#also while im here im struggling bc i once saw advice that said not to focus on things you DONT LIKE wrt art

[smoocheys]

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[djpachipikachu]

do graves!leosagi ever get tired of their friends/family labelling them?? like maybe leo’s bros make fun of him for having a “boyfriend” and he gets like rightfully irritated by that ?

its Kinda amusing bc eventually leo’s family at least straight up thinks theyre just really good pals and its like wow ! friendship ! in a more oblivious sense like they just kinda shrug and go oh yeah usagi’s here again whatever

originally mikey was insanely insanely suspicious of usagi and what his relationship was with leo (“hes literally just a friend” “YOU MEAN A BOY-FRIEND. AND U NEVER TOLD US.” “what am i supposed 2 say do i update u guys every time i make a friend” “If I See This Fuckinf Rabbit Sleeping In Your Bed Again I’m Telling Dad” “WE WERE HAVING A SLEEPOVER”) (mikey was mainly shocked bc leo invited a friend to sleepover who they didnt know And leo didnt tell anyone there was an extra mouth to feed for brekkie) but once everything was smoothed over usagi just became another regular, similar to how april is

leo himself tells raph that its a little more than that but only raph rly knows it and hes always had a hunch about them so it didnt change much in how the brotjers saw the two

usagi’s family on the other hand is definitely more “Boyfriend? boyfriend? boyfriend? crush? romance?” kitsune teases usagi about how dramatically romantic it must be to fall for a guy he hated in the beginning and usagi is like . so filled with Eugh. This Is Not Romantic. ick feeling that it causes him to be more in denial at how close he’s gotten with leo (in the beginning at least , later on kitsune still teases him but he’s more at ease with how him and leo are, so he always jusy goes “ew no im not kissing him dates r gross” but over time she toned it down to more “ooh is someone missing a certain kappa?” kinda teasing rather than “whens the wedding/has your first kiss happened yet lmao/etc” kinda teasing)

hana calls leo his boyfriend like all the time and like . usagi doesnt rly correct her bc she’s 8 and he doesnt know how to explain that they “arent Really boyfriends sure they do things that couples would do sometimes but its platonic and well you dont rly know what platonic means uh”

so she gets a pass on all her “IS THAT YOUR BOYFRIEND” comments since usagi is just like “yeagh its leo u wanna say hi”

auntie notices how leo visits a lot and she kinda just is like “okay ur like my kid now. lol.” she thinks they are just best friends bc usagi said they are and who is she to think otherwise, she kinda just absorbs leo (and later on the hamatos) as her own family and doesnt question their relatiomship much

chizu and gen tend to stay out of usagi’s personal business like that But gen did think that leo was a girl for a good while before he was ever introduced to him . and he was like “usagi if you wanna pick up the ladies u need like. do better. than this” “what. What” “like take a shower man” trying to give him flirting/relationship advice without actually knowing leo at all and also assuming usagi is straight

all in all its never really serious if people call them boyfriends or just best friends bc they dont really care to correct anyone it only matters if its like “so did you hit the [insert romantic relationship milestone] phase yet haha” bc that gets tiring to hear constantly

mainly all their family is just like “oh okay” at their relationship since i dont Really want to make the hardships of being aroace or being queer a big point since we already struggle enough with that irl ! a few details here and there about how their unlabelled status confuses some people but generally just a “we’ve seen weirder shit who cares” kinda energy to it

i love rambling . Thank you for the wuestion ily /p

[zekeluvr]

i,, i’m going through an eren brainrot rn and i was hoping if i could request a sub n very needy eren x f!reader. something along the lines of him pissing off the reader and she teases him to the max and eren’s just begginggg ; and then reader gets herself off without letting him release and he’s just cryinG AGGHHABA I HOPE THIS MAKES SENSE <//3 ty have a nice day ≧ω≦

oh lord................................... i have to....................... think alot oh god,,, also college au bc head empty <333

vvv nsfw under the cut vvv

today has been so fucking stressful for you. class has not been treating you well and your asshole of a boyfriend has been acting more like an asshole than usual. you loved him, of course you did, but god did you wish he would shut his fucking mouth sometimes.

you often confided in your dorm-mate, ymir for advice, causing her to just laugh and nudge you with a: “sorry can’t relate, my girlfriend is basically an angel on earth.” to which you respond with a snicker and nudge her back.

you often wished you had what historia and ymir had between them with eren but he had a weird charm that had you fall for him in the first place. 

you had a free period sandwiched between two lessons of english literature. so, instead of going back to your dorm for a nap or to the nearest starbucks, you spent it in the library with a classmate of yours. she was quite standoffish when you first met her. a short blond who intimidated nearly everyone around her. 

you were one of the few lucky ones who were able to get close to her. the other two being a jock and his sidekick but more into that later. 

sighing as your phone buzzed against the wooden table, you saw the multiple notifications from eren pop up on screen. your eye twitched as you tried focusing on studying and annie let out a small chuckle at your reaction. 

“problem in paradise?” she mused, watching as you tensed for a second before letting out a deep breath.

“man, i don’t know.  i love eren but-” you were about to go on until annie kicked you under the desk, jutting her head towards the right. you furrowed your brows, looking behind you to see your boyfriend enter with his two friends.

“speak of the devil.”

“y/n.” eren smirked, taking a chair and spinning it around, sitting down with his legs on either side. his arms rested on the top of the back of the wooden chair. “whatcha doin’” his head cocked to the side to look at you, like a lost puppy.

his hair was slowly falling out of his bun, causing small strands to frame his face. you would be lying if you said he didn’t look ethereal.

“im studying, jaeger.” you let out, running a yellow highlighter along a few keywords, keeping your eyes on your textbook.

eren rolled his eyes in response, peering over the chair to take a look at your various notes before snorting. “fuckin’ nerd.” 

you threw a look over at him. could he not take anything seriously? “don’t you guys have somewhere to be maybe? like i don’t know, catching up with professor erwin?” annie spoke up, causing all of you to have a moment of shock. armin nodded, agreeing with her, tugging on eren’s hood.

“they’re trying to study, c’mon don’t bother them.”

mikasa was silent, giving you an apologising smile. 

“bother my own girlfriend? more likely than you think, but yeah, my brother will be on my ass if i miss another fucking meeting.” he sighs, giving you a playful two finger salute before rushing off with the other two. you slumped into your chair.

“sorry annie-” 

“just teach him a lesson or something, if you catch my drift.” she mumbles quickly, collecting her stuff. you look at her in surprise.

“what?” she snickers at your reaction, “im not a fucking virgin. time for class.” she mentions, slinging her bag over her shoulder.

“good idea..” you mumble to yourself as she walks off, leaving you to your own thoughts. 

good idea indeed. 

and eren gave you just the perfect opportunity. he burst in with no knock, no indication he was coming over, nothing. 

ymir was spending the night at historia’s so you didn’t have to worry about that. 

“eren what the fuck have i told you about coming in unannounced? ymir could’ve been i dont know, getting it on with historia for all you know.” you looked over at him, smiling internally at how he remembered to take his shoes off before joining you on your bed. you were not about to have his dirty ass shoes on your clean bed.

