dazai has come. :’ ) He tried so hard to save Sigma (doing the most physical action we’ve ever seen him do, really), did his best to be reassuring and comforting to him afterwards, and then reaffirmed his promise to ensure he escaped Meursault alive, his final words to Sigma echoing Oda’s and his last action being to save an orphan, just like Oda did in his last moments. Obviously Dazai isn’t actually going to die, he’ll be saved somehow, but I do think as of right now he really does think this is the end for him, and that he didn’t foresee the elevator dropping -- he was examining the wires a few chapters ago because he thought he might need to know how to open the doors in case Fyodor pulled an uno reverse, hence why he looks more annoyed than shocked when the water starts, but here, when the drop collision sequence is initiated, he looks genuinely shook in comparison. There’d be no reason for him to give the thumbs up if he knew more danger was on the way, either; that’d just be cruel. No, I don’t think he saw this coming, and it’s important that that turns out to be the case: it’s important that he spent what he believes to have been his last moments saving someone like Oda wanted for him, and doing what Oda would have done in the same situation. That doesn’t mean that it’s okay that Dazai throws his life away so easily, and cares so little for his own safety; he still has a long way to go in that regard. But it’s still so beautiful to see how much he’s changed, and how much he’s truly begun to embody Oda and his legacy; the fact that he messed up and miscalculated, because Dazai isn’t infallible, but in turn didn’t hesitate to use his last moments to save Sigma. Oda would be so proud for everything he did here. :’ ) 💖
There are a lot of options for how Dazai will be saved, and by who, but personally I hope (and I kind of expect) that Sigma chooses to not give up on him and ultimately plays a role in saving his life, to return the favor and repay him for his kindness. Not only would it be a beautiful way to initiate Sigma’s ADA entrance exam as people have said, but it would bring the Dazai > Atsushi > Sigma chain full circle: Dazai saved Atsushi at the start of the series, allowing him to (spiritually) save Sigma at sky casino thanks to the growth fostered in him by Dazai, and now finally, Sigma could potentially save Dazai thanks to Atsushi kickstarting his own growth (and Dazai continuing it). Fyodor is overly cocky right now and so tunnel-visioned on killing Dazai, it’s possible that he has no idea that Sigma managed to escape the elevator and is now a wild card; even if Sigma doesn’t go as far as killing Fyodor himself (which I don’t want, tbh; that’s endgame stuff arcs down the line and imo Nikolai and Dazai should be the ones involved with that), he could throw a wrench in the jailbreak duel, and help Dazai and Chuuya get out alive. It would be poetic, and only fitting, for Fyodor to underestimate and be outdone by the kind of person Dazai told him is the strongest in chapter 77 -- a self-proclaimed “ordinary man” -- who could only have the strength to take such action thanks to the chain of kindness that Oda originally started. 💖
#bungou stray dogs#bsd 106.5#meta#this chapter was literally everything i could have wanted i am SO EMOTIONAL#I WILL NEVER BE OVER IT#ASAGIRI GIVING ME LITERALLY EVERYTHING I EVER COULD HAVE WANTED#DAZAI HAS GROWN SOOOO MUCH HE'S BECOME SO MUCH LIKE ODA I COULDN'T BE MORE PROUD 😭😭😭💖💖💖#as soon as i saw that big panel of his face i was like........ he looks like oda......... ASAGIRI I SEE YOUUUUUU#AND THE FINAL WORDS#I SEE YOUUUUUUUUUU#ISTG IF DAZAI THINKS ABOUT ODA WHEN HE THINKS HE'S GONNA DIE BEFORE HE GETS SAVED I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST#ASAGIRI PLEASE THIS IS THE PERFECT OPPORTUNITY I WILL CRYYYYYYY 😭🥺🥹💖#Dazai was so much like Oda here and Sigma looked just like Atsushi in that one panel DONT TOUCH MEEEE#THIS WHOLE CHAPTER WAS SO PERFECT#I NEED SIGMA TO SAVE HIM NOW#the longest chapter we've gotten in AGES and it was a banger god bless#tbh i really needed this after season 4 lmao i needed a reminder of why i love this series so much :''''') something to soothe my rage#asagiri saw my bitterness at anime sigma and was like 'here u go babe i got your sigma and dazai and oda feast'#probably means next month will be short again and a pov change lmao 🥲💔#gonna enjoy this while it lasts#anyway i was really happy to see that moment of Sigma getting mad even if it didn't last long (and for a beautiful reason)#because he Deserved that#(because that's what i wrote in my fic and i feel vindicated now even if that wasn't the main focus of this chapter looool oops-)
