#and 2 days to get it done in - which I can'[t start until tomorrow

[cwritesforfun]

Regina George x Fem!Reader: NYC

I think we’re all obsessed with Renee Rapp as Regina George …

Y/N = Your Name (I will use this sparingly)

I am trying second-person pov for the first time, don't be mad if it sucks.

hehehehehe

Regina's POV

I think the only person I've ever loved is Y/N. I always thought I would know what real love was when it happened to me, but I realized it too late. I lost Y/N because we just experimented with each other, didn't want to commit to dating or coming out, moved to different schools, made new friends, and graduated high school. I texted her one time and it was to tell her congratulations on graduating and she texted me the same. She even moved houses, which I didn't know until I drove there today and there was a new family there and they had no idea where the previous owners lived. I tried calling her, but it gave me her voicemail and I don't even know what to say. Where is she?! And on top of all of this, Mom is taking me to New York City because I've been moping. I don't want to travel.

Your POV ... 1 week later...

You're working at a coffee shop and you smile. You have been so happy in New York. Dad had us move out to Brooklyn to take over his brother's coffee shop and he's been really great. He's grown so much in the role of manager and owner. You work as the assistant manager on weekends and you're in charge of events. You have fun.

It's Saturday and the day has been buzzing with orders. You have never seen so many lattes made or bagels ordered. Truly, this is insane. To promote the business, you had done a 2-hour 50% deal on lattes and your regular customers went CRAZY then they told their friends. Dad would be proud.

You are sitting on your phone eating your bagel during lunch reading your book when you hear a familiar voice order an iced oat milk latte and a bagel with strawberry cream cheese. That's so fetch. You exclaim, "Regina George, is that really you?" She whips her head around to face you and her jaw drops. You say, "You should join me if you're not busy." She nods, grabs her order, and sits in the seat across from me.

You exclaim, "I had no idea you were in New York City." She snaps, "I had no idea you moved. You never told me." You exclaim, "You could've asked one of those times you called me and didn't leave me a voicemail." She asks, "I never knew what to say. If you got those, why didn't you call me back?" You answer, "I didn't know what to say either. I could've told you about the sudden move and made you plan a visit, but I guess I never thought you would agree after we stopped talking... I always felt bad about that. I didn't want to stop being around you. It was just easier at the time than well doing what we were doing." She nods and says, "I missed you." You reply, "I missed you too. My lunch break is over in like 5 minutes, but would you want to hang out while you're in town? My dad made plans for him and me tonight, but maybe tomorrow we can hang out." She replies, "I will have to check with my mom, but I think tomorrow would work. Do you promise to answer if I call?" You nod and answer, "Yes." You both smile at each other and it's like times are like they were in high school. You were happy in high school when you were with Regina, but you never knew if what you did together would lead to something real. You felt like a second choice and it was alienating. Breaking off your fling with her was good for you because it let you be independent at your new school and it let you start to figure out who you were a little. You were bisexual and you were proud.

That night, as you finish getting ready for dinner, you finally ask your dad, "Who are we meeting for dinner? You've been very secretive about this whole night. You just said to dress nice. You have me scared." He hugs me and says, "You'll enjoy tonight. I have a 50/50 chance of being right about that. You look gorgeous tonight, let's head out. We don't want to be late." We leave our house and we make our way to this pizza place that we love that has this fancy upper floor overlooking the piano and more seating. Honestly, it just looks fancy. The food is not bad prices at all, haha. Dad just likes to romanticize our pizza dinners.

We take our normal seats and you watch the pianist play Mozart's Eine kleine Nachtmusik. You know this song on flute and you love it.

Dad exclaims, "Sweetie, our guests are here. Say hi." You turn around and you see Regina with her mom. You gasped and said, "Hi, I'm so confused. Why are you here? Dad, I saw her in our coffee shop today. Did you plan this?" Regina says, "I thought it was weird that we were meeting people in the city because we know no one. Well, except you two and even I just found that out today." Dad says, "Sit down and relax, ladies. Mrs. George and I talked a few weeks back about how it was weird you two hadn't seen each other in a while. We planned this trip when Mrs. George said that Regina had been moping around the house for months and her last happy memory was with dear Y/N." WTF?!? She hasn't been happy since I was hanging out with her?! Regina asks, "How long have you two been talking? Does dad know, mom?" Mrs. George says, "Honey, this is different than that time with John from down the street. This was just a friendly parent-to-parent talk about our kid's well-being. I don't romantically see Y/N's dad. We talk like once a month about finances because I don't get it and your dad hates talking to me about them." lol ... family drama ... Regina slouches and crosses her arms angrily. Shit, she is not happy about something. You used to be so good at reading her. You're out of practice.

Pizza arrives at the table and we all eat while making small talk. Regina refuses to look anyone in the eyes, she just keeps her head down and keeps quiet. You hate this. You want to talk to her, not our parents right now. You nudge her and ask, "Do you want to hang out with just me after this? I could try cheering you up if you'd let me." She answers, "Sure," before turning back to her pizza.

Once pizza winds down, you exclaim, "Hey Dad and Mrs. George, Regina and I are going to go out for a bit alone after this. We will be safe and we will let you know where we go and when we plan to go home." Mrs. George says, "Oh before you leave, I should say, Regina's suitcase is in your dad's car in case she wants to spend the night at your place." Regina snaps, "I'm right here, mom. You're talking about me like I'm not in the room." Mrs. George snaps, "I'm sorry Miss Didn't Say Anything During Dinner and Is Rude To People and Stares At Pizza." OH FUDGE ... You grab Regina's hand pulling her away from our parents and outside the restaurant.

Outside, we start walking and you realize you are still holding Regina's hand. She probably doesn't even want to be holding your hand. It's not like this is a date. You drop it and ask, "Are you in the mood for gelato?" She answers, "Sure." You reply, "Great, let's go. It's like 2 blocks from here."

We walk in comfortable silence until we get there. I open the door for Regina and she thanks me as she walks inside. My friend, Sam, is behind the counter and Sam exclaims "Y/N!!! It's good to see you again!!! Guess what?" You ask, "What's up, Sam?" Sam answers, "Josh asked me out!!" You smile and say, "OMG!!!! You'll have to tell me all about it. I'm so happy for you. This is Regina, by the way. And Regina, this is Sam." Sam waves and says, "Wow Regina, you're really pretty." Regina replies, "Thanks. Could I get a small raspberry gelato?" Sam nods and I say, "And could you get me a small dulce de leche gelato?" Sam nods and asks, "So Regina, are you in town visiting Y/N? She has been rather lonely without you. It's always about you, you know." Regina half-smiles and says "What kind of things did she say exactly?" Sam answers, "She said you were pretty and you are. She said you were her best friend for a long time and you both really liked spending time together. She was scared to commit and she wasn't ready to come out. She said you were her crush for a bit in high school. She said..." You quickly interrupt and say, "I think that is quite enough, Sam. How much is the gelato?" Sam answers, "$8.72." You pay for the gelato then sit in a booth away from Sam. You hear the door open and see two families walk in with little kids. At least Sam will be busy and won't pay attention to us for a bit.

You exclaim, "I know tonight's dinner was terrible, but I'm hoping I can still turn around your night and make it better." Regina asks, "Is it true?" You ask, "Is what true? You'll have to be more specific." Regina mumbles, "The crush on me." You say, "Yes, it is true. I liked you a lot when we were experimenting together and then we broke it all off. It was tough and I had to heal from that heartbreak, but I didn't realize it was heartbreak until I came to the realization that I romantically liked you. And then you were gone and then we graduated and I had to move and the timing was never right. But, I do know three things: I am bisexual and I like you a lot and the feelings never went away." She smiles widely and says, "God, if we weren't by your nosy friend and in a gelato shop, I'd kiss you." You ask, "So. the feeling is mutual then?" She answers, "Yes... I am lesbian though." You reply, "That's pretty cool." She laughs.

After gelato, we hold hands and walk to the Brooklyn Bridge. We were close to it anyway, so why not walk there?!? Haha! Besides, during the day there are tons of vendors, and at night, there are just lots of cars and busy people. You love living in the city. The city also looks beautiful all lit up at night.

As we stand at this pier looking out at the water, Regina asks, "Can we have that kiss now?" You turn to her and answer, "Yes." You kiss and it's like you're the city being lit up at night. You feel bright and you see your future.

[harley-sunday]

Renaissance

Renaissance [noun]

re·​nais·​sance ˌren-ə-ˈsän(t)s  -ˈzän(t)s 

1. capitalized : the period of European history between the 14th and 17th centuries marked by a flourishing of art and literature inspired by ancient times and by the beginnings of modern science 2. often capitalized : a movement or period of great activity (as in literature, science, and the arts) 3. literal translation from French : re-birth

Summary: Charles wins the Monaco Grand Prix.

Pairing: Charles Leclerc x reader

Warnings: None.

Word count: 765 (a short one, I know)

AN: You know I had to come out of retirement after Charles winning his home Grand Prix. Hope you enjoy this little drabble. Please come yell at me in the comments ♥

Part of Rituals

Charles Leclerc, in 2021, when asked if he has any race rituals: “At every start of the season, until F2, my grandmother used to take my race suits, remove one of the sponsor logos and sew a little cross instead of it. Now grandma is gone, I can’t sew and the ritual is over. I was thinking about keeping a lucky charm in my pocket but then I thought to myself: if you need an object [to feel better], then you are missing something on the mental aspect, so I let it go.”

[Angel of God, my guardian dear,]

The ritual is not over.

You can sew and the ritual is not over. 

Charles took pole today, you can sew, and the ritual is not over.

[To whom God's love commits me here,]

It’s late. It’s late and with the rest of the world asleep you are wide awake, hunched over in a chair, with the red of the Ferrari race suit draped across your legs, and the floor lamp casting a golden glow over your lone figure. You caught a glimpse of yourself in the window earlier, the scene eerily reminiscent of a renaissance painting you saw in the Musée des Beaux-Arts in Nice last year. 

Freddy is sleeping at your feet, tired after spending yet another day barking at race cars from the safety of the balcony. The gray hairs around his nose are becoming more and more prominent, a cruel reminder of his upcoming sixth birthday next month. Except for Freddy’s soft snores, the house is quiet, and it almost feels like a sanctuary. 

[Ever this day, be at my side,]

Modern Formula One suits don’t have sponsor patches, everything is printed on, and so instead of having to decide which patch to remove, you try to find a piece of thread that matches the yellow of the Ferrari logo. There’s no exact match, everything you have is a slightly different shade, and after a few minutes you give up and take out a bobbin with black thread instead. 

It’s been years since you’ve last sewn something but your muscle memory makes feeding the thread through the eye of the needle easy. You pick up the fabric and set to work, using a simple back stitch to sew a cross in the black of the Ferrari horse. No one will even know it’s there, not unless they look closely, and people hardly ever do. It only takes a couple of minutes to finish and once you’re done you run your fingers over the stitches, while you say a quiet prayer. 

Careful not to disturb Freddy, you get up then and drape the suit back over the chair, making sure it looks untouched. You leave the light on, it’s almost morning anyway, and make your way back to the bedroom. 

Charles stirs when you lay down next to him and when you settle into him you can feel him press a kiss to your forehead, “Lucie is back to sleep?” 

For a moment you’re confused, not sure what he means, but then you remember you told him you’d go check on your daughter earlier. You nod and tilt your head back so he can let his lips ghost over yours, “She is. You should be as well, chéri. You’ve got a race to win tomorrow.” 

[To light and guard, Rule and guide.]

Charles takes it all in from the top step of the podium, lets his eyes wander over the sea of people below him, the water in Port Hercule glistening in the distance. He can feel his smile growing wider when he finds his family in the cheering crowd - his mom and his brothers looking at him with watery eyes and soft smiles, and her, with their daughter perched on her hip, biting her lip to keep from crying. He wants nothing more than to hug them, hold them close, and celebrate with them, but he knows that will come later, in the quiet hours after the public celebrations, back in the sanctity of their home.

It’s time for the national anthem and so Charles takes his cap off and places his hand over his heart. When his fingers graze over what he quickly realizes is a cross, embroidered onto the Ferrari horse, he has to swallow back tears. He didn’t see it before the race, doubt anyone has, but now that he knows it’s there he never wants to race without it ever again. 

The ritual is not over and Charles Leclerc is a Monaco Grand Prix race winner.

[notjuststardust]

"Rat!" Shoyo Hinata (pre-timeskip)x Childhood Neighbor Reader

A fluffy (and slightly angsty) fic where the reader employs Hinata's little sister (and her pet rat) as a distraction to avoid embarrassing herself in front of Hinata and his friends. Keep in mind, Hinata and Reader and MINORS so their reactions and thought processes might be less mature than if I wrote this when they were older!

 Well, Hinata had found his people and you your isolation. You were happy for him, exuberant even. You remembered the days in middle school where he would settle for your company just to get a hit of volleyball even if it was a short drag after you’d both done your schoolwork. Now, those days were long behind you and Hinata hadn’t looked back, hadn’t considered that you were still there. Watching like a jailbird through a window as he had his volleyball friends over for some weekend practice.

 To be frank, you could have just gone outside to meet them and force yourself into the fray but you knew teenage boys and how their perception could be… skewed. You didn’t want to give anyone the wrong idea by associating yourself with him. God forbid the decoy hate you for simply trying to be included.

 You couldn’t stand the idea of embarrassing him.

 However there was one quite considerable problem in your wake. You’d procrastinated on all your outdoor chores and it was nearing dark. If you didn’t get them done by sunset your mother would surely ground you.

 There was also the issue that it was a Saturday and all of your outfits for next week were in the wash. This left you in something less than flattering, some hand me down sweats from a cousin and a t-shirt that said ‘Virginity rocks’ on it.

 Hinata had seen you in worse but his teammates seemed a bit… terrifying.

 The thought of them commenting on your attire while you were busy watering the garden was less than ideal. So you improvised. With about 2 hours left of daylight you scrambled to your house phone, dialing the Hinata residence. It rang once, then twice. Another for good measure and Natsu picks up.

 “(Y/N) will you come play with me-”

 “If you do me this one favor I’ll come over tomorrow, but not today.” As always, the 8 year old takes this information in stride. You can practically hear her grinning through the phone.

 “What’s my mission?”

—

 You didn’t think Natsu couldn’t pull it off but you sure were surprised how fast she had. The boys had run inside like there was some sort of monster lurking out in Hinata’s backyard and you had taken the chance to start running through your chores. Water the flowers first. Which you do and somehow inconveniently spray yourself in the face trying to turn the faucet off. Then you sweep the back porch until the only dust that touches it is glued to toe bottom of your crocs. That alone takes you 15 minutes. 

 Natsu had promised you 30.

 With one chore left to spare you wipe the sweat of your brow perfusing from the pure idea of the adrenaline of embarrassment you had conquered and take to the recycling bin. You just had to sort a couple things and then-

 “I hear it!” You freeze and drop everything, literally. Recyclables clunk to the floor. Your feet move for you. The trumpet of hounding teenage boys not far behind the corner. Whispering a platoon of words you’d get grounded for saying without a doubt, the adrenaline possesses you in some sort of athletic prowess you’d only seen from olympians, leaping head first over the gates of your front porch for the door.

 That would have worked if you didn’t crash land into someone on the way.

 “Oh, (Y/N). I was just knocking for you!” Hinata grins from ear to ear as if you aren’t caging him to the floor from above. You scramble to your feet and he’s tugging your wrist like a nagging puppy staring at you with big curious eyes. “Hey, you look pale. Everything alright?”

 “NO!” You squawk, pulling your hand to your chest only to look up to an audience. This could seriously not get any worse.

 “Hey, nice shirt! I’ve got the pink one!” The bald one pipes before getting jolted in the gut by the boy with silver curls.

 “Not the time Tanaka.” He grumbles afterward, clearing his throat and straightening up like he’s some proper gentlemen and wasn’t just leading some manhunt for you. “Ms. (L/N), have you seen a rat around? We were supposed to trap it but unfortunately it got away-”

 “A rabid rat.” Kageyama (the only one you had known the proper name of) corrects but unlike the pictures he’s covered in some beige powdery substance. You can’t hide your look of befuddlement. 

 “For the last time, it's not rabid if it didn’t bite you when you grabbed it by the tail.” The scariest one of them all trods over with a juice box in hand. Somehow that single statement is enough to send the entire group of boys into sheer screaming chaos. Not even Hinata can convince them to stop fighting. Its absolute discord. That's when you yourself lose it. You laugh so hard you fall clean off Hinata, clutching your stomach as if your appendix needs removing. 

 That brings the majority of the squabble to a halt.

 “Wait, did Natsu tell you guys there was a rabid rat in the house?” Hinata cocks his head and nods at you.

 “Yeah, it broke into the pantry and ripped open the flour. There's a mess everywhere!” So Natsu had really planted an entire scene just to get you 30 minutes of freedom outside. The thought sounded ridiculous but even Hinata had confirmed that there had been a real rat. Where had she even found that thing?

 “Wait,” you say after Hinata’s explanation, wiping your eyes from the amused tears. “Why were you knocking for me then?”

 “I figured it would come back out if you came over, animals like you.” He shrugs as if he'd talking about the weather, dusting himself off as he stands back up. He holds out a hand which you take but not before a very befuddled Natsu comes running over. She’s bathed in flour.

 “I-I’m sorry. Henry was supposed to stay in the house! I didn’t mean for Shoyo’s friends to escape and see you!” The poor little girl is nearly in tears. “I know it was only 15 minutes but please come over and play with me tomorrow, Shoyo’s always busy with volleyball and doesn’t have time for me anymore!” She bursts into tears, crashing into your chest and hanging on to you like her life depends on it. 

 “It’s okay Natsu. A promise is a promise. I’ll come over and we can clean up and bake cookies, yeah?” You murmur, sympathy making your heart ache as hands stroke her hair. Hinata shoes his teammates and crouches down beside you both.

 “Natsu, I didn’t know you felt that way. Why-” Hinata freezes when he sees a tear free falling your own face. You shrug it away in hopes he’ll consider it a fluke. Natsu pulls away and snorts back the wad of snot dripping from her nose.

 “Well, you never asked and it seemed rude to steal your thunder now that you’ve got your team and all. Right (Y/N)?” The siblings both share stares with you, expectant. You hesitate and Hinata flinches as if he’s been shot.

 “Yeah..” It was odd how an 8 year old was better at advocating for herself emotionally then you. He swallows and breaks eye contact to look to Natsu with a gentle smile, explaining to her that she should have told him earlier and promising that he would help find Henry the rat before sundown. Natsu, satisfied now, trots home.

 You know its coming but it doesn’t stop you from trying to delay it, from trying to flee before confrontation beats with its brutal awkwardness. “Night.”

 “Wait,” You freeze at the conflict in his voice, the tightness in his throat. “Do you feel like I love volleyball more than you?” Hinata has never been this serious in the 16 years you’ve known him, not once but you can tell he’s not going to let you walk away.

