#also very funny in their livestream after the album came out that they did not acknowledge at all the people asking who jose was

[loverboybrightsideghost]

ajr. good band.

[notebookmusical]

Well instead of the pink vinyl, we got a tour movie announcement!! I'm definitely excited and it will be so cool to watch in theaters and see it again! twenty one pilots also put one of their concerts livestreams in theaters and it was so cool to see everything on the big screen since it wasn't available anywhere else either..and it will be cool cuz they're both my sister and I's favorite artists. I was honestly surprised it was so soon! It's very cool to see the pairs of the surprise songs and how they connect..especially with two songs I wouldn't have thought of! One that came to mind is Evermore and I'm only Me when I'm with You. Probably my favorite song and one of my least favorites..but it was clear when she performed it..it was towards the fans and that made it special. One of my fav artists Soccer Mommy actually did a cover of that song and I think I prefer her version..lol. I love seeing any Lover song getting played and they were so good! Someone also pointed out every song had the word lose in a lyric which is something I wouldn't have thought of.

By the way, I hope you had so much fun seeing Maisie the other night! She really seems like a fun energetic performer. She also has a twin sister and I'm curious why her sister doesn't seem to go on tour with her? Lol. I loveher album..but I actually didn't at first, it had to grow on me. But I wonder why her lyrics seem similar but different to Taylor. Like she wrote a lot about breakups in the album..but by actually mentioning the breakup which I thought was weird. Compared to Taylor who wrote Red the same age as her..but how it's more about heartbreak to me. The only heartbreak song to me is There it Goes I guess..and Wendy is like a mix of Love Story and The Other Side of the Door..but also seems inspired by Cardigan. Maybe cuz it's her 2nd album too..that it reminds me more of Fearless, but Lost the Breakup is pretty similar to We are Never too. It's just something I noticed and was wondering if you had any thoughts on this. I know they are different situations and writers though. Like I have written lyrics referencing both Peter Pan..or not growing up, and a song called History which is nothing like her songs too so I guess I wanted more or something different..idk!

Wow that's so cool about the Night Circus..I had no idea it had the potential to be a musical. The songs were good and it seemed similar to something I was trying to describe with cool sets and costumes. I will definitely read it in October since you recommended it! For Breakfast Club, I thought there might be too many characters to each have their own song and how they're mostly in the same room a lot of the time might make it hard. Another one of my favorites is 10 things I hate about you..but that's based on Taming of the Shrew which is Kiss Me Kate that already exists. I love Funny Face so much and think it could work great as a musical with the costumes and balloon scene and dancing. I heard the Oklahoma revival was a lot darker which might have made some people dislike it but I understand what they were trying to do after reading the article. I think a revival of The Producers or Man of La Mancha are two more I would like to see and any Sondheim musical..maybe Passion or Funny Thing. You could probably make those somewhat different or darker. I actually read an article about the plan to move a new Sondheim musical to Broadway the other day!

The book is just fine to me so far. I'm on chapter 12 but will probably read more today..maybe to chapter 20. I wasn't exactly expecting to love it anyway though. None of the characters stuck out to me so far but I do like reading about family issues in books. It is pretty similar to Some Other Now by Sarah Everett to me though.That one was kinda a love triangle between two brothers but Im not sure if that was going to happen in this book too but that's what i'm thinking so far. Its not a problem being similar but it just gives me something to compare it to i guess. That book I think I did not care for the present part of the story and only liked the past after a while but I'm not having that issue with this book. Like I skipped near the end with that one and I hope it doesn't happen with this book. I do love triangles but only when I have an opinion on it..which is not yet and in that book it was kinda used for suspense or whatever. I have read a lot in a day before and it makes sense to want to finish quickly. It has been nice just focusing on one book for now too. This might be a book I don't have much to say about it so far though so it makes sense that you gave it 3 stars. My reading habits definitely change every week..sometimes I don't read for a few weeks and sometimes I read a bit everyday and sometimes I read a lot in one sitting..like 3 hours..so it really depends on my mood, if I have time,and also the book. I'll see if I can get used to 30 minutes around the same time every day though. Hope you're doing good!

hellloooo friend!! it's been a hot minute! i don't think i've ever seen a concert movie in a cinema but i've seen a fair share of livestreams and other recorded performances — for taylor, and other artists! i do remember going to see the proshot of an american in paris at ipic though, but that definitely has a very different vibe! i love i'm only me when i'm with you — honestly, i think debut is just ... so solid of an album and i have such nostalgic memories with it, but it's just like phenomenal as an album. i'm super curious to see if she'll continue doing a midnights song every night + something else for the international leg, or if she'll mix it up a bit!

god, i love maisie! maisie's genuinely one of my favorite people to see live because her stage presence is just so good but i think she's just such a strong lyricist too. i can't wait to see how her career grows :") i think maisie's sophomore album is really lovely in the fact that "the band and i" is the only real love song on it! and i remember @cages-boxes-hunters-foxes talking about taylor & maisie's songwriting styles and how similar but also also very different they are! i don't really think that lost the breakup / we are never are similar, but i'll give them both a listen in a bit! i personally loved the good witch more than you signed up for this, but i really love you signed up for this (and also trying, dressed too nice for a jacket, etc). maisie has, in my opinion, just always been a very strong songwriter! i also really love seeing how many young singer-songwriters talk about their love of taylor, and seeing how taylor's music has influenced them if that makes sense? like the way maisie's vulnerable in her lyrics ("called my mother in a denny's") reminds me in a way of taylor's? i don't think i'm making a ton of sense right now. but i think you can see taylor's influence in like, griff's music (who i love!! and i'm so happy taylor gave griff a shoutout! griff and maisie have a song together — happy hunting ground) for example, and a lot of younger, gen-z artists.

i saw the 2019 revival of kiss me kate and thought it was fun, but i didn't love it (it was also my intro to kiss me kate, to be fair). i did really appreciate it as an art, but it just wasn't my cup of tea! the oklahoma revival though ... chef's kiss. i think the oklahoma revival, and the spring awakening revival are some of the best revivals we've seen lately. i would love to see more sondheim! i also really loved the recent company revival, and i'm really excited for the tour next year!!

definitely curious about your thoughts on the book + where you are in it now!! 🤍 i'm doing a september readathon with my friend jamie @goodwitchs, so i'm hoping to get back to my usual 15~20 books/month this month after not reading a lot over the summer! hope you're doing well!! <3

[rainbowsky]

Hi! Thank you for your thoughtful and informative blog. I am a new 🐢 after watching The Untamed and I enjoy reading your blog. I have a question about GG’s appearance in Day Day Up. I read a comment on IG, that it was not related to The Untamed promotions and GG was there as DD’s “special person”. Is this true? If so, then it would totally explain the other hosts reaction towards GG. Because when I watched the episode, it seems like the other hosts were looking at GG and DD fondly. Kinda like how I would look when I see a friend and their significant other together for the first time.

Hi, new turtle! 💛🐢💛

Thanks so much for your kind words, I'm glad you're enjoying my blog!

Yes, it is true that it was not an Untamed promo appearance. GG attended as DD's personal guest.

Fake, fan fiction, CPN.

Anon is talking about this episode of DDU (Eng subs can be found here):

Yes, it's true that GG was brought to DDU as a special guest of DD, for the 11 anniversary special episode. The previous year he had brought Yixuan, Wenhan and Cheng Xiao, and there were some funny moments, well worth watching.

And GG attended the following year as DD's special guest.

There was even a bit of supposed drama between GG and DD over this event, because of a scheduling conflict that almost made the appearance not happen at all.

There was a fake rumor that DD was overheard arguing on the phone with someone about choosing something else over him. Fans speculated that it might be because GG was scheduled for a 2-day Olay commercial shoot, and because of a scheduling conflict GG wouldn't be able to attend the DDU taping.

Fake rumors are unconfirmed, and should be taken with a grain of salt, but there is some evidence to support the idea that DD might have been hurt/upset by GG's situation.

DD filmed several interviews in what would have been day 1 of GG's Olay filming (when DD would presumably have known that GG wasn't going to make it to the DDU taping). In all of those interviews he was particularly savage and seemed to be in a very bad mood.

GG ended up requesting that the Olay shoot be completed in one day, and he flew to Changsha that night so he could attend the DDU taping the following day. This was confirmed by the director of the Olay shoot during a livestream.

DD seemed grumpy in the pre-show interview, and only softened up through the course of the day as GG charmed him out of his funk.

Xiaoman M did a 2-part series on that whole situation, which includes some of that footage for those who are curious:

I think it's fair to say that the close nature of their relationship is confirmed by GG's willingness to dramatically cut back on the filming schedule for a major endorsement brand like Olay, so he could attend the taping of a variety show. It seems unlikely he would do that for just anyone/anything.

It definitely felt like GG meeting the in-laws for the first time as a couple. There was even talk that the DDU team had made a Weibo post about DD "bringing GG home to meet the family" which was later edited to remove that reference. I can't find that post so I might be misremembering it, if anyone has it let me know.

Anyway, the appearance itself took on the tone of a boyfriend meeting the family for the first time. They even went through old photo albums together. They also performed a couple of songs together and did some other cute activities. There were a lot of interesting moments and fancam candies that came out of that appearance as well, including (just to name a few):

DLS accidentally bumping into GG and apologizing to DD

Some parts having to be reshot because GG and DD were having too much fun together

DD supposedly calling GG baobao (baby) when he told GG about the reshoots

When they were grouped together for an activity and had to choose a name, DD supposedly suggested 'BJYX' and GG shook his head, and in the end they went with 'Yizhan'

GG tasting meat skewers ahead of DD, and telling DD which ones he can eat that aren't too spicy

At one point DD appearing to forget he was a host, and almost sitting down with GG rather than standing onstage with his hosting brothers

Some hilarious Hunan TV editing that only enhanced the whole 'couple' vibe of it all, including one moment when text referencing "The Boy DD Likes" appeared while GG's face was on the screen (38:15 in the video, it was in reference to the song Nanhai, but interesting timing on that title, production team!)

Some of the fancam moments seem real (the meat skewers one, for example), and some I have my doubts about or feel are unconfirmed (baobao). Whatever the case may be, turtles seemed to enjoy it as much as GGDD did.

There was a rumor or report that GG went with DD and the DDU brothers for dinner and karaoke after the show, which, if true, would have given them more time to get to know GG.

In any case one thing's certain - the DDU team really started changing how they treated DD in the show after that appearance with GG. Up until that point they'd always treated him like the eligible bachelor and constantly tried to pair him off with women or put him in awkward dating situations on the show, but after that episode all that stopped and they began treating him like a married man, and teasing him about GG, sometimes in some fairly overt ways.

For example, the DDU brothers teased DD about Brightest Star in the Night Sky a week or two before GG performed it on TV.

Anyway, Anon, hope this helps paint a clearer picture for you! You weren't imagining things - they were looking at GG and DD very fondly, like the cute couple they are!

If you're new you might find my masterlist post helpful.

[1ddiscourseoftheday]

🍄Mon 21 Dec ‘20🎉

Liam says he just finished his last thing of the year- CONGRATS BUD I know you were stressed about getting it all done!!- and issues a formal thank you to a faithful helper: his laptop, which “has seen more zooms than I've had dinners, thank you... you can rest now.” That last thing he did was an interview about the wizarding world thing, not yet posted, although he then comes back one more time to post a santa-hat bedtime selfie captioned 'merry christmas you filthy animals'. He's leaving us with plenty of prerecorded content to keep the updates going during his break though; for example he and Roman Kemp have something coming on the 27th, which makes sense what with it being a day ending in a Y and all, it's something about a naughty or nice list, I guess we'll see. And in their fourth to last alarm today, the final round of christmas cracker jokes-- bringing it up to date with an “elf isolation” punchline, nice! I mean not in the sense of being funny but like, timely, also Liam is actually back on the alarm so cheers to that.

They could have hit up Louis for jokes-- he's famous for them! Apparently! A museum exhibition in Baltimore (viewable virtually) quotes him as the author of a vaguely science-y joke-- (“why did the mushroom go to the party? because he's a fungi!”). He definitely isn't the originator of it but me as the curator who was like 'well he said this once and any excuse to write Louis' name on this wall, LET'S DO IT'. Everyone but you is out here telling bad jokes Harry, come reclaim your crown sir!

Niall puts on a cowboy accent for the dramatic unboxing of a Diplo promo package (LP, hankie- “very sexy!”, t-shirt, USB stick- “jeez haven't seen one of these in a while”), it's for a country album with features from Julia Michaels, Cam, Orville Peck, and more that came out back in May, and he knocks off some official sponcon unboxing as well, looking cozy in the promotional knitwear.

