#and came back on a new account to post like 3 vids

[aloftmelevar]

aaaaaand that give me 180 days to archive all my old musical.ly/tiktok stuff!

[3416]

1634 primer pt. 2 (2023-present)

hey again... since the 1634 primer (2015-2023) was a success, i figured i'd start a newer part two to keep that one from getting too long and unruly, so this will be a continuation starting the summer of 2023! with auston's extension signing him through the 27-28 season and with the contract talks for mitch (and hopefully inevitable extension, knock on wood) coming at the end of the 23-24 season.... i feel that there is a ton of content to come, so let's do it x2:

mitch marner got married on july 29th 2023... auston came to his wedding in canada after skipping other teammates weddings the same summer... here's auston being spotted watching mitch and steph during their first dance (his face...).... auston being in the official wedding video (gifs)... tarps off with mitch yelling in his face.... mitch making sure that auston's in one of the pics he posted in his photodump on ig <3 despite not posting many guests... here's a pic with them, michael bunting, naz kadri, and tyson barrie

last year we got auston calling mitch 'mitchelly' and 'his guy' in our leafs thanksgiving video, but this year we got them all randomly assigning thanksgiving dishes to random teammates (video)... and auston chose to give mitch the apple crumble "because it's actually his favorite" (gifs)

for media day, mitch got roped into a stupid game where you try to roll a coin into a fork... when he sees auston in the bg, he tries to wrangle him into it too... auston's noises of dissent like he's used to mitch trying to boss him around, i rest my case (leafs blueprint ep later showed auston smiling while mitch begged so... i was correct)

in the 2023 bardown callout video, auston turns into a giggly happy mess when mitch comes in the room mid-answer (gifs)... mitch also picked auston as the most likely to rip dress pants bc he's got "big legs" (gifs)... followed by a look that can only be interpreted as him fighting his own demons

auston, mitch, willy, and mo all did this goofy video where auston and mitch pretended to be sobeys workers and were given instructions behind the scenes... mitch sees auston in the outfit and his first thought is immediately "dude you look good as a sobeys worker" (gifs)... and then proceeds to make auston do pushups for fun (gifs). they were also given costumes with matching pb&j hats... and there's THIS picture i still need them to answer for.

all of them also went and did a little crossover with the blue jays... where mitch and auston were still a duo on the baseball field (vid here) (pic)

first glimpse of them playing hockey to start training and of course... they're hovering around each other from the first moment

this little preseason moment where mitch keeps his hand on auston's back for a bit... just to touch him

in the opening game of the 23-24 season, auston matthews scored his 300th career goal (followed by his 301st and 302nd for his 8th career hat trick) with an assist by mitch (who collects the puck for him too), which marks 100 goals he's assisted on for auston if this graphic is to be believed. auston went on to score 2 more hat tricks within his first 8 games, many of his goals being assisted by mitch.

another warmup video where they pass in sync too... and the maple leafs official account calling their warmup a TRADITION

the commentators still never shut up about them.. there have been 4892342 moments where they comment on mitch and auston being able to find each other or being partners out there or having chemistry... here are just some of those audio moments: 'with marner by his side, they'll find each other', 'trying to get that fourth goal for his partner', 'his partner mitch marner'

a leafs blueprint episode revealing they sit next to each other in team meetings.... and auston looks at mitch like he's the sun, but WHAT'S NEW

here's jesse from the steve dangle podcast talking about how mitch and auston are more in sync than normal center-winger combos and how matthew knies fits with them.

auston being so happy about mitch shootout goal the first time AND the second time

a game against nashville where auston was ready to go after a man who crosschecked mitch and where they held hands even though they didn't score themselves (pic) (gifs)

random pics of mitch and auston being attached at the hip during breaks here here here here

auston and mitch... have changed their pregame handshake to something that looks like... they both? kiss their gloves? before highfiving????... see for yourself ... pic by pic of a different day too

some cellies :') here and here and many more to come, im sure

bench moments so far: x x x x

they also still constantly walk into places on the road together as evidenced by this tag i've started and here's a pic from their global series trip where they're getting off the plane together

here's the first part of the primer in case you missed it and here is the @1634archive, where i've got a bunch of pics dewatermarked of them for you to peruse. it'll be updated as the season goes. for misc moments and gifs of 1634 that aren't substantial enough to get bullet points here, you can check out my tags #1634 and #egifs where it'll probably mostly be mitch and auston stuff. if there are any broken links or anything, don't be afraid to shoot me an ask so i can try to fix it!! enjoy!!

updated: 11/14/23

[solarwynd]

When armys used to talk about leftovers I used to roll my eyes because not liking a group when they change their musical direction is the most common thing just as I found myself annoyed by their hatred for multis - do you expect everyone to not listen to or to hate every other musical act just because they stan BTS?

However as someone who used to hardcore stan JK, I finally get the leftover part a little. I talk about him a little too much and it's because I used to stan him. I think its so much disappointing when someone you used to like becomes a poster boy of selling out. But I'm going to try to make a conscious effort to stop. It's just a bunch of negativity for no reason. Unfortunately pjms talk about JK a lot - mostly because jjks talk about Jimin - and the whole cycle keeps running. To some extent I appreciate the spite-inspo they provide pjms but at a certain point I want to open my twitter tl and not see fight after fight with every fandom on twitter and a bunch of ratkooks and maidkooks or pigmins or horsie or all that bs being thrown around. I've been off twitter for a week because of this (also to catch up with my assignments) and coming back, things are worse than ever.

I don't know what the solution is but things seem more exhausting than fun sometimes. I need some Jimin content stat 😔

Armys hatred of multis wasn’t because they liked other groups it was because multis 9/10 are fake and constantly threw BTS under the bus in defense of whichever other group they stanned. And in the case If they dropped BTS completely, they’d always immediately start to shit talk BTS the moment they unstan. (Even more embarrassing when you’d pull up old tweets to see that they were professing their love for BTS or specific members not even 3 months earlier sometimes) That’s where that term came from and it’s always been fitting. The bulk of these groups in kpop wouldn’t have the fanbases they have now without the fans BTS brought in. Especially 4th gen cause 80% of them are ex armys that’s just the truth. Me personally, I had no issue with anyone unstanning BTS when I was an army if their music started to not be to their taste. That’s understandable. But to unstan then go pick a group like NCT, SKZ or BP and want to talk about quality of music or talent? Yes, I will look at you dumb cause you’re not serious.

I will say that armys do give western multis a lot more leniency because they do hold western acts to a more superior standard than kpop groups. Which is ironic because those same western multis would in turn do the very same thing armys would call kpop multis out on and then they’d even add in a hint of xenophobia and condescension ontop of that too. So it really was all just one mess of a circle.

If PJMS weren’t as productive as they are in supporting Jimin, I’d be 10x more annoyed with them. They do talk about JK a lot but like you said it’s because jjks can’t mind their business. It’s also because how JK operates almost directly correlates to how jimin gets treated so it’s inevitable. Outside of that specific type of name calling (which irks me to no end on all accounts cause the majority of the people who are doing it are grown.) It’s the constant screenshooting and going back and forth that bugs me. Like I get receipt keeping cause I do it. But then you’ll have some pjms who will literally camp on the worst jjk anti accounts like Muri for a screenshot a couple minutes after that man posts some nasty tweet about jimin. And it’s like why? Why is he not blocked for you? What will he or any jimin anti really have to say that would be new or any different from him hurling the same pig insults, SH drags or reposting that same encore vid?

I don’t think the dynamic pjms have with jjks will ever change, so the best thing to do if you’re more on twitter is just stay in your own corner or continue to take breaks. Jimin hasn’t dropped music yet so you’re not really missing anything anyway.

[hologramcowboy]

https://www.tumblr.com/hologramcowboy/717106580531953664

And let's not forget that the "renewthewinchesters" vid he posted (which he claimed the cast put "together in a matter of hours".... not sure why it took hours...) was done so 42 minutes into the Walker finale. Aka RIGHT IN THE MIDDLE OF HIS SUPPOSED FRIENDS FINALE.

https://twitter.com/JensenAckles/status/1656822082519302145

Now we know that him claiming that TW announcement mere minutes before the new Walker ep aired that he claimed only happened then because of a "leak" was probably calculated (a lot of us guessed that lie was to cover his ass, much like the "no phones on set" bs). People gave him the benefit of the doubt back then, saying he wouldn't intentionally post it that close to his friends show. Now we know he has zero compunction about posting DURING his supposed friends show so I have no doubt he would do it right before as well. And this time he doesn't have the excuse of someone else posting because it came directly from his account. Looks like he thought he could use the spn/Jared fans online during that time to live tweet, etc. Walker and try and get them because he knows those fans are lost to him mostly. He even went so far as to post a congrats to Jared about Walker RIGHT BEFORE posting 3 more tweets begging people to do the legwork for him to "savethewinchesters". And it worked for his AA's and the J2's. They're like, "omg he's such a supportive friend! He made sure to congratulate him BEFORE he even talked about his own show! What a great guy!" and they don't see how calculated that move was.

I am sure some part of him is indeed happy for Jared. That being said, Jared gave him a job besides constantly worshipping and supporting him in everything. What has Jensen done besides words, words, words? I don't care how beautiful your words are if your actions contradict what you claim to be. A real friend doesn't backstab and if they make a mistake they make amends for it. So far Jensen has gaslighted Jared to infinity and back and now he is cowardly trying to ride Jared's success and attempting to fix the dent in his image by being "supportive". If the day was about Walker then why didn't he give his friend space? Sadly, I think you are spot on.

