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sistersorrow Ā· 11 months ago
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"This is very neurotypical behaviour," I tell myself as I sit there, waiting for my pizza to be made, and it is the longest, most painful 10 minutes of that year because I forgot my earphones and the world insists on Making Noises
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pureastrologywisdom Ā· 3 months ago
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Lilith aspecting Moon
This is a very powerful placement for women specifically. The moon, which is your emotions, connected to the unconscious self, habits, comfort and femininity is connected to the point in your chart that is powerful and dark, a part fuelled by pain, and all about transmutation. These woman often have a very intriguing essence about them. Strong and seductive. It's like you are playing with fire. She enjoys being a little off putting and knows exactly how to be enticing yet intimidating all in one.
Neptune/Venus/Pluto in the 3rd House
The third house is often overlooked when people are speaking on seduction and sex appeal in astrology. People are so focused on visual they miss a key point. Seduction includes all the senses. Someone being beautiful doesn't necessarily mean they are seductive. It's the way someone moves, speaks, the things they say and don't say, how they hold themselves along with present themselves. It's subtle.
This brings me to why the third house comes into play. It inductees how we communicate. As mentioned words can be very seductive. Having planets like Neptune and Venus will give someone a sweet and sensual demeanour when talking. Neptune is very receptive and often these people are incredible at being able to asses the needs of the person they are taking to, it's a very intuitive placement. Neptune is also all about fantasy. Playing into a role you project onto them.
Pluto in the third's seductive tactics are centred around power snd control. Manipulation if you will - not always in the worst sense. They are good at digging for information getting to the base of the persons psyche that they are speaking to. Once again it's about understanding the people around them. You can see how Neptune and Pluto have this in common but the way they use this is different.
Scorpio Rising
I feel like you guys know this one has to be mentioned. And I am sure I have written about this before. However I feel it's important to explain why this rising sign specifically holds such seductive energy. I often hear people talk about their eyes, which is very true. But it goes much deeper than just appearance. Scorpio naturally rules over the 8th house, a house that is very deep and dark. It's shrouded by mystery and taboo, along with being a sexually charged house. Now think about all of these themes being brought into the 1st house. Being at the forefront of someones being in not only the way they look, but they way they carry themselves and interact with the world around them. It's very provocative energy.
But there is more. Though people may assume that because of this scorpios may give off an overt sexual energy, its not quite as obvious one one may think. Whilst there is this air of sex appeal around them, this often doesn't come from being so open and bold about these things, but rather from holding a little something back. As we know scorpio is about the things below the surface, secrets, privacy. This creates a dynamic where people can sense this energy, however they must peel back the layers and investigate more to truly see what these people are like. This can create a push and pull, a little bit of an enigma. It piques the intrigue of people and encourages the chase.
Mercury quintile/Bi-quintile Mars, Pluto or Neptune & Lilith in some cases
Very similar to the previously mentioned third house, Mercury rules over communication, along wit the way we think and process things. Having a quintile or Bi-quintile aspecting mercury it shows us that someone has a particular skill around communication. I have already explained why having Pluto and Neptune connected to areas of your chart dealing with communication creates seduction.
I also included Mars, as Mars is a planet of strategy. Often working towards a goal these people like to win, and are very good at 'winning people over' in conversation. Mars is more of a dominant planet so domination is a tactic often used by these people. Sometimes being commanded is sexy. These people speak strongly which is sexy.
The reason why I put Lilith as a case by case aspect is because as we know, Lilith often states as a place of wounding in a natal chart. It's only after someone has healed those wounds and understood the source of power that that area of their chart is with Lilith sitting there that they can truly start to embody and experience this. Though I will say having Lilith in a quintile or Bi-quintile is often easier. When developed Lilith is a very untamed energy, a little wild and unpredictable. Two traits that are extremely enticing.
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pedroscurls Ā· 2 months ago
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the ultimate masterlist: āž¢ 18+ only, mdni āž¢ šŸŒ¶ļø - smut || ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ - angst || šŸ„° - fluff last updated: feb 23, 2025
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PEDRO PASCAL
FRANKIE MORALES
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ always here for you: Frankie comforts you as you cope with your grief.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ chance encounters [COMPLETE]: youā€™ve suddenly and tragically lost your best friend and canā€™t handle the grief. until four strangers give you a glimmer of hope that things will (and can) get better.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ hold my hand: for years, you have been in love with Frankie. everyone else saw it, except him, and you never had the courage to tell him how you truly felt. instead, you stuck by his side even when it hurt. and after Colombia, he hadnā€™t been the same. you knew he had demons (being a veteran and all), but thisā€¦ this was different. would Frankie finally open his eyes and realize that the woman he was meant to be with had been right in front of him all along?
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø third time's a charm [COMPLETE]: there is history between you and Frankie. In fact, you have both broken up twice and yet, you still seem to find your way back to each other. could this third chance be the last and final one?
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JAVIER PEƑA
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø all we are: you and Javier have history and have been in this endless cycle for years, always trying to ā€œone-upā€ each other, but what happens after a night of steamy, dirty sex that the truth finally comes out?
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø innocent eyes: Javier and his partner, Steve Murphy, finally have one night off. so, when they go to a local bar to unwind, Javier certainly wasnā€™t expecting you to walk through the doors.
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JOEL MILLER
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø always been you [COMPLETE]: you and Joel have become best friends, but as the years pass, you both realize that the love you have for each other goes beyond just ā€œbest friendsā€. will either of you have the courage to express your true feelings or will you both just remain secretly in love with each other?
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ broken souls [IN PROGRESS]: what happens when you realize love isnā€™t enough? and when years later, you meet again that all the pain and heartbreak comes rushing backā€¦ like it never left.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø dirty little secret [IN PROGRESS]: when your best friend and his fiancĆ©e, Sarah, have their belated engagement party (kicking off their pre-wedding parties), you meet the father of the bride and realize that heā€™s completely off limits. but you always did like older men, and Joel? well, maybe he could be your dirty little secret.
šŸŒ¶ļø guys night out: Tommy takes Joel to a strip club.
šŸ„° in case you didn't know: Joel steps out of his comfort zone and puts his feelings into words the best way he knows how.
šŸŒ¶ļø let me show you: joel comes home and shows you (and mainly himself) that age is nothing but a number.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø the teacher [IN PROGRESS]: you have been on your own for over a year and after Maria saves you and brings you to Jackson, you try and settle in, doing your best to contribute to the community. though, it doesnā€™t help that your neighbor, Joel Miller, reminds you of a special person from before Outbreak day.
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MARCUS ACACIUS
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ letters across time: after having moved to rome for a fresh new start, you begin to receive letters from an unlikely stranger that you begin to develop feelings for... only to come to the heartbreaking realization that the two of you may never meet.
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MARCUS PIKE
šŸ„°šŸŒ¶ļø second chances [IN PROGRESS]: after Marcus moves to DC - alone - heā€™s determined to just focus on work. after a failed marriage followed with his failed relationship with Lisbon, Marcus believes that love just isnā€™t in the cards for him anymore. until you move in next door.
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HUGH JACKMAN
REAL PERSON FANFICTION (note: i am no longer writing rpf)
šŸŒ¶ļø ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ šŸ„° training partners [COMPLETE]: you hire a new personal trainer to get you back on track, but you don't realize that she's also hugh jackman's trainer until you show up to the gym. ā†³ pt 1. - pt 2. - pt. 3 - pt. 4 - pt. 5 - pt. 6 - pt. 7 - pt. 8 - pt. 9 - pt. 10 - pt. 11 - pt. 12 - pt. 13 - pt. 14 - pt. 15 - pt. 16 - pt. 17
šŸŒ¶ļø ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ secret crushes: you've known hugh for years, having not only a personal friendship with him, but also a professional one. then, ryan decides to play matchmaker unbeknownst to you or hugh. ā†³ pt. 1 (can be read as a standalone) - pt. 2 (which includes blake and ryan with reader!)
šŸŒ¶ļø sneak away with me: you sneak away with hugh during a party.
šŸŒ¶ļø welcome to broadway: it's the anniversary of oklahoma! and with it being your first broadway show, hugh takes you under his wing to show you the ropes. along the way, you realize that you've developed feelings for him.
šŸŒ¶ļø šŸ„° baby, stay in bed: head over heels in love with hugh, you spend the night for the first time... and realize that hugh feels the same way.
šŸŒ¶ļø save a horse, ride a cowboy: hugh takes you to go flower picking, but all you can think about is taking him back to his car and riding him.
šŸ„° let the world know: you and hugh have been keeping your relationship a secret... until hugh accidentally lets millions of his followers know exactly who he's been dating.
šŸ„° cooking with hugh: hugh gets to see you in action... and he reaps the benefits too.
šŸ„° the first date: hugh takes you out for your first date.
šŸ„° sunday nights: sunday nights with hugh are your favorite -- movie night, cuddling, and finally some alone time with him.
šŸŒ¶ļø šŸ„° romantic getaway: hugh takes you to greece for a romantic getaway after rumors of your relationship with him start to circulate the media... but there's no hiding it anymore.
šŸ„° first impressions: hugh meets your kids for the first time.
šŸ„° bad influence: already running late for work, hugh convinces you to call in sick.
šŸ„° mesmerized from afar: despite your relationship with hugh being out in the open, you both still do your best to keep it professional in the public eye... until hugh makes it very obvious during a hollywood event.
šŸŒ¶ļø šŸ„° our little secret: ryan and blake try to set you and hugh up, but little do they know, you've already been secretly seeing each other.
šŸŒ¶ļø you put a spell on me: hugh attends a masquerade-themed party and you capture his attention the moment you step into the building.
šŸ„° seasons changing: hugh and reader get ready for fall in new york.
šŸŒ¶ļø late to the party: possibly already late to ryan and blake's party, hugh becomes just slightly annoyed when you can't decide what to wear... and when he realizes that you're doing it on purpose, he only knows one way to make sure you don't do it again.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ better together: after filming finishes with deadpool & wolverine, your relationship with hugh progresses... until he breaks things off with you. it isn't until ryan invites you to the press tour that you see him again and finally have a serious conversation with him.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ šŸ„° in the shadows: hugh's excited to see you at his premiere, but when he sees the look on your face when he's posing with one of his co-stars, he's confused because you decide to leave without a word.
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LOGAN HOWLETT
šŸŒ¶ļø runaway bride [old man!logan]: on the day of your wedding, you find out that your maid of honor and husband-to-be has been hooking up behind your back... and you run directly into the arms of a stranger to help you cope with the sudden betrayal.
šŸŒ¶ļø just the tip [old man!logan]: you're ready to take the next step with logan, but you're still a bit nervous.
šŸ„°šŸŒ¶ļø christmas confessions [COMPLETE - origins!logan]: unable to go back home for christmas, you spend it with logan - the man you had been in love with for years.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹šŸŒ¶ļø in every lifetime [COMPLETE - worst!wolverine]: you lost logan in this universe. logan lost you in his. what happens when you both see each other again, but realize that you're both from different worlds? ā†³ pt. 1 - pt. 2 - pt. 3 - pt. 4 - pt. 5
šŸŒ¶ļø touch starved [worst!wolverine]: logan agreed to go out with wade, having been promised a low-key night, but he should've known than to trust wade for his word. he didn't agree to spend his night at a strip club and he's just about ready to leave until he sees you.
ā¤ļøā€šŸ©¹ you broke me first [xmen series!logan]: logan comes back to the mansion in search of you... but he's hurt you for the last time and you can't do this dance with him any longer.
šŸ„° his girl: logan didn't think he'd ever get a second chance at making his life matter nor did he think he even deserved it... but then he met you. his girl.
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WYATT BOSE (jamie getz)
šŸŒ¶ļø playing with fire: wyatt (aka, jamie) always had one thing on his mind: money. so after he and jonathan part ways, he meets you - a woman that suddenly makes him realize that there's more to life than treachery, manipulation, and violence. but when he has another chance at getting more money than he's ever had before, he goes back to his old ways... and you're more than willing to help him in any way possible.
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ashes-goin-down Ā· 3 months ago
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I think Cartman hates jewish people and -Kyle- too much to be vulnerable like you've depicted. No matter what level of physical attraction he might feel.
Hi there, thanks for your comment. Unfortunately I wrote a whole-ass novel in response so here's the TL;DR so you don't actually have to read all that: I agree that the comic is OOC but I don't think it's because of Cartman's hatred of Kyle or Jewish people.
Sorry for misusing your message to go on a somewhat loosely related rant but I've been meaning to write this for a while and it came as a convenient excuse lmao _
I agree with you regarding the vulnerability. I don't think Cartman would voice his feelings like that unless (he could claim that) it's a farce (e.g., Jenny Simons, "Cartman Finds Love") or the other person shows interest in him first so he feels safe from rejection (Heidi, initially - not opening that whole can of worms rn lol). For example, he treated his attraction to Patty Nelson as a big secret, apparently not even considering ever confessing to her, and that's most likely because he was expecting the reaction she did end up giving him since, beneath his self-deceit, he's excruciatingly aware of the fact that he's actually not exactly highly regarded by his peers.
It's a lot of work upholding the faƧade he's build for himself of being this cool, esteemed person and it cracks easily even without direct outside influence (for example when Clyde Frog or Cupid Me insult him) so he really, really doesn't deal with rejection very well. Him being this vulnerable to Kyle specifically and then getting rejected would be absolutely catastrophic for him, so I agree that he wouldn't put himself in that position. However, it's my opinion that the most OOC thing about the comic is the fact that he simply acknowledges that Kyle hates him. I don't actually think he'd just accept that but would instead convince himself that it isn't true ("Kyle has internalized homophobia" or better yet "Kyle doesn't think he's worthy of someone as cool and awesome as me") and then do some crazy shit to try and win him over.
So yeah, you're right: He Would Not Fucking Say That. I don't think his hatred of Kyle and/or Jewish people is the reason he wouldn't, though, as I believe Cartman's feelings towards Kyle and Judaism are a lot more complicated than that. It's not without reason that his relationships with both are such a big part of the show and that people smarter than me have written whole essays on the topic lmao
I feel the need to clarify that I am in no way trying to excuse any of Cartman's antisemitism! I'd just like to voice a few thoughts on its origin and evolution.
Cartman is clearly weirdly obsessed with both Kyle and his religion and obviously they are linked. While I suppose initially it might have been a bit of a chicken-egg situation ("He hates Kyle because he hates Jews" vs. "He hates Jews because he hates Kyle"), I believe originally his antisemitism may have simply been a byproduct of his fascination with the third reich, which itself I think was mostly a result of his enjoyment of envisioning himself as a dictator (i.e. the ultimate authority figure) and as such was actually pretty surface-level - as is evident from the fact that for a long time he didn't seem to fully grasp what exactly Judaism even IS (as shown when he apologizes to Kyle for calling him a Jew or when he uses the term as an insult towards Stan and Kenny). Still, I very much dislike it when people try to downplay his bigotry as naivety. That really doesn't hold any water after very early on in the show, if it ever even did in the first place, since he definitely acts from a place of malice and over time his fixation on the religion seems to have developed into something bigger. He's learnt more about it and it became much more synonymous with Kyle for him (the order of which is also debatable but I of course lean a certain way). At this point in the show I believe it's safe to say that he wouldn't be nearly as obsessed with Judaism if Kyle wasn't Jewish. While Cartman is obviously a bigoted asshole in many ways, he's not nearly as preoccupied with other minority groups as he is with Jews and he has even shown himself to be surprisingly tolerant of homosexuals and disabled people (who, of course, were also heavily persecuted under Nazism).
I really do think that "Jewpacabra" did leave a lasting impact on his character. It's pretty obvious that he was being genuine at the end of of the episode and actually did intent on self-identifying as Jewish from then on (and iirc M&T confirmed as much in the commentary to that episode and explained that they just sort ofā€¦ forgot about that lol) and then in "Shots" he does claim to be Jewish and while that may have been in an attempt to get a vaccination exemption, the aforementioned commentary makes me believe it may not exclusively be that.
Notably, he specifically calls himself an "Orthodox Jew", which Kyle obviously doesn't seem to be and that ties in nicely with him becoming a rabbi in PC and making the religion his entire personality - because it's not enough to become Jewish: He needs to beat Kyle at being Jewish.
Of course, Cartman never actually stops being antisemitic before the time skip but then "Cupid Ye" implies that that isn't even a fully conscious decision that he can completely control but instead at least partially caused by whatever he has going on mentally. He even actively attempts to counteract it when he decides that it has gone too far. That's my take on the episode, at least. Obviously the whole thing with Cupid Me is kind of messy. No matter what exactly is actually happening there, I do think the his actions here prove that his feelings regarding the matter are more complex than they may initially appear to be.
Though I know it's still a point of contention for many, to me personally it seems pretty clear that him being a rabbi and a family man in PC was authentic and that he wasn't simply messing with Kyle the entire time. However, I find it extremely interesting that Cartman converted BEFORE meeting Yentl so I actually don't see any way in which Kyle didn't have any part in that and as such I don't think he would have ever become a rabbi if Kyle didn't happen to be Jewish. So my personal headcanon is that while Cartman's conversion was indeed directly influenced by Kyle, he actually did end up finding fulfillment in the faith and it ironically helped him let go of his obsession with him (which I think fits the show's style of humor).
To summarize: As a shipper I may be biased but I think that Cartman is a disturbed little boy who grows up to be a disturbed little man who fails to fully understand his feelings towards Kyle and - as an extension of that - the Jewish faith and thus lashes out into extremes regarding it.
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riddle-me-ri Ā· 6 months ago
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Can I request Lupin iii characters finding themselves in one bed situation with the reader. I am a sucker for this trope :3
a/n: AAAHHHH omg anon, would you believe me if I told you I was literally already in the middle of writing these exact scenarios for each of the characters because the minute it hit my brain it wouldnā€™t leave, the absolute chaotic fluffy gold of the one bed trope mixed with this gang of charactersā€¦like yes, itā€™s perfect!! I know some would love and some would loathe the idea, and this is also sorta allowing me to get a handle on all five of them. I've taken in a decent amount of Lupin media (not nearly all of itā€¦nowhere even close rip) that I think I got a decent handle on them, but some OOC-ness may still occur and thoughts may change as I watch more of the series and some of the films. Anyways, hope you guys enjoy, especially you too same brain anonĀ Ā 
Content Warning: midly sexually suggestive content but nothing outright explicit, somewhat fluffy in some parts
For context: Lesson learned; don't let Lupin make hotel reservations (or Zenigata for his scenario). Now you're forced to share a bed with a member of the gangā€¦and some seem more receptive to the idea than others. Reader is gender neutral and this is pre-relationship, but it's fairly obvious on both ends there's feelings. (also for Zenigata's part, you're an officer from another department so not quite an inferior to Zenigata plus you have known him for some time, hence why you say his first name)Ā 
Lupin the Third and Gang Sharing the Same Bed Trope with Reader
Lupin The Third:
In all honesty, you shouldā€™ve seen this coming a mile away. Lupin was the one who assured everyone he would take care of all the arrangements, and no one had to worry about a thingā€¦you shouldā€™ve known that was way too good to be true. Yet as the keys were distributed, you were left without one.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™ve got to be kidding meā€¦ā€ You lifted your brow suspiciously, eying the lanky thief.Ā 
Lupin winced. ā€œIā€™m afraid notā€¦ā€ He wraps an arm around your shoulders and brings you closer to his side, some feign attempt at comforting you.
He sighed dramatically. ā€œOh, whatever will we do? Wherever could you lay your pretty weary headā€¦ā€Ā 
Soon, his expression of distraught turned into one of mischief. You could tell as the curve of his smug grin reached his cheekbones.Ā 
Lupin leaned his temple against yours as he sweetly offered. ā€œOh I knowā€¦you could share a bed with me!ā€Ā 
It wasnā€™t exactly a secret that you were attracted to the gentleman thief, but you didnā€™t want to come off as easy pickings for him either. Lupin never hid his affections from anyone he was attracted to, making you an easily flustered mess of a human being.Ā 
Which is how you ended up saying yes, despite trying to come off as if you had no other choice. The others didnā€™t come to your defense either, so you felt stuck anyhow.Ā 
As you walked out of the bathroom in your night clothes, you were greeted with the sight of Lupin sprawled out on the bed, propped up to face you, and his eyebrows wiggling suggestively.Ā 
You didnā€™t know whether to chuckle at the sight or throw something at his face. You decided on rolling your eyes dismissively as you slowly made your way to the bed.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re way too excited about this arrangement.ā€ You commented.Ā 
ā€œMaybeā€¦ā€ He drawled out nonchalantly as if he wasnā€™t softly kicking his feet at the foot of the bed.Ā 
ā€œWell you should maybe scoot over, and no funny business, Iā€™m exhausted.ā€ You sternly stated, pointing an authoritative finger in his face.
Lupin lifted his hands up in mock surrender as he scooted to the other side of the bed, which you noticed faced the front door to the room.
