#and becomes useless bc i dont know how to help

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

Ended up vomiting a couple of times at work this morning for unknown reasons (tho tbh I suspect exhaustion. I'm eating better but I'm absolutely not getting enough/consistent sleep) and the senior on shift managed to cover for me (honestly kind of a nice experience, having both her and the temp agency staff expressing genuine sympathy and concern lol. Fucked up that I don't expect that in a work environment, the temp especially was lovely and went out of her way to reassure me leaving was the responsible move)

Anyway I actually had a lovely morning in spite of that. JC was bubbly as anything (Alfie was working next door last night so came in to say hi and he lit up, immidiately demanded a hug and got them to sit with him for a bit, and was the absolute sweetest with me too ("oh, be good to Maaaac! :D")

And I had...maybe the first positive experience with SF thst I am making damn sure I remember. He had just woken up and was gettingna bit excitable so I sat with him and started singing This Little Piggy bc it was the first nursery rhyme that came to mind. And he immidiately stopped what he was doing, beamed at me, and after I'd done it once he started singing it along with me! He's somewhat verbal but typically only single words. I'm so relieved I got to actually see the sweet lil kid that's going through it bc it's so easy for me to get lost mirroring his stress

[sybbi]

I wonder what I would miss out on if I did like. A 1993 challenge. No social media, no streaming, no internet period (except for work). Using my phone for calls ONLY, no texting. Idk if I'd go insane with boredom or be more productive than I've ever been.

[etherealkissed88]

you are always embodying a version of you 🍭

“ive been feeling stuck for 2 years” -> embodying that state

“its not gonna manifest” -> embodying that state

“she still didnt text me back” -> embodying that state

when you assume its nothing is changing, you are simply embodying that version of you who believes that. you are always embodying a version of you out of the infinite versions of you that already exist.

there is no “original” state or “realer” state. even if the state is expressed in the imaginary 3d, it is not “realer” than any other state. we know the 3d is neutral and doesnt mean anything so giving value to something in the 3d makes no sense.

remember that you are the self that occupies states. these states mean nothing without you. states are useless bubbles without you embodying/occupying it. even when you embody them they are nothing bc you always assign meaning.

next time you feel like youre “stuck”, know its all just a state and theres nothing to be afraid of. states are below you, states need you, you (self) dont need states. you are beyond these “im stuck” states. there is no “struggle,” there is only states being embodied. you can simply embody another state (regardless of the 3d). be the desired version of you.

when you feel stuck:

know its only a state, you are always embodying a state (so theres nothing to be afraid of bc its just a state) and identify the state you are currently embodying that doesnt serve you

embody a different, better state via deciding or techniques + fulfill

its so simple. it seems harder because you think what the human self is experiencing in the 3d is the “real” thing when in reality, none of it is real (bc everything is neutral) and you choose what to experience and you are instantly any version if you that you choose.

the funny thing is that while you search for answers “outside” of you, the solution is literally the version of you you are embodying. you are the problem and solution. you see how you always have full control even when you dont realize it? something that helps me is: if i was this desired version of me, would i care about (blah blah)? that helps me embody a more beneficial state.

once you embody a version of you, its done. its already yours. creation is finished yes? remember how i said there are always infinite versions of you? exactly. you arent creating anything, you are only being. so once you become a version of you, everything changes and that is who you are. there is nothing else to do but know its done bc it is. stop falling into the “im stuck” loop and know that is only what youre embodying.

be sexy and change states 💋🍫

kisses, jani ☆

[rxmxa]

uranus through the houses + the future <3

I saw this video the other day of this girl (colette bernard) who became a millionaire selling claw clips designed to look like teeth (her audience was dentists) but then she expanded when they were a hit so she has like cute claw clips designs for a dozen of professions. BUT all i remember thinking that stuff like this is so pluto in aquarius coded and we’re going to keep seeing people become successful more and more through their specific interests and hobbies.

she was truly self made and her passion for art changed her ENTIRE life (even though people told her it was a dumb idea). Pluto is gonna be in Aquarius for a long ass time and we know the significance it has on social changes, the collective, the government, community etc etc. This is a time for innovation and transformation, and with Uranus’s energy on your side, you can truly step into a future where you lead the charge in creating something new and lasting ⚡️

the point is your weirdness, your out of the box ideas, the shit you think is straight up weird or maybe mee maw and pee paw call “useless” IS GONNA COME IN FUCKING HANDY!!! people are changing their entire lives everyday online and/or by finding their niche. so whatever “weird” idea or hobby you have, keep investing in it !! im not saying bc it will bring u money instantly (although thats always a plus) but bc it will bring you OPPORTUNITIES.

we all have our own claw clip tooth idea and we can look at uranus to show us the forward thinking/ innovative energy that can help us during pluto in Aquarius :) 💙🦋✨✨🪩✨✨💙💙

uranus in the 1st house: moving forward by embracing your quirks and letting the world see the real you. dont ever ever ever try to dull yourself down. the right people will find you. dont shy away from shaking things up with how you present yourself or how you lead others. the visionary is YOU and during pluto in aqua you can inspire others to embrace their authenticity the way you do. in a way YOU are the “unique idea” so take full ownership. Dont be afraid to experiment with your style and image, especially in the moments where you are feeling the urge to try something different! Step into leadership roles that call to you! Volunteer for projects that require someone open-minded or that align with innovative (like new companies, organizations or small owned businesses that are producing/ delivering new kinds of products or services).

uranus in the 2nd house: think of unique ways to invest your money (ik theres a lot of debate with crypto) but anything thats outside the box could be a worthy venture. think about you can use tech to help you streamline your finances or organize your budget! just be open to trying new financial systems. this placement gives me the energy of investing something that others might see as SUPER random or specific but then it takes off years later. this is not me telling u to put ur savings in electric scooter stocks or something but to just be OPEN to sustainable investments that catch your attention that can help u and even ur community!! this also reminds me of tech inventors or investing in tech or USING technology as a way to help you determine the kinds of values you want to have and/or what you actually wanna stand up for.

uranus in the 3rd house: moving forward by shaking up how you show up in your online communities, or your social media presence. have you ever been interested in starting a podcasts or blogging more? (like those conversations you have with your friends about your interests or hobbies can go far or even commentary on the way media looks like and is being used now. Invest in learning new methods of communication you have been interested in (like buying that new camera or learning how to code or finally starting that youtube channel). Use your platform to reach more people!! This also reminds me of someone who disrupts the status quo with innovation in education like maybe writing new curriculum thats more aligned to our modern generation or any other platforms/ media that are up and coming and useful to students??

uranus in the 4th house: focusing on moving forward with your ideal home environment in mind. visualize it and focus on the ways you can start putting in into action! dont be afraid to start over and re-design! think about the ways you want your environment to be emotionally and physically stable for you and what its gonna look like (eco-living? smart homes? communal living?) this placement reminds me of those people that buy mansions or plots of lands with a group of friends and put their money together to help grow and live together! Don't beat yourself up if your idea of home or family doesnt fit the cookie cutter image (which is honestly going away now slowly and will def shift with pluto in aqua). YOU get to decide what home and family is and you can inspire others to do the same. Your idea of family has to align with your desire for freedom and emotional growth.