 “That's an… extreme way of putting it.” You answer slowly, eyes downcast. You hear him start to pace, fingers running through his hair on compulsory as he tries to shake some idea from his head.

 “You do,” he sounds like a washed up record, playing despite the fact it sounds absolutely wretched. “You feel that way and you didn't tell me?” He sounds almost angry now but you know better. This isn’t anger, it's his bitter cousin. Betrayal.

 “When was I supposed to Hinata-” he looks like hes going to cry, no, he is already crying. “Hinata what-”

 “Shoyo. I’m still Shoyo,” he sniffles, wiping at his eyes like a little kid. “Do you hate me now? Is that why you hired my little sister to distract me so I wouldn’t see you?”

 “No, no-” you gentle, helping him wipe his tears. “That's not it. Not at all I just thought you’d be embarrassed of me and I had to do chores-”

 “Embarrassed?” He stops crying instantly. “Why would I be embarrassed of you? You’re my friend, I love you.” He says with conviction. He rethinks his words when you just stare at him, pink coating his cheeks. “Not like that!”

 “No, no I know!” You mirror his fluster, looking away before you start bawling. “I guess it was stupid of me to think that.” You mutter, sniffling with a small giggle. That makes Hinata soften up.

 “Heck yeah it was!” He hums, stepping closer to ruffle your hair. “I’m glad the guys got to meet you. They’ve been asking for a while.” Hinata murmurs, a sheepish grin on his face that quickly morphs to horror when he catches the tears lidding your eyes. “Hey, hey! If you start crying i’ll start crying to and then-” your hands wrapping around his waist is enough to shut him up. You hug him despite his friends watching from the kitchen window and the water still wetting the top of your shirt. You hold the embrace in spite of the voices telling you not to and oblige the quiet ones pleading for a crumb of reciprocation from the ginger.

 For a minute all is quiet. 

 “Shoyo.” He mumbles dangerously close to your ear. You go to say his last name one last time just to mess with him and he pokes your belly button.

 “Shoyo!” You shriek on instinct and he bursts out laughing.

 “Thats better!” He chirps before looking at your pantleg. You’d been so distracted by your emotions you hadn’t felt the weight climbing up your pantleg. Hinata turns on his heel and darts for his house. “Natsu! We found Henry!”

[hell-is-a-teenage-girll]

Rant about my health and life coming it's alot so only do it if you're interested and also very important TW mention of end of life.

I am going to the hospital again tomorrow.

I had a break down last night. Saying I can't do it anymore.

If it wasn't for my cats, I would end it all.

Being in pain 24/7 drives you crazy.

I've been in survival mode so much that even certain organs don't function the way they should.

For people who maybe don't know. Our instincts come from back in the days where we had to maybe flee from a big animal for example. And when you have to survive, you can't get tired, because you need to run. You can't get hungry, cause you need to run. You can't feel happy or anything, because you can only think of survival.

I started to notice my morphine didn't do anything, neither did anything I took after. One day I took morphine, muscle relaxer, sleeping pills, and I felt NOTHING. No pain relief, not feeling high.

I also had my chronic migraines again, my period again. (I take meds for the chronic migraine and have to take the pill for my endometriosis)

Turns out I have gastric paralysis from the situation I'm in. So my meds didn't go in my blood etc, just straight through the body. Which is why nothing worked. I now need medication to to make my stomach work to.. Take my medication..

I have a depression again. I am $uicidal.

I won't hurt myself don't worry, I wouldn't leave my cats. My partner, best friends, my mom are also all suffering from my condition. As in it pains them to see this all and they care.

A condition doesn't only affect the person who feels it. But also the environment.

I went in this procedure with pain on 26th of September, and because it went wrong, I also came out of it with pain.

In total now when it comes to my face, I've been in pain and surviving for 6months now.

I am done. I need either a period that they say okay we'll give it 2 more months and then we really need to take steps, or give me pain relief NOW.

But just hearing '' it can take up to months until the nerves fix themselves, it could be okay '' doesn't cut it. Because sure they can heal in their own time, but I cannot be in pain for all those months? This isn't humane.

And then the doctor of the hospital called this morning after my mom reached out to them saying it can't continue like this. And we said specifically let the doctor call my mom. But then my phone rings, they called me. And I hear

'' - what do you want me to do..''

'' - I think it's important just to get you calm right now. ''

But I can come by tomorrow. With my mom because the issue is I am scared to stand up for myself and will say to quickly '' it's okay''. And it's not. Which is why we wanted them to talk to my mother.

After that call, I called my mom crying that they are pushing these meds on me that have a shit ton of side effects, I already take 7 pills a day (now even 10). And they wanna add more.

I don't wanna become a '' junkie'' depending on the morphine. Because i' m scared I often just sit through the agonizing pain. But if I don't get decent pain relief, I will have to dependant on it. Because if I have to do this for more months.. I am scared I will do something stupid eventually that will be unreturnable.

My best friend told me yesterday '' you have no quality of life. ''

And it's true. And he hates it, and I hate it aswell.

My mom then called to my doctors office (GP) the secretary picked up. She told me afterwards that she was crying to her that it's an emergency to please let her talk to my doctor. And they did. My mom also cried during that conversation. And my doctor agreed, it's going to far, someone needs to help. So he moved heaven and earth to say it like that and got me an appointment with another neurologist in another hospital, the 15th of January. It normally takes months. But he made it happen. And I swear.. This man.. Saved my life more times then he knows.

I am very nervous for tomorrow tho and if they will do something or just tell me again '' sorry it happened I wish I could do something but most likely after months it will heal. '' I feel rage, cause it's easy to say that when you aren't feeling it.

Today I also broke down at my chiropractor.

She said I looked pale. I said I had been crying for 2 days now. And when I told her that I felt suicidal, she said '' no no no, if you ever feel like you're gonna do something, you call me okay?? " and I cried and she hugged me. And then sat with me to talk. And she wants to take me out on walks in her private time.

I also have my psychologist tomorrow, she is also fighting to help me. Last time she literally took me in on the weekend in her private time.

I am glad for my support. But I just can't anymore.. The pain is driving me crazy. Which is also scientifically proven. Your brain changes.

So again, the fact that my content has changed so much is because of that.

Because I am not me.. Not anymore.

But hopefully I will find a way. Even just a little.

If you read all this, wow. You're a star. And thank you ❤️

And eventho I prefer not to let people see me this way. It's the truth, it's how bad it is, it's not pretty, I don't sleep, barely eat, don't feel feelings of fun, my skin is bad,.. But it's me. And because I love you guys, most of you are so lovely so it's only fair to share.

Love you.

[towriteloveontheirarms]

misunderstandings and other problems Part 1 of 2 (modern!Aegon II Targaryen x reader)

synopsis: The two of you laid on the couch, your head on his chest, ear right above his heartbeat, one arm over his middle and one leg splayed out of his as he had one arm resting comfortably around you. When you had shifted from your previous position to this neither of you could have told.

As you looked up to see if he was still awake you saw his eyes were closed. He looked so pretty and truly oh so peaceful for once.

warnings: mentions of drugs and drug use

word count: 1.9k

“Alright I´m leaving the house to you, please make sure not to burn it down until tomorrow.”

With a laugh from you and mild protest from her brother Helaena closes the door behind herself.

You had to admit Aegon chose the best time to have you over for your little movie marathon. Alicent had joined her husband on a business trip and wasn´t to come back until the next day, Aemond had went out for the day to lock himself in the library to learn for some exam and now Helaena had left too leaving you to yourselves.

Getting all the snacks, drinks and weed out that your heart could desire the two of you sat down on the big couch in the living room. There was no one home to care about the smell anyway. As if he had ever cared about their complaints. Your phone brings you back to reality. `Don´t do anything I wouldn´t.´ with a smiley face with its tongue out reads the text of the girls that just left.

“Your sister can be the worst sometimes.”, you chuckle as you tell her that much topping the answer of with a smiley yourself.

“Oh I know.”, he shoots you a quick amused look before turning back to getting the joint ready and the first movie set up.

“Here, let me do that.”, you take the almost done joint from his gross motor hands.

Laying down you light it up immediately and pass it on to your friend. It still felt off calling him that when you could remember how well you got along at first and now you where having movie marathons alone. You chuckled at the thought and passed the joint over to Aegon.

“Something funny?”, he asks.

“Nah, just thought of something.”, you scoot down the couch a little more until you are more lying than sitting anymore. There still is a good distance between you and Aegon, caused by the Ashtray.

Neither of you speak beyond that. Too busy with either watching the movie or smoking.

Halfway through the movie you have questions though and so a soft conversation forms. He makes you giggle with his jokes, or maybe that’s the weed you just smoked. Either way when the second movie starts you feel a bit of cold creeping into your body and so you ask him “Is it okay if I lean on your shoulder?” There are more than enough blankets around you and you feel a bit of warmth make its way onto your cheeks from being so unsure as you wait for his answer, but he doesn´t question it. Just nods and lets you lay your head on his shoulder and puts an arm around yours.

Soon the high and comfortable position get the better of you and your eyes fall close. It doesn´t take long until they open again. It´s still the same movie you are sure and then you notice how your mouth feels dry like a desert. Stirring from your position you sit up to grab a drink.

“You´re still alive.”, the blond says in a joking tone which you only dignify with a dry fake laugh before leaning back again.

The high had mostly worn off by now, but that didn´t do anything to lessen the cosiness. Well maybe you were a little more aware of your position now, but you just ignored the upcoming fluttering in your stomach. Instead you opt to focus on the movies climax playing in front of you and eating some more snacks.

The movie played out and you started up the next as he went to get more drinks.

All set up once more you resume our previous positions and escaped into the movies world completely.

 

When you gained back consciousness Aegon and you fully laid on the couch, your head on his chest, ear right above his heartbeat, one arm over his middle and legs intertwined, as he had one arm resting comfortably around you. When you had shifted from your previous position to this you couldn´t tell.

Looking around you saw that it had grown dark outside. Maybe it would be a good idea to go to bed, but as you looked up to tell if Aegon your idea or at the least see if he was still awake you saw his eyes were closed. He looked so pretty and truly peaceful for once. Propping yourself up on your hands, you let your gaze wander over his face. You scanned every little wrinkle and imperfection until you reached his slightly parted lips. The tingling sensation making space for the strong urge to kiss him.

After that the movie that was playing on the big screen on the wall wasn´t important anymore. Not as important as the mixing feelings in the pit of your stomach from the unusually close contact and your lips only being mere inches apart. Not as important as the slow and steady rising of his chest beneath you. And definitely not as important as the thump thumping of his heart that made you drift out of and back into consciousness. The particularly loud credit roll is what brings you back into reality. Shaking your head in an attempt to get rid of the feeling instead turning to look for the remote to turn the tv off. Already standing you stretch and make your way towards the kitchen to get something actual to eat for dinner as the progressing time and with it hunger now settled into your waking body. Entering the long hallway you could hear the soft jazz music coming form the kitchen announcing the presence of Aemond before you saw him. Rubbing the last bit of sleep out of your eyes as you entered the room you greeted the younger Targaryen brother.

“When did you get back?”

“Just in time to watch you look at my brother like he hung the moon and stars himself.”, he turned around to answer your question with a small smile.

“I did not….”, you tried to argue but you knew there was no use lying about what you felt.

“Alright, alright.”, laughing at your mild outrage. “Are you hungry? I just started cooking but it looks like I made too much.”

“Yes, please.”, leaning against the counter next to Aemond the two of you keep up talking about school and upcoming exams.

But even after you are done eating and cleaning up Aegon is still asleep so you decide to tag along Aemonds walk with Vhagar. The big dog greets you with its usual enthusiasm and you are happy for the clarity the chilly night air provides, but you are even more glad to be back in the warm house.

 

 Putting aside the thin jacket and shoes you find Aegon still out cold on the couch, but with the blanket you put over him before leaving pulled up to his shoulders. It was getting late so you wish Aemond a good night as he goes to his room immediately upon arrival and go to wake up his brother. Upon opening his eyes he grumbles something under his breath, making his disorientation and distaste for the situation known, but none the less lets you help him to his room as he still has one foot deep in slumberland. Reaching the room at the end of the long hallway you lay him down in his bed and try to turn around to go to the guest room you usually reside in during your stays there but he is faster.

The oldest Targaryen grabs your hand and pulls you back into him under the blanket. You don´t fight him as he cuddles up to you and mumbles something more before entirely falling back asleep. If he was still awake he could have heard the speed at which your heart was racing and you thank the universe that he doesn´t. God knows you don´t need his teasing now that you aren’t even sure of your feelings anymore yourself. Before falling asleep to the sound of his breathing and soft snores once more you try to talk some sense into yourself and tell yourself that he probably just hadn´t realized who you were or else he wouldn´t have pulled back, but it all was to no avail. The last thought you have before your eyes close is that this would surely not help anything.

The next day when you wake up well into the afternoon from Aegon moving, the feelings of the day before where almost forgotten. Or rather neatly put away in a box ready to be forgotten.

“Good morning.”, Aegon greets you with his hand ruffling through his hair and a signature half-smile.

“No…”, now it is your time to grumble about having to be awake which earns you another laugh.

“Alright if you don´t wake up now I´ll have to smoke this baby here all by myself.”, he holds a blunt in front of your face.

Begrudgingly you open your eyes to find everything from yesterday’s living room table had found its way between the two of you onto his bed. Well at least why he was moving so much. As the cold from the loss of his touch settles in you sit up and put on a smile yourself.

“No way in hell you´re gonna do that.”, the preceding night faded to a distant memory as the high hits you.

Despite waking up rather late the two of you spend the rest of the day locked in his room, smoking and talking some more.

 

Once afternoon turns into evening though nothing helps anymore and you have to go.

Making your way to the front door you just put your shoes and jacket on as Alicent enters the house, Criston Cole right behind her.

“Oh, I´m sorry I almost didn´t see you.”, she says holding you by your shoulders as she almost ran into you.

“It´s okay, Alicent. I was just about to leave anyway.”

When you fully stand back up from tying your shoes you are glad for her hands kind of stabilizing you as your knees almost give out. Damn it, maybe you should have smoked less and eaten more.

“Are you sure you are alright?”, she inspects you thoroughly.

“Yeah, yeah definitely. Just my blood sugar that’s a little low I guess.”

But by now she is used to Aegon and you being a little to high for your own good so she just tells Cole to get the car and drive you home.

“You don´t have to really. I swear I am fine. I don´t wanna cause you any inconvenience.”

“No I insist. Before something happens. It´s getting dark already and you never know what’s going to happen.”

You don´t keep arguing after that. Something in her eyes tells you she´s gonna get what she wants anyway. So you follow Criston out to the car as he holds the door open for you already.

The dark haired man makes light conversation with you as he always does and it’s a pleasant ride. Getting further away from the Targaryen’s home and close to yours also allows the weekend to fully sink in. The way Aegon had pulled you into bed with him creeping back into your thoughts and the picture of his sleeping face and the feeling of wanting to kiss him burning in the back of your brain. It was the only thing you could picture behind closed eyes as you tried to think back to what you watched, trying to find an answer for the waiting driver.

[futfemfantasies]

New Places, Same Crushes - Tara McKeown x reader

Request: “For the tara mckeown one say reader has just joined Washington spirit say she went to high school with tara and they see each other for first time since and they had a crush on each other then ask each other out then kissed at the end of there date”

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You walk into the Washington Spirit training facility for the first time and are amazed. You are about to ask the receptionist where to go, when Mark calls you over.

“Welcome to the Washington Spirit Y/N. How are you feeling?”

“I’m excited but nervous. Can’t wait to meet the girls” You say with a smile.

“That will have to wait another day since it is their off day but I will show you around the place so you’re familiar for training tomorrow”

You get shown the medical room (which you take a mental note of for your tests later), lockers, showers, indoor gym and Physio room. Mark takes you outside and you see some outside gym equipment and 2 pitches with an athletic track around it. Mark walks you back to the medical room and you get all the necessary tests done.

After the tests, the nurse takes you to where your team is training and you thank her. You watch some of the girls train for a moment until you feel an arm doing over your shoulder. You look next to you and see Kelley O’Hara grinning at you.

“I’m assuming you’re the newbie. I’m Kelley, nice to meet you”

“Yes I am and I’m Y/N”

Kelley takes you to the girls and introduces you to them all. Your breath heightens when one turns around and you recognise her immediately. Tara McKeown. Your coach tells you to lace up and start training with the girls. Normally after training, you like to stay back and practice your shots. After about an hour, you feel a hand on your shoulder and you turn around to see Tara.

“Hey stranger” You turn around and see the girl you’ve been hopelessly in love with since high school.

“Hey Tar” You two quickly hug and Tara has a tight grip on your waist.

You both stay like this for a few more seconds and pull away just before it becomes awkward.

“Have you had a chance to look around since you moved here?” Tara asks.

“No, I’m still unpacking boxes”

“I know a great Italian place not far from here if you want to grab some lunch? We can go for a walk afterwards and see some of my favourite spots?” Tara rambles and you giggle at her cuteness.

“Is this you asking me on a date T?”

“Well-no, I mean yes, ah on-“ You cut her off and intertwine your hands together.

“I’d love to”

You both quickly have a shower and get changed before heading out to Tara’s car. Tara pulls up to the restaurant and quickly jumps out to run around the car to open your door. You kiss her cheek as a thank you on the way out and Tara’s cheek quickly turns red.

Throughout lunch, you both caught up from not seeing each other for many years as you moved high schools in the middle of junior year. By the time you two finish talking and eating, it’s late afternoon. The waiter comes back with the check and you swiped it quickly before putting your credit card in.

“I should’ve paid, I asked you on the date” Tara pouts as you both get up. The waiter brings back your credit card and you give him a 20 dollar bill as a tip.

“You can pay next time” You say winking at Tara before walking past her.

You both get into her car and you give Tara your address to put into the maps.

“There’s no way” Tara whispers to herself.

“What’s wrong?”

“You live at the same apartment building as me” A wide smile comes on both of your faces.

After a crazy drive filled with car karaoke and shared memories, Tara pulls into the apartment complex. You get Tara and your gym bag out of the back and you both walk to the elevator.

“You know I’m capable of carrying my own bag”

“I know, I just want to” Tara smiles to herself as she presses the floor number.

“What floor are you on?”

“The same”

When the elevator doors open, you walk down the hallway to your apartments. You stop in front of a door and Tara looks at it with wide eyes.

“Looks like I’m your new neighbour” Tara points to the door behind her.

You give Tara her bag but she drops it on the ground and holds your face in her hands.

“Can I kiss you?”

You close the gap and smash your lips onto Tara’s. You pull her closer to you by her waist and her arms wrap around the back of your neck.

“I’m so glad you’re here” Tara whispers on your lips.

