#and cas LOVES him for it but he doesnt just learn how to love okay he learns how to smile when he’s dying. he learns little human phrases

[adidegmez]

spn s14 spoilers

s14 ep1(stranger in a strange land)

i want to watch spn but at the same time i dont. last 2 seasons. i dont want to say goodbye. but i need to kearn how their stories end. i must say dean looks amazing. they'll find dean, sam and cas theyre trying so hard.

s14 ep2(gods and monsters)

poor nick, lucifer used him. i love bobby. when he came back i didnt think we would see him this much. its nice to see him he is like our bobby but he is not him. i wish he could come back. cas' speech was beautiful, he changed so much. i love him. jack is right and i dont like that. dean would agree with jack. but dean cant die theyll find another way. and theyll save dean. why didnt cas go with nick? dean isnt dean its Michael right? that was the plan. i hope he is dean but i dont think so.

s14 ep3(the scar)

dean is back. the beard, really dean. I thought Kaia's story would be left unfinished. im glad theyre telling it. Jack is still young and has been through so much already. jack saved the girl. and now he is sick. i love dad cas, when he is talking to jack he is awesome. dean said yes and saved his brother and son. yes michaelhurt people but dean did what he had to do.

s14 ep4(mint condition)

dean wanted a friend like stuart. when he was mad at his dad he could just go and hang out with his friend. he now has cas but it wouldve been nice for him when he was young. i love fanboy dean. his love for movies is beautiful. i hope they can have a nice halloween next year. i would like to see the cosplay.

s14 ep5(nightmare logic)

jack and cas finally went to hunt. i wish we could see that. i love bobby but he needs to be more chill. he is bobby but not our bobby. our bobby's relationship with the boys was different, it was beautiful. i missed him. i didnt think bobby would live this long. i thought they would kill him. im glad he is alive. i am not sure about bobby and mary tho.

s14 ep6(optimism)

i missed Charlie. They had planned everything but the "old man" destroyed Dean. He never expected this. he is offended. jackrealy played his role. i like both of them. they are amazing. i like how both of them thinks Michael is their fault and not the other ones. i love how jack is trying to convince dean to forgive himself. i liked how sam convinced Charlie to stay. i missed our Charlie and bobby. jack is truly a winchester. he is not okay.

s14 ep7(unhuman nature)

hi cas! nick learned some stuff from luci, like torturing:(. dean let jack drove the baby:'). and what is wrong with dean? jack is their son dean'S cas' and sam's. and they love him so much. i mostl forget jack is just a baby. at least rowena helped, it was nice of her. nick is a psychopath. he lost his mind. if he doesnt want to feel those feelings he shouldve asked for help from the boys or he couldve killed himself but he chose lucifer. when lucifer comes back there will be chaos. hell cause so much pain but nick doesnt even care. i thnik luci will save jack probably not willingly but i think jack will live because of him. maybe hell get his grace back.

s14 ep8(byzantium)

no no no no. this cant be happenning jack cant die. dean and cas werent with him. even if they were he cant die. theyll bring him back. im glad kelly got the chance to see her boy. the winchesters and cas, they raised jack well. he is amazing. empty is ruthless. im glad it didnt take cas now but it will take him when he is finally happy. i hope it cant but this story will end, cas' story will end. and i guess thats how it will end. this is bad but for now both cas and jack are safe. im happy for lily she saved jack and she got her reward in the end. the winchesters are back together again. i wish Chuck would come. he couldve beaten Michael easily. and the boys wouldnt have to fight with him. but Chuck is with his sister idek what theyre doing but it wouldnt take long to kill Michael. boys are great dads. they have their son back, they really love their son. i love seeing team free will 2.0. they are all amazing.

s14 ep9(the spear)

no garth wouldnt do that. i think he is working with the winchesters. i love garth. i think i love ketch too. he did some(a lot maybe) bad things but he is trying to do the right thing. i dont like the fact that dean lied to kaia. yes they need the spear, hopefully theyll keep their end of the deal and return her to her home. why did Michael let sam live? what did he do to him? no! Michael took dean, again. dean isnt gone hell beat Michael. dean will win.

s14 ep10(nihilism)

hi pamela. dean's dream, its beautiful. but where is jack in that dream? i cant ake Michael serious. he has dean's face. btw ill always choose dean againts anyone and anything. because hell always win he is always on the right side. jack shouldnt believe what Michael says. im the cage?! dean is so powerfull. hell keep him there for a while. at least billie helped them. 1>14,000,605. dean will save the World, again.

s14 ep11(damaged goods)

Dean says goodbye to everyone. thats not good, hes going to do something. well, what deans doing is not the perfect solution but it can provide more time for others to find a good way to get out of this situation. dean didnt say goodbye to cas and jack?

s14 ep12(prophet and loss)

i thought nicks story ended. dean you did everything you could do for sammy and you are still apologizing. sam, did it. he conviced dean.

s14 ep13(lebanon)

No one can steal the baby. i hate that girl. omg! he wanted his dad. john is back. winchesters are back together. cant they be happy just for once. constantine:) . im glad they all got to spend time together but i hoped john could stay and they could be happy. but this is supernatural and they dont get happy endings most of the time.

s14 ep14(ouroboros)

jack is using his soul more:(. i love rowena more now. rowena cares about them. she cares about jack. i dont want jack to be soulless. yes jack is a winchester and i think cas is a winchester too. if Michael is really dead and jack got his power back then whats gonna happen rest of the season?

s14 ep15(peace of mind)

jack doesnt have a soul, great! well, at least he is trying to do good things.

s14 ep16(don't go in the woods)

i dont like those kids. i hope we'll never see them again.

s14 ep17(game night)

nick became lucifer. i couldnt tell the differance. he was a monster. jack didnt do wrong, if he didnt kill nick he would try to do the same thing again. yes something is wrong with jack but he will get better. Mary pushed Jack too hard, maybe if she left him alone for a few minutes he would be able to pull himself together.

s14 ep18(absence)

No, Jack couldn't have killed Mary. dean and sam theyll be devastated. dean dont be mad at cas. he was just trying to do what he thought was right. The flashback scenes are killing me. I get sadder with each scene. There is 1 season left, I have been watching their stories for 3 months. I don't know how to say goodbye to them. rowena changed so much, i like the winchester affect. she cares about jack and the others. i didnt think mary would die. but she did.

s14 ep19(jack in the box)

hi bobby! i hate dumah now, i didnt like her before and now she is worse. Jack is very open to manipulation. cas did a good thing. dumah doesnt deserve that kinda power. They should have known that box couldn't hold Jack. Dean can be so cruel sometimes, he lied to Jack so easily. and sam he wasnt okay with it he struggelled while lying to jack. i hope they can figure this out. and thing could be way it was. lucifer always makes everything worse.

s14 ep20(moriah)

Chuck!! if jack was sam den would do anyhing to save sam. jack could be saved. jack will return only he can beat Chuck. and he will beat Chuck, he has to. Chuck is a monster. jack is just trying to be good. im glad dean didnt kill jack. he saw jack was struggling and he was trying to do te right thing so he didnt kill him. 1 last season

[mrkis]

WHEN I TELL YOU I THREW MY PHONE AWAY SCREAMING AT THIS 😭😭😭 I knew it was a moment of realization to him. I just knew it.

