#and I can’t be invested in jack at all bcs I know how the writers will butcher him

[destielhands]

Just checked my list and Ben Edlund only wrote a single episode that I didn’t think was great before season 7, that man literally worked so hard to give us banger after banger

[kuekyuuq]

At this point, I see things regarding Supercorp this way...

(Mxaybe... in another universe... *sighs*)

My head-canon for the show:

Lena had a crush on Kara since day one and vice versa. She tried to deny it, deny herself the ‘luxury’ of personal attachment... but Kara was quite persistent, and cute, and sweet, and warm, and such a dork, and... yeah... Lena got confused when she developed similar feelings for Supergirl, and then her disagreements with Supergirl caused her to not-like her anymore, but still felt physically attracted to her - damnit. Since oblivious Kara did not respond properly to her flirts (and they both verbally friend-zoned each other), Lena resigned to gaze and long for her in secret, thinking Kara was straight. Neither her short and tragic re-encounter with Jack - an unresolved comfort from her own past - nor her sudden enemies-to-lovers thing with James (Kara's ex of all people) could quite quench her craving for Kara's closeness and warmth or her verbal tension-filled jab-throwing matches with Supergirl. After the reveal, Lena was more hurt over her 'friend' betraying her trust, keeping a secret from her (yes, that's a double-standard, Lena! ...girl's got deeply rooted issues) than 'Supergirl' using her alter-ego to take advantage of Lena (which, hands down, Kara actually did on some occasions - so, ironically that one would have been objectively valid, but, hey, feelz shape our perspectives). She went through her lashing-out phase, only to realize she can't live without Kara in her life. And really wants to do good. Yes, that too... ...and it only took her trying to brainwash the whole world (good intentions and the road to hell) and Lex back-stabbing her a couple of times, to see the light and join the good guys for good... to be more like Supergirl, in her own small way...? Y'all know what I mean ^_- She came crawling back, continues to try hard to prove herself worthy, longingly watching on every time Kara and Alex hug, desperate to keep her sunshine-impersonated in her life, whom she truly loves, despite how much she tried to convince herself she did not...

...

Meantime, Kara is an alien (yes, I bold that, bc, people tend to not think this through). From a totally different culture and all, having suffered great trauma and entering Earth's culture during her puberty/informative years. A Kryptonian who crushed for Humans (males - James, Adam - and apparently 4 other dudes she broke the noses of when kissing) and other aliens (Daxamite Mon-El) ...uh, and even couldn't stop herself admitting how she likes how nice Lucy (female Human) smells (the most prominent other time such a statement was made, was when everybody was swooning over Kal). Who only in her adulthood realized homosexuality was even a real option, outside of high-schoolers slurring at each other. (And I am not saying, Kara is gay, as in lesbian... she incidentally spoke true when she denied that in the pilot. Repeat after me: “Kara is an alien.” ..I’d call her pan, but am also aware, that the textbook definition doesn’t include ‘all species’... so.... there’s that.) Kara, who so desperately hard tried to fit in, she got absolutely used to others telling her what she's supposed to feel and think.

...who crushed hard for Lena at first sight (possibly, also star-struck). But both Clark and Alex, her most important people to look for help, guidance and reference, told her any Luthor was bad news.

There was Mon-El, whom she didn't even like, at first. When he lied told her he wasn't in love with her, she was utterly relieved. She was all “Oh, golly. That’s unexpected and awkward. What now?!” when he confessed to her, and tried (and failed) to let him down gently. (I am actually convinced, that Kara was more ego-hurt, that he moved on to Eve so quickly, and.. where she and James ended things once Lucy was out of the picture, Kara only started thinking/feeling differently about Mon-El when he was taken... just sayin’ I maybe spot a pattern there.) But, Alex told her, that she had a thing for Mon-El and that she should give him a shot... ...even when Lena got involved with Cadmus, and Kara found herself passionately defending the youngest Luthor against ALL her friends, when she could not explain her bone-deep trust in Lena but by "I can see it in her eyes" and other instinctually tainted expressions... Well, she and Mon-El made it work, they were actually a sweet couple when they weren't butting heads... Didn't stop Kara from having mixed feelings when Lena ran into her ex. And yes, Kara did mourn Mon-El. If only for the concept of what they had together, but I do think, she did feel love for him... Me thinks, Kara would be one of the people who simply can not separate physical and emotional. So by kissing and sleeping with him, stronger emotional attachments came to be. Not to invalidate them, but... personal history is important.

....long story short, Kara kept trying not to stand out. Lived and loved on the safe-side, hurt one too many times by circumstance. And yet kept feeling drawn to Lena, kept trusting her, kept wanting to reveal herself to her - despite what everybody else said. But, emotionally and 'culturally' on the safe side.

Kara friend-zoned herself.

The reveal happened and... Lena HURT her and Kara STILL kept her hope and trust up... and while towards the end of it, being incredibly hurt and worn out, she still let Lena back in. And within 24h decided that Lena came through enough times and Kara was ready to accept her apology...

And then Lex happend (again) and Phantom Zone...

Now...

[*] My head-canon for RL:

Katie is such a natural flirt, that even though the SG writers (after introducing both Lena and Mon-El to the show) have been told "no gay Supergirl" by the CW in 2017, Melissa just never knows what hit her...

Director: "CUUUT!" Melissa: "--...wait, what? I'm married. I mean... huh?" Melissa: "Wait! We have to redo that! We were told, not to-" Katie: "To what?" Melissa: "...uh, the Supercorp-thing... you know... the heart-eyes?" Katie: "What heart-eyes?" *raises an eyebrow the typical Katie-way* Melissa: "...the... um.... you..." Katie: "Wait, did you-..?" Melissa: "Me!? Oh, no. I am married!" Katie: "What has that to do-... Are you okay?" Melissa: "Yes!" Katie: "Okay, then." *Katie swaggers off stage & hi5s one of the writers on her way out* Melissa: "...darn it." *calls Chris* "Honey, I love you." Chris: "...it happened again?" Melissa: "..." *Chris starts laughing* Melissa: "...so not funny."

So, yeah, that's where I am at. Kara friend-zoned herself and Lena is totally mush for the Girl of Steel. ...and Katie is just being Katie :)

Also, I am currently 99% sure Supercorp will not be endgame. But I would be 100% pleased to be proven wrong.

[* In all seriousness, do not bash on the actors, please. They are just doing their jobs, have a life and family, real relationships and feelings. So, my above 're-enactment' is completely fictional, purely for light-hearted entertainment and not meant to do any harm or spread any hate or to be actually transcribed onto the actual, real people. We do not really know these people! They - and the writers, too - do bring characters to life that we invest in - for that they deserve our gratitude. My gut feeling (or shipper-heart feeling?) is, they are doing their best to sneak Supercorp in whenever they can - not to bait, but because they may actually not be allowed (yet..?) to make SC text but see the same chemistry we do. Have fun, but be respectful, please! We can disagree with the CW's executive decisions - although, we do not really know what’s going on bts - and express our dismay, but do not in all seriousness spread hate.]

[lesbianrobin]

have u done an analysis on endgame st ships? a penny for ur thoughts

i have not!! i would like two pennies please. my thoughts are not actually worth that much but i think i deserve them anyway. i’m gonna talk about some stuff that may seem unrelated or only loosely related to the question but i prommy it’s relevant <3 warning this ended up being like a thousand words somehow idk how that happened but i’m putting it under a cut bc i’m nice like that.

so! something that’s kinda unique/interesting to me about stranger things is how all of their ships are so clearly telegraphed and quickly developed. there’s a sense of... impatience, for lack of a better word. on the surface, it appears to be largely an effect of the cinematic style of the show; there’s very little room for questioning who someone’s gonna end up with or for slowly developing a relationship over time when you only get eight episodes every like. twoish years. AND you have about a dozen main characters AND evil government forces AND monsters from another dimension. it’s a lot to juggle!

stranger things has a lot to accomplish in a pretty short amount of time. the timeline of a single season usually spans no more than a week (excluding flashbacks/end-of-season timeskips), and well... nobody wants the important stuff to happen offscreen! i’ll use the stoncy love triangle as an example: jancy was originally intended to get together at the end of s1 after steve’s death, but since they decided to let steve redeem himself and survive, there was just no time to separate stancy and get jancy together without it seeming wayyy too abrupt. since jancy was always their plan, they didn’t want to leave nancy with steve, but they knew they couldn’t just have that boyfriend swap occur offscreen... which is why s2 Had to have a stancy breakup plot in order for the writers to accomplish their goal of getting jancy together.

the main characters in stranger things tend to maintain homeostasis between seasons, their circumstances and relationships rarely changing any more than the audience might have just assumed they would anyway (like lucas and max dancing together + sharing a kiss at the end of s2 and officially dating by the start of s3). steve and nancy are dating at the end of s1, so they must still be dating at the start of s2, and thus we must break them up DURING s2. joyce and hopper are friends with some deeply buried feelings in s2, so they’re friends with Less Buried feelings that must become apparent during s3. excluding the stancy situation (for reasons which i think are obvious but i will talk more about later), momentum is always forwards. mileven, lumax, and jancy argue, but they come back together, presumably more mature and stronger than before. 

all of this is to say that stranger things has thus far been rather dedicated to their starting ships. there isn’t much misdirection; mike’s crush on el is obvious from the start, nancy and jonathan share charged moments even while she is with steve in the beginning, lucas shows interest in max immediately and shares more significant interactions with her than the other boys from early on in s2, and the deep loyalty and care between joyce and hop is always apparent. steve and robin (initially intended to be together romantically) hold hands quite early in s3 and dustin asks steve about whether he likes her. 

the point? stranger things doesn’t dick around when it comes to love! they handle their ships with remarkable efficiency. in each season, it tends to be pretty obvious from the start who’s going to end up with who, and heading into the show’s fourth season, almost everybody is paired off: mike and el, max and lucas, joyce and hop, nancy and jonathan. which leaves us asking... are all of them going to last until the end?

we’ve only had one true breakup on the show so far, and as i’ve said before, the stancy breakup is an anomaly as it was essentially “righting a wrong,” allowing jonathan and nancy to get together as they were intended to do from the start. the only other romantic relationship to end on the show was between joyce and bob, and well... we all know why that ended, and it started/ended within the confines of a single season. 

