#and I’m so happy for her bc that’s a HUGE accomplishment

[crowwithaccesstotheinternet]

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[regan-thatslife]

ok i haven’t been on here all day but here’s some thoughts from dance off last night:

unpopular opinion the minis and juniors both had good songs

no one is doing improv like finley lets be real

i’m so so happy for lilly, i think last year was probably hard for her so i hope this was a big confidence boost whether she wins or not🥹

so happy for kylie, such an underrated force

i honestly did not watch senior female uptempo bc i was watching it later and i was not going to sit through that song

i want this so bad for all of the senior top 4 for completely different reasons-izzy and keira have been top 3 for YEARS (still a huge accomplishment that they should be proud of!) beth anne wasn’t really in anyone’s predictions and i love underrated wins and hailey bills is just on another level

i watched finley and lilly’s recompete solos with my friend and some of the improv and they were blown away by all of the larkin girls

[nyaagolor]

As the one who sent that ask, I was specifically referring to the Nemona werewolf AU so I was so happy to see your reply about it!!! But both are SO good. Do you have any thoughts about the rest of the Scarvio kiddos finding out about werelycanroc Nemona? I’m curious how they react

YESSSS LFG. So when I started the AU it was mostly just bc I thought the concept was cool but the more I did with it the more it kinda became a metaphor? So honestly I see the other characters' reactions as a part of that metaphor

Protagonist: They take it in stride, naturally. They've always been able to handle Nemona at her most intense, plus they just watched their best friend's dad's robot clone go into a time machine, so a werewolf is nothing. Nemona actually tells the protagonist about it herself because she trusts them so deeply, and the protagonist is pretty unfazed. In the end, it actually makes everything more bearable because Nemona doesn't have to hide anything or bottle things up, both of which would otherwise make the transformation more intense and dangerous. Oftentimes the protagonist will follow Nemona around on the 'raidon during full moons to make sure she doesn't get herself into trouble

Arven: Unlike the protagonist, Arven finds out about the whole werewolf thing on accident. Actual event still pending, I didn't think that far ahead. He's been through a lot and this is just another headache to deal with, so he reacts pretty badly initially. Arven has a lot of preconceptions about Nemona and what she's like, but seeing this makes me him realize how long he's been jealous of a person he made up-- the real Nemona has so much more depth than the imagined version of her in his head. It gets him to reflect about the nature of their relationship and they end up better friends at the end of it because it's the catalyst for them understanding each other better. He's initially overwhelmed

Penny: She was always wary of Nemona, since she seemed so perfect and accomplished and in the same social status as a lot of her bullies. Finding out Nemona was a werewolf ironically improved their relationship significantly because it was a huge tell of how repressed she really was, and Team Star is like the ultimate enabler of being ur authentic self. You've never seen someone get adopted into a friend group so fast. Also Penny thinks it's kinda like this anime she's really into so that's a bonus

[rev3rb]

Hi, again! I have to admit that the end of this chapter intrigued me quite a bit. I definitely wanna see where they’re going with Shinoa’s powers over demons. After a lot of time spent on angel flashbacks, it’s a good reminder that the humans have unique roles to play. I liked seeing the Shinoa squad, although spending time on crushes I’m not particularly invested in and making very vague, somewhat redundant plans was kinda boring. I enjoy some good girl talk, but I’m not particularly excited about having so many different groups working towards basically the same goal. It’s similar to what you pointed out about Saito still not siding with The First. It sorta seems as if everyone is stating similar values but personal issues are stopping them from just working together and actually accomplishing shit. Idk maybe it’s just me, but I think some of the most engaging and productive moments happened bc of the dynamics within the alliances. As of now, there’s at least 4 different factions, which truly seems unnecessary at this stage. Regardless of how happy an ending we get, I’d feel a bit unsatisfied if 1/4 groups succeeded at the expense of all the others failing. No matter which group it is, because they all have an interesting perspective and feel like protagonists in unique ways. I’m lowkey rooting for them all, so I’d really prefer if they could just compromise lol. I’m sure that solution is way too idealistic of me, but it’s not my fault Kagami wrote such sympathetic characters 😔

On another note… Happy Birthday!!! If I remember right, it should’ve just passed. I hope you had a great day <3

First off, oh my god! You remember! I didn’t expect that. At the time of posting this, yes, it would have been four days ago, but you sent this Tuesday so you were pretty spot on! Thank you so much! I did have an okay day!

I’m actually excited to see where Shinoa’s powers go as well! For quite some time now, the story has hyped Shinoa up as being special and ‘the perfect experiment’ or however it was phrased, but we’d had no real indication of it until now. It’s about time we shifted from tell to show. I’m hoping it gives her a bit more agency. However, I will say that Shinoa, or really rather how Kagami writes her, does disappoint me a bit in other ways, which leads me to the next thing you bring up.

I don’t hate Yuunoa. I don’t care for it either, but the fact that this chapter sorta confirms that Shinoa doesn’t have that much of a driving force outside of it makes me quite sad. You could argue that other Hiragis (Mahiru and Shinya) have a similar thing going on and they do, but there’s more than that, even if the story prefers bringing up Guren as their main motivation instead. Mahiru has the whole thing with wanting agency to live how she wants (which ties to Guren but I firmly believe can stand on its own) as well as wanting to protect Shinoa, as twisted as her methodology was. Shinya also had his goal of wanting to break free from the Hiragis before Guren became what he’d rather stand for. Being able to see that shift adds quite a bit of depth to that.

What else does Shinoa have going on really? As she says her she doesn’t feel like she has much reason for living, so she mind as well have this fight with Mitsu over Yuu be that driving force. You could say it’s similar to Yuu since he’s sorta said Mika is his reason for living, but I honestly wasn’t a huge fan of that either. I liked how Yuu was, at one point, able to somewhat move on and live for others (the Shinoa squad and Guren at the time) he was getting better in a way! But I don't want to rant for too long. End of the day, I kinda wish Shinoa had goals that didn't center around Yuu, even if she ended up dropping them at some point. As she said, she's really just been along for the ride her whole life.

It's nice to see Mitsu actually back and doing something though! Mitsu fans come get your food! I too wish they'd talked about something else, but what can you do I guess. It's just nice to see her. The focus hasn't been on her in SO long.

Now the whole Shinoa Squad being a new group. Yeaaaah this is driving me a bit insane as well. Weren't they just working with Guren, Mahiru, and Ferid? Why is that suddenly changing? I get that it's because they think them untrustworthy, and I get it to a degree, but it's exactly as you said. There's just SO many groups that are fighting for similar things that it's become kinda weird? Like... why did Guren and Mahiru even let the Shinoa Squad run off? They don't appear to be around, and I know that their priority is probably Yuu, but it feels weird that they're suddenly just elsewhere now when they were working together last we saw. It feels like we're missing something here. Anyways. I can't imagine these groups won't join up later, but the fact that we now have to follow 3 different groups (with there being 5 or maybe 6 factions atm) is going to make for an even more disjointed story. And that's one of the big problems with OnS. It's story is kind of all over the place and it can be difficult to follow with how much it jumps around and drops plot points and characters for no reason only to pick them up later like nothing happened. Nothing I've seen here instills me with confidence that this problem will get better.

That all being said, I didn't hate the chapter. Shinoa squad as a whole hasn't felt like they've been the main focus since the Nagoya arc and while I don't think we'll be following them for too long, it's about time they became more relevant. Maybe what I'm saying is a bit contradictory since I just complained about different factions, but hey, there's some pay off here with Shinoa and her abilities like I mentioned earlier, so idk. It's something.

[doyouevenshipbr0]

big rant incoming. about naruto/boruto and misogyny.

so like. i dont read/watch boruto or naruto. that right there probably discredits everything im about to say. feel free to keep scrolling. i just kinda casually look at whats going on sometimes bc ill see stuff on tik tok or whatever. so i may be completely incorrect here and maybe i don’t know what im talking about. but this is a feeling in my gut ive had for a long time.

the older i get, the more angry i get about female representation in shounen anime/manga. it is severely lacking. all my time ive spent as an anime fan, i have been DYING to see a girl that can even hold a candle to any other of her male counterparts in strength. im not saying its never been done, but i am saying i have HARDLY seen it.

even though i don’t really watch naruto, it is one of the most popular anime of ALL TIME, and its most famous aspect has to be the naruto v sasuke feud. the fact that they are both so strong and that by the time they are adults their power is unparalleled to literally anyone else in the verse is definitely a huge plot point of the show.

so when i heard that with the new naruto gen, sasuke has a DAUGHTER, and NO SONS, i was so excited.

that’s when i decided to follow the series more closely, because i was so excited to see a franchise this huge put a female supporting character with THIS much potential on display.

and while i do love sarada and think the stuff she’s accomplished is pretty impressive compared to the girls of naruto (i am a sakura supporter but u know what i mean), the overall treatment that she is getting compared to her male counterparts is pathetic.

maybe you want to argue that the uzumaki vs uchiha feud is already played out. they don’t need to do it in boruto because they’ve done it already. we dont need to see the plot shaped around boruto vs sarada because it’s already been done, but honestly, i don’t believe that at all. from what i’ve seen, boruto is practically a carbon copy of naruto in looks, personality, and ability (with the exception of some added brattiness), and the same can be said for a lot of the kids (cho cho, shikadai, probably more). so if the kids are already emulating their parents already to a t (not to mention they are copies of their FATHERS, not their mothers), i dont see why the same can’t be done with sasuke and sarada in terms of ability. im gonna move on from the kids copying their parents because again, as someone who is not an actual watcher, i could definitely be wrong about some stuff here.

so now, instead of developing sarada’s character, they have to introduce kawaki (a boy) to be boruto’s foil. kawaki is now meant to be the character to challenge boruto. kawaki is now meant to be the only person who can parallel boruto in strength. kawaki is the rival/best friend.

and where does that leave sarada? crying and pleading for sasuke to save boruto.

sarada doesn’t have to be sasuke. thats not what im saying. i actually don’t want that at all. i want her to be her own person with her own dreams. i want her to reach the incredible amount of potential she has as a ninja. due to her lineage, she has the ability to not only become the strongest kunoichi, but one of the strongest ninja in the verse. she’s an uchiha with monster strength like her mother, and i don’t see why she wouldn’t be able to unlock the 100 healings either. genetics aside, she is smart and deeply determined. sarada does not have to be her parents, but if all of the other kids are already doing it, then there is NO good reason for sarada not to be one of the strongest, if not THE strongest ninja of the new gen.

i’m sorry but it is just SO sad to see. i can’t even be happy for her unlocking her mangekyou sharingan because i DOUBT its power will ever come anywhere CLOSE to the level of any of the previous uchihas thanks to kishimoto’s blatant misogyny.

also, her outfit in the manga. i don’t really know how much kishimoto has to do with this but come on. be better. she is a NINJA.

sarada is such an interesting character and her potential is being wasted with each passing moment.

k thats it bye!!! <3

[fmdmichelle]

♡ 𝐇𝐈, 𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐘𝐎𝐍𝐄 !!  first of all, i hope the new year has been treating everyone well ! on a personal level, it’s been a little chaotic for me ( despite thinking everything would be so magically different in my life after the blur that was november to january 🤣 ), but i’m hopeful i can get my act together to be a better, and more active, member of this space with all of you. having been in famed for so long, it makes me sad that i haven’t put in as much of an effort to write with everyone here as i should, and going forward, it’s a genuine goal of mine to try and turn things around, and i want to extend an apology to anyone i’ve ghosted, or haven’t replied to, or followed-up with in regards to plotting, etc. it’s never my intention to do so, and i hope that i can prove to all of you through actions that i want to be better about consistency in all things famed-related ! so, if you’ll have me, my first step is pouring more love into michelle ( with jake & rioh to follow, of course ) ! with that said, i’d adore to get some new threads going and more plots brewing, and below the cut will be more info if you’re interested ! ♡

𝐍𝐎𝐓𝐄,

in regards to plotting, i prefer to brainstorm specific ideas that suit the muses at play; i feel like i’m much better at that than coming up with open plot-lines to be viewed and taken. however, if you have any wanted connections or plots that you want filled for your muses, i’d be more than happy to look through them ! i love doing that, too, so don’t hesitate to let me know if you have stuff up for grabs. 🥰 oh, and i have a discord i can give out, too. i tend to prefer plotting there as it’s easier for me to keep track of, but i’m happy either way !