“sorry but to be fair i did see ymir walk into historia’s dorm so i knew you were alone.” he steals your soda to take a sip of it before placing it back on the bedside table. 

annie’s words echoed in your head, causing you to jump into action. 

you threw yourself over him, straddling his waist as he straightened up, excitement flashing in his eyes at where the night was leading. your threw your arms over his shoulders, shuffling so that you purposefully pressed onto his bulge through his jeans. 

he moved forward to catch your lips but you ducked your head, kissing down his cheek and jaw, running your tongue along the skin. your continued down, relishing in the way his hips jutted up once you pressed your lips to that one spot on his neck. you bit and sucked, marking him as yours. 

eren’s hands rested at your hips, his fingers digging into your thin tank top. 

you spot ymir’s tie on the floor. perfect.

you climb off of him, a quizzical look painting his face as you picked it up along with one of your (clean) socks. the brunet seemed to put two and two together.

“ohhh is that what we’re doing huh baby?” he threw his jacket off along with his shirt, expecting you to stare. however, he got the opposite. you ignored his movements, simply binding his hands to the bed and the using the (CLEAN!!!) sock as a makeshift ballgag. 

you were impressed with yourself. taking your phone out to take a quick picture before tossing it away and getting to work.

“you’ve been such a bitch boy for the past few days. why?” you questioned him, enjoying how he struggled to form words with the cloth in his mouth.

“is it because you haven’t got your dick wet in a while? is that it?” you tease, slipping your clothes off, leaving you in your underwear and bra. his eyes trailed your form, every curve and beauty mark. he flicked his eyes from you to his pants, which had a much evident tent in them now. 

you gave a little bit of mercy, pulling his jeans off and dragging a palm over his boxers where his cock had already leaked with precum. after a few teasing presses, you give him the relief of taking off his boxers.

you took his dick in your hands, pumping it a few times. you swiped your tongue along the tip, causing him to shudder under you. you stepped out of your panties, letting them drop to the floor. his eyes took notice of your arousal dripping down your thighs. your finger toyed with your clit, spreading your legs for him to see, his cock twitching when you shoved a finger into your cunt. 

eren wanted nothing more than to shove his face between your thighs right now. to lap and lick at your juices as you moaned his name. he tugged at the binding, brows furrowing as his cock begged for attention. 

you giggled at his neediness, crawling over to him and hovering over his length before fulling sitting down on him. drool split out of his mouth, causing the cloth ti go damp. a dull moan escaping his throat.

you were so hot and tight around him and he couldn’t help but buck his hips upwards into yours. though he easily hit into your sensitive spot.

“holy fuck, you’re so fucking big fuck.” you cursed, lifting yourself before slamming down onto him, causing him to throw his head back at the feeling. the lewd sound of skin on skin echoed throughout your room and whoever walked past would definitely know what was going on. 

you continue fucking yourself on his cock, using your fingers to pinch at your clit. the sight alone could’ve made eren cum in you but it was nothing compared to how you creamed around him, your walls pulsing around him. he was literally about to fall off the edge, before you pulled off of him. his cock falling limp as a tiny drop of cum dribbled out of him. 

“wha fe hell!” he yelled through the fabric. you pulled the sock in his mouth down, letting him talk freely.

“please y/n! i want to cum! please let me cum!” eren begged, tugging on the bindings harder. “please fuck- i just wanna feel your pretty pussy please.” he pressed on further, causing the corners of your lips to curl up into a teasing smile. his eyes were glassy, tears falling with a single blink. long brown hair sticking to his damp forehead, messy on the pillow under his head. 

“sorry baby..” you threw on a hoodie, your panties and some shorts after cleaning yourself up. 

“maybe if you weren’t such a little bitchy boy, i would’ve let you cum.” you slid his boxers and jeans back on for him, zipping him up.

“now, you stay here, im gonna get us some pizza, yeah?” you pulled his hair into a bun and loosened the tie around his wrists slightly. 

you’ll untie them completely later, but for now, you wanted to have your fun. 

[tantawans]

heyy, so i just watched the finale and i was quite content with most of it. i think my brain subconsciously suppressed the parts i hated tho? bc i came here and read stuff about it, abd was like 'ah, yes, i forgot boom and tor got married' LMAO i literally forgot the wedding was for them bc my brain just couldnt fathom why on earth those two, after having fought for so long and being so bad for one another, decided to fix their issues with marriage. and yes, boyo's advice to boom didnt fit her character, thats supposed to be empowering and thats learning how to love herself. i mean, i could expect that kind of advice from earth who clearly doesnt know how to love himself since he put up with toxic trash bag sam for so long, but not from boyo, that just didnt fit ehr character at all. but then i was really happy with boyo's ending. i know u and many were rooting for her to end up with good, but for me it was good that she wanted to take time for herself and learn how to love properly, since she has clearly been struggling with it since s1, and making her end up with good all of a sudden after everything just didnt fit right for me. im also happy music stood up for herself and locker got treated like the shitbag he is. also, i kind of saw the last scene with music and good as them ending up as good friends? i mean, i know they cuddled and stuff, but to me it seemed like they were having each other's back, since they were both struggling with similar situations. i liled their relationship throughout the series, bc they were always honest about what they were for each other, and among all of their struggles, they found someone they vould rely on and a friend. and crissamm were perfect, nothing to add, nothing to take, i just love them the way they are. they were the healthiest, most loving couple out of them all.

what i was really disappointed (but not quite surprised) was studearth. i mean, there was clearly no time at all for earth to both break up with sam and then get with stud, it would seem too rushed. they should have make them break up earlier on and not make stud seek love somewhere else just bc he was hurt once again. i agree that stud and ta dont seem quite right for me for that reason. stud doesnt love him, stud doesnt know how to love himself, and, honestly, i think he should pull a boyo and be by himself for a while. it was frustrating also, to watch earth pretend not to love him when he clearly does??? like, first of all, he was jealous af when stud frist introduced ta (sorry, pal, but u dont get jealous when friends get boyfriends), and then the pain printed on his face when he told stud he just wanted to be friends?????? like what was up with that. thats not the face of someone that just wants to be friends. he was clearly hiding his love for stud for some reason; perhaps bc he too thinks he should pull a boyo before he tries anything with him bu doesnt want stud to continue pining after him for longer than he already has. earth has always known stud loves him, and he has been leasing him on, so its good he has somehow "released" him from that so that maybe stud can focus on thinking about himself first.

i would really like a third season to close all of the loose endings, tho. ugh, im happy, but sad, and disappointed, but calm. theres just too many emotions.

also, i really need a gif of amm throwing water at that dude and saying 'sorry, i thought you were a trashcan bc all u say is crap' bc that was just ICONIC. so if u find someone who makes it (or if u decide to make it) please let me know!!!

love u!!! hope u are doing well

hey angel love u !!!! yeah that's how i feel about it as well like i was okay with most of it but the things i didn't like were things i was really hopeful for so i was a bit let down! mzxcbn you repressing the entire torboom wedding... same. like cris and amm looked so good i just pretended it was their wedding lmao

exactly??? like boyo queen of self love really said yeah marry him even though you'll just be fighting all the time!! and then when she was acting like they were the ideal couple when she was talking to good it just really didn't make much sense to me if i'm honest. yeah i'm happy with boyo's ending too! i would have liked her to be with good but this was definitely the next best ending for me i'm very proud of her!

honestly music slapping locker and standing up for herself was such a big highlight for me it was so good to see her do that!!! and yeah that's how i'm choosing to take it.. that they're just friends who understand each other because they're in the same situation.

