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Happy Birthday to Ferdinand von Aegir!
I actually made 33 emotes, affectionately known as Aegirglyphics to some, for my own personal use on discord. However, I figure why not share some of them! They're free to use for discord servers/icons/pfps or whatever. However, my only request is Do NOT use them as subscriber emotes on Twitch. You can make them free follower emotes but you are not to make them locked behind a paywall.
#fe three houses#ferdinand von aegir#discord emotes#i thought long and hard about this bc idk the actual want for emotes i made ages ago but#i still love my son and its his bday ad so i should be nice and share#since i no longer have nitro and can no longer use them myself#the fact i can technically post 30 at once was tempting but#some of them arent living up to my standards and also just might not be easy to use in most contexts#so those im gonna skip on lol#whoever wants 21 aegirglyphics tho have at em#i think i might have posted some before? but only 10 and i dont recall which ones#if you want a secret the last three and the middle on the second row are my favorites to use#i used concernednand (the upper one) so much#the internet concerns me guys it was a valid use every time#debated sharing heartnand but honestly the world could benefit from it imo because gotta spread that love#fun lil trivia i love making emotes and so when i was in a server and people knew me as the ferdinand fan and artist#someone was like why hasnt salmon made a ferdinand emote yet#and im like bc i dont run the server and i cant just demand they add my art#and then a mod was like i didnt wanna put pressure on salmon but i thought about it so i was like bet#and then drew a server exclusive happy ferdinand emote#and that was the start of me somehow being able to have like.... ten emotes in that server#some of them were just me joking and then mods encouraging me#cause i used to use felix for every single art prompt theyd give and one week someone said the prompt was pog#and i just was so upset because dude why would i wanna draw felix for that hes not pog#so a mod was like hey if you make a pog felix emote we ill add it to the emotes here#so i once again was like bet and then posted it and then they really added it lmao#anyway sorry for so many rambles please feel free to use them on discord in whatever server#i cant really expect everyone to credit me but also im not really concerned since i fear people know my nands a mile away
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I'm told it's likely a side effect of the medication I (hopefully) only need to take for two more weeks, but fuck, I feel desperately miserable
#m#whining#ref notes#two weeks sounds like forever#yesterday I just skipped training arbitrarily for the first time in idk how long#if that goes on I think everything might go to shit#it serves some kind of essential anchoring role
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Okay so I finished Murtagh last night and I think I’m just going to put a lot of my slightly more coherent general thoughts here under a readmore. Spoilers ahead! Beware!
Right off the bat I want to bring us back to The Fork, The Witch, and The Worm. Not to Essie (although reliving that encounter from Murtagh’s perspective was EXQUISITE), but to Eragon, because the thing I love most about that story is that Eragon is glad to see his brother, even from afar, and is glad to see he’s alright, and hopes that Murtagh will one day join him at Mt. Arngor. We’ve talked recently on the blog about ill feelings and condemnation towards Murtagh during the war, especially on Eragon’s part, but the ending of The Fork makes it clear that—while I would love to see Eragon acknowledge and work through them—Eragon no longer holds those feelings, and in fact really wants the chance to reconnect with his brother and his friend, because he loved him like a brother before he even knew they were related, and after everything that’s happened, he loves him still—even if Murtagh is going to have some trouble believing or internalizing it.
And so I present the theme of this initial reading response: Murtagh is so, so loved, to an extent that he does not fully realize. He knows that Thorn loves him, obviously, but I believe it’s significant that—even though he has some Complicated™️ thoughts about Selena and harbors resentment towards her for, in his mind, choosing Eragon over himself—the memories of her that we actually get to see/“hear” (page 90 my beloved) are fully memories of Selena’s love for him. “…beautiful boy” anyone? “My strong boy?” That is her BABY and she LOVES HIM. Also, again, DESPITE HIS RESENTMENT, Selena’s love is the REASON HE KEEPS HIS SCAR! Scar lore alert! Scar lore alert! SELENA WAS THERE AND SHE’S THE ONE WHO HEALED HIM! (though I am still partial to thinking Brom was involved. I’ll write about that later it doesn’t matter right now)
(Also, on a bit of a lighter note, HIS HORSE TOY?????? Horse girl Murtagh CONFIRMED!!!! Little me would have been so jealous. …on a completely different note, I have woodworking connections and access to real horse hair. Hm. The Ideas.)
