#and I deserve to take up space

[inkskinned]

i'm still trying to piece together the truth of it. when you left, you said: feel free to spin this narrative however you want. i have no idea if you were being cruel or if you just genuinely don't remember what you've done to me.

it's hard because i'd done so much of the work for you. i had seen the parts that flaked off, the rust underneath. i started separating you into two people - the one i loved, and the one who hurt me. i had this fantasy version of you - my partner - and then i had this stranger, a third person who would show up randomly to shatter me. i am deliriously glad i'm no longer with "the stranger". i miss the gentle (unreal?) "other" you terribly.

at first, i was so strict about my boundaries. i remember telling you to get the fuck out of my house if you were going to talk to me like that. by the end: i would justify your behavior for you, accepting even your mistreatment as "my fault" in the grand scheme. i look back on the person i was before you - smart, independent, confident - and i feel a strange sense of detachment. i don't even recognize me.

even in one of our last conversations, you said: if you want a partner that always talks warmly to you, find someone else. there was a time that a comment like that would have made me leave. and instead, somehow, i just placidly accepted that kind of thing. you were literally telling me that i wasn't allowed to have a reaction to your cruelty - and i just took it, because you'd so fully turned things around on me.

when people are faced with irrationality, a rational brain tries to make sense of it. this is the trap. they're lovely in the morning, gentle and blue-eyed and sweet. like nothing even happened, they breeze around the house and kiss you on the mouth. but at night; who is that? they snap almost randomly; flying into an impotent rage about just-about-anything. it just doesn't make sense. so the problem must be me, and my brain, and how i think.

the traumatized brain just wants peace. so maybe i'm misremembering. maybe you were just having a bad day. maybe it's actually me.

you eventually would fully turn on me and start implying that i am the bad actor in our relationship. that's what happens, right? that's literally in the playbook. you went to therapy for all of a month, told her a half-truth, co-opted therapyspeak. you figured out how to reframe your actions as "seeking peace." any time i stood my ground, i was "gaslighting." when i asked you to be more gentle, you said i was "tone policing." you said, randomly, i had emotionally manipulated you - i still have no idea what that's even specifically referring to. maybe my consistent requests for calmness and empathy?

and while i literally know better, and i'm sitting here, trained by you, thinking: wait, fuck. was i actually the person you made me out to be?

and the thing that scares me is that i literally do not know if you ever actually saw what you were doing to me. when you'd tell me how you remember arguments, you'd always summarize them in a way where you come off as gentle and easy: "i was trying to set an important boundary." what had actually happened was 15 minutes of you shouting at me i know you did something shady, just admit it already. eventually you'd say my reaction to your shouting (when i finally reacted, which usually happened around hour three) was inevitably "disappointing" and "another way i'm silencing your feelings."

how many times did i ask you - beg you - to just take accountability? looking back, i don't think i ever heard you say: you're right. the way i talked to you was wrong of me.

i am trying to tie together the two people into a full version of you in my head. yes, you made my coffee and made me laugh and spent hours on the phone with me. and yes - you would scream at me until i had to run away and hide behind something.

i wish i did have a narrative i could pull out and shape to my whim. i wish i did have some semblance of reality. instead i just stand here, strange and vibrating, wondering: what the fuck just happened?

[edorazzi]

Due to scheduling conflicts we're celebrating Tintin Day early this month! 🥳

Someone said in tags that they could totally see Tintin needing International Rescuing at some point. What better way for the Hood to put iR's integrity on the line than revealing all to a world-famous reporter? Would the Tracys jeopardise their whole operation to save just one life?!

(Un)fortunately Tintin hasn't shown up at work since 1929, so the only sacrifice here will be an old man's dignity. Again. 🪦

[bujlililu]

[thinwhitedoc]

SHERLOCK | Martin Freeman as John Watson

[chuuzmii]

Jacob Anderson is so fucking real. Like we see eye to eye frfr. That quote where he's like "Let's be monsters and enjoy it. Let's be problematic. Give us the space to be a problem." Like ooooh... Hes so real. Im so tired of people being scared of writing black villains because of The Implications™. There is a genuine lack of black people in horror and when we are included we are just the sassy best friend, the athlete, the one who dies first, or the magical negro. Hardly ever have I seen a horror with a black momster. Even outside of horror black people are hardly ever villains and it's just so unfair man. Black people LONG for good black villains I know they do. We deserve to be evil we deserve to be petty we deserve to hurt. Jacob I understand...