Aaaand the Clarks are at it again! First grandma Ruth said Louis was in LA with Freddie until two days ago (she also said he was going to spend xmas with him, pick one lady, but anyway) and everyone put on their thinking caps and were like okaaaay he COULD have flown to LA the day after his show and been there the 13th-18th but that seems crazy and would mean NO quarantine on either end (definitely not allowed in either place), but there's a rumor that Harry is back in London maybe Louis went to LA and got him or something?? But just when they almost had us, enter Brett to try to oversell and screw it all up- in response to a fan pointing out how ridiculous that was, Brett said 'no it's not, Louis was there for two whole weeks his livestream was just prerecorded' LMAO. This is pretty epic since your options are now: you can believe that Louis pulled a conspiracy of moon landing level complexity to pretend that a show that had been recorded previously was live, enlisting not just Veeps but also dozens of people also pretending it was happening at that time, many of them on their obscure official business accounts, without a single slip up, for NO REASON (he could have just visited the kid at... any other time, or had the show at a different time, or been like here's a prerecorded show), OR you can believe that Brett and his family are, hmmm, giant liars! Wild notion!! Sooo anyway guys tell me again how YOU don't believe in wacky conspiracy theories like us crazypants larries... I'm waiting...

[1ddotdhq]

💙 Thurs 1 Oct ‘20 💙

We MADE IT! By that, I OF COURSE mean the AMAZING iTunes chart jump that Walls had today, a full nine months after its release (like almost to the day!). It re-entered US charts sometime in the middle of the night at number 1084, and was picked up by an update account (HLDaily) on twitter - they urged new fans to go buy Walls if they had not already. And oh boy, did they! As of press time,  Walls has hit NUMBER ONE IN 17 COUNTRIES (including the US UK and India which did not hit number one at release time) and re-entered the worldwide iTunes charts at number 147, and I expect it will keep climbing. As Louis said: “Boom!”

To cap it all off, Louis came onto Twitter to express his surprise! Amongst many statements, he said, “Wow...You lot are fucking unreal”, and when told that he was at #1 in the US, he said “How!!!???? You guys are fucking mental”. He expressed similar excitement and disbelief when he was told that he was also topping iTunes charts in Brazil, India, Mexico, and the UK, though he mentioned that “it’s not about individual places. The overall support blows my fucking mind”. He did reply to HLDaily when a fan tagged them - Louis said that the whole thing was “mad”. Louis also announced that he’s been working on LT2 (!!!!!!!) - he’s written four songs in four days and is cooking “banger after banger”.  He said he will “probably” have a new single for us by 2021 - I was literally sobbing when I read this you have NO IDEA!!  Louis also admitted to “obviously” (lol) “stealing funny screenshots from fans” and to having gotten into basketball in the last few years. He says he will have more “social” causes (but not political ones) in his songs in future, and he recommended some music (BIG MOOD). To cap it all off, he said that we “really are” unstoppable and that we “really don’t fuck around, do we?” Ummm, NO! WE DON’T. My favorite tweet, though, was: “You’re all fucking amazing. Put me in such a good mood”.  Congrats, Louis, and I hope we see more golden days like this one very soon in the future! 

There was much speculation about what was driving this growth and whether his new label could be involved, because it seemed far fetched that a fan push could be so profound, but a look at iTunes numbers is useful for context. They don't allow access to their album unit sales, but you can find some info on single songs sales, so, to give some numbers: the song in the 200th spot in iTunes sale is Falling by Harry, and it’s sold 137 units in the last 24 hours. At 115, it’s Helen Reddy with 199 units sold - not a huge jump in units to influence the charts. But, when we get up to the top ten, number 6 is Justin Beiber, with 1444 units in the last 24 hours. In the number one for songs, you have Demi Lovato, who has sold 4803 tunes in the last 24 hours. If the album sales numbers are even mildly proportional (they are presumably smaller), it's clearly plausible as a fan effort that managed to hit just right and snowball. Arista, Louis' US label, posted in happy celebration but sure didn't take any credit, and whoever Louis' new mysterious UK label are they didn't spill the beans by weighing in but I'm sure they're patting themselves on the backs for their signing! A relatively small step in terms of sales numbers but a huge leap for fankind indeed.

And that’s not all - the sun himself peeked out from behind a cloud sometime last night in a pub in Oxfordshire. Louis was wearing a black hoodie (shocker) and a red baseball cap; the fan said he had a mask, but asked if she would prefer to take a picture with a mask on. She said no, and the picture features him, the fan, her friend, and her dog, who Louis called “a good little lad” (awwwww the way I ADORE him). They took a (not socially distanced) picture, and let me tell you THOSE EYES!!!! Ugh, I could also get lost inside of them. It was lovely to see him, at any rate, and I have a feeling we’ll be seeing a bit more of him in the coming months. 

And while we’re speaking of Golden (have you noticed a theme today, guys?) Golden was activated for radio play yesterday afternoon! This after all of those music video pictures we were getting really does seem to indicate a quick turnaround on the promo for this song, but first things first: we’re keeping an eye on the DYKWYA website to see when IT becomes golden-themed! Harry also finalized his Grammy submissions - they are: “Fine Line” as Album of the Year and Best Pop Vocal Album, “Adore You” as Song of the Year, Record of the Year, and Best Music Video (my Fish Video <3 <3), and “Watermelon Sugar” as Best Pop Solo Performance. Honestly, could this day GET ANY BETTER????? 

As it seems to be a business heavy day, we’ve got to mention that Zayn continues to be a presence on Instagram, promoting Better for Asian and Brazilian audiences, as well as a UK Spotify playlist that has added the song. Niall also continues to prove that he’s Very Much On Social Media by popping up in Julia Michael’s livestream and saying he needs to “go listen to the new song” and asking her to “do a dance.” She did, but oh for the days when we could see those two goofs doing dances together!

[soulwillower]

if you’re too shy • richie tozier

(richie tozier x cam girl!reader smut)

[based off the song if you’re too shy (let me know) by the 1975.]

requested: i can't find it lol BUT 🤍anon (i think) requested a fic based off of the 1975′s new song, if you’re too shy let me know !!

warnings: swearing, alcohol use, switch!richie kinda, smut, unprotected sex, a tiny bit of cumplay i guess, mentions of phone sex, oral sex (female receiving), face sitting, a bit of dirty talking, UNEDITED as always

also i wrote this in a different style than usual and idk if i like it much but u can let me know what u guys think,, if its weird i can go in and change the povs since its 3rd person richie

[losers + reader are 21+ in this.]

7.4k words lol

♡

i see her online all the time i'm trying not to stare down there while she talks about her tough time

"h-hey, man, who's that?" the voice from right next to richie makes him damn near leap out of his seat. it makes beverly chuckle a bit as she takes a bite of her apple, shaking her head. "it’s nobody." richie says quickly as he tilts his phone towards his chest and shoots a toothy grin to bill. his friend raises his full eyebrows, "wh-what, so n-nobody was sending you n-nudes?"

"something like that." richie mutters, stomach fluttering as the image flashes in his mind’s eye - the curves, the dark red lace, the plush skin painting a perfect scene in richie’s vivid imagination.

richie looks back down at the photo. his his thumbs hover over the profile picture; he'd found her originally on his instagram explore page, the photos teasing and immediately he had to know more. y/n.

and then a few days later, he'd subscribed to her only fans, which he never quite thought he'd do with anyone, but he couldn't help it. she was so enticing, so perfect and so alluring. it was the playfulness that pulled him in; and he swears he's never lusted after somebody like he has with her. it was kind of starting to freak him out.

"is that o-onlyfans?" bill says and richie shoves bill's nosy face off his shoulder with a panicked grunt. "fuck off, mushmouth."

bill laughs and stan and bev perk up from across the table, staring at the two, interests suddenly piqued. "did you subscribe to a girl's onlyfans, rich?" stan says with a grin, setting his pen down on his notebook. 

richie just smirks and wiggles his brows a bit, enough to confirm his question. bill chuckles from next to richie.

"let me see." bev says, wiggling her manicured nails in a "gimme" motion. richie hands his phone over with red cheeks. normally he wouldn't care about his friends discovering he's paid money just to see a hot chick's bod, but this was different. for some reason, he felt connected to her. god, that thought made him want to slam his head against a brick wall. she doesn't even know him,  for all he knows she could live in the middle of.... montana, or like, ohio.

bev whistles and stan nods, "if i looked like that," bev mumbles as she tosses richie's phone back towards him, "i'd do that too. mad props."

noises of agreement fill the table but richie's just looking at the small smirk that peeks from the corner of one of the photos and he can't help but wonder what her eyes are like in real life. he wishes he could meet her.

girl of your dreams, you know what i mean there's something 'bout her stare that makes you nervous and you say things that you don't mean

it's a cold day when bill and richie find themselves stumbling in to the coffee shop for a drink. bill's muttering about some girl in his creative writing class that gave him head when richie's eyes catch a figure so familiar yet foreign that he stops dead in his tracks. bill turns to him, face confused. "r-richie, what's wrong w-with you?"

richie shakes his head, stammering in disbelief, "that-that's her, bill. the girl, from onlyfans. y/n." he whispers, gesturing with his eyes towards the girl working the register.

bill’s jaw goes slack, green eyes raking over her form and igniting richie’s stomach with boiling rage. as if bill’s doing something that only richie is allowed to do – as if they're not both being total creeps.

“h-holy sh-shit. she’s b-beautiful.” bill mumbles. richie elbows him in the ribs, shooting him a glare that prompts an eye-roll from his auburn haired friend.

richie swallows and watches, his throat feeling like sandpaper as she laughs at something the customer in front of them said. bill nudges richie, "i-i'm gonna get a s-seat. t-talk to her."

he winks and grins as he walks away, leaving richie with his reckless self. he thinks he's sweating through his sweater as he walks up, finding himself face-to-face with her. "hi, how can i help you?" she asks, giving him a smile

holyshitholyshitholyshit.

he might've just came right then and there. okay, he's gotta say something cool, something smooth. don't be a dumbass, tozier. 

"howdy, sugar. i'll have my coffee like i like my women." his mouth blurts as his brain sirens go off, PUT ON THE BRAKES, RICH – "a hot shock to the lap.”

she glares at him, cheeks light pink and eyebrows pulled together in annoyance and yep, richie's probably going to get hard because of that look but he's also probably going to toss his body off a bridge because what the fuck, tozier?

he can hear bill laughing quietly from a ways away and he quickly shakes his head, muttering quietly, "jail. jail, richard."

"funny." she deadpans, clearly not amused. because of course she isn't.

"sorry, i'll have a black coffee, y/n." he mutters, eyes widening to himself when he realizes she was not wearing a goddamn name tag and he just said her name.

this is a disaster. she gives him a bewildered, slightly creeped out look and if richie wasn't panicking, he'd gape at how she still managed to be effortlessly gorgeous even now.

he sighs, shaking his head, the door of the cafe opening and blowing a gust of frigid air through the warm room. fitting - douche chill. 

"look, toots, i don't want this to be weird. i- um, i recognize you." he says, cheeks aflame. she raises a brow, face straight for a few moments, unsure what he means.

it's not long after when recognition flashes over her own face - must have ruled out coffee shop, university and her local gym - and she nods with a tight, almost uncomfortable smile. 

he tries not to think of the livestream he watched last night where she showed all her new gifts and modeled lingerie, and how he’d spent his time to himself with his left hand immediately after watching. his cheeks are red with shame. 

"okay." is all she says, writing down a scribbled order on the coffee cup. her eyes shoot back up and give richie a once-over that really makes his fingers itch - god, why did he have to be this way? 

he almost runs his fingers through his curls but decides against it, eyes opting to focus on her own gorgeous eyes as they meet him. "i'm impressed i have a fan who looks like you, i must say. even if you are a complete jack ass." she purrs and his jaw nearly smacks the floor at its velocity as it flies open.

"what's that supposed to mean?" he asks then with a small grin, flattered at the tiniest of compliments that just barely, in his mind, eclipsed the insult that he so very much deserved.

"i'm saying you're kind of a dick. it's too bad, because you're real cute." she says casually, handing him his change. his stomach flips and butterflies release in his chest, a feeling that he's not felt in almost five years.

but damn, of course he messed up - he got the chance to talk to the hottest girl on earth and he started it by saying an awful joke that wasn't funny at all. of course she though he was a dick, he is one.

he's shocked, though, as he waits for his coffee with bill, who is still snickering into his hand every few moments, to find his coffee cup with extra sharpie scribbled on the white paper. a name.

y/n. and below it is a phone number with a small heart scribbled, and richie can't tell if it's a seven or a one but he figures he'd try every phone number in the damn state if it meant he could fucking text her. holy fuck.

"maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i'm not playing with you, baby i think that you should give it a go" she said, "maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i wanna see, and stop thinking if you're too shy, then let me too shy, then let me know"

he didn't text her for two days and three hours. yes, he counted it. no, he won't think about why he was obsessing over the numbers - but since the time he'd finally had found the courage to text her today, things have escalated proficiently. 

she'd just mentioned how hot it was in her apartment since her heater had gone haywire - even though the winter winds were cold, she'd claimed she was burning up in what she was wearing.

and the mere mention of her clothing had sent richie into somewhat of a spiral, spending at least seven minutes glued to his phone and scrolling through the saved album he had of those photos of her that she'd posted; his sweatpants getting increasingly tight and his palm suddenly aching to slip through the fabric and find some release.

but, in true trashmouth fashion, he apparently needed that sweet, sweet rejection from a hot cam girl he'd somehow weaseled into getting the number of in order to wank off properly, so he types out a text and hits send immediately.

what are you wearing?

and then he almost vomits in embarrassment – what was she going to think? did he just royally fuck up? oh god, he’s going to have to shave his head and move to canada.

his phone buzzes and he nearly passes out when he lays his eyes upon the image attached – there her body is again, curvy and full and beautiful, her skin glowing in the fading light of what he assumes is her bedroom. and with it:

this. what are you wearing, rich?

and then he pulls his gaze from his phone and stands, breathing heavily because holy shit.

he's gotten nudes before, but.... none from someone like her. holy shit.

he walks to his bathroom, splashing water on his beet-red cheeks. he swallows, staring at himself in the mirror. fuck.

he slaps his cheek once, then winking at himself in attempt to muster any sliver of confidence. and then he snaps a picture, only in his boxers.

and then he has to physically refrain from making a joke about wearing the same lingerie set as her, instead sending a flirty text that he knows any other woman would blush at. he just doesn’t know with y/n, and maybe that’s why he loves it so much. she's keeping him on his toes.

you like what you see?

he sends that one afterwards, shaking his head because oh my god, she's going to respond with "no" and then bill him $40 for the nude she sent him. not that he wouldn't pay, but...

his phone dings and he nearly breaks an ankle running to his desk. 

yeah, i do. but maybe i'd like you better without any clothes on.

he almost yells out loud at this, but he has a feeling that waking up stan in the middle of the night would not be optimal after their 'roommate agreement' they'd made that explicitly states richie cannot scream between 1am - 9am. so instead he smirks to himself, face turning red.

he's getting harder by the moment, and as he stares at that picture she'd sent earlier, he lets out a breathy groan. the lace....

we could face time yk

or we don't have to.

he reads her words in live time, watching the thought bubble appear again and watching it like a hawk. he can just imagine her sitting there with a small smirk as another text comes in and he almost groans as his dick twitches.

like, if you're too shy or something ;)

he stares at the screen for two seconds at that sinful photo she'd sent just before those texts and then sighs, shaking his head and pressing the green face-time call button.

i've been wearing nothing every time i call you and i'm starting to feel weird about it sometimes it's better if you think about it this time, i think i'm gonna drink through it

three days later, richie was undeniably and unequivocally drunk. but, as he's just explained about three times to mike, he knows that it is just easier to not think right, especially about her, right now - and the best way to do that is by getting so piss drunk that even if he tried to "hit her line," as he so eloquently put it, his dick would be too whiskey'd out to make a full appearance.

it's for the best. mike had fake gagged at richie’s cadence with a laugh, but richie was dead serious because he was starting to think he had a real issue.

it was obviously just a fun thing to do between two near-strangers, but he'd found that he was starting to almost pavlov-style condition himself into getting turned on every time the name y/n came across his recent texts or face times, and it was getting to be too much.

especially when her post notification popped up and he cracked a fatty in the middle of his econ lecture. christ, the point of elasticity of markers in the u.s. was not something he pictured when he usually had to quell a pitch in his tent. so yeah, it's too much.

because yes, he loves her fucking body and wants nothing more than her, but in truth he longs for the feeling of her skin against his; to touch her, to kiss her, to make her his. all the time.

but yet, it was just a good way to get off without all the strings and ribbons and yarn and whatever the fuck her soft-looking knit bra is made from attached.

so much for not thinking about her.

but i see her online (and don't think that i should be calling) all the time (i just wanted a happy ending) and i'm pretending i don't care about her stare while she's giving me a tough time

it’s noon the next day and he's laying in (for some reason) stan's bed instead of his own with a blinding, mind-splitting headache and an insatiable craving for a cheeseburger, eyes squinting in lust and something akin to shame as he watches the livestream y/n had just started. she’s in a slip – a very thin, silk and see through slip and it makes him more frustrated than he’s willing to admit.

as he stares at her smooth skin and wonders how it'd be to touch it all, her eyes catch something in the chat and she smiles coyly. "hi, rich." she purrs and richie almost chokes - holy shit, she saw him join.

"do you like my gift i just got?" she asks coyly, snapping the straps of her bra with a small smile and he stiffens almost instantly, thinking of how many times he'd seen her skin in videos and photos that were just for him.

how she'd moaned his name two nights ago on face time, her fingers buried inside herself slightly off-camera. and oh, how he wishes he could see all of her, but they'd not crossed that line yet - anything they'd done hadn't been yet proven visually, only from facial expressions, noises, and the brutal honestly of being together through face time.

he wants her so fucking bad, he needs her like he needs water to drink and air to breathe and it's murdering him as he watches her react to the chat of her livestream, playing with the hem of her black lace panties.

god, he needs a cold shower or something if he's going to get anything done today.

and then he's calling her an a few hours after her stream ends because he just can't wait - he feels his stomach twist with shame as he realizes he should not be doing such a certainly a terrible idea. but she answers after three rings. "richie." her siren voice purrs and he literally feels himself fall deeper into the pit.

"hi there, toots. got any coffee in the pot for me?" he asks, sounding surprisingly eloquent compared to how she normally makes him feel. 

she hums in fake thought, and it makes richie grin. she's fucking adorable. "come to the shop, i have my break in ten." and then she hangs up. he sighs, rubbing his face with his hand as he shakes his head. he's utterly fucked.

he's there in record time, a smirk plastered on his face as he walks in and sees her sitting at a table, lookin' all pretty. just for him.

"what made you think of calling?" she says in loo of a greeting. he sits across from her and wills his eyes to meet hers. "nothin' toots." he says with a half shrug, taking a sip of the coffee placed in front of him that has the the name 'dick' written on it in her handwriting. he rolls his eyes affectionately.

"oh, so it wasn't anything to do with my livestream this morning?" she asks with a look, eyeing him. her eyes are swimmable, they hold so many stories and secrets and maybe richie's just hungover, but he's feeling very flustered.

"we-w, uh, no. what... what are you talking about?" he rolls his eyes at himself inwardly, cursing stuttering bill and his contagious speech patterns. "-i don't know what you're talking about, sugar." he recovers fairly smoothly, if he may toot his own horn. and honestly, he can pretend not to care as long as he doesn't look into that goddamn stare of hers.

he chuckles awkwardly, cheeks aflame as she stares at him with a bored look and a small hum. she still looks perfect and he's even more nervous now, because oh god, oh fuck, he's gonna get slapped in the face by y/n.

it was pretty unspoken since they'd started doing... stuff... that richie probably still watched her content online, but she'd never fully addressed it until today during the livestream in front of a thousand others. 

he's choking on his spit in shame but then a smile splits her face and richie's sure he's suffocated on his own saliva and gone to a sinner's heaven. or maybe hell.

"oh, richie, i'm just teasing you. look at your face!" she says with an airy laugh, pinching his cheeks and making him want to shrivel up as he turns even redder. what the fuck? "-so cute. alright, i've got to get back to work. i'll see you around, rich." she says with a wink, taking her coffee and tossing it into the trash bin as she stalks towards the employee back room.

he gapes as he watches her leave and then gets up and makes his way to the exit, clutching the coffee like it was trying to jump out of his grasp and make a run for it. god, she's too much.

"maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i'm not playing with you, baby i think that you should give it a go" she said, "maybe i would like you better if you took off your clothes i wanna see, and stop thinking If you're too shy, then let me too shy, then let me know"

"-babe, you'll have to try harder than that." richie says with a chuckle, watching his phone screen as the beautiful girl on face time gives him a sly, challenging look. she's in a green lace bra, one richie's not seen yet and he can feel himself stiffen as she absently trails her fingers over her chest.

they'd been much closer over the last week since he last saw her in person, enough so that in the three-is weeks of knowing her, he's positive he's head over ass for her in a way that he shouldn't be. and yet, she still comes back every time, still texts him and answers those face time calls. he's baffled, honestly.

"i know you hate me because i'm right." he adds, not even totally remembering what point he's trying to prove as y/n shifts back a bit and more of her body is revealed, her hair glowing dimly in the soft lighting of her room. his eyes run over her curves, her full thighs and stomach and hips that fill over her panties and he almost groans.

"whatever, maybe i'd like you better if you took off your clothes." she says coyly. and richie's half flattered, as usual, but the more he thinks of it the more deflated he feels. he kind of thought they were growing something more than just getting each other off over face time like horny fifteen year olds. he grins nonetheless.

"you say that a lot, you know." richie says breathlessly as he stares at her. she tilts her head ever so slightly and grins, biting her lip as her eyes move around her screen with a conflicted look. "-why?" he adds.

she hums again.

"well. okay, so there's the visual world - like, the internet, onlyfans, instagram- it tells us that everything is amazing. and we should want everything. and it makes us yearn for everything that we don’t have and everything that’s unobtainable. you know, love, a relationship beyond physical. and even physical, it's different when it's online."

her words confuse him much more than they aid him. "you think... that because of the internet, love is unattainable?" he asks with furrowed brows, unsure how somebody so perfect and, quite frankly, lovable, would think that.

"it is for me." she says it with a small sense of forlorning but mostly it's whispered. enough that richie's heart skips a beat and he's, for the first time, not having a hard time keeping his eyes on her face instead of her body.

"what?" he asks dumbly. she just laughs, shaking her head and he stares at her on his tiny phone screen in the dark.

"that’s something that, you know. in real life, person to person, it has a lot of connotations of... trust and vulnerability and connection. doing what i do- and what we're doing… on the internet - it has the opposite of those connotations. like, before you, i didn't- i didn't really do this, i just was selling stuff. because guys don't want to fuck the girl who sells her body online. and you know now, i want to..." she trails off and richie doesn't dare interrupt her because he thinks she's about to say something he's wanted to tell her for a while now.

"i don't know, i guess. exploring someone's body in physical presence isn't seen at all as voyeuristic, or anything apart from...like, an intimate exchange." she says it casually, brushing hair from her face and shit, richie's swooning. he's in fucking love, he knows it, because y/n is so smart and intelligent and he's so fucking trashed for her. as she speaks, her hands move and distract him slightly from her body, doused in blue light from the screen and splayed out for him and only him on her phone camera.

the soft lace on her hips and chest make his body stiffen and it causes him to suppress a groan as she sighs, but richie knows he can’t screenshot this heavenly sight because she’ll definitely notice and she can probably already tell he’s having a hard time not staring at her alluring figure as she talks.

"-whereas, you know. as soon as it happens on the internet, it becomes kinky and cam-girly. and, you know, that's fine. i love doing it. it's just, i'm not sure where the authentic communication even is now. or if i get to have a happy ending." she says and he finally sees her blush for the first time.

he wishes he was there with her, he wishes that he could touch the redness on her cheeks and caress her curvy body and taste her skin on his tongue. he wants to feel himself inside her, he wants to be with her and kiss her lips and yet he can't, so he sighs and shifts in his position, moving to turn up the brightness of his phone so he can see better.

"shouldn't you get to be the one to decide that, doll?" is all he adds. because he feels kind of lost and just as confused as y/n is with this.

he's starting to feel weird about it, because... is this authentic? what makes things like hookups or whatever the hell they've been doing authentic? shouldn't this be easy? it's just phone sex, phone sex with a really hot girl.

a girl who is complex and alive and full of sincerity and richie is definitely falling harder than he should.

she just sighs but makes no other comment. and then they just stare at each other, richie's face illuminated in his dark room by the phone's reflection.

well, i found a motel it looked like the bins i think there'd been a murder so we couldn't get in i need to get back i've gotta see the girl on the screen

"come over and watch a movie with me." he says into the phone, biting his lip. the silence from the other end of the line is deafening as she makes her decision, because they both know she's not about to come over just to watch the shining or psycho. 

they've never done that before, and richie knows if she does come over, then whatever they have will crash down in a fiery mess. and he hates how excited that makes him as he waits in silence for her to drop the ball. so to speak.

"okay." she says, sounding shocked herself, and richie can't contain the excited grin from eclipsing his face. "yeah?" he asks breathlessly, and she's quiet for a little longer. "yeah. text me your address." 

she hangs up after that, and richie's thumbs shake as he types his address and sprints out to where stan, mike, ben, and bill are playing video games in he and stan's living room, wheezing at all of them to get out because someone fucking unbelievable is about to walk through that door.

she's there about an hour later, cheeks flushed when richie opens his door, looking just as nervous and flustered. "hi, chee." she says breathlessly, staring up at him with those goddamn eyes, the eyes that pulled him in the first time. his stomach flips in affection at her nickname and he offers her a drink as she takes in his shitty apartment. he wonders briefly if stan ended up buying that rosé that he'd given him shit for considering, and then prays that stan will stay the night elsewhere.

she's already pouring out glasses of wine when he snaps back to reality, and he grins at her, mumbling in thanks as she passes him a glass that's certainly poured almost to the brim.

"what are we watching, then?" she asks coyly, lifting a brow at him. his cheeks are red, but he tugs her arm down the hall towards his room with a grin, their wine sloshing from their glasses as they move erratically.

"we're watching psycho, y/n/n." he says as he pulls her into his room, glancing back to see she's already swallowed down almost half her glass, a lipstick stain on the side of it. faintly he knows stan will be frustrated if richie doesn't clean that off, but he's more distracted by her lips.

"i like psycho." she says with a nod and a cheeky grin, "the whole 'voyeuristic gaze' thing with hitchcock." she mumbles, and richie recalls faintly learning about that in one of his film classes freshman year and he grins as he takes a hefty gulp of his rosé, figuring he's already given himself away and if she's going to do that, he can too.

he hums, setting down his glass and grabbing hers to set it besides his on the bedside table. he turns around, intending on grabbing his laptop so they could watch the film, but she's so much closer that he'd expected and her hands fall onto his shoulders and he almost shits himself.

unpleasant, but honest. just richie's style.

