#amaya celebrates 100💛

[sunshinetoshi]

hii this is for your 100 celebration (congrats btw!) - tsukki + break my heart again by finneas "it must be nice to love someone who lets you break them twice" + angst or hurt/comfort

tsukishima x reader (~850 words)

it must be nice to love someone who lets you break them twice

tw: angst, hurt/comfort, arguing/fighting

A/N:  thank you sm!! you were the first ask for this event so i am sending you my love heheh 💖 trying to practice self control and keep one-shots on the shorter-ish side for this event askjd. this was my first time trying hurt/comfort but i hope you enjoy xx

“I already told you, these things are important to me. You know what, if you don’t want to put effort into this relationship then just tell me!”

“Oh my god, not this again. Are you kidding me? Why do you have to bring that up? I thought we agreed we would move on but you keep going back!”

“Well maybe because I don’t see a change, Kei!”

The two of you stared down at one another. Your chests heaving from all the yelling you two were doing. It seemed like it would never end. You lost track of the time but you know you two had been at it for a while now.

Your exhale was shaky. “You said you would change.”

“I’m trying!”

“Are you?” Your voice raised again.

He stormed up to you. “Maybe you’re the one who doesn’t want to put effort into this relationship anymore! Maybe that’s what’s going on! Maybe you should just leave me!”

Your mouth fell open and you looked at him wide-eyed. He didn’t mean it. You knew he didn’t.

A look of realization hit him and his features softened. “Wait, no, I didn’t-”

Instinctively, you scoffed. “Fine.” You grabbed your things off the coffee table and made your way to the door. “I’m going home.”

“No, don’t go, please,” he pleaded. “We can talk about this,” he grabbed onto your shoulder but you just shrugged him off. “Baby, please stay. You can’t leave.”

“Watch me.” It didn’t sound confident but it made your point.

“It’s pouring out there, you’ll get sick! Please, stay here tonight.”

“I’m tired, Kei. Please.” And you both knew you weren’t talking about being physically tired. You sighed. “I’ll talk to you later,” you mumbled as you passed through the door.

You took the bus to Kei’s place but you decided to walk home, despite the rain. You needed to clear your thoughts. You played through the entire thing. Were you too harsh? Were you being a nag? Were you wrong? But by the time you reached your apartment those thoughts were pushed away. It wouldn’t be fair to put this all on you. You reminded yourself what you were holding onto. You wanted him to put more effort into showing up for you. That was something you wanted him to do as your partner and he didn’t do it. Just like he didn’t all those months ago. You were doing your best and putting your all into this relationship and it didn’t feel like he was doing the same. You knew you loved him. And you knew he loved you. But like you said, you were tired. Does all the good really outweigh the bad?

Did you get home safe?

Are you okay?

That was a dumb question, I know..

I’m sorry.

I want to do better. I want to be better. You deserve that.

Good night. I love you.

I love you so much.

You ignored all his texts that evening and knocked out on your bed. When you woke up the next morning your body felt heavy and you had the sniffles. He was right, you got sick. You spent the day curled up in a blanket on your couch with a box of tissues next to you. You continued to get texts from Tsukki asking how you were. I’m fine. You finally texted back.

You didn’t realize you drifted to sleep until you awoke to the sound of your doorbell. Groggy, you made your way to the door and saw it was Kei. You opened the door.

He stood there with his arms full. It was like he knew. He had homemade soup, medicine, and your favorite plushie of his with him. He looked at you firmly. “Listen to me, I know I have a lot I need to work on. We wouldn’t have fought yesterday if I had been treating you the way I should have. You deserve to be treated right. You’ve given me so many chances to treat you better, you’ve always believed in me. You’re too good for me, and it scares me that I might not be able to give you what you want and deserve. But I want to try my hardest with every waking moment I have to show you how much I appreciate our relationship and how much I love you.” He took a step closer to you, “So can we talk about this? For real this time?”

You looked into his eyes and the love in them was deeper than you’ve ever seen from him. He wanted to make this right. You silently nod your head and let him in. And you two talked, seriously this time. He listened carefully to your feelings and shared his own. Tears were shed but the whole conversation was gentle, you were communicating your love for one another and how you could improve this relationship together.

And when he lay in your arms that night after you two talked for hours, you watched him, thinking. 

You really loved him. And now you knew he really loved you. He’s worth it.

[amaya-chwan]

Hi there dear~, I know this is kind of an out the blue question, but... I’ve been wondering about it for a bit, and felt you might be the best person I know of to ask /)w(\

I’ve been curious-- do you know if there's a name for the sort of speech pattern that Minato uses? Since I haven't got much knowledge about Japanese myself, I'm unsure if that's even exactly the right term to use, but... it seems right? so we'll go with it lol

I know a portion of things is also just his vocabulary differing from other characters as well, but still, I wasn't sure if his usual way of speaking would also count as a different pattern in general or not-- and even if this isn't something you've got much of an answer on yourself, thanks so much for taking the time to reply to this, and for all the updates and such you post for everyone~💕

HI LOVELY HUMAN! ❤️💛💜

Oh my gosh, first of all, thank you for waiting so long for this super late response! ;A;

Hmm, honestly, I'm not 100% sure about this since Minato's word choices and grammar usage are a mix of masculine and feminine language (leaning more towards feminine though).

However, Tofugu has this amazing article on gendered language: Beyond the Binary: A Queer Take on Gendered Japanese

They mention Onee kotoba [オネエ言葉] which they define as:

オネエ言葉 is a stereotypical gendered speech style, similarly to 女言葉 and 男言葉. While it is associated with the queer community, it goes without saying that it is not "the way gay people talk." Rather, just like 女言葉 or 男言葉, it's a speech style that people of all different gender identities can use in their own speech.

The name of this speech style comes from a queer identity term, オネエ, which is short for お姉さん (older sister). オネエ is used to refer to people who speak オネエ言葉, or act in a flamboyant manner. Just as a quick disclaimer: オネエ is considered derogatory by some, so we recommend using appropriate caution with this word. Still, it is quite commonly used in the media, as well as in friendly banter between members of the queer community, much like English-speaking gay men might call each other "girl."

Another definition for Onee Kotoba is from Weblio (one of my favourite dictionaries, haha).

Their definition is:

女性であることを強調した、誇張された女性語。「わ」「よ」「なの」などをよく用いるといった特徴がある。オネエ言葉を使う人を「オネエキャラ」などと言うこともある。

"Exaggerated feminine language that emphasises being a woman. The use of (sentence enders such as) wa, yo, and nano (among others) is a typical trait of this language. Those who use onee kotoba are also referred to as 'onee kyara' (i.e. celebrities or personalities, usually male, taking on an effeminate role -- JapanDict)."

So after reading a few articles and rereading TG, I'd say Minato uses this language to a degree. He still definitely uses masculine pronouns and some sentences sounds more masculine, grammatically, but he definitely mixes his use of gendered language.

Picture (1): アンタ (anta->from anata). I find this usage is used more by women, esp. when women address their husbands/lovers. Tofugu also has a longer explanation for anata (linked below). だよ (dayo) is supposedly neutral, but I find it is generally leaning towards being more masculine. I've personally never heard my female Japanese coworkers use 'dayo' -- they'd say ですよ (desu yo), but I guess that's probably because we were in an office setting! Picture (2): use of pronoun 俺 Picture (3): だって��� is a grammar point that seems to be used more by women. Pictures (4) & (5): Some feminine sentence enders that Minato uses. For picture 5, that's attributed to the lack of だ in the sentence.

Plus, OnoYuuki's portrayal as Minato in the CDs... he really makes Minato sound masculine in some scenes, and more feminine in others!

Again, thank you for waiting so long for me to respond! I hope this helps! 🥰💜

(And you are most welcome! I am glad you are also enjoying the takeaways~ 💜)

- Amaya-chwan

P.S. If anyone has more information on gendered language in Japanese or has any corrections for me about anything on this post, please let me know! I'd love to learn a lot more about this topic! 🥰

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Some other websites I stumbled across when looking into this topic!

https://japanese.stackexchange.com/questions/24139/can-girls-use-%E3%81%A0%E3%82%88%E3%81%AD

https://jlptsensei.com/learn-japanese-grammar/%E3%81%A3%E3%81%A6%E3%81%B0-%E3%81%A3%E3%81%9F%E3%82%89-tteba-ttara-meaning/

https://www.reddit.com/r/LearnJapanese/comments/3ian4b/gendered_language/

https://www.reddit.com/r/LearnJapanese/comments/1tp2al/masculine_and_feminine_language_question/

https://www.reddit.com/r/LearnJapanese/comments/2b9fiz/anyway_to_check_for_language_femininity/

https://www.tofugu.com/japanese/anata/

[sunshinetoshi]

asahi x reader (~550 words)

tall and gentle too hot to handle you're all that i want

A/N: sweet boi by chevy was requested by this lovely anon. it was so hard to pick who i should write lol. like aone was scrEAMING my name but i wanted to give asahi some luvins. the struggle and the back and forth was real omg. on the shorter side bc my brain do be wonky rn BUT i really really liked writing this one. it had me screaming. ASAHI IS SO 😍 GAHH. haha anyways enjoy the fluff xx

“Higher, Asahi, higher!”

“No, beautiful, what if you fall?”

“Then you’ll save me. Just a little, please!”

He chuckled at the look of glee on your face and gave you a slightly harder push on the swing set you were on, careful of how high you were already going.

It was a lovely day. You and Asahi went out on a date and ended up here at a hillside with you on a swing attached to a sturdy tree that had clearly been here a while. You two were awestruck when you stumbled upon it. Tracing fingers over the initials of couples and best friends on the tree and on the swing seat. It was a quaint and cute spot with a breathtaking view.

Asahi was in paradise with a wide smile on his face. He was admiring your carefree squeals and giggles of joy. Not to mention how beautiful you looked when the sunlight captured your features through the branches of the tree.

He loved you endlessly and he reveled in the fact that you felt the same way about him.

When the swing was starting to lose momentum and height again you cheered for him to keep pushing.

Instead your boyfriend caught onto the seat of the swing with one hand while the other put a strong and comfortable hold on your abdomen. He carefully brought the swing down to its resting point and lifted you up by your hands to stand up.

The way he looked at you made your heart full.

