#also with dax having built in trauma

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Fizzaroli has such "little shit with a big strong BF" energy that it's giving me whiplash back to Daxter and the Jaxter ship

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I LOVE DS9. I LOVE it. I will always love it. And I love the writers for giving me such a beautiful and intricate show, I love Terry Farrell for fighting to make Jadzia so delightful and fun and queer. But...

(deep breath... incoming rant... sorry. Get a cup of tea and come back. ☕️)

You have to understand-- as a trans person growing up, the only time I had ever seen a positive example of a queer character on television was Bugs Bunny. Every other queer character-- most especially Transgender characters, were killers in crime shows, were dead bodies, were secrets a spouse kept from their partner, were immoral, horrible, mentally ill people. And on the rare occasion they weren't that, they were the butt of the joke because hahah crossdressing is so funny, amirite?

Jadzia Dax was the first person I saw on television who spoke about her past as a man, who spoke with flexibility regarding gender and identity. She was the closest thing I had to affirmation that I was not crazy, evil or a joke as a trans youth that was not allowed to be openly trans at that time. So DS9, for me, was mind-blowing-- all of her friends happily accepted when she would switch pronouns or -- christ-- SHE HAD A WIFE!!! It was possibly the only thing that gave me solace as a little baby trans in an anti-trans world. And everyone just accepted it as a normal, cool thing. It was something that made her better, not hated. It was an HONOUR on her homeworld to be the way she was, not an excuse to send someone to conversion therapy.

This beautiful, wonderful show meant the world to me-- that gave me hope as a little trans person who wasn't allowed to be trans in the world I lived in. And they buried their first queer character. And, to this day, I am not over it. I probably will never be over that.

DS9, you were this beautiful show that had women like Kira who were allowed to be emotional and angry and raw. I'd never seen that before. You had very neuro-diverse characters like Bashir, and everyone came to accept him, despite his quirks. You had what is a very clearly gay relationship between Garak and Bashir, and then Rick Berman, of course, destroyed that. You had a Black Captain who was a wonderful father, and who was allowed to be recognised, to experience how beautiful being Black was, and the traumas of those around you not accepting you for your skin colour. You had a man who loved his wife enough to let her go on her own adventures without holding her back. You had an aro/ace non-binary autistic person trying to deal with emotions and friendship and love for the first time. You had beautiful (trans)women like Jadzia Dax who was intelligent, accepting, fun, and wise. Oh, and communist propaganda. Which was amazing.

How could I not love all of that? How could I not be moved by all of that? How could my world not be completely changed by all of that?

And then it was all set on fire because of the ego of one man.

This beautiful show that built so much also built the shark tank. They put on the water skiis, and jumped the fucking shark for no damned reason, just because a tiny horrible man with a huge ego wanted to one-up a woman who was burnt out and needed a break, and-- more importantly, she dared to report that her boss RICK BERMAN was a misogynistic pig.

Rick Berman is the reason DS9 jumped the shark, and the reason I cannot watch past the episode 'The Sound Of Her Voice.'

FUCK YOU RICK BERMAN.

Terry Farrell was another ~difficult woman (link).~ All my life, I've heard people talk about ~difficult women~ women who are labelled ~difficult~ by men because the women are confidently asking for something they already deserve. Sometimes it's equal pay, sometimes it's a bit of time off, and sometimes it's just basic fucking respect.

Example: Gillian Anderson was ~difficult~ for complaining that they offered her HALF the money David Duchovny was offered to return to The X-Files. When they did the continuation, GILLIAN was the star power, not Duchovny. Gillian was the one with all the awards (Baftas, Emmys, SAG, multiple Critics Awards) and the starring role in several movies, plays and a LOT of great tv shows like The Fall and Hannibal. Duchovny had one crappy tv show Californication and bit roles-- he had NOTHING. But HE was offered twice as much. And Gillian was ~difficult~ for asking what she deserved.

Terry Farrell was NOT difficult. She didn't demand anything absurd. She WANTED to stay on DS9. She just wanted a little time off to deal with her burn out, and to not have to deal with the misogynistic dick that was Rick Berman all the time. That's it. That's really all she was asking for, as far as I can tell. But because of this, Terry was labelled ~difficult~.

