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A Final Farewell
A short story about Death and Dream, set after the end of the comics. MAJOR comic spoilers for the canonical comic ending and what happens. This is pretty sad. But perhaps cathartic? Fair warning: I was a weeping mess whilst writing it, so maybe bear that in mind?
The way is long and hard. The baron lifeless landscape stretches to the horizon and beyond. The sky is a deep dark void. Starless, sunless, empty. You may wonder why you continue to trudge along the silent road into eternity, never truly knowing what lies ahead of you. But you are never alone. She walks beside you even now, never letting go of your hand. You do not fear her. You have known and loved her your entire life, and she has loved you just as long. The way is long and hard, but the sunless lands welcome you with open arms and a promise of eternal sleep in the dark.
Death sighs as she sinks her feet into the glittering sand of a sunless beach. Waves crash against the shore in a soothing melody that sings of peace, calm and contentment. a figure sits up ahead, gazing out towards the black ocean beyond. The wine-dark sea of ancient times that all beings dream of at some point, and all find themselves facing in the end. A sea that promises nothing within its depths but eternal blissful peace.
She sits beside him and catches a small smile on his lips. There is no light here, in her realm, but they can both see each other perfectly clearly.
âHello, my sister.â
Death smiles sadly. âTechnically, you canât call me that anymore.â
He hums to himself in contemplation.
âPerhaps not. But then again you visited me, and I have never known you as anything else. So my sister you shall still be whilst you are here.â
Death turns to look at him. He is relaxed, smiling, and less rigid than he ever was in life.
âI can accept that. My dear brother.â
Morpheus, for we can no longer refer to him as Dream, grins at her. It is an expression he rarely ever displayed in his long life. She supposes he truly is happy to be here, in her realm, among the dead.
âSo why are you here?â he asks her.
Death sighs. She doesnât even really know the answer to that herself. Whilst she may always be within her realm, guiding the souls of the recently deceased to their final resting place (she is doing so even now as she sits at his side), she never really lingers once she drops them off. Her being here in her former brothers eternal peacetime is somewhat out of character.
âPerhaps I missed you?â she answers finally.
âYou should not. Even now your brother sits on his throne, in his realm, watching over the dreamers. You should be there for him, at this difficult time.â
Death feels a tremble in her lip. She knows this. She does not need him to speak it.
âI will be there for him. As I was there for Despair. But you must know I was ever so fond of you, as you were, even at your most insufferable.â She nudges him gently and feels him sway and nudge her back. Morpheus was never a tactile creature, but he reaches for her now, and drapes a thin arm around her, pulling her into him. She goes willingly and sighs in his arms.
âDid you ever visit her?â He asks after a short silence.
She knows immediately who he refers to. The first Despair, whose death was violent, and sudden. âOnce.â She replies thoughtfully. Â âShe asked after you. She told me she was worried. That you appeared in her mirror. Even then, all that time ago.â
Morpheus nods solemnly. âI expected as much.â
She sits there for a while, in the cradle of his arms, listening to the distant waves in the dark. When she finally sits up she realises her face is wet with tears. Morpheus reaches out and wipes them from her cheek with his thumb.
âYou should not cry for me my sister. I am at peace.â
Death huffs out a small laugh. âEven I can suffer grief my brother.â She sobs.
He smiles sadly. âI would not see you distressed. But I am proud to have been loved by you.â
Morpheus leans forward, and kisses her brow. Then he lies back in the sand and closes his eyes.
âFarewell my sister. Go with my love, and look after Dream. He will need your guidance, and all the love you hold for me.â
She nods and stands up, shaking the glittering black sand off of her jeans. She turns away from Morpheus and wipes her eyes. When she looks back, he is gone.
Death takes in a deep breath and looks out again at the ocean, feeling the breeze in her hair, the sweet scent of salt and spray, and feels the weight of her grief deep within her. Grief, after all, is simply love in another form and she loved him so very much.
Even now she is everywhere, guiding the souls of the dying and dead, taking their hands and holding them through their pain. Even now she walks through her realm, and beyond, through the many worlds of the living across the universe, and she lets herself be soothed by all those lives that she has touched, who love her as she loves them. As always, she carries on.