“I guess I’m done swinging,” you let out, a little breathless from all the laughter you had just done.

His lips twitched to a smile as he placed his hands on your hips.

“Kiss me.”

Your eyes widened at his words before you broke out into a smile as well. “Is that why you stopped pushing?”

He nodded as he brought his lips closer to yours and kissed you gently, his hands climbing up to your waist.

When you two pulled away he looked at you happily. “You’re so gorgeous.”

You reached to run your fingers through his hair. “You’re so hot.”

You didn’t even realize what you said until you noticed how flushed his cheeks got. You burst into laughter.

“Y/N, you can’t say things like that to me so suddenly,” he groaned, pulling you in for a hug, mostly to hide his blushing face from you.

“I know, I know, I forgot,” you laughed snuggling up to him. You sighed in content as you felt the warmth of his body through his shirt. You lifted your head. “But it’s true, gorgeous, you are hot,” you said with a playful grin.

This time he chuckled at you. “Yeah? Is that all I am?”

Your grin grew at his matching playful tone. “Absolutely not!” You loosened yourself from his embrace enough to place a kiss on his lips. “You’re sweet.” Another kiss. “You’re gentle.” Another kiss. “You’re caring.” Another kiss. “You’re strong.” And yet another kiss before you look into his eyes with a serious look. “You’re everything I want and more.” You place one more peck on his lips and grin. “And you’re hot.”

He chuckled at your last comment and gave you your own set of kisses. “I could say the same things about you, beautiful. I love you so much.”

[sunshinetoshi]

hello!!! would like to request

kageyama + ben&ben’s lifetime + angst (with fluff if u want whatever fits hihi) thank you, author-nim! <3

timeskip!kageyama x reader (<1k words)

all this time, i have been yours

tw: angst (implied breakup), fluffy/soft ending

A/N: thank you for sending this in!! i was so happy someone asked for tobio💓hope it’s okay that i did timeskip!kageyama (i put tags for spoilers just in case). thank you for being patient, it took a couple rewrites before i liked the direction it went. also i think you can tell from this how much i’m a sucker for rom-coms asfjadk. enjoy xx

“Please, don’t make me choose.” He brought his head down and gripped the edge of the bed tightly.

Despite him facing away from you, you shook your head. “Don’t pretend like there’s even a choice here to make, Tobio. We both know you’re going.” Your choice of words may have been harsh but they were from a place of understanding, a place of selflessness, and they were said with every ounce of love you could put in them. And he knew that.

You gingerly moved from your spot on the bed over to him. “Hey,” you whispered. No response. You went to touch his hand.

At the first brush of your fingers he flinched.

But when you fully moved your hand on top of his, he relaxed at the touch. The comforting touch he had grown used to.

“Tobio,” you tried again but his quiet sobs filled the waiting silence. You lean your head against him and rub his arm to comfort him.

He tried to gather himself and his words were jumbled, “Y/N, I’m so sorry. I just- I have to go.I have to. If the circumstances were different I-”

You gently shushed him, knowing those hypotheticals would only make the pain worse. “You don’t have to explain. I know you have to go. I know. It’s okay.” You shut your eyes and buried your head deeper into his body, “Maybe it just isn’t the right time for us.”

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You burned holes into the packed suitcase and backpack on the floor, listening to the muffled sound of your bathroom faucet running.

Should you have fought harder for the two of you? Should you have tried to make him choose? No. You couldn’t do that to him. You knew even before getting into a relationship with Kageyama that he had his eyes focused on his career, it’s one of the reasons you fell for him. Others told you that you were naive, even wasting your time, to be with a guy in which you were second to his career. But you never saw it that way. Since the beginning Tobio gave you everything you needed in a relationship, and you, him. So you were the last person who would push him away from such a great opportunity. But you couldn’t go with him to Italy, and you both had doubts about a long distance relationship. Now you were here.

The bathroom door opened and Kageyama re-entered your living room. He sat down next to you.

“Are you sure you don’t want to come to the airport?”

You nodded with a sad smile. “Yeah, I think saying bye to you in an airport might just break my heart.” As if it wasn’t already broken the second you realized you needed to let him go. 

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Kageyama moved around in confidence. His decision-making has always been calculated, if he came across trouble he would look for the ways to overcome it. With this mindset, he walked through life firmly.

But as he sat and waited for his plane to begin boarding he was the most nervous, antsy, and on edge he had been. His mind was racing. He was torn from his thoughts at the announcement on the overhead speaker.

“Flight 862 to Rome is now boarding at Gate B3.”

It was loud and clear.

Tobio bolted up from his seat and sped through the crowds of travelers.

This was all wrong.

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The ringer of your phone went off and at seeing who it was you quickly answered it. 

“Hello?”

“Where are you?” He was out of breath.

“What do you mean? Is everything-”

“Please, Y/N. Please tell me where you are.” 

Your heart started to race at the desperation in his voice. And why was there thumping in the background? You froze in your tracks, “I just grabbed some work documents I left in my car, I’m on my way back up to my apart-”

“I made a mistake.” His voice echoed.

You placed a hand over your mouth.

You watched carefully as he walked toward you from the building’s staircase. “I made a mistake,” he repeated after hanging up the phone.

“What are you- I- you’re missing your flight.”

“I’ll catch another one.” He gently moved your hand off your face and cupped your cheeks, wiping at the tears that formed at the sight of him. “I need you to listen to me okay?”

You nodded.

“Man, I don’t even know if what I’m about to say makes any sense.” He took a deep breath. “I’ve had a one-track mind since I was a kid. I had one goal in mind. And I tried to make all the right decisions to achieve that goal,” he stared deep into your eyes before continuing. “And I didn’t know it at the time but meeting you changed that goal. I thought it was all about my career, how I can play the longest, how I can be the best. But that’s not what it’s all about. It’s about how you always know when I need a kiss, and how you massage between my eyebrows when they’re scrunched because I’m ticked, and about how you always let me hang my arm over you when we sleep. It’s about making you feel as loved as you make me feel, making you as happy as you make me. Y/N, I want to make this work. I need us to try long-distance, I’ll fly back as frequently as possible, we’ll call and text whenever we can, I will do anything but I just need you in my life.” This time you wiped at his tears that were falling as he spoke. “You said this might not be the right time for us but I can’t accept that. I want to try everything to make it the right time.. I want to spend the rest of my life with you. Please.”

songfic event is now closed

[sunshinetoshi]

been thinking of akaashi angst with you were beautiful by day6 for the song event hmmm

akaashi x reader (1.4k words)

i don’t want you to hurt but can’t help it

tw: angst (breakup)

A/N: ouchies. thank you anon for sending this in 💓💓 i hope you don’t mind i used the english version but i linked the original version!! also i don’t know how much this goes with the song exactly but i started writing and it kinda wrote itself?? that’s why it got long asfajkd. i feel a bit rusty writing PAINFUL angst but i still really liked this one and i had fun (even with the pain lol). oh and they're out of hs and have jobs etc. but i didn't put 'timeskip' cause i didn't put details of his job or anything :))

Time felt like it stood still when he was with them. Their laugh was a ballad he was entranced by, never wanting it to end. Holding them in his arms for even a few minutes instead felt like a few hours. That’s what made him even more sure that he wanted to spend forever with them. Infinite happiness when he was with them.

The problem however was when he wasn’t with them. Time can be excruciatingly slow. Especially when you spend it alone.

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Akaashi entered the apartment. As usual he was sure not to make too much noise as he set his keys and work things away before making his way to the bedroom. Closing each door with care and shuffling around the bathroom quickly and quietly. And finally he was able to climb the bed and lay next to you.

He smiled at your sleeping face, to say you were beautiful was an understatement. He hovered over to kiss your forehead as he’s done every night these past two weeks. He was about to press his lips to your forehead when he frowned at the dry tear stains on your cheeks. He reached out and traced them, guilt building as he predicted the reason for your tears.

You stirred and took a deep inhale as you awoke. “Keiji?”

“Hey, baby, I’m sorry for waking you,” he finally kissed your forehead.

“It’s okay,” you said sleepily. You pushed his hair back and smiled at the face you’d been missing. “How was work?”

“Fine, we can talk about that in the morning.” He softly grabbed your hand and pressed a kiss to your palm. “Were you crying, love?”

You were quiet for a bit and you snuggled closer into his chest, “Yeah, but I’m okay now.”

“Are you sure?” He knew you weren’t.

You breathed in the fabric of his shirt, relaxing at the smell of clean laundry. And even in your tired state you thought about how it was strange how you two used the same soap and detergent but his clothes in particular still smelled like home. “I’m sure, baby. We should go to sleep, you’ve got an early morning don’t you?”

That only made Akaashi feel worse. Early mornings and late nights. That was his work schedule recently with the new project and pressing deadlines. And his team was just talking about how this was going to become the new normal with all the success happening right now. He wrapped his arms around you tightly and couldn’t ignore that voice in the back of his head. The one that always filled him with uncalled-for dread. What if you two couldn’t survive this new normal?

That fear gained more ground with each night the following week. It was evident you were crying yourself to sleep each night. Yet in the mornings when he asked, there was always a different excuse. Watching a movie, seeing a heart-warming trending video, etc. You never told him what he already knew. You were crying because you two hardly saw each other anymore. You missed him. He knew he missed you.

One night he came home and the bedside lamps were still on, light illuminating the crack under the bedroom door. And he could hear you crying.

“Baby?” His voice came from behind the door.

You quickly wiped the tears from your face as the door swung open, wondering how you didn't hear him enter the apartment. You attempted a smile at him as you wiped your nose with your sleeve. “Hey, love!” You looked at the little clock at Akaashi’s side of the bed. You didn’t realize how late it was.

He sat on the edge of the bed next to you. “Hey,” he rubbed your knee and when he spoke it was gentle. “Are you okay?”

“Of course! You’re home,” you wrapped your arms around his neck and went in for a kiss.

But the tears that fell as you two kissed betrayed the words you said.

When you pulled away he wiped your tears dry, angry it wasn’t the first or last time he made you cry. “We need to talk about this, Y/N.” A pause. “We haven’t been doing okay.”

You shook your head but he cut you off before you could even begin.

“Love, you’ve been miserable this past month..And it’s all my fault.”

