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Paula Pareto, in the footsteps of Braian Toledo | The …

“A month after Braian's death? I still can't believe it. It's hard for me to think that he's not here anymore, that I'm not going to cross him any more in the Cenard, that I'm not going to see him helping people anymore, that we won't be able to go together to social projects … It was terrible. I went from not being able to believe it to having to accept it. But, in such a misfortune, she tried to find the only positive thing she can have: learn to live every day, not complain about being full and continue helping the people, as he would have liked … “Paula Pareto makes a small stop in her routine at the Hospital of San Isidro to talk about her new examples these days. Because beyond her multiple sporting exploits, the inspiration generated by seeing her keep up As one of the best judokas in the world for over a decade, the Peque ended her mandatory quarantine after traveling to Europe to compete in a tournament (which she did not contest), put on her apron and enlisted to go to the front against the Coronav irus.

He also donated blood – something he had never done in his life as a high-performance athlete – and, as if that were not enough, he announced that he will continue with the social projects that Toledo, his friend and colleague who died on February 27, had. “It is what he would have wanted. I know I'm not going to reach him even because his commitment was total. But at least I want to help. We have already agreed with the Saint Gobain company to take over their projects in the Huella program. I spoke with Graciela about the Los Pepitos picnic area in Merlo and I am going to follow what started in the development society in Florencio Varela. Because, moreover, it is what the Braian family wants. His mother and brothers know what made him happy, “explains the doc.

Up to a month ago, Pareto and Toledo were partners in this solidarity program that is about to turn ten, “leaving a mark on society that lasts over time.” Huella Saint Gobain brings together several ambassadors, most of them Olympic athletes, who choose a place to renovate and then the company goes and improves the infrastructure with its materials. Just four months ago, during the recovery from Braian's injury, the two went together to the Merlo picnic area that feeds 120 boys. “It was exciting, like every time we visit these much-needed places. Being able to contribute our grain of sand is always special. It has become a weakness,” says Paulita, who in her almost nine years in the program has helped clubs ( judo gym in Victoriano Arenas) and dining rooms, such as one in General Pacheco that feeds 200 boys in situations of extreme vulnerability.

Now the improvement of this development society that works as a support for the other educational institutions in the La Rotonda neighborhood will be put on the shoulder. There are different recreational activities (hockey, boxing and karate, among others) and containment. A very large property, with many needs, which began to operate with almost no infrastructure and today is in full growth.

-All in honor of Braian. How cute no?

-And of course, if she was a unique person, wonderful in every way, from another world. Someone who really made extreme sacrifices, but kept the mindset and humility to achieve his goals. So I have nothing but words of admiration. When I crossed it, I told him. And he told me that he admired me. Crazy right? We talked a lot, he was very warm, always wanting to know how your family was, what was really important … That's why it was different. And that's why his legacy goes far beyond how genius he was as an athlete.

-Could you find any explanation for what happened? Do you have any theory, spiritual, whatever, or are these explanations not found?

-It does not enter into any reasoning. I prefer not to ask myself any questions. I was left with the only positive there can be, never knowing what our last day will be. Something like this makes us understand the importance of taking advantage of each day, those who love us and not complain about being full … It makes you value everything, even a little more. I try to take it to that side, although it is still very hard.

-And the hardest thing is that it happened to him, who lived thinking about helping the other.

-Yes, I had a permanent need to help, at any day and time, as those who helped tell. He carried it in his soul, surely for its history. So Braian was inspiring in every way, because aid was added to what was as an example of improvement. Imagine that, with all that he suffered, he had the excuse of dedicating himself to something else, taking drugs or stealing, whatever. But no. It leaves us the teaching that it does not matter where you are born, in what context. You can, with values ​​and dedication. Luckily, he and we found Saint Gobain, who has been helping us for years. Without the company it would be impossible. I say it clearly: alone I could not do it.

-Are you always like this, wanting to help or did you wake up bigger? Perhaps it is now more visible on social networks.

-He who knows me knows that I was always like this. Now, with the networks, you see more of what you feel and how you act. But all my life I liked thinking about each other, collaborating and working as a team. And I think that at the moment it is even more important to be supportive. This pandemic, punctually, gives us opportunities to do things, to breastfeed and help the authorities. And, on the other hand, there are people like Braian who lead the way …

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARkPWOCnydM

At 34, Pareto says and does. And for both, in addition to its sporting success, it has become a benchmark. 20 days ago he traveled to Russia for an important tournament (Grand Slam), which would allow him to return after the operation on his cervicals, but the Federation canceled it due to the virus and he had to return with nothing. “It was not a big deal, nothing serious. I am always thinking that things happen for something, so I did not take it easy and luckily I was not exposed like millions in Europe. Russia is one of the countries with the least risk, I was almost always at the hotel, then the stopover was in the Netherlands – a country with few infections – and we stayed at airports very little. I knew I didn't have the virus, but I quarantined accordingly. For me and for the others ”, he explains.