ā€œOkey dokey, nothing funnyā€¦ā€ He leaned his head to the side. ā€œ...tonight.ā€
ā€œLupin! I heard that!ā€ Now you did vouch for hitting him with a pillow, mostly because you didnā€™t want him to see the blush on your face.Ā 
ā€œOw. Ow. Okay, okay!ā€ Lupin dodges most of your hits, just barely saving himself from falling off the bed entirely. ā€œ
You two eventually settled into your spots, after bickering with Lupin to sleep the other way with your backs facing each other. A part of you wanted to let him touch you, hold you, or even cuddle but knowing Lupinā€¦give that man an inch and heā€™ll take a mile. You didnā€™t want to screw up the dynamic you had nowā€¦
Yet as you woke up the next morning to Lupinā€™s soft snoring and a lazy arm wrapped around your waist with him facing youā€¦you canā€™t help but smile.Ā 
Maybe just maybe you could get used to this.Ā 
Jigen Daisuke
When the problem arises, he canā€™t help but lower his hat somehow further down than it already was. He knew this was one of Lupinā€™s stupid schemes, and he wanted nothing more than to just throw you his hotel room key, and he opted for sleeping in the car. Not that he wasnā€™t entirely against the idea, deep down, of sharing a bed with you.Ā 
Jigenā€™s woken up to worse things, people, scenariosā€¦to wake up seeing your face would be a nice change of pace for once, but the last thing he wants is to make you uncomfortable.Ā 
Then, when you asked if it was okay for you to share a space with himā€¦he really couldnā€™t deny you, and if you were fine with it, then he figured he could be too.Ā 
ā€œJigenā€¦I know this is an awkward predicament, but I canā€™t let you sleep on the couch.ā€
ā€œHuh?ā€ He lifted the brim of his hat slightly to glance an eye at you. ā€œWhatcha mean? Iā€™ve always slept on the couch anywayā€¦ā€
ā€œExactly! You should sleep on a proper bed once in a whileā€¦I know that couch canā€™t be that comfortableā€¦ā€Ā 
You felt way too guilty having the large king bed that could likely hold a family of four to yourself while Jigen settled for the couch.Ā 
ā€œThere's enough space that we could be in two different city limitsā€¦ā€
Jigen chuckled. You werenā€™t wrong, and you are way too cute for your own good.Ā 
ā€œIf I come over there, will you let me sleep?ā€Ā 
You nodded. ā€œYes.ā€Ā 
Jigen sighed before slowly rising from the couch. You tried not to smile too widely out of excitement, you didn't expect him to give in that quickly.Ā 
But much like before, if you ask something of him, he finds it incredibly difficult to say no.
Jigen discarded his suit jacket, tie, shoes, and socks but stayed in his dress shirt and hat.Ā 
ā€œScoot over, I should be facing the door.ā€ He waved his hand, motioning you to move under the covers.Ā 
You leaned your head sideways as you watched him try to light one of his bent cigarettes.Ā 
ā€œYou're gonna sleep with your hat on?ā€ You inquired with a perked eyebrow.Ā 
Jigen grinned. ā€œThe hat always stays on...if I can help it.ā€Ā 
Fair enough, you found yourself eventually dozing off before Jigen.Ā 
Jigen stayed awake for a while and thought about sneaking back over to the couch, but then he felt pressure on his chest. Your head laid gently over his now rapidly beating heart. Your soft rhythmic breathing fanning softly against his shirt.Ā 
Well, he can't move now, but he couldn't find himself minding the predicament too much.Ā 
Goemon Ishikawa XIII
This man's face is as hot as the rising sun over Japan. Speaking of, was it too late for him to return to Japan for some more training or search for enlightenment? He could use a lot of the latter right now.
Goemon can't say he could blame you for choosing to room with him.Ā 
Lupin was far too eager to volunteer (which made Goemon grit his teeth), Jigen wasn't all that inviting, and Fujiko had already left for her room as soon as she got her key.
Also, he did find the issueā€¦beneficial. Goemon would know where you are and be able to keep you safe, especially at your most vulnerable.
Not that he didn't think you couldn't handle yourself, but he just felt more at ease knowing your condition.Ā 
However, you weren't at ease with him sleeping upright on the floor in the corner next to the door.Ā Ā 
ā€œGoemonā€¦pleaseā€¦I feel bad.ā€Ā 
He cracked open one of his eyes. ā€œThis is the most appropriate solution.ā€Ā 
ā€œBut when was the last time you actually laid down on a bed to sleep? And for a heist doesn't count!ā€Ā 
ā€œIt is none of your concern. I will be fine. Please just rest.ā€Ā 
ā€œI won't rest unless you sleep with me!ā€Ā 
Goemon grits his teeth and furrowed his brows as his face reddened.Ā 
ā€œN-Not like that!ā€ You corrected, your own face slightly heating up. ā€œI justā€¦you should get some rest tooā€¦properlyā€¦please?ā€Ā 
Goemon closed his eyes with a long sigh as he seemed to straighten his posture.Ā 
You furrowed your brows with a huff as you turned your head to the side to face away from him.Ā 
However, you stayed true to your condition, with crossed arms, you were upright in bed and wide awake.Ā 
Goemon sighed as he stood up slowly. ā€œWhy must you be so stubborn..ā€Ā 
ā€œThat's rich coming from you.ā€ You chuckled.Ā 
ā€œI am only doing this so that you may finally go to sleep. Nothing more.ā€ Goemon grabbed some of the spare pillows you weren't currently laying on and promptly formed a small pillow wall between you and the empty spot on the bed.Ā 
You looked up at him incredulously.Ā 
ā€œA pillow wall?ā€Ā 
He nodded before setting Zantetsuken down directly beside his side of the bed.Ā 
ā€œTo refrain from anyā€¦indecent accidental touching.ā€ He explained.Ā 
You couldn't help but smile as you shook your head slowly in disbelief. ā€œI can work with that.ā€Ā 
Goemon hummed in acknowledgment as he got under the covers and faced the ceiling.Ā 
Anything to ignore the fact you were mere inches away from him.Ā 
ā€œThank youā€¦and good night, Goemon.ā€ You said softly over the makeshift divider before nestling into your pillow.Ā 
Goemon's eyes widened as he realized you were much closer than he thought if he could still hear you. Maybe his senses have truly progressed over time with his training?
ā€œGood nightā€¦ā€ He replied softly as if worried he'd already wake you.Ā 
It took him hours before Goemon finally fell asleep to the sound of your soft breathing and the warm idea of you feeling the safest with him out of the gang.
Fujiko MineĀ 
To say Fujiko literally lunged at your wrist to drag you to her room was an understatement when she saw you didn't get a room key.
Lupin didn't even get a chance to invite himself with the two of you before you made it up to her room.Ā 
Fujiko giggled as she flung you onto the bed. ā€œIt's been too long since we had some alone time together, wouldn't you agree?ā€Ā 
Needless to say, you were both stunned but excited too to finally be alone with her for once.Ā 
ā€œW-What did you have in mind?ā€ You asked.Ā 
Fujiko giggled some more before leaning closer to your face with every other word she spoke next. ā€œWellā€¦I was hoping you could help me choose one of my new night gowns and then-ā€Ā 
*KNOCK-KNOCK-KNOCK*Ā 
Lupin whined your and Fujiko's name through the door.
ā€œDon't tell me you two are having fun without meeeā€¦ā€Ā 
Fujiko groaned. ā€œWe are Lupin, such a shameā€¦if only you found that secret stash of a hundred million yen like I askedā€¦you could join us.ā€Ā 
You chuckled. You couldn't help but admire just how much she had Lupin wrapped around her finger.Ā 
After some bickering through the door, Lupin finally let up, and Fujiko turned all her attention back to you.Ā 
Your face was almost as red as one of Fujiko's teddies she tried on. You eventually went for the one that had your favorite color, having a feeling that's why Fujiko bought it in the first place.Ā 
If you were okay with it, Fujiko would definitely sprinkle your face in kisses as you two cuddled in bed. Her soft and playful touch was too much to resist otherwise.Ā Ā 
It depends on you, whether you guys go to the next level or not.Ā 
If it doesn't, as much as Fujiko would like to take it there, she respects your wishes and just enjoys the intimate proximity with you as she wraps her arms around you and does what she can to snuggle closer as you two drift off to sleep.Ā 
Inspector Koichi Zenigata
Zenigata is fumbling with the rim of his fedora as you two stare at the king bed in the middle of the hotel room.
After more than half an hour of arguing with the front desk, Zenigata wasn't able to get you two out of this mess.Ā 
ā€œI-I'm sorryā€¦I can uhā€¦take the desk chair. I'll most likely be up late anywayā€¦ā€
ā€œDon't be ridiculous, Koichi, it's fine..look at it, it could fit a family of five. Neither of us would know the other is there.ā€Ā 
You put a comforting hand on the tense man's shoulder. ā€œBesides, you need to rest. How can Interpolā€™s finest catch the most wanted criminals without a good night's rest, hm?ā€Ā 
If you were trying to give off the fact you were calm and collected about the situation, it was working. You could almost convince the butterflies in your stomach to calm down or keep the heat in your cheeks down to a minimum.Ā 
ā€œI-errā€¦ā€ Zenigata grumbled, unsure what to say. Mentally combatting between being professional or actually taking the chance to be closer to you.Ā 
ā€œIt's fine, I promise. If I had to share a bed with anyone, it'd be you.ā€ You walked over to the bathroom and began your night routine as you let the Inspector think it over.Ā 
Zenigata almost dropped his hat at that claim. His heart swelled at the fact you trusted him that much. He put you at ease despite the hectic life he lived.Ā 
When you were both ready to make the final decision for sleeping arrangements. You went first and pulled back the covers.
You smiled softly across the way as you saw Zenigata follow your lead.Ā 
A dust of red tinted his cheeks. ā€œI figured you'd get upset if I didn't get some rest.ā€
ā€œAnd you figured rightā€¦ā€ You got settled into the bed with Zenigata close behind.Ā 
ā€œGood night, Koichi.ā€ You turned over to your side and closed your eyes with sleep not far from draping over your body.Ā 
ā€œG-Good nightā€¦ā€ he softly said your name at the end, before he too turned over.Ā 
When his face was out of your sight, he was finally able to fully express how surprised he was that this was actually occurring. His teeth chattered, his fingers fumbled with the edge of the blanket. He was only able to doze off by counting the rotations of the ceiling fanā€¦
Zenigata woke up to you mumbling his name. He was immediately alert, whipping his head around the room at what you could be drawing his attention to.Ā 
ā€œKoichiā€¦ā€ You grumbled sleepily. ā€œYou're stealing the covers..ā€Ā 
ā€œOh!ā€ He looked down and saw he was tangled in the sheets, and you were exposed to the cold room despite the small square of the comforter.Ā 
Zenigata panicked. In his anxious state, he must have been tossing and turning and took most of the covers. He quickly tried to unwrap himself and give back your share of the covers.Ā 
ā€œWh-Whoa!ā€ You sat up when you heard a solid thud hit the floor.Ā 
You looked over the edge of the bed to see Zenigata somehow more tangled than before.Ā 
You perked an eyebrow as you giggled. ā€œNeed help?ā€Ā 
ā€œY-yes pleaseā€¦ā€ He mumbled to himself.Ā 
So much for an easy night's rest.Ā 
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saphronethaleph Ā· 7 months ago
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Who the Edda you
The door to Odinā€™s study opened with a dramatic thud, which wasnā€™t quite the crash that Thor could manage but was still quite passable.
ā€œFather!ā€ Loki began, without preamble.
ā€œLoki,ā€ Odin replied, turning around. ā€œYou seem upset.ā€
ā€œCongratulations, you can tell,ā€ Loki replied. ā€œI donā€™t suppose your all-seeing eye has told you why Iā€™m here?ā€
Odin frowned, then shook his head slightly.
ā€œI donā€™t know that,ā€ he said. ā€œI know you went to Midgard recently.ā€
ā€œWell, of course youā€™d know that,ā€ Loki agreed. ā€œBut I have to ask. Am I adopted?ā€
Odin winked.
ā€œ...what?ā€ he asked, mostly to buy time.
ā€œBecause some of this stuff is complete nonsense,ā€ Loki went on, slamming a book down on the nearest table.
Odin saw that it said Prose and Poetic Edda, but Loki just kept going. ā€œI mean, really, complete nonsense. Itā€™s impossible for you to conceive of just how ridiculous this is, I read the whole thing and according to this bookā€™s version of things, Sleipnir is my son.ā€
Odin stared for a moment, then looked at the book again.
ā€œSleipnirā€¦ā€ he repeated, slowly. ā€œThe horse.ā€
ā€œYesss,ā€ Loki confirmed. ā€œI understand your confusion, old man, because I very much share it. Admittedly they do have an explanation, but ā€“ thatā€™s not even the only child I have in this book! I also have a sea serpent, a giant wolf called Fenris and a half-zombie woman called Hel!ā€
Odin coughed.
ā€œThey what?ā€ he asked, coughing again. ā€œ...where did you even get that book, anyway?ā€
ā€œBook store, while I was waiting for Thor to finishā€¦ being Thor,ā€ Loki replied. ā€œAmazingly enough, they quite like books down in Midgard. And some of the things they mention in it are quite familiar. A lot of names, for example, though itā€™s astonishing what they get wrong. Heimdallā€™s in there, heā€™s described as the whitest of the gods.ā€
Odin looked at the book, then out the window towards the Bifrost (which wasnā€™t actually visible from this angle), then back to the book.
ā€œAnd youā€™re using this book for information?ā€ he asked.
ā€œI said it got all kinds of things ridiculously wrong,ā€ Loki said. ā€œThatā€™s why Iā€™m asking you. I have to say, though, if some of the details here are correct then Iā€™m very much looking forward to them.ā€
He picked up the book, and flicked through to one of the pages with a turned-over corner. ā€œFor example, according to this story Thor and I go on a heist to get Mjolnir back after someone steals it.ā€
Odin now looked even more baffled.
ā€œCouldnā€™t Thor just call it back to his hand?ā€ he said, despite himself.
ā€œI donā€™t know, but knowing Thor he may have forgotten,ā€ Loki said. ā€œAnd I was apparently having too much fun with the heist plan to actually mention it to my brotherā€¦ what with how the plan was to disguise Thor as the most beautiful of the goddesses, and insist on the dowry being Mjolnir.ā€
He smirked. ā€œI do suspect that I came up with that idea. It has my flair.ā€
ā€œArenā€™t you getting it out of a book, right now?ā€ Odin asked.
Lokiā€™s expression soured.
ā€œFair point,ā€ he admitted. ā€œDid you really pluck out an eye and impale yourself to gain omniscience, though?ā€
He gave Odin an askance look. ā€œAnd if you did, is that an Asgardian thing, a parent thing, or justā€¦ you, being yourself?ā€
ā€œ...does that book say I was impaled?ā€ Odin asked.
ā€œTo death, actually,ā€ Loki confirmed. ā€œApparently you got better. I donā€™t pretend to understand.ā€
Odin frowned, thinking.
ā€œIf thereā€™s some deep, dark secret, do tell,ā€ Loki requested. ā€œI know a huge part of this book is absolute nonsense, but some of it is extremely telling and Iā€™ve even got some ideas from it. I should really try shapeshifting into an eagle and flying around some time.ā€
He made a face. ā€œNot doing a mare, though.ā€
ā€œWhy not?ā€ Odin said, again trying to buy time to think.
ā€œAccording to the book ā€“ which, again, I know isnā€™t true,ā€ Loki noted, ā€œSleipnir came about when youā€™d hired a giant to build the walls of Asgard but didnā€™t want to pay him. About two thirds of the work was done by his magic horse, and apparently I seduced the horse.ā€
Odin nodded, slowly.
ā€œLoki,ā€ he said. ā€œMy son. I can tell you that that part of the book is Millennial nonsense.ā€
Loki blinked.
ā€œ...whatā€™s a Millennial?ā€ he asked.
ā€œPeople born this millennium,ā€ Odin clarified. ā€œSo, anyone under nine hundred and eighty years old.ā€
He paused.
ā€œOh, and ā€“ yes,ā€ he added. ā€œYou were adopted, but I wanted to wait until you and your brother were mature enough to accept that.ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t think Iā€™m mature enough now?ā€ Loki asked, hurt.
ā€œI do know about that time you had a bet with Thor to vanish out of a plane in mid-flight,ā€ Odin said. ā€œAnd, before you ask, thatā€™s both of you that I mean.ā€
Loki frowned.
ā€œI concede that,ā€ he said, sounding pained. ā€œAll right, Iā€™ll try to process that.ā€
He picked up the book again. ā€œThough I may need to stay away from mistletoe from now on. Getting involved with that particular plant doesnā€™t seem to end well for meā€¦ā€
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Aziraphale and "I Forgive You"
So after I watched the first season a few times however many years ago, I noticed something, wrote up a bit of a meta about it and then never posted it. I thought that it was either very obvious or very silly and either way, no one needed to see it. But now it's several years and another season later and again, I'm noticing the exact same thing so here it goes- I think the reason Aziraphale keeps saying that he forgives Crowley has overall very little to do with what Crowley has just done right before Aziraphale says it and much more to do with a secret Aziraphale hides deep within himself and has for thousands of years, a truth that he hates to acknowledge and is terrified to speak aloud: he thinks God is wrong to have not Forgiven Crowley.
Get settled in because this is gonna take a bit.
The first time I started noticing this really clearly is the Bandstand Breakup scene. Crowley starts by cussing God literally out- "For the record, great, pustulant, mangled bollocks to the Great blasted Plan." To which Aziraphale says, "May you be forgiven." And yes, Crowley has just sinned and Aziraphale is a stuffy angel but the way Aziraphale says it is like a hope, atleast to my ears. Like he's really wishing that God will see how good Crowley truly is and bring him back to Heaven even though he keeps doing stupid stuff like this
Anyway, Crowley then responds with, "I won't be forgiven. Not ever. Part of a demon's job description. Unforgivable. That's what I am." And Aziraphale responds again with a hopeful sounding, "You were an angel once." At this point, I was almost sure that he's talking about his personal wishes here. It sounds like he's saying, "Come on, Crowley. There's a chance." To which Crowley responds, "That was a long time ago," basically saying it's impossible and shutting that whole bit of the conversation down. And you can just watch Aziraphale's face fall at that, like it kills him for that to be true.Ā 
The next time the topic of forgiveness and Crowley comes up is when Crowley shows up to beg Aziraphale to run away with him one last time. In this conversation, Aziraphale is very adamant that if he talks to the right people, they won't want the apocalypse and they'll stop it. He, of course, thinks this because his most core belief is that God is good and that even if we don't understand how what God is doing is good right now, it will lead to goodness eventually via the Rube Goldburg machine which is time and the universe etc aka God is ineffable. But even Aziraphale can't imagine how the ineffable Rube Goldburg machine could turn an event where everything on earth dies into a good one so therefore, he's certain that God doesn't want the Apocalypse.
Crowley responds to this hope with, "You're so clever. How can someone as clever as you be so stupid?" to which Aziraphale responds, "I forgive you" in a very gentle but sure tone. And now yes, while it is entirely possible that Aziraphale is forgiving Crowley for calling him stupid, I've always felt like that would be a rather weighty response considering how mild an insult it is. It's also possible (and I feel slightly more likely) that Aziraphale is forgiving Crowley for his lack of faith, his inability to believe in the goodness of God anymore.Ā 
And that could definitely be it, but if we think about the way Aziraphale had talked about forgiveness at the Bandstand, the hope and desire that he seemed to put into the idea of forgiveness and Crowley and the fact that Crowley had dismissed it as entirely impossible for him to ever be forgiven, than a third read of Aziraphale's "I forgive you" emerges: one in which Aziraphale is saying, "While God might never forgive you, I do". It's "I might never see you again since you intend to run away to the stars but if this is the last time I ever see you, I want you to know that I think you are deserving of forgiveness. That I see the good in you even if God can't." It's a combination "I love you" and small rebellion against God, because while Aziraphale can't bring himself to give up on Her completely and run away with Crowley (even though a part of him clearly wants to), he is willing to say that She's done this one thing wrong and it's never forgiving Crowley, who Aziraphale can see clearly is more kind and good than any of the angels he knows.
So yeah, that was about where the idea rested at the end of the first season but now we have a bunch of new historical scenes and a new "I forgive you" following a very loaded conversation in which Aziraphale got extremely excited by the idea of Crowley being reinstated as an Angel and I felt like this idea has even more legs than before.Ā 
To me, it's very clear that Aziraphale's pitch for Crowley to come back to Heaven isn't him hoping to "reset" Crowley to how he was before the Fall or him being incapable of loving Crowley as a Demon and instead was him being overjoyed to have this secret truth (Crowley is deserving of God's Forgiveness) that he's been observing for 6000ish years be acknowledged and have a chance to come to fruition. After all, as we saw this season (and honestly last season too but less pronounced), Crowley, current Demon Crowley, not the angel he knew over 6000 years ago, has proven over and over again just how truly good he is to Aziraphale.
For example, in the Job sequence, Crowley does a truly good thing that no Angel (beside Aziraphale) would do or even think that they should do and that is save Job's children. And through the entirety of this bit, Aziraphale basically always believes that he will. There are even two moments where Crowley tries his best to scare Aziraphale away, to play up being the bad guy (so as to better hide the con he's running and protect Aziraphale), but Aziraphale's faith in Crowley's goodness does not falter. At the end of the day, it seems clear that Aziraphale has more faith that Crowley will do the good thing, the correct thing than God. Conveniently for Aziraphale's faith in God though, not understanding how something horrible he hates will eventually lead to goodness in the long run is a foundational principle of said faith so his faith in God remains strong even after everything She and Heaven do to Job.Ā 
But his faith in Crowley doesn't require such a complicated work around. He believes Crowley won't kill children and he is correct. Though unfortunately, this very simplicity leads to a new problem, a problem that we can see eventually solidify in Aziraphale's mind, becoming a running theme of their association and leading to the eventual "I forgive you"s.