“Me too”

[oatmealdaydreams]

Papa Logan (DarkSides Family AU)

I mentioned Logan being a dad to young Emile and Patton, so here's the extension of that! Love me some nerd dad content <3

Trigger/Content Warnings: mention of homelessness & poverty, mention of bullying (descriptive)

Logan adopted the kids

He'd been substitute teaching at the time and was subbing for a middle school class for a while cause the original teacher was on maternity leave

so that's he met Emile and Patton, because he taught their class

Patton and Emile always seemed to have the same clothes everyday so Logan wondered if they were alright

like he worried about them

and he grew very fond of them, since they did their best to pay attention and they loved learning about the subject (it was a science class, so yeah)

Patton had once mentioned liking animal-related sciences and Emile seemed to like psychology and sciences about human behaviour

they were Logan's fav students

it turned out Emile was mute and had some hearing issues, so Em always did ASL to communicate (and usually only talked to Patton cause he seemed like the only one who knew ASL as well)

Logan picked up on the signs of them being homeless pretty quickly (same clothes everyday, seemingly always dirty, eating a lot during lunch time cause they didn't really get food outside of school)

he also picked up on them being siblings (they were literally always together, unless they had different classes or something)

Patton is a year older than Emile, so he's the big brother, & they're in different grades BUT Patton will go with Em to zir classes cause the school doesn't have an interpreter for some reason?? idk it's a sucky middle school

yeah, and that sometimes results in Patton skipping his own classes for his sibling's sake, which also worried Logan a little bit when he learns of it

Side Note: Emile uses ze/zir/zem (neopronouns, yus) but doesn't figure that out until a little closer to high school, but I'll still refer to zem as such

anyway: once Logan realizes Emile is basically deaf/hard of hearing, he starts to always put subtitles on videos for class to help zem (and ze appreicates it and f*cking loves Logan's class and now he's zir fav teacher)

okay so, one day while driving home, he sees Patton and Emile walking on the sidewalk, all dirty n sh*t (this only confirms his suspicions of them being homeless and it kinda hurts his heart cause they're good kids)

he silently debates on asking the kids to visit him right then and there cause that's kinda weird for adults to do that to kids, like don't be weird-

so he's like that would be kinda weird and creepy for me to do, so maybe I can talk to them at school tomorrow, cause he still wants to help them out, he's already managed to grow attached to them anyway

and yeah, he asks them to stay after class, since it's their last class anyway (it's literally at the end of the school day when he sees them, so yeah)

and he asks them about 'how they're doing at home' and they give each other this look like uh oh, I think he knows and then they get kinda anxious about it (cause some kids have been mean about it before, those little jerks)

Logan sees their nervousness and is like "Just curious to see if you'd need extra help or tutoring, cause then I'd have to call your guardians to discuss it." and then the kids are basically like oh he definitely knows, we are so screwed cause for some reason they think being homeless = being bad (idk why, some dumbf*ck from their past was a meanie, ya know prob a bully or something)

Side Note: the kids have been homeless since they were like, idk in fifth/fourth grade? so let's say they get adopted by Logan when they're in sixth/seventh grade; so like 2 to 3 yrs maybe?? (oof, poor kiddos)

yeah, and the convo goes to Logan offering to tutor them like, at a local diner/coffee-n-bakery place for a few weeks (he notices their grades aren't the best anyway, since they don't really have a place to get homework done)

he avoids saying anything about their homelessness cause he doesn't want to cause them any more anxiety over it

and then the siblings kinda agree, it's a public place and make they'd get to have food outside of school for once (Logan offers to pay for some snacks or whatever every time they're tutored so they're energized for schoolwork)

So: they do the tutoring and it helps the kids get better grades and their other teachers notice their grades getting better, and are kinda relieved cause they're good kids/good students

at some point, something happens: a lil meanie-head decides to pick on Emile for whatever reason and makes of fun of zir deafness & although ze can't hear them, it's kinda obvious because of the gestures to zir ears and how it gets kinda physical, and a buddy of the dumb-dumb bully like grips Patton and holds him back from being able to help his little sibling and Patton is crying and screaming and trying to break free to help but can't, and it's Patton's worst fear that he can't help Em and now that's happening and he can't do anything, Em is crying and shaking, Patton is also shaking and sobbing for his sibling

Logan happens to be on break at that time and hears the commotion (thank god) and then sees the whole thing happening and this paternal instinct kicks in and he does what he can to diffuse the situation and they go all to the principle's office/nurse's office (Logan makes sure to keep the bullies and the siblings separated for safety reasons)

as soon as Logan drops the meanies off at the principal's office and makes a brief/straight to the point explanation of why, he and the siblings head immediately to the nurse's office so they can get patched-up and taken care of

Logan refuses to leave the kids' side because he's very worried and scared for them

Side Note: at some point of knowing Emile and Patton, Logan learns ASL to help communicate with Em

As the nurse bandages and assesses the kids, Logan tells her what had happened (at least, what he saw) and mentions how the bullies are currently facing the principal's wrath (get rekt)

the nurse is like "again?" and Logan nearly does a double take and is "what do you mean, 'again'??"

and thus the nurse mentions how she usually sees this pair in her office a lot but they never told her why and now she knows and feels bad (she's tried to like, call their parents or something; but that's how she figured out they had none since no adults were even listed on their info)

oop, and now Logan is even more worried and his heart hurts cause NO KID SHOULD HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS BS (it's not your fault the others are so mean, why do you look so sad and guilty?)

and yep, protective mode has been activated in the nerdy space boi

so yeah, after the kids are set to go back to class (though they really should rest but they insist on heading to class to avoid being a 'problem' [they're not a problem, pls give them a BREAK, jesus]), Logan tells them that they can always come to him if needed for anything and that he wants them to know his classroom is always open and is a safe space when things are hard/bad/scary

which makes the kids tear up a little cause they haven't really had a safe space in a while

btw, what happened to their parents?? not even the author knows, and I don't think I wanna know, it's prob very sad and this is already making me cry (what have I done?)

and yep, Logan keeps a very watchful eye on them now

fast forward to a week later, Logan ends up adopting them [I got lazy here, sorry folks]

yus, movie nights with subtitles on

talking and signing in conversations to help Emile

teaching Emile how to read lips to help zem understand new things and new people

turns out Em and Pat are very energetic and mostly both have a form of ADHD and/or autism (maybe Em has the tism and Pat is the one with ADHD? like cause you can still be a little hyper with the tism, it varies for everyone)

yus and Logan nuturing Emile's psychology obsession

listening and hearing out the kids' latest hyperfixations and getting them stuffies/stuff animals/plushies from their fav shows n sh*t

both kids love Disney and cartoons (Avatar: The Last Airbender is one of their favorites, and of course Steven Universe as well)

Sometimes Logan wishes he had someone to help him around the house or help take care of the kids, but not like a partner per se, just like a friend who can co-parent with him

But his friends are all already parents, and he'd doubt any of them have the time

Plus he loves the kids and he doesn't know if having a stranger would be a good idea anyway

Little Patton baking with Papa Logan? Yus

Idk, space boi would be a neat dad

Omg, the first time the kids refer to him as 'dad' or 'papa'? Yeah, he shows much emotion and just is so weak for his kids

Emotional Logan, anyone?

Also, Logan has the tism (I will die on this hill)

Thus he understands, to some degree, different things about his kids when it comes to them being neurodivergent

All neurodivergents in this household

Logan letting a pun or dad joke slip cause his son love them and little Pat teasing him about it

Logan helping Em with zir homework cause it's confusing or the teacher couldn't explain it well

Logan going to PTA meetings sometimes to advocate for kids like Emile and Patton that need extra support at school (he would)

Logan correcting his kids' grammar but learning to do it in a kinder/soft way so the kids knew it wasn't a bad thing, just that certain words went like this and others go like that, and yes I know it can be confusing but it'll be okay I'll help you figure it out

Okay, I seriously love Logan as a dad, though. I kind of gave up after a little bit, so I'm sorry about that. Hopefully this isn't too bad.

Let me know if y'all want a taglist for this au, or if you want to be tagged at all.

[Masterlist]

[elocinnicole]

Live Stream

Pairing: Collin Hoskins x OFC Black!Reader (Shauna Lewis) Rating: 18+ M for language, implied smut, praise kink (very slight, if you blink you might miss it) Summary: Shauna is live streaming her makeup routine when Collin makes an appearance. Requested: No, just a quick Drabble. I missed my favorite Pairing especially since I’ve been looking at Season 2 of Blindspotting. Word Count: 688

“Hey everyone! Thank you so much for the love! Keep sending in what look y’all want to see next. This was requested by one of my followers, they want a soft glam date night look. Which is perfect because my man is taking me out tonight.” Shauna smiled

Shauna started doing live streams and tutorials during the Lockdown when she couldn’t do hair. She quickly gained a decent following from her clients and then when she did the don’t rush challenge by herself she went viral. Her video gained almost a million views and was shared all over social media. Now that the pandemic is over, she still posts videos but now they’re of her doing her clients' hair or makeup. Occasionally she’ll live stream either herself or she has a client in her chair. For the most part, when she’s live streaming she’s by herself showing a makeup look, hairstyle, and most recently an outfit.

“So I’m gonna do my makeup, my hair is already done, I installed this wig yesterday and I will be posting that video on my YouTube—will I ever stream on YouTube? Probably not, I like using TikTok to stream. Who does your lashes? Me, girl! If you in Oakland come get lased by ya girl Shauna. Alright, let’s get started on these brows. Remember your eyebrows are cousins, not twins.”

Collin walked into your shared apartment after having dropped Zan off with Ashley and Sean. He has been planning this date night for months but either he had to work late, Shauna has a client, or nobody could watch Zan. Not that Collin and Shauna didn’t mind going out with Zan but sometimes they wanted to spend time together as a couple. He saw the bedroom door open which usually meant Shauna was recording content to post later on. Collin typically didn’t bother you when you were recording mainly when you were streaming, but if you were just recording a routine, Collin would at least say hi, knowing that you could edit it out.

“Alright, so here is the final look, like I said you don’t have to wear this exact outfit but this is the perfect date night look. I got this dress from Cider, the shoes, purse, and jewelry from Amazon. Don’t break ya wallet ladies, it’s not that serious. Oh, hey babe!” Shauna smiled seeing Collin standing in the doorway.

“Hey, baby.” Collin entered the room and kissed you gently, being sure not to mess up your makeup.

“How was your day?”

“Good, I’m gonna hop in the shower real quick, get changed, and we can head out. You gonna be done by then?”

“Yeah, I’m almost done. I’m not gonna post until tomorrow.” Shauna blushed at the way Collin was looking at her. Well, he didn’t have to do much to make her blush in the first place.

“I love your make up Shauna, it looks really good. I know you put a lot of time and effort into it.” Shauna smiled bashfully at the praise

“Thank you, Collin.” Then Shauna saw a familiar glint in his eyes. Before she could stop him, Collin wrapped his hand around Shauna’s neck causing her to crane her head up at him.

“I can’t wait to mess it up later,” He said huskily Shauna went wide-eyed

“Collin! I’m recording,”

“You can edit it out,” He replied grabbing Shauna by her waist and pulling her closer

“It’s live!” She stressed

“Huh?”

“I’m live right now!” Not believing her, Collin got closer, and sure enough almost 2,000 people saw and heard the whole exchange. Many people in the comments were sending laugh emojis or commenting on how cute the two of them are.

“Oh shit,” He mumbled Shauna started to playfully nudge Collin out of the bedroom. “What up y’all.”

“You about to get me shadowbanned! Go get ready.” Shauna closed the bedroom door and went back to her stream

“Alright, everyone, here’s the look I’ll post pictures on my Instagram. As you’ve seen and heard, I got some things to do. See y’all later! Bye!” sshhauna.lewis has ended the Live Stream

Tagging: @nikole-witha-k @blackpinup22 @iknowthekoolaidflavor @wreakhavoconmacroissantdiggs @ramp-it-up @daveeds-wife @chattykathysquietsister @mellie-teh-goblin-queen @azxulaa @endless-romantic-stories @chrisevanswife0405 @gothic-slasherfan-weeb @pinkbonnetandglasses @cocobutterbaby @moxleys-fav @aonungmyaddiction

[wyvyrnygo]

So I've been doing a pokemon sleep nuzlocke... (PART 1)

I think I should probably put my progress in the run on my tumblr too

So here's the rules

normal nuzlocke rules

sleep to get your starter (not the pikachu you get at the start of the game)

the first pokemon you befriend each day in pokemon sleep is treated as an encounter for a route in the actual pokemon game (for this i'm using hgss)

Once per week you can get two encounters in 1 day by doing 2 sleep sessions in 1 day.

I'm also using FFXVI themed nicknames for this (so there will be images of FFXVI characters next to the Pokemon that's been named after them in this post, which may be spoilers?).

Anyway here's my progress for the first week

(Note: All Pokemon Sleep Encounters in this week were done on the Cyan Beach island in Pokemon Sleep)

Day 1: My starter is Rattata (named Gav), which is a pretty good Pokemon for nuzlocking HGSS early on to be honest (Guts + Dark Type Coverage). I mostly played up to the first rival battle on this day

Day 2: My first "encounter" is Spheal (named Jill), one of the most adorable ice types. Oh and Ice types will pretty much clear the first two gyms easy. I mostly just went through the first few routes to Violet City today, I wanted to wait until I had 3 Pokemon before doing the first gym, even though it's likely to be easy with just

(Edit: I remembered just after finishing slowpoke well that ice type doesn't actually do super effective damage against bug and now my entire life is a lie 😅)

Day 3: My second encounter is Eevee (named Clive), this one is going to be interesting to use due to the options it presents, however I'm currently thinking of having it become Flareon for use against the Steel and Ice gyms later on. Also Flareon is fluffy and huggable uwu. Today I started by clearing out Sprout Tower before the first gym

Anyway, Jill the Spheal sweeped the first gym easy, that's Badge 1/8 and the first stage of the nuzlocke done, I imagine the next gym will be easy. I'm not sure what my counter to Whitney will be yet honestly, it may require sleeping until I get a ghost or fighting type. For now I've just done Slowpoke well and will wait for tomorrow for another Pokemon before doing the second gym

Day 4: On this day I didn't get much sleep so I decided to add a new rule to this run - once per week I can get two encounters by having two sleep sessions in one day. So here is day 4's two encounters - Midadol the Mankey and Charon the Sudowoodo. These two are going to be really helpful. Mankey can handle Whitney's Milktank and Sudowoodo can handle Bugsy's Scyther.

And now we have a full team by Pokemon Sleep's standards (Note: Compared to a normal nuzlocke of this game, we're still 5 encounters behind, this new rule will hopefully even it out a bit as well as help me get enough sleep on occasions I get not enough to function)

Also Bugsy is in shambles, Sudowoodo wiped his entire team with Rock Throw. So that is 2/8 badges. The big challenge is next - Whitney's Miltank always worries me

Day 5 and 6: I couldn't continue the run during these days due to being busy preparing for a Yugioh tournament as well as other stuff. But here is my pokemon sleep encounters for those two days. Otto the Croconaw and Tarja the Ekans

Day 7: Our day 7 encounter was Morbol the Bellsprout (I went with a monster name because I couldn't think of a character that fit that evolutionary line better) This is probably going to be more helpful as a poison type than Ekans honestly

Also I put the two encounters I couldn't put in the game due to being busy into the game

And that is the end of week 1 of the Nuzlocke, Goodbye Snorlax!

For today I will just be progressing my way towards Goldenrod City, I'm still pretty busy right now so I won't be doing the gym until Day 8. Hopefully Whitney's Miltank will be easier than I think it is, I do have a strategy forming for this fight though thanks to Bellsprout and Mankey.

Anyway I'll edit this post as I go along I think (this may need a seperate post for week 2 since idk if im getting too close to the character limit for posts)

PART 2

[amy0-01]

Chapter 1 - It Was Meant To Be

This is the first chapter of my 1st series - Fulgur and His Little Psychic- on AO3 (My username: Amy0_0)

Summary:

While on a walk with Dog, Fulgur discovers a flyer from an orphanage that is looking for volunteers. Knowing the emotionally harsh life in an orphanage, he decides to volunteer even if the orphanage is a 2-hour drive away. At the orphanage, he meets the 4-year-old Uki and after some time Fulgur finally decides to adopt Uki, and so their adventures begin.

Notes:

!This is written about the characters NOT the people behind them!

Chapters: [1] [2] [3]

It was a warm and sunny summer day. Fulgur was out on his usual daily walk with Dog when on the neighbourhood's notice sign he noticed a new flyer. Deciding to check out the new flyer, Fulgur was shocked to see that it was from an orphanage that was located about a 2-hour drive away. Still having decided to continue reading he learned that the orphanage was looking for volunteers that would be able to help with entertaining and taking care of the kids there.

Having grown up in an orphanage until he was adopted by his parents, he knew the loneliness that these children feel. The longing for a family is something you cannot describe and can be understood only by those who were orphans at one point in their lives. Fulgur was brought out of his thoughts and back to reality by Dog who had started pushing against Fulgur’s cybernetic legs and whining. “Sorry boy, c'mon let’s go home,” Fulgur said to Dog who got the memo that they were now going home. While lost in his thoughts Fulgur had decided that he was going to go to this orphanage, even if it was a 2-hour drive from his home. He made a point in his mind to ask the employees there if he could bring Dog along as well, to cheer up the kids just a little more.

Once Fulgur had returned home with Dog, he headed towards the kitchen to grab a glass of water and plan what he needed for tomorrow. He went to his room upstairs to look for a decent bag where he could put everything. Fulgur found a decent-sized black backpack where to put everything. He grabbed some water bottles and snacks at home, making a point that he should stop by a store to pick up some more snacks to give to the kids at the orphanage and some other things he needed for himself. It was starting to get late and knowing the long journey he has ahead of him tomorrow, Fulgur quickly went to shower and went to sleep with Dog sleeping on the floor right next to his owner.

The next morning Fulgur woke up to his alarm at 6 am. Fulgur got out of bed and started heading downstairs to the kitchen to give Dog his breakfast before making and eating his own. After Fulgur was done with breakfast he went to change before bringing Dog out on his morning walk. On the way back home Fulgur stopped by his brother's place, which was a few houses away from Fulgurs, to drop Dog off and made his way home to get the things he needed. Once Fulgur had everything he needed, he headed to his car and started his journey to the orphanage.

It took Fulgur a total of 2 and a half hours to get to the orphanage, but that was due to him stopping at a store along the way to pick up some snacks and treats for the kids as he had wanted. Walking into the orphanage he was greeted by a reception and a waiting room that was painted in bright colours. Fulgur approached the first worker he saw and introduced himself, “Hello there, excuse me, I’m Fulgur Ovid. I saw your flyers about volunteering yesterday and decided to come down here and spend the day with the kids.” Hearing this the employee cheered up and welcomed Fulgur to the orphanage and showed him the way to where the kids were, explaining that they were looking for volunteers so that the kids would see some new faces around here and would be able to socialise more.

“I hope you don’t mind, but I brought some snacks and treats for the kids, is that okay?” Fulgur asked to make sure, to which he got a positive answer from the employee whose name he learned was Lorene, “yes, that’s alright, just don’t give them too much, otherwise, they’ll get a sugar rush.”