I was in Hollywood at this time. I remember hearing the rumblings-- Terry was ~difficult~ so they fired her from DS9. Terry was ~difficult~ so they fired her from Becker. Terry was ~difficult~ and should leave Hollywood, the rumblings said. The rumblings lied. How dare a woman ask for recovery time? How dare a woman report her misogynistic boss?

DS9 suffered irrevocably after they killed Jadzia Dax. As far as I'm concerned, they broke the show completely, and never did recover. It never could recover. It was a terrible shark jump-- and the moment they killed her, it wasn't just her character that died, but my love for the show. And they were to blame. They did it to themselves, they did it to Terry, and they did it to us.

Terry Farrell is going to do a watch of DS9 with Armin Shimerman and the Delta Flyer boys. And I hope Terry does not hold back about the betrayal of them killing off Star Trek's first canon queer main character, the first positive image of a gender-queer character I had ever seen on television (besides Bugs Bunny) , and a powerful, intelligent, hilarious and FUN STEM woman who was a symbol to queer and trans children in that era. I want them both to spill everything about the behind the scenes happenings.

(And I hope Armin doesn't hold back about all the times he had to fight the production, like 'Profit and Lace'-- which he demanded to be rewritten because it was even MORE transphobic and queer-phobic than the version that aired.)

Can't wait. And I hope they embarrass the hell out of Rick Berman and everyone involved in destroying Jadzia Dax.

Jadzia Dax, I love you. And Terry Farrell, thank you for being everything I needed to see. Thank you for fighting to make Jadzia so wonderful. Terry, thank you for being a ~difficult woman~, and I love you for it.

Oh. One more thing.

FUCK YOU RICK BERMAN.

You ever think about how they could have had Jadzia Dax go on a long mission deep into space for some amazing research opportunity? Have an episode of her and Worf grappling with whether she should go or not because they had JUST got married?? They finally agree she should go and you have a whole other episode of everyone else giving her a great send off (including her and Worf racking up and impressive number of sex injuries) and she gets to go off on an amazing voyage and the following episodes can include bits and bobs of Worf dealing with missing his wife and being quietly adorable over her messages to him and they send each other increasingly hilarious klingon poetry over the remaining series and like maybe near the end Jadzia comes home and they rack up enough sex injuries Bashir considers moving into their living room to be on hand.

But nah, just kill her off I guess.

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Ackshually, can I talk about Delano and Dax’s relationship a bit more? I’m gonna talk about Delano and Dax’s relationship.

I might have mentioned this before, but Dax is the closest Delano has let anyone since he banished himself from his family home. Which is, maybe like two decades, give or take. Dax was just so persistent and insistent on befriending Delano that he squirmed his way through the thick defences Delano had built himself after his trauma and the few years hanging out in street gangs and beating up anyone who even looked at him funny (his Rage Years, as he calls it).

Fang and later Daxton have been big catalysts in Delano letting himself relax and open to people again. It also helps that Daxton is quite literally the kind of younger brother Delano had hoped he’d have but never got. Antonio (Delano’s older younger brother) is more of the intellectual type (and physically frail) and Benjamin (Delano’s younger younger brother) was too soft to roughhouse with, despite him having the Yamada Prime Beef(TM). Daxton fills that niche perfectly. You could say that Delano has somewhat adopted Dax and Ezra (Dax’s younger sibling) as his siblings.

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could you share the descriptions of the answers? I'm bad at answering these quizzes cause I always get like 3 answers that fit but in different circumstances so I like seeing all of the descriptions

Yeah sure! I too wish uquiz gave an option to see all the result descriptions... alas. 

anyway here’s a wall of text, go nuts. 

DEAN-CODED DEAN GIRL

You might just be the hero of a YA fantasy novel or an action movie, because you have Big Protag Energy. You’re self-centered and extremely giving at the same time: you expect and demand absolute loyalty, just as you provide the same. Your love can move mountains, but if you’re not careful that same love can be suffocating or controlling. You’re volatile: you’ll cut a bitch and you don’t care who knows it. You’ll kick their ass. You’ll kick their dog’s ass. You’ll kick your own ass. You have a one-liner for every occasion. Your friends like you but would describe you as “a lot.” You’re magnetic: your charisma and sheer bull-headedness mean you stand out in every room. You’re polarizing, and you know it, but that doesn’t bother you: you know you’re right, and even when you’re wrong, you’re at least entertaining. You’re very “do as I say, not as I do:” you’re a bit of a hypocrite, but, like, in a fun way.  