And then Tornac, son of Tereth, may your name live on forever. THE FIRST MEMORY WE GET OF TORNAC IS A HUG. THE FIRST TIME HE HUGS MURTAGH. MURTAGH HE LOVES YOU SO MUCH DO YOU KNOW??? I KNOW YOU KNOW A LITTLE BIT BUT DO YOU KNOW????? And the way he LEAPS to Murtagh’s defense when he falls in their escape, he REFUSES to let Murtagh languish in Urû’baen, that’s his BOY, his BEAUTIFUL STRONG BOY, that’s HIS SON, NO TAKE BACKSIES, MORZAN! He sees Murtagh’s darkness, yes, but more importantly he sees Murtagh’s goodness, and he knows Galbatorix will do everything in his power to destroy it, and that is something that Tornac simply cannot abide. You remember how I posted about Brom saying it’s easy to die for what you believe in, and then like ten pages later he dies for Eragon? Yeah. Yeah that one. That post. Do you see the point I’m making?
Tornac died for Murtagh. Selena did too, I’m pretty sure—it’s never been explicitly stated, in this book or the rest of the Cycle, but we know Selena was anxious to leave Carvahall as soon as Eragon was born, and that she died shortly after returning to Murtagh. I think Murtagh knows, on some level, but I also think that actually acknowledging it is going to break him just a little bit. Selena left Eragon and returned to him, presumably to spirit Murtagh to Carvahall as well, but she left too early. She wasn’t recovered. The real tragedy of this is that, if she’d left any later, she might truly have been too late—Morzan had been killed, and Murtagh would have been collected to Urû’baen before she reached him. Depending on how much she was coordinating with Brom, she might have known this, and made the choice to return to Murtagh anyway, because it was the easiest choice in the world. Eragon and Murtagh both believe that Selena left them. As Murtagh believes Selena chose Eragon over him, I’m pretty sure Eragon believes the inverse. In truth, Selena was trying to choose both of them, to save both of them. It’s a tragedy that she failed, but the most important thing about such a tragedy is that the love is there. It didn’t save them, not at first, not until much later, but the love is there and it matters because those are her babies, those are her sons, and she would gladly die for them. She did die for them. It was easy; she believed in them.
So yeah, I think eventually Eragon and Murtagh are gonna have a talk, and some revelations are going to be made, and a good long cry is going to be had all around. Catharsis! They need it!
But that’s not all! Murtagh is loved not only by the dead and the distant, but by the living and the near, too. Up to this point, the werecats we’ve met have been aloof, proud, intentionally distant. I always got the sense that Solembum likes Eragon and Saphira, but I don’t know that he would call them friends, even if Eragon and Saphira would, and he’s the most in-depth werecat we’ve met. But now we also have Carabel.
Carabel, who, from her position within Gil'ead, watches the people around them, and discerns their character: this is a skill I would say she has honed to near-perfection. When we meet her, she is desperate, though she hides it well. She sees Murtagh, and she measures his character, and what she sees is enough to make her take a chance on him, and she's right. Murtagh saves Silna, compromising his own principles to do so—swearing an oath he knows he'll have to break—and is so clearly relieved to see Silna safe with Carabel, despite the deceptions. We know, also, that Selena had been liked enough by Solembum for him to speak with her, and I wouldn't be surprised to discover that Selena was at least respected by werecats, if not outright known as a friend; it's possible that this, too, helped push Carabel to take a chance on Murtagh, though she makes no comment about it. Whatever the case, ultimately it is Murtagh's character that she gambles on, and Murtagh being simply who he is fulfills her hopes—not only in saving Silna, but his kindness towards her even when she was difficult, carrying her only when it was necessary and setting her on her own paws when he deemed it safe. Just in being himself, he earns love from two strangers, and the respect of an entire race.
(This echoes throughout the book, in all of Murtagh's interactions with children—he cares so much about kids. Not just as an abstract moral stance: he truly, genuinely cares for children on a deeply personal level. Essie in Ceunon; the two boys in Gil'ead he gives coins to, twice, and reprimanding their father for using them to pick marks; Silna; the children in Nal Gorgoth. In telling his story to Nasuada, he broke when he reached the children he slaughtered under Bachel's control.)