uranus in the 5th house: going all out in the ways you experiment with your art and creativity. You could be great at creating "futuristic" type of art haha (or investing in art forms that arent super popular or well known rn but you're ahead of the game and they could be popular in the future). Be bold in all areas that have to do with the 5h (think outside the box with how you express yourself artistically and romantically). Pluto in aqua will support you in u turning your creative work and forms of self expression into something that inspires people and gauges strong emotions from them! that claw clip idea was def giving uranus in the 5h energy. She was HAPPY creating it, it was a hobby first (5h) and then people told her it was useless or strange and she kept going anyway and she got to profit it from it, especially through social media (the 5h-11h axis). trust me when I say there is something out there for everybody. EVERYBODY.

uranus in the 6th house: pluto in aqua will urge you to break free from outdated systems and explore new ways to stay productive and healthy!! The traditional 9-5 might not appeal to you and thats okay because it doesnt to a lot of people and they have created their own way. Think about the tech-driven approaches you want to explore in your daily life (apps, the media you use, how you use tech in regards to your health). Think about how tech can help your productivity and your health!! This reminds me of my coworker who bought like this ultraface ring (I think thats what its called) but she loves it and its super high tech and fancy and shit and it monitors a lot of her health and its motivated her in her routines! The way we motivate ourselves looks different! You can move forward by exploring the most flexible options for you.

uranus in the 7th house: you can move forward by redefining what partnership + relationships actually mean to you. now more than ever its time to focus on partnerships where there is a sense of independence and equality. ESPECIALLY bc pluto in aqua is going to redefine and TRANSFORM (pluto) what community and friendships and relationships (aqua) look like in the first place. so be ahead of the game by surrounding yourself and nuturing your relationships with people that are not scared to break away from the norm and actually want to work together and are built to support mutual growth and freedom. dont stress trying to confine yourself to keep someone who is not open minded enough for you! find your person/ people.

part 2 coming soon!! 🪩✨🦋

[hannieehaee]

hiii!! so i actually just miserably failed my exam that i studied WEEKS for 😭 but my friends were waiting for me in front of my class and i started crying as soon as i saw them

i’m still kinda sad about it so i was wondering if you could write a short blurb with any of svt, where reader fails their exam like me and is really upset about it and it’s kinda fluff/angst

in honor of finals week too 🙏

their s/o failing an exam

content: established relationship, mentions of failed exam, student!reader, mentions of crying, etc.

wc: 1003

a/n: im so sorry that happened anon :( i hope you're feeling better about it and dont stress too much about it!!<3 also im so sorry omg i didnt realize this want a request for a reaction until after i wrote it 😭

masterlist

seungcheol -

his first reaction would be a consolation gift for you. he knows you so well he'd be able to provide you with the perfect gift to make you feel at least a little bit better. other than that, he'd curse out the teacher (in private lol), annoyed that they didn't know hard work when they saw it. he'd do his best to make you laugh and just forget about the exam at least for the rest of the night, wanting you to finally relax after the weeks you'd spent studying.

jeonghan -

he has every expression of your face memorized, so he'd know right away that you failed your exam. he'd be soooo comforting and nice to you, which would just get you to want to sulk even more lol. he wouldn't mind, though. he loves being a source of comfort for you, so he'd spend the rest of the day reassuring you and insulting that dumb stupid exam and that idiotic useless class!!

joshua -

he'll get a little sassy as he complained about your class and your teacher, not able to understand how you could've possibly failed when you'd spent weeks preparing for it. however, he'd put these complaints aside to make sure you didn't wallow in the feeling of having tanked an exam. he'd want to reassure you that one failed exam meant nothing and that you were way more than some dumb exam.

jun -

would kind of baby you about it. not really baby you, but he'd become the embodiment of comfort and reassurance, insisting on putting aside any stress the exam had formed and take care of you for the rest of the day so you could unwind and just be calm after all the time you'd spent working overtime in preparation for the exam. would maybe even get annoyed at the teacher who gave out the test, wondering what more they could possibly expect from you, the hardest working person he knows?

soonyoung -

he'd cry along with you. it'd be almost as if he was the one who failed the exam. nothing hurts him more than your sadness, so he'd just be crying as he whined at you to not cry bc he loved you and bc you'd do better next time and bc you were super smart and capable and one exam could not get rid of that. it'd be a funny image - just the two of you in an endless cycle of crying and comforting each other.

wonwoo -

he'd feel genuinely sad along with you. he would've been your biggest supporter as you prepared for this exam, so he'd know first-hand how hard you worked and how much it meant to you. would act in whichever way you needed. if you wanted to build a game plan to build your grades back up, he'd be right there forming a schedule with you. if you wanted to sulk and forget about it, he'd be ordering your favorite food and helping you into your pjs.

jihoon -

he'd be so confused at first. like how could they fail you? how, when he'd seen first-hand how long and how hard you'd worked to prepare for it? he might even get misguided frustration at whoever was in charge of that class, claiming they clearly played their students, bc if you failed then everyone else must've done way worse by a landslide.

seokmin -

he'd kind of go into a motherly role lol. he'd cocoon you in your favorite blanket, get your favorite pjs, your favorite snacks, etc. would do everything in his power to get your mind off the exam at least for the rest of the night so you could unwind from all the hard work you'd done to prepare for it.

mingyu -

would be genuinely annoyed and frustrated at the exam, the class, the teacher, the ta, you name it. would somehow be even more upset and frustrated than you. however, he'd put all this aside to ensure he was there for you, comforting you and ensuring you that one failed exam meant nothing in the grand scheme of things. you'd still be his super smart s/o that he's obsessed with!!

minghao -

he knows what it's like to work super hard and do everything possible to perform as good as humanly possible and having it not pay off for some reason, so he would completely empathize with you. would feel so apologetic, swearing up and down that this was just one exam and that you were still so smart and hardworking and that all your efforts would pay off next time.

seungkwan -

he's your number one supporter and cheerleader. he would've prepared a whole mini celebration for the aftermath of your exam, never once considering the possibility you could fail (bc in his eyes that was impossible lmao). he'd have to backtrack and make up new plans in order to comfort you at the unexpected aftermath. would coo and whine and cry with you, acknowledging and agreeing with all your feelings and complaints about how things played out.

vernon -

he'll do his best to physically show up for you, maybe even waiting outside your class or parked in his car as he waits for you. will know immediately upon seeing the look on your face that you'd failed and would act accordingly. doesn't want to make a big deal about it in order to not make you feel worse, so he'd opt to take you back home and let you indulge in whatever you want as he spends quality time with you, putting the failed exam in the back of your mind.

chan -

assimilates your mood without even realizing it. if you cried, he'd cry too. if you sulked, he'd be right there with you. if you got angry, he'd get furious. he'd feel all your emotions, just a little extra more bc he has to see his super smart, super hardworking s/o suffer through not performing as well as expected; something which he can totally relate to.