OMG EXACTLY! like i'm supposed to buy they want to be just friends when earth looks like he's in physical pain and crying ???? okay sure. like i feel like im crazy because to me its so Obvious how much they love each other and yet they refuse to acknowledge it so i'm like ??? is it just me that sees this or ??? they just keep going in circles it's so frustrating i was really hoping they would be together :((((

i'm like 50/50 on a season 3 because i really do love the show but it's little things that just kind of disappoint me a bit. i'd hate for them to do a s3 and give me hope for studearth all over again just for it to not happen but i do think there's definitely room for a third season.

IT WAS ICONIC and you might have seen it already but i saw a gifset of it in the tag so if u haven't already reblogged it i will go tag u in it <3

[fbwzoo]

(1/?) Anxious about pets anon here! Thank you for your reply, I adapted all your tips and already feel better :) In my first ask I almost talked about my situation sounding a bit hoarderish but didn't to keep it short but I realized I prolly should've! So I'm gonna explain myself a bit better now that I'm calm, I'll try to keep this short but I have a tendency to ramble so I apologize for the length in advance. Also gonna call myself 🌱 from now on since Anxious about pets anon is a bit long!!

(2/?) Normally getting two geckos and turts in a couple weeks is definitely a red flag and if I saw someone do that I'd definitely side-eye them. I do not support getting so many animals this fast at all which is why it freaked me out so badly and it's something I never want to do/experience again. I find preparing and caring for a new (species of) pet for the first few weeks very stressful to begin with, so doing so for multiple species simultaneously with little to no warning has been awful.

(3/?) However the reason I ended up in the situation at all was because I had seen a post online about a leopard gecko that was for sale enclosure & supplies included for fairly cheap, so I opened it for fun. Turned out the geck was actually in my area and the set up was not... Very good. So I talked with the seller and came to the conclusion I could take him as my own leo struggles to keep up with the phase my feeders breed anyway so I had the means to do so

(4/?) All is good, I'm getting a leo (picking him up this weekend). No biggie, except oh no. I find a morph of created gecko I have been looking for & I've had an empty set up waiting for this moment for ages. I'm a bit put off by the timing as I don't really like the idea of buying two pets in such a little amount of time, but it's too late for I have fallen in love and I justify getting him bc I've been prepared for this for a long time and it also happened to be my birthday that day. 

(5/?) Still, took a bit of a hit from it and looking back I would still classify it as an impulse buy as I had not expected to run into the crestie that day even if I had been prepared for a while. This has also been the first time I haven't waited 12+ months between purchasing animals which planted the seed of anxiety in me and the word "hoarder" did cross my mind a couple times but I ignored it, mostly because I knew I'm not one and thought it was silly to think that, but also cuz it scared me 

(6/?) Fast forward a few days I'm talking with the leo seller again. I ask why they're getting rid of it and they tell me they're quitting the hobby so they're rehoming everyone. In curiosity I ask what other animals do they keep and we talk about it for a bit till they say "everyone else already has a home except this baby turtle, no one wants him". I have no interest in getting a turtle, but like a fool & out of wanting to be educated I ask about the species as I'm not very familiar with turts

(7/?) I thought I made it clear I'm not going to take him before the chat but as the 'educational' convo went on the seller was actually picking apart my reasons why not & as pets are a special interest of mine I engaged very enthusiasticly w/o realising. At the end of the chat they said "I'm glad they're both going to a good home". I had missed two of my latest therapy sessions & have severe difficulty telling people no so I replied with "I'm just trying to help" & had a panic attack.

(8/?) It was too late to back down now so I'm getting a turtle. But with that what I was getting as well was more anxious and I spent the next day in bed, which helped. I opened up about it to a close friend, and instead of them reassuring me they told me they've been meaning to ask me if I could take a tortoise (that turned out to be a turtle as well) out of their friends hands. I said Im not sure if this is the right time, and my friend asked me to think about

(9/?) I ask my friend why does this turtle need a home anyway, he tells me the owners travel a lot and that the turtle is loved but neglected. I felt sad. My friend knows how I'm gonna react if someone comes to me directly to ask for help, especially if it's about a suffering animal. I grind my teeth & talk with the owners telling them I'll see what I can do, then I get a text telling me my friend has already made a plan how to deliver the 100g aquarium to my apartment.

(10/?) Even when I may not have wanted the turtles I'm glad if I get to make their lives more enjoyable. I will give them my everything and do my best to provide a good home for them. Tho it does hurt me my discomfort is secondary to other people when they know I will agree to things as long as they apply enough pressure, especially when I'm already vulnerable, but I suppose it's my fault too for not communicating well enough and for allowing them to take advantage of my difficulties

(11/11) Sorry this turned out a LOT longer than expected!! You don't have to post it I just wanted to let you know I didn't just wake up one day and decide to expand my family by half, but that it was more of a gradual process that I found myself unable to stop even when I wanted to, & will work with my therapist so I can be prepared for these situations in the future. Thank you again for the advice, it has helped me feel better! Ps. I will update when all the pets are here and settled down! -🌱

I hope you don’t mind me posting, I wanted to share your story with others, especially in case anyone was still worrying about the situation!

I’m sorry that you had so many people stomp all over your boundaries, especially your friend. That was super not cool of them. :/ I understand having difficulty saying no, especially when you’re wanting to help animals - I have issues with that too. I’m glad that you’re so aware of the problem & that you have a plan to work on it though!

Also I wanted to add one more bit of advice - keep in mind that you do not have to be the forever home for every one of these animals. Especially if you find yourself getting overwhelmed or having difficulty with care. You have to take care of yourself as well as the animals. I know turtles can be a fair amount of work and money to set up well, and while I know you said you’re up for the challenge, I just want to make sure you give yourself some room to breathe. If you do find that you’ve taken on more than you can deal with, it’s okay to look into options for rehoming some of the animals, and that doesn’t make you a bad person. I can definitely vouch for the experience of finding yourself in over your head & needing to take a step back and find a better place for a pet, even when it’s really hard! I know these words might not be necessary, but I just wanted to make sure someone said them, in case you needed to hear it. ♥

Thank you for the update and further explanation, and I hope everyone settles in well! I look forward to more updates if/once you’re able to do so. :) 

[shakespearean-tc]

Last day of school post?

Originally posted July 3rd, 2019 Ok so i guess it wasnt my official last dayof school but it was like a month ago and i decided to,,, talk about it??? since i never did and it was literally like ugh my heART this is basically more stuff about A so if you arent interested ignore this post

So,,, the last day that i really went to school was this thing that ,,,, idk if other schools do it but its lagoon day where the seniors go to Lagoon and like half the teachers go to chaperone, right??? So i got there early because I always get to school early and I saw a familiar mess of brown hair and i just got hype??? My heart practically did the happy emote and he turned around and smiled really big and he was like “M!!!! Hi!” and he waved and stuff then he went up the stairs because he was heading to the class he was subbing for (that was before class)

Later my friends came to school and i was just kinda sitting there being a dork and daydreaming and then i was like “OH YEAH A is here!!!” and my theatre friend was really happy yknow and we jsut talked for a while and i was like “man i wish he was subbing for my french teacher, but i know hes not because she didnt hire a substitue because she knew like no one would come” and so i got a little sad but yknow i knew id see him at lunch and stuff

well the bell rang and i headed up stairs to the french room and it was empty from what i saw so i popped my head in and GUESS WHO WAS SITTING AT THE DESK