[its-koili]

hey guys. sorry for being gone for so long. heres an update

(tw for: mention of violence / gore, general distress, mental health issues)

(tw below)

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basically i had a huge mental health crisis. i was having 24/7 constant rolling panic attacks from may of 2023 to january of this year. my last big meltdown was in early february. been processing a lot of CSA trauma and some recent trauma that ive gone through. i think i talked about my panic attacks before leaving social media but idk i dont remember. isolated myself from absolutely everybody.

the main thing that made me leave was that while i was keeping up to date on the g3n0c1d3 (censoring bc idk how tumblr is about it), and when i was looking in the replies / related of the awareness videos, i came across 4 accounts dedicated to using gore for clicks / shock. not videos of the g3n0c1d3 (thank god bc of how they were using the vids) but of unfortunate every day situations and cam footage. like, the kind of stuff you could see on liveleak back in 2010. just out in the open on twitter. they all had usernames like "(insert number here) ways to die)". they were all content farms for click/ad revenue. it was too much it was a huge trigger and i had a full on meltdown. the bluecheck ppl on twitter were using the replies of the videos people uploaded for raising awareness to upload mindless g0re for money. the fact that peoople have 0 compassion for human life sent me into a spiral that i couldnt get out of. (i reported 3 out of the 4 accounts i was able to and 3 got taken down but 1 is still up and it odesnt seem to be uploading the hardcore g0r3 anymore. so thats good. but that was one of the reasons i left social media. ive been keeping up to date w the news but thats it. i left my socials entirely and ive only been on my phone to look up recipes or to use my computer for media research groceries and gaming and shows

that was the main thing that pushed me to leave. i just couldnt take it anymore. during the start of my crisis last year, i was planning on taking a small break, but all of that pushed me over the edge and i dropped everything. after that, my issues got worse and i dont remember most of it. thankfully. but i couldnt bring myself to talk to anybody. i isolated myself and just. laid in bed. but im doing better so i guess thats good

on another topic ive beeen nervous to post this on main but during all of this (ive talked abt tihs a little bit on my priv before i left) i found out that im a system a long while back. my dad (one of my abusers) had/has DID and it terrified me to think that i could be anything like him. i also knew cereal abuser who pretended to be a system to get away with stuff/abusing their friends (and then years later admitted that they werent a system and siad that systems are fake.) LOTS of tears. lots of crying over this. was in denial for a few weeks. cried some more. then eventually came to terms with it.

i dont want to post abt my system online too much bc i dont want to act like this is some fun trendy thing bc its not. it makes day to day living very hard (some lighter/funnier issues that make it hard are: arguing with an alter bc YOU dont know where THEY put YOUR MEDS, not being able to cook because one alter can and the other cant, your art style not being consistent because their styles are different). i dont want to really make it a massive part of my identity online bc its not a big deal! theres just Multiple Little Guys in my brain. so. im a system! im the same but....this explains why i dont remember talking to certain people SUIDHUFHX. i always felt bad. makes conversing with online friends hard especially if icons/usernames are changed. ill make a separate post about this someday thatll go into detail a bit more.

i went years thinking it was just "kinning" but it wasnt lol. it turns out that your personality completely shifting, tastes in food / music / art / media changing, the way you walk / talk dress changing, and having complete memory blackouts when you """"kin shift"""" isn't normal. /lh (dw ive had a lot of time to come to terms with this)

but basically right now ive been spending time getting to,,know myself?? iive been using simplyplural for myself for several months and im uncovering a lot of my memories / trauma ect bc alters can write down what they need to in the chat. so i can go back later and read it. its been v helpful!

i will not be coming back just yet. i have no interest in using social media rn or drawing or writing unfortunately. ive been working on my original stuff here and there but i havent been drawaing fandom stuff bc im not hyperfixating on a fandom.

also. some things have come up. im not going to say anything until the party in question is stable/safe/comfortable before i even suggest anything for context (i dont plan on talking abt anything at all unless they start talking publicly). right now i am helping someone through abuse. their wellbeing is my #1 concern. i'll think about other things after im sure theyre okay.

i dont really have any resolutions as to how things are going but i do feel better and im not having as many panic attacks. i dont really know where im going with this now sorry. just trying to brush over the basic topics before i go. idk if anybody remembers me bc ive been gone for so long so idk if im just talking into the wind but if i am thats fine honestly this is helping me reorganize my thoughts (i type these vents out a lot on docs so i probably wont remember posting this hiudhvu)

other than that. i dont draw or write anymore. i think in the past 6 months ive drawn like....5 things. its. weird. im completely disconnected from fandoms now. coming up to a full year of not having a hyperfixation at all.

my bday was on the 6th. im 27 now im very old (everybody forgot it asides from my husband (and the people he reminded) n my abuser). ive been trying to cook and bake more and ive been playing video games again. planning on getting back into drawing soon and working on my original stuff. when i come back im planning on redesigning my profiles and updating my social media bios and stuff bc theyre so old. also ill make a section on my carrd for my system. there you go theres some positivity to the update nxfjdfjh. sorry if i dont seem very enthused im very tired so typing has been a chore hfuidshuifv.

sorry that this was a lot or if it seems disjointed i was trying to put down as much into this as possible without making it too long

bye!!! see u all soon!

[delcakoo]

hi, so i was scrolling on youtube and i came across this video: https://youtu.be/X_LCFr4F9yQ and i thought the writing was quite familiar, then i realized it was one of your works. i don’t know if this is an account run by you, but i just wanted to let you know just in case 🤷🏻‍♀️

UPDATE the vid got taken down <3 thank u sm everyone who helped with comment/reporting, i couldn’t have dont it w/o you guys 💗💗💗

link what the actual fuck 😃 yeah that is my fic ‘nice to meet you boyfriend’ 😭

thank you so much anon i’m like ??? flabbergasted rn? they srsly took the time to copy my whole fic into a yt video bruh 9k views too?????? AND THE COMMENT IS PISSING ME OFF SO BAD “hey guys i’m back w a new ff sorry i’ve been inactive 🥹🥹😂🤣🙏🙏” MAN WHAT THE HELL FUCK OFFFF RN i’m gonna try n figure out how to get it removed later i’m literally at a party ☠️

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[slurpinpuffs]

hi yall! let me take you on a journey i went on today

it's pretty long, but read more to learn about some rather obscure black musical artists! ^u^

okay, so i found this song on a random Spotify playlist a long time ago and i *love* it. i love it a lot, all the women on the song have such amazing voices, but my favorite is the girl who sings the "respect the melanin, papi!" part (we'll get to her name later)

so i came back to this song today and was like, "i wanna hear more of them, especially my fav girl!" so i go to Google and look up NxxxxxS

oh, he was the producer i guess? the song's on his album, but he's not the singer. okay, let's look at the feature then, M.A.N

uhh, okay, that's not them either. i don't really know who this is honestly? but it's not the 3 women on the song, so i kinda don't care. let's find the music video for more details!

wow, they're really beautiful... but what have we learned so far?

the song is all English, but they're French!

the song has an artist named Senpu who apparently played bass? why were they not on the Spotify?

the girls are a group called Girls Do It Better(?)

two links!!!

to IG links, one to @man.bowdown (M.A.N again???), the other to @gdibcrew, which i assume is Girls Do It Better Crew

oh. neither of these pages exist...

i was able to find another IG page just by searching for gdibcrew, tho!

okay, so it's a women's collective in Paris. cool! but it's a private account with 0 posts, so it's pretty much dead. but there's a website li--

ah, that's down too :p

at this point, i tell this story to My Lovely Partner and they find a Vogue article titled Paris Girls Do It Better! Meet the City’s New DJ and Fashion Collective:

wow, still so beautiful... and there's more than 3! the collective debuted in 2014 apparently.

the article tells us a lot about these girls, their background and influences. check it out if ur interested!

even better, the article links to all of their Instagrams!

unfortunately, all of the links are either broken or lead to the wrong pages (the girls likely changed usernames) except for three:

Bibi Seck, who's a DJ. not one of the girls in the song, but i'm happy to have found her

Kyo Jino, the aforementioned male stylist who also wasn't on the song, but does have some really nice fashion on his page

and Khleopatre, who is a make-up artist, model, and art director with her own makeup line. notably, not a musician or any of the women on Brown Sugar, but i found a cool and artsy interview of her, so check that out if ur interested in her. she's really stunning and super unique

okay, so we learned more about GDIB, but not much about the specific women in the song, the point of this entire journey!

let's just google Girls Do It Better some more and see if we can find anything else

oh hey, a YouTube channel! only 4 videos, but it'll do.

OH BUT WAIT THAT'S HER

it's one of the girls from the video!! :O and she's the one from my favorite part of the song, too!!!

it's a freestyle rap called Singeries!! the video calls her Kitsuné Kendra, so i assume she's also Khenndrah from the article earlier

the vid also links to her Instagram, which links to her most recent single, ivresse (French for intoxication), on her new YouTube channel which has a bunch more songs, storytimes, and vlogs n stuff!! :D

she also performs at the Coyote Club with a non-binary artist named Sun Afrika!

okay cool, we found one! but what about the other two? it doesn't seem like all three of them made any other music as a trio sadly, but i found one thing!

a French interview on a site named Konbini linked to a JOUR/NÉ post on Instagram that tagged the girls. the three rightmost girls are the ones from the Brown Sugar video as far as i can tell, and the girl on the left seems to be another DJ/producer on the collective. according to the Konbini article, Yamiko and Bibi Seck are DJs/ producers, so the left girl may have been one of them, but it doesn't seem like she goes by either name anymore at least.