stranger things tends to treat each season as an extended film, right? they draw inspiration from classic 80′s films, and each subsequent season after s1 is treated as a sequel (they are Literally referred to as stranger things 2 and stranger things 3). when they introduce tension in a season, they’re inclined to resolve that tension by the season’s end so that people leave satisfied, while also providing a plot hook for the next “sequel” for audiences to theorize about. this hook is always part of the grander plot, not a will-they-won’t-they tease or something else of the sort. remember, they could have broken up steve and nancy in s2 and waited to get jancy together in s3, but they didn’t! they wanted to go ahead and resolve the tension! 

while there are narrative and practical incentives that i’ve covered for this impatience/efficiency/[insert better word i can’t think of here], i also think it kinda reveals something about the writers of the show. to some degree, they genuinely care about and want their ships to be together! we’ve watched them introduce new characters just to kill them off a couple of times now, and i think it’s fair to say that the writers might be a bit too attached to the mains to consider killing any of them off (at least prior to the series finale). maybe... this reluctance to kill their darlings extends to ships.

romance isn’t the primary draw of the show, but an indulgence, something that there may not always be time for but that the writers continue to prioritize as much as they can because they enjoy it, or feel that it is important to the overall product. if we accept this idea, that the inclusion of and focus on so many romantic relationships in stranger things is (to some degree) indicative of the writers’ own desires, then it might inform our speculation regarding endgame ships.

i’m not here to like... really actually assert that i know what’ll be endgame, because i don’t really know jack shit. however, i do think that the writers are pretty invested in all of the current canon st ships (and yes, i am including jopper in that, as their romantic development was explicit in s3). i also think that the writers like catering to fans, leaning into popular jokes (steve “the hair” harrington) and devoting more and more time to the ships fans obsess over (particularly mileven). 

with this all in mind... i really think that most if not all of the current canon ships will be endgame. 

i think that barring any extreme circumstances (i.e. a character Actually dying instead of just fake dying) jopper will be endgame. they’re the only ones that the writers have had the restraint to actually do a slow burn with, and i really can’t see them devoting so much to developing their dynamic just to say it was all for nothing in the end. 

i’m less confident on the others. there are some signs in canon that the remaining couples have some serious problems and may not last, but these issues are often dismissed, played for comedy or brushed over within the text itself, and many of the details within the text contradicting this dismissal are often so small that it’s unclear whether they’re intentional or not. while breaking up mileven might make perfect sense for a fan who reads into subtext and pays attention to unusual acting choices and subtle parallels, it would be a pretty risky move on the surface level. allowing these ships to remain canon for awhile and garner large fanbases only to break them up later would require both a willingness to actively contradict the desires of their audience as well as a certain degree of restraint in their romantic storytelling, which runs counter to the impression i personally have of the st writers (this is, of course, my own personal opinion).

there’s a good chance that at least one of the current canon ships will break up by the end, if only because i think that it would be a little boring if every relationship stayed the same for almost the entirety of the show’s run, and the stranger writers like to keep things new and exciting. perhaps long distance will kill jancy or mileven, or lucas and max will go off again and never come back on, but either way i wouldn’t be surprised if we got a breakup in s4. even with that, though, i think it’s somewhat likely that a current couple may break up in s4 and get back together for the series finale, just for the sake of a little suspense. overall, though, i feel like our current canon ships are going to be more or less the same at the end of the show.

that’s about it. i suppose i didn’t really... answer the question you asked skdndsdkjc i feel like you probably just wanted to know like if i’m a byler endgame truther (which i am not but i could happily be proven wrong). thank you for asking, though! i hope this made at least a little bit of sense.

[enchanted--realm]

When Calls the Heart Live Ramples

Season 8 episode 9 Pre Wedding Jitters

That scene in 👏Nathan's 👏office👏 The lines they wrote for Kevin *chef's kiss* perfection. I mean, I still dont like this whole secret reveal thing. I think it's so dumb. Like, ain't no way the writers intended Nathan to have this secret when he first came to the show. I don't think he was suppose to have any secret at all. I mean, this whole, 'There's something he's not telling me' thing came out of nowhere. That aside, the love confession was great, again, and he left Elizabeth speechless again and she ran away, AGAIN. That tells me all I need to know. She cannot deny this man BECAUSE SHE LOVES HIM. And if y'all think otherwise than you're delusional.

The game at the bachelorette party. It was obvious from the promo for this episode how this would play out. She reaches for Nathan's hands and thinks he's the one. (I was predicting that she would know it was Nathan and then feel uncomfortable and move on, but that didnt happen. She thought he was Lucas *bleh. Though I was still right in thinking Nathan would be 'the one' during this little game). We like that. I really liked how the party scene lasted longer than I expected. It wasnt even too long of a scene, but it was definitely long for When Calls the Heart. This show really needs to work on it's pacing. Everything happens so fast bc they have to cut to the millions of side plots that happen in every episode. My gosh, would they give us some focus please.

When Lucas came by Elizabeth's house in the morning I enjoyed that they interacted more casually with each other it seemed, at least it did on Elizabeth's part. Just through small details like the way she was casually leaning in the doorframe or her tone of voice. She wasnt so awkwardly polite...but Lucas still was. Lucas is so polite it's uncomfortable. Like I don't feel like anybody could just be themselves around him, bc it's like every meeting has this awkward air of being polite to an acquaintance you dont know well. Ugh it's so weird. I didnt like that Elizabeth told him Nathan's reveal. I feel she should have kept that to herself. Ugh and then Lucas wanted to act all protective and 'talk' to Nathan. Oh please. That is not his place. Elizabeth is obviously the one who needs to talk with Nathan and it's no one else's business what goes in between them, besides Allie of course. And speaking of Allie, I thought her scenes were really good and thoughtful. I still think it was weird that Lucas got her a gift for her adoption ceremony, but whatever we are past that now. I like that her character is being more mature about everything too. I really hope we get a scene where Allie and Elizabeth have their own conversation though. They need it. I'm not sure how I feel about that obvious Paul (Florence's son) having a crush on Allie. It seems that the writers will want them to like each other. I guess it could be cute? It's just a little awkward bc we havent seen this Paul kid around before so it creates a weird air that the only reason he shows up now is to be a school crush for Allie. Eh. Jaeda was great though and I think she did her scenes well.

After Lucas and E talked, I think it's obvious to Lucas that Elizabeth has strong feelings for Nathan and that she's just running away from them. I mean, she told Lucas that when Nathan told her he loves her all she could do was say nothing and just leave. *holds out arms and stares with a 'well, there you have it' expression'* IT DOESNT GET ANY CLEARER THAN THAT. I wonder if the writers will make Lucas step down bc he cant be with someone who will never love him. Idk how Lucas will react honestly, Lucas's character is such a mystery to me I could never know what he would do in a situation that didnt involve setting up a perfectly romantic date or sweet talking someone with an annoyingly, unrealistic, perfectly understanding polite response.

Elizabeth was also super rude to the people she cares about in this episode. The way she talked to Rosemary. First, she didnt like hearing what Rosemary had to say, which implies that she may have been blaming Nathan for Jack's death. That is such a horrible thing to hold against someone. I mean I could understand why she would feel that way but just for a moment. I mean she should understand how completely wrong and irrational that thought process is and that she shouldnt blame Nathan. TWO, then she had the nerve to tell Rosemary something like 'why would you think that comment would help me right now'. Wow Elizabeth. Gee, maybe she's saying the truth and she's also your friend and just trying to talk things through and give her opinion as a way to help you through your difficult situation. God forbid she doesnt say the perfect thing that you needed to hear at that time, she can't read your mind. I thought that was incredibly rude. It hurt to see Rosemary hurt. And then later she told her that she should leave her house. *SCOFF* man, she was really hitting Rosemary hard this episode. If I were in Rosemary's shoes, yes I would be hurt, but I think I would mostly be understanding of what Elizabeth might be going through and not take anything personally. E's lucky that Rose is such a good friend. OH! What Rosemary told Nathan in the library! She totally implied with her little metaphor comparison that Nathan was making Elizabeth unhappy by getting in the way of true love, i.e. Lucas and Elizabeth. I-- wow! Everyone is against this man. I'm so glad that Nathan stands firm. I mean he knows that Elizabeth feels strongly for him based off her reactions to his honesty with her and how she never denies anything and just runs away. I mean, it's plain as day. Let's not forget the *speechless gaze into each other's eyes* 'I can't' from Honestly, Elizabeth.

I think that's it regarding the love triangle. I absolutely despise the Faith and Carson relationship. And I cant believe they made him say, come with me to Baltimore and we can see in a year if we want to get married. That is so dumb. He just asked Faith to drop everything and leave her life in Hope Valley for a 'I might break up with you in a year' situation. Dumb. This is definitely out of character for Carson. It's obvious the writers are just trying to get rid of him and make him not be missed by the audience. They clearly want us to favor Faith, but she couldnt be more annoying honestly. I wish she were leaving and Carson would stay in Hope Valley. But whatever.

I dont like how every side plot seems to be about some couple's budding relationship. I mean aside from the love triangle, we have Florence and Ned, Molly and Bill, Clara and Jesse (though not a budding relationship, it's still all about their relationship) and now Rachel and Christopher and oh yes also Fiona and whoever that guy is and wow I'm still missing Faith and Carson. Thats 6 other romantic relationships in the show (not including the also important one of Rosemary and Lee) and I'm probably leaving one out. Oh yes, now possibly Allie and Paul. 7. Seven relationship side plots!!! Omg I'm going crazy!! They need to learn how to write some actual plot! What happened to town problems and family drama! Thank goodness we have Henry Gowen and his son (cant believe I just complimented that out of nowhere concept but hey) and the oil thing with Lucas and Henry, barely ever a plot line. This show needs better writing. There's no glue holding the town together and even when there is, it's so small or happens so fast that it doesnt have any long lasting and meaningful affect.

If I weren't so invested in Elizabeth's plotline and in need of some wholesome tv, I would have stopped watching a long time ago. Oh and the last thing. The mention of Abigail. I'm so glad Henry mentioned her because she was very important to him and his character growth. His character arc is one of the saving graces of the show and it needs to be given more attention.

Okay in short, Elizabeth was hecka rude, Nathan is wonderful and so was that office scene. We also stan Allie. Next week's episode also looks like a dud and I dont think much will happen.

