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good morning sifloop nation
#loop is so fucking hard to draw bc I can never tell how I can center the face on their cookie cutter as head#its literally just a pair of eyes and yet it fucks with me every time 😭#idk what came over me bc suddenly im imagining these two freaks in the funniest scenarios for my own pleasure#im not even halfway thru the game yet im still on act 2 bc I havent been able to play it in a while#genuinely though I am curious as to how ppl would go about describing how u would kiss loop. this isnt even a jab at anyone#in fact I admire whoever pushed their imagination to the limits to find a way to make loop kissable in ways science cannot explain#and other fun activities#I think itd be funny for them to do 7 minutes in heaven bc normally 2 ppl go in to smooch or whatever in the closet#in their case two of them go in but only one of them comes out alive. bc theyre like that#are they fighting or are they fucking. the answer is up to you#sifloop#myart#my art#in stars and time#isat#isat fanart#isat loop#isat Siffrin#Siffrin#loop#doodles#shitpost
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people who act like batman isn't "judge jury and executioner" because he doesn't kill people are like. genuinely so funny to me because. they're very obviously thinking of "executioner" as like. the stereotypical guy with axe who chops people heads off, and not, yknow, the literal definition of the idiom itself, which is about someone who has the ability to judge and then subsequently punish someone unilaterally. which is quite literally what batman does.
he has the ability to decide what is a "crime" to him, he is the one who decides whether people are guilty of those crimes, and he is the one who executes their punishment. the severity of the punishment doesn't matter - he is unaccountable to anyone else, and indeed is allowed to commit as many crimes as needed to reach his arbitrary ideal of "justice."
the ideal of batman is this: a man who is so fundamentally changed by an act of senseless violence that he takes it upon himself to fight back against the rot and corruption in the world. he does this not through political activism, not through ridding himself of his wealth in favor of a greater good, not through community outreach, but through an individualistic fantasy of being a hero.
and you'll say: charlie, but he does do that !!! he donates his money all the time, he funds social programs, hospitals, orphanages, gets people jobs -
and i will say this: so why don't things get better?
because here's the base of it. gotham, at its core, can't get better. no matter what bruce wayne does, there will always be more crime, more villains, more death, more people for batman to beat up in back alleys. because that's what sells.
reoffending rates don't matter in gotham, prison reform doesn't matter in gotham, what actually causes crime doesn't matter in gotham because that doesn't sell books.
and so here it is; dc has unintentionally created a world where batman can't win, but can't be wrong, and where thousands of nameless, faceless, only-created-to-die civilians must be pushed into the meat grinder that is gotham, to fuel bruce wayne's angst and vindicate his constant, tireless, noble fight against the forces of evil.
and then: a new robin, who is poor and who's parents are dead or gone because of this cycle; who is happy go-lucky and hated by editors and fans for being robin, for not being dick grayson, for being poor.
and this robin is written, unintentionally or not, to be angry at the ways in which batman's (the narrative's) idea of justice is detached from its victims. bruce seems perfectly fine to allow countless unnamed women to be at risk from garzonas in his home country, yet robin is the one who is portrayed as irrational and violent.
this robin is not detached from gotham in the way bruce wayne is: this robin is a product of gotham.
(and here's the thing. you can't punch aids. you can't fight a disease with colorful fights and nifty gadgets. and how would robin dying from aids add to batman's story; it would call into question the systemic changes that haven't been made in gotham. how does a child get aids, in batman's city?)
so robin dies, and then bruce (the narrative) spends the next couple of decades blaming it on him. it is jason's fault; he was reckless, he just ran in, he thought it was all a game. if only bruce had seen what was coming, if only he could have known that jason wasn't rich enough or smart enough or liked enough to be robin.
batman gets a little more violent, a little more self destructive. he hurts people more and almost (!!) kills a couple guys. this is bad because it's self destructive and "not who he is." it is not bad because batman should not be able to just beat people up when he's angry.