YUP YOU GUESSED IT

So i played it cool because i can totally do that yknow and just kinda leaned against the doorframe and i was like “well, fancy seeing you here.” and he looked up and smiled again and laughed and he was like “are you following me?” and i laughed and sat down in my desk and i asked him how he was etc etc and we jsut talked for a while until the bell rang signaling that class was to start but??? no one walked in??? and so i was talking to him when two of my friends walked in and stuff and so we just?? sat and played cards all period long?? i say this but we actually (A and I) broke into song because I mentioned this musical I really love (Hadestown) and A kinda stared at me for a minute and his eyes went wide and the conversation went as such:

A: “Wait, you like Hadestown?” Me: “Yeah? I LOVE Hadestown.” A: “I… I love Hadestown too! I just didn’t know that anyone liked it.” Me: “Okay, wait- What’s your favorite song?” A: “Well, Way Down Hadestown is SUPER great, but the one I really love is Wait for Me or Hey, Little Songbird. I wish I had Patrick Page’s voice. What about you?” Me: “Hey, Little Songbird is literally one of my favorites. Also same?? I wish I could sing as good as anyone in the cast.” A: *he smiled and started singing it (his vocal range is tenor so he hiked up the key and we changed the tune a bit because yes)*

So we literally ran around the room singing Hey, Little Songbird and like, 17 other songs from miscellaneous musicals. My other friends joined in too and it was so much fun

Obviously, we were still in school, and so that class period had to end ;-; I had Physics next and I was whining to him how I really didn’t want to go. He turned to me and said “Listen. You’ve gotta go to class M. If you actually get permission from your teacher to come back, then fine. But I don’t want you to skip class because you missed me.” I agreed, begrudgingly and headed to Physics, which was literally across the hall.

I went in talked to my teacher and was back in the french room in like under 15 minutes

The classroom was empty and he was just sitting at the teachers desk playing pokemon on his frigging nintendo ds and i laughed and he looked up and was like “oh hey, i didnt think you’d be back” i told him my physics teacher told me i could leave since,,, she doesnt really like me and i had already done everything i needed to do like fr its the end of the school year why would she want me to hang out in her class for an hour???

anyway i hopped up onto the table and we just,,, talked??? about everything??

I told him I was super bummed about school ending and not being able to go to Drama class everyday. He told me he was worried because him and his girlfriend were having a lot of issues lately and he was struggling with knowing to stick it out or just break it off. I told him that I was not gonna influence his decision whatsoever, but that whatever he chose,,, he needed to keep in mind that HIS mental and physical health was the most important at this point. We eventually brushed that subject away because I told him I would be of no help at all bc,,, ive like never been in a healthy relationship so i didnt know what was right and what was wrong - i dont remember how but i think he asked me how class was going and what classes i was going to be happy to be done with and i was like “hOOOO BOI HISTORY CLASS fOR SURE” and he kinda laughed and was like,,, “what why”

and i just weNT OFF telling him how trashy of a class it was and that no one would pay attention and that my teacher would always rant about democrats and liberals and just say all this garbage about how trashy immigrants were and etc etc and he just sighed and he apologised that i had to deal with a teacher like that and we started to talk about some prick in that class that went off about how rape isnt rape if she doesnt outright say no

me and A just,,, bonded over mutual disgust for this kid haha

anyway after that i just kinda,,, decided to lay down on the table bc i was tired and i kinda sighed and stared at the ceiling. I think A could tell something was up with me because he asked me what was wrong and I kinda gave him a “nothing is wrong im fine” kinda mumbled response. of course this is A and he obviously knew i was lying so he asked me again and i jsut kinda started to choke up and I sat up with tears in my eyes. Immediately he was like, “Omg what’s the matter whats up” and I just,, broke down and told him I was super worried about my friend who he knows as well. I told him that I was stressed and that I felt like our friendship was mostly one sided. That I was just there because… I was the one that put everything into our friendship and instead of her giving AND taking as well, it was just her taking and taking and i was left in the dust. I basically poured my heart out to him and told him that I didn’t want to break things off because I didn’t want to hurt her but I told him that my mental health was suffering gREATLY. Of course, he took my advice and shoved it back into my face. It went something like this,,, A: “You need to take care of yourself. You. Come. First. You put everyone else before you, and that’s such an admirable trait, but you need to take care of yourself as well. Your mental health is in danger because you refuse to put yourself first. And you need to. At least, every once in a while. Anyone is lucky to have you care so deeply for them, but… you need to step back and be selfish for a while.” (I kind of flinched when he said selfish, because I have a big issue with that word, and I guess he noticed) “Why do you- You don’t like that word. Selfish. You don’t like it, do you?” Me: “I just… I’ve been called selfish a lot by my family and past friends and romantic… partners…? I don’t like it at all.” A: “You? Selfish?” *he laughs* “Bull. You’re one of, if not THE most selfless people I know. Listen to me. It is OKAY to be selfish sometimes. Not all the time, yeah. But you need to take care of yourself.” Me: “I just… I love my friends so much that I… I’d rather that I be miserable and they be happy, because… then they’re happy. Y’know?” A: *he smiles, but I think it was kinda a sad smile because his eyes looked a little tearful* “M. You have a heart of gold.That’s rare nowadays. In my opinion, it’s a blessing and a curse. You just need to learn to take care of yourself. You are the most important person in your life.” The conversation kind of… fizzled out after that emotional,,, discussion but we did talk about college and I asked him a lot about being a student teacher. The bell rang, we said goodbye and??? That was really it? I visited him at lunch and we ate and talked a lot more because I had a bunch of questions about college (i’ve been thinking about going to the same college that he is because they have a really good teaching program) but that was,,, pretty much it. School’s been over for a while and I just asjdfajf i miss him a lot this post was so  long super super sorry haha have a good day i guess??? end of the post??? how do i finish this whatever goodbye yall haha

[leftnipsdoodles]

almost got ‘em all! thanks everyone for asking! answers are below~

1. What age did you begin getting into art? Why did you get into it? hmmmmm im gonna try to answer this as interestingly as i can. so ive been drawing all my life and i think it was just bc a) there was always art supplies lying around and b) i just had so many things in my head and wanted a way to express them or just get them out. like when i played with my toys i was always completely quiet bc i was imagining everything in my head. sound/speech/words just weren’t as interesting to me as a way to put my thoughts out there as visuals were. also i rly liked ranma 1/2 and wanted to draw it.

4. Do you make merchandise? Favorite kind of merch to make? i don’t. i did think about making charms once, even if just for myself. you know, those cute, chibi-esque ones everybody makes? then i remembered i couldn’t draw sth cute if you put a gun to my head.

5. Who/what are your art inspirations? I listed some of my favorite artists the last time i answered questions like this so i guess this time i’ll go with the ‘what’ rather than the ‘who’. to me, the most inspiring thing are atmospheres. it could be a garbage container with 1000 stickers stuck and half-way teared down on it. the way the colors and rips in the stickers look and how it adds to the mood of the location. or sometimes it’s listening to a certain song at a certain time in a certain place that creates a unique mood and inspires you. but looking at art has never been an inspiration. so there’s that.

6. What is something (a technique, behaviorism, etc.) that you do with drawing that you think is unique to you?

ok but in seriousness, i don’t think there’s anything. any uniqueness comes from a lack of skill and knowledge so i don’t think it’s worth mentioning. like what do you even want me to say?? that i edit pictures i drew in clip studio in ms paint?? bc i do.