“Hey, no it’s not. Don’t talk like that Keji. I’m okay really I-”

“You’re not!” The volume of his voice shocked both of you. It contrasted greatly with the silence that came after.

“Being with me is hurting you.” His head hung low.

“Keiji.” your voice was sharp, causing him to look at you. “Stop telling me how I’m feeling, okay? You’re beating yourself up for nothing. I said I’m okay. We’re going to be fine, this is just a bump in the road.”

“This isn’t just a bump. These are my normal hours now. How are we going to be fine? We can’t even talk about how much we miss each other, Y/N. And how does crying yourself to sleep each night qualify you as being okay? You don’t deserve any of this, you deserve better.”

You wipe at the tears that won’t stop falling. “You think better is when we’re not together?” The way your voice cracked broke Akaashi’s heart further.

“It’ll be better for you,” he whispered.

You scoffed, “It wouldn’t be. Why is that your first way of addressing this? Do you know I haven’t been telling you I missed you because I’d rather miss you and know I’ll wake up with you next to me than have a trial like this end what we have. Don’t you feel the same way?”

He rubbed his eyes in distress, “Of course I’ve thought about that but-”

“But what?” Your eyes widened at the way you spat the question out. Your features softened, hating the way the air was tense. “Baby, we can work through this, together. If this is what comes with your job then we’re going to make it work. It’s exactly what we talked about all that time ago,” you said as you wrapped your hand around his, “We’re building our future.”

You smiled remembering all those talks through the years, how the conversation always ended with a nod toward the future. But after those memories glazed over you your eyes settled on Akaashi, who was refusing to meet your gaze. “Baby?”

He didn’t say anything as he pulled his hand from your grasp. In his heart he believed he was making the right choice.

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Time is fleeting. It was something Akaashi didn’t believe when he was with you, frozen in a state of paradise. But now he agreed. How was it that months had passed since he broke your heart?

And while work kept him busy he still constantly thought about you. One day he found himself flipping through the photo albums you left when you moved out. You really were the most beautiful person he had ever met, inside and out.

It happened so quickly. He almost wasn’t mentally present but he knew it was real when he heard the dialing tone. He prepared himself to reach the voicemail machine, wondering what he could say. Or if he should just hang up now.

Then he heard the line connect.

“Hello?”

It was like he was reinvigorated with life when he heard your voice.

“Hey bab-” he stopped himself. Old habits do die hard apparently. “Hey, Y/N.”

The line was quiet for a while but he could hear your breathing.

“How are-”

“Don’t.” Your voice trembled. “Don’t ask me how I am.”

“Y/N, I’m sorry.” For everything.

“No, Keiji. You don’t get to apologize. You don’t have the right to call me. You’re the one who broke up with me. You’re the one who didn’t want to fight for us. You-you can’t. God, I don’t even know why I picked up.”

He felt instant regret when he heard you crying. It seemed making you cry was the only thing he could do. He wiped at his own tears.

“I know..trust me I know. I just..I hope you’re doing well.”

It was a while before you spoke again. “Akaashi, I hope you’re doing well too but please..please don’t call me anymore. I don’t think I can handle it.. Maybe you were right about us, I don’t know. But I know I can’t do this, this phone call. Please..” Your voice cracked. “Goodbye, Akaashi.

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You hung up the phone and brought your hand to your mouth. You stared around your relatively new bedroom and it seemed bigger than it did a few minutes ago, scarier.

Even when you were with the love of your life you experienced loneliness. Now he was gone and you were forced to face solitude. And you hoped with all your heart that what they say is true. Time heals all wounds.

songfic event is now closed [regular requests are open <33]

[sunshinetoshi]

hello, congratulations for 100!!!🤩

i would to request a fic! tsukishima + ed sheeran & justin bieber - i don’t care + fluff

tsukishima x reader (<700 words)

cause i don't care as long as you just hold me near

A/N: thank you sm 🥰🥰 fluffy tsukki is the best tsukki alksjdf and this song is so cute for him!! this song always makes me dance so we can only imagine what i was like writing this with the song on repeat BAHAHA. hope you enjoy xx

You fixed the collar of his shirt and smiled at him. “You look good, Kei.”

He snorted and shook his head at you. “Come on,” he put his arm around you, “Let’s get this over with.”

“It won’t be horrible, I promise,” you giggled and pressed a kiss to his cheek. “Who knows?” you shrugged your shoulders, “Maybe you’ll even have fun.” You chuckled at your own joke and snuggled into your boyfriend’s chest as you two walked into your friend’s house for their birthday party.

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Tsukki never liked parties. He felt like they weren’t good for conversation and when you did manage to have a conversation it was small talk. Something else he wasn’t a fan of. In general he was just not into that scene. But he was still insistent that he go with you. It was Friday. It was date night. And if that meant going to this party and then being able to go home and watch movies in your pjs and cuddle together, well, he was okay with that.

But he wished time would go a little faster so he could get to movie night with you sooner.

You two had been there for a little over forty minutes. You spent that time going back and forth between milling around with your friends and spending time with Kei. He thought it was a little amusing watching you. Laughing with your friends, dancing even, and going up to him asking him if he was okay and then sharing the stories you just heard from your friends. He declined the invitations to join the conversations.

“Hello, handsome,” you grinned cheekily as you approached him again.

“Hello, sweetheart,” he replied.

“I was actually curious if you wanted to dance, I know you love this song.”

Tsukishima actually hadn’t been paying attention to the music at this point. When someone wasn’t trying to include him in their conversation he was on his phone looking through his photos with you, specifically though the pictures from past date nights. He laughed at the one from the ice rink where you held on to the railing the whole time, groaned at the one from spa night where you accidentally got face mask in his hair and up his nose. He grinned at the last time you two had movie night, already thinking of which movies you two might watch when you get home later.

Kei cocked his head to hear the music better. He listened to the song and smiled hearing the familiar lyrics. It was his favorite song. He grabbed your hand and started swaying the two of you. Nothing crazy or fancy, just a comfortable sway.

“Thank you for accompanying me here,” you said as you leaned in closer to him.

“It’s my pleasure,” he teased.

And you laughed, “Kei, I’m serious.” You lifted your head and looked into his eyes, “I appreciate it. I know these aren’t really your thing. So thank you.”

He looked at you, your smile, and your sparkling eyes while you were in his arms and he felt a familiar feeling. The same one he felt every morning when he woke up and saw you there next to him. Overwhelming love.

“I’d do anything if it meant being with you and seeing that smile of yours.”

Your eyes widened at what he said. “What?”

Kei clicked his tongue and continued swaying you, “I’m not repeating it.”

“Aw, why not!”

“Because you heard me!”

You burst into laughter. “Okay, well I say we finish up this song and then get going.”

“Really?” he questioned, “Are you sure?”

You nodded and gently took hold of his wrist to check the time on his watch, “We’ve been here fifty-two minutes and counting, I think that’s solid.” You grinned at him again, “Plus, it’s date night. And I already mentally picked out a couple movie ideas.”

He chuckled, “Can’t wait to watch them.” He leaned in to kiss you.

-----

“You wanna know something?” he asked as you two started the drive back home.

You turned to him and waited for him to continue.

He grabbed your hand, “I actually had a little fun. At the party I mean.” He kept his face expressionless as he drove.

Your jaw dropped. What did he just say?

[sunshinetoshi]

can I get a hurt/comfort kita with leaves by Ben&Ben for the song event? thanks! <33

kita x reader (~750 words)

all will be alright in time

tw: hurt/comfort, mental health/stress, long distance relationship

A/N: this song is so beautiful!! thank you for sending it in. okay from the moment i listened to this i was trying to think of some kind of relationship angst plot but couldn’t cause kita’s so lovely (not that the other characters aren’t omg) but i decided to go in a slightly different direction. first time writing for kita so i hope this is okay xx

“Are you still there?”

Your attention is brought back to the sound of his voice. “Yeah,” you whisper, nodding even though he can’t see you. “I’m still here.”

He waited for you to say more. When you didn’t, he sighed. “Are you sure everything is okay?” He started to sound worried and it made the pit in your stomach grow.

“I’m sure, really.” You fiddled with your jacket, “I’m sorry, just a lot on my mind.”

“Do you want to tell me about it?”

“No,” you said quickly. “I mean, it’s alright. Everything will be alright. That’s what you always say right?” A weak grin makes its way to your face at the memories of him telling you that phrase.

“Right.” Another brief pause. “I love you, Y/N.”

“I love you too.” You brought your fingers to your lips, feeling them tremble a little as you talk.

“I miss you, sweetheart.”

At this point the tears are threatening to spill. “I miss you, Shinsuke.” You know if the conversation didn’t end soon you were going to break. You willed yourself to make it through. “I’ll talk to you tomorrow, love.”

“Alright, I’ll talk to you tomorrow. Take care of yourself, okay?” His usual sign-off. “Bye, sweetheart.”

“Mhm, bye, love.” You pressed the button on your phone to end the call. When you saw his name clear from your phone and your lock screen took its place you broke down.

All the built up tears fell. This week was hell and it seemed like it was only getting worse and worse. Nothing seemed to be going right. You were having a rough time in school and even small things were going wrong. You knew it was wrong but you were bottling all this in, not wanting to unload this on your friends or boyfriend. But it was getting heavy. Everything felt so gray. And the one person who could bring your color back was miles away. And phone calls with him weren’t cutting it anymore. He always asked you if you were okay but you wanted these phone calls to be about the both of you, you didn’t want to think about your troubles. You missed Kita so much. And today’s daily phone call pushed you over the edge. You wanted his arms around you and for him to kiss away your stress like he did before you moved. You wanted something to just go right for once. Everything will be alright. Oh how you desperately wished that was true.

You woke up in the morning to your phone ringing. It was Kita. You immediately started to panic. Why would he call when it wasn’t your scheduled phone call time?

“Shinsuke?” you answered the phone. Was he okay? You were not in the headspace to handle anything happening to him.

“I’m outside your door.”

You froze. “What?”

He calmly repeated himself, “I’m outside your door.”

You gasped. He was serious. You threw yourself out of bed and ran to your front door.

“What are you doing here?”

He gently smiled and took the phone you were still speaking into from your hand. He closed the door behind him and led you to your sofa.

He carefully pulled you close to his lap, facing him.