Walking into the children's area Fulgur saw many different children and how everyone was doing something of their own. The first kid who noticed the employee and Fulgur had fluffy looking and a mix of purple-pink and magenta-coloured hair, his eyes were also each a different colour. The boy approached them both and quietly introduced himself before asking, “Hello, I’m Uki Violeta, who are you?” Fulgur introduced himself to Uki and as the both of them were talking Lorene knew that they were going to get along well.

For Fulgur the day went by very fast and by the time Fulgur had to leave and start heading home, it had felt like only an hour went by while playing with all of those kids. Fulgur only could hope that this brightened some of the kids' day and gave them more hope for the future.

As time went on Fulgur kept visiting the orphanage once a week due to the distance he had to travel, but every time seeing those kids' smiles made Fulgur feel like the time spent there was worth it. He couldn’t help but be happy whenever one of the employees informed him that one of the kids had been adopted. Every time he became closer and closer to the purplish-pink and magenta-haired boy. Fulgur always told many stories to the kids and the boy was always there keenly listening. Each time Fulgur visited the orphanage the boy was the first one to notice and run up to him. The boy even picked up on what day and time Fulgur always visited and every week like clockwork the boy was out and waiting for Fulgur in the waiting room.

Just like every week Fulgur arrived at the same time on the same day and walking in as habit he looked to the usual spot where the boy sat and couldn’t help but smile and chuckle at seeing the sleepy boy sitting there. Fulgur quietly greeted the employee at the reception who greeted him back and quietly walked over to the half-asleep boy who hadn’t noticed Fulgur’s arrival. “Hey there, Uki, good morning sleepyhead, you know you could have stayed in the play area or the bedroom quarters to sleep longer if you were tired,” Fulgur started speaking to the boy softly, as soon as he heard Fulgurs voice perked up awake, and Fulgur couldn’t help but ask, “What were you doing that made you so tired bud? You’re usually fully awake and energised at this time.” Hearing the question Uki quickly grabbed something out from his pocket and presented it to Fulgur, “Here! I made this for you, Fufu! I made you a bracelet so that you would always remember me!” Hearing this Fulgur couldn’t help but smile, “Thank you Uki, it’s gorgeous, would you do me the honours and put it on my wrist then as well?” Uki was happy to hear that Fulgur liked his gift and put the bracelet on Fulgur’s wrist and smiled. Fulgur remembered that he also had a little gift for Uki in his bag, took it off his shoulder and opened it. Uki was curious as to what Fulgur was doing, but soon enough Fulgur brought out a little treat shaped like a jellyfish and presented it to Uki, “Here’s a little gift from me, I saw this at the store and immediately thought of you, since you mentioned that you like jellyfishes.” Uki was ecstatic to receive this gift from Fulgur and as he held it in his small hands and adored it in his mind, Fulgur couldn’t help but smile even more from how wide Uki’s eyes had become, just like an ocean where jellyfish swim, or the sky that’s full of stars. Fulgur got Uki’s attention and mentioned that they should probably head to the playroom to join the rest of the kids.

Recently Fulgur had been thinking about how close he and Uki had become. How Uki always tried to get his attention to show him something. Fulgur knew how he always looked forward to seeing Uki in the waiting area whenever he arrived at the orphanage. Fulgur was thinking about adopting Uki, it had already been on his mind for a while. He thought about whether he could do it and honestly there wasn’t any reason not to do it. He had a house, so he had a room that he could give to Uki, he had a stable job and income, he didn’t live too far away from the nearest school, he lived in a nice neighbourhood, and his group of friends and brother would get along with Uki well, he knew them good enough to know that, and most importantly he loved Uki. Fulgur loved the little boy and all of his antics to get his attention. And so Fulgur had decided and his decision was set in stone. He was going to adopt Uki today.

Once again the day was nearing an end and again Fulgur had to leave for a week. Uki hugged Fulgurs leg and asked sadly “Do you have to leave Fufu?”, “Yes, I’m sorry bud, I have to go some, but I promise I will come next week again alright?” And reluctantly with a lot of coaxing Uki let go of Fulgur’s leg. Fulgur said bye to all of the kids and started making his way out and as usual, stopped by the reception, but this time with a different goal compared to the typical goal of saying goodbye to the employee there. “Hey, I was wondering if I could adopt Uki, would that be okay?” hearing this, the receptionist perked up, “Finally, I was wondering how much longer it would take you before you crack and adopt Uki. Don’t think we don’t see how close you both are.” Fulgur couldn’t help but chuckle knowing that it was the truth. “The process is quite long, it can take up to 2 years to finish the entire process, but if the home check and your background check the legal department does on you is good, you can sign the first documents and bring him home next week” Lorene, the receptionist for the day, informed Fulgur. “Sounds great, do I need to prepare anything special in my house for the check or not?” Fulgur asked. After a while, Fulgur walked out of the orphanage and started the car ride home with the information that nothing much needed to be done, just have to check that all dangerous items are put in places where Uki wouldn’t be able to reach. Fulgur happy with how everything turned out arrived home and spent the rest of the evening playing around with Dog in the backyard before going to sleep.

The week dragged on for so long yet it also flew by in no time due to all of the people coming and going from his house for all the house checks. Although this week was gruelling and nerve-racking his house was deemed perfectly safe and the adoption process could continue.

Soon, the day Fulgur would be able to bring Uki home would arrive. That day walking into the orphanage he was awaited as usual by Uki in the waiting room. They chatted for a little while and headed towards the playroom. The day went about as usual, with stories upon stories, game after game, yet for Fulgur, the evening couldn’t arrive soon enough. As Fulgur impatiently waited the evening arrived eventually. Like always Uki sadly clung to Fulgur’s cybernetic leg and Fulgur couldn’t help but chuckle as he slowly started making his way to the bedroom area to get Uki’s belongings. Entering the bedroom area Fulgur immediately could tell which bed is Uki’s, the big pastel purple jellyfish plush was a big clue. “Do you have a bag, bud?” Fulgur asked Uki, who shook his head in answer, still clinging to Fulgur. “Alright, here’s my bag, put your things in there ok? Though the plush won’t fit, I’ll carry it though,” Fulgur told the confused boy with a smile. Uki, confused, still did as Fulgur told him, yet he couldn’t think of why. Once everything was packed and Uki insisted that he can carry his plush by himself, they started walking to the waiting area. In the reception area, like usual, Fulgur waved bye to Lorene and started his way out, but Uki stopped in his tracks. Fulgur noticed Uki’s absence and turning around he called out to Uki, “Uki! C’mon, what are you waiting for? Let’s go home.” At this moment Uki understood what was happening. Uki realised that Fulgur was adopting him. Uki’s eyes dilated before he started crying, to which Fulgur panicked, “Hey, bud, calm down, everything is okay. You’re coming with me to our home. I have a big dog as well, he will be extremely excited to meet you.” Fulgur attempted to calm Uki and ended up pulling him into a hug. Soon enough Fulgur managed to calm down Uki and they started their journey home.

During the entire journey, Uki couldn’t help but watch everything outside the car window, every once in a while pointing out some things that were confirmed by Fulgur. By the time they arrived at Fulgur’s house, the sun had already set, yet Uki had been fully energised by the excitement. “We’re here, bud, when we walk inside don’t get scared, I have a big dog, his name is Dog, he will run at us and try to jump on us, give him a few moments because he will sniff you all over, he is friendly so everything will be okay,” getting a quick nod from Uki, Fulgur got out of his car, took his and Uki’s things from the backseat and went around the car to get Uki. Once Uki was out of the car and the car was locked, they made their way to the house and as soon as Fulgur unlocked the door Dog pounced on top of him. Barely being able to keep o both of his feet Fulgur pet Dog “Hey Dog, I missed you too boy, look, Dog, this is Uki, he will be living with us from now on, so you better protect him ok?” Uki carefully approached Dog before sticking out his hand for Dog to sniff him, so that he would learn his scent, before petting him, “His fur is very soft!” Uki said in awe. “Yeah, it is, now let’s go inside where it’s warm, I’ll go make us something small to eat and then let’s go to bed ok? We have a long day ahead of us tomorrow.”

Once they went inside and ate the next question arose, which room should Uki have? Fulgur brought Uki up to the second floor and showed him the 2 empty guest bedrooms he had, “Uki, choose which room you want and it will be yours. Your room. If you want you can stay in my room tonight. We’ll go get stuff to decorate the room you choose as yours tomorrow.” “...I want to stay with Fufu today and can I choose the room tomorrow?” Uki asked hesitantly, to which he got a confirmation and they both headed to Fulgur’s room to sleep the night away.

The next morning, when Fulgur woke up, he found Uki clinging to his arm still deep in sleep. Fulgur usually would have started getting ready for the day already, but this time he decided to stay in bed until Uki woke up to make sure he didn’t scare him by not being there when he woke up. While waiting for Uki to wake up he decided that he should probably text his brother to inform him that he was able to bring Uki home yesterday. After texting his brother he received an excited reply almost immediately. Since Uki was still asleep, Fulgur decided to order a few things for Uki’s room online. Fulgur wanted to surprise Uki. Fulgur knew how Uki liked stargazing and jellyfish. By the time Fulgur found and ordered everything he needed Uki had slowly started to wake. “Good morning, Uki, did you sleep well?” Fulgur asked Uki in a whisper to not startle the half-asleep boy, and all he got was a sleepy hum and a shallow nod. While Fulgur softly urged Uki to wake up with the idea of breakfast Dog, who was sleeping by Fulgur’s bed, had also woken up with a big and loud yawn, which neither Fulgur and Uki couldn't help, but laugh at it earning a whine from Dog.

Once they both finally got out of bed and changed out of their pyjamas and into their clothes for the day they started making their way downstairs to the kitchen for breakfast while being led by Dog, who was excited about his breakfast. “What would you like for breakfast, Uki?” “Uhh… can we have pancakes?” “Of course, we can…” their conversation slowly continued while Fulgur started preparing the pancake batter before they were interrupted by Dog’s whines for his breakfast. “Uki, do you want to try feeding Dog?” “Mhm! I do! Can I?” “Yea, in the last floor cabinet on that end there is a box with Dog’s food, inside it is also a special measuring cup. Fill that cup and then pour it in the silver bowl over there, one is enough by the way.” Once Fulgur explained that to Uki quickly got to work still being supervised by Fulgur in case something happened, but seeing that Uki easily was able to do it Fulgur started cooking the pancakes and secretly adding some blueberries and chocolate chips in a few. A few minutes passed in silence between Uki and Fulgur, in the background there played a song that Fulgur put on while waiting for the pan to heat up, and the sounds of Dog eating his breakfast went through the kitchen. While waiting for Fulgur to finish making the pancakes Uki sat on one of the bar stools by the kitchen island, which Fulgur helped Uki get on since Uki was too short to get up there by himself. Soon enough Fulgur finished making the pancakes and served them up in front of Uki, before grabbing plates for them both as well as forks and a knife for Fulgur to cut up Uki’s pancakes a little bit if needed, even if Fulgur did make them small, but some ended up spreading out too much. “Thank you for the food, Fufu!” Uki said cheerfully as he took the fork that Fulgur was handing him and grabbed a pancake, one that had blueberries in them and started eating. “You’re very welcome, bud. Now be careful while eating, you don’t want to choke on the pancake now do you?” Earning a quick shake of the head from Uki, Fulgur stabbed his pancake with his fork and started eating. Both of them ate quite quickly, Fulgur eating mostly the plain pancakes and letting Uki have the ones with blueberries and chocolate chips.

By the time they had eaten all of the pancakes, Dog was starting to get restless waiting for his daily morning walk. “I’m going to go and take Dog on his morning walk around the neighbourhood, do you want to come as well or would you rather stay here at home?” Fulgur asked Uki as he started getting dressed to go outside. Fulgur took Uki running to put on his shoes as a sign that he also wanted to come with them. Fulgur fondly watched Uki try to tie his shoes by himself before he kneeled and helped him do it, afterwards handing Uki his jacket. While Uki was putting on his jacket Fulgur went to grab Dog’s leash and clipped it on the collar that was around Dog’s neck. Once that was done Fulgur quickly checked that everything in the house was turned off and that Uki was dressed appropriately for the current weather before they made their way outside and started the walk and tour for Uki around the neighbourhood. While walking around Fulgur showed Uki some houses of the people he knew, including Fulgur’s brothers and his friends' houses, explaining that those were his uncles' houses. Uki was really happy to hear that he had an uncle. Even multiple! Uki had never expected that he would ever become a part of such a big family. Once Fulgur had shown Uki the most important houses, they started their way back to their home.

When Fulgur and Uki returned home Fulgur unclipped Dog’s leash before Dog ran off somewhere, probably to take a nap, thought Fulgur. While they were walking home, Fulgur told Uki that they were going on a small trip to the store today, since they needed to pick up some groceries and some stuff to decorate Uki’s new room. Uki, was a little hesitant when agreeing since he’s never exactly been to a place like that. A place that has a lot of people that aren’t children, but are adults. Uki’s worries were somewhat calmed by Fulgur who promised that they won’t go to any big shops today, just 2 small stores and since it was still quite early in the morning, not many would be there if it wasn’t empty. Once Fulgur put away Dog’s leash and grabbed both his car keys and wallet, they both headed out the door once again, this time getting in Fulgur’s car and starting their way to the shops. During the drive Uki kept getting lost in his thoughts, noticing this Fulgur started a small conversation with Uki. “What’s got you in such deep thoughts, bud?” “Hm? Oh, I was just thinking about a few things.” “Maybe I can help you get the answers to those things?” “Uhm… are my uncles… nice?” Uki hesitantly asked after a while of silence. “Yes, they are nice. They like to joke around a lot, sometimes even causing trouble. But they’re very nice, they love helping others and always give their support when it is needed.” Fulgur fondly answered both from thinking about how his friends and his brother were truly the best people he knew and the fact that Uki was asking about his uncles already. Hearing this Uki smiled, but soon that smile disappeared and worry replaced it once again. “Do you think that they will like me?” Fulgur was taken aback by the sudden question of that nature, but the shock was quickly replaced once again by fondness, “They will love you Uki, I’m pretty sure they already do love you, even without meeting you yet. I had told them that I was adopting you, I didn’t say a lot about you since I wanted you all to get to know each other naturally. Not by them knowing so much about you while you know nothing about them except where they live.” Once again, hearing Fulgur’s answer Uki smiled, and this time the smile stayed. “Will I meet them soon?” came Uki’s last question, “Yes you will, one of them is currently away due to work, but I promise that once they all are home I will invite them over, that is if they don’t decide to barge into our home before I manage to do that. Oh, yeah, that happens every once in a while, but you’ll get used to it.” Fulgur gave one last answer before continuing, “We’re here Uki, see it’s not a big shop, plus there’s only one other car here, that might be one of the shop workers car’s, so no need for worry alright?” Uki nodded and they got out of the car, Fulgur locked the car and they made their way inside.

Once inside Fulgur grabbed a shopping trolley, so he wouldn’t have to worry about having to carry anything, and they started making their way down the first aisle. “Uki, if you see anything that you like you can grab it okay? If you can’t reach it or can’t properly see something that you noticed, ask me and I’ll hand it to you, okay?” “Okay…” Uki gave Fulgur a quiet answer, and Fulgur couldn’t help but chuckle at Uki’s shyness. By the time they reached the snack aisle, Fulgur had found most of the things he had on the list, that were food items, except a few things that the shop didn’t have in stock. Uki had asked about a few things he didn’t know about, getting more confident about it knowing that it’s not bad to ask questions and that Fulgur will gladly answer them all as best as he can. Uki hadn’t asked anything much. Uki had asked for one thing that had been on Fulgur’s grocery list anyway. Uki had asked for strawberries, so Fulgur grabbed an extra case of strawberries. One case for what Fulgur wanted to make and one for Uki to snack on, well one and some extra, since Fulgur didn’t need a whole case of strawberries for the recipe. While looking around in the snack aisle Fulgur noticed something, “Hey, Uki? Did you like the big lollipop I got you that one time? The one that looked like a jellyfish?” “Mhm! I did, it was really tasty!” he got an excited answer from Uki. After hearing Uki’s answer, Fulgur reached out to grab something, leaving Uki confused by the sudden question, before Fulgur showed what he had taken. It is another one of the jellyfish lollipops. “Look at what I found,” Fulgur smiled when he saw Uki go from confused to excited “Can I get that, Fufu?” “Of course, bud,” and so, the jellyfish lollipop found itself in Fulgur’s shopping trolley as the second thing Uki had asked for. “We should get some extra snacks for when your uncles come over, they tend to raid my pantry whenever they’re over…” Fulgur murmured to himself. Walking around the aisle Fulgur couldn’t decide on what to get for them, “Hey, Uki, what do you think we should get for your uncles?” while Uki was thinking over he remembered that he should go back and grab some more negi for Sonny, who usually raids and eats all of his supply. As Fulgur and Uki kept walking around the aisle they decided on a few things to grab for everyone, once everything was in the cart Fulgur quickly made his way back to the vegetable and fruits area to stock up on some more negi.

Finally, they reached the cash register and Fulgur paid for all of the items they got. While bringing everything to the car the time went quickly and once they were in the car, Fulgur checked the time and was shocked to see that 2 hours had passed by already. “So, what do you say Uki, was this scary for you?” “A little bit at first, but since Fufu was there I felt safe.” “I’m glad to hear that. Well, we have another store to go to and then we can go home, okay?” In the end, all Fulgur got was a hum, but that was good enough anyway. Fulgur was afraid that Uki would be more nervous in the next store since it was a little bit bigger and more popular than the one they just left, but he hoped that everything would be alright.

After about a 10-minute drive Fulgur pulled into the parking lot of the other store, managing to find a parking spot quite close to the entrance of the shop. “Uki, it seems like there are more people here, I promise everything will be alright, but if you start to feel anxious you can hold on to me, okay?” Fulgur told Uki with concern seeing how anxious Uki seemed already, but after a moment he heard a soft “okay…” from Uki, and so they got out of the car and after locking it they made their way inside. Just like at the previous store they went to Fulgur, took a shopping trolley and made their way to one side of the store starting with the last aisle and slowly making their way to the other side of the store. Every once in a while Fulgur felt Uki grab his pants leg, it was usually when more people appeared in the aisle they were in, but Uki calmed down quickly and let go of Fulgur’s pants. The store they were at carried a lot of stationary, household items as well as accessories and decorations. Here Fulgur wanted to get some more snacks, a few household items, decor for Uki’s room and something that Uki wanted. The last aisle they went through was the accessory aisle. Here Fulgur picked up some stuff for Uki, like a new hair brush, some small hair ties if Uki ever wanted to tie his middle-length hair up and a few other things. While Fulgur was looking for the items he needed, he kept checking up on where Uki was. Suddenly Fulgur saw Uki running up to him excitedly and Fulgur couldn’t help but wonder about what got Uki so excited, “Fufu! Can you please help me, I can’t reach something,” “Alright, let’s go, where is it, buddy?” Once they were at the spot where Uki had seen the thing he pointed to the exact thing he wanted to see, so Fulgur would be able to guess better about what he was talking about. Fulgur looked around the area Uki was pointing at and finally, he saw what Uki was probably pointing at, “This?” Fulgur asked Uki to make sure, earning an eager nod. Fulgur handed the item he was holding to Uki and started to look around again before noticing something similar. “Here, I just saw these too,” Fulgur passed Uki the other item he found. Fulgur couldn’t help but smile as he saw Uki’s face light up in a mix of excitement and joy even more. “Can I get these, Fufu? Please?” Uki quickly asked Fulgur, “Of course, you can, c’mon bring and put them in the trolley, alright?” “Okay! Thank you, Fufu!” Uki quickly ran off to the trolley and put the items in. Fulgur couldn’t contain the feelings inside of him when he saw how excited Uki was from finding a pack of hair clips with stars on them and a pack of hair clips with little jellyfish on them.