– How is a quarantine for someone so intense, that he uses almost all the hours of the day? Through your networks we saw you creating exercises, training the same, doing everything …

-Yes, I didn't suffer at all. I took the opportunity to do other things, I enjoyed the house and trained equally, in double shifts. I caught up to tidy up, clean up thoroughly, read recommended books, update myself with medical studies, do meditation, and find myself again. I organized myself as I usually do: at such an hour I cleaned, at such read and so on with everything. I also ate healthy, which is something I usually can't do in the hospital. The 14 days passed quickly.

-The quarantine ended and you went to the hospital. With fear, with desire? Tell me about the return.

-With desire. It's what I chose, I really like it. Nor is it that orthopedists are on the front lines, like clinicians. But I like to help colleagues, and in the hospital there is a lot of prevention. We prepare for the worst, it seems the most logical to me. But hopefully, as I think, the contagion curve is not so great and the health system does not collapse.

-Are you not afraid of contagion? More than anything considering that you are a high performance athlete and they say that, if it touches you, it can leave you some sequel.

-Fear does not enter me. First that there are preventive measures and second that in the abc of doctors is that there is no need to be afraid or panic. I know that there are doctors and health personnel who quit their jobs because of the pandemic, but I love the service. I always said that I wanted to be in the Red Cross and in Doctors Without Borders, to attend where it is most needed, although I still could not do it for sports. But the vocation is there, the fear is not.

-What do you feel every day, at 9 pm, when everyone applauds the health personnel, you included? It excites you?

-The recognition is good. But it should not be just for health personnel. There are many anonymous heroes who are on the street, with risks. And there are the people, the millions of Argentines who comply with the quarantine despite everything. So I don't think doctors are heroes. We just do our job. The applause should be for everyone. Each one is doing his own from his role. It is the moment that we are a great team, that each one understands this moment to do what we never did. I, for example, donated blood, something I had never done before. Today we have time and we can help. Hopefully all this will serve us something.

-In the middle of all this you received the hit of the suspension of Tokyo 2020. How did it hit you? Because you are 34 years old and these could be your last Games. Are you going to bank until 2021?

– It was seen coming, although it was a blow. I take it with patience. I think the key will be the psychological: how I deal with it, because there were four months left and now they are 15. But well, that's how it is, you have to face reality, it's what we have to do. I must be calm and see how it continues, especially the classification. If the above is respected, the ranking of the last two years, I am 90% in and this will be easier. The issue if it is the two years of 2021 back … The only good thing about all this is that I will have more time to return to the ring, after the operation.

Pareto says goodbye. They call her from the service, she must continue with her routine. As one more. How she likes it. How Braian liked it. Silent idols. Day after day. In sports and outside.

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Monday April 10th

Because of my mental health issues I currently live with my parents. On Sunday’s my brother’s come for dinner, it’s usually the highlight of my week as I get to see my two nieces. It’s always fun to see them as they’re still quite young (the eldest is 5 & the youngest is almost 2), they’re getting to the stage where they’re always fighting over who gets to play with what, usually the oldest one wins but all of the adults seem to side with the youngest. I try to remind myself to engage more with my oldest niece because everyone seem to pay so much more attention to the youngest but I guess it’s a natural dynamic that babies get the most attention and older kids have to learn how to deal with it. As I said, the few hours I get to spend with them are what I look forward to most each week but for the past few weeks I have been feeling increasingly anxious after they leave, so the best part of my week is quickly becoming entwined with the worst. After they left last night I tried to keep my mind occupied by playing Breath Of The Wild and searching out Korok seeds. I managed to keep my mind focused on what I was doing for a few minutes but my mind soon wandered into a negative space. I paused the game and put the console on standby and went to get a glass of water and something to eat, having a full stomach gives me one less thing to worry about, but the anxiety was still creeping in. I rushed upstairs as being in my bedroom can sometimes provide sanctuary but on this occasion it didn’t give me any respite. As soon as I had entered my room I had already started to take a mirtazapine out of its packet and quickly swallowed it with a gulp of water. My stomach was still fluttering with anxiety so next I went to the bathroom and played Super Mario Run on my phone to keep my mind off the daunting anxiety until I had finished my business.