7. Describe your style. What would you change? neither here nor there. i feel like you can tell i’m a bit scatterbrained bc my drawings always look like they were done without any kind of direction lmao.. in general, i’d like to draw more realistically. i’d like to look at my own drawings and think ‘this pose looks rly natural, the way the clothes fit, the way the face looks, the perspective, the way this character interacts with the environment; it all looks right’. i’d also like to be able to use colors better but it’s hard when you struggle to name more than 3.

8. How do you get out of an art block? well, usually, I don’t. i’m pretty sure i’ve been in one for the past 3 years or so lmao (lamenting my anguish online) but i’ve been told that just working through it is the best way to go. just drawing. even if you hate everything. future you will thank you for it, bc you’ll probably be learning things while doing so, even if you can’t see it at that moment.

9. Does your style reflect who you are visually or your personality? both tbh. if you saw a pic of myself next to a drawing of proto danny you’d definitely see a resemblance in a way. (things like the clothes i draw him in are a given i think. ive probably drawn 90% of my wardrobe at this point) but my personality too. the things i spend more time on while drawing, the colors i choose, the mood in my drawings. that’s all a part of me. im pretty sure my oc tags are fairly accurate documentation of my mood swings and general attitude towards life throughout time lmao also, this thing i summed up in my tags a few years ago

10. What do you find easiest about drawing? getting the ideas for it

11. What do you find hardest about drawing? actually drawing said ideas. look, the moment i sketch the idea down it’s already 50% worse than i imagined it, then when i go to actually draw the thing it turns into sth so bad that i can’t even come up with a forced joke about the scenario. but anyway, lately the thing that scares me the most about drawing (and why i can hardly do it) is heads. heads heads heads. faces faces faces. i just cant do it man lmao

12. Is art part of your career or a hobby? What is your goal with art in life? my goal is to get a better hobby and to never have to return to drawing ever again. but that’s wishful thinking. i guess it’ll always stay my biggest hobby but i’d consider my life a failure if it ever turned into a career.

13. Advice to give to beginning artists? draw your ideas. never limit your creativity bc you don’t have the skill to express it to its full extent. a crappily drawn picture that conveys a cool idea or creates a cool atmosphere is just as good as an expertly crafted painting that has a lame subject. there’s a reason ppl admire the mona lisa but would rather read 90s manga than stare at that portrait all day. god. i guess motivational speaker is another career that’s out of the question lmao but you get what i mean!!

14. Advice to give to your artist peers?

also don’t take advice from me.

15. What have you drawn recently that you are proud of? ‘recent’ is relative, and so is ‘proud’, but i still rly like how this pic turned out. i just feel like it looks very decided, like i knew what i wanted to do and did it (i didn’t)

16. Show something you drew in the past that shows your improvement. 2017 - 2011

ahh tbh.. looking at this i don’t feel like i’ve improved a lot at all lmao..

17. Show something you drew in the past you’re still proud of. this pic might just be one of my favorites i’ve ever drawn. it’s still alright art-wise and it’s probably the most from-the-heart thing i’ve drawn so obviously, i have a soft spot for it lmao but i also just found this again and i still love it, even tho it’s ugly. also this bone which, infamously, is my crowning achievement

you know what i find funny rn? that it’s hard for me to decide which pic to choose for this question. i mean i went through my old art and cringed a LOT but there’s so many pics that im rly fond of, now that i’ve gained some distance to them. i wonder if it’ll be like that with the stuff i draw now, too.

19. Share a tutorial or reference that helped you. nothing concrete but i’ll mention ‘blind drawing’ again. it helped me get a different feel for the lines i’m drawing and, theoretically, would have made me better at drawing from life too

20. Plug time! Where else can followers find you? in the woods around 3am. don’t make eye contact.

[cheollies]

Soulmate!Soonyoung

a/n: this came out longer than i expected bc i got carried away with the ridiculousness of soonyoung

soulmate au where you will switch bodies with each other randomly

everyone thought soonyoung was the unlucky 1% that didn't have a soulmate

why? because he didn't have anything that showed signs of having one

he didn't have a timer, he couldn't hear his soul mates thoughts, he couldn't feel anything his soulmate did

but soonyoung was positive, no matter how many people gave him that pity look soonyoung always smiled brightly because he definitely knows he has one.

soonyoung looked online for answers and he found a forum about people who didn't have any physical signs of a soulmate, he discovered that for some people it takes time for it to develop

so that's what soonyoung believes

“it's not that I don't have a soulmate. I just haven't figured out how to find them” 

he's really positive through all of this, he's just this kind of really free spirit that whole heartedly believes he has one and on the off chance that he is in fact that 1% well he says he'll just steal seokmin’s soul mate

the first time he switched bodies with you wow did he freak out a lot

he woke up really groggy and didn't know where he was because the blanket was a lot fluffier than he remembered and when did he get a lot more pillows and why does his chest feel heavy

soonyoung literally shoots up out of bed and falls off and He's running to the bathroom and he has this horrified face like “IM A GIRL”

he's really really really confused and so he does what any person would go

google ‘'why did I suddenly turn into a girl’

turns out a lot of the results point towards soulmates and now soonyoung is grinning from ear to ear like “TAKE THAT SEOKMIN I ACTUALLY HAVE A SOULMATE”

and for 10 minutes soonyoung stares in the mirror bc wow his soulmate is kinda breathtaking even with bed hair

feels really really really bad bc he has to change out of your pajamas and He's closing his eyes with your shirt off trying to find another shirt and He's screaming “IM SORRY”

leaves a note on your mirror saying he's sorry once again

finally changes into normal clothes and because he feels kind of skeptic, he's slowly stepping out of your room

found your phone and wants to unlock it but doesn't know the password so he can't really call anyone

instead he locks himself in your apartment out of fear because he doesn't know what a girl acts like

decides to binge watch tv shows and eat the junk food you had lying around (you did not appreciate the 15 bags of snacks he decided to eat)

he discovers your laptop and luckily for him it wasn't locked, he's messing around when it finally occurs to him that he could log into his facebook and call the members

video calls seokmin

seokmin screams when a girl answers “WHO ARE YOU”

soonyoung decides to mess with seokmin like “hi seokmin, I really enjoyed our time last night”

cue seokmins soulmate in the background asking who she is and why they were together

soonyoung laughing his ass off before he’s like “okay sorry, it's soonyoung’

“stop lying, soonyoung is a boy”

“I'm soonyoung I switched bodies with my soul mate”

“DID SOONYOUNG PUT YOU UP TO THIS.”

“I SAID IM SOONYOUNG”

that goes on for 5 minutes before soonyoung is finally like “FINE THEN WHERE IS SOONYOUNG”

soonyoung goes to his apartment bc apparently his soulmate locked themselves in his room and refuses to come out

when the doors open Chan, Minghao, and Jun are staring at the small girl at the door like “who are you”

“I'm here for soonyoung”

Chan: he's kind of busy right now

soonyoung doesn't even bother, he walked right straight in and knocks on his door “hey its me.”

and the three boys watch in astonishment as the door opens and the girl is being pulled in

‘'does soonyoung have a girlfriend”

now soonyoung is looking at himself in the eyes of his soulmate

“did you change my clothes?”