"can i try something?" she asks with a grin, and richie nods, knowing that she could do anything to him and he'd gladly let it happen and most likely pay out of pocket for the damages afterwards.

and then she's pulling him from her grip on his shoulders, her lips sliding against his and making him grip her hips. his mind almost explodes at with y/n-sensory-overload because he feels her everywhere - on his lips, against his hands, on his shoulders, and pressing against his front.

her lips taste like chamomile and rosé.

she thinks his lips taste like vanilla and cigarette smoke, just as she'd always imagined. he feels so real, pressed against her lips and his body against hers, and she sighs as her tongue slips into his mouth because god, she's needed him for so long. and now she has him.

his hands move, touching every inch of her as their tongues fight for dominance. she pulls back, smirking as she gently pushes him onto his mattress, sliding onto his lap smoothly afterwards, grinding her hips against his slowly.

the moan he emits is heavenly and she could cry because she finally gets to hear it in person and not through the crackling static frequency of the phone.

so she grinds down on him again, eager to feel all of him. he's hardening against her core and she whimpers into his mouth in need as his fingers slip under her top, rubbing circles on her bare skin and making her shiver. she's noticed to this gentleness; it was rare when she did get to enjoy the comfort of another body with her own, and when she did they were hardly half as loving or caring as him.

she's desperate now, she needs to feel him inside her after all these weeks of teasing and waiting, so her hand snakes down to palm him through his sweats. he lets out a small groan into her mouth, biting her lip as he pulls back slightly. their eyes meet and his are hooded with lust, lips parted as she pumps him slowly from outside his sweats. his hips buck up lightly into her palm and she smiles gently, kissing him slowly.

"let me make you feel good, y/n." he mutters, eyes pleading as he stares up at her. her stomach flutters with butterflies and she nods, shocked that he wants to pleasure her.

he gently pulls her off his lap until she's laying on his mattress and he stares down at her, biting his lip as he takes her in. he can't fucking believe she's really here. she slowly pulls off her top, leaving her in her bra and jeans as she stares up at him with a wry, seductive smile. then she unzips her jeans and slides them off, leaving her in his favorite set of hers - black, lacy, and revealing. she looks utterly stunning and he groans, his hands falling to run over the skin, tracing the lace on her breasts. her cheeks are red as she gazes up at him.

"touch me, richie." she orders and he almost groans as he drags his lips over the valley of her breasts, sucking on the soft flesh and admiring the splashes of budding purple and pink that he's created. her heartbeat is quick under his fingertips and he moves to unclip her bra, kissing her skin as the fabric falls away.

she's slightly cold in his room, and goosebumps appear over her flesh as richie leans to catch a nipple in her mouth, flicking his tongue over the sensitive bud. she lets out a quiet whine that has richie rutting into the mattress next to her, his fingers trailing down to dance at the waistline of her underwear.

and then he's pulling aside her panties, his fingers running up and down her slick folds and making her jump in lust. he can't wait, just like her, and he's rubbing her clit teasingly as she pleads, "chee, please."  her eyes are eyes closed in bliss as his finger slips inside her, crooking slightly as he moves it. he presses his lips to the skin of her breast, pumping his finger and then soon adding another, crooking them both in a way that makes her let out guttural moans of pleasure. he marks her breasts with littered pink and red marks, smiling to himself at her figure.

she can't help but swoon as she watches him, his hair in his face slightly until she brushes it back, his fingers curling inside her and making her gasp, pleasure coursing through her body. his thumb softly comes up to rub her neglected clit and she grabs his shoulders to steady herself, the pleasure almost too much.

she's honestly slightly shocked - knowing richie as little as she really does outside of the literal booty calls at two in the morning and the accumulative forty five minutes they'd spent in person, she'd expected him to be... well, good. just good. because there's no way someone so funny, caring, and smart could also be that good in the sheets.

but right now, he's making her see goddamn stars.

"i've been wanting to touch you for so long, sugar." he mutters, eyes raking over her figure as her breath comes in stuttering gasps. she watches him with blown-wide eyes as his demeanor changes right before her, making her fall apart at his fingertips.

"that feel good, honey?" he asks, smirking as she whimpers, clenching around his fingers. "yes, god you feel so good." she utters, making him groan in approval from where he's sat back, watching her face contort in pleasure. she lets out another moan and richie stares at her body, watching his fingers as they fuck into her. he can't take it, then.

"will you sit on my face, doll?" he blurts, and she nearly yelps out as his fingers leave her. it's abrupt, but she's started to notice that this is how he operates - impulsivity is his second nature. and she loves it.

her face burns as she nods, the thought of richie under her making her whimper with anticipation. "yes, richie, please." she moans out again and he's grinning, laying back on the mattress with a wink. "c'mere, need to taste that pretty little pussy." he mutters and she feels herself clench around nothing, desperate for him as she swings a leg around to straddle his head.

immediately, his hands wrap around her thighs, thumbs smoothing over her stretch marks as he stares up at her, eyes glinting with desire. slowly, his finger pulls the seat of her lace panties to the side and his breath hits her bare, throbbing pussy, making her breath hitch. she cards her fingers through his hair and lowers herself slightly, gasping in shock as his tongue darts out to lick a bold stripe up from her entrance to her clit.

"chee," she moans out, tightening her grip in his hair and sending a groan through his body that reverberates and makes her shiver. his lips attach to her clit and fiery pleasure snakes through her body making her legs shake, a moan escaping her lips immediately. he sucks lightly before releasing to swirl his tongue, her moans making richie impossibly harder through his sweats.

"so good, rich." she mutters and he groans, tongue spreading her wet folds and slowly prodding at her entrance, dipping in slowly before pulling out, teasing her.

she can't help but grind down slightly, making richie grip her tightly, tongue sliding into her again and making her yelp. "you taste so good, baby." he mutters lowly before slowly reattaching himself to her heat, her eyes rolling slightly at the sensation as he fucks his tongue into her. one of his hands snakes up to her ass, gripping it tightly and then slapping it, the stinging pleasure making her buck her hips against him, emitting a hiss from her.

"rich, i-" she cuts herself off with a sharp gasp, the pleasure from richie's mouth making it increasingly harder to speak. her toes curl and her head tilts back as his tongue flicks over her clit, teeth grazing it slightly and making her buck.

she's embarrassingly close already, and judging by the way richie's smirking under her, he can tell. "please, please." she mutters, hips rocking on him as his tongue swirls, nipping softly at her clit and making her cry out. "please, make me cum, 'chee." she mutters and his tongue moves quicker, hand slapping her ass again.

and then she's clenching her thighs on either side of him and grinding down as she hits her peak, moaning quietly as she shakes in pleasure on top of him. he rides through her high, lapping at her and pulling away with a grin as she moans his name dejectedly. she's worn out from the best orgasm she's ever had and he gently nudges her so he slides in between her thighs, her back now on the mattress. he kisses her cheek and she keens quietly.

"fuck me, richie." she mutters, eyes still closed. his eyes snap to hers, surprised at the dominance in her voice after how she was two seconds ago.

he moans quietly, kissing her deeply as he ruts against her and relishes in the feeling. he's pulling off his sweats and boxers in record time and then he's pumping himself as he grips her hips, turning her so she's on her stomach, ass propped up slightly. his hand runs over the smooth skin of her ass, snapping the elastic of her panties and making her moan quietly.

then he's lining up her hips with his, pulling aside the lacy seat of her underwear to press against her entrance. he waits a moment as he leans to press a soft kiss to her spine, slowly easing into her. she moans loudly as he eases in, her face pressing against the pillows. she smiles as she smells the scent she'd just recently come to know as his, his cock stretching her and filling her up fully as he buries himself to the hilt inside her.

"so tight, sugar." he mutters and she whimpers, getting antsy as she adjusts to his size. "richie, please, need it so bad." she mutters, bucking her hips back against him in need.

"say that again." he mutters, sounding strangled, and she grins into the sheets. "please fuck me, richie. need it so bad, need to feel you ruin me." she whimpers, chest fluttering in anticipation. his hands grip her hips as he pulls out of her slowly, almost as slowly as he entered, before stopping almost all the way out. she moans loudly in pleasure as he pushes back in, snapping his hips against hers and filling her completely.

she briefly thanks god that his roommate seemed to be out for the night as she moans his name loud enough for the neighbors to hear.

he sets a brutal pace, his cock thick as it fills her up and makes her toes curl. he pushes her hair away from her neck and presses kisses to it as he hits a spot inside her that makes her scream his name. his fingers move to pinch her nipples, rolling them as he fucks into her.

she's completely blissed out at the feeling of him inside her, so glad that he invited her over and that they finally get to touch each other. "rich, oh my god." she emits, eyes squinted shut in complete pleasure.

"fuck, toots, takin' me so well, aren't you?" he asks, hands kneading her ass before slapping her right ass cheek harshly, making her arch her back. at the new angle they both let out a groan and richie knows he'll fucking cum too soon if they stay like this, so without warning he pulls out completely.

y/n whines, breathing heavily as his hands come to flip her around. now on her back, they make eye contact and she bites her lip, pulling him in for a searing kiss that knocks the wind out of both of them. images of richie in his room alone, snaps and late-night face times play through her mind as he grips her and slides her hips down towards him on the mattress and lines himself to her again, pulling her legs up so they're against his chest before pushing in.

he gives no time to adjust to this angle and it makes her moan loudly as he hits a spot deep inside her that pulls her closer and closer to her second orgasm.

his name leaves her cherry lips like a mantra and he can't stop staring at her as he fucks her into the mattress - the way her tits bounce with his brutal pace, the way her face is twisted in pleasure, the way she clenches and spasms around his cock.

one hand grips her breast, rubbing her nipple with his thumb and forefinger as he kisses her again, addicted to her taste as he feels himself coming closer and closer to the edge.

"chee, fuck, right there." she moans out and he groans in pleasure, the feeling of her walls clenching around him making his hips stutter. he keeps his thrusts up, though, as her fingernails rake down his back leaving small trails of burning pleasure in their wake.

her skin is covered with a sheen line of sweat as she looks up at him, hair wild and lips kiss-bruised. "god, don't stop, 'm gonna cum." she mutters and he snaps his hips harder, eager to make her cum so hard all she can think of is his name.

he moves a hand down to rub at her clit and he moans into her neck as she clenches hard around him, her hips bucking spastically. he can tell she's about to cum, and after a hard thrust, she does for the second time, spasming around him and sending waves of pleasure up his body. she's moaning his name, pulling him closer in bliss as she becomes sensitive and god damn it, she's so fucking beautiful.

"please cum, richie." she whispers against his lips, "please."  and then at her will, he's spilling into her, hips stuttering as he pushes as deep into her as he can, loving how she clenches in sensitivity around him. he stays inside her for a moment as they breathe, coming down from their highs and eyes closed as they take in what just happened.

"holy shit." he says because yeah, that's like all he can say right now because he just got to fuck y/n and she's kissing his fucking collarbones right now and its making him blush and his heart flutter.

"that was...incredible." she whispers against his skin and he can feel her smile against his skin. it makes him feel all soft inside as he pulls out of her and flops next to her, kissing her forehead.

his fingers flutter over her sensitive core, smiling as he sees how wrecked she is, some cum dripping down her leg. he then soothes over the lace panties, patting her lightly and kissing her red cheek.

"rich?" she asks, making him look up at her. he hums in question, pushing some of her hair back. "can we still watch the movie?"

his heart swells and he grins, kissing her softly. "of course, doll. you're too cute." he says with a wink, making her roll her eyes. he hands her his shirt and then pulls sweats on himself, mumbling "stay here" and padding out to the kitchen to get her water and snacks,  then returning minutes later to see her holding his phone in her clutch with a smirk.

"what're you doing?" he asks with a smile, but she shakes her head, making grabby hands for him and the snacks. so he laughs, cuddling up with the girl of his dreams and watching a flick, falling sleep with tangled limbs and a lipstick-stained neck.

and after she leaves the next morning with a kiss and a wink, he checks his phone and smirks to himself as he notices the lock screen she'd apparently made last night while he was making snacks.

a photo of her in his bed, wearing his shirt, a soft smirk on her face, neck littered in budding hickeys and a hand between her thighs next to her black lace panties.

god, she's going to be the absolute death of him.

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When the Present is the Past: Carina Round Talks the World of Puscifer and Existential Reckoning

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As the colossal disaster that is 2020 starts to wind down, frantic members of the public gather in socially distanced huddled masses, lined up to place their vote in the U.S. election as they stand under shadowy fears of doubt and uncertainty. Yet, these final months of this confusing time have a steady pipeline of great new music to help quell those worries and take our minds to a more peaceful plane of existence. 

One of these treasures about to hit the market is the new album from the musical collective started by Tool’s Maynard James Keenan; Puscifer. Though originally devised more as a solo project for Keenan with a rotating cast of musicians to help pave the way, in recent years, Puscifer has become more of a trio powerhouse at its core, with Mat Mitchell and Carina Round solidifying the line-up of talented songwriters.