And Alín! Alín, who was raised to revere dragons, who cannot help but idolize Thorn. She is terrified of Murtagh, as a stranger and a strange man, but his connection to a dragon allows her to view him in another light. I can write so many essays about Alín, I'm probably going to, but here I'll just say this: despite her circumstances, despite how she was taught, despite how thoroughly she has been programmed by the cult of the Dreamers, the simple truth of Murtagh's compassion gave her the room to question, to think for herself, to ask herself if what she has been taught and raised to believe is truly right. Murtagh doesn't make the decision for her, he physically can't—it is Alín herself who finds the strength to break herself free, inspired by Murtagh, but not wholly because of him.
And in the dungeons of Nal Gorgoth, Murtagh meets Uvek, an Urgal shaman, and can I just say: I would kill and die for Uvek. He's got similarities to Murtagh that aren't discussed in plaintext, but are easy to draw: they both tried to be alone in the wild, thinking it would be better for them—different reasons, but they came to the same conclusion—but both have come to discover that they are better off in a pack. With friends. With brothers. With family. (As an aside, I really hope Uvek becomes one of the first Urgal riders.) I love the metaphor they share, about trust being a knife with a blade for a handle; and I love that once they decide to trust each other, they both jump in, feet first, 100% on board. That's always been Murtagh's method anyway (Eragon-era Murtagh my beloved, looking after this stupid dumb kid with his whole ass), and it is incredibly refreshing to see someone else with the exact same mindset throw their whole lot in with Murtagh. The gentle forehead bump! Uvek loves this crazy squishy Murtagh-man.
And finally, finally, Nasuada. The Guinevere to his Lancelot, and there's not even an Arthur for them to dance around, except for the Arthur of Public Opinion that would prefer to view Murtagh as dread Mordred. I couldn't keep from laughing, just a little bit, every time Murtagh was encouraged to/shown visions of taking the throne, because lol! Nah, you dumbasses, that's the love of his life for whom he broke his own shackles and turned on his tormentor and slave-master. The day he turns against her of his own volition is the day he is No Longer Murtagh. He keeps the newly-minted gold crown so that he can keep a piece of her with him—a coin!! A tiny little portrait!! An accurate tiny little portrait, to be sure, but one he'll soon be able to find in any decently full purse!! He may not want to admit it to himself, he may try to distance himself for her own good and the good of her rule, but he cannot truly deny his heart. As for Nasuada himself, she doesn't even hesitate to take him in—and she would have no reason to, having heard about Gil'ead, except that she knows him, she has seen his true being in a way only Thorn can relate to, and even in uncertainty she cannot believe evil of him. She's the one who reaches out to comfort him when he crumbles in telling his story, she supports him without a word when he struggles to stand, and she wants so badly for him to stay, Public Opinion be damned. She won't destroy what she's built, but she will move heaven and earth to be able to keep him near, for as long as he wishes to remain.
This whole book, really, was just a chorus screaming to Murtagh, "YOU ARE LOVED!! YOU ARE WORTHY OF LOVE AND YOU ARE LOVED!! IT IS THE LOVE THAT ENDS WARS, THAT DEFEATS FEAR, THAT PERSISTS IN THE FACE OF DEATH AND RUIN!! YOU ARE LOVED!!" And maybe he can't hear it yet, not with his ears, but his heart, eventually, might start to catch him up. And I absolutely cannot wait to see it.
#murtagh spoilers#one (1) aspect of my Many Many Thoughts on this wonderful beautiful brick of a book#anyway. i'm so glad we got to see murtagh be a dumbass. there were some eragon levels of dumbassery here.#'i don't have anger issues' sir yes you DO they're just not as bad as your father's#'i don't have anger issues' *proceeds to make decisions driven by righteous anger*#also HIGH KEY accidentally skipped a couple lines in lyreth's introduction and thought they were exes. whoops.#i mean they still could be. i might write that. we love a shitty ex in this series.#anyway this is far from all of my thoughts. i have so much to say about Alín. so much to say about thorn and his claustrophobia.#SO much to say about murtagh's thoughts on command and responsibility#i'm going to be here A Lot in the coming weeks#yeah i’ll do my nanowrimo goal today but first TWO THOUSAND WORDS ABOUT MURTAGH
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sharing one of my all-time fave poems totally not because I spent the last hour crying uncontrollably over graduating <3 LMAO
LISTEN I LOVE YOU JOY IS COMING!!!