“iM SORRY I SWEAR I DIDNT LOOK THOUGH.”

you two just kinda sit in his room together really astonished that this was how the universe decided to have you guys be soul mates

and its really silent for a while before soonyoung says “I didn't look at your body but did you?”

“ARE YOU SERIOUSLY ASKING THAT RIGHT NOW”

“I WAS JUST CURIOUS”

it isn't until the next morning when you guys switch back, so you basically spent the whole night together kind of getting to know each other

when you two switch back its a fight for the bathroom because you two literally held it in for 24 hours

“THIS IS MY BATHROOM”

“YOU CHANGED MY CLOTHES WITHOUT ASKING”

jun, minghao, and chan sitting in the kitchen staring at the chaos because one) soonyoung just spent the night with a girl and two) what was that about changing her clothes

after telling everyone the whole body switch situation everything just kinda makes sense now

you and soonyoung will switch bodies at least once a month

its really weird and random but you two actually end up enjoying it after the first few times

you asked soonyoung to dance in your body once and you literally developed a massive crush on yourself bc you looked good

you and soonyoung actually start to get use to being in each others bodies like you don't mind using the bathroom in his body (since you saw it while doing the do)

soonyoung acts cutely when he's in your body, says oppa a lot because it sounds cute from your voice

“OPPAA”

“I swear to god soonyoung”

HE ONCE GOT YOUR PERIOD WHILE IN YOUR BODY AND STARTED SCREAMING THAT HE WAS DYING

it was the worse body switch of your life because soonyoung cried saying his face was so beautiful

soonyoung uses your body to flirt and mess with the guys

the first time soonyoung knew he loved you was the day after your 3rd time switching bodies

he woke up with you snuggled into his chest, his arm was being used as your head rest as you lazily had your arm draped around his stomach

and you were dressed in his large white t-shirt with shorts on and even though he was the one that put it on the day before it was an entirely new sight with his actual eyes

he couldn't help but stare at your features because he found you so beautiful, so naturally breathtaking and he wondered if you saw just how beautiful you were to him when you are in his body

like he just can't wrap his head around it, when he's in your body he just thinks ‘'oh I'm y/n for today okay’ but when he's looking at you with his own eyes and body, he just feels his chest thump loudly and all he wants to do is lift you in his arms and pepper you with kisses

and while he's watching you sleep soundly into his chest with bits of drool at the ends of your mouth he's swooning in his head and his whole body fills with joy and that's when he knows he's head over heels

soonyoung prefers sports bras over regular ones and you could not agree more

you two literally bond a lot about the struggles of being a guy and girl

you once gave guy advice to the other boys and it was really awkward because they always forget that you become soonyoung once a month

jun once complimented your body to soonyoung while you were in soonyoungs body

it was awkward so you decided to not tell jun that it was the time of the month

but you appreciated the compliment

while in your body, soonyoung got hit on and he didn't know what to do

“being a girl is hard”

once got turned on while in your body

“WE ARE NOT TRYING WHILE OUR BODIES ARE SWITCHED SOONYOUNG” 

soulmate soonyoung is a really cute free spirited guy that respects your body while he's in it. and he just really really loves you and always makes sure your body is in tip top shape for the next day. he's also just a cute bun that likes to mess with others but by the end of the day he just loves snuggling with you and holding you in his arms

[survivorkvaloya]

Episode #1: “Us Students Sure Are Learning To Read Today Huh” - Quillynn

this is so stressful I literally have so much respect for these returnees who are putting themselves thru ANOTHER main season. Like i've been in this for like an hour and I'm already #struggling to keep up with everyone and trying to talk to everyone. I'm literally on call as I type this being stressedt as heckie. I honestly truly am so excited about my mentor, I've heard so many things about Brett and we're both HOS winners so I'm excited!!! I feel like we'll get along really well. I don't have any outstanding first impressions right now but I love Dani that's p much it. I'm also the only newbie on this call right now and I don't know what these hoes are talking about. Bye.

I'm really excited for this! Its a lot to take in with everything thats going on and the one world twist and everything so it feels like a totally new experience. This is only my second ever ORG but I do honestly feel good about it so far. Everyone seems nice and I'm really happy with my mentor! I'm really hoping to go far here and am trying to set myself up early as a strong newbie, I know that will probably put a target on my back later down the line, but I want that. What's the fun in playing in the shadows. I want attention and I want to make an impact hopefully I can keep myself in the game long enough to make that happen!

I'M FREE OF ALEXIS THANK THE LORD

ok hi it's been a little over a day since the game started, and I feel more chill about everything, but I'm still SUPER EXCITED to be playing woo!! 

I mentioned yesterday I was excited about having Brett as a mentor? That still mostly remains, but... he's not very forthcoming on advice. I really really need to get the ball rolling and talk to him about game stuff. I wanna form a really strong bond with my mentor and make the most of this season theme. He's nice and all but small talk with him is boring.

I'm tryna be social this game, I'm starting out small today and I messaged everyone on my tribe. I feel like I got a pretty strong first impressions read on everyone. Nicholas - My king. I've been friends with him for a while and we agreed we're working together already, us being on the same tribe is such a plus. Quillyn - Icon? So easy to talk to. Interesting to talk to. I think they're close with Nicholas too so that's perfect  JD - Ahhhhhh I don't know. I've heard so many good things about her but so far I'm not impressed tbh kljgdkg. Is that mean to say? Oh well, idk I didn't talk to her much but I'm not sure how well our personalities mesh.  Zoe - Actually the one person I haven't talked to yet because she didn't respond to me. She seems to be the least active and the youngest. Potential first boot if we lose. But I wanna protect her and befriend her bc we both have the same org mother (Jay B)

My plan moving forward is to align with the mentors and play a super strong social game. Last night on call it was me plus 4 mentors and it struck me that if I align with mentors it'd be easier for me to get in with students. I'm gonna try to talk to everyone in the game by the end of the round, but my first target tomorrow is to talk to all the mentors of the people on my tribe. I wanna get in good with them. 

That's pretty much it for strategy. But, something that's highkey kinda annoying me is my tribe on this flash game challenge. Like I'm really good at Cats so I'm okay doing it but I am AMAZING at Casanova and it's the most important game because of the clues. Like, JD came into the tribe chat bragging about her 2.08 million score like girl.... my high score is 3.5 million on that game. I was just in a game and someone got 9 million on it. Like, that aint that good of a score. But I also can't be that bitch and say I wanna take Casanova because I am genuinely good at Cats and no one else wants it, but I'm still being bitter bc I want that idol piece clue. Anyway, I'm tired, good night.

Okay SO 

 Day 1 I wanted to kill myself. You put Jules on my tribe. The girl who lied to me and gave me 1st boot in Olympics. A game with no idols and she still lied to get my voted off. And she's on my FIVE person tribe again. KTHX. 

 My student is nice. I like him, I like that he hasn't done that many games. I was worried that he'd just want to play the game and not care about the mentor thing, but like my good friend Katie, I want to play for my student. But once my student gets out, if he does, then I'm gonna play for myself. 

 So far I was on call the whole night. I made some real connections with Jack and Willow. Two completely new people to me, and I love them. I also started talking to Liam and Christine a bit. Those two are on my tribe and if we happen to lose then I REALLY need them on my side. Brett is nice. He's not my cup of tea right now, I can tell he doesn't care to talk to me, no matter how hard I try. He's closer to Jules age and her personality so I'm so fucking worried that they're on my tribe. 

