#and a little bit blames Veronica for allowing herself to be manipulated so easily

[shitpostingfromthebarricade]

I don't know how to verbalize this just yet, but Heathers: the Musical and Batman (2022) said the same thing.

[ramjam]

important guila facts:

her foresight is immensely negative (when faced with predicting an outcome, she tends to assume the worst.)

she’s recklessly impulsive (even without the demon’s blood, to an extent; veronica had to remind guila to not get herself killed in one of the more recent battles.)

she puts other people first, but at the extreme cost of almost never considering herself as a human being worthy of safety.

she thinks incredibly low of herself; she sees her own happiness, feelings, and life as unimportant. this is what drives her recklessness, as she doesn’t view herself high enough to value her own life; she is selflessly suicidal.

she is quick to blame herself, even baselessly at times.

she is apparently prone to working so hard that she gets hurt or sick.

the way she views herself is the exact reason why she was never able to generate her magic in the first place-- she has absolutely no faith in her ability, and she thinks of herself as incapable and worthless, unless she is serving the feelings of other people. 

but even then, she can’t actually help other people the way she wants to, because her self-hate is so extreme that she couldn’t get the ability she desired... at least, not naturally; she is much like her father, who had the same struggles and reasoning behind his struggles.

the disappearance of her father left her very paranoid, anxious, and lacking in basic trust; she tends to shut people out and lock away. she isn’t very open and honest about her feelings, and is prone to lying if she thinks her honest heart will be an ‘inconvenience’ for someone else.

there aren’t many people she feels comfortable enough to be casual, open, and honest around. as of current, that bias has only been allowed to zeal and jericho (and even then, she has fibbed to zeal about her feelings. she isn’t perfect.)

her heart is very vulnerable, she is prone to manipulation because she tries to see the good in most people. she is complex; she is paranoid of other people, but she also tries to serve them. that leaves her in a place whe she is easily pushed around (ie: her dynamic with helbram, where he exploited the way she needed to be validated and the way she seemed to look up to him as some sort of false father figure.)

she tends to stuff bad feelings down, to try simply to forget and move away from them. it seems like she would rather repress things.

she is very protective, almost a little possessive, but not crossing into any unhealthy zones or boundaries.

all that being said, she is not a one-note negative nancy. she can be very playful and fun. most of her humor comes from how passive-aggressive she is. she enjoys little quips, and despite her inner-feelings, she seems rejuvenated around other people; she likes interaction with others, she enjoys friendships and fun banter! even with people she doesn’t feel she can be casual around (diane, veronica, other knights, etc.) which probably means she has been letting her walls down a bit, and values the importance of connections, even if they’re less deep than where she holds her main biases; her distrust is easing, albeit very gradually. 

she can be shy.

she likes people, she is just wary of people. that makes it difficult for her to open up to anybody.

she tries her best to be as great as she can be, despite the way she feels and the things she’s had to trudge through.

she believes the thing she is best at is baking cakes! how cute.

she holds herself very politely with everyone (except for, again, zeal and jericho) and that’s where her passive-aggressiveness comes from; she will be the most proper, polite girl, even when she’s saying the rudest things. she’s difficult to read, because she still hides behind a lot of niceties and smiles

she is sarcastic, and she seems very self-aware of it. she will put those ‘good manners’ first. she probably gets a kick out of it; when she is mean, she is playful.

her ‘fakeness’ is obviously some sort of defense mechanism.

she loves femininity.

she has little self-awareness when it comes to the good things she has done; she will spin the good things she’s done into something negative, and the bad things done to her into something positive.

she can be a very happy girl.

she’s very reliable, and will lend her hand to anybody who needs it; she’s patient and kind, a good shoulder to metaphorically cry on. she’s a great listener, and she’s great at explaining things and diffusing people (her interactions with jericho are the only examples i have for this.)

she is agile and incredibly talented with a sword-- the demon’s blood did not give her that, but i bet she’d never allow herself the credit for it.

she never hated her father, she just felt burned and confused; she had presumed him to be dead, but she still loved and respected him, she just lacked faith and trust in his concept. it was all confusing for her. if there was any resentfulness at all, it ebbed as soon as she had her hands on his necklace.

she is very loving. she is gentle and she is soft. she likes hugs and physical affection.

she is doing her best at moving forward.

she is doing her best in general.

she is incredibly resilient.

she is a sweet girl.

she is cute.