After finishing in the bathroom, and with the sedative effects of the mirtazapine already setting in, I went back into my bedroom and tried to watch something to keep my mind off the anxiety. While watching the latest Easy Update my mind wandered towards my PS4 and a game that I was yet to start so I made my mind up to start Dark Souls II  once I was done watching. Unfortunately I was already feeling far too sedate for such an action heavy game and so gave up after half an hour or so and a couple of deaths and instead just watched a new episode of Trailer Park Boys as I started to fall asleep; I’d only woken up at about 1pm and it wasn’t even 9 o’clock. It’s this inability to exist in the moment that is really causing me the most problems at the moment, my mind soon wanders to mistakes I’ve made in the past or ones I might make in future, which soon leads on to my terror at feeling isolated at home when I think about not being able to leave the house and lead a normal life.

I had my fortnightly meeting with my care-coordinator Harvi today. I was feeling a little on edge beforehand and she was a little late for the appointment but it went well otherwise. My sessions with her are much less involved than those with my support worker Julie, Harvi will usually come round for about half an hour to discuss how i’ve been feeling over the past couple of weeks and what we can do to improve my situation. She is more of a facilitator of care than a hands on clinician or psychologist, just making sure that I have the right support for my condition to improve but she is still aware of the finer details of my case. Harvi is keen for me to arrange an appointment with a Gender Identity Clinic as she feels it will be a good goal to work towards; it takes a number of months to get an appointment even in the best cases so she feels that although it feels unattainable now it might be a realistic goal by the time I actually get an appointment. I totally understand her thinking behind it but the nearest clinic is in Daventry which is at least a half hours drive away and seeing as I haven’t been more than 200 metres from home in almost a year it definitely doesn’t feel like something that I can possibly succeed in over the foreseeable future. I will definitely be keeping the idea in mind and giving it some thought over the next week or so but the fact that my anxiety already made me miss my initial Gender Identity Clinic appointment last year definitely makes me apprehensive to hold off on starting that process again until there has been a significant improvement in my condition.

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Paula Pareto, in the footsteps of Brian Toledo | The m…

“A month after Braian's death? I still can't believe it. It's hard for me to think that he's not here anymore, that I'm not going to cross him any more in the Cenard, that I'm not going to see him helping people anymore, that we won't be able to go together to social projects … It was terrible. I went from not being able to believe it to having to accept it. But, in such a misfortune, she tried to find the only positive thing she can have: learn to live every day, not complain about being full and continue helping the people, as he would have liked … “Paula Pareto makes a small stop in her routine at the Hospital of San Isidro to talk about her new examples these days. Because beyond her multiple sporting exploits, the inspiration generated by seeing her keep up As one of the best judokas in the world for over a decade, the Peque ended her mandatory quarantine after traveling to Europe to compete in a tournament (which she did not contest), put on her apron and enlisted to go to the front against the Coronav irus.

He also donated blood – something he had never done in his life as a high-performance athlete – and, as if that were not enough, he announced that he will continue with the social projects that Toledo, his friend and colleague who died on February 27, had. “It is what he would have wanted. I know I'm not going to reach him even because his commitment was total. But at least I want to help. We have already agreed with the Saint Gobain company to take over their projects in the Huella program. I spoke with Graciela about the Los Pepitos picnic area in Merlo and I am going to follow what started in the development society in Florencio Varela. Because, moreover, it is what the Braian family wants. His mother and brothers know what made him happy, “explains the doc.

Up to a month ago, Pareto and Toledo were partners in this solidarity program that is about to turn ten, “leaving a mark on society that lasts over time.” Huella Saint Gobain brings together several ambassadors, most of them Olympic athletes, who choose a place to renovate and then the company goes and improves the infrastructure with its materials. Just four months ago, during the recovery from Braian's injury, the two went together to the Merlo picnic area that feeds 120 boys. “It was exciting, like every time we visit these much-needed places. Being able to contribute our grain of sand is always special. It has become a weakness,” says Paulita, who in her almost nine years in the program has helped clubs ( judo gym in Victoriano Arenas) and dining rooms, such as one in General Pacheco that feeds 200 boys in situations of extreme vulnerability.

Now the improvement of this development society that works as a support for the other educational institutions in the La Rotonda neighborhood will be put on the shoulder. There are different recreational activities (hockey, boxing and karate, among others) and containment. A very large property, with many needs, which began to operate with almost no infrastructure and today is in full growth.

-All in honor of Braian. How cute no?

-And of course, if she was a unique person, wonderful in every way, from another world. Someone who really made extreme sacrifices, but kept the mindset and humility to achieve his goals. So I have nothing but words of admiration. When I crossed it, I told him. And he told me that he admired me. Crazy right? We talked a lot, he was very warm, always wanting to know how your family was, what was really important … That's why it was different. And that's why his legacy goes far beyond how genius he was as an athlete.

-Could you find any explanation for what happened? Do you have any theory, spiritual, whatever, or are these explanations not found?