[fairuzfan]

why do so many liberal zionists add "non-palestinian" in front of "non-jewish" whenever they complain about antizionists and insist that all the palestinians are just offscreen agreeing with them about the real way to peace? do they not realize palestinians have social media accounts or are they just banking on everyone else also isolating themselves in a zionist echo chamber with no actual palestinians to contradict them? bc theyre not convincing anyone who knows that every single palestinian on here and online in general fucking hates them. like i know it's a rhetorical darvo to paint antizionism as a privileged western gentile position of ppl that can't possibly understand the complex issue who just want to hate Bad Jews but its so insane to see them rbing literal palestinians to call them raging antisemites and then the next post is about how every palestinian actually supports a two state solution and condemns hamas and this is spearheaded by "western tankie gentiles"

i havent been like interacting with zionists or looking at their blogs these past couple months because i can't take that much anger in my life anymore and ive come to the point where it doesn't matter what they say they're seriously intellectually dishonest and useless. the people who listen to them and agree with them have a vested interest in keeping the state of israel functioning and if they wanna pretend its for "peace" go right ahead but dont pretend like youre the authority on these things lol. in general ive only taken to reblogging zionist additions to my posts to let people know to block.

it might be the latest zionist strategy of saying "non palestinians and nonjews" to reinforce the idea that its an "internal" issue (which its not to be clear) and they proceed to ignore the fact that palestinians are begging people to get involved to help them. but whatever! the people who are convinced by them at this point are people who genuinely dont care about palestinians at all and i am not willing to argue with them on this.

i will say, zionists on here have become more brazenly pro-fascist! either in interacting with fascists or letting fascist speak in their spaces or even just defending them under the guise of "defending jews" (think of the bingo blocklist. they're still at it btw, the bingo board, but like i have yet to see a single person on the zionist side of tumblr at all admonish the idea of the bingo at all which is telling in itself.) anyways these people are disgusting and selfish and like i say, i abhor selfishness more than anything.

[mushibashiraas]

hello, people on the other side of the screen who read this! i have a migraine and my brain is processing shit so slow and i have no energy for my drafts. so imma release my selfship (rindou x em) brainrot for an idea i had.

bonten arc/kmg emrin where em stubbornly refuses to leave rin's side when he tells them too. he wants to protect them and give them a better life away from violence and crime. he wants to protect and keep shining their kind, compassionate soul alight.

bonten arc/kmg emrin with loyal em, because of personal health reasons and despite being physically unable to help rin and assist mikey and co. with their criminal activities,,, decides to take online courses for computer science and coding and hacking, etc.

bonten arc emrin with em staying home in rin's penthouse but still a bonten employee by keeping "an eye in the sky" for mikey and the execs and their own employees protecting them from the law.

bonten arc emrin where em is the only "sane" one who remembers why mikey took this path/for whom this path was for.

bonten arc emrin with em has bonten's secret beating heart; as long as em's "eye in the sky" continued overseeing everything and em kept an ear to the ground regarding info and what the police and random private investigators were up to,, then bonten could keep going. mikey could continue to protect his former toman friends and keep hina alive for takemichi.

bonten arc emrin with em keeping a personal eye on mikey's former toman friends and their families. bonten arc emrin personally delivering/doing "special" jobs for koko and sanzu (a walking USB file for koko's passwords and secret bank accounts & is sanzu's "secretary." helps sanzu track or find traitors, keeps a record of or follows money trails or info/paper trails traitors leave behind when they wanna leave bonten; think garcia from “criminal minds” tv show).

bonten arc emrin where the only ones who know of how valuable em is to bonten/know of their existence are rindou (obviously) but also mikey and the rest of the main bonten execs. the execs personal underlings dont know of em's existence bc who knows if they could betray bonten and come after or use em to bring bonten down. so the execs protect their existence for that reason. bonten in general know someone close to the execs is looking out for everyone (including the underlings) but they dont know who. so they just refer to this "unknown person" as bonten's guardian angel.

bonten arc emrin because em wants to be valuable to bonten despite their declining physical and mental health and not just sit at home and be useless to their lover's/husband's cause. (hence taking the online courses and becoming "bonten's beating heart")

note. i'm feeling migrainey/sick, a bit depressed, and angsty tn. and i'm missing rindou and missing tokyo revengers aaaaa i am sitting here eagerly awaiting my animated & voiced bonten rindoucjsjd plsss aaaaa

[whoneedssexed]

Hi. I need advice. My bf has depression and while it hasn't been terrible while we have been dating , recently he seems more distant and has mentioned he feels stuck in life, he's constantly unsure now which is very not him and keeps quiet and says "I dont know" alot. We and his friends think his depression is slowly coming back, because obviously it doesn't go away. I dont know how to help, because I do feel like its putting a strain on our relationship, we're currently doing long distance due to work so we arnt able to have our similar routine. His communication skills are not the best, we have small arguments frequently mainly due to his lack of interest on the conversation or his small outbursts. Which at the time I didnt put two and two together but now it kinda make sense. I feel like he has become distant and dont seem engaged at all when we have little time to talk. While I feel for him, im getting frustrated because our fight seem to be the same pattern, of him not being able to communicate properly. I've expressed this before as this is all we have at the moment and he seems to understand but doesn't seem to make much effort of trying. I do think the distance has affected this and he doesn't seem to realize, he a very actions person and he has expressed that he feels useless bc he can't do much for me while I'm away. Were so well together in person but lately we seem like a completely different couple . I'm not sure what to do, I think I want to give him some space , which makes me a bit sad bc we hardly have much time to chat. I ask him if he needs alone time ,etc but he can't seem to answer me with a direct answer. During our relationship his depression hasn't been bad , its been maybe mild but nothing to this effect, it's never caused a shift in our relationship but this time it feels different. So im.not sure how to go about this. Any advice would help, I do love him and want our relationship to grow but the past couple of months it seems more draining and mentally exhausting.

I know this is a very, very late response, but when things get like this for depressed people, it can be a red flag for potential suicidal ideation.

That said, being depressed can also cause a lot of brain fog, which makes people indecisive, dissociative, unable to think to the future, etc. This happens because of how exhausting and draining depression can be, especially in a world that demands you always be doing something, anything, at every moment. People with depression are extremely susceptible to burnout.

He could need a change in medication/treatment, or a change in environment, or a change in his support systems. Or sometimes, it's just a temporary rut in life. Doing more positive and/or relaxing things can also help, such as colouring in books, going to a movie, starting a new series, visiting an animal sanctuary, going on a hike, going to an amusement park, etc. Things that don't require a lot of effort and can be simply enjoyed, depending on social tolerances (ex: a museum could be a bad idea because there's too many people and it overwhelms).

There's also the fact that the strain on your relationship could be the cause of the depression and not the other way around. Which is to say, because you guys aren't in your usual routines and aren't able to experience each other often, his depression is returning. A lot of depressed people rely on routine and partner support to supplement their treatments. Breaking routine in particular can leave someone feeling lost, hopeless, confused, stuck, and so on. Plenty of people need routine to feel purpose and direction in their lives.