Holotypes include: Dean Winchester (Supernatural), Thomas Jefferson (Hamilton), Sirius Black (Harry Potter), Kathryn Janeway (Star Trek: Voyager), Katara (ATLA), Vriska Serket (Homestuck)

DEAN-CODED SAM GIRL

You are a charmer and a people-pleaser. You’re charismatic to a fault, when you want to be: whether consciously or not, you have a razor-keen sense of how others see you, and you mold yourself to expectations. You can either talk circles around most people, or you come across as so fundamentally honest that you gain everyone’s trust without trying. Your affable persona is built on a rock-solid sense of purpose. You have a steadfast, deadset fixation on your goals, which you know in your heart to be worth any cost and any sacrifice. Armed with iron conviction, you’re a rebel with a cause. Is it paranoia if they really are all out to get you? When you inevitably win, the whole world will know your name. Your strong sense of self will carry you through any hardship. Your friends look up to you, but they don’t always “get” you. 

Holotypes include: Lucifer (Supernatural), Eponine (Les Mis), Count Olaf (A Series of Unfortunate Events), Prince Zuko (ATLA), Samwise Gamgee (LOTR), Karkat Vantas (Homestuck)

DEAN-CODED CAS GIRL 

Like all Dean-coded people, you are charming and affable, and you talk a big game. You might be the class clown or a popular athlete, or otherwise one of them cool kids, but underlying that public persona is a certain quiet idealism. You keep your strong convictions close to your heart, even when far from home or beset by strife. You’re fiercely loyal and you crave being around people, but you can see when your friends need space, and you can get along okay on your own. You’re not afraid to change your opinions if new information comes to light. Strangers find you easy to get along with: you tend to go along with the group, and you’re a team player no matter what needs to get done. Your chill-to-pull ratio is sky-high.

Holotypes include: Ahsoka (Star Wars), Meg (Supernatural), Percy Jackson (Percy Jackson), Ginny Weasley (Harry Potter), Boromir (LOTR), Jon Snow (Game of Thrones)

SAM-CODED DEAN GIRL

You come across as level headed, but you’re never more than an inch from going off the rails. Your highest values are love and personal loyalty, but you’re pragmatic about it, and you try very hard not to put unfair expectations on other people, with varying degrees of success. You spend a lot of time dealing with expectations; it’s something you either grapple with, or lean into to use to your own ends. You value your own sense of identity, but that identity can get subsumed by your loyalties. You can easily get pulled in or suborned by strong personalities. You keep secrets, both from yourself and from others. Who you want to be is at odds with how you see yourself. People meeting you for the first time might say you’re aloof. You have lots of strong opinions, but you usually keep them to yourself… unless provoked. Careful; you bite. 

Holotypes include: Mary Winchester (Supernatural), Harry Potter (Harry Potter), Aragorn (LOTR), Anakin Skywalker (Star Wars), Julian Bashir (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine), Katniss Everdeen (Hunger Games) 

SAM-CODED SAM GIRL

Gifted kid (diagnosis). You were and maybe still are an outsider, and because of that you’ve had to learn to be self-sufficient and confident in your own abilities. You’re a fiercely independent overachiever, and you’ve fought hard for every inch. Somewhere inside you is a hot, long simmering rage born from the injustice of the world, but it’s buried very deep. You’d be more than content to be alone for long periods of time. You have sometimes crippling perfectionism: if you aren’t succeeding, it’s your fault for not trying hard enough. You’ll pick every kind of intellectual fight and throw yourself into playing devil’s advocate just to improve your understanding: you see the gray areas in everything. You’re aggressively big-picture. You want to, no, you MUST change the universe, but you don’t need to take credit for it. Your few friends might describe you as callous, but you know you’re just being realistic: you’ve got a harsh, clear-eyed sense of the world. No pain, no gain, and really, if you do the math, no single individual is all that important in the grand scheme of things.  