𝐂𝐔𝐑𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐋𝐘...

michelle is in a rather confused state at the moment. in doing more of a deep dive on her off-dash, i’ve come to discover that she’s at a huge crossroads with her career right now. while she’s appreciative of all that she’s been able to accomplish in korea as a pop act, the façade of having to be an idol is weighing heavily on her shoulders. having been in the game for over a decade now, she’s becoming really bored of the same ol’ same. in her heart of hearts, she wants to transition into being known as an independent singer-songwriter; a talent that’s somehow been hiding behind the veneer of lily’s “michelle” for all this time. however, that comes with its own complications because she’s signed yet another contract with bc entertainment that she’s riding out, and she’s trying to figure out the best way to go about making this vision she has come true without rocking the boat too much. slow and steady wins the race, as she says.

on a positive note, this conflicting time period ( as well as other more personal life events ) has given her a dramatic boost in creativity. now more than ever, she’s been at her piano writing so much music. her heart is so full of emotions and her mind is, like, overwhelmingly loaded with ideas that the only way to rid of some of that weight on her shoulders is to purge them through song. over the last few years, she’s been finding her own sound as an independent artist, and she feels as though she’s developed it a lot in ways that she’s really confident in. in fact, she’s submitted her own piece to be used for the fm202.3 march release. it’ll be this anthem, if anyone’s curious !

throughout the last maybe like, six-months-to-a-year, she’s realized that she’s become really self-isolated from people and she’s wanting to not be anymore. after a lengthy phone call home with her uncle, she’s feeling the push to get out more, and connect with friends, and make new friends, or kiss girls and guys, and just... have a little more fun. she’s definitely more the type that prioritizes work over anything else, and that’s often to her detriment, but she’s forcing herself to leave her home for more than just work obligations now. i also know there are plenty of people in the industry she either wants to reconnect with, or get to know more, so there’s openings for plot ideas !

she also would adore to collab creatively with someone right now omg ! like, she’s feeling so fueled with ideas and wants to like, share them with people she trusts, or even people that she looks up to in order to hear their thoughts, or to learn from them if they’re more seasoned in the solo realm. that, and as someone who always wants to learn and improve ( total virgo in that sense ), i think she’d even enjoy getting in touch with the other singers to nerd out about vocal pedagogy and music theory in general. she misses doing that with her vocal coach back home in hell’s kitchen.

while it’s not a totally formulated thought or idea yet, she’s sort of interested in doing some musical acting. mostly because it reminds her of new york and seeing broadway shows from the seats all the way in the back of the theatre that one of her uncle’s friends could snag her. a part of her thinks that being involved in a project like that would push her out of her comfort zone and re-inspire her in some ways, but she’s timid about it still. she wants to make sure she has the time and mental space to handle it before committing to a full run in a show. though, if she does want to go through with it, i’m thinking of giving her the role of roxie in the musical “chicago” as an option. 👀 it just... seems fitting and works.

𝐈𝐍 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐂𝐋𝐔𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍...

there’s so much more i could say, but i don’t wanna make this too obnoxiously long. if you’re down to brainstorm or plot something with me/michelle, please show me some love by liking this post or messaging me ! i’d love to hear from you, and i do promise to be on my shit ab replies to im’s. you’re all more than welcome to kick my ass if i slip, too. 😅

[please-picturemeintheweeds]

I get being confused by the achievement of someone being commited to you. Its' an achievement I'm sure but still society makes it weird. Feeling weird about it is fine.

Thank you for the validation! Yeah it’s super weird. I don’t really believe that it’s an achievement… but it is certainly a happy fact! I think it’s super easy to slip into considering engagement/marriage to be an accomplishment bc that’s the messaging we get all day every day, but if it’s an accomplishment then that means that Not Being Married/Engaged is a failure, which I really disagree with for a variety of reasons (and it harms both unmarried people and married people!). It’s just so confusing bc like!!! It did certainly take a lot of hard work and dedication to reach this stage with my person! And I want to honor and celebrate that! We worked hard! We’ve been through a lot and come out of all of it stronger! It’s so special and life-changing! I’m an entirely different person than I was when we met, and so is my partner! But I don’t think that we’ve reached a distinct point where Something Has Been Accomplished. The commitment part is interesting too bc like I don’t think that we were in any way uncommitted before we decided to get married, having lived together for 5 years already. Marriage, for us, is more about purposefully including our community in the commitment… it’s not just committing to each other, but committing to care for each others families as if they are our own. I mostly want to marry his mom and like show her that she will always have a place in my family! And the legal pieces - particularly this thing called Spousal Privilege which is where you cannot be subpeonaed to testify in court against your spouse (you can choose to but you can’t be compelled by the court) which has been on our minds due to the uh… political climate and planning for a future where some of our political beliefs/statements/actions could potentially come with serious consequences. Basically it’s where “partner in crime” comes from! Which is similar to the legal right to visit your spouse in the hospital.. just yeah, it’s a political right to marry, and I don’t want to squander that right just bc of second wave feminism… (the family/home is a worthless use of time and the only true fulfillment a woman can achieve is within the structures of capitalism as a working woman 🙄)

But yeah the way the whole thing is drenched in cultural norms and expectations is so icky and I wish I could just selectively experience the joy without the grossness but alas!! I still haven’t told my grandma and aunt yet. Which is bonkers!! But like… my aunt was engaged in the 80s when she was in college and my grandma was over the moon about it (I found some old family Christmas letters and read the one where my Grammy announced it to Everyone and it is… Gross) and then, Something Happened and my aunt had a psychiatric incident and the engagement was broken off. There were no family Christmas letters for a few years after that, and my aunt was in and out of psychiatric hospitals, moved back home, and has spent the rest of her life being berated by her family/town/church for Failing to marry. So like!! It’s just complicated! And social pressure is immense, even without those explicitly sexist messages. My mom, for example, would NEVER do anything like that to me, but!! She still went on a tirade the other day about how degrading it is for women to change their last names when they get married (I intend to take my partner’s maternal last name because their whole family is huge and welcoming and has a lot of history and are all bluegrass musicians whereas my last name doesn’t hold a lot of meaning to me and my brother will carry on the family name anyways) but like!!!! Mom!!! Wtf?!!??! Not everything is some sexism conspiracy theory! When uniting two families into one, it makes sense to condense some things! I am literally legally joining his family, which isn’t defined by name alone obvi but like it’s a part of it! And the whole point is freedom of choice! I can do whatever I want! Even if that sometimes is the Traditional thing! Grrrrrrrrrrrr

anyways yeah I think that processing all this stuff is the important part, and defining these things for ourselves is what matters. But thank you, anon, for the question, reassurance, and opportunity to journal a bit about it! 🫶

[strawberrytalia]

okie okie here we go!!!! 🐠 btw there is like BARELY a gap between all of them lol, they’re all beloved to me

1. ollie - IM SORRY i had to choose the white man, bc im so attached and connected with ollie more than any other mainstream hero. he resonates so deeply with me in a lot of ways, and i find his stories are often very engaging and interesting to think about (not you ga 2023). i feel like love is such an important aspect of him and what he fights for.

2. lian - i think about lian everyday im not even joking, she’s like a sibling to me atp. i think sooo much about how instead of dying, she could’ve spent all these years being loved and trying to be a hero just like her dad, and living up to ideals and aaaaaa, she was literally the one thing keeping me going with ga 2023, her having a cat motif is everything to me

3. connor - he IS so special for so many reasons, and i feel like he embodies the traits of a superhero in such a realistic way?? with his childhood anger issues, lack of father figure, his promise to his mom, and the way he steps up to take on the title of GA and continue on the legacy even after losing the father he’d just met eeeeeeee, i don’t talk abt him often bc like tbh content here is lacking and im lazy, but maybe ill change that.

4. roy - he’s lian’s father so on principle i gotta love him (IM KIDDING). roy is also soooo special and i partially love him out of spite because DC clearly seems to have a weird vendetta against him and his happiness. he is so loving, so strong, so accomplished, and so much more than what they label him as. i also love his really out-there personality, but he’s also VERY down to earth, and he’s just so aaaaaa <333. he’s not perfect but he tries his best, and he puts lian before everything and that makes my traumatized-by-father heart melt. and i HATE how ableist all of his weird jayr*y fans are as well as dc, it makes me wanna pull him out of the pages and gatekeep.

5. shado - free this woman from the racist writing AND her entire yakuza life!! she has SO MUCH potential bro, but aside from that, she’s so badass and i love her personality and i loved her og interactions with ollie, and im ngl it makes zero sense for her to forcibly want a baby from him when she KNOWS her lifestyle sucks and she’s trapped in it bc of intergenerational trauma herself, anyways shado deserves better fr

6. mia - I LOVE MIA. i really do!!! i find however that i’m more inclined to loving her when i don’t really interact with fandom posts about her. mia is so so so so <3. literally one of the first teenage girl characters i could connect with. her story is so horrible but she is such a bright light for me, and she is a joy to draw and write about. similarly to ollie, i think love is such a huge part of her! she’s kind of low tho, bc i find that a lot of her really loud fans never have anything to say about the arrowfam poc. like obviously it’s fine to stan mia, but it’s really telling to me when you make all your content about the skinny blonde white girl.

7. jade - her YJ version is in my kin list LMAO, and i need to read more of her comic appearances, but from what i’ve seen, she literally carries the arrow trademark of “pushes away from loved ones, doesn’t believe she has a happy ending” and that kills me so much. she is a really complex woman who’s suffered from racist writing, and i love that unlike talia and shado who are like more gentle souls, jade is a hardcore bitch lmfao. she loves roy and her daughter and some of the secret six, and that’s it.