Unfortunately, @/noramens was a private account, but it was the same private account as the link to the name Lil' Felisha on the Vogue article, meaning that was at least her artist name at the time.

the next tagged account @/syra.mariah was active and open!

and just like that, we have another Instagram secured! it looks like whatever her name was in the Black Sugar era -- according to the article, Rainbow, Echo, and Lil' Felisha are singers in the GDIB collective, so she probably went by either Rainbow or Echo -- she now goes by SYRA!

her last song was in 2021, but her last video, a music video for her song Believe, was released a year ago, so she's still active! she has a really beautiful voice and style, so i'm super happy to have found her too!! <33

unfortunately, after googling around and searching Spotify, YouTube, and Soundcloud, i wasn't able to find any more info on the third girl on Brown Sugar, Lil' Felisha. based on the fact that he tagged Instagram page is privated with 1 post, and the fact that Lil' Felisha doesn't seem to be an artist on Spotify, i have assume she isn't really making music anymore. a bit of a disappointing end, as i really loved her performance in that song, but i'm honestly happy i was able to find the other two girls

so, in the end, here's who was singing on Brown Sugar:

(still not super sure who M.A.N is...)

thanks for joining me on this rly long story, sorry for keeping so many unnecessary details, i just wanted you all to experience the journey with me <3 go listen to Kitsuné Kendra's newest song ivresse (i also rly love Singeries on the old channel) and SYRA's newest video for Believe! and also, go listen to the song that started this whole thing, Brown Sugar! i promise, it's a really good listen. peace and love or whatever!!

[0925priv]

enchanted to meet you.

pairing: idol!mark lee x youtuber! fem reader

genre: strangers to lovers, fluff

word count: 684 words

prompt: in which choi yuna, a youtuber who goes by the channel name: luna loves you, catches mark lee’s attention.

a/n: an alternate reality in which idols dating is normalized in south korea.

chapter one. chapter two. chapter three.

[2:01 am] “time check, it’s two in the morning.”, i angled the camera in front of me. i hummed softy as my fingers danced along the strings of my guitar.

i twirled the pencil in my left hand then erased a few words and made adjustments to the lyrics. there, all set.

“ehem.” i cleared my throat. i flipped the pages on the notebook in front of me. “the words just came to me out of nowhere.”

“uhh let’s see…” i bit my lip in concentration as i strummed my guitar setting a soft melody.

[3:28 am] i stretched my arms and yawned. who knew editing the three-minute video would take me this long? i usually work fast, but i got pulled into the rabbit hole that is twitter. stupid bird app.

luna loves you posted a new video:

“sooo its 3 am and i wrote a new song ..? (underwater tears demo)”

@lunalovesyou tweeted:

NEW VID UP!!!! check out my new song: underwater tears <3 lmk what u think hehe >< http://youtube/watch.jcu17

[4:37 pm] “yah donghyuck! did you steal my earphones again?” i shouted at the boy five feet from me.

“no, of course i didn’t!” i shot him a dirty look. “ok fine i borrowed it! it’s in the drawer back in our room.”

i sighed heavily in exasperation. my legs feel like jelly. i’m too tired to go back to the dorms and find my earphones.

“here.” jaemin handed me something. “i have another pair back in the dorm, you can have this.” he smiled at me.

i thanked him and sat at the far left corner of the practice room. i opened the youtube app and searched for her name. she tweeted about a new song—underwater tears.

i clicked on the video. the background was familiar. she was in her room. fairy lights adorned the canopy of her bed. a few plushies were on the ground. multiple albums sat on her shelf.

“…i’ve been exhausted my whole life

it’s a never ending cycle

of trying to swim upwards

but my feet are anchored to the ground

chains of steel held me down

lungs full of salt water

i tried to fight the waves and swim upshore

but they wouldn’t let me

no they wouldn’t

so if you can see me

come save me

please reach for my hand and pull me back up…”

the screen turned black signaling the end of the video. “wow.” i exclaimed in shock. i’ve always known she had a lovely voice. but this? i’m lost for words.

“what’s that?” i jumped in surprise. i looked to my left and saw the familiar silverish white mop of hair. “don’t you mean who’s that?” renjun said.

“ahh…luna noona.” jisung nodded in acknowledgment.

“tsk tsk.” haechan clicked his tongue in disapproval. “why don’t you just approach her?”

“hyung you know he’d rather eat a spoonful of ketchup than talk to a pretty girl.” chenle laughed.

“i’m going to!” i said in defense.

“when?” jaemin asked.

“i said i’m going to!” a chorus of laughter echoed in the room.

i first saw her while i was going through videos of people covering my song, child. her small smile on the thumbnail caught my attention. she was hunched over her guitar. her dark hair was roughly tied into a ponytail, a few stray strands covering her face. but even then, i could tell that she was absolutely beautiful.

the next thing i new, i was watching all her videos and stalking both her twitter and instagram. my finger hovered the screen, accidentally clicking the follow button. good thing i was using my private account, or else the press would have a field day.

i found myself waiting every saturday for her new upload on youtube. during my free time, i would watch her instagram live as she narrates her day. her eyes would shine brightly as she talks about the most random stuff, like how her pet dog bit her in the butt when she was younger, so she bit it back.

as andrew garfield said, she was like a shot of espresso—and i’ve just become highly addicted to caffeine.

next chapter.

[suguruverse]

hii. if u are comfortable, can u make hcs w atsumu, kuroo and bokuto with a tiktoker s/o! and is really famous bc is funny and pretty!! thanks and btw how are u boo? 🥺🤨

— HAIKYUU BOYS WITH A TIKTOKER S/O

includes - miya atsumu, kuroo tetsurou and bokuto koutaro

a/n - ahh i absolutely love this request bb! thank you so much and plus you have such immaculate taste in your choice of boys i hope you enjoy this one!! <3

↳ MIYA ATSUMU

- he accidently came across your videos when it came up on his fyp

- and he lowkey did a double take bc this is his s/o?

- he like rewatches the vid at least 20 times bc you’re so fucking pretty and funny

- he goes on your profile and you’re actually pretty famous??

- and your videos are actually kinda funny?

- like is this the same person who makes dad jokes every chance you get?

- you also look absolutely stunning your your vids i must say

- this man is your biggest fan no matter what <3

- follows you immediately, stalks your page and likes every single post, no matter how lame it is

- even goes through your comments and like which ever ones compliment one and would probably reply to them with something like “IKR ISNT MY BABY SO PRETTY AND FUNNY AND AMAZING<33″

- the moment he notices people thirsting over you, he’s quick to shut them down and run to you to ask you about making tiktoks with him

“BABY, BABY, Y/N MY LOVE, do ya wanna make a tiktok with me? pls?”

“‘tsumu, what are you talking about?”

“i found ya account so lets make videos together please?”

“uhm sure ‘tsumu, but why?”

“so i can let all those boys know that ya mine and no one else”

- you don’t understand where he’s coming from but you still comply with his request anyways

- after that he appears in your videos so often and your followers love how dramatic he is

- no bc if you try those bf tiktok pranks, they always go viral bc with his attitude, it’s hard not to laugh at him

↳ KUROO TETSUROU

- honestly started teasing you when he first found your account

- prank this man pls he deserves it

- but actually he finds it so cute that you make tiktoks

- probably won’t join in but you’ll see him at the back watching you and smiling

- sometimes he even helps you film and takes pictures for you when your fans ask for pictures when you’re out together

- at this point, basically everyone has noticed him in the background of your vids and they always ask who it is

- when you did a bf reveal, everyone was like what??

- someone who’s already so hot has an equally as hot bf? that's literally not fair

- his account is most used to expose the most random things about you

- one time, you were live and he walked in half naked on his phone and was like “hey kitten, do you wanna watch that new movie on netflix”

- lol you panicked a lot, and kicked him out the room 

- him outside ur door: “kitten, what was that for, if you didn’t wanna watch with me, you could have just said that, so aggressive jeez”

- you to your fans: im sorry for that 

the chat:

“HE CALLS YOU KITTEN?!?1?!?”

“yall see his abs? unreal”

“i would gladly watch the movie with him”

- lol you ended the live 

bonus:

- you walk out of your room with a glare on your face

“im sorry kitten, i didn’t know”

“they saw your abs :(”

“that’s what your mad about?”

“they’re my abs”

“yes i know kitten, can we watch the movie now?”

“hmph”

↳ BOKUTO KOUTAROU

- the video he first saw of you was actually a thirst trap

- when it was first on his fyp and realised it was a thirst trap, he immediately scrolled past (as he should)

- but after he scrolled he swore he recognised the person so he went back to look at their face and he saw that it was you!!

- hes honestly so hype bc you’re so pretty! and perfect! and so angelic! and very much his!!

- he comments a minimum of 10 times just basically hyping you up and looks something like this:

“BABY IS THIS YOU”

“YOURE SO PRETTY BABY”

“STEP ON ME UR SO PERFECT”

“WET”

“SO FUCKING HOT AND FOR WHAT”

“STOP LOOKING THIS GOOD BEFORE I KISS YOU”

- you get the point right? anyways

-  hot couple = doing thirst traps together

- and yes every single video yall do together always goes viral

- people just love the dynamic between the two of you

- ur the only one he follows, likes every single of your posts and even has your post notifs on

- has contemplated making a fan account for u

- prank him pls he has the best and funniest reactions

- matching usernames

ur comments:

“where did you get him?”