Holotypes include: Kevin Tran (Supernatural), Jean Valjean (Les Miserables), Emperor Palpatine (Star Wars), Neville Longbottom (Harry Potter), Frodo Baggins (LOTR), Dirk Strider (Homestuck), Luke Castellan (Percy Jackson)

SAM-CODED CAS GIRL

You have a strong sense of how the world ought to be, but you have no overriding vision or big master plan: you take life day by day to fix the little things you can. You have very few close relationships, but those you have you treasure dearly. You support your few friends unconditionally, but you tend to be emotionally distant with acquaintances. You may be a bit of a pushover. You often find yourself put in the position of mediator. You loathe conflict, so you avoid it unless absolutely necessary--but once you’re truly angry, you’ll stop at nothing to see justice done. You’re a diplomat and an advocate: you are deeply idealistic, but you’re nevertheless strongly grounded in a pragmatic sense of achieving what you can. Philosophy is action, action is philosophy; you like meditation and self-improvement and have probably done at least one juice cleanse. Both friends and strangers describe you as quietly dependable. If you can’t see the trauma, the trauma can’t see you! That’s just science!

Holotypes include: Sam Winchester (Supernatural), BJ Hunnicut (M*A*S*H), Jean-Luc Picard (Star Trek: The Next Generation), Aang (ATLA), Luke Skywalker (Star Wars), Nico di Angelo (Percy Jackson)

CAS-CODED DEAN GIRL

Much of your identity is tied up in a set of core beliefs - to the point where those beliefs might be strong enough to override your identity. You’re not beholden to any outside system. If you’re comfortable serving a larger common goal, it’s because you believe in it wholeheartedly. You’re action-oriented: you act first, and think later, or possibly never. You judge your friends solely based on what they do, and you tend to hold people accountable for any unforeseen consequences of their choices. You have strong personal loyalties. You’re not at the center of your social circle, but your friends trust you implicitly and the leader of your group tends to confide in you. You don’t seek power, but you’re also not afraid of taking charge, and you may find power thrust upon you. If you do find yourself in a position of leadership, you struggle with going too far or taking your friends in an unexpected direction. Whether you’re fighting in a war or making yourself a sandwich, you go hard in the motherfuckin’ paint.

Holotypes include: Castiel (Supernatural), Javert (Les Miserables), Captain Rex (Star Wars), Kanaya Maryam (Homestuck), Worf (Star Trek), Albus Dumbledore (Harry Potter)

CAS-CODED SAM GIRL

I mean this in the nicest possible way, but you’re a bit weird. You are spacey or odd or otherwise out of step with how people think you should act, but that’s fine. It doesn’t matter what they think, because if you’re sure of one thing, it’s that you should never mold your unique identity to other people’s expectations. You live internally: you’re all about grand, world-changing concepts, whether they be philosophical, artistic, or mathematical. You are grounded in the reality that you are one person and one viewpoint among many others, but that doesn’t stop you from writing your nine-hundred page thesis on the topic you’re passionate about. You can justify just about anything by the virtue of your personal convictions arising almost entirely from within yourself. Your identity can get swept up in your big ideas. You’re easier to sway with logic than with emotion, but you don’t feel the need to confine yourself with such terms: you operate on both vibes and flowcharts. You move through the world with the assurance that you are the master of your own fate, and you are unburdened by worrying about the opinions of others. You won’t let yourself feel pinned down by one social group; you float in and out comfortably, depending on how you’re feeling. Friends and strangers describe you as “spooky.”

Holotypes include: Azazel (Supernatural), Luna Lovegood (Harry Potter), Aaron Burr (Hamilton), Princess Azula (ATLA), Yoda (Star Wars), Jadzia Dax (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine), Terezi Pyrope (Homestuck)

CAS-CODED CAS GIRL

You are chaotic and excitable. You’re swayed by the drive to explore: the greatest good is to understand the universe and your place in it. You’ve got big ideas, and you’re drawn to new experiences, but you don’t necessarily understand what’s going on. You might be a part of a bigger social machine, but that doesn’t mean you’ll be defined on its terms: you’ll self-actualize if it kills you. You identify new objects by licking them. You can see the strings of the world; what will you choose? You’ll take the reins and see where they take you. You say you’re following your own path. Your friends say you don’t know what you’re doing. Pragmatism? Never heard of her. A dream is a vision is a reality; ideas are the world writ large. You might be a prophet or a visionary. With your head in the clouds, you’re sometimes divorced from both reality and consequences. You’re usually on the outside looking in, and you don’t want to be. People think they understand you, but they definitely don’t. Your friends and enemies describe you as impulsive and mysterious. 