 FUN FACT for the hosts. Gage (Mr Winner up in this bitch) and I know each other. I played HIS first game and I helped him out as much as I can. I was like his mentor two years ago and now we're here together and he remembers me! So I'm happy. 

 Also oh shit. Danielle and I are literally best friends. It's hard to hide. We were literally on call watching The Challenge when the cast went out and we found out we were playing with each other. The two of us stayed on call all night and made tight relationships with Willow and Jack together. She kind of let it out of the bag to Jack how well we actually fucking know each other. And then I stopped trying to hide it and we all laughed and had a good time. And I truly believe he will work with us for the beginning of this game. 

 Also me winning the mentor's idol piece, I didn't tell anyone but Danielle. I told Jack my score and Andreas that I got higher than his, but obviously no one knows who really won. I didn't tell my student because it's not even a full idol and I don't know if I'm going to be in his plans for this game, I want him to want me but I still have to feel it out. 

 Also Andreas and I have been friendly rivals for like 3 years so I'm excited he's here. I fucking love the other returnee tribe and I'm upset I'm not on it. 

 I'm really happy with the casting because I literally only know Gage, Jules, Andreas and Danielle. Gage, Jules who I haven't talked to in 2 years, and Andreas who I talk to like, only a couple times a year.

So you could call me shook honestly. I somehow got asked back for another season of Tumblr Survivor, something that I thought I would never do again. I didn't really like the community that it is now but right now? I LOVE IT. I get casted with my best friend Ryan and we legit had no idea that the other was casted. When I saw him, I gotta say that I was pretty scared. He's such a good player and that's threatening to me. But, I'm happy to announce that we might just be the perfect final 2. We talked all last night and played Roblox and it seemed like we were right on a good track of being number 1 allies. My thing with Ryan is that I really never know where his head is at. He isn't very clear sometimes so I don't know. On to other people though. I really like my tribe. Connor and I seem to connect the most on this tribe. I would think that if we were to go to tribal, he would have my back the most. Willow is another person that I adore. We sat on call all of night one and talked about weird/deep shit. She's someone that I can really work well with in this game. Andreas is someone that I am on the fence with. He somehow knew that Ryan and I were friends because he messaged me and said 'OMG Ryan!!!' and I almost thought I was fucked for a second. I didn't want to tell anyone that Ryan and I are really good friends because I don't really know how they would find out here. We were old school Tumblr and I don't think a lot of these young kids know us from back then. I also am vibing with Jack a lot as Ryan and I were the last ones on the tribe call. I almost guarantee that he got the advantage and Ryan already told me what he had (since he won it). We have 1/3 of the idol on our side already. I'm beyond happy but part of me is like ?? shit. Things have been going too well for me and I'm scared to see the downfall of Big T. 

Mkay so I have my THOTS I THINK It's midnight and I rlly should be sleeping but here I am doing this! First off, my tribe. I'm hosting Christine on RB, so instant plus. I've wanted to get to now Brett, so that's a slight advantage as we go along. Ryan and I hit it off right away, so I think he could be a valuable ally along the way as well. I haven't gotten to 1 on 1 convos with...um..lemme just go look for her name...Jules! Right, her. She seems alright but meh, I could easily see myself voting her out early on if she was to become dead weight. Second, my student, JD. Hello..? You there..? We've had one convo so far, and my mind is out the window. It's gonna take some time to get used to him tbfh, but as long as he's not voted out, I get my advantage! Third, my game plan as far as bitchy Liam goes. I'll lay a bit lower at the start, but I will bring down my hard blindside hammer the moment an opportunity arises. Peace. xoxo

whew so first of all i am super excited to see what happens in this game it's my first ever main season so i am really anxious and ready to get started!

i guess that i am going to begin with the first aspect of the game: mentors & students - i really feel like this is a fun twist and im excited to see what it has in store for us. i love the concept of extra credit and us having to help one another instead of tear each other apart. my mentor is the QUEEN big tuna/danielle and i absolutely couldn't be happier. i think she is a sweet gal and everyone seems to really like her so that's really great news for me! however i do feel a gut feeling that she doesn't like me or something or that someone told her something about me bc she seems really standoffish so idk i might just be crackedt but she seems like she isn't ever too thrilled to chat but it might just be her personality or something. either way i know her and ryan are super close so im hoping that she will keep me safe with him down the line.

as for the cast, i really adore a lot of people here and can see myself working closely with them. people like colin, willow, quil lynn, trixie, lily, lauren vorhees all stand out to me as people i would love to work with down the line and i feel like my relationships with them are pretty great as they are right now to where i don't need to work to hard to cultivate anything new. i do want to work with new people and step out of my comfort zone for this game and i am stoked to see some people who aren't the same dusty 7 bitches who are in every game so it is certainly refreshing to say the least. my goal for this round is to go around and try to spark a conversation with almost every single person who is in the game right now.

on my tribe i currently feel pretty safe. quil lynn is a great ally and we work together very well and she already told me she has an idol piece so that's great. she is the ONLY person I have told about the legacy advantage bc i 100% trust her. and now if anyone else finds out that i have it i can pinpoint it on her and know that the trust i have is misplaced. i really feel like the legacy advantage is going to be pivotal later in the game and it may not be able to help me but if i get into a situation like i have in my past few games where people i love are at f5 and stand no chance it could be a real game changer!

lastly i guess i will talk about the whole one world concept. i am really scared of one world games after i played another side season which had a one world twist and it fucked me up the ass with a knife and then twisted it multiple times. like a huge alliance formed and i got fucked from every single angle and it was annoying to say the least. now this time around i can choose to either be a part of that type of a movement or i can choose to just hope no one forms a cross tribe wild alliance. right now i am just going to be upbeat and social and just wait to see how things pan out, but my eye is open and im ready to strike up an alliance if shady things start to happen. let's just hope my tribe can pull immunity and i can have a very easy first round with no trauma!

Well hello! I'm so happy to be back, especially with this cast full of icons. I'm super happy that Lauren is my student cause she's an absolute gem. The only concern I have is that were not on the same tribe so I'm not sure how this is gonna work out. When it comes to my tribe, I'm literally obsessed with everyone. I've seen Jules and Ryan around the community and to finally get to play with them is amazing! And then Liam is actually hosting me in another game which is pretty cool, he's really nice but a little quiet. Then there's Brett and let me just tell you that I adore him and the fact that his student is Colin!?!? Its literally perfect. Me and Colin were freaking out about it on the first day since we all won HOS seasons in a row so if we can make an alliance out of that? Beautiful. So yeah, hopefully we don't lose any time soon cause I adore these people.

As for people not on my tribe, I get a really good vibe from Danielle and then Willow seems pretty adorable. Lily is also a sweetheart so if she and Lauren get along, that'd be amazing. The only person I've actually played TS with before is Connor. My only worry about him is that he might boot me early just to put me in Japan but other than that we're good!

For now everythings looking good, although I am concerned about the idol system. I normally work alone or with another person I trust dearly when it comes to this stuff so potentially involving 3 people!? Terrifies me. But yeah, other than that things are good and I'm just hoping neither my tribe or Lauren's go to tribal anytime soon. :)

My first confessional! This'll be boring. Anyway: My tribe dodged tribal! Sadly, my mentor's tribe has to go along with Quilynn's and Nicholas's. I think they'll all be safe though. I'm excited to actually work with them longer this time around. I got a piece to the idol clue, although I lied to Jackson about this. I really like him, but I need to make sure I can trust him 100%. I hope he won't be upset by this when he reads this. Sorry!!!! I like everybody on my tribe, it would have been hard to make a vote if we went to tribal. Let's hope that doesn't happen!