Text version here.
#when rachel cries it's bad because rachel doesnt cry!!!!#you ever........ grieve for a location <3#it's not like I'm even obsessed with the city I live in rn but#a younger version of me was#and it's not like I even like my degree now#but a younger version of me did!!!!#not the impending future looming upon me lmao#my last class will likely be tuesday (likely because I might... skip some LMAO) so I'm just... in it#writing session at the starbucks turned into writing session at the library's coffee shop#which I used to go to every week to visit a friend in first year & I loved it#which then turned into writing in the student union building which might be one of the last times I ever go there#& my last week of classes ever starts tomorrow#umm not it coinciding with holy week um that's very lonancore of you university#I OBVIOUSLY live very far away from my uni city so I'll probably never come back here ever again#the autism is rlly autisming about this LOL#to everyone else graduating this month...#LISTEN I LOVE YOU JOY IS COMING
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how do you write scenes when you have no idea what the scene is going to be? readers be like "ooooooh i wonder what happens next!" bitch me too
#it's the smallest problem to have like my scene is such a throwaway at this point#but it's the bridge between two very important scenes with a lot of uncertainty and tension#it's like my imagination has a scratch in its disc and everything halts at this one point#i'd just skip it but i'm supposed to email my draft to a friend to peer read this week and i can't leave her hanging 😭😭#side note if anyone is interested in reading my first draft#(that i hope is going to turn into a butterfly but might actually just be a cheeto)#hmu i could use some outside feedback
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wip wednesday: some two-month-old excerpts from the Next Thing
#not really wips cause im not really working on em#finals will be done this time next week#i think posting this extra 50-70k of unnecessary redundant scenes might be my last top gun fandom act#but i have to finish them first#might see if any are complete enough to post on tumblr a la carte#but also every time i do that they break containment & reach ppl who don’t know about my extremely specific closeted-ice-verse#1. since i skipped over the first time they really fucked in the actual ao3 version#2. At ices retirement ceremony. february/late jan 2017.#3. honestly he deserves that.#pete maverick mitchell#tom iceman kazansky#icemav#top gun#top gun maverick#top gun fanfiction#some of these really did actually get cut from the first draft though#lots of fucks in this one. fuck off/fuck him/fuck you#local man encounters real homophobia for the first time
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OKAY I'm supposed to be getting my haircut on monday but I'm thinking. I skip it.
#this is scary for me!!!#i have had my haircut every six odd weeks basically since i cut it short.#I've been wanting to grow it out a bit for so long but I'm very scared because i know it is going to really bother me#but i need to just bute the bullet and deal with my hair being longer. otherwise my hair won't get longer.#idk!!!#feeling weird tonight anyway and mum made me doubt myself earlier so i think i just need some reassurance or something#and when i say grow my hair longer i mean literally like an inch.#i know this may not seem like a big deal but it is to me!#my hair is the longest it's been in years as it is so it is an adjustment for me.#the only reason I'm hesitant is because i know if it does bother me it is going to really bother me and i may perhaps be unbearable.#but I'm hoping that i will be able to push through?#idk!!! idk i just needed to get some thoughts out#I'm feeling really out of it and overwhelmed this evening#i might have to skip watch party idk. either way I'm gonna get upset about it so fuck me i guess
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good morning!! <33
#yay it's a sunday and that means sylus' new card is out :3#i'm excited#and it's also when we go get breakfast#so win-win :3#as for games... might put more focus into echoes than anything else (idk if that means playing before dinner or what but yeah)#but like i also skipped last night so i really need to make some progress lol#i have today (and tomorrow's) prompt already written#it's so much easier when i already have the f/o picked out ahead of time#like i have an idea on who i want to write tuesday's about as well and I'm tempted to get it done today#would be cool if i can get everything done in advance so i can like relax next week#but we'll see#anyways i hope today/tonight is good to you!! <33#morning rambles
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also uh im kind of not thinking about it much because its insane. but if everything goes right (and i mean a considerable amount of things that probably wont go as planned) but if they DO... i will have a major surgery in like two weeks