-It does not enter into any reasoning. I prefer not to ask myself any questions. I was left with the only positive there can be, never knowing what our last day will be. Something like this makes us understand the importance of taking advantage of each day, those who love us and not complain about being full … It makes you value everything, even a little more. I try to take it to that side, although it is still very hard.

-And the hardest thing is that it happened to him, who lived thinking about helping the other.

-Yes, I had a permanent need to help, at any day and time, as those who helped tell. He carried it in his soul, surely for its history. So Braian was inspiring in every way, because aid was added to what was as an example of improvement. Imagine that, with all that he suffered, he had the excuse of dedicating himself to something else, taking drugs or stealing, whatever. But no. It leaves us the teaching that it does not matter where you are born, in what context. You can, with values ​​and dedication. Luckily, he and we found Saint Gobain, who has been helping us for years. Without the company it would be impossible. I say it clearly: alone I could not do it.

-Are you always like this, wanting to help or did you wake up bigger? Perhaps it is now more visible on social networks.

-He who knows me knows that I was always like this. Now, with the networks, you see more of what you feel and how you act. But all my life I liked thinking about each other, collaborating and working as a team. And I think that at the moment it is even more important to be supportive. This pandemic, punctually, gives us opportunities to do things, to breastfeed and help the authorities. And, on the other hand, there are people like Braian who lead the way …

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ARkPWOCnydM

At 34, Pareto says and does. And for both, in addition to its sporting success, it has become a benchmark. 20 days ago he traveled to Russia for an important tournament (Grand Slam), which would allow him to return after the operation on his cervicals, but the Federation canceled it due to the virus and he had to return with nothing. “It was not a big deal, nothing serious. I am always thinking that things happen for something, so I did not take it easy and luckily I was not exposed like millions in Europe. Russia is one of the countries with the least risk, I was almost always at the hotel, then the stopover was in the Netherlands – a country with few infections – and we stayed at airports very little. I knew I didn't have the virus, but I quarantined accordingly. For me and for the others ”, he explains.

– How is a quarantine for someone so intense, that he uses almost all the hours of the day? Through your networks we saw you creating exercises, training the same, doing everything …

-Yes, I didn't suffer at all. I took the opportunity to do other things, I enjoyed the house and trained equally, in double shifts. I caught up to tidy up, clean up thoroughly, read recommended books, update myself with medical studies, do meditation, and find myself again. I organized myself as I usually do: at such an hour I cleaned, at such read and so on with everything. I also ate healthy, which is something I usually can't do in the hospital. The 14 days passed quickly.

-The quarantine ended and you went to the hospital. With fear, with desire? Tell me about the return.

-With desire. It's what I chose, I really like it. Nor is it that orthopedists are on the front lines, like clinicians. But I like to help colleagues, and in the hospital there is a lot of prevention. We prepare for the worst, it seems the most logical to me. But hopefully, as I think, the contagion curve is not so great and the health system does not collapse.

-Are you not afraid of contagion? More than anything considering that you are a high performance athlete and they say that, if it touches you, it can leave you some sequel.

-Fear does not enter me. First that there are preventive measures and second that in the abc of doctors is that there is no need to be afraid or panic. I know that there are doctors and health personnel who quit their jobs because of the pandemic, but I love the service. I always said that I wanted to be in the Red Cross and in Doctors Without Borders, to attend where it is most needed, although I still could not do it for sports. But the vocation is there, the fear is not.

-What do you feel every day, at 9 pm, when everyone applauds the health personnel, you included? It excites you?

-The recognition is good. But it should not be just for health personnel. There are many anonymous heroes who are on the street, with risks. And there are the people, the millions of Argentines who comply with the quarantine despite everything. So I don't think doctors are heroes. We just do our job. The applause should be for everyone. Each one is doing his own from his role. It is the moment that we are a great team, that each one understands this moment to do what we never did. I, for example, donated blood, something I had never done before. Today we have time and we can help. Hopefully all this will serve us something.

-In the middle of all this you received the hit of the suspension of Tokyo 2020. How did it hit you? Because you are 34 years old and these could be your last Games. Are you going to bank until 2021?

– It was seen coming, although it was a blow. I take it with patience. I think the key will be the psychological: how I deal with it, because there were four months left and now they are 15. But well, that's how it is, you have to face reality, it's what we have to do. I must be calm and see how it continues, especially the classification. If the above is respected, the ranking of the last two years, I am 90% in and this will be easier. The issue if it is the two years of 2021 back … The only good thing about all this is that I will have more time to return to the ring, after the operation.

Pareto says goodbye. They call her from the service, she must continue with her routine. As one more. How she likes it. How Braian liked it. Silent idols. Day after day. In sports and outside.

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