#death of the endless#death appreciation week#dream of the endless#the sandman#sandman comic spoilers#my writing#sandman drabble#fanfiction#fanfics#I wrote this and burst into tears#and I haven't stopped crying yet#but I still wanted to write it anyway#I hope you like this? maybe like isn't the best word#But i hope it makes people feel something
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I have a question. How many of you BELIEVE in Glammike theory? To be honest, when I returned to the fandom, this became my favorite theory. Imagine what the plot twist would be if it turned out that all this time Glamrock Freddy was possessed by Michael, who was the protagonist in many parts of fnaf! And the most interesting thing is that this theory may well be true given the fact that the Mega Pizzaplex was built over a Freddy Fazbear's Pizza Place. It just dawned on me that by the words "my friends are here" Freddy most likely meant not glamrocks but animatronics from fnaf 6! And his phrase "I am not me" still leads me to confuse me...
Referring to this theory, I now all the time think that one of the reasons why Freddy helps Gregory is because he reminds him of his younger brother. I even had a theory that Gregory is the reincarnation of C.C.. (But that sounds a bit dumb to be honest. Or maybe not.Idk)
#fnaf#fnaf sb#fnaf security breach#fnaf 6#fnaf 6 pizza simulator#glamrock freddy#freddy#michael afton#glammike#glammike theory#fnaf gregory#gregory#fnaf crying child#fnaf theory#Now I'm even more sorry for Michael#after all judging by this theory his soul remained in the burned-out pizzeria for YEARS until a new one was built under it#updated#ok guys#please STOP writing me facts from the book#I haven't been able to read them yet.#And yes I know that there is A LOT of additional information about the game#but I hope you understand that unfortunately not everyone has the opportunity to read all the books#if you DO NOT believe in this theory then please do not write out a whole lecture about why you DO NOT believe in it#Since initially I asked in my post only those who BELIEVE in this theory#I hope you understand me đ
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one awesome fact about me is that if i dont agree with a rule i simply dont follow it. i am so stubborn and my family hates me for it â€ïžâ€ïž
#ever since ive started living with my mom she just keeps adding more and more shit i have to do and i think its stupid#so i don't listen đ„đ„#no food or drink in my room? i was allowed do to that before. kill yourself. you can't stop me#i have to sit at the uncomfortable ass dinner table with my awful fucking brothers? i HAVE to eat what you make#and im not allowed to get my own food because that's rude? kill yourself!! i just won't eat dinner. and i haven't been.#you found some fuckass thing of âfamily rulesâ at goodwill and now want me to follow it? no!!#YOU CAN'T MAKE ME DO THINGS I DONT WANT TO!!!!#i cant function with other people is it clear yet#everything has to be done my way or ill start crying because i dont understand how everyone else works
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the emo trinity is alive, well, and prospering in 2023
#what if i said i have been listening to FOB's new single on repeat since yesterday#immaculate music to draw to ngl#speaking of: remaining asks i PROMISE i see you omg#ANYWAY god bless and amen i can't believe early 2000's emo is alive and thriving rn#if you told 13 year old me this would happen i would laugh in your face#and they're all TOURING (or have been touring recently)#*takes a short break from turtle posting to cry over new music from bands i've been listening to for 10+ years* how true and autistic of me#mcr#paramore#fall out boy#we don't speak of Him here; their glory days are long dead#ifykyk#emo memes#idc if that's not the proper genre name im still using it and no one can stop me#foundations of decay#this is why#love on the other side#<- the titles of the singles/EP btw in case you haven't heard them yet
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I have not eaten anything today and I frankly don't have the motivation to make anything, or even care that I haven't had anything
#things are not good for me right now#like I'm crying again and the only reason I haven't texted my boss to say I'm not going to work tomorrow#is cause my anxiety is through the roof at the thought of having to communicate#and I'm kinda in a spiral about being a failure at work and do think its a matter of time until I'm fired#so i should probably get as many hours as I can#not that any of this even matters like I'm well aware all of my problems are trivial and yet here i am once again having a break down#and my therapist said it's not productive to tell myself to suck it up and stop being a baby but here we are#and the instinct is really strong
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"Ai, living has no answer."