It didn’t take them long after that to find the rest of the items they needed. Fulgur also picked up a few things in his room. While they were walking to the cash register Fulgur suddenly received a notification, checking it he found out that the things he ordered online that morning had already been delivered to his house. At the cash register, they ended up having to wait in the queue, but that was alright they weren’t in a hurry anyway. While waiting in the queue he felt Uki suddenly start clinging to his leg again, he was wondering why, but then he heard the people who were standing behind them talking, “Look at that little boy, he looks so adorable!” “His hair looks so fluffy, and his eyes match his hair so well, I wish I could have a kid like that one day.” Looking back Fulgur noticed that the people behind them were some students who were admiring Uki, but not minding them Fulgur leaned down to check on Uki, “You okay Uki? You’re holding on to my leg quite tightly, I would think that that would hurt since my legs are metal.” “I’m okay, I promise…” “All right, I’ll believe you” He heard the students start cooing about how fitting Uki’s voice was to his looks and as they spoke he felt Uki start gripping his leg even tighter, but as this was happening their turn to check out arrived. “Go in front of me Uki, alright?” Fulgur asked as he started putting the things from his cart onto the conveyor belt. Uki nodded softly and walked a little ahead of where Fulgur was before he stopped. After Fulgur had paid and quickly bagged everything he and Uki started walking to the car. As they were walking they suddenly stopped and turning around he saw that it was the students from before, “Excuse me, sir! Ah, I was wondering if you didn’t mind if we gave a lollipop to the little boy? We promise nothing had been done to it, we just bought it at the store and I have the receipt if you want the proof!” “I’ll trust you guys, and yes you can give it to Uki, Uki c’mon, don’t be shy and don’t forget to say thank you.” As one of the students held out the lollipop, Uki reached for it and after taking it he said a soft “Thank you…” “You’re welcome Uki, we will be going now, goodbye, have a great day!” After saying their goodbyes they continued their way to the car. Once everything was in the car, they started the drive home. “Are you hungry, Uki?” “A little bit,” “Do you want to go eat somewhere or eat at home?” “I don’t know, I’m good with eating at home,” “Hmm… ah! I forgot! Sorry, Uki, we’ll have to go to another store, I forgot that I needed to get some food for Dog since there’s not too much left.” “Alright” “Let’s stop somewhere for lunch first…”

They stopped at a cafe that’s on the way to the store where Fulgur get’s Dog’s food. They both had a nice, warm and filling lunch. After they finished, Fulgur paid their bill and continued on their way to the store. As they were walking through the store Fulgur couldn’t stop the smile on his face as Uki got distracted by all the animals that they were walking by. They stopped by most of the animals, with Fulgur picking up and lifting Uki in the air so that he could see the animals whose cases were on higher shelves. After admiring all the animals, they finally made their way to the dog food aisle where they found the correct bag of food. Fulgur easily picked up the bag and they made their way back to the front of the store to pay and then back out to the car.

As they were driving back home Uki suddenly asked Fulgur while pointing at something “Fufu, what happened there?” “Hm? That’s a car crash. Those 2 cars drove into each other and now they’re broken.” “Ohhhh, okay, have you ever been in one?” “Mhm, I was in one when I was about your age, that’s why I have both metal arms and legs” “...I’m sorry…” “Don’t be sorry, Uki, you were curious and I answered you, I’m used to it anyway.” The rest of the ride home they spent talking and singing to songs that played on the radio.

It was around 2 pm when they arrived home, Fulgur gave Uki the house keys to go unlock the front door while he started grabbing a few of the bags out of the car. As soon as Uki unlocked and opened the door, Dog came running out happily wagging his tail. Dog was so excited to see Uki that he couldn't help but keep circling him and letting out a few barks. Uki went into the house leading Dog in so that he wouldn’t get in the way of Fulgur, who was carrying the bag from the car.

The first thing Fulgur did was to put the bags he was carrying in the kitchen and then he went back to the car to get the rest of the bags. Uki, on the other hand, after taking off his shoes and jacket, went straight to the living room to play with Dog, so Fulgur could easily get into the house and not trip over Dog. He was so happy to be reunited with his best friend that he couldn't help but laugh and smile. After a few minutes of playing, Uki went to the kitchen wanting to help Fulgur unpack the groceries. Fulgur gave Uki the stuff that was kept in the bottom cabinets, so it would be easier for him to put away the items. Once they were done unpacking, Fulgur and Uki went to the living room to relax. They sat on the couch with Dog laying on the floor and started planning out the rough idea for Uki’s room.

With the rough idea of the room down, they went up to the room Uki chose, which was the further room and had more space than the other room. Fulgur started clearing out the room, getting the heavy things out first. Once the room was cleared out they started cleaning the floors. The room wasn’t dirty per se, but the previously hard-to-reach areas were visible and if the room was empty might as well give it a deep clean. It took them about 30 minutes to clean everything, but at least now the room was spotless. Fulgur started by bringing back the bed and deciding on its location.

It took them an hour to bring everything else in and decorate the room, but in the end, it was all worth it, the room looked stunning, breathtaking even, yet Fulgur had a trick up his sleeve, but he couldn’t act on it while Uki was there since Fulgur wanted it to be a surprise. Sometime within the decorating process, Uki stopped Fulgur, “Fufu, can you please lean down?” Fulgur was a bit confused but was surprised when Uki clipped the hair that was in front of his face to the side using one of his hair clips. “Why, thank you Uki, that’s very nice of you,” Fulgur thanked Uki and saw him do a huge yawn before suggesting, “Would you like to take a nap, Uki? You can stay in my room since the bedsheets for your bed are in the dryer currently,”, “Mhm, okay, thank you…” Uki sleepily walked out of his new room and headed for Fulgur’s room, not noticing that Dog was following him.

Using his chance now, Fulgur immediately went to get the items he ordered online for Uki’s room, to start working on his surprise. Fulgur had ordered a huge piece of fabric that was dyed dark blue with a mix of purples, pinks, magentas and light blues, as well as some long but small fairy lights. Since Uki relishes and gets extremely excited when watching the stars, Fulgur had come up with the idea to try and recreate the night sky on the ceiling of Uki’s room. Fulgur started securing the fabric to the ceiling with some hooks in the corners of the room that he put up as well, before taking the fairy lights and scattering them around the fabric letting the end where the controls for them were. Since Fulgur scattered them around instead of strategically placing everything helps give it a more natural effect of some stars being closer and some further away. Once he had set all the light on the fabric, Fulgur attached the last part of the fabric to the last hook. Fulgur closed the curtains and turned off the lights before turning on the fairy lights to see if his idea worked and was delighted to see that it did give the desired effect.

Fulgur heard the faint sound of the dryer notifying that it was finished with drying everything, so he turned off the fairy lights and opened the curtains before going to the laundry room to get the now freshly cleaned and dried bedsheets for Uki’s bed. He returned to Uki’s room with the clean bedsheets and started putting them on the bedding. Fulgur managed to do everything fairly easily and quickly, he struggled with the blanket a little bit, but he did get the cover on properly in the end. Seeing the time Fulgur realised he should wake Uki up from his nap so that he can sleep through the night. Walking into his room he saw Uki sleeping soundly in his bed and Dog sleeping on the floor right next to the bed. Carefully, Fulgur shook Uki until he woke up. “Hey bud, it’s time to wake up, do you want to come and help me with dinner?” “Mhm… I want to help Fufu…” Fulgur couldn’t help but chuckle about how sleepy Uki sounded, Fulgur picked up Uki and started walking down to the kitchen, “I was thinking about making some pasta with meatballs, how does that sound?” “Sounds good, I’ve never had that before,” “Well, now you will be able to try it,” When they arrive in the kitchen Fulgur puts Uki down and starts looking for the ingredients.

“Uki, can you please get me a small onion and 2 cloves of garlic from the pantry? They’re on the bottom shelf” as soon as Fulgur asked, Uki quickly ran off to look for the 2 ingredients he had asked for. While Uki was getting the onion and garlic, Fulgur went to look for the olive oil and tomato sauce. While Fulgur was putting the saucepan to start warming with olive oil, he quickly chopped up the onion and crushed the 2 cloves of garlic that Uki brought back. Fulgur put the onions and garlic in the pan to fry for a few minutes before he added the tomato sauce and let everything simmer for about 10 - 15 minutes. “Could you get another 2 cloves of garlic, bread crumbs and parsley, Uki?” Once again Uki ran off to find the items, getting the garlic first since he now knew where it was. Fulgur grabbed some minced beef, parmesan and an egg. Fulgur started grating the parmesan and while doing that Uki returned with everything Fulgur asked for. Fulgur took the ingredients from Uki and put them on the counter with a quick “thank you,” to Uki. Fulgur quickly chopped up the garlic and added it to a bowl with the minced beef and the grated parmesan. At this point, about 15 minutes had passed and Fulgur took the sauce off the heat and put it aside to cool. Fulgur returned to making the meatballs and noticed how intensely Uki was observing him. Fulgur continued by separating the egg yolk from the egg white and adding the yolk to the meat, adding a handful of breadcrumbs and adding a little bit of parsley that he chopped finely, in the end mixing everything. Fulgur put another pan on the stove and added some olive oil, forming the meatballs while waiting for the pan to heat up. Once Fulgur deemed the pan hot enough he put in the meatballs and let them cook, shaking the pan every few minutes. He put the sauce back on the heat to warm up before he added the now-cooked meatballs and let that simmer for another 15 minutes while the meatballs cooked through and the sauce thickened. While the sauce was simmering, Fulgur put a pot on the stove with salt water and waited for it to start boiling before adding the pasta and letting it boil for a few minutes. Once about 5 minutes had passed Fulgur drained the pasta and plated it adding the tomato and meatball sauce on top. He took some utensils and the plates and brought them to the dining room, with Uki following closely behind. “Thank you for the food, Fufu!” “You’re welcome, I’m sure it tastes twice as good since I had a very diligent little helper,” with everything said they both started eating. Fulgur saw how Uki’s eyes lit up when he took the first bite and knew that Uki did like this dish. After the long day they ate quickly and once both of them were finished Fulgur took the plates and utensils and went back to the kitchen to wash all the dishes he used and put everything away in their respective places. While they ate Dog had woken up and came running down looking for them. While Fulgur was putting everything away, Dog kept whining, asking for his dinner, but before Fulgur got to go and give Dog food Uki beat him and was already filling up his bowl. Hearing his bowl being filled, Dog immediately turned around and ran to his bowl giving Uki a bark as a “Thank you!” before eating his food. Both Uki and Fulgur started laughing and Uki petted Dog before they went to the living room.

“I saw that there are a lot of books here, do you like to read, Fufu?” “Yes, I do like to read books, it would make sense that I like to read since I’m a writer myself,” “You write books? That’s so cool!” “Yes, I do write books and thank you for thinking that it’s cool, I appreciate it a lot.” They kept chatting for a little while, mostly Fulgur answering Uki’s questions. At one point Fulgur turned on the TV and they watched a movie together, Uki being more interested in the movie about the history of stars than the conversation that was previously happening.

Since the movie was already at the halfway point when Fulgur turned on the TV it wasn’t too long before it ended, yet an hour and a half had already passed. In the end, they watched some series online, before they turned the TV off and headed upstairs to their rooms. When Uki had showered and changed into his pyjamas Fulgur tucked him into bed when he remembered about the surprise. “Uki, I have one more thing to show to you,” Fulgur turned off the bedside lamp that Ukinhad and went to the fairy lights controller and turned them on. Fulgur heard Uki gasp “Woah, that’s so cool! They look like stars! Like a starry sky!” “Mhm, that was the idea, I’m going to say that saying that you like it is a good guess, huh?” “I love it, Fufu, thank you!” “You’re welcome buddy, now it’s time to sleep, I’ll leave these on for you, good night” “Thank you, good night Fufu!” They exchanged their good nights and Fulgur left Uki’s room before heading to his room where Dog was already laying on the floor in his usual spot asleep. Yawning, Fulgur went to take a quick shower before putting on his pyjamas and heading to bed as well. He marked this day as a success.

[aamethyst000]

Touring around Campus - April 4,23 7:49am

had my alarms set for 649 this morning but I slept in till 715am, I only got up this early so I can give myself some time to actually wake up. since I heard we are leaving at 915am for our first tour in SFU, I am going to stay in my hotel room until then. had my first cup of coffee yesterday and I felt the crash of it late last night.

8:39pm - so much so, that I fell asleep at 130am. I got dressed, brushed my hair and now I am just passing time, I don't think I'll get that hungry until just before lunch. we are meeting up in the lobby at 915 to call the cabs amd then head to SFU for our first tour of the day. I disassociated almost all day yesterday, then again I was pretty stressed when one of my students just went and disappeared, and that was just before supper too. oh well, today is going to be a long day for us and we are only on day 2 out of 5.

9:20am - I am now in the lobby, just waiting for everyone else to come down and wait for the taxi. I get the feeling that this is going to be one of those days for us. I certainly woke up cranky. only had one bite of my sushi and couldn't eat anymore. I hope my appetite doesn't stay like this for the rest of the week.

our tour around SFU starts at 1030am, then we go to NVIT after lunch, if we don't end up skipping it because of how long the tour went like it did yesterday. I even found that a bit annoying but I kept reminding myself that our tour guides were 3rd and 4th year students and even they were on a schedule. I just need to get coffee as soon as I can today.

12:18pm - we just got done touring around SFU now we are waiting for the cab to take us to Douglas College for our last tour of the day. then we head to metro town for supper at around 3-4pm. I still haven't had coffee yet, I haven't even smoked weed since I left. I might have to give in this week. I don't like how we have to keep looking up the addresses for these places that we are going to. our education manager(I forgot the other word) has poor planning issues. she left shit unplanned for her employees back at home and now they're irritated, this is the second day she had to look up the address for the Universities/colleges. it has been a little anxiety inducing

12:35pm - HOLY CRAP that was a long day for all of us. we had a tour around Douglas College then we went straight to metro town BY TAKING THE SKY TRAIN!!! as sqeaky as it is, I fckn love it. we did a lot more walking today than we did yesterday and it is only day T W O

damn shit 😂

tomorrow, we have one more university to tour around then we have some free time to go back to metro town. apparently we are going to fly over canada, whatever tf that means. so we will be more busy tomorrow. I already want to go back home dude, I'm fckn TIRED. speaking of which, I should head to bed soon. got another early morning tomorrow and a somewhat late start like today.

but I am thankful for this opportunity to travel again, even if it's with a high school class! I have been taking lots of pictures. I am still debating if I want to post on here as well, while I am editing my photos. also, IT GETS FCKN CHILLY SO GODDAMN QUICK DUDE!! I was quite literally chittering during my walk back to the hotel. I forgot to mention that we went to a hockey game tonight ^-^ it was okay, but it wasn't my favourite team, so I wasn't too into the game tonight. there were some funny moments 😂 bunch of dude just flopping around 😂

anyway, I am getting sleepy now, I am going to head to bed now. good night ~☆

[evakuality]

Hanna, episode six

1.  This ramp thing.  It’s the MVP of this whole entire school/setting.  I mean I can see why they use it - it allows for some really cool shots and set ups and it genuinely works in so many ways to show so many nuances of the situations it’s in.  But basically I just love the continuity.  There’s something so comforting about this returning over and over and over again.  The sheer joy of ‘the ramp! It’s here again!’ 

2.  Matteo’s little ‘why are you dating Jonas?’ is so interesting too.  This speech carries a different tone, and I can’t tell if that’s because of the way it’s said.  He genuinely seems to be like ‘Hanna, think this through - do you really want this?’ and the answer should actually be ‘no I don’t’ even if his motives aren’t great, and maybe it’s because she’s different to Eva.  Or maybe this is because as always while it leans heavily on the original, the lines aren’t exactly the same and that lends some differences to it.  I don’t know.  Plus her question ‘there’s only 2 options: trust or break up?’ and his reaction ‘or maybe talk to Leonie’ - like yes.  Please.  Do that.  Communicate with people.  But I guess he knows it won’t go well because he likely knows exactly what Jonas is doing, and so he has very little to lose.  He’s not overtly being a dick here, and he looks supportive.  So if it goes well for her, hey he looks like the supportive good friend and if it doesn’t.  Well... that’s not his fault.  He was just trying to help.  At this point, from his PoV, not much can go wrong.

3.  The little scene at school with Jonas telling Hanna she’s annoying (by text! so distant and cold. Ugh, talk to each other properly please), and then Sam making her feel good and sexy and wanted.  You can see why she’d be taken by him.  We can see he’s a bit of a player, far too smooth and good at this, but of course she can’t.  With Matteo’s ‘break up with Jonas if you don’t trust him’ ringing in her ears, you can see why she feels the way she does.  Again, so much of this is modeled on the original, but the way it’s shot works so well here in terms of specifically showing us Hanna’s state of mind.  With Hanna literally feeling like she’s got this barrier between her and Jonas after he sends his last text, shown literally in the way the moment is shot.  Plus, Kiki’s little thing with Alex as a mirror/reflection of what’s happening with Hanna (they literally fistbump over it - Alex over having got his conquest and Sam over pursuing his).  She has all the warning she needs and yet she falls into it anyway.  This whole part of this season is so heartbreaking, and knowing where it’s leading is tough.  This week is a hard one for our little bean.

4.  I know everyone and their dog has talked about this cold war scene but that’s because it’s so damn good.  The imagery and the whole way this scene works is so powerful.  Plus, we’re veering even more into the darker shades for Hanna.  This thing with Jonas is weighing on her and literally sucking out her brightness.  She’d been so washed out at the start, and when she’s with her girls it’s all still brightness etc, but with Jonas this darkness is seeping in more and more and more.  I mean he is lying to her and that’s where almost all of this ‘cold war’ conflict is coming from, but her relentless pushing of the topic is a lot.  AND she never does it when they’re in a place where they can just talk about it, the two of them.  They’re around the boys or in class and by text.  She’s scared of knowing for sure and so she puts these barriers up to avoid having to do it properly.  But this is the entire problem.  I know we say communication is an issue across the board with these couples, but I’d argue (and have at length) that it’s not always true.  For some it’s different.  But here.  Here, this avoiding of doing it properly is the biggest issue.