The whole chapter pulled on my heartstrings and I felt for him, the ptsd from his past relationship, the being cautious of letting anyone in - I get that. 🥺 Honesly, I can see the growth in his relationship with mc, and I love it. Also, the fact that he wants to speak to her and clear shit up, but thats just easier said than done, especially when both of them have trouble speaking out their minds and hearts. Especially, considering how complicated their relationship is because they feel like they are crossing boundaries when they aren't.

Eunbin... that selfish, egotistical, manipulative bitch .... 🙃 I swear to god she is the most unreasonable person ever. I had a friend like her. Constantly making herself the victim of her own decisions, and feeling like its all justified because she felt like it was alright. Honestly, how the hell did she think its okay to leave and that they are fine after having a fight then some stupid make up sex without discussing it with him further??? Jesus thats so selfish and self-rightous behavior 😤😤🫥 He blocked her ass and she still thinks they are fine??? What in the actual fuck?? How is that even an option?? I hate Eunbin with every part of me even more with each next scene ... 🙃🙃 And I bet my ass she would feel like everything is okay after this talk they had and she hugged him ..🤦‍♀️ the audacity tho, he clearly doesnt even want to be around her and she goes ahead and hugs him??? BITCH NO. Step away and get your nasty hands off of him. 🙂 I guess him letting her hug him makes her think she can win him over and they are "fine" now ...jesus... I want to blame Jaemin, for letting her think that, but a part of me realizes he is also very affected and its all happening too fast for his liking. I just hope he is okay after mc leaves him in chapter 5 cause this must be some bad ass trauma. And I hope they finally get to talk it out properly eventually in be it pt3 or chapter 7. But they NEED to talk, like asap.

And to end this on a happy note - JENO BEST BOY ❤️ I swear to god he is everything, the support and understanding - immaculate 🥹🙏❤️ Now if he can get mc and Jaemin to be truthful to each other and clink their heads together so they can finally act normal and SPEAK, I would just kiss him all over. ❤️

THANK YOU CAS, FOR ANOTHER GREAT CHAPTER 😭❤️ I would totally say I cant wait for the next part but ofc take all the time you need but just know I will cry when it drops. 😭❤️ I love twlg so much. Its literally my comfort story which is weird cause it makes my emotions go into overdrive with all the stuff happening but it is. 🥺❤️

the line is one of my favourite lines :> i'm kinda proud of that one! i'm happy that it gave you that type of reaction.. i love it. jaemin is very cautious! i'm happy you mentioned that! he only lets certain people into his personal space, even though he's got a group of friends surrounding him. it was always jeno that was the only one that could come close to him and burst that personal bubble, letting jaemin show his truth feelings and emotions... but that appreciation scene just shows how far him and mc have come and how open (ish lol) he is with her :(

they still need to learn how to have a proper conversation... but i'm lowkey loving how they avoid it because angst <3 annoyance <3 confusion <3

eunbin is...... a tricky character for sure. but she's so fun to write and i'm enjoying including her in more scenes (very excited for pt.3 because there's so much eunbin) she is, however, definitely the type that is able to get what she wants all the time because she has that sweet face and sweet personality that everyone adores. she can come across as very selfish and oblivious which, yet again, i love LMAO. her bringing the angst is just everything. angst is what i like best.

but ah..... i can't wait for you to see how jaemin reacts when he realises mc had left him. it's almost like deja vu.... but yeah! jeno is literally the best. he's so comforting and understanding, he's literally the bestest friend. i want him.

thank you for enjoying twlg and thank you for all the compliments :( i'm very very very grateful

[lal-ffxiv]

Why yes I was listening to my aroace playlist and thinking about Luka. Full ramble below. But conclusion: Being friends and all that means to Luka is everything to them

The playlist is just Aromantic Moodboard;Crush Culture- Conan Gray;Will Jay - Never Been In Love repeatively with 1 Jenny by studio killers thrown in.

anyways I think Luka from early on would be  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ about romance and sex and the junkmonger as supportive as she was would be like youre probably a late bloomer. And let me say this no one knows Luka's age. When Luka arrives at Forgotten Springs very malnourished and until they start eating regularly does Luka grown up a bit. And then everyone goes oh well I guess they aren't like 12 afterall. But also Luka really has about the 5 years of life experince because they lose their memories and starting fresh in Forgotten Springs. 2 1/2-3 years in Forgotten Springs. Then half a year in uldah before setting off for a year and ending up back in Ul'dah as an adventurer according to keikaku. And Luka spends those years before adventuing between two co-dependent friendships. As intensely curious and naive and blindly optimisitc Luka is, I try my best not to have them too child-like and innocent. I just doent vibe for Luka to be aroace because they too 'pure' sterotype. Luka is an adult learning how to live and being a warrior of light gives them thier lens that they see the rest of world in. And yeah Luka doesn't have free time to process attraction but also they dont feel it so its not a concern. Luka is touchy yes and is taught not to be too touchy with people (because uketzia didn't like it). But that all changes when Luka meets Loonh Gah. And ranked by quest level Luka develop these feeling

Neutral - who is this person who doesn't want to be my friend??

Recognized - okay this person is cool and we can fight together

Friendly - actually i want to be her friend and fight together

Trusted - I want her to be my friend and fight alongside her in battle then everything is good.

Allied - to be friends and fight together in everything and we'll acomplish anything together.

And since in Luka's Story the predominant romantic relationship Luka sees is the Ranger & Healer of the drake and Luka would considered themself and Loonh at that same level its just different since the two arent married. But anyways Luka finally has something they feel and this why Luka would id as Demiplatonic instead outright aroace. Because romantic/sexual attraction? What is that even mean. Friends? Yeah I love my friends so much and we can be friends. Of course Luka doesn't feel the same intense desire to be friends with everyone they meet. Example: Haurchefant; Ysayle and Estinien. Luka does think that Haurchefant is great buddy and he wants to their friend and thats cool. But Luka doesnt feel that 'i need' this person to by my friend. While Luka did almost feel it with Ysayle. Getting to know her and her beliefs and something Luka would agree with but then she does and that why this is that heartbreak is the catalyst for the crescent au. And with Estinien Luka does think he cool and strong and likes him a frienf but doesnt feel that strong platonic attraction Until Luka views him as their like pokemon rival. And they just friends and thats enough there and its important friendship. And of course there is The Queer Light Party Luka's Story therorictial QPR. Actually Luka and Haran butted heads on this for a while since Haran kept trying to adopt Luka as a sibling and Luka was like noooooo. Not that Luka resents family. Its just family isnt friends. Family doesnt stick with you like friends do. Family gets left behind (junkmknger) or leave you (luken) but friends are with you (scions. Riva and Haran). Then Luka meets Riva and who says assassination isnt a bonding experince and Luka is just like yeah we can best friends.

And just Luka has big heart with love to give and best way and really way for Luka to give that love is through friendship. Casual friend, best friends, forever friends. Luka wanting friendship with someone is something so strong and important to them. I mean Luka had to erase a whole section of their little life experince because their onlyish friend (u'ketzia) hurt and betrayed them. I don't know how else to express Luka being demiplatonic. This is a cat that would die for the world, would die for anyone that needs saving but lives for their friends and its more than enough. Its everything.

my headphones are now dying and I need sleep so I might explore Luka being adverse/favorable another time but dont think it very much important to them unless they forced into a situation where they need to consider it which I probably won't write. Because irl too make time is person forced to consider and choose a space to fit in and and Luka should be free of that because by hydaelyn! the world is ending and it doesnt matter.