Aziraphale can clearly see how kind and good Crowley is, how he does the right thing as best he can, even when he could (and sometimes does) get into immense trouble for it. But for some reason, despite repeated evidence that Crowley is everything that Aziraphale believes Angels are and should be, Crowley continues to be a Demon. And once you realize that Aziraphale has noticed this contradiction and that it most likely haunts him and is a constant challenge to his worldview, it colors a lot of what he says in a new light. Many of what seem like simple, self-righteous statements reveal themselves to be Aziraphale trying to protecting himself from a massive logical inconsistency he keeps stumbling across.Ā 
"It must be bad, otherwise you wouldn't have tempted them into it," Aziraphale says, clearly not quite sure why it's bad actually.Ā 
"You, I'm afraid, are evil," Aziraphale asserts, basically stating that Crowley is evil because he's evil. It's tauntological and therefore doesn't have to make sense. (He says this one shortly before Crowley saves Elsbeth from suicide, poverty and damnation.)Ā 
"So this is all your demonic work? I should have known," Aziraphale says, thinking, "Aha, this time Crowley must have done the bad thing and therefore continues to deserve being Fallen." (Crowley has, in fact, not done the bad thing but shhhh, worry about that later.)Ā 
Once you notice this self defensive habit, you can't unnotice it really, it's just so present in Aziraphale's logic and speech. Aziraphale even at one point says, "Still a demon, then?" after the Ark and Job and Jesus because on some level he probably doesn't want to actually evaluate, it makes no sense to him that Crowley is still a Demon, especially when he has also sinned in a few ways (lied to Gabriel, thwarted the will of God, technically gluttony etc) and nothing has happened to him, to say nothing for all the things Gabriel has done (or has just let passively happen without a thought to interfere).
So yes, I think the entire final argument plays out the way it does because Aziraphale thinks Crowley is good and deserves to be reinstated, to be forgiven by God more than anything.Ā 
He comes into their final conversation nervous but excited, to the point where he stomps right over what Crowley is trying to say. "You see I... I have some incredible good news to give you." The good news is for Crowley, you see, because Crowley deserves this and clearly being forgiven like he so deserves should logically make Crowley happy. It will make Aziraphale happy after all.Ā 
Aziraphale then starts to describe the conversation that he had with Metatron, stating that he thinks he might have misjudged him. And why would he think that he misjudged the angel who had told him point blank to his face that "The point is not to avoid the war, it is to win it" about the Apocalypse? Well, it's not because he's offered the job of Supreme Archangel, that's for sure. As we can see in the flashback, Aziraphale seems nervous and uninterested in the job at first. He says clearly that he doesn't want to go back to Heaven and even brings up a very half assed excuse to try and weasel out of it, a soft no of, "Where will I get my coffee?"Ā 
No, instead, the clear, obvious point where Aziraphale changes his mind about the job and about the Metatron is when he offers to reinstate Crowley as an Angel. Metatron has, quite accidentally (I think? I don't think he actually knows Aziraphale's secret soul), just said one of the most faith affirming things he possibly could to Aziraphale, "We can correct that little error that's been bothering you. You are completely correct that Crowley deserves God's forgiveness."Ā 
Given that, it's understandable that Aziraphale is absolutely bubbly about Crowley's reinstatement when he mentions it to him, like the best thing ever has just happened to him even though he's talking about something that will happen to Crowley and not him at all. "You could come back to heaven and- and everything. Like the old times, only even nicer." (Nicer because this time, they are in love. Nicer because they'll both be powerful enough to make a difference.)
Some other bits of Aziraphale's dialogue from this scene that make so much sense through this lens are:
After Crowley tries to reiterate his constant stance that both sides are bad actually, and mentions how he rejected Hell's offer to work with them again, Aziraphale misses his point completely and says, "But well, obviously you said no to Hell, you're the bad guys. But Heaven, it's the side of truth, of light, of good." Aziraphale's faith in the potential goodness of Heaven and the actual goodness of God is unflappable but so is his belief that good is what Crowley wants to be doing. Like of course a good soul like Crowley would reject working for Hell again but why would he reject a chance to do good like he's sneakily been doing all along? (Aziraphale here ignores the fact that he's also had to sneakily do good on the side sometimes even though he was always working for "the side of good" but that is very par for the course for him sadly.)Ā 
The lines, "Come with me- to heaven. I'll run it, you can be my second in command. We can make a difference," are a particularly telling set.Ā  Everything about these from the high position he's offering Crowley to the "We" scream that Aziraphale trusts Crowley, a Demon, to guide Heaven the correct way more than any angel already in Heaven.
Aziraphale's final, desperate argument also lines up well with this (as well as featuring Aziraphale more completely referencing how he wants him and Crowley to be together romantically). "Come back, to heaven. Work with me! We can be together. Angels... Doing good. I- I need you! I don't think you understand what I'm offering you." Like is the "I need you" here romantic? Definitely. But it's also Aziraphale again affirming that he trusts Crowley to lead him the correct way ie goodness, because, as it's been shown to us many times (and focused on particularly in this season), Crowley will do and always has been doing the correct thing as best he could while Aziraphale would dither and be locked into passivity (like in The Resurrectionists).
So yes, after many attempts to explain to Crowley how he should be in Heaven, doing good and Aziraphale needs his help and one last desperate kiss from Crowley, we reach the final dreaded, "l forgive you." And yes, maybe Aziraphale is forgiving Crowley for not having faith that they can fix heaven, for abandoning him, for kissing him so suddenly. But I hope, after everything I've laid out here in this essay, you can also see why I think Aziraphale is saying, "Even as you reject God's forgiveness and leave me behind, I still see that you are good and know you deserve it so I will forgive you anyway." And maybe, even though it's still blasphemous to disagree with God, it's less scary for Aziraphale to say "I forgive you" one more time than tell Crowley that he loves him for the first time. He is very good at forgiveness after all.
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jadeite-art Ā· 9 months ago
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I have been thinking a lot about the entire Coop-Barb-Janey subplot, not only from a viewer's perspective but also a writer's perspective and here's some thoughts of what we might expect in S2 and/or S3:
ā˜¢ļø Similarly to S1, S2 could open with a scene set in 2077 showing Coop separating from Janey. It'd be safe to assume that at one point Barb swooped in and took Janey with her to one of the good vaults.
Henry/Hank, being Barb's assistant, might have been directly involved. It would explain why Coop later thinks he might know where both of them are
Coop probably doesn't know that for a simple reason: contrarily to the experiment vaults, the location of the high management vaults must be top secret and the entrance must be well disguised and well protected
Side note: Barb and Janey are definitely not in vault 31. They are not listed on the terminal that Norm checks in one of the scenes
ā˜¢ļø I think that throughout the season/s we'll get some flashbacks of Coop and Barb from the moment he found out about the bombs all the way to their divorce
I theorize Barb was the one to file for divorce, and one of the reasons was she feared his association with "commies" would lose her (and by extension her daughter) the spot in a good vault
I saw an affair angle being mentioned. I'd say it's not out of the realm of possibility. Still, if there was a third man, it would not be Hank but some high ranking executive, someone who could grant Barb that spot in a good vault.
If there was an affair and it was mostly calculated, I think there could still have been an element of genuine attraction there. The way in which Barb accuses Coop of being an ingenue, makes me think she'd be inclined to develop an attachment to someone who is the opposite of that, someone who'd make her feel safe and supported
Side note 1: the affair angle would tie nicely with the fact that Coop appears to think of his family as having been taken from him
Side note 2: ghoulcy shippers might find it interesting that the side of Coop's character that Barb seemed to resent, is the one Lucy would probably appreciate the most
ā˜¢ļø All that said, Coop will most certainly find Barb and Janey at the end of S2 or at least will find out where they are and will only literally find them at the end of S3. @earthgenre made an interesting post exploring what might have happened to them. I personally am convinced they were cryo-frozen and one of the following will turn out to be true:
They were awakened, lived and died a long time ago (or were just never frozen in the first place) and Coop will have to deal with the fact that they are just... gone.
They were awakened some time earlier but by now Barb is dead and Janey is all grown up, perhaps with a husband and child/ren, or alternatively she's already old. It could make for a heartfelt reunion but in the end, the two would have to go their separate ways.
They are both still in their cryopods. Coop gets to see his wife and daughter again and is faced with a choice to either awaken them or let them sleep. It would be a test of character for him. If this one came true, I think he'd either let them sleep or awaken them just for a moment of closure and then let them go back to sleep again in wait for a better tomorrow.
You may have noticed I didn't include any scenario in which they reconcile and walk together into the sunset. This is simply because I don't think it's really an option. I mean, could you imagine Barb, the clean-cut corporate exec, traveling across the wasteland with her ex who now is also a radioactive flesh-eating ghoul? And dragging their little daughter along with them?
On the other hand, Coop wouldn't subject them to that. Yes, he's been looking for them all this time but it would be very silly of him to expect them to reunite and just go live happily ever after. And he's a lot of things but silly is not one of them. I don't think he wants to get them back. He just wants to know what the hell happened to them. Closure is what he wants and what he'll probably eventually get.
As much as I'd love to see Coop get back what he'd lost, I recognize that it wouldn't make much sense, narratively speaking. Cooper's journey appears to be about two things: regaining his lost humanity and letting go of the past. He cannot turn back into a human but he can become a better man (ghoul?) with strong(er) morals. Similarly, he cannot get his family back, not really, not even if he finds them alive, but he can always get himself a companion - someone whom he could cherish and protect, someone whom he could literally live for - and the narrative so far seems to imply that companion is meant to be Lucy. I won't elaborate further on that because there's already a gazillion posts quoting various parallels and foreshadowing elements than seem to be pointing somewhere in that direction.
At the end of it, I just wanna say, there is no way back, but there is always a way forward and that, I think, is the lesson Cooper is supposed to learn.
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feroshgirlsims Ā· 8 months ago
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Prologue: The Space Between Universes
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CW: This story has adult language, adult situations, sex, gore, and violence. It regularly deals with traumatic situations, mental health issues, and drug use. It is intended for mature readers (18+).
TW: Blood and creepy characters in this chapter + references to death
Excerpt from "The After-life for Gods and Monsters," location of book unknown.
The space between universes isnā€™t anything so dreamy as the old myths portend.
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Thereā€™s no feeling of weightlessness or enchanting choral music, and certainly, no gossamer hands gently guiding you toward a welcoming light.Ā 
Mostly, thereā€™s a concrete floor and dingy walls. And an old transistor radio tuned to 87.3 so the staff can listen to the real oldiesā€”Selvadoradian chants with the occasional saucy tone poem from an ancient Windenburgian Monk.
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You donā€™t float; you fall.
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And after you land, or rather, hit the cold floor of what looks like the worldā€™s shittiest warehouse, youā€™re pretty much left to your own devices.
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At least, thatā€™s how it seems. Truthfully, the warehouse is pretty busy, and everyone has enough work to do without wasting valuable milliseconds trying to decipher your questions through your tears.Ā 
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And the questions are always the same, anyway:
Why?
Because.
Am I supposed to be here?
Yes.
Can you give me something to relieve the pain?
Honestly, does this look like a pharmacy to you?Ā 
Also, no.Ā 
At some point, when youā€™ve pulled your shit together enough to stop wailing and accept your circumstancesā€”come what mayā€”someone does show up to talk to you.
Two ā€œsomeones,ā€ actually: Time and her wife, Substance. And yes, no matter what form they appear in, theyā€™re a little bit rude.Ā 
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Theyā€™ll explain to you (with some level of irritation) that, of course, this isnā€™t a fucking warehouse, and itā€™s not their fault that your puny mind canā€™t interpret the true nature of the space between the stars.Ā 
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And no, not actual stars, obviously. The fact that you would even ask that shows youā€™re not listening.
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Assuming theyā€™re interested in your continued presence after all that, Time will sit at the desk, and Substance will mend your bones and stuff your organs back inside your body.Ā 
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ā€”If you have bones.
ā€”If you have organs.
If you havenā€™t already done it yourself, and frankly, if you want to make a good impression, you should.
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The questions they ask are also always the same. And be you god, queen, man, or monster, you are expected to answer.
Who would you be in a whole new world?
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What would you do with a new set of circumstances?
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And on occasion, depending on who you wereā€”or what you were, theyā€™ll ask a secret third question.
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Itā€™s hard to tell if your answer really matters because as soon as you open your mouth, everything goes black.
And then, strangely, you start to hear a loud ringing.
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ā€”Followed by some upbeat choral chimes and a little bit of buzzing.
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And try as you might; you wonā€™t be able to recall a single tangible thing about the space between the universes.
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cavalierious-whim Ā· 21 days ago
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Pick a Little, Goad a Little (ZhongChi, NSFW)
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Instead of Lumine at Childe's weekly spar, he finds Zhongli waiting for him instead.
'Etched in Stone'
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The moment Childe steps inside the Golden House, he knows that something is off.
He is always early. He and Lumine have a standing date once a week, for a spar, and she always pushes through those doors right at the exact time. Not a moment early, not a moment late.
Thereā€™s already someone here. Childe feels it, tastes the power the lingers in the air. Not Lumine. This isā€”
ā€œDarling,ā€ greets Zhongli once Childeā€™s gaze falls on him after a quick scan of the room. He stands there, in front of the Exuvia, studying it with a hand on his chin. Childe wonders if this is the first time heā€™s seen it sinceā€”
No, no, Childe doesnā€™t want to think about that. The betrayal still stings from time to time, but itā€™s in the past.
ā€œIā€”what are you doing here?ā€
Zhongli turns to him. He raises an eyebrow, amused. ā€œWhat indeed,ā€ he replies coolly, his words wrapped in melted mirth.
The answer is obvious. Zhongli is dressed down in looser-than-usual slacks, and a plain shirt. Thereā€™s a playful energy that hangs in the air. Childe has known him long enough to be immediately wary. He waits there, observing, eyes trailing over Zhongliā€™s form, picking it apart.Ā 
Zhongli wears one of his shirts. Itā€™s loose around the collar, showing off a tinge of charcoal skin where his shoulder meets his nape. The air glitters gold with Geo, clinging to him, his fingers, freely leaking from Zhongliā€™s pores.Ā 
Childeā€™s mouth dries at the display.
ā€œIā€™ve heard of your weekly spars with Miss Lumine,ā€ says Zhongli, finally, breaking the silence.Ā 
Oh.Ā 
Well. Itā€™s never been a secret. Zhongli has routinely expressed his distaste for it.
ā€œSheā€™s the only willing to keep me on my toes.ā€ Childe shrugs off his cloak and drapes it over a railing. Itā€™s winter, cold enough outside for an outer layer, but the Golden House is warm.Ā 
Zhongli gives him a strange, lizard-like stare in return. ā€œThe only one?ā€ he questions, and thatā€™s when Childe knows he may have fucked this up. Something is off. Zhongli is behaving strangely.
But itā€™s too late to back down. He swallows, digging his heels in and goads with, ā€œWell, you wonā€™t spar with me. Sheā€™s the next best option.ā€
ā€œNext best,ā€ repeats Zhongli.
ā€œObviously.ā€
Zhongli chuckles softly, still cradling his chin in his fingers. ā€œI suppose that is a failing on my part. I am, usually, unwilling to risk harm to you.ā€
ā€œYouā€™d never harm me.ā€ These words fly from Childeā€™s mouth before he can stop them. And itā€™s trueā€”gods, itā€™s true. Even at Zhongliā€™s stupidest moments, heā€™s never intentioned harm. But thatā€™s part of the problem, isnā€™t it? Despite his well-meaning ways, Zhongli forgets about many, many variables.
ā€œOf course, not.ā€ Zhongli shifts, turning towards him fully. ā€œBut that has never been my concern. You, thoughā€”Ajax, you are a different story. You seek out pain like a glutton. It is, truly, your worst quality.ā€
It isnā€™t pain that he seeks out, but the hunt, the fight, the thrill of it all. Childe feels alive when blood pumps in his veins. ā€œYou know that itā€™s always been my goal to find myself at the top. In order to be the best, I have to fight the best.ā€
Zhongli hums. ā€œAnd Iā€™m the best?ā€
A year ago, Childe would have countered that the Tsaritsa was the best, but things have changed. His loyalty has been sidelined, swayed by his husband.
Now, Childe smiles, his mouth curving into a grin. ā€œYou arenā€™t just an Archon, Zhongli, youā€™re a god. I couldnā€™t ask for more of a challenge if youā€™d just give me one.ā€
The skin around Zhongliā€™s eyes crinkles. Heā€™s amused. Affectionate. He looks at Childe, impressed, caught by him, and the attention isā€¦ rapt. It warms Childe, andā€”
Fuck. Maybe this was a bad idea and Zhongli has always been right. Childe isnā€™t a fool. Heā€™s here to finally answer that call, and Childe knows the moment they get their hands on each other, itā€™s a fight that will turn sideways, softened by their love for each other.Ā 
ā€œWhatā€™s the occasion?ā€ asks Childe, crossing the space to where Zhongli stands.
There is a moment of hesitation. ā€œCuriosity. Miss Lumine has often recounted yourā€¦ spars. You often come home bruised, but in good spirits.ā€
ā€œThat doesnā€™t really answer my question.ā€
Because it doesnā€™t. Zhongli is curious about any and everything, but that interest doesnā€™t usually drive him to seek it out first hand. No, thereā€™s an ulterior motive here. Zhongliā€™s expression is too sharp, his demeanor too tight.Ā 
ā€œZhongli, are you okay?ā€
ā€œHm?ā€Ā 
His blasĆ© response proves it. Zhongli seemsā€¦ distracted, almost. Itā€™s like watching the gears turn in his head.Ā 
Eventually, Zhongli says, ā€œI am fine. More than fine.ā€
He is not. He is not.Ā 
ā€œZhongliā€”ā€
ā€œDidnā€™t you want a spar? Havenā€™t you asked this of me since the moment we met? Youā€™ve been impressively stubborn about it.ā€
It would be stupid to turn this invitation down. Zhongli has given in a handful of times, engaging in small bouts of hand-to-hand combat. This feels different. This feelsā€¦ To meet him here, at the Golden Houseā€¦
ā€œWhat do you want, Zhongli?ā€
Zhongliā€™s expression changes ever-so-slightly. It sharpens and when he looks at Childe next, itā€™s almost predatory. ā€œTo indulge in my mate,ā€ he says simply. ā€œI did not think you would be so suspicious of this.ā€
Mate. Itā€™s a word that makes heat churn in Childeā€™s gut. He shudders, interest sparking down his spine. ā€œWhen it comes to you, Zhongli, everything is give and take. I half expect for you to make this into a contract.ā€
ā€œShould we?ā€ Zhongliā€™s interest is piqued, and suddenly there is less space between them. ā€œBaobei, I am more than willing to craft an agreement, if that suits you. What would your terms be?ā€
This is a trick question. It must be. This close, Zhongli smells like fine shampoo, and that subtle, scented oil that he favors.Ā 
Thereā€™s something else, something that nags at him. Childe licks his lips, leaning so close that Zhongli stops him with a hand against his chest.Ā 
ā€œAjax.ā€
ā€œIā€™mā€”ā€ Childe clears his throat. ā€œI just want a good spar. I wonā€™t win, but if I lastā€¦ letā€™s say, a good half-hour, I get a full night of you, to myself.ā€
ā€œI do think that youā€™re the one with no time off. I am, effectively, retired.ā€
ā€œThen Iā€™ll talk to Katya. Sheā€™ll grant me a vacation.ā€
Zhongli considers this, and then asks, ā€œAnd if you donā€™t? What do I get?ā€
ā€œIā€™ve already asked you what you wanted, and you didnā€™t tell me. I might not be able to smell lies, Zhongli, but I can tell somethingā€™s bothering you.ā€
ā€œNothing is bothering me. I am notā€¦ā€ Zhongli sighs. He pulls at Childeā€™s shirt, sliding his fingers across his chest, teasing the line of it. ā€œPerhaps I just miss you. The Tsaritsa seems to be running you ragged.ā€
It is true that Childe was in Fontaine for longer than he wanted to be. Then there was a lot of downtime spent in recovery, frozen-solid in Snezhnaya. But this, Childe thinks, is not about that. He doesnā€™t ask questions, though, or push Zhongliā€™s buttons. No, no, heā€™s going to indulge because Zhongli has finally, finally, agreed to a fight.Ā 
ā€œZhongli, just give me your terms, and then we can get this show on the road.ā€
Zhongli hesitates. Traces the length of Childeā€™s shoulders with his fingers. Theyā€™re still gloved, but they must be smoldering black underneath that soft leather. Childe thinks that Zhongli is barely holding onto himself, and he wants to know why.Ā 
ā€œThere is little you could give me that I do not already have, butā€”ā€
ā€œThatā€™s a lot of words for such a simple question.ā€
ā€œā€”were I to request something, it would be rather simple. I too, would enjoy having you, only you, to myself for a night.ā€
When Zhongli says it, it seems like a threat, almost. In a good way. In a, I will not leave the room without limping way, which Childe is more than enthusiastic about.