“Shinsuke.”

“I’m here because it sounded like there were things you didn’t want to say over the phone. So I’m here. For you.” He saw your eyes watering and he softly put a hand on your cheek. “Please tell me.”

You broke down into tears again, overwhelmed with emotion. You wrapped your arms around Kita and clung to him. “Life is so hard, Shinsuke.” You cried and told him all your worries, all the troubling moments you had this week.

“Oh my darling, life is hard,” he said as he rubbed comforting circles into your back. “But you know something?” He lifted you up to look at him. “You’re not in this fight alone. Understand?” He wiped the tears off your cheeks.

You nodded. “Thank you.”

“No need to thank me, I’m here for you through it all.” He smiled at you.

“Can I have kisses?” you let out shyly.

He chuckled, “After the week you’ve had? I think it’ll take a lot of kisses for the stress to go away. And I am more than happy to give them all to you.” He gently began to pepper slow and caring kisses on your face.

“Everything will be alright, sweetheart.”

[sunshinetoshi]

i am going to SHAMELESSLY request these off anon so . . . iwa-chan + remember me by umi + hurt/comfort 🥺🤪

college!iwaizumi x reader (900 words)

will you remember? do you remember me?

tw: slight angst (mutual breakup), fluffy end i promise

A/N: shame?? what’s that aslkdf i love your requests so no need for shame anyways bby. we also love iwa here-i just wanna hug him forever and ever. highkey struggled w/ hurt/comfort for iwa so this had 3 rewrites cause the ones i wrote didn’t match the song. mm i still think it’s a bit rusty but i still kinda like it so i hope it’s okay xx

You both knew it was best. To break up, to give each other space, to focus on your studies. You both knew it.

But it still hurt like hell.

It hurt more than the missed phone calls. It hurt more than the disappointment with cancelled dates. It hurt more than the nights you just wanted a hug from him and couldn’t get one. It hurt so much more.

Because it’s not like you ever stopped loving him.

Maybe one day it’ll be the right timing for us.

-----

You smiled and laughed as you scrolled through your phone, seeing the comments your friends left on your cap and gown pictures you took. You scrolled through the many ‘Congratulations’ they left for you. But none of their kind words compared to the notification of a comment that popped up on your phone.

congratulations Y/N

Essentially the same words as a majority of the other comments but seeing who it was from made you freeze up.

You were only jolted back to reality when another notification appeared, this time a text.

i’m proud of you

You watched those three cursed dots in anticipation for thirty tortuous seconds. Then they disappeared, replaced by another short text.

i’m really happy for you

You waited to see if there was more but there wasn’t.

You stared at the contact name you never bothered to change despite the three years that had passed.

My Hajime 🖤

-----

You knew staring at the phone wasn’t going to do anything. No matter how long you stared.

So you started to type. But nothing sounded right. A simple thanks couldn’t encompass what you actually wanted to say.

Throwing your phone down next to you, you grabbed a nearby pillow and cursed into it. After taking a deep breath you grabbed your phone again.

“Hello?”

Your free hand fiddled with the hem of your hoodie. “Hi.” You didn’t really have a plan going into this. You two sat in silence for a few seconds. “Um, are you free this weekend? To catch up?” You facepalmed after asking him.

“Yeah, I’d like that.”

You two set up a place, time, and day before ending the short call.

-----

It was a struggle not to think too much about seeing him again. You had no clue how it could turn out but you tried to keep yourself in check just in case there were curveballs you didn’t see coming.

But you were nervous. And really excited.

When you arrived at the little park you saw Iwaizumi sitting on a bench and you smiled, feeling giddy to see him after so long despite how much it took for you to get to a better place after the breakup.

“Hey,” you said as you approached him.

He stood up from the bench and looked at you, a smile growing on his face, “Hey.” He scratched the back of his neck, “You look good.”

“Thank you, you too,” you laughed.

Iwaizumi grabbed the box that was sitting next to him. “I grabbed you some doughnuts, I didn’t know if you had breakfast yet.”

You opened the box and smiled. They were your favorite. “You remembered, “ you said softly before smiling at him again.

“Of course I did,” he grinned.

You two sat and nibbled on the pastries.

“Congratulations, again.”

“Thank you. What about you, how's school going?”

“Actually my graduation’s in a week.”

“That’s amazing! Congratulations to you too, then.”

He laughed. You two caught up a little but it was mostly small talk. School, family, friends, etc. But it was nice, you really missed him all this time so it was nice to talk with him again no matter what it was about.

“You know when I texted you there was a lot I wanted to say, I just didn’t know what,” he admitted after you two had been talking for a while.

You nodded along but you were biting the inside of your mouth. “Was it about us?” you spit out.

He looked at you but you kept your gaze on the ground.

“Cause if it was, I think that’s why I wanted to see you too. But uh, if it wasn’t..” your voice drifted off.

“Y/N, I still love you.”

You met his gaze with wide eyes.

He slowly reached for your hand, giving you the opportunity to move away if you wanted to. But you let him grab it. His hand was warm and he held on firmly. "I still love you. And I would do anything to see if this time is the right time for us. And I feel like it really will be the right time. Because you're the right person for me. You always have been. And I know we've both grown a bit in our time apart but I want to learn and love every part of you, from the things I already knew to everything there is to learn. I love you."

You ran your fingers through his hair. "This time we're going to make it the right time, no matter what. Got it?"

He cracked a smile at your forwardness. He nodded, "Got it."

You placed a kiss on his cheek and he pulled you in for a hug.

"Ugh, it's a good thing I never changed your contact name."

You pulled back from him with a sparkle in your eye, "No way."

Maybe the right person is worth the wait.

songfic event is now closed [regular requests are open <33]

[sunshinetoshi]

timeskip!oikawa x reader (1k words)

that's alright, let it out, talk to me

tw: angst (hurt/comfort), mental health/stress

A/N: talk to me by cavetown was requested by this lovely anon. this is a comfort fic but this time it’s the reader who notices their boyfriend is struggling. okay lowkey i wanted to do kags for this bc i haven’t written for him for this event yet but the ‘you don't have to be a prodigy to be unique’ line jumped out at me and yELLED for oikawa. i think i’m also trying to reconcile with him for making such an angsty fic series with him but idk bahaha i just love him sm wow xx

He looked a little worn out when he entered the apartment. “Hey baby, are you okay?” you asked as you wrapped your arms around his waist.

He sighed and had a tired smile on his face, “Yeah, I just had a long day, but I’m okay.”

You were a little hesitant to leave the subject alone but his eyes told you he was okay.

But that was several days ago. And with each day you could see more and more stress on his face. Conversations were getting shorter and being replaced with quiet cuddles that Oikawa asked for. Other times he would just find where you were hanging out in the apartment and just sit down next to you and either put his head on you or trace his fingers over your skin, all without saying a word. You were really starting to get worried but whenever you asked him how he was doing he shut down the conversation. 

It hurt to see him in obvious pain but not want to speak about it.

Soon enough he had a game and he asked you to go with him, which you immediately agreed to.

But it was unexpectedly heartbreaking to be in the stands. Both teams were astounding. And you knew Oikawa was fighting like hell on the court. You winced and cursed when he screamed in frustration or when he made a dangerous receive and scrambled to get off the floor in time. At one point you gasped as you saw the look on his face, his eyes were dark. But he wasn’t just angry, it was deeper than that. It was a look you’ve only seen a couple of times so far in your relationship. Devastated and disappointed in himself.

When his team lost you hurried to him to take him home and finally talk to him

The entire way home was silent. When the door to your apartment was finally shut you grabbed his hand.

“Tooru I-”

“Please, baby. Please,” he pleaded and gently cupped your cheek. “Please. I can’t talk about it tonight.” He wiped at a tear that was threatening to fall down his cheek. “Can we please just eat dinner and then go to bed?”

You wanted to say no and demand he tell you what’s been wrong recently. But he looked so fragile right now. You reached to push his hair back, “Are you sure? Is that what you need right now?”

He nodded and softly tugged you to follow him to the kitchen.

That night was another quiet night with Oikawa pulling you close to him and just staring off into space.

Hours later you knew it was starting to get late and be about the time you usually went to sleep but Oikawa was still awake.

You felt him check his phone for the time.

“Y/N? Are you asleep?”

You weren’t sure if you should answer. You kept your breath slow and even. Did he finally want to talk?

“You’re asleep. Good,” he whispered. “I don’t know why I can’t tell you when you ask me.” His voice was getting shaky. “Maybe it’s because I don’t know quite how to put it into words.. But everything is so hard right now, Y/N. Life is really hard right now.”

You could feel your heart break even further but you had the feeling he was only sharing this because he thought you were asleep.

“Damn it.” You could feel his chest rise as he quietly cried, not trying to ‘wake you.’ He went on for a while and you knew your own tears were falling onto the sleeves of your sweater.

“I love you, baby. Thank you for always being there for me,” he placed a kiss on your head and you could feel his breaths steady as he drifted off into sleep.

You decided that to really be there for him like he said you were, you had to talk to him about this.

And so you did.

You woke up before Oikawa. You sat up and looked at him. His cheeks were covered in dried tear stains. You brushed at them lightly with your fingers.

“Good morning, baby,” he whispered as he woke up.

“Good morning.” You placed a kiss on his lips when he sat up. “Tooru?”

“Mhm?”

“I want to be there for you, always, you know that right?”

He turned his head to you and nodded.

You repositioned yourself so you were sitting right in front of him. You started to tear up. “It’s okay not to be okay. But please, please let me in. Please talk to me.”

You looked up at him again and saw his eyes were glossy too.

Next thing you know you were in a tight embrace and he was crying into the crook of your neck, telling you how hard his career has been with practice and with losing the recent games, how much he’s been in his head, how he didn’t want to burden you. And you rubbed his back and listened to all he had to say.

When he let it all out and began to quiet down you peppered his face with kisses. “You are not a burden, not to anyone and especially not to me. You can always talk to me, okay? Always.”

He nodded.

“I love you so much, Tooru.”

“I love you too. Thank you. Really.” He gave you a kiss.

When you pulled away you placed your hands on his arms. “Okay! I already decided. Today is Tooru Day! We’re making your favorite pancakes, watching your favorite movies, and eating from that restaurant you like so much for dinner. And you’re getting all the cuddles and smooches you want!”