“is ur bf single?”

“yeah i want what they have”

“someone find me a man who looks at me the same way bokuto looks at y/n”

“the way i would date both of them sheesh”

[freakygirlie]

New(ish) to J2 fandom, just spent the past god knows how many sleepless nights reading through Speak the Truth, trawling through spn_gossip and rewatching old cons and I👏am👏going👏in👏SANE👏

I considered myself a relatively reasonable person, but when it comes to J2, I have ZERO control. Tinhatting aside, their obvious love for one another makes me want to put myself in a grave.

As an old hat, some questions for you..

1. when did you first fall for the boys and what made you start tinhatting?

2. what the hell is it about them that drives us (j2 fandom) SO insane? (why the hell do I care whether two random people are/are not *really* in love?)

3. any coping mechanisms to deal with this obsession?

hi anon honestly what a wonderful ask <33333 this is gonna be a long one so buckle up !!

WE ARE ALL INSANE LET ME TELL YOU THAT MUCH. ''sleepless nights going through tinhat stuff' BEEN THERE! DONE THAT! I am so in love with their love i have 0 control let me tell you that much. their love for each other TINHATTING ASIDEEEE makes me want to jump off a cliff it's so gorgeous it makes me insane all the time. i mean HOW CAN YOU NOT GO INSANE WHEN YOU SEE ALL THIS:

1. when did you first fall for the boys and what made you start tinhatting?

-when i first started watching supernatural, i was IN LOVE with sam and dean's relationship. it was JUST <3 and i obviously saw the insane and beautiful chemistry the actors had. my friend who got me hooked on the show, used to ramble on about how beautiful j2's friendship was and i was like mmhmm cool cool. i started watching con videos and i was just blown away by their friendship, the easiness they had and the obvious love and affection. i wasn't a tinhat and while i did go 👀👀👀 at many things(only con videos till now) i was like- PLSDJFJG i'm just projecting my wincest fantasies on them ffs. anyways moving on to me venturing into the tumblr world, long before i made an account, i was scrolling through the j2 tag and it was all cute pics vids and stories and i was all aww! when i came across a post(I AM BEGGING ANYONE WHO KNOWS IT LINK IT TO ME PLEASE I CANT FIND IT) which was of a convention clip i had already seen: (x) (starts at 9:15) and it was the SPNMINN 2018 J2 Gold Panel- Jared got a box of cupcakes from a fan and while eating one there was frosting all smeared on him and Jensen took some napkins and cleaned Jared's mouth IT'S THE CUTESTTT and while jen's cleaning up uk he makes those ''ugh'' sounds, grumpy jensen <3333333 but still taking care of his boy <333333

the post was captioned if i remember correctly: ''his mouth is saying ugh but his eyes are saying oh'' (bc jared 's mouth was all shiny and pretty so ehem ;)) AND I JUST FROZE FOR A MINUTE. It took a minute for me to process it but when it finally loaded i was like W H A T. WHAT IN ALL OF ??????? IS THE OP IMPLYING- (be known that i knew the j's were married and had kids so anyone implying or saying that they were romantically involved was like ''are u crazy'' for me, pls i was so naive, also it was the first time i was so blatantly exposed to it, anyways) i was like shooketh. and then i looked at the tags and it was your average: ''jared padalecki'' ''jensen ackles'' and then ''j2 tinhat''. and i was ??? what the hell is a tinhat ???? ehem you can be sure that i clicked on it, it loaded AND THE FIRST POST THAT JUMPED OUT AT ME was this gif of Jared STROKING jensen's neck and the hairs at the back of it and I WAS WTFHJDJHFJFKFJ. ?????????????? THE HELL IS THIS ????????????????????

anyways i spent the entire NIGHT SCROLLING THRU THE TAG and my entire world like everything i knew was just flipped and scrambled and i was just ohmygod what the fuck and i found out there was a whole community of j2 tinhats who believed j2 were involved and the marriages were to cover it up and let me be honest, i thought y'all were crazy. i was like nope nope these are just people with too much time on their hands and too much of an overactive imagination. LIKE NO THERE'S NO WAY-

i spent so long being a fencesitter, scrolling, researching, trudging my way thru spn_g, all the blogs(and i learnt to keep an open mind that's very imp!) but i was still in denial. it was right in front of me BUT STILLLLL. and then. the thing that convinced me wasn't an elaborate theory, a slip up or anything like that. it was a tiny simple collection of gifs of j2 secretly touching each other's hands. and the gif that convinced me was:

it was 3 or 4 am in the morning and i was yet again scrolling through as much tinhattery stuff as i could and i came across it and i was just: ohmygod. they're together. OHMYGOD. THEY'RE IN LOVE. the- they are actually- ohmygod. LIKE JENSEN IS FONDLY CARESSING JARED'S FINGERS HE DELIBERATELY SEEKED THEM OUT WHILE HIS HAND WAS ON THE FAN AND JARED'S NOT EVEN STARTLED HE ALLOWS IT LIKE GOD ???? like idc how bro-y and bestfriendism you are- FRIENDS DON'T DO THAT. PLATONIC BUDDIES DON'T SEEK OUT YOUR HAND LIKE THIS AND CARESS THE FINGERS OF SAID HAND, SMILE ALL LOVE-SICK LIKE AND CURL THEIR FINGERS UNDER YOUR TOUCH AND THEN GO BACK AND DO THE SAME THING ALL OVER AGAIN LIKE SOME SMITTEN HUSBAND OKAY. AND IN SECRET TOO LIKE-

i was like again FLOORED but like seeing THAT just flipped me completely and it slammed into me like a car(and i've been hit by a car irl so I KNOW). i fell so deep into the tinhat hole and after that everything else just made sense. their actions that didn't match up with their stories, the slip-ups, the weirdness(look when i was a non-tinhat, i wasn't an overly eager het stan or whatever but i was so done with jared and gen repeating the same things over and over again and jensen and danneel's interactions were ehem with all due respect boring.) and THEM J2 THEIR LOVE THEIR INTERACTIONS THE LOOKS THE EVERYTHING !!!!! i've been a tinhat since and while i've had my doubts here and there i've never taken my hat off <3

2. what the hell is it about them that drives us (j2 fandom) SO insane? (why the hell do I care whether two random people are/are not *really* in love?)

-it's them anon *shrugs and cries a little*. them, their love for each other is so out of this world. they've sacrificed so much to be together, they love each other so deeply and are such an integral part of each other's lives and god they fit so fucking well ??? they connected the moment they met and they are each other's other halves!! it's something out of a movie or some shit like godddddd. they drive us insane by just being THEM !!! separately even i have never seen two better men who try so hard to be good, who give us their all and let themselves loose, who love so beautifully. and together they're perfect. their love story is one for the ages and i admire it and cherish it so much. they struggle with it all yet love each other so much and it's not like it's even subtle it's out their for EVERYONE TO SEE. The way they talk about each other, the way they look after each other, the little glimpses we see into them and their relationship. it's something that's so beyond our understanding, it's on a plane of it's own. j2 are WHY i believe so wholly in true love <33 ''why the hell do we care'' that kind of dedication the one they show us and the kind of love they send us, it creates a bond, fans, admirers, and people who are willing to stick with you no matter what. i look up to them so much, they are such a comfort to me and i love love love their relationship. they drive us so insane and how could they not!

there's 15003878398449 moments i could talk about but god i'm just so fucking insane for them and the love they share, we all are !!! and also think about it where did sam and dean get their insane-ness from ??? <333

(x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) (x) - linking to a few <333(ok more than a few)

<3

they're soulmates ❤️

3. any coping mechanisms to deal with this obsession? -believe me anon if i knew, i would tell you.

[darkficsyouneveraskedfor]

Looking for a Place to Happen 2

Warnings: non-consent sex and rape (series), age gap, general stupidity, some violence and threats

This is dark!biker!Sam Wilson x reader and explicit. 18+ only.  Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.

Series Synopsis: There’s lots happening in Birch and you find it all too amusing.

Sister series to Smalltown Bringdown, When the Weight Comes Down, Little Bones, and Fully Completely

Note: Here’s chapter two. Think I’ll probably slow down writing. Appreciate y’all.

Thanks to everyone for their patience and feedback. :)

I really hope you enjoy. 💋

<3 Let me know what you think with a like or reblog or reply or an ask! Love ya!

Chapter 2: I follow every little whiff

💀💀💀

You gave yourself a day off that week. Rather, the desolation of Birch allowed you an excuse to get away from your desk. An internet outage across the town had you up and wandering the main road just after noon. Your grandmother refused to join you so she was left to her true crime novel and the weekday droning of talk show hosts.

After a peek in the book shop where you picked out some used thrillers for your nan and a guilty splurge on one of Babs' pies to add to the surprise, you stopped by the diner and had some soup to warm up from the unrelenting cold. You played around on your phone as you blindly slurped from your spoon. With no available connection, you swapped candies to achieve a score high enough to get to the next round.

After another loss, you put your screen down and added some pepper to the tomato soup. You leaned your chin in your hand and peered across the road. The Asp was just diagonal from The Chipped Saucer and from your seat by the window you could see the comings and goings of the dingy bar.