ā€œSounds good to me. Do we shake on it?ā€Ā 
Instead of holding his hand out, Zhongli cups Childeā€™s cheek. ā€œOne more thing, baobei. My instincts have been rather demanding as of late. My home does not smell like you anymore. When I win, I will hoard you away.ā€
When, Zhongli just said. And though Childe makes no illusions of standing a chance, a half-hour in the ring is feasible, he thinks. Zhongli always holds back.Ā 
ā€œPretty confident for an old lizard.ā€
Zhongliā€™s pupils are narrowly slit. His eyes glow golden, and he drags the pad of his thumb across Childeā€™s bottom lip, catching it against chapped skin. ā€œRapscallion,ā€ he calls him. ā€œIn the days of old, we sealed our contracts in blood. With you, however, a kiss would suffice.ā€
Childe snorts. ā€œYou donā€™t have to create a contract to kiss me.ā€
ā€œNo, but it is more fun that way, isnā€™t it?ā€
Perhaps. Childe smiles against Zhongliā€™s thumb and kisses it. ā€œOne thing,ā€ he says, then. ā€œI donā€™t want you to hold back.ā€
ā€œAjaxā€”ā€
ā€œNo, I want you to give it your all. I want to go up against your full strength.ā€
Zhongli is quiet for a moment. He smiles, but it doesnā€™t reach his eyes. Heā€™s thinkingā€”thinking about the best way to get around such a request. It wonā€™t work. Childeā€™s locked in, eyes on the prize.Ā 
ā€œDarling, I thought you wanted to last a half-hour,ā€ he purrs.Ā 
ā€œThink so lowly of me?ā€
ā€œOf course, not. There are few that I would offer such an opportunity to, Ajax. It is a testament to what I think of your abilities.ā€
Childe kisses his thumb again. ā€œBut?ā€
ā€œBut,ā€ says Zhongli, ā€œwillful ignorance is still ignorance.ā€
What a thing to say.Ā 
ā€œFifteen minutes, then. I know I donā€™t stand a chance of winning, but give me a quarter-hour of you at your worst. Iā€™ll learn more than any fight Iā€™ve had with Lumine.ā€
Zhongli huffs and leans forward. ā€œAs you wish,ā€ he murmurs, breath warm against Childeā€™s lips. He kisses him, softly, and with that, the contract seals into place, a thrum of magic pulsing through Childeā€™s veins.Ā 
And really, Childe should learn to shut up. He should learn when not to put his foot into his mouth, because Archons above, Zhongli warned him. Your full strength, he asked for. Fifteen minutes, heā€™d said.Ā 
Two minutes, and Zhongli has him on his backā€”and thatā€™s only because he teased him first, dodging Childeā€™s movements. Then he moved, lightning fast, and Childe found himself upended, head cracking against the floor.Ā 
A soft huff flits from Zhongliā€™s mouth. ā€œWorrisome. When you hit your head, I mean.ā€ Only he sounds amused, and not at all worriedā€”but thatā€™s because he knows Childeā€™s limits, and is already feeding a steady flow of power into his bones, staving off whatever damage might be done.
ā€œDonā€™t,ā€ hisses Childe. ā€œThatā€™s cheating.ā€
Zhongli blinks. ā€œCaring for you is cheating?ā€
ā€œNo, thatā€™sā€”ā€ He grunts, sitting up, swaying slightly from dizziness. ā€œItā€™s an unfair advantage.ā€
ā€œFifteen minutes,ā€ Zhongli reminds him.Ā 
ā€œIā€™d rather it be on my own merit,ā€ bites out Childe. He swoons when he stands, but to Zhongliā€™s credit, he leaves Childe be this time. ā€œLetā€™s go again.ā€
Zhongliā€™s mouth twists slightly. ā€œThere is no shame in calling offā€”ā€
ā€œAgain.ā€
Zhongliā€™s jaw clenches. His expression is amused, haughty, even, and this time when he steps away, he pulls at the shirt he wears, undoing the top two buttons. Itā€™s easy to see now, the way charcoal bleeds into his skin. He came here, already keyed up, already wanting a challenge, and Childe is determined to figure out why.Ā 
ā€œWhat has you so bothered? Is it the fact that I have a weekly date with Lumine?ā€
A date between friends, sure, but the words have their desired effectā€”Zhongli stiffens, his head tilted back. Geo shocks the air, coalescing around him, shackling against his skin, through the space above his head. Childeā€™s eyes lock onto the ghostly visage of antlers bleeding from the crown of Zhongliā€™s temple.Ā 
Yeah, something is up. Zhongli so rarely has a problem reigning himself in, and he is never jealous of others, least of all Lumine. Childeā€™s heart is in his throat, terrified, awed, and incredibly turned on. Desperate to get close again, to feel the chase in his bloodā€”these are the things he loves about sparring, and sometimes Lumine doesnā€™t cut it.
His mate, though. Zhongli. Laogong. Fuck, he knew this would be good. Just what he wanted, needed. And, apparently Zhongli, who was waiting for him.Ā 
ā€œLumine,ā€ says Zhongli, his mouth curling into a feral grin. ā€œShe was the one who suggested that I meet you here this week. She is worried about you, about the Foul Legacy. You shouldnā€™tā€”ā€
ā€œOh, so thatā€™s it?ā€ interrupts Childe. ā€œThis is about me, then?ā€
ā€œYour self-destructive tendencies are involved, yes.ā€ Another half-truth, another clever dodge around the full answer.
ā€œZhongli.ā€
ā€œI can sense it, you know. The way that the Abyss eats at you, the way that it chips away at your being. With every use of that thing, more of you wears away. Are you so intent on letting it fester?ā€
Childe cocks his head to the side. ā€œThis isnā€™t about that. Youā€™ve always complained about it, but this and that are different things.ā€
Zhongli seems to have underestimated him. He chews on those words, forming a rebuttal. ā€œYou would leave me alone, then? You would have me retire, an old man in my lonesome?ā€
Oh, thatā€™s a low blow.
But, two can play that game. Childe is a master at kicking back, much to the chagrin of his fellow Harbingers. ā€œFair trade off,ā€ he says, ā€œif it means unlimited, cosmic power.ā€
Zhongliā€™s jaw tenses, a small, barely noticeable tick. Perfect. Childeā€™s goaded him perfectly, but now itā€™s time to cinch it all.
He calls upon his abyssal power, letting it flood his veins. It burns, but in the way that a good workout burns. Fire flashes through him, setting every pore alight, and Childe laughs, the sound growing larger, louder. He shifts, everything within him shifts, tilting as he becomes one with that darkness, with that abyssal taint that overtakes him.Ā 
Childe lasts a little bit longer this time. He manages to get a few laps in around the Golden House before Zhongli hooks an arm around his waist. Zhongli is so small in comparison like this, but it doesnā€™t matter; he tosses Childe down like heā€™s nothing more than a rag doll.Ā 
The Foul Legacy squirms underneath Childeā€™s skin. It wants blood, and screams for moreā€”but then Zhongli throws a leg over him, pinning Childe to the ground, and the Foul Legacy all but crumples back.Ā 
Power recognizes power. The Foul Legacy heels in the might of a once-archon, and still god. Zhongli barely does anything, he just leans over him, a hand pressed to the thick armor of his chest. ā€œDarling,ā€ he coos, dragging those fingers over the swell there, sweeping across dents and cuts that decorate the plates.Ā 
Itā€™s sweetly saccharine. Childe canā€™t feel the heat of Zhongliā€™s fingertips, but arousal pools in his gut all the same. Heā€™s always gotten off on this, the push and pull of the hunt, but to be at the end of his mate, of his laogong, as Zhongli so often calls him, is something else entirely.Ā 
Then those fingers brush lower, across Childeā€™s taut belly, across the bulge trapped in his trousers. Childeā€™s cock aches. It twitches underneath Zhongliā€™s deft hand, resulting in an amused chuckle.Ā 
ā€œI suppose that I should not be surprised. Tell me, Ajax, was sparring with me everything that you wished for? Did it satisfy that hungry curiosity of yours?ā€Ā 
It only made him hungrier, and Zhongliā€™s fingers pulling over his erection helps none. Childe groans, his head falling back, thunking against the tile of the Golden House. ā€œZhongli.ā€Ā 
His voice is tight and tiny, ragged around the edges. Zhongli offers him a smirk, a slight tilting of his lips as the pressure against Childeā€™s cock grows heavier.Ā 
ā€œHungry,ā€ he repeats, musing over the word. ā€œYou are always hungry for the strangest of things.ā€
ā€œThis isnā€™t strange. Youā€”Zhongli, Iā€”ā€
Zhongli is teasing him, of course. He leans close, slotting between Childeā€™s thighs, pressing his nose into the sweaty crook of Childeā€™s neck. Itā€™s awkward like this, when heā€™s larger, broader, dwarfing Zhongliā€™s body, but Zhongli doesnā€™t seem to care.Ā 
His tongue darts out to taste him, to lick across Abyss-darkened skin. ā€œDelectable.ā€ Zhongli tilts closer to drag his teeth, his fingers across the spot, teasing a bite. ā€œAjax, you are a vision. You taste, you smellā€”ā€
Zhongli lifts his face to the juncture of his neck, inhaling, uncaring of Childeā€™s mask, of his armor, and the stiff, spiky bits that are in the way.Ā 
Heā€™s hard too. Zhongli. He rolls his hips against Childeā€™s crotch, making his own need evident. All that talk about getting off on sparring, and heā€™s no better. Zhongli presents himself as calm and collected, but even he has his moments. Even he gets needy, his instincts taking over andā€”
Childe stills. Thereā€™s a thought, a memory, a conversation that they shared months ago whilst hidden away in the teapot.Ā 
ā€œA rut,ā€ Zhongli had whispered against his mouth, tongue darting out to taste tea on his lips. ā€œEventually, you will see it. I will be overcome with a need for you unlike what youā€™ve seen before. I will cease to make sense. I will make irrational decisions, but most of all, I will want to hoard you away.ā€
And then, his words earlier, not even a half-hour ago: ā€œMy home does not smell like you anymore. When I win, I will hoard you away.ā€
Now, Zhongli hovers over him, a ravenous expression shocking his face. Heā€™d been waiting for him, desperate. Childe had walked into a trap, he now realizes. How clever Zhongli is, how wild and cunning. Zhongli couldā€™ve invited him over and explained, but no, no, Childe remembers the rest of that conversation as well.
ā€œThereā€™s a thrill to it, those instincts. I will want to hunt you down, and then I will want to nest. I will want you leaving these sheets bow-legged and bred full of my clutch.ā€
ā€œIs this your way of seducing me?ā€ Itā€™s a stupid question. Childeā€™s voice is warped, tinny in the otherwise quiet room.Ā 
Zhongli, though, takes no offense. He just purrs, satisfied, and tilts his hand until heā€™s palming at Childeā€™s cock properly. ā€œIt must be working for you to be like this. What a good boy for me.ā€
For all the things Childe has done is his life, heā€™s never been fucked in this form. Heā€™s never even thought about it, beyond a few errant tugs over his cock when hot and bothered. Always alone. Never with another. And even with Zhongli, even with his mate, heā€™s neverā€¦Ā 
ā€œIā€™m different, like this. Youā€¦ Zhongli, you really shouldnā€™tā€”ā€
ā€œI shouldnā€™t?ā€ Zhongli lifts a hand to yank off his glove with his teeth. Then it drops again, teasing the fastenings of Childeā€™s trousers, pulling the top-most button open. ā€œI find myself interested in what you seem to be hiding away.ā€
Childe catches Zhongli by the wrist, careful of his claws. Zhongli pauses. His expression is heated, pupils blown wide, irises glowing a brilliant golden, but he waits. Licks his lips and looks at Childeā€™s face, his mask, taking in the sight of him.Ā 
Then, Zhongli asks, ā€œWhat worries you? Do you think I will not like whatever I find within your trousers?ā€
Childe laughs, a choking sound, at the absurd question. And no, no, that isnā€™t quite it. Logically, he knows that Zhongli has seen stranger, weirder things than the way his cock is when cloaked in the Foul Legacy.
But still.Ā 
Hesitation bleeds through him. Zhongli senses it.Ā 
ā€œAjax,ā€ he says, ā€œdo you wish to stop?ā€
ā€œNo, no, I wantā€”ā€ Childe sighs, rolling his hips up against him. ā€œThis is your rut, isnā€™t it? You need this.ā€
Zhongli waits a scant few seconds before pulling at his trousers again. ā€œWhat I need is you. That manner and method matters not. Miss Lumine merelyā€¦ā€ He clears his throat. ā€œI may have complained about my impending cycle, which led to a rather clever solution on her end. But thisā€¦ Baobei, this doesnā€™t have to happen here. I can steal you away into the teapot if youā€™d rather wish.ā€
There is an appeal to this. Zhongli is interested, Zhongli wants, and that in turn makes Childe burn all the hotter. They can save the teapot for later. Besides, adrenaline still surges through Childeā€™s veins, and thereā€™s little better than a post-fight fuck.Ā 
Zhongliā€™s eyes widen when Childeā€™s cock is freed. ā€œOh,ā€ he mutters, loosing a breath as he rests that thick length against the palm of his hand. Itā€™s massive against him, nearly as thick as his wrist. Tinged blue and purple, wider at the base, thin and spade-shaped at the tip. Itā€™s flexible, prehensile, even, writhing against Zhongliā€™s fingers, eager for more touch.Ā 
Hunger tugs at Zhongliā€™s expression. ā€œDarling,ā€ he says, ā€œyou were scared to show me this?ā€
ā€œItā€™sā€”oh.ā€
Zhongli huffs, giving Childeā€™s cock a stroke, a good squeeze around the tip, and whatever worries he had dissolved right into the aether.Ā 
ā€œThe only thing I dislike is that this form causes you harm. But thisā€”Ajax, this is divine.ā€
Doubtful, but itā€™s easy to believe it with the way that Zhongli touches him. Childeā€™s cock twitches, wriggles in his grasp, responsive to the attention. Itā€™s a little embarrassing, but that is outweighed by the pleasure that heats his gut, and the rapturous expression that mars Zhongliā€™s face.Ā 
ā€œA pity,ā€ he says, as he explores, dragging his thumb around the head of Childeā€™s dick, teasing the ridge there, ā€œthat we must be quick about this.ā€ Zhongli moves, pulling open his own clothing, freeing his own cock, pressing them together.Ā 
Itā€™s laughable. Childeā€™s cock is monstrous beside Zhongliā€™s, but it doesnā€™t matter. Zhongliā€™s stiff cock is hot against his, and the friction as it pulls over heated flesh is something to die for. Childe moans, his back arching, hips bucking as he fucks into the tight grip of Zhongliā€™s fist.Ā 
ā€œLater, I will pull you apart. I told you, baobei, what I wanted when I won. You were right. Iā€™m rutting, utterly consumed with thoughts of breeding you full.ā€
ā€œI want that. I wantā€”ā€
ā€œAs much as I would give you that, not here. Ajax, I want to pull you apart slowly. I want you all to myself, in my sheets, in my den.ā€
Thatā€™sā€¦ Childe swallows thickly. Okay, yeah, he can do that. Doesnā€™t change the fact that his dick aches, his ass clenches, and all he can think of is being fucked by Zhongliā€™s perfect cock. And oh, the Foul Legacy likes the idea of that too. His own dick writhes against Zhongliā€™s hand, almost like it has a mind of its own.
(Which, it kind of does. The Foul Legacy is a weird, wild thing that cannot quite be conceptualizes. It both is and is not Childe. He has his own thoughts, and thoughts that act separately like this, which is the nature of abyssal taint. Itā€™s partly why he rarely indulges even masturbatory measures in this formā€”ultimately, it leaves him unsatisfied because heā€™s feeding the pleasure of another beast.)
With Zhongli here, Childe finds himself curious. Will he be satisfied in the presence of his husband? Or will that make it even worse? Childe almost begs to be whisked away, but Zhongliā€™s teapot is no place for the skin he wears. He doesnā€™t want to mar such a place with his brand of darkness.
Plus, thereā€™s Zhongli and his need. His rut burns through him, clear as day. He fucks his palm, his cock dragging against Childeā€™s, a moan flitting from his lips. Pink-cheeked. Eyes glittering with arousal. Childe doesnā€™t think heā€™s ever seen Zhongli so lost in the heat of it, not even the first time they came together.Ā 
ā€œZhongli,ā€ he says. ā€œZhongli, justā€”fuck, justā€”ā€
ā€œWere it feasible,ā€ cuts in Zhongli, ā€œwere it safer for you to stay like this, I would spend hours playing with you. I would explore every corner, every crevice, everyā€”ā€ He looks down, smiling at the sight of Childeā€™s dick, thumbing over the tip to smear the precome that drips from there around. ā€œEvery inch, laogong.ā€
ā€œPlease. Please.ā€
ā€œBut we canā€™t, can we? All the things that youā€™ve done to yourself in the pursuit of power, and for what? To still wind up on your back?ā€
Oh. Oh. Zhongliā€™s tease unsettles the Foul Legacy, but heat rolls through Childe. He likes this, the weight of Zhongli against him, over him. That look on his face. Unbridled lust. Want and need. The Foul Legacy, tooā€”it may not want to submit, but it does because it recognizes Zhongliā€™s might, all that power that he has packed away in such a small place.
Divine. So, so, divine.Ā 
ā€œYouā€™re close,ā€ says Zhongli, pulling his thumb around the crown of Childeā€™s cock, tracing the strange shape of it. ā€œCome on, darling. Let me see what you look like. I want to know all parts of you, good and bad.ā€
Childe keens, the sound of it strange through his mask. His back bows, and he arches from the ground, driving his hips upwards to fuck against Zhongliā€™s hand, his cock. The friction is killer. Heat burns through him, pulling him thin, taut, ready to snap at any moment.
But really, itā€™s Zhongli, and that gaze of his, and the way that he watches their cocks in his hand with rapt attention. Thatā€™s what does him in, what makes the pleasure kick up a notch. Childe always wants; wants to be wanted, wants to have that attention. He didnā€™t think Zhongli would like this, that heā€™d get off on it, but, butā€”
The spar keyed him up, but itā€™s Zhongli who made him want this. A few more strokes of their cocks, a few more rolls of their hips together, and that delicious, grinding friction, has Childe tipping right over the edge. He comes with a cry of Zhongliā€™s name, thin and raspy, and a choked off moan that fizzles out into the air.Ā 
ā€œLook at you,ā€ says Zhongli, his voice deep, caught. He still ruts against him, still presses his own cock into the tight space of his fist, overstimulation be damned. Evidence of Childeā€™s orgasm is everywhere, staining is stomach, and Zhongliā€™s hand with strange, thick, glittering come. ā€œI want to taste you. I cannot wait toā€”hah.ā€Ā 
Zhongli is thinking of more than that. He squeezes their cocks tighter, and even as Childeā€™s flags, it still feels good.Ā 
ā€œOne day, Iā€™ll make love to you like this. One day, we will plan for it, and it will be quick, and swift, but I want to know all of you, darling.ā€
ā€œYou couldā€”you can.ā€
Zhongli grunts softly and comes suddenly.Ā 
So, maybe not. Childe whines at the loss of opportunity. One day, indeed. He wants that, wants to know what itā€™s like to be filled in this form.Ā 
Zhongliā€™s cock stays hard. He pulls his hand away slowly, cautiously, and groans at the loss of pressure. Trails his fingers through the mess theyā€™ve madeā€”but mostly Childeā€™s come, scooping it up. He brings it to his mouth for a taste. Zhongli moans softly, his tongue darting out against his fingers, andā€”
Thatā€™s too much, all of this is too much. Zhongli was right, the Foul Legacy is starting to wear him too thin, and Childeā€™s next sound is a soft one of discomfort. Abyssal taint turns sharp, pin-pricky, and he does his best to slough it away.Ā 
But heā€™s tired, almost too tired to reset. It takes longer than usual for Childe to melt back into his expected form, and heā€™s left bone-weary and aching in places he didnā€™t know existed.
Zhongli looms over him. He wipes his soiled hand against his trousers, and then cups Childeā€™s face. ā€œYou should rest.ā€
ā€œNo, I wantā€”fuck, I want more. That wasnā€™tā€”ā€
Childe aches to be filled, to have Zhongliā€™s cock inside of him.Ā 
He also just aches.
Zhongli chuckles softly. ā€œMy darling mate,ā€ he murmurs, leaning down to kiss his brow. ā€œThere will be plenty of time for that. Trust me when I said you want to be rested forā€”ā€
ā€œYour rut.ā€
Zhongli does not immediately answer. Childe watches his throat bob as he swallows. ā€œIt is, admittedly, an annoying cycle. I have been thankful that itā€™s remained dormant.ā€
ā€œā€¦until now?ā€
ā€œYes, well, in the presence of my husband, it would be natural, no?ā€
Childe tugs at Zhongliā€™s shirt. Well, his shirt. Zhongli stole it. ā€œAnd all the breeding talk? Itā€™s all talk, right?ā€
More hesitation, more half-answers, and an amused, crooked smile that curves Zhongliā€™s lips. ā€œI think that we both would agree that we areā€¦ unsuited for children, perhaps.ā€
ā€œThat is not an answer.ā€
ā€œThe breeding talk is merely thatā€”ā€
ā€œA kink then? Thank god.ā€
Childe can work with a kink. Zhongliā€™s biology is strange too, so he was worried about weird, adeptal things. Heā€™s already seen the glowing dick. Zhongli has referenced a knot, and fuck, yes, heā€™s curious, butā€”
ā€œWorry not, Ajax.ā€ Zhongliā€™s voice is considerably calmer than just moments ago. ā€œIt will be nothing that you cannot handle. Iā€™ve already sent a letter to Miss Ekaterinaā€”ā€
ā€œYou what?ā€
ā€œā€”and Miss Lumine was kind enough to tidy-up my teapot. It was dusty because itā€™s been a while since weā€™ve had time to ourselves. We owe her oneā€”what is that look?ā€Ā 
Oh, how embarrassing. Itā€™s bad enough that Zhongli talked to Lumine about this to begin with, resulting in him being here instead, but for Katya to be aware. ā€œSurely you just said you wanted a vacation, right?ā€
Zhongli says nothing, just blinks at him.Ā 
Right. Well. Childe groans, dragging a hand down his face.Ā 
To lighten the mood, Zhongli changes the subject. ā€œYou never answered me, by the way. Was a spar with me everything that you thought it would be?ā€
Yes. No. Maybe. Childe certainly wishes heā€™d had a fucking chance, at the least. He had no illusions of winning, but he did think heā€™d last at least ten minutes, maybe fifteen. Heā€™d wound up on his back, twice, and Zhongli had treated it like a fucking game.