[zwerfplaneet]

on beta king's canyon, spacetime folds and the death of a hero

so here's the huge beta KC theory i was talking about. for the uninitiated: shadowfall is canon, it's an actual dimension separate from “our” apex games, multiple dimensions have been proven to be a thing in the apex universe by the wraith cinematic, and i have a theory on how the particular beta dimension came to be. wanna preface this by saying this isn't a lore prediction but rather just me filling in the blanks and being a tf lore nerd bc what else is new

courtesy text break bc this is Long

it all starts... with effect and cause in titanfall 2. remember that mission? major anderson in the ceiling, the weird looking corpses everywhere, the fold weapon test explodes, leaving cooper conscious in a world frozen in time. we know very little about the ark, but this scene reveals to us that it is powerful enough to manipulate spacetime (and before you ask, the full scale fold weapon does the same thing and cooper doesn’t have the wrist device from effect and cause there)

my theory is that the ark rippled time so strongly here that it created a separate timeline to split off from our “main” timeline, visualised here:

note: the present day was originally 2733 but a year has passed in the lore too as indicated by the writers on twitter, making the present day 2734)

WHAT makes the beta dimension so radically different from the alpha dimension? one simple answer. in the beta dimension, jack cooper died in the explosion caused by the fold weapon test.

the catalyst of the militia victory on typhon dying and hence not causing the destruction of typhon has MASSIVE effects for the course of the frontier wars. the ark gets delivered to the fold weapon, with no one to stop them. no one succeeds in stopping the imc from destroying the entire planet of harmony, home of the militia. the militia never win the war. imc forces grow ever stronger. they have more resources, more territory, more power than in the alpha universe. they invest more in ARES division, and they invest more in hammond robotics, because... well... we all know hammond robotics and the imc and the syndicate hold hands. one significant thing remains the same: kuben blisk still founds the apex games as usual, bc he’s rich and bored and well, blisk.

especially the different hammond robotics is here, because a major player in the beta dimension is associated with them: revenant. well. god revenant. but how exactly did he come to be god revenant in the beta dimension?

let’s superimpose revenant’s timeline over the diagram above.

revenant was already seeking out hammond robotics employees to kill before the events of titanfall 2, before the fold weapon test made the timelines split off. however, with the imc victory and subsequent flourish of hammond robotics, they are much, much better equipped to deal with one (1) murderous simulacrum trying to kill all their employees. they manage to capture him again, make him more pliable. maybe they already have shadow technology at their disposal. maybe they experimented on him with said shadow technology. maybe they unintentionally created a more powerful revenant, invulnerable, in an eternal state of shadow. maybe they created... a god.

the more powerful hammond also succeeded in something else: effectively silencing loba from ever speaking out about what she witnessed in the restaurant that fateful night. no doubt beta dimension loba has the same fierce determination and strong will, but this hammond she can’t beat. she never comes in the position where she goes to look for the demônio. maybe she was finally succesfully lost in the undoubtedly hammond operated foster system. maybe she got caught in bureaucracy. or maybe... she could not fight any longer against the multi headed beast that is hammond robotics after an imc victory.

meanwhile shadow revenant is having a grand time. he kills hammond employees anyway because that’s what he does, but when you’re immortal that might get a bit... boring. so he goes looking for something else to do, and his attention is attracted by the one thing that’s adverstised all across the frontier. the apex games.

shadow revenant stages a coup on the apex games. he kills kuben blisk (it’s what he deserves), he kills the entirety of the syndicate. he takes over the games. watching. waiting.

now let me include something that wasn’t my own observation but one by @brokenghostt​ . included a screenshot bc this is better explained:

blisk (alpha dimension blisk!) throws ash’s head into something that looks like the ark. now this is where my theory gets a little shaky, but obviously there’s something going on with beta KC that made it so that pathfinder got there in his “nightmare” in the first place, and what made ash’s head end up there after being thrown in what-is-possibly-the-ark. the events of the could be another crucial point in that timeline, the ark’s energy being somehow connected to it since it’s a timeline that split off caused by ark technology in the first place?

either way, this is my theory on how beta kc came to be. i have one more point i want to bring up, why did i specifically bring up effect and cause?

you know those jumpscare zombies in the shadowfall ltm?

these guys? (thank u @blyaem​ for the screenshot <3)

they’re the same as the corpses found in effect and cause, albeit a bit retextured (couldn’t get a screencap of the exact same one but it’s There in the mission):

...which would strengthen my argument of the ark keeping connections to events that were crucial in it causing to split timelines.

anyway that’s it, if you read it this far: 1) why 2) you are either hyperfixating like me or have the patience of a saint, thank you for reading

TL;DR jack cooper died in an alternate timeline, makes local murderous sim into a god

[firelord-frowny]

I saw a Post about like ~symbolism~ in literature and how a lot of folks kinda instinctively balk at the idea of it in a “cigar is just a cigar” kind of way and it got me thinking some thinkey thoughts that i’ve thought for a long time and like 

For the most part I think people who dismiss that kind of stuff so quickly are just, plain and simple, people who don’t care much about writing as an art form anyway. Sometimes literature just isn’t someone’s favorite way to experience art, and so they don’t feel invested in devoting any amount of brain power to interpreting things beyond what they see on the page. And that’s fine! That’s how I am with most visual art. I just say “ooh, pretty” and leave it at that. I don’t really know or care much about the meaning or intent or what certain colors represent or why the subject has a certain expression on their face. I’m sure an actual artist or someone who’s just passionate about art would be all over that shit! Analyzing and appreciating and theorizing. But for me, it really isn’t that deep. Either I like it or I don’t like it, and I carry on with my day. And if someone insisted that it’s imperative that I learn how to ~interpret~ art, I’d probably be hella frickin annoyed. I mean, would it be a good skill to have? Sure! Any skill, no matter how obscure, has the potential to come in handy in life. But like. We don’t all have the time, energy, or ability to become adept in Every Skill Ever. We pick and choose what matters to us most, and we don’t worry so much about the other stuff. So, that’s how I think a lot of folks feel about literature, and I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing that that’s the case. Some people just! Aren’t interested! 

And for me, as a writer, I can honestly attest with 1000% certainty that I never once have intentionally included symbolism of any kind at all whatsoever.... and yet it’s still there. It happens ALL. THE. TIME. where I read over something I wrote years ago and discover large and small ways that I, without even realizing it, used various kinds of symbolism in lots of places. Some examples:

As a character’s mental/emotional state deteriorates over the course of the story, their living space gets more and more cluttered

As a character becomes more detached from their friends and family, their living space becomes more and more barren

A fire (candle, fireplace, campfire, etc) gradually burns itself out as a heated conflict is resolved between two or more characters 

A character’s profession as a photographer highlights his feeling of detachment from the world - the world “happens” around him, but he can’t engage with it. He’s the cameraman - not the subject. 

Golden Gate Bridge representing two opposite things - gates of heaven, and bridge/road to hell 

A character gets abducted by aliens - the character is named after a biblical figure who ~went to heaven while alive~ (I’m honestly BAFFLED at how I managed to coincidentally give the character the name that I did, because I legitimately know jack shit about the bible lmfao. It’s never been important to me to research names before I name a character, because actual parents don’t name their children with foreknowledge of what their future will entail. So I just name them Whatever.)

A character hates thunderstorms. Thunderstorms = unresolved fears and traumas. Thunder/lightning/wind/heavy rain are emphasized in moments where the character must confront their traumas.

A wise, calm character frequently drinks tea. Other characters, when experiencing moments of clarity, are drinking tea, too 

Threadbare bedsheets symbolizing how time wears things down 

Two characters on opposite sides of a doorway - one side, outdoors, is dark and cold and dreary. The other side, indoors, is light and warm and homey. Symbolizes each character’s current place in life. 

An untrustworthy character always approaches people from behind 

A character happens to be standing near a window every time they mention wanting to be free or every time they feel cornered and want to escape

A character who’s turning their back on their friends and family throws away their welcome mat 

A character whose friends and family are never there for them has a welcome mat that still looks brand new after years of no one coming to visit 

Character A allows character B to wear her deceased husband’s coat - character B can still smell the husband’s sweat in the coat. The husband’s presence still lingers in character A’s life.

The steps of the Lincoln Memorial represent neutral ground. I don’t even know why, but all my scenes that take place at the Lincoln Memorial deal with characters meeting there to bury a hatchet between them.

A character, Steven, symbolizes reality. Madison is an untrustworthy narrator bc he’s just fuckin insane, and Nixon is untrustworthy because he’s biased by his feelings for Madison, but Steven’s perspective is always fact-based, and he has very few personal opinions. Steven sets the record straight. 

Nixon = inner peace and unconditional love 

Franky = confidence and authenticity 

Andromeda galaxy = hope for a better future 

Noise = Madison’s current state of mind. Scenes in which he’s overwhelmed and stressed include vivid descriptions of all the sounds around him. Scenes where he’s calm and collected have little to no emphasis on sound.

Madison’s friend gives him a tattoo of a solar eclipse - Madison wonders if he’s meant to be the sun, or the moon in front of it.

Tactile sensation = scenes where Madison feels safe and comfortable emphasize physical sensations like softness and warmth and smoothness. 

Light = Moments of clarity tend to take place in sunlight, especially surrounded by shadow 

Dark = Moments of fear or uncertainty take place in darkened areas 

Characters that bring negative energy tend to stand in a location that blocks light and casts significant shadow 

Characters that bring positive energy bring light into a room, perhaps by opening a door, pulling back the curtains, or literally just turning the lights on

There’s just??? A lot. And none if it is something I do ~on purpose~ in the sense that I didn’t just sit there and go “Ah, yes, this character feels like an outsider who can’t interact with the world, so I’ll make him a photographer.” It just... happens that way. It’s not something I ever consciously practiced or studied or strove for. It’s just what comes out of my brain when I sit and let a scene play out in my head. I emphasize noise when Madison is overwhelmed because that’s just what I experience when I watch the scene in my head. The welcome mat is unused just because when I watch my character coming home and the “camera” pans downward, an unused welcome mat is what I see there. When character B put on character A’s dead husband’s coat and he smelled the sweat, that’s just... what happened! That’s just how it played out in my head! 