“Really?” he chuckled. “Wow maybe I should bottle my feelings up more often.” His eyes widened at the death glare you gave him. He held his hands up in defense, “Heheh, just kidding, baby! I love you, remember?”

You huffed, “You’re lucky it’s Tooru Day or I would’ve flicked your forehead.”

“Can I have a kiss on the forehead instead?” He smiled at you playfully. You were happy that he was starting to feel a bit better. “It’s Tooru Day, right?”

“Man, I love you.”

[sunshinetoshi]

sigh im kinda reluctant to send this but here goes, tanaka courting you, basically fluff lol with the song ligaya by eraserheads

its in tagalog but its basically abt a guy talking abt going after this person and assuring them that theyre not gonna regret it, theyll be happy and stuff if they accept him, hence the name ligaya, which means happiness smthn like that lol sjjssjssj

college!tanaka x reader (1.2k words)

don’t question or doubt this because my heart has no fear

tw: 99% fluff with an itty bitty 1% angst that gets resolved in the end

A/N: no need to be reluctant sweet anon!! very fitting song for our tanaka. lol also i’m fil-am so i was excited to listen to this song for the first time!! i don’t speak tagalog but i understand it (working on the speaking part but will take a while oop) so this was a fun one to do. also i wrote the oneshot ‘title’ as my own loose translation of the lyrics so if it’s off i’m sorry ahh but the original lyrics are: huwag ka sanang magtanong at magduda dahil ang puso ko'y walang pangamba. lowkey this was me writing fluffy tanaka hcs but putting them into oneshot form alsjdf. also i didn’t realize this would be so long i just kept writing and writing omg but i hope you enjoy xx

“I think you’re my soulmate.”

You blinked at the boy in front of you. What did he just say? Your eyebrows knit together as you surveyed his face for sarcasm or teasing. But he was completely serious.

You burst into laughter, “All I said was ‘Hi, my name is Y/N.’ Don’t you think it’s a bit soon for you to decide that?”

Tanaka couldn’t take his eyes off your giggling figure and with a goofy smile on his face he shook his head. “No, I think it was the perfect amount of time.”

“Ah, I see. Well what if I told you I don’t really believe in soulmates?”

“In that case, I guess we’ll just have to fall in love.”

-----

And he made it quite easy to do that. With that first conversation you were already hooked by the boy. But after months and months, much to Ryuu’s dismay, of being just friends you knew you had definitely fallen for him.

How could you not? With every gesture, big and small, he made you feel like you were living the rom-com story everyone longed for. Offering you your favorite snacks and showering you in compliments were a frequent occurrence. The amount of chips and candies and little post-it-notes he’s given you could build mountains if compiled together. He even designated one of his jackets as his “Y/N- jacket” with how often he insisted you borrow it because you were cold or because you just liked the style of it.

When he had free time and you were getting out of class you’d find him standing outside in the corridors, leaning on the wall as he waited for you to appear. Though your favorite times he’s done this were the few times you caught him running late, sprinting to reach your building only to then bend over with his hands on his knees as he tried to catch his breath. Then taking his cool stance against the wall as if that didn’t happen. And no you never mentioned you caught him doing that. But it wasn’t just these kinds of things.

It was the way he was too loud watching movies and turning to you to see your reaction to what was on the screen. As if you weren't watching him with a small smile on your face from the beginning. Or the way he would talk about his friends and his passions with so much compassion and admiration, with conviction. The times when you two were just talking for hours on end were your favorite, laughing and questioning, sometimes crying, with Tanaka in your living room. There was so much more to him than meets the eye and he had a strength and a comfort you know you were magnetized by too much to be just friends.

And it seems like Ryuu’s been sensing that more and more.

Your hands were latched on his arm as you laughed uncontrollably at one of his many stories. And when you finally calmed down both of you had that twinkly light in your eyes as you two stared at one another.

“Y/N,” he breathed out. “Let me take you out, as more than friends.”

You looked down at your hands, “Ryuu.”

Of course you wanted to say yes, the way your heart was skipping a beat was practically begging you to. But you were scared. No one has ever treated as well as he did, platonically and definitely not romantically. And to be honest he seemed to be good to be true.

Your chest felt heavy as you heard him sigh. His lips were pulled into a tight line. “It’s getting kind of late, I think I’m going to head out. Got an early class tomorrow anyways.”

You watched him as he collected his stuff and as he headed for the door you reached out to him. “Wait, Ryuu. I’m sorry-”

“You don’t have to be sorry, Y/N. Really. It’s okay. I, uh, I’ll just see you tomorrow.” 

And you wished more than anything that you had the courage to confess and tell him your feelings for him.

When he had the door open he faced you again. “I don’t want to pressure you, if you don’t like me, then you don’t like me. But if you’re scared or you think this is risky for our friendship or something,” he looked deep into your eyes, “I think we’re worth the risk, just a chance to see if we’d be something great. Because I think we would be. We already are in our own way.” His voice drifted off in the end and he cleared his throat, “Good night, Y/N.”

Not surprisingly, you didn’t get a wink of sleep that night. You were tossing and turning with Tanaka’s words mulling in your mind. You had to do something. Something bold to let him know that you wanted him no matter how scared you were.

In the morning as you stood with your arms full outside of the building Tanaka had class in, you started to curse the lack of sleep. Maybe if you got sleep you would have come up with a better idea than this. One that didn’t cause passing strangers to eye you.

But the way his eyes lit up when he spotted you and the way he cracked up in laughter as he jogged over to you reassured you it was a great idea.

“What on Earth is all this?” he said gesturing to your arms.

“You always do bold gestures like this so I thought I’d give it a shot.”

“And why the bold gesture?” he asked further as he picked one of the absurd amount of packaged melonpan breads you managed to get a hold of at the grocery store earlier.

You said it as he was unwrapping the plastic.

“I think I’m in love with you.”

Both your eyes flew wide. And the melonpan in his hands almost fell to the ground if he didn’t catch it in time.

You gulped and stood a little taller, “Actually, I know I am. I love you Ryuu.” And you finally told him all your feelings, the fear, the nerves, the comfort, and the happiness.

He still looked a little dumbfounded. “So,” he spoke slowly, “Does this mean we’re finally going on a date?”

“I’d hope so,” you whispered looking down at the ground, feeling embarrassed. Or rather trying to look at the ground past the bags of bread which only made the embarrassment grow in the silence, waiting for him to speak.

“Yes! We did fall in love! Whoohoo! We’re in love!”

You looked up and saw him throwing his hands up in, well, celebration. And you laughed at how happy he was, and how happy you felt as well.

When he finished cheering to the world he turned to you with the brightest smile you’ve ever seen on him. He walked up to you and wrapped his arms around you and all the melonpan.

“Thank you for giving us a shot,” he whispered to you, breathless from all his shouting at ten in the morning.

You smiled at him, eyes lingering on his lips that you had been wanting to kiss for a while. “Well I think we’re worth it.” And with that you leaned forward to finally kiss the boy you’ve fallen for.

songfic event is now closed [regular requests are open <33]

[sunshinetoshi]

college!kuroo x reader (1.8k words)

it hurts to know just how lovely you are

tw: slight angst(pining)-to-fluff

Summary: he was the one you sat next to in class and you couldn’t help but crush on him. you didn’t find out the feelings were mutual until months later when he just so happens to be in your lecture hall sitting six feet away

A/N: six feet apart by alec benjamin was requested by this lovely anon. lowkey took a lotta creative liberty and just turned this into a self-indulgent piece so i don’t know how much it really goes with the song (especially the meaning of the song lol) but i love alec benjamin and after listening to the song on replay for like an hour this is what i came up with. may or may not (the answer is may) be based on my own experience. except in my case we had the class together and then the next time i saw him he had a girlfriend ouch. also went longer on this than i wanted for the event but like i said self-indulgent so i just kept on typing and typing haha oops xx

Physics. Your least favorite subject. But your most favorite class. All because of him.

-----

“This seat taken?” you asked, out of breath from rushing to your classroom.

The guy turned to face you and you had to hold yourself from dropping your jaw. You didn’t know your university had boys like that walking around. He was very attractive.

“No, feel free,” he said with a smile. His eyes had a glint in them that made you smile back at him.

“Thanks,” you slid into the seat and got your materials out.

You tried to focus on what the instructor put on the board for announcements but it was hard when you could feel him staring at you. Should you introduce yourself to him? You wanted to but you couldn’t find a bold bone in your body at the moment. You spent a moment trying to hype yourself up. As you finally turned to face him your instructor cleared his throat as he called the class to order.

The boy next to you gave an amused smirk and you could feel a teasing and playful energy from him. He knew you were about to speak to him.

You bit the inside of your cheek and couldn’t help how the corners of your mouth tugged at a smile. You shake your head in amusement and turn back front, deciding it was important to get all the course information.

You didn’t try to speak to him during class, settling instead on gauging what kind of guy he was.

He was studious and focused. He wrote notes as the instructor spoke, he even raised his hand to clarify something. Damn it, he didn’t seem like a jerk. Was this going to make this class distracting?

The only time you spoke to him was near the end of class when assignment worksheets were being handed out. He grabbed the pile from the student in front of him. He put one sheet in front of him and then grabbed another sheet and slid it onto the table in front of you before handing you the pile of papers to hand off to the student next to you. It was charming.

“Thank you,” you said shyly, adding an appreciative smile.

“Not a problem.”

A few minutes later class ended and everyone began packing up.

“I guess I’ll uh see you around,” he said, adjusting his bag on his shoulder with one hand. Was he nervous?

You smiled at him gently, trying to contain excitement. “I hope so.” You widen your eyes a little. You meant to say ‘I guess so.’

But he also widens his eyes a little and blushes. “Cool.” He gave a little wave and headed for the door.

-----

You wanted to scream at the people walking in front of you, you were running late to physics class again because you mixed up your schedule. You beelined around them and checked your phone. Five minutes left.

You sigh in relief when you enter the room with two minutes to spare. Then your eyes spotted the empty seat where you sat two days ago, right next to your cute classmate. Humans are creatures of habit you remembered your sociology professor saying in lecture earlier.

You went to the seat and sat down. “Hey,” you grinned at his slightly shocked expression.