ā€œI think I get why youā€™re an archon, now.ā€
ā€œWas,ā€ corrects Zhongli gently. He pulls back and rights his clothing, tucking his cock away and grimacing all the while.Ā 
ā€œShit, youā€™reā€¦ā€ Childe stares at the still very obvious, very hard bulge in Zhongliā€™s trousers.Ā 
ā€œPay it no mind. Come, darling, let us settle in for the night. You should eat and sleep, and tomorrowā€”ā€
ā€œThatā€™s when the real fun starts, right? Can we fight again?ā€
Zhongliā€™s gaze flashes gold, literally. Geo is thick in the air. It curls around them as Zhongliā€™s grip on his being wears thinner and thinner by the second. ā€œI would say no, butā€”ā€
ā€œBut?ā€
ā€œIt is within my nature toā€¦ indulge in roughhousing. Dragons, weā€”ā€ He sighs. ā€œEven with my softer, qilin instincts, in times of rut, I find myself uniquelyā€¦ bothered.ā€
ā€œThat isnā€™t a no.ā€
ā€œAjaxā€”ā€
ā€œYou didnā€™t say no. Thatā€™s basically a yes.ā€
ā€œAjax.ā€
Childe pulls himself to his feet, grimacing slightly, but otherwise reenergized. ā€œNext time, Iā€™ll last longer.ā€
Zhongli shoots him a half-lidded gaze. ā€œYou may certainly try.ā€
A promise and a threat. A thrill zings down Childeā€™s spine, and if he wasnā€™t so tired, if he wasnā€™t so fucking sore, heā€™d demand that rematch right now.Ā 
But Zhongli knows him, and he presses closer, taking hold of Childeā€™s face between his warm palms. ā€œThose are thoughts for later, baobei. Come, let us retire home.ā€
ā€œZhongliā€”ā€
Zhongli kisses him, and it isnā€™t a gentle, teasing thing, itā€™s a hard press of their mouths together; itā€™s his tongue tracing the seam of Childeā€™s mouth, coaxing it open; itā€™s swallowing Childeā€™s moan, and tasting every sound that Zhongli pulls from his throat.Ā 
Another promise, another threat. Zhongli kisses him possessively, as if to consume him, which must be the rut talking. Childe likes this side of him, this older part of Zhongli that has given into those baser instincts.Ā 
When they part, Zhongli still lingers close, laughing against Childeā€™s mouth.Ā 
ā€œYou still didnā€™t say no,ā€ says Childe. ā€œMeans Iā€™m wearing you down.ā€
ā€œWhat a rapscallion. My rapscallion, my wily, mate.ā€
This time, when Zhongli tells him to come, Childe does, and the tuck away into his teapot, the Golden House melting right away.Ā 
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wondercourse Ā· 4 months ago
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i'm making this its own post actually because it's really important to me. pardon an anecdote.
i am someone who leaning hard into solely being parts did not work for. i was pushed into it, and while in some aspects it helped and parts of it reflect how i see myself, pushing it SO HARD made things worse. in fact, quite ironically considering its push as the SOLE "pro-recovery" option, it led to me starting to see "unfavorable" parts of me as separate human beings from me and the "good" parts. as in, they were not part of my whole, they were not part of my body. i was experiencing the kind of dissociation that the isstd says to prevent.
this will not happen to everyone. this isn't meant to be a horror story to push you away from parts language (which i still use) or a parts of a whole view of yourself. the whole point is to tell you to do what works for youā€”and to explain what didn't work for me, and why it might not work for everyone.
that said, as you can imagine, this experience means i am sick to DEATH of people pushing One True Recovery Pathā„¢.
seeing my parts as the in-between of parts and people IS seeing them as parts of a whole. it has allowed for integration. it has allowed for healing. it has allowed for me to feel more like one person more than ever.
it seems contradictory, doesn't it? that being people makes me feel like one person. but it works for me. they are me and i am them, that is trueā€”but in the sense that we, as people and parts, are what "i" am.
you do not get to define someone's path to recovery in their stead. you do not get to tell someone you don't know what works for them. what works for you may not work for everyone. again, if solely seeing yourself in terms of parts works for you, that's amazing. not being facetious. i'm glad you've found what works for you.
you do not get to push that onto everyone. period.
i've made a post like this before, but this one is more personal because i wanted to give an example of "alters are never people" not helping everyone.
as with everything in syscourse and systemhood and life, there is nuance.
sigh. i honestly hope the people who need to see thisā€”the ones pushing the One True Recovery Pathā„¢ rhetoricā€”see this. i feel that the likelihood of that happening is low, but still. i need them to see that what they're pushing does not always work. and is also not with the ISSTD meant when talking about parts being "a singular human being".
let people view their subjective experience as they need to in order to move forward. parts, people, both, neither, nebulous in-between, secret third thing, whatever. it is not your place to define a subjective and often deeply personal thing. i keep saying it because i cannot emphasize it enough.
stop trying to tell people what their experiences "should" be. stop telling them they're faking or wrong or bad because they don't fall under that. this doesn't even just apply to the parts and people shit, actually, because this just happens a lot. it's frustrating. immensely so.
god i'm so tired.
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lisbeth-kk Ā· 10 months ago
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Today's prompt: hobby
The Luckiest Girl in the World (chapter 8)
Summary: A rebuke turns into something Rosie had only dared to hope for.
Eight Years Old
Dad and Papa, well, to be fair, mostly Dad, had a stern talk with me in the aftermath of my performance in the school play where I told the tale ofĀ The Tipsy BurglarĀ that occurred a half year earlier. I had kept it a secret from them, which I knew was a bit not good, but I thought theyā€™d be pleased that I put Papa in the spotlight of that particular case, even if he was nowhere near London at the time. It turned out they werenā€™t.
ā€œYour choice of title isā€¦ā€ Papa began.
ā€œSherlock,ā€ Dad said in a tone that told both Papa and me that this was not the time for humour.
Dad cleared his throat and began his lecture, asking me to keep quiet until he was finished.
ā€œWe both appreciate that you love speaking about us and dramatize a little about Papaā€™s work.ā€
He sent a warning glare in Papaā€™s direction when he wanted to protest that it wasnā€™t just Papaā€™s work, but Dadā€™s too, when he wasnā€™t at his actual job as a doctor.
ā€œWhat we donā€™t fancy, is your changed personality of late. Youā€™ve become cocky, using Papaā€™s fame to your benefit, to become a more interesting person, and that is just not on. You should be proud of who you are. In the long run, youā€™ll end up with no audience or true friends if you continue down this road. It isĀ youĀ who matter, not who your family is, alright?ā€
Dad looked pointedly at me to see if I understood what he was trying to convey. I nodded.
ā€œGood. We have a proposition for you. It has come up earlier as well, but back then we thought you were too young for this hobby, orā€¦ā€
I couldnā€™t keep my mouth shut any longer, because those last words could only mean one thing.
ā€œYou mean martial arts?ā€ I asked hopefully.
A deep chuckle from Papa confirmed my deduction, and I threw myself into Dadā€™s arms.
ā€œI promise Iā€™ll be good, and I wonā€™t be such aā€¦ā€
ā€œAlright, best not finish that sentence,ā€ Dad said mock serious.
***
Both my fathers had experience in this area. Sort of, anyway. Papa from fencing, Dad from rugby and the combat training when he was in the army.
I was euphoric by the prospect, but still a bit irked after the rebuke, so when two options were suggested, I obviously chose a third one.
ā€œTaekwondo or kickboxing?ā€ Papa asked expectantly.
ā€œNeither,ā€ I said defiantly, but regretted my tone immediately when Dad spoke my name inĀ thatvoice.
ā€œWatson,ā€ Papa prompted, his tone also a bit harsh.
ā€œSorry,ā€ I said. ā€œJiu jitsu. Please, let me.ā€
ā€œI think that can be arranged,ā€ Dad said. ā€œYouā€™ll learn self-defence, respect and humbleness as well as self-esteem. Not sure you need more of the latter, though.ā€
That elicited another chuckle from Papa. Dad turned to him, cocking an eyebrow, but the mirth on his face ruined is effort to look disapproving.
***
A week later, my martial art career started. Papa had wanted to fully equip me with the correct clothes, mouthguard, gloves and shin guards, but Dad suggested that we postponed the shopping spree until we were certain what was required. The web site had said that I only needed to show up in whatever clothes I found comfortable, so I chose tights and a t-shirt in a breathing material.
When we arrived in the dojo, I learned to bow every time I entered and departed. A sign of respect for the room where the training was executed.Ā 
ā€œNo socks,ā€ the trainer told us when several of the children skidded around on the mats.
The trainer wore a crisp white costume, called a Gi, and her black belt had three golden stripes, her name, and Japanese signs embroidered on it.
ā€œI am Sensei Ida. Inside this dojo, youļæ½ļæ½ll address me as Sensei. Understood?ā€
ā€œYes, Sensei,ā€ we said in more or less unison.
When the session was over, we promised our Sensei, that we would keep it up until we attained the black belt. Only two of us were successful at keeping that promise.
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stupidsketchpad Ā· 10 months ago
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hey guys. im here to rant about how 2econd 2ight 2eer (second sight seer) by will wood is secret life bigb's song because god its eerie how similar the song lyrics are to his character. AHEM (also spoilers for secret life)
My grip on my secrets slipping while I'm speaking in tongues
ok. this is a really good start lol. basically bigb's task don't mean much when he does weird shit anyway for fun and, quote from grian, "writes his own tasks"
Screaming at the top of my lungs in the confession booth
he's saying stuff that litterally makes no sense. even after his task is done he wont tell anyone (confession booth is kinda like people asking about your task after it's done. your confessing your task to someone)
Take it with a pillar of salt, H.A.L.T., it's not my fault
i got nothing man
The devil made me do it, but I also kinda wanted to
THIS LINE AHSHDHSHAH. THE SECRET KEEPER GIVES HIM THE TASKS CAUSE HE HAS TO BUT HE WANTS TO DO THEM ANYWAY ANDDDD MAKE THEM AS CONFUSING AS POSSIBLE. SECRET KEEPER COUNTS AS THE DEVIL HERE
I'm cut from a different kind of meat
More than you can chew, hard to swallow me
"what the hell are you doing??" is a common question he gets asked. hard to swallow. y'know
Forget bored stiff, I got rigor mortis, call it morbid curiosity
How I cannot commit to reality, when my third eye's open and I like what I see
he's doing shit for the sake of doing shit.
Baby, I may be crazy but I didn't lose it, no I set it free
AAAAA THIS LINE TOOO!!! ok so he didn't just randomly start lying in secret life. it was weird before that too! i cant speak for double but LIMITED LIFE he was also confusing people about being the boogeyman. basically that one meme with the "guy weird about everything but its drowned out by how weird about everything the other people are"
I can't ignore what's under dance floorboards, the rhythm of my heart a dead-as-disco beat
But I still move my feet
To slip out of this groove, I'm free
dont got much here but i think this is just him having fun, yknow
Now to row, row, row my boat over the falls
And maybe wake up from but a dream, yeah
"but a dream" is the games. there are three rows in the line. lose your lives to get the game over with.
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I didn't lose it babe
There wasn't much to find
once again, this wasnt the first time he was being weird!!!
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I'm only passing through
say weird shit, refuse to elaborate, leave.
Oh, oh, o-o-oh
If you knew what I knew, if you saw what I see
You'd look through illusions, hallucinations, and lucid dream
And I know that meaning can be such a pretty thing to keep
But I got facts and I'm not afraid to use 'em, take the good with the bad, take off the back you make a new front
evo, anyone? anyway this man knows about watchers and doesnt care. he knows! he just doesn't give that any meaning.
Some days I'm glad that I am a madman and I'd rather be that than
An amicable animal, mild-mannered cannibal
red lives and how bigb doesn't have the same bloodlust as they do. this guy doesn't kill much, he's like the most passive on the server. /srs
But I'm more level-headed and clever than ever and I'm getting better one forever at a time
how many people guessed any of bigb's tasks? that's right, zero! (if i remember correctly.) he's getting better at the games (btw the games being referred to as "forevers" is just ahshahdghs)
And if sick is defined by what's different, well then pull the plug out and let me die
not much here
Vice-versa, vice versus virtue
Well who I am I choose through all the things I do
AAAAAAAA HE CHOOSES HOW HE IS PERCEIVED BY THE OTHERS BY SAYING HIS STUFF YA GET WHAT IM SAYING
And if it rhymes, it's true, but I hate poetry
contradicting himself. easy peasy analysis here folks.
Now with my moral compass pointing south, I'm going down
With no-no-no-no-no-no-no-no-no respect for reality
could say this is going red! but also. "going down?" LIKE A HOLE? HE MADE A HOLE?????
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I didn't lose it babe
There wasn't much to find
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I'm only passing through
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
I didn't lose it babe
There wasn't much to find
I'm just a psycho, babe
Come and go out my mind
same stuff
A tourist passing through
Well that was fun, goodbye
he died. but hey, he had fun!
anyways thats all thank you for listening to me ramble about songs and minecraft i WILL do this again. sorry if this is incoherent i wrote it at 10:00 pm.
psst... moot... @bigb-enthusiast... would you like this?
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1moreff-creator Ā· 1 year ago
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A Summary of the Levi!Accomplice Theory + How We Got Here (DRDT CH2)
Hey there! So a while ago I made a post about the CH 2 murder method, but I missed some pretty crucial information. You might know me and @thebadjoe had a pretty long thread back and forth talking about the murder, which lead to me reworking a lot of the original theory. However, that thread is extremely long and frankly quite confusing to read, so I thought it would be good to summarize what the final theory actually looks like in a separate post. This was sorta inspired by thebadjoe making a similar post about his own theory (which is Eden working alone, but disguising herself as Arei at one point), which I absolutely recommend you read as itā€™s probably one of the best DRDT-related posts Iā€™ve seen on Tumblr.
If youā€™re here simply for a summary of the Levi!Accomplice Eden!Culprit theory, then simply skip to the Closing Argument of this post. You should be able to understand it on its own. However, I think it would also be nice to explain how I reached the conclusions I did, which is what the start of the post will be. Othersie I'm gonna look completely unhinged, and that's not good, I'm only kinda unhinged! If youā€™re interested, then I hope you enjoy!
CW: Murder, betrayal (Eden!Culprit), hanging (including geometric depictions), suicidal thoughts, one mention of self harm.
(Also, the Ace almost-murder wonā€™t really be touched on much here, but there is a thread where me, venus-is-thinking, accirax and thebadjoe all went crazy trying to explain the blood on the wires. Itā€™s about as difficult to follow as the other one, but eh)
The First Step Into Madness
(This part goes over a bit of the same from my OG post, which is why it sorta ignores other theories. There may be some assumptions made which are not necessarily true under other theories. Feel free to skip this if you read the first post and donā€™t need a refresher)
It all started when I made the original post where I discussed the murder method. I was left very intrigued after watching DRDT for the first time, so I wanted to see if there was some way to figure out how the murder was carried out, and to see if that pointed to any culprit.
-The first thing to note is that EP 11 cuts off when Charles is about to confront David on something related to the time of death, based on when he cuts in. This would imply the murder did not happen the night of the third day as the characters had assumed. Seeing as Arei was last seen at noon of that third day and I wasnā€™t aware of disguise theory, I figured the murder actually happened at 7:30 AM the morning of the day of the investigation, which I still believe. The fish could have been simply taken before nighttime and kept in the water jugs.
-What this means is that the culprit had time to set up an elaborate murder mechanism overnight, which is what the rest of the evidence around the crime scene would appear to imply.
-One of the reasons to believe a mechanism was involved is the flickering light of the playground. For a while, I genuinely had no idea how the hell that would happen. Even if there was a secret passage from the Movie Screening Room, proving that in trial would be nigh impossible.
-However, sometimes to solve a mystery, all you gotta do is mash random things together until something sorta looks like it fits. And what was a thing I didnā€™t know how to place? The ball of clothes.
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-The idea here is to attach the rope to the ball of clothes and throw it over the railing, that way you can get the rope to go over there without having to get up there yourself. On the way up, the clothes would hit the light and displace the lightbulb, causing it to flicker.
-But why would you need rope over the railing? Well, if you were interested in creating a pulley system to make something go high into the air, you would need the rope there. And a pulley system is the first thing I thought of when I saw the spinny thing had tape on it, and thus was likely involved. This is what I envisioned.
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Note how the rope is first looped between the handlebars to make sure it actually does the thing itā€™s supposed to. There may be other ways to set up the pulley, but the important thing is, a pulley was likely involved.
-So we got a pulley, but what are we pulleying? Presumably Arei, getting her higher up so her neck could snap instantly when she dropped down. As Veronika stated, her neck wouldnā€™t have snapped unless she weighed more or she dropped from higher up.
-Unless she weighed more, huh? Thatā€™s an interesting thing to specify. How would she weigh more? Unless, there was something which weighed her down.
-One thing which always struck me as odd about the water jugs is how oddly the handles are snapped.
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-After thinking about how that could have happened, I realized maybe they had been snapped due to the action of rope. If you tie rope around the handles and pull hard, they would snap just like that.
-And whatā€™s the deal with that? As I said, perhaps Arei was weighed down by something. And here is the answer. Since we know there were two pieces of rope (one found around Areiā€™s neck and a longer piece under the spinny thing), I believed the jugs were attached to her via rope to weigh her down.
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-That way, the culprit could further ensure Areiā€™s neck would snap once she fell and the pulley system was stopped.
-Because yes, the culprit would need to stop the pulley system from spinning back all the way, otherwise Arei would just fall to the floor. And since her broken neck is the only injury apart from red marks on her wrist, that clearly didnā€™t happen.
-And my answer for thatā€¦ was frankly just brute forcing it and stopping it by hand. See, I was sorta coming in after watching a cool video by Ocean Unknown, and I was already kinda thinking Levi was probably the culprit, which is why this feat of strength didnā€™t seem too insane for me. In retrospect, I may have been underestimating the strength required to do that.
-Anyways, the rest isnā€™t too hard to figure out. Make the note, ambush Arei when she arrived at the playground, with the ensuing struggle resulting in the scuffed floor, put tape on her wrists, put the noose around her neck, pulley, let her fall a bit and stop her so her neck snaps, prop her up so the murder looks vaguely like a suicide, throw some stuff in the trash, profit. You may have noticed I didnā€™t talk about the fact Arei doesnā€™t have her glove in the BDA, becauseā€¦ well, frankly I just hadnā€™t noticed that at the time. The fish are to confuse the time of death, and the tape was likely taken from the gym and used to have a better grip on the spinny thing as the culprit spun it.
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The tape was taken from the gym?
The Curious Case of the Tape Thief
(Or: BY GOD ITā€™S THEBADJOE WITH A STEEL CHAIR! /lh)
So, what you may have noticed is that the method I came up with doesnā€™t really point to anyone in particular, but thereā€™s a detail I hadnā€™t noticed when I first made that post. The time the tape was taken.
Thebadjoe had already pointed it out on his blog, and was kind enough to reblog my own post with this information. Turns out, he realized that in Ep 6, at around the time Ace wakes up, the roll of the tape previously on the floor disappears from the background. Which means it was taken by someone who was at the gym at that point.
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Now, you might be wondering if maybe thatā€™s just an animation error. After all, itā€™s not like this is evidence that can be brought up in the trial.
Except, it can be deduced. With lockdown logic. Letā€™s look at the facts:
-The tape was on the floor after Nico leaves the gym.
-The last people in the gym before the lockdown begun were Teruko, Ace and Eden.
-No one but MonoTV could enter the gym during the lockdown.
-Rose and Teruko are the first people to enter the gym after the lockdown, stated explicitly by MonoTV.
-But by the time Rose and Teruko are there, the tape has disappeared. And there is special attention brought to the fact the tapeā€™s disappeared.
So the tape couldnā€™t have disappeared during the lockdown (unless MonoTV took it out, but why would it do that), and it canā€™t have been taken after since Rose and Teruko were the first people there after it ended. Since that roll of tape was still on the floor when Nico left, that means the tape disappeared when only Teruko, Ace and Eden were in the gym.
Teruko couldnā€™t have taken it, protag privilege.
Iā€™ve seen Ace thrown out as a possibility, but it just doesnā€™t really work. Teruko was inspecting his body right before he wakes up, and she never has a reason to look away after he wakes up. She never saw him pick up the tape, though, so it seems unlikely he did. Not to mention the lack of blood on the tape when Ace had blood on his hands the whole time, or the general weirdness of him taking the tape and, like, pocketing it in the first place. Why would he do that? If he wanted a weapon, heā€™d have taken the wire which was nearby, right?
So, the most logical answer is that Eden took the tape. In fact, she gets knocked down to the floor right around the time the tape disappears from the background.
So, now we ask, why did Eden take the tape? The issue is that there really is no reason for her to do that, unless she went down to the second floor specifically with the intention of picking up the tape (and maybe some other stuff). However, she never tells Teruko she wanted to pick up the tape, which combined with the fact she takes it sneakily and without anyone noticing, would suggest she wanted it for nefarious purposes. This is where the Eden!Culprit theory comes from.
There simply is no good answer as to why she took the tape otherwise. Even other theories Iā€™ve seen, which suggest perhaps the killer intentionally used the tape to frame Eden, canā€™t really explain why Eden would take it without warning in the first place.
Thus, the only issue left isā€¦ would Eden really do this? How can the nicest person in the killing game betray a friend like that? Well, itā€™s not as impossible as you may think.
Of Motivations And Narrative Consequence
(Or: venus and accirax come in clutch)
You may have seen this post by DRDT Tumblrā€™s dynamic duo of @venus-is-thinking and @accirax circulating around, and I recommend you read it if you want a full exploration of why Eden!Culprit works from a character and narrative standpoint. They explained everything way better than I ever could, so Iā€™m not gonna dwell on it too much and just ask you do your assigned reading if youā€™re interested.