It’s not intentional, but it’s there, and it’s there just because it felt like it should be there. And I’m acutely aware that some people aren’t going to catch those things, or they’ll interpret it differently, or they’ll hone in on completely different details that I would have never noticed, but are in fact right there on the page. 

And I think that’s the fun thing about writing and about storytelling and about art in general. We can convey our vision as vividly as possible, we can go so far out of our way to take the reader/observer exactly where we want them to go, but we don’t really have any control over what they ultimately see or think or feel. It could be meaningless to them, or they can draw conclusions you never meant for them to draw. They can uncover your biases and weaknesses and insecurities, your prejudices, your fears. They can completely miss the point, or they can discover things you tried to keep hidden. It’s all fair game. And that’s! What I love about it! What I intend my work to be is obviously important to me, but someone else is only really going to care about what my work meant to them, and it’s almost definitely not going to be exactly what had in mind. I think that’s fuckin great. I think that’s the only way I know how to connect with other humans. 

[lowkeysebastianstan]

hey there. I totally get your frustration with endgame and the ending. I wasn't happy and I'm not happy how half the fandom tells me/us how we have to look at it. how we have to accept it. how the actors are happy with it and so should we. how the writers/producers - okay, I'm gonna leave them out of this seeing neither of them have any idea what they have done in the first place. after all they disagree on everything in every interview since the release. and isn't that funny? (1/?)

how even they are not on one side with the movie? what I despise most right now when it comes to this movie and this fandom is how we are treated. how we should tag our “hate” - which I think is funny since I didn’t hate the movie entirely. I hated pieces of it, like I did with past movies. I never liked doctor strange and even back then people were allowed to mention how casting cumberbatch for the part wasn’t the smartest idea they had. (2/?)

people want us to be happy with an ending that doesn’t make sense to us and they appreciate and are “allowed” to shove down our throats with their happy posts about a perfect ending. how is taking tony’s life after he finally married pepper and got a daughter is perfect? how is sending steve back to peggy after they did everything in their power to convince us he moved on from his past life…how is that perfect? (3/?)

you can probably tell I’m bitter. I really am. there’s not a day that goes by I’m not frustrated with what we got after ten years and 22 movies. however, I thought to myself what would it give me to cling on to this on my blog. would it change anything? I do know I’m not alone. I see so many people agreeing with this anger and it gives me some sort of peace. at the end of the day, though, it’s also important to see what it gives to you. (4/?)

talking to one of my closest friends about it and voicing my frustration with the end helps me more than keep posting about it. because in the end it won’t change a thing. the longer I surround myself with the frustration and anger and everything that comes with this not being what I had hoped for the more it pushes me from the fandom. of course everyone do as they please and I get people who want to get it out of their system. (5/?)

but maybe sitting down and look at what the constant repeating will give you in the end, realizing where it might end, could help finding some kind of peace for you. I’d hope for you to enjoy the parts of the fandom that still apply to you. I really like your blog and you as a person and I’d hate to see one of my fave people on this site to leave (I lost count, but this is the last)

whew! hi right back, that was quite something. 

i feel ive answered this ask before, was that also you?

i mean, yeah. i know im not alone, i do. i see some of it on my dash, but not a lot, since ive had to block every marvel related tag just to keep from indulging in some light murder (just gentle ones, not to worry), and i really cannot fathom why ppl on the other side of the isle can’t do the same? or if you’re getting tired of the negativity? blacklist. or unfollow, block even. 

as ive said a few times lately, ive been here 6 years. and this is the first time ive aired my frustration in any noticeable way. sure there’s been a few occasions where i got the salt shaker out, but that was in relation to much more limited subjects, and it was a post or two at the most. 

ive been frustrated with previous movies too, but ive kept my trap shut, ive just gone on, kept my queue stocked, giffed the rare set and hid behind pretty solid content, no drama, not personality, no engagement. 

and it’s not too bad, to just be anonymous, to look at the pretty, spread the pretty, do the occasional tag rant, and let that be it. 

but.

when i came back after a long hiatus last autumn i started writing again. i posted a psa where i apologised for the fact that i would reblog my writing on this blog, i informed what tags i was gonna use, and for the first time i actually checked my follower count before and after. i lost 20 followers the first day. for posting writing. my writing. that was tagged to a ridiculous degree. and i saw a fair few more disappear before the exodus, and idk. i made me realise a thing or two.

one, people like my blog and the content i post

two, they’re only here for that content

three, to have a strictly themed blog will limit you horribly

four, my followers in general don’t give a shit about me, only about the content i post, which fair enough

five, i care about that, even if i don’t care about the follower count as such, i do care that the ones i have actually like me

six, which is completely absurd bc none of them knows me at all, i never show myself

but that was then. this is now. and the last weeks has made me realise the most important thing of all, i dont care any more. why the fuck should i? when my showing any kind of negativity about something that i did care a whole lot about but i no longer have?

endgame might have killed all my enthusiasm for the mcu, and it fucking hurts. it’s been a staple in my life for years, ive invested my time, my creativity, my love and my goddamn money, and ive got jack shit to show for it. i have a blog that i used to love, but is becoming alien to me, and that hurts too. ive invested a lot in this blog too, after i deleted a few of my other blogs a couple of years back, this is by far my biggest one. and im torn tbh. 

do i want to leave it? no, i don’t. can i go back? honestly? i doubt it. if my love for the mcu is gone, well so is bucky. and lets be real, a sebastian stan blog with no bucky? i cannot really see it, can you?

but hey. ill make you a deal, all of you. ill ease up on the memes, i won’t stop bc i have a few scheduled, you guys blacklist or unfollow if you dont want to see them, and ill see about sprinkling in some sebastian content if i can find any i deem worth it. 

also i don’t have any close irl friends to air my frustrations with, everyone here loved this crap, and that’s not really the discourse im looking for. but im happy for you, it sounds nice :)

hope you’re having a great day! 

eta: i won’t leave btw. not unless the porn hub thing comes into fruition. just so you know, and if anyone cares. just sayin. 

eta2: also? the fact that i, or we, are complaining and being pissed at the movie, but the opposition are attacking us for doing that? instead of, again, fucking blacklist and leave us the fuck alone? yeah, doesn’t help with the bitter. if y’all are so threatened by our arguments, maybe you should reevaluate your own, seems you’re trying a bit too hard there. i don’t want to take enjoyment from anyone, i envy you too much for that, but ffs, just leave me the fuck alone to deal with it. (that’s not @ you, that’s to them)

eta3: and thank you for saying im someone you like. but see? ive been trolling you all, im terrible. and i expect you don’t like me as much now anyways. but thank you, it was nice to hear nevertheless.

[lestkarrkingofeurope]

(BELATED) MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYONE!

NOW THAT’S OUT OF THE WAY, LET’S FINALLY GET STARTED TO:

LESTKARRKINGOFEUROPE’S NEW YEARS FOLLOW FOREVER!!!

I ACTUALLY DREW THIS LAST NIGHT JUST BEFORE MIDNIGHT WHEN IT HIT 2017 SO WHATEVER AND I’M POSTING IT NOW SO IT’LL BE ON TOP AFTER I POST THE NEW CHAPTERS SO EVERYONE CAN SEE IT YEAH YEAH YEAH LET’S GOOOOO WITH THIS LONG LIST I HAVE PREPARED

@krullish​ - || OH MAN MANDY OKAY I KNOW I WROTE A LONG PARAGRAPH ABOUT YOU IN MY PREVIOUS TAG FOR THE MILESTONE BUT MAN I CAN’T HELP IT TAGGING YOU AGAIN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH???? I’M GRATEFUL THAT YOU’RE MY FRIEND AND YOU’VE STUCK WITH ME NEARLY A YEAR (OR HAS IT ALREADY BEEN A YEAR??? WHO KNOWS) BUT MAN WE’VE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH TOGETHER, LIKE ACTUALLY MEETING UP FACE TO FACE AT ANIME EXPO 2015 THEN HANGING OUT AT ANIME CALIFORNIA THEN JUST DJSGHSKLJGHDF A LOT OF STUFF HAPPENING AND GOING ON!! I’M HONESTLY SO GRATEFUL AND REALLY THANKFUL YOU’RE HERE AS MY FRIEND AND STILL GOING ON AHAHAHAHA I LOVE YOUR MUSES AND JUST YOU IN GENERAL HOW GREAT OF A PERSON YOU ARE! THERE’S SO MUCH MORE I WANTED TO SAY TO YOU BUT AS I WAS TYPING THINGS SLIP MY MIND BC EVERYTHING IS IN A JUMBLE AND I’M JUST TRYING TO TYPE DOWN AS FAST AS I COULD ALL THE THOUGHTS AND THINGS I HAVE TO SAY ABOUT YOU BUT I CAN NEVER TYPE FAST ENOUGH TO SAY IT I’M SORRY DDDD: BUT OTHER THAN THAT BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEARS MANDY! <33333

@thedarkmattergod​ - || YOU FRIGGIN SINNER-- OKAY NOT SINNER BUT MAN I DON’T KNOW WHAT TO SAY ABOUT YOU??? WE HAVE JUST BARELY INTERACTED BUT MAN YOU’RE SUCH A GREAT PERSON IN MY LIFE???? I LOVE HOW YOU JUST APPEAR OUT OF NOWHERE IN THE IM JUST TO TALK AND WE JUST GO OFF ABOUT THE MOST RANDOM THINGS THEN COMPARING KAKINE AND LEST THEN TALKING ABOUT THE ANIME INDEX AND JUST SO MUCH STUFF WHY DO WE DO THIS LOLOLOL AND MOST OF THE TIME WE’RE JUST SHOUTING “FIGHT ME” THEN DOING JACK SHIT TO EACH OTHER LOLOLOL BUT WOW YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON HONESTLY PLEASE NEVER DISAPPEAR AND YOU DESERVE MORE LOVE FOR YOUR BLOG AND MUSE BC HONESTLY YOUR PORTRAYAL OF KAKINE IS GREAT /SLAPS SELF