8. cissie - it’s been a longggg time since i read cissie appearances, but i remember enough to know why i like her. her story of maternal abuse literally rips my heart out, i think her character background is so perfect, and her storyline with retiring was really well done (from what i remember). personality wise, she’s more of a girly girl and so am i lmaooo, so she’s quite relatable to me. i like that she wasn’t perfect and she had plenty of catty, jealous, moments to show bc like that’s so realistic for a girl raised to be #1 her whole entire life. i wish for cissie to have a girlfriend or three and live peacefully. and i’m a BIG fan of her being ollie’s kid bc that’s hilarious even if it isn’t realistic lol. she’s just low on here bc she’s not quite an arrowfam member on page, more like a separate party but yeah

9. emi - im sorry bby, i love you and all your potential but it’s marred quite a bit bc your backstory was a retcon, you replaced mia, and you haven’t gotten a chance to really shine outside of shitty writing in a long time. i think emi also has a lot of “edgy teen raised by villain” stereotypical traits given already to damian, so it’s a little hard to see her as a fully original character sometimes. the emi in my head is way cooler, more gnc, and has more personality other than “vaguely annoyed all the time.” emi also deserves way better than to just be the bitchy badass girl in that weird titans run. i would give her more friends besides them and expand more on her relationship with her mom (one of the things i do like). i still love her tho!!!

10. dinah - this is what’s gonna cancel me. i AM SORRY I LOVE DINAH SO MUCH but this is also another case of a character’s weird ass racist anti feminist writing ruins them for me. like the dinah in my head is AWESOME AND FLAWED AND TRYING. but canon dinah is like so intertwined with shitty ass performative feminism and being victim-blamey and abusive towards ollie that i like can’t handle it lmao. i think she’s a really complex woman if given justice and better writing with BOP and such, but yeah. bombshell dinah + movie dinah = best dinah ever imo.

11. sin - i love sin. this has nothing to do with sin as a child. but her story writing is so fucking racist and ooc for dinah lmfao, i’ve been pretending it never happened until the start of this year pretty much. i’m sure there’s a way to write around it, but if we keep it as is, i abhor everything about it pretty much. which SUCKS bc sin is so adorable and i loved her appearances. but again idk it felt weird to push dinah into that motherly role (already weird with mia lol), so idkkkk.

12. eddie - don’t get me wrong i love this man, he’s just not like part of the fam fam you know, and i need to rebuts on ga vol 2 soon, but just know: trashy cia person with shitty morals but trying to do good is one of the best character tropes. y’all call him a rat man, but you gotta actually stick by it. it’s more than him being gay for ollie (which he is), or more than being a dad to connor (also so true), give me him doing weird sketchy shit.

honorable mention to hal, who i’d place somewhere in the lower half bc he’s not a fave but he’s very enjoyable as an arrow and you can tell he loves them very much. moonday is also somewhere in the middle!!!

and uh i’m ngl sienna still doesn’t even have a last name, like i like her, i just don’t have much of an opinion lol.

what if i revealed my personal arrowfam rankings (not in skill, just how much i like them)

[elizabethsaige]

Academy Winner

Florence Pugh x Reader

Request: hii! i have a request for florencecould you do one where flo & reader go together to the oscars and everyones eyes are on them bc they both look gorgeous and theyre like the couple of the night, plus reader wins best actress in a leading role, so flo gets so emotional and proud of reader,also reader mentions flo in her acceptance speech

Word Count: 3,444

Warnings: mentions of anxiety

A/N: ahhhh i loved this request idea, i had to do it as soon as i got it! hope you enjoy!

*picture not mine

The night of the Oscars was finally here, after much anticipation. You were nominated for ‘Best Actress in a Leading Role’ alongside many big names like Kristen Stewart and Penelope Cruz. This was your first time at the Oscars, which was unbelievable to you and your friends and family. Your first lead role in a big movie and you are nominated for one of, if not, the biggest awards you could be nominated for as an actress. To say you were nervous was an understatement.

Florence was accompanying you tonight. Although she was invited to the Oscars, she would be arriving as your plus one. She had not been nominated for anything this time, but she was more than happy to come and support you during your big night.

She was so proud of you for the incredible job you did in your film “Conscious Spirit”, playing a woman who was on a journey to find her parents after they suddenly disappeared. Florence had been there for you through all of your success and failures as an up and coming actress, all leading up to this huge accomplishment. You were quick to say that you couldn’t have done it all without her help and advice as a seasoned actress, but she gave all the credit to you, as she knew how hard you worked for it.

Hair and makeup arrived at your hotel at 1pm, as both you and Florence were being done up by Flo’s creative glam team, as she puts it. Peter Lux was doing your hair and Alex Babsky was doing your makeup, making both of you look your best for the award show tonight.

Flo’s stylist, Rebecca Corbin-Murray was also joining today to style the two of you. You and Florence wanted to do a matching look for the night, as it was your first time coming to an award show as a couple. The two of you had announced your relationship to the world a few weeks prior and already, many people were anticipating your first appearance together to be at the Oscars.

Rebecca picked a stunning nude, almost pastel yellow dress for Florence, and for you, she chose a nude cutout suit, each of you wanting to go for a more subtle look for the evening.

After about an hour in the makeup and hair chair, Florence already finished getting all glam, you began feeling the nerves.

Sure, you had been to award shows before, but never one as big as the Oscars. Worries flooded your head as you thought about the worst case scenario about how the night would play out. Surely, something bad was bound to happen.

Florence noticed your face change, a look that you often got when you were overthinking. “Y/N?”

You snapped out of your thoughts as you looked at Flo, who was making her way over to you. She stood beside you, making sure not to get in Peter’s way as he finished up your hair. He chose a sleek bun, adding a few pieces to leave out in the front.

“Darling, is everything alright?” You nodded, reaching out to take Flo’s hand in yours. Holding her hand always calmed you down, as you were prone to anxiety.

“I’m just a bit nervous, that’s all,” you said, barely above a whisper. A deep exhale came from your nose as you tried to calm yourself, knowing if you didn’t do it now, a panic attack would soon follow.

Florence gave your hand a squeeze and gave you a small smile. “Hey, look at me.” Your eyes fluttered to her’s, causing the butterflies in your stomach to disappear.

“You’re going to do great, I promise. What’s got you so worried?” Tearing your eyes away from her’s, looking around at all the people in the room, everything started to feel real, and scary,  all of a sudden.

Florence followed your eyes and asked Peter if you could take a 5 minute break, as she guided you by the hand into the bathroom. You followed her in and took a seat on the toilet as she shut the door behind you. She came right to you, kneeling in front of you as she placed her hands on your thighs, looking up at you.

“Come on love, what’s the matter? Whatever it is, it’ll be okay,” Florence said, moving a piece of hair behind your ear. You swallowed the lump in your throat as tears welled up in your eyes.

“I feel so out of place, Flo. What if they made a mistake, I shouldn’t be nominated for this award,” you spilled out. “Everyones going to know that I don’t deserve it.”

Florence frowned listening to your words. No one believed more than her that you deserved this, if only you saw that yourself.

“Honey, why do you think that? Because it’s not true, you deserve it so much, it’s crazy. You’ve worked so hard for this, where’s this idea coming from?”

A few tears left your eyes, falling down your blush covered cheeks. Florence reached up to wipe them away, careful not to smudge the makeup off with them.

“I’m just so new at this and there are people who have worked for years trying to get an Oscar nomination, it almost feels like it was handed to me.” Florence pursed her lips together. She reached for your hands and placed a kiss on your knuckle, you following her every move with teary eyes. She guided you up and off the seat, leading you in front of the mirror. Turning your hips so you were looking at yourself in the mirror, Flo took the spot beside you, keeping her hand on your lower back.

Florence placed a soft kiss on your cheek, one that you leaned into. “Darling, I promise you that you deserve this nomination. You’ve worked hard and put in the work and now you’re being rewarded for it,” she said quietly, keeping her eyes on you through the mirror. “And who cares what other people think? You and I both know that whatever happens tonight, you are amazing at what you do, and you wouldn’t be up there with everyone else if other people didn’t see it too. Right?” She nudged your shoulder playfully, causing a small smile to form on your lips as you nodded.

“Right,” you whispered back, wiping the last of your tears. Flo turned you toward her as she brought your body closer to her before giving you a sweet kiss.

Turning you back to the mirror, she moved behind you and wrapped her arms around your waist and put her chin on your shoulder. “I want you to look in the mirror and repeat after me, love. Can you do that for me?” You nodded, eyes wide as you watched Flo speak.

Florence smiled before she spoke in your ear. “I am a hard worker.”

“I am a hard worker,” you repeated, placing your hands on her’s.

“I am loved and protected.”

“I am loved and protected.”

“I can do hard things with ease.”

“I can do hard things with ease.”

“Okay last one. No matter what happens tonight, I deserve everything good in my life,” Florence spoke, giving your waist a tight squeeze. You smiled, closing your eyes and taking the moment in before speaking.

“No matter what happens tonight, I deserve everything good in my life.”

Flo smiled at your words, giving your neck a quick peck before looking at you again. “Good girl. Feel any better?”

Your cheeks flushed red at the compliment. “Yes, thank you my love. I feel a lot better. I think I’m ready to go back out there.”

And with that, you and Florence made your way out of the bathroom to finish getting ready for your big night.

//

During the car ride to the award show, you held onto Flo’s hand as you watched out the window. As you got closer, you saw the waves of traffic on the streets, the majority of the cars being people coming home from work, but you wondered how many of them were people like you, going to the Oscars.

As you arrived, a security guard opened your door so you and Flo could get out of the car. Immediately, you saw the flashing lights of the paparazzi that followed you as you walked down to the beginning of the red carpet. Luckily, there wasn’t a line for you to have to wait to walk the carpet, so you and Florence got right up there, after telling the person with the whiteboard who you two were. The lady wrote your names on the whiteboard so the paparazzi knew whose names to yell as they begged the celebrities for a second of their time to snap a picture.

Moments like these overwhelm you, as the flashing lights and loud yells make you not be able to think, barely hearing the people next to you. You and Florence walked hand in hand down the carpet, getting pictures of you together and then some separate. By the time you two made it to the interview portion of the carpet, you were feeling the pressure, but with Florence there with you, it wasn’t so bad.

The first interview you did was with a well known reporter, Michelle, who had been to as many Academy Award shows as you can remember. You’d seen her on TV more times than you could count, so the second you saw her, you knew exactly who she was.

You made your way to her, embracing her in a hug once you got to her spot. Florence stayed behind you, watching you do your interview “Y/N, it’s so good to see you out here tonight! Congratulations on the nomination! How are you feeling?”

“I’m doing great, excited to be here tonight, thank you! How are you?” The two of you conversed for a few minutes, before you moved on to the next person, taking Flo’s hand back as you walked.