#vertical sleeve gastrectomy to be exact insert nerd emoji here#i might document a lot of whats going on with it and even take some videos honestly#not to share here other than some oversharing text posts about probably constipation LMAO#but like no one shares whats it like to be mentally ill and go thru vsg and like the process and not many people as young as me get it#feels weird calling myself young on the chronically 13 year old website#but anyone that does post about it posts for like a year and then falls off the face of the earth#genuinely there are so many youtubers that start talking about this stuff#then you find their channel three years deserted and its like man.#i sure hope this means you found better ways to spend your time#and like okay time to get sappy and corny as hell in the notes so go ahead and skip this part idk who even reads my notes hello#but basically everyones that gets this shit is like you gotta find your why#and most of them have kids or like a husband or plans to travel the world or do better at their job#and none of those things really apply to me#i kind of have the perfect storm for being fat#i dont do anything work wise that encourages any kind of movement#im chronically afraid of planes and i cant afford that shit anyways rn#also not very good at romance LOL and never want kids and my entire family is also fat barring my brother#thats not to absolve myself of any of the blame for this shit either like i know i put myself in this situation#i just think like wow my life is pretty much perfect for staying fat but i DONT WANT THAT#I want the highlight of my week to be more than eating takeout man#i want to live life instead of meal to meal to something better#idk what yet maybe jewelery piece to jewelery piece#i could do some serious kandi making while im down for the count#but i dunno man my therapist tells me that in order to feel like a person and not get tired of life i have to do people things and#participate in life yknow?#and its hard to do things like go to the gym talk to people explore fashion styles when i have this overloomingness of being fat#so i guess that could be my why? like i want to experience more of life#i want to be able to walk in a mall and look at all the stores. i want to walk in a mall period. cause it fucking hurts the way i am now#thats all to say the actual “why” that i have is Goddamn it i want to be able to jump from a swing#and not break my fucking ankles
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(playing hlm2) damn i forgot how much i fucking hate this game
#JOKING obviously but#man dead ahead on hard mode fucking blows#dead ahead in general fucking blows but half ammo capacity is killing my ass rn#but also. i want the S rank. so i'm gonna get the S rank. eventually. sigh#i might start skipping around honestly bc there r some hard lvls later on too but like. i could just start picking off the easier ones#this is technically my full 2 replay tho so i Wanted to try and go in order#idk we'll see#maybe i just need to rebuild the muscle memory; it's my first time opening the game in a few weeks#problem for later archie. i am going to bed. gn 👍🏼#the trash speaks
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i've decided i'm going to try my best to write 100 word drabbles for each day of jily week! i encourage you to join me if you can't fit in full fics for whatever reason, it'll be a fun challenge to keep to 100 words exactly & it's a lighter load than full fics!
#some of the prompts might require more nuance than 100 words can give me so i may skip some days#but a good starting point!#jily#jily week 2023#mine
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Someone please tell Me if aiming for 1 date a week when single is realistic
This book How Not To Die Alone gave such advice and while I realize where it's coming from good intentions in theory (making dating Hesitators who always feel they need to be more perfect before dating to just Go Date), i also frankly don't know how I'd meet 1 vaguely stable vaguely compatible person to ask out in a year let alone weekly.
#rant#like. if i were to meet the once a qeek quota right now?#id basically HAVE to ask out someone with nothing in common or whos in a poly relationship even tho#tyats not what im looking for (so the relationsgip would go nowhere and id waste both our time)#or with red flags (overt ones... which i simply refuse to do)#and then... if somehow i disregarded all boundaries and asked out virtually Anyone#and thats assuming ppl say yes. and i matxhed 10k people once and 1 single incompatible person said yes in a whole year.#well even IF it all worked out and i found one date a qeek.#im chronically ill and have gastroparesis. so SITTING hurts a lot and EATING food is not always possible for me#if i have a bad day i cant eat foods for a few days or week#and even on good days... one bad food choice can mean puking and pain and unable to eat for a WEEK following#so im scared of restaurant food a bit.#because even when i order very safely and barely eat. a restaurant might make a mistake and add food im allergic too#or forget to remove what i asked. or i didnt realize they used dairy in a salad dressing#and then im puking and bloated and in oain and starving for days :/#so like. a coffee date? a tea date? id be up for that. resonably safe its jyst flavored water.#but ANY restaurant or long movie (sitting) or something involving food and im quite scared i would be#very sick the remainder of the week.#and i have othef things to save my energy for vesides dates: WORK MEETINGS. work so i dont call in sick VOMITING.#my family wanting a nice dinner including some bread (and me reallt wanting the bread and to not have to skip dinner so i want to risk it)#my 2 times weekly PT where i cant call in sick and if im exhaustsd and vomiting and in intense pain PT is VERY hard.#my friends who (like dates) often wish to grab food. which as mentioned is always a huge risk and#i always sacrifice Getting to see friends i love with May Be Utterly fucked up for a week :c
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guys i really dont think i have it in me today.