[neptuneball]

TW: opinion, cussing (for the babies in this fandom)

i want to add in my two cents on the new reveal of earth and luna being siblings but first! we need to discuss my overarching opinion on familial relationships in this show:

i think it’s fucking stupid actually :D like in the case of neptune and uranus being cousins— it does absolutely nothing for ANYTHING!! there was no point in making them cousins especially bc they don’t even treat each other like that in canon (they hardly even treat each other like friends the majority of the time). by assigning them a familial relationship, alvaro did nothing but hinder fan creativity and prevent things like shipping uranus x neptune. like, i know it was based off of their similarities as the two ice giants of our solar system but that actually didn’t have to equate to them being related…

if you want to use that logic alvaro, fine. but then use it for venus and earth too, bc they are both also considered sister planets!! should they not be considered brothers? why are you picking and choosing?? i think that’s what people are mostly frustrated with. it’s not clear across the board who is related to who and WHY ykwim.

as for earth and luna being not only brothers but also the kids of proto and theia, i don’t like it either. like i was saying, it hinders fandom creativity, ruins the previously developed and established relationships dynamics between earth and the rest of the cast and also just feels thrown in there. (don’t even get me started about this info being patreon exclusive until now, that shit PMO so hard) and now with this finally being revealed to the general public, shipping is gonna take a massive hit which is just bad for the fandom.

people are going to get pissed off and leave bc suddenly their favorite ships have a weird—UNNECESSARY—ethical dilemma. the younger, inexperienced members of our fandom will take this as reason to start attacking people for having been apart of the, for example, earthluna shipping, and things are gonna get toxic and hard to be a part of.

i want to clear up that no, i don’t ship uranep (i do view them as family as i has written into many of my fics) and no i don’t ship earthluna (idk i don’t really focus on the rocky planets - i view them more like father/son or brothers) but i would like to come out and say i WANT THE OPTION TO DO IT. that’s what i LOVE about this fandom!! i love have the OPTION to ship characters and see characters as having a different/deeper relationship than in canon. i love being able to play around with character designs and make weird headcanons and generally have the freedom the do whatever i fucking want with the characters bc bro they are personified celestial objects, let them fuck AGAGAGAGAGA. i want the OPTION to ship whoever i want, the OPTION to view whoever i want a family (without fandom backlash) and the OPTION to think that two characters shouldn’t be related.

to reiterate in case i’m not being clear enough: by canonizing a relationship dynamic between two characters, you take away my ability to be creative with the characters!!! even if alvaro had never canonized uranus and neptune being cousins, i would still have had the OPTION to view them more like brothers/cousins than lovers—but he did and now if i were to ship them, id get laughed off the internet for being an incest shipper. if he had never canonized earth and luna, i would’ve STILL been able to see them as brothers but i also would’ve had grounds to explore a deeper connection between them!! like i said, that’s what people are mad about. they are mad that their options are being taken away and frankly they have every right to feel that way. if you are going to wait until 3 years into the show to canonize a character relationship that had been purposefully left up to debate, don’t be surprised when there is push back against it.

directed towards younger fans who have never been exposed to a situation like this in a fandom: BE NICE TO PEOPLE WHO HAVE DIFFERENT INTERPRETATIONS OF CANON. DONT ATTACK PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW. DONT SHAME PEOPLE OFF THE INTERNET JUST BC YOU THINK YOU KNOW BEST. this fandom is already insufferable. DO NOT ADD TO IT.

[fisheito]

Today's topic is: Curseblaze Darkgleam Chuuninun YakEmo Rm 1+2😔 (primarily Room 2, which is the culmination of all my life's suffering into 13 minutes.)

how ttf he see past his stupid bangs. they are at the PERFECT length to poke him in the eyes whenever they're open. how is that practical? you think your hair will hide you from the ghosts? it won't. what's wrong with you.

ROOM 1 I love how , just like in a video game, eiden and yakumo poof into their exorcist outfits once they step foot in the castle again. Attire for the atmosphere. Matchy matchy ambience. I thought the castle would crumble into wreckage after the main plot (or magically slorp itself into a dimensional wormhole), because that's a thing that happens a lot in these stories. but nope. the castle stays intact. Ghost Mode Sarif (i assume) is at peace, but leaves his old house intact on the mortal plane. People can still walk in and out of the ruins. I guess that's fine... Except for the risk of idiot adventurers running amok inside and finding NEW perils. hm. how very conscientious of yakuei to comb thru the castle one last time, for the good of the surrounding community. Yall weren't traumatised enough? ? ok......