All around you, people were stopping you and Florence, congratulating you on your nomination, as well as the two of you for your official new couple status. Everyone there was head over heels for the two of you together, many of your favorite celebrities stopping you to say hello.

The last interview you had was with Emily Uribe, a TikToker who was invited to interview at the show. You had seen all of her videos and was so excited to be able to talk to her in person.

“Y/N, it is so great to finally meet you, how are you feeling being out here tonight for your first nomination?”

“Emily, I’ve been watching your TikToks for months now and trust me, I am the one who is more excited. But I’m doing great! I was a little nervous to come here, but I have a really great support system with me, so now I’m just excited!”

Emily smiled as you two spoke. “And I see you’ve brought your beautiful girlfriend, Florence, with you tonight. How has this whole experience been with her? This is your first event as an official couple, right?”

You nodded, reaching for Flo’s hand, signaling for her to come join you. Florence shyly walked up to you too, shaking Emily’s hand, greeting her with enthusiasm.

“Yes, this is our first event together, but we’ve actually been together for about 8 months. Florence has been the absolute best through everything today, I couldn’t be more happy to be able to spend my first Academy Award show with her,” you said, looking lovingly at Florence. She flashed you a smile back, wrapping her arm around your waist.

“That’s so cute, alright I’m officially jealous of your relationship. You two have got to be the couple of the night. I’m sure I’m not the only one that is excited to see you two together. Y/N, I wish you all the best tonight, and Florence, it was lovely to meet you. I hope you’re just as proud of Y/N as we all are.”

Florence nodded. “I am absolutely so proud of her, you can’t even imagine. She makes me proud every day. It was lovely to meet you too, Emily. Have a fun night tonight, okay?”

As you and Florence walked off and into the building, you pulled Florence aside and into a deep kiss. Your hands made your way up to her waist, gripping on to her as you pulled her into you, as she wrapped her arms around your neck.

“What was that for?” Florence asked, taken by surprise.

“For what you said back there, and for being the best girlfriend ever. I love you,” you replied, holding her close to you. She smiled her gorgeous smile and leaned back in for another kiss, before being interrupted by a security guard yelling for people to go into the room where the awards were being held. Grabbing Flo’s hand, you made your way inside, finding your seats.

You two were placed at a table with your publicist, Mark, along with Jacob Elordi, Elliot Page, and each of their respective plus ones and publicists. You had an aisle seat, which was great for you in case you had to escape due to anxiety, or just for some fresh air.

Shortly after taking your seats and chatting with everyone at the table, the awards began. Wanda Sykes, Regina Hall, and Amy Shumer were the hosts of the evening, so the three of them came out to begin the show.

Not long after the show began, the first round of winners were announced, first for Best Supporting Actress and Actor, leading with Best Costume Design.

As the time for your category got closer and closer, your nerves began to rise, palms sweating and legs bouncing. Florence noticed, of course, and closed a calming hand on your knee. She leaned in to whisper in your ear so you can hear her, “Baby, remember what we practiced in the mirror? You’ve got this, there's no need to be nervous.” Nodding, you interlocked your hand with hers, nerves floating away.

“Now, I gotta say, this next category is a tough one, ladies. I think out of the whole show, the fans are most excited to see who will take home the award for Best Actress in a Leading Role,” Amy said, loud from the stage. Your attention was brought up there as you heard your category, pulling your focus from the worrying thoughts to the stage.

“I think you’re right, Amy. Now, announcing the nominees for Best Actress in a Leading Role, we have Kristen Stewart in Spencer, Nicole Kidman in Being the Richardos, Penelope Cruz in Parallel Mothers, Olivia Coleman in The Lost Daughter, and newcomer, Y/N Y/L/N in Conscious Spirit,” Wanda announced, as the camera panned to each of the nominees, landing on you as the last one to be called. You smiled as the camera pointed at you, hoping the nerves weren’t obvious.

Silence after an applause came over the crowd as everyone looked up on stage, waiting for the winner to be called. Regina opened the envelope that held the name of the winner.

“And the winner of Best Actress in a Leading role is…Y/N Y/L/N!”

The round of applause erupted over the crowd, whistles and loud cheers brought you out of a gaze as you heard your name being called. You turned your head toward Florence, mouth wide open in shock, as she wrapped her arms around your neck, pulling you into a hug.

“Baby, you did it, you won!” Florence cheered loudly for you as you hopped out of your seat and made your way up to the stage, still in shock over hearing your name being called as the winner. Making your way up to the three ladies on stage, you gave each of them a quick hug before accepting your award and heading to the podium. Cheers from the crowd kept going as you stood up on stage, looking out to see people standing out of their seats, applauding for you.

You did it. You won. Confusion clouded your head while tears of joy filled your eyes as you looked out into the crowd to find Florence, who was beaming at you.

You could feel how proud she was of you, as she gave you two huge thumbs up. She was practically jumping on top of her chair, hoping you'd see how excited she was for you.

As the crowd settled, you cleared your throat before speaking into the mic, not prepared with a speech.

“Hi, um wow, this is…incredible. I don’t even know what to say, I think I’m still in shock so bear with me, please,” you laughed into the mic, wiping a few tears from your face. You heard a couple of stray laughs and cheers from the audience, making you smile brightly.

“Never in a million years did I ever expect this to happen tonight. If only you all could have seen me 4 hours earlier. I was a mess and doubtful of my abilities, I didn’t believe I even belonged to be here tonight, let alone nominated for this award,” you said, trying to calm your nerves as you spoke, praying you didn’t mess up. “But I have a very special person with me here today who helped me realize that there isn’t anything I can’t do, and that not only should I be proud of myself for this award, but I shouldn’t doubt myself because she has always believed in me.”

You caught a glimpse of Florence, who was wiping away tears from her own eyes as she blew a kiss to you. “I want to thank my agents and managers, as well as my cast and crew that I had the pleasure of working with for this movie. I also want to thank my family and friends who are supporting me from home. And thank you to everyone who has believed in me, because I wouldn’t be here without you. Lastly, I want to thank my girlfriend, Florence, for being the most kind hearted and supportive person. There are no words for how much I appreciate her, thank you for always being there for me and giving me the confidence to believe in myself. I couldn’t think of a better person to have by my side, I love you. Thank you everyone for this, you guys rock!”

A second wave of applause erupted from the audience as you made your way off the stage with your award in hand, waving to people as you walked down the stairs and went back to your seat. The second you got back, you wrapped Florence up in a big huge, who was crying real, big tears for you. “I’m so proud of you baby, I love you so much. I knew you could do it.”

The camera panned back to you, capturing the sweet moment of you two embracing, as you held her in your arms. “I love you so much, thank you for believing in me.”

As the award show was coming to an end, the night was barely just beginning. There were many afterparties to go to, but all you could think about was the event that just took place. You barely had time to wrap your mind around what had just happened, as you made your way to the car, award in hand, with your empty arm linked with Florence.

After the show, you two were heading back to the hotel just to change into a different look before heading back out to the Vanity Fair after party.

While in the car, you could feel Florence staring at you, as her hands lazily ran up and down your arm. “I can feel you staring at me.”

Flo smiled before leaning in to place a kiss on your cheek. “So what? You’re beautiful and I just can’t believe how lucky I am.” A blush rose to your cheeks as you looked into her eyes.

“I’m the lucky one. Thank you again, Florence. I really can’t believe I have the best girlfriend ever,” you said before leaning in for a kiss.

[sweet-holic]

You don't know how much the extra mission chapter of SpyxFamily (the date) mean to me....

He was completely on edge because his wife seems slightly upset. He even thought asking her menial tasks was too much of him to asked for (when actually it wasn't).

And it took him nothing to decided he had to cheer his wife up (although she actually was injured).

It means a lot to me because for the time I was married to my ex-husband he never considered going out of his way for me. As years passed and I found myself mentally and emotionally exhausted (I took complete care of our daughters in top of the house bc he would said they were girls so it was better if I attended them), and when I finally asked him for a little break or help or even and ooting as Anya would said, he would just shrugged and said someday the girls would grown and there was going to be free time, in reality he just doesn't like to being pull out of his own comfort or acknowledge someone else mental and emotional needs.

But my man came with 862 date ideas (in the night) just to make his fake wife feel better, just took him a glance to know she was not fine even if she said she was.

Saying he want to thank her for her hard work with something more on the practical and meaningful side.

And now I'm not saying here that words of gratitude and simple support aren't important, because they are but once in a while it's feels awesome to know someone will go out of his way and put so much though and effort in you, without you even having to asked for it.

It feels that way to me because everytime I asked for something he would make me feel as if I was being a huge annoyance or a load.

The fact that Twilight feel happy and accomplished just by seeing his wife happy and cheer melt my heart 💓. Yes Yor! You deserved to be spoiled and cared for my queen 👏🏻👏🏻

Sorry and thank you for coming to my rambling.

My apologies if it was too personal.

[lolita-lollipop]

Royal siren erasermic family? They like adopt you after you hatch from an egg bc they found you or something idk and take you back to the castle and make you their little princess or something cute and fluffy like that.

YANDERE SIREN ERASERMIC FAMILY X BABY PRINCESS READER

Shinso was just out and about, swimming through some forbidden areas he wasn’t supposed to be in, avoiding sharks, when he found an iridescent little ball under some rubble of a shipwreck, it made his gills tingle at the sweet aura that it emmited, he knew, that this creature, was something to protect. It was up until he saw something moving inside that he thought it was just some ancient treasure that would’ve died with this ship, he examined it closer, squinting his eyes, that’s when he realized, it was a Siren. A baby one at that, usually they hatched out of boring white eggs, the royal family’s were gold, but a shiny color changing white that combated the finest of jewels? Never, this little pip was special, he could feel it.

So he brought it back home, through his “balcony window”, debating wether or not he should tell his parents. As you know, he was somewhere where he was not supposed to be, and they would throw a fit. Then again, whatever this thing was, he couldn’t just keep it to himself, something was living inside it, and he wouldn’t know if something was wrong, so he has too. When he did, it came as a suprise that his parents weren’t mad, they jsut kindof stared at the orb, inhaling the addictive scent it gave off, the three huddled around it, aizawa carefully picking the Small thing up, it was only about the size of a pumpkin, extremely easy to pick up, yet he could still feel the heartbeat of a creature inside, it just had to be one of the sirenfolk , there isn’t any other explanation. He stared at it in confusion, noticing the small cracks staring to form.

Then a little hand popped through, and scared the shit out of all of them.

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As it turned out, you were in fact a siren, a rare subtype of them, thought to have gone extinct long, long ago. The opal-looking scales that littered your arms and tail showed proof of it, this species were intensely more fragile, and weaker, that’s why they went extinct, as they couldn’t hear, and a small crabs pinch could cause major bone breaks, they were just too weak, yet so beautiful. That’s why they were coveted among the royal family. It only helped their growing obsession taht you were so cute.