However, as a short summary of the main points:
-Motive: Eden is a very caring person, who has several people sheā€™d want to return to outside of the killing game. Her family, which she speaks about with Levi in the first scene of the chapter, and possibly even the girl mentioned in her secret. The incident with Arturo could have scared her into taking more drastic action so she could go back to the real world. Note the secret quote on her page is ā€œYou canā€™t go back, no matter how hard you try.ā€ Sheā€™s likely not secretly evil or anything. And the fact she kept trying to go against the killing game, but ultimately never achieved anything, could have led to her feeling completely hopeless.
-Why Arei?: Because it was the easiest option, most likely. It was implied in the ep 10 flashback that Eden may not have believed Arei when she claimed she wanted to be friends, and that she may have only realized she genuinely did during the trial. Also worth noting, theyā€™re paired together in the CH 1 recap, which implies theyā€™re at least important to each otherā€™s stories.
-Wouldnā€™t this just prove Teruko right? And wouldnā€™t that be narratively redundant?: Oh, yes. It would very explicitly prove Teruko right.
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Teruko: Sooner or later that kindness of yours will have you breaking down, until youā€™re too overwhelmed with grief to be able to act. Thatā€™s not how I plan to live.
But the thing is, Teruko has already been proven right this chapter. Even beyond all the scuffles around the secrets, you have Nico, seemingly one of the most harmless people in the killing game, admitting to trying to kill Ace; and you also have David, who almost everyone trusted and viewed as a sort of leader, being revealed as a liar and a manipulative asshole.
(Yes I know both of them are a bit more complex than that but thatā€™s not the point.)
In fact, Teruko was explicitly right about David too. Not to mention, someone killed Arei or J if youā€™re inclined to believe that, which wonā€™t exactly do wonders for trust in the group.
The point, as venus and accirax pointed out, is to show the audience how Terukoā€™s life usually is. Full of betrayal and misfortune. This is to set up the theme of fate and change that runs deeply through Terukoā€™s character, and that Iā€™m not gonna explain here.
And while you could say Teruko doubling down on not trusting anyone would be redundant, you have to consider the rest of the group as well. While they mostly held it together after the first trial with a few exceptions, Eden being the killer, combined with everything else that happened in the chapter, would cause way more damage to the whole groupā€™s sense of trust, leading to a very different atmosphere for chapter 3. So I donā€™t really think it would be redundant at all.
-What about the handwriting sample?: What about the handwriting sample? The note is in cursive, Eden writes her sample in print.
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Obviously it's gonna look different. If anything, the fact she specifically writes in print could be seen as her hiding her cursive handwriting, which looks suspicious to me.
-Why help piece together the note in the first place? And why would she fight back against the idea of Arei committing suicide?: Because she would presumably want to build a narrative that she and Arei were friends, to make people trust her more. I mean, it worked, since people immediately jumped on Arturo when they first heard the full story.
-And more! Again, read the full post for more details.
Soā€¦ now we circle back. Edenā€™s probably the killer, but what does that mean for the method?
A Method In Shambles
One of the main issues this brings to the method is Edenā€™s strength. Sheā€™s very weak, as has been established in both the most recent QnA and in the series itself (see: arm-wrestling scene, where Arei specifically excludes Eden for being weak). She wouldnā€™t be able to pull Arei + water jugs up with the pulley system herself.
ā€¦Or maybe she could? But it would be very tight, and I think weā€™re not supposed to pull out the physics and calculators to figure out it would only be the equivalent of lifting like thirty pounds as accirax implied in one line of this really good post. Point is, it doesnā€™t look like she could, which is more important imo.
Even then, it would also be really difficult for Eden to prop up the body like we see in the BDA.
Speaking of BDA, thatā€™s another issue. The BDA rule states it takes ā€œthree people who did not witness the murderā€ to see the body before the announcement plays. So how did it play after only Whit, Teruko and Eden had found it? Surely Eden as the killer would count as a witness with the method I established earlier.
But the biggest issue for Eden!Culprit are actually the fish. Because while Eden doesnā€™t have an alibi for the time of death, she does have an alibi for the time of the fishā€™s disappearance. Think about it: Nico fed them presumably at around 7:00 PM, since they later see David going down at around 7:30, and 7:00 is likely the time when communal dinner ended as itā€™s also the time Eden and Hu begun washing the dishes together. We know from Nico the fish were still all there by the time Edenā€™s alibi with Hu begins.
And that alibi lasts all the way until nighttime, when the relax room locks down for the night. And it doesnā€™t open again until after the murder was supposedly committed at 7:30 AM. So Eden couldnā€™t have taken it the morning after.
The fish in particular are an issue for Eden!Culprit, because while everything else is odd, this particular thing makes it impossible for Eden herself to have set up the crime scene as we see it. And unless Ace is lying for no good reason, Arei was still alive the night of the third day, so it likely wasnā€™t set up by anyone uninvolved in the murder.
In the end, although Eden feels like she should be the culprit, she couldnā€™t have done everything alone.
ā€¦
She couldnā€™t have done everythingā€¦ alone.
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:)
The Rise of the Accomplice
Eden is a very trusting, very sociable person. So if there are things in the crime scene she couldnā€™t have done alone, is it unbelievable to assume she may have had an accomplice?
Letā€™s ignore the ā€œwhoā€ for now and see if this idea holds up. The accomplice would be in charge of taking the fish out of the relax room during nighttime, a tactic to confuse the time of death and give Eden a fake alibi. They would also be in charge of overpowering Arei when she first arrived at the playground.
After pinning her down, wrapping her wrists with tape and possibly her legs too if needed (there were two pieces of tape in the trash, when strictly speaking you would only need one for the wrists. Arei has long socks, so marks wouldnā€™t be visible on her legs), the accomplice would also be in charge of lifting up Arei into the sky. The exact logistics of how the accomplice would go about this are a bit awkward (they would probably have to run quite fast to the spinny thing so Arei doesnā€™t get a chance to stand up and try something), but I donā€™t think itā€™s outright impossible.
Now, hereā€™s where the trick comes in. Since Eden was the one who likely planned the murder (she had been preparing since Night 2, after all), the goal would be to make her the blackened. Hereā€™s how I think that would be done.
The accomplice would hand off the spinny thing to Eden once Arei was high up enough, and Eden would be the one to let go off the carousel so Areiā€™s neck breaks. But how does it stop?
Well, you remember the second, shorter piece of rope, which I had originally said would be for the water jugs? Instead of that, they would use it as a stopper rope. The idea is to attach one end to the swing set near the spinny thing, but leave the other end by itself. Then, once Arei was high in the air, one of the two culprits (letā€™s say Eden) would tie the unused end to the spinny thing. That way, when they let Arei fall, the shorter rope would tense before she went all the way to the floor (you can make sure this happens by using a lot of the rope on the knot on the swing set), and stop the carousel abruptly mid fall. This is what would cause Areiā€™s neck to snap.
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This means the water jugs would need to be attached to Arei in some other way. Possibly by making the noose in such a way that you have rope to spare and you can put the jugs there?
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Looks a bit wonky, but I think it can work! Or, at least, Eden could conceivably think it would help, which is all thatā€™s technically necessary.
If youā€™re not convinced, there could also be a third, extremely short piece of rope being kept in Edenā€™s fanny pack which was used to put the jugs at Areiā€™s feet. I donā€™t quite like this answer too much, since it relies on evidence we donā€™t have (Russelā€™s Teapot and all that), but itā€™s there.
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Surprise! Alternative Method Bonanza!
So you remember how thebadjoe has a really good theory on the murder which is Eden!Solo? That means he has a different method for the murder mechanism itself, as Eden sort of canā€™t do my method herself.
And I am gonna steal it! Like a thief!
Essentially, if youā€™re not convinced by the hanging method, you can instead copy and paste joeā€™s method to my accomplice theory, with a few modifications.
Joeā€™s method takes my idea of a stopper rope, but instead of attaching one end to the swing set, itā€™s attached to Areiā€™s neck. The pulley system is instead used to pull up only the water jugs, the rope attached to their handles, which Eden should be able to do herself. The idea is that, after pulling the water jugs up and attaching the shorter rope to Areiā€™s neck, when you let them fall, if Areiā€™s neck is secured in place, when the stopper tenses, it will snap her neck.
Now, in his method that involves knocking out Arei with turpentine (long story) and securing her with tape, but with the accomplice idea, and since I donā€™t think Eden has turpentine, it may be better for the accomplice to just hold down Areiā€™s body themself. Though that runs into the issue of ā€œwhy put tape on her wrists thenā€, which isnā€™t a method with joeā€™s original method and rather an issue of translation to the accomplice idea.
Because of that, and because thereā€™s a particular thing Iā€™ll talk about in a moment, I think my method is still slightly more plausible for the accomplice idea, which is why I wonā€™t bring this up again, but I did want to point out that itā€™s technically a possibility.
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Any other changes? Yes, actually.
-You remember the starch on the ball of clothes? Well, joe suggested it may come from the enriched formula used in the relax room, as starch is often used to stimulate plant growth or something along those lines. Meaning the clothes spent a night inside the relax room. I agree with this, as I have no idea why starch would be there otherwise.
The question now is when the clothes spent the night. It canā€™t be Night 3, as Arei died before the relax room opened again at 8:00 AmM. So it would have to be in the second night. And where was Eden that night?
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Eden: I noticed you didnā€™t take any of your new clothes, so I was going to deliver them to you!
Ah, right. On the second floor. In the dress-up room. Totally not suspicious behavior.
Basically, I think Eden went to the second floor to put the clothes in the relax room and pick up the tape, but once nighttime begun, she realized Ace was still in the gym, and decided to wait it out so as to not be spotted in a suspicious place. Unfortunately for her, Ace was busy getting murdered by Nico, so she ended up getting caught by Teruko, and had to course correct.
But why would she need the ball of clothes? Couldnā€™t she have just grabbed, like, anything else to throw over the railing?
Wellā€¦ yeah, but. It may have been hard for her to find anything more convenient than the ball of clothes. Iā€™ve seen the roll of tape suggested, but the rope may not have been able to fit through the hole in the middle. Maybe yes, maybe no, depending on whatā€™s most convenient for your theory. Thatā€™s not sarcasm, itā€™s just that thereā€™s no good way of checking how big the hole is.
Throwing a ball of clothes would be a lot easier than throwing a lot of other things. Maybe itā€™s a bit weird, but I donā€™t find it completely unbelievable that Eden considered it the best option.
-To make the whole ordeal easier, it would be best to make sure the ā€œnooseā€ end of the longer rope dangles from the railing over the seesaw, closer to the entrance, so they donā€™t have to move Arei around too much. They could easily do this by just throwing the ball of clothes around a couple of times.
-The BDA is an issue, since the accomplice would also be a ā€œwitnessā€ and thus not count. But this can be solved quite simply. For one, there could be a loophole where if Eden just looks away when Areiā€™s neck breaks, then sheā€™s not a ā€œwitnessā€ and she counts. If that sounds too stupid, thereā€™s another answer. To make absolutely sure Eden would be counted as the blackened, the accomplice would leave the room entirely while Eden holds Arei up in the air. That way, the moment they enter again, they would see the corpse without being a ā€œwitnessā€ to the murder, and so they count. Add to the accomplice/Eden the view of Whit and Teruko, and you have the three you need for the BDA.
-Thatā€™s also my answer to why Eden shouts ā€œTeruko, wait!ā€ right before Teruko opens the door to the playground. Logically, she knew the BDA would play, which is why she didnā€™t act nervous when Teruko first offered to search in a group of three, but she second-guessed herself right before they got there. Iā€™m sure weā€™ve all had an experience like that before, where logically we know one thing will happen, but we still get nervous right before the thing happens because weā€™re worried it might go wrong.
-The Achilles Heel of this theory is the missing bowling glove from Areiā€™s left hand. I have exactly one explanation for it, and itā€™s kinda stupid. Essentially, I believe the accomplice took the glove for themselves, to reveal it during the trial if people start accusing Eden. The idea would be that showing people that glove should hopefully get them to vote for the accomplice without thinking about it too much, but since Eden is the real blackened, they would lose and Eden would escape.
Imagine a big reveal, with a little animation like Davidā€™s ā€œguilty as chargedā€, where the accomplice takes out the glove from their pocket and they say ā€œI killed Areiā€ or something. Thatā€™s kinda what Iā€™m envisioning.
Soā€¦ thatā€™s basically the method. And now, we have to answer the age old question:
but, like, why though
And this, this is the question that makes me believe the accomplice idea more than any other. Because it gives a proper reason for why the method had to be so complicated.
See, there is one fundamental contradiction in the evidence we see, one which has to be solved in some way. Areiā€™s wrists were bound, but given the rest of the evidence, there was a mechanism involved in her murder.
Why is that an issue? Because if you bind her wrists, then there is no reason not to just kill her in a much easier, simpler way. And thereā€™s no reason to bind her wrists after killing her, either. So why would the killer go through all this trouble?
demodraws0606 (not sure theyā€™d want to be tagged) suggested in this post, under Levi!Culprit, that maybe Levi was trying to frame Eden, and to do that, he had to make sure the BDA wouldnā€™t rule her out. And while thatā€™s a really good post and a pretty interesting idea, the main issue with the plan of framing Eden in general are the fish. Levi maybe wouldnā€™t know for sure whether or not Eden would have an alibi, but just in case, it would be much safer to just fill the water jugs with water from a sink or something. The fish could only ever exclude Eden, never incriminate her.
Joeā€™s method assumes Eden simply used a complex method to distance herself from the murder in a way. Working on mechanisms would calm her as a clockmaker, so she feels more comfortable with murder if she can do it with a mechanism. This is cool, and while I personally think itā€™s a bit underwhelming, it could work. But it only works if Eden!Solo works, and then you have to explain the fish again. Joe says David brought them there, but, I donā€™t agree. Doesnā€™t mean itā€™s wrong, obviously, just that I personally donā€™t see it given what we have. I think David genuinely thinks Arei committed suicide because of him.
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David: Of course. Of course this would happen.
So, yeah.
And because the why is so hard to explain, I think itā€™s important to explain it. And wouldnā€™t you guess it, my method does explain it.
It goes back to the origin of the accomplice idea. Eden couldnā€™t have done this on her own.
Letā€™s be clear; an accomplice is a huge leap in logic. One that I feel comfortable making given everything, but one which would take the characters a while to figure out. One which they may reject in principle. Thereā€™s no benefit for an accomplice after all, right?
Iā€™ll address that in a moment, but letā€™s get back to the main point. Eden couldnā€™t have done this on her own, and because of that, the method in itself is an alibi for her.
Think about it. Because she is clearly not strong enough to lift Arei up into the air (or at least, thatā€™s what it looks like), what happens if someone starts pointing fingers at Eden? Well, all she has to do to absolve herself is insist they speak about the method, and guide them in the general direction of the right answer. Once they start thinking the murderer would need to be strong enough to pull Arei + water jugs up into the air, they would instantly dismiss Eden as a possibility, until the idea of an accomplice is revisited.
This is, by the way, why I think the Hanging Method works better than the Neck Stopper Method under Accomplice Theory-
(ok the nomenclature is starting to get out of hand)
-, because it requires more strength to use the pulley.
But the point is the same. This method actually provides an explanation to why a mechanism was necessary when Areiā€™s wrists were bound. It was to give Eden a defense.
And thatā€™s also where the fish come in. Because the most straightforward explanation for why the fish would be there would be that the killer would want to confuse the time of death. But why? The time the fish were taken is the same time frame the characters currently believe the murder happened at, so the alibis donā€™t change. If the killer wanted to give themselves an alibi for the supposed time of death, they would need to have an alibi for the time the fish were taken. But if they have an alibi for the time the fish were taken, they couldnā€™t have taken the fish!
Provided Nico is telling the truth about the fish, but I really donā€™t see why theyā€™d be lying. I really doubt theyā€™re the killer.
Thus, unless the fish somehow got there through a third party entirely (which I find unlikely, as Veronika had an alibi and no one else would really want to hide that they found a dead body for a night), itā€™s very possible the accomplice brought the fish to give the real killer an alibi.
So, thatā€™s the big reason I have for believing there was an accomplice. Itā€™s the best explanation for the fish and the motivation behind the creation of a mechanism I can find, but of course, thatā€™s my opinion. Thereā€™s a bit more to it actually, but before we get there, we have to ask:
OMG, Who Did This?!
What we know about the accomplice for now is that they must not have an alibi for the time the fish were taken. This leaves us with Ace, Nico, Rose, Arei, Levi, and David. We can also add Hu to the list, as her only alibi is Eden, and, well.
Out of hand, I'm gonna eliminate Nico, Ace and David, as I really don't think their characters fit the accomplice idea at all, I hope you can forgive me.
I gave Arei a fair bit of thought, since narratively I could see it working, but I just donā€™t think itā€™s physically possible. One of the things which got me to believe there was an accomplice was that it would be really difficult for Eden to string up Areiā€™s corpse herself, and Arei wouldnā€™t be able to help with that on account of being dead.
So, then there three.
Was it Rose?
An interesting possibility. She was the first one to suggest looking in the trash, which helps Eden build the narrative she and Arei were friends, and she was one of the people who suggested voting for David on Ep 11, claiming she didnā€™t want the trial to go on any longer. However, thatā€™s pretty circumstantial, and I donā€™t think thereā€™s much else connecting her to the crime. I also donā€™t know how much stronger she is than Eden, but thatā€™s neither here nor there. Overall, a possible candidate, but not extremely plausible.
Was it Hu?
Hey, have you ever thought about how weird it was that Hu and Eden never spoke during the conversation Teruko, Charles, Whit and David had right before David went to the relax room on night three? They were supposed to be cleaning up after dinner at that point, according to their alibi, so what gives?
Well, frankly, I just think they werenā€™t in the kitchen, but probably just cleaning in the cafeteria itself. But maybe Hu and Eden are lying!
Hu could work as an accomplice, given her caring nature and the fact she probably has the ā€œhopeless childā€ secret, meaning sheā€™s attempted suicide. Thus, she may be willing to throw away her life for Edenā€™s, which is the biggest obstacle for the accomplice idea.
Her secret quote could allude to it. ā€œI want to pay for what Iā€™ve done. But even then, I still want to live.ā€ The issue there isā€¦ well, that could be referring to quite literally anything else, so.
I consider Hu the second likeliest candidate for accomplice because of all that, butā€¦ frankly, I still donā€™t see it. The way she acts during the trial doesnā€™t suggest sheā€™s doing anything of the sort, and there are reasons she wouldnā€™t want anyone to get away with murder. Mainly everyone elseā€™s lives. Also, she has even less arm strength than Rose, seeing as she lost at arm wrestling with her.
Thereā€™s probably more discussion to be had regarding Hu as an accomplice, but frankly, I donā€™t think itā€™s necessary for now. Because there is one person who fits the bill much better than Hu, and has much deeper connections to both Eden and the murder.
You read the title of the post. You know who I think the accomplice is. Letā€™s go.
Yeah, itā€™s Levi
(Howā€™s that for a callback?)
Levi is probably the most widely believed culprit theory, and for good reason. He acts very suspiciously all throughout the investigation and the trial. He is the first to call up MonoTV to start voting after Davidā€™s reveal, he throws accusations quite liberally, his profile states he dislikes unpredictable people like Arei, the ball of clothes and even the missing glove being involved connects him to the method through his talentā€¦
The main thing is the secret motive. Not only did Levi receive Areiā€™s, without the context Arei gave David and Teruko in the playground, it is widely speculated that Arei received Leviā€™s secret through sheer process of elimination. Wonā€™t get into it here, many people have already talked about it, so just trust me bro.
Not to mention the whole ā€œgood personā€ fiasco. Essentially, Ch 2 has the title ā€œAll That Glittersā€, with the secret title ā€œA Good Personā€. Clearly, put together you get ā€œNot All That Glitters Is Goldā€ -> ā€œNot All That Glitters Is A Good Person.ā€
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And as far as I can tell, there are only a few people who have been referred to using the specific words ā€œgood personā€ in this chapter:
-Teruko: She dissuades Whit from calling her a good person because sheā€™ll feel bad when sheā€™s not.
-David: Hu calls him a good person right before his Ep 11 heel turn.
EDIT: I misremebered, the line is actually "good friend." Ah, oops.
-Eden: Levi calls her a good person in the beginning of the chapter.
-Arei: Says she will prove to Eden she can be a good person.
-Levi: Eden calls him a good person at the beginning of the chapter.
Hopefully I didnā€™t miss any.
Youā€™ll notice the common thread is plot relevance in CH 2. Terukoā€™s the protag, David pushed the plot forward by getting people to reveal their secrets and also had his heel turn (EDIT: But he wasn't called a good person so), Eden has been a huge part of the chapter and she might be the killer, and Arei is the victim.
The outlier is Levi, which would suggest heā€™ll come to be plot relevant soon enough. I donā€™t think just getting his secret revealed would be enough to put him up there in importance with the most influential people in the entire chapter, so heā€™s probably heavily involved in the murder. And since I donā€™t think heā€™s the killer, accomplice it is, baby.
There is even a particular moment we can point to as the moment Levi may have given up on the group as a whole.
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Levi: Why do I even bother?
Right after Ace refuses his help after almost getting murdered. And Edenā€™s right there.
Finally, his secret quote is ā€œI always believed that a person is defined by their actions alone. But maybe thatā€™s just a poor excuse for my heartlessness.ā€ Thatā€™s interesting, because in this context, it could be he never believed Arei wanted to change, as her previous actions contradicted the words she said to Eden. But maybe thatā€™s a poor excuse for his heartlessness, as Arei did want to change.