and then he gets a shiny new robin - who is all the things jason "wasn't": rich and smart and rational and he doesn't put who batman is into question. batman and robin are partners, and jason is a grave and a cautionary tale, and (crucially here) never right.
the joker kills thousands and it doesn't matter because they were written to be killed.
batman beats up thousands and it doesn't matter because they were written to be criminals.
and then jason comes back, and nothing has changed. there is a batman and a (shiny! rich!) robin and the joker kills thousands. (because it sells)
and jason is angry - he has been left unavenged - his death has meant nothing, just as willis' had, just as catherine's had, just as gloria's had, just as -
thousands. ten of thousands. hundreds of thousands. written to be killed.
but one of them gets to come back.
and he is angry - not only at the joker, but at bruce (the narrative) - because why is the joker still alive (when thousands-)
here is the thing - jason todd is right. not because the death penalty is good, not because criminals deserve to die, not because of everything he says -
but because of what he calls into question. why is the joker alive?
because he sells books.
and dc has written a masterful character, through no fault of their own, because jason knows what is wrong, and he knows who is at fault - batman. (the narrative)
so the argument that bruce can't kill because he's not judge jury and executioner; the argument that jason is a cop or that jason is insane or that jason is in the wrong here; they hold no weight.
batman can't kill the joker because the joker sells comic books.
and jason can't kill the joker because the joker sells comic books.
so he will beg and plead and grovel - he will betray everything that is himself, he will forsake his family and his city and kill himself - just so that bruce (the narrative) will let the joker die.
he was condemned to death by an audience, and after he came back he has spent his whole life looking us in the eyes and screaming, asking, pleading; why is the joker still alive?
why are thousands, tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands (the number doesn't matter, see, because they're just a number. not people. not real.) why are we expendable for his story? why did i have to die just for nothing to change?
and the answer is money. and the answer is the batman can never be wrong. and the answer is shitty writing. and the answer is -
nothing jason can ever change.
which is the worst of it all. he is a victim with no power, and no one else in the world can see it. he is raging and crying and screaming at his father and his writers and you - and it doesn't matter. jason doesn't matter. and he knows it.
#yes btw i am saying that jason is subconsciously aware he's a comic book character. being dead for literal decades and then coming back#to a different and yet fundamentally unchanged world will do that to you#this is also a huge reason i have beef with people who equate jason's death with any other persons. like sorry. no#jason *died.* forever. he was dead dead. in heaven dead.#he died in the sense that he was never supposed to come back.#your 'heart stopped' or 'was dead for maybe 3 months irl' literally does. not. compare.#also when i say tim is everything jason isn't; by including smart i don't mean jason wasn't smart#i mean tim is *written* to be explicitly in contrast to jason#and by making him a 'genius' the narrative implies his intelligence is directly in contrast to jason's#therefore implying jason wasn't 'smart'#surprisingly little tim hate in this. am i growing from my hate? (no. i wrote a couple paragraphs but it didn't fit. haters stay strong💪)#jason todd#anti batman#red hood#batman meta#batman#anti bruce wayne#bruce wayne
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minimum wage coded scrunkly and his very good pupper
#.... I am in denial over vol 7 don't mind me ywy#haven't had the chance to get to vol 8 yet so no spoilers pls not that I'm expecting much :')#anyways yin yu my poor scrunkly I'm sorry that the narration and xie lian keep judging your overworked ass#they're both very fun to draw tho#tgcf#tgcf fanart#mxtx#tian guan ci fu#quan yizhen#yin yu#quanyin#heaven official's blessing#my art
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old man jenkins escaped the geriatric ward again
#i need a slur to call him. like guys what's a good slur for ancient biblical plague bisexuals#curse mxtx for making every character interesting how am i supposed to hate this loser#i want to put him in a retirement home and talk to him extremely patronizingly#“yes i know grandpa xie lian is out there making choices like a grown adult man and it makes you angry but eat your peas”#“have you used your face cream yet? you know you get grumpy about the screaming bumps and we don't need another roof incident”#heaven official's blessing#tian guan ci fu#tgcf#tgcf spoilers#major spoilers#xie lian#jun wu#bai wuxiang#white no face#diseased old man#no there are no dead memes in my world don't ask