It might’ve been an act of I’mpulse, but they just needed to have you as their own, of course, their word is law, so they could’ve just kept you, but they felt the need to make it official, they’d already had two pips, you’re just their third! It was simple, of course, you specific species could be born into sirenfolk families, it was just so rare that it had only happened once. You were just so cute, so fragile, just something so breakable, they just

H a d

To protect this tiny lil thing, it was instinctual to feel a protective pull over their little pups, and boy were they feeling that right now, you were special, not just any baby, but you were theirs. Their special little pup, nothing would ever lay a hand on you, ever. It had only be a few days, and word spreads through the underwater kingdom like a wave, from the servant maid who showed them how to take care of you, to the head maid, to a citizen, to the fisher, and eventually, by the end of the week, the whole kingdom was eagerly waiting to get a glimpse of their new princess.

And boy were they shocked to find out it was an opalite, the most rare of rare sirens in the world. Immediately after they had shown you to the world, sitting in a large clam as it was pulled by sharks, the citizens fell in love with you, maybe it was the fact that you were related to their beloved royals, maybe because the royal family would intensely glare at anyone who made negative comments, maybe it was the fact that a few of those people went missing, but who knows right?

You still hadn’t been able to open your eyes yet, and you won’t be able to hear them for a very long time, your hands were about the size of aizawas eye, and you looked closer to a fish than a human, as you hadn’t even developed your face yet, another plus to being the endangered species, note the sarcasm. And guess what? They found it so adorable, just their cute little baby, their little pup who can’t even protect themselves from the water around them. They just loved every part of your little body, from your tails, to your tiny little hands, to your shiny gills. It was all just so perfect- you were so perfect, and you were theirs, they were gonna protect you at all costs.

So of course they did, you were just so tiny right now, they knows practically anything could hurt you, so they opted to be around you all the time, only leaving to hunt for humans that would suffice for their tastes, drawling them in, determined because of that little smile of yours. You motivated them to do it, they were doing this for you. It have them all a sense of pride to have you feel safe with them, to rite them you. On their own terms.

Eri was constantly around you, being that she was a young one just like you, and you were her little sister! So she wanted to always be around while you made those echoing gurgling noises, or flapped your hands around in the water, she didn’t have responsibility in the kingdom yet, unless being cute is a job, so she can be with you jsut as much as she wants. Always sitting with you while you played with the floating pearls that they had arranged over your play area, watching you feel new things, holding you while you dozed off with adorable little bubbles, she always was with you.

Like now, she’s been with you all day, giving you little snacks, glaring at the guards at the door who always had their eyes on you… creeps. The sun was almost setting, and when you’re low down in the ocean it goes pitch black after a little while, and that’s when the jellyfish come out, tonight was one of the most special days out of the year in the northern oceans, the jellyfish festival, the one night a year when the rare white jellyfish would come out to say hi, leaving trails of shimmering sparkle behind them, painting the upper levels of the ocean a shiny silver. It just so happened that it occurred on your first birthday, a very small increment to sirens, as they live almost a billion years, but still a big accomplishment in their eyes. Look! Their little baby girl is turning one! How amazing!

“Do you see them hon? Look, they’re just starting to appear” Aizawa asked both you and eri calmly, swishing his hand through the salty water to pint at the new appearance of white and purple blobs, slowly flouncing their way overhead. Eri smiled up at it, her pointed teeth displayed in full view, her eyes shined at the view, not only of the huge jellyfish, but also at you, who was placed delicately in mics lap, sat up against his chest. Little bubbles escaped your mouth as you blew raspberries into the water, just making the family laugh.

“Mm-hmmm! Look! Look! How pretty! I wanna touch em! Can I touch em!” She yelled at her parents, excitedly pointing towards the jelly’s floating towards the surface, her hair floated behind her as she swished around, shinsho just chuckled, knowing that she eventually would try to touch them, and get zapped, again, like last year, and the year before, and the year before.

“No hon. Don’t do that to us again, you wanna wish your sister a happy birthday? She’s probably really exited!” Mic cheered, distracting his daughter from touching the jellyfish, yet again, meanwhile, you were happily bouncing up and down on his lap, enjoying the freedom of your arms, swishing them all over the place, grabbing the beads around your neck, jsut anything.

“But dad! Why not! It’s not like it’s hurt me or anything I’ll be fi-“ she begged, throwing her hands up in a small tempter tantrum, clearly forgetting her previous events of pain, and idiocy.

“No- nope no no, we aren’t doing this again, please honey, just please, remember last time, we had to clean up your wounds OUTSIDE-of water, you hate going to the surface remember? “

“Yeah but-“ she started speaking, but was soon cut off with a loud giggle, resonating through your lips, kindof rare for you, you hadn’t been very vocal outside of a few gurgles here and there, so it had each and every ones heads turning. That’s when they saw it, your beautiful eyes, shin sing in reflection to the jellyfish. Those beautiful little eyes of yours mesmerized all of them, a pitch black (for protection from the salt), with a shiny silver-like pupal, immediately after they opened, a burst of color filled your vision. You giggled and clapped your hands together with a small toothless smile, watching as the floaty creates went overhead, glittering with the light.

The absolutely gorgeous splash above was admired by the family form their own viewing post, the blues and whites combined to make a heavenly display. You could feel the cool sprinkles of light they emmited hitting your skin, smiling at the feeling, you splayed your hands out and flailed them against the water.

“Ohhhhhh- oh wow. Honey! Honey look! Her eyes opened! Look at taht! Aren’t you just so magical! Look at you, my little pup.” Mic smacked Aizawa over the chest multiple times, pointing at your clearly opened eyes, you just remained oblivious, staring up at all the new things around you, like.. everything! He turned you around to face him, letting you actually see his face for the first time, taking in the long yellow hair, the (also) black eyes, the ethereal face dotted with shiny yellow gills, him, you could see him!

“She’s developing smoothly, I’m glad. Awww, that’s pretty cute.” Aizawa replied to him, holding in his emotions, as soon as he met those new eyes of yours it’s like everything else disappeared, like the world itself didn’t exist, outside of him, and his fmaily. You took his breath away, or what you could call breath, so cute and innocent, such a small thing, that brings so much joy. Your little tail swished back and forth as you stared up at them happily, taking in the features of the people you’d learned to recognize by touch. Blowing raspberries out of your lips with a stream of bubbles.

“Awwwww! I’m gonna cry, she’s growing so fast! Soon she’ll be swimming in her own! In like 200 years! Too soon, way too soon. Comers baby- mm hmmm” mic spoke, knowing full well that even if he did cry, his tears would get sucked in by the ocean. He pulled you close, moving your head I’ve this shoulde is it would rest in the crook of his neck while he hugged you, eventually, the others joined in, eri practically flopping ontop (with careful regard for you of course).

They all stared at you, while you stared up at the “sky”, oblivious to their stares, to the ways they would growl at anyone who came close, to how they kept you from seeing anyone other than what they personally approve. After all, you are jsut their little pup, of course you wouldn’t notice! Their little pup… feels right to say that, it isn’t like you have any family waiting, they aren’t ever gonna come here.

And if they ever did?

Then, well, a few mermaids are going missing

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Thanks for requesting, this was fun to write!

Have a great day today! Goodbye.

[theboookwitch]

Okay after episode 5-6 I have many more feelings. And they are complicated.

Firstly, I’m getting really stressed out with Ah Jeong. I’m not trying to put all the blame on her, but between her and Ji Han, she’s the only one with all of the information. Only she knows that Do Han is gay and only she knows about the marriage contract and only she knows about all the stuff that Ji Han is doing behind Do Han’s back. She fully knows that there could be huge consequences. She even mentioned in episode 3 or 4 about how reporters are probably following Do Han around. And yet, she’s still just going around doing literally whatever she wants. Like, it’s common kdrama knowledge that you can’t just openly stay at a hotel with a man you’re not married to ESPECIALLY a chaebol who is your fiancé’s brother. Also, Do Han is supposed to be her best friend. Where is the loyalty?! She ditched him for Ji Han literally so fast. She’s so worried about Ji Han’s feelings, but like isn’t showing any concern for Do Han when she knows what will happen if he’s outed. I realize Do Han wasn’t honest with her for like so many years, and if I was her I’d be pissed too, but if she was still angry, she should never have agreed to the contract marriage in the first place. Do Han gave her more than one chance to back out and she firmly said yes, but continues to do risky things constantly with zero thought for the consequences. At this point, she also knows that the psycho reporter who caused their mom’s death is out there and targeting them, but she hasn’t tried to be careful at all. She is presented as a street smart strong character, but she’s acting clueless and selfish and it’s driving me crazy. Once again, she could’ve said no to this whole thing.

Ji Han is like a bulldozer and was completely disregarding his brother’s feelings about taking over the company. Before the current episodes, he had such a one-track mind, and it was frustrating bc it’s like do you actually care about your brother or just your ambitions? And I get it - he had a shitty life and has always been pushed aside and has worked his ass off to prove himself, but his grandpa could care less (still want to know the grandpa’s motives in all of this…he’s definitely got something we don’t know going on). So, yeah, I understand Ji Han. And my heart broke when his eyes filled with tears when Do Han said he would cut him off. But he just needs to listen and not do whatever he wants.

Now, Do Han. I have such a place in my heart for him. I’ve seen a lot of opinions about how shitty he was to abandon Ji Han and run away to NY. Or how fucked up his words were when he said he’d cut his brother off. But like…I understand him the most. When you’re in an oppressive situation (especially being queer with homophobic family - and in his case a homophobic society), running away is literally the only way to survive. It may come off as selfish, but it’s often times a life or death choice. And it’s not easy. When I moved out of my home at 18, I felt so much guilt for leaving my little siblings to my mom, but it was the only option for me. I would’ve never been able to become who I am today. I genuinely would’ve probably ended my life if I stayed. And it still took me till I was 30 to come out. Do Han ran away for survival. Yes, he left his brother who had no one, and he probably felt guilty, but leaving was probably the only way. Maybe bc I’m queer, I am able to empathize with him so much more. HOWEVER. So much would be solved if he just talked to his brother. Coming out is so hard, but Ji Han loves Do Han so much and I really think he wouldn’t be pushing so hard if he knew. I think deep down, he wants Do Han to be happy and he thinks inheriting the company and being accepted by the grandfather would accomplish that (bc for him, that’s what happiness looks like). But if he knew Do Han was gay, he’d understand and probably even support/encourage him moving to NY. COMMUNICATION PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD.

This was entirely too long and mostly just me rambling and ranting, but I’ve never had such mixed feelings about a drama. I’m like so anxious but I can’t stop watching???

Would love to discuss this with anyone.

I really like Wedding Impossible but I’m just so anxious that Do Han is going to get outed in a super traumatic way. It’s stressing me out.