"When we're in pain, we search for an answer to feel better. A concise, absolute answer. But if you really want an answer⊠it's that there is no answer. There are no absolute in this world. Even if we think there is, in the end, it'll only make us feel better for a moment.
If there are no absolute, then what's left?
Bonds. Bonds between individuals. Bonds between one another. That's all there is.
That also changes with time. A huge trigger can cause a huge change. Bonds may be severed. But new bonds can also be formed. So living is a series of bonds.
That's what life is.
I have to do that forever?
Yes.
That's a lot of work.
Yeah.
I'd need to be so strong.
That's why people become stronger. That occasionally leads to conflicts. But even if that happens, we have to keep fighting. Keep searching for bonds, even if there's no answer.
You can't rush living."
So I saw on MyFigureCollection that October 13 was maybe possibly Yusaku's birthday, although I couldn't find any reliable source for this. I'd have loved to do something nice and light-hearted for the occasion, but I'm still feeling too strongly about it all. So here you are instead: Happy (maybe) Birthday, Yusaku! Please have some trauma to go with your trauma. Here's to another year of fending off expectations and looking for your own life and its non-answers with eyes wide open and always filled with hope.
#yu gi oh#vrains#vrains spoilers#SPOILERS#how do you tag so it really really doesn't show too obviously because seriously I'd feel horrible for completely spoiling#but I still wanted to share it because I KEEP CRYING#i told my *therapist* about it and we had almost a whole session about bonds and what they mean in terms of support and pressure#I also posted the quote on Facebook last week for my birthday with no explanation and completely out of context#and it was so amazing to have people compliment me on it and ask if they could reuse it#those were the same people who told me that anime would make my brain rot 20 years ago so that's nice turntable and all#i really want to write something heartfelt about it but i'm just rambling and honestly the quote is self-sufficient#i guess i'll just have to find a way to get it tattooed somewhere on my back now because it feels like the only way for me to recover#âI get it now; if you have bonds no one will forget you.â âI won't forget you.â#Vrains quote#VRAINS FEELS#i can't wait for more post-canon in Duel Links#maybe beginning of 2025 if i calculated correctly?#hoping for Akira Zaizen and his Tindangle deck that I'll be happy to destroy with my Revolver deck#and i also have kilowords upon kilowords to write about EVERYTHING but i still need a bit more time#okay that's too many tags i'm done gonna cry a Nile and a half now bye#edit HEY I FIGURED OUT THE âREAD MOREâ THING I feel less afraid of spoiling now but seriously if you haven't watched Vrains yet stop readin
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LoTM chapter 946 spoilers :) (the drawing is below)
So uh I arrived at the fun rainbows and ponies chapters,,, I definitely did not have a mental breakdance on my couch
I have a little rant about the whole ordeal of me reading these chapters in the tags so bonne appétit
Also I have really no idea if i should hide the art behind a scroller if i did tag the spoiler but yk what I could never be too careful, I've seen people still reading on here so better be more cautious than not
#lotm spoilers#lotm spoiler#lord of the mysteries#i am very passionate about this novel#I might cry too much while reading but bro#BRO#My hands wouldn't stop shaking my eyes became a waterfall#My friends now have pictures of me crying and each time captain dunn smith was involved#AND I HAVENT EVEN ADRESSED THE ELEPHANT IN THE ROOM BEING LEONARDS MONOLOGUE CRYING TO OLD MAN#LIKE ???#broke down at the train station I couldn't get home faster#AND AS AN AVID LEONARD AND KLEIN ENJOYER THAT EXCHANGE AT THE END#i did not expect that it would hit me so hard#I DID NOT EXPECT THEIR REUNION TO BE ACCOMPANIED BY DALY'S DEATH#i knew she would leave because i got spoiled by fanart on pinterest just like a bunch of other stuff BUT#and bro Daly dancing with Dunn...#THEY MAKE ME SO EMOTIONAL#the rant is now over I believe I haven't read the continuation yet because Klein is gonna start talking about the powers of the new sequenc#and not process his emotions and I am just ill#daly simone#dunn smith
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hello turns out i fucked up real bad at work yesterday and i think my boss might actually kill me đđđ
#showing up late will only make things worse but the idea of showing up makes me feel like throwing up#i think step number one is to stop fucking crying but i haven't gotten that far yet#vent post
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i know my body is doing its best but christ alive.