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i had a vision
#i got too lazy to finish rendering so enjoy this rough sketch + terrible colouring#i took my adhd meds fully intending to get a shit ton of work done. and yet here i am again. hyperfocusing on gomens. rip.#he'd show up to heaven all pathetic and try to seduce azi with this horrendous outfit#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#good omens 2#aziraphale#aziracrow#go2#ineffable lovers#ineffable wives#good omens season 2#good omens shitpost#my art#good omens fanart#shitpost
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warmups n doodles between comms
#i am NOT tagging those pixel guys. m not ready to go back yet#art#original#rhythm heaven#sth#shadow the hedgehog#shadow#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#dj blue#dj yellow#i gues#classic sonic#dj school
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the deer prince and the golden doe
from chapter 34 of Salt00's fic Chick Magnet
please click for HD tumblr is killing this one
#what's up nerds#fire emblem three houses#claude von riegan#fe3h#chick magnet took over my life for like 2 months#i've never managed to get through any fic over 150000 words before but uh..... here i am#i'm on chapter 79#its like really damn good#i haven't even played the golden deer route yet but i would die for all of them#i feel like the shading on this one is way better than what i did for Dogs of Heaven#i'm getting better! i need to learn how to not do soft shading tho jeez#on the plus now i know how to make glowing molten gold which is the best part of the whole picture tbh#the working title was 'dear deer prince' which is very fun to say#i am going to TRY 52 pieces 52 weeks again but i'll see what happens#but this is week one! and pic one#all my rat
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y’all know how sometimes toasted whole wheat English muffins with only butter are the best thing you’ve ever tasted? and then in a week or two they’re nothing special - it’s fried eggs; and then penne with pesto, and then gyros and hummus, and then cajun rice?
I think a healthy relationship with God is like that. because those things are all food - vital, necessary, nourishing, giving you life. that’s what knowing God needs to be like. but the same thing won’t always have the same flavor to you, and that’s okay! you can savor symbolism and then doctrine and then service and then fellowship…all of it, delicious.
#anyway taste and see that the Lord is good!!#basically maybe there’s something good about being so human and changeable#I’m not yet able to be excited about everything God is doing all the time (in heaven I am SO there)#but meantime I can be excited about each thing in turn#as God stirs the proper enjoyment in me#I hope this makes any sense. I thought of it while I was making dinner
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Carlos Sainz | F1 London Live in 2017 | x x x x x
#carlos sainz#autumn posts#explored this event last eve and omg so many wonderful moments!!!!#oh to be able to time travel 🚀 surfing the web will have to do!!#also I'll still reblog and post RBR of old and Max related content in 2025 but#wow they have made some immensely frustrating decisions as a company#I do sure despise their upper management!#also tbh I am glad newbies get chances but it seems like 2025 is going to be maybe too many rookies maybe o.o idk I just got here#and I know F1 teams are probably trying some succession planning and lots of new brands hopping on seem geared to younger fans#and I love Gabi and Jack and I'm sure Ollie and Kimi are great! idk them as well yet! and I miss Franco :(((#but idk I'm already missing the older drivers we lost like what do you mean Carlos is fourth oldest he's my age 🥲#idk I like grizzled old men!!!! and drivers who are still in their prime!! 30s isnt old!!! (I know it is in the world of f1 but...)#idk I know big F1 is trying to plant seeds but they're pulling up perfectly gorgeous trees to do so....I just got here too!!!!!!#hmmmm rambling balogna from a new fan#also I dont like watching cars crash so really really hoping the races next year with all these green drivers aren't too bad 🫣#idk I get worried!! and all the engineers and bts folks have to deal with wrecks so#mannifesting safe drives and good starts 🙏✨#and rbr and vcarb are on my shit list for now but the Max blogging will not cease#he and I will both be in our sixties and I'll be here salivating hehe 😵💫✨#gosh dad bod Max 😵💫❤️✨ heaven help me the thirst blogging will be off the charts here#okay enough yapping!!!#wishing everyone a v excellent Friday!! ☀️☁️🌙✨#brb soon to spam F1 Live in London content bc oh gosh what a rich well#also I won't spam too much hehe I'll space it out#also the Little Mix girlies (gn) were OUT at this event so that was fun!!#an insta feed of F1 drivers and a ton of Little Mix bloggers since they performed there! and I like Jade!! I gotta check when her albums out#okay autumn out!!! 🫡❤️✨ bye for now!