[scandalsavagefanfic]

Hello! I am a huge fan of ur writing. I've loved everything I've read of yours. I've read alot of what you've posted, except for a couple of the tags that are squicky for me (so I'm very thankful you tag very thoroughly). No judgement for the squick, it's just not for me. & when I'm having a bad day, I usually just go thru ur ao3 and find something to reread. I think about Therapy's Bruce & Jason every damn day. While I obvs appreciate ur darker more "problematic" content (I really vibe with some of the themes you write about bc of my own trauma, & so it's very cathartic to read about in a fictional setting), I am truly a sucker for ur more happy content. The Happily Ever After verse also lives in my head rent free. Idk more wholesome stuff just seems more special when you write it. Anyways. I would die for you. But the point of this ask is cause I'm curious as to why you don't like Urban Legends? I'm sorry if you already talked about it here or on twitter and I missed it. I was just wondering because I really enjoy your take on things and would love to hear why you dislike it. I've been enjoying it so far personally, but I am always open to DC comics criticism.

Aw thank you so much! I'm so flattered by everything you just said. You're so sweet ❤❤❤❤❤

I haven't talked about Urban Legends here or twitter (I haven't been very active in either place lately. Just a lot going on and no energy 😔) but I'm happy to do it here.

Before I start though, I just want to add a standard disclaimer and make it clear that if you like it, there's nothing wrong with that and you don't have to let me ruin it for you lol. Like what you like.

That said, since you asked...

I said this when I was talking about it on discord, that there is a difference between hope and expectation. I always hope that a new story centered on Jason (or anyone really, but things have been especially egregious for Jay for 15 years) will be good or at least treat the character with a minimal level of respect (to be honest, the bar is super fucking low). But my expectations always temper my hope, to keep it from getting unrealistic. Because my expectations are based on experience.

The long history of Jason Todd, since even before his resurrection, has been one of retroactively trying to make him "a bad seed" in order to absolve Bruce of any responsibility in his death.

I don't even expect DC or their writers to start honoring the fact that Jason was not an angry, reckless Robin (and less of the later than Dick or Tim and definitely Damian). There plenty of ways that retcon can be folded into his history and be compelling and sympathetic. And if they're going to stick with that retcon, I'm only asking that they do it in one of those compelling and sympathetic ways because Jason was 15 when he died, heroically, in one of the most selfless acts in comics, to save a woman who literally handed him over to be brutally murdered. He was 12 when Bruce plucked him off the streets, he'd been homeless and fending for himself for at least two years. I personally think that Jason's story hits harder for him and Bruce if their original, canon relationship, of Jason as starry-eyed and eager to learn and absolutely devoted to Bruce and Bruce to Jason, is preserved. But Jason's origins does leave room for a meaningful interpretation of him as angry and frustrated at the lack of meaningful results of Bruce's methods.

And that's really where my irritation at stories like Batman: Urban Legends, Cheer and Batman The Adventure Continues has it's roots.

Every time one of these stories comes out, I think (or hope, rather) that this will be the one that remembers and respects the origins of the Jason and the Red Hood, that takes into account the changed sensibilities of comics readers in the 30 years since Jason's death and the subtle, 20 year, retroactive campaign to make him the "bad Robin". The "born bad" trope is played out and literally no one likes the message it implies. That some kids are just bad eggs and there's nothing parents or the adults around them can do. Especially when it's played as the kid's fault. If Jason's time as Robin is going to be characterized by anger, then it should be rooted in anger at the social injustices he witnessed as he grew up in an impoverished, crime-ridden, area and the horrors he faced raising himself when every day was a battle for survival. There are topical, meaningful, stories to tell with that backdrop.

But those are never the stories we get.

⚠⚠ Spoilers for Batman: Urban Legends, Cheer ⚠⚠

I'm particularly disappointed in Urban Legends because for the first issue, it looked like that was the kind of story we were going to get. I was put off by the first flashback of Jason being mesmerized by Bruce's guns, and I got that feeling in my gut that it was a bad sign. Jason depicted as impatient and overconfident and the scene with the guns is heavy-handed foreshadowing that got my spidey-sense tingling. I had a inkling then (in the first three pages) of how this story was going to play out, but it was early and I could still see many narrative paths that could lead to a satisfying story. My concerns were soothed somewhat and the little flame of my hope fanned, with the flashback of Alfred scolding Bruce, with Barbara's concern for Jason. A bit of worry returned with the way Jason ruthlessly pursued an addict who didn't appear to be a dealer and with the ending of the issue. The stuff with the addict sat wrong with me but the ending was tempered some by how despicable Tyler's dad was written. The scene was clearly set so that the reader could sympathize with Jason's decision and the scene with the addict could be brushed aside as a side-effect of comics over-the-top need for constant action, so I still held hope.

Issue 2 made me uncomfortable and it's where my hope starts to take a backseat to my expectations. I can dismiss Jason's self-deprecating internal monologue as unreliable narration, except that the flashback reinforces his thought process to explicitly show that it's not unreliable narration, and should be taken at face value. Jason faces physical abuse at the hands of his mother's drug dealer and when the flashback continues later, Jason kills the drug dealer. To be clear, this is a pre-Bruce Jason. His mom is still alive. He's like... 10. He kills this guy for shoving his head into a wall and implying Jason's mother paid for her drugs with sex. This is a scene that serves a single purpose. To show that Jason has always been prone to violence.

In the spirit of full disclosure, there is the small chance the drug dealer might not be dead. But the story obviously wants the reader to think he is, and it hasn't done anything to change that yet.

Starlin already did this story with The Diplomat’s Son in 1988 and he did it infinitely better. AND that’s still technically canon. So now I’m supposed to believe that Jason lost his cool bad enough to kill two douche bags before his sweet 16? Like it’s totally normal for abused kids raised in poverty, who’ve led hard and heartbreaking lives to just... haul off and kill people? That’s bullshit, and when taken with the Jason in the third issue, who is little more than an idiot thug, this story is really doubling down on some fucked up stereotypes.

Which brings us to the most recent issue. I went into this installment with very low expectations. I thought this story was going to be about Jason, through this experience with Tyler, a young boy with a similar background to Jason's, coming to the realization that Bruce's way is the best way and that Bruce did his best by Jason.

That would be annoying (in no small part because it takes increasingly absurd levels of plot armor to keep Bruce's no kill rule relevant, let alone irrefutably right). But I can probably live with that, if only because maybe if Jason officially falls back into line with the Bats crusade, maybe I'll get stories that treat him with respect, stories that don't relegate him to comic relief, dumb brute, or a background body with no lines in a story about the Joker burning Gotham (like Jason would just fucking stand there quietly for that).

And that may still be where the story is going, Jason realizing Bruce is right.

But holy shit do I not have the right words to describe how fucking insulting and gross issue three is.

From start to finish--including the flashback--Jason is written as cruel and fucking stupid. Like straight up dumb.

The entire issue is Bruce explaining the fucking basics to Jason like it's his first day. And Jason flies off the fucking handle and terrorizes a doctor he knows isn't a part of making the Cheerdrops, beats the shit out of some random addicts, and finally, when he can't accomplish anything on his own because he's a dumb brute he calls Barbara for help and rushes in with no information where he's promptly incapacitated and must now wait to be rescued by Batman.

This panel is the least of the issues sins but I can’t screenshot the entire story but it’s representative of the tone for the whole issue (and retroactively tainted the prior two issues).

This is beyond insulting. The only conclusions Jason comes to in this issue are the ones Bruce leads him to by talking to him like he can’t make the simplest connections. And like... in this story Jason can’t make the simplest connections.

This (and the Jason throughout the entirety of this issue) is a far cry from the Jason we fell in love with in Under the Red Hood, who was competent and strategic and intelligent enough to seize control of Gotham’s underworld from Black Mask (who’s no fucking slouch, he’s the first and only person to unify organized crime in Gotham) AND elude and manipulate Bruce until the time and place of his choosing.

This is a far cry from even the Red Hood and the Outlaws Jason who is competent enough to fight the League of Shadows and Ra’s al Ghul (among very dangerous and skilled others) and smart enough to create antidotes for mind control nanotech viruses.

As he should be, by the way. Jason Todd is one of the best, most comprehensively trained fighters in DC’s stable of non powered vigilantes. He’s not irrational or hot headed. He’s pragmatic, tactically minded, and patient. He’s a detective. Right now. Has been since he was 12. Bruce doesn’t have to make him one because he already is. 

Jason is not a stupid thug who uses his fists because his brain doesn’t work. And I can’t tell you how so very exhausted I am by this narrative. 

This is actually the most egregious example of Jason’s skills and intelligence being not just undermined but dismissed entirely. Even Morrison’s Jason had some degree of competency. 

The one, single redeeming factor of this story is the art. It’s beautiful. And Marcus To is a godsend he seems to be one of only a couple of artists who remember that Jason was a child when he was Robin and I’m literally only buying this book because of him. 

Anyway, I’m sorry. I didn’t want that to come out so... um... passionately lol. I’m just very very tired. My intention with this isn’t to ruin it for you, if you like it, that’s fine. 

But this issue shot this story to the top of my "Vehemently Despise” list. 1) Batman: Urban Legends (Cheer), 2) Battle for the Cowl/Morrison’s Batman and Robin, 3) Batman The Adventure Continues.

I hope the next issues somehow salvage this dumpster fire. But I’m not expecting it.

(Damnit. That sounded harsh again. To reiterate, I’m not trying to judge anyone who enjoys it, I just personally hate it and you asked me why lol 😅)

[fairyoftbz]

spring tenderness | l. sangyeon

🌱 word count: 2.1k 🌱 pairing: dad!sangyeon x mom!reader 🌱 genre: tooth-rotting fluff, dad!au, very domestic! au 🌱 tw: mention of food, past pregnancies and breastfeeding 🌱 synopsis: just a cosy morning where you spend some time with your husband and your two boys, Hyungseo and Youngjae. (yes i took kevin and eric’s korean names, don’t ask) 🌱 a/n: i’m not used to write this kind of au but it was so soft and domestic, i’m pretty sure that sangyeon will be a good dad one day 🥺🥺💖 i’m tagging @staywithmoon bc you wanted to read it and i can only thank you for that bub! <33

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You smiled when childish laughter erupted from the garden, the sound warming your heart at your son's joy. The curtains in the children's bedroom filtered the sunlight, generating a subdued and colourful atmosphere. Your son was in a deep sleep, his tiny shut fists resting delicately at the sides of his head, his pacifier moving to the rhythm of his breathing. With the back of your finger, you tenderly stroke his cheek, a joyful smile on your lips.

You sighed lightly, remembering your husband's reaction the day you announced the good news. When you first learned that you were going to be a mother, you weren't sure what to think. Sangyeon's potential bad reaction terrified you, having no idea how well he was going to take this news. The weight had come off your shoulders as he fell to his knees in front of you, eyes sparkling with happiness and excitement, you knew you wanted to live this experience with your boyfriend by your side.

Three years have passed since that wonderful event, and it's safe to say you've never been happier. A beautiful, healthy little boy had joined your pair, and Sangyeon had become an overprotective father, always ready and prepared to take care of his son by relying on the many readings and Internet researches that he had completed during your pregnancy. While you were feeding your son or resting, he would transform into a man-of-all-work and help around the house. It took a huge weight off your shoulders, just like when he woke up instead of you to soothe your child who was struggling to sleep through the night, allowing you to sleep and recharge your batteries. Your husband made a great daddy and loved you and your son to death, showering you both with unconditional love.