did i mention that these two are like stupid shy teens trying to navigate their first crush. well, at least yakumo is. there's a lot of: touch! no nevermind no touch!!. , i'm fine. i don't need to touch. ..touch?////// 눈_눈 i'm just perturbed by the amount of handholding these two engage in. who the heck can hold hands this much. are your palms not sweaty? uncomfortably wet??? why are they so casually linking with each other like that? ever since i counted the handholding instances in intimacy rooms, i'm like. the number! is too! dang! high!! WHO ELSE IS HOLDING FINGIES AT THIS RATE? I MUST KNOW! anyway. they tour thru the castle remains. yakumo is a nervous wreck. let me share one of my fave shots:

yakumo's in a whirlwind of emotion (protective, terrified, anxious, wary of doors that are physically capable of opening). eiden takes it all in stride, as usual.

besides the fact that

needs to happen more often, eiden is . is so. so so radiant... he knows just what to say, and he's so encouraging and sweet and i [[low growls at the base of my throat]]]]

Turns out eiden has backup candles in his bag, so they light one up using yakumo's lantern. add more light to the scawee casuww.🏰

and this is the point where my eyes widened to Saucers. UM? WHAT? EXCUSE ME? no. no itca n't be. not in- i did n't think in my LIFETIME- i mean, it SHOULD be in myu lifetime, because it makes SENSE and the fact that they havent even touched on it until *checks calendar* 3 years later is an egregious oversight of compatible kinks re: individual character traits, but. REALLY? ARE THEY FOR REAL? ARE THEY REALLY GONNA---

if this really happens, i owe my entire life to morvay. morvay, my wonderful horny soldier. he does so much work behind the scenes and now i'm imagining the wondrous antics he's accidentally instigated by packing the Best Possible Stuff for Master Eiden. thinking of morvay and eiden casually discussing the upcoming trip while packing. eiden's folding up his many pairs of underwear, and morvay is helpfully stashing some "emergency supplies". if Master is going LARPing in the dee~eeep forest with yakumo and blade, he's gotta be prepared! since morvay likely can see in the dark, he has no use for regular candles. incubi flex!. but that means that the ONLY candles he would even CONSIDER stocking would be sexy candles. waxplay candles! poor, sad,, human eiden needs light to see, but i'm sure THESE candles will serve him just fine. imagining that morvay LITERALLY DOES NOT KNOW about the existence of non-sexy candles. if he does, he frequently forgets. because what's the point of a candle that can only illuminate a setting? he can see just fine in the dark. thus, fastdrip fastcooling temperature play waxsticks are the Only Candle in Existence. into master's bag they go!!!!!!! i doubt eiden will scold morvay about his mistake when he returns to the mansion. he might just give a gentle reminder about packing some "standard" issue candles next time. and morvay will eventually use his "What Would a Human Need" empathy brain centre and go "RRIIIGGHHHTTT gotcha master! whatever u need!" before he notices that the # of candles eiden left with is NOT the # of candles eiden returns with. by a substantial amount. cue morvay interrogating eiden about the filthy details of how he used the candles and eiden's like WE WERE USING THEM TO LIGHT UP THE DARK CASTLE, I SWEAR, HONEST TO- [eventual gossip session] anyway. yakumo and eiden are recovering from the surprise wax drips. yakumo's minding he own dam business and trying to nurse his widdle ouchie- blowing air on it,which is an interesting approach. one would assume that he would immediately put it in his mouth, which is a common reaction to burns. whatever. he's phewphewing on it and eiden's like [[how can i make this Sexy?]] "oohhhhh we're in such a scaarrryyy spopoooky castle.. i'm so o o jittery and nervous. but i know JUST the way we can both calm down. trust me. it'll work like a charm~~~!"

Hey. so . ⬆ that is a screenshot of the intimacy rooms as i was unlocking them. I *meant* to get a screencap of Room 2 BEFORE it was cleared, just to show my initial excitement at the preview image, but .understandably, i had ZERO THOUGHTS after Room 1 ended. I was on a mission. and when i saw the image preview again i think i screamed. the preview, which is. well. yakumo is right at dick level. they wouldn't.... they wouldn't think of continuing where they left off in Feast of Roses, would they?? that would be TOO DIABOLICAL. PLAYING THE LONG CON, AGAINST ME, SPECIFICALLY. dON't YOU Your Warmth ♥ ME , WITH THE COUPLED REFERENCES TO BOTH TEMPAERTUERE WAMRTH AND THE ELEVATED HEAT OF DICKITUDE DURING STATE S OF AROUSAL- with new context from room 1 (eiden just discovered he has waxplay candles conveniently in his bag and is about to Horny Up a Situation) , i was IN A FRENZY . UNLOCK THAT ROOM NOW! WHERE ARE THE INTIMACY ROOM POTIONS? MASS PRESS THEM BY THE 10FUL I NEED 800 INTIMACY ROOM POINTS AND MY ENTIRE STASH OF COOKBOOKS/SPICES/GOLDEN EVENT GIFTS **RIGJT*******NOW********* GET OUT THE EIDEN PORTRAITS IF NECESSARY. DICKSUCKING WAITS FOR NO ONE SO. i unlock room 2. the first visual on screen is a flash of:

IMMEDIATELY I PUT MY PHONE DOWN. I'M IN A STATE OF ELATION. INTOXICATED BY A SWIRLING TEMPEST OF MY EXPECTATION MIXED WITH DISBELIEF i need to distance myself from the screen. i toss the phone across the room and retreat to the nearest blank wall to express my agitation.

after a healthy hearty rest, it is time to actually start the room.

i pick up my phone to see the first line of "dialogue", which was abandoned on the screen while i was in civil discussion with the wall:

🏁FALSE START. i return to the wall and snarl some more. (that's what happens when you start a room with a little pained-yaku-gasp)

after another very reasonable recess, we can start the room for REAL. let's progress past the first 3 lines now, mm hmm? ya think we can do that? you feeble wretch?

Eiden: does it hurt? Yakumo: a little.... Eiden: ohhh nooo. if it hurts, i better stop- Yakumo: NO DON'T STOP Eiden: 🤨? Yakumo: i . i mean. ummmmmmm 👉👈 Eiden: no waaaay. it cant be. could you possibly.... LIKE? it??? oh wAow,,,,,,,, guess i better try agaaaain, just to know for suRE(. ❛ ᴗ ❛.)

meanwhile, me: slammng my head repeatedly against the glass]] I CANNOT WITH EIDEN'S VOICE RIGHT NOW he's acting SO Silly and playing it up to level 90000 but yakumo is taking him so seriously and speaking so earnestly and honestly and answering all of eiden's stupid questions with actual answers even tho eiden obVIOUSLY aleready knows the answers the contrast between these two is making me laugh eiden playing at being experimental and surprised like. please. you are in total control of the situation. you predicted everything that would happen. EIDEN YOU PUPPETMASTER OF SEX, YOU'RE OGNNA KILL ME WITH LAUGH CRYING EMOJI😂

wait a gotdamn dimnut.

is that what yakumo's outfit looks like underneath that white jacket thing? it's naturally BACKLESS LIKE THAT? WOW, OK CARLYLE, I GUESS STEWARD'S NOT THE ONLY ONE FLASHING A LITTLE SKIN CARLYLE JUST WANTED TO BE A LITTLE STEALTH ABOUT IT!! OK!!!!! WHORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DONT KEEP THESE PRECIOUS SECRETS FROM US, OK???????????

*SLAPS YAKUMO's BARE BACK WITH THE FORCE OF A THOUSAND JACKFRUITS ROLLING DOWNHILL

PAINED WIDDLE YAKUMO GASP #2

NUMBER#3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (my brain in its background processes, watching every line where yakumo describes why the hot wax+cool air+whole combination of fluctuating temperatures , FEels Good, Actually,, annd i'm YELLING . I CALLED IT. OF COUSRE HE WOULD BE INTO WAXPLAY I IFIKCKIN CALLED IT AND I FEEL SO VINDICATED AND RAAAAAWWWRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH) ...

so yakumo's sticking his face into eiden's crotch like a dog with the fewest boundaries ever. just sniffin that thang and drooling and making eyes at it

I'M GONNA DIE. I'M DGONNNA DIE AND THIS ROOM IS GOING TO BE THE CAUSE AND YOU WILL ALL BEAR WITNESS AND TESTIFY ON MY BEHALF DURING THE TRIAL WHEN TTHE LAQWYER ASKS IF THE MURDERER IS IN THE COURT WITH US AND YOU ALL COLLECTIVELY POINT TO THIS ROOM AND IT GETS CONVICTED OF 29485820 COUNTS OF FISHSLAUGHTER FOR EVERY TIME I DIED

NUMBER FOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

every. time. that eiden asks yakumo if it hurts. and yakumo says yes. then admits that he likes the pain. and md anfdi i . mf. dllsefes;. .gfd. GRAWWHHHHHAAHHH [werewolf ripping off shirt]

NMUMBER 5! PERFECT COMBO!!!!!!! KEEP THAT STREAK GOING! ⬅⬆⬇➡🐾🐾🐾👣👣👣🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈YOU'RE A STAR!!!!!! ⭐