So we lost all because of irrelevant zoe not submitting! Like that would be fine whatever but when JD literally tried to help her with the issues she was having with the game and she just doesn't respond and then totally ghosts? like okay bye! However nobody on this tribe knows how to fucking read so even after getting the results we all just assumed it was a double tribal still until my mentor (Shout out to Willow she's great) wanted to teach me lol and helped me figure out that both tribes are actually just voting off one person which totally throws a wrench into this zoe plan! She is still my target, but now there are other factors, like first, why would the mentors vote off our weakest link? Connor is zoe's mentor so he probably wont vote her, and also what is stopping us as students from trying to take out one of them! I would like to make a big move like that, but it is so early in the game and because of zoe being an inactive flop we also are down a vote. Hopefully all goes well and we still get her out. JD also told me he didn't find the idol piece and I had to acted surprised lol I know Chelsea found it but nobody else needs to know that, especially now that it means we have 2/3 pieces! 

Okay SO we lost the challenge which pissed me off and OMG I JUST REALIZED THE BANNER ON THIS CONFESSIONAL PAGE MOVES IM HERE FOR IT!

Anyways so we lost the challenge, which was not to my surprise because these people aren't amazing at flash games and I did not try very hard in it. I need people to think i'm not amazing in them, because in great lakes it really put a target on my back. 

So, let's talk about these people in this game. I'm not really bonding with any of them which tbh I'm not too worried about - for now. They all seem very inactive, everyone seems super busy and i'm not about it. The person I actually get along with the most in terms of the game is Jules, we both have a bond of being original mentors. But as far as that, these people are really boring and scare me for that reason. ESPECIALLY CONNOR AND CHRISTINE, because he didn't follow me on insta and if people don't follow you on insta after you promote it, they want you out. But those two really just don't want to talk to me and I'm not gonna force myself upon them. When they need me i'll be there.

So currently the plan is to vote zoe out which I think is really stupid on the newbies side but I understand why, im interested to see if connor will agree to it. I learned in the first SvM that fighting too much for your student is dumb, so honestly if I were him i'd let it fly.

So let's hope I dont get voted out, I would not like that. Peace and love

omg I havent submitted a confessional like at all yet so this one is probably gonna be super long I'm sorry. Okay so I didn't know any of the mentors coming into this season but I knew 4 of the students?? what the heck. I'm just gonna do a cast assesment of my tribe and other people I've talked to in One World idk. 

QuilLynn- omg I love QuilLynn, I'm so happy that I got her as my student! She's so nice and iconic! I heard a bunch of great things about her since she played in Bouvet. I'm really hoping we can both do well in this season together!  Danielle- We talked for like 3 hours on call during night 1 with Ryan, and she's super awesome, and she lives in Wisconsin, which is where I was born lol Gage- We talked for a little bit, he seems nice so far and his dad owns a carnival which is awesome  Andreas- Andreas is cool I guess, but sometimes he can give one word answers when hes texting which is boring but if we get conversation going then hes nice Connor- I think out of anyone in my tribe I've talked to him the least which is probably bc hes busy from his job, and hes nice but doesnt give me a lot of conversation to go off of, idk if that makes sense  Colin- I played 2 sides with him, hes really nice so I'm excited that hes getting a chance to play a main season  Jack- I played a side with him and he was the first boot of the tribe but I like him hes pretty interesting  Nicholas- Nicholas has somehow played every side season I've played lmao and I think hes played more orgs then me, and hes really nice  Lily- I played in a side with her too and shes a super nice person but Dana said that as a player she doesnt seperate games which really sucks Ryan- I skyped with him for 3 hours on night one with Danielle and hes so nice!

Anyway I think for this next tribal its gonna be a fairly unanimous vote for Zoe to leave bc she didnt submit for the challenge and seems really inactive, so Im glad/ I hope its an easy vote. I mean it'll suck that Connor's gonna be sent to exile but oh well? 

So, take four. Here we go again. My student has NOT been online. We have had next to NO conversation about anything. It's like trying to mentor a rock. My tribe lost immunity, of course. Why would I be on a winning tribe. That would be too convenient. And, of course, it's a joint tribal council. And, of course, there has been a plan made to vote out my student. Now, im fine with that, and i go by the whole as long as it aint me aesthetic in the beginning of games before i start 'making moves', but it concerns me that i was the last person to find out. I could be reading into it, but im on the bottom of this tribe. Im trying to get some information from the other tribe to see who they have a plan to vote for and, if it's someone i think being eliminated from my tribe helps me, then so be it. 

as first confessionals go, heres a low down of my tribe:  tuna - love. office. its beat juice. end of story  willow - good vibes only, seems like a gemini or a libra. good.  andreas - didnt you leave the community i....  gabe :) - i dont know her

uhh so, thats where we are ish, folks. currently, its just a big ol' mess 

 oh and fuck one world

Holy fuck so okay..... Ummmmm this is my first confessional so I feel like I have to go over everything. The first day was a lot to take in, like there are 4 people here that I'm playing another game in, I've never done a one world before so that's fun. Sooooo that challenge was fun... I think this is the third time I have done Casanova as a challenge, but I'm good at it and me and Q were... I'm gonna say that I was being a greedy bitch because I wanted that clue and if we got the clue then there would be a tribe that didn't get it... Not that it helped at all because I missed it. This whole 'how do you search for an idol' this is really hard on the head too :/  I don't get it and I bet that it is sitting right infront of me and that's the pisser. Ummmm okay so that's the challenge... Zoe is going home, no reason for the other tribe not to vote out one of out own, it'll weaken us after all. But if she stays then it weakens us too so it's hard to say what is really going to happen. I'm in a game with Danielle right now and after a fucked up tribal I might end up in an alliance with her that I just don't want but I talked to her and Andreas and he was okay with voting her too. I'm also kinda talking with Conner so we'll see how that goes but I mean, even if he loses the % boost in challenges, do you really wanna have a student that isn't doing shit. I'm pretty sure that because the vote is so obvious that every one thought it was gonna be tonight. Or because everyone was talking about it so they thought that it was gonna be tonight IDK but literally everyone thought it was gonna be tonight. To add more shade.... Fuck your idol searching  s h i t   o.o

Round one is pretty much over and I'm pretty sure I'm not gonna be first boot so all is well! It sucks having to go to tribal round 1 but at least it seems like we're all on the same page. Zoe didn't submit and she hasn't talked to like anyone. Like, sorry girl, I'm sure you're sweet and all but you're the weakest link in the tribe and if we wanna be strong we have to get rid of you. As for first round game dynamics, I've pretty much formed a pretty good talking relationship with most of the tribe and I feel pretty comfortable. I've been talking to Nicholas, Danielle, and Quillynn a lot and I think they're my faves. Lily and Jules are probably my other fave mentor/student pair because they're both super sweet and fun to talk to. Andreas talks to me a lot but I feel like he's the type to make f2 deals with everyone so I don't trust him. I'm highkey worried about not being in any alliances yet but I also really really don't wanna be the one to initiate them. I needa find myself part of a majority real quick.

That's all. Bye.