You announced your second pregnancy on his birthday, a few weeks after returning from your honeymoon. You stumbled across a video in which a woman was giving her husband baby clothes for his birthday on social media, and you decided that it was a creative idea and did the same.

During all these years of living together and this new experience as parents, Sangyeon had decided that you were the one with whom he wanted to settle in and share his life, proposing to you two years after your son's birth. The preparation for this fabulous event had brought you together a lot, and your skills in relationship communication had evolved exponentially.

Here you are now in a life of four, living in a house with a dog and a garden, a place your oldest son loved almost more than his bedroom and his toys. He spent most of his time there when the weather was nice and warm, having fun playing soccer with his father. He also loved making angels when the snow was in abundance, the smile that radiated on his face filled you with the greatest happiness in the world.

Taking your new born son in your arms, you rocked him gently against you, feeling his warm body all wrapped up in his pyjamas against your chest. He struggled to open his eyes and let his dummy fall against his chest. He was so cute that you couldn't suppress a smile, your son returning almost instantly the second his eyes met yours. The big brown orbs he got from his father held a lot of love, and his little feet wriggled in excitement when you kissed his forehead.

"Did you sleep well, my little angel?" Your thumb stroked his cheek, and he continued to gaze at you in awe, your heart softening with tenderness as he let out a gurgle to answer. Gently fixing his position in your arms as his cheek rolled against your chest, his eyes still misted with sleep bored into yours as he slowly emerged from his slumber.

Opening the patio door to the balcony, you tightened your cardigan around yourself as a light wind blew, creating a slight chill in the comforting morning heat of late spring. Your eldest son was chasing a foam ball, your husband standing in front of the miniature goal that reached his thigh, purposefully missing the ball for your son to score.

"Goaaaaaaaal!" Your other son threw his little arms in the air and ran around the garden, your dog following him with his tail wagging. Sangyeon shrugged but smiled, amused by your son's attitude and enthusiasm. You smiled too from your spot on the balcony, gently cradling your other son in your arms. "Good job, Hyungseo!" Your husband looked around the living room for a short moment, looking for you, but he gave you a smile you couldn't imagine brighter when he noticed you up there, congratulating your son for his accomplishment, but the latter didn't hear you.

Once he finally stopped, breathless, Sangyeon walked over to him while chuckling, bending down to be at the same level with him. You watched your husband whisper something into your son's ear, who almost immediately looked up at you. You gave him a little wave with a smile, and he came running up, locating himself just below the balcony, a huge smile on his face.

"Hi Mom! Hi Youngjae!" He moved his small hands from side to side, and you gave him a flying kiss, Sangyeon lifting him from behind to settle him on his shoulders. He laughed as he kept waving, sending him a playful wink in return as you couldn't reach him. 

Your husband grabbed Hyungseo's hands and started running around the garden, still with him on his shoulders, a crystal-clear laugh falling from their lips as they were brimming with energy already so early in the morning. You walked down to the garden, and they stopped when they saw you, Hyungseo touching the ground again. He ran to you as you sat in a lounge chair, watching his younger brother with attentive eyes.

"Are you going to feed him, Mommy?" He asked, and you nodded, making sure your new born was comfortably positioned in your arms. "Come on Hyungseo, let's go make some bread and jam, hm? Youngjae needs to be calm to eat. We can come back to them as soon as we prepared breakfast, okay?" Your husband explained to your child, whose face immediately lit up at the mention of food. “Yesssss!" Your son exclaimed and clapped his tiny hands, Sangyeon gently pushing him inside the house. You looked up smiling, closing your eyes for a quick second as he kissed your lips. "I'll be back in 5 minutes," his hand came to cradle your cheek, and you nodded, enjoying the tender gesture.He kissed your forehead before striding towards the kitchen, closing the sliding door behind him.

You took the opportunity to breastfeed your son, who had his tiny hand resting against your chest, trying to cling onto his food source as your two other boys bustled about and laughed in the kitchen. Your thumb stroked his chubby cheek and you beamed, the tightness you felt in your breast from the milk not being able to compete with the happiness that bloomed in your heart.

"Here you go Mommy," your son's frail voice reached your ears again as your gaze stared into space for a brief moment out of exhaustion, your hand still against your child's face. Hyungseo was holding a tall glass of juice with his two hands, Sangyeon appearing again, balancing three plates in his hands. He put two on his side and one at the other end of the table where Hyungseo usually sat. You kissed your son on the forehead as a thank you and took a few sips, feeling the sweet, pulpy liquid run down your neck and quench your thirst.

"Breakfast served for the best mom in the world," he handed you a plate with two slices of toasted bread spread with butter and honey cut into small squares, smiling at the fact that he had thought about you and your health. "Thank you very much honey," he kissed the top of your head and watched for a few moments Youngjae in your arms as he suckled quietly, his finger caressing his tiny, plump arm. "He's just as handsome as his mother," Sangyeon muttered before looking up at you, a tender smile on his face. You kissed him again, this time on the cheek, your heart going fuzzy at the notable sweetness and sincerity behind his words. 

Your husband sat down with Hyungseo and began to enjoy breakfast, chatting and exchanging looks with great affection. You had never been so complete, and you could only thank life for making your path cross with Sangyeon's. He gave you a wink and quickly wiped off the chocolate spread that decorated the corner of your son's mouth with his finger before bringing it to his own mouth, the latter asking a lot of questions about his little brother and his health. 

He was indeed going through the phase when curiosity was the only thing on his mind, your husband sometimes losing patience as your son wondered about anything and everything. Fortunately, he hadn't yet been amazed at how he and his little brother were created and brought into the world, but it won't be long in coming.

"Mommy! Are you coming to play with Daddy and me?" Hyungseo ran to the rocking chair in which you always fed Youngjae, your eldest child stroking his little brother's skull with his hand. "No Hyungseo, leave Mommy alone, she needs some rest. Nourishing a child can get pretty exhausting for your mother, but she will come and play soon," Sangyeon explained as he carried the plates to the kitchen, his body in the glass doorway. He nodded to his son to follow him, and he obeyed, a sad pout decorating his lips. "Honey, I'll come and play with you after I put Youngjae to bed for a nap, okay?" Sorrow left your son's eyes almost immediately, beaming as he heard his father call him from the kitchen. "Come on, go help Daddy with the dishes. Mommy promises to take care of you as soon as possible," he trotted back to your chair and pressed his lips on your cheek in a slobbery kiss before running to the kitchen. 

You chuckled through your nose when you heard Sangyeon scold him for running around barefoot before shifting your attention back to your son, who was looking at you with a lot of admiration in the eyes. Giving him a lovely smile, your thumb came to caress his cheek again, a wave of relief flooding your chest as he finally let go of your breast. After you burped him, you were about to go upstairs to change his diapers, but Sangyeon emerged from the kitchen right at the same time, smiling at the sight of you cradling your son on your shoulder.

"It's okay, I'll take care of it," he winked at you before taking his son from your arms and kissing him on the forehead, Hyungseo walking up to you to hug you, his little arms struggling to wrap themselves around your thighs. "Come on, Hyungseo, let's brush our teeth and then we'll play, okay?" He nodded, still leaning against you, and you took his hand, leading him to the second floor, following the same path your husband had taken a few seconds ago. 

Being the big boy he wanted to be and in a hurry to get back to playing with his foam ball, your oldest awkwardly brushed his teeth on his own, putting toothpaste all over his face and fingers. You lowered yourself to his level and showed him the right movements he needed to do to brush his teeth properly. Sangyeon was in the corner of the room, a smile on his lips as he changed your son's diapers, moved by the attention you paid to your children's education. He gently wiped Youngjae clean and tickled his belly once he was done clipping the press studs of his bodysuit, your son immediately giggling at his father.

"Everything's good, you can go back to play, but don't run down the stairs," you ruffled your son's hair with a tender hand, Hyungseo dashing outside the bathroom. You were about to raise your voice, but you listened to him go down the stairs one by one with a content smile, satisfied that he obeyed you. "Thank you," you mumbled, wanting to take your son off the baby-changing table, but Sangyeon was quicker.

"You already carry him all day, let me relieved your back and take care of him," you rested his head on his shoulder as he hugged your son, feeling a hand cling to your cheek, making you laugh as Youngjae also wanted to participate in this moment of tenderness. "Come on, let's go downstairs before our other one gets all jealous," you chuckled before kissing your son then husband, letting him grab some sunglasses and a little hat for your son. 

Grazing the railing with your fingertips, you sighed with ease, feeling loved and cared for by the three men who lived in your house. You used to have many doubts and insecurities about motherhood, but your husband's help and support had erased them all. You were happy to be a mom, and nothing could change that.

[handdrawnfantasma]

OKAY it’s almost 1am and i’ve been yelling at kite on discord for long enough, time to commit my thoughts on 13′s final episode to my tumblog. spoilers under the readmore, obvs

okay so first things first let’s get this out of the way: i genuinely LOVED it. like is it in my “these episodes really Hit Different” tier or my “shiny gold star” tier, no, but it is SOLIDLY in my “loved it” tier. i just. it was so much FUN! it was so JOYFUL! i’m so happy that 13 got to go out on this kind of note and i’m so glad that her regen episode was just. a FUN ride.