He composed himself, “Hey.” Smiling he added, “Sorry, I thought someone was trying to take your seat.”

“My seat?”

“Well, I don’t own it but I’d say it’s yours if you want it.” Oh, he was good.

You laughed, “Well I’ll definitely think about it.”

“I thought you weren’t going to make it today. Or that I was repulsive and you choose to sit somewhere else.”

Again you laughed and told him how you were still getting used to your schedule.

“I’m glad you made it,” he smiled at you. “On time I mean,” he said rushed. Was he flustered?

“Me too.” You beamed back at him.

You two look into each other’s eyes for a moment.

“Kuroo Tetsurou,” he said as he reached his hand to you.

-----

You had been in this class for a month now and you were shocked at how well you were doing considering it was like learning a foreign language. Who would mix math and science together? But Kuroo would help you out in class.

At this point you knew you had a crush on him. But you also knew this class would be ending in two months when the quarter ends. It’s not like anything would happen with the two of you right?

But in spite of that part of your brain that reminded you to be realistic, you still made it your mission to get to class on time, early even, so that you and him could talk more. They were always fun conversations, learning more about one another or telling funny stories. And there were definitely times when banter crossed the line to flirting. But you two never asked for each other’s phone numbers and you never saw him outside of class.

And that was how it went until the day of your final exams for that class.

“You stressed?” Kuroo asked when you sat down.

“Surprisingly? Not as much as I thought I would be. Turns out I had a great tutor this quarter,” you grinned, referring to how much help he would give you.

“Ah, I see, “ he said sitting back onto the back of his chair. “Hmm, I wish I had a tutor this quarter.”

You smack his arm lightly and laugh, “Oh shut up, you don’t need one you show-off.”

“I’m serious!” he said with a ton of sarcasm. He put an elbow on the table and propped his chin on his hand, “Nah, all I got this quarter was some really cute, sweet classmate who sat next to me all quarter long.”

You were speechless. Was that something of a confession or was he just teasing you again?

You were saved when the instructor started to talk about the exam procedure.

It was hard to concentrate when you were still thinking about what Kuroo said. But you were not about to let some boy be the only thing on your mind when you had a real shot at doing well on this exam. The questions took a long time but you were proud at how much you were able to retain.

You were only about two-thirds of the way through the exam when Kuroo stood up next to you, he was finished. Of course. He started to pack his things.

Was this going to be the last you saw of him? From your peripherals you saw him leave the row you two always sat in and head for the instructor to turn in his exam. You wanted to sigh. Maybe you should’ve done something about your crush. But it’s a little too late for that now.

When he turns back around your way to head for the door you flickered your attention to your paper, though your eyes were not focused on the words you were looking at. He was getting closer.

And you almost lost your breath when you noticed a hand on the edge of your table. You looked up and saw Kuroo there with a smile on his face. Instantly your shoulders relaxed a little and you smiled back at him. He gently taps the desk a few times before he draws his hand back and gives your eyes another glance. Then he walked away.

-----

You came to accept that a relationship with Kuroo was probably just not meant to be. You would still think about how good you two were together or how good you two could be together in a relationship.

But alas that class was long over three months ago. A whole quarter had passed since then and your life went on.

Now you sat in a big lecture hall, mindlessly staring at the board as the professor went on about how this new quarter would go for her course.

“Ah, we have a question,” your professor paused her spiel.

You and some of the other students around you drove your attention back to the professor at the mention of a question.

“Yeah, I was wondering something about what you just said in terms of our assignment.”

Your eyes widened. You knew that voice. You learned forward and looked down the row, and, lo and behold, Kuroo was sitting a handful of seats down from you. Six feet away.

If you weren’t surrounded by total strangers you might have gasped audibly but instead you covered your mouth and sank a little deeper in your seat.

-----

Humans are creatures of habit.

Two weeks into this class and you all sat in relatively the same seats.

You always sat in the same seat with Kuroo so close and yet so far.

Sometimes you could pick out his laughter when the professor cracked a funny joke. Those feelings you had months ago were threatening to resurface despite not speaking with him yet. Did they ever go away? Were you senselessly pining after some guy? If so, he was the most lovely guy you had ever met. But what if this was just some random coincidence that you were in the same class again. You wished you could talk to him again, hear his laugh.

“Y/L/N?”

You were leaving the lecture hall when you heard your name.

You turned and saw Kuroo jogging up to you as he juggled to hold his things.

“Kuroo!”

“You remember me,” he breathed out when he reached you, a wide smile on his face.

You smiled back, “Of course.”

“Man, I thought I saw you last week sitting down the row but I wasn’t sure it was you. And then when I did know it was you I didn’t have the courage to walk up to you. I really wasn’t sure if you’d remember me.” He scratched the back of his neck, “Oh, sorry. I didn’t mean to ramble.” He looked so cute.

“Don’t be sorry, Kuroo. It seems like we have another class together, huh?”

“Seems so,” he grinned. “And call me Tetsurou, maybe with my luck we’ll be spending a lot of time together this quarter. And maybe we can sit next to each other again instead of six feet apart.”

You started to get flustered at the fact that he took as much notice of you as you did of him but you managed to speak confidently, “I think that all sounds lovely, Tetsurou.” You grinned when you saw his face brighten at the sound of his first name.

“And maybe I can finally get your phone number and take you out on a date like I should’ve done all those months ago,” he said quieter, his eyes were watching you carefully.

“You know what? I think we can make that all happen actually,” you responded, eyes sparkling. It felt so right to be talking to him again and you were overjoyed.

He had a huge smile on his face. “If you have some time right now maybe we can talk about this some more at the coffee shop?”

“I have a couple hours before my next lecture,” you smiled back.

“Perfect.” He offered his arm to you.

Grabbing on you whispered back. “Perfect.”

[sunshinetoshi]

Congratulations on your milestone love! Would like to request the song “I love us” by the Regrettes with Konoha? thank you so much! 💖

konoha x reader (<750 words)

how things can change when you want 'em to

A/N: 💖💖 thank you so much bby!! love the vibes of this song heheh hope you enjoy some konoha fluff also i hope you dont mind friends to lovers xx

Comfortable. Easy. Just a couple words to describe your relationship with Konoha. Ever since you met him, you two fit together. You two understand each other on some deeper level, like you’re connected. Of course there’s bickering too as with any relationship. About favorite tv or movie characters, about which direction to drive, about annoying habits. But you two work together seamlessly. That’s what your relationship with Konoha is like. Or rather your friendship.

“Bet you I can jump that pole,” Akinori says as he points to one of the said poles.

“Oo, you’re tall but you’re not that tall,” you tease, “I say you can’t.” But you know he can.

He feigns shock and puts a hand to his chest, “Wow, hit me right where it hurts, huh?” He grins, “Watch me. If I win, I get some popcorn.”

And just as expected he jumps the pole and jogs back to you. “Well, would you look at that?” He reaches for the bag of popcorn you’re holding.

“That’s not even fair, you said you didn’t want popcorn.”

He puts a handful of popcorn in his mouth and starts munching away. He shook his head, “That was two hours ago, now I do want popcorn.”

You two had gone to the movie theaters that evening. One of the many dates, or hangouts, that you two had together. They were your favorite. But you always had to push down the butterflies when he got too close. Whispering in your ear or swiping crumbs off the corners of your mouth. The unknown, to Konoha at least, feelings you had for him were the only uneasy thing about the two of you. You loved him.

He leans on you as he laughs at the joke you just cracked and you can’t seem to tear your eyes away from his smile. “Alright, I’ll see you the day after tomorrow, right?”

You nod.

“Then it’s a date!” He waves at you as you enter your car.

Date. Did he mean it? You two never had a conversation about where you stand. But that word and the thought of being in a relationship with him was the only thing you could think about until the next time you saw him.

You fidget with your top in the mirror as you wait for the knock on your door. You feel a little silly for dressing up so much but what if it was a date? And even if it wasn’t, it was a flower field. Some people dress up to go to flower fields, right?

You hear the knock and do one last glance in the mirror before answering the door.

“Woah,” his eyes take you in. And he grins, “Boy am I lucky.”

You can hear the teasing tone in his voice but it wasn’t as strong as it usually was. You avoid getting your hopes up by using sarcasm, “Yes you are. Should we get going?”

The flower fields were a dream and you couldn’t help but notice Akinori standing a little bit closer than usual or how his gaze would be on you for just a couple seconds longer than usual.

At one point you turn to him with a mischievous smile, “Shall we frolic?” You hold your hand out to him.

“Let’s.” And again you couldn’t help but notice his grip was just a bit tighter than usual.

You two run through the paths with pure joy, giggling so hard it almost hurts. You slow down and face him, hands still intertwined. Both of you a little out of breath. And you’re staring at him. He looks so pretty.

“You look gorgeous,” he says softly.

And you're stunned. Highly aware of him moving closer and closer you smile.

“Is this okay?” he whispers just as his lips are about to touch yours.

You nod and close the gap. He feels the same way about you.

When you two separate he grins at you. “So what do you say we make us official? Go out with me?”

You return the grin, “I don’t know. Think you can handle me?”

“I think I’m a little confident,” he responds as he goes in for another kiss. He pulls away and looks at you again with admiration in his eyes. He shakes his head in disbelief. “Finally!” he shouts out to the sky making you burst into laughter and causing a passing group of strangers to look at you two.

Finally.

[sunshinetoshi]

for the songfic event im thinking of a deteriorating fling/relationship angst with mattsun to the song ghosting by mother mother:00

matsukawa x reader (~800 words)

and this is why i have decided to leave your house and home un-haunted

tw: angst (deteriorating relationship, breakup)

A/N: oh my 😩💔 when i first saw this i screamed with joy because the first thing i saw was my bby issei’s name and then my eyes travelled back and saw the angst part and then i screamed because pAIN. okay also this song was right up my alley. ty for sending this in xx

Mattsun stretched his legs out on the picnic blanket and leaned back on his hands, chuckling. “Alright, alright, let me think of a good one.” He looked up at the sky in thought.

While he did so you found yourself smiling at him. You took in his dishevelled hair and the way he pursed his lips while he concentrated on finding the next question. Moments like this with Issei made you giddy. It was like there was a buzz in the air, a feeling some would describe as sparks. You knew it was love.