5.  Okay, so Amira suddenly reappears here.  But???? Where has she been???? I missed her so much!!!  I love Sana, I really really do.  She’s a fabulous character and I adore the way she operates in Skam.  But I do love that Amira is her own character and so, while delivering a very similar message, is much warmer about it.  She tells Kiki she’s stupid for sending nudes, and that Alex really isn’t into her, but her tone isn’t as harsh or ‘straight to the point’ somehow.  But of course Amira is still tone policed by her friends, and told to say things more carefully.  And then she leaves, delivering another blow to Hanna’s confidence in Jonas.  ‘Boys lie’ - thus confirming everything she already thinks.

6.  I’ll hand it to Druck - I always love their party scenes; they feel real, like people genuinely having fun dancing and stuff (though in the most recent seasons that seems to have dropped off, probably because of restrictions having an effect on how they can film).  Leonie looks damn good in a suit too; this is a great look on her.  But wow her attitude to Hanna is so nasty.  It’s fascinating to me to see that Sara acts just as jealous and can’t let it go after Matteo breaks up with her.  They clearly have a model for how they deal with break ups and it’s not a good one.  Obviously Leonie is hurt, obviously it super sucks that it’s her best friend.  But this whole bit is so unnecessarily mean.  She wants Hanna to be hurt the way she was and she’s taking such a vicious pleasure in the way that it works.  Like, yes Hanna is to blame, but man some of this ire should be directed at the Jonas in the situation.

7.  I can see why she falls for Sam’s wiles here, and there’s been so much stuff in the last few episodes leading up to it but gosh it sucks that she falls for it.  He knows she has a boyfriend, he can clearly see she’s vulnerable and he takes advantage of that.  He is very cute, I can see why she likes him, but I don’t like this type of guy and he and Alex really annoy me (though somehow Alex doesn’t feel as slimy with it as William - at least so far).  And then Hanna watching as the scene of another cheating episode plays out in front of her.  No wonder she thinks the way she does: all she has are examples of guys being assholes.  But it does need to be mentioned that she stops this kiss almost as soon as it started.  I’m not sure this exactly counts as cheating.  But I guess what’s important is that Hanna feels like she’s in the same place she already was.  Plus now she knows how it feels from the other side.  This evening is such a stress for her.  The little story that Jule tells her about how Sam ‘would never do that’ is just the icing on the cake.  This is a moment where I always feel so awful for Eva/Hanna/all of them.  

8.  Jonas’s sad little confession comes just that little bit too late, and you can see the regret hanging over Hanna.  Like, she already felt it and now she can see through everything and it all sucks.  And of course the darkness has totally closed in rn.  But I do have to say I love Jonas’s ‘not that I know anyway’ about whether he’s gay.  The characters in this show are far less worried about sexuality and ‘being straight’ and it’s a nice thing.  Matteo was all ‘yeah I like gay songs, so what?’ and Jonas here.  I like it.  But ouch, how ‘you can trust me’ must hurt when they haven’t been trusting each other and it’s become so fraught.  Notice also that they don’t fall back on their kissing this time.  The one thing that’s been going well for them isn’t working anymore either.  At the point where things are ‘darkest’ for them in the cinematography etc, we also get the moment when they can’t connect in any of the ways they used to.  Jonas is talking and being open finally, but Hanna is now hiding things and nothing here is going well for her.

Anyway, this is a really difficult episode and yet it’s one of my favourites.  Like episode 2 I’m just a real sucker for the way it’s filmed.  Again, everything is lifted almost entirely from the original and yet again Druck puts its own little spin on it.  There’s a reason why the original and this one are the ones I like.  Both take a lot of care with how colour and symbols etc work and play out and while this is a straight copy in so many ways, I still love how they chose to interpret it.  Their characters are subtly their own, the filming has its own life and that makes it work for me.

[mediocre-writerr]

secret [cassie howard]

cassie howard x fem!reader

summary: you and cassie have been a secret for a long time, but she apparently has some secrets of her own; requested by anon

a/n: in honor of yesterday’s euphoria finale, which broke my heart by the way, here’s this lovely angsty cassie fic. and for those waiting on pt.2 of my wanda fic, it should be out in the next couple days!! i hope you guys enjoy!

*not my gif* 

Secrets are complex. Secrets can die with only one people knowing. But sometimes secrets spark and set everything free. 

“Cass? Babe?” You touched her leg and shook it softly. She finally snapped out of whatever trance she was in. Turning to face you in your car, she gave you a tight lipped smile, just humming in response, “Are you okay? You kind of tuned out for a second.” 

The new Spider-Man reflecting off your windshield at the drive in theater. This was your classic date that you knew she loved, oh so much. It was a place where the two of you could get away without peering eyes. You didn’t have to worry about the whispers of the kids in the hallway or if someone found out. All you had to focus on was her.

But this time was different. She was a little more tuned out than anything else. Cassie intertwined her fingers that rested on my hand, “I’m okay. I’m just tired.” 

You leaned over the center console and tapped your shoulder with a playful smile on your face. Her blue eyes were shining with love as she rested her head on your shoulder. You placed a kiss on top of her blonde head. 

“This guy Tom Holland’s hot.” You muttered and she smacked your thigh lightly.

“Hey! Eyes on me.” She teased.

You smiled at her, “I always have my eyes on you and only you.” 

“And I only have eyes for you.”

There was something off about her tone. Usually, there’s enthusiasm and you could practically feel the love radiating off of her, but this time it was different. It was like she was holding back from something. Something you couldn’t quite put your finger on.

Your white sedan drove back up on the freeway just like you had always done. It was late enough on a school night that no one was really out and about. Lexi never questioned where her sister was, as long as she was there when they woke up in the morning that’s all she scared about. Suze was up sometimes, but was too boozed out to even notice.

You leaned in closer to her, cupping her cheeks softly and pressing her lips onto hers. The kiss was quick like the speed of light. Her lips were on yours and then they weren’t. 

You furrowed your brows, “What’s wrong?” 

She looked out the window, like she saw someone lurking in the shadows, but you just blinked your headlights to show that there was no one there. Cassie laughed nervously, “I’m sorry, I thought there was someone out there. I got spooked. I’ll see you tomorrow, okay? Goodnight.” 

The blonde opened your car door and stepped out into the cool winter air, “I love-” Before you could even finish your simple words, the door shut, cutting you off.

It confused you at first, but you just shrugged it off. Maybe that should’ve been your first warning. Or maybe that was just another warning you should’ve added to the list. The list that you knew was forming, but you were continuously in denial. 

It all started at school one day. You were all hanging around Maddy’s locker when Nate walked by, and for some reason Cassie’s bright blue eyes started looking at him, watching his every move. 

You nudged Cassie’s shoulder as her gaze followed  Nate until he was out of sight. Jokingly you let out an exasperated gasp, “Do you have a crush on Nate Jacobs??” 

Her eyes widened and she was stuttering to get the words out of her mouth. you just grabbed her hand and squeezed it lightly, “I was just joking Cass.”

“Shit you better be.” Maddy threatened, “I’m so thankful that i’m over that piece of shit.

“And i’m thankful we can call cut him out of our lives!” Kat cheered on and you all whooped and hollered, well all but Cassie who just smiled along with you.

That was the very start of the list that kept on growing, but as it kept growing the more in denial you got. 

“Y/N?” Lexi’s voice snapped you of your trance, “Are you going to flip to the actual script or are you just going to keep staring at the front cover? You’re making me nervous.”

You looked back up at your best friend, shaking your head to get you out of your trance, “Sorry, I got lost in my thoughts for a second.” You muttered as you flipped to the first page of her script. 

“Are you thinking about my sister?” She asked and your head immediately snapped up.

“Why would I be thinking about Cassie?” You asked, trying to sound incredulous as possible. 

You, Lexi, and Rue were inseparable growing up. It changed a little when Rue’s dad died and Lexi’s left. Rue resorted to drugs and started to pull away from us, so that left you and Lexi. 

And you told her everything. Except for the big chunk of information that you’re dating and in love with her sister. Not to mention have been dating her for a little more than a year now. It’s not that you didn’t want to tell her. Cassie and you wanted to keep your relationship private and in a place like East Highland the best way you could do that is to keep it a secret. 

“Because the two of you have been seeing each other for over a year now.” She pointed out like it was the most obvious thing in the world. 

“How-Lex? What the fuck? You just didn’t say anything??” You asked her like she just grew two heads.

“Well, I was going to wait for you to say something, but you never did. Not gonna lie it hurt, but I figured there was good reason. Plus my sister’s public relationships have been very public, she really wanted to make it work with you I’m assuming.” 

“Are you like a mind reader or something? Do you have super powers that I don’t know about?” You questioned, slightly impressed, yet slightly scared that she knows all of this information.

The brunette Howard just shrugged, “I’m a writer, Y/N. You should know to never underestimate me.” 

You let out a soft chuckle, “I never underestimated you, Howard.” You clear your throat, “I promise I’m treating Cassie right.” 

“I know you are, there wasn’t a doubt in my mind about that. I’m worried about you, Y/N. My sister’s a flight risk, you of all people should know that.” She whispered, her brown eyes staring into yours. 

I put my hand on her shoulder, squeezing it lightly, “After sixteen months, I trust her.”

“Okay, but please don’t say that I didn’t warn you to run for the hills.” Lexi teased and you just laughed softly.

There were other things that started happening each week. You honked your horn just like you always did when you picked the Howard girl’s up from school, “Cassie got up at 4am today.” Lexi muttered to you as she got into the backseat of your car.

“4am? Doing what??” You asked incredulously, one of the many thing you learned from dating Cassie is that she never got up that early. An hour before she had to leave was fine, but 3 hours? That wasn’t like her at all.

“She was doing a very complex routine. I don’t even know, something’s going on with her. I just don’t know what.” 

Her outfit wasn’t anything unusual though. But as the days went on, they became unusual. The fourth day though was the weirdest of all. 

The blaring of the horn echoed through the quiet suburban neighborhood. You saw Lexi racing outside just like she always did. Two Eggo Chocolate Chip Waffles wrapped in a paper towel in her hands. She tossed you one of the waffles as she climbed into the backseat.

“Something’s really going on with Cass.” She murmured.

“What do you-”

Your passenger door flew open and Cassie climbed into the car with a turquoise crop top and matching pants. Her hair was in a half up, half down, and her make up looked identical to what Maddy would usually wear. 

“What?” She asked as you just blinked at her.

“Why are you dressed like Maddy?” You questioned, pulling out of their driveway.

“I-I’m not.” She stuttered.

“Yes you are.” Both you and Lexi said at the same time.

“I’m just trying out different outfits, is that such a crime?!” She snapped at the two of you, something Cassie has never done to you before.

You shook your head, while Lexi took a bite out of her waffle, “No, not at all. You look beautiful by the way.” 

That’s something you’ve always done. No matter what style she changed into that week, you always noticed her and told her that she was beautiful. Even when she was dressed up like a country music star and not in a good way.

“Do you think I look like I’m going to be a part of Oklahoma?” She asked you, the two of you spending lunch in your car that day. A small pout was on her lips as she looked at you, after telling you the story about the few girls in the bathroom earlier.

“No, baby, you look beautiful.” You told her, pressing a kiss to get rid of the pout on her lips. 

She looked at you in disbelief, “Really?”

“Really, you could wear your grandma’s closet and you’d still be the most beautiful girl.” 

There was a pull that was forming between the two of you. It was like two magnets, one so desperately trying to connect while the other was resisting. You don’t know what happened or where the love she once held to you went, but it was apparent she was distracted. And it was apparent that you were still in denial. 

“Lex, this is amazing!” You screamed excitedly, reading another section of her play, “The satire! The exposure! All of it is gold!” 

“Really? You think so?” She asked, excitement hiding behind her brown eyes.

“I know so. I’m only halfway through and I already love it! It’s going to be a hit! Don’t underestimate yourself!” 

Without another word, Lexi lunged forward embracing you in a hug. One that caused your knees to hit the back of her bed, causing both of you to fall onto the bed. Her head rested on your chest as you both giggled to gill the comfortable quiet air. Her brown eyes stared up at you, glistening in the bedroom light. Both of you stayed there for a quick moment, before she shot up, brushing herself off. 

“Where did you and Cass go last night? She came home super late,” She asked, immediately changing the topic and flipping through her script, “Not that I want to hear about your sex life with my sister, but because you’ve never kept her out that late.”

“What do you mean, where did we go? I was out with my family for dinner, so I couldn’t do anything. Did she say that I was with her?” You asked, but before Lexi could answer Cassie, Maddy, and Kat came bursting into the room.

“Y/N? I didn’t know you’d be here today.” Cassie spoke up, surprised, and slightly nervous to see you, but still went over to you.

 You hopped up from off the bed, embracing her in one of your infamous hugs as you slyly pressed a kiss to her neck. She shuddered under your touch and you smirked at her reaction. 

“I came over to-” Out of the corner of your eye, Lexi shook her head, “I came over to read Lexi’s essay. I had to make sure hers was perfect, even though by the time I read it, it was already perfect.”

You walked a few steps over to Kat, giving her a quick hug and the one to Maddy, “Happy Birthday Mads!” 

She squeezed you tightly, rocking you back and forth, “Bitch, I thought you weren’t coming tonight!” 

“Coming to what?” You asked, pulling away from her slightly, but your arms still wrapped around her.

The brunette’s eyebrows just furrowed, “Cassie said you couldn’t come to my party tonight. Something about a family dinner?” 

“No idea what you’re talking about. I had a family dinner last night, but I heard nothing about your party.” 

The two of you looked at Cassie who just shrugged with a sheepish smile, “I thought your family dinner was tonight, so I didn’t bother asking. I’m sorry.” You didn’t know if she was being genuine or not. 

“No worries, I’m here now. So, let’s get this party started!” 

You and Cassie locked eyes for a quick moment before you walked past her and followed Maddy down to the kitchen for shots, but before you could even make it down there was a knock on the door.

“I got it!” You yelled. 

You swung the door open, smiling as Lexi ran by tapping your butt, but your smile quickly faded as Nate towered over you. His douche smirk that makes you want to punch him in the face, appeared on his face. 

“Y/N Y/L/N, it’s been awhile.” He stated with a small smile.

“Yeah...who invited you? Maddy wants nothing to do with you.” You asked without formalities.

“Cassie did, she thought it would be nice, and who am I to turn down an offer from a pretty girl like herself.” He shot you a wink, slipping past you as you clenched your jaw. 

There was an even weirder energy in the air. Your girlfriend was drowning herself in alcohol, different kinds, entire bottles. It’s like she took every bad part of her dad and mom and put them together for this one night. 

“Cass, how about we cut you off? You’ve had a lot.” You told her. Everyone was outside and she was dancing and drinking all by her lonesome. 

She wrapped her arms around your shoulder, pulling you closer to her. You nuzzled your face into her hair, kissing the top of her head. The smell of alcohol replacing the sweet scent that you love about.

“My dad and I used to dance in the living room together. This was the song that was playing.” She told you, swaying the two of you to the music, “But I can’t go to bed, it’s Maddy’s birthday and we need to celebrate.” She slurred out. Her chin rested on your chest as her bright blue eyes looked up at you, a cute little pout on her face. 

“I think you have celebrated enough for fifty more birthdays.” You joked as she pressed her lips on yours. Both of you sharing a sweet kiss, a kiss that hasn’t felt that way since New Year’s. 

“Hey, can I ask you something?” You whispered after pulling away from her and she just hummed in response as the two of you swayed to the soft music, “Are we okay? You’ve been pulling away a little bit.” 

“Of course we are, why wouldn’t we be?” She asked and you shrugged. 

“I don’t know it just kinda seems like-” Before you could even finish your sentence Lexi comes walking into the room.

“Cass, they’re looking for you.” She gestured to the hot tub and Cassie slipped away from your grasp, leading you outside. 

You dipped your feet into the heated tub next to Maddy as she rested herself between your legs. It wasn’t anything new, Maddy found safety in your presence. In a world where she has been nothing but treated like garbage, you were always there to life her back up and protect her with every fiber of your being.

Cassie flopped into the tub and onto Nate’s lap. She laughed loudly, “Sorry!” Nate firmly grabbed her waist and quickly removed her, but you caught the small way her rubbed circles on her hips. Your hands gripped the edge of the tub tighter, causing your knuckles to go white. 

“I’m so glad you guys are back together.” BB said and Maddy immediately paused.

“We’re not back together.” She muttered.

“You’re not?” Cassie asked, looking more intrigued and sober that she has the entire night.

“No.” Nate immediately followed up and you knew that was a bad move. 

And you stand by that because a whole argument started breaking out between the two of them. You, Kat, and Lexi made eye contact every once in awhile hoping that this would just end. 

“Wasn’t he trying to gaslight me, Y/N?” Maddy spoke up, causing you to actually pay attention. 

“Oh yeah.” You nodded. 

“When is she not going to agree with you? She’s one of your best friends.” He pointed out.

“I didn’t agree with her when she kept going back to you in fact, I told her a million times not to,” You told him and his face fell, “So I can make my own opinions and decisions, thank you very much.” You pointed out. 

Maddy looked up at you and whistled, “Wow, low blow, Y/N/N.” She commented, but a smile still appeared on your her face.

“I just don’t understand why me saying no is such a big deal.” Nate whispered, looking defeated.

“This is why I don’t believe you when you make all these promises, talking about how you want to get back together. You’re the only person in the world I care about,” Your eyes locked on Cassie’s blue ones that looked hurt and confused, “Please when I go to college move with me, marry me, have my babies!” 

And all of a sudden it felt like a whale was splashing into the hot tub as fluid came flying towards you and Maddy. You turned to Cassie and saw the alcohol that she indulged in not too long ago all over her, and into the tub.

Everyone ran out of there, Kat was consoling Maddy who was trying not to throw up, Nate practically flew out of that tub, while you and Lexi hopped over to help Cassie.

“I’m so sorry Maddy! I’m so sorry Maddy!” Your girlfriend sobbed out in between coughs.

“Lex, go get a towel for her, okay?” Set up some water bottles, a bath, and some aspirin. I’ll wait it out until she’s done.” You told the younger Howard and she nodded, running off to do what she told. 

“It’s not fine! I ruined everything! I’m so sorry!” Cassie screamed.

You went over to your girlfriend and rubbed her back softly, “Shh, hey c’mon, it’s okay. I’m going to take care of you, okay?”

The blonde continued to sob as you slowly lifted her up and out of the tub. She curled her head into your chest. Her slightly wet hair started to drip onto your t-shirt. After cleaning her up, Cassie curled up against you in her bed. Your hands threaded through her blonde locks as she continued to hiccup from her sobs. 

“I’m really sorry.” She whispered to you.