You chuckled to yourself as you remembered the hundreds of comments on your video. You weren't entirely surprised that the internet cheered at the sight of a woman beating up a man in broad daylight, you'd seen much worse on the web. But many were curious and asked about how it started and about the small town alluded to in the caption.

You picked up your phone and flipped open the camera. You pointed it through the glass as one of the many bikers strutted out of the bar and down the street. You knew him, like most in town, he was the leader's right hand man. Steve Rogers. He had an odd gait, rigid with long strides, and you remember Kelly used to make fun of him when you walked home from school. That felt like forever ago.

You ended the video and dropped your phone again. You'd send it to Kelly when the outage was over. It would be a good laugh. Plus, you hadn't heard from her much since she moved to the city.

You finished your soup and paid. You went out into the street and cut around to the backstreets. You made your way back to your nans and found Pippin scratching at the front door. You stopped and scooped him up before you let yourself in.

"Don't like the snow, do ya?" You set him down and he whipped his tail before skittering off, "hey nan, I got you some stuff."

"You spend too much," she grumbled as you hung your coat and grabbed her treats.

"Only on you," you sang as you entered the front room, "sugarless blueberry pie, your fave, and some books about murder and all that freaky stuff you love."

"Hmm," she watched you put the pie and books down on the coffee table, "suppose the pie will go good with tea."

"Ah, and I suppose I'll be making that tea?" You returned.

"My arthritis…" she pouted but her grin came through.

"Yeah, yeah," you snickered as you went to the kitchen to put on the kettle, "we going black today or something lighter?"

"Put on some of the pekoe," she called back, "make a whole pot."

"Will do, ma'am," you trilled and basked in her annoyed mutter.

💀

When the internet came back, you sent of an email to inform the agency of the interruption and promised to meet your deadlines. Then you puttered around and added a caption to the video before you sent it off to Kelly; 'why he walk like that tho'. She sent a series of crying emojis back and told you to post it.

'Nah, it's a dumb joke.' You typed back.

'Saw ur last vid, ppl will eat it up,' she insisted.

'Well, got nothing else to put up. The account’s dying since no one cares about my writing.'

'DO IT.' Her words sealed your resolve and you uploaded the video with some dramatic music in the background.

The response was almost instantaneous. Several comments saying they were happy to see more and others being for another video. 'We all wanna see inside this fucked up town' one added and several latched on. Ignoring the questions of where this was, you gave a thin promise of future small town thug content. 

You turned back to your work email and opened up your draft for your next gig. You couldn't help but smile as you went over your work. You might have just found your niche.

💀

You knew your nan would lose it if she knew you were snooping around the club, so you didn’t tell her. You went down, made her breakfast, went back upstairs to do your work, then tiptoed out in the late afternoon to poke around town for something to upload. Birch was so dull when you lived there but to those outside, it was a novelty you were all too eager to provide.

You got more videos of the bikers; some revving their bikes, others arguing, but there was nothing overly usable. You were getting bored of it until the man himself walked out of the bar. You record the man’s glower expression as he marched down the sidewalk and turned off just down the way.

‘His name is Bucket… wtf?!’ you keyed in and snorted as you waited for it to load to your account.

Still, there was nothing special going on, like always in Birch, and your grandmother was bound to get suspicious if you kept sneaking around. You went back and hid your phone before she could bitch about it. You cooked her dinner and sat with her as your thoughts swung between work and your TikTok.

You went to bed but couldn’t sleep. You ended up watching YouTube on your phone as the windows shook with the night winds. It wasn’t until the darkness began to glow that you were roused from the cocoon of your comforter. You looked out and saw smoke coming from the main road.

You didn’t think before you pulled on your jeans and shoved your feet into your slipper, unconcerned about them soaking through as you barreled down the stairs, the sleeves of your hoodie only half on. The back door bounced behind you and you crunched down into the snow and clamored past the row of lifeless houses. 

You were out of breath as you got to the end of the path and rounded the diner to gape over at the burning garage. You got closer as the line of bikers stood in their leather with breath puffing before them in the frigid night. You stepped back into the shadow of the brick façade of the realty office and swiped your camera open.

Your hands shook and you struggled to steady the image on the screen as the mechanic woman raged in only her tee shirt. You didn’t quite understand what was going on; only that her garage was up in smoke and then men were doing nothing to smother it. She swung at the dark haired man and spat at several others; “cowards”... “fuck all of you!”

You gulped and held your breath as she was dragged away by the large redheaded henchman of the slender outsider. She fought for a moment before she was flung over his shoulder and the biker followed their leader back to The Asp. You sidled in between the building and hid until the voices faded into the wind.

Well, that would be a hell of a video. It might even go viral.

💀

Your phone did not stop. You almost felt bad as you saw the screen limn the edges of your cell as you left it face down on the little table beside the couch. Your nan sat in her rocking chair talking away on her corded phone to Linette from down the road. You suspected that every other person in town was gossiping about the same thing; the fire.

You finished your coffee and rubbed your eyes as you checked the time and ignored the pulsing notifications. It was too much to keep up with.

Your grandmother hung up and sighed, “can’t believe it. You hear?”

“Hear what?” you pretended ignorance.

“That old garage burned down. The one with the lady,” she said, “pity. When I was a girl, that place was a salon. Ma used to take us there to get our hair cut. The barber would give us wrapped candies and pretend to cut himself with his scissors.”

“Oh? It burned down?” you weren’t sure you were very convincing but you also could just say you saw it happen.

“Yep, no one really can say. You know, maybe she was welding or some rag caught, but I bet my money on those bikers,” she sneered.

“Good thing you’re poor,” you kidded, “and why the bikers?”

“Oh, well, you know Kimmy, Linette’s girl, works down at the diner and she saw that mechanic arguing with one of those strangers, the ones dealing with the club men. Well, it’s no coincidence that trouble follows those leather jackets around,” she rocked as she nodded knowingly, “oh, one of the boys I knew back in the day, he was found burnt up with his bike. They said the tank blew… well, I saw it and that tank was pristine.”

“Nan,” you gasped, “you… Jesus.”

“Well, things don’t change in Birch, we just get older,” she continued, “when you’re young, everything seems new but then you age and it’s all just the same.”

“Wow, how… inspiring,” you said dryly.

“Girlie, you gotta be careful,” she intoned, “that fire, that’s a lesson to all the women in this town. To everyone. You don’t cross the Commandos.”

“I don’t think anyone--”

“That’s another thing, there has never been a shortage of stupid people, not now not then,” she girded, “those women who get tied up in that club, their lives are already done.”

You frowned and hid your phone in your pocket as you stood. You rubbed your neck and picked up your empty mug, “I should get started.”

“Mmm,” she said as she dialed the phone again, “I wonder if Fran knows yet.” 

💀

You were being really fucking stupid but peer pressure was not a logical thing. Even through a screen, you found it hard to resist the goads. So there you were, your phone in your hand as you live-streamed your walk down to The Asp. The data costs alone would make you regret it but you were caught up in the hype of you fifteen second of internet fame.

“Alright,” you stopped across the street and gave a view of the moniker with Cleopatra sultrily looking down at you, “this is it… I just gotta play it cool…” you turned the lens towards you and smiled nervously, “hopefully that dude at the front doesn’t stop me.”

Comments flicked up the bottom of the screen so fast and smilies and hearts floated up the side around your face. You crossed the screen as you turned your phone against your coat and approached the bar door. The large biker butted out his smoke and you bared your teeth nervously. He didn’t stop you as he rolled his shoulders and coughed.

You entered to the noise of classic rock and low voices, the clink of glasses and tap of chalk on marble. You glanced around and quickly swept your phone around to give a view of the patrons. You hurried over to the bar and climbed up on a stool.

“You need a drink?” the woman behind the bar scowled. She looked worn out even with her lips painted bright pink and her eyes clouded with blue shadow.

“Uh, sure, can I… can I get one pint of everything you have on tap?” you asked as you set your phone down and shrugged out of your coat. You draped it over the next stool and reposition your phone as you flipped the cam and used the built in stand on the case to angle yourself onto the screen.

“Sure,” she narrowed her eyes and glanced past you.

You swung your feet as you waited for her to pour the five pints; some with too much foam and the others with no head at all. You took the first and held it up for the camera.

“A classic, BudLight,” you held it up to the light, “no head and…” you sipped, “flat.” You plunked it down and coughed as you grabbed the next, “this is a raddler?” you looked at the tap for confirmation, “grapefruit… smells like piss…” you had a sip, “tastes like it too.”

You chuckled to yourself and asked for a water. You made a show of swishing it around in your mouth before you moved onto the third beer.

“Had to cleanse the palate,” you joked, “now… lots of foam on this one, dark. You know, I’m pretty surprised they have Guinness here but let’s see…” you tasted it and crinkled your nose, “that’s it. Exactly like toilet water!”

You read some of the comments telling you to check the bottles for bugs and laughed. Suddenly you were yanked off the stool by the back of your shirt and your phone was swiped up by another man as the first restrained you. You struggled against his thick arm as it hooked around your neck and the leader of their crew stared at the screen of your cell.

“What the fuck are you doing?” he snarled as he hit the screen with his thumb but the stream kept going. He dropped the phone to the floor and stomped it instead.

“This is the bitch posting about us online,” the man at your back growled. It was Steve, the one with the weird walk.

“I doubt either of you know how to use a computer,” you scoffed, “hey, let me go.”