[castielsprostate]

you may now ask yourself "why?" why would chuck and dean together be unstoppable? especially if they fucked? well. i am SO glad you asked!

you may say something easy like, oh! chuck would be sooooo smitten for dean and he would just do anything dean wanted after a time to keep him happy and to not break the thing they have. and dean would fall too, even if he doesnt want to. i mean, chuck keeps sam safe. chuck keeps castiel safe. chuck can undo anything and everything bad that's ever happened to him and make sam have a normal life and let castiel be in love with humanity and have his mum and dad be okay and good, not just as people but as parents. and dean would say okay

chuck would make sure to have everyone he ever cared about wrapped up in a snuggly cozy blanket and shielded from the monsters and demons and angels outside. chuck would weep a sea at his feet and bring him the sun if dean would want it. chuck would tell him he's loved, he would make him believe he's loved because chuck- chuck is god. and dean would say okay.

chuck can do whatever he wants and dean would fall so so so slowly and he would never hit the ground. he knows he'll never hit the ground, but that's okay because sammy is safe and cas is safe. henry never died, john and mary would've been parents together. cassie, lisa, benny, they would be okay and happy. charlie never died, bobby never died, jo never died, no one ever died unless it was an accident or old age or 'just life'. and dean would say okay.

and sure, chuck would have stipulations. of course he has a few... contractual obligations. dean would've never have existed, he would become the second hand to god themselves. no mortal life would have to know about it, and angels- they can be fixed. but dean can choose whatever he wants, he can play dolls, chuck offers, he can create a universe where he controls everything and anything. just for the small price of a few memories on the other end, chuck would not start collecting his for a few lightyears at least. and dean would say okay.

chuck would say to dean, "please don't cry, look how happy they are," and dean would nod, silently, and go back to falling in love quietly.

chuck would say to dean, "please don't cry, look how safe they are," and dean would nod, silently, and go back to falling in love quietly.

chuck would say to dean, "please don't cry, look how they're living life," and dean would nod, silently, and go back to falling in love quietly.

he would never hit the ground, when falling in love, and chuck would say it'll happen eventually. chuck would say it's okay, we'll get there. chuck would say, don't worry, darling, i know you'll love me. and dean would nod and look back to everyone he's ever known and let out a sigh as they don't recognise him anymore. and dean would say okay.

and dean would be okay with that. dean can live like that for the rest of eternity if it meant that his family, his found and his blood family, was safe for the rest of eternity also. dean would say okay.

on the other hand, dean would learn about every tiny crevice of chuck. he would memorize the dips in his skin and the blemishes on his soul, and he would learn, touch, feel, know- every single little thing about god. he would, slowly at first, affect chuck's moods and change chuck's thinking. he would lay in bed, staring at the ceiling for hours and hours on end as he thinks over every single interaction with chuck he's ever had. and he would map out all the feelings he's ever felt, all the thoughts he's ever seen. he would break chuck down, slowly, so so so slowly. and chuck would let him.

chuck would be swayed once or twice on a decision, he would ask for dean's input and weigh the options against each other. and he would choose dean's plan, he would make choices dean adviced him on. and he would feel good about it. he would feel loved. cared about. understood. he wouldn't have to carry the burden of being god alone anymore and he let's loose just a tiny bit. and if dean wants something destroyed chuck would flick his wrist and consider it done. if a woman was mean to sammy, chuck would smite her. if a man called castiel a slur, chuck would sentence him to a slow and painful death.

they'd feed off each others' worst qualities and amplify them by ten fold. dean would get to play god and chuck would get to be human. unrequited love and self destruction until they become each other <3

and if you did say that then, yeah you would be right!

dean x chuck would've been unstoppable by the way

[t4tdeanwinchester]

is this a tragedy? all you’ve known your whole life is coldness and marble and rigid perfection and then a man who is none of those things (no matter how hard he tries to be) touches you with broken fingers and gives you little crooked smiles out the side of his mouth – he shows you all the beauty in the muck and he says hell, slouch a little, laugh with me, feel something, it won’t kill you (it will, it will). he gives you a family, something new to be devoted to after your last god skipped out for a milk run and never came back. this man feeds you even though you are not made to eat and you love him even though you aren’t made for that either. an angel statue falls to the floor of a perfect room and shatters. god and all his real good angels frown at the mess. but all you can do is smile, crooked out the side of your mouth – you learned it from the best. smiles like that come free when you’re dying. marble cracks real easy when you make a statue smile. love pours out from the mouth that way, spills jagged onto the floor. is this a tragedy?

[samscompliment]

ok cas fic ramblings under the cut. like spoilers for the whole fic but if i never finish/post it then does it really count as spoilers. really. thoughts welcome <3

ok hiiiiii. mwah. so its post canon in the ambiguously human cas domestic bliss stage where they all live above ground EXCEPT. i have personal strife with human cas sorry bc i very much interpret it as basically binding a graceless angel to their vessel (hashtag i read dta and went sure ill incorporate that into my belief system) so cas is like. kind of miserable. like hes not because hes finding joy in the little humanities! and he's got dean! and dean cooks meals that he thinks cas would like and he makes sure all the blankets are soft and all these lovely little things that show he cares and cas my best friend cas just like. covets it. like he hates being 'human' but ALSO dean is like showering him in love so he's like Well. this is manageable. and also dean keeps asking how hes doing and cas is very greedy for proof dean cares about his wellbeing. my poor guy. and like they are in a happily established relationship at this point its all well and good its just that twelve years does stuff to a guy's head.

anyway the catch is that for vague plot empty rescue reasons cas very much does have his grace. like its in a vial he can take it back at any time but he doesnt for approximately three different reasons. one) if he takes his grace back dean wont do any of the little things to make humanity easier and cas doesnt want to lose that and/or go back to how they acted before the empty. two) dean very explicitly loves him which means cas can no longer beat himself on the head like "dean doesnt love me because i am terrible" so he had to find another way to hate himself which in this instance is "i could take my grace back and protect my family but i wont because i wont sacrifice the love of one measly human my hubris is my eternal downfall i am a failure of a father and partner" and THREE) my guy is not keen on relinquishing his outsider identity. bc sure hes "human" but hes not actually human and he fits so poorly but he gets a kind of. idk a kind of perverse pleasure from it. hes a little self pitying in this fic i have to say. but also at the same time hes like i deserve the good things though. i am so miserable look at how good of a miserable excuse of an angel i am. like it literally loops back around to pride for him. my favourite weirdo

while all this is going on cas is doing various post canon things and he gets a tattoo and dean is very nice to him and its sort of your classic "cas tries to find his footing in humanity" activities except you know hes just trying to avoid taking his grace back even though he also wants very badly to take his grace back. he is literally so illogical the entire time and i love him sooo much but it culminates in cas being like okay someone PLEASE take this decision out of my hands so he tries to give his grace to dean

why does cas give his grace to dean well ill tell you. he doesnt want to give up their human life. he hates himself for not giving up their human life to better protect them/jack. so hes like. well if i give the grace to dean it takes it out of my hands and i can hate DEAN for it INSTEAD. i can blame DEAN. literally what nick seasontwelvedean said about cas resenting dean a little for not loving him but now that he knows dean DOES love him hes like this is weird :/ what if i resent him for something else. and dean of course is like what the fuck and throws a tantrum. and its like well dean you did very much kind of bring this upon yourself i like i know youre doing a bit better now but like babe where do you think cas learned all these thought patterns<3

anyway you can tell that we're now reaching the bit i havent written because after they somehow work this out cas takes his grace back and he gets his little "the future" vision realised and he has his wings and dean on his knees being like thank you cas youre the best youre so cool with your angel powers and saving my life forever and ever amen <3 and of course nothing really changes and afterwards he has a little birthday party and probably goes off to find something else to be insane about. and thats The Cas Fic