Thereā€™s more I could bring up, like the fun fact Leviā€™s profile states he likes suckers (candy) and Edenā€™s states she likes sweet things (thatā€™s insanely circumstantial and confirmation bias-y, but sure Iā€™ll bring it up), but I think venus and accirax may be wanting to make a narrative defense of the Levi!Accomplice theory, so Iā€™ll leave it to them, since theyā€™ll probably do better than I could. Lord knows they did better on Eden than me.
Not gonna lie Iā€™m kinda making this so they can just link back here instead of the insanity train the original thread was-
Final Issues
No theory is perfect, and this one isnā€™t an exception. While I think the theory mostly covers all the evidence in the scene quite satisfactorily, the explanations for the BDA, the glove and the shape of the scuffed floor (but how do you explain that shape) are a bit shaky. Thereā€™s also a few awkward moments of timing and characterā€™s actions, like the whole Ace almost-murder situation being sorta awkward with Edenā€™s presence in the second floor, and in particular that Arei apparently spent almost an entire day inside her room. Thatā€™s sorta gonna be an issue for everyone unless you believe Ace is lying about the day her conversation with David happened, whichā€¦ okay, isnā€™t as insane as it sounds, read joeā€™s theory, but I still consider a bigger leap than simply assuming Arei took a real long nap.
And of course, as much as Iā€™ve ignored it, itā€™s still insanely risky for Eden to work with an accomplice, and we have to assume Levi was willing to die and get everyone else killed just to get Eden out of there. Iā€™ll try my best to explain how I think that could happen in the Closing Argument.
However, itā€™s all in all, in my opinion, not too bad. Everything is pretty physically plausible, there are narrative justifications for practically everything, and the few inconsistencies arenā€™t too large or obnoxious for me to consider damning. Iā€™m still open to other theories, of course, but for now, this is the thing I believe.
-
So, now that weā€™ve established how I arrived at my conclusions, itā€™s time for what everyoneā€™s been waiting for!
Closing Argument
Keep in mind character motivations and especially unseen dialogue could vary quite a lot. The main thing to take away is the actual method, everything else is sorta flavor text. Thisā€¦ really is a lot longer than it has any right to be. I kinda got carried away trying to show how I think the characters would act. Sorry.
Iā€™ll mark with ā€œ>ā€ the parts which are mostly just for spice, ā€œ~ā€ the actually important parts, and just for fun Iā€™ll add predictions to how the end of the trial will go with ā€œ+ā€.
I am extremely sorry if I mischaracterize anyone. Iā€™m not good at writing dialogue, but I think itā€™s worth trying to give a better impression of whatā€™s going on in my head.
(Days start counting after the start of CH 2)
Second Day, Afternoon
~Eden wanted to return home.
>Of course she did! Everyone did, in the killing game. She kept trying to look for ways to end it completely, and while she hadnā€™t found a good solution yet, sheā€™d surely find it soon enough!
>But for now, they had to keep strong! And fight against the motive! David had suggested talking to the people whose secrets theyā€™d all received so they could share it and ease tensions, and Eden thought it was a great idea! She went up to Arturo, and told him what sheā€™d received about him.
>ā€¦
>She almost died.
>That was the only thing running through her mind as Arei got Arturo away. Eden had almost died, and if it werenā€™t for Arei, she most likely would have. A small desperation began to grow in her heart, longing to get out, get out, get out-
>Arei tried to talk to her, apologize for the things sheā€™d said in the playgroundā€¦ but Eden couldnā€™t believe her.
>Arei had shouted in her face that Minā€™s death was her fault. Even if it was, to say it like thatā€¦ Eden wanted to cry just thinking about the things Arei had said. Eden may have been nice, but she wasnā€™t naive. Someone like that could never be a good person.
>Still, a part of Eden wanted to give Arei the benefit of the doubt. So, she hugged her, told her how much it meant, and went on her merry way.
>But those doubts had firmly planted themselves in Edenā€™s mind. What if Arei was just manipulating her? What if Arturo attacked her again? Would someone as weak as her even be able to stand up to the killing game, when she couldnā€™t stand up against some bullies?
>Slowly, the gears in her mind started to turn. An idea was brewing, an idea which scared Eden to even think about, but one she was desperate enough to entertain.
>There was a way for her to end the killing game. By winning it.
>I mean what? No! Eden would never kill anyone! ā€¦
>But if she were to, hypothetically speaking, how would she go about it?
>By the second night, she didnā€™t know all the details, but she was going on autopilot, her body moving practically without her thinking. Just like she used to get lost in her work while making clocks, she was now beginning to get lost in the preparations for a murder.
>An accomplice, she would need an accomplice, if she wanted to do it. Probably something with the rope in the storage room, she was good with mechanisms. Maybe the railings on the playground, a pulley systemā€¦ she needed a way to get the rope up there, and a way to secure the grip of her accomplice on the carousel.
>Hypothetically, of course.
Second Day, Almost Nighttime - Nighttime
~She went to the second floor, grabbed some of Huā€™s and Terukoā€™s old clothes, and put them in the relaxation room to cover them in starch. She wanted to make a ball of clothes, it was the best way to get the rope over the railings.
~She also needed tape from the gym, the roll people used to replace the grippy tape on the pull-up bar when it got too sweaty.
~Slight issue: nighttime had begun, and there were still a few noises in the gym. Eden didnā€™t want to be caught doing anything too suspicious, so she decided to wait out until the noises stopped.
~Slightly bigger issue: Teruko arrived at the second floor, spotted her, and now Eden needed a cover story. She just told her she was looking for Huā€™s and Terukoā€™s new clothes, sure, that works.
>Eden told Teruko her and Arei had made up, and asked if she wanted to pry. In retrospect, she wasnā€™t sure why sheā€™d done that. If Teruko had heard the story of what Arei had said, she would just tell Eden what the uglier parts of her psyche were already telling her. That Arei was lying, trying to manipulate her. But maybe she wanted the confirmation, to justify to herself why she was thinking the thoughts which were running through her head.
(Itā€™s almost tragic, really. If only Teruko had pried, maybe Eden would have learnt of Areiā€™s breakdown, and everything would have ended there)
~The two decided to head back to the first floor, and Eden figured she would just take the tape tomorrow-
~Oh shit, Ace got murdered.
>Seeing that convinced Eden. The killing game was too dangerous, when even the seemingly harmless Nico was able to do something so brutal to one of the strongest participants physically speaking. She had to get out, and now. She couldnā€™t disappoint her family, her friends, and her.
>So, she resolved to do something about it right after-
>Oh, hey, Ace wasnā€™t dead! That wasā€¦ good. Even if he knocked Eden down to the floor when he woke.
~ā€¦ And while sheā€™s on the floor, she may as well pick up the tape she had come to retrieve.
~[Cue Ace running to kill Nico scene]
>Wow. Tensions wereā€¦ really high. Ace had collapsed, and even then Teruko had just walked away as if nothing had happened.
>But Eden was more curious about something Levi had said. ā€œWhy do I even bother?ā€ What had he meant by that? She decided to speak with him.
>ā€¦
>Levi had lost all hope.
>There was just no way to reason with the people of the killing game. All of them were erratic, nonsensical, unpredictable people. And he loathed unpredictability in people.
>None of them wanted to accept help when it was offered. None of them knew what the hell to do about anything, but refused to just be nice and patient with each other. Practically speaking, pretty much the only normal person around was-
>Oh, Eden wanted to talk to him. Sure, he could do that.
>Eden was checking in after the whole Ace fiasco. How nice of her.
>But after chatting for a while, Eden directed the conversation towards an encounter sheā€™d had with Arei. She explained what the bowler had told her, looking for advice. She asked if Levi would believe Arei, seeking confirmation on whether or not she really could be trying to get better. And Levi...
>Levi was pissed.
>Because it was such an obvious lie. Such a horrendous attempt of manipulation. To try and take advantage of someone as nice as Eden, truly despicable.
>Eden seemed taken aback at his intensity, asking why he was so certain. Levi debated internally for a moment, before deciding Eden deserved the whole truth.
>"Blackmail, rumors, lying, stealing, slander. You did everything you could to ruin your sisters' lives." That was Arei's secret, the one Levi received.
>Eden looked horrified when Levi told her, and it seemed she agreed with what Levi was already thinking. After all, they both loved their family a lot, even if Levi had been disowned. Someone like Arei, who would do something so horrible to their own family, couldn't possibly be a good person. If Arei did all that to her own sisters, who's to say she wouldn't do the same to Eden?
(In retrospect, Levi would always regret jumping to conclusions. After it was all over, he would try to explain. ā€œI always believed that a person is defined by their actions alone. But maybe thatā€™s just a poor excuse for my heartlessness.ā€)
>And in all that anger, and hopelesness, and desperation... Eden revealed an idea. A very strange, almost outlandish idea. To help her out of the killing game.
>Levi wasn't a fool. He had seen how the group had handled the first trial. Eventually, someone was going to get away with murder, and that would be how the killing game would end. It was predestined.
>And if someone was going to win, it may as well be the kindest person in the group.
~He agreed.
Third Day, Noon
>Everyone was yelling, and Arei's stomach was twisting.
>Nico had tried to murder Ace. They hadn't outright admitted it, but Levi's and Ace's accounts were enough to get her to believe it.
>But she wasn't thinking so much about the incident itself, as much as she was thinking about what had caused it. The secrets. David's plan was backfiring massively...
>Except, maybe it wasn't. As she saw everyone arguing, the secret she had seen Whit receive flashed in her mind. David's secret. "You exist to manipulate others. Everyone else exists to be taken advantage of."
>Was he really that evil? Was he really trying to instigate a murder? Was anything he had ever said even true?
>Had he lied to her, too?
>...
>She didn't feel like speaking much that day. She'd rather go to her room, and contemplate. Maybe sleep for a while. Maybe lie in her bed, and maybe cry a bit.
>She didn't leave her room until it was time for dinner.
Third Day, Afternoon
>Ace was fucking pissed.
>Of course he was, he'd almost been murdered! By Nico of all fucking people! And now he couldn't even look the fucking gym without getting nervous, like the motherfucker would show up any time and finish the job!
>But it's not like that was gonna stop him from exercising. He wasn't a fucking coward, he wasn't afraid of Nico. (Or at least, he told himself that). So he'd train anyways! He'd raced on horses he was terrified of his whole life, a little exercise was nothing!
>Still, to his chagrin, he couldn't help but feel nervous whenever he heard any noises in the rest of the floor. Even the very light noise of the elevator felt like thunder in his ears. So when someone came down and started speaking, Ace couldn't help but overhear.
>Yet, the conversation was interesting. Arei was saying David had lied about his secret? This was worth hearing.
>Ace snuck in closer and listened in. Apparently David's secret was that he was a manipulative bastard, the dick. He had gone quiet when he heard that, too, so it must have been true.
>"David! Say something!"
>David went quiet for a bit, and then... Ace got bored.
>So what? David was an asshole, big deal. Breaking news, everyone! Every single participant in the killing game sucks dick and balls! Who could have seen that coming?! It wasn't anything Ace didn't already know. So he left. He didn't really feel like listening to David try to lie his way out of that. He just went back to the gym and stopped paying attention.
>Meanwhile, the conversation went on.
[THE FOLLOWING WAS WRITTEN MOSTLY FOR FUN. I HAVE NO WAY OF KNOWING HOW THIS CONVERSATION ACTUALLY WENT]
CW FOR AGGRESSIVE CONFRONTATION
>David was fucked.
>"I... I don't know what to say to that" David managed, covering his eyes with his hand. "It's... well... How do I put this?"
>"Just tell me, please. Did you lie to me?"
>"..." David sighed. A small, sad chuckle rose from his chest. "Yes. I'm sorry"
>"..."
>"I apologize for the false hope, Arei, but... people can't change" David continued. His head was firing off alarm bells, years of deception warning him not to continue, but he ignored them. "I have seen so many try. I have seen so many fail. In the end, there's no avoiding it. If you could improve yourself to be a better person, all that means is that you were a better person to begin with..."
>Arei fought back tears. "You're wrong"
>David had to stop himself from laughing in her face, but he couldn't help a sharp exhale. He would probably stop there, but... he had lied for so long, he almost wanted to speak what he actually believed for once. "No, I'm not. I'm the Ultimate Inspirational Speaker, Arei. If people could change, I would be the first to see it"
>"That's not- You can't be serious. Just because you haven't seen it, doesn't mean it can't happen!" Arei snapped.
>"Is that so?" David raised his voice, and glared at Arei. He smiled nervously. "Then tell me, Arei. Do you think I can change? That I can become better? Look at what I've done. I've lied for years, and now Ace has a permanent scar on his neck from the murder I almost caused!" He put a hand to his chest. He shouldn't be doing this, he shouldn't, but, but- "Do you really think people like me, like us, can ever be good?! If you do, then you're a bigger idiot than I thought"
>He didn't mean that. He didn't mean that. He didn't mean that. Why was he saying it?
>Arei snarled at him, her face growing red in anger. "You...." She took a breath, and her gaze grew defiant. "I'll prove you wrong. You're the idiot here. I will become good. I promised Eden I-"
>"Well, Xander promised he'd be my friend, and look where he is now!" he almost shouted. Why was he even thinking of him now? "Don't you see it? You're lying to yourself. That's the only thing to come from my speeches. Lies. And now you're repeating a degraded version, like it's gonna be any more true just because it's coming from your mouth!" He needed to stop. He- "Are you that arrogant, or did your sisters cause you permanent brain damage?!" What the fuck was he doing?!
>"..." Arei looked horrified, and angry.
>"You don't even believe it yourself, you hypochrite!" Stop! He smirked even wider. "Otherwise, why don't you go talk to your sisters, and get them to change?" She looked so sad, why was David doing this? He had to- He couldn't- It felt good to let it out- He felt horrible- Stop- He laughed. "Oh, right! You can't! Because you're a monster and destroyed their lives! And you, won't, change"
>"You-!" Arei shouted, and rushed forward to push him. Her heart clearly wasn't in it, but David retaliated and pushed her back.
>"Out of my way!" he snarled, and began walking out of the room. He couldn't- he wasn't thinking straight, he needed- he needed air, he needed out. Arei almost slipped into the pond, or maybe she did? David couln't tell anymore. His mind was a fucking mess and his only coherent thoughts were screaming at him to leave.
>Meanwhile, Arei was left alone, and hurt. She shouldnā€™t listen to an asshole like David, she knew that, but, but stillā€¦
>She didnā€™t have much of an appetite anymore. Maybe sheā€™d just go back to bed.
CW OVER
~Later, Levi would arrive at the relaxation room to fill up two water jugs, making sure to get the fish. At the same time, Eden was discussing ways to end the killing game with Hu, securing an alibi for the time of the fishā€™s disappearance.
Third Day, Nighttime
~Levi and Eden met back up at the playground, and the preparations began. The materials they were working with included two pieces of rope (one longer, one shorter), the ball of sticky clothes Eden had prepared the night before, the tape Eden had taken from the gym, and the water jugs with the water and fish Levi had gathered.
~First step, with the tape from the gym, they covered the bars of the carousel, to have a better grip when they used the mechanism.
~Then, they grabbed the longer rope and put part of it through a few of the handlebars of the carousel, before tying one end to one of the handlebars.
~After that, they tied the other end to the ball of clothes, and Levi used his strength to throw it up above the railings. In doing so, he accidentally hit one of the lights with the clothes, displacing the lightbulb and causing it to flicker. Once it fell, he also threw it up to the railing in the middle, so the unused end of the longer rope would end up around where the seesaw was.
~Meanwhile, Eden tied one end of the shorter rope to the swing set near the carousel, leaving the other end unused for now.
~After removing the ball of clothes, they fashioned the untied end of the longer rope into an odd-looking ā€œdouble nooseā€, with one of the nooses, the one closer to the end of the rope, tied around the handles of the water jugs.
~With all the preparations in place, they took the ball of clothes to the dress-up room, and Levi went to sleep. Eden wrote the note Arei would receive, telling her to meet in the playground at 7:30. Then she went to sleep as well.
Fourth Day, Morning
>Arturo was a fucking asshole, Arei decided from the moment she saw the note.
~Obviously Arei followed it, because she was trying to be friends with Eden.
>And as suspicious as the note was, there was no way Eden would betray her, right? If she didā€¦
>ā€¦
>Well, Arei didnā€™t really want to think about it.
>She arrived at the playground, andā€¦ why was there so much rope around? Eden was standing near it, contemplatingā€¦ a noose?
>Oh god.
>Arei didnā€™t even think. She rushed in and tried to stop Eden from doing-
~Levi, who had been hidden besides the door, attacked. He ambushed Arei from behind, and used his weight to pin her to the floor. Arei screamed and struggled, scuffing the floor around her, but she obviously wasnā€™t able to do anything to fight off Levi.
[Oh great more dialogue]
CW for emotional confrontation, feelings of betrayal and suicidal ideation.
>ā€What the fuck are you doing?! Eden, get him off me!ā€
>Eden looked downcast, her expression somber. She was evidently lost in thought. ā€œIā€™m sorry it has to be this wayā€
>Arei didnā€™t get it.
~Levi grabbed Areiā€™s hands, and roughly pulled out her glove to better get the tape around her wrists. This was to make sure she didnā€™t struggle too much after the process began.
>ā€Hey! Eden! Whatā€™s going on?! I thought we were friends!ā€
>ā€As if. Weā€™re not that naiveā€ Levi spat from behind her, and she could practically feel that murderous edge he always used when threatening Ace.
>ā€Huh?! What are you talking about, you-?!ā€
>ā€Iā€™m sorry, Arei. I just canā€™t believe youā€ Eden spoke softly, fidgeting with her hands. She grabbed the noose, which weirdly had- wait. ā€œI know youā€™re lying to me. You donā€™t have to keep pretending you like meā€
>ā€¦
>Areiā€™s entire world crumbled in that moment.
>ā€H-Huh?! Wait, I- I never lied to you! I want- I wanted to be friends-!ā€
>ā€Donā€™t lieā€ Levi snarled. ā€œWe know what your secret is. What youā€™ve done to your sisters. I canā€™t believe you. You know, actions define people, and you have been nothing but terrible your whole lifeā€
>Eden bent down to put the noose around Areiā€™s neck. Because of course, of course it was a fucking noose. Eden hesitated, however.
>ā€Donā€™t fall for her crocodile tears, Edenā€ Levi warned. Oh, Arei was crying? News to her.
>ā€R-Rightā€ Eden said, putting the noose around Areiā€™s neck. Eden then positioned herself to pin Arei down herself as Levi stepped off and went towards the carousel.
>ā€Eden, pleaseā€¦ please donā€™t listen to him! Donā€™t be scared of him! Iā€™ll beat him up for you, just-!ā€
>ā€Iā€™m not- Iā€™m not scared of Leviā€ Eden frowned.
>ā€But- But, heā€™s a murderer without remorse!ā€ Levi stopped in his tracks. ā€œThatā€™s his secret, Eden! I received it! Do you really want to help someone like that?!ā€
>Eden seemed to hesitate for a moment, but shook her head, and looked at Arei with glassy eyes, smiling nervously. ā€œI meanā€¦ I- I canā€™t really judge him for that. Iā€¦ I was the one who came up with this idea, you knowā€
>ā€¦
>Huh.
>So there really was no point, then.
>David didnā€™t believe in her. Eden didnā€™t believe in her. Fucking Eden. And now, even the nicest person in the entire killing game had decided Arei deserved to die.
>ā€¦
>Arei stopped struggling after that.
CW OVER, mostly. Thereā€™s still references to suicide after this point.
(God I really hope Iā€™m not horrendously mischaracterizing these people)
~Levi begun to spin the carousel, which worked as a pulley that started dragging Arei up. As he spun it, he likely had to adjust it slightly so it wouldnā€™t slide off the wrong way, hence why he needed to be able to better grip all the handlebars instead of putting tape on just one. [I donā€™t know if that made sense]
~As the rope started pulling up, Eden stepped aside and ran over to the carousel.
~Levi stopped spinning it once Arei was high enough, and Eden attached the unused end of the shorter rope to the carousel.
~Eden grabbed hold of the carousel, and Levi ran out of the room.
~Now, neither of them had thought of asking MonoTV how to determine the blackened in the case of an accomplice being in play, so they took all the steps necessary to make sure Eden would be the blackened.
~She was the one to put the rope around Areiā€™s neck, she had been the one to come up with the murder plan, and she was the last person holding her up. Levi running out of the room was extra insurance: how could he be the blackened if he wasnā€™t even a witness to the crime? However, the final trick would ensure Eden would get the title of blackened.
~Eden let go of the carousel, and gravity made it spin as Arei fell. It spun for only a little bit, however, as the shorter rope soon fully tensed, and stopped the carousel in its tracks. Because of the height Arei fell, as well as the extra weight from the water jugs, her neck snapped in the moment the shorter rope tensed. At the same time, the handles from the water jugs snapped, and they fell to the floor.
~With this, it could be argued the act which caused Areiā€™s death was the letting go of the carousel, for which Levi wasnā€™t even present, meaning Eden was indubitably the blackened.
~And when it was all said and done, there was one fact which stood. Because of the strength the mechanism had required, Eden could not have possibly done it all alone. Unless the class somehow figured out she had an accomplice, just the strength necessary for the act would rule her out, give her an alibi. That is the reason behind the complexity of the murder.
~After that, Levi came into the room, fulfilling another nice benefit. Because he hadnā€™t technically witnessed the murder, he counted as a ā€œbody discovererā€ for BDA purposes.
~The last step was setting up the scene as we saw it. The fish they spread around would confuse the time of death and give Eden an alibi, and hanging Arei from the swing set would make people initially believe she had committed suicide. Levi had to be the one to do that, as Eden was too weak and short, adding an extra layer of misdirection.