Depression can cause more arguing because it can deplete one's ability to tolerate others. Again, this is because of how draining depression is, which leaves someone with significantly less spoons and overwhelmed easily. Shutting down is a natural defense mechanism and presents itself as aloofness, sudden bouts of anger, disinterest in anything, inability to conversate, and so on. There can be different ways to treat these individual symptoms which can improve the overall depression.

If he seems to struggle still with communication or explaining what he wants and thinks, have him start keeping a journal or notebook where he writes everything he is feeling, or even draws pictures. Have him jot down any time his mood dips and what happened at the time it did, and maybe he can find triggers for what's going on with him.

But, it is fair to be frustrated. You have your own feelings and likely own problems as well and for the support YOU needed to be taken away is absolutely a frustrating thing. It's a good idea for you to find other support in this trying time to maybe take the pressure off of him.

If you haven't already, I would communicate to him exactly how you're feeling, and that you want to help but you don't know what to do. Ask him what he needs most right now - a distraction? a discussion? a solution? - and follow through. If he can't decide about it, emphasize you're there for when he knows. Additionally, explain to him that there's always gonna be sometimes when you two can't be in person and that he can't fix everything every time, and that you don't expect him to.

Here are some resources for both of you:

Getting Out of a Funk: How to Help Yourself Through Depression

Tips for managing depression in relationships

Babylon: How Depression Can Affect Relationships

Self-care Wellness Toolkit

Worksheet for depression coping skills

How to talk to someone who has depression

How and Why to Practice Self-Care

How can I communicate with someone with depression?

Depression in relationships

How to Tell Someone You're Depressed

Helping Someone with Depression

The Impact Your Mental Health Can Have on Communication

PsychCentral: 10 Self Care Tips for When You Have Depression

Anna Freud: Self Care

What Not to Say or Do to Someone Who Has Depression

Coping with Depression

How to Talk to Your Partner About Your Depression

How Depression Affects My Ability to Communicate

Psychology Today: Why Self Care is Hard for Depressed Individuals

The Royal Australian & New Zealand College of Psychiatrists: Self-care for depression

6 Powerful and Effective Ways to Communicate Better in Relationships

5 Signs that Depression is Eroding Your Relationship

How to Talk about Depression with Family and Friends

Tips On Communicating With Those Who Have Depression

6 Dos and Don'ts for Supporting Someone Who Has Depression

22 Ways to Cope with Your Depression

NIH: Caring For Your Mental Health

Depression Self Help Guide

Mindfulness and Relaxation Techniques to Help with Depression Symptoms

Healthy Coping Skills for Depression, Anxiety, and Anger

Clear Minds Center: Tips for Communicating with Someone Who is Depressed

How Depression Effects Relationships and What You Can Do

What to Know About Dating Someone With Depression

Relationships and Communication

How to use mindfulness for depression

Depression in Relationships: When to Say Goodbye

-Mod BP

[plasmasimagination]

Hi! I hope You’re doing well and I wanted to ask who you’d match me with from HSR, preferably the guys because ahhahdjsbdks my pfp, but ignore jingy rn I want your true and honest opinion. (I don’t mind a female suggestion either)

I’m going to really try and keep this short (I feel like I will fail this as I literally over-explain everything—) but don’t feel pressured at all to reply to this or anything! (I kinda feel i alr did this but im forgetful too help-)

A quick summary:

I’m afab, like 160cm(5’2? With chest which I hate because I want the dark academia dressing style (i dont have money)), she/they, libra, INFP, I’m sorry, I haven’t really had the hyperfixation on sun moon and rising and well astrology stuff tbh 😭

My personality (a mess im so sorry):

Well, I don’t think I could tell you. What I know of myself is that I try to be honest, I am loyal to my friends and probably obsessive when someone shows me interest and i dont know- (there’s some mental disorders going around, along a suspicion of autism) Personally I see myself as a shy annoying brat, while in reality I don’t ever initiate conversation and never know what to say unless it’s about a hyperfixation or something—AGAIN I OVEREXPLAIN EVERYTHING. My mouth doesn’t work as well as I’d like to, I cry too much (imo) I’m sensitive to well a lot, I get overstimulated quickly depending on the situation and um well I’m a picky eater I guess.

RAHHH I LOVE FOOD. And I’m chubby. I’m VERY self conscious and messy (which I’m sure you’ve noticed if you got this far)

Fun fact! If i were to live alone (still living with parents because house market is hell) I’d probably forget to eat a lot/overeat even more than I already do. Why? Because I don’t feel it. I don’t feel a limit to my ‘hunger’ and I don’t even really think I feel hungry at times.

Also, I hate to be perceived by people. It makes me feel like… too much alive. I don’t really feel a connection between my mind and my body, like someone sees my body and I’m just: THAT AINT ME YALL PLEASE IT AINT MEEEEE 😭😭😭😭 but id never say that bc again, my mouth doesn’t work.

I think I’m pretty useless at a lot too, but I don’t mean for this to be a traumadump thingy, which I also don’t realise when I should stop or not like RIGHT NOW I SHOULD PROBABLY STOP (the doubt is real, I’m so sorry—)

LAST THING!

I’m a Jing Yuan simp, obviously, name and all, but I also firmly believe we wouldn’t be good together? Like he’d be great for me. But what would I bring to him? Besides messy thoughts and nothing?… Which is literally nothing. I want to be someone he could properly rely on and not just a hopeless random girlypop who stops processing information after something becomes a bit too much mentally.

I have my serious moments, which will for most part go unnoticed online, but it’s not like I’m inherently useful or whatever. I feel like I’m really lacking in lots of aspects, and yes I’m aware I’m not ‘old’ yet, but my thoughts eat me alive and I won’t be surprised if I well blablah me me me I hate talking about me. Nothing bad even happened I’m just weird at this point, apologies! (Im a mess, my mind is still that 12 year old kid who just wanted a good hug from her mom and a good chat with her mom without all the school and later college problems aghh I wanna be 5 again.)

ANYWAYS if you made it this far, kudos to your determination anddd i hope you stay hydrated! And eat well. Health before anything.

I FAILED TO KEEP IT SHORT. Sorry I- AAAA that’s how my brain is.

Good god jingsnuggler you're Litteraly the best request I've had in my inbox- (IM SORRY MY OTHER CUTIEPIES DONT GET JEALOUS)

And I also was scrolling from like bottom to top to write some request and saw your pfp and was like "wait didn't I just recently get another one of them?" And I was right >:} You really did stay in my memory HSHSHS anyways anyways not tryna chit chat too long since we know why you're here, and I'll use both of your submits to give you the perfect match...

Drumrolls please....

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JING YUAN!

WAIT ! LISTEN IM NOT BIASED.

I genuinely with all of my heart think that you guys would be perfect like no joke

He would balance you out, just fine.

He's a gentle soul, and would find you very amusing and enjoy being around you

Your talkative and bubbly nature would soothe his soul and calm him even.

