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couldnt draw my thang for mid-autumn so treated myself to a calne redesign instead
#calne ca#hatsune miku#VOCALOID#cw: body horror#<- And I Fucking Mean That We Are Not Fucking Around Today#well we are. as in I drew this as a fuckaround treat for myself#but the body horror tag is the most warranted its ever been on this blog#ask to tag#I am as ever on my journey to make calne ca Worse. her OG version is too cool. even the crab ver is too cool#I need her to be worse to look at. I am also getting myself into to mood to test my hand at boarding a pmv for my friend's cover#I think my thought for this was ''I should try and give her a more insectoid bodyplan''#which in this mostly means gently three-part body and six limbs (my favourite amount of limbs to draw rn)#actually almost gave her eight but didnt like how that silhouette came out so I mermaided her uh. abdomen I guess#though maybe next time I do this I should push that idea more. the head and torso are still very distinct for one unified part#I feel like one of my old attempts was onto something with like. a more horizontal body plan... well! live and learn etc#happy late mid autumn I guess. I should play with touys about it... I miss model kits. mayhaps...
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i need guenhwyvar to be Cat so bad
#dnd#dungeons and dragons#forgotten realms#drizzt do'urden#legend of drizzt#ra salvatore didn’t write about ALL the cups and plates that guen destroyed in blingdenstone but i know the truth#i think all the art i've made exists somewhere between homeland and exile/during exile#bc that's where i am rn and i will not spoil myself#her purrs must be SO loud#enough to cause an earthquake#i love these stupid books so much i'm so ill#she's literally described as his first and closest friend you CANNOT tell me he doesn't give her all the scritches and snuggles she wants
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been trying to get back into animation
original gif below ^^ teehee!
#F slur#reclaimed f slur#You wanna know the worst part abt this#this is the first finished animation ive made in like 5+ yrs#animation#turbo#turbo wir#turbo wreck it ralph#king candy#king candy wir#king candy wreck it ralph#Idk why i locked in so hard HEHRHEHHAHA😭😭😭😭😭😭 i just kept on adding more and more until it became This#abomination#i was even gonna make the background more polished and everything but then i was like Wait i actually dont care#this was so fun to make ouggjghhhmhmgjjdf i forgot how fun animation was!!!!!!😢😢😢 definitely going to be making more in da future#this was very experimental i just love putting myself on grinding duty and qorking on something like this for hours straight#i am so learning bros#ill post frames tomorrow bc its midnight and idk how many ppl are gonna see this rn but i cant just not post it immediately#wreck it ralph#silly time 🐛🐛🐛#my art! 🎨
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ok so i think that my favourite fantasy subgenre is The Inherent Tragedy Of Being Born Into Royalty. which mostly means that i like to read about gay princes but with some nuance
#ethically i am opposed to monarchies and empires. i think being born into a royal bloodline is inherently traumatising#which makes for the juiciest tastiest drama in stories obviously#either you become a bad ruler and people will suffer at your feet. or you become a good ruler and you no longer belong to yourself#how much will you sacrifice at the altar of your ideals?#It Compels Me. Narratively#also books like the goblin emperor have a big autism appeal in like. the court had a lot of nonsensical rules and you have to mask so much#apparently i am such a parody of myself that whenever im like. i have a drawing of my current blorbo#my friend immediately assumes it's a prince based on their vibes#IT'S NOT ALWAYS A PRINCE... SOMETIMES IT'S THE EMPEROR'S SECRETARY.... OR A DEMON WHO'S A KNIGHT.............. I CAN BE DIVERSE#anyway im currently reading the hands of the emperor AND a prince4prince web novel. that's the vibes rn
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have you ever felt the warmth of a god's happiness?
#cyrian lutare#anaris#dragon age#veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#dragon age the veilguard#datv#freshly minted#something very insanity inducing to me about this line in the game about the depths of a god's regret but we can't get into all that rn.#it's so. it's soooo. like hear me out ok imagine being bellara. losing her brother to a forgotten one manipulating her brother thru empathy#and then losing rook a friend/lover to solas manipulating them through empathy. making them feel his regret. do you understand#pacing around in a circle. a being so powerful not being above emotion but instead feeling so much deeper and more intensely.#i am the regret of a god you-#ok banning myself from drawing for the next couple days bc this was not nice to my wrist LOLLL toxic yaoi will do that to you.
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I tried something new! (yippee) The Poem format is from @two-bees-poetry!