[godstiel-coded]

Baby!Jack truthing

Disclaimer; my Jack knowledge is through Osmosis and Canon is irrelevant. Feel free to add on and don't be shy abt commenting rather than tagging <3

~He sucks at pronunciation of names and other relatively simple things but he picks up on large words he shouldn't know Too fast and says creepy things sometimes

~He calls Dean "Dee" or "Deedee" when he learns to write it takes Years to stop writing "Deen"

~he regularly says vaguely horrifying things and Cas takes it in stride So well and the PTA moms Don't

~okay this is projection but if someone says "Your mom is here" while he's in elementary he gets Terrified but its usually Eileen, or Jo, or Charlie, or Jody, or Ellen, or any other woman he knows and he gets used to it eventually. "your dad is here?" Always gets "which one?" Which results in Teachers having to give a small lesson on how a kid can have 2 dads/2 moms for the kids w no clue

~Cas being able to hear his "prayers" saves their ass in a million little ways

~Jack only sort of knows what Mom vs Dad means and doesn't really know theres a gendered connotation to it and tends to just Guess

~He calls his friends parents "(Friend)'s Dad" defaultively, appearance irrelevant

~He loves bows and dresses sometimes, also bee related clothes and cowboy related clothes as he tends to associate each adult in his life with one Specific thing

~Cas makes Dean promise not to confine Jack to primitive human gender or sexuality based norms

~When Claire ("Care") comes to visit he is Ecstatic and she can't get rid of him

~He doesnt comprehend how he is tied to Jody or Donna so its "My Jody" and "My Donna" I think Ellen might be Nana and Charlie and Jo both Aunts but I'm not totally set on that

~Jack loves to sit on Deans foot or ride piggy back style or sit on his hip

~He sits on Cas' shoulder and in his lap a lot

~LOVES dress up

~Dean picks up humming Red Neck Woman (heard it karaoke at a bar once) because of the line about the baby on her hip

~Cas and Jack listen to the worst pop ever, he's a Katy Perry (thats her name right) fan

~Jack likes Sesame Street, Octonauts, and Paw Patrol

~as part of a prank war (Claire started this one) Sam teaches Jack everyword to "The Song That Doesn't End" and everyone is paying the price

I can and Will go on so Please encourage me

[bibiznbyler]

okay this is... fair. like really fair. ppl like to say she's stupid, and she's obviously not, which is shown time and time again. and we know this.

BUT, THAT BEING SAID, even though el really does like mike (from what i can tell), mike doesn't like her back (romantically ofc).

mike is like lowkey the opposite of el feelings-wise. he doesn't like el ROMANTICALLY, BUT he wants to stay in a relationship with her, kind of. for some reason he doesn't want to break up, but when they did, he didn't seem to care all too much. HOWEVER, he also really wants el to like him?? he needs her to rely on him, hell, he needs ANYONE to rely on him, bc im guessing personal probs, but i digress.

we see in the car scene that he puts el on a pedestal, which creates a power imbalance in the relationship. all the while, in ca, we learn el isn't being honest with him. so not only does mike put her on a pedistal, everyone around her in ca is showing her she's less than the average person. so there's 1 person who believes she's great, obviously she's gonna lie about how OTHERS treat her because if other people dont like me what if the person i like doesnt like me anymore? which means she's putting up a front the whole time she's around mike.

so now mike is expected to like el's persona/act as well. BUT BUT BUT mike is ALSO putting on an act in ca. i mean, did you see the way he's dressed?? now, that could just be for fun, but i don't know, mike doesn't seem like the type, maybe that's just me.

and on top of that, a major amount of the time they're together they're upset with each other or just dismissive in general. wether it be trivial or not.

so when you put this ALL together, you have el, who likes mike, but also hates him for how he treats her, and then there's mike, who doesn't really wanna get involved romantically with her, but can't stand to see her being independent because he wants her to rely on him.

so this is why most people say that el and mike shouldn't be together. NOT SOLELY BECAUSE el "doesn't understand love."

TLDR: el likes mike but mike doesn't like her back & that's why most shippers in the st fandom are anti mileven

ALSO A POSTNOTE (PS) ABOUT THE TAGS ON THE OG POST:

okay i have a few probs w them mostly because they're.. presumptuous and accusative

um, they're not forced to be together, yes, but you can't deny that at that age they may feel as if they should be, especially when all their friends (except will) are in/ getting in relationships.

next, no one said they had to be experts when it comes to relationships or love, but it's obvious their relationship isn't making either of them happy. el may want a RELATIONSHIP with mike but she doesn't want a relationship with MIKE, if you get what my emphasis emplies. she obviously knows mike doesn't treat her the way a bf should treat his gf, which is shown time and time again, even after she tells mike what she expects, he just doesn't bother, because he doesn't feel that romantic inclination ykw im sayin'?

and no mike isn't BAD for her, per se, but maybe bad for HER. again, pick up what my tones are implying. mike isn't bad in general and it happens to affect her, mike is bad for what eleven is looking for in a relationship. they obviously have different priorities. SO, in that sense, mike IS bad for her.

I’m sorry but-

How tf is El not already an independent individual who can make her own decisions. Yeah she might not know much when she met Mike but that doesn’t negate the way she feels for him even when she couldn’t put her feelings into words yet. She’s not stupid evidently.

So can other shippers stop claiming she can’t be in a relationship because of her limited knowledge of love?? She can be in a healthy relationship with Mike because she feels happy with him. Why take that away just to promote other ships and claim that she will be better alone. Like she wasn’t separated from him enough times in the fucking show.

She is happy and in love with him.

Let. It. Go.

-Sel💜

[samdyke]

top 5 scenes/episodes/arcs that deserved horriblebreakdownnatural go!

OKAY MICKEY I DID THINK ABT THIS A LOT and these are Not in any particular order but i have thoughts SO (below the cut bc its long)

1. sometime in s2 (after having met max for sure like seeing his powers be used for something violent & learning he also has psychokinetic abilities) sam shouldve had a full meltdown about his powers this is a PRIVATE MELTDOWN he goes to the woods or smth in the middle of the night and just loses it. full screaming at the sky “what the FUCK is HAPPENING TO ME” yes his psychic abilities would act up during this display and he would cause like. a crop circle or knock over trees and that would freak him out even more so hes like crying and trying to calm down because he’s terrified of what will happen if he Doesnt calm himself down. there’s a lot of choking down tears here because he just wants to be fucking normal, he tried so hard, and he has no idea what the hell is inside of him. he slips back into the motel before sunrise and dean never finds out about this one. like this post was Correct

2. okay this is SIMILAR but not the same hear me out. PRE swan song, as in the night between dean agreeing that sam can say yes and try to fling himself into the pit and it actually happening, sam shouldve been able to fully lose it. because holy fuck???? what the goddamn fuck is this? this breakdown potentially all happens at bobby’s house once again alone - he goes out to the scrapyard and looks up at the sky and prays to god to help him, asks why this is happening to him, why god wont do anything. please. please. there is, of course, no answer. this is sam’s last night as sam, and if things go well he’ll spend the rest of eternity locked in hell with lucifer; i think he’s entitled to a little screaming and crying and desperation