No, No. no need to apologise. keep doing what you're doing. actually, can you yell into this jar? so i can listen to the echoes resonating with my cells at an infrared frequency , all sub-visible-wavelength-like. so i can instill the epiphanic sensation of yelling into a majestic canyon and feeling the molecular vibrations sync up in my physical core. yes, thank you.

hey have i mentioned that this whole "performance" and "reward" narrative that's been happening in the last couple yakurooms, is super duper great and i rate 5 stars, would Thumbs Up again? yeah? no? yeah? yeah. make him dance, eiden. DANCE FOR THE PUPPETMASTER YOU SLITHERY LITTLE MASOCHIST-- Yakumo: starts suckin

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH IT'S HAPPENINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

at last. we have reached apron yakumo continuity. from that first day that yakumo went lickin eiden's dick like a lollipop , i was waiting for the genuine succ that was sure to follow. yaku is no slacker when it comes to Proper Student Behaviour. he must escalate his performance and incorporate all previous milestones in-t-oo------ GIOSDFOISEJWODAPKDWAFOUIESHJ A YEAR LATER, WE HAVE THE PROPER SLORP. JUST LIKE YAKUMO'S YEAR LONG JOURNEY INTO HAVING OUTDOOR SEX. huh. i wonder if that's gonna be a narrative from now on. eiden asks yakumo to do something, yakumo gets so embarrassed he runs into a cave and hides, then emerges a year later ready to do the Thing. Slow moving snake? keeping us danglin'............

god. why is eiden so sculpted. why he got his whole abdomen AND a hip window sticking out like that. with naught but a flimsy little strip of fabric in between. is that meant to keep your pants up? it's nowhere near the level of a belt. just snip it off at this point. walk around with your pants hanging off your butt. like a FOOL.

-Yakumo's Suck Starting pace is : warpspeed. -Eiden tells him to slow down. -not JUST to slow down. to slow down in the way he specifically taught him -Yakumo slows down and asks for feedback. -i wanna die again.

pardon my below-sea-level standards for yaoi communication, but i am returning to bashing my head on the glass solely because yakumo is Taking Pointers and Incorporating His Lessons in Suckin D

WHEN YAKUMO FIRST PUT MOUTH-TO-EITO-DICK, EIDEN PONDERED, "ohoho havent felt such a novice tongue on my dick in a while. might be nice to teach him how to do it juuuuust the way i like it" AND FOR REAL RLEALIDLA LOOK AT THEM NOW YAKUMO IS BESPOKE TO EIDEN BESPOKE BLOWJOB GAWD EIDEN, WHAT'S IT LIKE TO HAVE YOUR OWN PERSONAL BLOWJOB MAID TAILORED EXACTLY TO YOUR PREFERENCES? ????????????????????????????????

yakumo really be out here sticking a dick down his esophagus til it touches his stomach acid and lackadaisically remarking, "what, like it's hard?" (sorry for your acidified dick, eiden. i hope it heals expediently.)

NO///GAG////REFLEX!!! WHY DID WE NOT TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS FROM DAY 1?????

we knew that eiden could be elbow deep in yakumo. shoulder deep. knee deep?. idk where yakumo's entry point of Suck is, but he will get at least ONE ENTIRE eiden extremity in him along the way. he has had this power since time immemorial. what an absolute mockery of burgeoning potential , to only allow it space to {{FlHLoRKPH}} in the third year of the game. well. better late than never. let us all learn from this valuable experience about where our priorities doth lie.

hey, eiden. have you considered yanking on that chain. it's just like, dangling there. perfectly yankable. have you considered tugging on it like reining in a horse., t hat's sucking your dick. or maybe just to bully whatever's on the other end of that string. just a possibility. thanks

and JUST as i'm getting all smug and snarky and cocky again and eiden takes all the fear i previously felt (this time, it's EIDEN who thinks he's gonna die!!!!!!! from the thorough sluuuckin'!) THEY PUULL THIS CINEMATIC HGAGRBAGE

AND I

ITS THE FHUCKIN EYES IT IS ALWYS SHS THE HFUGKIN EYES THOSE BIG WET STUPID SEEING ORB COLOURED SPHERE WITH HAIR BORDERS STUPIFD EFHCKIN EYELASHES TEEMING WITH MITES AND MICROSCOPIC LIFE FROM ALL THAT NEASTY MICROBE WHATEVRE WHY THE FGG UIS IT EEVEN SUPPOSED TO BE ATTRACTIVE DOESNT NA HMAKAE NANY SENSE SOMEONE GOUGE THOSE THINGS OUT AND PICKLE THEM AND PUT ME OUT OF MNY MISERY