#keeping it fun and funky fresh#personal#i need a chronic illness tag#i've been doing frankly a lot better in the past week+ bc we got an upstairs window ac#and we've been keeping the house air conditioned bc even tho it gets cool overnight it is incredibly humid all the time (70-90%)#and the ac units take the humidity out from indoors as well as keeping things a consistent cool temp for me#but today i painted so i aired out the house all day. and. it was a mistake.#i feel fucking miserable. i could not get comfortable At All All Day.#also like. i haven't talked about this but i've gained quite a bit of weight in the last 2 years & especially the last 6 months#(being completely sedentary d/t chronic fatigue will do that to ya)#and so a lot of my clothes fit weird and feel bad and i haven't replaced them yet bc i still don't rly know how to shop#for clothing for trans women. especially bc a lot of those clothes are thrift store finds that Happen(ed) to feel good on me#and today i happened to be wearing underwear that i didn't realize were among the no-longer-comfy and the waistband would not stop rolling#and then it'd get pinched between my stomach & my lower abdomen and chafe horribly especially w/ how sweaty & sticky i was#it was just awful. it was just awful. i finally turned the ac back on even tho it's only 70° outside#bc i couldn't stand being in the (currently) 80% humidity anymore#and grayson helped me take a sponge bath after i broke down crying#and now i feel a little better but i'm just. tired. i'm tired & all of this is getting worse & my doctor doesn't seem to give a shit#heat intolerance
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you know you're ridiculously emotionally constipated that when one thing sets you off you simply can't stop crying
#my best friend just had a baby and literally sobbing looking at her pics#we haven't been able to talk to her yet her bf send another friend the pics#but holy shit man i can't stop crying LMFAO#b.txt
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#if i'm quiet it's bc i'm still processing#i haven't reached the acceptance point pointvand i can't be glib or funny about it#i keep just starting to full-on sob#like a lot of it is selfish - comparatively i'm better off than many and not much will change right away#but i'm old. i'm not super sure i'll make it another 4 years like i just have this feeling i won't#and i'm crying for the loss of what we could have had as much as for all of those who will die#it's almost worse that there was a clear way forward that we took in a better timeline#i'm crying because there's proof that so much of this country is evil and stupid and arrogant and apathetic#huge swathes of it are not but we have to admit that there are a lot of the others#it really is grief for the united states of america that existed and it's selfish and not helpful and i can't stop it yet#today someone i work with really ssid to me 'y'all really think trump is gonna send people to your house and take you away'#and i said he told us he would - he said he would specifically target immigrants and received the reply#'well yeah of course - the illegals ...'#so many folks are already setting their sights on the next fight and ready to roll up their sleeves and keep pushing#and i just can't stop crying#palestine is gone. the supreme court is locked for the rest of my life. who knows if there will ever even be another election#maybe that was the last one. maybe that was the last one women will be able to vote in. who knows.#i remember this feeling from when my parents died but i'm not any better dealing with it now than i was then
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>corporate needs you to find the differences between this picture and this picture >they're the same picture
#tfw you have to babysit two teenagers who won't stop making fun of your lack of rizz#before canon events btw#had to stop every 5 minutes to laughcry when i made this#i'm sorry evander but i can't look at your face and not cry#this has been on my mind for weeks now#if you ever wondered what evie would look like with his hair down. here you go#also changed his glasses :]#i would've added patroclus but i haven't made his babie model yet#q.#mygposes.#ffxivsnaps#gposers#ffxiv gpose#ffxiv oc#hyur
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kinda still hate a bit that some of the visual novels (that I still haven't got around to reading yet, lol) that I want to actually read haven't got an english release....