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morgchie is such a severe mismatch of freak and it makes me feel so bad for morgan bc 😭 i mean she also thinks so but not in the way that it actually is! bc HER perspective on things Pre Literally Everything From The Moment He Showed Up At The Hospital With Sam Onward was like “damn. richie is so normal. cool of him to put up with me but why the hell is he doing that” and it’s like babygirl. you are a teenager w severe childhood trauma that left you feeling fundamentally shut off from your peers who likes holing up in ur room drawing silly little horror characters. that man is ghostface and he’s evil. YOU are not the worse off one in this r/s 😭
#like you know a lil too much abt fnaf and got samara morgan/slenderman/bughuul/ghostface painted on ur bedroom wall#sure.#but he is planning a massacre he got NO kinda room to think YOURE weird 😭#you have to understand that morgan’s metric of normal is like#can socialize w others and enjoys doing so. has a visible emotional range. generally seems to be having a Good Time#has not had their brain chemistry irreparably altered in a way that makes them feel alien around other ppl#so basically. the inverse of what she has going on 😭#so ofc she thinks he’s normal 😭#sure he may be a grown man obsessed w stab who is dating a high schooler#(well two. but she didnt know him n amber were a thing until WAAAAAY later 😭)#but he’s expressive + can talk to ppl & hold down a job + does not seem apathetic abt whether he lives to see tomorrow 😭#and comes from a seemingly stable bg off what she knows abt it which is. not an insane amount but enough to know it was Not like hers!#so shed say he’s still significantly better off than her 😭#id say babygirl were gonna get u some better self esteem but this like. isnt even#a thing she beats herself up over. to her its just kind of a fact#water is wet. the sky is blue. richie’s gotta have other options better than a very troubled 17 yr old n she dk why he isnt pursuing Them#thing is he sorta kinda doesnt?? given his track reco-*i am SHOT*#— ♡ 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘱𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘰𝘮 (𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘭𝘭) // morgan fox.#— ➴ 𝘨𝘪𝘳𝘭𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘨𝘦 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘣𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘳. // morgchie.#— slasherverse posting.
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i am so serious when i say that thinking about varric tethras for even a moment turns me into a crying mess every single time
#dragon age spoilers#dragon age veilgaurd spoilers#dragon age the veilgaurd spoilers#datv spoilers#da4 spoilers#okay i think that covers all of them BUT I AM SO FOR REAL ABOUT THIS#ten in real life years of knowing and loving this man….#we all expected something like this in the end but THE WAY IT WENT DOWN#the slow crushing realization once you’re in the fade#i was so devastated i had to pause SEVERAL times to take it in and that’s with harding’s death hitting me on top of this#saw a tweet saying this is for the player to learn to let go and it fucked me up big time#the theming of learning to let go hits harder and works so well for your companions too#emmrich and bellara and taash especially#i swear if i think about him or ANY of this at work tomorrow it’s so over for me#i’m getting choked up again just typing this out#love when stories can make me viscerally FEEL like this so no fear i am enjoying the emotional torment. so much#limited edition post
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My art is getting too neat and bland looking i dont like it
#like yes on some technical level ive improved over the past few years#but i miss drawing messy and letting a feeling/emotion carry me through a drawing#its like. im getting more followers on ig and suddenly i have that social media disease where subconsciously i want to appeal to people#but like.. fuck that#i am most inspired by art that is. just hostile. and aggressively weird and scary to most people#idk#definetely thinking about it too much. i think the real solution is to think about it less!#but tk be honest i mostly enjoy drawing cute things and people kissing
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I swear why are half the things i like/fandoms im in made of mostly younger people while the other half are mostly older people? what are the zoggin odds with that?