#i am just so tired.#like im awake. and etc. but it's just like..#the week is neverending. everything is so much. my room is in shambles i barely feel like moving#i am. idk.#i might email my professor and just say like im so sorry im not making it again this week#and either fake being sick or just go into the mental health spiral idk#this class has a bunch of extra credit opportunities some of them asynchronous so i think i could make up for it#pretty easily. hate to keep setting the precedent of skipping#but my body still hurts from that day carrying around a lot of equipment. and i still have so many other things to do today#like i felt paralyzed upon waking up just thinking abt it#and this weekend will be busy like. UGH. idk#abby talks
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ok so, he's finished, im sick. im not gonna post him yet tho, i'll save him for when oc-tober starts so i can use him for one of the prompts.
#wip#tendebill art#tendebill ocs#personal#idk how i feel about the finished drawing yet#its hard to judge through the haze of having worked on it for like 2-3 hrs straight today#but i think i like it#anyway i have so many cool ideas for oc-tober prompts and im really hoping i can fill them :')))#side note im doing a prompt list i found on twitter#i might skip out on the palette week and the collab week#but im pumped to try and do all the others#also i only made three concept sketches for my diploma today#probably should have and could have made more#but depending on how i feel tomorrow i might have another day off lol#kinda hoping for that day off ngl#like im not saying im getting worse but i dont think i have the energy to re-enter society tomorrow#anyway#im gonna go draw some more stuff for oc-tober now
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I haven't been to therapy in two weeks because I was in LA last week and hoo boy my therapist is going to have a FIELD DAY
#might have to schedule an extra session tbh#i need some time to talk about my coworker who died#and the horrible and amazing shit that happened in LA#its just all soooo much#sometimes i think maybe one a week is too much and then i skip a week and im like oh#i am really mentally ill
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i need it to be next semester so bad because every day i spend the next 3 hours after english class recovering from the psychological damage i experienced (being flirted with & flirting BACK). except the thing is i actually have a class with her next semester too and not only that but my other friend who i’m in love with is also in that class. explodes & dies i suppose
#it’s genuinely so bad. i think i might#nvm i’m not typing that out. *** *** ****** * *********** ** ** ****** ** ********* ** *** *** ****#anyway#the worst part is it started as a JOKE because of the goddamn MEMOIR except when you jokingly flirt with someone for 2 months straight at#some point it becomes not a joke. and i think she might actually genuinely be into me which is INSANE (and like. as someone with severe#issues & problems disorder i would not make that claim lightly trust me) and like. idk what to do with it#.txt#fake ex gf#crushposting#<- the way these tags are about two different people. insane life i’m living rn#see at first it was like oh she’d date me just for fun which is fine bc i’d ALSO do that maybe yknow. but she might actually like me. and i#might possibly like HER. BUT LIKE. i really am truly in love with my other friend. like if he asked me out (which would not happen) i’d say#yes immediately. but if dani (fake ex gf/girl from english class) asked me out. WELL THAT’S HAPPENED BEFORE TECHNICALLY. well i’d uhhh.#flirt back and then we’d make plans to skip class to go out somewhere together next week while her leg was purposefully pressed against mine#ah fuck#BUT there’d be no clarity on whether it was a date or not. she’d just ask me to go somewhere in a really homoerotic way and i’d be like in#what way do you mean that and she’d be like oh? what way do you want want me to mean it and i’d shrug and we’d go on back and forth like#that for a bit without coming to a conclusion. and then we’d just go on with our lives and such#but like the thing is. if it came down to my friend/crush vs her. i’d choose my friend#AND IT’S HAPPENED BEFORE#like not directly but once i essentially had the choice of leaving school 5 mins early and walking home w/ her#OR leaving school 5 mins late and walking home with him. and i chose to walk home with him like it wasn’t even a contest#gf
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