@lordgeales​ - || I KEEP TAGGING YOU BUT I CAN’T HELP IT BC HONESTLY HOLY SHIT YOU’RE AMAZING-- I KNOW I ALREADY SAID THIS WHEN I LAST TAGGED YOU IN THE MILESTONE POST BUT MAN I’M SO HAPPY THAT WE DRAW TOGETHER JUST FOR AUS BETWEEN LEST AND URD IN THE YOI WORLD AHAHAHAHA I MISS DOING THAT I NEED TO GET BACK INTO THE SWING OF THINGS-- AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT HONEST TO GOD ALPHA YOUR URD IS SO PERFECT LIKE WHAT THE HECK AND WHENEVER HE MENTIONS SOMETHING ABOUT LEST I JUST POP IN OUT OF NOWHERE LIKE “I HAVE BEEN SUMMONED” LOLOLOLOL SORRY THAT I SEEM TO RAMBLE ON TOO MUCH OR BE AWAY FROM MY BLOG FOR A LONG WHILE WHEN YOU DO STUFF THAT INCLUDES MY LEST JDHSFKGJDLJFDSHGLKDFJ I’M JUST A REALLY AWFUL PERSON WHO’S TOO INVESTED INTO GAMING SO I HOPE THAT YOU FORGIVE ME DDDDD: I LOVE YOU DON’T LEAVE-- /CLINGS TO TIGHTLY

@brassboundvalkyrie​ - || BEST MUM HERE ALWAYS SUPPORTING AND PROTECTING BOTH ME AND LEST AHHAHAHAHA HONESTLY THO I KNOW I ALREADY SAW THIS LAST TIME BUT HORN RLLY IS A GREAT MOTHER FIGURE TBH ;;;;; IF WE WENT AU AND IGNORED CANON, I WOULD DEF CHOOSE HORN TO BE LEST’S MOTHER FIGURE IF NOT BLOOD-TIED JFGHSDKFGHDLFD YOU’RE SUCH A SWEET PERSON AND KIND MUN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THANK YOU FOR ALWAYS POPPING IN RANDOMLY INTO MY IM TO SEND NICE MESSAGES AND JUST TO FRIENDLY CHAT EVERY NOW AND THEN I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!! WE FIRST STARTED OFF AS BARELY KNOWING EACH OTHER AND TALKING BUT NOW HERE WE ARE WITH SUCH A WARM RELATIONSHIP???? THANK YOU FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND GIVING ME A CHANCE TO DO SO DDDD: I LOVE YOU SO MUCH STAY AWESOME!

@impaler-prince​ - || MAN OKAY YEAH WE HAVEN’T TALKED OR INTERACTED IN A LONG TIME (partially my fault OTL) BUT LIKE OH BOIIIIII I MISS US INTERACTING LIKE YOU’RE SUCH A COOL PERSON AND I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU EVEN GAVE ME A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU??? LIKE HONESTLY I LOVE ROLEPLAYING WITH YOU, AND YOUR ART (STYLE) IS ONE EXAMPLE OF WHAT I ASPIRE TO BE HONESTLY, WITH HOW CONFIDENT YOUR LINING AND COLOURING SEEMS TO BE??? MINE IS LIKE STILL HESITANT AND CAUTIOUS BUT WELL I’M GETTING THERE SO DON’T WORRY! BUT ALL IN ALL I’M JUST GLAD YOU’RE HERE AND I’M SORRY TO ALWAYS BE THE ONE TAGGING YOU IN RANDOM STUFF HAHAHA BUT SERIOUSLY I JUST REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT YOU TO KNOW I APPRECIATE THE HELL OUT OF YOU AND DON’T WANT YOU TO THINK OTHERWISE, OKAY??? STAY GOLD FRIENDO!

@seventh-progenitor-ferid-bathory​ - || ASH YA SINNER HERE I AM AGAIN TAGGING YOU AGAIN EVEN IF WE HAVEN’T TALKED IN AWHILE BC IM BAD AT KEEPING CONTACT -LAYS DOWN AT YOUR FEET- PLEASE FORGIVE FOR THAT I SWEAR I LOVE YOU OKAY IM JUST TOO INVESTED INTO GAMING IT’S A BAD HABIT PLEASE SUE ME DDDDDD: BUT I STILL ENJOY WHERE EVEN IF WE HAVEN’T TALKED IN A WHILE, EITHER YOU OR ME CAN JUST SEND EACH OTHER A RANDOM MESSAGE ABOUT FERID OR LEST OR ONS IN GENERAL THEN SUDDENLY BAM WE’RE OFF TALKING AND SCREAMING AND SAYING/COMMENTING THE MOST RANDOM OF THINGS THAT I HAVE TO SHARE HERE ON TUMBLR BC IT’S SO AMUSING??? I’M REALLY GLAD YOU’RE HERE AND BEING MY FRIEND :DDDDD 

@fortisgladio​ - || *QUOTES MANDY* “LIME GREEN PEPE” OKAY SORRY I WON’T DO THAT AGAIN BUT YOU REALLY ARE A MEME LOLOLOL SORRY ABOUT NOT TALKING MUCH SINCE I’VE BEEN AWAY FROM TUMBLR FOR SO LONG AND EVEN THEN I RARELY EVER REPLY TO ANYONE’S MESSAGES, WHETHER HERE ON TUMBLR OR FB, I JUST NEVER SEEM TO REPLY BC I’M TOO INVESTED INTO GAMING I’M AN AWFUL PERSON DDDDD: I KNOW I ALREADY SAID SO MUCH ABOUT YOU IN MY MILESTONE POST, BUT HONESTLY I CAN NEVER SEEM TO FULLY EXPRESS HOW MUCH I LOVE AND APPRECIATE YOU??? YOU’RE ONE INSANE WRITER AND ROLEPLAYER, AND MUN HERSELF IS JUST....A BRILLIANT PERSON??? EVERYONE DESERVES TO KNOW YOU AND BASK IN YOUR GLORY BC YOU’RE TRULY ONE HELL OF A GREAT FRIEND AND PERSON???? DON’T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE AND YOU’RE FOREVER ONE OF THE COOLEST PEOPLE I’LL EVER HAVE AS A FRIEND <33333 

@forgottenprogenitor​ - || OH MY GOD YOU-- SERIOUSLY I’M SO SORRY FOR NOT REPLYING BACK TO YOUR MESSAGES AND WHEN YOU’VE TAGGED ME IN SOMETHING BC USUALLY WHEN YOU DO, I SEE IT ON MOBILE AND I HATE TEXTING/TALKING ON MOBILE OR JUST TYPING IN GENERAL, AND MOST OF THE TIME WHEN IM ON PC I’M JUST PLAYING GAMES SO BASICALLY---WHAT I WANNA SAY IS I’M A LAZY PERSON AND AWFUL WHEN IT COMES TO SHOW APPRECIATION FOR THE AMAZING THINGS AND WORKS FRIENDS DO DDDDD: SO I WANT TO TAKE THIS AS A CHANCE TO EXPRESS TO YOU AND THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE, THINGS YOU’VE INCLUDED ME AND LEST IN, AND JUST BASICALLY BEING HERE IN THE FANDOM AND BEING WHO YOU ARE! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BEING MY FRIEND AND INTERACTING WITH ME, I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH <3333

@divincndo​ - || OH MY GOD YOU-- YOUUUUU--- YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BIG OF A HEART ATTACK YOU GAVE ME WHEN I WENT TO CHAT WITH YOU ON IM OR TO CHECK YOUR BLOG IN GENERAL TO SEE THAT YOU DEACTIVATED???? I PANICKED LIKE OH GOD WHERE DID YOU GO DID YOU POST ABOUT A NEW BLOG TO FOLLOW OR DID I MISS IT?? BC THEN I FELT SO BAD AND I WAS UNSURE OF WHO WAS A MUTUAL WITH ME OR FOLLOWED ME AND KNEW ABOUT YOU AND I WAS LIKE “OH GOD WHERE DID THEY GO” AND WENT TO MAKE A POST ABOUT IT ASKING FOR YOU BUT NO ONE EVER REPLIED--UNTIL YOU MESSAGED ME YOURSELF ON YOUR NEW BLOG THEN SOMEONE COMMENTED ON MY POST YOUR NEW BLOG URL FDJGHDSKLFJG LIKE OKAY I’M GLAD I FOUND YOU AGAIN BUT OH MY GOD LITERAL HEART ATTACK ;; YOU SCARED ME I THOUGHT I LOST YOU FOREVER AND NO ONE WOULD EVER TELL ME WHERE YOU WENT AND I’D FEEL SO BAD BC THEN I FELT LIKE A LOST A GOOD FRIEND DDDD: PLEASE NEVER SCARE ME LIKE THAT AGAIN I LOVE YOUR MUSE AND BLOG, AND JUST MUN IN GENERAL <33333 I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT OKAY?

@stardustrhapsody​/@fearedexistence​ - || GOD I CAN’T KEEP TRACK OF ALL YOUR BLOGS ANYMORE OR WHICH BLOG YOU’LL SEE THIS ON BUT IF YOU DO SEE THIS THEN HERE GOES-- DEEP BREATH I APPRECIATE YOU SO MUCH AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH AND I CAN NEVER EXPRESS TO YOU HOW MUCH YOU BEING MY FRIEND REALLY MEANS TO ME I’M SO GLAD WE’VE MET AND ALTHOUGH WE NEVER SEEM TO TALK TO EACH OTHER ANYMORE, WHETHER YOU’RE BUSY WITH IRL STUFF, YOUR BLOG, OR JUST IN GENERAL DON’T KNOW WHETHER OR NOT YOU SHOULD MESSAGE ME, JUST KNOW THAT PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOU AND HOPE TO FOREVER KEEP YOU AS A CLOSE FRIEND! YOU ARE THE SWEETEST GUY I’VE EVER MET AND YOU’RE A WONDERFUL PERSON, AND I MISS OUR RABBIT HANGOUTS AND ETC. WHERE WE WATCH STUFF TOGETHER, BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AND I’M ALWAYS FREE TO TALK TO--AND I’LL START BOTHERING YOU MORE IN 2017 TO HANGOUT LOLOLOL SO LOOK FORWARD TO THAT! AND YEAH I ALSO KNOW THAT YOU’VE BEEN HOOKED ONTO GAMING SO THAT’S THAT BUT DW I’M LIKE THAT TOO SO ???? RIP LOLOLOL BUT SERIOUSLY KAI, YOU’RE AN AWESOME D00D AND FRIEND TO HAVE, DON’T LET ANYONE TELL YOU OTHERWISE ALRIGHT? LOVE YOU SO MUCH KAI, HERE’S A BIG HUG FROM A SALTY WAVE <33333

Okay, I’m going to make an effort to write a little something for everyone else I’m going to tag, instead of being the lazy ass I am when I did my milestone post, and say what’s on my mind--bc honestly everyone I mention I have something to say to and talk about, but my laziness gets in the way and it irks me DDD: I really want to show and express to you guys just HOW MUCH I love and appreciate EVERY DAMN SINGLE ONE OF YOU! SO HERE’S SOME LOVE FROM A SALTY WAVE FROM ME!