With the release of the new record, Existential Reckoning, on Oct. 30 and a livestream of a special performance of the album from famed prototype city of Arcosanti in Arizona; we spoke with Carina Round about releasing music in this strange time and what her time with Puscifer has meant to her musical journey.

Beyond the lyrical content, would you consider Existential Reckoning a concept album?

Not really, I think it doesn’t really start out like that… it’s just stemming from the sonic bed that Mat [Mitchell] put down at the very beginning. All the ideas and the characters and the stories are kind of inspired by that. So, it’s less of a concept album and more just an album that develops naturally based on the seeds that were planted early on.

People are already talking about and will continue to talk about how timely this record is, but unless you’re rushing to make something like Borat 2 in a few months, all of this starts years in advance. With that being the case, has the album taken on a new meaning for you, now that it is coming out in our current climate?

Yeah, I think one thing that Maynard does–and without talking about the lyrics too much because he never talks about it so it would be remiss for me to do that but–I think he has a way of writing these lyrics and making the stories without laying it all out too clearly. He leaves enough room for the listener to to add their own point of view and make their own story.

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Borat 2: Rudy Giuliani ‘Tucking Shirt’ Excuse is Irrelevant

By David Crow

But while the music has been written for like five years before; whatever he manages synthesizing is just, taking it from the world around to him, I guess. So when it came out.. this is what it came out, into.

You know, there’s no escaping this stuff. It’s in your everyday life especially if you own a smartphone and you ever want to do anything on it, there’s just no way of actually getting something done without being assaulted by the political world right now or, just the polarization of social media and…I don’t even want to get into it. But yeah, I think it’s hard to escape.

I mean that’s the thing though,even though the world is more polarized than ever before and it is becoming more outrageous; these are the kind of things we’ve been dealing with all the time, just on a new level.

It’s funny, I just watched The Candidate with Robert Redford like two weeks ago, and it was just, kind of the same thing. I was amazed. It just makes me realize that it’s always been the same. It’s just that right now we have a magnifying glass, with the sun coming through the glass and burning us up, because we’re all a little tiny ants…just wondering what the story is.

So, jumping back into the music…obviously anything you write is yours. But does the music carry a different weight for you when you first joined Puscifer to make music–for lack of a better term–as a hired gun, compared to now, where Puscifer has become more of the trio of you, Mat, and Maynard?

Personally for me, it does. I mean my first audition– if you want to call it that–was a humbling river. I was basically just stuck in a room with Mat, while Maynard was doing something with the winery, he was in some weird mood…and it was just basically saying, “Here, do something with what you hear in this.” So it was very clear from the beginning that my sensibility was what I was there for. I wasn’t just being–I’m not just a voice that they can tell to sing something because my voice sounds different to theirs.

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None of This Would Be Happening If Frank Zappa Had Been President

By Tony Sokol

It was, “Oh, you’re here because of what you do. You’re here because of the sounds you create and the ideas that you have and the things that you do.” So that was, that was clear from the beginning that nobody was really trying to control my, my input.

But as the years passed, I think my place within the sphere became more apparent, and I think that my confidence within the sphere built-up, and it just magically emerged into this…alchemy, really. So it does feel different that I was involved a lot earlier on with this record and had a lot more to do with how the songs were formed in terms of my stuff being on there earlier, and decisions being based on the stuff that I had done. It feels different, but it’s not a million miles away.

Do you find that your solo work has been influenced by what you do with Puscifer, or vice/versa?

I think I am. Before I started to work with Puscifer, I found it a more torturous experience for me to write solo. I’m distilling it down a bit for the sake of an interview…but I used to think of it like that old cliche of, “the artist is tortured,” and you wait for the inspiration to hit. It didn’t always feel like a fun, joyous experience making music, even though I do experience extreme joy and relief when I am writing, myself.

But with these people, it’s like you fucking show up, and you work, and that part of the process…being present is what brings your sub-conscious to the forefront, lets you access that area of your brain. Which in turn, lets your creativity flow. Then you get into that mindspace which in a sense feels like you’re disappearing; which is realistically, where I think all creators want to be when they’re in the middle of creating something. It’s taught me a lot. I think it does inform my own creative process, for sure.

Do you find that you’re also contributing elsewhere in the projects? Earlier you spoke about Mat laying down ideas and characters. Do you have input there, or in regards to what the live experience with who these characters are and how they’re presented?

I don’t really have input in the overall live show. I give my ideas, but the crux of it is created by Mat and Maynard’s ideas, and Mat putting it into practice and making it happen. Technically, he’s a genius. For the most part, my ideas are just entertained [laughter] and if something sticks, it sticks. 

With the livestream coming up of your performance at Arcosanti; should fans expect something even more outrageous than what they’ve become accustomed to from the live Puscifer experience?

Yeah, I think so. I think what most Puscifer fans have learned over the years is to expect the unexpected…and then don’t expect that, either.

The reason we chose Arcosanti was because it’s a mysterious and interesting place. It’s out in the middle of the hostile, Arizona desert. It feels like these concrete buildings just mushroomed up in the middle of the desert, and it’s beautiful. It feels a bit like you woke up on Mars or something. You’re in a sci-fi movie and instead of doing the show in a venue, or a theater, or some kind of sterile environment; we chose to do it in a place that would add another dimension to the already multi-dimensional, and mysterious music.

Then on top of that, we have the set. The set-up that Mat came up with and the team we have doing all this stuff, are just brilliant. So yeah, it is going to be special.

It must have also been nice to be able to perform in some capacity.

It’s great to sing and perform music, but there’s no audience as it was right in the middle of the pandemic…as we still are, of course. It was a very different environment to playing live, but it did give you a taste of what it is going to be like to play live again. It did make me nostalgic for that. 

Well, for when you do have shows again, I think you guys should add in a cover of Peter Gabriel’s, “No Self Control.” It fits in perfectly with this album.

I love that song. Kate Bush actually sings backing vocals on that.

…oh yes, and when she comes in, it’s so ridiculously amazing.

That kind of backing vocal, that kind of…turn of phrase…that audible turn of phrase for a song like that; that’s what I’m aiming for, shit like that. 

I was listening to the album earlier and The Underwhelming was on, and it’s not like they sound exactly alike, but it reminded me of it, and I immediately had to put on No Self Control right after.

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Peter Gabriel had heavy use of the Fairlight CMI and the Synclavier throughout the making of those records, and that’s the instrument that Mat fell in love with and bought for the making of this record. Sonically, there is some similarity. 

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Bikini Kill, Sufjan, Nas & more live videos to watch in isolation

The Darkness

Basically no shows are happening due to the coronavirus outbreak (though some artists are doing livestreams instead), but if you’re already jonesing to see a show, or just need a brief distraction from the insanity of the world right now, thankfully there’s YouTube which has an amazing array of live footage from throughout the history of pop music, from clips from concert films, TV performances and other pro-shot footage, to tons of fan-shot video from shows. If you’re looking for a place to start, we’ve been picking some of our favorites. Here are five more:

Bikini Kill @ Yale’s Morse Dining Hall – 3/3/96

Bikini Kill are finally reunited and great as ever (but unfortunately also one of the many bands who had to postpone a tour), and as great as it is to see them play anywhere, watching them on a huge stage doesn’t have the same charm as the up-close-and-personal shows they did in the ’90s, like this one at Yale. It’s a grainy video shot in a modest, intimate environment (no real stage, no light show, probably no sound system worth bragging about), but it still comes across how much of a forceful, impassioned live band Bikini Kill were. This video also gets extra points for the very funny moment when Kathleen Hanna asks the person filming the show why they’re recording it. If only she knew how legendary this video would be one day. [Andrew Sacher]

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Sufjan Stevens @ Sasquatch, 8/6/2016

Sufjan Stevens toured Age of Adz in 2010 and 2011 with a series of vividly neon-hued, electro-frenzied, life-affirming shows. I couldn’t find any full sets from that era online, but happily Sufjan revisited that aesthetic for a run of 2016 festival dates after the release of Carrie & Lowell, including this Sasquatch set. Somehow he manages to incorporate Carrie & Lowell‘s melancholy material into the overall joyous set with ease, along with “dad jazz” keyboard shredding and an epic rendition of “Impossible Soul.” [Amanda Hatfield]

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The Soundtrack of Our Lives on Rockpalast, 2012

Sweden’s Soundtrack of Our Lives were master thieves, knicking the best bits of The Who, Rolling Stones, The Stooges, Love and anything else that fit into their psychedelic rock n’ roll worldview. That went for their live show, too, where they used every rock move trick in the book, and played every show like it was a massive festival. TSOOL used it all like they invented it, which made them such a consistently enjoyable group and an absolute powerhouse live band. They were the kind of group where you could just watch one member of the band for a whole show and never get bored. This show was taped for amazing, long-running German live music series Rockpalast in 2012 — they would call it quits a year later — and is packed with many of their best loved songs, including “Sister Surround,” “Mantra Slider,” “Firmament Vacation,” and “Bigtime.” [Bill Pearis]

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The Darkness @ London Astoria, November 2003

The Darkness’ debut album, Permission to Land, is a perfect record, every song is a hit, packed with RAWK riffs, super-melodic solos (most of which are announced), and no opportunity for a double entendre missed. The rest of their output has been hit or miss but in 2003 they could do no wrong, especially live where their stadium rock showmanship was equal parts tongue-in-cheek knowingness and genuine affection for all the posturing, catsuits and ridiculous rock moves. (Does frontman Justin Hawkins ride through the crowd on a roadie’s shoulders whilst soloing? You know it.) This show at the London Astoria in November of 2003 was filmed for British TV and the crowd clearly knows every word. [Bill Pearis]

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Nas @ The Fever – 1994

Veteran DJ Tony Touch was behind the boards when Nas came to Bronx club The Fever just as Illmatic came out, and Tony uploaded this vintage footage to his YouTube page a few years back. Illmatic is, of course, one of the greatest rap studio albums ever made, but live footage of Nas from this period remains as sought after as his album. Right off the bat, it was clear how good of a rapper Nas was, and that really comes across when he’s on stage getting a crowd going nuts off the strength of his bars alone. Also in this video: AZ comes out for his verse on “Life’s A Bitch.” [Andrew Sacher]

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What's your opinion on this robot harry?For me it's so annoying he can't even pretend to be excited for his own tour, his social media presence is such a turn off

Well I’m sort of digging myself a grave with this one, but since I haven’t seen a post I can fully agree with, here we go. Disclaimer, I actually study this at uni. I was the Social Media Manager for the planning and putting together of a fashion show, on all platforms. I just handed in last month a 6-months marketing plan that was based around social media promo. So I do have a bit of knowledge in this area. I am by no means an expert, but this is my future field of choice, so I like to think I’m at least educated.

The situation isn’t as black and white as people have put it so far. All I’ve seen is “he’s horrible at engaging with fans” and “he doesn’t own you shit so stop complaining”. The answer is a very big grey area in which Harry’s actual social media presence fits perfectly in my opinion. First of all, there’s two main templates we studied for marketing purposes this year, Gaynor Lea Greenwood’s promotion suggestions (2009) and Burcher (2013)’s Paid, Owned and Earned media concept. Long story short, the first one is your traditional marketing campaign and the second one relies more on social media and advertising on it. Now, I think Harry’s team went for the more traditional approach, and let me explain why.

Harry started distancing himself more and more from twitter and Instagram ever since the hiatus started.Even before, during OTRA and MITAM promo, most of his tweets were promo stuff, lyrics I’m not sure we fully understand even now, charity work, promoting friends or tweeting about holidays/important days or events. His fan interaction has been low for quite a while, and I’m honestly baffled people are acting like this is news. Looking through his Twitter in 2015, there are some tweets to fans, yes, but they’re very sparse.I counted about 12 in 5 months, most of them in September, when Perfect came out, and around the release of MITAM.His tweets were mostly thanks to fans for various awards and nominalisation, promoting the songs/album, some lyrics and, without fail, after every concert he tweeted a thank you for coming.

It felt more personal than what we have now (tho in all honesty, his tour hasn’t started yet and if we eliminate the OTRA tweets it’s already a different story), but Robot Harry has been a thing then, and people were riding along with it instead of condemning it to the extent they do now.But, the thing is, Harry didn’t have the entire burden of engaging with the fanbase like he has now.Louis, Niall and Liam always took turns in taking the lead in replying to fans and interacting with them, which allowed Harry to do his part and everyone was mostly happy.

And yet, I personally don’t feel this frustration many people feel. I think it’s quite interesting actually. A bold move that wouldn’t work for other artist whose career relies on people who live and breathe social media (maybe Beyonce or Adele, but they are in another league). I was very intrigued by Harry’s statement in the Behind the album video, in which he said that there was a time in his life when people knew everything about him, and he didn’t like it.He has been overexposed since 2012, his personal life splashed across tabloids, fake relationship or not.And now he disappeared for a year (and has been retreating into himself for at least 2) and he wrote this mysterious™ album, trying to see if people can listen and understand it without knowing much about the current him. In this context, having an album that surrounds itself in mystery and then doing 4 Q&As on twitter and 3 livestreams sends…extremely contradictory messages. I can, and will fault his team for presenting a dual image of Harry that sometimes makes 0 sense, for handling a lot of things so poorly, and for the entire Carolina mess, but I will say that his social media fits this old school mysterious rockstar image they’re showing of him. I also think his actual reason is very personal and very real, and I respect the fact that he didn’t compromise this choice he made for promo purposes.