Sensitive personality? Don't worry Jing yuan will pat your head and tell you it's fine

Forget to eat? Jing yuan will take note of it. And make sure you never forget. Ever

Okay enough of fluff you said you don't think you have anything to offer for him while I strongly disagree

I think Jing yuan needs someone who can keep him entertained, someone that can talk to him, he's a lonely man believe it or not, he doesn't really interact much with plp other than Yanqing, and between you and me Yanqing is boring af

So he'll greatly appreciate having a small birdie on his shoulder that will tell him all that they think , after hours of doing general work all he would need is to have someone talk to him about some casual stuff and random thoughts, yk?

I also think he would turn to you in case of a crisis, sometimes just come home to you and lay down to cuddle with you, it comforts him somewhat, youre like his stress reliever, hes usually very reserved and calm with other people, but with you..it's so different

To him you're like a fresh breath of air, like just a slap to the face to wake him up, you keep him from going freaking insane

I don't think Jing yuan is usually fit for people with a personality of like blade or Dan Heng (just an example of personality I am no shipper nor anti shipper don't shoot me)

Like ...yeah I guess they can be friends but like...Jing yuan wouldn't click with them? I don't know how to explain it but jing yuan needs someone lively and like all over the place, so he can take time to slowly organize you and your thoughts in his mind.

Phew that's all from me, sending lots of hugs and loves I hope to see you around on my blog since you're a small blessing on my acc (≧◡≦) ♡

[potatochip-oc-dump]

i am going to dump a bit of lore on your doorstep (by copy and pasting smth i wrote on discord a few days ago) so i can give context to something i have drawn

disclaimer: it may be long and wordy. but thats what its all about baby

"in short i finally figured out how Arthur gets their name.

so to preface this i must offer. context. be warned this is gonna be one of those Rambles.

before we begin, i am debating on whether or not i should keep the 'arthur possessing gidget' thing, change it to where they possess chip (?), or get rid of it... my reasoning being: i think it makes more sense for arthur to be closer to chip especially cuz they end up as siblings in the end, ALSO i dont remember why gigi had to be the one that was possessed and i think the story would work just fine if it was somebody else.

in fact itd probably work even better with chip not only bc the theming of Being In The Wrong Body and everyone claiming u r somebody youre not works even better if its with chip, it also works cuz chip in the story is frequently like... whats the word. overlooked. or not taken seriously.

but anyways:

two, there is a plot point sometime during chip & gidget's stay in the castelle manor in which everyone but chip is trapped inside a dream by moonlight (in the waking world they are all asleep & cant wake up) bc she is searching their dreams in order to find Arthur (and kill them)

hopefully that doesnt sound. too convoluted. ah. anyways. something something chip teams up w arthur to enter their dreams and wake them up. i think.

i think probably arthur was either forced into going w chip or he agreed relunctantly, but (assuming he is still possessing someone) chip asks arthur if they can see his real face. and he agrees but in a way that makes it clear he is Lying

they wake up in (.....i dont think i have a solid name for this place yet. i think i called it Space 2 in my lore doc for the bit but i think itll be called 'otherside')

and Arthur just looks like a weird version of [whoever they were possessing at the time.] chip comments on it and art's like 'oh you mean my REAL REAL face yeah ok let me. um.' (they change into an exact copy of chip.) 'Better?'

at this point it is becoming clear that arthur might not have a 'real face,' but chip doesnt know that yet

meanwhile there is some chatter between the two, w arthur passively explaining who Midnight and Moonlight are. ALSO there is a fun fact i think about moonlight canonically having a preference for Women & that Arthur's pre-death appearance was modelled after the first human woman. i think. at one point they get onto the topic of art and chip asks Arthur if they like to draw, in which they respond: 'no.' Riveting.

something something climactic point where arthur breaks down and finally admits that they dont have a body, dont have any of their powers, and they cant even remember what theyre supposed to look like. he says that he feels useless!

& then chip says something like 'you dont have to have powers to like. create stuff.'

and then they draw together :]

chip agrees to help give him a "new face" so to speak by drawing him a FURSONA (it is a JACKRABBIT with a RAINCOAT AND UMBRELLA and an EYEPATCH and like. epic scars. and two swords. and a pet dolphin & demon wings. and other convoluted detailed design elements akin to that of a sparkledog) which they lovingly name 'Arthur.' (maybe w a last name like 'skullcrusher' or soemthing)

and arthur like draws his own version of that. which is Close to what Arthur's design is currently. & he's like 'yeah. so um. uhh. close your eyes i cant do it while youre looking.'

(chip puts their paws over their eyes.) 'um ok! what are you doing?'

'im gonna show you the real me.'

& then he looks like the character he drew."

[toxic-mothers-tourney]

Toxic propaganda: Morgan Fey (Ace Attorney)

she didn't become the master of her family's spirit channelling technique because her younger sister had stronger spiritual powers, so she manipulated her daughter Pearl into helping in a plan to kill her sisters daughter Maya (who Pearl loves) so that Pearl can become the master instead, even though she doesn't want to (oh and also Pearl is nine years old when that happens). she has unsuccessfully tried to frame Maya for murder before trying to kill her.

abandoned several of her children to the care of her divorced husband (who by all accounts also more or less abandoned them) because they didn't have the spirit-channeling skills she could use to advance her own status; raised her youngest with political advancement in mind and with the idea that her only worth was because of her channeling ability; attempted to manipulate said youngest (a 9-year-old at the time) into murdering her cousin to eliminate a rival in succession, roping in her older children (leveraging both filial piety and blackmail) in the same plot despite years and their entire adulthoods without contact

The whole Fey clan is a whole level of fucked up tbh and Morgan was the worst we saw. Essentially threw away her first two daughters bc they didnt have good enough spirit channeling, attempted to get her niece Maya arrested for murder, and tried to manipulate her daughter Pearl into killing her cousin Maya, who was clearly shown to be basically a big sis to Pearl. And i dont remember if its explicitly stated that there was abuse, but her daughter Pearl definitely acted scared of her, and dispite talking about how much she loved Pearl she only really viewed her as a tool for power.

Used her entire family as a means to regain a title that didnt even hold weight by the time she games take place, tried to kill her niece (whom it's implied she partly raised) because said niece was going to claim said title, tried to use her first daughter to kill said niece again from the afterlife by having her youngest daughter, whom she refers to as "her Pearl" and who ADORES her cousin, channel her oldest daughter's spirit and stab her cousin while in Pearl's body, and simply did not care enough about her first two daughters to ever try getting them back (because they couldn't help her in her goals) even when one of them was abandoned by her ex-husband to go live on a mountain with a nun. Also, her oldest daughter was groomed while in her ex-husband's care and got involved in a very public court case, and she STILL only spoke to her daughter when she realised that she could use her daughter as a pawn in her schemes. It's mentioned she also tried to kill her eldest before the daughter wisened her up to a better way to conduct her plot.