@ferid-trash-bathory​ - || ALRIGHT WHAT DO I SAY TO YOU?? WELL HONESTLY THE MAIN THING I WANT TO TELL YOU IS THAT 1) YOUR FERID IS G R E A  T 2) MUN IS A FUNNY AND BRILLIANT PERSON 3) THANK YOU FOR BEING THE MEME YOU ARE, YOU’RE REALLY APPRECIATED AND I LOVE THE SILLY INTERACTIONS WE HAVE BETWEEN LEST AND FERID EVERY NOW AND THEN <3

@tatsu-rose-bathory​ - || YOU LITTLE CHIBI--WELL NOT REALLY SINCE YOU’RE ALSO A MOTHER BUT YOU GET WHAT I MEAN-- YOU REALLY LIKE TO PICK A BONE WITH LEST AND ALWAYS GET HURT IN RETURN, I’M REALLY SORRY ABOUT THAT DDD: LEST IS AN HONEST PRICK AHHHH BUT MUN IS A VERY SWEET PERSON THANK YOU FOR TAKING THE TIME TO BOTHER MY LEST SO I’M NOT BORED LOLOLOL 

@rigr-stafford​ - || I STILL HAVE YET TO GET BACK TO THE THREAD YOU TAGGED ME IN I’M SORRY ABOUT THAT I JUST PROCRASTINATE ALOT SOBS-- BUT NOT ONLY THAT BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AND I CAN’T THANK YOU ENOUGH FOR HELPING ME SETTLE THE HEADER FOR BLOG ;;; THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR MAKING IT WORK AND HELPING MY BLOG LOOK MORE DECENT YOU’RE THE BEST <3

@mithosofcruxis​ - || C OUGHS LOUDL Y  AT  YO U -- YOU’RE AN AWESOME PERSON AND I KNOW I’VE SAID THIS SO MUCH BUT LIKE I DONT KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY TO SHOW/EXPRESS THAT FACT??? YOU HONESTLY ARE AND I LOVE HOW REFINED YOUR CHARACTER IS, AND HOW SWEET THE MUN IS DDDD: THANK YOU FOR PUTTING UP WITH MY SLOW SELF <3

@bloodthirstylacus​ - || HEY I KNOW WE NEVER REALLY TALK, AND THE ONLY TIME WE TALK/INTERACT IS WHEN YOU SEND MY LEST RANDOM ASKS BUT HEY I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW THAT I APPRECIATE YOU DOING THAT AND YOU’RE A COOL PERSON! THANK YOU FOR BEING IN THE ONS FANDOM AND ROLEPLAYING LACUS <3

@mad-eggs-onthewall​ - || HHHHH I KNOW I ALREADY MENTIONED YOU IN MY OTHER POST BUT MAN MAN MAN I LOVE READING YOUR POSTS AS HUMPTY AND DUMPTY EVERY NOW AND THEN AND HOW YOU WRITE--AND YOUR INTERACTIONS WITH GREY ;;;; yesistalkyoupleasesuemeLOL YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AND ROLEPLAYER, AND MUN IN GENERAL AN AWESOME PERSON! 

@panadabro​/@simply-emily24​ - || GUYS YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT I’M GOING TO SAY BUT WHO CARES I’M GONNA SAY IT AGAIN BC I HAVE TO LET YOU GUYS KNOW AGAIN HOW MUCH I APPRECIATE YOUR HARD WORK AND EFFORTS THAT YOU GUYS PUT IN TO TRANSLATE THE NEW RAWS FOR ONS IT REALLY REALLY SAVES MY LIFE THANK YOU FOR DEALING WITH ME WHENEVER I SUDDENLY POP INTO YOUR IM RANDOMLY ASKING FOR HELPING WITH TRANSLATION DDDD: <3

@cxndytuft​ - || HEY I KNOW IT’S BEEN A WHILE BUT LET ME JUST--- *SMOOTHLY SLIDES IN FRONT OF YOU* ....HELLO THERE LOLOLOL HOW’S IT BEEN? YOU’RE A SWEET PERSON AND EVEN TALKING TO ME WHEN YOU MOVED BLOGS LIKE I WAS THINKING “THIS LEGENDARY ALOIS CONSIDERS ME, SOMEONE FROM ANOTHER FANDOM, WORTHY ENOUGH TO BE ACKNOWLEDGED??? HAS GOD SPOKEN TO ME THIS DAY???” LOLOLOL SORRY THAT WAS OVERDRAMATIC BUT THAT’S HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU OKAY JUST KNOW THAT <3333

@totally-hiiragi-mahiru - || HERE YOU ARE AGAIN STILL SPAMMING MY NEWSFEED EVERY NOW AND THEN OR RATHER SPAMMING MY NOTIFICATIONS BY MASS LIKING MY POSTS LOLOL THANK YOU FOR THE SPAM, I APPRECIATE THE NOTION OF IT??? STAY COOL YOU TROUBLEMAKER <3 

@repulsc - || WHERE DID YOU COME FROM WHERE DID YOU GO-- NO SERIOUSLY WHERE DID YOU GO YOU MESSING WITH LEST AND TAUNTING HIM WAS GREAT I MISS IT DDDD: ALSO SEEING YOU AND LORDGEALES INTERACT TOO IS FUNNY AND AMUSING TO WATCH AS WELL! PLEASE COME BACK WHERE DID YOU GOOOO I KNOW YOUR YU BLOG B U T ST  I L L -HUGS YOU TIGHTLY-

@makotonarumi/@dusksovereign/@taodhair - || DAMN TSUNAMI! BACK AT IT AGAIN WITH TAGGING ALL THREE BLOGS! SORRY LOLOLOL I HONESTLY DON’T KNOW WHICH BLOG YOU CHECK THE MOST FREQUENTLY SO I’M TAGGING ALL THREE JUST TO GET YOUR ATTENTION AND TELL YOU THAT I MISS THE HELL OUT OF YOU AND LOOK FORWARD TO YOUR RETURN AND FURTHER INTERACTIONS BETWEEN LEST AND CROWLEY AND NARUMI <333 STILL HAVE YET TO FACE KURETO BUT WE’LL SEE LOLOLOL 

@asurayuucentral - || LOOK AT YOUUUU ALWAYS COMING IN TO BOTHER MY LEST LOLOLOL I LOVE IT WHENEVER YOU DO? MUN IS A VERY OUTGOING AND CHEERFUL PERSON, PLEASE CONTINUE TO BE IN THE FANDOM AND DO WHAT YOU DO ALRIGHT? <3

@lyserg42 - || MAN I TOTALLY FORGOT HOW WE EVEN FIRST MET BUT I JUST REMEMBER YOUR URL AND JUST YOU IN GENERAL AS WHO YOU ARE AND I APPRECIATE YOU BEING MY FRIEND??? EVEN IF WE RARELY TALK AND IT’S JUST TO COMMENT ON RANDOM THINGS THAT LEST DOES, I’M STILL REALLY GLAD YOU TAKE AMUSEMENT IN WATCHING LEST AND WHATEVER SHIT HE PULLS LOLOL 

@these-evil-hands - || HELLO HI YES HELLO YOU MAY NOT KNOW ME BUT CAN I TELL YOU I LOVE YOUR BLOG AND MUSE FOR LELOUCH??? THANK YOU FOR GIVING MY LEST A CHANCE AND I KNOW YOU MAY BE BUSY OR AT ROUGH TIMES LOSE MUSE EVERY NOW AND THEN, BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON SO STAY GOLD!

@masterofzawarudo - || OKAY YOU-- DIO YOURSELF-- ARE AN ASS AND IF YOU SO DARE LAY A HAND ON MY SON, THEN I’LL SHOW YOU WHAT A REAL GOD OF THE UNIVERSE IS-- EVEN MORE SO THAN THAT-- Now Mun on the other hand is a really cool person and deserves love and hugs :DDDD Your presence is appreciated <3 Please look forward to the fellow High Progenitors facing off with Dio :DDD

@no-signs-no-lights - || Hello hello! I know you’re not in the OnS fandom anymore, but I still really appreciate and love your blog! And the previous contributions you’ve made to the fandom :DDDDD I look forward to a new year still stalking I MEAN following your blog for YoI content and more!

@rutilisanguinis - || I KNOW YOU’RE RARELY ACTIVE NOW BUT JUST KNOW THAT US ROLEPLAYERS STILL REMEMBERS YOU AND YOUR CROWLEY AND ARE STILL HERE TO INTERACT WITH AND JUST TALK WITH IN GENERAL <3 YOUR PORTRAYAL OF CROWLEY IS GREAT AND WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR I WAS RLLY TIMID TO APPROACH ANYONE BUT YOU’RE A REALLY NICE PERSON SO THANK YOU FOR LETTING ME TALK WITH YOU! YOU’RE AN AWESOME PERSON! <3

@iojosamakrul - || I HAVENT SEEN OR HEARD FROM YOU AWHILE BUT I HOPE YOU’RE STILL ABLE TO SEE THIS BC I KNOW WE ONLY INTERACTED LIKE ONCE, BUT IT WAS REALLY CUTESY BETWEEN KRUL AND LEST AND YOUR MUSE FOR KRUL IS CUTE TOO I LOVE IT??? PLEASE KEEP ROLEPLAYING IN THIS FANDOM WE APPRECIATE YOUR MUSE <3

@brokenhexrt - || IM AN AWFUL PERSON I STILL HAVE YET TO GET TO OUR THREAD AND MAN IT’S BEEN SUCH A WHILE IM SORRY THAT I SUCK SO MUCH AT ANSWERING TO THREADS I STILL HAVE ONES TO REPLY TO FROM MONTHS AGO??? BUT D00D YOUR ART--- SJHGSLKJHFDK YOUR ART STYLE IS AN EXAMPLE OF WHAT I ASPIRE TO BE AND WORK TO BE ;;; EVEN YOUR DOODLES WITHOUT LINING LOOKS SO FLAWLESS I’M JEALOUS AS HECK HOW DO YOU EVEN DO IT??? YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON AHHHH! 