“It’s okay. We all drink a little too much sometimes, you don’t have to apologize.” You told her, pressing a kiss to her forehead, “I should’ve been keeping better eye out and taking care of you more.” 

“It’s not your fault,” And you just shrugged, as she cupped your cheeks, “You’re too good to me. I don’t deserve you. I love you, I hope you know that.” 

Little did you know, those apologies to both you and Maddy that night were not about her drunken state. It was about something completely different. It didn’t take long for you to find out why she was really apologizing. 

It was actually the next day.

You were back at the Howard’s continuing to read through Lexi’s play. Apparently, the most shocking part of the play was coming and she was super nervous for you to read it.

“Pause! I gotta use the bathroom!” You tossed the script down and walked over to the bathroom, but on your way there you saw an out of the ordinary car in the driveway. Nate’s truck to be exact and you never saw him here, unless there was a party, “Hey, why’s-”

The words caught in your throat as you saw Nate and Cassie in his truck. The older Howard leaned forward and kissed the taller boy. The kiss was hot and full of passion and it seemed to be going in slow motion. You remember when she used to kiss you that way.

“Cass, baby, we have to go,” You whispered as she left small little marks on your neck, “The New Year’s party has already started and Maddy keeps blowing up your phone and we both know that she doesn’t like to be kept-” 

You let out a moan and you knew you’d have to hide these from everyone tonight, but that didn’t matter, “I’m sorry, what was that?” She asked with a smug smirk on her face.

“Fuck it, Maddy can wait another hour.” 

You lunged forward, grabbing her head and attaching your lips together. Your tongue brushed against her bottom lip and she gladly allowed you access as your tongues explored one another’s mouth. 

“I love you Y/N.” Cassie got out and you broke away with the softest smile on your face.

“I love you more.” 

You tore your eyes away from the scene and towards Lexi who was engrossed in her book, “Shit! I completely forgot that I had to be home in a few minutes!” You exclaimed, grabbing her attention, “I’ll come back tomorrow and I’ll finish your play, I promise!” 

You pressed a quick kiss to the top of her head, just like you always did when you were younger, and ran out of the room without a response. Lexi’s eyes lingered on the page of the script that you were about to start reading and she let out a soft sigh. A sigh of relief or disappointment? She wasn’t too sure. 

You ran out the front door and immediately ran into Cass. Her ocean blue eyes wide as she quickly looked behind her and back towards you, “Baby, what are you doing here?”

The pet name that came out of her mouth used to make your stomach flutter, but now it just makes you feel sick to your stomach. You tried so hard to mask the anger and hurt you were feeling with a soft smile, “Lexi needed help with some math homework. I’m headed home now though, I’ll see you later.” 

You were about to move past her when Kat’s car pulled into the driveway. Maddy stuck her head out of the window and yelled your name with a shriek. You plastered on a smile, knowing damn well that you wouldn’t be able to leave anytime soon. 

So, you let them drag you inside and you didn’t say anything. Why? 

Maybe it was because you were just hoping and praying that she’ll just be honest with you and tell you what happened. The girl you fell in love with would’ve done that. She would’ve told you what happened and she would apologize. And you were just hoping that just a tiny piece of her was still there.

Once you got inside the younger Howard looked at you in confusion, “I convinced my mom to let me stay.” You shrugged.

But it didn’t seem like a suffice enough answer for her as she just studied you longer, “Are you okay?” She asked and everyone’s eyes turned to you.

You swallowed back, nodding with a tight lipped smile, “Yeah, yeah, I’m good! I call first dibs on the movie!” You yelled, running down the stairs, giggles following you all the way down. 

The movie was a good distraction. All you really wanted to do was lay down and cry, but you couldn’t. But then Rue showed up and she did not look good. She claimed she was sick, but by the way Lexi and you locked eyes, you knew. Her “just weed” phase grew into something much more, just like it always did. And soon the chill girl’s night that you didn’t even want to be a part of in the first place, turned into an intervention. 

You sat next to Lexi on the couch, leaning your head against her shoulder, as the two of you watched one of your best friends just deny rehab, “This can’t feel good, Rue,” Leslie told her, “Living like this, lying to the people you love, being mean to the people you love.” 

Leslie looked straight at Lexi as she said that. You aimlessly patted around, reaching for her hand to give it a small squeeze. You knew Lexi took care of everyone before herself, there were countless nights where she cried into your arms because of something Rue said. And that’s why you were supporting her so much for the play because for once in her life, she was doing something for her.

You tuned out for a second as your absent mind drew small figures on Lexi’s palm. You always used to do it when you were upset. If you had a bad day and just needed to breath, Lexi would put her hand on your desk and you’d just draw. Either with your finger or a pen. And she didn’t mind, because it helped.

“Are you sure you’re okay?” Lexi whispered and you shook your head, nuzzling further into her, “Do you want to talk about it?” You shook your head again.

“I can’t get clean, I can’t do that shit forever.” Rue said, clearly in pain as she shook her head.

The blonde Howard’s voice appeared out of nowhere, “You don’t have to! Just take it one day at a time.” She said, turning to look at all of her friends who were behind her for approval. You gave her a tight lipped smile while Maddy nodded in response. 

Rue looked at her, squinting, and even though Cass had good intentions, she should’ve just stayed out of her business.

“Hey Cass?” Rue spoke up.

“Yeah?”

“I have a question for you.” 

“What?” She asked, tilting her head like she always did when she was confused.

“How long have you been fucking Nate Jacobs?” There was a tense silence in the air at her words. Lexi immediately turned to you and you just had your head dow, looking at your shoes. 

Cassie let out a nervous laugh, as she stuttered for words, “What? What are you talking about?” She always was a horrible liar.

“How long have you been fucking Nate?” She asked again. 

The blonde continued laughing, “I-I’m not.” 

“What are you talking about?” Maddy asked.

“I just- I saw her get in his truck, kiss him, and then drive off. That was like what? A month ago?” Rue continued on, she didn’t know what she was doing, or maybe she did and decided to avert the attention that was on her elsewhere.

“Are you shitting me?” Maddy spoke up. Cassie turned to look at you and your eyes met for a second. The worry that was coated in her was also filled in her eyes as guilt messed together, creating the tears that were slowly forming. 

“You’re fucking Nate?! Are you kidding me?!” Maddy asked and you could physically feel the anger radiating off of her. They were like heat waves that glistened red and any second now she could just explode. 

“What? I don’t even know why she would say that!” 

“You’re lying.” You finally spoke up, locking eyes with her for longer than two seconds. 

“Y/N-” Cassie started, her voice breaking as her eyes filled with tears. 

“You’re crying?! You’re fucking crying! You’re fucking my ex and you’re the one who’s crying?!” Maddy yelled getting her face, “Rue, when was this?!” 

You were intrigued by her answer too, “Right after New Year’s or maybe it was New Year’s Eve.”

You and Cassie both threw your clothes back on, breathless, “Maddy is going to be pissed.” You whispered as you stood in front of her, a soft smile on her face.

“Let her be. It was worth it.” 

Your hands lingered on the her waist, rubbing soft circles along them. Her bright blue eyes are soft on yours, “I was thinking and I was hoping that we can make this public now. We’ve been dating for sixteen months and I just-”

“I don’t think so, Y/N.” She told you softly, guilt washing over her face.

“Why?” 

“It’s just we have such a good thing going. I don’t want to ruin it.” She told you, nonchalantly.

You furrowed your eyebrows, “We don’t have to tell everyone. We could just tell Maddy, Kat, Lexi, Rue, and Jules. It doesn’t have to be-”

“No! Why do things have to change?” She asked.

You crossed your arms over your chest, “Is it such a crime to hold my girlfriend’s hand in public? To want to kiss her and let every guy out there know that she’s mine? I didn’t think it was such a big deal! Are you ashamed of us?” You whispered the last question.

“No, of course not!”

“Then why can’t we tell people?!” You asked, now visibly hurt and upset of your girlfriend’s answer. You’ve been patient long enough, respecting her wishes, but you just couldn’t do that anymore.

“Y/N, if you can’t respect my wishes-”

“I have been respecting your wishes, Cassie. I understood in the beginning, but now? I just can’t!” You argued.

“Well if you can’t do that, maybe we should rethink our relationship!” She stormed out of your house, slamming the door shut in the process.

Maddy looked like she was to go off, but you cut her off quickly, “That’s why you weren’t at the New Year’s party earlier. After we got into the argument about me wanting to finally be open about relationship, you stormed out of the house, and that’s where you went?” 

“Wait, what?” Maddy asked.

“Cass and I have been dating for sixteen months, but she didn’t want to say anything because every relationship she has had in public was ruined because of rumors. She didn’t want to fuck anything up. But I guess maybe she didn’t want to tell anyone so she could fuck other people behind my back!” You spoke up.

“Y/N, why are you believing her? She’s a drug addict!” She exclaimed.

You scoffed, shaking you head at the blonde, “I believe her because I saw you today. Right before you ran into me outside, I saw you kissing him.” You were trying your hardest to stay strong because if Maddy could do it, so could you. 

Cassie moved towards you, cupping your cheeks softly. Even though you were trying to fight off her touch, you couldn’t help but freeze as her soft hands brushed your cheeks. Before you even knew it she kissed you, pulling you into a long kiss. Something almost as passionate as the one her and Nate shared moments ago, but you knew what this was.

No matter how much you wanted this kiss to mean something, to be real, it was just smoke and mirrors. She had you hypnotized for so long, but now you’re finally awake. 

“Don’t-a kiss isn’t going to fix this,” You pushed her away, “They warned me about this.”

“About what?” Cassie asked, looking defeated.

“You. Everyone told me that I should’ve just run for the hills, but I trusted you still. Because i knew that all the rumors about you breaking everyone’s heart wasn’t true. Rumors kill. And I trusted you, despite what they said.” 

You could feel everyone’s eyes on you and they pitied you. Suze looked like she was going through every emotion at the confessions, but at then of the day she just looked disappointed at her daughter.

Suze always knew. She knew that you and Cassie were together, she just didn’t want to say anything. She hoped that Cassie’s daddy issues wouldn’t ruin the only good relationship that she has ever had, but it was only inevitable wehn it came to the blonde.

“You’re still fucking crying?!” Maddy yelled, “Y/N and I literally got fucked over by both you and Nat and you’re the one who’s crying?! Do you know how much of an idiotic selfish bitch you’re being right now?! What you’re gonna cry and say you lost the love of your life? That’s your own fucking fault!” 

“That’s really not cool, Cass,” Lexi spoke up too, “Y/N and Maddy haven been nothing, but supportive of you your entire life and this is how you repay them? Four years of friendship down the drain.” 

This seemed to really set Cassie over the edge, “Oh don’t try to act so high and mighty Lexi. We all know that you’re just saying this shit because you’ve been in love with Y/N your entire life and she chose me. You were in the background again, just like you’ve always been!” 

You looked at Lexi who was just sitting there in shock, “Is that true?” You whispered.

“Of course it’s true! Do you not notice how she’s always been touchy with you and making sure you’re okay? Or how she’s always doing something for you? I’d always get worried about you spending so much time with her and now you know the real reason why!” Her sister explained.

“That’s enough Cassie!” Suze yelled, “Just because all of your secrets are being exposed doesn’t mean that you get to expose anyone else!” 

You stepped towards Cassie, “I would’ve done anything for you and that was the thing that terrified me the most. And you just broke me.” You said, your voice breaking and you took a deep breath, “I wasn’t good enough, Nate won’t be, and no one ever will be. You’re just so selfish.” 

“You’re wrong you know? You were more than good enough.” She whispered to you. 

“There’s a key word in that Cassie, ‘you were good enough’, past tense.” 

[stardustintheabyss]

MHA SingingSoulmate!au

Harmonies of the Heart series Part 1

Prohero!Kirishima x gn!reader

Your soulmate can hear you sing (and yes some of the boys & y/n are dumb & can't recognize talking voices from your singing voices)

Warnings ⚠️ curse words, they are a staple in my vocabulary idgaf

A/n: WOOOO HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LOML, MY FAVORITE REDHEAD, THE BRIGHTEST SUNSHINE, MY #1 COMFORT CHARACTER. EIJIROU KIRISHIMA!! damn these 11th hr birthday posts are popping out of me. Is this my best? Probably not but it isss what it issss. I have at least 3 more planned for this series (hopefully I can get them done before an hour until their bds are over 🥲) Also this is my first gn!reader so sorry if they're are any mistakes! 😅

Edited A/N: WHY THE FUCK DID I THINK HIS BD WAS ON THE 10TH AND WORKED MY ASS OFF TO GET IT OUT WHEN I HAD 6 MORE DAYS?! 😭😭😭

It's been about 2 years since you found your gym buddies that turned into friends. You've heard them refer to themselves as the "Bakusquad", how you fell in with a group of pro heros as a workout buddy you'll never know. Not that you're complaining, you love their chaotic energy. Currently you were on the way to your gym to meet them. You were blasting your favorite playlist, Throne by  Bring Me the Horizon had just come on and you started to sing along.

Remember the moment you left me alone and

Broke every promise you ever made

I was an ocean, lost in the open

Nothin' could take the pain away

Suddenly a second voice could be heard in your head. The rough gravelly voice of your soulmate.

So you can throw me to the wolves

Tomorrow I will come back

Leader of the whole pack

Beat me black and blue

Every wound will shape me

Every scar will build my throne...

You smirked. It seemed your soulmate always sang along with you if he knew the song. Which to be fair is why you always played this playlist. He knew most of the songs. The duet came to an end as you pulled into the parking lot but one of your favorite songs came on next. So you did the logical thing and stayed in the car to sing your heart out.

Choke me like you hate me, but you love me

Lowkey wanna date me when you fuck me (uwu)

Touch me with the lights off and my chains on

Baby, I'm not the right one you should wait on...

After your solo you made your way into the gym to meet your friends. "Y/n! You're finally here! You missed it, Kiri nearly died!" Mina and Kami yelled.

"What?!" You shouted. "Is he ok?" Your panic had nothing to do with the teeny tiny crush you had on the red head. He WAS your friend after all.

"Yeah. Bro just choked on his protein drink out of nowhere is all." Sero filled in.

You calmed down and laughed scolding Mina & Kaminari. "Oh. Don't scare me like that jeez!"

Kirishima made his way to your line of sight, a heavy blush covering his cheeks. "Hey its not my fault my soulmate decided to sing something hot—" his rosy cheeks darkened," uh unexpected while I was taking a drink."

"Enough about your dumb love life. Are we going to work out or what." Bakugo grumble. That was all you guys needed to get your asses moving. For the next few hours you rotated on the equipment trying to one up eachother. Everyone had their own that they excelled in. Mina was queen of hip thrusts, Sero ruled anything that had to do with shoulders, Kami would put a wash board to shame with he abs he had, Bakugo was obviously #1 at arms (& everything else if you ask him) and Kiri you swore could damn near dead lift a car. And you apparently had "crush a watermelon thighs" or so Kami & Mina told you.

After the gruesome workout everyone piled into your car to go to your guys favorite post workout cafe. Yours was the only one that could fit all of you. Yes everybody could take their own ride but where's the fun in that. Bakugo always brought his motorcycle, Kirishima his truck, Mina's convertible and Sero and Kami rode skateboards. So you were the designated chauffeur.

Mina shouted, "SHOTGUN!" Seconds before Bakugo.

"YOU RODE SHOTGUN LAST TIME YOU ALIEN!" He yelled.

"Go cry about it." She stuck he tongue out at him as she slipped into the passenger seat. As you were pulling out onto the road Mina started to look for music on your phone. Usually whoever rides passenger uses their own phone but you had already plugged in yours while the group was bickering about who was sitting where. However Mina, your dear friend, liked to snoop through peoples playlists. "Ooh what's 'Favorites that we mostly duet ❤'  Y/n?" She said giving you knowing side eye look while scrolling.

Your face was warm and not just from the workout. "Um, songs I like to sing along to?" She wasn't buying it. "Ok fine. Its mostly songs my soulmate and I sing together." You pouted sheepishly.

"Hmm. Lotta punk/alternative rock & emo music in here. But also some hella good pop bangers. Kiri I see lots of the bands you listen to." Mina observed. She clicked on a song and you heard familiar vocals of Sam Tinnesz.

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

Oh-oh-oh

I've got that lightnin' inside me

Son of a God

I'm like a titan that's risin'

Oh, just you watch

I'm steppin' into fate

There is no time to waste

I've got that lightnin' inside me

This is how legends are made...

"Really? Cool, your soulmate has good taste then." You saw that gorgeous smile of his in your rearveiw mirror.

"Your taste in music is ass, Shitty Hair." Bakugo rolled his eyes.

"Hey don't rag on other peoples music tastes dude. We don't say nothin when we listen to your classic rock love ballads." Kami interjected.

Bakugo crossed his arms "Tch. Whatever."

As you made the final turn to your destination a new song played. One that always make you feel like a bad bitch. And Mina shared the sentiment. She screeched, "AH THIS IS MY JAM!"

"BRO ME TOO! IF WE WERENT IN THE CAR I'D DO THE DANCE!" Kami screamed.

"SAME BESTIE!" Mina squealed. Kami & Mina started to sing along.

...I said certified freak, seven days a week

Wet ass pussy, make that pullout game weak, woo! (Ah)

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Yeah, you fucking with some wet ass pussy

Bring a bucket and a mop for this wet ass pussy

Give me everything you got for this wet ass pussy...

You giggled how into they were. Pretty soon Sero was singing also & they were trying to get you to sing as well. You shook your head. You didn't really sing in front of people but you couldn't say no. So you started when your favorite part came up.

...Your honor, I'm a freak bitch, handcuffs, leashes

Switch my wig, make him feel like he cheating

Put him on his knees, give him some' to believe in

Never lost a fight, but I'm looking for a beating

In the food chain, I'm the one that eat ya

If he ate my ass, he's a bottom feeder

Big D stand for big demeanor

I could make ya bust before I ever meet ya

If it don't hang, then he can't bang

You can't hurt my feelings, but I like pain

If he fuck me and ask, "Whose is it?"

When I ride the dick, I'ma spell my name, ah...

Finishing the song as you pulled up to the coffee shop you heard Bakugo & Kirishima talking in hushed tones. Kiri's face was flushed & Bakugo had an amused smirk on his face. Everyone got out of the car & as you were about to step into the shop Kiri grabbed your wrist, stirring up the butterflies in your stomach. "Um, hey Y/n can we talk for a sec?" He looked nervous.

"Hey you guys coming or what?" Kami asked.

Bakugo pulled him away by the ear & into the Cafe to me up with Sero & Mina. "Come on Pikachu, give Rock Head  & Y/n a minute."

"Sure, is everything okay?" You asked turned to Kirishima.

"Yeah, it's just," he licked his lips, "maybe it's better if I just show you. Do you mind if we go back in the car? I'm kinda self conscious about it..." You lifted your brow. "It's nothing pervy! I swear!"