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The one with unwavering faith 🕊️
(Ticket to Heaven // Fourth Nattawat)
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#ticket to heaven#fourth nattawat#gemini norawit#GeminiFourth#Fanart#artists on tumblr#Digital art#Thai bl#thai drama#gmmtv 2025#I am very normal about this show as you can see#I'm already drawing fanarts for a show that hasn't aired yet :)#We are fiiine ~#My art#@silverquill
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If it isn't my beloved celestial harpy, most holy Michael the Archangel herself (meaning, I turned this into proper line-art). ⚔ Good Omens has insulted her, but she will always be Supreme Commander of the Heavenly Host in my mind, and in my fics. I can only try to do her justice.
What do you think, should I colour it? It almost looks like a colouring page, I'm tempted to print it, and colour it with pencils or markers. ✏
#good omens#good omens michael#good omens fanart#good omens fandom#archangel michael#sketchbook#digital art#digital drawing#my art#my artwork#my fanart#line art#she's so hot what the actual heaven#i certainly do her more justice than the good omens creators#it's how she should've looked#supreme commander is what she should've been not gabriel and certainly not the fat principality#well they are wrong i'm right she IS the leader all you need to do is look at my fics#she's actually a character in most my ideas regardless if she's in a main pairing or not#i am... drawing this instead of writing those mentioned mostly still unpublished fics#she actually looks a bit like my male michael tends to since he has a handsome and sharp but slightly feminine face#but she's a raging lesbian he's completely straight#this stealer of pregnant demons#go and kick ass my love#just not your brother's i love him too#you and him are on the same side politically#he's the only man she ever sleeps with in my fics and only to conceive the new antichrist 🤣#the relationship between her and maxine is everything to me i'm so mad the fic where michael's max's mom isn't published yet#the way i portray her in general is everything to me - she somehow manages to be both righteous and machiavellian she's everything#she's a b*tch but you can't not love her#she has a pathological need to protect
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here’s the thing: i want attention
here’s the other thing: if i am perceived in any way i will violently explode like a poorly maintained home brewery kit
#i fear I must once again up my antidepressants#NINE MONTHS out of work 🙃🙃🙃#i have once again been ghosted with one foot into the interview process#an interview process my best friend moved heaven and earth for and for which i am more than qualified#so really what is the fucking point#ruby has Not shit yet and getting a semi urgent but not emergency vet appt is proving Extremely Difficult#also there’s roaches
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Well You look like yourself but you're somebody else only it Aint on the surface
Well you talk like yourself no I hear someone else though now you're making me nervous
#ineffablehusbands#good omens fanart#aziracrow#crowly x aziraphale#good omens 2#myart#what if C followed A to Heaven#and they stripped him of everything that got him in trouble the first time#but it strips him of EVERYTHING#Hi I have many what if scenarios and I am in pain#I cant draw them properly yet SHHH im workin on it
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I know it's completely not the point but like wtf was the plan for the xianle throne after xie lian's first ascension??? for a bunch of ppl so sure their crown prince was going to ascend and become a god they didn't really worry about a lack of a second crown prince (you know just in case) yeah sure they didn't last long enough to really have to properly think about it but like who were they going to put on the throne????? FUCKING QI RONG????? bc that would go great??!? HUHH????drought, famine, war and plague aside that kingdom was doomed from the moment xl ascended 💀💀
#my beautiful darling wife(literally just a kingdom)doomed by the narrative from the start😔👉👈#aghsgs part 1 of book 3 was like a treat made specifically for me an idiot who likes to focus on everything except the point of the story .#...... also qi rong#who i personally would love to study under a microscope#there's so much wrong with him and yet here I am rotating him like a screensaver#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#heaven official's blessing#tgcf spoilers
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just have been here imagining a tgcf band au...