“And why would we do that when you’re snitching to the whole world, sweetheart?” Bucky kicked your phone away as he crossed his arms.

“Actually, I’m--” you grasped Steve’s arm as it threatened to get tighter, “--promoting your trash business. I was just having a tasting, if you had just asked--”

“Shut up!” Bucky stepped closer and brought your legs up and stopped him as you planted your feet against his stomach.

“Hey,” a woman’s voice came from behind the bar as the waitress shoved aside her empty tray, “hey, she’s just a kid.”

“Bullshit,” Bucky huffed, “she looks full-grown to me.”

“So what are you gonna do?” she said, “she’s young. You can’t--”

“Don’t tell me what I can’t do,” he snapped.

“She’s right,” another voice intoned and that man, Sam, came up beside them with a pool cue in hand, “she’s just goofing around.”

“She’s a rat,” Steve insisted.

“You’re being dramatic. It’s called a meme and you do walk a little strange,” he chuckled, “no one’s gonna follow her breadcrumbs back to this shithole anyway.”

Bucky considered Sam and then looked at Steve. He poked his cheek with his tongue and sucked his teeth.

“So… you vouching for her?” Bucky asked.

“She won’t cause any more trouble, promise,” Sam said, “I’ll make sure of it.”

“You better,” Bucky snapped his fingers and you were released, “get her out of here.” 

[whatdoesshedotothem]

Saturday 2 August 1834

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no kiss tho’ she came to me for about half hour at six this morning lay very quietly fine morning F67° at 8 am - breakfast at 9 – very well satisfied till the bill came – and then I said the being charged 8/. a night for our double bedded room and the 2 servants rooms was ridicule – however the man said I had agreed to pay 19/. per day for all and everything and he had distributed the price so as to come to that – that fact is, I have a good lesson - according to his valuation I now see what dinners and breakfasts ought to be in little town like this - off from les Echelles [Les Échelles] at 1 5 having previously agreed with the postmaster for the horses at 3 at 1/50 and the 4th at 1/. per poste, and paid him - telling the postilion I should only give him 1/50 per poste - alighted at the grotte, on the other side of the tunnel, at 11 39 – walked down the bottom of the old road and back in ½ hour - In descending the 1st natural cave (on the left) is of considerable extent – the curé a little while ago during la grande sécheuse went on ½ hour in it – sometimes on hands and knees  - a little lake at the far end of the cavern – the large cavern just on this side of the inscription of honour of Charles Emmanuel and a little lower down (right) now the water course, was the original road along which people made use of ladders to get up and down the inequalities and from which the neighbouring town was called Les Echelles [Les Échelles], on account of the ladders being left there - The man at the grotte would have accompanied us but he was not well and we could not now go into the cavern on the account of the late rain - but during sécheuse one could go thro’ the cavern and it is very interesting - off again in 33 minutes at 12 12 – a few drops of rain as we drove along from the grotte – on reaching Saint Thiebault de Coux [Saint-Thibaud-de-Couz]  found there was a capital most picturesque new road just opened about 2 months ago direct from Les Echelles [Les Échelles] by Voreppe where 2  good Inns – 6 ½ postes from there to Grenoble – 10 postes to ditto by Chambery – should save 2 postes by turning back - would have done so but for the torment of a little douane on entering France (vid. yesterday) - this road just going to be entered in the livre des postes - at present the postmaster charged the 1st stage postes, but it was not really so much - at the cascade de Coux [Couz] at 1 ¾ and alighted at La Parfaite Union, Chambery at 2 25 – tired – had ½ hour’s nap in my chair – then A- and I out at 3 ½ put into the post office my and A-‘s letter to my aunt Shibden – written last night and dated at Les Echelles [Les Échelles] – would be in Paris in 3 days and paid 6 sols français - put in the p.o. also my letter 2 ½ pages to ‘Lady Duff Gordon, Poste restante, à Munich, Bavière’ dated as today at Chambery - paid 1/. - will be at Munich in 8 days - then went to the nursery garden - saw Frederic Burnier - went about with us very civilly - told him to give the habitat and temps du floraison locally where  and time when gathered of each specimen - sauntered about the town – went to the castle – saw the Sainte Chapelle – fine painted glass windows – loft groined roof – exterior handsome old gothic except the modern Greek front to the castle yard – old ruined empty partly square and partly round tower singular but picturesque - Home at 5 25 – dinner (very good one) at 5 40 - had a Lavaret (salmo lavaretus) excellent sort of fish the fishermen on lake Bourget, at Hautcombe, asked us 4/. a piece for - as large and .:. 1lb. weight the 1st time I remember to have tasted this fish - melon brought with the veal steaks cutlets - sat  long over dessert – till 9 25 wrote all the above of today – a few drops of rain at the grotte and afterwards occasional showers during the rest of the day - F69° now at 9 25 pm - the drive from Chambery to Les Echelles [Les Échelles] is certainly very fine - Chambery a very nice town but one most marchander with everybody - I ought to have done so with my garden botaniste Mr. Frederic Burnier, but I never thought of it at the time - he said they had here 64 journals of ground in nursery - a journal = 4000 French ft. carrés - sometimes (in the spring and autumn and now when much work to do) 250 workpeople - have given up the establishment at Turin- but one at Lyons and Grenoble, the latter newly established -  with her twenty minutes before getting into my own bed

[katsuflossy]

Their S/o Doing the Sweeney Todd challenge with Them

Pairings: Bakugo x reader, Todoroki x reader, Kaminari Denki x reader, Sero Hanta x reader

A/N: So sorry for not dropping any content this week. College is super time consuming and as I said before I hardly have time to wipe my ass. But I hope you guys enjoy this lil thang 😁

Taglist: @sunset-novice-writer @goatsenpaiultimate

💥 Oh, brother,...may the element of surprise help you with this one.

💥 The last time you did a TikTok around him you had the nerve “accidentally” hit him with your bag. Mans almost skinned your ass if you didn’t pay him in a bunch of hugs and all the sorts.

💥 So you decide to do the kissing Sweney Todd challenge with him at the table. You propped your phone and mans was not having it knowing that you’re doing another Tiktok around him.

💥 “(Y/n) put that phone down, I ain’t fucking doing it.”

💥“Please Kastu, this one isn't as bad as the last one.” 

💥 “I don’t fucking care I don’t want to be in your Tiktok shitty woman-” Little did he know you already set the timer and the song began as he was yapping his mouth off. 

💥 The first kiss had the man looking like a freeze-frame. He said: 

💥 After every kiss, his tomato face percentage raised higher. And then the lyrics I- do you want his heart to go into cardiac arrest.

💥 Could’ve been a game fr: How red can the Katsuki turn.

💥 The goo-goo eyes you’re sending him ain’t helping either.

💥 After the Tiktok ran out, mans was still on the mannequin challenge (ugh 2016 come back 2020 is mad ghetto)

💥 He turns to you, blush subsided to only his cheeks and ears, and said:

💥 “Well, why’d ya stop? You missed a couple lyrics the first time.”

🧊 He’s an old man. Denki had to download Tiktok for him (he ain’t got no privacy settings in goddamn phone at all so Denki went straight to download it and some other stuff 👀)

🧊 His fyp lacks so much flavor like 😷 

🧊 You had to step in to manage the account.

🧊 “Shouto, where’s the flavor in this? i don’t taste anything! i don’t taste sugar, honey, cinnamon, nutmeg-”

🧊 So when you set up the phone and told him to get into the frame, he thought it was just one of those “put a finger down” vids he’s seen. 

🧊 Show this man some black tiktok creators please 😑

🧊 Three stages he goes through when you’re pecking his cheek, the one right under the scar

🧊 Stage 1: Freeze frame, stage 2: He actually freezes...like his other check had ice attached to it. And stage 3: He blushes and returns one peck back while you’re saying the last parts of the song. 

🧊 Shoto, stahp you make my heart be on x games mode.

🧊 You post it and the comments are either coping over the cuteness of the vid or simping over Shoto EVEN THOUGH you’re literally kissing the boy

🧊 Consider privating it.

🎆 He’s friends with Denki bro he knows Tiktok 

🎆 But all the training he’s doing he can hardly keep up with new trends unless its the super popular ones Denki rounds up everyone to do.

🎆 You said you want to do a Tiktok, he doesn’t care but he’ll do anything for you

🎆 The music start and the man already know this shit sounds familiar.

🎆 Started smirking like Sweeney Todd himself while staring at you pecking his cheek.

🎆 After all them pecks, he turns to you slowly, looking you straight in the eye before pulling you into a hot  makeout session.

🎆 While he pounced on you, boy knocked over the phone. The phone was still recording after and all the camera could see was Hitoshi’s purple hair.

🎆 Comments kept saying yall took that shit to the bedroom 👀 ...I’ll leave it up to your imagination.

⚡️ Man stop playing wit my boy. He on straight tiktok, alt tiktok, black tiktok and the rest.

⚡️ So he knew it was the Sweney Todd sound as soon as that first note hit.

⚡️ I hc he knows tiktok sounds by the first beat and has never been incorrect once. 

⚡️ You couldn’t even reach his cheek because he turned his head to meet you in a nice smooch.

⚡️ Girl you’re so  shocked, couldn’t even finish the whole challenge so he took over for you.

⚡️ Lip syncing the song perfectly, pecking your lips the exact moments when he should and giving you award-winning acting at the end of it. While you’re still in a state of shock.