3. i gotta say like. fitz was right on the money with a post soul-fixed sam dean having a complete and utter meltdown like this. its just like......sam couldnt process for so long and dean was absolutely repressing everything for the year he lived with lisa and ben and to truthfully recognize what sam went through and everything.....horriblebreakdownatural MUST include both of them having a very late night hazy crying fit because once DEAN starts crying about how he never shouldve done it he shouldve said yes to michael or found another way sammy oh god you were so good im ao sorry you did it but i shouldve protected you i shouldve protected you then sam would also cry i think. they need this. its catharsis

4. i personally think dean should have had a breakdown after learning that mary was a hunter. not then and there in the past because goddamn no time (hah), but there’s no fucking way he would’ve been able to cope with thee mother mary, angelic perfect figment of comfort and home, the pure martyr for whom his entire life was ruined, was actually. a killer. a hunter. and she hated it. i think maybe he would be telling sam about it and it would hit suddenly and he would just feel sick, this is the kind of breakdown where you’re throwing up bile and you cant catch your breath and maybe youre crying?? but thats not the point its the absolute crushing weight and sickness when you learn that someyhing in your life has irrevocably changed in the worst way

5. cry harder repression boy: i want that tearful horrible painful breakdown from dean that we were all waiting for after despair. when he processes what cas said? and what that MEANS? oh i wanted the full breakdown here. this isnt something he can drink away because cas is fucking DEAD and cas loved him, he’s deaf Because he loved dean, like. i think that it would be jack asking where cas was that would actually seal this particular breakdown deal and dean would have to flee to go privately lose his shit which is of course not that private. think a prayer like purgatory 2.0 but 20x more desperate, which turns into threatening chuck because rage is the natural companion to grief

honorable mentions: sam after expelling gadreel (this would be horrible. imagining sam sobbing about killing kevin is genuinely making me ill), dean after leaving cas in purgatory (a prayer that turns to desperate painful screaming at the sky which sam hears but they never talk about), dean after getting cas BACK from purgatory (to cas), sam learning that he’s lucifer’s true vessel, at some point i think dean or sam shouldve had a car meltdown (u know screaming at the top of your lungs while barelling down the highway, crying, lots of obscenities).....theres def more but these simply came to mind. feel free to share w me your epic horriblebreakdownatural moment suggestions

[destielwarmsthecocklesofmyheart]

Destiel Rewatch

Day 16 On the Head of a Pin

Yay!!!! Honest to God Destiel content!!! Still more Cas sided than Dean but it’s early.

Okie dokie. There’s a lot in this episode that I love. Soooooo let’s get started!!!

I just have to say that I love this shot of the first angel death we see. The first time I saw that I thought it was such a cool effect. I think the way they decided to portray angel wings on this show was one of the really good decisions that were made

Yay, Destiel!!! Of course the classic line here. Cas’s superiors saw he was starting to have feelings for Dean and KNEW this would lead to doubt and disobedience.

I also love Dean’s reaction here. Just like Dean to take a minute to really let the words sink in. And I love Jensen and all his micro expressions in this episode ah! I really don’t think Dean thought Cas was expressing romantic feelings here cuz as we’ve already established Dean wasn’t sure that angels could even feel romantic love. I’m also not even sure if Cas knows what he’s feeling but it’s definitely love for Dean lol

I also love this little exchange right here. It just shows how much Cas has really come to care for Dean. He knows what he did in Hell and he knows what asking him to do this would mean. He DOESNT want to do that to him but he thinks he has no choice. And you can see that with every sound Alastair makes, Cas is being tortured as well knowing that Dean is sinking back into the hole he clawed his way out of.

And bravo Jensen for your acting skills!!!! The tears welling, the hint of a snarl, the gulp.... just like everything else he does in this episode, it’s just superb.

This is why I think Cas doesn’t even know what he’s feeling. He just knows that he doesn’t want Dean to hurt, he doesn’t know what to think about his purpose, and he’s starting to doubt God/his superiors. Misha also has A+ acting skills, bravo to the husbands

Okay... this right here. I could watch these two gifs ALL. DAY. I love Jensen so fucking much. In the first gif you can just SEE THE FUCKING PANIC. He’s learning for the first time that he broke the first seal; the seal that HAD to break before any others could be broken. He’s learning that HE ALONE jump started the apocalypse. And to top it all off, he’s also just learned that his dear old daddy was supposed to do it but he never gave in ouch but also fuck John Winchester

Okay, side note regarding this part. When things like this are said in the series about God and God’s plan it just makes me so angry thinking about how God ends up being a dick. And I feel like we never really explored the impact that had on Cas. Maybe I’m just not remembering a key moment or something cuz let’s me honest it’s been a WHILE since I’ve seen all these episodes but I just feel like we kinda missed that opportunity?

Omg and then this...... poor fucking Dean. I can’t. There’s so much self-hatred in this man. And every time I see Dean hating himself and hurting and suffering, I get pissed and bitter about the fucking finale all over again. DEAN DESERVED A SOFT ENDING!!!!

Anyways....... reblog away!!!

UNTIL NEXT TIME!

[lettersformiah]

9:12am, 23 june

hello bubba!

you are at home sleeping rn and i am here instead of in your arms? so dog. but yeah ^^ in geo righ tnow and i dont actually give a fuck about doing this internal right now. i had a bit of an annoying morning with my phone dying and all that so im just not a fan (i just sneezed hehehe) im so sniffly now because the geo room is quite warm compared to outside. i havent seen maya or muskaan today becase when i got to the class there were only a few people in there. apparently it was because mrs copley got them all to help out with matariki and go to the stage? and do stuff? i dont know and i also wasnt really told by cash or leo smh. they just said they had to do stuff and were content with just that. so whatever, ill see them at interval.

i hope you wake up soon but i know you wont smh. youll probably wake up during the assembly maybe? or even while we are at countdown before the festival. i dont knpw actually. im not looking forward to french but i can just fuck around and try and memorise it. i know some of it? its like 'mon ecole primaire? elle s'apellait stanmore bay. je n'ai aimait ca parce que les gens etait mechants et enervants.' thats the first part of it. i know the ideas that i talk about but i dont atually know what it said. something about 'je prommais -- ecole car je vivais cinq minutes'?? something like that. unsure hehee but i guess thats what i have next period for. im excited to drop french next year hehehe. i feel bad quitting it after 4 years of learning it but honestly i dont want to do the internals or externals for it next year and im very very average. and im ok with that. plus! i can take another subject :D i gotta look into that with you, tonight maybe? hopefully youll be down for that.

im actually okay with the assembly today. its gonna be outside bc covid which is both good and bad. bit cold but also no mask wearing. i dont know where we are meant to be though. apparently the black mat? but how do you fit a whole school onto one court? i dont think you can. and the whole plan is a bit scuffed. some people know it but i havent been shown. i dont think ill be able to wear your hoodie for it though :( they are very grr about uniform obvs bc its a formal assembly but i just put it in my bag after interval and chuck it back on! and i jus zip up my jacket for french so mr moss doesnt throw a fit. hes a nice guy really but me and him dont get on sometimes. but i love him truly, hes my favorite teacher. i think i just get on his nerves sometimes. but whoops! im not for everyone all the time and thats okay. but yeah :D i have no idea what theyre gonna talk about in the assembly tbh. i dont think we have ever have a matariki one and its also meant to be from like 11:30-12:30. what do you talk about for an hour? i guess maybe with songs and lil speeches and things. im assuming itll be like the anzac ones. so necessary, but horribly boring. but i dont mind spacing out for a bit. and! ill be with my friends :D i can sit with muskaan which is nice since i got no classes with her. will be a good time. even though we always make each other laugh during the national anthem. we always end up giggling at leo because his voice is so deep compared to everyone else. so we do the thing where we look at each other and just crack up. its really bad sometimes. hopefully today will be alright!