His promo relied on more traditional channels. TV and radio appearances, print magazines, and most importantly, the secret gigs. Now, I’m sorry, but I felt entirely more connected to Harry running across London at 8AM in my pyjamas than by any twitter spree he’ll ever do. I never did this before. This reminded me of the stories my dad told me, of queuing up for days in front of the box office so he’d get the tickets when they went on sale. It was very old school and it worked for me. It was a phenomenal experience, something I will never forget. And he did this for us. All profits went to charity, he didn’t do this for money. And while I know this was for a few selected cities and a handful of lucky fans, it was intimate and it was special and I think everyone, regardless if they were there, or vicariously living through pics and videos, felt a connection to Harry. We got emotional on his behalf when he sang with his idol on stage 2 weeks later, you don’t do that for someone you have no connection to.

Now, the actual reason I’m happy with what we’ve got is that it is genuine from my POV. Liam is the perfect candidate for a comparison, since he also took a bit of a break from social media (not as heavy as Harry’s, but he definitely wasn’t as active as Louis or Niall) and his promo is as textbook as it gets. He slowly, but surely increased his activity since January, a few more tweets, a few more pics on Instagram.A big turning point was April when he posted 13 pics on Instagram, compared to 8 in March, 4 in February and 3 in January. His Twitter went through a similar process.Now, the moment he started posting more, I knew his music was gonna be out soon. It’s pure marketing. You start your campaign weeks before the actual launch, it’s only natural. Unless you want to drop it as a surprise, but that’s another discussion. Actually Harry did it too, with the TV ad, but that was ruined by the info getting leaked beforehand and everyone getting pissed off by that so whatevs. Now, Liam is going for the approachable celeb route. Streams, Instagram stories, snapchat, tweeting fans, loads of pics, videos with popular Youtubers. It’s nice and about as well handled as it gets (apart from that weird video release earlier than it should have been and Liam just generally being a bit…odd?off?idk how to explain it, but a lot of people feel the same way from what I’ve seen). It fits with the image Liam is going for, it aims at the right target audience. He’s not trying to enter a new market like Harry is. He’s consolidating his place in the current market from what I’ve seen (and I’ll admit I haven’t followed his promo as closely as Harry’s). Trying to imagine Harry doing this sort of promo doesn’t really work for me.

Niall has been present on and off social media ever since he came back from his trip last year. Literally, if I pull up the calendars people have been making each month, he doesn’t get more than a handful of days without doing something, so it’s unfair to compare him to the others, since he’s always around and posting and doing stuff.

Louis deserves a better team and I won’t have anyone uttering anything else in my presence, and yet somehow, despite Niall’s constant presence and Liam’s textbook engagement, I’ll never feel as connected to them as I feel to Louis. Louis’ tweets are the perfect mixture of absolutely adorable fan service (“our year” 😭😭) and some of the things he’s passionate about (tv shows, fashion, footie/sports). His promo for JHO was….I have no words for it and I’m gonna have a rage fit if I start thinking about it, but his overall persona is charming and endearing when he’s posting things himself. He created a real communication channel between us and him and he knows how to use it when he needs to send a message (warning selfies anyone?Only you?). There’s an actual analysis of Instagram stats that shows he’s the number 1 male account in engagement and overall likes and that doesn’t surprise me one bit. Louis is a smart businessman, he has a loyal fanbase who is here for him through thick and thin.

And on top of everything I said so far, none of them owe us anything outside the promo bubble. Apart from shoots, songs/albums/tours info and official announcements, they do not owe us anything. If they chose to share a picture from their home, that’s their personal space, and while it’s good for PR, amazingly good in a society that thrives from the feeling of knowing everything about everyone (like what’s your fave’s breakfast and how’s their cat is doing), it’s still a part they can choose to keep private and no one should be entitled to ask for more.

Have you seen Adele’s Instagram? It gives you this illusion of closeness to her, with make up free selfies, funny poses and landscape shots. Too bad literally everything is from touring and other official appearances right? There’s one picture of her home, and that’s to celebrate the end of the tour. Harry sort of did the same with the booklet pictures. He allowed you into his personal space in a controlled manner, just like Adele did. Only he did it in a different way. His promo is just different and you have to think a bit outside the box to see that he actually did a lot of things other artists do. Just a bit differently. Was it perfect?Fuck, no. Was it as bad as many people make it look like?Personally, I don’t think so. It was just different and people are entirely justified to see it as a good or a bad thing. I see it mostly as a good thing. Mostly.

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Hanbin Scenario: Supportive Girlfriend

This was inspired by all the streaming I’ve been doing for their Bling Bling and B-Day MVs! This was long overdue but my laptop deleted everything and I only recently got the motivation to rewrite everything and get over that trauma. ANYWAYS, Enjoy! And sorry for any mistakes!!

It hadn’t been long since iKON finally dropped their 2 new MVs for their long-awaited comeback, and introduced and talked about them on their livestream on vlive. You watched the screen on your computer as it notified you that their comeback vlive had just ended, and you exited out of the screen. 

You were so happy for your boyfriend, Hanbin, and his teammates for finally returning to the Korean setting and being able to show everyone what they had been working so hard on. You were also very pleased to finally hear the songs that Hanbin had been seriously composing in his studio while you patiently waited for him to give you a little attention when he could spare a some time.

You remembered the days when you would beg him for a little sneak peak of the new songs that he was working on. But every time he would tell you that it wouldn’t be fair to their other fans if he let you have a little listen, since you were a fan yourself. At times he would say it was a surprise because he felt confident that they were really good songs and way better than the ones from their previous album.

There were times though when he was very close to allowing you to listen to a little spoiler when you would do your best aegyo or even make a deal with him, like giving him a full massage or several other things that you suggested in exchange to persuade him. Or maybe tempted was a better word.

But in the end, he never gave in to your temptations and stuck to his strict rule, evidently struggling to pull himself away and refuse. It was too bad for him because he was missing out on all the good things that you offered. Well, not as bad as you had it because you were dying to know how they sounded like for what felt like 15384 years.

But alas, the day had finally come! And you were so ecstatic at the moment that you immediately went into your secret fan accounts that Hanbin didn’t know of and read up on all the updates about iKON, and activities that iKONICs were doing as a fandom. 

You read one post that said that they will be doing a mass streaming event for both of their MVs to raise their views, and you were quick to switching tabs and opening up Youtube to join in on the fun.

After you set up multiple windows on your computer screen and played the music videos on each one, you searched around your room like a huntress for other devices that you could stream on as well.

You grabbed your iPad sitting on your bedside table, your laptop from your drawer, your old phone tucked away at the back of your cabinet, and finally your phone that was laying on your bed, then set them all up on your desk and streamed on them as well.

While the videos played, you took the chance to run to the kitchen (literally) to quickly grab anything and everything that could count as your dinner and midnight snacks because you were going to be up all night making your boyfriend and his brothers proud.

Swiftly making the gears in your head function, you thought about what else you needed to be comfortable. Pulling your blanket off of your bed, you wrapped it around you and settled in your chair.

You scoped your bedroom for anything else, and your eyes caught sight of your konbat sitting on top of your shelf, and you paused and thought to yourself, ‘well, why not?’ So you grabbed it and sang along to Bling bling that was currently playing on your phone.

But then, your phone suddenly started ringing, stopping the music in its tracks. The caller ID read Hanbin♥, and you fumbled to immediately take the call.

Hanbin was about to say hello but you unintentionally cut him off due to your excitement. “Hanbin-ah!” You gleefully called out to him into the phone.

He chuckled from the other end and said, “Hey, did you hear our songs already?”

“Of course! I’m listening to them right now. They’re so good! Really! You’re such a genius. I could listen to them all day.” Your words came out rushed and filled with enthusiasm that you could scream right now.

He laughed out loud then continued, “Did you watch our vlive?”

“Of course! I wouldn’t have missed it for the world. Do you know how long I’ve waited for your comeback?”

Hanbin was saying something in response but you lost focus when you noticed all the videos were ending all at once, and you tried to quickly restart them because time was of the essence!

You interrupted Hanbin and said, “Sorry, Hanbin-ah! I have to go. I’m really busy right now so I’ll talk to you soon!” Then you hung up and put your hands to work without delay.

Time flew by so fast that you didn’t realize that it had already turned midnight. You were concentrating so hard on keeping the videos going on all of your devices to increase the views as much as you can. 

Because you were so immersed in singing and dancing along to Bling Bling in your seat with your konbat in one hand, you didn’t notice that your front door to your apartment opened and that Hanbin was here, until his voice suddenly interrupted through your room.

“What are you doing right now?”

Every muscle in your body froze, your hand holding your konbat suspended in the air and your body hunched forward as you stared into the computer screen with wide eyes.

You slowly turned your head around and saw Hanbin standing in the doorway of your bedroom, one hand still gripping the doorknob and his mouth slightly ajar. You hesitantly looked him in his eyes guiltily as your hand slowly lowered, and found the evident shock in his features from the sight of his own girlfriend avidly fangirling over him and his group members.

You couldn’t even imagine how shocking you looked to him right now. You were wrapped in your fluffy blanket, wearing your penguin pajamas with your hair pulled up messily at the top of your head and your konbat in one hand, with all your devices surrounding you, streaming Bling Bling and B-Day. Not to mention a combination of food, drinks and trash were messily scattered on your desk.

You timidly smiled at him and nervously and quietly said, “Hanbin, you’re here?”

He stood there without any sort of movement, staring at you with wide eyes for a solid 10 seconds while you felt the color in your face drain with every second, before he spoke again, “Y/n, what are you doing?”

You quickly stood up from your seat, letting your blanket fall into the floor and quickly explained, “I was just streaming your music videos repeatedly to increase the views. All of this,” you motioned to your devices, “I’m streaming on them too to make it times 2! And just now—” you lifted your konbat and glanced at it then quietly continued,“—I was just excited because they finally came out and it’s super good and it’s just so exciting. I just couldn’t help myself from dancing and singing along to it…” You trailed off as you hesitantly took a peak at your boyfriend.

His expression didn’t change but slowly, he asked you, “Over the phone when you said you were busy, was it because you were doing this?” He gestured to your mess behind you.

Immediately, you jutted out your bottom lip into a small pout as shut your eyes tightly and clasped your hands together. “I’m sorry, Hanbin-ah! I’m sorry for hanging up on you, but I had to help out to raise the views of your MVs. It’s to repay you guys for all your hard work! This was the least that we could do for you...”

You nervously stared at him and nervously bit your lip as you waited for any kind of response to replace this blank stare looking into your guilty soul.

Suddenly, Hanbin burst out laughing, leaving you frozen in your spot in shock. He couldn’t stop laughing and he was already kneeling on the ground with his hand clenching his stomach.

“Hanbin…” You called out to him worriedly, hesitantly reaching out to him but finding yourself unable to. Had your boyfriend finally gone crazy? Did you finally trigger the switch?

He waved his hand in the air as if saying that it was nothing, and his laughter finally died down. He stood back up while wiping the tears that had formed in his eyes.

“Are you okay?” You asked him carefully, fidgeting in place.

He nodded, a helpless smile left on his lips and eyes full of affection as he raked his fingers through his hair in defeat.

“You are really…” He started but finished with a sigh. He closed the distance between you in a flash then pulled you into him abruptly for a hug, leaving you frozen in surprise.

His arm that was circled over your shoulders moved down to wrap around your waist and pull you tighter against his chest. He buried his face into the crook of your neck and inhaled slowly.

Your body finally relaxed in his familiar embrace and scent, and your arms went around him to hug him back.

He sighed in content then murmured into your neck, sending tingles down your spine, “I love you.”

You couldn’t help but smile. Tears stung your eyes from the fullness you felt in your heart just from that one line and gesture. People didn’t just fall in love once, because right now you were sure you fell in love with Hanbin all over again just from that one line and gesture.

He pulled away just a little bit to look into your eyes, his arms never leaving you. “What did I do to ever deserve you?” He looked at you in wonder and with so much affection that it hurt your heart. In a good way.

“Funny you ask that,” You responded as you leaned your forehead against his. “I was wondering the same thing about you.”

You both giggled then continued to stare into each other’s eyes.

He broke the comfortable silence playfully, “I know you have a fully packed schedule right now, but can you possibly make time for me right now?” You giggled at that then he added more solemnly, “I’ve missed you so much, and I’ll be busy again after this.” The smile on his face faded and you felt his fingers squeeze your waist ever so lightly.

You cupped his cheek then replied, “Of course.” Then you smiled up at him. “Always.” You wrapped your arms around him again and pulled him closer.

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Skylight Book Gerard Signing

Where. To. Begin. 

This is basically more for me than for anyone else, but I wanted to get this written down so that I would never forget this awesome night. Am I being a little over dramatic? Yeah. And that’s okay! I’m still that same little 8th-grade fangirl who adored MCR when I first held their brand new Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge album in my hands when a friend handed it to me in Mr. Stone’s history class back in 2004. 

But I digress… Here’s how tonight went down. 