@narcasse - || WAIT DID YOU REPLY TO OUR THREAD YET OR IS IT YOUR TURN???? IM SORRY IM JUST REALLY WORRIED BC I REALLY LOVE THE ROLEPLAY GOING ON BETWEEN US, AND LIKE I TAGGED YOU AND THE OTHER ARSLAN MUSES IN, YOU ARE HONESTLY A GREAT MUSE AND BLOG FOR NARSUS AND AM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU GUYS PUT SO MUCH EFFORT INTO A SMALL FANDOM FGJSHGLJKERGDFG I WISH TO JOIN YOU GUYS SOON!! <333

@kaikhosrow - || OH BOI LIKE WITH NARSUS I’M SO PLEASED TO SEE YOU GUYS PORTRAYING THE MUSES OF THE ARSLAN SENKI CHARAS SO FLAWLESSLY AND PUTTING IN SO MUCH EFFORT FOR IT??? AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT MUN YOURSELF IS SO SWEET AND KIND FDHGSKLDJGHSLDFK WHAT IS THIS BOTH MUN AND MUSE ARE CINNAMON ROLLS? HONESTLY THOUGH YOU GUYS ARE REALLY APPRECIATED!!! <3333 

@gievememusic - || I KNOW WE ALREADY TALKED EARLIER BUT PLEASE STOP BEING SO FLUSTERED!!! MY WORDS ARE HONEST AND YOUR BLOG FOR GIEVE REALLY MAKES ME LAUGH AND YOU PORTRAY HIM WONDERFULLY!!! I STILL CAN’T GET OVER YOUR URL AND I KNOW I SAID THAT SO MANY TIMES BUT I JUST DON’T KNOW WHY IT GETS ME SO MUCH AHAHAHAHA BUT YOU’RE A GREAT PERSON!

@priinve - || YOU ONLY KNOW ME FROM CHATTING IN IM BUT /DEEP BREATHS/ CAN I JUST SAY YOUR PORTRAYAL OF HILMES IS JUST ???? SO PERFECT AND ON POINT?? AGAIN I’M REALLY THANKFUL THAT REALLY TALENTED WRITERS AND MUNS LIKE YOU GUYS CONTRIBUTE SO MUCH TO A SMALL FANDOM FGJSHKDJGSHLD THE SHOW DEFINITELY DESERVES MORE CREDIT!!! THANK YOU FOR BRINGING LIFE TO A SMALL FANDOM YOU’RE AN AWESOME PERSON!!!

@progenitress - || I KNOW YOU DON’T POST ANYMORE AND ARE PROBABLY INACTIVE BUT /DEEP BREATH/ WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR AND SAW YOUR BLOG FOR KRUL, IT WAS HONESTLY THE MOST BEAUTIFULLY WRITTEN AND FLAWLESS BLOG I’VE EVER SEEN??? AND I WAS JUST REALLY AWED AND REALLY WANTED TO INTERACT WITH YOU BUT I WAS STILL GETTING USED TO THINGS DDD: BUT NOW YOU’RE GONE /SOBS/ I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOUR MUSE AND BLOG FOR KRUL THOUGH AND HOW AWESOME YOU WERE WITH PLAYING HER!!

@kinglest - || HEY THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE--JUST KIDDING LOLOLOL AND oh my goodness alpha if I have to be honest with you, I honestly really really think your portrayal of Lest, at least the way you write him and how he acts, is far more canon and flawless than how I do it??? I’m really jealous LOLOLOL but seriously the way you portray him honestly seems so perfect?? DDD: I FEEL SO BOTTOM-TIER COMPARED TO YOU FJHGSLKJGFDE I JUST WANTED TO GET THAT OUT OF THE WAY OKAY SO I’M GONNA RUN NOW FJGSHKDLFJ I’M NOT YOUR SENPAI LOLOLOL I AM BUT A SALTY WAVE 

@xemissarium - || DEEP BREATHS-- I REALLY STILL AM LOOKING FORWARD TO INTERACTING WITH YOU DESPITE ME KNOWING YOU’RE PROBABLY BUSY WITH OTHER THREADS OR JUST WITH IRL STUFF IN GENERAL DDDD: BUT YOUR BLOG IS AMAZING AND YOUR MUSE FOR MIKA IS GREAT AHAHAHA I ACTUALLY DON’T THINK I’VE SEEN A MIKA BLOG AS OF LATELY WHICH IS SURPRISING??? I’VE ONLY SEEN BLOGS OF VAMPIRES SO MAYBE I’M MISSING OUT ON SOMETHING BUT HEY YOU’RE HERE SO LET ME JUST STAY CLINGING TO YOU :DDDDD pleaselovemeokay /SLAPS SELF 

@sassygreytea - || OKAY YOU MAY NOT KNOW ME AND HAVE NO IDEA WHY I AM TAGGING YOU-- AND I ALREADY TAGGED YOU IN MY MILESTONE POST BUT SERIOUSLY I HAVE SOMETHING I WANT TO SAY TO YOU AT LEAST DDDD: YOUR PORTRAY OF EARL GREY IS BEAUTIFUL AND FLAWLESS, AND YOUR INTERACTIONS WITH ANYONE IN GENERAL IS REALLY GREAT I LOVE OCCASIONALLY SEEING YOUR POSTS COME ACROSS MY DASH AND READING THEM BECAUSE THEY’RE SO IN-CHARACTER AND YOUR WRITING STYLE IS ADMIRABLE???? STAY GOLD AS YOU ARE! I LOOK FORWARD TO CONTINUE FOLLOWING YOUR BLOG AND SEEING YOUR WRITING! :DDD 

@sassyshinoahiiragi - || I DUNNO IF YOU’RE THE SAME PERSON AS SASSYKRULTEPES BUT I WILL SAY SEPARATE COMMENTS TO BOTH BC I HAVE PERSONAL THINGS TO SAY-- YOU’VE BEEN HERE SINCE WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR AND WOW THAT’S A LOT OF DEDICATION RIGHT THERE! AND I HAVENT SEEN MANY ROLEPLAY BLOGS FOR THE HUMAN SIDE OF ONS SO I’M REALLY SUPER THANKFUL YOU’RE HERE AND THAT YOU ROLEPLAY SHINOA OKAY??? PLEASE NEVER DISAPPEAR AND KNOW THAT YOUR BLOG IS LOVED <3

@sassykrultepes - || I DUNNO IF ITS ME OR YOU, BUT I HAVEN’T SEEN YOUR BLOG IN A WHILE PASSING MY DASH SO I DUNNO DID YOU GO INACTIVE??? I’M REALLY SAD TO KNOW THAT BUT I WANT TO LET YOU KNOW YOUR KRUL MUSE WAS ONE OF THE BEST THAT CAUGHT MY EYE WHEN I WAS STILL GETTING USED TO TUMBLR, AND WOW WOW WOW I CAN’T BELIEVE SOMEONE WOULD BE ABLE TO PULL OFF THE SAME MUSE AS A FEW OTHER PEOPLE, BUT PUT SUCH A DISTINCT DIFFERENCE IN THE PORTRAYAL YET STILL AUDIBLY MAKE IT SEEM LIKE KRUL’S CHARACTER??? YOU’RE REALLY AMAZING AND I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT!

@krul-tan - || OH MAN ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE WE TALKED, AND THE LAST TIME I EVER SAW YOU WAS AT ANIME CALIFORNIA (YOU’RE SO CUTE BTW AND I LOVED SEEING YOUR KRUL TEPES COSPLAY IN PERSON!!!) I MISS YOUR BLOG AND SEE THAT YOU’VE GONE SOMEWHAT INACTIVE ON IT, BUT THAT’S FINE I STILL FOLLOW YOUR MAIN BLOG BUT MAN DO I MISS SEEING YOUR KRUL DOODLES AND INTERACTIONS WITH SEVENTH-PROGENITOR-FERID-BATHORY BC HONESTLY YOU’RE A REALLY COOL AND GREAT PERSON!! I LOVE YOUR ART SO MUCH TOO AHHHH!

@offreespirit - || LULU NO-- OKAY JKJK THAT WON’T BE THE ONLY THING I SAY THIS TIME OKAY LOLOLOL BUT OH BOI MAN I KNOW YOU’RE IN A DIFFERENT FANDOM AND I UTTERLY LOST THE URL AGAIN BUT I STILL HOPE YOU SEE THIS DDDD: I MISS SEEING YOU ROLEPLAY IN THE ONS FANDOM AND TALKING TO YOU, BUT THAT’S MAINLY MY FAULT BC WHENEVER I GO TO REPLY I WANDER OFF WATCHING VIDEOS AND FORGET I’M SORRY ;;;; BUT PLEASE KNOW THAT YOU WERE ONE OF THE VERY FIRST BLOGS I SAW WHEN I FIRST JOINED TUMBLR AND REALLY CAUGHT MY EYE! AND I’M GLAD WE’RE FRIENDS STILL NOW :DDDDD <3

@lvstforblood - || AW MAN WHERE DID YOU GO???? YOUR BLOG WAS SO PERFECT AND YOUR MUSE WAS FERID WAS AMAZING?? YOU WERE REALLY SERIOUS AT TIME AND IN-CHARACTER WITH FERID, AND I WAS JUST AT AWE HOW SOMEONE CAN PULL OFF A MUSE JUST LIKE THAT??? I REALLY MISS SEEING YOUR WRITING AS FERID DDDDD: 

@13andthecross - || I KNOW YOU SAID YOU WERE ON A HIATUS OR RATHER JUST DEALIN WITH STUFF IRL AND IT’S HARD GETTING BACK INTO WRITING, BUT I ASSURE YOU THE FANDOM IS STILL OPEN TO YOU AND HERE TO WELCOME YOU BACK AND INTERACT WITH YOU AGAIN! SO DON’T BE AFRAID TO GET BACK ON YOUR MUSE AND ROLEPLAY WITH PEOPLE! YOU’RE A WELL-KNOWN CROWLEY IN THE FANDOM AND A GREAT MUN!!! WE LOVE YOU! <3

@fallen-asura - || HHHH I DON’T EVEN KNOW IF YOU’LL SEE THIS AT ALL BECAUSE YOU’VE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG....BUT YOU WERE ONE OF THE VERY FIRST ASURAS I MET ON TUMBLR AND GAVE ME A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU! AND YOU USED TO BE SO ACTIVE AND ROLEPLAYED WITH SO MUCH PEOPLE DDDDD: THE FANDOM SEEMS SO EMPTY AND LONELY WITHOUT HAVIN YOU AROUND JUMPING EVERYWHERE AND INTERACTING WITH EVERYONE! I REALLY MISS YOU AHHHHHH I HOPE YOU’RE ALRIGHT!!!! BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEARS IF YOU HAPPEN TO SEE THIS! <3

@fifthprogenitorkyluc - || HEY I KNOW YOU’RE NEW HERE BUT I’M ALWAYS OPEN TO INTERACT WITH AND I’M REALLY HAPPY THAT YOU’VE TAKEN THE MUSE UP FOR A NEWLY INTRODUCED CHARACTER!!! I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO SEEING YOU ROLEPLAY IN THIS FANDOM AND INTERACTING WITH YOU!! WELCOME WELCOME!!