#ultrakill#gabriel ultrakill#v1 ultrakill#gabv1el#az thoughts#hi yes i am alive (and sick w the flu) but i am alive#i am been like. barely living as a human being.i am more potato than person. i was waddling in papers#anyways#the skirt series WILL be back. after i settle my dang courses and find the motivation to behave (bapping myself in the face like a cat rn)
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thinking about how dean's hair got darker and he got paler from skipping missions + how probably the most he smiled was when hank was telling him abt those
#vbros#the venture brothers#venture bros#dean venture#hank venture#byron orpheus#pete white#rusty venture#admin draws#fanart#the ones in the bottom are olllddd i was waiting to continue my rewatch and draw more and its been like a month since those#the other ones i just finished rn lol#shocked i havent drawn orpheus yet and he was a bit of a rough adn tumble but i got him quick enough#while listening to a video essay about buffy#ive been telling myself i need to draw 21 soon and im just as intimidated so . we'll see how i fare if i dare#squarish guys are hard for me to draw its why i dont draw brock alot lmao#FML I MESSED UP THE NAMES IN THE CAPTION. ITS 1 AM#if anyone sees that 1 rb that got in before i realized and fixed it. no you dont i mean didnt
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The queen rules the kingdom…but who rules the queen?
#malora#sleeping beauty#maleficent#Princess Aurora#marascomics#my art#art#guys I am asserting myself rn as a tenured malora artist#and please for the love of god. stop telling me they’re mother and daughter!#they fuck. they have freaky lesbian fairy sex ok. keep your puritanical morality away from my babygirls
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saying shit like “it’s on you women for stanning boy groups” is not helping and you are putting blame on women who had NO IDEA that this man was awful how are they supposed to know??
#like sure we are careful#but i say it for myself i am not gonna go around#and think everyone is a criminal??#like that doesn’t even make sense#there was no way of knowing any of this#his public persona did not let us know he was a piece of shit#SO HOW WERE SUPPOSED TO KNOW??#blaming his fans who were women for something they have no control over#is just honestly vile i need you people to stfu rn#tris.txt
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So fucking dumb and fuzzy brained right nowww, I just want a pretty boy to grope me all over, teasing me and pinning me against the kitchen counter. Telling me to be a good boy and concentrate on my cooking, that I'll get a reward later if I do a good job as he edges me with a wooden spoon, smacking my cunt everytime I start to whine
I wanna be a blushy mess of moans and giggles for him as they switch between making cheesy jokes and threatening to fuck my mouth, as he grips onto my hips and marks me as his
#xochimilli writes#yeah.. ... !!! fucking dumb as shit right now... edging myself over my clothes by humping a chair while i cook#im actually pathetic af rn its awesome also my love's tag bc literally do not want anyone else to touch me bc i am fucking babie#🫀puppy#also bc i am giggling a lot everytime i open the fridge n see a mango lmao i love my sweetheart#ftm nsft#t4t nsft#bd/sm kink#queer nsft#ftm bottom#ftm sub#trans nsft#gay nsft#bd/sm blog#edging kink#edging nsft#edging and denial#kitty sub#kitty nsft#bunny nsft#bunny sub#mlm nsft#impactplay#soft impact play#soft nsft#queer ns/fw#t4t ns/fw#ftm t4t#ftm ns/fw#trans ns/fw
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I MADE MYSELF AN EARTHMOVER
The idea that earthmover plushie was something i could realistically maybe make was beamed into my brain on friday may 10th at exactly 11:23 PM and then proceeded to consume my entire weekend. i did not know if this would work but i did it. i made him. my weird lopsided dog Benjamin
(I'd be happy to write up the pattern/instructions if people are interested- I think it'd be pretty simple to recreate since he's like 90% rectangles- but be warned that I have never tried to draft a plushie pattern from scratch before and it's kinda janky as hell the way the legs are attached feels like one of those illegal lego techniques so you have to promise not to make fun of me ok)
#I am so happy rn#I will probably spend the next day enjoying the amount of shitposting potential I now hold in my hands#i was thinking about adding more details like sequins for the city lights but i felt like adding anything would just make him less cuddly :#and let me be clear . i am Cuddling This Beast#ultrakill#my art#earthmover#told myself i would take a break from art after that last post. instead i let another project fully consume me for a whole weekend. help
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save me, hot Glenn holidays. hot Glenn holidays. hot Glenn holidays, save me.
#I ACTUALLY GASPED AT MERCEDES' LINE#I AM SHIELDING SPARROW WITH MY ENTIRE LIFE BUT ALSO WHERE IS HE LARK LET'S LOOK TOGETHER OKAY?#dndads#dndads spoilers#dungeons and daddies#dndads s2 ep 48#sparrow oak#sparrow oak garcia#henry oak#henry oak garcia#mercedes oak garcia#god not to mention ''you'll probably never forgive me for this'' and Normal *tugs collar* definitely having some not great feelings rn#(truthfully I have some bones to pick with how Will is going about things to be completely honest with you but I'll keep that to myself)#(for now at least)
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Does anyone ever think really hard about Grian's inability to team? To stick with the same people he'd allied with at first after it shows the slightest hint of going downhill? Or about everyone's knowledge to be weary with teaming with Grian as he's notoriously disloyal with his teammates?