THEN EIDEN 's EDIICK GETS *BIGGER* FROM THE EYE CONTACT!!!!! THIS IS THE WORST DAY OF MY LIFE(so far) !!!!!!!!!!! hahahaha edick. wait, wouldnt it be more suitable to call it edick from the edroid and not from the e-iden. and eddick sounds more like edmond, so really, it should be more like eiden's proprietary dick slang would be eidick, but i also wonder if that is like a ship name for Eiden x A disembodied dick, which is just as plausible as anything else in this world----

PAY ATTENTION! YAKUMO IS STILL EATING HIS FOOD.

the camera kept panning to yakumo's kneeling lower body and i was so Locked In that i actually turned up my screen's brightness to see what the HECK they were trying to direct my attention to.

ME. Turning up the brightness. For my eyes that lurk eternally in the dark and squint when the slightest squidgeon of sun sneaks thru. All for This.

snan better appreciate me taking the time to adjust my settings. JUST to look at his dick outline, apparently.

because that's all there is . i guess. i take a moment to ponder the position. why is it angled like that? yakumo must be wearing underwear after all. That, OR, his poor benpis is trapped under his wholly unnecessary pants. if he wasn't wearing anything under his robe, that dick would be tenting FREESTYLE and VERTICAL , for god andtheskies to greet from above. but no. it is not tenting in the beauteous way that it did during Naked Apron Yakumo. thus, it must be restrained by some unnecessary prison of cloth. unfortunate. but also, if eiden were to reach over and try to free it, how would he manage? would he have to slip through a hip window and wriggle his way around like a ferret in a pipe? and even then he'd have to jork it under the robes. truly nonsense. just get rid of all the fabric.

have i mentioned that i like eiden's little sounds through this whole room? he's quieter than usual. i guess cuz he's not getting his ass blasted into the team rocko sparko. a lil bit of restrained ngghhs from eiden, mixed with the crunchy texture of yakumo's wails. hm. yep. that's some good mixology. set it on fire and let it burn some poor unsuspecting drunkard's mouth

Yakumo: *speeds up* Eiden: i am going. to die. Yakumo: if you're going to die, please do it in me Eiden: wait waht for real??? Yakumo: *MAXIMUM HORF* Eiden: blorhgjrh

and now. the visual here is a delightful view of eiden's spunk on yakumo's face, but the description says that yakumo took it down his throat. so. where are we? the mechanics escape me in this moment. he swallows the cum, as he has been doing since Day 1 Frotting Behind Eiden Because He Can't Bear to Look at His Face (but will still lick up all the splattered jizzpaint on eiden's abdomen and geniticular region) Noteworthy: the artists went out of their way to show the splooge around yakumo's mouth so. did yakumo pull off some INSANE porn star timing and relinquish the dick at the exact millisecond of eiden cumming? because there was no mention of handjerkin eiden to completion (tentative achievement unlocked: unassisted blowie orgasm) then he opened his mouth and stuck his tongue out (as is seen in the animation) and with Mathematical Precision caught the trajectory of the cum fountain in his throat?

i am conjuring the image of those carnival games with the water guns. shoot and fill up that clown's mouth, why don't you.

well. whatver way it went down. It went down. and i've no complainmts. yakumo even thanks eiden for his meal at the end. this polite bitch. sayin grace or kudos or some shtihte. for the home-pressed artisanal dick juice. ThROW Him Overboard.

AND AFTER ALL THAT. IN THE. HAUNTED ABANDONED CASTLE OF MUSKY CELLARS AND COBWEBBED CORPSES:

*facepalkms most wearily* nothing washes away the anxiety like sucking eiden off and submitting to the fleeting pain of molten wax

he sounds So GRATEFUL and RELIEVED and eiden's just like

(・▽・；)............................... haha sure! yeah, buddy.... any time..... happy to be of service... ha..ha..........

it's ok, eiden... let him think that you were truly just trying to calm him down. let us engage in the act of temperature play fellatio in this mysterious section of the basement that somehow has a clean couch. or is that brick? no matter. regardless of the supporting surface, our nerves shant be fraught after this One Simple Trick. i assure you.

[sloasis]

not sure where i found this or said it but it’s such an good analysis of the finale, “Buck’s living arrangement triggered a realization he wasn’t ready to fully face:

“I’m in love with a man who doesn’t see me that way — or if he does, he’s not saying it. And I’ve built a home in his life that might not have room for me long-term.”