@f-unny-bones - || I KNOW IT WAS JUST RECENT THAT WE STARTED TALKING TO EACH OTHER BUT WOW DO I REALLYLOVE YOUR MUSE FOR UNDERTAKER AND STILL HAVE YET TO ACTUALLY SEND SOMETHING FOR US TO INTERACT WITH???? IM JUST--REALLY SHY OKAY AND I STILL HAVE TO SORT OUT THE CURRENT THREADS I HAVE WITH OTHERS AND INTERACTIONS I HAVE PLANNED JGHSDKGJDFLGSD THANK YOU FOR GIVING ME A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH YOU YOU’RE REALLY GREAT!!!

@grotesque-puppet - || I LOVE YOUR ROLEPLAY BETWEEN US RIGHT NOW!! YOU’RE INCREDIBLY DETAILED WITH YOUR WORDS AND WRITING AND JUST WOW HOW DO YOU DO IT??? YOU SEEM SO SOPHISTICATED AND REFINED WITH YOUR WRITING THAT OKAY I’LL ADMIT I’M INTIMIDATED BY AND WISH I CAN BE LIKE THAT??? THE PATIENCE TO GO THROUGH TO WEAVE TOGETHER SUCH DETAILED SENTENCES THAT CREATES A TAPESTRY OF IMAGERY IS BRILLIANT!!! I LOOK FORWARD TO CONTINUE ROLEPLAYING AND INTERACTING WITH YOU <3

HHHHH I’M REALLY SCARED TO END THE LIST HERE....BECAUSE I DEFINITELY KNOW I FORGOT A LOT OF PEOPLE AND I FEEL SO BAD ABOUT THAT??? THERE ARE A LOT OF PEOPLE THAT REALLY STOOD OUT TO ME AND MEANS A LOT TO ME BUT BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH WORDS GOING ON IN MY HEAD YOUR URLS COMPLETELY SLIPPED MY MIND??? I AM SO SO SORRY ABOUT THAT AHHHHH !

IF I FORGOT YOU, PLEASE I ASK OF YOU TO IM ME BECAUSE THERE REALLY IS SOMETHING I HAVE TO SAY TO EVERYONE, ANYONE, WHO SEES THIS POST AND WASN’T TAGGED IN! FOR SURE I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY ABOUT YOU AND I /HAVE/ TO SAY IT TO YOU BC I HAVE TO SHOW AND EXPRESS JUST HOW MUCH I LOVE AND APPRECIATE EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU!!!

OTHER THAN THAT, I’VE BEEN WORKING ON THIS FOR (I shit you not) FIVE HOURS BECAUSE I’VE BEEN TRYING TO LIST PEOPLE AND REMEMBER URLS FDJSHGLKJGHLDFKJ THEN GETTING DISTRACTED AND TALKING WITH OTHER PEOPLE AND JUST IT’S BEEN A HUGE MESS, AND NOT ONLY THAT CELEBRATION FOR THE NEW YEARS IS STILL GOING ON PLEASE SAVE ME FJDGHSKDJHGLSFDKJ 

THAT SAID, I KNOW I STILL HAVE A LOT TO SAY, BUT IT’S 5 AM AS I FINISH THIS AND WILL POST TOMORRW AFTER THE NEW CHAPTER, BUT JUST KNOW THAT I REALLY LOVE AND APPRECIATE EVERYONE HERE THAT’S BEEN FOLLOWING MY BLOG!! ALL OF YOU ARE WONDERFUL PEOPLE!!!

AGAIN, A BELATED MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEARS FROM BOTH MUN AND LEST!! <3 <3 <3

[dlandofdreams]

If I were to nail it down,

Things I just don’t like/am biased about:

I’m against disneys live action remake era in general. I like new stories more than sequels/remakes/adaptations. I don’t like pandering to nostalgia. And if you were to try to cash in on it, you would want to emphasize on the parts that are nostalgic to people. Not change. Not to say that they are bad movies though. There’s just no winning. Change too much and people complain when it’s different. Change too little and “it doesn’t stand up to the original.” People want to hear their “songs from childhood.” Want their favorite characters to have a role. I think that’s kinda mehhh so you’d think that I’d like mulan. I personally like the reimaginings and twists of the new versions far more than just copying the original straight up, but it’s a thin line. And I don’t know if it’s worth it to tell the same story (when it is the same, at least). But hey it makes the bucks.

I also get why they don’t do this, but I wish that it would more be of Disney getting the rights to distribute Chinese adaptations of mulan rather than make a Hollywood one. To promote Chinese made studios to a wider audience rather than captivating the audience to yourself. Again, makes more sense to just make your own but there are already a few mulan adaptations that will just get buried even further by Disney just cuz it’s bigger. The silver lining is that it’s made by Chinese people for a more accurate and true to the culture telling of the story, but Disney saturates out the market of what will be the version kids first see and the most popular versions of these tales. It’s just sort of disingenuous to me as a company, so I’m really wary of Disney.

I’m biased against anything people like bc im an asshole. Plain and simple.

Things that changed that I didn’t like:

Again, I’m not into pandering. If it is just for them to do justice to the original legend and iconic character, then sure, adapt away. But I know it’s just for the Chinese market to invest more in Disney. It’s to tell China hey you’re right, we’ll tell it your way. And just bc im really stubborn, i don’t like how it’s almost like the animated film was a mistake so they’re making up for it. This probably is not the case, but it feels like an attack and I’m stupidly taking it personally. Of course, that doesn’t matter, but it’s why I wouldn’t want to watch the live action Disney film. I’ve always said that pandering is still progress when it comes to brands supporting causes because at least there is acknowledgement and opportunity, (but of course we could always do better) but this one is just not something I’m up for. It’s still good. The cast and crew are promising, it looks great, there’s nothing wrong with the direction they’re taking. But I just can’t trust that the company actually cares, and can’t ignore it bending to rebrand as acceptable to China.

Adaptations don’t have to be accurate. Depending on the story they mean to tell, it doesn’t have to be a period piece. Taking creative liberties is part of the expression of the writers and directors and producers and everyone else. Of course, setting, timing, clothing, all that would need to be accurate for immersion and imagery reasons. But saying “a Chinese girl of that era would never do those things!” doesn’t make sense to me when Disney’s animated film IS fiction. They had their own themes they were tackling and their own version of the characters to depict it. Jack and Rose didn’t have an epic romance on the titanic. Lincoln isn’t a vampire slayer. If they want a more accurate adaptation, good for them! Just don’t imply that the other one was wrong and therefore invalid.

I don’t really care much about cutting out the Disney additional characters in the movie. There’s only so much world building you can do in a poem from centuries ago. They’re not necessary for Mulan’s story. But there’s always been a bit of a moral in gender in her legend. Not just about societal roles, but also in gender expression. And that’s something that I sort of found interesting about the main cast of Mulan. I don’t want to go too too much into it but I do think this is the thing that bugs me the most about the changes. Not the exclusion of the characters, but what that would mean. Especially with the track record traditional Chinese values have I guess? As a kid, it wasn’t “she’s a girl and she could do it just as well/better than the guys can!” For me, it was “he showed interest in her without knowing her gender” “they understand the biases to dress up and take the guards off guard” “she proved that you don’t have to follow societal norms to have self worth”. I’ve been told too many times by elder Asians to stay in my lane or else I can’t amount to anything. That I have to follow exactly their ideologies or else I won’t survive. I have dedication to my family and I definitely take that from the original poem. But the animated Disney movie told me to not constrain myself. It wasn’t about her being kickass. For me it was about her giving her all and doing whatever it takes. Being comfortable with who she was since she wouldn’t change herself. Not falling for the old tropes of stereotyped gender. I guess? It sets me back too much to think that the movie might remove more of the more western thinking. Back to the whole “she’ll never find a bf bc she’s trying to get educated” debacle.

Things that might happen that I’m worried about:

I don’t want Mulan’s love interest to like her for the wrong reasons. If he didn’t like her but then did when he found out about the sacrifices she made for her family? Cool. If that turns into ah, yes she’s a real good girl family woman after all, then no. If he doesn’t like her but then does when he finds out she’s a woman just cuz she is, that’s a no as well. Especially if it’s because she’s ‘not like other girls.’ I kinda hope she ends up with no love interest but that seems unlikely compared with most asian dramas.

She doesn’t cut her hair? Yes I’m worried about a haircut. It’s not really the exclusion of the scene or the meaning of it or anything, I just don’t like action scenes where a female’s hair is loose? It’s unrealistic bc that flies everywhere lol

Again, all personal opinions. I might be proven wrong about all of this. The movie and reasoning for the movie might be completely different from this line of thinking I have. I might be the only one who doesn’t like the movie rn. I absolutely know things are done for a reason and Disney isn’t dumb. This route is probably for the best. But I just can’t support it bc of my own biases. Nothing against the movie or those who like or support it. It just isn’t for me.

Unpopular opinion:

I’m not excited and really don’t want to watch the live action Disney mulan.

There are so many reasons that are just personal opinions and biases based only on the teaser trailer and my opinion doesn’t mean much anyways but I just am a bitter