A friend of mine (Anna, the most amazing girl ever who is my Gerard guru) posted about the signing a few days ago. I live in Los Angeles, and it was on a Friday night, so I knew I’d be able to go. I purchased a book online and they gave me a ticket for the signing. 

I showed up early to scope out the place and the area since I wasn’t really familiar with it. I also usually tend to go to these things by myself because I’ve always been kind of a loner and also no one else usually wants to go, haha. But I always end up befriending other fans who are there, so it always works out. 

Once the chairs were set up, I got a seat in the 2nd row and asked the girls next to me if they could save my seat so that I could go out and smoke (don’t smoke, kids. It’s a disgusting habit.). On my way out, I ran into Jeremy Lambert, the first “Crow” victim from Worm and Gerard’s Charity Livestream a few weeks ago! I stopped and said, “Oh my god! You’re Jeremy!” and he recognized me, but he couldn’t place where he knew me from. I laughed and said, “I’m gerard_ways_nose_twin” from the Livestream!

He laughed and said, “Oh my god! I can’t believe it’s you! I knew I recognized you!” and we ended up talking about the Livestream, moving from our hometowns to Los Angeles, the horrors of BeanBoozled and other random fun things. He was the sweetest! I asked if I could take a picture with him, which he sweetly agreed to and then I gave him a hug before I went outside. 

When I came back, I saw that the seats in the front row which were previously reserved had the sign removed. I asked the two girls next to me who saved my seat if they wanted the front row, but they declined. I asked them if they wouldn’t mind if I sat there and they told me to go for it, so I did! I ended up getting front row, center for the Q&A! It would have been perfect if we were allowed to take pictures, but they were super strict about it, so I didn’t even bring my camera in. I’m kind of bummed, but I was just so grateful to be there. 

Luckily, I was able to pull out my phone and get an audio recording of the interview, which you can listen to HERE! 

The Q&A went on for about 40 minutes and I even got the opportunity to ask a question! I asked, “When you started writing comics for such a big company like DC- if you can recall, what was something that surprised you that was the most difficult for you to grasp and get over in order to release your comics?” They all sort of paused and I felt awkward and said, “It’s kind of a loaded question…” And Gerard followed up with, “No, it’s good! I’m trying to think…” 

I guess Jon was confused by my question (I really didn’t word it very well, I was so nervous) and he asked, “So, what, was it like any preconceived notions we might have had?” And I answered, “Yeah! I mean, something that surprised you that you didn’t think would be that difficult or would be that fun or-“

Then, Jon and Gerard just started laughing and Gerard said, “Monthly comics!” Then for the next few minutes, Gerard and Jon went back and forth, laughing about the overwhelming stress that is Monthly Comics and then Cecil and Jody gave their opinions as well, which were all amazing, so if you have time, listen to the recording because it was so awesome getting to listen to their insight on things! 

Anyway, I could go on and on about that. SO, moving on. The panel was fantastic and I never get tired of listening to their intellectual banter regarding the projects that they have put so much passion into. It’s really inspiring and I’m grateful to have witnessed it! 

After the panel came the signing. I was number 13 out of about 50 people, so I was one of the first people to go up. Here’s how it went down:

Gerard: Oh, hey! Me: Hi guys!  Gerard: How are you doing?! Cecil: You had a great question! Me: Oh, thank you! Thank you for… answering? (omg why am I so awkward… and then I looked over at Gerard and facetiously said) Nose Twin! Gerard: I know, right?! Thank you so much for donating during the stream! Me: *laughing nervously* Oh yeah! That was so…. *I was suddenly lost for words because I’m a star-struck fool* Cecil: Do you just want a signature? Or did you want your name? (We were given post-it notes with our names if we wanted the books personalized) Me: Uhh… I think I have my name somewhere in there… - It’s Krista *flips to the first page of the book* - there we go! Cecil: Oh! Okay! *laughs* Me: *Looking at Gerard* Someday… I know not today (because they were being strict about pictures) but I think it would be really cool if we got a picture of our noses together! Gerard: Oh, yeah, yeah yeah! I think that’d be fun! Me: *laughing and blushing like a fool in response as Gerard signs my name in the book* Thanks, Nose Twin! Gerard: *smiles and writes ‘Nose Twin’* Me: Thank you for being a good sport about it. Gerard: Yeah! Me: You know, I’m just messing with you *laughs* Gerard: Oh, yeah! No! I think it’s fun! Me: *Pulls out paper with Scottish runes on it* Umm, if you don’t mind, I’m actually very Scottish… Gerard: Oh, cool. Me: -and I’d like to get some Scottish runes tattooed… Gerard: Okay! Me: Would you mind drawing a couple? Gerard: You want me to just draw them? *points on paper* Yeah, yeah, yeah! Jody: *holding my comic book* Do you want us all to sign this? Me: If you don’t mind, yeah, that would be great! It’s really a pleasure to meet you guys. Jon: It’s a pleasure to meet you as well! Me: How are you guys doing? *Gerard hands me the rune drawings* Thank you so much! Jon: We’re doing great! We’re having a lot of fun. Me: I’m so glad! Jon: These are great (referring to small signing events) because they’re so chill and we all like each other *signaling to everyone on the panel* and it’s nice *laughs* It’s not work at all. Me: Very cool! *shaking Gerard’s hand* It was so nice to see you again! *Shakes Jody and Jon’s hands (Cecil was talking with another fan)* It was really nice to meet you both. I’ll see you guys around! Jon / Jody / Gerard: Thank you! Me: *Proceeds to run into bookshelf and runs away because I’m an awkward p.o.s.*

WHEW! So that was the signing. 

So, it’s already been an amazing night, and I go outside to call my Mom and check in on her. After I’m done, the bookstore has pretty much cleared out and everyone left the signing and the panelists are just hanging out inside, so I thought I’d take a chance and go to talk to them. I ran into Jody first, who was talking with Blake, a really nice guy who works at DC as well and who asked the questions during the Q&A. He stopped me and here’s how that conversation happened: 

Blake: I just have to say… It was so fun watching you during that panel. Me: Umm… what? Blake: *laughs* You were just so excited to be here! You were just so happy! Me: *awkwardly laughing and blushing* Oh my gosh! I mean… yeah! I am excited! Blake: Yeah, you know, a lot of the people had such a dead-pan stare, but not you! You were just very excited and thrilled to be here. Me: Yeah, of course! Oh wow… that’s a little embarrassing that it was that obvious. Jody: No! It’s a good thing! 

This actually really made me feel good because I always make it a point to watch the panelists who are speaking. I know that I am there to see Gerard first and foremost, but that doesn’t mean that I have to creepily stare at him the whole time? Idk, I just think that it’s disrespectful to ignore the other panelists, so the fact that someone actually noticed something like that was funny to me. Anyway, so after that:

Me: *turning to Jody* Umm… I know that there isn’t supposed to be any pictures allowed tonight, but would you mind taking a picture with me? Blake: *playfully* Oh, that’s only referring to Gerard. These guys aren’t famous enough to not want pictures. Jody: *laughs* Of course I’ll take a picture! 

*We take the picture a couple of times because she didn’t like her hair in the first couple, haha!*

So then I told her how nice it was to meet her and then I walked over to Cecil and Jon and before I could even ask for a picture, Cecil praised me about my question again. She said that it was a really good question and I was really flattered that she thought it was a good one! 

I then asked for a picture and they asked if I wanted a separate picture with each of them or one of us together, and I said whatever they wanted and they decided to have one altogether. They took a moment to decide on where they wanted the picture because they wanted to take it in front of Cecil’s books, but she said that Jon would block them all with his height anyway, so it didn’t matter, haha! I then asked if I could be “sandwiched” in between them for the picture and Jody offered to take the picture while Blake was trying to get Jon to laugh the whole time. 

After that, I thanked them all again for taking the time to come out and meet the fans. They all said that they loved being there and then we talked about how pretty the bookshop was for awhile before I left to go look at more books. When I went to the back corner, I didn’t even notice Gerard kneeling behind the shelf I was approaching and when he popped up from behind it, he scared the crap out of me. I turned around awkwardly and I think he was embarrassed, so he went over to talk to Jon, and that’s when I thought, “what the hell, I’m going to see if he’ll take that nose twin picture I talked about!” So I approached him and here’s what was said: 

Me: Hey again! So… I’m so sorry to bother you… I know that you’re not wanting to do pictures today, but I just had to ask… would you mind taking our Nose picture together? Gerard: *chuckling* Okay, sure! Me: Awesome! Thank you so much! Jon: Do you want me to take it? Me: Yeah, that would be great! *hands him my phone before turning to Gerard awkwardly* Umm… so how are we gonna do this? Gerard: Uhhh… Me: I mean, do we, like, face each other? Jon: You want your noses, right? Gerard: *nervously* I think we would just take it like a normal picture? Me: *secretly bummed because I wanted a nose-to-nose picture, but realized how uncomfortable that would be for him and was just happy to get any sort of picture with him* Okay! Umm.. do I put my arm around you? (omfg why am I so awkward, I want to punch myself in the face) Gerard: Yeah! *puts his arm around me* Jon: *take like 10 pictures* Me: Thank you so much! I really appreciate you being so kind about it. Gerard: Oh yeah, of course!

And then we said our goodbyes and I went outside again to smoke and gush to my friends about what just happened! 

THEN, I looked in the window and the store was pretty empty and Gerard was just browsing the books by himself. I probably shouldn’t have… I don’t know what I was thinking, I’m usually so much more reserved, but I couldn’t stop myself, and I went inside to talk to him. 

Me: Hey Gerard! Gerard: Hi! Me: I’m so sorry to bother you again, I just wanted to thank you for being so kind and patient with your fans. Gerard: Oh, it’s not a problem at all. Me: I mean… do you ever get tired of seeing the same fans all the time? Gerard: *chuckling* No. Me: You can be honest! I’d get tired of fans like me. (omfg why am I even still speaking at this point, I’m such an idiot wtf) Gerard: No, not at all. Me: Well, that’s good... *awkwardly laughing* Are you excited for Thought Bubble? That’s coming up soon, right?  Gerard: Oh, yeah! I haven’t been over there in a long time, so I’m excited for it.  Me: Cool! It’s in England... right?  Gerard: Well, it’s in Leeds.  Me: *laughing* Okay, well, I’ll leave you alone, but I did want to ask you something… I heard a rumor that your favorite venue is the Metro in Chicago. Is that true? Gerard: *Gives me a weird look* Umm… no? I mean, I like the Metro, but my favorite is Irving Plaza in New York. Or The Forum here in LA. Me: Really?! Oh wow. When’s the last time you played at The Forum? Gerard: Like… Black Parade. Me: No way! Wow. Well, I hope that you get to play there again. Gerard: Thanks! Me: *Finally taking into consideration that I’m selfishly taking up his time when he probably wants to be alone and just look at books* Okay, well I’ll actually leave you alone now… do you mind if I give you a hug? Gerard: Not at all! *Gives awkward hug* Me: Thank you! I’ll see you around. Gerard: Bye! 

And that was it! SO much happened in such a short amount of time and it was so amazing! I’m just so happy that one of my idols recognized me and knows my face! It’s such a surreal feeling and I feel like such a fan girl, but I really try so hard to keep sane and be respectful of his time and his space. Idk if I have failed at that or succeeded, but it’s definitely always something that I try to keep in mind. It’s easy to lose yourself when you’re star struck and in the presence of someone that you admire so much, but again, I digress. 

I think this will probably be the last of the Gerard events for awhile. I’ve had the opportunity to meet him 5 times in the past 6 months! I can’t even believe that. I haven’t had the chance to meet him in the past 13 years that I’ve been a fan and to have all of these events happen back-to-back is so unreal and I am so grateful for each interaction we’ve had. 

I could go on and on, but I’m going to wrap it up here. If you’re still with me at this point, I commend you, and thank you for reading! 

Cheers xo

[tslyricx]

14. EVERYTHING HAS CHANGED (ft. Ed Sheeran)

“Everything Has Changed” is a song about realizing your life has flipped upside down after falling for someone new. The track appears on Taylor’s fourth album, Red, and features vocals from her close friend Ed Sheeran.

The music video for the song follows a day in the life of two young children in the same elementary school class. They are both misfits and become good friends, but their platonic feelings turn to something more. At the end of the video, it is revealed that the girl is Taylor’s daughter and the boy is Ed’s son.

Moving futher into the song, Ed Sheeran explained to Zane Lowe how he and Taylor had a bit of a dispute over the first pre-chorus: “She pretty much had the verse, bridge and chorus done but we argued about that one chord. She didn’t like that but I forced it upon her. It was quite a funny situation though, ‘cause her place, it’s like surrounded by Grammys—she’s got like seven or eight, and like Billboard awards and Songwriting Guild and stuff like that, and I’m like, 'this chord, huh?’”: “ I just wanna know you better Know you better, know you better now I just wanna know you better Know you better, know you better now I just wanna know you better Know you better, know you better now I just wanna know you, know you, know you”

The second verse, which Ed and Taylor sing together says: “ And all my walls stood tall, painted blue And I'll take 'em down, take 'em down And open up the door for you” Putting up “walls” between yourself and other people symbolically represents creating distance in order to protect yourself, in this case from previous relationships. Although Sheeran has his blue walls up (a color typically used to describe sadness), he sees something in this specific girl. He’s willing to let her come into his life – aka take down his walls/open the door to his heart.