“Aha, got one,” he started, “Biggest fear?”

“Biggest fear?” you repeated.

“Yeah, I feel like that’s something we never really asked one another. Are you afraid of heights, crowds, clowns?” he listed off.

“Well I’m not afraid of clowns. Wouldn’t be dating you if I were,” you leaned toward him and batted your eyelashes.

He brought his hand to your side and tickled you.

Laughing and pushing him off you continued, “Okay, okay! My biggest fear. Let me think about it.”

“You don’t know your biggest fear?”

You shrugged, “I don’t know. I have fears but I never thought about which is the biggest.”

Mattsun chuckled and lay down fully on the ground. He put his hands behind his neck and stared up at the sky again. “Let me know when you’ve got it.”

About thirty seconds passed by and he let out a laugh, “Still got nothing?”

You pouted in response.

“Come on, change of scenery perhaps,” he patted the empty space next to him.

Happily snuggled up against your boyfriend you looked up at the sky. You listened as Mattsun hummed a random song but what you were more focused on was the beating you felt beneath your hand, the beating of Issei’s heart.

You propped yourself up so you could look at his face, in turn he lifted his head a little to look at you.  A wide smile grew on your face as you felt his heart start to beat a bit faster.

“Thought of it yet?”

You patted his chest softly and nodded. “The dark.”

That wasn’t quite the truth. You knew in that moment that the dark wasn’t your biggest fear.

The thing you feared the most was losing Issei.

-----

It wasn’t fair, really. When you realized your fear of losing him all that time ago the scenarios in your head were dark, like him finding someone else or him getting into an accident. Physical loss. Him being taken away.

Maybe you were naive with that fear. Because you haven’t lost Mattsun. You lost the love you two shared.

How long had it been gone? You didn’t know. The only thing you knew was that one day you had a realization that you two were simply going through the motions.

“Alright,” he patted your leg habitually and got up from the spot next to you on the couch, “I’m going to get ready for bed.”

You could hear him in the bathroom, water running, and memories rushed back to you. 

Giggles as he dragged you to the bathroom to brush your teeth together. Breathless when you pull away from a deep kiss after he said he wanted to make extra sure that your breath was minty fresh. Light touches before you two drifted to sleep. 

Those memories seemed so far away.

When you climbed into bed that night you wanted to see if these thoughts were sound.

“Hey,” you propped yourself up close to Issei and put a hand on his chest. You couldn’t remember the last time you did that.

He looked at you curiously but with a soft smile, “What’s up?”

“We’re okay, right?” You were mentally asking yourself the same question. You watched him carefully, keeping your breath steady.

His gaze flickered down, off of you. And the pause was too long. You knew him well by now, it was hesitation. “Yeah,” he whispered, giving your hand a squeeze.

The love wasn’t gone. There was still love between you two, but it changed. It was now just amicable, platonic. The romance and sparks have changed.

You stayed up thinking about all this. You two couldn’t go on like this forever. Perhaps it’s time to face your fears.

You needed to break up with Issei. Ironic. Tragic.

-----

It was a difficult conversation, but Matsukawa knew exactly what you were talking about and he felt the same way.

Wiping your cheek dry he whispered, “Don’t cry too much, beautiful.” He sniffled. “We’ll still be friends, won’t we?”

You prayed so. He was your person, your best friend. But mutual breakup or not, what are the chances exes successfully stayed friends? You knew they weren’t high.

“I love you,” you mumbled as you pulled him into an embrace.

“I love you too.”

For others conquering a fear ends with a thrill, a sense of accomplishment, a wider and wiser perception. And maybe in time you’ll feel the same.

songfic event is now closed [regular requests are open <33]

[sunshinetoshi]

Hi for the song thing(is this where I submit? sorry if not) can i request Asahi with the song Breath by James Arthur and fluff please and thank you😊

ps. your writing makes me so 🥺🦋😍🌸😩✨🍄🦦☺️

asahi x reader (~1k words)

you bring the sun and take away my pain and the anxiety is miles away

content/warnings: slight angst (themes of social anxiety) but soft and fluffy for our bby boy dw

A/N: wait i love the emojis🥺🥺💓💓 and tysm that’s so sweet of you!! i think asahi really brings out my fluffy heart there’s just something about him. and this song 😩💖 it’s perfect for him and while i was writing your request up another asahi fluff idea came to mind so ty bc i’m excited to ✨eventually✨ write that idea too. hope you enjoy this xx

If someone asked Asahi to describe what his relationship with you meant to him, he would have a lot to say. But one of those things, a very important one to him, was how you grounded him. When the world shook, your presence acted as a stake. A firm support and aid for him to, on his own, remember his will, his ambitions, and his strengths.

With such a powerful vision of you, one would think you helped Asahi through conventionally impactful moments of his life. And yes, there were a handful. But even in the day-to-day he was able to lift himself because of your effect.

Day-to-day things like taking you out for lunch.

-----

Now to say Asahi was a romantic was an understatement. Even though you two had been dating for a while now he still asked you to go on your established weekly lunch dates. As you two held hands and walked to the food spot you had decided on you recalled how he asked you just a few days ago.

“Sweetheart?” he called out when he entered the apartment.

You walked from your bedroom and saw him by the door, clearly hiding something behind his back. You giggled and pranced up to him, slinging your arms around his neck. “Welcome home.”

“Thank you,” he smiled at you, taking in the way you beamed at him.

You moved forward to kiss him but he moved his head back.

“Wait, there’s something I want to ask you first.” The look in his eye was a familiar one, eager hope you would never find this repetitive bit of his corny or tiring.

And you never did, how could you when it always made you feel like you were floating on a cloud?

You nodded your head at him to continue.

“Y/N, will you go on a date with me?” he lifted the bouquet of flowers he had been hiding.

The little bell to the restaurant dinged as Asahi opened the door for you to enter first. Immediately your eyes landed on the line that formed near the ordering counter.

Resting your hand around your boyfriend’s bicep you mused, “They have a solid crowd going.”

To be honest Asahi didn’t notice the people, he was focused on how cute you were scanning the menu.

But the pressure of the amount of customers started to feel daunting the closer you two got. The clamoring of the kitchen and the raised voices of the employees as they tried to communicate over all the bustling conversations in the restaurant.

You ordered quite swiftly and waited for Asahi to place his order. You stared at the pictures of the menu items that were on display behind the cash register. Your eyes flickered to the ramen Asahi ordered.

Right as the employee was repeating Asahi's order for clarification you nudged your boyfriend.

“Wait, lovely, I thought you don’t like those,” you pointed toward the photo so Asahi could see it came with a topping he didn’t like the taste and texture of. You watched as your boyfriend’s eyes widened in realization. 

And then things started to move fast.

The worker in front of you bore his eyes on Asahi with bored impatience. The businessman behind you two in line huffed and took an obvious look at his watch. The mother near the back of the line tried to calm her energetic kids who were demanding food.

You noticed how Asahi started to drum his fingers on the edge of the counter.

“Do you want to change your order?” you ask him gently.

The businessman clicked his tongue in annoyance, the sound causing your boyfriend to quickly check where the noise came from, clearly flustered.

When he turned back front he started mumbling, “Oh, uh.. No it’s okay I can just- it’s fine I-”

You carefully moved to wrap your hands around his, feeling its warmth. You gave his hand a tight squeeze. You’re okay. It’s okay.

Asahi looked at you when he felt your unspoken message. And his body relaxed a little at the small smile you looked at him with. It’s okay.

He cleared his throat and pulled his shoulders back. “Can I get the ramen without the pickled plum, please? And may I also get a side of fried rice? Anything else?” He directs the last question to you.

The focus and intention in his eyes, blocking out the chaos and moving parts, made your smile bigger as you shook your head.

-----

“Oh my gosh, I think I over-ate,” Asahi groaned and placed a hand on his stomach while the other wrapped around your side.

You laughed and put your hand under his, feeling his stomach to see if it was as bloated as yours. You immediately pouted and crossed your arms. “Says the guy who still has ripped abs after all of that." You smiled at being able to make him chuckle.

You two walked to your car and he opened the passenger side for you.

As you were about to step in he gently grabbed your wrist. “Hey.”

You turned to him and your breath hitched at how close he was. In the afternoon sun his brown eyes looked even more captivating, and even warmer with the love that shone in them. Love for you.

“Thank you.”

You knew he was speaking of the ordering fiasco. You tucked a loose strand of his hair behind his ear. “I didn’t do anything love, you had it under control.”

“You helped. Since the beginning you helped.”

You placed your hands on his chest, over his heart, and told him the words he heard from you many times. Words that helped him grow in confidence. The journey may be his own but he was given you as a helpful guide along the way. “Asahi, my love, you deserve to take up space, no matter where you are.” You stared deeply into his eyes. “Understand?”

He smiled. If asking you out for designated date time was Asahi’s bit, then this phrase was yours. And he would never get tired of it. In fact each time it gives him more and more reassurance that he wants to spend the rest of his life with you.

He pulled you in even closer, lips practically brushing against yours, his breath warm.

“I understand.”

songfic event is now closed :))

[sunshinetoshi]

im going through my playlist for an angsty song but I cant help it, tsukki fluff with the song come inside of my heart by IV of spades pls<33

tsukishima x reader (1.1k words)

come inside of my heart if you're looking for answers

A/N: we love fluffy tsukki heheh. ty for sending this in <33 also can we pretend for the sake of this that tuskki really knows his stuff about dinosaurs cause i definitely don’t lol but i wanted to write this despite my knowledge really only being the land before time movies i- oh also the song part comes in more towards the end haha xx

“What do you mean get dressed?’” you asked as you sat up in bed, rubbing at your eyes.

Your boyfriend sat down on the bed next to your legs. “I mean ‘get dressed’ because I’m taking you out today, you big sleepyhead,” he shook your legs to get you to wake up.

But when you processed what he said your face perked up, “Really? Where are we going?”

“Hmm, it’s a surprise for now. You better get dressed if you want to find out,” he teased. He laughed as he watched you scramble out of bed and laughed harder when he heard you grumble about why it had to be a surprise.

-----

You gasped in awe when you walked up to the entrance. “No way.”

“You know where we are?”

You wrapped your hands around his arm that he offered you and nodded enthusiastically. “It’s the museum you’ve been wanting to go to since forever ago.”