~ā€What if I just take her glove?ā€ Levi asked.
>ā€Eh?ā€
>ā€I could take her glove, and then if someone spots me with it, theyā€™ll vote me out and youā€™ll winā€ Levi explained.
>ā€Thatā€™sā€¦ kinda silly, isnā€™t it?ā€
>ā€ā€¦ā€
>ā€ā€¦ā€
>ā€ā€¦ā€
>ā€ā€¦ Okay, sureā€
>ā€Very wellā€ Levi nodded sagely. Eden remained very confused.
~They took the longer tape and hid it under the carousel, then threw the tape which had been on Areiā€™s wrists and the jugs in the trash, as well as the note after ripping it up a bit.
~With that, they left to go see the supposed announcement of the motives.
Investigation
>Pretending to be surprised at Areiā€™s absence wasnā€™t as hard as Eden thought it would be. Just make a horrified face and say nothing, easy!
>Eden knew the BDA would still play if just Whit and Teruko discovered the body, which is why she wasnā€™t nervous when Teruko first asked her and Whit to go search for Arei together. Still, she second guessed herself just as Teruko swung the door open, because she would be in big trouble if the BDA didnā€™t play. Thankfully for her, it did, as Levi had already ā€œdiscoveredā€ it before. Honestly, it was pretty good luck (and bad luck on Terukoā€™s part) that Eden got to be part of the ā€œdiscovery group.ā€
>On the side, David looks at how the body was positioned, and instantly knew what had happened. ā€œOf course. Of course this would happenā€ he muttered. Arei killed herself because of him. What a monster he was.
~After pretending to be sad about Areiā€™s death for a moment, Eden offered to investigate with ā€œbraincell haverā€ Teruko, but got shut down. So instead, she joined Rose and Whit as they put together the note in the trash, to make sure they got it right. It was an important part of the plan, after all.
>Levi just went to look at the secrets because he didnā€™t really have to do anything specific.
Trial
>When people begun discussing the possibility of Arei helping her killer, Levi thought it would be a good way to misdirect the cast, so he started pushing the idea. Though with the slight freudian slip of saying Arei may have been her own ā€œaccomplice.ā€
>On the side, David held his tongue. Once MonoTV revealed the condition to be the blackened was that you were ā€œsomeone alive who we can blame for her deathā€, any doubt dissipated in his mind. He had caused her to commit suicide, he could be blamed for her death. And he was the blackened, then.
>However, Eden needed to go against the idea of suicide, because she was supposed to sell the idea they had been friends once the note was revealed.
>When that happened, they had agreed Levi would push on the idea that Eden was the killer a bit, to ā€œforceā€ her to explain the note she wanted to explain anyways.
>Levi also added heā€™d protect Eden no matter what, but Eden responds ā€œDonā€™t say stuff like that.ā€ To the others, that was because Eden was worried Levi would end up like Arei. To Eden and Levi, it was a subtle way of saying ā€˜shut up and donā€™t link us together!ā€™
~Eden explained the note, making sure to act like she was very distraught by the situation and genuinely believed Arei had wanted to change.
~She also provided a ā€œhandwriting sampleā€ to look more innocent, but she intentionally wrote it in print instead of cursive to separate it from the note. Somehow, no one noticed.
>Meanwhile, David was starting to break down. She really had been trying to change, but the naive idiot had believed in David. And nothing good happens to those who believe in him.
>What a reprehensible killer indeed.
>But Davidā€™s breakdown was having an impact on Eden, who begun to think that maybe, just maybe, she had been wrong about Arei.
>She was in too deep, though. She needed to continue. She couldnā€™t turn back the clock now.
>When David is accused of everything, he decides he might as well enjoy the last of his life, of his killing game. He breaks down the same way he did when Arei confronted him, becoming insulting and dismissive to prevent any vulnerability from showing through. The words he said, he believed for the most part, but the smile on his face as he said them was perhaps his biggest lie yet.
>In other news, thatā€™s pretty convenient for the murder duo! If they can just get David voted out, thenā€¦
~But that wouldnā€™t happen. Not if Teruko and Charles had something to say about it.
Chapter 2, Part 2
[This is just for fun]
+Charles realized the trick of the time of death, and the cast decided to start speaking of the murder method.
+After a bit of discussion (where Eden was surprisingly helpful!), they realized the murder would require inordinate strength, and they start pointing the finger at Levi.
+The secrets are revealed then, as some have realized what most of the remaining ones were. David deduced Hu must have the ā€œhopeless childā€ secret, Teruko deduced Veronika must have the ā€œself-harmā€ secret, Veronika in turn figured Teruko must have the ā€œdead familyā€ secret (that wasnā€™t hers, but it still applied to her life, so they didnā€™t question it too much. David bit his tongue), andā€¦ well, they somehow realize the ā€œpoisonā€ secret must be Minā€™s.
+As Leviā€™s secret is narrowed down, he finally admits.
+He takes the glove from his pocket, and dramatically confesses: ā€œIā€¦ I killed Areiā€
+All going according to plan!
+The voting time is almost about to happen, but Veronika pipes in. She wants to talk about the Ace case for some reason, and while Teruko tries to deny her, the horror fanatic throws the lucksterā€™s own words against her. ā€œThe more cases we solve, the better weā€™ll be at solving them in the future!ā€
+Reluctantly, Nico starts speaking about what they did. It wasā€¦ an odd sequence, but it wasnā€™t too wild.
+Except, Rose pointed out something odd. What happened to the tape?
+Nico says it was still on the floor when they left. Rose says itā€™s impossible. Edenā€™s getting nervous.
+And Teruko goes dead quiet, as she runs the math again in her head.
+The lockdownā€¦ the lockdown meant no one should have been able to take the tape during nighttimeā€¦ MonoTV claimed it wasnā€™t the one to take itā€¦ and she knew neither Ace or herself had taken itā€¦ soā€¦ It must have been taken byā€¦
+ā€Teruko?ā€ someone asked, but she wasnā€™t listening. It was clear nowā€¦
+She couldnā€™t resist the maniacal laughter that escaped her, as the adrenaline of realizing how close theyā€™d gotten to dying (scratch that, she wouldnā€™t have died, but the others might have), and she realized she was right. She couldnā€™t trust anyone.
+The others looked at her in concern, but she just explained the simple truth.
+It was chaos. No one wanted to believe it. But the more they thought about it, more questions arose. Why would Levi make such a complex mechanism, when he could have just killed Arei in a much simpler way?
+Whit had an idea. He asked Levi which direction Arturo had ran after leaving the infirmary. And Levi answered wrong. He hadnā€™t listened on the conversation, then. It would be impossible for him to write the note. Charles further verified by asking Levi and Eden to spell ā€œresponsibleā€. Levi spelt it right, Eden spelt it wrong. ā€œResponsibelā€, the same misspelling as the note.
+There was a scrum debate, people went crazy, but in the end. They arrived at the answer, and voted for Eden.
+It was right.
+They asked for further clarification and Eden admitted everything which had led to her decision.
+ā€I feel terrible. Arei really wasā€¦ I should have believed her. But- But, at that point, when I finally realized the truth, it was too lateā€ Eden explained. ā€œI wish I hadnā€™t done it, I want to go backā€¦ but time only moves forward. You canā€™t go back, no matter how hard you tryā€
+She hugged Teruko one last time, pleading she wouldnā€™t close herself off even further. But Teruko wasnā€™t having it. She asked MonoTV she was using a MonoCredit to get Eden away from her.
+And MonoTV obliged, starting the execution right that moment. [Credit for the idea to venus and accirax]
~This was the truth. A tragic misunderstanding, a horrible mistake. Call it whatever you want, one thing remains the same. The blackened of the case, who committed the crime with the help of Levi Fontana, the Ultimate Personal Stylist, was none other than Eden Tobisa, the Ultimate Clockmaker!
ā€¦
And right before dying, Eden reveals the name of the girl she had kissed was Mai Akasaki-
Conclusion
Yeah, this was longer than it really had to be, but I had fun writing it. This will probably be the last post I make about this case, at least until CH 2 Part 2 comes out. Hope you enjoyed it! Thanks for reading, hope time only brings you good things! Take care!
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accirax Ā· 1 year ago
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A Brief and Highly Speculative DRDT Thought
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This damn character order. I don't get it. It vexes me.
Because, as far as I can tell, they aren't ordered in any particular way. It's not alphabetical first name order, alphabetical last name order, alphabetical talent order, death order, order of introduction, Class Trial seating order, gender order (like doing all the girls, all the boys, and then Nico), rainbow order of official colors... And, as far as I can tell, that remains true if you do any of the options in reverse, or if you remove Teruko.
I don't think they work if you remove Xander either, or even Charles too. I say that just because I think those three could be first as, like, a top billing sort of thing. At the start, I think you're meant to believe that (following standard Danganronpa protocol) Teruko is the protagonist, Xander is the support character, and Charles is the antagonist. As arguably the three most important characters, it would make sense to put them first. Of course, that's not exactly how their roles actually turned out, but that's what you want the audience to believe as a spoiler-free first watcher.
So, if it's not any of those things, what is it? I started thinking about what the most likely possibilities are.
#1: The Order is Completely Random
As in, DRDTdev took the finished cast, put all of the names (minus Teruko, and maybe Xander and Charles) into a randomizer, and this is how it turned out. That would be a good way to avoid giving us any hints as to the characters' development or stories. Honestly, fairly likely, but bear with me here.
#2: The Order is Something Story-Relevant We Haven't Learned Yet
And thus, once we get to Chapter 6 or whatever, we'd be like, "oh, so that's why they were put in that order." This could be something like "order in which characters were accepted into Hope's Peak" or "order in which characters met Mai." Potentially interesting, although such an open sandbox that trying to pin down what it means is basically as good as it being random.
#3: The Order is Order of Creation
This is the real "Brief and Highly Speculative Thought" the title promised. I think there's a chance that this order appears random to us because it's the order that the characters were developed in. We know from the July 31st Q&A that Arei was the subject of the "first ever drawing of DT," which could imply that she was one of the characters who was created/confirmed first. However, she's currently fifth, so, what about the characters before her?
Well, Teruko is the protagonist, so it would make sense if she was the first character DRDTdev created. She also has a lot of mysteries and secrets surrounding her, which, as the protagonist, are surely strongly interconnected with the main plot. Hell, it's even possible that the protagonist of altDRDT is Teruko's brother! Having brainrot about Teruko may have been what inspired altDRDT in the first place, which would mean that Teruko would have to exist for longer than altDRDT has. Why am I talking so much about Teruko. This is not a hard sell.
It might seem strange that your literal first death, the character with the least screen time, is the second one you create, but when it's a character as intriguing as Xander, it becomes less of a hurdle. The dramatic scene that occurs to bridge the silly times of pre-first death and the oh-shit entirety of post-first death is an important enough moment that I would believe it was conceptualized very early. It's a big tone-setting moment. Xander also seems to be pretty interconnected with Mai, as "Unnamed Student" once asked him to find something for her (it's uh... in that document somewhere). That implies big overarching plot relevance, which potentially implies early creation.
As stated above, Charles is meant to look like the antagonist archetype of DRDT, so it would make sense if he was developed third. Basically, "I have my protagonist and my support character, so who should my antagonist be?" Charles is alive for at least two Class Trials, and his fear of blood and bodies seems like something that would need to be planned around long in advance. He also has a lot of parallels to Teruko, which could be important to her development. Charles third doesn't seem like a stretch.
Ace fourth, however, feels like a bit more of a stretch. I still don't think it's impossible, though. Many people (including myself, more or less) believe that Ace will be a survivor. Being at the sixth Class Trial is reason enough to be important, but if Ace was designed to do something important at that Trial (god knows what), it could make sense if Ace was created early. Ace also has a number of important relationships-- Levi, Nico, and Hu, to name the most prominent. The fact that Ace is at the center of most of those conflicts, being the one inciting the main problem, makes me think it would have been much easier to plan out the daily life if he were in it from very early on.
And then, we're back to Arei. I wouldn't have guessed that our apparent second victim was developed as early as fifth place, but, that's canon, baby! I don't have to explain this one!
The characters being listed in order of creation would have a number of interesting implications on the roles that characters play. For instance, you would probably imagine that the mastermind would be amongst the characters you would develop first, right? If so, that would diminish the likelihood that characters such as Veronika, J, Whit, or Nico were the mastermind (that actually covers a lot of really popular options, damn). Conversely, it could implicate that characters like Ace, Rose, Hu, or Eden are more likely to be the mastermind.
From a writing standpoint, later characters may have also been created for the purpose of solving problems. Going back to Ace, let's say that (as Hu has already been developed 7th at this point), DRDTdev knows that Ace and Hu need to have a big conflict in Chapter 3 that, I don't know, leads to Hu being the blackened and Ace starting to regret his foul mouth or something. To solve that problem, let's create Nico, a character who Hu likes and Ace hates, who does something highly controversial. Hu defends this "Nico", Ace insists they're in the wrong, and the arguing causes Hu to snap. That's 1) a huge oversimplification of the character creation process and 2) wildly speculative about the future of DRDT's plot, but my point is to say that one character can be inspired by the needs of the plot and still be a cool and beloved character that perfectly fits in regardless.
(To be clear, I am of the firm belief that there are no losers/unimportant or underdeveloped characters in DRDT. That's part of what makes it so great!)
(And, when I referred to "loser" characters there, I am referring to my own writing, not anybody else's fangans.)
That's not to say that there aren't any issues with the concept that the characters are in development order, though. The one that most immediately jumped out to me was David being 12th. Like Charles, he also has a lot of parallels with Teruko, and his big reveal could be something that was in the cards from early on, like Xander's death. Honestly, though, I could seem him being a surprisingly late addition. If DRDTdev perhaps realized that Charles wasn't as antagonistic as he initially intended, he may have wanted a new character to become an antagonist in Chapter 2 to replace Charles. Or, once DRDTdev decided that Teruko wouldn't (outwardly) mourn Xander, he may have wanted a character that would to keep the idea of Xander as a good guy in the audience's minds. Maybe that's just me being delusional, though.
Min's 11th place creation is also kinda weird to me. On one hand, she is the Chapter 1 killer, so a character with a short lifetime and limited important character relationships could have been added closer to the end. Then again, if Xander (the victim) and Teruko and Charles (major baits) were created so early, it kinda feels like DRDTdev would have come up with the actual killer earlier too, right? Min also has connections to XF-Ture tech, which, if not that important to DRDT, certainly seems to be important to altDRDT. However, I guess those could have been "problems" too-- "who can I create that would kill Xander to save Teruko?" and "how can I incorporate XF-Ture tech into the story in a natural way?"
The inclusion of Bonus Episodes also adds some spice to the discussion. We don't technically know that the Chapter 2 victim and killer will get their own episodes once the chapter is over, although I think most people are assuming it at this point. Min, for example, could have also been conceptualized based on a need for an early bonus episode to drop some lore about American Hope's Peak. Thus, her talent of "Ultimate Student" could have been designed to lead to a conversation about the school in the future. The same could be true of some later killers and victims as well.
Also, going back to the "actual killer" bit, things may have also been confused if any characters were ever replaced. Maybe there was originally a different character intended to be the Chapter 1 killer. This hypothetical character could have been discarded entirely or moved somewhere else-- like how, in THH, the original Chapter 1 was Hifumi killing Hiro, but after the plans changed Hiro became a survivor, and Hifumi a third victim. It's another way to potentially explain the gap between first victim and first killer.
Anyways, in conclusion, I don't know if I really believe in this theory or not. I just thought it was interesting, and decided to serve it up to y'all as food for thought.
The creation and writing of DRDT is fascinating to me, so I'll have to ask you to bear with me as my theories get less concrete and relevant and more speculative and meta as the hiatus goes on. That's just the manner in which my brain is rotting at the moment. Are my discussions of reasons for character creation peeling back the layers of the Matrix, or am I just donning my tin foil hat and pretending to know more about writing than I do...? I guess only time will tell. Thanks for reading!
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Genre:Ā Fiction, Adult, High Fantasy
Rating:Ā 5 out of 5
Content Warning:Ā Violence, Death, Blood, Death of a parent, Suicide, Grief, War, Vomit, FatphobiaĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā 
Summary: At the elite Catenan Academy, a young fugitive uncovers layered mysteries and world-changing secrets in this new fantasy series by internationally bestselling author of The Licanius Trilogy, James Islington.
AUDI. VIDE. TACE.
The Catenan Republic ā€“ the Hierarchy ā€“ may rule the world now, but they do not know everything.
I tell them my name is Vis Telimus. I tell them I was orphaned after a tragic accident three years ago, and that good fortune alone has led to my acceptance into their most prestigious school. I tell them that once I graduate, I will gladly join the rest of civilised society in allowing my strength, my drive and my focus ā€“ what they call Will ā€“ to be leeched away and added to the power of those above me, as millions already do. As all must eventually do.
I tell them that I belong, and they believe me.
But the truth is that I have been sent to the Academy to find answers. To solve a murder. To search for an ancient weapon. To uncover secrets that may tear the Republic apart.
And that I will never, ever cede my Will to the empire that executed my family.
To survive, though, I will still have to rise through the Academyā€™s ranks. I will have to smile, and make friends, and pretend to be one of them andĀ win.Ā Because if I cannot, then those who want to control me, who know my real name, will no longer have any use for me.
And if the Hierarchy finds out who I truly am, they will kill me.
*Opinions*
This was definitely influenced by social media when EVERYONE I saw was talking about how good this book was. Now, I have been burned by online recommendations before so I gave it some time, but when a couple of my friends read it and also praised it, I figured it was time to pick it up. It turned out to be my third 5-star read of the year.Ā 
The Will of the Many follows Vis, a seventeen-year-old orphan who has many secrets that he wishes to keep secret and a deep-seated hatred for the Hierarchy. Not a lot is told in the synopsis and I donā€™t want to spoil anything so the rest of this synopsis is going to be a bit vague. Vis is an orphan who fights for his life, literally, on the outskirts of The Catenan Republic. Most of his trouble comes from the fact that if anyone discovers who he truly is, he will be outright killed or sent to the Sappers, slabs that take all the will of the individual on it and funnel it to someone else. However, when he is unexpectedly adopted by a Senator, Vis is thrust into the unexpected political maneuvering of the Hierarchy and his new fatherā€™s desire to figure out what happened to his brother. To do that, Vis has to get into the pretentious Academy, rise through the ranks, and also do a number of things that might get him expelled or killed. Yet, more than one force is pulling for Vis to do what they want and the other one is aware of his true name and lineage. Vis has no choice, if he wants to live and stay out of the pyramid that would lead to him ceding his will, he has to be good. If he wants to live, he has to be the best.Ā 
The plot of this novel is so expansive, yet never loses focus on the main point that started VIs on this path to start with, discovering what happened to Senator Telimus's brother while he was at the Academy. Yet, soon Vis finds that other parties have put him in the path of the Senator, wanting him to work for them instead while at the Academy, and all the other plot points unravel from there. I never once found myself bored while reading this novel, always wanting to see what would happen next. It is difficult to keep up the pace and interest through an over 600-page book, but Islington does a good job of utilizing time skips to cut out of the daily grind of the Academy while still giving the reader a good idea of the world that Vis is inhabiting. I think that at times leads to some missed opportunities for character development, it is the smallest of gripes. I am truly in awe of how Islington kept weaving all these threads and brought them all to a satisfying conclusion, every twist made sense once it was revealed, and left me with more questions than answers in the end.Ā 
There was a conversation going on around Tiktok when this book started to get popular that if it had been written by a woman, it would have been considered YA instead of Adult. I thought that this was an interesting angle, numerous female presenting authors have complained that their books are misshelved or marketed as YA just because they are female-presenting. This conversation was in the front of my mind when I started reading and I could see a lot of points that people were making, Vis was only 17 and this is a coming-of-age tale in a sense taking place at a school. Islington does not hold the reader's hands and even as someone who has been reading fantasy for many years, I would have to go back to some sections and reread to make sure I was understanding and not missing something important. However, as soon as the events that led to Vis making a name for himself throughout The Cantenan Republic, any thought that this was anything but an adult novel exploded. It isnā€™t just the brutality of this scene, but the conversation that it starts and the way that Vis responds. There is also a tone to YA novels, even ones that are brutal, that is not seen in this novel. I wish I had better words for what I am attempting to explain because I donā€™t think that there is anything in this novel that a teenager couldnā€™t read, but this is clearly for adults.Ā 
Vis is a wonderful POV character and I came to think of him as almost like a little brother as the story progressed. He is traumatized, firm in his beliefs, stubborn, and determined, yet still at his core cares about people and wants to do what he can to keep them safe. While he grows throughout the novel, it is not a way that completely changes who he is. In fact, it is the things at Visā€™s core that keep him alive in the end(s). I really fell in love with Eidhin and Callidus, but I did feel as if the female students could be fleshed out a bit more. Then again, this is a plot-driven story, not character-driven, so it didnā€™t affect the rating.Ā 
The ending!?! When I tell you I reread the last ten pages about three times and then thought about it in the shower to make sure I had gotten it all straight in my head. This is not a fault of the writing, in fact, it makes perfect sense given what we learn throughout the novel, but it was also so unexpected that I had to keep going back over it. This is how reveals are supposed to be done, not for shock and awe, but as a reward for following all the information placed throughout the novel. It was so satisfying and then I was SO MAD I have to wait for the next novel.Ā 
There isnā€™t much more I can say without spoilers, but if you have read this book PLEASE talk to me because I have theories and will forget them within 3-5 business days. This is a 5-star read and if you are into fantasy or political intrigue tales. I have no idea how this trilogy is going to end, or even where it is going, but I am so excited to go along for the ride.
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