⚡️ Hold up… ain’t this supposed to be your tiktok?

⚡️ Doesn’t matter because you posted it and now y’all are at the top of the sound 😊.

🩹 Mans versed in his TikTok. 

🩹 Like Denki, his fyp is just a jump from one section of tiktok to the next.

🩹 Sooo yeah he knows the Sweeney Todd sound

🩹 You had to catch him at the right time cause he’s one that doesn’t like to do tiktoks (Kaminari always ropes him in tho)

🩹 He’s lying on the couch, too distracted by his switch to see you setting up your phone before clicking the timer. 

🩹 The sound of the timer gives him PTSD because all the tiktoks Denki puts him in are either pranks or dances.

🩹 Pleasantly surprised when your head popped up over the arm of the couch.

🩹 “What are you doing?” You threw him a reassuring smile.

🩹 “Just trust me, love”

🩹 The song starts and Sero is calmed to not hear “I MAKE A MOTHERFUCKA SAY OH YEAH” or any of the “my way or da high way” shits.

🩹 He’s the embodiment of a fire truck the way his face is red cause you’re peppering his forehead with all these kisses (i’m so lonely man).

🩹 As soon as you’re singing the last part he brings down your lips to his, snatching your breath away the minute they came in contact with one another.

🩹 He lets you go to sing the very last part of the sound but staring into your eyes, forgetting that ya’ll are on camera.

🩹 Basically the all the comments under that post: 🛥🛥🛥🛥

[remingt0nleith]

thorns | remington leith

try & find the hidden palaye royale song title in the fic! & additional A/N at the end. 

A/N: hi wow long time no write :( SORRY! I have ideas and I try to write then my brain just doesn’t want to put the ideas on the word document. + y’know having depression doesn’t help things bleh... BUT I did write a full something finally (yay bare minimum author things!) This was requested! gonna keep trying to turn out requests & work on dark cherries also my birthday is on thursday and i’m turning 24 (wow im getting old help) & also the bastards comes out the day after so yay! lets chat about it when its out ok?

Request: Where Remington cheats on the reader and she finds out, but he does everything he can to get her back? 

Thorns - A Remington Leith one-shot. || 1.9K words || under cut.

The catalyst for a ruined night came in a round of shots. Emerson poured the amber liquid into hot pink shot glasses that the boys had picked up days prior. Remington wasted no time in downing his, barely flinching at the bitter taste that now coated his tongue. 

“Slow down there, cowboy” 

Sebastian laughed before throwing his own shot back, placing a hand on Remington’s cheetah print covered shoulder.

“We can’t have our lead singer fucked up out of his mind, can we?” 

The eldest brother chided playfully as he took the bottle from Emerson and poured more shots.

As the brothers drank and talked anxiously about their first show of a new tour, Remington’s phone buzzed in his back pocket, taking it out he suppressed an eye-roll at the message filling his screen;

My Love <3: HEY BABY JUST WANT TO WISH U LUCK TONIGHT YOU’LL KILL IT. LOVE U. 

He wasn’t sure what had gotten into him lately, usually, he’d be thrilled at the love and adoration his girlfriend of three years was showing him. She was always cheering him on, listening to his music, and supporting his band in every way she could. Although she was unable to come to most shows due to a fast-paced work schedule she always made a point to let the band of brothers know they had her support. That should’ve been enough to keep Remington happy but recently he had become cold towards his girlfriend and as he put his phone away without responding all thoughts of her disappeared as well. 

Remington headed backstage after the show still high from the performance. The adrenaline from the encouraging crowd and kick-ass concert his band delivered had Remington feeling happier than he had in months. Once in the dressing room, the boys quickly changed out of their sweaty stage attire into more relaxed outfits, and like clockwork, shots were once again being handed out.

Once everyone had a decent buzz going the boys and their crew headed out to a nearby nightclub to celebrate the success of the show. Remington realized halfway to the club that he had forgotten his phone in the dressing room, a fact that didn’t phase him, in fact he was happy to be rid of the constant ringing. 

Once inside the packed club, Remington waved goodbye to his brothers and made his way to the bar.  His buzz had diminished slightly in the car ride and that was a no go for Remington so he ordered a drink, which quickly became two, then three before he headed to the dance floor. 

Packed in a sea of bodies the singer danced to the music, enjoying the happiness that came from the night’s events as well as the alcohol in his system. When a manicured hand grabbed him and pulled him close, he didn’t object, instead, he wrapped his arms around the dark-haired beauty. 

The pair danced together to the techno music blaring overhead, strobe lights illuminating their faces, hands roaming freely over each other’s bodies before the woman leaned in and planted a sloppy kiss to Remington’s lips. 

If there was a moment of panic, a spark of recognition somewhere in the sober part of his mind, Remington ignored it. Instead, he deepened the kiss with the gorgeous stranger, when the pair eventually pulled away from the kiss, they headed to the bar for more drinks. 

When Sebastian came to let Remington know it was time to head to the hotel, the frontman wasted no time in asking this new girl if she’d like to go with him. Much to the dismay of the older (and wiser) brother, she said yes and everyone piled into the van and were chauffeured back to the hotel to continue the party. 

Morning light filtered through the window a sign of a new day, but as Remington opened his eyes the gravity of last night hit him. He was alone in his hotel bed, the white sheets crumpled and covered in streaks of makeup (his or hers, he wasn’t sure). Flashbacks of last night filled his mind and all at once he realized the hickeys on his body were from a stranger, the realization filled him with shame and dread. 

He found his phone which had been placed on his nightstand by one of his brothers or their touring manager (who always cleaned up after the boys’ wild nights) and on it were several unread texts and calls which came in at varying points of the evening. 

[9:13 pm] My Love <3: It should be time for u boys to be on stage! I’ll be stalking twitter for updates and vids love u 

[12:02 am] My Love <3: Watched a ton of vids that are already being posted! Get back to me when u get this my love so proud of u xx 

[3:56 am] My Love <3: Guess your phone died or your out celebrating a great night. Call me when you see this or wake up. I love you. 

[10:20 am] 5 missed calls

[10:27 am] *attached photo* REMINGTON.... FUCK YOU.

The photo on his phone screen displayed the girl from last night under the covers as a passed out Remington slept beside her. The caption didn’t say anything besides a winking emoji and she tagged him and his band’s account. 

Instantly, he was dialing his girlfriend’s number, hands shaking as he paced around the spacious hotel room desperately waiting for an answer.

“Hello?” 

Rose answered, soft voice hoarse from hours of crying. 

“Fuck, I’m so sorry..” 

Remington started to explain, words tumbling out of his mouth faster than he could form them.

“Save it” 

Rose snapped before continuing her voice harder and more assured now than it was just moments ago. 

“I never thought you’d do this even as the band started to gain an audience, I told myself that I had nothing to worry about. All the pretty girls and boys didn’t matter because what we had was strong but it sucks being proven wrong huh?” 

Remington’s sudden surge of tears prevented him from speaking as the pain in his chest grew with each word. The saddest part of it all was that she was right and that ripped him up inside. 

“Rose I-” 

he whispered, voice barely audible even to himself. 

Instead of an answer he was left hearing the sound of the call disconnecting. 

The tour passed by in a daze for Remington and while his brothers desperately wanted him to be more present, they understood. He’d get on stage and sing, forgetting about the pain in his heart for that hour or so, as soon as the curtain closed the ache in his chest was back, a cruel reminder to the life-changing mistake he’d made.

Rose had cut off all contact with her now ex-boyfriend instead choosing to go through Emerson to inform him she was moving out of their shared apartment in LA. 

Each night in his hotel bed, memories of the past three years filtered through his brain until he exhaustingly cried himself to sleep. 

Remington used Emerson’s phone to send a series of texts to Rose to apologize, to accept full responsibility but the only reply he received was instructions to give Emerson his phone back and to leave her alone.

Just as quickly as the tour started it was now coming to a close a few months later. The boys were back in LA for a sold-out show in typical Los Angeles fashion. Remington never stopped trying to get ahold of Rose -- he sent flowers to her new address, letters where he begged for her back, apologizing and pleading for her forgiveness yet he was never awarded a reply. He didn’t blame her at all but that didn’t mean the pain hurt any less, he’d do anything for a second chance. 

Shots of vodka were taken, cheers and high fives were given and the boys hit the stage.  Remington gazed out into the crowd, a see of silhouettes behind bright stage lights.  After a few songs, Remington sat down at the end of the stage, dark boots quietly thumping against the side. 

“Y’know fans like to think we’re perfect” 

he stated which earned a chorus of “I love you’s” as well as cheers from the crowd. 

He smiled before continuing, 

“As much as I love to hear it, it’s not true and sometimes we royally fuck up. I fucked up and these past few months have been hell so I wrote this song.”

The crowd applauded as they watched their favorite singer head to the piano, the spotlight shining on him as he sat down. 

“This song is called Thorns,” 

Remington began to play a hauntingly slow ballad about losing the love of your life and how apart of you is lost as well. 

The pain in my heart is defeating me

Cracking me open for all to see

I’m numb to life, deep inside

Needing you to realize, you’re the better part of me

An illusion of love is what I fear

Taking each step is now unclear

A rose garden in my dreams,

You leaving now in front of me

Take my heart it’s filled with thorns

A rose trapped inside a perfect storm

Throw me to the wolves I’m on my knees

Begging for my rose to please believe

I made a mistake that I can see

Yet this pain without you is deafening

My heart of thorns cuts me deep 

Paralyzing me and making me weak

Please my rose I beg you, have sympathy.