Holotypes include: Raphael (Supernatural), Uncle Iroh (ATLA), Draco Malfoy (Harry Potter), Data (Star Trek: The Next Generation), Obi-Wan Kenobi (Star Wars), Gandalf (LOTR)

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Oh man, my brain got filled with ideas...

Terok Nor, corrupted by its governor Gul Dukat’s many sins and experiments, is over run with monsters and bad vibes, is taken over by the villagers of nearby Bajor who have been its chief victims in an uprising. The Federation of United Kingdoms is invited to secure it, which they do because it’s strategically important, and discover its built on a hot spot of ley lines/magic. Sisko, a former general turned courtier turned accidental mage via absorbing the energy of the ley lines/communing with the Prophets, village Headman Kira, and their team have misadventures with magic, monsters, and politics.

Garak is the former court mage of Terok Nor and no one fucking trusts him for obvious reasons, but he mysteriously survives multiple assassination attempts and generally implies that if anyone fucks with him Bad Things Will Happen but no need to worry (◕◡◕✿) he is but a simple tailor, plying his trade, oh what a case of mistaken identity, a mage?? him?? (ʘ‿ʘ✿)

(Dramatic twist: Garak was the court mage of Terok Nor, and he was involved in the creation of the many and horrific monsters that infest the castle/countryside, but he was tricked and imprisoned by Dukat and tortured/used as a focus in his magical experiments, having a considerable amount of his own magic siphoned off. Garak is using deeply questionable potions resulting in The Wire-sequel side effects to try and lowkey Witcher himself to rebuild his connection to magic, and is pursuing hardcore blood magic based Vengeance he does not want the Federation to interfere with, and would rather be thought a sociopathic monster than allow people to know he was weak/vulnerable.)

Bashir is a peppy young physician just arrived in the west from his training abroad and he’s so excited to bring the wonders of medicine to the frontiers of the world (: and keeps accidentally offending people by implying they’re backwards yokels (: or asking awkward and inappropriately intimate questions, and is always infodumping about his childhood and medical training and Backstory.

(The mage Sisko brought with him, Jadzia, finds it odd that Bashir is this naive young foreigner who keeps accidentally hinting at a worldly knowledge he really shouldn’t have, or reacting to details she mentions from her work in various kingdoms over a century ago as if he is unsurprised by him, or by the weirdly familiar vibes he gives off)

His backstory is all a lie and he’s actually a runaway Witcher, sick of the killing and trying to pass as a human physician and deeply bitter about the experimentation. He’s been sneaking out at night Merlin style to take on some of the monsters only a Witcher is hardy enough to handle. Garak was initially manipulating him for Shits and Giggles and to get access to medical ingredients for Dubious Potions but Bashir is savvy enough to pretty quickly figure out what Garak is trying to do and able to intervene and help him recover.

(Garak at first assumes Bashir was able/willing to help him because he was a Kind Young Physician, but then is equally pissed and impressed that Bashir was able to lie to him but also not help him get the transformation he was aiming for, and there is tension but ultimately bonding over their shared trauma)

(O’Brien, a beleaguered civil engineer who hates bloody mages and their goddamn physics defying castles, is initially grossed out to find out Julian is a witcher but is mostly annoyed Julian is actually older than him and has been humoring him at darts for years)

(Dax and Julian did cross paths a century or so ago and Julian flirting with her was part indulging himself in a way he was unable to do back in the day and part “Oh shit how do I subtly find out if she recognizes me and misdirect her if she does” but Julian is neurologically incapable of subtle)

(Kira still thinks they’re all idiots and regularly eats brunch with Odo, beloved slime sentinel of Terok Nor)

I'm not into the witcher (i just think your blog is fun) but I am into star trek so every time I read "Geraskier" I think it's "Garashir" which is a star trek ship and then the rest of the post isn't about a lizard man and a twink doctor in space and I'm like "wha - oh wait. Wrong one"

hmm... potential for witcher star trek au and/or star trek witcher au??