A fun fact about this song is that Taylor had written it before joining Ed and finishing it together. Here there are some differences between the original lyrics and the lyrics written for the record: “All I’ve seen since 18 hours ago” / “And all I’ve seen is everything you are” Some other lyrics are: “ And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies The beautiful kind, making up for lost time Taking flight, making me feel right” Swift’s handwritten lyrics reveal that this section was originally: “All I feel in my stomach is butterflies/The beautiful kind, falling for a Gemini/This feels right, making me feel like.” Another draft went: “All I feel in my stomach is butterflies For a Gemini who’d never tell a lie The beautiful kind, saying ‘this feels right’.” Also, the bridge was originally written: “When you caught my eye The look said you’d missed me all this time Meet me there tonight So I can know it’s not all in my mind”

What have Ed and Taylor said about the song?

After writing this duet with British singer-songwriter Ed Sheeran, Swift recalled to MTV News: “We, for real, were sitting on my trampoline in my backyard cause we had been writing a song and I was like, ‘Hey, I just got a trampoline. You want to see it?’ And so, he brought the guitar for some reason. We ended up writing an entire song out there. For portions of the song, we were bouncing around, ‘cause it’s a trampoline and it’s fun, and the combined maturity level of both of us is 8 years.”

Sheeran told MTV News their partnership worked since they have a lot in common: “Well, I don’t really write so much with other artists. Like the Taylor session, when we got together and wrote was the second time I’ve ever gotten with another singer/songwriter and written a song with them. So it wasn’t actually too hard of an adjustment. We’re very much alike musically and it worked out well, I think.” 


Ed Sheeran is one of several songwriters that Swift reached out to write with her on Red, her fourth studio album. She told Billboard magazine that the people she chose to collaborate with were ones who inspired her: “You look at someone like Ed Sheeran. He comes from such a sincere place as a writer, and his songs move you in every direction emotionally. That’s something I was so inspired by I ended up calling him.”

Regarding the song’s meaning, Taylor told Digital Spy: “It’s about falling in love. It’s about meeting someone and all of a sudden your entire perspective on the world changes – you’re thinking for two, instead of one.”


Asked by The Sun how Sheeran and her originally met up, Swift replied: “We had both reached out to each other’s camps at the same time. I showed up at his hotel in Arizona and we just wrote songs all day. Then he came and hung out at my house in LA and we spent all night sitting on the kitchen floor laughing, writing songs and harmonizing.”

According to Sheeran, it was Swift who did most of the work when they penned this tune: “She pretty much came with the song and was like, ‘Which bits would you change?’“ I was like, ‘Oh, I don’t know.'”



How did this collaboration come about?

Taylor said during an August 2012 livestream: ”When I was touring in Australia I saw his [“Lego House”] music video on TV, and I was just blown away. […] I got back to the states and I heard from someone that he wanted to work with me and we ended up getting together and writing together, and we wrote a song while sitting on a trampoline that was so much fun and we loved it so much that we actually ended up recording it as a duet. So, it is going to be on the album and I’m so excited because I’m such a huge fan of his.”

Favorite lyrics: “And all I feel in my stomach is butterflies/The beautiful kind, making up for lost time/Taking flight, making me feel right”

Album: Red released on October 22, 2012.

Witten by: Taylor Swift & Ed Sheeran.

Hidden message: Hyannis Port.

Picture: Photo from the Red booklet.

Source: https://genius.com/Taylor-swift-everything-has-changed-lyrics

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TØP Weekly Update #39: We’re Still Winding Down... (5/28/17)

Another fairly succinct installment today, as we don’t have too many talking points to cover. It’s both exciting and kind of a bummer that there’s not many of these left in this album cycle, but we will not go quietly into the night. We will not go without a fight. Today, we celebrate... where was I going with this again?

This Week’s TØPics:

BBMAs Win

Tyler and Josh Fun

Sasquatch Recap

AND Not Much Else, tbh

Major News and Announcements:

The only major news is nearly a week old, as it broke only a few hours after the last update. Everyone in the Clique pretty much knows by now, but, yes, the fandom was able to pull Twenty One Pilots into a win for Billboard’s Chart Achievement award. Their pre-recorded acceptance speech was pretty much what you’d expect from the boys, which is to say that it was funny and genuine (Tyler seems kind of scared of ya’ll, tbh).

The other sorta-big news is that Josh’s drumming will be featured in some capacity on the upcoming Goldfinger album The Knife, their first album in nearly a decade. This is hardly a surprise- if you follow Josh on social media, you’ll see that he regularly hangs out with the band’s lead- and extremely prolific producer who’s definitely not courting Twenty One Pilots, no sir- John Feldmann. 

Performances, Interviews, and Other Shenanigans:

The only Twenty One Pilots performance in the last week was their headlining appearance  on the second night of George, Washington's Sasquatch Festival. Thankfully, this week's show was thankfully not cut short by weather problems (in fact, it seems like the weather in the rugged countryside was clear as could be), and actually featured quite a few notable aspects that set it apart from the boys' most recent shows. These include:

Two brand new covers: Tyler rapped a snippet of TLC's "Waterfalls" on the ukulele in the lead-up to "WDBWOTV" that was nearly unrecognizable beyond the lyrics (to the point where Tyler joked that it was a new song he had just written backstage). The second new cover was a piano rendition of Post Malone's "Congratulations" on the tail-end of "Stressed Out". I'm personally not a fan of the song nor the artist, but Tyler's version will certainly be my preferred choice. Why so many new covers is anyone's guess; maybe Tyler's testing stuff out for Tour de Columbus, or maybe he's just having some fun before the band steps away for awhile.

Much more important to me than either of these "new" tracks is the fact that, for the first time in over a year (more specifically, since March 2016 at a single show of the Canadian Blurryface Tour), Tyler and Josh played my favorite song. And, look, I don't want to force too much of my personal life into these updates, but I have to admit that this last week absolutely kicked my ass, and getting to hear Twenty One Pilots perform "The Run and Go" as I fell asleep last night meant more than words can express. Thanks, guys.

That wasn’t the only bit of #QualityContent the boys dished up this week, however. In response to the outpouring of effort the Clique put in, Tyler walked through the trees behind his new house and hopped on Instagram for a few minutes for what I believe was his first and only (so far) livestream. Highlights:

He thanked the Clique, not just for the award, but for changing his life. He specifically used the story of buying his first leaf-blower to manage the backyard of a home that he was able to buy because of what we’ve done for him in supporting his music. I don’t know about you guys, but the idea that we helped Tyler get some trees of his own to wander through, think, and make music honestly kind of made me tear up.

Tyler expressed some honest thoughts about award shows that probably didn’t win him any points in the industry (and honestly might influence how and if he streams in the future). He flat out says that, beyond the logistical hurdles, he didn’t want to go to the show. Though he respects Billboard for the good work they do and especially for the exposure, he doesn’t like the culture of award shows. He compares it to being compelled to play piano by his parents when company came around and the dehumanizing pressure he felt to perform for an audience that didn’t really understand him. However, Tyler also notes that he often left those impromptu unwelcome recitals feeling unexpectedly happy, and compares that to the feeling of being recognized by the awards, especially when it came from fans who did understand them.

Josh came to his house to watch the awards. No word on if pants were worn (I’d assume not).

Tyler assures that the band is not interested in getting “too big or too pop”, emphasizing that they will not have other people writing their songs or have them be constructed in a boardroom meeting.

He wraps up by asking us too be patient, because they’re working on new stuff (!), and then runs off to catch that deer that I guess he still hasn’t caught after all these years (honestly, though, that call back to the old Twitter days shattered my heart).

Not wanting to feel left out, I guess, Josh participated in a 20-minute interview with the YouTube channel “Behind the Brand”. A lot of it is a rehash of a lot of old talking points, mixed with some general statements about his first business venture with Hayley Williams and GoodDyeYoung, but there’s still a few points of interest.

When Josh mentions that he and Tyler probably wouldn’t have been friends in high school, the interviewer brings up the amusing mental picture of them meeting in a Breakfast Club style.

In trying to define Josh’s style, they settle on the phrase “respectful rebellion”, which fits him pretty perfectly. He elaborates, “I’m too nice of a kid to be fully rebellious, but I’ve wanted to. Inside, I want to rebel all the way, but, ya know, I can’t.”

When asked if he was cool or nerdy in high school, Josh says “Definitely cool, but a cool nerd, I guess.”

I think one of the more interesting questions the guy asks is whether it’s easier or harder to start something new now when considering how the current information age and its ease of access has inflated so many markets and made it difficult to find a niche. Josh says that he’s more confident now than he once was, but he attributes that more to his own growth in fame and confidence. He does talk a bit about how streaming has made an “ocean” of music at people’s fingertips, which is very intimidating for someone who wants to be seen.

When discussing his fears, Josh first jokes about sharks, but then gets honest and discusses the anxiety he feels when someone commends him for his success, as he feels like it immediately pushes him into considering how and if he’s capable of sustaining it into the future. Ultimately, Josh just has to keep trying to do better every day than he did the day before.

Also, they were a Jeopardy question. They made it, kids

Community Update:

Last up for this update- I’d be remiss to not mention that the folks at Music Video Sins for analyzing/mocking the “HeavyDirtySoul” vid. It’s worth a chuckle.

That’s all for this week. Probably no update next week unless there’s major news. Then, it’s time for Firefly, and then... Tour de Columbus. Oh boy.

Power to the local dreamer.

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[bonniejstarks]

Bikini Kill, Sufjan, Nas & more live videos to watch in isolation

The Darkness

Basically no shows are happening due to the coronavirus outbreak (though some artists are doing livestreams instead), but if you’re already jonesing to see a show, or just need a brief distraction from the insanity of the world right now, thankfully there’s YouTube which has an amazing array of live footage from throughout the history of pop music, from clips from concert films, TV performances and other pro-shot footage, to tons of fan-shot video from shows. If you’re looking for a place to start, we’ve been picking some of our favorites. Here are five more:

Bikini Kill @ Yale’s Morse Dining Hall – 3/3/96

Bikini Kill are finally reunited and great as ever (but unfortunately also one of the many bands who had to postpone a tour), and as great as it is to see them play anywhere, watching them on a huge stage doesn’t have the same charm as the up-close-and-personal shows they did in the ’90s, like this one at Yale. It’s a grainy video shot in a modest, intimate environment (no real stage, no light show, probably no sound system worth bragging about), but it still comes across how much of a forceful, impassioned live band Bikini Kill were. This video also gets extra points for the very funny moment when Kathleen Hanna asks the person filming the show why they’re recording it. If only she knew how legendary this video would be one day. [Andrew Sacher]

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Sufjan Stevens @ Sasquatch, 8/6/2016

Sufjan Stevens toured Age of Adz in 2010 and 2011 with a series of vividly neon-hued, electro-frenzied, life-affirming shows. I couldn’t find any full sets from that era online, but happily Sufjan revisited that aesthetic for a run of 2016 festival dates after the release of Carrie & Lowell, including this Sasquatch set. Somehow he manages to incorporate Carrie & Lowell‘s melancholy material into the overall joyous set with ease, along with “dad jazz” keyboard shredding and an epic rendition of “Impossible Soul.” [Amanda Hatfield]

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The Soundtrack of Our Lives on Rockpalast, 2012

Sweden’s Soundtrack of Our Lives were master thieves, knicking the best bits of The Who, Rolling Stones, The Stooges, Love and anything else that fit into their psychedelic rock n’ roll worldview. That went for their live show, too, where they used every rock move trick in the book, and played every show like it was a massive festival. TSOOL used it all like they invented it, which made them such a consistently enjoyable group and an absolute powerhouse live band. They were the kind of group where you could just watch one member of the band for a whole show and never get bored. This show was taped for amazing, long-running German live music series Rockpalast in 2012 — they would call it quits a year later — and is packed with many of their best loved songs, including “Sister Surround,” “Mantra Slider,” “Firmament Vacation,” and “Bigtime.” [Bill Pearis]

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The Darkness @ London Astoria, November 2003

The Darkness’ debut album, Permission to Land, is a perfect record, every song is a hit, packed with RAWK riffs, super-melodic solos (most of which are announced), and no opportunity for a double entendre missed. The rest of their output has been hit or miss but in 2003 they could do no wrong, especially live where their stadium rock showmanship was equal parts tongue-in-cheek knowingness and genuine affection for all the posturing, catsuits and ridiculous rock moves. (Does frontman Justin Hawkins ride through the crowd on a roadie’s shoulders whilst soloing? You know it.) This show at the London Astoria in November of 2003 was filmed for British TV and the crowd clearly knows every word. [Bill Pearis]

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Nas @ The Fever – 1994

Veteran DJ Tony Touch was behind the boards when Nas came to Bronx club The Fever just as Illmatic came out, and Tony uploaded this vintage footage to his YouTube page a few years back. Illmatic is, of course, one of the greatest rap studio albums ever made, but live footage of Nas from this period remains as sought after as his album. Right off the bat, it was clear how good of a rapper Nas was, and that really comes across when he’s on stage getting a crowd going nuts off the strength of his bars alone. Also in this video: AZ comes out for his verse on “Life’s A Bitch.” [Andrew Sacher]

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