The rose garden in my dreams,

But you’re leaving right now in front of me

Take my heart it’s filled with thorns

A rose trapped inside a perfect storm

Throw me to the wolves I’m on my knees

Begging my rose to please believe 

I love you Rose it’s all I know, I’m sorry for all my sorrow

By the time the song ended, Remington had tears blurring his vision. He was so wrapped up in playing the song he didn’t realize he had started to cry but to the audience that just made it so much more beautiful. 

After the show, Remington hurried off the stage in order to collect his emotions but in the dressing room sat Rose. Her blonde hair was curled and she wore a red dress and in a true movie moment a dozen roses sat in her lap. 

“Rem that song…” 

she started but before she could finish, Remington ran over and threw his arms around her, hugging her to make sure she wasn’t just a figment of his imagination.

“I’m so sorry”

he whispered once she hugged back. 

“The flowers were from Seb” 

Rose mumbled, green eyes flicking down to them after their hug. Sebastian must have ordered them because he knew what Remington was planning. That was his older brother alright, always playing the papa bear role. 

The singer’s mind was racing a mile a minute, he had a million questions but all he could do was apologize. 

Rose shushed him with a chaste kiss before speaking,

“By no means have I forgiven you completely. That song however beautiful doesn’t make everything go away but I’m willing to work on us”

Remington nodded, happy she was here and willing to give their relationship another shot.

“I’m willing to do whatever it takes,” 

he whispered, wrapping her in another hug.

They knew it would be a long road to get back to where they were before but Remington was happy he had his Rose back in his life. 

xx

A/N: omg that song was not that good I came up with it on my own though and I’m not a lyricist lol hope u enjoyed xx 

[kireihan]

mc headcanons: various social media

Bernadette

Aesthetic tumblr!!

pls i will be so soft

so many photos of soft, cottagecore stuff

has like 574389 mutuals and loves every single one of them

sneaks back to the human realm to take photos or buy things aaa

posts diys and embroidery patterns

her twitter from her emo phase is still floating around somewhere

Horizon

MAKES TIKTOKS DO NOT @ ME

3 am shenanigans with Solomon and Lia 

Actually has a little online gang with them

Grungy “enjoy your youth” vibes!!

Tweeting at ungodly hours lmaooo

honestly her tweets are like 99% shitposts and daily commentary on dumb shit 

probably shares a lot of activist stuff on her story

stars in some of beel’s workout videos

Julia

ngl,, doesn’t own a social media 

asmodeus runs one for her ahahahahahaha

but would probably post a lot of wicca magic type stuff? 

i mean she’s a literal witch

her spells do work and she’s a well known figure in the online witch community

TROLLS FORUMS 

If she did have her sight, a lot of photos with “help im third wheeling” with some couple in the background

videos of her spectating and laughing at other’s bullshit 

the mastermind behind a lot of pranks

Lia

ALSO MAKES TIKTOKS

takes part of solomon and horizon’s 3 am shenanigans

snapchat stories that start with “hahaha whipcream prank with bephie”

followed immediately with blurry video captioned “LMAO FUCK”

her instagram is suprisingly clean and mature sexy vibes 

has a decent following actually

is sometimes asked to discuss a controversy and her personal thoughts and the videos somehow get a lot more views than she expected oops

probably has a wattpad account

has a vlog youtuber

Reese

Youtuber/Deviltuber and a Twitch streamer 

Started small but eventually garnered a ton of attention due to his relaxing and wholesome commentary

the Markiplier of the devildom 

STREAMS WITH LEVI ARE THE BEST

Reese’s calm, wholesome voice just awkwardly laughing while Levi screaming on the other side

Takes part in a ton of gaming challenges!! Hear of some new group gaming tournament? bet your ass Reese is there

once fell asleep on stream and forgot to turn off the camera so his viewers caught a certain demon giving reese a kiss and chat went fucking wild

reese was really confused the next morning and was like “ah sorry guys i didn’t turn it off” and the chat is like “GO BACK YOUR BF CAME IN” and oop 

Sen

FOODBLOGFOODBLOGFOODBLOG

makes baking and cooking videos on instagram and posts recipes on another website

the mom mutual on twitter lol

really sweet and interacts with her followers

her stories consist of her cooking process and end with beelzebub appearing in the background and sen turning around having to chase him away from eating the raw croissant dough

“So my boyfriend ate the croissant dough so i made a new one, but the new one is turning out a lot better so i guess it’s ok”

sometimes stars in the other’s yt vid and sometimes joins reese and leviathan’s streams

eventually gets really big and is invited to be a guest judge on cooking shows and gets special treatment in restaurants/cafes sometimes

Usako

cosplayer! really famous one!! she’s tagged e ve r y where

t r a v e l b l o g

kind of an influencer

makes little resin crafts/decoden and posts process videos as a little side thing uwu 

her main instagram is filled with some skater girl edits and soft kawaii type stuff

also tweets at ungodly hours and spams the other’s threads with wholesome memes and cursed memes

has some discord servers and had to delete two of them after simeon accidentally let in some raiders smh

still salty about it lmfao

this is like the 3rd one but probably had a musical.ly and now a tiktok

Yen

ulzzang

definitely an ulzzang

probably really popular on douyin

has a soft youtube and does things like “storytime GRWM” type things

sometimes does hauls on her youtube and drags skincare products with asmodeus hgfhdjghskl

will usually start off her stories with something nice only for someone crash or lucifer’s “MAMMOOOOON” in the background 

running gag for everyone’s stories ngl ^

takes pictures of her s/o and everyone is thirsty for both of them oops

has muted twitter at one point because lia keeps blowing up her phone at like 3 am

[drstrangewillseeyounow]

Creative Year in Review 2020

I almost didn’t do this because 2020 was such a tough year in many ways, but I think it can be interesting and helpful to look back regardless.

Total number of creations? (Or a rough guess!)

I posted 10 stories on AO3 this year (strangeallure) for a total word count of 34,726 and finished 3 more short stories for a writing challenge with @teagrl.

I also made some art (edits, graphics) this year: 3 for @purimgifts and 2 for @startreksecretsanta and cover art for Mating Games.

Word-count-wise this is down significantly from 2019 (14 stories, 116k) and also lower than 2018 (12 stories, 50k).

Seeing that there’s a seven month gap between March and October, where I didn’t post anything, I can still say that the year ended on an intermittently productive note.

What characters or ships have you created the most content for this year?

This is probably the last year the answer is Michael Burnham/Ash Tyler.

It was only one story (Mating Games, 24k), but it accounted for 70% of my posted fic.

I wrote two more gen stories with a Michael POV (The Good Time and Bad Signal) and one with an Ash POV (Endure).

Was there a project that you didn’t get around to?

Of course! I had many more Ashburn ideas and wrote 3k of a Harry Potter fic that I never finished.

What was the creation you had the most fun making?

This is such a difficult question, even more so for a year where everything felt kind of hard.

I liked writing my first original short fic in ages (Immersion Report) for @purimgifts, and after a bit of a rough start, the rest of “Mistle Me This, Mistle Me That” (my first Rey/Ben Solo fic, a modern AU) came together fairly quickly. Looking back, it’s also the only truly happy story I wrote this year.

Any surprises? (E.g. a character or ship you never thought you’d create for or a project that came out of nowhere?)

Other than Mating Games (the first draft of which was actually written in 2019), I didn’t write any porn. In fact, only my first Reylo fic (posted on December 25) was shippy at all. So it was an accidental year of gen.

Also, the fact that I got into Reylo was very unexpected. I had tried reading in the fandom in 2019, but the stories I tried back then weren’t my cup of tea, but this time around, I found such a treasure trove of all kinds of fic that I went on a reading binge that then inspired me to write for the pairing myself.

What was the hardest creation to make?

Mating Games was the hardest to finish,I know that much. I stepped away from it for half a year and only finished it so I wouldn’t drag it into the new year. I was glad I went back to it and even managed to write an epilogue.

 What inspired you the most this year?

Until my Reylo reading binge (which only started in December), there was very little actual inspiration, but @teagrl kept pushing me to edit and to write and generally kept me feeling like I was still connected to fandom and writing. Thank you!

 What are you most proud of? (A creation, something you learned, etc)

I’m proud I managed to finish Mating Games and that I managed to get back in the game towards the end of the year. Other than that, I’m just glad that the year is over.

 Any goals/plans/ideas for next year?

Challenges often work for me, so I want to try and sign-up for a few (I already did for a Poetry Challenge and will sign up for @purimgifts tomorrow). I also want to establish a writing habit, although I’m still figuring out if I want to go as far as making it a daily thing. Anyway, structured output over fevered outburst sounds like a good thing.

I have started docs for several Reylo fics, so I hope to finish and post some of those.

I also have a few pages of a conduit story (Ashburn by way of Bookburn), which would be nice to finish.

And I still have hopes of finishing that Harry Potter story I started in summer.

Pick your favourite creations! (Post links and tell us why you love them!)

Mating Games (E, 24k) - I love porn as character study, and this turned out very hot (if I do say so myself) with a lot of beats specific to how I see these two characters.

Immersion Report (G, 1k) – My first original fic in a long time. I think there’s a lot of world building that feels very organic in such a short fic.

 Everyone who created/posted art, fic, gif-sets, vids, cosplay, etc., consider yourself tagged if you’d like to be. I’m curious! <3