Kanon has (but unfortunately I've already pirated it before learning of it being on steam), AIR has yet to get an english release to my knowledge..... so I pirated that one too...
feels bad to steal, but they haven't been released in english to my knowledge.
please people bring more visual novels like them westward so we don't have to resort to piracy...
or I'm not looking in the right place....
also pirated umineko and the ps3 voice patches back in the day before eventually buying them when they were released on steam. and I finally bought the games~~
kanon and air switch release when? also air steam release when?
please people bring more visual novels westward~~~ who cares if they're niche or what have you~~~ someone will hopefully still buy them~~~
Edit: this post got me thinking and made me remember that I had a play Asia account~~~ but I donât remember what email I even used; and last time I tried to buy something from the site they wouldnât let me and I donât know why, or remember what happened.
I do remember using the site to get and play Pokemon white before it was released in the west~~ but thatâs the only thing I bought from the site~~
idk and donât remember why they wouldnât let me buy anything else, nor what I tried to actually buy as itâs been so long. So guess I wonât use the site anymore ~~
rip play Asia, you gave me pokemon white and nothing else and are therefore dead to me.
#personal#thoughts#thinking#visual novel#visual novels#english#english releases#english releases when?#more reasons to get serious about learning japanese tho#i suppose#been wanting to learn it since high school but hadn't taken it very seriously#hope my window for language learning hadn't closed cause laziness#key#visual arts#visual arts /key#kanon#kanon visual novel#air#air visual novel#umineko#umineko no naku koro ni#umineko when they cry#piracy#i am a pirate#and surprised I haven't got caught or in trouble for theft yet tbh#that fear haunts me so bad I've essentially stopped pirating stuff#the anxiety and paranoia that causes me now just isn't worth it anymore
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How it started How it's going
#my hero academia#one piece#i haven't read the one piece chapter yet because i can't stop crying over my hero#Gahh#I'm going to be posting more about it later
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it'll all be okay because there's only one more day left in the school week and after that it'll be the weekend. wait no what do you mean after the weekend I'll just have to go back to school? what do you mean the cycle of going to school and coming back home completely worn out is gonna continue?
#mole talks#ive been back in school for..... one week.#im so tired i can't stop feeling tired all of the time now this is horrible#i have to walk around school so much and im forved to be around other people anf its just exhausting#for me school would be better if they removed all social aspects#and all you would have to do is work and you wouldn't have to see other people ever#(apart from the teacher who is teaching you about the subject)#because if theres no forced socialisation that also means....... my classmates would never be ableist towards me again#:[ i can't believe i have to continue going to school#and ill probably have to continue going for many years to come#i hate how much it wares me out. i was si productive during the summer but now im not at all#and i JUST started school. it only gets worse from here#i just wanna learn. i dont want some annoying kid to call me slurs#i dont want to wear a uniform that makes me feel uncomfortable in my own skin#i dont wanna walk around the corridors feeling like everybody is staring at me and judging me#i dont want to go home feeling too weak and tired to do anything#i just want to learn stuff#i don't think i even really care about how going to school is good for my future because i don't know whats in the future for me#i just want to learn things in the present#:[#wow i have a lot of homework i need to do. i say i don't mind the work but i haven't finished all of this yet so maybe im just lying#im gonna cry. i dont want to go back to school tomorrow i dont want to be surronded by people who hate what i am#but also i dont want the teachers to infantalise me anymore! im not a kid. im 16. treat me like everybody else im not a kid#why am i crying into the tumblr void again
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i won't lie i am loving deadfire but i miss caed nua like crazy
#the fact that i can't speak to the steward?? criminal she's such a sweetheart i miss her#'castle or no castle you are still my lady and i will aid you to the best of my ability' what if i cry then. what then#i'm literally switching between replaying the first game and playing deadfire dfjdfgkdfg bc i can't LET GO!!!!#my main girlie is a death godlike cipher...but i want a druid methinks.......i want to turn into a cat and cause damage#you know that post if i were a tigress i could just say 'but i tigress' and then eat people YEA. YEA!!!!#shoutout to keyleth i think that's where i got that particular brainworm from#but also i haven't yet played the white march and i want to so bad bc i heard it's SO GOOD#i don't know when my poe phase will stop bc i am in DEEP i think about it all the time!!! i wanna read the books too!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#so sorry but not sorry!!!! my brain is pillars of eternity shaped rn i am so serious!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#.txt
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