Cause the gutting thing is, he isn't. He isn't disloyal. He doesn't have an inability. In fact, I'd argue he is one of the few people who are tragically loyal to a fault, at least in most cases.
In Last Life, although he killed both Jimmy and Mumbo, he still felt the need to return to his allies after he'd turned red, feeling betrayed when they threw him out for being red. After that, he stuck with Joel and didn't dare betray him.
In Double Life, although he cheated on Scar and constantly complained, he stuck by Scar almost obsessively. His aim to protect him, even if he said it was for his own benefit, was painful. He didn't try to leave Scar behind like Cleo or Scott, he didn't try to sever the bond between him and Scar, nothing. It was almost like he was desperate.
In Limited Life, he was beyond loyal to his boys. He was loyal until the very end. And although he immediately switched to join the Nosy Neighbours, he didn't try to team with anyone permanently until Jimmy and Joel were dead. His silence when he realised he was truly the last Bad Boy was deafening. He hid his grief by saying that he had a backup team, just to save face, even though he built a gravestone for both boys and grieved them meaningfully.
In Secret Life, it wasn't as if he was fine with having no allied, like someone would be if they truly didn't care for loyalty, he was desperate once again. Having no teammates later in the game would hurt him, yes, but his desperation felt lonely, not power hungry. He didn't dare betray Etho nor Cleo, and stuck by them until the end. He was losing his mind on his hill before he teamed with the two, he needed to have close allies to depend on.
Now, in Wild Life, Mumbo is out of the series and Grian goes to say he needs to find some more friends, even with Skizz still around. Now, I don't think this is a power play thing, it's a desperation thing. He's hiding his grief by pretending everything is fine because if it wasn't he'd be vulnerable. For the past couple sessions, he had been working tirelessly to help get Skizz a kill so he could get off of being a red life, even to his own detriment.
Grian doesn't half ass teams. He will not team with everyone. However, he gets vulnerable when the ones that he connects to die.
Because that's how it went about in 3rd Life. He allied with Scar throughout the whole game, it starting simply because Grian felt guilty about what he'd done to Scar. He felt guilty. He stuck with him the whole game, undying loyalty, and all it ended in was him standing at the top with his best friend's blood drying on his hands.
To him, being loyal to someone like he was in 3rd Life ended badly. So, to avoid that, he found a way to still stay teamed with people, but not be left at the top of that mountain again, alone, even if his teammates die.
But so far, the curse keeps following him. He will always outlive his teammates. And this season is following the pattern, again, Mumbo dying right in front of his eyes, so close, yet so far. Always in a distance where he could've done something different, and he'd still have a teammate.
He may move from person to person, but only when they are dead or reject him. He is the forever Widow, cursed to always face his consequences, over and over and over again.
#grian#life series#traffic smp#life series smp#wild life#wild life smp#trafficblr#3rd life#last life#double life#limited life#secret life#I'M GOING CRAZY#Has to switch to desktop to write this essay out#It's all over the place but you get what I'm trying to say#I am aware you can refute some of these points but I dont care#I like creating angst for myself#I'm on the edge of writing a really angst fanfic rn#As if I already havent...#widow curse#this is very wrong in some areas but shut up i like to blag for fun to make c!Grian's life worse
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it’s suguru and his love for sleepy drunks against the whole entire world
#this image came to me suddenly and has notttt left my brain#he thinks you are sooooo cute :3c#maybe i’ll elaborate tmrw … it’s 3:00 am here i need to sleep#will continue catching up on my tbr tmrw 🙂↕️#my mutuals are so talented their writing makes me so happy :’3 feeling verh grateful rn#i haven’t given myself neaaarly enough time to read fics in a good while :<#that needs to change asap#anyway … goodnight dash <33#sleep tight !!!!!#ari noises ✩
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Ooooo I forgot to post this one!! How cruel of me!!
Treat me ~ Tip Me ~ More of me
#It feels really fulfilling to be so engaged with something rn#I am very much hoping to have the weekend to myself for some OF content 🙏🙏🙏#I certainly do not feel sexy rn but I'm sure we can do something about that by then#I should purchase some wine or something#satans knitwear#girls with piercings#alt pinup#pinup girl#cheeky#pretty lingerie
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i crocheted something
#my art#crochet#fiber art#i didn’t follow an exact pattern but it’s loosely based on a pattern by studiovisionart dot com (which is not even an active site rn)#i don’t think i’ve ever posted a pic of myself on tumblr. be nice to me#i hope i am as hot as you all hoped for#also first time crocheting an actual piece of clothing 🎉#all my other wearable stuff has been scarves#transmasc#trans man#handmade#handcrafted#crochet top
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