like tbh nothing about this episode went as i expected it to go but i am actually okay with that! i could definitely think of a few ways that this final special could have been linked in more with like, the wider overarching themes or narrative threads of the era, but the more i think about it the more i am okay with the fact that while a handful of the themes were carried through, there wasn’t really a huge link back to like, say, the Timeless Child storyline. and really, there shouldn’t need to be! for me, i guess the main narrative thread of this era was wrapped up with Flux and with 13 coming to terms with what she’d learned about her past and what she still didn’t know, and choosing not to open the fobwatch and instead keep it safe and hidden because she came to the realisation that what Ryan said to her in s12 was right the whole time - whoever she was before, she HAS an identity right now and obsessing over the past rather than living in the present was destroying her and her loved ones. so like, for me the specials function mostly as an emotional coda for 13 and Yaz, and i was surprised to find i didn’t NEED any big links back. tbh i think the main thematic link Chibs was trying to make with this episode was his first-episode thesis statement of “honour who you’ve been and choose who you want to be next” and the themes of hope and connection so like, those were very much present

that being said, Chibs ABSOLUTELY managed to pull a great fake-out on me with that episode opener. like. the entire set-up with the child in the pod on the train and THEN the reveal that it was an eldritch glowy energy creature that instinctively takes a form that makes people want to protect it (A CHILD????) had me sitting there for the first 30-45 minutes of the special FULLY expecting this to take a turn where that turned into some sort of reveal of the Doctor’s original species or something. like i was there FULLY ready for glowy eldritch trueform Dr. in hindsight i’m glad that this is not where this went bc i think that would have done a disservice to some of the things the Timeless Child storyline was trying to accomplish, but i was FULLY ready to be on board and clowning with it. (i may still clown with it, purely bc its such an interesting concept to me as something to explore in fanworks, LMAO)

still so funny to me that Dan noped out in the first 15 minutes of the episode. man had THEE closest near-death experience and was sensibly like “nope i am not pushing my luck i am Outtie!!” honestly? ICONIC, love this for him. love that he still cites his TARDIS experience as something that has given him the strength to live his life on Earth as well. that said, STILL funny that he missed almost the entire adventure, absolute KING move. we stan

i hecking loved ALL the past Doctor cameos we got, holy shit! i wasn’t expecting any of them at all but the circumstances in which they showed up were ABSOLUTELY my jam??? the idea of vestiges of the Dr’s old personalities kicking about inside their thinkpan?? EXQUISITE. Eight refusing to manifest in robes bc he doesn’t do robes, the man the myth the LEGEND. i loved One being like “oh dang i guess this version of us is VERY strong-willed, just won’t die hm” like YES SHE IS!! YES SHE IS!! i also loved that Five and Seven got to have moments of closure with their old companions via 13′s adaptive AI hologram, those moments were so genuinely sweet and touching and i adored them. honestly i just. im so pleased for the 80s doctors and Eight, also. like, remember when it was the 50th anniversary and the only real look-in they got was a short clip of 8 regenerating into the War Dr and the Five-ish Doctors Reboot, which was a labour of love and comedy film mostly written by the three 80s doctors making light of the fact that they weren't going to be in the 50th?? and then it comes to this special and chibs is like. i am gonna write ALL of you into it. like, Six didn't need to be there!!! unlike Five and Seven, his companions did not feature (with the exception of Mel’s brief cameo in the Companion Support Group at the end)!! but he's there helping to bolster his future self and help her hold on to their existence anyway

i ammmm MANY thoughts head full about the conclusion of the spydoc storyline, like, the more i think about it the more absolutely JUICY things there are to find in here. like. lord. right until the end they were just perfect on the nose foils for each other. the Master becoming so unhappy and so sick and incapable of being himself and presumably still so bitter and depressed about being in the Doctor’s shadow and (he assumes) not having ever been her equal that he hatches a plot to steal the Doctor’s body and identity and completely erase her??? to become her in literally every way and then wreck her reputation??? VS Thirteen who has come to terms with what she does and doesn’t know about herself, and has come to the conclusion that actually she has LOVED being herself!!! the Master being so unable to let either one of them live that even while dying as a result of his own actions backfiring on him once again, crawls after Thirteen JUST to ensure that if he can’t be the Doctor, neither can she. VS Thirteen who wanted more time but gracefully accepts that she has to pass the torch of being the Doctor onto the next them and faces her death with a smile. i just. THEM. THEY. the Master being SO bitter vs the Doctor having seemingly let go of most of her bitterness towards him! (”WHAT a mind!” she says of his plan to LITERALLY STEAL HER BODY AND ERASE HER FROM EXISTENCE! “we used to be friends, once” she says sadly after these aforementioned plans have fallen apart.) i just. GOD. if you two had actually taken a moment to have an ACTUAL PROPER CONVERSATION at ANY POINT during these incarnations of yours y’all could probably have genuinely actually gotten along, but nooooooooooooooooooooooo

anyway this episode also fed me EXCEEDINGLY with regards to my ongoing doctor who theory of mirrors. like. LORD. the Yaz-Dhawan!Master-13 hall of mirrors in this episode was EXQUISITE. can’t believe that in the episode where we had the Master trying to literally, physically take the Doctor’s place in the universe and failing, we had Yaz spiritually embodying what it is to be the Doctor RIGHT at the moment when it seemed like the Doctor was gone forever. like. Yaz was so magnificent during this episode and i’m so PLEASED about this conclusion to her Doctorification plotline. she piloted the TARDIS on her OWN!! using the notes she made HERSELF during those 10 long months separated from 13 trying to get that other TARDIS to move!!! she made a plan with Vinder and saved Ace from crashing into the ground and moved people to where they needed to be and she SAVED the Doctor just by being herself. no destiny, no weird timey wimey bullshit, no special powers. just Yasmin Khan and her faith in herself and her faith in and love for the Doctor. the Master was really there trying to break Yaz’s faith in 13 and she was no-selling him every time. QUEEN.

also she got to bridal-carry an unconscious, injured 13 into the TARDIS and like honestly? stunning, beautiful, powerful, showstopping, incredible

very important point for me: 13 is 4 for 4 with getting companions back home, safe, ready to live the rest of their lives, being wiser and better people for their experiences travelling with her. like sorry but she is WINNING

also like. im still so emotional about 13′s ending. it was just so POSITIVE. the gratitude for having met and loved the people she did and experienced what she did with them?? “my hearts are full of love for you all”. also god. she LOVED being herself!!! the Doctor had an incarnation that LOVED being themself despite what she went through during all that!! i love this so much for her. i love that she got one last quiet moment with Yaz and got to see Yaz safe at home. i love that she got to tell her TARDIS to look after the next one. i love that she CHOSE the way she would meet her own end and she wanted to do it while seeing one last sunrise as herself. i just. she was at peace with herself and with the idea of leaving even if she WANTED more time as herself and tbh this is all i wanted for her from this episode. tbh i’m even only slightly Annoyed at having had to watch her turn into DT again instead of Ncuti and i FULLY expected to be frothingly angry and bitter about it, but the rest of the episode and the lead-up to the regen itself was just so JOYFUL that i am much less mad than expected

tl;dr will absolutely be bothering my parents again this week to steal their iPlayer access and watch this special again, and now i am FREE to write reams of Sunless AU fanfic with wild abandon

[kaaytea]

Can i request some cute reader!manager x Koushu headcanons? With reader being Miyuki's younger sister, who is one of the managers and in first year? Who is close with Koushu as they're each others crush?? Buuuuutts he invites him over for dinner at her place one day (probably during summer break so Miyuki can be there to? XD)

Buuuut like reader is quite insecure about her cookings cause she knows Koushu comes from a wealthy family?

Im sorry if this is to complicated ;;

Bsjdndkdnd an Okumura request! I have been waiting for this day 🤧 I'm sorry this took awhile to get out, I hope you enjoy!

Pt. 2 to this post

Okumura and Miyuki's sister

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When Okumura has a crush he literally doesn't know what to do with himself

He's not really a 'people person' so having a crush is uncharted territory for him

The only reason he befriended you was because you usually join the first year boys for dinner to work on homework

You noticed that Asada and Okumura were always the last to leave so you took it upon yourself to keep them company

Okumura wasn't really bothered by you, normally you just made friendly conversation with Asada but eventually you were able to coax him into your little conversations

Kinda feel like he wouldn't know you're Miyuki's little sister bc you introduced yourself using your given name rather than your sir name

(Having two Miyuki's on the team could get a little confusing so you just avoided the whole thing and used your given name)

So as far as Koushuu knows you're just a really nice manager who he seems to mesh well with

He would be sO intrigued by you if you drop all the knowledge you had on baseball, especially if it's about the Catchers position

And when he asks you where you learned all that you just

"My brother? Who else would have taught me..." 🤨🧐

It doesn't click and he's just like "Your brother seems very knowledgeable about the sport" 😭

Someone help him because when he learns who exactly this super smart brother is he kinda mentally shuts down

He's chilling on his bunk and you just come into the dorm and say, "Ni-san, can you help me with this math problem?"

AND THEN MIYUKI TURNS TO YOU AND IS LIKE YEAH SURE?!

LIKE WHAT?

The brother you were referring to is Miyuki?! Miyuki Kazuya? The one person at Seidou that aggravates Okumura the most?

Literally didn't see this coming at all. Lord help him when he finally realizes he has a crush on you, any time he interacts with Miyuki is even more of a dumpster fire than it originally was

Kinda soft but bc Koushuu has no idea how to handle crushes he goes to Seto to rant about not knowing what he's doing

Seto hasn't seen Koushuu act this awkward around him in a LONG time so he is vastly amused by these rants

"well she's seen you be hostile around her brother -AND that time you yelled at Sawamura-senpai, if she hasn't left by now things can't really get worse, right?"

".....You're not making me feel any better, Taku"

Seto's trying his best.....Mura is just a very prickly boy

Please he's like blunt and awkward but so incredibly precious 🤧

There was a day it was raining and he just shoved his jacket in your face

It's even funnier bc you had one of those mini umbrellas in your bag but here you are with his jacket draped over your shoulders bc you literally couldn't tell him no

You had asked Okumura if he wanted to meet up during break bc you were going to be bored out of your mind at home

He agreed bc hey, that's quality time he gets to spend with you which is hard to come by at a boarding school

It was hard to tell but Okumura was actually pretty excited to see you

Which kinda made him forget that there was a high chance he'd run into Miyuki

It dawned on him like halfway into his train ride.....let's just say his aura was showing a bit

He brightened up when he met up with you at the station near your house. You had this big smile and you were wearing a blouse that made your eyes pop

Mura felt like he was gonna melt from your happy smile and the cute sparkle in your eyes, there was just something about you that made his heart all fluttery

For most of the day the pair of you walked around the square near your house, dipping in and out of little shops

Okumura was just kinda following your lead but you wanted him to have fun too so you dragged him back to your home where you grabbed the two mitts you'd use to play catch with Kazuya

You could say you accomplished your mission in making sure he had fun as that was the first time you ever saw Okumura laugh

Well it was more of a mix between a huff and a laugh but it was cute none the less :))

You were honestly a bit worried about the dinner situation

Your cooking style was a bit more...humble compared to your brothers. Kazuya liked experimenting with spices and ingredients while you usually stuck to simpler recipes

Not to mention Mura didn't naturally have that big of an appetite

So you were kinda panicking because you wanted him to like the food but also not pressure him into eating it if he wasn't comfortable

And to top everything off Kazuya plopped himself down at the kitchen table claiming he was there to supervise

(He was actually there to make sure Okumura wasn't being handsy with you. Yes Mura was, for the most part, a good kid but Miyuki's older brother instincts were going haywire)

Poor Koushuu kept offering to help you, he was really just trying to not sit across from Miyuki the entire time

Normally Koushuu is able to stand his ground but this time he felt like a fish out of water. Miyuki was watching him and his interactions with you very carefully

You were honestly just trying to cook as fast as you could so you could give Kazuya food and then shove him out of the kitchen to get him away from Mura

The food was done and Kazuya was promptly kicked out of the kitchen by you

Now your last hurdle was Okumura and his weird eating habits

You gave him a smaller portion size than what's usually served at Seidou and he was SO grateful for that

He didn't want to offend you so he made sure to eat all the food (not that it would have been an issue bc he honestly really liked your cooking)

For the first since you met him Okumura actually looked happy while eating (which was a HUGE relief for you)

Mura is literally so sweet, he helped you clean the kitchen after you both finished eating🥺