in my mind the main point would be the rock band "ghost city", with hua cheng as its lead singer, composer and guitarist; he xuan as bassist; and yin yu as manager and drummer. of course it was hua cheng's idea to start it and the other two were dragged by him. btw, yin yu might be overworked as usual, handling the bureaucratic and financial situations that involve the band, while he xuan also works as an actor (from where he knows shi qingxuan), but he lost a bet to hua cheng and now have to play with them.
on the other hand we have xie lian. he also used to be part of the music industry, maybe playing classical instruments in the same group as mu qing and feng xin. but after a lot of things went down, they’ve decided to quit it and follow their own paths, maintaining little contact. I can imagine him working in a flower shop now, but still enjoying music very passionately, looking for new bands and stuff, which leads him to being a fan of the upcoming success group, “ghost city”. he's also a longtime friend with shi qingxuan, who's an actress. one day she invites him to go to a show of that band he likes, because her work-colleague, who happens to be a member of it, gave her two tickets, and xie lian gladly accepts.
now thinking about the connection between xie lian and hua cheng. in his best days as a musician, xie lian could have founded a project to bring musical education to children and teenagers in need. that’s how he met hua cheng, a shy teenager wearing an eyepatch, who was very interested in his lessons and showed great potential, gaining his teacher's affection.
xie lian had many students, as well as volunteers helping with the project, so it would be hard for him to recognise someone after all these years, especially when the person in question has changed so much. however, hua cheng never forgot the man who got him into music, gave him his first guitar and has been his inspiration since then. so it's a big surprise to him when, after a show, xie lian and shi qingxuan meet the band in the back stages due to he xuan’s invitation.
xie lian also gets very surprised when the enchanting leader of the band shows to recognize him from his years as a classical musician, something that hasn't happened in quite a while, demonstrating also great knowledge about music in general. he doesn’t say anything about their past, but they get along well together since the beginning, to a point in which hua cheng insists that xie lian should open an exception for them and help them produce their next album. although being honored by the idea, the former musician asks for some time to think about it, they exchange numbers and decide to keep in touch no matter the decision. anyway, after some reluctance due to past traumas, shi qingxuan excitedly encourages him, and he decides to accept the offer. so he starts working with them almost daily, while keeping working in the flower shop half shift.
(another detail i think might be funny is that qi rong also auditioned to be part of “ghost city” at some point, but was rejected. since then, he has been working as a metal singer, and he consideres himself a rival to the band, although they never really cared about his attacks - and his music isn't even that good.)
#heaven official's blessing#tgcf#hua cheng#xie lian#hualian#shi qingxuan#he xuan#english is not my first language but i hope it's understandable#i really need to draw it#qi rong#modern au#tgcf band au#tian guan ci fu#mxtx tgcf#alternate universe#and i am not really sure of how to use tumblr yet#xian le trio
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Shi Qingxuan~ <3
#i love them :>#THEY DESERVE BETTER AAAAAAAAAAAAA#anyways. im not gonna spoil anyone abt what... happens#just know I am SAD about it#tgcf#tian guan ci fu#heaven official's blessing#hob#shi qingxuan#a literal ray of sunshine#xie lian's best friend everrrrrr (except hua cheng ofc)#guess what im reading rn ehehehe#the background is a CSP asset btw#im SO mad btw#i recorded the entire drawing process for this (6+ hours) AND THE FOOTAGE IS MOSTLY OUT OF FRAME.#it technically my fault bc I just kinda dont understand OBS yet. but I am ANGY. RGHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA#i miraculously mysteriously centered it for the last ~20 minutes or so. but the rest of the footage is pretty much unsalvageable 😰😭🥺👿#emojis are not enough to vent my frustration. i need to rip a table in half ot smthn#RRRGHRHRJAGDJDB#:)#my art
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