She's basically the mom version of Manfred von karma

Morgan later, while in jail, tries to use Pearl as a pawn in another plot to kill Maya, and if this plan had worked would have been traumatized by her part in it for life. Pearl fell for this because she is NINE YEARS OLD and still wanted to believe in her mother's good intentions despite everything she'd done.

Morgan also has two other, older daughters, twins named Iris and Dahlia. Her first husband took Dahlia in the divorce and dropped Iris off with distant relatives, and Morgan does not appear to have given two shits (likely because neither of the twins could have inherited the title of the head of the clan and thus were useless to Morgan's own ambitions), to the point where Pearl doesn't even know she has two half sisters and thinks she's an only child. Morgan only gets in contact with Dahlia to use her as part of her plan and Dahlia views her with nothing but contempt.

[t4tbedehopmar]

KOHERS important. uh. i uh. i read piers wiki like onc e . and . something interesting happened there. uh. how. is he like in the game. i gotta know because UH UHHHHH . dont ask. for now.

◕⁠_◕ um. OK this sure is interesting! OK THEN short essay here i come >:O

SO if u've read my long as hell marnie essay u'll know he's her older brother! he's the dark type gym leader of the region and lives in spikemuth obviously AND there's smth i forgor to mention during my marnie essay! u see in every single town in galar u can dynamax or gigantamax ur pokemon in the gym BUT in spikemuth u can't bc there's no um. how's it called in english. well in spanish it's called nodo dinamax and that's what makes it able to dynamax ur pokemon! so he's the only gym leader that never dynamaxes his pokemon :] NOW THEN he's also the only gym leader that doesn't show up in the opening ceremony of the gym challenge so u only get to meet him when u arrive at spikemuth and he's having a concert there bc our guy is a singer AND songwriter BOOM!!!!!! what a guy fr....... COUGHS ANYWAYS he puts himself down saying he thought no one came to challenge him bc he was useless and. that kinda seems like u. BUT YEAH it's actually bc the town is closed down so yeah our fav guy isn't and will never be useless 🫶🫶 ANYWAYS like any other gym leader u rlly don't get to see them during the game BUT piers is special! as i said during my marnie essay he wants marnie to be the next dark type gym leader and since marnie doesn't become champion he's free to do wtv he likes! and so during the post game these two evil guys from the novelty appear and start dynamaxing their pokemon in all the cities and since he's no longer a gym leader and there's no um. nodo dinamax thingie in spikemuth he helps protagonist and hop (<3333) to take care of that! so we get to see more of piers LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOO AHEM anyways let's go to what u rlly care abt fkhfjdjkd personality! by his looks u probably think he's dark and scary and all that BUT just like marnie he's actually pretty sweet and nice! he's very overprotective of marnie and in general of his friends too :] he's also kinda shy i think? like he seems kinda closed off upon first meeting. kind of. THAT'S JUST THE VIBES HE GIVES ME OK DKHSKDBAJDHJAHDJSHDJJSJJD but yeah overall he's pretty nice puts himself down is protective of the people he cares of so yeah sounds like u 👍👍 um. if u end up being piers i might go a bit. insane maybe <- normal piers fan BUT ANYWAYS hope u enjoyed my essay byebye

[kewltie]

i want izuku to go to his ms reunion and his former classmates acted like he's one of them as if they didnt ostracized him back then bc he's v successful hero rn. izuku is kind so he doesnt hold their past against them but class 1-A does and drops by the reunion to check on izuku.

they know of his dark ms history so they dont go all at once, but come visit for a group of 2-4 just to see if izuku is ok and if they should take him away from his shitty & fake former classmates but izuku is doing just fine; he's confident and happy, his past doesnt define him. he doesnt hold his former classmates' actions as oh, they were horrible kids so obv they're going to grow up to be horrible and can NEVER CHANGE bc ppl do change. some wont but most do bc kids can be terrible but as they get older their world evolve & they LEARN from the mistakes.

he knows someone close to his heart is perfect example of that so izuku finds forgiveness come easy for him and tho maybe his classmates arent ALL sincere in their apologies, trying to write off the past as if they didn't bullied him but izuku is ok now; he's ready to move on. so izuku doesnt have any trauma (anymore) or hold any long term resentment toward his ms classmates and does enjoy the reunion even if it can be awkward at times bc their good memories werent good memories to izuku who was often excluded from social activities bc of his quirklessness...

during the reunion bc his friends keep dropping by, who are all prominent heroes, the ms classmates ask are any of them you're dating?? izuku just laughs and says i have a partner w/o saying their name and SO IT LEAVES EVERYONE GUESSING WHICH ONE OF PPL DROPPED BY IS THE BF/GF.

among his ms classmate is a boy who was prob the closest izuku has to a 'friend' during that period before he distanced himself from izuku. he has quirk that is simple & boring, blowing bubbles from his mouth, which is unimpressive but izuku was the only one who tho it was cool. izuku always ask questions about his quirk and makes it out to something as remarkable!!! while the classmates sneered and looked down upon him bc quirks that are lame and useless has no place in their society but at least it's better than the quirkless loser over there... so they become sort of 'friends' bc nobody seems to care or like them but then when izuku's bullying got worst the choice b/t quirkless vs lame quirk, the kids think izuku is worst off and picks on him harsher esp when izuku doesnt stay down and curve his enthusiasms about quirks.

the boy learned to stay quiet and in the background so he doesnt get pick on as much but izuku cant STAY quiet bc he loves learning and talking about quirks and doesnt hide his dream to become a hero so obviously it made other want to CRUSH him, so when his bullying got worst. esp when the boy got picked on for 'useless' quirk, izuku would speak up for him and made loud proclaimations how the quirk is v cool and amazing so they should talk bad about X-kun but that made the boy afraid of being attached to izuku, bc he doesnt want it to affect him too.

the bullies turn their attention to izuku who was the most outspoken and the boy realized he has to stay away from izuku to not get picked on too, even to izuku helped him!! so he distanced himself and years later, he always regretted that decision bc izuku was his first love. but he was too much of a coward to ever do anything about it and too afraid of liking that quirkless boy who was the lowest of their social ladder. he wanted to save himself more then his love and friendship for izuku... so that action haunted him for years even as an adult.

so this reunion was his way of trying to apologize to izuku and maybe reconnect with him bc he never forgotten izuku the boy who shines so bright even in the darkest time, who was able to fulfilled his dream and most of all izuku was kind when the world wasnt kind back to him. he can see the way that izuku slowly and sincerely win their classmates over by remembering all their names and when the most popular girl embarrassingly reveals she's a homemaker w 3 kids and izuku is like that's so amazing!! that must be so difficult but you're doing a good job. AND HE MEANS IT WITH HIS WHOLE HEART!!! he genuinely interest in their life and want to know what they're up to and even remember the moments of their past like when someone pick up his eraser that he dropped and handed it back to him, he recalls those small gestures so easily.