You laid a hand hand on his chest and patted, "I know. Your not like that. I was just teasing you." Unlocking and getting in the car you turned to fully face him. "Okay what is it Red." His ears tinged scarlet at the nickname. They always did, you found it adorable.

He fiddled with his fingers."Uh, I hate to keep asking favors but could you close your eyes please?"

"Oh shush." You told him closing your eyes. "It's not a problem."

He released a shakey breath and soon you heard a familiar song. You cocked your head to the side wondering where this was going. Suddenly your favorite sound found your way to your ears. A sound you have only heard in your head previously. A rough gravelly voice that made your knees weak & your heart soar.

...Double bubble disco queen

Headed to the guillotine

Skin as cool as Steve McQueen

Let me be your killer king

It hurts until it stops

Your eyes snapped open. Eijirou Kirishima was your soulmate. You'd been around him for two fucking years & somehow neither of you had realized. You grabbed his clasped hands. His knuckles were white from gripping g them so hard. He wasn't looking at you. He was still singing.

We will love until it's not

I'm a killing spree in white

Eyes like broken Christmas lights

You ducked down a little while tilting his face up with your other hand. Tears were beginning to stream down you cheeks. His eyes widend in panic and he began to try and wipe your tears away. But you had a duet to sing. You smiled warmly at him.

My touch is black and poisonous

And nothing like my punch drunk kiss

I know you need it

Do you feel it

Drink the water

Drink the wine

Eijirou couldn't believe it. His gym crush. His friend. You were really his soulmate. So he did the only thing he knew what to do. He sang with his love.

Oh we gotta turn up the crazy

Livin' like a washed up celebrity

Shooting fireworks like it's the fourth of July

Until we feel all right

Until we feel all right...

By the time the song came to an end your cheeks hurt from smiling. You whispered, "Hey soulmate."

"Hi, soulmate." He whispered back before leaning in slightly. You met him the rest of the way. Your kiss was the softess kiss you've ever had. It was like he was afraid to break you. The grip he had on your waist was gentle but firm. As if you might disappear from him. Breaking the kiss he held his forehead against yours. "So I guess we should probably go in before the squad gets suspicious."

Sighing happily you agreed. "I mean we should go in, I'm starving." After getting out of the car for a second time you grabbed his had, lacing your fingers through his. "But I don't really care if they are suspicious or not." Your friends were looking at the both of you through the window.

"You know what? I don't either." Eijirou said before leaning down to kiss you again. You smiled into the kiss after hearing the outrageous shouting coming from your friends. Eijirou pulled away but barely. "So if I treat you to coffee or whatever you want does this count as a date?" He gave you that dazzling smile.

You chuckled. "If you want it too." You pecked him on the cheek. He grinned back at you all goofy.. "It's a date then!" You couldn't wait for all the duets to be sung together while being able to look into those sparkling ruby eyes. Side by side you made your way in together, your hearts in harmony with eachother.

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

Ok ok

Pussy Drunk Nanami!!!

Hehe, sometimes he's forced to work overtime, it can be 2 or 3 hours more but he still feels abstinence from you, and at some point his thoughts shift from lying on the couch and cuddling to eat you until you don't be able to speak.

Imagine Nanami arriving home a few hours late and apologizing to you, he sees you and automatically remembers the thoughts from earlier, then he'll almost beg you to let him open your chubby lips and drain everything possible from you.  The initial intention was to be pleasurable for you, and of course it was, but when you realize that Nanami's eyes are unfocused and her licks are more sloppy than usual you know the man is lost in his own little world, where there is only you and he and his only function is to live between your thighs giving pleasure to the goddess you are🥺

(ofc chubby reader!!)

Oh LORD. Puttin me back on my chubby chaser Nanami bullshit i see sksksksk thank you for the ask bby, I love Nanami x chubby fem reader and I will gladly provide content for this subject 😌💕

CW: chubby fem reader, smut, oral (female receiving), Nanami being a simp for his chubby darling, not beta read bc why would i ever do that sksksks

Omgggggg pussy drunk Nanami makes me WEAK!!!!

AND PUSSY DRUNK NANAMI WITH HIS CHUBBY DARLING IS HNNNNNNNGGGGGG EVEN BETTER

Poor Nanami tho, having to stay late at work

Obviously it sucks that he has to work in general, but it's even worse that he can't come straight home to his lil pretty chubby baby :(

He was gonna make this yummy alfredo with chicken and broccoli and he was gonna make garlic bread to dip in the sauce and he had the perfect wine picked out and EVERYTHING 😔

YES HE CAN STILL MAKE IT TOMORROW BUT IT'S THE PRINCIPLE OF THE THING!!!

And yes he texted you to warn you he would be late and yes you were fine and said that you could just order takeout tonight

But he's still upset about the whole thing bc he's away from you 🥺

He's rushing through his work so he can get to you, but not so much that he fucks anything up yk?

At some point his mind wanders and he starts imagining what could've happened that night if he hadn't been working

He would've gone home and changed into something casual before he started dinner (probs a tshirt and sweats)

He would insist on making it himself, but he knows you'd try to help regardless (which he always thought was absolutely adorable) so he would let you

The two of you would enjoy dinner together before going to the couch, watching a movie or one of your favorite shows

Kento would try to keep his hands to himself, but that was much easier said than done when you wore the tiniest pajamas around the apartment

His hands would wander and squeeze your plump flesh, fingers digging into your thick thighs and spreading them open

You would squirm and whine about how he didnt have to eat you out, but how could he resist your sopping wet, chubby pussy?

He'd pry your plump lips apart and dive in, slurping up every drop of your essence before he focused on your clit, sucking the precious pearl and making you moan

He always loved eating you out: your taste, your expressions, the cute little whimpers you made when the two of you made eye contact and you try to hide your flustered expression—

Aaaaaaaaand now he's hard at work 🙃 it's hard out here for a bitch ✌😔

He struggles the rest of his day, but he eventually finishes his dumbass paperwork and heads home to his baby 💕

He's so tired that he's fully prepared to eat, bathe, and go to bed with his darling

He walks into the apartment, calling out to you and apologizing as he takes off his shoes

He's looking forward to the food you ordered, but his mind goes blank when he walks into the living room and sees you lounging on the couch

You're draped over the couch in an oversized t-shirt and booty shorts (who can blame you? It's way too hot this evening) and Nanami loses it

He drops his jacket to the floor, loosening his tie as he strides towards the couch

He's on you before you can properly greet him, hands already roaming over your supple flesh, squeezing every inch he can get his hands on as he kisses you

He's tugging off your shorts, urging you onto your back as he kneels down before you

"Just a taste, just a taste" he repeats breathlessly as he spreads your thighs, pulling apart those cute chubby pussy lips before he licks your precious cunt 🥺

He's missed you so so much, your soft thighs squeezing around his head, cutting off his air supply

AND YOUR PUSSY, GOOD GOD!!!

He loves how you taste, how your slick pools on his tongue and slides down his throat

You're so warm and wet and sweet and he just wants to drink you up like a bottle of cabernet sauvignon

You cum in a matter of minutes, spasming against him, but he's nowhere near done

He keeps going, sucking your clit until it hurts, practically making you cry as he makes you cum over and over again

You don't know how long it's been, but you've cum at least four times and Nanami's not letting up

You look down between your legs, prepared to convince him to stop so you can take care of him too, but he's too far gone

His face is flushed, eyes cloudy as he focuses on nothing, his tongue rolling over your cunt languidly

It's not about your pleasure anymore, it's about Ken's desires and he just wants to savor every ounce of your sweet fluids

You wanna make him cum too, but he just holds you tighter when you suggest him stopping, so you leave him be

He eats your cunt for at least an hour, only stopping when his muscles grow sore and he physically can't keep going he wants to tho, he really really wants to, god damn his human limits

He apologizes later for losing control and going overboard, but you reassure him that you're fine and you're just glad the both of you could enjoy yourselves :)

Tbh you are very exhausted from the entire encounter but you love your hard-working man so it's the least you could do

You do notice that he doesn't promise not to do it again, like he does with other things, so you'll have to be careful around him the next time he comes home after a long work day

[jenomark]

➔Pairing: Jeno x Reader (Female) ➔Other Members/ Characters: -.- ➔Genre: Smut (with a plot!) ➔Warnings: Sexual tension & Penetration. ➔Word count: 2,470

➔Summary: You haven't called your ex-boyfriend in two years, but he's the first person you call when you're in a bit of trouble. He comes when you call, thus sparking a night neither of you will be able to move on from.

Anon request #1: can I request an ex to lovers scenario with jeno where his ex and him decided to stay as friends and since always they had a huge tension and after 2 years they got really flirty or smth, thanks💖

Anon request #2: hi, I want to request a drabble about sex with jeno, thank you!!

Jeno looked at his buzzing cell phone and blinked lazily. He hadn't seen your number come up since you broke up with him, which had to have been two years ago. He had managed to stay friends with you over those two years, but you were never friendly enough to call each other at three in the morning. Still, Jeno picked up the call to hear static at the other end of the line, wondering if he would still feel the same when he heard the sound of your voice.

"Hello?"

There was more static. When he thought you might have pocket dialed him, and he was getting ready to hang up, he heard your voice. Time seemed to slow down in those moments.

"Jeno?" you said. "I don't have good service out here. I'm scared, Jeno."

Feeling his heart race, Jeno asked, "Where are you? What is going on?"

"Off the highway. My car broke down." you said. "Can you come get me?"

Jeno sprang out of bed immediately, tearing the covers from his naked body. He got dressed while keeping you on the phone with him, so that you weren't scared. He drove to where you were, pulling over to the side of the road. When you saw him, you got out of your car and stood awkwardly, wringing your hands together.

"I know I shouldn't have called you first," you started to say. "But i-"

"-It's okay." he said, meaning it.

Jeno was bone tired, but being in front of you made him more alert. Though you broke his heart, he was still so careful with yours. Jeno came over to your car to look at it, pulling up the hood like he had any idea what he was truly doing. You watched his muscles as he fiddled around with stuff, your eyes slightly glazing over.

"I don't know much about cars." he said, shutting the hood. "I'll call someone to come pick this up. Until then, I will drive you back home. It's too late for us to be waiting out here."

You nodded and followed him back to his car. He made the call quickly before setting his cell phone down in the cup holder. There was so much gratitude for him in the silence, but you couldn't seem to get any of your thoughts out. You were still thinking about his muscles, about how handsome he looked at nearly four in the morning.

"It's done," he said. "They'll pick your car up soon. You can figure out what to do about it tomorrow."

"Thank you." you said.

It had started to rain. A few droplets hit the front of his windshield before a whole sheet of rain came down, hitting the top of his roof as hard as rocks. He could barely see out of the windshield, so he decided to wait for the storm to pass. It was awkward inside of the car, and too quiet.

You cleared your throat. "Are you seeing anyone?"

Jeno looked over at you, his eyebrows raised in surprise. Seeing his expression, you realized what an invasive question it was. You tried backtracking, but you were sputtering your words enough to make Jeno laugh.

"Relax," he said. "I'm not seeing anyone."

You didn't know what you were thinking. Maybe you were too tired to think straight. Maybe it was the sound of the rain. Maybe it was the way he looked at you in the darkness of the car. You reached over and touched the hand that rested on the steering wheel until he looked you in your eyes.

"You got Lasik eye surgery." you said. "You used to look so cute in your glasses."

For Jeno, it was easy. There has always been sexual tension between you. Touching the top of your hand felt natural. He leaned over, grabbed your chin and kissed you. You made out, completely unaware that the rain had stopped. When everything slowed down, you were straddling Jeno in his seat, and his hands were on your ass. You parted, your eyes staying on his lips until he spoke.

"I should get you home." he said.

"You should come home with me." you said, surprising yourself more than him.

Jeno laughed and eased your body off of his. "I want that more than you know, but I don't think it's a good idea. I could never control myself around you. "

Jeno drove you home, the only sound in the car coming from the windshield wipers noisily wiping away droplets of rain. You followed the blades swiping left to right, your brain in a funk.

Breaking up with Jeno was one of your top ten mistakes. You weren't as wise as you are now. You didn't know what you had when you let it go. You had carried his hurt with you everywhere you went for two years. Though you remained as friends, there was always weird tension whenever you met up with each other. His group of friends didn't trust you, and your group of friends always took your side, even though each of them was in love with Jeno. Your shared friends didn't get into the middle of it, and you and Jeno spent 24 months skating around unspoken apologies.

"We never had a chance to talk alone." you said, finally getting the bravery to speak out. “There are a lot of things left unsaid.”

Jeno pulled up in front of your house. You weren't surprised he knew where you had moved to, because you had been dropping hints for months. You had always hoped Jeno would roll up one day and give you another chance you didn't quite think you deserved.

"We don't have to talk about it now. "It's early in the morning and we both could use some sleep," he said.

You hummed in agreement, looking out of the rain soaked window at your lonely, dark house. You looked up at the sky and wanted the sun to come up, to cast a pretty glow over you and soften the experience of sitting with your ex in his car.

"You're like my knight in shining armor." you said. "I owe you a lot."

You had your hand on the door handle. You wanted to lean over and kiss him the way he kissed you, but your bravery only went so far. Jeno seemed to be thinking a similar thing. His eyes fell to your lips. Before either of you could act, he unlocked his doors.

"Get some sleep." he said, rubbing his arms as if he were cold. "I'll check in tomorrow to see how you're doing. I don't want them overcharging you for their services. If you want, I can go with you to make sure they don't."

"Okay." was all you could say. You got out of the car, tapped on his window as a way to say thank you and walked up the pathway to your house. You touched your fingers to your lips and remembered the way he tasted.

Jeno stayed there idling while you put your lock into the door and turned the handle. Once you were safely inside, you didn't wait to see if he had driven away.

You walked into your home, not caring enough to flick lights on. You weren’t as tired as before. Making out with Jeno had felt like an IV of caffeine had slipped into your bloodstream. Your body felt swollen in places, your heart most of all. You walked through the rooms, taking off your bra underneath your t-shirt and flinging it across the back of your couch. Your foot was on the first step of your stairs when you heard a soft rapping sound on your front door. Backtracking, you walked back to the door and flung it open, crossing one of your arms against your chest to hide yourself.

“Hi,” Jeno said.

He stood rooted to the spot, his eyes darting frantically around your face. You had no time to greet him back before he stepped over the threshold and took your lips against his. You moved your arm and let him smash his hard chest against your free breasts. Your nipples were aroused and you knew he could feel them against the thin material of his t-shirt. You threw your arms around his neck and clung to him, savoring the taste and feel of him.

“I know I said no but....” he said, between kisses. “It was very hard to watch you walk away from me just now.”

You kissed him and bit down on his lip, pulling it lightly with your teeth before letting go. “Take me to bed.” you said. “Or the floor...the couch..i don’t care, Jeno, just take me.”

Jeno picked you up into his arms. He shut your front door and locked it behind him without ever taking himself away from your lips. He was strong enough to carry you upstairs without struggling, which made you even more aroused than you already felt.

“To the left.” you whispered against his mouth.

It was strange having him in your new bedroom, yet, there was something familiar about seeing him amongst your possessions. He felt like he belonged. Jeno set you down on your bed and let out a groan of approval when you wouldn’t let go of his neck. You tried to trap him with your thighs, but he had pinned your arms above your head, which made you release him. Your body relaxed, half hanging off of your bed. Your stomach was bare where your shirt had ridden up, so Jeno leaned down to kiss it. He pushed it all the way up to expose your bare breasts and take them in your mouth one at a time. He was really going at it, feeling them and teasing them, when you put a stop to things and slipped out from underneath him.

“Can you give me a moment?” you asked, your face growing hot. “ I just need a second.”

Jeno sighed but agreed. He sat on the edge of your bed and watched you slink into your bathroom. You tried your best to freshen up, to get the 5 a.m stink off of you. Your mind was frantic and thinking of a million things that could go wrong. You realized that you were extremely nervous. The door to the bathroom slowly opened to reveal Jeno standing there with his hands in his pockets, and all of those thoughts faded like ghosts into the foreground.

“What are you doing?” he asked, crooking his finger. “Get over here.”

It was much easier than you thought it would be. It was like two friends getting together after a long time, friends that knew each other’s bodies inside and out. You tore off your shirt, not caring whether your armpits were sweating anymore. He met your breasts and moaned in appreciation as his mouth got back to business. On the bed, he rolled on top of you, laying kisses all down your body. You lifted your head up and let him nip at your neck. You took your hands and placed them underneath his t-shirt to touch his abs.

“Well,” you breathed. “This has changed.”

Jeno could only laugh. He took off his shirt and let you admire his body, which had definitely changed since the last time you took him to bed. You touched the hardness of his chest, down to the smoothness of tummy leading down to his cock, which you remembered in every detail. You sidled underneath him and let your tongue taste the salt on his skin. You bit down on his shoulder and looked him in the eyes.

Your body had changed, too. You were softer in a lot of places, which Jeno loved. He wanted to touch and savor all of you. There was an overeagerness to him that stifled any remaining awkwardness there could have been. He bit down on your shoulder in response, scraping his teeth against your skin before he met your mouth. His tongue wound its way around yours for a few seconds, just relishing the feeling of them together.

Once all the clothes were removed, a desperation started to change the atmosphere. Things were no longer silly. He didn’t laugh. You didn’t go anywhere but in his arms. The rain on the window was quiet but present. The sun was seeping into your skin where you lay underneath him. There was a moment where he grabbed your face between his hands and held you there, his thumb brushing across your cheek. He kissed you sweetly, his lips full.

When Jeno entered you, it was like all the memories of your sex life came flooding back. You would always miss him inside of you when he wasn’t there, miss the full feeling that came when he penetrated you for the very first time. You had missed the sounds his throat made whenever he concentrated on pleasuring you. You hadn’t forgotten how skilled his fingers were at fondling you, or how each stroke never failed to make you lose all thought. He fucked your body like it meant something in the morning glow. He didn’t slow down for anything, not even when he felt your fingernails digging into his back.

He had let you take control. You moved on top of him and sank down onto his cock, holding onto his arms as you did. With your hands pressed against his chest, you moved. You rode Jeno wildly, bucking against his pelvis with abandon. He tugged on your hair when you tilted your chin towards the ceiling. He gripped your waist. He smacked your ass. He did everything in his power to bring you back to him every time you slipped away. Your eyes eventually found him again. You moved lower and rode him, your sweaty body gliding against his. He held you, his thick arm around your neck as he felt your walls contract, as you came around his cock.

You wanted to cry out, wanted to bring the room down around you. You kept fucking him, wanting to coax the cum from his cock, to feel the warmth moving downwards with gravity. You wanted to keep it going forever, but it wasn’t meant to be. It had been a long time since you two had made love, and your bodies were too excited to hold back.

You knew there would be a talk somewhere in the future, when he was ready. As Jeno screwed up his face in orgasm, as you felt the warmth of his cum, you were a little too happy to prolong that conversation. You wanted him in your life for a long time but, for now, you would take him any way you could get him.