#and by extra i mean Extra™

[sweet-star-cookie]

yeah

[bi-force-1]

Being an Erron Black main be like...

[djevelbl]

hear me out y'all:

THIS rendition of Sincerely Me (which is GREAT btw) - but it's the LifeStealers--

[musical-chick-13]

Idk if any other bisexual women experience this, but I feel like I'm always getting judged (implicitly or explicitly) for my taste in men? Almost like, "Well, I'll begrudgingly concede that you're actually attracted to women, but my acceptance of you is conditional on whether I approve of the men (fictional or real) you're interested in."

[get-more-bald]

ok.... mam wystarczająco dużo żappsów na hotdoga i napój albo stripsy albo churros i tego typu rzeczy. brakuje mi 1236 żappsów do pizzy. zbierać czy wydać?

[fukiana]

it's always the people who say they're "majoring in x" to win an argument on tumblr.edu 😔😔😔😔

[thingsmysplattershotjrtoldme]

Me - I haven't even finished the first chapter of the Dedf1sh fic, I shouldn't be drawing ship art!

Also me - *draws art of Milka and Dedf1sh in a non romantic way and calls it ship art*

Comic transcripts under the cut

Top comic

Milka (caption - Having a panic attack and freaking out) - HHHHHhhhhhh

Dedf1sh, clearly annoyed - .... Again?

Dedf1sh, grabbing Milka's hands - Will you stop?

Dedf1sh - You're fine! Nothing here is going to hurt you! (caption - You're harassing the vibes!

Milka, thought bubble - Holding.....Hands....(caption - Now freaking out for other reasons)

Dedf1sh - ..... seriously? (caption - Oblivious)

Bottom comic

Dedf1sh, grabbing Milka's shoulder from behind with a *touch* caption - Hey, Milka, you gotta see this meme, it's so stupid! (caption - Ha Ha Ha)

Milka, grabbing Dedf1sh's hand with a *whirl* caption - Let's NOT grab my shoulder from behind, 'k?

Dedf1sh - uuuh, o-kay... You still wanna see the meme or....

[tfshouldidohere]

i have never felt that anxious in my entire life

[b-blushes]

had an epic revelation yesterday that maybe part of the reason i've been sleeping especially awfully this past week is that the weather got kind of cold again and perhaps that meant *I* was cold too. another baffling case solved by my excellent detective skills 😎

[dykedragons]

GUYSsSS my prof's partner is obliterating me with compliments about that picture book project i am giggling and kicking my feet i have no idea how to respond properly to this

[apathetic-moth]

tummy hurts, knee is newly fucked up, i was in too much pain to sleep last night, and i wanna die again :(

[badolmen]

Tummy ache meds have kicked in time to eat as much good food as I can before it wears off

[musical-chick-13]

One of the WORST parts of having OCD is that some of the Fears™ are actually humanly possible, so it's not like my response can just be, "Oh that'll never happen" or even "I've never seen that happen, so it's probably unlikely."

[mrfoox]

Ok like. I know ive been trying to lose weight for a year soon and I KNOW I have... But each time I see myself in the mirror I'm like bitch what....

[queerbauten]

in what universe is Sam Smith "fat". like. when was that something that We™ apparently decided they were.

[odysseys-blood]

not the topic of that essay i just reblogged by Jennifer Coates (here's the link if you just don't want to scroll or i reblog this again later) but the closet is succh a. strange space to be in or out of for me.

readmore bc my thoughts got long lol

I'm out with some people, including my parents, who will never understand the gravity of who I am. I'm not trying to explain it all either because that seems like a nightmare and neither of them have understood gender 101 enough to even get what nonbinary means and i doubt they even remember the word or how I explained it to them. Same things with the friends I am out to. They think that remembering a set of pronouns is all they need to look supportive and most of them can't even manage that because to them I'm stil a woman that I never wanted to be.

To them I'm stil just a girl- a little too far from femininity for them but still just a strange girl. My wild sideburns and bushy brows and the hair on my chin and upper lip and arms and the leg hair I haven't shaved forever means nothing- and while they don't diminish femininity in women that have these qualities they are signs of my own androgyny to me. My interest in plushies and thinking the color pink is cute and liking dresses and skirts (though not on myself unless its a costume) mean to them that I never really was who I say I am. To them I'm just confused.

I'm in this strange space between the closet and being out. Liminality was the word used int Croates' essay- space between the before and after in a ritual. Being stuck in the in between and being not truly 0 or 1. When observed I'm wrong in all directions. Those who know me in the flesh will never see me as who I am and will shoehorn me into their conversations about femininity as though my closet moment never happened.

Those conversations are somehow for and not for me though and its strange. While I never felt like I fit in a girl's space (not to say that I had dysphoria growing up, my body felt fine but my categorization never did) I knew how to navigate them. I often knew the same issues that plagued them because to an outsider I am them. I wish I wasn't but most of the time it wouldn't be worth it to have that conversation either for my safety (mentally or physically) or because that energy is something that I dont need to waste. And those on the outside will never know me for long I keep a low enough profile that people barely remember my name or the fact that I'm even there if I don't speak loud enough but thats another issue.

Anyways back to conversations on femininity I don't want to be stuck in that box but I've felt some of the same things and dealt wit them. The issues i've faced were womens issues because that's all the world knows me as. I hate it but I can't change it because even if I were to change and transition later in life i still had a girlhood.