to izuku who has an incrediablly shitty time during his ms, yet able to draw on lighter moments and bring it up and associated with ppl who have hurt him in the past... that takes a lot of strength and speaks of how big izuku's heart was that he doesnt hold it against them. so even tho izuku is the top hero and is clearly the most accomplished person out of all their classmates there, he doesnt lord it over them and is much more interest in their more mundane life rather than his exciting world of heroes and that's very humbling thing. so for the ppl who came in worry izuku was going to get revenge, they find themselves coming out of this being a die hard deku stan for life now lol... bc now they realized what make deku so popular with so many ppl is now bc of how powerful he is bc of his very big heart.

at the end of the night the classmates are all having a good time and they so smitten with izuku and just genuine happy that he is here and regret how they could have ruined him but he rise above all that. it's then that when they're about to go home that bakugou katsuki arrives. katsuki was invited but he never RSVP. they know how he is flourishing just as much as izuku is as a hero but he always seem like untouchable, out of their reach; very smart, athletic, popular and has a powerful quirk he was everything izuku wasnt & they were childhood friends!!

katsuki suddenly appears before them and they're like oh, sorry the party is over but katsuki just glowers as izuku beams at the sight of him and runs up to him, holding his hand as he says, 'kacchan, you're here to pick me up?' leaving everyone jaw slacked!!!!!

'are you guys dating?' some brave soul asks.

izuku blushes while katsuki sneers. 'yea, what about it?' and it's like some kind of dark comedy to classmates bc the two ppl who are least likely to get together are happily TOGETHER and katsuki had seemingly hated izuu in the past.

it was jarring like HOW THEY DID THEY EVEN GET THERE!!! but bkdk obviously wont tell bc thats their story and the classmates realize that bc they have no right to demand an answer from these two even to katsuki's turbulent history with izuku was a defining moment of their ms.

while izuku say goodbye to their classmates, katsuki stands off in the back. the boy who was izuku 'friend' approaches katsuki and says, “you dont deserve him” and katsuki stares evenly back.

“neither do you, but at least im making an effort now and not pining like a fool. i have an entire life ahead of me to make it up to him but you?” katsuki glares. “you ruined your chance back then when you walked away from him.”

and that's the thing bc he did, he chose himself over izuku back then and tho izuku clearly has forgiven him but he hasnt. katsuki shouldnt either tho!! he feels is unfair that katsuki also played a part in making izuku's life miserable back then but he is able to stand by izuku's side tonight & hold his hands. IT'S NOT FAIR, but katsuki doesnt care about fairness he has izuku and hes not letting go.

katsuki didnt go to the reunion bc he doesnt want to be reminded of his past so even tho izuku has long moved on and forgave, katsuki hasn't learn to forgive himself yet so he isnt ready to face his past yet but he also doesnt want any idiot to get any idea about izuku either lol. it took him a lot of effort and time to get to this point and won izuku's heart so he's not going to let some past love trying to think he has a chance with izuku now bc izuku is his and tho he hasnt proven himself worthy of izuku but nobody is more worthy than him a;sjd;fjs lmao

[redandblackpoetry]

Ok so I'm gonna ramble a bit here so strap in because I find the concept interesting

Because fish tanks and stained glass are inherently opposites. Now stay with me here, why are fish tanks always so clear and sparkly clean? Because the glass isnt the focus its a vehicle so you can look at the fishes more easily. Its essentially operating as a portal to another dimension and best case scenario is you ignore the class entirely and see this snapshot of another world.

Stained glass is the opposite. Its purely for decoration. Stained glass came into existence because these huge churches had huge windows and didnt want these big boring windows that are all clear, and because they have a butt load of money they would and still do! Commission stained glass. The point of these windows are to provide something interesting to look at, and in some really really early stained glass windows, especially in Europe before there were high rates of literacy, it would help tell the stories of the church. Some of it is generic, I can't tell you how many Jesus crucifiction scenes I have seen in my life, but some also want the stories of their saint or like a beloved pastor or priest etc. Some churches will even have the names and portraits of these people, its a way to memorialize them.

Coming back to the fish tank idea, stained glass essentially serves the roll of the fish, its entertainment and pretty.

If you had a fishtank made of stained glass (ignoring the lead poisioning aspect bc yes stained glass still contains lead, there are leadless solder you can get but any major studio or person will tell you leaded solder works better fight me) it cancels out each other. You can't see the fish, the colors if the stained glass and lead lines will almost completely obscure it. And unless you have lights in the aquarium, which granted big ones tend to, the stained glass is just gonna look like a dull brownish mess if its painted and even if not its gonna be still pretty dull colors.

A stained glass fish tank would be absolutely useless to us because we cant see the fish and we cant see the glass well. But what fascinates me is the concept that the fish would enjoy it.

The lights in the room outside would probably make the stained glass from an inside view actually usable. In essence, the fish tank becomes the church, and we are God, looking down on the churchgoers from above. Are we as obscured to God as the fish are to us? Do we look as dull and boring from God's view?

Inside, the fish all stare at the glass depicting images, stories that they don't have to read to understand. They are taught, all the while we remain ignorant from the outside where the colors all look like blobs. Is God just as ignorant to the stories we tell of Them?

I dont know but my vote is we give the fish a little catholic guilt. as a treat

Why don't they make stained glass fish tanks? Give those fish Catholic guilt

[irlbkgs]

🌺🌹🌻🌼🍀 (feel free to pick and choose with these if it’s too much to answer them all!)

- @seraphvessel (don’t look at this url i’m having a crisis)

🌺Are there any other characters that are very relevant to your self-insert or F/O story-wise?

for nicky id say glenn and carol, michonne too in later seasons. glenn is like his first real friend because he grew up so isolated (and was also just the weird kid in rich schools, his etiquette sucked so he couldnt really find peers of his social standing to befriend when they were all so snobby), carol was very doting during the quarry era bc even if he wasnt a kid she could still tell he didnt know how to be an adult yet and wanted to help teach him basic chores at least and after that he tried to help look for sofia even tho he has like. no tracking skills and is useless with any weapon, would stay up late in case she somehow made it within the vicinity for the farm when it was dark, tried to keep her spirits up and whatnot. he was like an obnoxious kid who would never leave her alone and at times it bothered her but it also helped her not become entirely closed off post sofia. with michonne it kind of similar, he just loves to pry and he wont stop no matter how much you tell him off so of course he eventually got under michonne's skin and wormed his way into her heart, he just had to deal with a few more threats to get there.

for kennie there really isnt anyone because well. i dont rly give af about canon.

🌹How would your self-insert function in the source? (Side character, Main character, etc?)

nicky is definitely side character material, besides one liners i doubt he'd be significant until maybe farm or prison era and then would go back to kind of not mattering until commonwealth maybe? maybe not even cause like. wtf would he even do in that era besides be daryl's murderous fail housewife? he def doesnt have a lot of impact on the plot tho, very much a side character who is comic relief a lot of the time and mostly there for romance and occasional fuck ups that lead to angst.

kennie would tbh not function in source unless she was a main character (in order to be around sam) or she'd have to be so fucking background that her and sam being a thing would be shocking news to everyone. and tbh i dont see her as an mc bc she just wouldnt hangout with the mcs? so its weird. like at best she'd be there begrudgingly and complain a lot and nobody would like her bc of it but she'd rough it for sam (and emma). maybe her and emma were besties and that's how she gets involved but still idk.