It was. He had always read amazing things about the exhibits here. But he declined the invites his friends and family offered him to go with him here. He wanted to go with you. He waited until you both could enjoy it together.

You looked at the beautiful building in front of you and smiled, “Oh I’m getting so excited.” You turned to face Tsukishima. “What about you? Getting excited?”

He gave a light-hearted snort, “I guess.” His answer was cool but with the combination of the corners of his mouth tugging up and the slight flare of his nostrils you knew he was excited, just holding it in.

You held in a laugh at your observation and instead tightened your hold on him. You figured you’d hold in your teasing right now, “Well then I’ll show enough excitement for the both of us.”

The whole museum really was amazing. It was fun to see exhibits that differed from the ones at the museum near your apartment that you and Tsukki frequented. And it was even more fun to hold hands with your boyfriend as you two strolled through the museum. It was a bonus that there were hardly any other visitors there that day.

Yet again you held in your amusement and urge to tease him as you saw Tsukki really enjoying himself. Especially when his grip on your hand tightened as you two approached the dinosaur floor. You simply tightened your grip as well.

You did smile at how much longer he stayed and observed each fossil, model, and infograph, much longer than he did earlier at the other collections.

You were having a blast too, wide-eyed and amazed at the concept, and reality, that these creatures used to walk the Earth.

“Woah! Kei, look at those two!” You pointed at the display that had two dinosaurs next to each other. “Aw, it’s like us,” you beamed at your boyfriend before returning your attention to the display. “That one is a little cuter so that one’s me,” you teased, “And the other one has more yellow on it so it matches your hair. Plus you kinda have similar eyes.” You laughed, “My dinosaur-me also has a slight smile on its face compared to dinosaur-you so that one is definitely me.”

Tsukki shook his head in amusement and looked at the models of the dinosaurs, observing the details. And when he turned to you and saw the expression of pure joy on your face, he didn’t have the heart to tell you those were in fact two female dinosaurs.

He placed his hand on the outside of your hip and brought you closer to him. “Yeah, that’s us, babe. That’s dinosaur us.”

You grinned in satisfaction and leaned your head on Tsukki. You two saved this exhibit for last so you knew your day at the museum was coming to a close. The two of you stared at the model of the two dinosaurs for a while, a comfortable silence in the air.

“Thank you, Kei,” you broke the long silence, snuggling into him. “I’m having a lot of fun today. I always do when I’m with you.” You looked at him and broke into a smile, “I love you so much, you make me really happy.”

His ears quickly went red. “I love you too, Y/N.”

You watched as he fiddled with his fingers. You wondered why. He must be used to your confessions of love by now, no? “Everything okay?” You gently intertwined your fingers with his and gave them a squeeze.

He pouted a little and sighed, “I just- you always are so good with your words.”

You smiled softly, “What do you mean? You’re the smooth one here, always flustering me with your flirting.”

“No, that’s not what I mean,” he chuckled. “I mean you’re so good at expressing your love. I feel like I don’t do the same.”

This time you pouted. “Kei, you’re kidding me right?”

He cocked his head and furrowed his brows in confusion at what you.

“Babe, you’re constantly expressing your love.” You moved so you were facing him and you wrapped your arms around his waist. “Sure you don’t always use your words but that doesn’t make how you show do show me love any less special. The way you always give me a good night and good morning kiss, the way you let me lay my head in your lap as you read, the way insist to sleep with your arm slung over me, the way you take me on beautiful dates like this,” you gestured to the hall you two were standing in. “You don’t have to worry about saying it with words, Kei. I know it.” You placed your hand on his chest, right above his heart, and smiled at him.

He stared into your eyes as he thought about everything you said.

You held his gaze, standing firm to your words.

He shook his head. “I never thought I would meet someone who could make me feel so fully in love, someone who can make me feel like every fiber of my being is loved. Yet somehow I was given the chance to meet you,” his eyes were locked onto yours, serious and steady.

You felt a chill from his words and quickly pulled him into a hug to hide your flustered state.

“Damn it, Kei, you can’t say you’re not good with your words and then go on and say all that.”

He chuckled and wrapped his arms around you tight. “I think I’m just as shocked as you are that I was able to come up with all that.” He pulled back a little. “But I meant it all. From the bottom of my heart.”

“I know.” You knew his heart, just as he knew yours.

songfic event is now closed [regular requests are open <33]

[sunshinetoshi]

*ahem* i decided i would start with not daichi because that's ✨expected✨ from me but 🤲🏽 may i get 🤲🏽 akaashi + street by street by laufey + angst HURT ME

akaashi x reader (1.1k words)

i'm taking back my city i'm taking back my life

tw: angst (post-breakup)

A/N: kat bby i cried when i first listened to this song. twas fun 🥴 asjkdf. but fr i really like it so bless your music taste (cause the others are good too eeeek those are coming up heheh). i also tried something a lil different so idk how much pain there’ll be but tbh just the thought of breaking up with keiji hurts me ah. okay here ya go xx

“Are you sure you don’t want to go?” “Yeah, it’ll be fun, the three of us together!”

You gave a polite smile to your two friends, “I’m sure, but thank you.”

“But it’s your favorite cafe!”

“I know, I just don’t feel like it today.” You pulled the blanket up and snuggled into the throw pillow of the couch. “But maybe you can bring me back a scone?” you lifted a brow at them with a small smile.

“Y/N,” one friend started as they plopped on the couch near your legs, “I understand you not coming if you don’t feel like it, but you’ve haven’t been feeling like it for a month.” They looked at you seriously, “Are you sure this isn’t you moping?”

You sighed and sat up. “I’m not moping. I told you guys I’m feeling better. I just don’t feel like it, really. This isn’t about him.”

You jolted back from the person you bumped into. “Oh, I’m so sorry! Are you okay?”

The boy turned to you.

You looked at his eyes and were caught by the color that looked like the deep waters of the ocean. Your eyes travelled to his hair and you smiled. He was very pretty. Your gaze dropped shyly to the floor. “I’m sorry again, I should’ve watched where I was going.”

“You don’t need to apologize. I’m okay.”

You looked up at the sound of his voice and saw the kind smile on his face.

“You said you want to move past him but you’re not doing anything productive to start that journey.”

You head snapped to their direction. Were they right?

Your other friend took a few steps toward you two. “Hey, hey, that’s enough. Everyone heals at their own pace. They’re entitled to do this anyway they please.” They gave your friend on the couch a pointed look, “Let’s get going.”

They sighed and stood up from the couch, “I just don’t think he has the right to break your heart and still consume your life.” They saw they weren’t getting a reaction from you. “We’ll see you later, Y/N.”

You stayed in that spot for a long time after they left. Everything they said was right. You did want to move on from him. You were still letting him be the only thing on your mind. Maybe you did need to take a step forward.

You found yourself moving to your bathroom and getting showered. You were all ready, a bag packed for whatever it was that you were going to do today, you still didn’t know. The only thing you knew was that you had to go out, you had to stop moping. You took a look in the mirror at your hoodie and jeans.

He opened the door and you looked him up and down, taking in his slacks and his sweater layered over a collared shirt.

“Aw, Keiji! You didn’t tell me we were dressing up today!” you pouted at him.

He chuckled softly and pulled you into his apartment. He brought the two of you in front of the small mirror by his entryway. “I don’t know what you mean,” he traced a hand down one of your arms, “I think you look perfect.”

“I’m in a hoodie and jeans.”

“You look radiant,” he whispered as he snuggled his head into the crook of your neck.

Again, you didn’t know where you were going. But you found yourself in the parking lot to the quaint part of town, with tourists and locals alike milling around.

You got out of your car and had to smile at the feeling of the sun on you balanced with a gentle breeze blowing. It was a beautiful day. You looked around and saw it wasn't as busy or crowded as it normally is.

“This is where you try to go every weekend?” He intertwined your fingers and stood closer to you.

You nodded, “I used to come here a lot as a kid, too. There’s something about this place that just makes me happy. I think it’s my favorite place.” You smile at him, “And now I’m sharing it with you.”

“Well I can’t wait to bring you here often and see that happy look on your face.”

You walked past the little souvenir stores and coffee shops.

Swinging hands. Quiet shared laughter. Sipping each others’ drinks. Stolen kisses. I-love-you’s.

A man on his cellphone paced near a closeby bench. “No, you’re not listening to me! I told you those documents needed to be dropped off to them by ten this morning! Didn’t you see the memo I left you?”

A shiver ran down your back and you hurried yourself to move past him.

“Don’t you see it too, Y/N?”

You wiped at the tears running down your face. “No, I thought-”

“We’re not working anymore.”

You shook your head in disagreement. “I don’t know what you mean. I thought you were happy, I thought we were happy.”

“I’m not.” A deafening pause. “I’m not happy.”

Your body froze up.

“I think it’s best if we broke up.”

You felt it, your heart break.

“What did you think, little? Did you have fun?” a mother asked her young daughter. They were walking from the exit of the community art gallery.

“So much fun, Mama! When I grow up I want to be an artist too and paint pretty pictures like they did. And maybe one day they’ll be up in a place like that one!”

“Listen to me. You are so much more than who you were with him. You have so much to provide to this world. When you’re able to pick up the pieces of your heart, you’re going to be unstoppable and you’re going to shine so much brighter.”

You listened to the words of your friend, one who never held back from what they felt.

“It’s not always going to be like this, we promise,” your other friend comforted, rubbing your back as you continued to cry your heart out.

They loved you.

You continued to walk and walk, taking in the sights you haven’t seen in quite a while. You stopped when your eye caught sight of the city garden. More and more flashbacks.

An inevitably broken promise that you two would one day see what that garden had to offer.

You took a deep breath and marched up to the entrance. Your walk through the beginning was slow, looking at all the different flowers and butterflies around you. It was beautiful.

You found a little bridge they put by a pond and stared at the movement of the water and koi swimming. All these things you saw today, from the moment you left your apartment, were filled with life, moving and moving on. And it was all so beautiful.

A smile found its way to your face as you felt something you haven’t felt in while.  Perhaps it won’t fix it all but it still was a blessing to feel. It almost snuck up on you, you hadn’t even realized it. But it was there.

Peace. Happiness. Solitude.