im also excited not for the festival itself but to just hang out with ym friends. and see leo and myaya performing! but mainly just to be with muskaan and kealan >:) we hung out on sunday obvs but i havent just existed with them since no classes. sad thing about being a senior i think. but i have no money to go to countdown with :P i think i just mooch off of kealan. but if he pays for just like something for all of us to share. but he cant even eat anything because of his braces. thats shit :( i dont know. we will see i guess. i feel bad taking and using money from him even though he assures us its fine. but i dont know. maybe itll be alright.

i got half an hour of class left. did they play dnd last night? were we meant to be there? i swear i went to bed at like 10/11 and you guys were playing val. wasnt dnd meant to start at like 8? or even 10? but i wasnt told about this. thats shit. i hate that i dont stay up late anymore. i think this weekend i do :D bc its a long weekend! so i can try and stay up later tn and tomorrow night. and then its all good. i have no plans for tomorrow except for wash my sheets and do some schoolwork. which please please please make me do i have so many internals due next week and honestly it ouwld be easier to just not do them and cry about it instead. but i gotta.

my sister also texted me! well you know that, but we did the old oh yeah how u im good how u and then i left her on delivered because i genuinely forgot to reply. or i didnt knwo what to say. i never know what to say to her. she asked me if i wanted to do the daffodil day volunteering so :D i do, i was meant to last year? year before? i dont know. they cancelled it bc of covid. but its just the thing where we stand on a road and ask for money. good times. but i love daffodil day so anything to help out!!

so yeah! thats my life up until 9:38am. thrilling stuff i know. i dont know. i wish you were awake. i wish i was texting you or calling or better yet in the same room. i love you bubba. i love you so much :*)

hope your sleep is going well n youre having good dreams. i love you, talk soon.

-mads<3



[dinolikes]

IMPOSTER - PART THREE

summery ❤︎ Nobody has any quirks and is stuck on a ship like Among Us

pairings ❤︎ Imposter!Dabi x Reader

content warnings ❤︎ major character deaths

| prev.|

"at least this means we dont have to worry anymore." kaachan shrugs, you snap your head towards him,

"what do you mean?"

"I mean usually theres only like one, right? meaning we're most likely in the clear." you nod, you honestly forgot kaachan existed there for a sec, he was just so...quiet.

"kaachan c'mere, you too deku." the former looked at you weirdly but complied, while the latter bounced over to you.

you briefly let go of dabi and pulled shoto with you, and hugged all three of the young boys closely.

you knew that them and ingeniumu were in the same classes all through highschool, and they joined headquarters together, to lose a friend like that...you couldn't imagine it.

shoto grabbed onto your arms again, hugging himself close to you, deku, wrapped his arms around you and kaachan -surprisingly- leaned into you, he didnt hug you back but he showed his appreciation and a few sniffles could he heard from all of them.

"c'mon guys, we just have to finish our tasks and soon enough we'll be home, okay?" they nod and slowly pull themselves off of you. "ill show you guys my place and we'll get froyo, all of us,"

shoto lets out a small smile whereas deku didnt hide his, even kaachan didnt bother hiding the goofy smile that broke through.

during your time together you had become a bit of a mother towards the three, especially kaachan and shoto, deku already having a healthy relationship with his mum.

as deku and shoto walk away, kaachan lingered.

"thanks." he mumbles, looking at his feet, you hold his cheek in a protective way

"no problem kaa, now shoo, go with deku," kaachan smirks and walks away.

dabi almost regretted when the moment ended, but was happy to have you in his arms again.

"that was sweet."

you hum, "yeah, your gonna have to include those kids in our little life plan you wrote," you smirk up at him, teasing him about the page you found a couple months ago, which was filled with things he wanted to do with you.

"shup up," he smiled, genuinely smiled at you, and you leant up to give him a peck on the lips.

"wonder, you ready to go?" you turn slightly to see hawks, and you pout.

"actually, do you mind if I take her from now? you and shoto can team up," hawks shrugged.

"sure! ill rescue shoto and let him be with someone cool for once!" hawks laughed as dabi was obviously annoyed.

as everyone went off with their group to finish their task you couldnt help but think.

you were glad fun loving hawks was back, you were glad everyone was back to normal actually. you dont think you guys would ever officially be healed but the thought that this was over made you happy.

dabi tugged on your hand and you looked towards him.

"can I kiss you?"

you blushed, he never outright ASKED, but you nodded anyways, filling with electricity as he cupped you cheeks and smashed his lips on yours.

you both moved in synch, as you ran your fingers through his hair and lightly tugged at times, knowing that made him go feral and right now you just wanted to forget.

you thought of how ingeniumu would react to finding you and dabi like this, the kid would probably start waving his arms and going berserk, thirteen would probably have to calm him down and tell him that it's fine, he's always nice like that.

or, he WAS always nice like that.

you felt dabi pull away and you were about to question it until you felt the tears on your cheek yourself.

"what's wrong doll?" he cupped you face and you saw worry in his eyes.

"n-nuthin." you hiccup, the weight of the reality of this situation finally crashing down on you.

they were dead, they really were dead.

"is it because of, yknow?" he jerks his head towards the cafeteria, referencing exactly why you were crying.

you let out a sob as you bobbed your head.

"awh, c'mere doll," dabi cooed and grabbed the back of your head, pulling you in for a tight hug and his other hand slipped around your waist, softly squeezing to show support.

"t-theyre go-gone! a-and ingeniumu will n-never be the-there to sco-scold us ag-gain and a-and and-" you hiccupped out, they were gone, they were really fucking gone.

"shh shh doll, it will be okay, think about having froyo with the kids and me, how about we make it a tradition? every Sunday how about?" you slightly nod as he moves his hand around you head to cup your cheek, whipping your tears, "yeah? and with me, you, kaachan, deku and shoto, we'll all have froyo each sunday, and when we eventually have kids we'll bring them along too,"

you hum, that did sound nice.

"kaachan would probably try to teach them how to probably beat up deku before they reached 5," you let out a laugh, he would do that.

"and if they didnt learn how to properly throw a right hook on their own before 3, he would probably stay up all day and night to make sure," your voice sounded croaky but dabi still smiled.

"exactly. even if we have to change the life plan a little bit it will still be our life plan, and we're gonna spend it together," you smile and look up at your boyfriend.

"thank you touya," you lightly kiss his cheek,

"anything for you doll,"

he went to kiss your lips again before both of your watches beeped, an emergency meeting.

you both ran back towards the cafeteria, deku, shoto, twice and hawks already there, where was kaachan?

hawks seemed to catch your eye looking throughout the room, and spoke up, "kaachan is dead."

suddenly it felt like everything came crashing down.

you didnt understand, he was- he was there and alive! and your plans- oh god you cant go for froyo now.

it seemed silly to worry about that but you were panicking, it was what you were supposed to do!

you stared at hawks, "n-no. no. hes not dead."

hawks took a step forward, "wonder-"

"no! he- he cant be dead! t-the froyo and the the-" dabi grabbed you and pulled you into his chest again, your newly dried eyes watering again but you just pathetically leaned into your boyfriend. "he cant be dead." you whimpered.

dabi affectionately rubbed your back, "it's okay doll, its gonna be okay,"

everyone stared at you in sympathy, they were all affected but it was obvious you were struggling.

twice had a different look though, like guilt, one that hawks didnt miss.