🌻Does your self-insert or F/O go through any character development throughout the story?

i think nicky would def unlearn some of his manipulative tendencies and in turn stop lying as much which is big for him bc he's kind of the liar of all time if im being honest. its how he was raised so it comes as natural as breathing but it's also made worse by his mental illness tbh. it takes a lotttttt of arguing with daryl for him to make an honest attempt at not manipulating situations to get what he wants for fear of rejection and to stop lying about stupid shit just bc he's worried itll piss someone off. something something living with abusive parents who lose their shit over everything making him an impulsive liar just to be safe but that extending into every relationship he's had something something daryl living in the same situation but becoming brutally honest from it. tldr nicky met his match.

kennie doesnt really have anything yet bc she's like. not fleshed out but also bc there's only 1 season of the show her f/o is in so like there is nowhere to progress to yet it feels. i want her to eventually learn to be more vulnerable and talk about her feelings more but that is like so not the important thing in their relationship considering sam is like. being hunted and is also an unmedicated schizophrenic with cptsd and super strength. and i like focusing on that more than kennie being a closed off emotional wreck sometimes.

🌼Is there an official confession scene between the two of them?

i find it so hard to think of confession scenes bc confessions themself make me wanna chew my hands off buttttt

nicky confesses early on, probably prison era. he's never been exactly subtle but daryl kind of doesnt notice until nicky outright tells him when he feels like theyre finally safe and he's tired of waiting bc who knows how long theyll actually be safe there, maybe they can enjoy some down time together finally but daryl rejects him. its less so the age thing at that point (nicky would be 25-26 then and have matured a lot between the quarry and the prison) and moreso the fact that daryl is just demi and hasn't formed a strong enough connection with nicky yet bc admittedly nicky has mostly been thirsting from afar and was banking on daryl finding him hot enough to go for it even without them being super close (something something nicky's sexual trauma making him think any older guy would fuck him even if they dont want him romantically and he'd settle for that). after that nicky kind of pulls back for a bit bc rsd ouch but eventually he stops pulling away bc his feelings dont just vanish after rejection and he still wants to spend time with daryl, even if it means he has to contain his feelings and tone down his flirting (bc he cant turn that off, he flirts with basically everyone). daryl is happy to spend more time with him again bc he had grown fond of nicky during farm era, they just werent super close yet but they get there by the end of prison era and that's when daryl starts to form feelings but he doesnt really realize it until alexandria bc soooo much is happening, he doesnt rly have time to think about it. once he feels like theyre safe enough in alexandria, he confesses to nicky over dinner that he caught and cooked, ofc, and nicky basically becomes his low quality housewife (lq bc he sucks at cooking and cleaning but he performs...other wifely duties ((wink wink nudge nudge)), as svetlana would say)

for kennie and sam it would be pretty upfront, sam isnt exactly shy about his feelings and often blurts out how he feels and even tho kennie is hesitant to admit her feelings, she has no problem accepting sam's initial advances which were more sexual in nature. once they get into feelings territory, he also fesses up first, which makes her feel more comfortable reciprocating.

[imraespace]

WAITILL REPLT TO THE OTHER PARTS OF YOUR RESPONSE LATER IM EATINF DINNER BUT DWPOOKEI FOCUS ON YOUR EXAMS YOU GOT THIS YOU WILL GRADUATE WIRH 100%‼️‼️‼️ HOW IS THE PASSING RATE THAT LOW??? THATS LESS THAN HALF THE PPL WHAT WHAT WHAT NO BC HERE UMM YOU NEED 40 HOURS OF COMMUNITY SERVICE AND U JUST NEED TO MAKE SURE U DONT FAIL ANY OF YOUR COURSES AND U GET UR DIPLOMA IT REALLT ISNT THAT HARD UNLESS URE TAKING ADVANCED SUBJECTS BUT EVEN THEN MOST PPL LOCK IN BUT ANWYAYS U GOT THIS POOKIE i thought u would like delete tumblr and like never come back until summer and iwas like man ure gonna come back with 165+ asks 💔 BUT NO BC ID CRY IF I HAD AN EXAM ON MY BIRTFHAY WHAT IS A MOCK EXAM I KEEP HEARING AB IT BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS HELP. I LEGIT ONLY HAVE FINAL EXAMS I DONT HAVE MIDTERMS … ITS OKAY URE GONAN DO AMAZING ON EVEYRHTUNG POOKIE 💜💜

im kinda worried for next year bc idk what im gonna do like im into psychology and medical so i wanna become a psychiatrist but also idk ☹️☹️ my careers teacher has veen saying psych sociology and such are useless and ppl who go into it never find a job bc youth unemployment is so bad. LIKE HE SAYS BECOME ENTREPRENEURS LIKE OK TECHNICALLY IM GONNA ALREADY OWN A FAMILY BUSINESS BUT THAT ISNT GONNA BE MY MAIN SOURCE OF INCOME OBV. so im kinda just worried i just wanna go medical tho .. 💔 ill figure it out i guess i kinda have to

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I HOPE I DOO

BECAUSE THEY MAKE THE EXAMS HARD AND EVEN IF ITS NOT HARD PPL PANIC BC PF ALL THE PRESSURE OF KNOWING OMG YOU MESS UP NO FUTURE! PPL WHO DO PASSED THEY ALWAYS SAY THAT THEY STUDIED EVERYDAY ALL THE TIME AND DIDNT INTERACT WITH NO FRIENDS AND DIDNT GO OUT OR LEAVE THE HOUSE THEYRE SO STRICT HERE ITS ANNOYINGGG PLUS THEY GIVE YOU TEACHERS LIKE MY ACCOUNTS ONE BC MY FRIEND HAS THE SAME PROBLEM WITH HER CHEM TEACHER AND WE ALWAYS COMPLAINED AND ASKED FOR A NEW TEACHER BC WE WANNA PASS ANS THEY ALWAYS SAY NO. SO BAD TEACHER, PRESSURE, NO LIFE AND SOME HARD ASS EXAM THATS GONNA DECIDED YOUR FUTURE.

WHAT..

HELPME I WONT DELETE TUMBLR

MOCK EXAM IS LIKE MY FINALS THEYRE GIVING US AN EXAM LIKE HOW THE EXAMS WILL BE AND THE EXAM SETTING like the exam you're not in your normal classroom ans you have your own candidate number so you gotta go at your own seat they gave you based on like your last name bc it's in alphabetical order yk like preparing us for the actual thing

DO SOMETHING YOU REALLY WANNA DO DESPITE WHAT YOUR TEACHER SAY!! I chose business bc I wanna own my nursery and I got made fun if bc "mara you're so quiet you can't talk to children!"🤨😒 don't make me bite you.

YOU CAN OWN THE BUSINESS ANS DO MEDICAL YOU JAVE TWO SOURCES OF INCOME