How it feels being 20 in a fandom with a bunch of 30-40 somethings.
VS how it feels being 20 in a fandom with a bunch of 14-17 somethings.
like am do i just have extremely odd luck with things i like or is this just what being 20 is like?
#I go browse homestuck twitter and find out an artist I like is turning 16. I go to warhammer twitter and see a meme poster I enjoy is almost#three times my age.#like how do you get a person to somehow feel too old to be in a one fandom yet too young to be in the another?#i know this sounds stupid but it happens every time i like something#world of warcraft has people who have been playing this game for as long as i have been alive#despite aging with the game minecraft is primarily youngsters#team fortress 2 is somehow both too young and too old a fanbase#i've long since reconciled with the fact pretty much everything i like is over a decade old but why cant i just like something with a ->#similar age base? like it would be nice to interact with people that like similar things i like on a consistent basis.#I don't want to buzz around my 2 friends ears trying to not talk too much about my interests. Don't get me wrong I love those two gits but-#its not like i can complain about those childish gits who kept blocking the good fishing nodes in world of warcraft#I cant share my homestuck art and make references to characters that they don't know#I like making references! references make up roughly 1/3rd my jokes! Heck they make up my zogging dialogue too!#HECK I SAY ZOG AND GIT BECAUSE I AM A BLOODY STUPID MIMIC! I'M NOT EVEN BRITISH I LIVE IN MASSACHUSETTS!#YET EVERY TIME I GET A NEW “main interest” OR WHATEVER I END UP TAKING IN ZOGGIN SPEECH PATTERNS FROM THE DANG THINGS!#I ONCE MUTTERED “merde” WHEN THINGS WENT WRONG FOR LIKE OVER A YEAR BECAUSE SPY SAID IT AND ONLY STOPPED WHEN MY BILINGUAL AND FRENCH TAKIN#FATHER AND BROTHER RESPECTIVELY TOLD ME IT MEANT SHIT#I SAY “SLAPS ME ON THE KNEE” AND “SUCKS ON ICE” BECAUSE OF A MAIN INTEREST!#MY POSTURE GOT BETTER SOLELY BECAUSE I DID NOTHING BUT LEVEL A ZANDALARI HUNTER UNTIL LEVEL 120.#WHEN LAUGHING A MODERATE AMOUNT I DO THE /LOL ORC EMOTE. WHEN CHUCKLING I PUT MY HAND ON MY MOUTH LIKE SHIVER FROM SPLATOON BLOODY 3!!!#I HAVE BEEN UNINTENTIONALLY MIMICKING THINGS I LIKE FOR YEARS! I BOB MY HEAD AND WALK DIGITIGRADE BECAUSE I HEARD BIRDS/DINOSAURS DO IT TO-#BALANCE WHEN WALKING. AND THE ONLY REASON I SUCKED AT RUNNING WAS BECAUSE WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I WATCHED A SCENE OF ICE AGE WHERE SID WAS WAL#ING AND MIMICKED HOW HE WALKED FOOT -> FOOT INSTEAD OF HEEL -> TOE HEEL -> TOE#AND NOW I GUESS I'M JUST WAITING FOR WHAT ILL GET FROM HOMESTUCK HUH#ugh if you can't tell this is a midnight brainrot post. i may be awake and on my computer but this still has the energy of that kind of pos#saturday warhammer and the following wendys browsing for ya folks.#midnight brainrot#Man i needed to get those off my chest#not like anyone reads these midnight brainrot posts anyways#oh yeah gotta tag art and paint.net so i can easily find these drawings later if i need them
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