"hey twice?"

he snapped his head up towards the blonde, "yeah?" his voice slightly cracked.

"where were you?"

"I-"

"oh god not with this shit again! hawks will you give it a break for two fucking seconds?" dabi snaps, "I dont care if this is your way of coping is fucking interrogating us or something but just leave it alone!"

"oh im SO sorry for worrying about who's gonna be dead next!"

"i dont ca-"

shoto interrupted the two, "tomura said he was with twice last time and twice agreed. but now we know tomura was killing." shoto's voice cracked.

twice widened his eyes, but nodded. "i-im sorry."

everyone stared in shock, even hawks was silent.

he didnt look up, "the system is fucked, I'm telling you that, but I didnt want to hurt any of you i swear!"

hawks didnt say anything as he pushed him into the trash chute room, and neither did twice, he didnt even protest.

"can I ask you one more question?" hawks asked, twice slowly nodding.

"are there anymore?"

twice makes eye contact with dabi, another look hawks doesnt miss, and nods, holding up a finger.

with that hawks pulls the switch and out went twice, into space.

| next |

[deansawthetvglow]

eternal skyline of a spotless mind- or the one where the first 5 or so minutes of 15x20 are the only minutes i accept. 

in which i ramble a whole ficlet on accident and y’all i need the full fic. yes there’s a tinnnny bit of smut. also spn 15x20 spoilers slightly 

now i want the fic where dean applies to be a mechanic, gets the job, does real good. he and miracle live in the bunker, sam and eileen moved out a year ago now to follow a job opportunity for eileen. it’s a big place to be alone in. he keeps watching over and over all of the movies he has in a file entitled ‘cas’ favourites’ he sips whiskey, a responsible amount, and pets miracles head while his head is on his lap. sometimes he dives into the lore, he’s glad sam isnt here to give him shit about finally doing his research, but he’s trying to find a way to cas. to save him. and one day he tries to mix up a spell thatll open a portal into the dark nothing and his ingredients sputter and spark and he thinks it’s gonna work this is it, and it just doesnt. the smoke clears, the sparks stop popping, and there’s nothing. and so that night he goes into the dungeon draped in one of cas’ old trenchcoats and he sits in that spot he had to sit years ago and he cries, and miracle sits beside him and he cries because he’s trying he’s trying to live for love he’s trying to do right by cas and he just....he cant...cas died thinking dean didnt...didnt love him. and god, does dean love him. so he cries and he whispers iloveyouiloveyouiloveyou and he falls asleep on the concrete, uses miracle as a pillow but dean doesnt think he minds. and he wakes up in the morning, eyes puffy, and he drags himself to work, and he’s back to square one. and this continues for a while, dean doesnt really remember when he tried the spell, but it’s been a while. a month, maybe more. and he goes into work, and there’s a new car for him to work on. it’s old, a classic, but dean kinda thinks she’s more junk than classic, sue him, and he starts working on it, and he opens the trunk to pop a particularly stubborn dent out of it, the client’s not paying for that but he just can’t let the car be driven around all beat up, and there, right in the trunk, is a trenchcoat. bundled up, and tan and big and dean grabs it, he shouldnt but he does and his heart is beating so fast as he brings it to his nose and smells it and it’s cas it has to be and so he rushes to the front office, demands to know who the client is, when are they coming by and as he’s going completely wild wanting to know everything it suddenly goes calm. because there, in a worn flannel and blue jeans, is cas. castiel. and dean just looks for a moment, to convince himself its real, and then hes rushing to a wide eyed cas and saying ‘you stupid son of a bitch’ and crashing his lips into those ones which he has wanted for and then cas isnt really kissing back so dean stops because he...he cant take anything more from cas, he needs to give and he...he stops himself because what if...what if this wasn’t what cas wanted, so he pulls back, lets his hands linger on the soft of the flannel, and then cas is speaking, head quirked, ‘do i...do i know you?’ and fuck. his heart drops right out of his ass. his knees buckles and hes on his way down when castiel catches him, pulls him up, hand on his shoulder, and he holds on to him. and dean lets out a ‘you don’t remember?’ and castiel says, ‘no. i...i dont i’m so sorry.’ and dean thinks all hope is lost until cas asks, ‘i know this is too much to ask but it...appears i know you, and i kind of just, woke up one day in a field and i...i dont really have anywhere to go..and um’ and hes rambling but he’s determined to get his little angel back, all the way back, so he says, ‘you wanna come home with me, angel?’ and cas grins and dean wants to see that grin everyday of his life. so he finishes cas’ car, lets him trail behind as they drive to the bunker. he doesn’t explain it really, just opens the door and says ‘well, heres the place’ and cas walks in and looks at everything with such wonder. and he brushes his fingers across the gold embossing of an angel on one of the books there and dean just watches, listens to cas breathing, aches to touch.

he sets cas up in his old room, cas quirks a head when he sees all the suits and ties in the closet, says something like ‘now i understand why i woke up looking like a tax accountant’ and hes being good old cas, sticking so close to dean and he’s sitting beside him to watch a movie and miracle is sprawled across their legs and cas says, ‘i could get used to this’ and dean says, ‘yeah cas, me too.’ so they sit and they watch and they repeat that day in day out and the bunker isnt so lonely anymore, and he and cas do everything together, and dean researches spells to get cas’ memory back. he thinks it has to do with the fact that his grace got ripped out in the process, theres a small nick on his adams apple that he recognizes as the place it must have left, but he coughs himself out of thinking about that neck and those lips and that hair and those thighs and- he hasnt kissed cas since the first day, he longs to. he sees the way this cas looks at him and he wonders. he wonders if maybe...maybe this castiel can learn to love him again. and it’s going on a year now. cas works down at the local flower shop and has an apiary on the hill above the bunker, deans still in his same routine of life, and they’re not...they’re in the same place they were before cas confessed. just, in this middle ground, this unspoken something, so as he lies beneath a car he decides, the happiness isnt in the having its in just being in just saying it, so he goes home that night, picks up flowers from a competing shop bc he doesnt wanna spoil the surprise, and sets up the table. cas’ name is still carved there, cas had laughed when he first saw it because “what kind of long name is that,” and dean was bursting with fond. and anyways he lays down a table cloth and lights a candle and waits. shaking in his skin just waiting for cas to get home, and then cas is walking in saying ‘hello, dean’ and running down the stairs, groceries in paper bags overflowing in his arms, and his hair is disheveled and dean helps grab a bag and puts it in the kitchen and waits for cas to follow and see...the set up. and cas asks, what’s this about? and dean looks at cas and takes a deep breath and says, ‘someone once told me there’s happiness in just....fuck...in just saying it so here goes. and its okay if you..if you dont but...’ and cas is getting closer, his head quirked and deans heart is beating out of his chest and he says ‘i love you.’ and then cas is rumbling, ‘dean, look at me’ and so he does, looks up into wide blue eyes and cas is smiling. smiling so big and beautiful and dean wants to hear it he needs to hear it he needs- ‘i love you too, dean winchester’ and then theyre kissing again, kissing and holding and deans a little embarrassed but hes crying and then theyre skipping dinner entirely and cas has his hand on deans bare shoulder and hes shivering into the touch its so overwhelming and he fucks himself down onto cas’ cock and cas digs his fingernails into deans thighs and looks up at him blue and beautiful and overwhelming and deans pretty sure he blacks out when he comes except, he doesnt, because his eyes are open and the lights in the room are all busted and cas is lying there under him looking up, dean thinks so at least, he can’t really see him and so he laughs and he laughs and he’s not really registering what happened, a beautifully timed power outage like something divine saying this is how you met and he’s here still and you finally have him and so he climbs off of cas and grabs something to wash them up and a candle or two from the table and when he comes back, and wipes the damp cloth gingerly across cas’ body he notices cas tense and he sees in the candlelight cas is looking very serious and he stops being sweet just asks ‘cas? whats wrong’ and cas says, ‘dean? dean. dean winchester... dean...righteous soul the one i fell for and will always fall for the one i love the one i have always...’ and dean dives back on top of cas and kisses him senseless because now cas remembers everything before and he remembers everything after and everything now and its perfect

and honestly they still arent really sure what happened except that maybe the spell needed angel mojo so it snagged it from cas or maybe the empty curled itself around cas mind and all it needed was the Loud of too many emotions to overflood it but all that matters is that they are here together.