That’s why he left. That’s why he’s defensive. That’s why he denies the truth.

Because staying meant risking being hurt or told, “You don’t belong here that way.”

Leaving meant he could decide the ending himself — even if it hurt.”

WAIT WHAT !! Was this from a fic because that's amazing writing , but imagine if this is official WHAT . That is an absolutely great summary of what the finale meant with them , what Buck was thinking when he was subletting and moving into EDDIE'S place . That is exactly how Buck thinks .. he thinks he's not someone people stay for , he thinks he makes people leave because it's happened time and time again .. But he is wrong , it's not Because of him even though it definitely feels like that ( to him ) , people do come back . Maddie came back and Eddie has as well now . But if he's the one who leaves this time then maybe he can spare himself the heartbreak he just cannot run from , he wallows in it actually . He does all this , he feels so much that he just can't allow himself to let it out , that's what Eddie meant by ' You're making it all about yourself again ' .. he subconsciously does it because it's the only way he can still protect himself from having his heart bleed out onto everyone around him , he can't get them messy with it . He's so selfless that it turns into a form of selfishness that he doesn't mean to have , he's just so in his feels all the time he thinks he has to give everyone life jackets so they don't drown in it .

[cherry-pop-elf]

Small Mouthwashing Break

Hey guys. I know so many of you are hyped and excited for another mouthwashing fic/update to my series but the whole RussianBot situation just. I can’t

I’ve seen things that have left me painfully traumatized. Its made me scared to even open this app. I’ve seen things no one deserves to see. Enough where I won’t even mention what they are

Until the situation is solved I just can’t be part of the fandom atm. I’m already painfully traumatized as is. I have enough going on in life. I don’t need more shit like this

It’s genuinely given me nightmares and taken a toll on my health, since fibromyalgia reacts to stress. What a way to start my thanksgiving break. Just peachy huh?

I’m super sorry to everyone that’s so eager to see more of my content, who want updates, to have asks left unanswered, but I deserve to take care of myself

Hopefully a few days away will make the situation resolve itself on its own. Maybe tumblr will actually do something. Who knows

Just know I’m super sorry, but I gotta take care of myself. I love the mouthwashing fandom/game but Jesus Christ those Russian Bots man

Keep me updated on if that stupid thing gets solved. If things go get fixed. That it’ll be safe to return

I wanna keep posting and doing what I love after all. Don’t we all?

Love yall

[femboywizard]

Sleeper agent!Galinda AU

In an AU where the Upper Uplands are secret followers of Lurline, Galinda spends her entire life being trained by her mothers to infiltrate the wizard's regime as the perfect inconspicuous mole, determined to take it down cost whatever it might cost.

And then Elphaba comes along.

TW: slightly nsfw sketch

The idea of this AU is a Galinda who is hyperaware of everything wrong with the wizard's regime, but cannot do anything about it without going against her goals, carefully built under her family and religion's watch. Motivated by her faith and religious duty towards the Fairy Queen and the reincarnation of her in Ozma, reborn in her image, Glinda behaves outwardly as movie Galinda does, buttering up to Morrible, ignoring the Animals' plight, toss tossing her hair around as the budding politician she is, hiding her goal of topplying their facist government.

TLDR Paganist revolutionaries Chenzel and Galinda

I'm inspiring the upper uplands in the Norse, and so making a northern Gillikin where being entirely covered in tattoos and being so close to the desert, they wear clothes too revealing for the Emerald city's Unnamed god's moral sensibilities. So Galinda is entirely covered in tattoos, and while in Shiz, covered in puritanical almost victorian clothing. Playing the part of doting fool for the Wizard's religion while her family practices in secrecy.

A Galinda that meets Elphaba, daughter of Eminent Thropp, governor and priest, and is terrified of having to share her room with a follower of the Unnnamed God, of getting caught. An atheist Elphaba who thinks her roommate who wears gloves and turtlenecks even in the height of summer, while sleeping with tons of blankets, that is when she even does catch her sleeping, is a total Unnamed God obsessed FREAK.

This isn't a final version i will make a digital version eventually, but here's an idea of what Galinda's tattoos would look like.

[lavendelhummel]

Book list!

I was tagged by @lilolilyr (thank you!! so fun!) to make a list of 100 books! I tried to focus on more recent reads, but added the occasional one from the past, that I enjoyed especially! But also there were quite a few I wanted to add that I couldn’t find on there :(. Those were mostly french/german books, and/or poetry/about marine animals. I don’t know if all of these count as favs. At first I had too little (I still don’t live in a dream place with a giant bookshelf lining a giant wall so I couldn’t just look there, but have many of my books in boxes :(), then I remembered fun books and had too many!