and then one day, at the dinner table, cas looks at dean and he says ‘dean, will you....’ and he shuffles inside his pocket and presses a box into deans hand and its- ‘will you marry me?’ and dean is practically leaping over the table to kiss cas and saying “yes yes yes of course of course i wanna grow old with you i wanna be with you always in life and death in everything always together”

and cas is crying because he could have what he wanted, he has the one thing he wants most and dean wants him most too.

and then dean is pulling back and cas is looking pensive and he says, ‘there is one thing, dean.’ and dean looks worried so he places his hand on his knee and he says, ‘i want to be human, all the way human.’ and dean looks like he wants to protest or cry and hes not sure which it is but then dean is crying and saying ‘ill help’ and then the next day theyre out with the bees, because cas thinks his grace will do them good, and dean holds cas’ hand in his tightly and follows that little nick on his throat and opens it ever so slightly with the angel blade and tries not to think about how hes hurting the person he loves and he loves and he loves and then the grace is flowing away and dean captures it in a bottle, hands it to cas, who later pats it down in the ground so they can grow a new tree, and dean gives cas two little stitches on his throat and kisses all around them and washes cas hair for him in the shower and then

when the day comes, they go together, they get to live with one another and watch the sunsets on their front porch with miracle and jack and sam and eileen all looking out over an eternal skyline.

[cassierobinsonsupremacy]

about that post going around about a fan thanking jensen for how he described cas’ love as heavenly and inexplainable like yes that would be nice if that’s what jensen originally said (or at least ALL he said) but it wasn’t.

he allowed jared to go on about cas being junkless and not sexual (when the question was from a MOTHER with queer kids) and there being different types of love and then went on to talk about lust not being part of romanticism (again, not even remotely close to what the original question was asking) in order to move further away from the idea of his character being carnally desired by another male character

like jesus fuck he used the heavenly thing to not explicitly say the confession was romantic, which fine. FINE! jesus christ have it your way fine. so the confession isn’t romantic. fine. doesnt make sense and it’s actually harder to explain it away as platonic, but fine. okay. even WITH THE CONFESSION BEING PLATONIC the heavenly excuse paired with basically deeming cas a sexless being (false) makes it seem as though gay sex is something impure and something someone like cas who loves in such a beautiful way could never be involved in.

yes, cas’ love for dean is on another fucking plane that’s basically incomprehensible because he’s a being who learned to love when he was never created for that. HE LITERALLY CONQUERED THE NARRATIVE SET IN STONE FOR HIM. however, that’s not all that jensen said and context is important. it was said in the context of other things that make it actively homophobic. if jensen had just said what he said to that fan in the tweet, it would’ve been a brilliant way to be diplomatic and sidestep directly calling the confession romantic (as we expected him to do) BUT!!! that’s not all he said. and that’s what MATTERS jesus fuck

[cursedconstellation]

finale was the best , that’s how show started and ended with brothers . Jensen said finale is his favourite and Jared said the same . J2 are the best

Umm... purple goats are always eating my television. 

The Mars Rover is made out of Fruit Loops.

Donald Trump was the greatest president ever. 

I hate chocolate.... and I love refried beans.

And while we're listing all the other ridiculous things that AREN'T true, I think you should DEFINITELY keep messaging me all your belittling hate. It's DEFINITELY NOT A WASTE OF TIME AT ALL. 

[gaycatastrophe]

speaking of character development (or lack thereof) even in the most canon-adherent good version of spn that lives in my head Sam like, actually becomes a witch and that gets fleshed out, and Dean and Sam have a fight about it which leads to Dean accepting that no yeah okay fine not all witchcraft is bad, and Sam is still Sam and isn’t going to turn evil just because he does magic now. There’s gender shit wrapped up in this but its not really addressed except through subtext and Dean’s coded pop culture references, because, canon-adherence. In the slightly less canon-adherent version Sam also at some point long after s4 moves shit with his mind in a life-or-death situation that saves Dean. He has a “holy shit i didnt know i could still do that” moment and then a whole PTSD fueled freakout about how he’s unclean and a freak and HE ends up telling Dean something to the effect of ‘hey if i get back on the demon blood just fucking kill me’ and Dean is like. What. Why would you do that. What if you simply....*don’t* do that. At which point Sam reveals to Dean that he still has his powers and Dean who has been friends with monsters and an off-the-rails angel (if not also Crowley yet) is surprisingly accepting of this. And is like, okay, but you hadn’t consumed any demon blood when you moved shit that time, right? Well what if you can have the powers and not be a blood freak? And Sam who is surprised and heartened by his brother not treating him like something evil is like. yeah okay maybe i can learn to control them on my own. And then he does that but still struggles with self hate along the way, and also probably trying to push himself too far as they approach whatever overarching plot climax is happening that season.

Dean...Dean still has a lot of moments of regression even in good supernatural. He learns that he doesnt have to constantly perform being the two dimensional archetype of white american masculinity his dad shaped him into, but he does still fall back into those patterns when he’s in a lot of emotional distress, because, duh? CPTSD symptoms? This is the reason we all identify with and project onto Dean Winchester so much in the first place, and he’s not going to linearly grow out of that because it’s never that easy. No instead we get a more fleshed out and coherent character arc of Dean learning that not all monsters are bad. If that shit with the BMOL still happens both brothers balk at the idea of exterminating all monsters not just because of the potential for retaliation but because, like, explicitly they say “holy shit that’s genocide no”. And then they have to grapple with the fact that they hunt monsters at all, and of course yes the monsters they kill are also the ones killing people, but if that’s the metric we’re going by then the Winchesters are also definitely monsters. It needs to be Dean who’s doing the moral grappling with this, especially post-MOC, and that needs to actually change their behavior too. But also good supernatural Dean finally acknowledges he’s bi as he’s decompressing from that two dimensional pastiche of (toxic) masculinity and lets himself get softer and it still takes way too damn long for him to nut up and do something about it (probably post-widower-arc which i would ABSOLUTELY keep because that was unhinged in the best way) but we actually get a Dean/Cas reciprocal relationship because it’s the logical progression for both of them. Actually what i WANT is the 13x06 reunion scene immediately after all the romeo and juliet parallels in 13x05 to be a deancas onscreen kiss and love confession and then Castiel telling Dean that yeah Jack woke him up but he came back because of Dean (i read this in a fanfic somewhere but i dont remember whose so credit for this idea not mine but idk who to credit sorry). Because GAY LOVE PIERCES THROUGH THE VEIL OF DEATH AND SAVES THE MCFUCKING DAY.