Tbh I could probably also make such a list of TBR books, I have so so many I didn’t read yet. I bought four more last week, when I was at a huge bookmarket. In the coolest markethalls! What was I supposed to do? Anyway, enough rambling, here it goes:

(The photo is from when I moved from that place I visited last week again with said bookmarket… this one was extraordinary but they had one every single day and when I moved away, I realized that this was a problem. This is just a small bit of that pile and entourage that you can see on here. yeah. but. you know. books.)

I had fun making this list, so I’ll tag people to also have fun, but no pressure! I just had the time and energy rn, which is amazing but not a given. Tagging: @trollocks-in-my-bollocks @kla1991 @purlturtle @readingtheentrails @hecatesbroom @anadabrat @onaperduamedee @cozcat @ginnyjyng @defenestratedcow

[quins-makeshift-menagerie]

As most of you know I try my best to be civil and kind. I’m too exhausted and the world sucks too much for me to go about making other people feel like shit, it’s not really something I see worthy of my or anyone’s time really. I try to keep things positive not only because it might brighten someone else’s day but for my own sake. I curate this space because I know a lot of you feel and experience the same things I do. Do not twist this into me being delusional. I am fully aware the internet can be an unkind place, but that doesn’t mean my blog, my space, has to follow that example.

Be kind, be patient, and be respectful, not that the majority of you haven’t already been doing so. Asks are open again. Anonymous will be turned on again when I feel comfortable.

Apologies to those who used anon because they were nervous/anxious. I completely understand where you’re coming from and this is nothing against you. Regardless I do hope you stick around, and maybe one day work up the courage to be open with me. Or continue to keep your distance, I completely understand that too.

[romeoslaughter]

wonderful dreams

forced awake to confront reality^^

[calicotisane]

Chapter 3 Page 49

This is the hundredth page

[itissadbutitsmy-life]

listen I just can’t find fault with a candy person for finding something that unexpectedly brings them joy and doing everything in their power to make it keep happening. I just can’t find it in me to blame them for wanting the approval of the person they love and respect more than anyone else, and wanting that approval over and over again, and I just straight up can’t blame james for figuring out a trick to make his princess smile and call him her hero. like, banana guards get her praise and approval and hugs all the time, but he’s just some random engineer with an easy smile and no one who wants to hang out with him after work. and she likes him so much, she wants him in her kingdom, even when he goes and does something stupid like push her out of the way of a super dangerous not-moving car, at the cost of his own life, she wants him back and she’ll bring him back and she'll tell him that was very brave and she loves him. of course she loves him. she loves all the candy people. but he figured out how to make her look him in the eyes and say it and give him material evidence of her pride. I can’t find it in myself to blame him for that. it wasn't good, i don't think he should have been left unchecked to keep going forever, but i can't blame him for wanting to keep reliving the nice thing that happened once. the really nice thing that happened once that came with material gifts. if she didn’t want to keep doing it she would’ve stopped LONG before there were TWENTY FIVE of them. before she was so fed up that she didn’t even spare him a kind goodbye or a chance to go home one more time.

like you’re not beating the dystopian dictatorship allegations. saying she was right to exile him from the only home he’s ever known with no recourse because he was acting weird. and the thing is, I just can’t find it in me to blame a character living in a dictatorship for getting himself into a situation because he was desperately trying to be happy the best way he could figure out how. I’m not saying he was right, he’s insane, but it just rubs me wrong, the idea that he is the one holding all this heavy blame. the idea that the princess is right to look down at him and shake her head firmly and turn him out in the cold. for chasing the rush that she gave him willingly, over and over, without any specific end parameters. for not being able to make friends, and doing something weird about it. he’s bored and lonely and this works and it’s not, inherently, bad. it really isn’t. it’s batshit, but it’s actually not hurting anyone at all.

[talentforlying]

tapping the mic to say that while john can be pretty cynical about politics, society as an institution, all members of the occult community, and general human susceptibility to favor self-interest over charity, he is also a guy hopelessly in love with the world + with its people and he takes genuine pleasure in all the little things in life.

he may have periods of disillusionment that take him to some bleak & hopeless mindsets, but those moments are vastly outnumbered by the number of times he's stepped outside his flat, felt the sun on his face, and let its fleeting warmth carry him through the day until his next encounter with some passing semblance of joy. he may not readily trust people to do the right thing without some prodding or personal incentives, but that doesn't stop him from extending a kind gesture or a listening ear to a stranger if he finds himself in the position to offer.